#ive felt like i havent posted much art which is the main reason i made an art only blog so i can actually see that ive posted quite a bit

[be-good-to-bugs]

hmm

[sekai-no-koi]

atla rambles from a newbie

i still havent read any atla fic yet. mostly cause i didn't feel like there was much that needed to be added and i dont really have anything i ship super hard?

i do come across nice posts every now and then. i especially love the art!! and ive seen some sweet ideas for when they're older but when i look at them in the show im like. katara? child. stop giving her so much responsibility she's a CHILD. what have you done with this child? look at her, she's got TRAUMA. aang? definitely child, stop giving HIM so much responsibility AND TRAUMA OH MY GOD WHY STOP HE'S JUST A BABY zuko? expresso depresso child who gives me vibes like that one girl in my biology class in high school also i love his multiple transformations and the fact that he has to like practice for social situations and has a hard time deciphering other people's intentions because it's just a huge fucking mood for me. toph? stronk childe. i'm pretty happy with what the show gave us for her like yup that sure is a stronk childe! suki? awesome!! reminds me of the artemis hunter ladies :) i wanna see more content of her and of the other girls who we?? barely see in the show??? i just think they're neat. sokka? trivago

but anyway for a good chunk of the story Katara acts 100% exactly like my younger sister did back when we fought horribly, all the time. so like im glad she's getting attention now she does deserve it, super cool and good character. and I don't like her, because she reminds me of my smart, strong, pretty sister. i think katara's a fucking awesome person. strong, loud, takes up space, allowed to be wrong sometimes. a great example for girls everywhere. her stubborn streak is one of her best traits, and also it is the main thing that reminds me of those fights. That's not me remembering trauma, it's not a big deal. i just dont like her. personally. which i'm allowed to do. I don't have to be morally opposed to a character to dislike them. ^_^

Going after what you want is good and healthy, though. you know, within reason. like if what you wanted was 'honor', and your name was zuko -

Sokka, on the other hand, felt like a fucking callout directed at me personally. Sokka came into my house, pulled the sheets off my mattress, threw them over my head, pissed in my sink and ate all my lucky charms. he made me remember how much shit i had to unlearn to become a decent fucking person and hit me in the insecurities where my sister is like objectively better than me

like sokka made me understand what fucking kinning is. where's MY cactus juice?!

[groundramon]

17, 30, 36!

17: Favorite singer?GHAHH I’m so bad at singers/bands, I basically only listen to the same thing for like a week straight and then never listen to it or the artist again BUT I have a very nostalgic connection to Sabrina Carpenter and her voice is nice so I guess her.  (I’m not mainstream trash but I’m lower than that, like I have no standards and whatever doesn’t hurt my ears is a-okay with me)

30: Meaning behind your urlTeam Capumon was actually an old story of mine!  Pokemon is such a big part of my life that it’s essentially a personality trait of mine at this point, but two subsets of Pokemon that I’ve always been huge into are PMD and the “beta” behind-the-scenes stuff.  Barring Porygon2 because I love Porygon2, Kurusu (the beta starter from the original demo of GS) is my favorite Pokemon and would easily beat out my current favorite first-stage starters and may even beat out my favorite starter line of all (Charmander’s) depending on its evolutions.  BUT Team Capumon went back further than that, to designs that were used before Pokemon was even known as “Pokemon” - back when it was called “Capsule Monsters”.  There’s more information on that here.  The characters were based on Original Nidorino (which fuck bulbapedia, he’s clearly a totodile line-inspiring design.  I refuse to believe that his color pallet isn’t blue with a yellow underside and red horns tbh) and Dragon4 from this bulbapedia page.  The characters were named Scales and Shard respectively.  I drew Scales a LOT as a kid, and my first drawing of him (or rather, what would become his character) was one of the first drawings I was truly proud of.  I could actually draw him pretty decently on a regular basis, although I unfortunately cant say that about him anymore xD I had a hard time drawing Shard though so I didnt draw him as often.  I actually have some art of Scales on my computer (no finished art of Shard though, unfortunately - or none that I can find anyways) so at the bottom of this post I’ll attach my most recently finished drawing of him!  It wont go under the answer for this question for some fuckin reason so I cant put it here :UBut anyways, Team Capumon was my main project back when I joined a site that was all too powerful in determining the direction of my life from that point on - Animal Jam.  I couldn’t think of a good username for my account, but then I thought of my story, and I used that name - because then I wouldn’t have to put a number after my user and SCREW NUMBERS (idk ive always had a weird thing about not using numbers in usernames unless its for a specific aesthetic).  Animal Jam launched my existence on the internet first onto Scratch and then onto DeviantArt (both caused by the same three people, who I’m still in contact with to this day!) so it just felt logical to use TeamCapumon for everything after Animal Jam, plus it had a nice ring to it that I really liked.  (Fun fact: those same three people who convinced me to get a Scratch and then dA are the same three people who gave me my nickname “Stormy”!) Another two fun facts about Scales in particular: 1. I have a plushie of him, made by myself!  Unfortunately it’s falling apart, but oh well xD I also made a plushie of Kurusu very recently (who, ironically enough, I’m planning to make into a PMD character from my CURRENT PMD project, a group on dA.  We allow [certain] beta Pokemon there because I’m biased.)  The Pioneers Guild in said PMD group is also founded by a Feraligator and a Charizard possibly named after and loosely based on Scales and Shard!  And 2. Speaking of characters based on Scales, Scales has a character/evolution line inspired by his design in Oneiromon!  Scalesdramon from Oneiromon, Mich’s adult form, is based on Scales.

36: Favorite food?OH FUCK THIS IS HARD vvvv man my dad’s french toast is the bomb, but I cant say french toast is one of my favorite foods or even very high up my list because most people would say my dad makes french toast wrong bUT ITS ALL OF YOU WHO MAKE IT WRONG.  THE WORLD IS WRONG AND MY FAMILY (except my mom bc she likes regular french toast better) IS RIGHT, SCREW YOU.  But basically to get an idea of what I mean, my dad’s french toast is less sweet with syrup on it.  You eat it plain, and putting syrup on it is a disgrace (//glares at my mom)But idk if thats ABSOLUTELY my favorite and my favorite probably just depends on the day.  Other things I really like include popcorn shrimp, blackberry frozen yogurt, pirate’s booty, and probably brown sugar cinnamon poptarts but i havent had those in years bc i ate them too much as a kid.  Like they became such a staple of my life that I cant call them my favorite anymore.  Also fruitloops are like the thing I eat literally every single day (unless we’re out or i randomly decide to eat lucky charms instead - heaven forbid the day we’re out of both bc ill just starve for breakfast i guess) but they’re far from my favorite.

Picture of Scales:

This picture is fairly recent btw, I was NOT drawing that well when I was 12 xD this drawing is from mid 2016, so I was 15 at the time.  Also this was traditionally drawn with pastels!  Idk where my pastels went but I really enjoyed pastels and how they made my art look, so I should go looking for them again…(then again lately my hands have been really dry and i can hardly sketch let alone use pastels bc sensory overload and I hate how paper feels against anything dry, OTL)

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gosh, thank you! that is so sweet??? I hope you (and any other of my followers who celebrate!) have/had a very happy Eid!💖 💕

on another note, I’ve finally gotten around to cleaning out my askbox! under the cut is almost every ask I’ve gotten that i haven’t answered in the past.... I’m not sure. it’s been a WHILE though.

as a warning, there’s all sorts of stuff, and it’s all untagged! also also, if you sent one of these asks and want me to remove it, just let me know!

yes!! @fuckaspunk IS super sweet and talented and i AM very lucky to have them! and I’ve heard from reliable sources that the feeling is mutual~~💕

i’m glad my comics make you feel less alone; that’s a rough situation you’re in. i really hope you find yourself in a better environment soon!

thank you!!!💕

thank you for understanding! and yes, aidan is a huge help to me??? even when they’re not answering asks, they’re always supporting me in some way, whether that’s making sure I’ve eaten enough, or talking me through my anxiety, or all the other ways they’re there for me every single day💕💕

ok, my tips are!!:

draw as much as possible! even if it’s just lines and shapes with no meaning, you’re still developing your hand/eye skills

BUT: dont draw if you’re not feeling it! if you’re feeling fried, it’s better to take a break. go on a walk to somewhere scenic, read your favorite book, listen to some new music, hang out with friends, or just take a nap! rest up and find some inspiration! you can come back to your sketchbook when you feel energized again

draw stuff that you like! you’ll improve way faster if you’re passionate about what you’re doing

look at art you like with a critical eye. try to examine the different components and figure out what you think works or doesn’t work. try incorporation those components into your own work

read a lot of tutorials and other resources, but take what they say with a grain of salt

ultimately, remember that the only real rule to drawing is that doing it should make you happy

good luck!! i do my best not to pick, but it’s a real struggle; i have lots of scars from it too. ;v; im cheering for you!!!

ALWAYS!!!! if you do, please show me!! my notifications get real busy, but anyone is welcome to IM me any time!

thank you! i actually get very worried about my style; i tend to admire artists with complex linework and delicate shading, so i often feel my style is far to simple! so thank you!!

that is really high praise????? gosh??!?!?!? best of luck with the next three years; i hope you grow to be someone you like even better than me!

thank you!!

peanut time is the best!! i haven’t gotten to do a proper one in a while though ;-; i’ve mostly been feeding the crows on my way back home from night shifts, when i give them the reject eggs from the continental breakfast.

wow, neat!! chickens are so wonderful; i cont wait until i can have some of my own :>

dont be nervous! i know i can be hard to get ahold of over the internet (bc i get overwhelmed easily) and hard to talk with irl (bc i get so nervous and interacting w ppl doesn’t come naturally to me AT ALL) but honestly i?? love making new friends??!

thank you!!? im thankful every day that someone as radient as aidan is in my life for the long haul

thank you!!!!!!!💕

i completely feel that? its ok to hit rough patches! just do your best!!

i dont remember what i felt bad about but THANK YOU💕💕

honestly its done me worlds of good to share my art?? hearing people talk about how they go through all the same shit i do makes me feel so much less alone, especially on the toughest days! so i guess thank you, and thank you?

youre welcome!!!! :>

huh!! i dont know much about shoegaze (other than thinking abt that post abt the guy who pronounced it like fugazi I THINK ABT THAT EVERY TIME) but thats real neat!! im glad youve found something that works for you!!

hey, neat middle name! and youre very welcome; i hope things have been looking up for you since you sent this?💕

i dont remember when this was from but im currently doing really well with my meds!! i switched to a combination of lexapro in the morning and benadryl in the evening, and its been working super well!✨

thank you??!! ;o; i would love to see all your favorite birds!!

hey, right back atcha!!!

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ty!!!

hey. thank YOU

you’re absolutely not bothering me! thank you so much!!

!!!!!!!!!!

hey, nice! im glad you like both me and my music!

gosh thanks?!?!

she is the most beautiful and handsome!!!!!!!!!!!! i love her! thank you from both of us!!!!

aw, gosh! im sure i like you too!!

this was from.... A WHILE AGO.... but youre welcome?? i just wish i could have done more

hey, thank you so much!!!!!

thank YOU and a very very belated merry christmas!!!

that does make sense!! reconciling friendships and crushes is tricky business. the best i can say to you is to be as honest and open with each other as you can

i dont personally get those, but ive heard of people experiencing them as a sideeffect when coming off or switching meds

i think these two are part of the same message? but oh man yeah that sucks when ppl are misgendering you AND hitting on you at the same time. on a different note, ive never heard of using a corset to stim before! neat!

i mean, 1. depression doesn’t care if you have a “””good””” reason and 2. ive literally never met anyone w depression (including myself) who thinks that they do have a “””good””” reason for having it. thats the insidious part of depression, is that it makes you think that theres nothing wrong and that its all just you not measuring up in some way

so i guess that would make you.... someone with depression?

real BAD

💕 💖 💞  💓  💗

not yet haha THANK YOU

hey, im glad you like it!! since this blog has gotten so big, its kinda my happy place to be? (for anyone wondering, my reblog blog/personal is @spinels!

that IS a fun fact!! thank you!

it’s absolutely ok! i get a little bitter when people take my work WAY out of context (for example, straight people removing the caption that says “im just really gay” before tagging their bf/gf) but i am 100% ok and happy with people relating to my work in a different way than i intended (ex: a comic i made about being ashamed of my derma getting reblogged by someone struggling to be ok w their visible burn scars)

hoo gosh, thank you!!

glad to have you here!! im glad people can relate to some of the weirdly specific shit i write about tbh???

i’m sorry its taken so long for me to get back to you; that a terrible situation

if you have a teacher you trust, i would absolutely bring it up to them. that is 100% not an ok thing for those kids to be doing. at all.

im glad you at least have your friends that support you! 

:0 WAIT is this someone i know through ucsc?? :0 :0 :0

HA 

aaaa thank you! that is high praise ;v;

i have no words; this is such a touching message. thank you so much ;v;

this is belated but!! the main creative community i can recommend is kzsc, the radio station! i had a real cool time there, and its a great way to make friends and connect with ppl of all sorts! :0

yeah, its totally normal! ive had roommates ive been super tight with, and roommates who i barely ever hung around with. its natural! i doubt you’ll finish college w/o finding a roomie that you get ~The Roomie Experience~ with though, even if its like a housemate or s/t!! ;0

i’ve never been told that, actually! neat!! (and wow?? i cant believe i inspire ppl.... wow......... what a concept tbh??)

oh yikes... i do hope youre feeling better :( im glad my comics can help a little bit at least!

💕 💖 💞  💓  💗!!!

HUGS

i dont remember what this was in reference to, but good to know?

also good to know!?

i think the crows and jays do! i dunno about the squirrels and other birds. and thank you!!

the youth gang..... i love it..... how good???!

i wrote about getting yuri right here! he’s a southern alligator lizard and i love him to bits. 

heres a pic of the Long Boy doin his thing:

hey neat! i’m glad youve chosen a lame you can be proud of!!💖

ive never heard of that!! wow

what play is this?? :0 :0 :0 im so curious now!!

oh SHUCKS...,,,,,,,,,, ;v;

hahahaha omg thank u

i dont actually have any more of them interacting, unfortunately! the owl isnt one specific person, like a lot of my characters are meant to represent. the owl more represents as a whole all the people i run into in my life that i am very very gay for.

thank you!!!

youre very welcome! im glad you feel better!!!!

aaa gosh thank you!!!

hhhhfgh ive gotten less of it recently BUT YEAH that was bad times™️ 

thanks for the info!!! :0

no problem! a lot of the credit honestly goes to @fuckaspunk, who is always keeping me updated on that sort of stuff.

i didn’t know that! a lot of the symbolism seems to come from multiple sources sometimes, from what ive seen?

aaaa gosh omg thank you ;v;

aw thank you???!!

nice!!! oct 24 bdays go!!!

thank you!! it really does mean a lot actually!!!!!!!

of course?? antisemitism cant be ignored in this fight

aw, thats so cute! id love to hear what headcanons you have tbh???

hey thanks?! this is really cool to hear, tbh. i try to be positive most of the time, but im not going to like,,, kid myself when im not feeling it and im glad that other people can appreciate that too, ya know?

wow!!

(this one!) thank you i love that one too???!

hey, im glad you found your way here!! thank you so much!!!

aaaa ty! 

hmmm i have two leopard geckos, and they made very good beginning lizards for me and aidan! but i would maybe ask someone a bit more experienced than me, like @kaijutegu​ or @wheremyscalesslither​!!

thank you!!

one day at a time! (but seriously, thank you!!)

yummy yummy sauce...... ty!!!

awww, gosh! thank you!?

AAAA TY BOTH I GET SO SELF-CONSCIOUS ABT MY VOICE,,,,, ;o;

:0 i havent watched that, but it sounds rly cool!!

i like that fun fact a lot! ty!!

pae stands for paerlin, which is what @fuckaspunk​‘s internet handle used to be! i used it to refer to them on my blog in secret back when they still didnt know i had a crush on them.... ;//v//;

aaaaa thank you!!!  ;o;

nice nice nice ty!!

>:0 get back down here!! (jk that’s rly neat! highfive!!) 

those are all good words that i like!! thank you!!!!

i dont know anything about him, but i looked him up and i guess i can see it?!

@fishcrow is really cool! ive never really interacted with them, but im p sure were mutuals...? anyway yeah their comics are rly cute and cool!

that is me! thank you; i hope things go well for you as well!

hello to you too!

aaaa ty!!! tbh the number of nice anons i get way way way outnumbers the mean ones <3

thank you! thank YOU for existing!

:0 chocolate croissant, here i come!!!

thank you!!!!!!💕

its literally my pleasure!!!

aaa ty!!! 💕💕

hehe im glad! 

sldf;j;sfjdklfdslfjs thank you so much?????? what a compliment omg gosh

yeah!! i have a hard time on settling what class id be, but i feel like id be a heart player! 

ohh um! im not sure which pens youre referring to, but if you mean the ones I use for my comics, i color them with Winsor & Newton ProMarkers, and I do the lines with a purple fine-point Sakura Gelly Roll Classic pen! i also use micron pens of all different sizes and colors in some of my non-diary comic art!

aww thank you so much!!

:0 :) :0 !!!!!!

ty!!! ive grown to love him very much as well!!

thank you! i hope you are doing well also!!

i love them very much?!! id put a picture but i dont have one with all four of them so instead imagine me lying on the floor crying abt how much i love them bc thats me basically every day

you dont mean......

?!?!?!?!?!?!

awwww ty!!!

HEY WOW

aaa gosh thank you!💕

DOUBLE FOLLOW

gay dragons combine the best of both very good things: gay and dragons. im glad you appreciate them w me tysm ;v;

aaa what a lovely message! ty💕

3rd-shift-working, depression-having, corvid-loving solidarity fistbumnp!!!!

huh! ive never heard of that; ill check it out maybe!!

ah im really glad? tysm!!💕

my understanding is that it helps people who have text-to-speech readers? but im honestly not as well informed on that as i should be! 

hell yeah!!!! 

gosh!!!!!

hnmngnhng youve probably already made a decision but i just gotta say.........shadow rulez

delicious!!

i havent!! i really want to though!

oh man ALL THE TIME. i usually try to either reality check with someone i trust, or to do an activity thats easy and i know i can do, or both!

i love andre and karl!!! its actually a huge influence on me and my art tbh??? 

i had a good (and safe) trip! ty!!!

hey, thank you!!!

oh jeez thats bad :( i think this was in response to when i needed to wait between med refills?

i cant give a precise reason, tbh! when it comes to whats lucky, i just sort of.... go with my gut, ya know?

thank you!! 👍

that sure sounds like insomnia! its almost hard for me to say tbh, bc ive had trouble sleeping for as long as i can remember, so NOT having trouble sleeping is bizarre and unrealistic to me haha... but i think the bottom line is, if its interrupting your daily routine and making it hard for you to have enough energy, then its something you should look into remedies for!

:0 :0 :0

ohhh how nice! ill give it a try! :>

omg,,,, nope, just me!

thank you!!!!!!

honestly? thats such a good way to look at it i love the idea of my blog as a big zine

always!!!!! go for it!!!

hey, thank you so much!!!!!

omg, thats so great! thank you!

im so glad; thank you!!!

thank you so much!💖 (and mexico, neat! i love hearing where people are following from??)

aaaaaaaaaaaa ;//v//; thank you??? i get so happy whenever ppl tell me they like my singing aaaaaaa

aw, hey, no worries! money is all well and good, but in some ways, messages like this mean just as much!

its cool that comic gave you plural feels! im def not a system though :> 

its tricky, isnt it? i still feel like im no good at it lmao

LISTEN,,, there is a 99.9999% chance i wont notice, and a 100% chance i wont judge. reblog away! 

THANK YOU ARENT THEY THE BEST I LOVE THEM SO MUCH

thank you!! i hope you have a good day as well!

aaa ty!!💖

aa ty! (what a cool name!!! im kind jealous ngl!)

awww thank you💖

i do my best! i just worry when im not active, bc i tend to connect my self-worth to my output (;^; )

aaaaa ty!! 💖

!!!!!!!!!!!! omg wow i love being called a pretty boy???? ty???????

hey, neat! crow high-five!

aw, thank you!!! 💖

im doing my best! thank you so much, messages like this really help when im in a place like that tbh ;v;

gosh this is so sweet? thank you so muhc !!?

thank you all!! im sorry that saying thank you over and over sounds so repetitive, but i truely do mean it for every one of you!!!

i am..... one of those things!

well thank you!!

ohoho~✨

thank you! and honestly im sure it does??

hey, cool! good for you!!!!!!! and ty!!

aw gosh thank you!💖

hey, wow! thats super cool; thank you so much!

(i dont follow the first person i followed on tumblr anymore.... they became a hockey blog rip haha)

aaaah, thank you so much!!

almost???

i do!! drunken lullabies is an absolute banger!!!!!!!!!!

i am!!!! thank you!!

aw, ty!!! 💖

hee hee, thank you! 

my biggest tip honestly?? have someone who can be by your side to help you with... basically everything... during your recovery. bc trust me, i was n o t  a v a i l a b l e. i spent a lot of my recovery playing 2048 at the same time as watching tv, bc doing both at once distracted me from how much the bandages itched.

thank you!! (i think this was in reference to getting top surgery!)

how shitty??????? yikes. i hope your supervisor has your back??? bc wow????

hey!!! thank you!!! i draw all my comics traditionally on paper! im not sure what you mean by the writing though? if you mean the word bubbles, i do those by hand on paper too!

I COMPLETELY UNDERSTAND THAT FEELING,,,, im so happy ppl talk to me, but i get really nervous about saying the wrong thing. 

when i’m down, i usually crave validation. i like being reminded about things ive done right! i also like gentle reality checks, like, ‘hey: this is the situation, this is what we can do about it. ok? ok’

i unfortunately dont have any!! i had a couple at one point, but they’ve since been lost to the depths of my old laptop. and hey, thank you so much!!

now thats a nifty trick!! im terrible at telling all my white tablets from each other lmao

!!!!!!! ITS ME!!!!!!!!

maybe you just need some space? i know i sometimes temporarily block people i know, if i need some private space or if i dont trust myself to keep cool and solve problems constructively. do what you need to do to feel at ease, and go from there, ya know?

thank you!!!

its,,,, up somewhere above in this monster post lmao i,m so sorry,,,,

thank you so much!!!

WOW NO WORRIES??,,,,,,,,, INCREDIBLE 10/10???????

all four of these came right after i gave myself a hair cut and THANK YOU SO MUCH??? i live for validation and it feels so good to have my actions affirmed ;o;