#ive been improving and this is proof

[puzzle-paradigm]

The Man

[b4kuch1n]

hi it's me. bulletpoints

job has concluded! barring sudden expansion on the project I think that's gonna be it for my work here. six character cards in total! this leads to

wrists are bit fucked. I'll be putting that thang (creen tablet) in da closet again for at least a month while trying to hold as few heavy objects as possible for the time being

why one month deadline? well it's bc I made an artfight account. I'm fucking doing it this year on god I'll kick anyone's ass I'll kick my own ass. I'll post a link to my acc a week or so before the event starts, meanwhile I'll keep updating my roster and cleaning up this cardboard box I arrived at their door in. do u guys have a spare pair of suspenders I have a really funny joke to make

will be doing it on the creen tablet, unless I make enough to get a new graphic tablet that works with SAI2 inbetween. on that note

ink comms should come back sometimes next week babeyy I need to get back into da groove! miss my G pen it feels like I was close to something last time. I wanna get back to it. but also

I'm writing a fic now. tis the season it seems this happened last year too. but I'll try my best to not disappear off the face of the earth for 3 months running again lol I'll do my best to pace myself, since this is gonna be one of the heftier writing things.

sk8 people and another very specific subset of people will be pleased to know it's a sk8 Real Steel AU. if this means nothing to u carry on. have a good day. to the five people still here I'll probably be brainposting abt writing this so don't be surprised if that comes up here and there

circling back a bit I'm currently 120 USD away from the graphic tablet I wanna get, so that'll be what the ink comms are going toward. otherwise if u enjoy my art and have a spare doller to buy the baku a coffee I'd absolutely appreciate ur support! not mandatory but I'll definitely be very thankful! especially bc

I'll probably phase out the redbubble store some time in the future. at the very least I'll probably stop uploading new things on there while looking for alternative. ohh baby they are doing some wild shit and I want off the ride please. please

but yeah. that's the current plan for things. I've accepted that comics happen when they want to, and I have faith they still want to see the sunlight some time this year. meanwhile we keep busy keep training keep recovering! thank u for ur patience. have a good night take this sharp object

[niveunwhite]

i sang a duet on stage with Colin Mochrie tonight

to a woman in the audience named Laurie, regarding our tempestuous relationship at the licensing office and in the bedroom 👀👀

but since the show strictly forbade any recording or photography, I'll never get to see it (´°̥̥̥ω°̥̥̥｀) or the rest of the show since I spent most of it in hypnotic sleep with my head down

[daily-ii-bugs]

hello. daily inanimate insanity bugs mod here!

so, ive been hearing some rumors around surrounding justin (if you don’t know who they are, they are one of inanimate insanity’s creators) and hiraeth (member of inanimate insanity improv) but this is not my place to say anything further as there needs to be more proof about the situation and plus, this is just some silly bug posting place.

daily ii bugs will go on hiatus until the situation is resolved and things calm down. sorry to the people who requested some bugs! :(

as an apology, heres a silly case the i drew.

also, thanks a lot for 300+ bugs. its honestly insane how fast the popularity of the blog grew and im so thankful for all of the support given. — dracoogone

[miifu666]

What is Lmk!Suklha's relationship/view of Lmk Wukong?

Hellooo!!!!

Smjsksj ive made a couple of post about this but to put it as a whole. Making it a lil vague since i kind of dropped the series 😭 also uhh its kind of long + im adding Wukong's pov🥲

.𖥔 ݁ ˖๋ ࣭ ⭑Their Relationship History

Suklha has always been with Wukong and Macaque for the Longest time, actually met Macaque first before she got introduced to Wukong.

Very Wary of Wukong "Selfish" attitude. But somehow bears with it, has a couple of fights with him challenging one another, known eachother better and within a blink of an eye. They're suddenly closer with eachother than Macaque is

Spent time eachother when things get overwhelming, its all very soft and too good to be true.

It wasn't long before they decided to get "Married" in their own terms. Wukong even announce it towards the heavem for no reason than to gloat.

Wukong tried to hide the brotherhood plans from Suklha, knowing how she'll react and a sense of protectiveness. Despite Macaque insistence on telling her, Wukong wouldn't dare

Azure was the one who asked to Recruit her, only to be berated and called an imbecile. Wukong got an earful too, for even trying to overthrow a ruler of heaven. Theres proof of other cultures doing the same and ended horribly, Suklha pointed out. But he insisted, his people pleasing attitude won.

She tried talking to Wukong after this, but he seemed to run away from her. Macaque was their messenger. Telling the other how the other feels and such, its something that Macaque and Suklha is sick of.

Visited Wukong once or twice after his punishment, she knows he's not feeling too well mentally and decided to keep visiting despite his mood swings.

After this, they kept in contact but with short conversations. Like strangers connecting with eachother again. Theres barely any familiarity between them.

A couple of time, Wukong tried to reignite the flame by taking them out on a date during his pilgrimage. It works until they lose contact again, and Wukong focused on his journey

Things got worse when Suklha suggested killing Redson is the only way to stop the Samadhi fire, then contain it in her/Chang'e arsenal. Wukong was disappointed in her, he hasnt talked with her properly since he got trapped in the mountains, and deciding to antagonize her at this point was more hurtful to Suklha.

As time went on, his Journey to the West got popular. Suklha decided to initiate a connection this time, asking if he needed any management on his uprising popularity. Wukong agreed, they've been together ever since!

Seeing how Suklha's plan hasn't been improving their relationship, she decided maybe fate was telling her that theyre not meant to be. Hence chasing after him for a Divorce, to end it officially.

.𖥔 ݁ ˖๋ ࣭ ⭑Suklha's POV

In the past

She always held a soft spot for Wukong, he was a breath of fresh air who agreed to her whimsical and crazy ideas in the sea of people trying to hold her back.

Theres a deep seated anger that Wukong sees her as a feeble lover and tried to hide his plan to overthrow the jade emperor. She misunderstood Wukong's intention to protect her from his actions/punishment, into "you're a lady, you shouldn't know this. Just be oblivious" and its all from Wukong's way of explaining to her.

She thinks he's trying to cast her aside from his life.

After he got imprisoned within the mountains, she understood how Wukong isnt mentally well. He has moodswings each time he sees her or Macaque. He managed to push away Macaque, he spat some harsh words towards Suklha before changing into a crying session, talking how pitiful he is, his low esteem is showing through.

It hurts her, but she kept taking care of him nonetheless. Until he said some things that gnawed deep in her mind and heart. She hasn't visited him since.

She spent the better of her grief by Tricking dragons, demons alike. Focusing more on spreading madness to ignore how she feels. Practically prioritizing her mind than what her heart needs. This include, how she made a decision to tell Bull king to kill Redson.

Her heart showed a little when Wukong tried to reignite the flame. Yet she still kept her mind in lead for her actions.

Present time

shes chasing after Wukong with a divorce paper. She still loves him. Dearly so. But she cant handle the way he neglects her yet suddenly have a student he taught? She felt like a second choice.

She tried everything, even if it hurt her and his reputation. She wanted closure. If the universe is giving her signs to end their relationship, why should she ignore it?

Because she prioritized her logical mind more throughout the years, she became more manipulative, charismatic, and a bit apathetic towards Wukong. She still loves him, butt there's a rough affection she gives out.

MK, being a supporting bandaid and makeshift therapist role to fix their broken bond actually succeeded. It took a long time. He was pretty burnt out after trying, lmao. But he managed.

Theres one thing that MK succeeded, that Macaque didn't. He was bold enough to tell them face to face what they needed to do and what they're doing wrong. Instead of leaning on one side, he was neutral and blamed both of them.

.𖥔 ݁ ˖๋ ࣭ ⭑Wukong's POV

In the past

He was... not a good monkey, to say the least. He was egotistical and prideful. Forgetting that those around him only wanted the best for him. He chose to ignore their warnings rather than listen to it.

When Wukong joined the brotherhood, he didn't expect Azure to point him as the new jade emperor. He was prideful at first, then realized maybe the dream was a little too high to achieve. It was the first few moments where he was doubting himself.

That insecurity turned into him hiding the plans from Suklha. He was afraid. In case he loses, Suklha would also bite the bitter end of his punishment. So he decided to keep her oblivious, knowing the Jade emperor had already disliked her. He wont fuel the fire.

Macaque disagreed with his idea, claiming it was a bad move. But Wukong, and his stubbornness. Dismissed his brother's protest, claiming its for the good.

When the time came, for him to explain to Suklha. He was speechless, his stubborness and pride got the best of him. He spouted some words that he didn't mean. Some which he doesnt even know the meaning of, he just heard Macaque call him it and decided to use it to Suklha.

When he got imprisoned. There was only shame, insecurity, and paranoia filled his mind. He put everyone in danger, he cant imagine how Macaque probably feels, or even Suklha. The two who always protest things that would be bad for him. Instead of focusing on fixing their relationship, Wukong choose to fuel his insecurity.

He pushed away Macaque, blaming him for everything. He tried to push away Suklha too. He couldn't. Not for a few tries. Have you tried cursing someone who actively feeds you and grooms your dirty fur? Its hard. He cried multiple times after shouting nonsense at her.

After that, he tried to keep in contact with Suklha a few times. But also keep a certain distance. He felt guilty, he doesn't want to hurt her anymore. The tight ring on his finger is suffocating. He doesn't even have the guts to throw it, let alone look at it.

During his pilgrimage, Bajie and Sha Wujie beat some sense into him. Encouraging the monkey to reignite the flame, he was happy, a bit too excited, and aloof, but he felt content for once in his life.

Situations happened, and he decided to focus more on his pilgrimage. Leaving Suklha alone again.

He met Suklha again when DBK asked him to consider contacting her for information regarding the samadhi fire deep within Redson. He was hesitant at first, but did it nonetheless.

She was different this time, there was an air of madness to her. Apathetic and manipulation was the sense that Wukong felt when he heard her talk. He felt like she was lead astray by something. The Monkey didn't understand she was grieving in a way.

So when he heard her apathetically considers Killing Redson without any remorse. He snapped. She wasn't being logical, how could she end a life so soon? Especially since DBK asked for her help, not for an execution. He still remembers the face that Suklha had when he yelled at her infront of his brothers. He won't ever forget that.

Present time

He's secretly guilty, ashamed, embarrassed even. For all of his childish acts of neglect toward her. Every time the topic of her is brought up, he purposely avoids it like a plague. He learned his wrongs and somehow prefers to bury himself deeper to it than trying to fix what's left

When he saw how Famous Suklha is, he wanted to be happy. It was as if his stubborness was in the way again, he got angry and choose to spout how much of a devil she is. Its not what he thought. He got embarrassed every time he talks about her.

Its only when he confided in MK, how much he missed her, how its hard to find words and connect with the one person you love, its a mystery how Suklha is still putting up to him.

after much talking with MK and a lil bit of love advice from Mei. He decided to write letters upon letters of how he felt. No filter obsolutely not. He had to hide a good portion of the letters from MK lmao. He bought bouquets, letting MK be the delivery boy. (Suklha has a soft spot for him) and basically did everything.

Sometimes when he couldn't spew out some words. He let MK take over lmao. Usually, his letters arrived faster than Wukong, which gave the impression everything was made by MK 😭

In interviews, he makes sure EVERYONE knows he's married. It was a shock to say the least.

After countless chasing, Suklha relented. He hasn't been that relieved since... their last date. It was 300 years ago.

But, forgiving isnt easy. Suklha gave Wukong a final choice to talk to Macaque if she wants her forgiveness.

[theconstitutionisgayculture]

The main takeaway here is that DEI has been proven to be unscientific nonsense.

And the unconscious bias training that was supposed to produce antiracist allies? Turns out people hate being told they have hidden prejudices.

...two-thirds of human resources specialists report that diversity training does not have positive effects, and several field studies have found no effect of diversity training on women’s or minorities’ careers or on managerial diversity. These findings are not surprising. There is ample evidence that training alone does not change attitudes or behavior, or not by much and not for long. In their review of 985 studies of antibias interventions, Paluck and Green found little evidence that training reduces bias. In their review of 31 organizational studies using pretest/posttest assessments or a control group, Kulik and Roberson identified 27 that documented improved knowledge of, or attitudes toward, diversity, but most found small, short-term improvements on one or two of the items measured. In their review of 39 similar studies, Bezrukova, Joshi and Jehn identified only f ive that examined long-term effects on bias, two showing positive effects, two negative, and one no effect.

...

The problems with DEI trainings are not in their tone, however, but in their substance. The implicit-bias theory (also called unconscious-bias theory) on which these trainings are based has no scientific basis, as years of examinations have consistently demonstrated. Lee Jussim puts it politely in his “12 Reasons to Be Skeptical of Common Claims About Implicit Bias,” but the Open Science Foundation’s archive of Articles Critical of the IAT and Implicit Bias renders a harsher verdict. In 2011, Etienne LeBel and Sampo Paunonen reviewed evidence that measures of implicit bias possess low reliability. In other words, when you test for implicit bias multiple times, you rarely get the same result. Their conclusion was that some part of “implicit bias” is really “random measurement error.” In 2017, Heather Mac Donald’s intensive examination of the theory and its empirical basis (or lack thereof) concluded that the “implicit-bias crusade is agenda-driven social science.” And Bertram Gawronski’s 2019 review of the scholarly literature on implicit-bias research also concludes that there’s no proof that people aren’t self-aware enough to know what’s causing their supposedly “implicit” or “unconscious” biases; and that you can’t prove that there’s any relationship between how people do on the test and how they behave in the real world... Professional critiques of implicit bias have shown, politely but repeatedly, that there is nothing there. Activists and scientists who think that science should serve political objectives want to believe in the existence of massive systemic bias to justify their goals of imposing “equity” by law and by litigation. Implicit bias is a pseudoscientific theory made to order for this purpose. It’s a house of cards, and governments and the private sector should terminate every program based on it.

[killjo-q]

life update ig?

internet and doc says id feel better after around 8 weeks , it has been 3 (going 4 i guess) months and i still feel horrible…. There are times where its more manageable but most of the time its like theres a heavy fog in my mind that i cannot shake no matter what i do. i see old classmates and friends living their best lives rn and lots of them seem so happy, chill and put together and I wonder what im missing?? (is it running??? all of them seem to be runners lol). I remember back in internship days and me and friend would always casually say depressing things because it was the usual for us and other co-interns were like “??? omg are u ok dont say stuff like that” and thats when I realized rly that woah not all college students r burntout and fighting depression djdhh

The feeling has never left me since then though, maybe its all the stress from being forced to do well in a path I never rly liked and the lack of proper sleep that had accumulated and im still feeling it to this day? but damn its been 4 years since then

anyway, today has been worse than usual and i did not know what to do with the thoughts tonight so am writing them down as proof of life since I havent rly been active lately. Im still trying to finish everything I have to draw though, cuz my mind wont let me have a moments peace. I cannot rly enjoy hobbies (i thought it would help) or anything either cuz all of them are tainted by …thoughts.

Will definitely take a LONG break after all this (fr this time) because I can’t find joy in art anymore. Its more of a stressor now than a passion and ive lost that urge to learn and improve. I dont even have the energy to open social media that often anymore

[bunjywunjy]

hey bunjy. i have a question. i have an old cat whose incontinent and recently weve had to resort to putting her in our outdoor pool cage (closed off. she cant go wandering out into roads without someone opening a door for her) becauses shes become incontinent and our house reeks of cat piss. i feel bad for her and want her to be happy out there so i was thinking of getting some furniture. we live in florida and shes a fluffy black cat and i dont want her to get overheated or deal with the heat. ive been looking for shaded furniture for her but all the outdoor, weather-proof furniture ive found is too high up for her as she has arthritis and wont climb any step unless she has to. do you know of any weather-proof, low-lying cat furniture that gives cats a a shaded respite from the sun?

uh. I'm not really pet care adjacent, but it sounds like you have more problems than just furniture. does anyone have (constructive) suggestions for improvements?

[buggerzz]

Was thinking about @shapeshiftersinc 's binders and wanted to review them on here :D

Im gonna be fully honest because. Why the hell would i lie???

Overview-

They are a great binder company. I fully reccomend buying from them- they have the best chest binders ive been able to find and are extremely inclusive and helpful. If you have the money to get one and are worrying it wont be worth it. Trust me. It is.

Pros-

Extremely comfortable.

I mean it. I have sensory issues- other binders ive had have been way too itchy and uncomfortable for me to wear regularly. Id always have issues with the tags- even after i cut them out, it always bothers me.

Shapeshifters have been WAY better. I dont know if it's the materials, the construction, or what but they are wonderful to wear. Ive had the occasional issue with the tag, but its small and pretty ignorable. Plus, I'm about 90% sure you could ask them to just not add it to avoid it entirely. Ive had no issues with scratchiness. Their mesh is breathable, not itchy, and stretchy :D half the time i can completely forget that im even wearing a binder, which says a LOT.

Fit & Bind-

Shapeshifters. Amazing once again. Theyre custom sized to your measurements, which avoids unnecessary tightness in the ribs, gaping at the top, or inconsistent/nonexistent binding. Im a 38DD-40DDD depending on brand, and literally no other binders have had anywhere near this level of bind. Obviously it doesnt get completely flat- but it gets as close as possible. Id say its about the same prominence as laying on your back with no bra- maybe a bit bigger. That being said, thats a HUGE improvement from every other brand ive tried.

Plus, if you have issues with things digging in anywhere or not fitting how you want, they do free alterations. WHICH IS INSANELY HELPFUL BY THE WAY.

Variety-

They have many different patterns and styles and types of binders. It's a lot of different options- undergarments to normal tops, gothic to pastel to flat colors. If youre somewhere hot they have purely mesh binders for extra ventilation, etc.

Plus, if you want a specific pattern you can custom order your own fabric design! Im doing this for my new one and am very excited. (Its the same pattern i have as my banner :>

Customer Service-

Actually wonderful. Eli has been the one talking with me on both of my binders, so i think theyre the main (English) customer service worker! Theyre wonderful and very helpful- straight to the point, speedy, and patient.

I had no clue I needed to upload my pattern to spoonflower and proof it, and they helped me with that even though I could've just. Read the product description 😭

Lots of love to Eli. Also Im so sorry im stupid???? Youre wonderful.

Ease of use-

Im disabled- big shoulder issues. If i angle it the wrong way it dislocates. Bit uncomfy. That being said, most binders are literally painful for me to put on. Especially to take off. It hurts and is a whole mess. However. Shapeshifter's stretchier fabrics make it easier to take on and off. Putting it on is usually completely fine. Taking it off can be an issue. But its way easier than other brands thankfully.

HOWEVER. shapeshifters offers zippers to be built in. Which seems bad because of uneven pressure, but they have stiff inserts in all zipper binders to evenly distribute the bind. When I ordered my 1st binder, i for some reason got the zipper on the side of my bad shoulder?? I usually only use the zipper to take it off, so its fine, but zipping it on is a nightmare. But thats on me because i ordered it stupidly. That being said, zipping it off is actually amazing. If theres any discomfort from the binder, I can just zip it down for a bit. Or i can fully take it off so much easier. 2nd binder from them, i havent ordered the zipper because its not that difficult for me personally to take it off without, but i would recommend it if you need that extra ease!

Durability-

An old binder had tearing stitching after 2 months of semi-regular wear. Bad. My shapeshifter binder ive been wearing up to 5 days a week for up to 8 hours a day. The only signs of wear it has is some deodorant stains. Need I say more. It also hasnt stretched at all- it has the same bind and comfort and fit as it did the day I got it.

CAN YOU SEE WHY I LOVE THESE.

CONS NOW!!

Time

They do take a while to be made and arrive. Because theyre custom made by a small team, it takes a couple months to get one. I ordered one in July and got it in August, for example. I personally do not care about this one because it is such a high quality binder.

Price

Once again, small team making high quality custom products. It gets pricey. My first one was $116 including shipping, taxes, etc. Its important to note that i got a zipper (+$20) and a lot of customization options not everyone will need or want! Once again, i think its worth it as it will probably last me a WHILE. Also they gotta pay their team fairly. WE LOVE PAYING PEOPLE LIVABLE WAGES!

Overall, I do reccomend. In fact I've gotten a friend to get themselves one aswell lmao

Theyre actually an amazing team and i wish them lots of love, appreciation, and success!! Cant wait to get my new binder >:D

[youremyheaven]

this is gunna sound so weird... men make my skin crawl. Like im attracted to men but everytime i see a man, my rbf awakens and i become hyper aware of my surroundings 😭

it doesn't help that im attending an all girls college now... any advice on how to ease up pls around them? I find it hard to even want to talk to them 😭 ik all men aren't bad and i may always not be in danger (imagine that in all caps and red) but i just wanna be able behave and think like a normal person around them ( this is so much that i even can't stand strangers)

Loads of luv to you ❤

honestly i hope u meet better men!!! there are some disgusting nasty perverted pieces of shit out there who dont deserve to be around women and i completely get why u would feel repulsed by them.

i wonder if u have malefic influence, they usually struggle the most with the opposite gender

tips on how to ease up around men:

think in terms of energy. dont project anger or hatred because thats what you will see in return. i know this is very triggering and difficult for many people but you HAVE to believe in good to SEE good. despite absolutely everything that ive gone thru, i still believe that people are inherently good, kind and helpful and i see proof of it everyday.

ive had men treat me with dignity, respect and kindness in the shadiest of circumstances and ive had men be nasty to me out in the open, so it just comes down to character. just think of men as people honestly and not as hound dogs about to attack u.

2. imagine them as little boys

sometimes when men are soft or boyish with me, it reminds me of how they mustve been as kids and it warms me. i have two little boy cousins who are 12 and 6 respectively and they both adooooreeee me and want to marry me when they grow up🥺🥺🥺theyre the sweetest kids on the planet and i could never ever feel otherwise, theyre my babies. idk if this is something u can relate to but think of a little boy you're close to, how innocent and silly he is and how you could never see him as a threat or hate him and understand that grown men can be like that too.

3. how we treat people has a lot to do with how people treat us

if you have a rbf and generally act standoffish and cold/distant, then you're probably perceived as being bitchy 😬😬and nevermind men, even women probably find u intimidating or hard to approach. im only saying this because learning how to navigate social situations is 90% of adulthood and the key to personal and professional success.

learn to smile more. i know women hate being told to smile but honestly we should alllll smile more. force yourself to do it until it becomes a habit. be that person who smiles at strangers. dont u feel happy when someone smiles at you??? so in turn, be that person to others!!! <33

learn to get out of your head. most people think too much. i hate spending time with people who talk about everything from a victim pov. like yes sure u/we women, are in a position of disadvantage in many ways, historically speaking but ???? this attitude?? wont get u anywhere. (I'm speaking generally and not about you particularly)

i would say the key is to turn inward and work on yourself. read all those cliche self help books about "how to influence people" yada yada,, learn social etiquette and watch all those youtube gurus who teach soft skills. forget about men and hating them for a second and just focus on self improvement. as you change, youll see the world change with u.

just think of men as people basically. also idk if youre familiar with carl jung but i feel like you have a wounded animus. many women who grew up with an absent (emotionally or otherwise) father grow up to project all that onto men. and in turn have damaging relationships with men!!

im not a man defender and im in no way saying all men are good but i genuinely dont think its healthy to hate, thats all!!

idk if any of this is helpful sikeee but lmk if u have any updates

also lots of love to u too angel!!<3

[lacyberpatate]

Hiii :D For the Fanfic Writer Emoji Ask I have multiple questions, is that okay? *asks them anyway* 🌞 Do you have a preferred time of day to write? 💖 What made you start writing? 👀 Tell me about an up and coming wip please!

Hi Flower ❁ Thank you for asking not one but THREE questions?! :D

🌞 Do you have a preferred time of day to write?

By instinct I would have said during the day but that's because I differentiate writing the rough draft and then really writing it.

The rough draft tend to be on the evening and it's almost theatre in the way it's written. It's mainly dialogues or actions done by the characters, there's plot hole, sometime it's just an idea I thought of. I'll spent majority of the time just listening to music (predictable I know...ahah) and letting my mind drift to whatever comes to my mind.

Then I have the real writing. This one I prefer to do during the day, where I'm awake and full of energy. I'll go over what I drafted and add the substance to it. It's usually where the thing just explodes in terms of word count... I can easily triple or quadruple the size of a draft in the writing time... x)

My phone says that I'm on my note app on average 2h per day, all throughout the day. I try my best to always proof-read, organise, slightly improve what my WIPs when I have empty time (bus ride, waiting for someone, etc...). It's not necessarily an activity worked on WIP, just any random one I'm inspired by at the moment.

💖 What made you start writing?

I always loved creative writing in school, even if the teachers were always confused by the stuff I was writing x) The year we studied Fantastic Literature was my year :D My writing got quite dark at one point during my teenage year and I had to completely stop for personal reasons.

I started again in 2024 randomly after talking to some people about HP and how the plot is objectively rubbish. I wrote a whole AU fic on Severus and what he does during his summer holidays, exploring the magic behind unbreakable vows, how he got groomed at 17 and giving him a mysterious muggle boyfriend :') (the thing is very self indulgent and will most probably never see something else than my WIP folder) Gosh it even feels weird to talk about it here xD

Eventually I watched Rebels and fell deep deep in the Kalluzeb fandom, I started to write again and my now ex-wife convinced me to post the small one-shot I had written for New Year. The rest is history, my ego exploded at the responses (kidding, I was stressed like hell and for once in my life I am experimenting impostor syndrome and still don't understand why people read what I write ahah) so I started to post other things.

👀 Tell me about an up and coming wip

I am almost tempted to not talk about the current WIP called "Tumblr Drabble" that we discussed previously just to punish you for the current 5k mess you encouraged x)

But I am weak so I'll talk about it...

My current WIP started after this post here from @a-corndog-named-schibbs (hi Hello :D sorry I brought you here but I have been spending too much time on this so it's also your fault).

The background is a 'what if Lasats had common traits with Bonobo' and Zeb asking Kallus on Barhyn to have sex to resolve their tension. Only Kallus comes to Zeb on Yavin IV months laters and ask if they maybe could try because even if Kallus is now a rebel, they still have strong beef and it's causing issues.

That's it, that's the plot x) I had an idea of Kallus being really submissive in bed and asking Zeb if he could cum and Zeb being really stressed because he had never lead in bed so he has no clue why Kallus is just being what looks like a stubborn pillow princess.

Only problem is that I started writing it, from the moment they enter the bedroom and after 2k words they were finally in bed naked :') Still I wrote the sex scene because that's why I started it and still had my idea. The thing reached 3.5k words. But then, terrible, I had an idea of after care. I told myself: Patate, don't write it, the whole thing must be a mess because at no point did you look back on what you wrote and you have another project more important!!

And then I talked to you and you told me to write the after care x) so now it's 5k and I am not done yet.

I'm almost tempted to publish the thing without even reading back what I wrote once because I don't want to know what my brain produced in the small free time I had whilst moving countries... :')

[haveihitanerve]

how do ppl function w/o someone giving them input

I started writing smth, tis a ABO batfam thing (gonna be my first attempt writing abo) and I literally am so critical of myself that I don't read my own stuff so I get my friends to do it for me

lol- i don't have anyone proof-reading my work before i post it(mostly bc a lot of people in my life dont know that i write and/or the kind of stuff i write/have the same tastes as me)

and ummmm.... idk. I kind of write it down, and edit it as I go, so I don't have that stage where you go back and reread and are like "wtf is this was i high?" bc... i edit as i go. If something sounds wrong i just delete the whole thing and in the moment am like "what was that" and then move on. (or worst case scenario just stop writing and ignore it for the rest of my life buried in a WIP)

I also try really hard not to be critical of myself, you are your own worse critic and sometimes its good to be critical and improve your work, but i remind myself im still constantly learning, even tho ive been writing for years, there are always ways to improve and get better, and it might not look amazing to you, but it might click perfectly in someone else's head and quite honestly theres always a chance people might love it or hate it and i remind myself that some of my favorite works, books, movies, shows, etc, have bad reviews and some are even loathed, but I found joy in them, and so theres always a chance someone else might find that joy in something I've written, and I'm always willing to take that chance and give that one person a spark of joy :)

also id love to read that ABO fic when youre done if you're ok with it :)

[mr-orion]

Um sorry if this is awkward but you are the first person to ever like my draws <:), i and want to thank you for that!! My question is..how did you became so good at draw??? :)

Of course, your draws are super nice! I'm excited to see where you'll be in a year or two or three!

I became good by being bad. I tried new things and hacked at it over and over. I failed so much! I practiced by drawing the things I'm interested in. It all comes down to practice, failure, and successes.

In fact... I didn't start drawing until I was 17... I've only drawn for 3 years now! Ive only been serious about digital for around 1. That's proof that the best time to start drawing is when you can and not to feel bad about being behind. Take your time, you only get to make so many drawings at your skill level before you get better.

I don't have a magic definitive thing that explains why I'm good, the answer is practice. Lots of practice.

Things that helped me improve though is:

line of action

Learning my art fundamentals (line, shape, value, etc....)

Pixel art for learning color theory

Magic poser

Tracing poses and drawing my characters over it

Enjoying the process over final product

Also. Accepting advice isn't a one fits all solution will help. Also recognzing that art advice you get from a simple graphic or tik tok is often bad/useless art advice. Learning to do things takes time, good tutorials will take time. A lot of easy to digest advice may work but it doesn't mean its the best way to go about it in the long run. Allow yourself patience to watch those long video tutorials when you want to learn something.

Additionally, please! Keep and organize your drawings! You don't have to keep them all but at least the ones you're proud of. Leave little notes about why you made the piece for yourself in the future. When you look back it will feel so awesome.

[gayhenrycreel]

leftists need to understand that its a wonderful thing when a former fascist studies leftist literature. it means people can get better. we are not doomed. fascists can learn, they just need the right environment.

i used to be a centrist, but now im far left. in the same way, a right winger, no matter how far right, can realize that everyone is human. it might be rare. it might not work out. but it is a victory. its proof that reformative justice works. even if it takes eternity, everyone on the planet has the potential to realize their mistakes.

you don't have to forgive anyone for anything. but you should recognise that people can improve, and the willingness to be a good person is vital.

every anarchist and communist in western society went through deconstruction. we all started at centrism or conservatism, or even outright fascism. lots of us were born into it.

society encourages fascism. capitalists benefit from being fascists. if people believe in them, they get more power. capitalist society is literally telling people to be fascists, and telling no one to be leftists.

anyone can be a fascist.

that includes me, you, and everyone else.

if someone realises that they were tricked into believing certain people dont deserve life, and they want to improve, they deserve every opportunity to grow.

fascist propaganda works. it tells you that you alone are correct. you are better. it starts with this, then expands to say others are lesser, because you are better than them.

leftist theory is different. quality leftism will tell you that you are wrong. it tells you that, no, you are not better. sometimes everyone is wrong. sometimes the entirety of society is wrong. this is difficult to cope with mentally. its confusing when all youve known is your own superiority. its a completely different worldview to anything youve seen before.

it takes a lot of critical thinking to change your worldview from fascism to leftism. someone i know used to be a fascist. he didn't even know the word for it, he just hated everyone to an extreme. now hes the best leftist ive ever met. he was the one to convince me that capitalism is unsustainable.

everyone is susceptible to fascism. even its victims. people can get better, and they do, in fact, want to to make up for their mistakes after they understand they had been manipulated.

[pudgecuddles]

Proof Of Concept: Mad Science

[It's been a really weird week so what better way to cope than to check in on your magnum opus again? lol]

Namjoon Breast Growth & WG, Jin Route:

Synopsis thus far: Namjoon works for Jin’s company where he was accidentally exposed to a chemical that, unbeknownst to Namjoon, causes breast growth and weight gain. He decides to call Jin for help only for his boss to take him deeper into the facility…

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The elevator opened up to a mostly empty, blue walled hallway. Too dizzy to turn his head left or right, all Namjoon could immediately see was a handful of unlabeled metal doors. Interestingly, there were no door handles or visible card scanners to be found. Still helping Namjoon stay upright, Dr. Kim promptly walked them both to the closest door. As the doctor drew near, Namjoon heard a cheerful beep and the door slid open. Proximity sensors? “Here we go, Namjoon-ssi.” Dr. Kim led him to an actually very comfortable, if not pretty large, hospital cot. It was soft and smelt freshly washed. Namjoon flopped backwards in relief. Even with his eyes closed, his head was spinning. “Oh man… Thank you Dr. Kim.” Namjoon sighed. “A minute longer and I think I would have puked.” “It's the least I can do.” Dr. Kim’s voice came from the other side of the bed-like cot. “We want to make sure you’re comfortable during your stay here.” “Oh! You don’t need to worry about that.” Namjoon quickly assures. “I swear, I’ll be out of your hair and back to work as soon as my symptoms improve. I wouldn’t want to trouble you for longer than necessary.” “Hmm,” Dr. Kim didn’t pause in whatever he was fiddling with outside of Namjoon’s vision, “And how are you feeling right now, Namjoon-ssi?” The older man asked, brushing off what his new patient had just said. “Umm…” Namjoon took a second to give himself a small check up, “I’m really dizzy; vertigo, nausea, fever possibly? I’m pretty sweaty and uh- a bit bloated.” Glancing down at his middle, Namjoon saw an puffy bump where a flat stomach should've been. Dr. Kim looked over at that. “Yes, that all lines up. It’s been around 20 minutes after the exposure, are you sure you don’t feel anything else? Just nauseous?” “I really do-” A loud gurgle from Namjoon’s stomach cuts him off. “Oh! Oh god, I am so hungry.” A sudden rush of hunger overtakes Namjoon. “Good, good. That’s typical.” Dr. Kim smiles, reaching down to palpate Namjoon’s belly. His fingers pressed and prodded against the surprisingly soft flesh of his new tummy. “Yes. It seems to be coming long nicely.” Dr. Kim commented, giving Namjoon’s now plush belly a condescending pat, watching it barely wobble. “I-I’m sorry, Dr. Kim, but I don’t understand…” Namjoon whispered. “What’s happening to me?” “Let’s get an IV in you.” Dr. Kim ignored him. “The hunger indicates that your body is asking for nutrients.” “An IV? Can’t I just eat something?” Okay, so he wasn’t going to be getting much information out of the director. Namjoon understood that their client’s serums were supposed to be the private equivalent of state secrets. Of course he wouldn’t be allowed to know what they did… That was what’s happening, right? Dr. Kim began prepping an IV line, pulling out a bag of clear liquid. “Nil per os. Nothing by mouth, young man. Solid food could choke you if you ate too fast. We can’t compromise the process.” Process... Namjoon gulped, half out of nerves, half to swallow down the saliva produced from thinking about food.

“Y-you said no solid food, right? So, something like a protein shake or- or mashed potatoes would be okay then?” Dr. Kim paused, a thoughtful look forming on his face. “I can try it.” He assented, starting to put away the IV. “I’ll have to hook you up with a feeding tube, though. You wont be able to talk.” Any panic Namjoon felt at the thought of being muted for who knows how long they’ll have him hooked up, was washed away by another painful wave of hunger. “Ngh! I don’t care, Doctor! I just need it in me! Please I’m so hungry!” An intense, but unreadable expression appeared on Dr. Kim’s face. “Again.” Namjoon whined, “What?” “Ask me again.” “I’m hungry, Doctor. P-please give me the tube…” Namjoon teared up. The pain was getting worse. Dr. Kim harshly pinched a perky, hardened nipple, eliciting a cut off moan. “You will refer to me as, Sir. Understand?” Namjoon could taste bile in the back of his throat, but he was desperate at this point. “Sir! Please, I need the tube! I’m starving!” Dr. Kim chuckled mockingly, “Starving? With all of this hanging off of you?” He slapped Namjoon’s plush tummy. “Sure, I’ll play along. Here, open wide and don’t choke. We’ll try this without anesthesia first. I don’t want to add another variable to the experiment.” Namjoon’s mouth opened wide, eager to be filled up. The tube slid down impossibly easy, as if Namjoon’s gag reflex had been turned off for the day. The vague feeling of the rubber hitting his stomach was uncomfortable, but the younger man didn’t choke. Dr. Kim moved over to the other side of the actually quite large room. What Namjoon had originally thought was an exit turned out to be double doors to a large walk in refrigerator. Bags of clear fluid, blood, and plasma hung in organized rows. Dr. Kim ignored those however, instead reaching into a plastic bin. The doctor shuffled back over, a massive vacuum sealed bag of beigeish paste craddled in both arms. The thing was huge; four, maybe five liters of the stuff sloshed thickly with every step. Plopping it down on a metal table with a huff, Dr. Kim shook out his arms. “Oh, I have got to get a cart with wheels.” Namjoon absently tongued the bottom of the cold, smooth tube. Dr. Kim pulled the bag closer to the large, metal machine stood behind Namjoon’s bed, out of sight. After what sounded like metal creaking and plastic tearing, Namjoon felt the tube vibrate lightly. Sadly, he couldn’t taste the paste being pumped into him, but Namjoon could definitely feel it settling in his stomach. Finally, Namjoon moaned, eyes rolling into the back of his head. Feels so good... Dr. Kim smiled as Namjoon’s belly began to bloat outwards, the younger man’s eyes barely open. “Enjoying yourself there, Joon-ah?” The nickname sounded belittling coming out of the doctor’s mouth. Namjoon just hummed, suckling needlessly at the rubber between his plump lips.

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It’s been a while since I’ve worked on this interactive story, and I’m not even sure if anyone would be interested in it at this point ^_^;

I still desperately want to finish it some day, hopefully before BTS finishes their military service… It’s just hard to find kinky motivation when you’re incapable of feeling arousal in any sense of the word.

Let me know if anyone would even still be interested in reading this!

It will contain 4 routes, 15 branches and 30 endings with a hopeful update for a 5th route featuring JK in the future. I would honestly consider this my most intensive project to date.

Happy to get out this little preview at least!

[dailyanarchistposts]

Footnotes

[1] I here gladly acknowledge my obligations to Victor Drury, {15} whose classification I adopt and follow.

{1} Actually Say may have gone farther.

{2} From Royal Commentaries of the Incas (1609) by El Inca Garcilaso de la Vega (c. 1539-1616; not to be confused with the earlier Spanish writer of the same name); Lum quotes from the 1871 translation by Clements Markham.

{3} Principles of Sociology I.ii.10

{4} Probably American historian John Lothrop Motley (1814-1877).

{5} Swiss historian and economist Jean Charles Léonard de Sismondi (1773-1842).

{6} Jack Cade, leader of 1450 peasant rebellion; John Wycliffe, 14th-century Catholic dissident; Jacob van Artevelde and Philip van Artevelde, father and son, 14th-century Flemish nationalist leaders; Étienne Marcel, bourgeois leader involved in the 1358 French peasant rebellion known as the Jacquerie; rising of the Swiss cantons: a 14th-century confederacy that threw off Habsburg rule; Cola di Rienzi, 14th-century Italian revolutionary leader; Hanseatic League, Renaissance mercantile alliance of northern Europe.

{7} A reference to Auguste Comte’s (1798-1857) division of history into theological, metaphysical, and positive/industrial phases, though in his description of the details Lum seems closer to Spencer than to Comte.

{8} Barebone’s Parliament, form taken by the British Parliament in 1653, between the dissolution of the Rump Parliament and the rise of Cromwell’s Protectorate, taking its name from the involvement of religious dissenting leader Praise-God Barebones or Barebone or Barbon (c. 1598-1679); Emmanuel Joseph Sieyès (1748-1836), French revolutionary leader who served in the national legislature known as the Convention.

{9} “Progress and Order” (or equally “Order and Progress”) was a popular slogan among followers of Comte; see the Brazilian flag.

{10} Pen name of American humorist Benjamin Drew (1812-1903).

{11} Bonds payable only upon the death of a third party, though here used metaphorically to mean payable only in the afterlife.

{12} “The voice of the people [is] the voice of God.”

{13} Scottish writer Thomas Carlyle (1795-1881), whose description of economics as “the dismal science” has often been thought (as probably here by Lum) to refer to its conservative aspects (e.g., Malthus’s alleged proof that improvements in the lot of the working class were unattainable), though in fact Carlyle meant to be condemning its liberal aspects (specifically its opposition to slavery).

{14} plural sic.

{15} Victor Drury (1825-1918), French-born American anarchist active in the Knights of Labor.

{16} William Godwin (1756-1836), English anarchist philosopher who advocated voluntary equality of property.

{17} American economist Henry George (1839-1897), who though generally a free-market advocate regarded society as the legitimate owner of all land, and consequently favoured replacing all taxation with a single tax on land; American state-socialist writer Edward Bellamy (1850-1898); Lum’s line “looking backward to Sparta and Peru” is a sarcastic reference to Bellamy’s utopian 1888 novel Looking Backward.

{18} A reference to an example in Henry George’s 1881 book The Land Question.

{19} German economist Wilhelm Roscher (1817-1894), an important influence (perhaps surprisingly) on both the German Historical School and the French Liberal School. The passage quoted is from Joseph Lalor’s 1878 translation of Roscher’s 1854 Principles of Political Economy.

{20} A frequent misquotation from Shakespeare’s Tempest IV.1.151-57, eliding “the baseless fabric of this vision” with “we are such stuff as dreams are made on” a few lines later.

{21} English economist David Ricardo (1772-1823) had argued in his 1817 Principles of Political Economy and Taxation that there was a natural tendency for wages to approach the cost of production of labour, which he held to be the bare cost of keeping the labourer alive and able and willing to work; however, he also held a) that wages may be kept above this natural rate indefinitely in an improving economy, and that b) willingness to work depends in any case on cultural factors (including prevailing standards of comfort and decency). Dropping these qualifications, Ferdinand Lassalle (1825-1864) and other socialist thinkers developed Ricardo’s theory into an Iron Law of Wages according to which wages are doomed to stand forever at bare physical subsistence so long as the wage system survives.

{22} Classical liberal English statesman John Bright (1811-1889), free-trade and anti-imperialist activist; the quotation is from Bright’s Glasgow University installation speech in March 1883.

{23} Whatever source Lum is quoting (presumably by Henry George) is evidently to be found reprinted in the 1901 Sunset Club.

{24} In Greek mythology Cerberus was the three-headed dog who guarded the entrance to the underworld.

{25} A standard Spencerian concern, taking the line of progress to run toward greater differentiation. By “to greater differentiation” Lum presumably means “in preference to greater differentiation.”

{26} The quotation is from Spencer’s 1876 Principles of Sociology V.18 §570.

{27} This phrase often means “piecework,” but in the present context seems to mean labour done on one’s own without cooperation.

{28} The English phrase “to go without saying” derives from the French aller sans dire, although aller de soi, “to go of itself,” may be the more common French idiom.

{29} Lum had had an acrimonious falling-out with the Greenback Party ten years earlier.

{30} Change of antecedent sic.

{31} Presumably there should also be a hyphen between “from” and the first “day.”

{32} An agrarian association friendly to the urban labour movement, formed in Michigan in 1889; a similar movement of the same name was formed in Ontario the following year.

{33} The passage that follows is drawn from the article “‘Greatest Happiness’ Principle” (Westminster Review XI, no 21 (July 1829), which is apparently but not explicitly by Bentham; see Macaulay’s discussion.

{34} The quotation which follows is from Herbert’s “A Politican in Sight of Haven.”

{35} Principles of Sociology V.xviii.563.

{36} Probably a reference to the title of Henry George’s 1879 Progress and Poverty.

{37} Either American economist Amasa Walker (1799-1875) or his son Francis Amasa Walker (1840-1897).

{38} American anarchist and currency reformer William Batchelder Greene (1819-1878).

{39} Hebrews 11:1.

{40} This makes no sense, and is an error for “will not go bankrupt at the same tine” in the original.

{41} Should be “since it is subscribed.”

{42} From Proudhon’s Organisation of Credit and Circulation (1848).

{43} Science of Wealth (1866), ch. 5.

{44} Another quotation from Roscher.

{45} “The great thinker is the secretary of his age”: from English philosopher George Henry Lewes (1817-1878), Problems of Life and Mind (1874).

{46} The Land Question (1881), ch. 16.

{47} Bavarian-American anarcho-communist Johann Most (1846-1906).

{48} French novelist Edmond François Valentin About (1828-1885).

{49} First quotation from Rights of Man (1792), II.1; next three from First Principles of Government (1795).

{50} Reference to a quotation from Malthus.

{51} Science of Wealth, XI.6.

{52} American abolitionist, businessman, liberal economist, and antiwar activist Edward Atkinson (1827-1905).

{53} German-American anarchist August Spies (1855-1877), one of the Haymarket martyrs.

{54} Isaiah 58:1.

{55} American abolitionist poet John Greenleaf Whittier (1807-1892), in “Stanzas for the Times.”