#its to the point im struggling to work on stuff bc i have to scroll to find it and then it lags jkhjbask

[leviathiane]

god organizing my big hxh prompt/WIP doc and it has gotten completely out of hand. theres like 5 different multichapters fics half written in there. I need to actually finish and post some things, man

[etherealkissed88]

i asked you something and you not only were mean, but you are also making fun of me on twitter. i felt so embarrased that i had to delete my account. you made me feel so bad. i did nothing to you. you had no reason to be so mean. english is not my first lenguage so i also have trouble communicating, i understand half of what you post here. karma will hit you so hard.

lets quote what i said “no i dont believe they are possible 🥰 which is why i have a whole page dedicated to manifesting stuff 😍”

this isnt mean, this is sarcasm. you communicate very well actually but heres the thing: i looked at ur account and you repost a lot of loa content. if you read all those posts especially the ones about desired appearance which is what you were asking about, it doesnt make sense for you to ask me “do you believe its actually possible to manifest a desired appearance.”

and do not use your language barrier as an excuse to make me feel bad because i rly dont. if you were so bad at communitcating, you wouldn’t be able to communicate to me both this time and the previous time, plus y would u read and repost loa content if u had an issue w language? i know you understand loa but when ppl keep searching and searching for outside answers and validation, it doesnt get them anywhere. believe me - ive “coached” ppl who repeatedly asked me the same questions over and over again despite my whole account and posts being right there. they still struggle because they only ask questions and never apply.

the same fingers you used to type the question, you could have used those same fingers to scroll thro my page like you did with the other content creators. i get it if you are new to loa (even tho you could have read the content that was already there and even tho u already reposted content answering ur own question) but as someone who creates loa content everyday, its disrespectful from my point of view that i work hard for these posts and ppl dont even look at it and instead ask the most limiting questions ever. its almost like “why would i waste my time w these posts”. if you dont understand this, its bc you arent someone who gets 20 repetitive asks everyday meanwhile their answers being right on my page. it can be stressful and so annoying.

now back to my original answer: “no i dont believe they are possible 🥰 which is why i have a whole page dedicated to manifesting stuff 😍”. if u think this was mean, its bc you knew the answer was yes, it is possible. why else would i have a page dedicated to manifesting if it wasnt possible to “actually manifest a desired appearance”. my answer simply guided you to your own answer and to search my page if you still had (better) questions. what i said was literally not mean😭 and if you still believe so then thats fine bc its never that big of a deal. and i wasnt making fun of u on twitter, i simply said the exact thing i originally answered you with💀

idk if ur a beginner in the law or not but either way, you should know that anything is possible w the law. if u didnt know that, then now you know (and ik you know based on ur reaction to my original answer). and karma isnt real so it will not “hit me hard”🥶

im sorry if you rly have a language barrier issue but from my pov, that was the best, most appropiate reply i could have given. even other loa content creators can agree bc they know how ppl can get in their asks inbox. reread this whole thing if theres still an issue.

and dw u can just make another account like you did just now🤭

[the0ther-side0f-dawn]

long personal post about how actually things have gotten better

warning: mention of heavy topics

so im deciding to start re-embracing the joy and sincerity and vulnerability i had at 15. Tumblr was literally my diary.

however the suicidal ideation of being 15? no. tho we still have bouts of hopelessness, but its different now. however i do rlt struggle to refer to that time as being suicidal, but im not sure there is a better word. like i did not want to live, but i did not want to die - because all of my thoughts and logic had me convinced that yeh, it could (and likely would) be worse ... moving on...

i also used to actually reblog stuff. not just scroll and like. and ive been reblogging more lately.

why wasnt i reblogging or posting?

at some point i became very repressed. i shut down self expression and started just internalising all of my lows and lots of other thoughts. i had some bad friendships and experiences and shitty home life where i adapted by just burying everything. not just the bad stuff. i was terrified of judgement and having the things i enjoyed and cared about and liked, be torn to shreds. i was also very scared to say the wrong thing (thanks Tumblr Moral Perfectionism and Purity Culture). but whilst im still not comfortable sharing my passions and emotions IRL... thats just common sense. its mostly family and experience has taught me that they will insult me. i am a lot less afraid of cringe. and im a lot more confident in my own thoughts and opinions. we could also talk about how fandom died for me in 2016 and iykyk. like i lost hope and didn't see the point trying to care again if loss was inevitable. its one of those grand philosophical questions and my answer was that it was better to have no joy or love than it was to risk having something and suffering the pain of losing it... but that is an anxiety mindset. you cannot be happy living out of caution. the greatest joy comes not without risk.

anyways, for a few years now, ive really been on the up. i got some diagnoses which meant I could finally start to understand myself and what was going on and why, and I could learn to manage it. And im not just talking mental/neurodivergence. i was also really physically sick for a long time and im still dealing with the trauma of that because noone fucking believed me (ps. if anyone knew me during that time and you did believe me. thanks. but also despite my memory being shit, ive got to say noone rly knew me during that time. i was very shutdown and had very limited interaction with anyone.) and all i just kept hearing about during that time was how lazy I was and how i must have a really low pain tolerance but ANYWAY. point is, im doing better.

still not living in a perfect situation, and im still not well (i never will be, such is the nature of "chronic" ) but im not living in a state of fear and dread every single day. im in a much better place.

am i exhausted constantly bc i now have a fulltime job and it is unnecessarily stressful and also physically demanding and also i have very little energy to begin with? yeh. but also do i love my job? also yes.

do i have very real concerns that im going to burn out and/or my condition will worsen and i will be unable to work and support myself and i wont have a safety net? also yeh. thats that bouts of hopelessness i mentioned earlier.

but mostly, im doing okay.

i dont have as many friendships as i used to, or any especially close friends but, the people i do have in my life are good people. i dont feel constantly scared that i will say the wrong thing - something embarrassing or awkward or questionable - and that they will abandon me. there is a sense of security.

i dont rly have anyone that I feel completely comfortable and relaxed around but im getting there. Like very almost there, for the first time in my entire life. i can see the possibility of being accepted and at ease. and it is really only me holding myself back. (one day i will figure out how to relax).

i constantly joke about having cured my anxiety but honestly? i kind of did. the thought patterns are still there but I'm so much better equipped to recognise and manage those thoughts. my every action is no longer dictated by my anxiety. most of the time I'm barely aware of what im doing. which thats its own issue... But im no longer in a perpetual state of hypervigilance and that is good. im not even on antidepressants anymore. I've got the anxiety under control, not the other way around.

if 15 year old me met me now- she would be slightly disappointed that i didnt have my own place - but otherwise she would be so shocked at how well i function and how confident i am and how happy i am, and shocked that i now actually want to live a life.

im also, as i said, making an effort to actually give a fuck again. im gonna start caring about things and im not gonna shut up about it.

im going to be more open and honest. and im going to learn how to be me.

being vulnerable is the absolute most terrifying thing but thats my goal. thats the necessary risk. it won't come easily or naturally or right away, but i will get there.

things are looking up.

[iraprince]

Heyo! Any advice on struggling to get your art seen in the world? I feel like no matter how much I post, or what I post, people never see it or seem to like it. I love art and am pursuing it as a career (hence why Im getting a degree in it currently lmao) but its kind of disheartening to work really hard on something, post it, and no one sees it.

oh, man. i'm afraid for this one i don't feel like i have a lot of solid advice. having a large-ish following online feels like something that kind of just, like, Happened to me, mostly on accident/in ways outside of my control, and even if i had some ideas on how to potentially replicate those gains i don't think they'd work consistently. (also, a lot of my large jumps in follower count came from mental health related work going viral bc it's #relatable; this is something i have complicated feelings about and it's absolutely not a viable, like, "strategy" or something that i would recommend, in the way that ppl can say like, "fanart gets attention!" or stuff like that.)

so, i don't have advice for how to actually GET those eyes on your art; i can maybe help with making ppl more likely to STAY once they do find you, and how to build a following that will actually help you maintain a living from your work -- bc i have TONS of peers w a following a fraction of the size of mine who get more jobs than me, are doing cooler/more "professional" stuff than me, etc! (heads up that most of my experience is on twitter; i know less than nothing about places like instagram + tiktok, and while tumblr functions very differently from twitter i feel like i handle things mostly the same here, aside from doing less personal posting/being less talkative and not 'networking' or following many people).

SCROLLING BACK UP TO ADD A SPOILER ALERT: AS ALWAYS I HAVE SAID "HAHA IDK I DON'T REALLY HAVE ANY ADVICE" AND THEN PROCEEDED TO TYPE A FULL ESSAY. IF YOU ARE ON DESKTOP YOU CAN HIT THE 'J' KEY TO SKIP THIS POST. IF YOU'RE ON MOBILE, I'M SORRY

a very important thing, especially professionally: it HAS to be easy to see what you do. (this is easier here on tumblr, where u can have a designated art tag etc, than on twitter, which is an awful website that sucks. <- guy who makes all his money on twitter) this means, like -- if i see something from you and get curious and click your profile, it should only take one more click to quickly see at least SOME of your art. on a professional account, it's probably best for your icon to be your own work, something snappy and memorable and eye-catching that reads well at a small size; people shouldn't have to dig for 20 minutes before they can start browsing your art. on twitter, this means TRY not to gunk up your media tab with a ton of reaction images/screencaps of your gacha pulls/etc; on here, it means make your art tag easy to find; on any website, a portfolio link, prominently displayed, is the best bet. (i am still working on that one myself lmao and i've been working professionally full time for a few years now so like, there are outliers and wiggle room on all of this).

next! it's great when your audience finds you, but you have to find them, too. find artists who do similar stuff to you and get into their stuff -- sincerely, not just as "networking." (like only do this with ppl whose stuff you actually think is cool, not just trying to get in mutuals with everyone you see in hopes of a bump, obviously.) get interested in other indie artists, find the people who are working/publishing in the spaces that are exciting and aspirational for you, and support them! i don't want it to sound cynical when i say there's a kind of give-and-take built into this; the point is not "well, if i reblog/retweet a bunch of YOUR stuff, maybe you'll feel obligated to boost mine in return," but that when you find other artists/creatives who are on the same wavelength as you, you will naturally stumble into pools of people who want to support art like yours, and you and your newfound peers will help each other when you hype each other's stuff up and direct followers to each other! (again re: things going differently on dif websites: this is twitter-specific for me, bc i use my tumblr as a gallery/portfolio. that doesn't mean it doesn't happen here tho! it can and does happen everywhere!)

it is really not a competition. i know that SOMETIMES it is in like, a really nitty-gritty numbers sense; people only have so much money to spare, they will make choices about whose patreon they can afford/what comic to buy/etc, that's true. but to me that's not competition. people who are sincerely into your stuff will hang on until they can afford it; maybe that means someone follows you for two whole years before the planets align and they have the budget/opportunity to commission you. by hanging out in similar circles you are not taking potential business or opportunities away from anyone else, nor are you risking leading your own audience to Someone They'll Like Better; you're just offering more options, and the internet is VAST and endless, and EVENTUALLY people will show up who are into YOUR STUFF, SPECIFICALLY. helping each other is never going to stifle or delay that!!

and my final chunk of advice is the one i give constantly that everyone is probably super sick of hearing but i just seriously seriously believe in it, even tho i know it's slow to pay off and hard to follow: keep doing exactly what you want to. keep doing it!!! you have to!!! yes, i mean the stuff that's getting like, 2 likes and 0 reblogs! the stuff that 'nobody likes!'

earlier i mentioned i have gotten big follower bumps from like adhd comics and stuff like that going viral. the thing is that, from a professional standpoint: my follower count has like, more than quintupled from where it was at a few years ago; my patreon income has absolutely NOT quintupled lmfao. it has less than doubled, over that same period of like... i wanna say over 4 years. that's still good, i'm grateful for it, and i owe a lot of it to the sheer numbers game (the more ppl see ur work, the more likely it is you'll reach someone who decides to support you), but there is absolutely not an actual direct correlation between numbers and career success/stability.

where there IS a direct correlation is between "people who give a shit about the art i really truly love making" and "people who like my art enough to support me professionally." HUGE chunks of the followers i get any time something goes viral slough off over time; there's nothing wrong with that, they just follow me bc something was funny/interesting and end up realizing my work's not actually their thing. but the ppl who follow me bc they're into all the stuff i post most consistently, the stuff i care about and am passionate about, stick around. and i would not have found them if i wasn't posting the shit i care about!

out there there are people who will be 100% crazy about the stuff that is 100% what you want to make. it's like actually statistically impossible for there not to be. the more niche your thing is, the longer it will take to find them, but they absolutely exist. but if you give up before you find them -- if you start saying, "well, i'll put in 50% of this idea that i love, but the other 50% is too weird and nobody's gonna like it and it'll flop" -- well, in that case, you can only ever find the ppl who are 50% into what you do. don't fuck yourself like that!! you cannot deny yourself the possibility (the INEVITABILITY!!! IMO!!!!!) of finding the people who will 100% get what you're doing.

so: on a pragmatic level, i'm sure there will be ppl who disagree with me on this, and who think it's absolutely mandatory to do fanart as a crowd draw or learn about algorithms and posting times and get on tiktok and do the visibility grind and everything and that it's stupid and irresponsible to tell people not to. i'm sure it's also easy to point out that i'm speaking from a place where i now have more eyes on my stuff than i know what to fucking do with so maybe i'm just totally out of touch and being naive or something. but for me the most important part of doing art now, ESPECIALLY as a career, is to keep loving it and to believe in what i'm doing and to build an audience that cares about the same things i do. and i think it is really really vital to make that your top priority. bc if you don't, then even if you DO crack the code to suddenly getting tons of notes on everything etc -- will you even keep wanting to do it?

this job is hard. it's lonely, in my experience; i spend so much time sitting in front of my computer alone. it's unstable, which is stressful and can be frightening. it's emotionally taxing, for me, because art is so important to me that it's hard to set boundaries and separate my identity from it and actually treat it like a job. it has taken me a long time to find success doing this; maybe i could have gotten there faster if i had tried to find ways to draw an audience specifically, but i think if i had somehow managed to get a big patreon following/tons of commissioners/etc by doing something formulaic or doing stuff that specifically gets tons of attention, but isn't what's natural for me -- i don't think i would have lasted very long that way. this is already hard and complicated enough; i don't think it's sustainable to give up any unnecessary ground on doing exactly what you're passionate about, bc at least in my case, that's mandatory for this even being a livable career for me. i would burn out and decide to do something else very quickly if the only way to succeed was to chase numbers/engagement.

doing it this way is very slow. if i hadn't been able to lean on family/my wife while starting up, i would have had to have a day job for much longer (like, years, probably) while saving up and preparing to go full time; for as long as you struggle to get traction, it may mean going full time has to be on the backburner. but the thing is that there's nothing wrong with that, it's the reality for the vast majority of us (from what i've seen) -- and you'll eventually build a career that can last way longer, i think.

okay oh my god i'm done. sorry about that. like i said this job is pretty lonely and i sit here all day and think about this stuff and then generally do not talk about it with anyone until somebody asks me about it and then i repeat myself at length again. like i did here. anyway have a good night sincerely and i hope some part of this was helpful!!!

[cavefairy]

i have lifehacked tumblr okay

so i get rlly upset (not sure why) if i miss posts from people im close to or really enjoy seeing on my dash, but its overwhelming when im offline for hours and theres a shit ton of posts to scroll thru and then i keep seeing more pop up and basically it fucking sucks BUT

i just suck it up and deal with it, when its over 100 posts. but if its not, i tried scrolling to the bottom of all the new stuff and HOLY SHIT GUYS

this actually works for me bc i seem to scroll faster going up ??? and if someone tries to say 'but what abt those long posts that you click keep reading and theyre like 20 huge rbs long' i dont click memey posts that have the cut on em bc i know theyre super long and annoying, but i will for art posts bc i know theyre not overwhelmingly long

im losing the point. what im trying to say is going to the bottom of the new posts and scrolling up works way better for me and theres not nearly as many to get thru when i get to the top and refresh for the new posts. if anyone is struggling with this (i know its weird but hey, someone else could be just as weird as me and just deal with it themself) i hope you try this out, it may or may not work, but theres no harm in trying, right ?

[radiantbeams]

omg please tell us about your dyslexic sokka headcanon!!

THANK YOU FOR THIS OPPORTUNITY lol my job right now is actually to test, diagnose, and develop a curriculim for students with learning disabilities so this is very near and dear to my heart

im gonna assume that there wasn’t a lot of formal/academic schooling available in the southern water tribe (a war ravaged nation probably wouldnt prioritize academia over more practical/do-it-yourself kind of learning) so when they first start out and he’s not so hot at reading it’s nbd, besides he can read maps and numbers and star charts just fine and everything else has enough pictures/context clues that he can get the gist of it, its not until they find real scrolls like book length scrolls with yards and yards of text that he realizes oh this might be a problem

he starts hiding it but you know aang, can’t take a hint and can’t leave it alone, asks sokka to read something and he can’t so he tries to just brush it off but aang really won’t let it go i imagine this turns into a big argument and sokka admits that he doesn’t really get how words/letters work, cue katara trying to help and have him sound stuff out (this obviously doesn’t work bc the whole problem is sokka doesn’t understand how the sounds actually translate into letters), after trying that for a while and eventually butting heads, aang steps in and explains that there are actual rules to phonics and grammar, just like there are rules for things sokka already understands like math and physics, he starts to get it

toph and sokka kind of bond over it and toph wants to help so she has him reading everything for her, and after a while sokka gets less and less embarassed about taking his time and finds that actually reading things out loud helps a lot

zuko also somehow figures it out before sokka even tells him about it, and steps in a lot to help when sokka gets stuck on a word, which, with anyone else, is super annoying because it’s like theyre inturrupting him and he can get it he just needs a minute, but zuko never makes it feel condescending or embarassing, he’ll just point to a letter combination, say the sound, and move on instead of ~using it as a teaching moment~ cant you just shut up sometimes katara

so yeah in my head sokka struggles with phonics and symbol distinction (which is kind of like how h and n and m can all look the same) and ive put way too much thought into this but ive put even more thought in to my ADHD sokka headcanon but i feel like that one’s more obvious and definitely canon

[sanguinarius-archive]

Hey! Could I get to know some of your headcanons about dickfigures/your designs for them? :D

ya ya sure!!!!

i already have my designs for them up if you havent seen, here they are!

as for headcanons idk how long this post will be so ill just add a read more for anyone who might not wanna scroll thru it all lol

red!!!!!

his real name is rowan bc i thought it was cute, also it means “little red one” which is eVEN BETTER

he’s nonbinary masc and bisexual! the self projection is REAL

he has adhd

most of my headcanons kinda flow into my own version of dick figures because i’m not very Satisfied with canon NJSJDNSKM so like. for example red doesn’t just kill people or whatever. he gets into fights and has scars and wears bandaids a lot bc of them

he graduated college with blue, he got a bachelor’s degree in fine arts (honestly idk how college works bc im a grade 10 baby so if thats like totally wrong just let me know also im. canadian so idk how american school system works LOL)

red got suspended a lot in high school but never expelled. mostly bc he got in fights that were mainly him protecting stacey from shitty people (he sees her as his sister so he was rlly protective) and the school wasnt really sure what else to do so they just. you know. suspended him a bunch of times hoping itd do something but it didnt

he hates his dad! reason being is bc when he was born, his dad was actually an alien able to disguise himself as human, so he wanted to take red back to his home planet cuz red turned out to be more powerful than anything his dad had ever seen. but red’s mom was like Nope, so she snuck out with him and his plush cat (kitty amazing) and they were never found. red is very close with his mom and is scared of his dad coming back someday

we know he canonically likes rlly loud music so im just gonna project here and say he’s a metalhead. at least, some form of it. he likes the alt scene music and industrial rock. examples being deftones, nine inch nails, skinny puppy, rage against the machine, kittie and others. it keeps him focused and calm

bLUE!!!

we know blue was bullied as a kid but i dont wanna say red also bullied him bc i feel like thats just wrong to me? MAYBE ITS NOT ACTUALLY but it just makes me sad so like. lets say red, being as protective as he is, stood up for blue a lot cuz he was like “oh this kid cant fight” so he knew what to do

blue dated pink for awhile but they mutually agreed to break up after blue realized this wasnt what he wanted (he came to the conclusion that he was gay, well, he knew for awhile but it was Internalized Homophobia)

he grew up in a very conservative family so to see the world completely differently by meeting red, ems (lt), pink and stacey was a very good thing for him. unfortunately even tho his family did love him, it was conditional so they stopped talking to him after he came out. thankfully he’d already graduated high school by that point

despite being emotional blue isn’t very good at understanding how he’s an emotional person. he’s able to distinct one feeling from another and analyze them, but it’s just... hard for him to kind of. process WHY he feels a certain way? which is what’s led to a lot of his struggles in getting closer with ppl

he loooves reading and writing we already know this but i mean come on. he also got a bachelor’s degree in english/ela. so he’s able to become a teacher ig but he doesn’t really want to? at least not for awhile yet

blue was ems’ first friend. at first he couldn’t understand why they had tics but decided he shouldn’t get into someone else’s business. he didn’t find it weird, just cool!

he and red would always pair up for projects if they had classes together!!!!!! blue would do the writing/research and red would do the illustrations. they always turned out really good even if it ended with red cramming it at the last minute

surprisingly hates broseph more than red. well i mean its not surprising, because broseph was always a huge DICK to him

blue’s real name is wyatt!!!!! i forget the meaning but i felt the sound of it and the meaning fit him well

piiiiink!!!!!!!!!!

she’s still in college, getting her doctorate to be an astrophysicist!

pink is very very smart and will help anyone who’s struggling with something in school. she was basically the genius who always got in the honor roll every year. but, she actually was really anxious especially with exams

pink encourages stacey to go back to school, and sometimes stacey does, but she always ends up leaving again. it’s a little stressful but pink has hope for her

she’s never drank one sip of alcohol in her entire life. she smoked weed once, but it felt weird so she didn’t do it again

ever since she and blue broke up she’s been very supportive of him bc she herself is bisexual!!! so she sees nothing weird about it. in fact, about almost a year later she started dating stacey

pink’s real name is lily. when she became friends with blue she met red through him and she was like “can i join your nickname thing” and they said “sure” so they called her pink. stacey sometimes calls her pinky or just pink but mostly lily

pink helped red with academics. even tho he was sometimes insufferable to work with (/j thats a Joke i promise she’s a very patient person) she didn’t give up on him!!!! in return he helped her out with some fitness stuff cuz pink was always insecure about gym, and later when she graduated she actually got into exercising bc of red!

she loves travelling and going for walks. she owns a lot of houseplants and she’s given them all names and takes very good care of them! she also owns an albino ball python named Velvet

STACEYYY!!!!!!!

stacey is nOT actually all about sex this time ok. i don’t like that. i mean she did have some personality in canon but it wasn’t much? anyways she just really likes to express herself thru tight/”risque” clothing like fishnets and leather and pleated skirts and thigh-highs and platform boots, all of that. basically she’s a goth girl but doesn’t really “act” like one

she’s really intelligent when it comes to animals and insects and will tell you anything you need to know. when she goes back to college she gets a degree in environmental science

stacey can play the electric and bass guitars!!!! she was in a band back in high school but it never really went anywhere beyond performances at parties in someone’s garage. not that she didn’t like it, looking back on it makes her feel happy, but she wished it continued. probably why she has a hard time going back to college bc she’s not sure what she really wants

stacey is a trans woman btw!!!!! unfortunately it was a little difficult in high school to be who she was bc some kids were jerks, but there were a lot of others who supported her which is good

she views red as her brother as well and they still hang out a lot

i haven’t really had time to focus on stacey and make headcanons and stuff for her so i don’t have a lot but... let’s say, secretly, she’s a scifi nerd. and for the sake of debate, let’s say she’s a marvel fan. if you count being a fan of deadpool as being a fan of marvel

LOVES GIRLS.... loves pink!!!

has very similar music taste to red’s!!!!!

emssss!!!!!!! (lt)

instead of being a stereotype of ppl with tourette’s syndrome, it’s just a normal thing that isn’t focused on a whole lot. it doesn’t make ems swear but if they get really really frustrated they’ll curse while doing one of their tics

ems is agender, i’d say they’re also ageless but i don’t really want to make them too “nonhuman” because i feel like that’s dehumanizing to people with tourette’s. so let’s just say most laws of existence don’t apply to them

they’re very friendly!

they’re an aspiring musician, just like in canon

ems is also big into horror movies believe it or not. they’re pretty critical of them though like most horror movie fans, and only like specific ones (i’m not a horror movie fan myself so i can’t say what Specific Ones they like ajsdhbjn just imagine they have good taste okay)

they r very artsy too and like doing crafts cause it gives them something to focus on. it’s just a hobby though it’s not something they’re Professional at

they love nature and flowers and trees and all kinds of plants and animals!!! they like to document what they see when they travel thru nature and stuff so they bring a camera with them (and their phone, but, you know whatever)

ems was never really affected by things people said to them regarding their syndrome. to them it was something they were born with, so they couldn’t bother to feel bad about themselves. in certain situations theyre able to control it but 90% of the time they don’t care about what ppl think

aaaand there u go!!! as for minor characters like raccoon, jason/trollz0r, broseph, dingleberry, they all exist (raccoon isnt a racist stereotype tho), i just dont focus on them a whole lot. most of my hcs for stacey and ems here were thought up on the spot since i havent had time to lay out all my ideas for them but i hope what i have here is good !!!!

also, red and blue ARE dating, and pink and stacey ARE ALSO dating. gay rights

[strawbterrys]

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ok woW u asked ALL of them DBDIDOSMSMABD

Also sorry to my followers bc idk how to put stuff under the cut? So scroll super fast lol if u don't wanna see!!

💖 have you ever been in love? are you in love rn?

im not sure..i think so..? idk i haven’t rlly been in many relationships but I know whenever my gf talks to me I get all excited and happy!!!!! if it isn't love then idk what is!!!!!!!

but i believe in being in love platonically, if it makes sense? like i know it's a bit of an oxymoron but i love my friends and being appreciated by them and making them happy and spending time with them just!! wrow!!!

🌹 what do you think are the most romantic flowers other than roses?

answered!

🍫 do you have a favorite chocolate or sweet?

UUUU THATS SO HARD I HAVE SUCH A SWEET TOOTH LIKE .. WROW. ummmm. OH ! PANCAKES I LOVE PANCAKES THEYRE SO SOFT N FLUFFY AND PERFECTLY SWEET !! 💗��🥞✨💗

OR BOBA!!! I LOVE BOBA in my milk tea!! Okinawa and matcha milk tea in particular are super good

💗 how do you show you care? what do people do that makes you feel loved?

I try to be considerate of ppls feelings. Like, I'll try to remember things abt them and i actually love spoiling my friends when I can? i guess I feel loved when ppl do the same for me, heheh;;

🕊 what do you think about marriage? how would you like to be proposed to?

marriage seems sorta scary on one hand,  but on the other,, spending the rest of my life with the person I love sounds pretty great too!! As for the specific proposal, Hifumi would invite me to the host club the works at and w

🍰 what’s your favorite dessert to eat? do you have a favorite to make?

macarons are fun to make! I always struggle and I wasted like 8 eggs trying to get the bitchass merengue to form and UGH but they're still fun,, esp when  u make them with friends! Also I liked shaved snow w pocky, mochi, and condensed milk yummm

💘 you would fall in love with someone who…

bro this is so embarrassing my answers are all the same pls just . just show me i matter to u

that or be @pukaaz

🍨 describe your ideal first date, what about it makes it perfect?

i actually rlly like aquariums! i love them bc theres so many interesting fish and sealife and just uGH I LOVE THE VIBES AQUARIUMS GIVE  YFEEL? LIKE im that bitch who collects every fucking fish in animal crossing and then sits in my museum watching them for five hours

They just make me feel so peaceful. A first date shouldnt be super nerve wracking and I would love to just be able to chill out and enjoy smth tranquil like that

(And obv we have to get ice cream or boba  aND!! I WANT A PLUSHIE FROM THE AQUARIUM GIFT SHOP DUH)

💝 what gift would you like to receive? what type do you like to give?

I like getting stuffed animals… or things that maybe I've  mentioned wanting and they remembered like?? Ok?? Wowowo???? and same thing when giving like i one of my dearest friends mentioned on her ig abt a plush she wanted so like...maybe a year later? idk?? i finally found it and got it for her and her reaction was so happy it was absolutely worth the trouble

💌 love letters or poetry? love songs or mixtapes? make out sessions or snuggling?

LOVE LETTERS VALIDATE ME   P L E A SE

and mixtapes!!! And snuggling bc im.  Tooshytokissanyonernoknextquestion-

💋 lipgloss, lipstick, or chapstick?

answered!

🍒 which is better- a down to earth, comfortable love or an exciting, butterflies in your stomach type of love?

umm .. im sorta shy so like. i get butterflies over literally anything? so someone who could be patient enough until im more comfortable would be so nice AHHHH cozy… (ㅅ´ ˘ `)♡

💓 what do people do that makes your heart skip a beat? what makes your heart melt?

honestly there's been so few times when this has happened like validation whomst but again,,, nothing makes me feel warmer than when ppl do stuff that shows they care,, like double messaging or remembering stuff abt me or knowing smths wrong w me without me even having to say smth

💐 how would you woo someone? how do you flirt?

I! CANNOT! FLIRT! ohmygod. but maybe i’d just try and spend time with them and pay attention to their interests? i’d also try to make sure they knew they’re appreciated

💕 vague about your crush or partner?

shes very pretty!! i had a fATASS CRUSH on her as soon as we became friends a few years ago but APPARENTLY she knew because i’m “”””obvious””””

nyways, she's super duper funny and her laugh is so cute!!! she doesn't love herself and i rlly wanna help her see how great she is!!!

💫 do you get crushes easily? what makes you fall for someone?

literally anytime someone decent looking even says my name I start blushing like an iDIOT but my validation deprivation (rhymes...hypmic wya) makes me interpret any form of non-hostile treatment as like… grounds for a crush? jesus.

as for what makes me actually fall for someone

hmm.... i think people remembering me and the things important to me really just makes me feel like i matter, and when even IM able to feel like i matter a LOT to someone? If it gets to a point where i,,, the most insecure person on the PLANET,,, knows that this person cares about me? Bam. I love u,,,, u own my heart,,, take my firstborn and h

🍓 what are you doing for valentine’s day? do you have any self care plans?

since its may already, i dont rlly know what i’m gonna do. hopefully by then i’ll be able to see my gf and obv shower her w love n affection and gifts and fun trip out somewhere, and also my friends! i try my best to come up with little gifts for them each year but I've been failing miserably the past two years TT

🍦 what are ten things you love about youself?

answered!!

❣ red, pink, or purple? glitter or sequins? silk or velvet?

PINK!!! look at my bLog BRO! also hmm….glitter….and velvet! PINK GLITTER VELVET

[stay-hopefull]

Okay so. I've thought a lot abt writing things down but every time the effort of like. Sitting down and writing everything out is too much? Idk tbh

Past days ive been tired a lot again; monday was all day and today i started great! There's this online discord-"library" where you just turn on your camera but turn off your microphone and others do too and that way it doesn't feel like im studying alone all day. Short term its good for making me start on time and keeping me from wandeeing around the house aimlessly. It does however push me to do more than i can actually do spoon-wise? I think? Idk i did good work before noon and then ate and took a longer break, but then i sort of got mentallystuck on the couch

(okay this isn't the energy thing tho this is the fact that there was really bad communication from the teacher abt if class was a lecture (which i can stream) or guided excercises (which id have to independently figure out bc i cant go to class rn). And also there was miscommunication abt when class would start. Meaning that it was 15 minutes after when i thought class would start and i still had no idea what whas going on. And my brakn was kinda stuck like 'hey you have to watch this lecture' but there was no lecture. So i needed recalibration time. I did eventually succeed at figuring out what to do :) )

Anyway i was able to join the guided excercises via videocall with a friend who was there. So that was okay but also chaos bc there was lots of background noise and i couldnt find a sound level at which i could understand everything i needed to (without having to put concious effort into hearing ánd understanding people) but not overwhelmed by the (very similar) background noise. So i just had my brain struggle a bit more than it should've. And then i was really fuckening tired. And i literally just shut off the video call and laid my head on my arms bc there was No Energy For Anything. Moving to the couch 2 meters away was like impossible. I think it took me abt 15 minutes of laying there? And then i put my stuff back on my own desk and crashed in the couch. For like an hour. Which, yk, was probably an indicator that i'd done enough that day but noooo

My brain has this amazing tendency to say "you haven't finished your work so now you can't do anything else. Oh you can't work rn? Guess you'll spend time scrolling social media and feeling like your life has no purpose"

So i checked if anyone was in the library and there was so i joined them and continued studying. I think i did like 45 minutes? And then my dad said go eat so i did. But after that i went back to studying. I only stopped bc in high school i refused to keep working later than 8pm. And it was already 20h30. But yeah i started crying just before going to bed so i dont think today was as okay or repeatable as id like it to be. I feel kinda overworked and i have no idea how i'll manage 7 weeks of this + exams. Just today we received the dates of when reports are due and i already feel so behind on everything. I don't even know how much weeks of class have passed already. Its like one big blur of stress and anxiety and "you have to do this!" "You have to be there then!" "Remember to answer the 25 messages from yesterday!" "Oh yeah you're running out of food and haven't done the dishes in a week :)" and i keep telling myself that ill be fine, that ive done this before but like. At what cost. What's the point of keeping on doing this to myself. I just want it all to stop.

So that overwhelmed feeling is almost definitly the one that turns into breakdowns. Along with the voice that says 'you did this wrobg. You did that wrong. That's no good. Why did you do that. Stop trying. You'll never be good enough'.

I guess i can call them burn-out and impostor syndrome but right now giving them a name just makes me angry at how you can't get faciliteiten at uni unless you have a diagnosis and even then idk what that'd help with.

Im gonna sleep now i have class tomorrow morning :)

[confusedlucifer]

(1) (passionate, homosexual anonymous love letter) I think I've told you before, but I started following you before I left tumblr, and I come back to keep myself up to date on memes and art and pop culture, without the time suck of logging in and scrolling through my dash. (Thankfully you haven't changed your delightful username/url). You continue to be an excellent curator of posts, and I got into The Man From Uncle and The Adventure Zone bc of you, and will probably get into Mr Robot soon

(2) because what I trust your taste. You also post lovely art of your own, and you have a distinctive style that I enjoy. (Idk if you've seen The Road to El Dorado, but there's a character called Tzekel-Kan who's drawn with a distinctive nose/face structure. Every time I saw one of your paintings, esp of Kylo, I used to think of his nose, but now I just go 'oh cool, that's a Jane nose'. It shows up in a lot of your work, and I think it's great! ) 

(3) I think you're very creative and welcoming, and have good taste in music, and I'm glad you're in the fandoms you're in and making the art that you are. I don't think I agree with you on absolutely everything, but I'm still happy to see you post/reblog about things. I'm glad you're you and I'm glad you're trying to make the world a better place. This isn't an excessively homosexual letter, bc I just don't know enough about you personally I guess? But I'm bi and feel very gay about some of

(4) your art and posts, so I hope that counts. And I don't know if it's passionate enough, since honest appreciation/conversation and food is how I express passion, and I can't bake you cake. (Idk, poetry is pretty homosexual and passionate maybe? Should I start sending you poetry??) But I would like you to know that I think you're pretty wonderful and that I am extending good vibes and love towards you any day I read your blog. ☆♡☆♡☆

goddddd anon waking up to this made me so emotional youre such a good egg ;______; to actually address your lovely letter though

- you SHOULD get into mr robot! i dont know how much you care about hacking and computers and stuff bc its a big part of the show but at the same time, i know i dont care about it nor do i know anything about it and i still love the show and the characters so much? the latest season has been some of the best television ive ever seen tbh, mr robot has a really interesting and unique style of telling its story but most importantly the main cast of characters is just. so good.  (also diverse!)

- but also im v flattered you trust my taste/judgement that makes me v happy since it usually takes me like literal years to get my friends into anything ive p  much given up  :”D

- I LOVE ME A BIG NOSE!! also i love the road to el dorado!!! i often struggle w feelings abt how my art style isnt really that distinctive or original, i usually dont let it bother me bc i think its more important to learn the fundamentals rather than chase an original style but still i appreciate you saying that so much :”) seriously though i love big and bumpy and hooked and interesting noses so much!

-  and honestly i think anything open, honest and full of affection for another person is gay so you did great and i clutched my chest a lot reading this! i do love an accept poetry if you want to venture into that but im also just fine with regular talking that we should do if we dont already bc you sound lovely and like a friend! if youre not here that much you can find me on twitter or instagram or wherever (except discord bc i still dont know how it works and at this point im too afraid to ask) at the same @ :”)

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Any tips for a starting art blog, I've been updating my blog lots and tagging everything but I've never gotten for that 5-7 notes on my hard work

hey anon!! mm, ive been thinking about how to best answer this question since its something a lot of artists have trouble with. exposure is really hard to get, especially on sites like tumblr and people rarely get instant recognition. if you scroll through to the beginning of my blog you’ll see my first posts have only a couple of notes if any at all, but being persistent and continuing to upload is key. in the end, the amount of notes or likes you get doesnt determine your art’s quality or worth. ive seen amazing artists who have only a couple hundred followers bc tbh a lot of getting your stuff out there is just the right people seeing and reblogging it at the right time. i know its tough when you work really hard on something and dont get the validation you wanted, but thats why its best to go into an art blog w/ little expectations. i dont have any get famous quick tips, esp since im still struggling to get my own art out there but here are my suggestions:> continue tagging all your art!! i know you said you’ve already been doing that but if you post enough you’ll eventually see which tags are the most popular. pay attention to which posts get more notes, and why that is. Is it the time you posted? what you tagged it with? or the actual aesthetic of the art itself?> maybe draw some fanart for an artist you admire!! a lot of artists reblog art drawn for them and its a double win if you make something nice for someone and get a tiny feature in the process. dont go into this expecting anything in return though, fan art is best made when you actually want to draw it, not when you’re looking to gain something.> going off of that point, draw because you want to draw. its important to enjoy what you’re doing. never fall into the trap on relying on notes for validation. as long as you’re satisfied w/ your work just keep doing what you’re doing. and if you’re not, then aim to improve and practice consistently. this only really doesnt apply when you’re doing art for money; when you’re drawing for your livelihood you definitely need to be making art that people like and will spend money on but if you’re a hobbyist or in a situation where u dont need the money immediately you have the leisure to take it at your own pace!> lastly, know that even if you only get a couple of notes on something, there are people out there who do enjoy your art!! i think its really comforting to know that someone out there might look up to you or that one of your pieces helped them feel a little better and tbh thats the most i as an artist can ask fortldr; there’s no concrete guide for getting exposure, but keep at it and you’ll definitely get there! obviously you can ignore everything i say if you want to, im no way an expert at this, but if i helped you in anyway im happy!