#its so unbelieveably fine. yeah okay. okay!
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waking up and remembering I have to live the rest of my life today and tomorrow and so on âčïž
#i love wasting yhe only days i get off work by being utterly miserable đ#just dont know. how im going to get out of this one i dont think i can. but i also cant just accept this is how it is#so im trapped in a kind of limbo where im never going to be genuinely happy or satisfied or fulfilled. thats for other people i guess#and i just have to settle at never having enough or being enough. second rate existence. i try so hard and for what man#umm anyway. cant do this rn bc friend still over so gotta put my face on play the the role its all good its so good u wouldnt even know#and i have to go to the gym this evening bc thats the only thing i got going for me rn. so i need to distract myself until then#its so unbelieveably fine. yeah okay. okay!#.diaries#i think im losing my.miund
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I'm ngl, I think the fine is worse to me than forced community service. Ik they're all rich as fuck but. 10,000 euro for accidentally swearing? 10k!?!?!?!?!?! It's just a word??????? Just a little fuck???? I cannot believe the stewards are dying on this stupid fucking hill, oh my god. The world's most elite sport swear jar
Can't even say fuck anymore, because of woke.
#thinking abt how back in my fav ers of f1#theyd try not to curse obviously bcs i mean its polite or whatever#but. seriously not a big deal if so#just say oops! and move on#bcs i really really do not understand who it affects#theyre in a room of adults. who is this fucking bothered???#its not like them saying it in some big event everyones gonna see#ik this sounds like im being overly dramatic#i just cannot stand this sanitization its really absurd to me#i think its fine if theyre like. please try not to curse thank you#okay!! totally!!! this is a professional environment i understand that#but 10k and a threat of 5k just for one accidental little fucking?#ITS SO UNBELIEVABLY DUMB#but yeah the community service also fucking stupid#but its also just forcing the individual to repent so whatever#theyre privileged as hell go scrub the track w a toothbrush or whatever it is they make you do#but 10k ....stupid#absurd amount of money for saying a word that literally harms no one#catie.rambling.txt#f1
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Ah. Oh. Right. When people look at me, they see my weight.
#hahaha body dysmorphia is a bitch#i keep forgetting what i look like to others#then i see a picture of myself or i catch my reflection#i physically recoil whenever i see my stomach poking out from under my shirt#its fine when it's other people. they make it look good#i just. i can't look at it when it's me#my body shape is just off#my perception of myself is just off#i never look right#vent#i am fat. for my height. if you subscribe to bmi stuff (which i know is kinda bullshit) im obese#i dont feel like im that big. and then i try on clothes.#I've always struggled to buy clothes that fit because sizing has always been off for me#when i was younger. my mom always bought clothes that were a size too small#...yeah#i think i have an ed. i mean. there's really no way i dont. ya know? my relationship with food is absolutely fucked#god. im so unbelievably sad about this right now. and it's all because i misinterpreted a text#ha.#okay. im sorry. I'll shut up now.
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i have a name | l.s
a/n: so this is an idea i had after the miami gp and its been stuck in my head so im finally writing it. there is some slight jos slander and reader is max's sister
summary: y/n verstappen drives for f1 academy. they find comfort in a certain american when the media gets too much
Your whole life you've always been Max's sister. You didn't hate your brother for it because it wasn't his fault. You hated the world for being so small minded. You hated your dad for not caring. His words stuck in your head like a broken record. 'You're overreacting Y/N. It's not a big deal. You need to grow up.'
But it was a big deal because why couldn't they be bothered to learn your name. Your accomplishments throughout your career always amounted to 'Max's sister' it was never 'Y/N Verstappen'. You were sure if they could your trophies would say that too.
Going into the F1 Academy you thought it'd be different. You were excited when you got the call. The first person you told was Max and he was even more excited than you, if that was even possible. You were at the forefront of the series, watching young girls across the world become interested in the sport you loved. Something you wished you had growing up.
The driving was great. The team was great. Everything was great except the media. Its the one thing you dreaded stepping into the spotlight more. You tried to develop a thick skin like your brother but it was difficult when you constantly got picked at.
"So, Y/N, great day today. You qualified third. How was it?" The interviewer asked.
"Yeah it was great. Obviously we'd prefer P1 but we're still happy with the result and looking forward to pushing it even more tomorrow." You replied, grinning at your result. It might not be front of the grid but you were still proud.
"Your brother Max had a phenomenal season last year. Can we expect the same this year?" And there it was. Your first interview of the weekend and it only took one question before they asked you about your brother. Normally you didn't mind talking about Max's accomplishments. You were so unbelievably proud of him. It's when they start talking about him when they should be asking you about your race and your season that you get annoyed.
You plastered on your fake smile, hoping no one saw the disappointment flash across your face. "It's hard to say what this year will bring but what I do know is that Max will give it his everything. Whatever happens though I'm still proud of him."
Before anymore questions about Max could be asked your manager made a sign that time was up. You thanked the interviewer and left the media pen. She gave you a run down of tomorrows schedule as you were now finished for the day. Your manager didn't need to ask if you were okay because she knew you weren't. Working with you for a few years meant she had learnt all your tells.
You thanked her for today before parting ways, leaving you alone. The night air was brisk but welcoming. You shut your eyes and sighed enjoying the silence. You were supposed to be meeting Max tonight yet you couldn't bring yourself to move. Not wanting to face him just yet.
It was late and you weren't expecting many people left at the grid. Especially the F1 drivers which was why you jumped when a voice broke the silence. "Y/N right?" Logan said, your stomach fluttered when you looked at him. You have never really spoken to Logan before, only seeing him in passing but you always thought he was cute. He also called you by your name and not 'Max's sister' which was a welcomed surprise, used to his friends calling you that. "Sorry, didn't mean to scare you."
"It's fine, just wasn't expecting anyone to be left at the track." You told him. You took in his appearance under the setting sun. He was in his Williams uniform, his hair slightly tousled from wearing his hat all day.
"Yeah, I was just heading out. Had to do a few tweaks before tomorrow. What are you doing here late?" He asked.
"Media." You grimaced. Logan laughed, understanding your reaction.
"That bad huh?"
"Yep." You nodded. "Talked about Max the whole time."
The two of slowly started walking towards the car you have rented this weekend. It was one of the few left in the parking lot. "Seriously? That's so shit." Logan said, shaking his head. It wasn't out of pity though, more like anger.
"You get used to it." You shrugged.
"You shouldn't have to though." He told you, pulling you both to a stop. His eyes, looking at you intensely making you nervous. "You were incredible out there today and I'll definitely be watching tomorrow as you get your first podium of the season."
"Wait, you watched qualifying?" You asked, surprised.
"Don't tell my trainer though." Logan grinned, winking at you making you laugh. It was a sound he could get used to.
"Well thank you Logan. It means a lot." You thanked him, coming to a stop when you reached the drivers seat door.
"You have a name, Y/N. Your not just Max Verstappen's sister and I hope you know that." He said, earnestly.
You don't know what came over you but you found yourself leaning up, pressing a kiss on Logan's cheek. "Thank you."
-x-
"You're late." Was all Max said as you walked through your hotel room door. You kicked off your shoes, walking further into the room seeing your brother lying on your freshly made bed scrolling on his phone.
"Don't you have a sim race or something?" You asked, shoving his feet off your bed trying to change the subject because what else can you say? The reason you were late was the slight breakdown you had about the interview and then you bumped into Logan. You couldn't exactly tell Max that.
He playfully stuck his middle finger up at you, knowing you were making fun of him. "How was your day anyway? Excited for tomorrow?"
"Yeah it was good." You lied. You liked that Max was oblivious sometimes because it meant you didn't have to talk about what people said about you. However, you also hated his obliviousness because sometimes you wanted your brother to comfort you. "Hopefully people won't get sick of the Dutch national anthem." You grinned at Max who laughed loudly.
You asked Max about his day and he told you about how confident he was with this years car, excited to see what he can get out of it. He carried on talking as you got out of your team uniform and into some comfy clothes when he quietened down.
"When were you going to tell me?" Max asked when you exited the bathroom. "About what the interviewer said?"
"It's fine Max." You said, avoiding his gaze on you by putting your clothes away. You were afraid if you looked at him the dam would break.
"It's not fine, Y/N." He huffed, his voice raising out of anger. It wasn't aimed at you though, Max would never raise his voice at you. "It was so unprofessional. Not to mention the commentators today couldn't even be bothered to learn your name. I'm going to do something about it."
Max's reaction reminded you of Logan's. You didn't think anyone would care this much. Especially someone who you never really had a conversation with before. You knew it was pointless to ask Max to leave it alone so you didn't bother. "Just please don't do anything stupid."
"When have I ever done that?" Max asked and you laughed. You would run out of fingers if you counted all the times Max did something stupid.
It was getting late and you and Max said your goodbyes, leaving you alone once again with your thoughts. Instead of the video on repeat in your head it was Logan's words. You reached over for your phone and unlocked it, going straight to instagram to find Logan's profile. You hit follow before going to his dms.
Y/N:
Thank you again for tonight.
His response was quick making your stomach flutter.
Logan:
You don't need to keep thanking me Y/N
Y/N:
I know
I enjoyed talking to you tonight
So thank you for your company đ
Logan:
I enjoyed talking to you too đ
I hope we can do it again some time
You were sure you were grinning like an idiot but you didn't care. You had fallen for the American and hard.
Y/N:
I would love to âșïž
Good luck for tomorrow Logan đ
Logan:
Good luck Y/N đ
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USER KATSUKISTOFU, WRITE A HANTA SERO PIECE, AND MY LIFE IS YOURSSSSâŒïžđđ«Ą
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contents ౚৠâ s. hanta x fem reader. fluff. â
sero reminds you of a few important things that your all-seeing quirk overlooks.
âSo youâre not dating him?â The girl in front of you asks again to clarify. Sheâs either from General Studies or the Business course you think, you honestly donât really remember and donât care.
You heave a sigh. âYou asked that already, I said no the first time.â
At this point youâd assume the conversation would be over, but of course she opens her mouth again.
âThen you wouldnât mind if I asked him out, right?â
Your headâs starting to throb and you force your tone to be calm. âSorry, but do you understand the definition of not datingââ
âUh, yeah she would.â
A familiar voice speaks, and your eyes widen as you make contact with its source, your best friend. âSero? What are you doing here?â
âMaking sure people donât have the wrong idea of us.â He offers you a sly grin, tugging you closer by the sleeve of your uniform.
âHow is this making sure people donât have the wrong idea of us?â You hiss, placing your hands on his unfairly firm chest to stop yourself from colliding with it. With a quick glance around, it seems like the girl is gone.
âHmm.â Seroâs smirk only deepens on his pretty lips. He did this on purpose to have you alone to himself, didnât he? âDidnât see you complaining when we pretended to be together to get a discount for tatts.â
âTheir prices for hypothetically single people were crazy!â Your cheeks burn as his fingers trail over a spot on the fabric of your school uniform.
The skin underneath burns as he continues to trace the almost exact pattern of your tattoo, like he has it memorized from when you both showed each other right after getting them done at the parlor.
Sero playfully fidgets with the hair tie on your wrist that he let you steal from him earlier as he continues. âOr when I told the waiter at that fancy restaurant you were my girlfriend and that he couldnât give you his number, but weâd love to take the coupleâs deal instead.â
âThatâs different!â You protest weakly, sounding unbelievable even to your own ears.
âWhat, are you going to play with my hair, like how you always do when you get stressed?â He murmurs, gently tilting your chin up to force you to meet his eyes.
You curse as you realize heâs right, somehow your finger has already found its own way to twirl one of his dark locks.
Seroâs dusky eyes darken with a hint of hurt.
âHow long are you going to keep pretending?â His voice is painfully soft.
âI donât know, Iâm justâŠâ You take shuddering breath. âIâm scared, I guess.â
âScared of what?â Seroâs brows furrow. âIs it because of that rando? Because you could easily take her, Iâve seen you with some strong ass villainsââ
You laugh and smack his bicep. âNo, dummy! Iâm scared becauseâŠâ Your voice hesitates, and he hugs your waist tighter.
âUse your words, sweetheart.â
Your breath catches as he uses that tone. âOkay now youâre just being unfair.â
âHey, Iâll beg if I have to.â He grins before faking a drop down to his knees.
You squeal as his strong arms take you with him, only to come back up and steady you, and he chuckles as you smack him.
âOkay, Iâll tell you! Iâm scared because I donât want to end up pretending like we donât know each other when we break up. You mean a lot to me, and I think,â You mumble as your finger continues to play with a button on his dress shirt. âI think that would really mess me up.â
âYou mean a lot to me too.â Seroâs eyes soften. âAnd if we break up.â
âNothing lasts forever, Sero.â
âLetâs prove them wrong then.â He brushes his knuckles across your cheek with such tenderness that it hurts. âBaby, why are you so worried about a future that wonât happen?â
âBecause Iâve seen it happen to people.â Thereâs a worried frown on your face as all your past visions from your Quirk flash through your mind. âOne moment everythingâs going fine, then it all falls apart. Fate runs its course. I donât want that to happen to us.â
âForget fate, I want you.â He cups your cheeks, and you huff as youâre sandwiched between his hands. âItâs hot when you get all Doomsday on me, but I think youâre overthinking it.â
You let out a giggle, realizing heâs right. Nothing is ever set in stone, and you knew that your powers would cause you to be predisposed to anxiously anticipate things, even ones far from your current time.
Heâs always reminded you to breathe, like now.
âI want you to focus on the present in that pretty little head of yours, okay?â Seroâs warm, caramel voice tickles your ear. âCan you do that for me?â
âOkay.â You whisper from where your headâs tucked under his chin, clutching his uniform in your hands. âI really want you too.â
He breathes a relieved laugh into your hair. âThatâs good. So I can say it now right?â
You bury a smile into his shoulder and his lips tug upward as well when he feels it. âGo ahead.â
Sero takes a deep breath.
âCan I be your boyfriend?â
The butterflies in your stomach flutter while you stand on your tip toes, and to your delight his pupils are blown out and his cheeks are already flushed before you even lean in to give them a kiss.
âYes. In every future, yes.â
#sero hanta x reader#sero hanta x you#sero hanta#bnha oneshot#mha fluff#mha x reader#mha x you#sero x reader#sero fluff#bnha fluff#bnha x reader#my hero academia x reader
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Deepest Desire
Pairing : Dean Winchester X Reader
Word count : 2k
Warnings : angst, heartbreak, feelings of betrayal, alcohol, strong language, spoilers. Unedited.
A/n : This is a Supernatural x Lucifer crossover fic. Iâve only ever watched a few episodes of Lucifer. This is a work of fiction, I donât own Supernatural or Lucifer. They belong to CW and Netlfix respectively.
I DO NOT GIVE PERMISSION TO COPY MY WORK, TRANSLATE IT OR POST IT TO ANY OTHER PLATFORM. REBLOGS ARE APPRECIATED.
Another day, another hunt. But it was nothing crazy. With Chuck being gone things are as normal as they could be. Y/n's friend had called in for help and she was happy to go. On her way back to the Bunker, her car stopped abruptly and wouldn't start. She slammed her hand on the steering wheel before calling Dean, filling him in on the situation.
"If only you'd let me take baby I would've been home by now." She groaned over the phone and she heard him laugh on the other side.
"My bad, sweetheart. You can take it next time." He chuckled before he added, "I'll be in an hour tops okay? Get some place safe."
"Yeah I see a bar its uh.. 'the tipsy tavern' I'll be there."
She hung up the phone and made her way towards the bar. It wasn't too far from where her car stopped, just a walking distance. She went inside and it was, well, typically how a bar is. She scanned the place thoroughly, her eyes landing on a woman with blond hair. She seemed troubled. She kept looking over her shoulder, continuously fidgeting with her hands.
Y/n walked up to her and slid in the stool beside her. The woman slightly jumped at the action and it didn't go unnoticed by her.
"Hey are you okay?" Y/n asked her, the woman eyed her cautiously before nodding.
"I'm fine." She replied curtly.
"Are you sure? You seem distressed." Y/n pressed hoping she could help somehow. The woman sighed, looking at her.
"Youâd think Iâm crazy."
"Try me." Y/n said mentally scoffing, what could this woman tell her that would be more unbelievable than what she deals with on a daily basis.
"I'm not from here."
"So you're a foreigner, are you lost?" Y/n questioned.
"No you don't understand." The woman seemed frustrated. "My name is Chloe Decker, I'm a detective." She said and Y/n nodded, urging her to continue. "I'm from LA. But this isn't my world." Chloe didn't know what it was about the woman infront of her that made her want to trust her.
"Your world?" Before Chloe could answer a man in a black suit takes a seat on the side side of Chloe.
"Well hello there. Made a new friend, did we detective?" The man spoke in a British accent.
"This is uh.." Chloe trailed off not knowing her name so Y/n quickly told her name. "This is Y/n." The man opened his mouth to say something but Y/n interrupted him.
"What do you mean this isn't your world?" She questioned.
"Well you see darlin' we were on a case, an then an explosion went off and we were here. I can feel the change in the cosmic energy around us." The man spoke.
"How do you feel the cosmic energies?" Y/n questioned the man.
"My bad lady, I didn't introduce myself. I'm Lucifer Morningstar." He said with a smooth voice.
"You're Lucifer? Like the devil Lucifer?" She questioned.
"Yes." He replied. "The devil Lucifer."
"That can't be." She said mostly to herself.
"I know it sounds implausible but-"
"You're dead. We killed you this isn't possible. You're not Lucifer. You can't be." She whisper yelled at the man who claimed to be Lucifer.
Chloe looked back and forth between Lucifer, the smirk on his face was long gone and it was morphed into a serious expression,
"Can we rewind back to when she said we killed you'." He said looking at Chloe who seemed even more troubled. "Who even are you?"
"God, this day couldn't get any worse." Y/n sighed. The trio had now shifted to a table for four. Chloe sat beside Lucifer and Y/n infront of him. She had foregone the glass and was now directly drinking from the bottle of whiskey. She needed as much as alcohol she could to process this.
"So, you're telling me, you hunt monsters and Lucifer of this universe was locked in a cage in Hell and then your..boyfriend's brother let him out and he wreaked havoc so you pushed him back inside and later killed him when he came back?" Chloe asked tasting the words on her mouth because it sounds absurd when said out loud.
"I know it sounds weird when you put it like that but yeah." Y/n said with humorless chuckle. "You weren't locked?" She asked Lucifer.
"No, Father just kicked me out from Heaven, I ruled Hell for a while but then I got bored so I came to Earth and I'm detective's partner now."
"Wow, so you're not a dick like he was. Our universe's Lucifer should've learned a thing or two from you." She scoffed. "Anyways, so if you have your mojo you can't teleport yourself back to your universe?"
"Mojo?" Chloe questioned.
"His powers." Y/n clarified and the former nodded.
"You I haven't actually tried if they're working." Lucifer admitted.
"Bit slow, aren't you?" Y/n sassed Chloe snorted, she found it amusing, this woman is sassing the devil himself.
"You seem so unbothered it's like it's just another Tuesday for you." Chloe commented and Y/n muttered a small 'tell me about it'. Her phone buzzed in her pocket and she answered call the call. It was Dean.
"Hey I'm almost here. I saw your car and I'm heading to the bar now." He said.
"Alright cool. See you soon." She said hanging up. She looked at the couple infront of her. "Dean's here, I'll ask him if we can help you somehow."
"Thank you so much, Y/n." Chloe said gratefully smiling at her. The former nodded and mumbled a quick, 'I'll be back' before leaving the bar.
She waited a few minutes before she saw the black Impala pulling up. She watched her boyfriend get out the car and she made her way towards him.
"Hey gorgeous." He cupped her cheeks and pulled her in for a kiss. "I could've come get you inside. You didn't have to wait outside." He said against her lips. She pulled away and bit her lip. Dean groaned as he recognised her expression.
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"So you're telling me this Lucifer is British." Dean said looking at his girlfriend incredulously. The two of them had went inside and Y/n took her previous seat while Dean took one beside her.
"That's all you gathered from what I've told you?" Y/n asked her boyfriend and he shurgged. "Anyways, they need our help and i think we should help him."
"Really? You want to help the dick that possessed Sam and almost killed all of us twice?" Dean snapped. Lucifer seemed offended but he didn't comment.
"De, he's not him. That asshole is dead." Y/n added. Dean rolled his eyes and leaned back in his chair, his gaze scrutinising Lucifer. He then looked at Chloe who seemed helpless and then at his girlfriend who was sporting a pout.
"Fine." Dean sighed. "We'll help, but that doesn't mean I trust you." He warned the devil who raised his hands in surrender.
"Lucifer why don't you see if your mojo works in this universe as well?" Y/n suggested. Lucifer closed his eyes doing God knows what.
"Woah woah stop." Dean said to Lucifer, then turned to Y/n, "What if he's as juiced up as the one we encountered and blows up the place?"
"You're right, I guess." Chloe chimed in and turned to her partner, "why don't you do the thing?" She said to him and he smirked, it's clearly something he loves doing.
"The thing?" Y/n questioned.
"It's nothing harmful. I promise." Chloe replied.
"Y/n dear." Lucifer calls her and she looks at him, he leans a bit towards her making Dean's protective side take over.
"Hey back off." Dean growled but Chloe put a hand over his arm.
"Its okay." She reassured him.
"Tell me Y/n, what is it that you truly desire?" Lucifer asked but his smirk dropped.
"Am I supposed to feel anything or should I just tell you?" She questions.
"This usually works." Lucifer says. "I think I don't have my powers here."
"What were you even trying to do?" Dean questions.
"He can read into people's heart, find their deepest darkest desires." Chloe answers. "Things that you never tell anyone."
"Well maybe it didn't work because I don't have a secret desire." Y/n commented making Lucifer and Chloe look at her in disbelief.
"Everyone has something they desire." He retorted. "Things they never tell anyone."
"I agree but mine isn't hidden or a big secret, for me its Dean." She shrugged. "My deepest desire is to have a normal life with him a house, family, kids, the whole nine yards." She spoke as if it wasn't a big deal and Dean swore he felt himself fall for her all over again. He pecked her temple and Chloe gushed at them.
"Interesting." Lucifer commented.
"If you can feel the cosmic energy around here I'm sure you have your powers. Why don't you try it on Dean?" Y/n suggested.
"I think she's right." Chloe added.
Lucifer faced Dean and the latter shifted a bit under his observing gaze. "Tell me Dean, what is it that you truly desire?" He questioned the Winchester and Y/n watched in anticipation awaiting his answer. A few seconds passed before he answered and nothing could've prepared her for Dean's answer.
"Amara." That one was enough for Y/n's world to come crashing down on her. She felt herself tear up but she cleared her throat before speaking.
"Well at least your still have your powers." Chloe could hear the heartbreak in her voice and gave her a sympathetic look. Lucifer, who found this situation amusing, asked,
"Who's Amara?" Dean sucked in a sharp breath, glaring at the man in front of him, who just smirked in return. What could you expect from him, he's the Devil after all.
"Your Aunt." Y/n snapped unintentionally.
"Why, must you be this childish?" He asked, feeling offended.
"No literally. Amara is God's sister, the darkness. She was here a while back before we locked her up." Y/n explained her voice void of any emotion.
"I've never heard of her. She didn't exist in my universe." Lucifer replied. He pinched the bridge of his nose before adding, "one thing I've realised you lot's universe is way fucked than ours."
"I'll call Sam and ask if we know a way to open a portal to another universe. Excuse me." Y/n said getting up from her chair and walking out the bar. Dean immediately trailing behind her.
"Baby, Y/n." He called out for her but she didn't stop. She let tears fall free now that she wasn't in front of a crowd. "Sweetheart listen to me." He caught up with and turned her to look at him. He hated seeing her cry and hated it even more when he was the reason for her tears. "I can explain, please just..-"
"What's there to explain, Dean?" She cried. She harshly wipes her tears. "Do you want to add salt to wound, tell me it's pitiful that you don't want me as much as I want you?" She let out a sarcastic laugh. "You know what I realised?" She asked rhetorically. "It's always something before me, your car, Sam, Amara, hunting. I'm probably the last thing you need in your life." The moment she said that Dean felt like someone had shot him in the heart.
"No baby, don't say that." Dean begged holding her close. "It's not true. I want you more than anything in this entire world." She scoffed before pulling away from him.
"I need to call Sam. Even if he's been harmless until now, we don't need another Lucifer prancing around our world." She put some distance between them before calling Sam.
"Harmless, my ass." Dean muttered as he kicked the dirt on the road.
He needed to make this right, he wouldn't be able to live if he ever lost her and he needs her to know that. He has to make it right and he will be damned if he didn't.
Part 2
#dean x y/n#dean x reader#dean winchester#sam and dean#dean x you#supernatural#dean winchester x reader fluff#dean winchester x you#dean winchester x reader#dean winchester angst#dean winchester x reader angst#jensen ackles#jensen ackles characters#spn fanfic#spn angst#dean winchester x female!reader#dean winchester fanfiction#lucifer morningstar#chloe decker#lucifer#sam winchester#nini writes
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DREAMS, FAIRYTALES, & FANTASIES (WHEN YOU'RE AROUND ME)
synopsis: sakusa thinks your confidence is sexy. give him a twirl, won't you?
warnings: flirty!sakusa, suggestive, allusions to sex but nothing graphic i promise, reader is fine as hell, sakusa is horny because reader is fine as hell, swearing probably, proof read exactly one (1) time, can someone please buy me a skims dress
SAKUSA has always been comfortable in the role of an observer. Distant. Disconnected. Always calculating. Thereâs so much you can learn about a person by just watching them.
âDo I look okay?â You ignore the intensity of his stare, smoothing away any wrinkles in your skintight dress with a sweaty palm, âItâs not too much for a company dinner?âÂ
Kiyoomiâs eyes sweep up and down your figure, before flicking them up to meet yours through the mirror.
âIâm not sure,â He hums, doing a terrible job at hiding his intentions, a lazy smile on his handsome face, âCâmere for a second.â
Abandoning the array of makeup on your vanity, you skitter over to where he sits on the edge of your shared bed. Kiyoomiâs gaze almost has a physical presence; you can practically feel his eyes on you.
âGive me a twirl, pretty.âÂ
You laugh easily, giving into his request and making a show spinning on your heels to highlight every angle of your outfit. He offers a low whistle in return.Â
âThis dress is a little tight, no?â You can hear his smirk.
âIs that a problem?â You sass, breath catching a bit when you feel the calluses of his hand smooth over your waist and hips, dipping down to toy with the exposed skin of your thigh at the hem of your dress.
âNot at all,â He responds with a breathy chuckle, âYou look beautiful, baby. I love how confident you are when you get dolled up.â
âY-Yeah?âÂ
âYeah,â he parrots, a little breathless because you always seem to have that effect on him, âItâs unbelievably sexy.â
Like an alligator nabs its prey, Sakusaâs arms reach out to you, pulling you into his lap. He chuckles a bit when you squeal, feeling the vibrations of the sound everywhere.
âGod, you look amazing.â He mumbles to the sweet skin of your neck, like itâs a secret belonging only to him, âIâm sorry I couldnât come with you. I would love to be your accessory for the night.âÂ
You giggle at the comment, âAccessory?â
âAccessory might be too kind of a word, actually.â He jokes, âIâd look like hot garbage standing next to you. God, how could you settle like this?â
âStop!â You playfully demand, not a fan of his self-deprecating sense of humor, âI happen to find you quite handsome! You look good! Sexy, even!â
âWrong,â he hums to the shell of your ear, wrapping his arms around you and pulling tight because somehow sitting on his lap wasnât close enough for him, âYou make me look good. I love showing you off.â
âYouâre a terrible flirt.â You soften at his admission, angling his head with a manicured finger and closing the space between the two of you. Slotting your lips against his, you let Kiyoomi lead, the kiss keeping a lazy rhythm. Itâs all tongue and soft sucking; slow because you know heâll miss you, even over a few hours. You pull away dissatisfiedâno amount of kisses will ever be enough, âI love you.â Itâs barely above a whisper.
âI love you, too.â You can see the hearts in his eyes, âBe safe tonight, okay? Call me if anything.â
You nod, wiping away flecks of red that transferred from your lips to his, âYouâre still picking me up?â
âAnd dropping you off.â He confirms.Â
You frown a bit, suddenly nervous again, âIs it lame if I show up early? What time do you think we should leave?â
âWell, you have two options,â He grins, âWe can leave now and get there by 7. Very much on time.â
âAnd the other?â He grins, equal parts flirtatious and predatory, pointed canines coming into view, âWe fuck right now and you show up fashionably late.â
(jump cut to reader showing up 90 minutes late with a dopey smile and a poorly-hid hickey on her neck. the camera pans to reader also leaving early LMAOO)
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Cooper Adams x Reader
18+ Dom!Cooper Adams x Sub!Fem!Reader âą Daddy kink, DDLG, Blood, Rough Sex, Breath Play, Biting, Cooper has a dark side (ofc) heâs tender and sweet but also really fucking insane, Reader is an adult; Cooper is probably ten-twenty years older than reader.
Cooper lifts you off your knees, forcing you to stand. The feeling of your mouth around his cock was fine for awhile, but more than anything, he craves the feeling of your tight little cunt gripping him like his lungs crave air.
You protest with a little whine as he lifts you, worried youâve done a bad job and displeased him. Cooper knows what youâre thinking-heâs always been able to read you like an open book-and he casually casts aside your worries with a brief âno no baby, yâdidnt do anything wrong, promise-,â as he lays your back against the bed. â-Just need to feel your pretty little pussy around me, okay?â
Cooper hovers over you, his large frame shadowing yours, boxing you in like a protective shield. He grabs a pillow from beside you, one of the pink frilly ones that match the whole bedroom set you insisted on having (even though Cooper hated it, he still bought it for you). He tucks the pillow under your head just as you lay down to rest under him, his other hand warm against your thigh, his fingers fanning to caress upward across your hip.
He braces himself against his elbow, leaning close enough so his belly is touching yours, toned in just the right places and soft where he needs to be. His skin is smooth and unbelievably warm; every time Cooper embraces you, especially when youâre both naked, it feels like youâre being swallowed up in the warmest bear hug ever.
The pretty pink sheets are cool beneath you, a contrast to the heat of Cooperâs body covering yours. He guides his hand between you, pumping his cock a few times in his fist as he places its ruddy head at your entrance. âOkay baby,â he murmurs gently, his eyes back on yours. âThereâs gonna be a big stretch for a second, but you can do it, okay sweetheart?â You nod, exhaling as Cooper sinks his hips forward slowly, carefully, letting you adjust to him. His eyes fall closed in pleasure, his self control faltering as his carnal instincts are telling him to absolutely brutalize your pussy, to fuck it so hard youâll be ruined for any other man that puts his dick inside you...
Cooper forces himself to remain calm, to focus on making you feel as good as youâre making him feel right now. His hand rests against the side of your face, gently stroking your hair, his breath uneven as he tells you âso good, baby, youâre doing so goodâŠâ Cooper eases himself deeper inside you, a sharp whine leaving your lips and he checks your expression to confirm youâre alright. âDonât stop,â you plead. âPlease donât stopâŠâ Cooper licks his lips, a little grin turning them upward. âNever planned to,â he groans as he carefully bottoms out inside your pussy.
He isnât even fucking you yet, not really, just resting inside your cunt, letting your body open up for him. He kisses you tenderly, soft, gentle kisses that grow deeper and stronger, his tongue wrestling yours. You feel his cock pulse inside you, throbbing between your walls, nestled tight in a perfect fit. âOkay baby,â Cooper says against your lips. âGo ahead and wrap your legs around me, yeah? Give my waist a real big hug, alright sweetheart?â You do as Cooper says, wrapping your legs around him, your ankles crossed against his back, pulling him impossibly deeper, somehow. You both let out a low groan at the space heâs filled inside you, space that no other man has ever had the knowledge or experience to find before Cooper. Heâs taking his time with you, unlike all the other (younger) men youâve been with.
âMâgonna fuck you now, okay sweetheart?â Cooper asks, his nose brushing yours. You suddenly feel overwhelmed, so many brand new feelings pounding through you, both physical and emotional, that you begin to cry. Cooper understands; he kisses away the tears that fall scattered down your cheek, and he calmly asks, âwhat do you need, baby? Tell Daddy what you needâŠâ
You squeeze your legs tighter around Cooper, begging him to thrust, feeling as if youâll go crazy if he doesnât start fucking you. âNeed you, Daddy,â you whimper, not even caring how pathetic and needy you sound.
Cooper knows youâve gone to a special place now in your mind, a soft space that feels just a little like dyingâŠa kind of surrender, of giving up all control and thought and logic and just existing for the purpose of being fucked. âItâs okay princess,â he coos softly, pressing gentle kisses to your lips. âYou donât have to think anymore. Just lay back and let Daddy take care of everything from here, alrightâŠ?â
Cooper curls his hips inward, the muscles in his stomach tensing against yours. He closes a hand around the back of your neck, cradling you into him, while his other hand grips the thick meat of your thigh, locking you in place while he fucks you.
It isnât sweet, the way Cooper fucks you, but it isnât cruel, either. Itâs a delicious, delicate balance of tenderness and brutality, held together in harmony by the massive amount of control Cooper holds over both his body and yours. He could as easily crush you beneath him as he could kiss you, and that amount of power goes to Cooperâs head a little, gets him high. He doesnât want to hurt you-not yet, anyway-but if he did, he knows he could crush you like a flower in his hand, your pretty petals forever warped into whatever shape he breaks them inâŠ
Sweat dots Cooperâs forehead, his eyebrows drawn in as he invades the deepest space inside you. Your bottom lip begins to bleed as the delicate skin breaks under the bite of your teeth. Cooperâs senses perk, like a shark sensing prey, his eyes landing on the drop of blood blooming at your lip, forced to spill down your chin by the impact of his brutal thrusts. He dips his tongue to chase the thin trail of red along the curve of your neck. You shiver at the unexpected feeling of Cooperâs tongue licking up your skin. He purses his lips inside the curve of your shoulder, trapping the runaway blood and sucking, dragging the crimson liquid and your skin between his lips, bruising you.
Cooper is insatiable now that heâs gotten a taste of you; he doesnât want your flavor to ever leave his tongue. He slides a hand over your throat, pressing just hard enough to feel you gurgle against his palm. âMore,â he demands, but it sounds like heâs begging, his eyes filled with a need you havenât seen from him before. âDo it again, baby,â he pleads, his voice breaking. âDo it for Daddy.â
You donât understand exactly what Cooperâs asking of you, but regardless, youâll do anything for him. So when he shows you, by taking your bottom lip between his teeth and nipping at the small wound there, you donât object. Wincing slightly, you lay back and let Cooper suck at your pouty bottom lip. The pain is minimal, and he more than makes up for any discomfort heâs causing you by railing your guts like heâs trying to rearrange them. Cooperâs hitting that sweet space inside you, his veiny cock rubbing just right around the curve of your body, your pussy fluttering around him as your climax begins.
Cooper locks you inside his arms, his thighs closing around yours, his mind completely lost in the desire to own you; whether or not you come is for Cooper to decide now, every beat of your heart belongs to him, every drop of your blood is now his. So when he lets you come, he takes something for himself as well, a little slice of your breath, his palm gripping your throat with just enough intensity to hold you back against the bed. His sweat drips between your lips as he rocks into you, hard and fast, the salt stinging your bottom lip where the skin is broken.
Cooper releases your throat as he comes, his head falling forward into the crook of your shoulder, his hips stuttering against yours as his final thrusts pump thick streams inside you. His chest is heaving, his breath hot on your neck and between your lips as he finds them, his tongue swiping tenderly across the sore spot on your bottom lip. Heâll make sure to take extra good care of you later tonight, bringing you a cold compress and some ointment for your lip; but for now, he scoops you up in his big arms, his limp little rag doll with a big smile on her mascara-streaked face.
âIâm sorry Daddyâs kisses got a little rough, princess,â Cooper says, and you see the concern in his eyes. His chest is sweaty and his heartbeat so comforting, you nuzzle into him deeper. âItâs okay, Daddy,â you murmur, gliding your tongue over your bottom lip, savoring the sting. âI like it when your kisses hurt...â đđ©ž
#cooper adams x reader#trap movie#the butcher#josh hartnett#trap 2024#cooper adams#cooper adams x you#cooper adams trap#cooper adams smut
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just please teach me
michael gavey x bimbo!reader
authors note - i canât resist this manâŠ..heâs so nerdy and hot. also meant for female!reader
warnings - dumbification, kinda mean michael, a little praise, degradation, perv!michael, the word slut, breeding kink, accidental breeding?
god michael couldnât wait for this.
it was your first tutoring session with him. after your failed your first math test of the semester, you decided to get some help from the smartest man you knew, who also happened to sit next to you.
âhey, youâre like super smart right?â
you asked him, peeking over at the 100% on his test. he turned his head, internally surprised you were even talking to him.
âuh, yeah. yeah i am. do you need help?â
you nodded, pouting and practically shoving your test in his face.
âi canât even believe it! i got a 53% on this test, it was like, super hard!â
you complained, crossing your arms; which just so happened to push up your breasts. they looked so good in that tight tank top you were wearing.
âyouâre asking me to tutor you?â
you scoffed out of frustration.
âduh! i donât wanna fail!â
he was going to be your tutor. it sounded like music to his ears. michael gavey was going to be personally teaching the cutest girl he knew.
and annoying.
you yourself werenât annoying, but the fact that someone like you, who probably didnât even know which direction an x axis pointed, could get into oxford university. probably on a huge helping of daddyâs money is what he thought. unlike him, who actually earned his place. nonetheless, he would tutor you.
he could have some fun with that.
he saw this situation in porn all the time. dumb schoolgirl goes to someone like himself to get help, and they end up fucking like rabbits. he didnât have any experience with women in person, but he figured porn was close enough to the real thing, right?
he wondered how sweet your voice would sound begging for him.
âsooooo, does my place sound good? i have such a cute setup itâs like, unbelievable! and im free around 6 tonight.â
âyeah, of course. i guess ill be over then..!â
he knocked on your door, trying to stop his hands from shaking. he adjusted his glasses, waiting for you to open the door.
âmikey! youâre here!â
you opened the door and hugged him. he tried not to audibly moan from the sensation of your boobs pushing against him.
âjust michael is fine!â
he blurted out, nervous that you were this close to him. would he even be able to survive this night?
âi dont have any extra chairs, so we can just study on my bed! howâs that?â
you asked, walking in your dorm and sitting on your bed.
he wouldnât be able to survive. you said that so innocently, as if you didnât understand what two people could do on a bed. as he walked over to your bed, he didnât expect anything different. it was adorned with pink pillows and a huge fuzzy pink blanket. it was so you.
âthe thing I wasnât really understanding was number seven. i donât even know where to start!â
he nodded, grabbing his supplies out of his bag. how could she not understand this one? it was the easiest by far. nonetheless, he explained it in the most basic way he could. you nodded, pretending to understand.
âokay, now you try.â
you smiled dumbly, attempting to try it on your own. you stopped shortly thereafter, flipping the pencil in your hand.
âi just donât get it michael! maybe math just isnât for me..â
you leaned in closer to him, putting your head on his shoulder. you felt defeated. defeated by some numbers on a page. he sighed in annoyance. he did like this feeling, but he didnât like your dumb little brain. maybe he could take advantage of that. he only dreamed of that, though. tricking you into pleasing him. giving you a ârewardâ for finally get 100% on your tests. youâd probably love that too.
âill probably drop math. its too hard! i dont know how you do it. youâre so smart michael.â
âwell youâre not even trying are you? you just have to think, y/n!â
âi am so trying!â
you loosely hugged michael. he could feel himself starting to get hard. whyâd you have to be so handsy with him?
âthanks for helping me though! youâre so smart michael.â
he felt himself twitch in his pants. he couldnât take it anymore. he couldnât take the teasing anymore.
you felt his lips press against your own soft, glossed lips. he pulled away quickly, already preparing for the worst. you would push him off your bed, throw his bag at him and yell at him to leave. instead, you grabbed his sleeve.
âplease donât leave mikey.â
how could he refuse you?
he moved closer to you, going in for another kiss. you were an aphrodisiac. so irresistible. made for him to fuck.
you shook your head, kissing all over his face.
âitâs totally fine, please just stay here.â
he gently pushed you down onto the bed, kissing and sucking on your neck. fuck, you were so nice. your skin was so soft and plush, and your voice sent him into a spiral.
âis this your first time mikey?â
ây-yeah. i know you probably think thatâs pathetic or weird or-â
âmikey. please just fuck me. i donât care.â
those were the sweetest words he ever heard. he could cum right then and there.
âgod, fuck, can i ask you something?â
he asked.
âare you on birth control?â
you shook your head. fuck, for some reason that was even hotter.
âill pull out, donât worry.â
you nodded, noticeably absentminded. you were so dumb, and it was so cute to him. he was known around campus for his smarts and talent in math. and now he had, which was quite possibly, the dumbest girl at his university under his thumb. it felt so good.
âi trust you mikey.â
he smirked as he pressed continuous kisses into your neck and chest, experimentally pushing his hands underneath your cute tank top and groping your breasts. you whined underneath him, taking your top and yanking it over your head to expose your chest.
âyouâre so cute. just let me take care of you, okay?â
he licked and sucked on your chest, trailing his way down your body until he got to your little cute shorts. god this boy was a freak. you helped him get your shorts off of you, exposing your bare cunt to him. you squeezed your legs together, a feeble attempt in covering yourself.
âwhy be shy now? you already teased me for half the semester.â
you nodded at his remark, leaning your head back. he teased, kissing up your thighs. michaelâs smirk was criminal as he placed a gentle kiss on your pussy. you bucked your hips and moaned on him. he gently prodded your entrance with his long fingers, slowly inserting two of them inside you. he chuckled as he moved his fingers in and out.
âmikey i-â
âyouâre what? wet as a bloody fountain? because you are.â
you let out a pornstar-esque moan and feebly grabbed in his direction. you needed him inside you.
âmikey please just fuck me! please!â
you shouted out, rocking your hips into his fingers gently. he grinned and stood up to take off his pants, as well as unzipping his coat.
âi donât get it.â
you said bluntly, looking up at him.
âwhat?â
âyour shirt. I donât get it.â
you pointed to his shirt.
ânot all math puns are awful. just sum.â
you shared a moment of brief awkwardness.
âitâs like how the result of an addition-â
âi didnât ask for more math! just come over here michael!â
he quickly nodded and took off his stupid shirt, leaving it on the floor next to the bed. he climbed over you, giving you a quick kiss on the cheek.
âare you sure?â
âplease just do it already mikey!â
you whined. he always knew you were bratty. he would love to put you in your place though. he slid himself into you, gasping at the warmth and tightness of your pussy. he slowly slid all the way in, swearing under his breath as he did. you were definitely made for him. so warm, so soft, so perfect. he placed a hand on your lower stomach, feeling himself inside you.
âyouâre so warm holy fuck, I canât believe im inside you right now.â
he blurted out, slowly starting to move. michael was definitely a little above average. so goes the trope of nerdy white guys. the largeness of him made you feel so full, so stuffed. you couldnât handle it already. tears pricked at your eyes as you slung your legs onto his shoulders. michael wasted no time fucking himself into you, letting out all sorts of lewd noises.
âcanât believe im the one doing this. always thought youâd be with someone like felix, fuck.â
he grabbed at your hips, guiding you up and down on his cock. another loud, indecent moan was let out of you.
âim the one fucking you, no one else gets to have this dumb little cunt.â
he tilted his head up, overwhelmed with pleasure.
âim all yours mikey, please just keep fucking me!â
you cried, grabbing onto his hands on your hips. he grabbed your right hand with his left, pressing it right next to your head. his face was right next to yours as well now.
ânothing in that stupid head, huh? nothinâ but me fucking you right now. i always knew you were so simple.â
you clenched around him, leaving him to chuckle under his breath.
âyou like that? me calling you dumb? knew you were a slut.â
michaelâs smartass attitude definitely never left him. you shook your head unconvincingly. you did like it, but being a brat was so fun.
âi know you like it. you already feel like youâre gonna cum on me. poor little thing. probably forget everything you learned this semester just from this.â
he said with fake sympathy. it was true, you were close. you could feel his thrusts getting more erratic and needy, so you knew he was too. you just remembered you were supposed to have a math lesson today. oh well. you could always just google the answers.
âI donât think im gonna be able to pull out, youâre so fucking warm and tight I canât-â
you immediately came to your senses. you were admittedly dumb, but not dumb enough to let michael cum in you.
âmichael please pull out-â
âi- fuck!â
he abruptly came inside you, his jaw slack as he aggressively rammed his hips into yours a few more times. the sensation of his filling you up was too much, and your orgasm shortly followed. he collapsed on top of you, breathing heavily.
âim so sorry y/n, you just-â
âill figure it out mikey, just hold me.â
and he did. he laid on his side as he traced his thumb on your belly. you fell asleep soon thereafter, together.
#fanfic#fanfiction#saltburn#saltburn x reader#michael gavey#michael gavey x reader#saltburn smut#michael gavey smut#ewan mitchell
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â out of it, c. sturniolo
chris x fem!reader
summary: chris gets really drunk and begins to say things you and him both know he doesnât mean.
disclaimers!: alcohol use, cursing, short
a/n: this is based in like the future like, chris has his own place n everything lols | also, we all know chris wouldnât say these things guys, donât take this to heart <3.
âchris?â i call through the front door. he had been ignoring my texts and calls for hours so i thought i should come and check up on him.
i unlock the door with my spare key. âchris, im coming in. okay?â i push the door open, and see a trail of beer cans to the kitchen.
following them, i meet a very drunk chris. he removes a bottle from his lips, and stares at me. âwell, shit.â
i step closer to him, taking a look at the mess around me. alcohol everywhere, cigarettes burnt out on window sills.
chris looked terrible. his eyes were red and foggy, his hair was a mess, and his shirt had stains on it, probably from the alcohol.
âchris,â i start. he interrupts me, âcome sit.â he guides me over to the couch, swiping beer cans off of it so i can sit. i sit on the clean couch arm instead. âare you okay?â
he tilts his head at me. âdont say that. im fine.â i purse my lips together, and finally sit next to him. he leans in to kiss me, and i pull away.
âwhat? so now im not good enough to kiss you?â
âits not that, chris.â i look around at the mess thatâs surrounding us, then back at him. âwhatâs going on?â
chris takes another sip to stall away from the question. i stare at him, with worry in my eyes. âdont fucking look at me like that.â i can hear the anger in his voice. chris gets up, walking around.
i stand, not taking my eyes off of him. âchris, you arenât okay right now.â i walk over to him. âlet me get you the help you need, baby.â
i attempt to place my hand to his shoulder, and he dodges it. âdont fucking call me âbabyâ, matter of fact, you should go.â his words slurring.
âim not going anywhere.â i reply. chris stares at me, an angry expression across his face. âget the fuck out.â
my eyes start to water at his words. but i try to remember its just the alcohol talking. âno, chrisââ
âLEAVE!â he shouts at me. chris stomps toward me, his breath reeking of alcohol. âi love you, chris.â i whisper out.
âyeah? well i fucking hate you.â
i stay silent, and gently bite my bottom lip as tears trickle down my cheeks. âyou donât mean that.â my voice cracking as the words leave my mouth.
âyes the fuck i do.â he enunciates each word as much as he can. chris gets in my face, our noses basically touching. he looks down at me, anger in his eyes.
âi hate you.â
i shake my head as tears begin streaming down my face. chris scoffs. âi mean it with everything in me. i hate you. i donât need or want your help, and im better off without you. so, go. leave.â
i lick the tears up, and look at him again. âsay you donât mean it, and iâll go if thatâs what you really want.â
chris slams the bottle onto the ground, glass flying everywhere. i hold my head in my hands, and start. crying uncontrollably.
i guess this reality checked him, because his face immediately turned soft. âbaby?â i look up, my eyes now red from crying.
i fall into his arms, and his squeezes me tight. he moves us slowly over to the couch, and lets me cry into his shirt, (that smelled like alcohol).
âi am so so unbelievably sorry, baby.â his eyes begin to water. i sigh, and hug him again. âsay you didnât mean it.â i whisper into his shirt.
âi would never mean anything i said. i do not hate you. and i am 100% not better off without you.â he frowns.
i kiss him, and cry into his lips. chris tucks my head back under his chin, and cradles my head. letting me sob into his shirt, he begins to do the same.
âi was so out of it.â
#sturniolo triplets#chris sturniolo#christopher sturniolo#sturniolo fanfic#sturniolo x reader#chris x reader#matt sturniolo#matthew sturniolo#nick sturniolo#nicolas sturniolo
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Bliss
Leon Kennedy x afab reader When I am on my period, you get period fluff
You wince as your stomach twists, jab the mascara wand into your eye rather than coat your lashes and swear, gripping the bathroom counter with your other hand.
âGreat.â You hiss, closing your eye and grabbing a wet wipe, trying to salvage what youâd applied to your bottom lashes as your eye starts to water. The box of so-called express pain relief pills youâd downed greedily 30 minutes ago taunts you from the counter. They had barely touched the surface of the tormenting cramps that had started this afternoon and you wonder if you can sue the pharmaceutical company for such blatant lies.
You try and steady yourself with measured breaths, opening your eye cautiously to inspect it in the mirror. It looks a little red and you groan. Youâre bloated, sore, stupidly emotional â irrationally cried at the fact that a spam email had made its way into your actual inbox at lunch - and the last thing you want to be doing right now is getting dolled up in one your classiest and form-fitting little black dresses, don high heels and socialize for the evening, no matter how much youâd been looking forward to it ahead of your visitor.
And not to mention that itâs at the bloody White House.
Leon had returned from Spain two months ago to silent fanfare - wouldnât be good for US morale to know the Presidentâs daughter had been kidnapped by a cult and infected with a parasite in the first place. Working as an intelligence agent for the DSO meant youâd read of the horrors from the report, comforted Leon when he awoke from nightmares of blackened veins, tentacles bursting forth from skulls, so youâre grateful that the President insisted Leon was given some time off work, though his first day back was looming on the horizon. Last week, on embossed white card with gold accents, sealed by a wax stamp came the invitation in a cursive hand to one Mr Leon S Kennedy and partner to the Presidential dining room.
Thereâs a knock on the bathroom door in Leonâs familiar rhythm.
âYou nearly ready, sweetheart? I think the car will be here soon.â
âSorry. Yeah,â you call back, âFinal touches.â You turn back to the mirror and grab the mascara wand, cautiously covering your top lashes to even things out before frowning at your complexion. Are you breaking out too? A wave of pain rolls through your stomach once more and you grimace. Maybe you shouldâve gone with a heat pad after all, but this dress is snug - itâd look bulky and weird on your stomach and the Secret Service guys will be all over it in the security checks.
You zhuzh up your hair one more time, plaster on a smile and unlock the bathroom door, finding Leon leaning up against the wall opposite. He lets out a low whistle as you emerge, hair falling into his blue eyes, and you duck your head in embarrassment at the attention. Honestly, right now youâd prefer him to look anywhere but at you.
âHello, beautiful,â he smiles, looking unbelievably handsome in his best suit. Heâs forgone the tie as usual â canât stand them â but still looks appropriately smart. He stands up from the wall, slips a hand around your waist to pull you in for a kiss but you flinch at his touch, causing him to stop and frown. âYou okay?â
âMm, Iâm fine.â You try and step out of his grip to head towards the stairs. âWe should go keep an eye out for the car.â
His arm remains firmly in place. âYouâre a bad liar.â
âIâm a great liar,â you retort. âComes with the profession.â Your whole job depended on it, really â gathering intelligence was a lot of charming people into feeling comfortable around you, loosening their tongue into sharing secrets or giving you access to places youâre not meant to be.
âNot to me.â Heâs got you there. âWhatâs the matter?â
You sigh, feeling a headache coming on to add to the list of ailments. âCan we leave it, please?â
âI donât want to leave it â somethingâs wrong.â Leon is stubborn, doesnât like to leave things hanging. He knows how precious life is, doesnât want to leave anything to be dealt with later in case later never comes.
He stares at you - pout on his lips and those blue puppy dog eyes.
âPeriod.â You mumble, hoping that would suffice.
âAh.â He nods.
âWhat does that mean?â You know itâs the hormones talking, even as you say it, but youâre stubborn too. Itâs completely irrational, but his toneâs rubbed you the wrong way.
âItâs a sympathetic ah. Anything I can do to help?â
âNo,â you grumble back. âI just want this evening over with.â
He looks confused, then. âI thought you were looking forward to it - you were excited yesterday-â
âI was,â you snap back. âBut now the last thing I want to be doing is wearing this stupid tight dress and heels and get in a limo, be felt up by Secret Service agents for five minutes to make sure Iâm not sneaking in a bomb between my thighs, and then go and dine with the President of the United States and his daughter, trying to remember what seven different types of silverware are meant for what course and then eating tiny bites and drinking bitter expensive wine, all when I could be at home, in my pyjamas, eating pizza and ice-cream and watching absolute trash on TV, cuddling my boyfriend.â
âOkay.â Leon cups your face. âBreathe.â
You take a deep breath, feeling a little winded from your rant.
âGood.â He smiles, dropping his hands and pulling his phone out of his trousers pocket. âNow, go get changed.â
You werenât expecting that. âSorry?â
âGet changed â go put your pyjamas on.â
âBut dinner-â
âIâll cancel, and then Iâll order us some pizza.â
You stare at him as if heâs lost his mind. âYou canât cancel on the President.â
âI rescued his daughter, he owes me.â Leon shrugs, as if he was just asking for a raincheck. âBesides, itâs Ashley who wanted this the most. Weâll reschedule.â
âNo, I just need to tough it out.â
He raises an eyebrow at your word choice. âYou do not.â
âYou do it all the time â dragging yourself about the place with bullet and stab wounds.â
âSweetheart, you have to agree thatâs a little different. Us having dinner at the White House is not a life or death situation. I didnât have a choice but to grit my teeth and get on with it, you very much do.â He grabs your hand, squeezing it tight. âBesides, you put up with enough thatâs out of our control by these guys â missed anniversaries, birthdays, dinners - when they send me out on missions. Iâm not going to sit and make you go through an uncomfortable evening when you donât need or want to.â
âAre you sure?â You ask, quietly.
âPositive.â He steps forwards, gives you a chaste kiss on the lips in reassurance. âGo and get comfortable â Iâll handle it.â
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30 minutes later, youâre laying on the couch, head in Leonâs lap as he runs his fingers through your hair, another rubbing your back â dressed in loose pyjama shorts and one of his old sweatshirts, a hot water bottle that heâd made pressed against your stomach and one of those âso bad itâs goodâ reality relationship shows playing on the widescreen. One that Leon insists he detests, but remembers everyoneâs names and asks what happened on previous episodes if he misses one.
âWas Ashley okay?â
âFine. Sheâs already texted me three alternate dates.â He pauses, raising an eyebrow at the screen. âI thought they broke up.â
âUh-uh. He proposed.â
He scoffs in disbelief. âThis cannot be real.â
You sigh, content, and nuzzle into his thigh. âLove you.â
âLove you more.â
The doorbell rings, announcing the pizzaâs arrival. You reluctantly sit up, pressing the hot water bottle to your stomach as Leon gets up off the sofa and starts to head towards the door.
âLeon.â
âMm?â He pauses, turning slightly, removing his wallet from his jacket pocket.
âHow come youâre still in your suit?â
âWell,â he resumes walking to the door, âI read how endorphins can help with period pain, and I know how happy a certain someone gets when they get to admire my ass in this particular suitâŠâ The wallet slips from his fingers, bounces on the carpeted floor, and he bends down, slowly. â..so what kinda boyfriend would I be to hide it in sweats when theyâre feeling poorly?â
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main 3 + butters! seeing reader in lingerie for the first time!!
first time doing headcanons and a scenario đ also i apologize in advance if this is bad, i've written nsfw only ONCE before and hated it so much that i never finished it BAHAHA
cws: nsfw, but nothing too explicit Aged up characters! (College au, early 20s)
⥠STAN MARSH
Thinks he died and went to heaven for a second in all honesty. Like he could not believe you standing in front of him wearing lingerie.
He saw you with it on and had to process what he was seeing, definitely stuttering as he finds the words to say
He's rocking with it though, 100%. Has always had a small thing for lingerie but didn't exactly know how to bring it up so he just never said anything lol
Stan seems to me as a more of a red satin kind of guy, simple sets work for him
Doesn't want to tear it or anything, when taking it off of you he's rather careful, more so into savoring the moment of seeing you in lingerie (and eventually you out of it).
Whether its false bravado or not, he gets over his initial shock rather quickly
"You okay? Babe?" Stan calls out, sitting on the side of your bed tapping his fingers against the frame.
"Yeah sorry, coming out now," You respond, walking out of the bathroom, covered in a simple red satin lingerie set, "you like?"
"Holy shi-, wow you look good. Damn." Stan stutters out, taking you and your outfit in, "you, uh, you didn't have to do this you know. I'm- I'm, not saying you look bad, holy shit you look so good-"
"I know I didn't have to," You giggle, a blush covering your face, walking closer to him before sitting on his lap, "but I wanted this to be special, you know for our first time. I wanted to look good for you."
Stan licks his lips, reaching to kiss and bite at your neck as his hands grip your sides before they slowly make a descent down to your hips. "Well, you always look good, doesn't matter what you got on." His fingers tug at the waistband of the underwear, "but fuck, this is so hot."
⥠KYLE BROFLOVSKI
Doesn't know what to do and he doesn't know what to say either
Definitely whines/quietly whimpers at seeing you in lingerie though
He'd be a fan of dark green lace or floral sets
Another one to be careful with taking it off of you, but its because he's so nervous
Finds the concept of lingerie initially dorky until he sees you in it and now he understands the appeal.
He is so cute bro, he has the biggest blush covering his face and he stutters and he can't make eye contact (kicking my feet and giggling as I write this about him rn), definitely repeats words and phrases as his brain is trying to think of what to say next
Kyle covers his mouth, embarrassed at the whimper that leaves him as you lift up your shirt, revealing the dark green lingerie underneath. You feel him getting even harder underneath you and you slowly roll your hips against his. Kyle quickly grabs onto your hips hard and shakily moans, hands gripping you firmly.
"Baby, baby, baby.." Kyle whines out as he stares at how well the dark green compliments your body. "Mhmm," you hum, "what is it?"
"You look so good, so good.." He looks so dazed as his eyes constantly dart over your body. Kyle is absolutely smitten with the way the lingerie sits on you.
"You like it huh?" You whisper as your bring your hand to his face, cupping his cheek. He nervously swallows and turns his head to press a kiss into your hand, before gently biting a finger while looking up at you.
Turning his head back to face you, he whimpers out a "god yes," as his hips buck up up into you, drawing a small moan out of you, "so so much."
⥠KENNY MCCORMICK
There is one singular phrase going through his head when he sees what you got on and it's "fuck me"
He's so unbelievably hard in like 2 seconds that it's alarming
He's a fan of sheer brighter colors and garters, but really any lingerie set looks good and he's really fine with anything you're putting on.
He'll rip the fabric off of you, he doesn't really care if you make a noise of complaint, he's too invested in getting him in you and making you feel good.
He'll make it up to you later by managing to get you another set later. (That he rips off you anyhow, it's a never ending cycle)
Would love to receive pictures of you in various lingerie sets. So after this whole thing of surprising him by wearing it for the first time, he'll want pictures of you from now on.
"Fuck y/n," Kenny groans, bucking himself against you, "you look so pretty. My pretty baby." His hands wander over your body, feeling the thin material and your skin causing him to become impatient.
Kenny leans forward to suck at your neck, causing you to let out small moans. "I need, need, this off of you. Now." Before you're able to say anything, he tugs at the top half a bit too roughly, ripping the thin material into halves.
"Kenny!" You exclaim, shock and annoyance evident in your tone.
Kenny stops briefly and he lets out a small laugh before kissing you, "I'm sorry hun, can't wait. Need you now. Gotta make you feel good."
You huff, "This was a bit pricey, Ken. How are you gonna make this one up?"
He snorts, before flipping you over and situating you so his face is pressed between your thighs, "Oh I'll make it up to you baby, and then some, promise."
⥠BUTTERS STOTCH
Another blushy and nervous wreck to see you in lingerie.
I feel he'd LOVE white sets, design doesn't matter, but there's something about wearing white in his eyes that just.. gets him going yk?
He definitely has a battle with himself on where to place his hands. Do you want them on your waist, hips, do you want to hold hands? What if he rips the fabric?
Stutters out compliments. Compliments you the whole time actually, his eyes nervously watch your every movement
He loves if you brush your body still clad with the lingerie against his bare skin. The feeling of technical skin contact but thin material between you two has got him in a chokehold for some reason
Calls you his angel because of the white lingerie and how beautiful/ethereal you look to him right now
Butters believes this is how he dies, underneath you, clad in a sheer white lingerie set. You slowly drag your fingers against his skin and he finds himself without a single complaint as to how he would be dying. He finds himself without many thoughts actually and the ones he does have are just about you.
"Oh god angel," Butters shudders, his brain turning into mush at the feeling of your body against his. His hands hovering just above your thighs, as he nervously thumbs at the material draped over them.
You giggle at his behavior, "you can touch me, you know?"
"O-oh, I know honey, but, you.. you just look so gosh darn gorgeous and..." he trails off, adams apple bobbing as your drag your hands along his waist. "..and what, Butters..?" You whisper against his ear.
His hands grip your thighs and bites his lip. "I want you.. please honey, my angel." He shifts underneath you, hoping you catch the hint and quit teasing him.
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âŹ21 shipping...I simply will not think about it đ ...also the currency conversion, it just took about five years off of my life
I opened insta to check if seb released his merch yet and it's literally the top post on my feed from 3 mins ago, I think this is a divine sign
#yeah absolutely no way could i buy the hoodie#i have money its fine its fine but spending so much on so little in such a short amnt of time murders me#BUT RBR SHIRT!!!!!!#to get rbr seb merch in the year of our lord 2023 is unbelievable so the price is really negligible#'the price is negligible' i say with a grimace#the shipping price hurt me more honestly#like fine i will cope with a âŹ70 shirt fine fine#but getting hit with international shipping prices destorys me every single time#its like when i look into buying vintage merch off ebay#and the pricing is not bad at all#and then the shipping is literally more than the object itself#its like. id be okay paying the price if that was the baseline. but for it to be an additional cost kills me#and also buying such an expensive shirt makes me question everything#i always buy a medium but like WHAT IF ITS SMALL AND I HATE IT!!!#but i cant buy a large bcs WHAT IF ITS WAY TOO BIG#well#i will not think too deeply and be joyful when it arrives#catie.rambling.txt
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Enough pt. 1
AN: Here's to our princess, the fighter and captain of an incredible, resilient, and unique team. You showed what you're capable of, and the next tournament will be yours. You shined all over these games and gave it all you have. What a comeback after the deduction.
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The ringing of your phone pulls you out of your evening nap. As you read the caller ID, your lips turn upwards, and youâre quick to answer the call. âHey, hey.â The girl on the other end greets.
âBonjour,â you respond as she rolls her amber eyes, still a smile creeps on her cherry lips.
She shakes her head before she moves on. âHow are you?â
You let out a chuckle at the casual conversation the Canadian tries. âQuite good. Just finished recovery and you?â
âNervous, but all around okay. Canât wait for the game tomorrow; I feel like the team has potential.â She rubs the back of her neck, eyes avoiding you through the screen.
âThatâs great. Hopefully you can show off your talent, captain Fleming,â a smirk creeping on your lips as you wink at her.
âThe team will do just fine with or without me. Never mind, howâs Paris?â her eyes drifting back to the screen watching as you walk from your bedroom out to the balcony.
âSuperbe. I understand why it is called the city of love. Nice people, good food and all these athletes.â You lick your lips, locking your eyes with hers. âExcellente.â
âIf you continue like this...IâŠâ Jessieâs eyes are searching around her hotel room.
A giggle escapes your lips. âYouâŠWhat?â
She rubs her chin, âI donât know yet, but itâll be terrible.â
âNothings worse than how I miss you.â Your mouth fell open, and your eyes widen. A moment later your hands hide your face.
âAww, I miss you more. Canât wait to see you again.â The Canadian teases, one side of her mouth turning up.
âYeah, hopefully with medals,â you comment. âDancing in the setting sun.â
âAre you planning out our next date?â Now both corners of Jessieâs lips turn up.
âSo, youâre thinking of dates when we meet?â
Her brows darted up. âWhat else would it be?â
âTwo friends hanging out.â Jessie scoffs on the other end. âYouâre nice and we can talk about everything, like youâre my bestie.â The Canadian rolls her eyes, lips falling into a frown.
âOkay Iâm hanging up now. Youâre mean,â her voice getting quieter, as if she distances herself from the phone.
âWait⊠bebe.â
âOh, I like that sound.â
âNo-oh youâre not privileged.â
âWell seems like it. You already called me that, no takesies backsies, itâs my name from now on, no other.â
You sighed, you hated how your mouth had a mind on its own. âYouâre unbelievable.â
Wishing you could erase the smirk that lingers on Jessieâs lips you adorn the football player. âI thought I was bebe.â
Without another word you end the call just for Jessie to call you back after a few seconds. Her smile the first thing you see as you accepted, her eyes beaming as she observes you. âYou not quit on talking with me. I want updates.â
âOn what? My relationship status? Last time I checked I was still single.â Jessie stays silent. âYou know I donât mean it like that. Itâs just a joke. I enjoy getting to know you, slow and silently. Itâs comfortable and youâre kind and a warm-hearted person. The last weeks were incredible and pretty dope.â You feel the heat rising to your cheeks and cover your cheeks and mouth behind your hand, a smile from ear to ear sitting on your face.
Jessie gives you a heartwarming smile back, eyes glued on you through the screen. âI was counting the seconds until you say this word.â She chuckles afterwards, her reddish cheeks growing a deeper shape.
âWow thank you for the kind words, Fleming,â you roll your eyes, eyes avoiding the woman in front of you.
Another chuckle fills the room. âWhat? It was just a matter of time âtil you use it.â The line stays silent, only the breaths of you two audible. âThank you, you possibly donât know how much your words mean to me. I enjoy spending time with you too. Your outgoing persona and you view for the small things in life influence me. And I thank you from the bottom of my heart. Iâm really looking forward to watch your games and Iâll cheer on you!â
âAnd so do I! Sadly you arenât making it into the gym.â
âDonât be sad. I donât need to be seen for you to feel like Iâm there. Have a look in your bag.â
Your brows knitter as you scrunch your forehead. âWhat do you mean?â
âJust have a look, I promise.â You glance over to your luggage finding it still untouched after your arrival. In a second you moved over and find a carbon box covered with a ribbon on top in between your clothes.
âHow did youâŠâ
âMagic.â She waves her hands in front of her camera and you giggle at the sight of her silly side.
âJessie, tell me,â you drag out the "e" as you push her to reveal her magic.
She shruggs her shoulders. âTheres nothing to tell.â
âFor sure. How did this box end up in my bag in Paris when youâre in Saint Etienne?â
âLike I said. Magic. Open it.â
âI⊠I have no words, why? Iâve got nothing for you.â
âYou donât have to. Having you in my life is the best present someone can get.â
âStop it.â Your smile falls into a frown and your eyes getting glassy as curtain of tears settles in.
Jessieâs bottom lip quivers and her brows rise. âPlease donât cry when I canât reassure you. Open it, now,â she changes the topic. Her voice a higher-pitch and bubbly as she shuffles inpatiently in her spot.
âAlright, alright chef.â
You pull one string of the band, and it falls to the sides of the box. When you lift the lid, youâre meet with a moose plushie and upon further glancing a silver necklace catches your eyes. You take the item out and observe it in detail. The maple leaf chain is highlighted with rhinestones. âJessie this isâŠâ
The Canadian interrupts you. âI know its too much and if you donât like it, I can take it back and we forget about it. Itâs too soon, right? I knew it. I shouldnât have done itâŠâ her voice just above a whisper and itâs trembling as she rattles at a rapid pace.
âNo, Jess stop. Itâs perfect. I really like it. It somehow holds a connection to you and itâs great. Keep an eye on our team pictures,â you wink at her.
âIâll do.â A knock echoes through the phone as Jessieâs eyes stop on the person who entered.
âItâs dinner time,â Janineâs voice fill the air. âWho are you on the phone with?â her eyebrows wiggle as she lowers herself to glance at Jessieâs screen.
âNo one,â Jessieâs hand covers the phone as she spins in her position, now on her back and her phone pressed onto her body. âThatâs my clue to go. Weâll talk later.â She rushes and catches you one last time on the screen. You give her a shy smile and nod in agreement.
Little did the Canadian know; you had a surprise yourself for the young woman.
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LOVE IS OLD, LOVE IS NEW
Two-Shot Part 1 ~ Daniel Wagner / Female Reader đ
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AN: This is a comfort fic! Danny is not the cheater! This fic changed a lot from when I started writing it to when it ended, so I hope you enjoy wherever my mind went while I wrote thisâŠ
Word Count: + 10.6k
Content Warnings: Hurt/comfort heartbreak, crying, cheating, insecurity, nudity, deprecating thoughts, intense sadness, self-isolation, boner, mentions of sexual situations, lots of skin touching including breasts (but in a non-sexual way), love confessions, mentions of sex, considerate Danny.
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âYou alright?â Danny asked, pausing the movement of his fingers and ripping his intense attention from the melodic chords he had been working on, letting his acoustic guitar falter in his hands.
You looked up from your phone, âWhat? Oh, yeah, fine.â
You werenât really fine. It was your boyfriend, Otisâs birthday, and you hadnât been able to get a hold of him all day. You swiped through your text chain, seeing that your message at 7am wishing him a happy birthday was followed by an embarrassing amount of messages almost once an hour asking what he was doing, how he was doing, and if he was okay.
You had grown unbelievably restless, your anxiety bordering between genuine concern for his well being, and fear that he was shutting you out for some reason.
Though, this wasnât completely unusual for Otis. He had always been distant, emotionally elusive in a way that left you second guessing your every move. Sometimes, he would go an entire day without a word, shutting down for reasons you could never quite figure out. You attributed it to the way he mustâve been raised, but often, and without warning, he would go into a mood. You had tried to understand, tried to make excuses for it. Maybe he just needed space. Maybe you were overreacting.
It was terribly confusing, but youâd grown used to it, trying your hardest to take note of anything that may be a consistent trigger in his moods.
Danny, who was by far your closest friend, did not approve of his behaviour at all. In fact, he didnât approve of Otis full stop. You had grown up together, graduated together, and were now splitting the rent of some small, shitty apartment in Nashville together, and it was hard for you to conceal the faults in your relationship when Danny seemed to always be there.
âYou sure? Youâve been staring at that phone all afternoon,â he argued pointedly.
You huffed and ran a hand down the side of your face, âItâs just OtisâŠitâs his birthday but he hasnât texted me back all day.â You paused, and Danny set his guitar down, its neck leaning against the arm of the couch you were both seated on. âIâm getting kinda worried,â you added.
Dannyâs jaw tightened at the mention of Otis, a familiar tension brewing in his stance. You knew what he thought of your boyfriend, he had never been shy about it. As your best friend since childhood, Danny had always been protective of you, and he couldnât stand how Otis treated you. To Danny, Otis was an undeserving ghost, always there, but never really present.
But it wasnât as if Otis treated you poorly. No, you wouldnât be dating him if he was. He just was a bit flaky sometimes- physically and emotionally.
Dannyâs brows furrowed, âThat is weird. Maybe heâs just busy with friends or something?â he suggested.
You shook your head, âNo, he told me he was celebrating with them on the weekend. Told me he would see me today too,â you said anxiously, biting at the corners of your nails.
âStop that,â Danny warned, pulling your hands away from your mouth.
It was a habit you seemed to have only picked up only recently, and Danny was always quick to stop it as soon as he saw you begin to nibble at the uneven edges of the nail.
âYouâre right, âs a bit worrying. I would be pretty worried as well. Did he go out last night?â Danny asked.
âNo.â You were beginning to feel more and more nervous, anxiety flooding through your body as you wondered what was going on.
You suddenly stood, âI think Iâm gonna go over to his place. Maybe heâs just been sleeping all day.â
Danny glanced at his watch and grimaced when he saw that it was 5pm. He refrained from telling you he highly doubted it, not wanting to worry you any further.
âShit,â you cursed as you looked out the window and saw that it was absolutely pouring with rain. You hurried to your bedroom to find a raincoat.
âLet me drive you,â Danny suggested, his voice now coming from his own room as he grabbed himself a sweater. You both emerged from your rooms and met in the hallway, and before you could protest he added, âPlease. I donât feel good knowing youâre driving in this weather.â
You scoffed, âUnderestimating my driving skills, Wagner?â You carried the gifts you had bought Otis, including the bouquet of flowers into the living room with you and placed them on the table next to your handbag.
âMaybe,â Danny teased and you rolled your eyes at him playfully.
It took less than five minutes to gather your things. The bouquet of flowers, a few small wrapped gifts, and your handbag. Once you had hastily gotten your things in order, Danny grabbed his car keys off the table and opened the front door for you.
âNeed me to hold anything?â he asked, watching in amusement as you fumbled with the flowers, presents, your bag and your phone.
You laughed, âYes please.â
He took the flowers and a few gifts from your arms and you both descended the long, winding stairs wordlessly until you were in the shared car park.
âIâm sure itâs all fine,â Danny assured he held the door open for you to get into the car.
âYeah me too. Just really wanna see him, you know?â You immediately regretted saying it once the words left your mouth.
You usually tried to keep the Otis conversation minimal with Danny, knowing that he didnât really like him. Danny hummed anyway, despite his disagreement, and started the car before reversing out of the garage. He handed you your favourite Beatles CD for you to put into the stereo while he drove, and you felt overwhelmingly appreciative of his attentiveness.
You wanted to believe that nothing was wrong, and that Otis just hadn't had a chance to look at his phone yet. But with each mile closer to Otisâs apartment, the pit in your stomach grew heavier, and the knot in your chest tighter. Each time you checked your phone, there was no new message. No missed calls. Nothing.
Throughout the drive, it was clear to you that Danny was trying his hardest to keep you from overthinking. You felt like he didnât stop talking for the majority of the ride, telling you about the latest disagreement between Josh and Jake and how he, like usual, had to save the day with his mediation skills. He managed to make you laugh too, always knowing just what you needed when you werenât feeling your absolute best.
You had to direct Danny the way there, which was quite difficult thanks to the bucketing rain that restricted visibility of anything twenty metres in front of you.Â
Eventually you made it to his apartment, and Danny pulled over on the side of the road to drop you off, seeing as there was no carpark for him to stop in.
âAlright, be safe please. Text if you need anything,â Danny recited, the words he told you each time you parted. It had been that way since you could remember.
âI will! Thanks for the lift!â
Balancing your things in your arms, you quickly jumped out of the car to not hold up and more traffic.
Danny drove off when one of the impatient cars behind him gave him a beep for taking so long. You rushed up to Otisâs apartment building front door, bullets of rain almost soaking you completely as you covered the short distance.
Your shoes splashed heavily on the street which had become one big puddle. You sighed when you finally reached the building, protected from the rain by the large overhang that wrapped around the large building.
As you made your way into the apartment and climbed the levels to his, you glanced at your phone once more to check if he had messaged you, and frowned when there was nothing. A little puffed, you finally reached his unit. Before you knocked, you peeked a glance at the crack at the bottom of the door where a light was beaming through. So he was home.
You bit back a shiver as you raised your hand and pressed the doorbell. You always liked the tune Otisâs doorbell made. It was quite unconventional, not the normal tune they made and not a jarring ring either, but a nice melody all the same.
You hugged yourself tightly in the cold as you awaited a response, and when you didnât get one, you rang the doorbell again. Finally, the front door swung open, and you were met with Otis, his slim figure on full display as only a pair of white and blue striped boxers hung low on his hips.
You smiled brightly, despite his state of undress and the fact that he had neglected speaking to you all day. âHappy birthday!â you exclaimed.
He shot you a quick, tight smile, before his face turned serious, eyes scanning the scene behind you. âThank you Baby, but uh⊠what are you doing here?â he asked.
You faltered, âWhat do you mean?â
He looked at you as if you had done something ridiculous, âWell we didnât plan anything. I hadnât exactly said you could come over.â
You took a step back into the hallway, âOh, I just thought thatâŠâ
You were mortified. But you were also incredibly upset. It was his birthday, but you had still felt some kind of obligation that he at least see you on the special day. He was your boyfriend after all.
âI got worried. You werenât responding,â you explained, feeling a deep set frown fall to your face.
He ran a frustrated hand through his hair, and you suddenly became very aware of his positioning. He was standing in the doorway, hands on either side of the frame and letting the door hang almost closed behind him while he stepped marginally closer in each moment and effectively backed you further away from the entrance.
âYeah well, I just got caught up in something.â
Just as you were about to ask what, a slender hand, adorning deep red acrylic nails raked across his bare abdomen.
âBaby, whatâs taking you so long?â a sultry voice asked, and you could see longer dark hair peeking behind his body.
Unable to believe your eyes, your mouth parted in silent shock, face dropping in realisation, and you peered over his shoulder to see the most beautiful woman you had ever seen, clad in only her underwear behind him.
Blinking, you watched as his face morphed into course red embarrassment, and his eyes widened in fear.
âOh,â you stated.
âNo Baby, itâs not what it-â he started, moving towards you to take your arm.
âStop it. Donât,â you shook his hands off you, âDonât touch me.â
Tears instantly welled in your eyes and the lump in your throat felt like it was going to choke you.
âWha- why?â you managed to choke out. He looked at you sympathetically, but before he could open his mouth, the woman behind him appeared at his side.
If you thought her face was gorgeous, her body was bound to make you pass out. Her breasts were full and round, and her slim, toned waist was a beautiful compliment. Her hips widened at just the right spot, and were void of dips or stretch marks, and it suddenly became glaringly obvious to you where everything had gone wrong.
She gave you a harsh look up and down, assessing your clothing and you could only assume your body. Your arms crossed over your front in insecurely, now regretting the old coat, faded jeans and casual shoes you had thrown on in your state of worry and anticipation.
You hiccuped a sob back when she placed a hand on his chest and leaned up to whisper something in his ear. Otis, to his credit, looked wildly uncomfortable by her actions and tried to shrug her off, looking at you pleadingly.
You couldnât see any more. You couldnât stand there for another second longer or you were going to explode.
You wished you were more angry. You should have been furious, yelling at him and ripping your keys out to key his car. But instead, you felt a deep pit of sadness in your belly. The type of pit that drags everything down with it. The type of pit that consumes all it can from its host just to continue its relentless torment.
You needed to get the fuck out of there.
Breathing turned shakey, you turned and walked so quickly down the hallway that you thought you were going to pull a hamstring.
Otis called your name from behind you, and you thanked the Gods that he was too naked to follow you. You descended the stairs in a daze, hot tears running down your cheeks, but you were too focused on getting out that you knew you needed to hold them back.
Once you made it to the building's exit, you realised that you were still cradling the birthday presents you had bought him. In an act of anger, you stormed out of the complex and threw them in a heap onto the grass beside the door, letting all the money you had wasted on him get destroyed under the unforgiving downpour of rain.
Then you realised you were also in the rain. And you were getting soaked. You quickly pulled your phone out and pulled up Dannyâs contact to call him.
Restricted sobs began to shake your body, and you were having an incredibly hard time maintaining your composure, if you could even call it that anymore.
The phone only rang twice before Dannyâs voice spoke through the speakers.
âHey, whatâs up,â he answered casually. You could hear his car keys hitting the little key bowl you had by the front door, indicating he had quite literally just gotten home, making you feel even worse about asking him to come and pick you up.
He called your name in question when you didnât respond.
âDid you- did you just get home?â you asked, trying feebly to conceal the emotion in your voice, but the sobs and sharp inhales did close to nothing in helping.
âFuck, are you okay? Whatâs happened? Whatâs wrong?â he asked frantically, and you could hear the keys jingle again, accompanied by the front door slamming shut.
âIâm,â you tried to say through broken sobs, âIâm okay. I just need- can you come and pick me up? Ple- please?â
âIâm already on my way.â True to his word, you could hear the engine vibrating in the background of the call. âPlease tell me what happened. Are you safe?â he asked frantically.
You nodded, before realising that he couldnât actually see you, âIâm- Iâm okay. Just cold,â you began scanning the area, looking for a spot you could stand that was concealed from the rain.
There was no way you were going back inside the complex building, and you quickly realised that your best bet was a tree nearby. You hastily made your way over, sneakers getting ruined in the dirt, each step accompanied by a squelch. The rain wasnât as relentless under the cover in the tree, but thick drops still fell and coated your skin, hair and clothes. You were shivering violently now, wondering why on earth you hadnât brought an umbrella.
"Where are you?" Danny's voice was soft but laced with concern.
"Same place you dropped me off," you muttered, feeling the hot flush of embarrassment rise to your cheeks. It wasn't hard to guess that Danny probably knew something had gone wrong with Otis. But you could bet he'd never imagine the full extent of it.
There was a pause on the other end of the line, and you could sense Danny was biting his tongue, holding back from asking the questions swirling in his mind. He knew better than to press you when you were like this, though. Whatever had happened, it wasn't good. That much was obvious.
"Okay, honey, Iâm nearly there. Can you try taking some deep breaths while you wait for me, please?" His voice was steady, trying to ground you through the phone. It was only then that you became aware of the sound of your own ragged, gasping sobs.
"Ye-yes... okay." You forced yourself to breathe deeply, letting the air fill your lungs, but each inhale felt heavy, the weight of your chest pressing down harder with every beat of your racing heart. You tried to follow Danny's request, but every time your pulse began to slow, your mind betrayed you. You couldn't stop the image from flashing in your head, those sharp red acrylic nails raking across his chest.
Your stomach churned, nausea rising as you cursed your vivid imagination. What would those hands look like wrapped around his neck, or worse, holding his hand? What would those nails look like tracing against his skin, trailing down his back in the heat of the moment as she whispered his name in his ear? The thought made your blood run cold, and tears welled up in your eyes once again.
You squeezed your eyes shut, willing the thoughts to vanish. But they clung to you, persistent and cruel, reminding you of everything you were afraid to face. It wasnât just the physical imagery, either. It was the emotional betrayal of the way his eyes might soften when he looked at her, the way he might laugh at her jokes. She probably made him feel something you couldnât. And he had probably been slipping away for quite some time.
A broken sob escaped your lips, and you clenched your fists at your sides, wishing you could stop thinking about it, wishing you could stop hurting. You knew Danny was close, but the minutes felt like hours. You hated how powerless you felt, sitting there, cold and waiting, suffocated by your own thoughts.
âItâs okay. Whatever it is itâs okay itâll be okay. Iâm nearly there, just hang on a little longer for me, okay?â Danny repeated, hearing your breathing pick up again.
You crouched on the dirt to hug some warmth into you, humming in response to his question. âDanny, can you- can you put the heat on in the car⊠please. Iâm really cold,â you asked and you immediately heard him shuffle with the knobs on the dashboard.
âAre you- are you in the rain?â he asked with urgency.
âI was⊠Iâm standing under a tree now.â
He sighed, âOkay Iâm rounding the corner now, can you see me?â he asked and you looked up at the road. True to his word, you could see his black car nearing you as it sped down the road.
âYes.â You got up and quickly walked to the edge of the street. The rain soaked you again, and you abandoned even attempting to cover your head from its assault.
He pulled up to you at record breaking speed, and breaked harshly beside you on the road. You swung the door open and practically fell into the passenger seat, being immediately engulfed by the warmth of the car.
You slammed the door shut, and muttered a small âsorryâ through your shudders as you did up your seat belt.
Being a busy street, Danny had to take off as soon as you were buckled up, and you looked down at the water dripping off your shoes into the car.
âFuck, youâre soaked,â he commented, as you tried to take off your top jacket to avoid completely soaking his seats.Â
âIâm sorry,â you apologised, trying to keep your back from the seat to not soak the interior of his car. He had already given you a lift to and from Otisâs house, and the least you could do was not ruin his car in the process. You were trying your hardest to withhold the sobs, but hot tears mixed with the wetness of your face as the lump in your throat began to burn.
âHoneyâŠâ Danny comforted when he saw your emotional state. He found the closest quiet street and pulled over on the side of the road.Â
As soon as the handbrake was on and the car was in neutral, Danny turned to you, clipping off his seatbelt to reach you better. He reached to unclip your seatbelt too, and without hesitation, he pulled you into his arms.Â
Though it had been steadily trickling since you left Otisâs house, the dam completely broke when you felt the familiar and comforting embrace of Danny. He rubbed soothing strokes up and down your soaked back with a soft flat palm, his hand shuddering against each shaky breath you took.Â
âAre you hurt? I need to know youâre okay, physically,â he asked, still keeping you tight in his arms.Â
âIâm not hurt. Iâm okay,â you sobbed, clutching at his shirt behind his back.Â
âShhh,â he cooed as your sobs continued, âWhatâs going on? What happened?â
You pulled away from him, slipping back into your seat and wiping furiously at your red and wet eyes. âThere was,â you shuddered, âThere was a woman,â you explained, eyes now trained on the window wipers that feebly tried to push away the waves of water that fell from the sky, âThey were both naked.â
âWhat?â The volume of his voice was jarring in the otherwise silence of the car. You dared not speak, feeling embarrassed and ashamed. Danny had warned you that Otis wasnât a good person, but you had ignored him, and you were now putting the weighted burden of your mistake on his shoulders.Â
Danny ran a frustrated hand through his hair and you kept your eyes before you, silent tears now running down your cheeks.Â
âSheâs really pretty,â you added, and Danny eyed you carefully. He stared at you for a long time, as if trying to see through your skin and into your brain to read every thought that was running through your mind. When he couldn't find anything other than self-loathing and depreciation, he ran a hand through his hair.Â
âI- fuck I donât even know what to say. Iâm so sorry.âÂ
You shook in the cold as you stared out the window, unspeaking as silent tears rolled down your cheeks. When he realised you werenât going to respond, he turned in his seat again and popped the car back into gear before he continued the drive home. He was watching your body shake violently from the cold and knew that as much as he wanted to hold you until you were better, you needed to get out of your wet clothes and into something warm and dry.
âDon't do that,â Danny said, pulling your thumb away from your mouth as you attacked the skin around it.Â
ââM sorry,â you muttered with a sniffle, pulling your hands to your lap and fiddling with your fingers instead.Â
âDonât need to apologise.â
You were quiet for the rest of the ride. You replayed the moment over and over in your mind, looking back on how he had blatantly told you that he didn't want you there, that you werenât invited. All because there was another woman. Had she always been there? Was she just a one night stand or had he been cheating on you for longer?
Danny bit his cheek each time he heard you sniffle, every small sound cutting through him like a knife. He glanced over at you, watching as you hastily wiped your eyes, your fingers trembling with the effort of holding yourself together. The sight of you in pain made his chest ache, and every time your hand darted up to your face, he wished he could reach out, pull you close, and wipe your tears away for you. But he didnât want to push, didnât want to smother you when you were clearly teetering on the edge.
His fingers tightened around the steering wheel as he navigated the darkening streets, the quiet hum of the car engine doing nothing to soothe the thick tension in the air. You sat next to him, staring out the window, barely moving, but he could see the steady stream of tears that continued to roll down your cheeks. They glistened in the streetlights as you passed them, and he wanted to say something, anything, but he knew no words could fix what you were feeling.
The ride home felt agonisingly long, each second dragging on as Danny tried to focus on the road and not the heart-wrenching sight of you unravelling beside him. He kept biting his cheek, hard enough to taste blood now, but he couldnât stop himself from glancing over at you every few seconds, praying youâd somehow find a little bit of peace before they made it home.
When Danny finally rolled into the parking spot, the familiarity of your apartment complex looming ahead caused the tears that had slowed for a brief moment on the drive started to pour again, the sight of home making everything worse. The thought of being so close to your bed, to the space where you could collapse and let yourself fully break was overwhelming.
Your breath hitched, and you hugged your arms around yourself, trying to stop the shivering that had taken over your body. The cold had seeped into your bones, making you shake uncontrollably, but you couldnât tell if it was from the freezing rain that had soaked through your clothes or the sadness that seemed to settle deep in your chest.
Danny killed the engine and turned to you, eyes soft and full of worry. âLetâs get you inside, okay?â His voice was gentle, but the concern was clear. He didnât wait for you to respond, opening his door quickly and jogging around to your side, pulling open the passenger door.
âCome on, Iâve got you,â he murmured, offering his hand to help you out of the car. You hesitated for just a second, but the exhaustion in your body won out, and you took his hand, letting him guide you. As you stepped out, your legs wobbled beneath you, and without a second thought, Danny wrapped his arm around you, pulling you into his side.
You leaned against him, your sobs becoming louder now that you were out of the confined space of the car. His warmth was comforting, but it wasnât enough to stop the tidal wave of emotion that had hit you. As he helped you up the steps to the apartment, you clung to his sweater, your cold fingers digging into the fabric as if you could hold onto him and stop yourself from spiralling.
Each step felt heavy, the weight of your sadness pressing down on you like a physical force, and you stumbled a little as you climbed. Danny tightened his grip on you, steadying you with every step, whispering quiet reassurances even though he wasnât sure you could hear them over the sound of your own sobbing.
You werenât crying for any reason now, yet it felt like your emotional capacity was a heavy ball that had been pushed off a hill. Once it started rolling, you couldn't stop.Â
Once inside, the warmth of the apartment hit you, but it did nothing to thaw the ice in your bones. You barely registered Danny closing the door behind you, his arm still around your shoulders as he led you deeper into your apartment. Despite his support, your mind had already begun its familiar descent into destructive thoughts. If Otis didnât want you, then who would? The rejection felt like a punch to the gut, and the more you thought about it, the more it hurt.
Without a word, you pulled away from Danny, feeling the loss of his warmth immediately but ignoring it as you left him standing in the middle of the living room alone. You made a beeline for your bedroom, your body moving on autopilot. The door clicked shut behind you, and even though there wasnât a lock, you knew Danny wouldnât come in. He respected your space, your boundaries, but that knowledge only made the ache in your chest deepen. The loneliness pressed in harder, suffocating.
Inside the sanctuary of your room, you didnât care that you were drenched to the bone, or that your clothes clinging to your body uncomfortably. The cold had long since numbed your skin, and now it was creeping into your muscles, making your limbs ache with a dull, persistent throb. You shivered violently, your teeth chattering so hard they ached, but it was a distant sensation compared to the emotional storm raging inside you.
You toed off your soaked shoes, not even bothering to untie them properly. Normally, the thought of tracking dirt or water onto your bed would have horrified you as your bed was your sacred space, always spotless, always prepared for sleep in clean pyjamas after a long shower. But tonight, none of that mattered. Your mind was too far gone, too consumed by the thoughts that swirled around relentlessly.
You crawled onto the bed without a second thought, the damp sheets immediately sticking to your wet clothes. The fabric clung to your skin, cold and uncomfortable, but it didnât register. All you could think about was curling into the tightest ball possible, as if making yourself small enough would somehow make the pain disappear.
The sobs wracked your body violently, each one more painful than the last. You pressed your face into the pillow, muffling the sound, but it didnât stop the flood of tears from soaking the fabric. Your whole body trembled, not just from the cold, but from the anguish that had taken over.
And still, despite the physical discomfort, despite the relentless sobbing, your mind couldnât stop fixating on Otis. You kept replaying every word heâd said, every look, every action that made you feel like you werenât enough. You kept thinking about how he didnât want you, how he didnât choose you. That gut wrenching feeling of rejection echoed through you like a broken record, and no matter how much you tried to push it away, it lingered.
But it wasn't the loss of Otis that hurt you so much as the feeling of being left behind for someone better. Your self esteem had plummeted, all feelings of security and trust torn apart with no remorse.Â
Minutes passed, maybe longer, until you were dimly aware of the soft knock on your door, Dannyâs voice drifting through the wood gently.
"Hey⊠I'm just gonna leave some dry clothes outside your door, okay?" he said, his voice calm but clearly worried. You didnât respond, too lost in the flood of emotions, but you heard him shuffle around outside before retreating.
A little while later, Danny returned, seeing the pile of clothes left outside untouched. He called your name gently with a brush of his knuckles against the wood, âCan I come in?â he asked cautiously.Â
âNo,â you called out, muffled in the pillows your face was buried in.Â
He hesitated in the silence. âI donâtâ I think you need to get out of your wet clothes,â he commented, voice still quiet behind the door. âYou might get sick.â
âDonât tell me what to do. Iâm an adult, Iâll do what I want,â you snapped.Â
You had no idea where that outburst had come from. You immediately felt guilty as you imagined how Danny would have recoiled at your words and tone of voice. It was glaringly obvious to both you and Danny that you were only acting hostile as a way to protect yourself. Protect the fragile feeling of trust you had so carefully maintained throughout your life.
âIâm sorry. I donât know why I said that⊠you can come in,â you said so quietly, that Danny may not have even heard you.Â
Though with heavy caution, Danny reached down to twist the handle. He knew you didn't mean what you were saying. You were hurt, and had been betrayed in arguably the worst way someone could be. He knew you just needed someone to be in your corner.Â
You didn't dare look behind you at Danny as he entered your room, and instead kept your head buried in your pillows.Â
âHey,â he whispered, and you felt the edge of your bed dip as he sat down. He reached out hesitantly, and put his warm palm on your bare arm. He flinched the feeling of your skin, chilled from your still soaked clothes. âShit, youâre freezing,â he commented.Â
With your back still turned, you stared blankly into the plush pillows in front of you, your eyes fixated on the growing wet stain spreading across the fabric. You couldnât distinguish if it was from your soaked hair or the relentless flow of tears that you had cried. Your pillowcase, usually soft and comforting, now felt cold and uninviting, just another reminder of the misery that clung to you like the dampness in your clothes.
Your chest rose and fell with uneven breaths, each one laboured as you tried to suppress the sobs that threatened to rise again. The wet patch in front of you seemed to expand with every tear, but you couldnât muster the energy to wipe your face or even shift positions.Â
Everything felt heavy. Your body, your heart, your thoughts. It was as though the weight of everything Otis had said, everything you felt, was sinking into that single spot on the pillow, and no matter how long you stared, it wouldnât disappear.
âHey,â he carefully pulled you away from your thoughts. Sniffling, you rolled over to face him, and his heart ached at the sight of you. Eyes and lips swollen, red and raw from your crying, and incessant rubbing.Â
âWill you please change into something warmer?â he asked, eyes soft and genuine as he stared at you, his thumb stroking against the cold skin of your arm, âI can help you if you need,â he added. You sighed, hard and long before pushing yourself up from your bed into a sitting position.Â
âFuckkk,â you groaned, letting your head fall into your hands as you groaned, âThis is such a mess.â
You looked back up again, assessing the damage you had done to your bed, which carried the consequences of you collapsing in it while still wet. Danny got up quickly, taking the clothes he had left for you outside of your bedroom door and bringing them to you at the bed.Â
âI think a warm shower would do you good,â he suggested, âItâll help you warm up quicker.â The thought of the warm water pouring over your tired and cold muscles seemed like heaven, but now that he was here, you didn't want Danny to leave.Â
âYeah, youâre right,â you agreed, moving to get up from your bed. Danny rushed out of your bedroom and searched through your shared hallway cupboard for the softest towel he could find.Â
He watched as you slowly emerged from your bedroom, posture slumped and insecure, arms wrapped securely around your body. Your jeans and top clung to your body tightly from the slick, and your hair left a wet residue on your neck.Â
âI can put the towel in the dryer for you while you shower. That way when you get out itâll be nice and warm,â he suggested. His attention to detail made you smile.Â
Though his offer was kind, you knew what you wanted more than a warm towel. The thought that came into your mind was absurd, and could very possibly make Danny uncomfortable by crossing the boundaries of your friendship that you had both treaded in all those years. But you didnât wantâ you couldnât be left alone, or you feared you would curl up onto the cold tile floors and cry until you died.Â
âWhat's up?â he asked, hand raising to the side of your face to thumb away the remaining tears left on your cheeks. You glanced up at him shyly, trying to reign the confidence to ask him the question.
He frowned at the look of conflict on your face as you debated with yourself, âHey. Whatever it is, you can tell me. You can tell me anything, you know that,â he offered with a kind smile. That same smile that had dried your tears too many times over the years, ââS only me.â
You took a deep breath, âI just⊠I donât know how to say this. I donât want you to leave me alone. I wantâ Iâm scared of being left alone again,â you admitted though still skirting around the truth of your sudden discomfort.Â
âI won't ever leave you alone, you know that. Iâm always here for you,â he comforted, stroking your wet hair away from your face in a way that felt so intimate, so domestic, that you nearly began to cry again.Â
âThatâs not⊠thatâs not what I mean.â You took a deep, steadying breath, âWillâ um, will you come with me?â you added in a mumble, cheeks heating at your question.Â
He cocked his head in confusion, âCome with you where?âÂ
You swallowed thickly in embarrassment, physically unable to say the words. You were ready to dismiss it, and tell him it didn't matter when realisation struck his face.Â
âYou mean⊠come with you to shower?â he asked quietly, surprise reigning his features at your admittance.Â
You were a fool. You had just ruined the relationship you had with your boyfriend, and you were already on track to do the same with your best friend.
âIâ Iâm so sorry. I donât even know why I suggested that, seriously, just forget it, Iââ
âNo, no, stop. I⊠Iâm happy to⊠if uh, if thatâs what you need,â Danny answered, his heart thumping in his chest at your suggestion. This was a boundary that neither of you had ever crossed. Sure you had seen each other close to nakedness before, but only by pure accident or in the form of skimpy swimwear.Â
Both of you knew that doing this was different. Even suggesting it had changed something between the two of you, and it had brought to life the truth that you had both been hiding beneath platonic smiles for your whole lives.
You couldn't look at him, and instead looked at the towel he held tightly in his hands, âAre you sure?â you asked quietly.Â
Jaw tight and eyes cautious, he nodded silently. âYou go and get started, and Iâll uh, join you in a minute, okay?â he suggested and you tucked a tuft of hair behind your ear.Â
âOkay,â you whispered. As you turned to walk away, nerves swelling in your stomach at your decision, Danny cleared his throat again.Â
"Are you... do you want me to keep my... um, boxers on?" Dannyâs voice was as gentle as ever, like slow dripping honey that coated each word with the tenderness you had come to depend on. It was just Danny, always so considerate, always thinking of how to make you feel comfortable, especially in moments as vulnerable as this.
The question, though spoken with the utmost care, still startled you. Your heart skipped, and you felt a small flutter of uncertainty rise in your chest. You feared that whatever answer you gave might lead to discomfort, but there was a deep, aching need inside you to be close to him. Closer than you had ever been before. Something unspoken tugged at you, a silent yearning to connect with him in a way that transcended the physical.
"If you want. But I don't mind if you don't," you murmured, your voice softer than you intended, as if afraid the wrong words might break the fragile atmosphere.
Before he could respond, you turned and made your way down the hallway to the bathroom, the soft patter of your footsteps against the floor the only sound echoing in the quiet apartment. You gently swung the bathroom door shut, leaving it ajar just enough to let him know that he was welcome. You twisted the shower tap, letting the heavy stream of hot water fill the shower, the sound of it pounding against the tile, a soothing background hum that drowned out the noise in your mind.
Your clothes clung stubbornly to your body as you peeled them off, each article of fabric a reminder of the evening's cold and the emotions that had seeped into your bones. The chill in the air bit at your exposed skin, and a violent shiver wracked your body, leaving you trembling as you stood naked in the dim bathroom. You barely spared a glance in the mirror, catching only a fleeting, distorted reflection of yourself, a body that tonight, felt uglier than it ever had. The blotchy redness from your sobs clashed with the paleness of your cold skin, and you looked away quickly, unable to face the image.
Stepping into the shower, you sighed deeply as the hot water cascaded over your head, the sensation washing away the lingering chill. It was a simple pleasure, the heat sinking into your scalp, down your neck, and through your entire body. You tipped your head back, allowing the water to flow over your face, burning just enough to be distracting, before it slid down your shoulders and over the curve of your breasts. For a brief, blissful moment, you forgot about Otis, the heartbreak, the insecurity, everything.
Danny's soft footsteps padding into the bathroom snapped you back to reality, and your heart gave a nervous flutter as you saw his silhouette through the thin shower curtain. You turned your back to him, yet could still feel his presence as he shuffled with his things by the countertop, your senses heightened by the silence in the room. As he approached, the shower curtain shifted slightly, letting in a sliver of cool air that made you shiver again, but this time not entirely from the cold.
Wordlessly, you stepped forward, making room for him under the stream of water, and you heard his deep, contented exhale as the warmth enveloped him. You felt a shy smile tug at your lips, though you didnât dare turn around. The thought of exposing yourself fully to him was daunting, even though you had never felt safer with anyone else.
Reaching up, you grabbed the bottle of vanilla shampoo, your fingers trembling slightly as you struggled to maintain your composure. But before you could open the bottle, you felt Dannyâs warmth behind you, not close enough to touch, but enough for you to feel his steady, comforting force and hot, heavy breath by your ear. He reached over your shoulder, his hand brushing yours as he gently took the bottle from you. The touch was brief, but electric, sending a ripple of warmth through your chest.
"Let me," he offered, his breath tickling the skin beside your ear. The shampoo bottle clicked open, the scent of vanilla filling the air as Danny lathered up the shampoo by rubbing it between his large hands.
You stood still, your heart pounding in your chest as his hands moved to your head, slowly threading into your locks and pressing to your scalp. His fingers were strong but somehow gentle as ever, working the shampoo into your scalp in slow, deliberate motions, in a way that made your knees weak. You let out a whispered groan, the sound escaping before you could stop it as your body relaxed under his touch.
You closed your eyes, leaning into his touch as he continued to wash your hair. His fingers traced soothing patterns against your scalp, moving with such care that you felt your chest ache with emotion. This wasnât just an act of kindness. It was love. Pure, unspoken, and unconditional.
This was no longer just about getting clean either, you realised; this was something else entirely. The both of you, stood there, completely exposed, completely vulnerable, and yet there was no awkwardness and no sense of pressure or expectation. It wasnât sexual, but it wasnât entirely platonic either. It was something deeper, something built on years of quiet affection, of love that had been waiting patiently for the right moment to reveal itself.
He soon rinsed his hands under the water, and touched your shoulder gently as he pulled you back under the stream. He aided with washing the shampoo out of your hair with his hands, running through your scalp and squeezing at your hair as the soapy suds travelled down your hair and down to his feet.Â
You had completely forgotten about Otis, you realised, as Danny reached up to grab the bottle of conditioner, doing the same as before but only raking the product through the ends of your hair.Â
Your breathing was heavy, and you suddenly felt the urge to cry again, but not out of sadness this time. You turned around to face him, feeling no insecurity over the exposure of your bare body when his burning gaze remained on your face.Â
âDannyâŠâ you started, frowning at the overwhelming feeling of your new realisation. Your face told him everything he needed to know, eyebrows pinched in desperation, and tears brimming at your eyes.
To your lack of knowledge, Danny had always felt a way for you that he shouldnât have, loving you silently in the shadows under platonic guise. After years of yearning, only now did he see that you could finally feel it too. Be it only an inkling of affection, it was enough to make his heart skip.
He reached up and cupped your cheek, âI know, sweet girl.â He nodded, his thumb stroking the apple of your cheek lovingly, and you leaned into his touch. When he let go, you dropped your head, hanging it low between your bodies, your eyes closed in exhaustion.Â
Danny stepped forward slowly, his feet splashing against the pool of water at your feet, and he engulfed you in the embrace of his long arms. Your head fell into the spot between his arm and chest, and that same arm came up to cradle your head. You could feel his other bare arm on your back, your breasts pressed against his chest and you flushed at the proximity.Â
You desperately tried to hold him too, arms wrapped around his abdomen and folded up to hook your hands over his shoulders. You didn't notice the tears that flowed from your eyes, as they became one with the water that flowed between you both.Â
âDanny,â you whispered. He nuzzled into your hair, a comforting gesture that made your heart race.Â
âHmm?â he replied softly, encouraging you to continue. The moment hung heavy in the air, filled with unspoken feelings.Â
The feeling was so overwhelming, that you realised you could no longer pretend to be just friends, as the desire to love him loudly completely consumed you.Â
Finally, you spoke, your confession bursting forth like a long held secret, âI think I love you.â The words tumbled out, raw and unfiltered, a rush of emotion that felt both exhilarating and terrifying.Â
You felt his stomach tighten at your words, and he pulled back slightly to gaze down at you. You raised your head from his chest to meet his eyes to see them pleading in wonder. He couldnât believe what he was hearing. For so long, he had admired the beauty of your soul in silence, waited in suppressed agony, fearing that revealing his feelings would push you away. Your company was always enough for him to keep his feelings hidden, as just being near you to hear your laughter, your mind and your soul, had been more than enough.Â
But now, you were uttering the words he had dreamt of telling you for what felt like his whole life.Â
âAlways,â he whispered, shaking his head in disbelief. His sincerity washed over you like a warm embrace. He tucked your wet hair behind your ear, his fingers brushing your skin gently. âI always have.â
Your eyes widened in disbelief, searching his for confirmation. âWhat?â you managed to ask, your voice breaking. Instead of answering, Danny leaned down, closing the distance between you, and held his face close to yours. He lingered for a moment, as if giving you time to pull away, before he brought his lips to yours in a gentle caress.
His lips were soft and slow against yours, hesitant and testing at the new sensation. Neither of you could believe what was happening, and you marvelled at the intimacy of the moment, the tenderness. Never would you have thought this would be how you ended up, and now that it was happening, there was no going back.Â
Danny's hands rested hesitantly beside you, ghosting your skin as he resisted the urge to touch you, as he was painfully aware of your state of undress and didn't want to cross any boundaries. You took them into your own hands, and pulled them to rest on the sides of your waist. He gripped the skin softly at the sensation.Â
Your mouths explored each other, and you reached your hands up to tangle in his hair as you revelled in the new feeling. It felt as if you had searched every corner of Danny, as your years of friendship had taught you things about him even his family didn't know, yet this was unexplored territory.Â
Danny pulled away with a deep inhale, and he took in the sight of your flushed face, mouth slightly agape and eyes wide. A small smile crept onto his face at his realisation of what had just happened.Â
âYouâre so beautiful, dâ you know that?â he whispered, hand gliding up and down the curve of your waist. You looked down shyly, at both the compliment and your own understanding of what had just happened.
âYou are too,â you mumbled quietly, a blush tinting your cheeks. You could no longer look at Danny without your heart exploding, and when he smiled a bit wider at your words, you turned back around, reaching for the body wash and fiddling with the cap.Â
Danny was more hesitant to offer helping you clean your body than he was your hair, ever considerate of your boundaries. You had both taken huge steps in mere minutes, and the last thing he wanted was for you to feel rushed.Â
You of course knew this, and decided that your bold streak hadnât ended yet. âWould you⊠help me with this one too?â you asked quietly, turning to look up at Danny through your lashes.
âAnything,â he answered with a nod, taking the bottle from your hands gently and pouring the soapy substance over his hands. You could tell he was still hesitant, the act of touching you was clearly daunting for him, and you tried your best to show him you were okay. You nodded at him to go ahead, and he gingerly reached his hands to your shoulders, massaging the product over them, pulling your arms out horizontally so that he could lather it across them too.Â
Avoiding the obvious, his hands dragged back up your arms and to your back. You turned for him, letting his strong fingers knead into your muscles, making you hum in approval, head dropping forward at the feeling. He tucked your hair over your right shoulder to move it out of his way. His hands travelled over the expanse of your back, fingers dipping into your dimples of venus, but not treading any further before he pulled them back up, running long stripes either side of your spine.
His hands travelled around your waist then, and you turned again for him as the warmth of his hands spread over your stomach, sides and ribs, hesitating just below your breasts.Â
Your stomach flipped as you became aware now that his gaze was not holding its respectful attachment to your face, and was now all over your chest, trying to touch you anywhere but there.Â
You bit your cheek, and slowly reached up to take his hand that was settled on your ribs into yours. His eyes zoned in on your own as you dragged his hand up your body and rested it on your breast.Â
âItâs okay,â you told him. To say that these moments were not entirely sexual anymore would be untrue. And youâd be lying if you said that you hadnât caught glimpses of his situation down below, despite your efforts to keep your gaze above his waist.
Breath heavy, and feeling like he would pass out any moment, Danny tenderly ran his hands over your breasts, rounding at the swell and dipping in the valley as he lathered them in the soap. He wasn't hasty to move on, but he didnât linger for too long, letting you know that he did not expect anything sexual from you. As he washed your upper half, you scrubbed at your bottom, running the soap in your hands over your legs and behind, to speed up the process.Â
Danny pulled you back under the stream, and quickly rejected your offer to wash him the same.Â
âYouâre exhausted, and Iâm worried if you spend another minute in the steam youâll pass out,â he said with a teasing smile, half joking. You frowned at his words.Â
âIâm not exhausted, I can do it.â
âHoneyâŠâ he started, lifting your arm and showcasing your hands which were trembling without support.
You huffed at his consideration. âOkay, fine⊠if youâre sure.â
He smiled at you, his hand on your hip squeezing gently, âI am.â He dipped down and gave you a quick peck on the lips, the act startling you, as you had almost forgotten the events that just occurred between the two of you. As if you weren't just guiding his hand to your breasts. As if he werenât standing before you in those moments, with an obviously painful erection.
You gave him one last smile before you pulled the shower curtain open and stepped out. The cold slapped you in the face and you were quick to shut the curtain behind you to keep Danny warm. Picking up your towel and wrapping it around your body was a beautiful reprieve from the biting cold, and when you looked out of the fogged glass of the bathroom window, you could tell that the rain outside was just as relentless as it was before.Â
You listened to foamy soap hit the floor as Danny washed through his own hair while you collected your hairbrush and other essentials, before you silently slipped out of the bathroom door, not bothering to close it all the way behind you.Â
Your mood now soaring at heights unimaginable, you padded to your bedroom, a small smile on your face as you thought back on the intimacy of the moments you had just shared. When you stepped into your bedroom though, you were reminded of the mess that was your life.Â
Your bed was soaked, sheets and pillows bore big wet patches and you were sure the moisture had soaked through to your mattress too. You shut your eyes and took a deep breath, before deciding what to do. You shuffled through your pyjama drawers and picked out some long plaid pants along with a white singlet and a hoodie. You changed quickly, not wanting the warmth of your body to succumb to the cold again, and once you were changed, you walked back out of your room and into the living room, where you set up camp on the couch.Â
Meanwhile, Danny was running his hands through his wet locks, the water cascading down his face as he replayed those moments over and over again in his mind. He had waited for you for so long. Loved you in silence for so long. And it was all worth it.Â
Once he left the shower he wrapped the last towel around his waist, squeezing the wetness out of his hair and leaving it otherwise to air dry.Â
As he left the bathroom, he could hear you humming softly in the living room, and he passed his room to see you again. Danny watched in admiration at you, dressed comfortably while you typed and scrolled on your phone, cross legged on the couch, Your wet hair hung down your back, but your sweater protected you from the cold this time.Â
He frowned when he saw the couch, set up in a way he could only assume was your attempt to sleep on it.Â
The sound of his arrival got your attention, âHey, Iâm ordering Thai delivery,â you said, eyes still trained on your phone as you typed in your card details.
Danny smiled warmly at you, âGreat, thanks⊠um, whatâs all this?â he asked, hands gesturing to the makeshift bed you had set up on the couch. Although just seeing him completely naked, and having that naked body pressed against your own, you stifled at the sight of him with only a towel around his waist.
You cleared your throat and averted your gaze, âOh, my bed is really wet from⊠you know, lying on it earlier.â
He shook his head, âNo, you arenât sleeping on the couch. I have a double, you can sleep with me.â He immediately blushed at the alternate innuendo his words held, âNot like sleep together, just, you know, go to sleep,â he tripped over his words anxiously, making you force back a smile.Â
âAre you sure? Iâm fine toââÂ
âYes Iâm sure. One hundred percent,â he assured quickly before he reached up to scratch the back of his neck, âI mean, we did just shower together.â
Now it was your turn to blush, and you looked back to your phone to hide your face, agreeing quietly.Â
Danny retreated to his room to get into his pyjamas, and quickly tidied the space up, feeling self conscious at the state his room was in, shoving his clothes into his drawers haphazardly, and others he took to the laundry basket. Once he was satisfied, he returned to the living room.Â
He sat down beside you, his thigh brushing yours and you suddenly became insecure of where you both stood. Usually, it would be normal to sit so close together, laughing and chatting through movies, but now, things were different. You didn't want to come across as pushy and rushed, but similarly didn't want to do the opposite, act cold or distant after the moments you had shared.Â
If Danny was having the same fears, he didnât let it show, as he wrapped his arm around you and tugged you closer to him while he leaned over to reach for the TV remote with a grunt.Â
âWatcha wanna watch?âÂ
You and Danny settled on the first movie you could, only pausing to get your takeout delivery from the door, before you returned to your position, which seemed to be steadily moving closer to Danny with each reposition or shuffle.Â
By the time the film was over and your bellies were full, you were exhausted. You had been emotionally wrecked throughout the day, ranging from betrayal and heartbreak, to renewal and love.Â
Danny steadied you by your elbow as you stood, helping you gather your things to take to his room. You were too sleepy to feel nervous.Â
âWhich side do you sleep on?â you asked as you stood by the doorway.Â
Danny scratched the back of his head, âUsually the right, but I don't mind. I move around a lot when I sleep anyway.â Truth be told, Danny rathered that you slept on his side, as he knew that his pillow would smell like you by morning.
It apparently didn't matter though, as when you slipped under the covers of the left side of the bed beside him, his senses were overwhelmed with you. Your smell, your energy and your heat. It also wasnât long before the two of you closed the distance between you, arms and legs tangled in your attempts to be impossibly closer to one another, your fronts pressed together just like the moments you shared in the shower.Â
It all felt so normal. You attributed it to being friends for your whole lives, giving you the ability to close emotional distance without second thought, but it was still startling nonetheless.Â
âThanks again for letting me sleep here, itâs definitely more comfortable than the couch,â you whispered, and he reached behind him to turn off the bedside lamp.
Now cloaked in darkness, you relied only on your hearing to navigate Danny beside you. The rain was still pouring outside the window, and in a way, it felt fitting as a reminder of your day. While a disastrous storm brewed outside, you were safe and warm with Danny at home.Â
âMaybe⊠maybe we could make it a regular thing?â Danny asked nervously. âYou know, since you love me and all that,â he teased, trying to ease the tension of his suggestion. You groaned in embarrassment and buried your head into his chest, hearing his chuckles vibrate in his chest.Â
âI would like that very much, thank you.â
âDon't thank me. You have no idea how happy I am to have you with me like this.â
You sighed deeply, and decided it was your turn to tease. âAnd just how long have you felt this way for me, hm?âÂ
Danny chuckled dryly but swallowed, hesitating to tell you in case it made things weird. He didnât want you to feel that his friendship had ever been false, or as a ruse to gain your attention in that way.Â
His nose brushed against your forehead, âIâve known for sure since eighth grade.â His statement was heavy, yet honest, and it hung in the air wearily as he waited for you to respond.Â
You pulled your head away from him, âEighth grade?! Danny⊠whatâ why didnât you say anything?â
He sighed, âI didnât want to ruin what we had.âÂ
You understood, but wished he had told you sooner, as though you hadnât ever realised it was quite love, you knew that you never would have turned away the idea of being with Danny like that.Â
âWe wasted so much time,â you sighed.Â
âWhat? You mean you felt the same?â he asked, shock lacing his words as his hand tightened around your frame.Â
You nodded, âYouâve always treated me better than any boy I ever went out with. I just didn't think thatâ I didn't think that this was a possibility. I thought you were too good for that. Tooââ
âToo good for what?âÂ
âYou know, like with your band and stuff. I don't know, I guess I thought you had more important people to see than me. I didnât ever think you wouldâ could actually see me like that,â you tried to explain.Â
Danny groaned, âOh God. Iâm never gonna live this down.â
Your brow creased in confusion, âWhat do you mean?â
âSammy knew I liked you before I even did, used to tease me about it all the time. The three of them have watched me act like an idiot around you for years. I can't believe you thought that I was âtoo coolâ for you.â He chuckled, though regret laced the dry laugh.Â
You felt mild embarrassment at the thought that the boys, who youâd become close with the years that you knew Danny, were keeping the secret from you that would ultimately change your life indefinitely.Â
He whispered your name, pulling you from your thoughts, âI have always loved you. Nothing will ever change that.â
âI love you too,â you whispered, the words feeling new and foreign on your lips, yet somehow just right. You clutched his shirt in your hands and shuffled incredibly closer to him. He smelt like Danny, the comfort you had grown to turn to after many years of safekeeping your heart.Â
âGoodnight, sweet girl.â You felt him kiss the top of your head, followed by the feeling of his nose nuzzling into your hair and sighing deeply.Â
âGoodnight Danny.â
As you welcomed the blankets of exhaustion over your spent body, Danny began to hum a familiar tune, his voice sounding distant in your haze of sleep. Soon, the song became unmistakably recognisable.Â
Because, by The Beatles. Your favourite song.
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late night driving with toji? not rly any smut but can be suggestive if you want!!
à· tags. toji fushiguro x female reader. fluff. calls u âlittle girlâ once.
the distant woods and city flash by in the speed of light as toji drives through the empty highway. you couldnât fall asleep no matter what you tried and toji was kind enough to offer you a late night drive together. he told you something along the lines of: âbet youâll fall asleep in under a minuteâ iâll probably have âta carry yâr ass back to the apartmentâ.
there was a certain truth to tojiâs words; your eyes were starting to close on their own, the world was constantly fading in and out of your vision and your body slumped back into the leather seat. all the noises from in- and outside of the car were slowly becoming inaudible to your ears as well.
âlooks like my little girl is already gettinâ drowsy,â tojiâs deep voice snaps you back into reality, body almost jumping in place from the unexpected interruption, âi told ya, didnât i? a relaxing drive like this would knock anyone out immediately.â
âmm.. guess you were right.â you somehow were sleepier in the car than you were back home. maybe itâs because of the soft wind that brushed against your face, or maybe itâs due to the fact that you felt completely safe in this small space with your lover.
you werenât physically home, but you felt like you were there emotionally and mentally. it made you think: what if home actually was a person and not a place?
well, for you, that person would definitely be toji. his presence in the driver seat and his rough hand gently kneading the flesh of your thigh whilst the other held onto the steering wheel was enough for your body to let go of its stress. toji may seem cold and ruthless to others, though he was anything but that to you. the more time you spent with him, the closer that claim got to being debunked. he (secretly) cared so much about you that it started to be almost unbelievable that that man was a killer.
âyâre adorable.â toji chuckles quietly once he caught a glimpse of your sleepy expression; eyes closed, lips slightly parted, head nodding off to the side, âsleep, baby. itâs okay.â
all you could do was hum tiredly in response and hold onto his free hand. tojiâs thumb was brushing back and forth over the skin of your palm, his eyes sometimes flickering over at you to make sure your body wasnât in an uncomfortable position if you did fall asleep. the last thing he wants is you waking up with cramps in your neck.
âyouâll carry me to bed, right? you promised.â
âŠsilence.
âwho knows.â
âtoji.â
âtsk, yeah, yeah, fineâ i will carry yâr pretty ass to bed, alright.â
#sttoru writes.#jjk x reader#toji x reader#jjk fluff#toji fushiguro x reader#toji fluff#jjk x you#toji x you
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