#its not so much a kms thing as it is a.. fuck my scholarship i just wanna make sandwiches and draw gay people.

[gatsby-system-folks]

Halloween is on a Tuesday

Venting in tags, be aware.

[odyseass]

holy shit FINALLY more than a month after i invoiced them my scholarship fees have gone through, 2 weeks into the uni year and after about 20 emails from me asking What The Fuck is going on and 2 from uni saying Hey If U Don’t Pay You Can’t Come Here like....fucking hell is there any wonder everything is so horrible and anxiety inducing when shit like this always happens. 

i’m having a very bad couple of weeks tbh like... have suddenly noticed the highly alarming eating habits i’ve developed over summer when i haven’t been eating for like, 30-40 hours at a time just bc i can’t. and just. im not describing any of this properly but i really really want to be                  deeeeaddddddd hahaha i keep having these big blowout fights with mum and she wants me to move out but i full on think i’d kms if i did and there’s just..a lot and everyone is asking all these things of me and i feel so overwhelmed and like. i know i can just fcking, talk to my friends, but i feel if i ever do i just get more upset because they idk, aren’t giving me the right advice??? not that that’s their job but i feel frustrated by what i am being told and then frustrated that they are making an effort and im feeling no effect so i fake it and i’m like yeah that made me feel better and its just really shit so i just DON’T talk to them but then im lonely and its just........ggbker,j,bi cant explain any of this life is just so MUCH and i have so many responsibilities and obligations and i feel like i’m not fulfilling them and that makes me want to die