#its not even the main track and im dead

[youreverydayfangirl]

CALL IT WHAT YOU WANT

pairing: max verstappen x singer reader

summary: the one where she finally steps into the limelight, writes one more song about her lover and begins to move on

warning: online hate, mentions of cheating

a/n: hehe another update???? OMGGGGGGG

face claim: sabrina carpenter

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The paddock was buzzing with its usual energy, reporters were darting around, cameras flashing, and the hum of engines in the background. But there was something else today, a shift in the air.

Y/n adjusted her sunglasses as she stepped through the gates, her head held high. Sure she had seen a few of Max's races by now but this was her first proper appearance in public since everything went down. The whispers started almost immediately, staff and fans alike craning their necks to confirm what they were seeing.

"Is that Y/n L/n?"

"She's back oh my god?"

"Why is she here?"

She ignored them, focusing instead on the task at hand. She wasn’t here to make a scene. She wasn’t even sure if she belonged here anymore. But fate had a funny way of disrupting plans, and that disruption came in the form of Lando Norris.

He was walking toward her, head tilted as he laughed at something his trainer had just said. But then he saw her. The laughter froze on his face, replaced by something unreadable.

“Y/n,” he said, stopping dead in his tracks.

She sighed, wishing she could disappear into thin air. “Lando.”

His expression shifted, a mix of confusion and something almost apologetic. “Didn’t think I’d see you here,” he said, his tone tight.

“Yeah, well,” she replied, keeping her voice even, “I didn’t think I’d be back either.”

There was a beat of silence, heavy and awkward. The noise of the paddock seemed distant now, as if the world had shrunk to just the two of them.

“Its been a while, too long,” he said finally, his eyes searching hers.

She crossed her arms, her guard shooting up. “Yeah, well, sometimes people need space..”

Lando smiled, almost bittersweetly. "About that... I owe you an apology, a huge one."

She glanced away, the weight of his words pressing on her chest. "Its in the past Lando, and it should stay that way, I didn't come here to argue or whatever with you." She said quietly.

“Then why are you here?” he asked, his tone almost begging.

Y/n looked up to meet his gaze, forcing herself to stand her ground. "Because it's time," She said.

Lando stared at her for a moment, his jaw clenched, before exhaling sharply. “Right. Well, welcome back, I guess.” The words were clipped, and he turned on his heel, walking away without another glance.

Y/n stood there, her heart pounding in her chest as she watched him go. She knew coming back wouldn’t be easy, but she hadn’t expected it to hurt the way it did.

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Y/n L/n: The Darkside to fame

An Exclusive Time Magazine Interview

Y/n L/n opens up about the past year, struggling with anxiety & depression, dealing with online hate and more...

CLICK HERE TO READ FULL INTERVIEW

Interviewer: Thank you so much for sitting down with us, Y/n. It’s been a while since we’ve heard from you. How are you doing?

Y/n: Honestly, better. Much better. It’s been a tough year, but I'm moving past it.

Interviewer: A lot of fans were surprised when you deleted all your social media accounts last year. Can you talk about what led to that decision?

Y/n: Oh, absolutely. Social media can be such a toxic place, especially when you’re in the public eye. I found myself constantly comparing my life to others and reading comments that… weren’t exactly kind. It started affecting my mental health in ways I didn’t even realise at first. So, one day, I just decided to take a break. That "break" turned into completely stepping away. I needed to reconnect with myself outside of likes, comments, and curated images.

Interviewer: Was it difficult to step away, considering how much social media connects you to your fans?

Y/n: Very difficult. I love my fans, they’ve been a huge source of support for me. But I realised I couldn’t pour into them or anyone else if I wasn’t taking care of myself first. The funny thing is, I think stepping away has helped me foster a healthier relationship with fame overall.

Interviewer: Speaking of fame, you’ve spoken before about how overwhelming it can be. Did that play a role in the struggles you’ve faced?

Y/n: Definitely. Fame is… weird. There’s no handbook on how to handle it, especially when you’re young and suddenly everyone has an opinion about you. I had to learn how to reinvent myself, not in a public sense, but internally. I needed to figure out who I was outside of the noise. I'm someone who normally focuses a lot on how other people think of me, so I really had to focus on rewiring myself so I can move forward and ignore public opinions.

Interviewer: Trust seems to be a recurring theme. You’ve mentioned betrayal from friends. How did that impact you?

Y/n: It was devastating, to be honest. There’s nothing worse than giving someone your trust and having them break it. I won’t go into specifics, but it made me incredibly guarded for a while. It’s hard not to question everyone’s intentions after something like that.

Interviewer: How did you move forward from that?

Y/n: It took time. A lot of time. And I won’t lie, there are still days when I struggle with it. But I’ve learned that holding onto anger or hurt only weighs you down. You have to let it go for your own peace. Meeting new people helped, too.

Interviewer: Someone in particular, perhaps?

Y/n: [laughs softly] Maybe.

Interviewer: Care to elaborate?

Y/n: I’ll just say this—meeting someone who sees you for who you are, without all the labels or the baggage, is incredibly refreshing. It wasn’t something I was looking for, but it’s been… healing, in a way.

Interviewer: That sounds wonderful. Do you feel like this new chapter in your life is helping you rediscover yourself?

Y/n: Absolutely. For the first time in a long time, I feel like I’m living for myself, not for anyone else’s expectations. It’s freeing.

Interviewer: That’s such a powerful message, especially for your fans. What would you say to someone going through their own struggles right now?

Y/n: I’d tell them that it’s okay to take a step back and focus on yourself. It’s not selfish; it’s necessary. Find your people, the ones who love you unconditionally, and lean on them. And most importantly, be patient with yourself. Healing isn’t an easy journey, but it’s worth it.

Interviewer: Thank you for being so open with us, Y/n. It’s inspiring to see how far you’ve come.

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The room was dark, save for the faint glow of moonlight filtering through the curtains. Y/n shifted under the blankets, her mind wandering in that hazy space between sleep and wakefulness. Beside her, Max lay sound asleep, his breathing soft and steady.

She turned slightly, propping herself up on one elbow to look at him. His face was relaxed, a peacefulness in his expression that tugged at her heart. The way the moonlight kissed his features made him look like something out of a dream.

Y/n smiled to herself, warmth blooming in her chest. She thought about everything they had been through, how he’d stood by her, quietly steady, when her world had crumbled. How he made her feel safe, loved, and seen in ways no one ever had.

Her thoughts were racing now, snippets of words and feelings swirling in her head. It was a familiar spark, the kind she knew better than to ignore. Carefully, she slipped out of bed, grabbing her phone and a notebook from the nightstand.

Padding softly into the living room, she curled up on the couch and began scribbling. The words came effortlessly, a melody forming in her mind as she wrote.

Her hand moved quickly across the page, the emotions pouring out as she thought about all the ways he made her feel protected, cherished, free.

She started humming to herself as she wrote, "I want to wear his initial on a chain round my neck, chain round my neck, Not because he owns me, but cause he really knows me…”

She smiled, it felt raw and honest, a reflection of the loved they shared. She didn’t stop writing until the song was finished. Once she was satisfied, she set the notebook aside and tiptoed back to the bedroom. But not before calling her producer, "Hey Adam, can we add one more song to the tracklist?"

After the finished their conversation, she slid under the covers, and nestled closer to Max, who stirred slightly but didn’t wake.

As she rested her head against his chest, she whispered softly, “You don’t even know it, but you’re my muse."

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[killergee]

I hope you are familiar with How to train your dragon (race to the edge etc.).

I love that show! I also love Astrid Hofferson! She's amazing!! Ahem!

A Hoshina Soshiro x Astrid Hofferson reader would be so cool and interesting!! Plus a temper mental partner and a calm partner is so interesting for Hoshina Soshiro!!

Reader is a captain a strong one too her custom weapon is a battle axe viking style. Very aggressive in the battlefield and very strict.

But with Hoshina Soshiro she's as gentle as a flower.

IM SO SORRY FOR TAKING SO LONG! School has been absolutely kicking my ass but I finally had time to work on this. Hehe, tyy for the request and I hope you enjoy :-)

Summary: After a long and hard battle, your division finds out that the Third Division Vice Captain is the only one who can tame their scary Captain.

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"What a waste of a beautiful night," you drawled out as you looked up at the night sky. Taking a deep breath, you tried to ignore the wails of kaijus, the blaring of gunfire, and the ache in your body as you got up from the rubble around you.

While the smaller kaijus were easy to eliminate, the main problem was the daikaiju that now stood in front of you.

Created by the dead bodies of kaijus morphing together, your soldiers were being compromised one by one. What it lacked for in size, it made up for it in speed and intelligence. Before your soldiers could even aim, their guns were being flung across the field, their chest carved open by its sharp claws.

You watched as it slowly stood to its full height. If you had to guess, it appeared to be weary of you. Choosing to analyze you from afar, it didn't indicate any signs of wanting to approach you.

Though that didn't stop it from flinging you like a ragdoll less than a second ago, you wanted to scoff. You pressed your hand to your com and ordered your soldiers to fall back. "Create a 700 meter parameter around the target. Do not engage unless ordered."

Brandishing your battle axe at the daikaiju, you prepared to engage in battle. "When I say fire, fire everything you've got at that bastard. Do not hesitate and do not back down." You instructed, never taking your eyes off the target. "I'll create an opening."

The nervous voice of your Vice-Captain cracked through the coms. "Captain, please, let's retreat and wait until the third division arrives for support. Don't sacrifice yourself for us."

"Sacrifice? Who do you think you're talking to?" You laughed, your mouth curling into a dangerous smirk. "This one's all mine. I'm going for the win!"

You rushed in, matching its speed and ferocity. Its claws met your axe at every swipe and jab. Unable to keep up with the fight, you looked like a blur to your soldiers. The only way they knew where you were was by the sound that reverberated from your axe hitting the tough skin of the kaiju.

Whenever there was a moment the kaiju faltered, bullets would rain down on it. Before it could fully recover and track the source of the gunfires, you'd press it once more. The constant attacks slowly chipped away its armour-like skin and you were ready to land the final blow the moment it got distracted.

This sort of attack was only made possible because of the coordination you instilled into your soldiers. Your base was known for being the most disciplined, organized, and efficient base in the country. The caliber needed to join your division was higher than all others, and you were infamously the most bold and strict captain in the entire defence force.

With your axe embedded in the kaiju's upper abdomen, you yelled out to your soldiers once more.

But instead of bullets, you were only met with the hesitant voice of your vice captain. "But, Captain, you're in the way-"

"NOW!" You growled.

"Yes, Captain!"

You couldn't dodge all the bullets, but neither could the kaiju trapped in its place. The chance of breaking its armour was too good to miss—even if it meant you were caught in the crossfire. Weakened and disoriented, it couldn't stop your next swing that sliced it in half. It's core, now unguarded, stood no chance to your mighty axe.

With blood rushing to your head, you desperately took deep and heavy breaths. The cold air that stung your skin contrasted the searing heat of your suit, but all you could feel was the familiar satistifaction of victory settle into your bones. You didn't need to turn your head to know the kaiju laid dead below you. No, the cheers of your soldiers told you as much.

As they rushed to crowd around you, their joy was short-lived as your sharp glare stopped them in their tracks. Shivers crept up their spines, and they straightened their backs, saluting their terrifying Captain.

"Defying orders, hesitating, reacting slow to commands, where do I even begin," you began gruffly, disappointment—and what they think is irritation—dripping from your voice.

Sighing, you were about to continue until a voice interrupted you.

"Hey there, gorgeous, how 'bout you come let me check your wounds first before you go and reprimand your soldiers."

"Soshiro."

Huh? What was that soft sound? Did that come from the Captain? There's no way the Captain can sound that soft. Surely, they were just exhausted from the battle and were hallucinating.

"Come now," the Vice Captain of the third division said in a coaxing manner, "don't make me carry you."

A small chuckle left your mouth, and now their jaws were definitely on the floor. They don't think they've ever even seen you smile, let alone chuckle so fondly.

"Alright... I'll save the lecture for tomorrow." You say with the shake of your head, giving him a tired smile. A smile that dissappeared the moment you turned to address them. "However, know that next time, I will not tolerate any hesitation."

"Yes, Captain!" They saluted, feeling a bit relieved but also unnerved at how nice you were being.

"What your beloved captain meant to say was to have a lil' more faith in her, will ya? Trust in her orders and decisions." Hoshina said with a laugh as he placed your arm over his shoulder and helped you walk towards the medics.

Their eyes were definitely bulging out too, more so that you were being so docile.

You were the very definition of strong. The way you fought, the way you held yourself, hell, even the way walked. They revered you but also couldn't help but be scared of you.

Snapping out of their shock, they tried to turn to their vice captain for answers, but he only looked away, feigning ignorance.

They just had to get to the bottom of this. Even if it meant they'll be spending the rest of their lives running laps.

Sneaking towards the medics, they nearly toppled over each other at the scene before them.

Despite how your wounds must sting, you looked like puddy in his hands while he was cleaning them. Seated infront of him, you were leaning your face into his palm that cupped your cheek, your hand over his.

The hands that were once gripping your axe so strongly were now so softly reaching up to caress the face of the third division vice captain.

"Soshiro," Your voice was even softer,  "I'm alright, please don't look at me like that."

They could see his shoulders shake, even from this distance. "You scared me out there," he replied, dropping the swabs and placing his hands on either side of you.

"I'm sorry, dear," you whispered, softly brushing away the hair that covered his eyes. "You know I'll always fight my hardest to come back to you." Bringing his head to rest on your shoulder, you softly ran your fingers through his hair.

"You could've waited a couple of minutes for me, you know?" He said in an almost teasing manner, his shoulders finally slumping, his arms wrapping around you securely.

You laughed as you could feel his pout on your shoulder. "But where's the fun in that?"

"Awww, they're so cuteeee. Wait, guys- stop pushing, AHH-"

...

"Oh no."

Piled on top of each other and out in the open, they all winced in anticipation of what their captain would do to them. At the sound of laughter, they snapped their heads up to see the Vice Captain shaking and their Captain blushing immensely.

"You're all dead-" you flushed as you quickly tried to detangle yourself from Hoshina.

Feeling not even a smidge embarrassed, Hoshina only teased you, unbothered by your attempts to create distance. "Awwww, c'mon, darling. They're just having a bit of fun."

He turned to face the rag tag bunch with a smile. "Don't worry, I'll make sure the big scary Captain doesn't do anything to ya. So go get yourselves patched up and head home, yeah?"

Despite his reassuring words, they only looked towards their Captain for orders.  Staring at you with pleading eyes, you let out a tired sigh and nod your head.

Smiling wide, they were so close to crying tears of joy. Oh, for their Captain to be like this forever....

Looking at each other, they knew what they had to do.

"Vice Captain Hoshina please transfer to our division!"

[drawlody]

My list of Adam ships♡ n my opinion bout them (also fics rec :D) (old)

Adam x Luicfer (Adamsapple/Duitarduck) 10/10

Need i say more:)))??!?! started out as a "haha funny slip-up ship" to "hey they got really good angst potential". The friends/lovers to enemies to lovers is STRONG with this one n i am eating up everything i could found on ao3. Smth bout this macho-ass man finally getting to stay back n not take charge for once feel nice, also princess Adam supermacy wooooo. Whoever came up with the ship name i applaud u cause that's like a 3 layers name(ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧

It's not an Adamsapple fic without Adam having at least 1 mental breakdown n Lucifer have his guilt eating him alive:)))

Very fucked up torture but i swear it worth the pain:D The dove is so dead it start to rot so plz read the tags properly (plz check out the AngeliaDark other works too they got good shit)

This one have a splits so check out both the fics (beware the author have a skrewed sense of what is considered wholesome:))))

I didnt think a smut scene could be this sad

Adam x Lute (Guitarspear/Guardrock) 10/10

Litteraly my first Hazbin ship, assholes in love is an underrated dynamic we desperately need more off:))) That with a dash of evil dude x loyal subordinate (which i havent seen since the Deathglare days) n opposite attract (look they have one main thing in common is that their extreme bloodthirst, other than that she's stricter than ur mom n he's lazier than the Sloth ring itself but that the beauty of it no? He convince her to chill tf out n not to burst a blood vessel, she keep him on track n make sure Sera dont come on their asses)

They're just being silly enabling each other terrible behaviour n i love that for them (´▽`ʃ♡ƪ) Litteral besties i tell ya

Heavy non-con shit involving Val but Lute will revenge our boi i promised u that

Cool idea n they r just made for each other damn

First hazbin fic i read which is a really cool smut:D

Adam x Micheal (we need a ship name people ) (update: it's Songbird/Guitarhero) 10/10

I like how we dont even got a proper comfirmation of Micheal design/personality yet the ship is here already ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ( im using the Nakariiale's design as a base here love their design)

Hit me with that rebound love x "u look like my ex so im using u as a replacement but ill fall for the real u eventually" x co-workers in heaven. I'm thinking smth along the line of "after Lucifer fucked off with Lilith, Micheal became Adam guardian angel n they just hang out" ya feel me here? (✿◕‿◕✿)

Shout out to Bloog_b for dragging me into this ship:DDD also im on the Adam x the archangels ship as a "gotcha" to Lucifer of sort. Like bitch u stole my wives imma steal your brotherS

Look it's Adamsapple endgame but trust me u will be feed well on this ( u know how good u gotta be for people to ditch the main ship?)

I'm giving yall 4 fics here cause i can only found 4 rn(._. )

this one is uhh non-con so beware

Micheal is indeed Adam guardian angel in this one:D

Adam x Eve (Flowertunes) 8/10

I dont care what yall said they love each other throughout Eden n Earth , might have a falling out in heaven but that doesnt change the fact that they were once IN LOVE. Honestly why cant we just have a couple that have the same bright-eyed innocence like one another.I refuse to believe Eve like willingly cheat on Adam with malicious intent n all, simply she was indeed ''tricked'' or just not fully understand the sistuation, n Adam love her way too much to think that she would do that to him like Lilith. Hell the dude was heartbroken after L left , starting the abandonment issues, so he would have cling to Eve, doing everything so that he aint alone again, even if that mean leaving Eden

Honestly it pisses me off that the Adam/Eve tag on ao3 most of the time is just 1 dialouge between them back when Eve bit the apple n thats it no elaboration on the couple whatsoever >:(((

Lots of switcharoos

sinner eve woooo

look its hard trynna find a fic focusing on them ok?

Adam x St. Peter (Guitargreeter (bet ya didnt see that coming:))) 7/10

Base on this fanfic alone Joe my dude u r on the path of becoming THE Adam crack-ship writer n i am here for this:)))) just so u wait this dude gonna whip out a AdamxNifty , AdamxHusk fic later on ( •̀ ω •́ )✧

From within the fic itself the ship its 2 bros in love with homophobia standing in the way >:( also when did we have a name?!?!?!?

I just like Adam x anyone in heaven alright:D like bro famous n he got that ancient rizz, u telling mr he cant bag a hottie or 2-100+ hmm?

Adam x Alastor (Angelicradio) 8/10

I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT ABOUT THEM THAT I SHIP I JUST DO φ(゜▽゜*)♪ i blame YOU honestly rn this ship is either Adam found Al after the fight n they make a deal or they're in heaven n they chillin this ship is confusing:D

They're angels on heaven

Adam gone back into eden n do shit differently

This is both Adam/Eve n Adam/Alastor kinda

Adam x Alastor x Lucifer (Angelicradioapple/ Charlie's dads (only me call them that lol)) 9/10

''Hey Charlie u know how u r sad that your mother left? Wellllllll i got you 2 new dads suprise:DDDD''

Look 3 miserable men who hate each other + hell's greatest dad + my love for Dadam = Messy ass old men yaoi :DDDD n it work perfectly with Alastor Asexuality too!!! Like Adam n Lucifer could fuck each other brains out before Al joining in for the cuddles lol

Chaos ensue

Not exactly a love triangle but a love corner but hey we barely got food here :D

I cant believe how hot this shit is lol

Adam x Eve x Lilith x Lucifer (Eden poly/ applecore?) 8/10

They could have been all married to each other(╯°□°）╯︵ ┻━┻ But as much as i go "OooOooo Poly yay'' i just cant vibe with EvexLucifer, like the cheating vibes is wayyyyyyyyy too much i just cant man . I mean with the interpetation that Lucifer came to Eden to hang out with the humans they all know eachother, they're a throuple yes but BUT when Eve came into the picture it was only with Adam n him only so the other 2 is ehhhh. Im fine with EvexLilith cause im seeing it happening later, not hidden from Adam while LuciferxEve got that deception going on .So uhhh in this ship they're more like bestie than lovers to me¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Also AdamxLilith is an underrated pairing like everytime i saw this applecore thing going on these 2 r at most tolerate each other like cmonnnnn we already twist this to hell n back, why cant we make it so their arguement was a petty non-malicious one n they still cares for each other hmm???

They're one happy family

IDK what to tell u bittersweet reunion n loving family is the only typa fic u get with this ship

Not that im complaining i need this wholesomeness

Adam x Mammon (Adammon/Madam/Greedyguitar/ 1st chirstmas.... hasnt had an offical name yet) 10/10

They r litteraly same person different font idk what to tell u. More insults thrown around than Guitarspear but they're pretty similar. Adam is just " sinners suck ass but this dude is the worst in the best way". Also they're both big bois (๑•̀ㅂ•́)و✧ , they love towering over others

I'm sorry but there r barely BARELY

any fics of them :(

The art side is more plentiful tho :D

Adam x Angel Dust (Holydust/guitardust) 5/10

THEY ARE BESTIES YOUR HONOUR n that the exact reason why i cant see them be together as a couple 100%, like the shit-talking bff vibes r wayyyy too strong XD Angel finally got someone who have the same vulgar humour as him n if Adam got married in hell Angel would 100% be his best bitch of honour (≧∀≦)ゞq(≧▽≦q)

They're best friends who have casual no-string attached sex that is ACTUALLY no-string attached:)))

I came to ship them due to those "What if they're co-workers under Val' scenarios ive been seeing on Tumblr

I got like 1 fic on ao3 i mean if u r looking for just platonic friendship between them then rest asure most Adam's redemption fics have that

I got 1 fic on tumblr

Adam x Charlie (Charadam/Guitarprincess) 5/10

U know this ship give me a pretty bad first impression since a good chunk of the fics r either heavy non-con shit or lean wayyyyy to much into the daddy kink, ya know how Charlie got suppose daddy issues n all that jazz?:))) yeah that... that

But after seeing the art side of this ship im chillin with them now, since the art r pretty wholesome, usually having them decked out in punk-rock clothings hanging out. It's a big "Fuck you" to Lucifer n i live for these mf argueing ╰(*°���°*)╯

So uhhh stay away from the fics if ya want an actual functional couple instead of wtv messed up shit we got there:))) But here's a fic anyway, the only one where it feel bearable n actual trynna go into said messed up relationship i already warn you

We got cracks like Guitarmaid (AdamxNifty), Valadam (AdamxVal) which i dont have enough materials to decied, Classicalrock (AdamxSera) sound interesting but also havent found anything , Guitarhalo (AdamxEmily) is an unexpected find, find i deem them to be more familial than romantic so we'll see if there's a fic good enough to convince me

Edit:i forgot to add Blitzo like Mammon already there why did i forgot

Adam x Blitzo (i dont think anyone even ship this but me:)) 7/10

I cant find a single fic where they has anything more than a 1 nightstand n 1 interaction where they hit it off , i live off imagination alone (;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`) but like fr fr they would match so well, like their bloodlust n general jerkiness would make them the 3rd asshole x asshole ship on this list :DDDD

Tho as much as i wanna see them go further i feel like an on-n-off relationship/friends with benefits fit em more ya know ( *^-^)ρ(*╯^╰) If ya have any fic but the 2 here that have them interact lemme know cause a bitch need food :)

This is a lot of tag(._. )

[najaemism]

i think she knows! | karina x fem!oc smau

meet the cast: series regulars!

synopsis. march shim and karina yu had been compared and pitted against each other for years, and the media even dubbed them as rivals simply because their careers were slightly similar. their professional lives cross when they’re both casted as leads in a new series, sparks flying both onscreen and off.

(oh—and march also runs a secret stan account for karina.)

warnings. language

— march shim!

an actress/singer-songwriter.

she starred in her first role in a movie in 2016, and from there she quickly rose to fame after being taken under the wing of famous box office movie actor, wonwoo kim.

she occasionally releases music but has never toured. she had realeased two eps, an album, and a few singles.

she focuses mainly on acting and had become pretty popular despite only being in the industry for seven years.

the media pits her against karina yu, another singer-actress, since they are from different companies and have slightly similar careers. she doesn’t really care about the media creating a rivalry between them because she runs a stan account for karina

read march shim’s wikipedia page here!

wonderstruck (2018) is march shim’s debut ep, released on may 8, 2018. her debut single off the ep was “the way i loved you”.

confessions of a homeschooled girl (2021) is march shim’s first album, released as a surprise for her fans on her birthday, november 17, 2021. included in the album is her single from the previous year, “pretty girls”, and a target exclusive version of the album included her single from the dead girl walking soundtrack, “brutal”.

day off in kyoto (2023) is march shim’s second ep, released on november 23, 2024. the ep consists of four songs she wrote and recorded during her two-week vacation in kyoto. the last track of the ep was a song written for two friends of hers from the industry, who would then create a series with the same title, with shim as one of the principal cast.

the fans: archers 🏹

— karina yu!

an actress/singer-songwriter.

starred in her first acting role in a tv show in 2015 for a minor role. was immediately casted in a lead role later that year for a different tv show of the same creators. her career went off from there.

she started a music career only in 2021, releasing her debut ep, and then a full album in 2023. people say she the potential to become the next "pop princess" but she says she has no plans in doing music full-time since she prefers acting more and music is just a side hobby.

has been pit against march shim since they both rose to fame at the same time, but she doesn’t really care about the supposed rivalry and respects march as an artist.

sue me (2021) is karina yu's debut ep, released on september 8, 2021. her debut single off the ep was the title track, written after her former manager had tried to sue her the year prior.

new romantics (2023) is karina yu's first album, released on november 14, 2023. the album had been critically acclaimed, with all songs debuting at the billboard hot 100 during its first week. while people assumed she'd be focusing on her music career after this album, she had quickly clarified that music was just her hobby and that she intends to still focus on her acting career.

the fans: loveyus 💌

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notes.

pls read march’s wikipedia page (carrd) i spent a really long time making it and im rlly happy how it turned out HAHAHA

taglist for this au is still open!

reply in the main masterlist or send me a dm if you want me to use your user as a fan account in this smau!

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[lilgarbitch]

Jane Doe - Noah Sebastian

Pairing: Noah Sebastian x Reader

CW: Car accident, death, suicide, hospital, very triggering if any of this hits close to home. Like imagine im blaring a horn, telling you to prepare yourself

Word Count: 4.5k

Author’s Note: Blame the Angst War ™ ft my love for Shakespeare

I will repeat. Heavy trigger warning‼️ PLEASE Do not read unless you have a clear head‼️I didn’t go too graphic, but i will not live with myself if this hurts any of you by reading it. If you do choose to continue to read, I hope you enjoy to the best of your ability, even though this broke my heart just to write it.

If you or someone you know is struggling or in crisis, help is available. Call or text 988 or chat 988lifeline.org. You can also reach Crisis Text Line by texting MHA to 741741.

quick plug for my co conspirator @blade-dressed-in-red who helped me with so much of this, keeping me sane and shooting ideas back and forth with me to make this the best I could. I’m extremely grateful❤️

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Noah

I stared at the TV, my phone still open in my hand to the text exchange between Matt and me. He had just mentioned seeing a warning that the main road was backed up from a car accident and checked the news to see what was up, then telling me that it was the most insane wreck he’s ever seen. My morbid curiosity got the better of me. 

Right now I was watching the live feed of the wreck. It was a black Sedan flipped on its side, the entire front and side of the car looking as if it imploded with how indented and destroyed they were. It was the car that I had ordered for her since I was too busy to pick her up. Doing what? Nothing fucking important enough to risk her life over. I could barely hear the words coming out of the anchor’s mouth, seeing the plastic covered body with blood coated hair splayed out behind it, off to the left of the screen. 

“One dead, one left in critical condition,” were the only words my ears picked up. One dead. One was dead. And the dead body had her hair color. Or what you could see of it. 

I tried to calm myself down, telling myself that maybe it wasn’t her. Maybe I’ll get a call once Y/N reaches the hospital, being her emergency contact. But there was no way for me to look for myself. I couldn’t rush around hospitals calling her name. The world would see. People would take pictures of me in my worst moments. I just had to wait.

I didn’t even notice I was shaking until I finally forced my eyes back down towards my phone, which had turned off again while I was staring at the TV. I open it, immediately clicking on Matt’s contact and hitting call.

”What’s up?” He answered. I inhaled an overly shaky breath.

”That was Y/N’s uber…” I whispered into the receiver. 

“What was that? I think our connection’s bad.”

”That…that’s Y/N’s uber…” I choked out louder, a full sob leaving my throat, “She was on her way here and…and…Why didn’t I just go pick her up?”

There was a moment of silence, the only sound being my heavy breaths as I felt my chest tightening, before I heard shuffling around on the other end. 

“I’m texting Davis, Bryan, and Jesse to see if they can get to you. Unlock the door and don’t overthink.” I don’t respond, only nod, even though I know he can’t see it. 

I stay on the phone with him, my occasional terrified sobs and the sound of him typing on his phone filling the silence as I drag my feet to the front door and back. Once he notifies me that Davis is on his way, he just talks to me, trying his best to help me ease my thoughts, but it’s not helping. 

Sitting curled in on myself, sunken into the corner of the couch, all I can do is let my thoughts race until Davis finally walks in. He calls out to Matt that he’s here through my phone, and Matt hangs up the phone after telling me that he’ll try to find out what he can.

I don’t make eye contact with Davis, just staring at the floor as I imagine what her last moments may have felt like. He crouches down in front of me to try and get my attention, but I can’t stop picturing the horror that I saw on the TV. He does what he can, grabbing me a bottle of water and a snack while talking to me, but I don’t respond. I don’t move. I don’t breathe. I don’t even know if I’m still crying. I can’t feel a thing. I just hope we can find her. 

Noah

Matt calls Davis a few hours later, hoping he can soften the blow for me, to inform us that he’s called every hospital in the area for Y/N and every single one said that they don’t have a patient by that name. He even tried asking if anyone came in from a car accident today, but they told him that they couldn’t give them that kind of information. I immediately run to the bathroom when I’m told, expelling everything I’ve consumed today as pure fear and grief strike through my body. I’m gripping the bowl with shaky hands as Davis comes in after me and starts rubbing my back. 

“We’ve talked to the boys and everyone’s going to fly out the second they can. Jesse can’t get a chance to come home until morning, but I’ll be here all night.” 

I couldn’t respond with anything more than a sob. I appreciate them being here for me, even if we don’t know for sure if she’s gone, but all I want is her. I want her here, rubbing my back to soothe me. I don’t even want to have to be soothed at all. If I just fucking picked her up, we could be cuddling on the couch, watching Naruto together.

I fucking killed her. It’s all my fault. If I just made her more of a priority, she’d be here right now. She’d be safe and sound and none of this would’ve ever happened. 

I don’t even realize that a panic attack started until I feel Davis’ arms wrap around me right, trying to calm my nervous system. All I could do was sob into his shoulder, shaking more than I ever have before. I feel cold. My chest felt tight. My mind is consumed by grief and guilt. Even if we haven’t lost her, she’s out there somewhere, alone and in pain. And it’s all my fault.

Noah

It’s been four days. I stayed up the first two, just waiting by my phone to get that call that she was okay. That someone was able to identify her and that she was fine. But I think I’ve lost hope. 

Yesterday, I found her wallet here, instantly remembering her telling me that she couldn’t find it a few days before the accident, saying she may have dropped it outside of work or at my house. I told her I’d look. I didn’t look hard enough. I had her only piece of identification. All I could think about was her alone in a hospital room, losing her memory from the crash and unable to tell them her name. Or her cold body shoved into a morgue with a tag that just said “Jane Doe.”

Waking up another day without any new information about her was killing me. It was getting harder to tell myself she was okay. I know there were so many possibilities of what could’ve happened, but convincing myself that any of them were good was nearly impossible. 

The boys had managed to fly in yesterday, and while I appreciated their support, it was getting overwhelming. Everyone was constantly watching me, trying to soothe me when my thoughts became too much, but I just needed to let my emotions out. I needed a minute to myself. 

I slowly stood up from the couch, Matt, Jesse, and Folio’s eyes immediately following my every move. I don’t know what their deal was. I couldn’t even go to the bathroom without being watched like a hawk. They even started making meals for me and talking to me like I was some child. I was grieving, not on bedrest. 

“I’m gonna go for a walk. Need fresh air,” I rasp out, my voice scratchy from speaking in mostly sobs the last four days. Matt instantly stands up to join me, which makes me hold my hand out, “Alone. Please. Just let me have some space.”

He stares at me for a long moment before nodding and sitting back down. I go and grab my shoes and unlock the door. As I open it, I hear Jesse call out.

”Make sure you have your phone on you!” I pat my pockets, realizing I left it in my room after telling myself I needed to stop staring at it, waiting for news, and just leave anyway. It’ll help me clear my head not having them constantly texting me. 

The cold air seems to ease my nerves slightly, so I take deep breaths as I walk. I have no idea where I’m going, but I need to get out of that damn house. Not only are the five extra bodies in there, always hovering over me and watching everything I did, but I couldn’t even look at my bed, seeing her shadow lying in her spot. I couldn’t look in the kitchen, seeing her bright smile and hearing her giggle after I smeared whipped cream on her nose. The backyard where we swam together on hot summer days. Where she’d make everyone laugh when the group came over. 

I feel tears falling down my cheeks again, not knowing how the hell I had more to cry out. She was gone. There was no way in four days, they couldn’t recognize her. She had to be that Jane Doe. 

The quick sound of screeching tires in the distance pulls me out of my thoughts momentarily, only for it to send me even deeper. God, what were her last moments like? How scared was she? Was she in pain for long? Did she die on impact? Where was she now?

My thoughts continue to spiral as I continue to walk, now coming up on a place Y/N and I used to visit all the time when taking this path. It was a smallish creek in the middle of the forest. The water wasn’t too deep, but deep enough that we could stand on the bridge and watch all the tiny fish go by. 

I walk to the railing and try to watch the water pass by in the dark night, hoping that at least the sound could calm my racing thoughts. The bridge was about 10, maybe 12 feet high, so there wasn’t much to see when it was so late at night. But I could see so much. I could see Y/N standing beside me, staring over the edge with me. Her pointing out the groups of tadpoles or if a fish larger than normal swam by. I could hear myself talking her out of climbing down to catch a frog, knowing the steep incline on both sides of the creek was impossible to come back up from. 

I could see the picture I had on my phone that I took of her in this exact spot, the sunset glowing between the trees, giving her the aura of an angel right before my eyes…Angel. She was my fucking angel. She always has been and now she truly was. 

I’m staring at the darkness around me as the pain shoots through me once again. I fucking killed her. I ruined so many fucking lives, just by ordering her that goddamn uber. Her parents have called, tears equal to mine, and we couldn’t give them any information. Because we had none. She was gone. And I couldn’t even fucking say goodbye. 

There was only one way. Only one way to see her again. I stared into the rushing water. There was no way to see how deep it was tonight. No light to give a reflection back. The only thing my senses could pick up was the feeling of the wood railing, the sound of the water and her distant voice in my head. Specifically her laugh that I’ll never hear again. 

I pushed myself off the railing, eyes still stuck on complete darkness. I grabbed it, swiftly slinging one leg over, then the other. I could already feel that pit in my stomach as my body sensed that there was no resistance between me and the water below. I brought a foot under me, and then the other, lifting myself up before I was now standing on the wood. 

I almost wish I brought my phone with me, just to tell everyone one last goodbye. That I loved them more than anything. That I was sorry. But the person I was most sorry for is on the other side already. And she needed to hear it most. 

I feel the wind zip past me as my body sways on the edge. As I let memories play in my head, I let the wind take me.

But something about this didn’t feel right. The moment my feet lost ground and I felt gravity start to pull me down, I knew this was a mistake. Something…someone was telling me this wasn’t the choice I should have made. I do my best to wrap my arms around my head, but before I could do much, everything went black.

Y/N

My eyes feel like they’re glued shut and my throat is absolutely killing me. I clench my fists to try and stretch my tight muscles as I do my best to work my eyes open. Why is my room so cold? And smell so…chemically? 

I hear footsteps walking into the room at the same time more of my senses come back. I hear an odd beeping in the background, and when I finally get my eyes to take in everything in front of me, I come face to face with a bright white room and a shocked doctor. 

“You’re awake. How are you feeling?” He asks. I continue looking around the room, confused, before realizing his words. I spend a few seconds truly thinking how I felt, and that’s when all the pain rushes in.

”Like shit.” I croak out, my throat dryer than it ever has been before.

He comes over and starts asking me a bunch of questions, seeing what I remember and if my arms and legs are functioning well. That’s when I realize that my leg has a cast and I’m covered in bandages.

”Wha- What happened?” I cut him off.

”Well, you were in a pretty rough wreck about a week ago. Thankfully, you didn’t get too hurt, just a few broken bones, but you hit your head pretty hard and got a bad concussion, putting you in a coma.” I blink at him as I process everything. 

“I…how…did..has anyone come to check up on me?” I ask, the fact that I was completely alone in the room being the most important to me right now.

“You didn’t have any form of identification on you, so we were unable to contact anyone, but now that you’ve told us your name, we can go ahead and reach out to the people on your file.”

”Can you please? I really need to see my boyfriend and make sure he knows I’m okay.” He nods and makes his way out of my room. 

Matt

The boys and I were doing everything we could to make ourselves busy, not knowing how to handle everything. Nicholas and Folio were going through Noah’s things, picking out an outfit for his funeral, even though it’s most likely going to be a closed casket, and deciding on what we would send back to his family and what we wanted to keep for ourselves to remember him. We’ve all decided to leave his room how it was now for the time being, not wanting to mess with anything too much. 

I heard a phone ringing on the kitchen island and made my way to see who it was, before realizing it was Noah’s phone. My stomach immediately dropped. Everyone knew what happened…No one would be calling his phone right now…unless… 

I sprint to his phone, seeing that it was an unknown number and quickly answering. 

“Hello?” I rush out.

”Hello. Is this Noah Davis?” A female voice on the other end asks. 

“Uhh..He can’t come to the phone right now, but I can take a message?” I reply, trying to keep my voice stable. 

“Um, okay. Well, this is Dr. Moore at St Francis Medical Center, I’m calling regarding Y/N Y/L/N.”

”She’s alive?” I almost yell into the phone. 

“Yes, Sir. She just woke up from her coma and is asking for friends and family.”

I’m already rushing around the house, grabbing my shoes, keys, and wallet as I tell her that we will be on our way. The guys hear me sprinting around the house and come out to see what I was doing or if I’ve lost my mind again. 

“SHE’S ALIVE! Y/N’S ALIVE!” I yell out as I speed towards the front door. 

I hear them scrambling behind me, trying to get everything they need before they join me in the car. We’re all packed tight, but no one cares. I try my best to stay close to the speed limit, as getting pulled over is the last thing I could handle right now. We thankfully make it there in record time and all rush in through the doors and up to the desk. 

“We’re here to see Y/N Y/L/N,” I tell the lady at the front desk, almost out of breath. She looks unfazed by all of us rushing in and starts typing on her keyboard, searching for her room. 

“She is in room 213. Now, we only allow two family members at a time, but I’ll let you all go as long as you promise not to disturb anyone or cause her any discomfort.” We’re already nodding and rushing past her desk before she can even finish speaking.

Speed walking down the hallway, all of us are reading the room numbers, watching them rise until we finally see 213, with her doctor standing outside. 

“I do need to inform you all that she’s gotten a pretty severe concussion, so please be cautious around her,” He tells us. 

We all stand there and nod like we were being scolded before he finally waves his arm towards the door and we make our way in. Seeing her so hurt broke my heart, but at least she was alive. Folio was the first to rush to her side, already sobbing as he gave her a gentle hug. She softly laughs and hugs him back. 

“I promise I’m okay, guys. I’m sorry for giving you all a scare. They said I should be going home in a few days as long as everything’s alright with my head,” she says with a soft yet raspy voice. 

“We’ve just been so scared. It’s just…Fuck. This week has been hell,” I whisper as I walk towards her, patting the bed to make sure there was room to sit before taking her hand in mine, “We’re so glad you’re okay.”

She gives us all a sad smile, looking between all of us, before her face morphs into confusion. Fuck.

“Where’s Noah?” she asks. 

I stare at her for a few moments before looking at the rest of the boys. All of them just stared back, silently telling me that this was my burden to take. 

“What’s going on? Why won’t you answer? Where is he?” she continued. I sign and turn to her, giving her hand a gentle squeeze.

“Noah…He thought you passed, Honey. Your driver ended up looking a lot like you, and when we couldn’t find you, most of us assumed that it was you who died, not her.”

“Okay. But what does that have to do with him?” I take a deep breath, tears already pricking my eyes as I stared straight into hers. 

“Noah… took his life two days ago.” 

She stared at me dumbfounded, the words slowly processing in her mind one at a time, before her face shifted to horror. 

“H-he what?” I bring her hand to my face, pressing the back of it to my forehead as a sob shakes my body. 

“No. No. He can’t- He can’t be dead. He can’t.” She starts her own sobs, causing the other boys to come in closer, surrounding her bed as we all try to comfort her and each other.

“I’m so sorry, Y/N. I’m so fucking sorry.”

Y/N

Once the hospital allowed me to leave, I make the boys drop me off at my apartment to take a real shower. They say they’ll be back soon, bringing me real food. Folio almost begged to stay with me, already not trusting to leave anyone alone after everything, but I promised all of them that I was okay and that I’ll see them soon. And thankfully it worked, because I really needed a moment alone to process all of this. 

I was numb. Between the pain medication and the grief, I couldn’t feel anything. His funeral was in a few days and I’ve barely been able to accept the fact that he’s gone. This all feels like a dream, the concussion not making any of it better. Before I let myself dive deep into the pits of grief and sorrow, I needed to find something to distract myself with.

The boys thankfully helped me get a new phone, as mine got crushed in the wreck, so I decided to work on setting that up. I take what remained of my old phone and remove the sim card, putting it in the new one. Once I finally get it set up, I’m absolutely bombarded with notifications. A few from my parents, a few texts and calls from the guys…and 30+ text messages from Noah. 

My heart breaks even more. He thought I was dead. He thought he’d never see me again. He ended his life feeling only guilt and regret. Then I see that I have a few voicemails… I press play with a shaky finger, and his sorrowful voice fills the room.

”Y/N…please be okay..Fuck. It’s all my fault…I should’ve just picked you up. I have no idea where you are. The girl on the road…that fucking girl had your hair. You can’t be gone. I need you…” All I can hear is him sobbing for a minute before he continues, “You should be home with me. If we find you and you’re okay, I’m fucking moving you in. I don’t care. I can’t do this. I can’t take not knowing where you are. If you’re even still here.”

The voicemail cuts off, so I play the next one.

”The guys are trying to give me hope, but it’s been two days with no news of you. The news said the girl who died was unrecognizable. Baby…Baby, please answer and tell me that wasn’t you. Please be in some hospital somewhere, waiting for me. Please…Please come back to me.”

And then the next one, sent early in the morning five days ago…The day he died.

“Baby, I’m losing hope. I can’t do this without you. It’s officially been four days of complete silence. I know I should wait longer, but every second without hearing your voice is fucking hell. Something inside of me is telling me that you’re still here, but it’s not enough to convince me,” he starts crying again, then continues with a shaky voice, “ I don’t know what I’ll do if you’re gone. My life is nothing without you. Please, baby,” Another sob, “Please wait for me…”

I can barely see my phone screen when that one finally ends, tears streaming down my face. That’s the last words I’ll hear him say to me. Please wait for me. The last text telling me to come home. And oh how fucking much I wanted to come home.

I needed home. I needed its warm hugs. I need the laughs it’d give me. The bright smile that was all my doing. The feel of its skin against mine. Noah was my home. I need him.

Powerful sobs shake my body, even worse than the ones when I found out. No pain medication could fix the pain I feel in my chest at this moment. I’ll never see my home again.

I leave the voicemail app and open photos, scrolling through the folder I had of every picture and video of him and I. I watched the videos first, needing to hear his happy voice again. The one who would tell me he loved me in utter swoon. His laugh and smile as he looked at me past the camera. The videos Bryan took of us looking like the perfect couple, unable to be more than a few feet apart from each other, if not constantly touching.

He was gone. That’s all my brain was saying, on repeat. He was gone. Noah was gone. I’ll never see him again. I won’t even be able to see him at the funeral, now knowing how he chose to pass.

And then a new phrase began repeating in my head. His debilitatingly sad voice telling me to wait for him. I glance up from my phone to the kitchen counter, the one that held the small pharmacy bag.

You won’t have to wait long, my love.

Connecting my phone to my speaker, I start blasting our song as I walk towards the counter.

As we wake up in your room

Your face is the first thing I see

The first time I’ve seen love

And the last I’ll ever need

I rip open the paper bag, pulling out the small rattling container and just staring at it.

You remind her that your future

Will be nothing without her

Never lose her, I’m afraid

Better think of something good to say

I move to sit down in the middle of the living room floor, still staring at the bottle in my hands. “Please wait for me.” I hear him in my head once more.

I open the bottle and pour out the contents into my hand. “Please come home.” I see flash across my vision.

Without another thought, I throw them back, swallowing dry. I lean back, lying on the wooden floor as the music plays around me, vibrating underneath me.

She was always the one

I’ll repeat it again, the one

No such thing as too young

I feel them hit my stomach like a brick. Or maybe that's the grief and pain finally numbing down to the feeling of a pit deep inside me.

I let the memories of us pass by like my life before my eyes. I’ll be home to him soon. I’ll get to see him again.

My vision starts to blur. Suddenly, I see him. I turn my head to face the corner of the room, and I see his bright welcoming smile. I want to tell him that I’ll be there soon, but it’s hard to move my lips. But he’s there. He can see me ready to come home. Just give it a few more moments and you won’t have to wait any longer.

Cause there’s faith in love

If you kiss me goodnight

I’ll know everything is alright

Second chances won’t leave us alone

Won’t leave us alone

Cause there’s faith in love

As the song comes to an end, I flex my hand the best I could to reach out towards him. I can almost feel his hug already. The warmth I feel when he smiles down at me. Just a few more moments and I’ll be with him.

But when my eyes finally shut, a small smile now stuck on my face. I could no longer hear his voice in my head. All I can feel is cold. All I can see is black. All I can sense is darkness.

He wasn’t here.

[beesmygod]

REVERSE ENGINEERING THE PURPOSE OF THE CROWN OF ILLUSIONS

just hear me out. then you can tell me if im insane.

in bloodborne, there is a unique piece of head wear called "the crown of illusions". it serves a single purpose: to open an illusory wall revealing the location of an otherwise entirely hidden NPC, annalise, queen of the vilebloods.

the crown is dropped after a boss battle and you are intended to put it on immediately after the fight so that the fake wall can be revealed in a cut scene. they did NOT want you to miss this mechanic. otherwise, why not simply have the throne room blocked by a fog gate? its fine for other bosses, right?

this mechanic is never used again. this is insanely weird because 1. there are other illusory walls in the game specifically in the chalice dungeons (twice, i believe, in the lowest possible levels). however, they function like standard fromsoft illusory walls and are revealed by hitting them with a weapon. the crown does nothing. and 2. there is otherwise no satisfactory explanation for this mechanic at all.

i have often expressed my frustration that when things dont "line up" in fromsoft games its chalked up to dev error or some flavor of "its all dreams/made up" which i refuse to entertain unless its the last possible explanation barring literally all others. this stupid crown has been bothering me for years because of how seemingly inexplicable it is. this has been doubled by the fact that the crown is not unique; alfred leaves a crown of his own (and must have had it to enter the queen's chambers) at the end of his quest and the titular sages of the "sage's hair" item are depicted as wearing crowns.

visually, the sage items are based off the real life concept of catacomb saints (and, in fact, i think "saint" would have been a better translation over "sage" considering this, but thats neither here nor there), hence the gems and jewels and crowns and shit. that part makes sense to me just fine. but where else would this illusion mechanic have been used?

ill tell you where: in the secret 4th layers of the "canon" (non-root) chalice dungeons!

canonically, there is only one chalice dungeon with a 4th layer, otherwise they all end at layer 3. this also intrigued me bc of its irregularity in a system of "dungeons" that are almost entirely copy-pasted rooms; why choose a completely random chalice in the middle of the sequence have an extra layer?

i came up with my own explanation for this that works a treat: the chalice in question, lower pthumeru, has rom the vacuous spider as its THIRD LAYER boss. rom is a boss you would have first encountered outside of the dungeons who has a unique ability: to block rituals and secrets from sight. the rom you fight in the main story is hiding a secret ritual and killing her reveals the ritual to the world. the rom you fight in the dungeons is hiding a secret layer of the labyrinth wherein the hunter will find a truly terrible secret: the source of the beast blood.

we now know this fourth layer IS narratively intended to be a secret layer...because EVERY story-related chalice dungeon had a secret 4th layer! they are "fully functional" if not a bit odd/broken (but not NEARLY not to the point of other hacked dungeons) but with bosses that either fucking suck or are placeholders (...or im coping lol). but look at this: ive timestamped this video at the point where the 4th layer elevator "reveals" itself!

other boss room exits are simply blocked by a fog wall (or, if you're on the last layer, it dead ends and you use the lamp to warp out). this "fade in" effect is the illusory reveal effect! as the linked post from the eternally fascinating hard work from r/tombprospectors reveals, there is some weird ass shit in these layers. enough that i started a red string wall of madness to try to keep track of it all. its not even weird stuff in a game dev way, i mean weird in a plot and lore way. its awesome lol.

the 4th layers were only discovered within the last 2 years. i am confident now about the mechanics of how this was intended to work, but still shaky on the ~lore implications~. what were kings and saints only permitted to see and access? what were they privy to that the rest of the populace of the dead civilization was not?

LORE THEORY: THE ORIGINAL PURPOSE AND USE OF THE CROWN OF ILLUSIONS WAS TO REVEAL SECRET 4TH LAYERS OF THE CHALICE DUNGEONS, AS EVIDENCED BY THEIR EXISTENCE IN THE GAME CODE AND MEANS OF ACCESS. THEY CHOPPED IT OUT DUE TO THE USUAL FROMSOFT DEV CYCLE INCLUDING A PART WHERE THEY SPILL EVERYTHING ON THE FLOOR MINUTES BEFORE LAUNCH AND HAVE TO PUT EVERYTHING BACK TOGETHER QUICKLY

[hiemaldesirae]

Hiii :) it’s me again, the anon who yapped about fanon Vox, I’m here because I need to yap again: I’m kinda worried about season 2

After rewatching season 1, I felt like the stakes weren’t high enough for Charlie & the Hotel. One would think going into battle against Heaven would be devastating and disastrous but the only characters that permanently died were…background characters. I don’t count Sir Pentious because bro is alive and will most likely have a bigger role to play in the story now that he’s in heaven. The hotel was destroyed, yeah, but like minutes later it was rebuilt with the help of Lucifer.

That’s another reason why I feel like the stakes aren’t high enough, they added Lucifer way too soon. How are Vox & other future villains meant to stand a chance against the King of Hell?? I think it would’ve been better if took Charlie a couple of seasons to convince her dad to help her cause.

My main worries for season 2 are about Vox because I can’t stop thinking about him LMFAO. Anyways, I’m scared Vox will be a second Adam, goofy villain that gets killed off pretty quickly and anti-climactically. Vox was already a silly villain in season 1 (sending Pentious to the Hotel as a spy, cheering when Alastor got his ass beat, etc, etc.) so it’ll feel like a waste if they continue writing him that way. I want Vox to be an actual threat and kill one of the main characters PERMANENTLY. Preferably Angel Dust cause it’ll cause a shit ton of discourse since he’s well-loved by both the characters in-universe and the fandom but I don’t think that’ll happen. I just need Vox to lock in 🙏

Don’t get me wrong, I love Hazbin Hotel (only because of Alastor & the Vees but shhh 🤫) but I want the story to evoke emotions from me, I wanna be anxious, I wanna feel hyped, but I don’t feel any of this when things go too perfectly for the main characters and everything goes wrong for the antagonists.

I’m so sorry for the long ass essay, I would make my own post but I don’t wanna be perceived 😭😭

oh i completely understand ur worries nonny dont even worry about the essay

i definitely feel like theres a Risk of that happening to vox especially since . well. vivz doesnt have the best track record to begin with (cannot speak for hb but the way she deals with some characters and resolves their arcs is. questionable) but i personally think (hope? believe?) that since there are members on the writing and animation team who are fans of the vees that she wont just kill vox off for no reason / comic relief(or any of the vees, really) + also of all the vees vox is probably the most likely to die in a dramatic scene considering how he and al are set up to be character foils and killing him off in the stupidest way would be such a horrific storyline fumble i cannot in good conscience believe that vivziepop would even be able to fathom its stupidity. of course im holding out hope still because if theres one thing ive learnt about the internet its that you do not under any circumstances trust any public figures to make the right decisions ever and this applies to animated shows too.

vox killing someone forever would really manage to cement his place in the storyline as a big baddie, but i do have to disagree on wanting angel dead- personally- and as much as it pains me to say this- i think him killing husk or niffty would have the same effect while not interfering with angels healing arc: in fact itd even further angels healing arc and self discovery, alongside giving alastor a reason to perhaps go toe to toe with vox. (i do think that killing angel off would have an interesting result but it feels like an abrupt and unnecessary move to make, tho it may just be ny preference to want to see recovery arcs fulfilled so those characters can live their best lives)

++re what you said ab the hotel not having enough stakes for the next season, i totally agree- bringing in lucifer feels a bit like a cheap copout and didnt really serve to further **charlies** character arc (arguably you could say making up with her father developed her backbone more but. hm. idk you couldve done that in a multitude of other ways sooo)

[oceanboy2106]

“Let the ocean take you home”

Heyy tumblr im Jackson, wait do i even need an intro post i mean the sites been dead for a while and im pretty sure its just me myself and i here but i guess having an intro wouldn’t be harmful.

I found out this app existed yesterday while I was using my dad’s computer to complete a totally not last minute school assignment. (it’s not my fault I have shit time management skills) and I guess I got curious about what tumblr even was which led to the creation of this blog to see if I could learn anything about social media and the more mundane side of life in the 2010s- 2020s. If im being honest I don’t really know what to do on this, I mean I think it’s like an online diary which would probably be something my best friend Toby would have more interest in then me but i might as well have fun in trying, right?

Well anyways, here’s a bit about myself (shit why does that sound awkward???)

-im almost 15 years old but 14 and 9 months and 15 are like practically the same thing.

-I like the ocean a lot, I know this is probably cliche but I have a connection to it a real connection. for as long as I can remember it’s felt as if it’s been calling out to me, for me to find it, to come home, to see her- I mean it. sorry don’t know what that was about (wait who am I apologising to)

-I’d like to be a marine biologist when I grow up and if that doesn’t work out then a musician maybe or maybe I could be a performer in musical theatre!!

-Sharks are my favourite animal but raccoons are a close second (I think I’d like them more if Joey stopped calling me a human one-) I love any kind of shark but If I ever had to pick a favourite then maybe the tiger shark or wait the great white shark- shit they’re both pretty good choices, two way tie? (Jack stop talking to yourself) by the way did you know that some species of shark can have up to 15 rows of teeth?? That’s honestly wicked.

-I have two good friends well one’s my family friend Joey who views me more as an annoying little cousin than anything but we still hang out so that counts as something,right? and Tobes who’s been my best friend since he moved to Salus almost four years ago :] if you guys are reading this than Joey you stink (derogatory) and Toby hi!!!

-my favourite music artists are Weezer (im not a loser i swear) the Cranewives, the cure who toby introduced me too, Alex G, Bo Burnham, Tears for fears, foo foo fighters and the clash (i think old music is real neat) and the sound tracks to various musicals especially 92sies!!!

-I like musicals as well I guess im what you’d call a theatre kid my favourite musicals would have to be Hamilton, Falsettos, Heathers and Newsies (both the film and broadway adaptation but I think prefer the 92 film more) honorary mention to Annie which was my comfort film growing up.

-in my spare time I like to play the guitar I’ve been taking lessons since I was like seven and I’d like to think that im relatively good at it, skateboarding well kind of im not the best at it but im not the worst either id skate more but the falling hurts like hell even with my knee and elbow guards, going on walks round my neighbourhood (kind of basic) and causing trouble with my best friend.

That’s all I really have to say.

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ooc undercut

-hello im Arielle @4rielle and this is a tumblr blog for my oc Jackson.

-im a minor as well as the character so please no nsfw.

-Jack is the protagonist of a novel im writing and I thought setting up a blog for him would be a fun way to explore his character.

-For context Jack lives in an area encased by white walls known as a dome, they’re said to keep people safe from the outside world although Jack is sceptical of this.

-I have a side blog for Jack and the world he’s living in if you’d like to find out more about him @the-dome-of-salus , I’ve yet to post his character bio so keep an eye out for it you’d like. also feel free to send asks about him to my main as well.

-feel free to send in character asks to Jackson!!

tagging

#journal of j.hills

#oceanboy answers

Additional information on Jackson (more will be added)

-his date of birth is the 9th of August 2106 the blog is set between May-July of 2121 a few months before his 15th birthday.

-adopted when he was three it’s a touchy topic for him.

-he believes he has a special connection to the ocean.

-he’s a bit of a loner he isn’t sure why but he can’t click with the people around him which has led him to view the outside world and ocean as a sense of belonging and escapism.

[kerizaret]

Any news on the Cyberpunk dead world au that you're willing to share? :3

HI HI SORRY THIS TOOK A WHILE!! But yes I do in fact have something to share!! It's about time I do!

In fact im taking this ask as an excuse to give a whole CPDW AU introduction!

The story takes place in the dystopian city-state of Shibuya, a huge closed off city isolated from the rest of the world. It's controlled by one government with extremely strict rules and ideologies, which seems particularly adamant on limiting people's creativity and self-expression. Its also very controlling

Rui is a government-hired mechanic there. His family are mainly responsible for building, programming, fixing and maintaining robots / drones / other small devices controlled by a system called "SEKAI" which serves the purpose of "maintaining order" in the city – patrolling, restraining criminals, offering help to citizens etc. These "forces" are controlled by a group of high-ranking government officials led by miss Asahina who the Kamishoros direcly respond to

Rui has figured out long ago by closely observing and helping his parents' work (who he knows were showing this to him on purpose), that the SEKAI System doesn't serve as a way of protecting the citizens, but rather of controlling them, constantly surveilling, creating a "perfect" false narrative, spying and eavesdropping in order to quickly silence anyone who might oppose the vision the government has

Knowing he's partially partaking in this as someone who makes the SEKAI tech, he's decided to revolt by himself by sabotaging his own inventions to break in the long run, going to peoples home's to fix their broken devices while secretly deactivating their hidden cameras or hacking them to spy through them on more important government supporters or officials. He has also managed to create a copy of Len - one of the highly intelligent government AIs capable of freely hacking into any SEKAI device, scanning its code and even controlling it - and created Rin who helps him in his secret work

Rui is aware that there exists some kind of an organised resistance in the city, since he often has to fix devices they broke and hears about their stunts from time to time. From his investigations it seems their activity has started becoming apparent a few years prior, not too long after the introduction of a new governmental program called "TV-fication"... Still, despite all this information, Rui hasn't been able to ever track them down before to find out more

It would seem, though, that he caught the eye of someone from the secret organisation "Untitled" after his most recent job...

That's the main premise!! The beginning relies heavily on Rui's pov at first but we'll learn a lot about other characters later as well, don't worry :3

Other important characters include:

• Emu, a journalist for her family's popular TV chain and member of a very influential governmental family

• Nene, a low ranking common worker and Rui's neighbour, though they don't talk much - not since Nene's parents have undergone the TV-fication process...

• Tsukasa Tenma, the beloved shining star of the Aoyagi idol industry and also the main propaganda machine of the government, spreading their message and ideals through his songs, in interviews and any media appearance (Rui hates his guts)

• Ena & Akito, Tsukasa's advertiser and on-set stylist respectively (as well as his reluctant friends), working for the governmental Shinonome advertising company

• Mafuyu, currently training under her mother to take her role as a leader of this "police" force in the future, owner of the KAITO AI

And others.... there's quite a few characters appearing in fact! But that's all for later :3 for now you shall get this!

(Also reminder I'm working on this with the wonderful @xxwelxx !! This would NOT have become such a big au if not for their help!!)

[imustbenuts]

my hc about kiran's power level and how magic works in feverse

tl;dr its been growing for a while in the main story now. also: non-consensual breastmead feeding.

my hc about how power and magic works in the FEverse involving kiran is. always whirling. rn its combining a lot of what is found in FFXIV's magic system so if this sounds familiar at all then, yeah i plucked it out from there bc its the easiest to follow

so to start, i assume that magic is everything in the FEverse. its a lot like oxygen and hydrocarbon compounds, except this element as different aspects and can be freely manipulated provided there is the know-how. essentially, magic requires 2 things to work. a fuel source, and a converter.

feverse also has the concept of souls, which are often describe as "quintessence", this vague mass blorb of something related to magic in some way. it can be used for fuel, it has some inherent consciousness or autonomy to it which can be manipulated and corrupted. it is also very very potent, as some fans in the feverse have theroycrafted (shoutout to @felikatze and @ro-botany) exactly how much fuel it provides exactly

and while idk, im just going to assume a metric shitton, which isnt any proper measurement but it'll do for this post.

fuel sources

so magic is literally everywhere. as per reinhardt's quote, magic is everything. but because FE isn't particularly interested in establishing a proper explanation of a magic system and instead opts to tell stories about wars, we're left with scraps to ponder over.

but! we do understand in the FE verse that magic is inherently tied to quintessence, which functions as a life-force. its even stated that this force can be used by magic users upon ones death, so yippee

in blazing blade, nergal fucked around with this and extended his lifespan and made morhps to further harvest more quintessence by luring more dragons into his world to kill and take theirs.

in awakening, grima was awakened by sacrificing the grimleals. possibly like a lot of grimleals because grima got mega big.

in engage, lumera was able to pour her lifeforce into alear to keep them alive, and to turn them from a fell to a divine dragon.

so all in all, there is a consistency in dragons having the biggest pool of quintessence and humans having significantly lower, possibly.

if we examine the feverse with the lens of shinto buddhism, this further tracks with the order of how the universes should be as dragons are considered more gods than humans.

theres also a decent possibility that souls just dissipate back into aegir or magic after some time bc otherwise the world would be too overpopulated by souls of the dead.

converter

magic is evidently an academic thing in the feverse.

meaning, there are ways to manipulate magic in highly specific ways. i've already mentioned the soul focus aspect of it, which is considered a taboo type of magic so evidently no one really wants to fuck around with that. reasons could be that it's highly unethical, or very easy to corrupt the self, or have the spells backfire in spectacular fashions. (check nyx from fates.)

...unless they're nergal or eitri.

magic users in fe uses a tool to help with the magic casting and conversion process. due to gameplay reasons, theres 2 main aspects that goes into how effective an offensive magic can be.

1st is the talent of the user. the magic stat.

2nd is the tool of the user. the various tomes found across all fe in all worlds. magic books, basically.

in this verse, not everyone is born with the talent to use magic. some have it better than others; some are pure geniuses at it from birth while others might be outright unable to cast magic.

we have talented cases like soren who is so talented that he successfully was taught magic before he even learned to speak. (granted that sage had... issues but jfc)

and cases like ike, chrom and alfred who cant for the life of them manipulate magic decently. while ike and chrom cannot be reclassed so they use magic, in alfred's case his magic in engage is so terrible the only reason the players would reclass him would be for the cosplay

these characters go around smacking their enemies with their physical weapons. they are very good at that too, and can take physical hits like no problem. they're tough as heck too, and so for all intents and purposes are the closest to people like us. people who cant manipulate magic, and which magic doesnt exist for us.

but.... there is one caveat.

the skills, Sol and Aether exists.

for those who have only ever played FEH, Aether in mainline FE functions very similarly to Aether in the gacha game. when it activates, both skill sucks the lifeforce out of the victim to the user. Aether has the added effect of ignoring physical defense.

in effect, what these skills are would be piercing damage ignoring the laws of physics. basically, physical magic skills.

further, here's a funny thing about fire emblem growth stats: there exists no playable characters with a 0 mag growth in extreme theory. if we assume re-classing to absolutely any classes to being theoretically possible for everyone, then even characters with 0 mag growth gets a mag growth boost past 0. this is the case for certain engage characters such as jade, etie and boucheron.

in FEH, characters often get classed to just about anything that seems fun. if we run with this logic for a sec, it implies strongly that everyone in FEverse are inherently attuned to magic even if they might not be able to manipulate it.

meaning, everyone has the ability to convert magic into something, no matter how small and insignificant.

okay now time to talk about kiran. its fever dream time so if you'd like to hop off at any point going forwards feel free.

kiran's power level

its. 0. at least in the beginning

ive always operated with the idea of kiran being the most average person of 2015s and onward with enough know-how to keep their head down from the context clues of what is given in FEH. they dont complain, follow alfonse and gang everywhere and is said to be super nice from all the lv 40 confessions and look

i dont buy it. i dont buy the idea that kiran is a complete blank slate in part also bc i dont view my silent protags that way. this is true in armored core and ffxiv and a lot more.

what i think is more likely is that we are looking at someone who has been chewed up by the modern day capitalism machine. someone who went through stressful school, possibly cram school and has a knack for surviving highly irrational and stressful situations.

bc the world of FEH as the summoner is highly irrational and stressful. i mean, invasions, a whole country in the middle of lava lakes, big gods, gods coming in to mess with them and their friends, characters turned people, time loops, etc etc. thats highly irrational and stressful. just like the rubrics and stressed professors who makes no fucking sense

anyway.

the average person, at least in japan, would have little to no reason to be ready at peak combat performance, which means muscles and reflexes are going to be rock bottom. maybe some martial art classes, but i doubt these are truly enough for real combat.

they would have no experience with any weapons too, except for maybe the gun. at bare minimum, gun related games are a thing and can be found in arcades and carnivals. House of the Dead and Time Crisis are very much a thing.

further to that, our world doesn't have magic. we cant cast it, we dont believe it exists, we cant prove it does. even if we have computers.

we cannot directly covert magic into functions ourselves. the FEverse characters can.

ill also get back into their growth as a fighter in a sec, but gotta segue into....

breidablik's power upping

kiran also doesnt show themself at all to be able to manipulate magic without the aid of breidablik throughout the entirety of feh.

so much so that mage characters dont talk to them about the specifics of academic magic at all, and are instead to be offered physical training by various characters.

which means their magic ability is 0. (again, at least in the beginning)

it is only until book 3 that kiran gets the Dire Breidablik indirectly from a dead kiran of another world that things begin to change.

the reason Dire Breidablik can even cause tangible damage is because *breathes* its being powered by a whole world worth of dead souls to be able to pew pew. (life force again! yippee!)

from this point onwards, breidablik and kiran seem to receive gradual power ups as the game goes on. even their ability to summon stronger heroes and more in the form of pairs clearly increases. the mechanics of this is a big mystery but assuming powercreep is canonical, this is significant.

this can be most easily seen by the first summonable god character in the form of Duma; this doesnt happen until 2019 jan, 2 whole years after FEH's debut. duo heroes 1st came as duo halloween hector in 2019 dec.

and then we have characters commenting on how their getting stronger might be the influence of kiran. see: thor.

and more events happen throughout which seems to power up breidablik so much that now it can straight up obliterate a god responsible for a time loop. geezums.

kiran's growth... or lack thereof

but even then, physically they are still lacking compared to these heroes and soldiers whose job is to literally be physically capable to fight. i mean, to even train up to a point where they might be able to keep up running with them takes time.

in fact, the first time kiran is able to fight toe to toe with anyone is with FEH 4.0, where the uhh 55th Mjölnir's Strike happened, released back in feb of 2021. meaning this was a few chapters into book 5, so much much later after Dire Breidablik was obtained back in book 3.

i also SWEAR there was a part where Thorr appeared and said something about buffing Kiran up so they can actually fight for this game mode, but i cant find any traces of it. hope im not hallucinating it, this was 3 years ago now ugh. alas.

meaning, even with Dire Breidablik, or a Breidablik powerful enough to buff the user, Kiran is still so incapable that canonically the OP weapon cant justify them staying safe enough on the front lines. even as of book 8 kiran is always implied to be hanging behind the front lines somewhere staying as safe as they reasonably can.

evidence for this? book vi's cinematic here. check out how they are strong enough to catch a falling ash but still having their amazing shitty footwork at 0:58. (theres no footwork. kiran cant fight for shit. id like to remind you again that the heroes are very very capable fighters in their own right!)

and all of this while discounting the fact that those in FEverse might be a bit superhuman. check out this cinematic of book vii at 0:42 where alfonse launches himself to a platform behind Gullveig like goddamn spiderman

and meanwhile kiran at best just pew pews and leaps.

and with the angle so goddamn low here, that leap looks really, really pathetic. this isnt a superhero leap, its someone so nonathletic attempting to look cool distracting big snake lady but succeeding in sending themself on a trajectory face first to the ground after 1 pew.

all in all, this makes kiran terrible at fighting.

and then theres. book 8 midpoint cutscene.

with thiiiis scene.

in case you didnt catch whats going on, that lady is heidrun. what does heidrun do? WELL.

cough

!!BREASTMEAD FEEDING IN FEH CONFIRMED!!

might be non-consensual iunno. ...look i dont fucking write FEH. i just interpret the shit that appears in front of me. i dont know whats going on at intsys either. are they under attack? having a mass fever dream? snorting lines of pulverized yens? desperate to break free from the shackles of nintendo? ran out of milk? dont work for them i dont fucking know.

anyway. back on topic. this means this is yet another +1 to whatever is going on with kiran and breidablik. but to kiran specifically, and this is interesting.

bc so far, all the power they are gaining is from breidablik and breidablik alone. their body as far as i can tell, is not capable to fight or convert magic into functions in any degree on its own.

essentially they're like an alien in a mystery planet. where feverse is made of magic element compounds, they alone are the singular hydrocarbon being.

so if the mead does anything to kiran's body we might be able to see going forwards.

all thanks to breastmead. thank you heidrun. thank you feh writers. wtf am i supposed to feel about this i dont fucking know. ill just curse the person reading this. so i wrote this.

thanks for reading.

[nothi9-1ikm3]

Hey guys this is the story I’ve been working hard on if you have any suggestions to help me improve please let me know(sorry for any misspellings:( ) enjoy!

Safe within their eyes

The year is 1998 and an 18-year-old Black girl, is struggling to find her place in the world after the death of her mother and the absence of her father. Her only friend. Apopular but shallow girl, suddenly goes missing. The town is in an uproar, but Eden feels numb, disconnected from everything around her.

Weeks later, the girl reappears, but something is off ..

Song recommendation for the chapter!

4 days now..4 days since she went missing..i cant even grieve in peace it keeps repeating in my head.

“I told you so”

A warm evening on a Wednesday in the 1998 these days were so simple..the days I lived for the birds singing and the sun warming on skin-leaning against the gate to the school I was attending at the time waiting..waiting for her “Hey!!” yelling a girl turning to look at her, Emma, my only (friend)-not from the lack of trying though, i like being by myself even if sometimes it can get lonely by myself since a lot of the time im neither at work or school. Her blonde hair with dyed pink tips whisping in the air, her golden tan skin glowing from the sun “ oh hey emma” i smiled at her with her rapping her arm over me “ guess what i'm doing this weekend?” she giggled while poking me. Honestly, I'm not as close with Emma as many people like to think it's just her mom was once friends with my mom before she died-. Can kinda just feels like she's my friend because shes doing her mom a favor. “umm i don't know..are you going somewhere ?”” not only am i going somewhere..i got a date!” she exclaimed Practically screaming in my ear, pulling away from her shocked to hear such news. It's not like emma didn't get attention from guys i mean she got Double the amount of me, it's just she was always so damn picky with who she would she yes to- do i envy that she literally had a line up on men..maybe but i don't Ponder over it-its not like something i can control. As one of the only black girls in my small town it's not really common for the guys around here to come up to me or even when I go up to them. They usually have a type of blonde straight hair and blue eyes and..I'm clearly not that but focusing on my studies and with my job I don't really think about that type of stuff too often “really?? Who's the lucky guy ?” i giggled while opening the main door of our school for her “ thaaank you..and actually when i tell you don't get mad” she whispered looking away from me “ what? Why would I be mad “” so..basically I met him on a dating website..” i stopped dead in my tracks “what..how are you even able to make an account ? you not even 18 yet” i retorted trying to keep my cool “ come on eden it's really not that big of a deal. I've been talking to him for over 2 weeks now “” that doesnt mean anything..? W-what if he's catfishing you ” with so many words wanting to be said at once i Stutter over my words “ don't be a bitch about it, he's not! were talked on the phone before ”” how am i being a bitch about worrying about your safety? Do you know how many girls go missing from meeting people onl-”“ just shut up already it's only a date ill be fine” is she serious right now? She's serious..” I'll see you after school, later!” she yelled while running over to her other group of friends, this type of behavior is normal for her she doesnt ever listen to what i have to say. Im Her friend, she's not mine we never actually hang out-i just i guess follow her around whenever she tells me to when she's alone-she's never actually like to hang out with me. I follow her around thinking we're finally gonna get to know each other more than just a base level- but then their conveniently someone waiting there or shell around know someone there

The end of the day walking out of my classroom Dodging all the other kids as swiftly as possible hoping down the stairs, I'm really hoping that I could clear up and communicate with her the danger of meeting up with someone from online- not that i should though I'm not her parent Maybe I wasn't taking this serious enough with her. After school we would usually meet by the gas station down the street since I don't really like her friends. It's not like we have any bad blood-i just they make me super uncomfortable. They're always asking super personal questions, like how many people i've slept with, what happened to my parents or going into details about their sex life. I never understood the appeal-of one, telling people about these things, two of sex itself. When i think about it-it honestly makes me sick, i've tried telling them that they don't get it though-i understand wanting to explore your sexual Preferences and wanting to try new things out is normal for our age but i've never felt that way for anyone. “Hello!” the store Clark yelled to me opening the door of the Convenience store. Being here a lot of the time I know my way around walking straight to the back to the drinks station. Scanning over the drinks I grabbed a Gatorade for myself and a Dr Pepper for Emma. She loves them so much it's like the only thing she ever drinks “ Hey sweet thing what you got there ?” someone whispered in my ear wrapping their arms around me. Shoving the person off of me banging into the glass door in front of me to escape their hold. Turing to see that it was one of Emma's friends “ woah girl- chill it's just me “ she giggled throwing her hands up in the air seeing behind her Emma was there laughing with them “ not cool.” i utter pushing past them and paid for my drinks speeding out of the store. Making it out of the store parking lot I hear Emma screaming after me, “ Eden, wait!” I stopped dead in my tracks. I spun around throwing her drink at her hitting the ground as I walked away. Her running after me walking alongside of me ” Eden, wait-come on, it was just a little joke. If it makes you feel any better she's sor-”” I don't care. just leave me alone emma.” i said before she could finish her sentence “ don't you think you're taking this a little too seriously all she did was hug you” she said in response “ Do i really need to explain to you why im pissed off..””i guess so all she did was hug you ?! there's no harm in that you're perfectly fine your not dying are you ? …whatever do what you want “ she said then digging in her pocket grabbing a $1 “ here for the drink” she remarked after Shoving the cash into my hands jogging back over to her friends.

“Why do i need to be dying to be uncomfortable?!? “ screaming throwing a pillow across my room *ping- im outside* i texts came through..it was emma *why?* i replied back, why would she be coming over so late at night its already past 9:30 * just open the door * she typed back walking to the front door. Opening it see her with her sleepover bag “ hiii “ she cheered letting herself in “ what the hell are you doing here”” our sleepover duh!” skipping up the stairs she opens my room door throwing her stuff “ you didn't even ask if you could ..and frankly i don't want to see you right now “ i said picking her things up handing it back to her just for to throw it back “ yeah i don't wanna see your ass Either but FranKLy i wont be here long but i need you to cover for me “” what are you talking about “” ..my date.”” what…. Explain “” i'm only here because my mom would only let me spend the night at your house- i won't be here for long so don't worry "" Are you serious so you're not even here to talk about today? a-And you're still going out with that guy?!”” yes. Not that,that's any of your Business “ she scoffed pulling out makeup from her bag Coating her lashes with mascara. There isn't even any point of trying to arguing with her shes not gonna listen to me she never does..but still i dont want something happening to her grabbing my phone pulling up her mother contact before i could even type one letter she Snatches the Device for my hands “ give it back emma!”” why? So you can ruin my night my god, you're so damn annoying you know that ?”*..this is what i get for trying to be the damn hero* ” I’m just putting your safety in mind dont start Insulting me. I'm not the one who's begging to be a sex slave! ‘I yelled back not getting a response as she gets a texts “ yeah sure. Just keep your mouth shut eden im leaving.” she said grabbing her bags leaving my room Practically stumbling down the stairs..*Wait, is he picking her up?? So she sent this stranger my address?!?* “ You gave him my address??!?!” screaming after her “ let me at least see what he looks like so if something does happ-”” why so you can get off to the image of him later yeah not happening “she chuckles, not taking me Seriously- what the fuck is she talking about. Left speechless, she walked out of the house leaving me in a state of Confusion.

[wulfums]

Do you have any extra info about Crittertopia? Just wondering because this au is AMAZING! <3

tee hee thank you...im surprsied people are so interested in it. my thoughts are Very disorganized !!

but basically! smormu is in charge of crittertopia. he specifically has it out for the smiling friends. after his Twin With The Exact Same Name got killed he moved to the Enchanted Forest way before any of this.

Mr Frog is Actually not a critter. He is a demon. (Also he and Gristle knew each other in imp training loooong ago. They went to Imp Prom together lmao) So he isn't effected.

Gristle is only partially effected, being half critter half demon.

Charlie and Allan's aggression towards each other reaches a point to where Allan is forced to Leave. So him and Whatwulf find a nice secluded cave behind a waterfall and live there now.

Grim and Gnarly still have it out for Pim and Charlie! So when Smormu lets them in on Some of his Evil Plan they feel like they're included on all of it. They cause a Lot of issues allowed by Smormu to get the Smiling Friends mad at each other. When something genuinely violent and bad happens (IDK what. Someone gets very injured though.) Smormu publically Banishes the three of them and goes on about how he has evidence they've been behind all the issues in the town until now. And like.....yeah thats believable. They would be! So Grim, Gristle and Gnarly are banished now too and are so mad about it. They are going to find a way to get back at him.

I guess this answers an earlier ask but. Smormu and Gristle become friends and Gristle teaches Smormu some demon shit. He even gives Smormu his old notes from Imp School that he carries around because he drew funny doodles on them. They also happen to include shit like. How to ressurect a dark soul and bargain w/ them. So when Smormu banishes Grim and Gnarly, he genuinely expects Gristle to stay with him and is, for some reason, shocked when Gristle gets pissed at Smormu for pulling this and prefers to leave with his boyfriends.

So the main human group is on the other side of the Enchanted Forest. Critters feel repelled from it, so it's a good guess that maybe, something that may help eliminate Werecritterism might be there. They even have a guide. This is not good for them! Smormu revived + summoned Mip from the underworld. He also wants Pim dead, specifically. So if Pim and Charlie were there they'd be able to warn their human friends not to trust him...but they're not. The human group (Zoey, Marge, Jennifer and Desmond. Mr Boss stays back at the office to stay within radio range with the boys, since Charlie does have a radio collar. They have Jason so he just cannot deal with not knowing updates on Jason, and the part of the Enchanted Forest the humans have to go to has electronic interference.) has no idea who this is. Mip knows who they are. So they are being so horribly mislead. Yay!

Smormu and Mip probably kissed (This is how you seal a demon pact. Or at least thats what Gristle told him. Its not true, Gristle was just messing w him.)

Interestingly. Jason, despite being a critter, has absolutely no signs of werecritterism. Sadly everyone is too caught up in interpersonal drama to even notice that.

Even though the traits they get vary WILDLY! Members of the same family tend to have similar werecritter traits. Like Amy and Pim have basically the same features. Charlie and his uncle would as well.

A third minor villain appears! Whatwulf has a tracking collar that looks exactly like Charlie's radio collar, so he assumes it's also from Mr Boss (Since originally, Whatwulf is the one taking care of Jason, but Pim takes over that role.) but like. It's not. Mr Landlord has, apparently, had Werecritterism for way, way longer than anyone else (Due to the Morgue. The disease is directly connected to dead humans.) and like, actually physically wants them dead(You see, if all of Allan's loved ones are dead. Which just seems to be Whatwulf right now. He'll have no choice but to hang out with him!). He probably looks like a fucking. Scary cryptid or somth. This is the least thought out part so far, I have to figure out how it fits in.

Thats all the info I can think of

[goobie-goo]

mwhahehehhaheha okay. this one is the lore/plot outline. have fun!!

TWs are added so i can keep track in notes and in case i share it,, like rn!! boy, im so smart!

tropes: walled-in city, corrupt gov leader, abusive parent + dead parent combo, dead main character, resistance/revolution, non-human, dystopian setting, floriography (flower language/meaning), royal main character, royalty, coming of age, ascension after death, death of a friend, gods/deities (always a work in progress)

TWs: [major+minor] death, main character death, temporary character deathS (canon. not mentioned in this lore timeline though), revolution/war setting, blood & injury, dystopian setting, abusive parent, child abuse, manipulation, gaslighting, suicidal thought/behaviors, gunshot wounds, implied character death(s), off-screen deaths (NPCs) (always a work in progress)

birth —> realization: royalty arc (aka people-pleaser arc)

dallas lived in a city ruled by evil king who kept them stuck in the city w large, heavily guarded walls. HAHAH evil ruler is HIS FATHER. abusive. think c!schlatt (was inspired by c!schlatt. literally not even a developed character. no name, no appearance—nothin’)

basically, dallas is the prince of the kingdom. hes not seen very well, often befriended/used for power by nobles, manipulated, gaslit, belittled, etc— doormat, people-pleaser, yes-man. yadda yadda.

when turns 13, he starts to realize that the way others are treating him is kinda… weird. begins to research about stuff and learns more. also develops sass + snark (however anxiety is still at peak bc puberty and stuff) and finds inner anger issues. doesnt show true self until he joins the resistance and starts trusting them. (also realized he was trans as used the name Krow as a placeholder bc he couldn’t decide on a name) (to clarify, he uses masculine terms and is transmasc)

age 15: walls arc

the age dallas officially joined resistance. did hang out with kids from resistance (alibi, juno, asmo) when age 13-14, but theres a policy of not joining resistance until 15– even if you werent going into a combative job.

soon seen as a high authority figure after he got peoples trust. how he got their trust? shot a royal officer at a riot. in the timeline, this was months after he joined. (king and army doesnt know bc resistance is undercover using fake names— if wanted, more detail can be provided about the fake names.) this was also when he earned his name Striker, which he then used as his name instead Krow. it was more of a title and not a true name, but there was more pressing things to worry about. (he grew attached.)

resistance communicates via floriography hung up outside the flower shop they turned into a meeting house— dont worry, its not too small because theres a secret base under it.

many members of the resistance also follow The Eyes, a different religion/spirituality from the royalites. it’s not like a godly religion ig,, idk how to explain. its more about acknowledging The Eyes and also appreciating nature. will be explained more in the worldbuilding section.

age 16: wilds arc

government started doing some Fucked Up Shit (tm) and riots n protests n revolts started popping up more n more often. however bc of the guards, they turned violent more often than not! (WHY? WHAT PUSHED THEM TO FINALKY PUSH BACK??) <- haha look plotholes point n laugh

ALIBI dies during a revolt— bleeds out in dallas’ arms.

citizens and resistance group started evacuating the city through underground tunnels— which leads to a few years in the wilderness and the apocalypse setting (WHY? WHAT PUSHED THEM TO FINALLY START EVACUATING? WHAT DID THE KING DO? fix.) <- haha look plotholes point n laugh

while escaping, theyre found out by guards. SKIP gives himself up as bait to lead the guards away from the group.

outside the walls, it’s basically like the mob or gangs. but less dying/fights and more survival— like those packs of humans in an apocalypse sticking together to survive. and the environment isn’t very good either- weather can differ easily. not many forests and its VERY hot bc global warming. however it gets freezing at night. but this doesn’t mean there aren’t forests, you will find some if you go far enough from the Walls.

the main group is the one that dallas leads— called the Copperheads. each member wears a compass as a necklace (like the tommy tubbo necklace compass headcanons- and like the one i have)

they traveled until they found an abandoned city. lived there and eventually rebuilt it. later named kismadoré.

-> more on this (ON TOPIC OF CULTURE): a good amount of people just escaped a walled-in city and are in the wilderness so theyre all homeless and considered nomads now. years later, they make a city and the cultural dances they did while on the run stuck w them. many seperate cultures irl have inspired it like the 1920s flappers, flamenco, street dancing, country swing, line-dancing, and soemthing like the tangled kingdom dance scene. its a lot of cultures bc of the different people mixing while on the run. but especially the 'embrace nature' thing they took on with some form of animism similar to indigenous cultures. (which the nature thing was integrated into the worship of The Eyes. feels weird to call it worship. they really do jist be like “okay cool you guys watch us and guide us thanks!” its connected but not?? it makes sense in my head)

age 18: rebellion arc

came back to the kingdom and the walls later to overthrow gov. yeahhh dallas was getting paranoid at kismadoré and waiting for the other shoe to drop. finally said “ykw? imma drop the other shoe myself” … also to free the citizens and tear down the walls

stayed underground and out if sight. many, many riots and revolts. tensions high in the kingdom, along with casualties.

dallas died when leading a coup d’état against evil dictator (from multiple gunshot wounds to fhe torso by a childhood friend indoctrinated into an enemy)

the only survivors of the cast (aka not NPCs) are asmodae and juno. they hold each other very closely.

after-death & godhood or whatever-the-fuck: death and onwards

bc he died a meaningful death, was taken by a god-species and now protects others like them

(and travels the multiverse but thats not important :3) <- MORE ON THIS LATER. IT IS ACTUALLY IMPORTANT.

and just because he’s dead, doesnt mean his story is over ehe *taps where i had written his age previously*

xi i hope u know that i am utterly obsessed with this story and would consume a 10 book long series about it. by the way

[giolovesyousm]

imagine: dead poets society as a sitcom, and the main couple is knarlie, who ofc argue for every little thing as they're an old married couple; starring: @thebisexual-and-thedamned and me

charlie in suit and tie: "HONEYY I'M HOOME WHAT WE HAVE FOR DINNER??"

knox in a pink apron: "CHARLIE YOURE LATE, OH YOUVE BEEN KEEPING ME WAITING FOR HALF AN HOUR. IVE MADE THIS HOT AND READY MEAL FOR YOU AND YOU CANT TELL ME WHERE YOUVE BEEN!!"

charlie: "OHH COME ON YOU'RE ALWAYS STRESSING ME, I WAS MEETING SOME OLD FRIENDS DON'T BE SO DRAMATIC XANAX"

knox: "OH BUT YOU MADE ME WORRIED SICK AND I DONT EVEN GET A THANK YOU FOR WORKING SO HARD AROUND HERE"

charlie: "THANK YOU, YOU'RE HAPPY NOW? THIS IS WHAT YOU WANTED RIGHT? NOW GIVE ME MY MEAL AND LEAVE ME ALONE FOR GODSAKE"

knox: "OH YOURE SO UNGRATEFUL, YOU CANT EVEN THANK ME TO NOT SPITE ME. WHEN IM DEAD DONT EXPECT A HOT MEAL MADE FOR YOU OUT OF THIN AIR BC I PUT MY LOVE AND TIME IN IT - FOR YOU"

charlie: "OKOK CAN WE JUST STOP THIS, YOU'RE OBVIOUSLY OVER REACTING TO THIS, YOU NEED TO CALM DOWN RIGHT NOW. I SAID 'THANK YOU' WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO SAY MORE?"

knox: "OF COURSE YOURE PULLING THE OVERREACTING CARD ON ME, WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO CALL ME CRAZY NEXT??"

charlie: "IF THAT'S WHAT YOU WANT THEN YES YOU'RE CRAZY.

*in comes cameron in the scene from the kitchen* "WILL YOU GUYS SHUT UP AND LET ME HAVE MY ICE CREAM IN PEACE"

charlie: "CAMERON GET OUT I'M ALREADY NERVOUS, I DON'T NEED YOU TO MAKE THIS WORSE."

*insert laugh track and then charlie giving cameron a death stare* "DONT YOU PUSH ME."

*in comes neil and more clapping BC ITS NEIL* "hey, are you fighting again?"

*charlie and knox together still yelling* "NO WE'RE NOT."

*neil holds both his hands up and looks at cameron* "cmon cam, they’re gonna be at it all night" *insert laugh track*

*charlie and knox admire how neil and cameron get along before going back to screaming at each other*

*bow and the curtain closes, peace ✌️*

[starified-lizzy]

I figured I should redo my intro to my blog-

ELLO >:DDDD

(Edit/Update:) First of all, because my friend and I just had to deal with an art tracer;

YOU CANNOT TRACE, REPOST, CLAIM MY ART AS YOUR OWN OR *WHATEVER*. MY ART IS *MY ART*. MAKE YOUR OWN. ITS NOT THAT HARD AND EVERYONE STARTS SOMEWHERE.

Reblogs and comments are appreciated tho :3

Also- if you wish to use my art as a profile picture, you MUST give me credit as the first thing in your Bio/About me.

(Back to the original post)

Name’s Lizzy! Or Star! I really don’t give a fuck which you use!

Here’s my pronouns card! https://en.pronouns.page/@starified_lizzy

I draw shit for FANDOMS

I write shit for FANDOMS

I got OCS whom I LOVE and ADORE.

“Can I draw fanart of your fics?” My sibling in Christ, we are married. /pos

“Can I draw fanart of your fanart(like DTIYS)?” My sibling in Christ. /pos

“Can I draw fanart of your OCs?” CHRIST. /pos

RAHHHHHH (it’s really fucking early I shouldn’t be doing this now ;-;)

Here’s a list of my socials, it is very limited because I hate the “standard” socials like Twitter and Insta and stuff like that. So it’s more like- fanfic sites, and any other blogs I own for you guys to check out >.>

My AO3

My Art Fight

My YouTube

My TikTok (basically dead at this point, I only ever like/favorite things on it, but I might start up again with my FNF au instead)

My Pinterest

My Spotify because sure

My FNF au blog

My demonpocalypse blog ([possibly] forever retired due to a severe issue in the community it was for)

Blog for food/recipes I want to try because MMMMMMMMMMM FOOOOD

Wow that’s actually not limited like I thought- hot damn I need to touch some grass.

HERES A LIST OF FANDOMS IM EITHER CURRENTLY IN, OR HAVE RETIRED FROM (Also CCs):

Retired-

DSMP (and MCYT as a whole for the most part), dude our community is in *shambles*. I’m so glad I left when I did, but at the same time O W.

ATLA. Technically I’m still in this fandom, but I only really get back into it/brainrot about it if I get a reminder, otherwise I kinda forget about it

FNAF. Same with ATLA, still technically in it, but I gotta be reminded it exists sometimes.

BATIM. Ditto

Wings of Fire. Ditto

Undertale. Ditto. Lizzy, my main persona, was actually an OC created from Undertale, who just ended up becoming her own person, and then ended up being associated with mine and my friend’s Minecraft au instead.

Onto CCs I no longer watch:

Any of the DSMP ppl, with very few exceptions

Jacksepticeye. Don’t get me wrong, I’ll still watch a video of his if it pops up and spikes my interest, but I don’t actively seek his content out anymore.

Any of the old Minecrafters. Like DanTDM, Stampy, Tiny Turtle & Little Lizard. Hell, I don’t even think any of the ones I listed even do YT at all anymore. I’ll still watch their old videos tho.

Current-

FNF. I really could give less of a fuck if y’all think it’s “bad” or “for kids (it’s not, I promise you)”. The music slaps, and quite a few mods are really well made, so eat my ass.

Day of Dragons. The dragons are cool. I don’t care about any drama in the community. I’m here for the cool fucking dragons.

The Isle. Once again, I don’t care about any drama in the community. I’m here for the cool ass dinosaurs because you can customize your own skins and they just look and sound cool (Dilo, Herarra, and Ptera are my faves)

Lethal Company. Do it for the Company.

RainWorld. Scugs and Scups. Need I say more?

Hollow Knight. Sorta falling out of this one, but until I beat the entire game (P5) I am not finished.

Minecraft. Technically in “the fandom”, but not really attached to a specific YTer or anything like that anymore. I just like the game.

CCs I still watch:

Astral Spiff. Sprog is a good gamer.

Smii7y and his friends like Grizzy, Droid, Puffer, Blarg, etc.

Jack Manifold. I only watch his You Laugh You Loose and Ghost Sighting Compilation videos. I don’t even know if he still does Minecraft anymore.

8-BitRyan. While he doesn’t swear in his videos, it’s kinda a breath of fresh air. Plus his edits are quite funny.

Markiplier. Yes. Just… yes…

IGP. His content is just interesting. The way he freaks out over shit is funny as hell. Does he do content with IcyCaress anymore? Their banter was funny, but idk if something happened, cuz I just don’t see much stuff with Icy in it anymore.

As of right now, that’s all I can think of. It’s nice to meet you!

[shrimplylildudes]

im sort of reworking evoluia a bit since im finally working on a third game- I sorta wanna solidify characters throughout the ages! starting with Convict because hes always my starter material. Notes on his changes below cut.

OG Convict - the original! the one with the most 'iconic' design! - He looks the most buff but this is the least healthy version. His genetics make it so he's has a good layer of fat, this version of Convict overworks his body training. I intentionally want him to look gangly and weird but im not sure if I capture that correctly. - Most of his clones are based off this look, with thirdvicts body. Thirdvict - third game convict. the third games are supposed to be the final character arcs for all the characters. So they're the last 'main' games, anything else after is just Prisma and Creatures adventures (of course convict isnt going to stop fighting but hes done world saving). - At this point hes a lot happier- he still struggles, of course, but this version of convict is a lot more 'chill', more healthy. He's not thriving. But he's not as bad as before. So he starts gaining weight like he should have. - His hair grows out, I wanted to make it look like a lions mane because its a nice way to highlight his masculinity. Its also an inbetween point with Dadvict. Dadvict - this one isn't in any games. Really just kinda exists for flavour, maybe flashbacks if his children get their own games. But for the most part, Primevict is seen for those. - he hasn't quite learned how to get rid of his resting bitch face yet, but Convict is much happier, and focuses more on his family in these years. - He still likes to wrassle but he's not going to do anything that would risk removing him from his childrens lives. - More weightgain as he gets older as a sign of growing health, and age. - Hair grows more because I find it an easy way to showcase age, tbh. Primevict - also known as 'grandpa' convict. But don't be fooled he's still pretty young here, that's why his hair hasn't started to darken yet, unlike his baby parents. (idiot who doesnt know his animal DNA gave him a lifespan of like, 400 years). - Primevict has a lot more body hair. Years and years of testosterone, mixed with old age allowed him to get to this point. - He replaced a lot of his body with prosthetics, finally comfortable with the idea of doing so. Shapeshifting into shadow animals is cool, but he's never been comfortable in his own flesh with 'phantom limbs'. Actual, physical mass feels a lot better to have than just turning into a shadow, you know? - He's fucking thriving in this era, he's surrounded by love and a very different person he was when he was younger. - He has half a prosthetic face because I was originally wanting to make a dadvict design with a missing eye, and he'd 'replace' it. It's supposed to look like a face half covered in shadow, which is still fitting even if he never lost an eye. - prosthetics are themed after different animals, the spots being 'dots' but also resembling scales, and the golden parts of his arms looking like insect chitin. - Old people in Evoluia are generally supposed to look cooler as they're more experienced with life. So I made Primevict look pretty cool. Deadvict - called deadvict because by the time this version is seen he's already dead. - this is only relevant to Copys story where you get a glimpse of this version. Convict died somewhere in his 200's mysteriously, after years of wallowing in loneliness. Copy was his final, greatest creation. - Deadvict essentially saw everyone he loved pass on, including his own children and grandchildren. He watched his family grow to a point where he couldn't keep track of them, and no longer was even able to tell he was related to them. With ARK in a 60 or so year upgrade, he was by himself with only ghosts of his grand life before. - his hair grows black with age. - I also made his hair look wispy and ghostly, because, well, at this point that's pretty much what he is. A trace of the past. - His ending is very bittersweet. **all convicts are still muscular, they just gain layers of fat over it