#its nearly 3am im so tired

[onemillionfurries]

i put my whole pussy into the lineart of this squirrel no one talk to me about literally anything else

[Image ID, same as Alt Text: A black and white illustration of a squirrel with heavy, dynamic line weight]

[ketchfantrolls]

what do you mean i have to talk to people in order to make friends. havent you heard? Telepathy

[jayzissleppy]

sweet over spicy

You're my water when I'm stuck in the desert You're the Tylenol I take when my head hurts.. inspired by best part - Daniel Ceasar

✧���ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* 🫧 *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

includes ; established relationship, non idol au, fluff overload, seongwha is head over heels for reader pet names: love, darling (nothing bad to be worried about just a cute fluff) 😵‍💫

a/n ; i wrote this on impulse at 3AM so please be nice to me on this one, this is also my first time publishing my work !

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summary: you'd choose sweet over spicy anyday, you couldnt handle spicy food or spicy interactions, and sweet was just your favourite oh, and how your boyfriend seongwha was just that...

"love? i brought you some fruit." the study doors opened and the room was now filled with the scent of fresh fruit and your boyfriends voice.

"thank you seongie, you didn't have to." you say looking up at him feeling guilty.

"i thought you might need some, you've been in here for 4 hours now, don't you want to take a break?" you lightly chuckle.

"i don't know, i mean im almost done with writing my draft for this week"

you thought that being an author would been easy since it was something you always wanted to do, theres some days where your cooped up in the study and some days where you dont write for nearly a week. sometimes writing a romance novel is worse than an action novel, the plotline, character development, everything its too much, and seonghwa notices that.

"y/n, thats why its called weekly drafts. you're supposed to finish it in a week, not a day. your overworking yourself, just please lets take a break?" seonghwa says tucking a strand of hair behind your ear.

i mean an hour break wouldn't hurt right? you think to yourself as you push up of your chair to stand.

"just for a little bit okay?" you say while seonghwa smiles. "but not anything tiring love."

seongwha takes your hand and pulls you out the study and hands you your favourite hoodie and earmuffs.

"does a midnight stroll sound good?' he asks.

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* 🫧 *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

walking hand in hand around han river, is most definitely the break you needed. the sound of crickets and the leaves blowing, it was relaxing.

"should we make a stop at a convenience store?" seongwha said swinging arms as you held hands. "hmm? i think i could do with something to drink" you smiled.

at the convenience store you and seongwha bought your ultimate favourite childhood drink, ramune.

bleggh.. "i dont remember it tasting like this you" said laughing. seongwha pulled his face as he drunk from the bottle.. "i think they.. cough .. changed the recipe" you both burst out in laughter. the laughter continued as seonghwa had hiccups and could barely speak a sentence without being cut off "should we.. hiccup.. get some rice crack..hiccup..-ers?"

you were almost on the floor in tears. upon leaving the store you noticed that there was a claw machine outside that had hello kitty and dear daniel, the most iconic sanrio couple other than kurmoi and badtz maru. you decided to quickly pull out some coins and try to win the plushies.

"should i help you darling?" seongwha said coming up behind you and placing his hand on yours. his hands were cold, but you didnt hate it. he used his hand to guide yours to the bag that hello kitty and daniel were inside, and within seconds the coldness of his hands filled yours with warmth. in that exact moment you though over and over again about how much you love seongwha. looking back at the time you first met, it truly was not a coincidence.

you were walking down the busy street of gangnam to get to your book signing event when you accidentally bumped into someone. your ipod played fell to the floor and so did his. you apologised to him and picked up your ipod before beginning to rush again. " excuse me, you have my ipod !" he shouted. you turned around and ran back to him to trade your ipods and laugh at how your both listening to the same song. "i see you like daniel ceasar too" he laughed. you smiled before beginning " i really have to run, but im really sorry about bumping into you, i hope the rest of your day is better" you said getting further away from him.

"but this just made my day the best" he whispered under his breath watching as you disappeared through the crowd, and luckily enough you ran into each other again.

you were taking a bus to gimpo airport in seoul when you sat down in front of him him. he watched over your shoulders as you looked for a song to listen too.

"i suggest best part by daniel ceaser" he said trying his hardest not to look like a creep. you immediately smiled when you saw his face and the ipod in his hands. he was hard not to forget, little studio ghibli stickers on it. "you have nice music taste" you replied putting the song on still smiling. "where are going with a suitcase?" he asked. "oh im leaving to japan for a few days for my book signing event."

"what books have you written, i might have one" he said showing the tote bag he had with him. "well i've written quite a few.." as you go on about the names of the books you've written you watch how his face lights up. "your her? the y/n?" he says shocked. you smile a little embarrassed. "im headed to the airport to get my book signed by you, because i was to late the last time." he said pulling one of your books out.

wow, to think that he would be a fan of yours is unbelievable i mean, he looks sweet, nice hair, gorgeous eyes... as you continued to think about every feature of his you realised just how pretty he was. to call him pretty was even an understatement.

"well i wouldnt mind signing one now.." you smiled lightly.

"actually.. could you also .. um.. could i have your number. not like a fan but i'd really like to get to know you sometime or take you out to dinner." he said getting embarrased and avoiding eye contact.

"id love that."

while in japan you and seongwha texted for hours, sharing the same timezone made it easy as well. and when you got back from japan he picked you up from the airport and took you to that promised dinner date. you talked throughout all the seasons, summer, autumn, winter and spring. the only thing that did change between those seasons were your feelings for eachother and the next thing you knew it was winter 2022 and seongwha and you were outside walking in the snow, planing to go ice skating, when he took your hand in his and spoke, "y/n its cold right?, but im not cold at all, my hands may be cold and so could my face, but my heart is warm and thats because of you. you've made every season have a new meaning behind it, summer used to just be 'summer', but now summer is when i spend my days at parks with you, reading, having a small picnic and when i least expected it. you were apart of more than just seasons, you invaded my everyday life. id walk past a flower shop and notice tulips and buy them out of impulse because they reminded me of you. i'd think of things that reminded me of you, till you were all i thought about. i loved the way your voice echoed through the back of my mind when i missed you most, or when i still felt the lingering kiss you left last winter as an 'accident'. well, if this is an accident i apologise but y/n, i love you, everything about you, would you allow me to be yours?" you would cry if you could, but you were afraid of your tears freezing. "seongie..i'd love that.. i love you" you say sniffiling the tears back. he placed his cold hands on your cheek pulling you in for a loving kiss. "thats not an accident right?" he said. you laughed "no.." and all of a sudden the coldness in his hands turned to warm.

"love?" he called out to you, waking you up from daydreaming. "i got the plushies" he said smiling and holding out the bag to you. you kissed his cheek "thank you seongie, you're too sweet !" you took the bag from him, as well as took his hand yet again. "lets go back?" he hummed a response.

while walking back seongwha suggested you sat down at a bench for a bit.

"y/n love, remember this?" he said pulling out his airpods and putting one in your ear as the melody finally hit you.

'I just wanna see I just wanna see how beautiful you are You know that I see it I know you're a star Where you go I follow No matter how far If life is a movie Oh you're the best part'

you smiled as you turned to face seongwha, stars from the sky reflecting in his eyes. seongwha softly sang along while intertwining his fingers with yours. "what should we have for dinner, sweet tteokbokie or spicy?" you looked at him intently, before leaning over and giving him a soft kiss.

"sweet, id choose sweet anyday"

end note: hihi ^^ i finished this quickly so i could focus on school so im sorry if this is a bit rushed, but i hope you enjoy! please dont forget to reblog to help me get more recognition as im a new! you may leave kind criticism !

[grodak4t]

I've spent like 2 hours writing part 2 of my Eric fic and I'm almost done buts its nearly 3am rn and im wrecked tired so I'll finish it off and have it posted by tomorrow for yall!!

[erzvolnes]

i realised ive been eating like an insane person since i got diagnosed with Evil Gluten disease so im gonna start keeping track of my daily food here. deliberately Not counting calories. gonna be under a cut and tagged w/ zac foodposting if u wanna blacklist.

17/12/24 didn’t eat breakfast or lunch snacks: -string cheese -chocolate wafer (like a GF kitkat?)

dinner: salad! -lettuce -spinach -tomato (shitty ones) -apple -chicken breast -bottled vinaigrette

Dinner was fine. this dressing isn’t my favourite but it’s fine. gotta use it up. i was gonna cook but i got too tired. got tofu out of the freezer tho so i can have that another time

might get hungry again but its also nearly 3am so i might just go to bed before then

[aftrskool]

IF YOU EVER FUMBLE JUST REMEMBER IT COULD BE WORSE BECAUSE I AM LIVING THAT REALITY

ohh OHHHHHH i must put this here so i can hopefully put this OUT OF MY MIND FOR GOOD this is the most insane story i have ever put on my tumblr blog...... i went to a party my friend hosted and said friend has the COOLEST HOUSE & COOLEST PARTIES EVER I LOVE THEIR PLACE AND THEIR FRIENDS AND THEM SOOOO MUCH so i was super excited to get invited again && it was so lovely everyone was so happy to see me which i was surprised about & i brought some drinks and a big chocolate box (i cannot drink alcohol) and it was sooo chill and epic. me and a few other people got on a couch and were playing mario kart and smash poorly. and i was curled up nezxt 2 the hottest pre-t trans chick EVER oh my god oh my GODDDD and her hand was resting on my knee and the way she was holding her beer bottle between her legs was making me go FUCKING INSAAANNEEEEEEEEEEEEE it felt crazy to be like crushing on someone for the first time in so long it was like a brand new feeling it was excited and uncertain and nice. i had been sucking on her hhc vape as the night had gone on every once and a while like im not a smoker nor vaper so i was just like yea && then also when we were gaming i took an hhc gummy from someone else cuz FUCK IT WE BALL i just wanna rlx and have fun with every1 im tired of being SOBER!!!!from all substances

well the night goes on and its past 3am so i get my jammies on (awesome hello kitty fluffy xmas pj bottoms & cool black graphic tee & fluffy hello kitty boot slippers) and we are all still hanging out albeit scattered a good few ppl have gone home and the rest r scattered around .... i sit on the couch again with the super hot chick and its just me and her and she asks me about wat i was saying abt my rel8nship status earlier and i explained im not rlly in anything rn &when she asks me my heart is pounding for some rzn....she gets closer and puts her hand on my leg again and is talking real quiet and i cant even remember what she siad but our faces got closer and closer and my voice got meeker and meeker until our lips met and it was like fireworks went off like O.M.G. it was the most awesome thing EVER and it gets intense so we go out the back to the greenhouse (its more like an awesome tiny dark glass room lounge with long comfy chairs and low lights) and suddenly im on top of her and i feel my tongue against her teeth and im literally trembling i cannot get enough and i fall deeper and deeper into her and for a moment i feel as if my questions have been answered that YES ecstasy is REAL....shes marking up my neck and whispering deranged shit into my ear and i can feel her getting hard underneath me and i can't think & once or twice i had to stop because i was so dizzy from it i couldnt see where i was or if i was gonna fall off and i was just going crazy internally.it was the most amazing thing ive ever felt ever

THEN SHES LIKE do you wanna go back inside WITH AN INSANE IMPLICATION THERE and im like UM OK YES YES ABSOLUTELY and she skips into the kitchen for a split sec and im sitting back on the couch 4 a sec and my head is like...SPINNNING. like it feels like im being spun violently in an office chair but im sitting still.....then my heartbeat gets louder and louder in my body & my face goes numb & my eyes roll back into my head.and my heart is going like 200+bpm and i call out while the world is fizzing away from me 'i think im having a heart attack'

well.

i dont remember much but i remember convulsing and my legs being so exhausted but shaking thru it & every time i stopped talking i nearly saw myself float away from a grey fuzzy outline of my body and i was terrified if i let go then that would be the end& so i just kept talking but i kept making sounds and repeating syllables and going in and out and i couldn't see no matter what & seconds turned into minutes & i heard an AED assessing me & then my whole body was quivering again & i remember blinking in the back of a pleasantly dark ambulance i could see tall cold trees out the tiny back door window & i remember an unfamiliar voice yelling at me to snap out of it and get on with it & calling out my name and address once or twice& then i woke up and i was in the hospital

apparently you are not supposed to take 2 forms of hhc at once .... i was given like 3L of fluid and i was able to open my eyes now but only see for a split moment before it would go again & i caught my mom beside me twice and it was the most incredible feeling when i was able to fix my gaze on her and she wouldnt go away........they gave me a shit ton of benzos and after a long time i was awake and aware enough to start feeling the mortification set in....i was drunkenly explaining to my mom what happened who scolded me , perhaps i explained a little too much but alas , and i was so UPSET I THOUGHT I HAD COMMIT SOCIAL SUICIDE...NO...SOCIAL HIROSHIMA & THAT I WOULD NEVER GET INVITED TO ANY PARTIES EVER AGAIN & most importantly THE GIRL. FUCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

when i was finally completely aware again the discharging dr said to me she sees it at least once a week where someone my age comes into the hospital with synthetic cannabinoid toxicity, has a bit of a seizure, goes into a coma for a few hours, wakes up and is then fine....so that is wat happened to me most likely. and that i shoud be fine but to not mix different routes of hhc again and that id be high for like a day or 2 afterwards. i went and picked up my stuff from my friends place and they were just really happy i was ok and safe but i FORGOT MY FREAKING COAT AND GLOVES(NEW EPIC SKELETON ONES)AND ITS BEEN THE COLDEST WEEK OF THE YEAR and im too embarrassed to ask to come get them again because i dont want2 come off as too messy and never get invited to anything ever again.but i got everything else and in the days that followed people from the party cmae up 2 me on campus and were asking if im ok now and every time someone asks me about it i learn something new about the whole thing ... the saddest was when i was asked who rosie was because apparently i cried out in the middle of it all 'rosie i understand everything now im so sorry' ......... really sad stuff.and also apparently i whistled for a solid few minutes.wtf

soooo ya....since then (that waz last saturday) i havent been able to STOP. THINKING. ABOUT. THAT. GIRL. O. MY. GOD. the whole experience was thebest thing ever and every time i think about it i get weak.....getting marked up by her was so insane and i wanted MORE i wanted everyone to see i wanted everyone to KNOW i want it SO BADLY but now im afraid will she do anything again with me.??????i texted her 2 let her kno im sooo sorry &explained that im safe and fine now (cuz she goes 2 the other college in the area so i cant rlly c her in person) and i couldnt think or focus so i said to her how incredible it was &&she said she was sorry if she lead me on by mistake cuz shes not looking for anythitng atm BUT SHE DIDNT LEAD ME ON!!!!!!!!!!IM NOT LOOKING FOR ANYTHING EITHER SO WHAT IF NOW SHE THINKS SHE MESSED WITH ME AND SHE CANT PLAY W ME AGAIN IM SO SCARED THAT I MESSED EVERYTHING UP SO BAD SOOOOOO BADDDDDDDD OHHHH MY GODDDDDD I WAS ABOUT TO SCORE SO HARD AND I HAD TO HAVE A FREAKING SEIZURE I AM SO MAD AND UPSET AND EMBARRASSED AT MYSELF OH MY GOD AND ITS ALL MY FAUUULLLLTTTTT but not rally & if it was any1 else id feel nothing but concern 4 them and relief that they r ok so i hope its the same with every1 there.and her especially.cuz OGMGMGGGGMMMGGGGGGGMMGMGMFMFGGGGGG

so.that was my week. its been 7days i cant stop thinking about the whole thing and her and i cant focus at allll in lecturessss i have 1wk of lectures left 4 tha semmy but i need to LOCK INNNN but im so desperate to go out and party again .... that was the 2nd party i got invited 2 by that friend the 1st one was for halloween & this 1 was a welcome-home-party 4 another friend who had been abroad for a little bit.so i really really hope they do something for xmas or new years like if they dont im going to tear my hair out ofmy FUCKING SKULL because i have so much fun at their place and i want to help clean up and set up and i want to tell them just how much i appreciate them and their little parties cuz they really r such highlights for me..........and im so grateful that their friends have adopted me and like theyre all such good and genuine people and ugh i cant dothis anymore im so scared i ruined it all i CANNTNTTTTTTT

[andromedasummer]

hey i reslly dont know if i can do this chronic illness shit for the rest of my life

[wollfling]

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[sporkqueen]

Just got bailed out of jail for a “curfew violation.”

I was shot at, tear gassed, and treated like vermin, but I’m the one doing the “violations.” Lol okay.

ACAB

[1-ore]

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[early-sxnsets]

this.... this artwork was so gorgeous that it immediately prompted me to do a quick ficlet based off it because there was no other way for me to express my love for it other than tenderness in writing (note: this is completely unedited, so apologies for any errors)

Title: Against Me, Holding Me, and Everywhere Else We Touch

Word Count: 1786

Rating: T

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“Hey, it’s uh… it’s been a while since you’ve stayed the night.”

“It has, hasn’t it?” The harsh crackle of the phone has never done Baz’s voice justice. It more muddles it--makes it feel more distant than we’ve ever truly been from one another. Separated.

“Yeah,” I mutter, dipping my chin closer to my speaker before shifting ears. 

This feels too private to say, even in my empty room. I feel far too soft even asking him to come over, even after all the everything. 

After all our everything.

He clearly moves a bit over the line, and I try to make it out. Sounds like the rustling of bedsheets, which makes my stomach fall for all the odd reasons (guilty reasons--as if I’m dragging him away from happiness. I’m selfish enough to drag him from comfort, I’m so selfish--) “Is that a suggestion, Snow?”

“I don’t know. If you want it to be.” Selfish. “You don’t have to do anything though. I’m just…”

His laugh is soft, and barely there. Although, I think he’s turned me to speaker, as the crackling sounds different. Spacey.

“You know that I actually vaguely enjoy your company,” he teases. There’s definitely more rustling, and the sound of clothing flicking, then muffled shuffling. “There is a reason we’re dating after all, and it isn’t just for the ability of me being able to say I’m dating a living legend.”

“Huh. And here I was, thinking it was only that.”

There’s the tapping noise of him hitting off speaker, then the soft exhale over the line. “I’ll be there soon,” he says, voice gentle. “Is the front door unlocked?”

“Should be.” I pick at my comforter absently. I’m thinking about changing into something less gross (I think I’ve been wearing these sweats for a week). “Penny’s up right now. I think she’s working on a paper.”

“Good.” There’s a pause, and the audio softly stays at a consistent static before Baz’s voice picks up again, quieter than before. “Love you, see you soon.”

I smile to myself, closing my eyes while I hold my mobile tighter. “Love you too. See you.”

The call drops, leaving the call time on display as I stare at it, worrying at my already chapped lips. There’s the odd anxiety to this. The unsettling, soft, subtle prickle in my gut that never quite knows how to address us in particular. That we’ve worked out so much, but it feels like a tight fitted sheet. Every time we think it’s been smoothed, another side is tugging, and barely holding us completely on.

I don’t want to give up on it, though. It’s my favorite fabric, and it feels right against my skin. It makes me warm, it makes me comfortable in the end. I just think we have to keep trying to have it hold on. After all, the process becomes a two-person job.

It takes a few minutes before I find the energy to get up, stretch my shoulders, my back, my wings (as best as possible). They shutter a bit from being cramped up and bent, as if they’re a little reminder as to how everything is going. As if I’m holding onto them.

The trackies go, and so do my boxers, which are replaced by a fresh pair after they’re tossed into my laundry bag. Then I’m left with pacing, which never really does me well, since it feels like me stalking the room back at Watford still, so I settle on sitting back on my bed and mindlessly doing shit on my phone. Watch recipe videos, mostly. Things to occupy myself without trying to worry about Baz.

Everything feels like it’s about Baz nowadays.

Baz and classes. Baz and life. Baz and…

There’s at least an ‘and’, but there’s always a ‘Baz’, too. And I don’t think I’m complaining, at least not now, because there’s always been a ‘Baz’ in there. It just feels weird now. Like I’m holding off from it being part of my regular scheduling.

I’m thinking about Baz when he knocks.

“Come in.” I look up from my screen, just as he’s pushing open the door. He’s got his night bag slung over his shoulder, and his hair’s pulled back out of his face. He looks softer--tired. Which is a step up from annoyed at me for dragging him over (which he never really is, but I feel like he has the right to be, if he was). 

“Hey,” he says quietly, closing the door behind him. I’m still looking up, head tilted up in an invitation for a quick kiss. He gives it to me, hand sweeping over my forehead to brush away the fallen curls as his lips press to mine.

“Hi.”

The way he smiles almost feels shy, head turning away after a brief moment as he goes to settle down his bag at the foot of my bed.

I watch him from behind, kicking off his shoes and taking off his jumper, which gets settled onto my desk chair’s back. I’m biting my lip, studying his slow, careful movements. Watching him stay mostly dressed, waiting for an invitation to continue.

“I’m sorry if I hauled you out of bed.”

He turns to me, frowning a bit, before he shakes his head briefly then lets down his hair. “What? No. No, I was just reading when you called. I probably wasn’t going to sleep for another little while.”

“O-okay. Yeah…” I scratch at my arm, up to my elbow which I rub a bit, tugging the arm closer to my adjacent hand. “Yeah okay. Good. Yeah.”

He’s still staring at me, face slowly melting into almost a sad smile. “Simon…”

Shit.

“What?” I sound a bit too defensive, which makes him only make that face more.

“You’re not…” He starts, then sighs, settling to sit at the edge of the bed but still close enough in range for me to grab onto him, if I wanted. “Simon, if you bothered me, I’d tell you.”

“Would you? Because you didn’t want to a while ago.”

He looks hurt, and I immediately regret it. I can’t take it back, though.”

“Working on that, remember? This is a two person effort, you know.”

I gulp. He’s right.

He watches me, looks at my hand, then doesn’t take it while continuing. “Look, I know we’re shit at this whole communication thing, but it won’t get any better unless we try. I want to make it work.” I know what he wants to say. He wants to say “I need to make it work”, but he’s too proud to admit that off the bat. “So I’m trying it right now, and I’m telling you that you’re not a bother, I like spending the night with you, and you asking me to come over isn’t doing any harm.”

There’s nothing I can say now.

There’s nothing, verbally, I can add. Nothing I can do to express this in the way he’s expressing this.

So, I reach out, and take hold of his hand. Trace his knuckles, turn his palm over, and place mine down onto it. He takes a second’s hesitation before his fingers close around mine, squeezing it gently and holding onto me. I can’t meet his eyes, but I try to picture them as something soft. Something we’re both trying to achieve here, despite everything.

“This communication thing is weird,” I say after a while, which gets a good laugh from him.

“Yeah, it fucking is.”

I start to laugh along with him.

Then I manage to get myself to reach out, palm cupping around the back of his neck and pulling him in like that. Settle him right in for a kiss, pressing my lips up sweetly to his. In response, I get the slow curve of his, the feeling of his well-cared for skin up against mine. He’s fresh shaven. He smells like a shower, and feels like he actually keeps up with himself. I want to wonder why he puts up with me, but I think we’ve reached beyond that point.

Now, we’re just kissing.

And I like that.

So I slide my hands under the hem of his shirt, pushing away the fabric and feeling the dip of his skin following down his back under my hands. 

Eventually, he pulls back from me, and shucks that away. He hesitates after that, which makes my throat feel tight, but he looks down at his trousers, which makes me laugh.

“Those too, if you want,” I whisper softly, dropping my hands onto his sides. He presses into my touch, eyes closing briefly before he nods and stands to kick off his bottoms and leaves him standing in front of me, stripped to his boxers and socks.

I smile. Properly smile. Teeth showing, cheeks pulled aside, eyes wrinkled, and I giggle.

He raises a brow to me, a question, but I ignore it and gesture for him to join me in bed.

He kneels down onto it, then climbs over to the space beside me. We exchange a quick kiss before he goes to reach for the light, clicking it off as I’m setting my phone onto the bedside table.

Which just leaves it at us, the sheets, and a quiet room. The rustling of my comforter as we move closer, pressing into each other’s personal space.

At first, I think we’re going to snog a bit more, but after he leaves a few soft kisses onto my cheek, Baz settles back a bit and just stares at me. Studies me, studies my face. 

My heavy eyes. The turn of my nose, the creasing and opening of my mouth.

I trail the hand that I’d set onto his waist up towards his back, skating across his bared skin as his hand raises, then subtly drags against my lips. Which, then, he gives special attention to.

I worry about breaking it, maybe speaking and ruining the moment, so I leave it. Drop the conversation, and admire him. Admire the space between us, the existence of him wanting to come back to me…

“Baz?”

“Yes?” He murmurs.

“Thank you.”

He blinks for a second, eyebrows coming together, then the worry leaves his face slowly, being replaced with a little smile. “What for?”

“You know,” I whisper back, trying to meet his eyes. He eventually gives it to me. “Just… everything.”

He stares back, slowly pulling his lip into his mouth as he thinks, sucking on a fang, before he closes his eyes and settles his forehead onto mine. “You’re welcome, love.”

I let my eyes fall shut along a moment later, swallowing back the worry before he speaks again.

“Thank you, too.”

This morning’s warmup sketch might have gotten a little out of hand.

😳

[itskilledmeh]

Monster Under My Bed

{ This chapter was inspired by last night when I was falling asleep and I had my foot over the bed and I really thought a monster or whatever grabbed my f-ing ankle... }

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I was nearly asleep, I accidentally put my foot over my bed but I was to tired to care. That's when I feel a god dam hand on my ankle. I quickly woke up and cover myself under my blanket. " W-what happen " Tom said with his raspy voice and his very messy hair that somehow made him look cute and hot at the same time.

" Tom there a fucking monster under my bed. Its hand was on my ankle " I said yelling in a whisper. Tom started to rub his eyes, " What? " then he took off the blanket that I was hiding in, " Babe its 3am your ju- ". As he took off the blanket I quickly huged him.

" Wait? 3 Am? Were going to die, save yourself Tommy " I say clutching more and more on to him. " Babe your just going crazy right now " Tom sighed rubbing my back. " Oh so now i'm insane? " I scoff.

" Babe you wanted to name our future child ' Bart Simson Riddle ' " Tom chucked. " Its a idea, okay " I scoff. " Baby my dear crybaby there isnt a monster under your bed, I'll go check for you " Tom said getting up. But I quickly pull him down, " No your to valuable, oh oh get someone to do it Tommy how about that dude with the long blonde hair um whats his name " I say biting my lip something I do when i'm thinking.

" Malfoy? " Tom sighed. " Yeah yeah " I say happily. " Babe i'm not going to call anyone for this. I'll just do it myself babe I'm the only one to protect you and... to prove you wrong " he said smirking.

He gets up and goes down to the floor. " See babe theres not- ahhhhhhh " Tom yells shaking. I quickly get under my covers and start crying. I feel arms wrapping around my stomach. " Awwwww baby dont cry it was a joke ".

He pulls the blanket off me. And slightly laughs. " Baby i'm sorry " he says getting me to hug him. Which he manged to do with me not wanting to. " Your a dick ". " Baby it was a joke " Tom chucked.

" Well since you thought it would be so, so, so funny no more sex for not one but three weeks. I'm gong to tease you so hard. And i'll say haha babe it was a joke " I smirked. " No. No. No. Babe please... dont " Tom said softly.

" Well since theres no monster under our bed Im going to sleep but nice talk Tommy " I say taking off my night gown. Revealing my bra and underwear. " Oh my god " Tom groned.

[stinkyelf]

You Like Head Pats

Sirius Black x Plus size Hufflepuff reader

Plot Summary: A mysterious dog starts visiting y/n and she spills all her secrets

Warnings: bullying and body shaming. Mentions of insecurities.

Word Count: 2,923

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The day was beautiful, and all I wanted to do was sit down with the sun in my face and Sirius Black holding my hand. But that wasn’t possible. I had been friends with the Marauders since Second year, but Sirius held a special place in my heart that only Remus, James and Lily knew about. I planned to keep it that way.

It was hard having 4 Gryffindor best friends, being a Hufflepuff I barely got to see any of them. Though I never complained because being able to see them, being able to see Sirius, always made my day much better. 

I was making my way outside towards the tree I usually study at. Halfway down the corridor I hear my name being yelled “Y/n, hey Y/nnn” I smile to myself knowing who the voice belongs to. Before I could turn around and greet my friends, some girls decided it would be funny to push into me. My books fall to the ground as I land on my hands to catch myself, “move out the way bitch” one girl says before walking away and laughing with her friends. 

“woah woah woah, Y/n are you okay” Remus asks running to me and helping me up while Sirius picks up my books for me. I nod straightening out my skirt “ Im fine, It’s okay. just a little scratch” I say looking at the marks on the palms of my hands. 

I look up at the boys, their faces filled with worry “what?” I ask confused going to grab my books from Sirius but he pulls them away “ are you sure you’re okay Y/n?” he asks me. I give him a smile “please, I am fine. Now if you don’t mind i have some studying to do and some sun to enjoy” I say grabbing my books from Sirius and walking off. 

~ 

I sit on the grass against the tree, I set my books down next to me and gaze across the grounds towards the Forbidden Forest. Truthfully I had only been in the forest once, out of curiosity, but nearly got caught so I had never tried to go near the trees again. I sat quietly admiring the view instead of studying, when something caught my eye. It was a dog, A big dog with black fur. I wasn’t sure if it saw me but I gave it a smile and a wave before it walked further into the forest. 

I sat for a while with my thoughts before I heard my name being called again “Y/n/n” I turned towards the sound and saw Lily running towards me. I stood up and hugged her “hey Lil” I say happily greeting her, “ we have dinner, are you coming?” I nod and pack up my books and follow her to the great hall. 

I sit down at the Gryffindor table in between Lily and Sirius, James and Remus were opposite us. “So how was studying?” James asks me, they all knew how much I loved the sun and how it calmed me down from a stressful day. I smile sheepishly taking a sip of the drink in front of me “well, I got a bit distracted actually, but other than that it was rather lovely. and I saw a dog” I said before eating 

Everyone looked confused and I shrugged my shoulders, “A black dog, I waved to it, but he walked away” I said like it was a normal occurrence. I turned to my right and started a conversation with Lily, what I didn’t see was the look Remus and James gave Sirius.

~ 

It was another beautiful day but this time I sat in the Gryffindor common room with Lily, actually Studying. It was mid afternoon before the boys decided to make an appearance. They came rushing over and Sirius sat next to me, putting his arm around my shoulder.

“how is my pretty girl doing?” he says, I chuckled at his flirtatious behaviour. I know he would never go for a girl like me, I am not his type, He liked skinny girls and I was far from that. “Fine, thank you” I say subconsciously moving away from him and pulling my skirt down to cover my big thighs. 

he noticed, but before he could say anything Remus spoke up “Y/n are you going to sit in the sun again?” he asked smiling at me, I nod “yes, I’m happy for you all to join me, if you would like to” I say getting ready to leave. “ I would love to, dear. But I have detention” Sirius says bidding us farewell before leaving. Odd, I don’t remember him getting into trouble this week. 

We make our way to the study tree, as I like to call it. We spend our time laughing and gossiping “so when will you tell Sirius about your little crush?” Lily asks, making me blush and shake my head “never, he couldn’t possibly see me in that way” I state, laughing at the idea. they look confused and I carry on “come on guys. i’ve seen the girls he’s been with, and trust me I just don’t think I meet his standards. I’m fat, I know that and he just wouldn’t like me” I say truthfully. they all looked shocked and James speaks up “you must be crazy to not see the way he looks at you, the way he talks about you Y/n. Trust me, he’s in love with you” They all nod in agreement and I shake my head. 

we continue talking before they decide to leave, I stay, I need to be alone with my thoughts. 

In the midst of my thinking, I see the dog again. He is closer, I smile at the dog waving a hand and ushering him towards me. He hesitantly pads my way “hello” I say “my name is Y/n, my you are beautiful” I say looking into the dogs familiar grey eyes. Interesting.

The dog comes closer, I reach my hand out to pet it. He eagerly accepts my pats and sits next to me. The dog looks up at me, I sigh “well if you want me to talk, then you better be willing to listen” the dog nods and places a paw on my hand. I talk about anything and everything, keeping Sirius to the back of my mind. The dog yawns and lays down “i’m boring you” I say simply leaning my head against the tree “fine, you want something more exciting, let me tell you a secret” I say making the dog perk up a bit.

“so you can not tell anyone, not that you would be able to but, ugh. I have a crush on someone, I have for so long but I don’t know how to tell him. He’s so pretty and tall but he can’t possibly find me attractive. He’s such a flirt but I can’t bring myself to believe the words he says” I spill out. I sigh and hear my name being called out, the dog runs off before I could say goodbye. 

~

Remus and I walk together to dinner. I sit again at the Gryffindor table next to Lily. I look to my left and the seat is absent “where is Sirius?” I ask confused “you missing me already, love?” I hear from behind me before he sits next to me. “you wish” I say nudging his side, he laughs but in his eyes he looks detached and sad “Sirius, are you okay?” I ask sincerely, turning my full body to face him. He gives me a half smile “yes, just swell, thank you” he says slightly sarcastically before eating. I brush it off, he must be in a bad mood from detention.

I sigh and shrug my shoulders towards Remus, who looks confused at the interaction between Sirius and I. Dinner ends and we all go to our respected common rooms. That night I dreamt of the dog. 

He’s speaking to me but I can’t hear what he is saying. It comes out as whines and barks, I’m confused. As he continues the words become clearer “Y/n wake up” “hey wake up” I hear, someone is shaking me.

I jolt out of bed, it is still dark out but I can see Lily leaning over me “who, what, what are you doing in here?” I ask her rubbing my eyes awake “Sirius wants to meet you by the tree” she says, I look at her confused and she shrugs “its bloody 3am, what could he possibly want?” I say getting up and dressed “I have no clue” she says walking down to the Hufflepuff common room.

I met her downstairs “do you want me to come with you?” I shake my head “no, you should get some sleep” I say and she nods, we walk off into different directions. 

I sneakily make my way outside towards the tree, Sirius is nowhere to be seen “Sirius!?” I whisper yell “Sirius where are you?” I call out. There is no answer, I sigh and slump against the tree “stupid boy, waking me up at 3am and then doesn’t even show” I mumble angrily to myself on the verge of falling asleep.

I’m about to fall asleep when I feel something wet against my hand, I open my eyes and see the dog, he’s licked my hands “hello” I say, my tone tired. he nudges my hand and whines, I slightly wince at the contact “it’s okay, I just got pushed over the other day, not the first time it’s happened” I brush off, rubbing the marks on my hands. We sit in silence for a while before I speak up “have you seen a tall boy with brown hair?” I ask “i’m supposed to meet him, at least I think I am, unless this is some stupid prank. ugh my friend Lily woke me up telling me that Sirius had to talk to me, and he hasn’t even shown up. I guess I’ll have to speak with him later” I sigh

Silence again takes up the one sided conversation. “you know, I love him” I speak out of nowhere to the dog. His ears perk up and he looks at me “Sirius, I mean. I love him” I say pulling my sweater closer as a breeze brushes past “he is perfect, in my eyes. He’s nice to me and that doesn’t happen all the time, you know” “I love his smile and the sound of his laugh, when I make a stupid joke. I even love the flirtatious comments that don’t mean anything. He just” I sigh “he makes me feel included even though we aren’t in the same house, he NEVER leaves me out or makes me feel like a burden” I say turning to face the dog now.

“I haven’t told anyone this but i’ve been getting slightly bullied, not all the time, but I hear people make comments here and there about my weight. calling me fat and pig, i’ve gotten used to it, I just can’t bring myself to tell the marauders and Lily, I don’t want them to think that I’m a weak little Hufflepuff.” I finished wiping a tear away that I didn’t realise had fallen. “but it’s okay, because now i’ve told you and you can’t tell anyone and there is a weight off my shoulders” i ramble smiling to the dog.

The sun begins to rise and I bid my farewell to the creature “bye bye” I say waving as I go have breakfast

~

I sat with my Hufflepuff friends during breakfast, I hadn’t seen the marauders all day. Lily asked about my talk with Sirius and I told her he never showed up, she was just as confused as I was. 

I sat in the library with Remus, studying again. I was slowly getting an essay done. “how was your talk with Sirius?” Remus asked out of the blue, I looked at him confused “he didn’t show up” he looked confused this time “I need to teach that boy to not wake a girl up at 3am and not show” Remus and I laugh lightly before being shushed by Madam Pince.

“so he never showed up?” I nodded “yup, but I saw the dog, we had a chat, well I talked and he listened” I said. Remus smirked “looks like you’ve got yourself a pet Y/n” I snort loudly but quickly cover my mouth “very funny Remus” I say shaking my head.

We continue studying before it’s time to go to dinner again. I sit next to Sirius, he gives me a smile. I ignore him and start eating, he frowns at this. Throughout dinner he pokes me but I ignore him, all the way to the Gryffindor common room he tried to get my attention. I decide it’s time to give him a piece of my mind “Sirius, do you know how rude it is to get Lily to wake me up at 3am just to talk to me and then never show up?, If it was some stupid prank, can you just tell me now!” I let out my frustrations gaining the attention of our friends.

“i’m not sure what you mean y/n” he says with a smirk, I laugh “oh you aren’t sure what I mean, Sirius I talked to a dog at 3am cos I was waiting for you, do you know how crazy that sounds” James snorts and I glare at him, shutting him up.

Sirius puts his arm over the couch “Y/n, I was there” he says confidently “very funny Sirius, unless you can turn into a large black dog, you definitely were not there” I say crossing my arms against my chest. It goes silent for a bit and I look up confused “what?” I say turning towards Sirius “Y/n, you know I can turn into a large black dog” he says rubbing my shoulder. the colour drains from my face.

I quickly get up and walk out of the common room, my name being called from behind me, but I don’t want to listen.

He knows. I feel sick. He knows that I like him, I told him everything. I walk as fast as I can to the tree, I need air and I need to breathe. I hear footsteps behind me but I ignore them.

~

I sit against the tree and cry “how could I be so stupid, of course I knew he was an Animagus, how did I not connect the fucking dots” I say out of frustration with myself. “you aren’t stupid, love” I hear Sirius say, I wipe away my tears not wanting him to see me cry. He sits down and puts his arm around me but I quickly move away from him “I am stupid, I told you EVERYTHING and now it will ruin our friendship, and you won’t want to talk to me anymore. I told you about being bullied and now you will pity me!” I ramble frustrated as tears flow down my face.

He pulls me to his chest as I cry “how could you say those things love, I’m not going to pity you and you definitely have not ruined our friendship. I love you Y/n and I have for a long time” he says resting his chin on my head “you do?” i ask, he lifts my chin with his hand “of course, what is there not to love!?” before I could answer he gives me a stern look “I know how you see yourself, but you are so so fucking beautiful to me. You brighten my day every time I see you- and honestly those thighs, when I see them I just want to wr-” “Sirius!” I yell slapping his arm.

He lets out a chuckle “sorry, sorry. But you understand that I love you right? every part of you. I wish you told me about the bullying, I don’t want to see you hurting. I hate seeing you hurt Y/n” he says sincerely and I nod “I’m really sorry I didn’t tell you Sirius, I didn’t think you guys would care” I say truthfully “of course we care Y/n, you are our best friend” he says.

We sit for a while gazing at the moon, he holds me close in his arms “Y/n” “yes?” I say turning towards him slightly “will you be my girlfriend?” he asks, a small blush coming onto his cheeks “I thought you would never ask” I smile up at him. he leans down and kisses me, it’s soft and sweet and it makes me fall in love even more. He pulls away and smirks “I can finally call you my pretty girl” he sighs contently.

~

Sirius and I make our way to the Gryffindor table hand in hand the next morning for breakfast. The boys and Lily all smile at us “I see that you guys sorted it out then?” James says and I nod shyly while sitting down. 

We continue conversation like any normal day and I giggle to myself “what?” Sirius asks “I was just thinking” I say “you like head pats” I say making Lily and the boys laugh. A blush forms onto his cheeks before he nudges me a big “oh shut up” he laughs along with us.

My life could never be better. 

[ananad1]

Tree! (Fred Weasley X Reader)

 Writing Challenge 

Fred Weasley X Reader 

Prompts: 26. A: *B is driving* Left steer left!

B: *Turns right*

A:....You call that left?

 and 34. A: Is this illegal?

B: Probably.

A: Are we still doing it?

B: Hell yeah!

Warnings: Swearing

“Get up, it’s time to go!” 

“Shut it, Ronald, I’m sleeping.”

I groan and turn to the voice at the door. Ron is standing there, fidgeting and waiting for his idiot brothers to get up. 

“What are you doing?” I ask, confused. Fred rolls and looks at me after turning to glare at Ron and hitting George with a pillow. George sits bolt upright and accidentally falls off the bed. All we hear is an “ow” before he stands up rubbing his arse. 

“Morning Georgia, mind telling me where exactly you three are off to at…...3AM!” 

“Uhhhhhh... I’m going to let Freddie handle this one. Ron let’s go get ready hmm?”

“Fred.”

“Hmm.”

“What are you doing? Can I come with?”

“According to Ron, Harry is being kept locked in his room sooooo we’ve decided to break him out using Dad’s car. And of course you can come love, I just know how much you enjoy your sleep.”

“Let's go then, Weasley.” I say, a small smirk crossing his face at my excited tone. We quickly race down the stairs and outside to where George and Ron are waiting. Ron looks like he is going to throw up. George just looks tired. 

“Is this Illegal?” I ask Fred with a worried look towards Ron.

“Probably.” He answers, watching Ron walk over to the bushes and put his hand against the wall of the Burrow. 

“Are we still doing it?”

“Hell Yeah!”

“We can’t just leave Harry locked up like that.” George adds from his position by the car. 

“Let’s go Ronald, sometime this year, huh.” Fred hisses as loudly as he can without waking anyone nestled asleep inside the Burrow. Ron and George climb into the back of the car, I get in the passenger side, while Fred gets in the driver's seat. 

“You have driven before yeah?” I ask, worried, as we take off to a very bumpy start.

“Of course I have woman, with Dad….once.”

“ONCE?”

“Shhhhh! They may still be able to hear you.” He says, eyes focused on the sky ahead of us. I grab the map sitting in front of me on the dash and start to give him directions. After several minutes and plenty of rough bumps, we start to even out and settle into a better rhythm.

“See, I told you I knew what I was doing.” Fred brags with a quick glance my way.

“If Ron throws up on me Freddie, I will hex you into next week.” I retort. George quickly agrees. Ron just groans and opens the window. The car flies at a moderate pace. When I check the time, it is nearly 5. 

We still have quite a bit of time to make up for the twins not wanting to get their sorry arses out of bed, but all in all we make good time. I hear light snores from the back seat and look to find George out cold and Ron slightly less green. Then comes the difficult part: exiting the countryside. There seem to be more trees that Fred swerves to avoid. After about the fifth almost-collision with a tree, George gets up, smacking his brother on the back of the head. 

“Ow, Georgie, what was that for?”

“Maybe it was for, I don’t know, the terrible driving.” I suggest. I receive a long, withering glare that almost results in two more tree-related accidents.

“Eyes on the road, sky, whatever!” I shout. “You know, I’m starting to think George should have driven.” I add.

“I was supposed to, until you decided to come and Freddie simply had to impress his girlfriend with his ‘excellent’ driving skills.” George grumbles before pulling Ron to his side so he doesn’t fall out the window as the car turns on its side to avoid another tree. 

“It really is too bad we don’t have time to switch drivers because we still have to drive back with another person and an owl.” I comment after a few minutes. George snorts and Ron offers a small grin. After another half hour, George fell asleep again and Ron seemed completely fine. 

Once we reach Little Whinging, I try to navigate to Privet Drive, which turns out to be more of a challenge than the trees. 

“Turn left.” I instruct as he starts to go straight...into a house. 

“LEFT! STEER LEFT!” Fred then turns right.

“You call that left?” I snort sarcastically.

“Which left? Yours or Mine?”

“We’re facing the same direction you fucking idiot!”

“Oh yeah, sorry.” He turns fully, causing everyone to slide.

“If you do that again I will kill you, even if you are my twin.” George threatens, annoyed at being woken up yet again. 

“Sorry, sorry.” Fred answers before we pull up beside 4 Privet Drive. 

Time skip brought to you by I’m pretty sure everyone knows what happened here.

The drive back was surprisingly uneventful compared to the drive over. All of us were thankful for the temporary respite. As we landed, a little bumpy, we got out and slipped back into the Burrow. While we hoped we had done everything undetected, we naturally could never be that lucky. Mrs.Weasley came round and started yelling at the boys. She did, however, make a point to say that she did not blame Harry or me, she even said she assumed I went to make sure the boys did not get themselves killed. Of course, she’s exactly right. Fred grabs my hand when she dismisses us all to go. He leads me back to his room where our crazy adventure began. 

“I suppose getting yelled at was worth all the fun we had.” He concludes, flopping down on to his bed. 

“Yeah, almost dying was so much fun!” I laugh as Fred pulls me down next to him. 

“But I wouldn’t have it any other way.” 

“I would. You are not driving next time!” George shouts as he collapses onto his own bed. 

“Lee is gonna flip when we tell him what happened though.” Fred adds before closing his eyes and falling asleep with his arms wrapped around me.  

@slytherinquill @im-a-writer-right

Please give any feedback you can. I haven’t written in a really long time, cause getting it out of my head sucks. Let me know if anyone wants me to write anything else in the future. I will write for almost any Harry Potter characters.

[damxnbaird]

Is my stream for delpo's match dying a sign i should go to bed🤔😂

[bugqueen63]

Well of course

Well its bug queen here, just saying that there has been a lot of things that have happened recently that has made me feel shit. So this is it my online diary, I don't really expect people to read this at any rate but its more to get things off my chest.  So here goes: 

Well first things first, I live with BugPrince, I'm saying prince as even though I would like too and we have been going out for nearly 4 years he wont marry me, I haven't pressured him at any point, I said it it would be nice and that I do want to get married but no because he doesn't want to we cant do it. He has to want to do it for us to do anything, be it going out or meeting with family, if he doesn't want to then we cant, but if I had the same attitude then I am being unreasonable or he will go with his “friend”. Now im saying friend like that as I know there is more going on, this is another reason why I started my diary. He has started locking his computer, I was always allowed to go on it before but recently he changed his password and made me an account on his laptop. I have a laptop so there wasn't any point in that really other than to try throw me off. Now BugPrince is meeting up with this friend, constantly messaging this friend and just talking to her about all his problems. Its really making me upset. 

Now another thing, my friend moved in, it was his idea not mine. I don't mind her living with us but ever since that has happened I have felt like an outsider, he has been staying up super late chatting with her, never getting into bed before 3am, but if its me and him alone, he is in bed before 11pm as he is “tired” same goes for her, if me and her are up and chatting she wants to go to bed about 12am but if its those two its 3am. Now he is Poly and I'm Asexual so there was an agreement before she moved in that they could be sexual partners and nothing more but this was before she moved in and now I'm not comfortable with it and when I said he got all pissed off and annoyed at me that I just agreed that I would be find, plus I had to relax some of my rules that I wanted in place because they where “unreasonable” now I am not sure but I think that him doing oral on her and then letting me kiss his mouth is not unreasonable but he said that he would mouthwash and brush his teeth afterwards, its not the cleanliness that's the issue, its just the whole thing the idea of it!  Plus at this point I just think that neither of them really care about my feelings in all of this, I cook, I clean, I make sure all the bills are paid and they do nothing. Just sit, play video games or chat and watch YouTube. 

There was also this incident, BugPrince’s little sister was round as was my sister, my sister was there to look after his sister and he spent his time with my friend in my bedroom the whole time I was at work, when I asked about it, it was because he wasn't feeling good. I had to ask them for them to tell me they spent all day in my bed! Now I don't think anything happened in my bed but I changed the sheets anyway. 

Now I still feel like an outsider, I will probably update later as I have work tonight and then will go to bed before them probably.