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ESSENCE OF US - CH 14: HEARTBREAK ANNIVERSARY*
Please read responsibly. This fic will get hot and heavy as the story progresses, 18+ only MDNI | CH 13 | MASTERLIST | CH 15 [soon]
summary: a fleeting encounter with a mysterious Trent leaves you wondering if fate is playing a bigger match. your paths continue to cross in unexpected places as the fragrances around you mirror the growing tension between you. maybe it's just a coincidence..or maybe its destiny in the making.
warnings: drama, angst, fluff, smut, language, short smau, [redacted] wc: ~10.9k (sry lol) song inspo: Sweetness x Elmiene ft. Leon Thomas (fav song rn! so underrated) đ: heavens gates are closed for me full stop no comma
âYouâre gonna bite right through the pen cap if you keep chewing on itâ Trent teased, breaking through the silence in the car. He glanced at you from the driverâs seat with his eyes crinkling in the corners as he caught you with the pen cap clutched between your teeth. You quickly pulled the cap from your mouth and held it tightly in your hand instead.
âSorry..â you muttered, embarrassed. âI just..ugh. This whole thing feels weird. I just wanna do the creative stuff, yïżœïżœknow?â You glanced down at the folder in your lap. âThis other stuff is...just not for me.â
Trent quietly chuckled as the soft pops of his gum filled the space between his words. âYou sound like me when Iâve got media duties. âI just wanna play footballââ he mimicked in an imitated complaining tone.
You slumped back into the passenger seat with your eyes drifting back to the folder on your lap like it was a ticking time bomb. âI just hate that I have to do this..â you admitted quietly. âItâs not like I donât trust them but..â you trailed off, staring at the window while the car moved through the passing streets.Â
âBaby,â Trent spoke softly, cutting through your thoughts. He moved his hand from the gear shift to rest it above your knee. âYouâre not doing this because you donât trust them. Itâs just to protect whatâs yours, yeah? Thereâs a difference.â
You nodded, gnawing at the inside of your cheek. âNDAs just feel so corporate. Like.. âHi, welcome back to work. Hereâs some legally binding paperwork to remind you not to gossip and spill any of my secrets.â It makes me look like a snob, right?â
Trent laughed and shook his head. âNah, it doesnât. It makes you look like someone who built something amazing from scratch and doesnât want it wrecked by somebody running their mouth. If they have any sense then theyâll sign the paper without a fuss.â
âMaybeâ you sighed, still staring at the folder that held the paperwork. The weight of it felt heavier than it should have for something that was light enough to blow away with the wind. âItâs not just about the store though... itâs everything. My life, my family...you. And if theyâre leaking stuffâŠâ
Trent gave your thigh a gentle squeeze, sensing your spiralling thoughts. âAnd thatâs exactly why youâre doing this. If Ziggy didnât catch them it could be way worse by now. First itâs believable rumours, then itâs âTrentâs secret baby mum spotted in Liverpool.ââ
You snapped your neck at him, eyeing him with annoyance. âOut of all the things to come out of your mouth...why would you say that? Thatâs not even funny Trent..Iâm sure there are girls lining up for that opportunity.â
âIâm just saying,â he added, laughing softly. âBetter to nip it now than deal with stuff like that later. Itâs not like youâre firing them or anything. Youâre being smart about your business.â
Maybe he was right, but that didnât stop the feeling of your stomach twisting from anxiety. You tilted your head back, staring at the roof of the car like it could give you some sort of divine intervention to avoid this whole mess. âThis is going to be so awkward..â you groaned with your dread evident.Â
Your thoughts drifted to your assistants who had become such a big part of daily life at Les Notes dâAmour. Tara always had an infectious energy that made the store feel a little brighter. She was bubbly, and sometimes way too chatty for her own good. It wasnât hard to picture a LFC loving uni student spilling something to someone without realizing how far it could spiral, whether it was accidentally or not. Ember was the complete opposite of Tara, and was often sharp, calm, and systematic. Her precision was one of the reasons you hired her in the first place. It was always like she was two steps ahead of everyone else, and you liked that since you were an overthinker. You knew you could always count on her to get things done while you were away. She didnât seem like the gossiping type, but you didnât really know much about either of them outside of Les Notes.
âMaybe I shouldâve done this when Camille mentioned itâ you quietly acknowledged as the storefront came into view. âOr maybe I shouldâve just let her dad handle the hiring process. That wouldâve saved me from this headache.â
Trent steered into a parking spot in front of the shop and cut the engine. âNah. Itâs better coming from you. Your store, your rules.â
His optimism was appreciated, but your mind was already racing as you wondered how the conversation could go. Would Tara burst into tears and make it more awkward than it already was going to be? Would Ember cross her arms and roll her eyes over something so trivial? Or even worse, would one of them get offended enough to quit on the spot?
You chewed on your lip, staring at the folder as if it could detonate at any second. You didnât know what to expect, despite trying to come up with every possibility in your head. The uncertainty was the worst part of it. They werenât just assistants anymore; Tara and Ember were an essential part of your business now. The thought of finding someone else to fit into your carefully built world felt exhausting if they took this upcoming conversation the wrong way.
âI donât know if theyâre going to take it wellâŠâ you trailed off, not wanting to open the car door and go inside.
Trent leaned over and unbuckled your seatbelt for you. His fingers brushed against your arm as he spoke softly. âYouâre overthinking it baby,â he said. âItâs just to protect yourself and whatâs yours.â
You nodded, but the thought of Tara breaking into tears or Ember giving you the cold shoulder made the knot in your stomach tighten. You were supposed to be teaching them how to make batches of RĂȘveur today, but the little folder in your lap could completely derail your plans for the day. With a sigh, you stared at the Les Notes dâAmour gold lettered sign through the carâs window before stepping out of the car, gripping the folder tightly against your chest. Trent followed a few steps behind you, giving you the space you needed to handle things on your own. When you walked toward the store, you could hear the faint sound of humming coming from inside. The sound of Taraâs bubbly energy already made you feel like your heart was about to beat out of your chest. It really wasnât that all that deep, but in your mind it felt like the world was about to crumble beneath you.
The door jingled as you stepped inside and Tara stood at the counter, arranging a set of fragrances into neat rows, her glasses slipped down her nose slightly from the concentration. She glanced up when she heard the door and her face lit up with her usual bouncy enthusiasm.Â
âOh! Hi, Y/N! Morning, Trent!â she chirped. âYouâre early today!â
Ember was across the room, sorting through email requests for custom fragrances. She glanced over briefly, nodding in acknowledgement. âMorningâ she said in her usual direct tone before returning back to her task.
Trent nudged your shoulder gently before wandering toward your workstation. He picked up a few of your scent vials and held them to the light, inspecting them like they were a puzzle he was trying to solve. He opened one and gave it a sniff, frowning curiously as if he was mentally cataloguing the notes of each vial. A boutique filled with delicate glass and the constant hum of creativity wasnât his world, but somehow he fit in perfectly. It comforted you, even if the pressure of the conversation ahead felt heavier than ever.
âTara. Ember..â you said, clearing your throat awkwardly as you gestured toward your office in the back. âCan we talk for a few minutes?â
Tara immediately froze with her hands hovering over a glass bottle. âOh.. yeah, of course! Is everything okay?â Her voice was chipper, but you could sense the nervousness creeping into her tone. Ember pushed back her chair and stood up with her usual composure. âSure,â she said simply, but her gaze flicked between you and the folder in your hands before she followed Tara to the back. You caught Trentâs eye as you passed him and he gave you an encouraging smile.
âYou got this babyâ he mouthed before turning his attention back to the vials.
The air felt suffocating as the three of you settled into your office. Tara sat down immediately and folded her hands nervously in her lap, while Ember leaned into her chair with her arms crossed. She had an unreadable, but not unfriendly expression. You set the folder down on the desk and took a deep breath, trying to find the right words to say while both girls stared back at you.
âSooo. Umm..â you began in a shaky voice. Your hands were clenched together in your lap as you tried to will yourself to stay calm. âFirst off..I just wanted to say how much I appreciate both of you and everything you do. Both of you are an important part of this place. I mean that.â
Tara smiled nervously and Ember tilted her head, studying you like she was waiting for you to get to the point.Â
âBut..â you continued in a hesitant voice. âSomething happened recently. Thereâs been some information about me thatâs been leaked online these last couple of months. Nothing huge..but enough to make me feel like I should probably set some boundaries..okay?â
Taraâs nervous smile disappeared as she fidgeted with the bottom hem of her top. âIâ I swear I didnât mean for anything to happen.â she stammered in a trembling voice. âI didnât think it was a big deal at the time! I never wanted to hurt you or anything. Iâm so sorry.â
Ember glanced at the folder in front of you, curiously. âWhat kind of boundaries are we talking about?â she asked in a calm but direct tone.
You opened the folder and slid two copies of the NDAs across the smooth surface of the desk. âItâs not about anything specific, reallyâ you said, trying to sound as neutral as you could be, even if you were kind of lying.
âItâs more about making sure everything that happens here stays here. I just need to know weâre all on the same page and that anything you hear or see working here doesnât leave these walls.â
Taraâs eyes darted to the papers in front of her and then back at you. âOh my god. This is because youâre pregnant isnât it?â she blurted out. âI only mentioned it in my group chat! One of my friends messaged SpillTheBeans after I said not to. I really didnât mean for it to ââ
âTara Iâm not pregnantâ you cut her off with an awkward laugh, trying to diffuse the tension. âThe only baby I have is this place. Which is why I need you to sign this paper.â You pulled out a pen, tapping the ballpoint against the signature line. âJust sign here and weâll be good.â
Taraâs eyes went wide as she bolted upright in the chair. âOh my god, I thought I was getting fired!â she blurted out, clutching her chest like the words were exhausting her. âIâve been waiting for it to happen for days. I even texted my mum and asked her if I could move back inâŠshe said no, by the way!â
Her rambling spilled out so fast you could hardly keep up. Even Ember gave her a side eye.
âWhat? Iâm notâŠno. Youâre not fired Taraâ you reassured, trying to keep your tone calm despite her dramatics. âItâs not that serious. We can just move forward from it, okay? Just donât let it happen again.â
Tara reached for the pen so fast she almost knocked it off the desk. âYeah, sure! Iâll sign whatever you want girl!â she exclaimed while scribbling her name on the line. âYou could tell me youâre actually secretly dating Jude Bellingham right now and Iâd take it to my grave.â
âUm, no. Thatâs definitely not happeningâ you replied, trying not to laugh at the thought of you dating Jude in some twisted alternate reality.Â
Ember leaned forward next when Tara handed her the pen but her movements were slower. She picked up the pen and twirled it between her fingers to read through the paperwork before signing her name. âYup. Seems fairâ she replied plainly, sliding the paper back toward you. When you reached to pick it up, Emberâs phone vibrated against the desk surface. She snatched the phone quickly, trying to silence the buzzing noise.
âSorry. Just my boyfriend making dinner plans,â she muttered before placing her phone into her pocket.
âOkay...Iâm not that strict, Ember. I donât care if you use your phone.â
Ember shrugged and brushed her fingers against her pocket to make sure her phone was tucked away. âHeâs just.. really big on planning. Always wants everything figured out ahead of time.â
You smiled to try and lighten the mood. âOh! Heâs like me then? I always need to plan for everything.â
âYeah something like that.â
Tara leaned forward to chime in eagerly. âMy boyfriend is the total opposite. Heâll text and ask to grab a drink and then suddenly itâs a whole night out. Spontaneous dates are the best though!â
Tara was a yapper. You didnât know why she was suddenly oversharing. Maybe it was to compensate for leaking rumours about you, but either way, your eyes were glazing over from her talking so much.
âOh! Since weâre all booed up, we should do a triple date sometime!â she added, looking between you and Ember with excitement evident.
You raised your eyebrow and gave her a deadpan look that made her backpedal immediately. âOkay..okay. Too soon. Got it!â
âVeryâ you replied while laughing and shaking your head. âBut speaking of planning things outâŠTrent and I are going away for a bit so I need to make sure everythingâs running smoothly while Iâm gone.â
âOohh, itâs giving holiday vibesâ Tara chirped with a smile. âWhere are you going? Somewhere boujee like Dubai I bet. Be careful though. I heard the girlies go there toââ
âYeah, no. Dubaiâs not on the list. Definitely somewhere sunny thoughâ you smiled back, keeping it vague because the last thing you needed was people leaking your location, even if you did just make them sign an NDA. âWe just need some time to recharge for our anniversary. Thatâs why Iâm gonna teach you how to make RĂȘveur today.â
Tara clapped her hands together excitedly while Ember scribbled down things in her notebook. âFinally! Iâve been dying to learn. Itâll be so fun to say I helped make RĂȘveur. Iconic.â
âUh, yeah...fun. We have to get everything exactly the same every single time though. No shortcuts. If one thing goes wrong the batch will be ruined and people will notice, trust.âÂ
Ember glanced up from her notebook with her pen mid air. âNo pressure or anything, right?â she laughed. âIs there anything specific we should know?â
âNot trying to scare you,â you began with a reassuring smile. âBut the oils can burn if youâre not careful so just keep an eye on them, okay? Itâll turn the whole batch rancid and you donât want to smell that.â
Ember moved her pen across the paper, noting everything down with focus. âWhatâs the safe range?â
âMaybe 70 or 80 degreesâ you recited, getting into your own element. âAnything higher and itâll burn. Anything lower and itâll separate. Just donât turn the heat off completely unless it gets really out of hand.â
Tara was listening with wide eyes, but she looked confused as hell. âWait..do we just..guess if itâs too hot or not? This is exactly why I switched my major to public relations. Iâm more of a vibe person.â
âThat...definitely explains a lot honestlyâ you joked. She cringed, catching your shade about the leaks. âJust follow Emberâs lead. She seems like sheâll be good at this.â
Just as you led them to the other room to start, Trent casually strolled in and gave you a quick kiss on the lips to which Tara let out a dramatic âawwâ.
âSo cute,â she cooed.
Trent leaned in close to your ear, whispering. âFancy a train ride after this?â He pulled out his phone, showing the date at the top of his home screen, which featured a photo of your smiling face.Â
âMaybeâ you dragged the word out, trying to push him away from you because he was starting to distract you. âGo stand over there T. Every time you distract me I mess something up. Move.â
âDamnâ Trent drawled, stepping back with a grin with his hands up in defeat. âDidnât know I was a hazard.â
You rolled your eyes and turned back, refocusing your attention on the task before you. âOkay!â you said, clasping your hands together while looking at Tara and Ember, who were now watching you closely. âStarting with the base note blendâŠâ
Both girls nodded as you continued to speak. Ember jotted something down in her notebook and Tara leaned in, determined to follow along closely and learn despite her initial confusion earlier. You grabbed the first vial and smiled to yourself.
After this, I can really relax. Seriously this time.
The lesson went a lot smoother than you expected. Ember was quick to learn and caught on easily. Tara was a little slower but seemed to be enjoying herself and asking questions to make sure she understood correctly. You had original apprehension, but everything felt like it was under control this time. Once everything was cleaned up and instructions were finalized, you dismissed your assistants for the day. Tara waved with enthusiasm and promised to remember everything she learned. Ember gave you a quick nod and smile before heading out as she typed away on her phone and disappeared through the door.
An hour later, you and Trent pulled up to an area that looked nothing like Lime Street.
âTâŠI thought you said we were going on the train?â you asked inquisitively. âThis is just a building. Iâm confused.â
Trent looked smug as he parked the car. âI said train ride, yeah? I didnât say where or how.â
You gave him a side eye while unbuckling your seatbelt. âNuh uh. This feels like a set up. What are you up to?â
Trent laughed as he got out of the car and jogged around to open the door on the passengerâs side. He extended his hand out to help you. âBaby relax. Youâre gonna love it.â
You took his hand and creased your brows while narrowing your eyes at him. âIâm not convinced. This looks like a place where someone would pull off a heist or something.â
âNah. Nothing like that,â he reaffirmed while leading you to the building with your hands intertwined in his.
The moment you stepped inside, your skepticism turned into curiosity. The space was dimly lit and the faint sound of train wheels clicking on tracks played in the background. You adjusted your eyes and took in the sight of a perfectly crafted train interior that somewhat mimicked the train you took the day you ran into Trent for the first time.
Your jaw dropped. âNo wayâŠâ
Trent squeezed your side, pleased with your reaction. âItâs an escape room.â
You spun your face at him, confused all over again. âAn escape room? What does that have to do withâ?â
âLook closerâ he said, gesturing to a seat where a hoodie and a pair of sunglasses were carefully placed. âRing any bells?â
The realization hit you like a freight train. âNo. You didnâtâŠâ
âI did,â his grin widened. âI figured it would be more fun than just taking the train again. Thought we could relive the day with a little twist, yâknow?â
You looked around the room, your heart swelling with affection. âYou had them recreate our meet cute? This isâŠâ
âRomantic?â he finished your sentence smugly, proud of his accomplishment.Â
âCheesy as hellâ you corrected him, but you couldnât stop smiling. âBut I love it.â
âThought you mightâ he said, tugging you toward the seat with the hoodie. âLetâs see if weâre smart enough to get out of here.â
The first clue was tucked into the hoodie pocket. It looked like the same hoodie Trent wore the day you met him. A slip of paper read:Â
What starts with the sun but ends with the moon?
You groaned, holding it up for him to see. âOkay..what does that even mean? The sky?â
Trent smirked and leaned against the seat like he knew the answer, but didnât want to give it to you just yet. âNah baby. Just think about it.â
You glanced back at the clue, still confused. âUm, I am thinking about it..I really donât know. A sunset? Time?â You threw out ideas, suddenly remembering the cheeky comment you made about his hoodie and sunglasses that day. âWait..is it an eclipse thing?â
âClose. Think simpler.â
Your mind churned before it finally clicked for you. âA day!â you blurted out. âStarts with the sun and ends with the moon.â
Trent nodded, grinning as he reached into a luggage rack to pull out an envelope. âI knew you would get it eventually.â
You snatched the envelope from his hand, rolling your eyes. The second clue had a small calendar drawn on it with a single number circled â 22. The day you first met.Â
âOkay. Too predictable Trent..â
âIs it?â he asked. âCould just be the start of a comboâŠâ
The two of you scanned the fake train car, piecing together the rest of the lock combination from the small details that were hidden throughout the room. There were train tickets tucked into a seat pocket, coordinates of London and Liverpool printed on a travel map, and a tiny key taped underneath a windowsill. After solving each clue, you ended up with 2206 as the final code.
â2206. Whatâs the 6 from?â you wondered out loud.
Trent smiled as he punched the code into the lock box near the door. âThatâs the platform the train left from. London to Liverpool..platform six.â
Your jaw dropped again as the lock box opened. âHow do you know that? You didnât even get on at that stop.â
Trent shrugged and pulled you into a quick kiss. âThat day is burned into my brain forever. Had to do my research.â
You shook your head and ran your fingers along his jawline lightly before opening the next compartment. âYou really went all out for this. Kinda scared of what you have planned for our official anniversary.â
Inside the compartment was a miniature bottle of a fragrance. âMuskâ you said, sniffing the vial thoughtfully. âThis was in the escape room? T, did you take this fromââ
âNah, I had nothing to do with that one.â he interrupted, holding his hands up. âJust the universe messing with us again.â He took the bottle out of your hand and sniffed it. âMaybe we could add it as one of the last ingredients? And make it unisex so anyone can wear it..â
His suggestion made you smile while you watched him analyze the scent in a similar way he did with bergamot that fateful day on the train. âThatâs...actually not a bad idea. But we need one more to balance it all out.â You didnât have your notebook with you, so you quickly pulled out your phone to type it into your notes app. You reached for Trentâs hand to intertwine it with yours to pull him along to the next clue. âI canât believe you had them do all of this for us..â
As you turned the corner, the scene shifted to a football themed section. There was a goalpost, a whiteboard, and lockers lining the wall. Trentâs eyes lit up instantly and you knew you lost him to his competitive side.
âAightâ he began, cracking his knuckles and stepping forward. âMy time to shine.â
You stifled a laugh. âBaby youâre not on the pitch. Itâs just an escape room.â
Trent smiled as he took in the sight of the room. âDoesnât matter. Iâm still gonna win.â
Amused by his determination, you egged him on. âOkay vice captain. Lead the way.â
The football themed section had Trent written all over it. The lockers were labelled with Liverpool legends like Gerrard and Dalglish. On the whiteboard, a series of Xs and Os formed a tactical setup with a question written above it:
What year did Liverpool win their first European Cup?
Trent snorted and crossed his arms, like the question was something ingrained in his memory. âEasy. 1977. Rome. Borussia Mönchengladbach.â
The board beeped as a hidden compartment clicked open and revealed a small key. You scoffed at him in disbelief. âHow do you know that? You werenât even born yet.â
âHistory baby,â he replied. âCanât wear the badge without knowing where it came from.â
You handed him the small key, shaking your head. âNerd.â
âMaybe. But Iâm a nerd who just unlocked the next step.â
Trent slid the key into a lock on the side of a locker and the door swung open to reveal a small podium holding a mini golden football. Another note was propped up beside it that read:
Score a goal, but donât forget to hit the crossbar first.
âOh here we fucking goâ you muttered. âTheyâre really feeding into your ego now.â
Trent grinned as he pulled you in for a kiss. âYou could be supportive like a normal girlfriendâŠâ
You laughed and cupped your hands around your mouth to slip into your best commentator impression, mocking him with your support. âThe man with the golden touch..stepping up to the challenge of a lifetime.â
âKeep it up and Iâll miss on purpose.â he teased, setting up the ball.
âYou wonâtâ you shot back. âIâll boo youâŠâ
Trent lined up his shot and took a few steps back. The ball sailed into the air and struck the crossbar with the only type of ease your boyfriend could accomplish.
âWOW WHAT A HIT!â you yelled, jumping up and down like you were in the Kop. âAlexander-Arnold with a stunning strike!â
Trent turned, grinning ear to ear as he pointed at you. âYouâre not bad at thatâŠbut itâs not good either. Gotta work on the commentator voice.â
You stuck your tongue out at him and moved over to the makeshift goalpost. âOkay. Letâs try this then. Iâm the keeper now.â
Trent gave you a curious look, wondering if you were serious, but when you didnât move, his look turned into amusement. âYou gonna try to stop me? Alright. No mercy baby.â
You clapped your hands and bounced on your toes like you saw keepers do on match days. âIâm channelling my inner Alisson Becker. Youâre not getting past me T.â
Trent set the ball down again and shook his head at your antics, but he was enjoying every second judging by the smile that hadn't faltered from his face. He took a few steps back, focused and ready while you spread your arms dramatically across the goal.
âAnd itâs Y/N L/N in goal!â you yelled in your best â yet below average, commentator voice. âCan she keep Trent Alexander-Arnold from clinching the game?â
âNot a chance,â Trent whispered under his breath, smirking. You really thought he would take it easy on you but he didnât. He didnât have to try too hard and the ball flew into the net easily. You lunged for it, trying to make the save, but your foot did something weird, making you tumble to the floor and land on your side, groaning. Trent jogged over, trying and failing not to laugh as he crouched beside you.
âYou okay baby?â
You rolled onto your back, squinting up at him while rubbing your hip. âFuck. How does Ali do this? He makes it look so easy.â
Trent reached out a hand to lift you to your feet. âYou have the heart for it..Iâll give you that.â
You took his hand to let him pull you up as you brushed yourself off. âNext time Iâm saving it.â
âNext time, huh?â He wrapped his arm around your waist and pulled you close. âWeâll see. Itâs game over for now, though.â
The final compartment snapped open with a thud, revealing a small envelope. Trent grabbed it, beaming as he opened it up. Inside was a handwritten note:
Congratulations on finding your way out! Hereâs to your next adventure together.
Alongside the note were dinner reservations on the date of your official anniversary. You werenât familiar with the restaurant, but the name sounded familiar â Lovebirds. Next to it, an itinerary to go to St. Barts, featuring photos of a private villa with direct beach access.
You blinked at the papers in Trentâs hand, struggling to process the details. âWait..what is this?â
He turned the envelope toward you so that you could see it better. âDinner plans for our anniversary. And St. Barts.â he confessed with a smile, still not faltering. âPrivate villa, just you and me. Direct beach access and no distractions.â
âYou planned all of this?â
Trent laughed and folded the papers to tuck them back into the envelope. âWell I had some help, but yeah. Thought we deserved something special.â
You threw your arms around him and gave him a kiss. âI don't even know what to say. Youâre too sweet.â
âDonât say anything,â he murmured into your hair. âJust show up in your bikini.â
You laughed, pulling back to look at his face. âI love you..and Iâm really glad you sat next to me on the train that day.â
Trentâs eyes softened as he played with the necklace around your neck. âSame here. I canât imagine living life without you baby. I love you too.â
The two of you made your way back to the car, hand in hand as the sun started to set over the horizon to create a cotton candy sky. âWhat's next?â you asked.
âLetâs go eat and figure out where the night takes us?â He recommended. âUnless you wanna make another perfume note in the car..â
You burst out laughing and swatted at his chest. âYouâre such a boy.â
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The next few weeks passed by way too fast, but they were filled with happy milestones. When Ezzie and Ziggyâs 16th birthday rolled around, it was celebrated with Trentâs family instead of your parents. His mum and dad took over hosting duties and transformed their home into a comfortable space that was overflowing with kind heartedness and laughter. Celebrating with them felt more natural than it ever did in the cold confines of your parentâs picture perfect home. Trentâs parents took your siblings in without any hesitation, and treated them like they were their own children.
The day of their birthday kicked off with Ziggyâs signing day. He officially joined Liverpoolâs U18 team. The dimpled grin on his face was infectious as he showed off his new kit. The back of his shirt proudly displayed âL/Nâ in bold lettering and the number he chose: 16. You assumed he chose it because he signed on the day of his birthday, but you really didnât know for sure.
âSixteen huh?â you mocked as he spun around in the room to make sure everyone could see. âLet me guess...some deep meaningful choice about this being your year or something?â
Ziggy was enjoying the attention and smirked. âNah, not everything has to be deep. I just like the number.â
âHeâs lying!â Ezzie interrupted. âItâs because Trent wears 66. He just changed one number.â
Ziggy glared at her and flung the kit to lay on his shoulder. âDamn. Just let me have this.â
âBubby..â Ezzie said sweetly, tilting her head as she used a childhood nickname that always wound him up. âYou can have it. Just not without me calling you out first.â
Before your brother could retort, Dianneâs voice floated in from the living room. âYou two..letâs save the bickering for later. Weâre celebrating, remember?â
Trentâs dad popped his head into the kitchen, tongs in hand. âZ, you think you have what it takes to make first team one day? Come outside, letâs see if you can get past me.â
âYou? Youâre too old.. I donât wanna embarrass you at your own house.â Ziggy scoffed, heading toward the garden in disbelief. âYouâre not even the best defender in this house right now.â
âThat would be me,â Trent chimed in, leaning against the fridge while smiling.
âNah, itâs me.â Tyler cut in, walking in the room with Marcel trailing behind him. âIâd be out there instead if I didnât give it up for you.â
Marcel snorted. âBro you havenât defended anything since I was a baby.âÂ
You stood next to the counter, slicing a piece of cake. âA family full of stars here, huh? Football, fashion...and whatever Tyler is claiming these days.â
âAyeâ Tyler interjected. âIâm a dad. And I work.â
âDo you? Because the girlies are saying PLG is a money laundering schemeâ you raised your brow, genuinely asking and not trying to throw shade...or maybe you were throwing shade.
The whole house burst into laughter, Marcelâs being the loudest of all despite not doing much more than Tyler. You took a bite of the white chocolate raspberry birthday cake, savouring the sweet flavour while everyone scattered around the house to do their own thing. Your anxiety still existed, but seemingly melted away once you were surrounded by the people you cared about the most. You took another bite of cake, surveying the warmth and love filling the house.
I could get used to this. This is nice.
The days following the twins birthday were a blur of activity. Ezzieâs modelling career was in full swing, and her first campaign with Miu Miu took off. Your sisterâs face now adorned billboards and screens in New York, Paris and London. She was kind of iconic for someone who had just turned 16, and you were living for it. Your mum had definitely ate her words, rightfully so.Â
Meanwhile, Camille was splitting her time between Manchester, Paris, and Barcelona. Her relationship with Jules grew stronger with every passing day and the two of them were officially the most fashionable couple you knew. Camilleâs voice hummed through the phone one day as you shuffled around your newly expanded wardrobe in you and Trentâs home. You were partially listening while you went through your clean laundry, trying to place everything in their new spot.
âI think Jules might be my soulmateâ she gushed with her voice tinged with dreaminess that was very out of character for her. âIâve been planning out outfits for the next month and he just gets it Y/N. He even coordinates with me sometimes. Who is this man?â
You froze mid fold, barely believing your ears. âCamille? Camille Saint-Clair??â you said slowly, dragging out her first name and surname for emphasis. âIs this my best friend? Soulmates and coordinating outfits with a man is crazy.â
She groaned but the dreaminess in her voice was still unmistakable, the girl was in love. âShut up. I justâ I may be falling for him a little. But Iâm still me.â
âAnyway,â she added, trying to switch the subject back to you. âWhat about you and your lover boy? Where are you two going for your anniversary?â
You filled her in on Trentâs surprise escape room debacle and the upcoming trip to St. Barts, to which she simply responded:
âDonât get pregnant. Use your butt..or mouth. Seriously. Thereâs an epidemic out here and the world doesnât need anymore Aquariuses or Pisces.â
You giggled and shook your head. âIsnât your dad aââ âYeah, he is.. so trust me when I say that. Use your butt girl.â
Before you could fully recover from Camilleâs out of pocket advice after ending the call, Trent walked into the bedroom shirtless with a towel slung over his shoulder from just getting out of the shower.
âWhatâs so funny?â he asked, stretching his arm behind his head as he sprawled out on the bed.Â
You made your way to the bed and sat on top of him. âCamille,â you smirked, grazing your hands over his toned abdominal muscles. âShe gave me some interesting advice for our anniversary.â
âShould I be worried?â
âNoooâ you sang, leaning over to kiss him. âI think weâll have enough time for me to use all three holes.â
âThree holes? Huh??â
Before you could explain, Trentâs phone rang with a FaceTime call. You glanced at the screen to see Judeâs name flashing across the screen. You groaned and picked up the phone to answer, turning the phone toward Trentâs face, but Jude started talking before either of you could speak.
âAye! Whatâs good bro? What are you up to?â Judeâs smile filled the screen.
âJust chilling,â Trent replied, sitting up slightly with his hand palming over your thigh, gently massaging your soft skin. âWhy? Whatâs up?â
âMate, Iâm scheming. Me, Jobe, Toby â ladâs night out at the club. You down?â Jude waggled his eyebrows for emphasis, already sold on his own plan.
Trent shook his head. âNah. Not tonight man.â
âBro come on,â Jude groaned, throwing his head back in annoyance. âItâs been ages. Donât do me like this. Iâll keep the girls away so Y/N wonât get mad.â
You cut in with a pointed tone. âJude..heâs not going anywhere tonight.â
Jude squinted at the camera, trying to figure out where your voice was coming from, but he didnât realize you were the one holding the phone until you turned the phone back to your face. âY/N donât tell me youâre one of those girls. Heâs a grown man..let him have some fun.â
âJude itâs the night before our anniversaryâ you noted firmly. âFun doesnât include babysitting you lot.â
âBabysitting? Iâm not a childâ Jude protested. âWell..maybe Jobe is but Iâm capable of looking after myself.â
âThe child in question can drive and cook..you canât.â you quipped, turning the phone back to Trent. âTell him, T.â
Trent laughed and shook his head. âSorry man. Boss has spoken. You understand.â
Jude sighed dramatically, acting like somebody had just broken his heart into a thousand pieces. âFine, ditch us for Y/N. But donât come complaining when you realize what youâre missing. Proper memories being made without you, for sure!â
Trent smirked, raising his hands higher on your thigh which made you erupt into a fit of giggles. âIâm good with the memories Iâm about to make. Next time though.â
âAh, fair. Donât do anything I wouldnât do. Happy anniversary by the way!â
At Les Notes dâAmour, things had fallen into a pleasant rhythm that you were comfortable with. Ember and Tara managed to keep the RĂȘveur production on track without any hiccups. There were no other unexpected leaks, no missed steps, and no drama â just the way you liked it. There were a couple of moments when Taraâs bubbly personality led her into long tangents about footballers or her latest obsession with matcha boba. You occasionally had to step in with a gentle âTara.. focus,â but overall, the shop felt stable in their hands.Â
With your anniversary creeping closer, you found yourself balancing preparations for your trip to St. Barts and figuring out how to celebrate with Trent before your flight. You hadnât given him the watch yet, saving it for the perfect moment.Â
But today was the day.
You stood in front of the mirror that night, adjusting your dress. As you zipped it up halfway, you heard Trentâs footsteps behind you.
âNeed a hand?â he asked in a low voice.
You turned a little to look at him through the mirror. A flashback of him fucking you while you watched in the mirror flashed across your mind. âAre you offering to help or to undo it? Because last time you said you were going to helpâŠâ
âBothâ he replied instantly, stepping behind you to slide the zipper the rest of the way up. His broad hands caressed your sides and he scanned your figure in the mirror. âWeâll just save the other part for later. Or we can have a quickieâŠâ
The warmth from Trentâs breath tickled against your neck as his hands lingered on your waist to pull you flush against him. The smell of RĂȘveur and your perfume wrapped around you to create the most perfect, intoxicating scent that paired amazingly well together. His eyes met yours in the mirror and darkened, filled with a mixture of love and carnal desire.
âDonâtâ you warned, swatting his hand playfully. âWe have all night and next week for that.â
âIâm just appreciating the beautiful viewâ he said smoothly, running his hands up and down your sides. He leaned in closer to the crook of your neck, inhaling softly. âYou smell so good. What did you decide to name this one?â
You smiled and adjusted the petaled drapes falling across your shoulders. âItâs called Vanille ĂtoilĂ©e.â You caught his gaze in the mirror and continued. âIt means starry vanilla in French. Sweet like honeyed vanilla, warm like amber, but soft enough to stay on my skin for a long time like the stars in the sky. Thought it was fitting because it compliments RĂȘveur pretty well..â
âVanille ĂtoilĂ©eâ he repeated. Surprisingly the French words rolled off his tongue with ease despite his scouser accent. âI like it.â Trent dipped his head down to kiss the corner of your jaw and trailed the kisses down to your collarbone. âSmellsâŠâ He paused and placed another kiss on your skin while inhaling you again, âso fucking good.â
You turned around to press a hand to his chest and stepped back. âOkay..enough. You canât just jump straight to dessert. Have some decorum.â
Stepping into Lovebirds felt like stepping into an ethereal fairytale. The outside world was replaced with an atmosphere that was enchanting. Golden lighting pranced off lush greenery that framed the private alcoves scattered throughout the room. Each one was designed to give diners a sense of secluded romance. There were ornamental branches stretched above with interwoven leaves and lights to give the ceiling a romantic glow. You could hear a subtle twine of acoustics playing a gentle tune to add to the ambiance.
Trentâs hand rested on the curve of your back and his fingers grazed the exposed skin. âThis place is niceâ he murmured in a whispered tone as his gaze shifted from one part of the room to another.
âYeah, it is. The name is really fitting innit?â you replied, glancing up at him with a smile. The place truly did feel like it was designed with soulmates in mind. There were multiple details that echoed the love and connection shared between lifelong partners. You followed the host as they led you to a table nestled beside a trickling indoor fountain.Â
The table may as well have been a piece of art itself. There was a delicate feather motif that ran along its edges and two menus were placed neatly on top of silky soft cloth. Both menus were embossed in gold lettering with your names, which caught you by surprise. Trent definitely had used up all his creativity with the escape room idea, so there was no way in hell he had any part in the decor for the table. But if it wasnât him..who did?
The waiter approached minutes later with a carefully balanced tray of artfully crafted drinks.
âGood eveningâ he began with a warm smile. âTo start, we have two cocktails inspired by our esteemed guests.â He set a golden hued drink in front of Trent first.
âThis is the Golden Hour. It has a blend of whiskey, ginger beer, and a touch of citrus, topped with golden edible flakes. Itâs got strength and finesse, much like Mr. Alexander-Arnoldâs touch on the pitch.â
Trent tilted his head, amused and curious as he lifted the drink to inspect it. âGolden Hour?â he mused, swirling the drink slightly to watch the edible flakes diffuse across the liquid. âCanât argue with that.â
âAnd for youâ the waiter continued, placing a glass in front of you. âWe have the Moonlit Muse. Itâs a delicate mix of lychee, vanilla vodka, and champagne served with an iridescent shimmer. Sweet and complex, inspired by your work and artistry as a perfumer.â
You took a sip, feeling the sweetness of the lychee and fizziness of the champagne intertwine to create a perfect start to the evening. âThis is incredibleâ you complimented with a smile. âThank you!â
The food was just as impressive. Trent opted for a ribeye steak that was charred to perfection and served with truffle butter, garlic mashed potatoes, and seared shrimp. Your dish was a salmon fillet plated with saffron and champagne cream sauce that rested on a bed of wilted spinach and buttered baby carrots. There was a garnish of edible flowers on the plate, making it almost too pretty to eat.Â
The chef approached your table shortly after you both finished eating. She was dressed in a cleanly pressed chefâs coat with her name embroidered elegantly on the chest. She clasped her hands in front of her.
âI hope the evening has been everything you hoped for lovebirdsâ she cheered in a joyful tone.
You blinked, staring at her for a minute before you realized she was the same chef from the private cooking class you had with Trent the day you made things official. âWait..youâre the chef from the class we took last year!â
Her smile widened and she nodded. âYes, thatâs me. I didnât think you would remember.â
âOf course I remember!â you exclaimed, feeling a wave of nostalgia wash over you. âWe nearly burned down your kitchen with our nonsense.â
âBest date we ever had so far. Hands down.â Trent added, smiling back at the chef.
âI canât thank you two enoughâ The chef spoke proudly. âThe night the video went viral I started getting all sorts of requests for catering, private events, cooking classes and it just snowballed from there. When this space became available.. I couldn't resist it.â
âWowâ you breathed, glancing around at the beautifully curated space with new appreciation. âThatâs really amazing. This place is stunning.â
âThank youâ she responded sincerely. âI owe you two more than you know. That night wasnât just a turning point professionally. It reminded me of why I love what I do. Seeing the joy on your faces that night..even covered in flour, was a reminder of what food can bring to people. I just wanted to say thank you..for everything.â
The waiter appeared again, carrying two perfectly risen soufflés. The delicate tops were dusted with powdered sugar and you could smell the faint aroma of chocolate wafting through the air. The chef grinned as she set the desserts in front of you. After taking a quick photo with the chef, you could finally dig into your soufflés.
âEnjoy lovebirds! Happy anniversary!â the chef cheered, holding a hand over her heart dramatically as she walked away to head back to the kitchen.
You scooped your spoon into the airy dessert. âMmm, finally! This was so worth it. Best soufflĂ© ever.â
Trent nodded in agreement, savouring his first bite. âThird timeâs the charm, huh?â
After finishing dessert, you turned to Trent with a sly smile and reached into your clutch to pull out a carefully wrapped box. You slid the box across the table toward him. âThis is for you..â
Trentâs curiosity piqued as he grabbed the box and unopened it with care to reveal the watch with the midnight blue dial and moon phase indicator. âDamn. This is nice!â he excitedly yelled out while clasping the watch onto his wrist. âWhatâs this thing on here?â
âItâs a moon phase indicator. So you donât have to google when the full moons are anymore.â
Trent looked up at you, his brown eyes filled with adoration. âNot gonna lie. This might be the best gift Iâve ever gotten.â
You rolled your eyes, assuming he was doing too much over a silly little watch, even if it was expensive. âT..itâs just a watch. I donât thinkââ
âNah. Not just a watchâ he corrected you, calibrating the moon phase indicator with his hand. âI feel like Iâm always buying gifts for everyone else..so this is nice. I love it. I love you.â
You bit your lip, trying to hide your smile and stop the happy tears that were threatening to spill over your lash line. âAww baby. Donât make me cry in public. I love you too.â
Trent leaned over to give you a tender, soft kiss on your lips before pulling back, both of you smiling like idiots at each other. You giggled awkwardly and looked around.
âSooo..um..whereâs my gift?â you questioned him jokingly. âNot that this dinner wasnât amazing but..â
Trent smirked and leaned back in his chair. âItâs at home. Itâs being set up as we speak.â
After another hour of conversation, you finally headed back home to see what Trent had planned. When you made it back to the house, you hopped out of the car before Trent could even put it in park mode.
âClose your eyes,â Trent instructed you as you made your way into the house. You closed your eyelids while he led you up the stairs. âDonât look yet.â
âIâm not looking!â you yelled, but you were willing your pupils to see through the thin skin of your eyelids.
âAlright, ready?â Trent spoke softly into your ear and positioned you in front of the bedroom door.
âYes..â you replied impatiently, itching to open the door yourself. âCan I look?â
Trent nodded but he forgot your eyes were still closed, so you both stood there awkwardly for a minute before you spoke up again. âUmm..Trent??â
âOh shit! I forgot.â He laughed, opening the door. âYeah, open your eyes baby.â
When you opened your eyes, your breath caught. The bedroom was decorated with balloons that hovered near the elevated ceiling. Illuminated candles softly flickered and danced across the wall to cast shadows that felt alive, like they were celebrating along with you. The bedside table had a rose bouquet that was so large it was almost falling over. On the bed, a collection of gifts were neatly arranged in wrapping paper of your favorite colors, topped with curled and tied ribbons.
Your hand flew to your mouth and your eyes filled with tears. âTrentâŠâ
He leaned into you to kiss you on your cheek. âHappy anniversary baby.â
As the scene washed over you, you traced your fingers over the silk ribbons on the gifts. âI only got you a watch and you did all of this? T this is way too much..â
âNah, itâs not. Just showing how much I appreciate you.â
Smiling, you sat down on the edge of the bed and grazed your fingers over a smaller box that was tucked behind the others. âWhatâs this one?â you asked, reaching for it.
Before you could lift the lid, Trentâs hand shot out and snatched the box away from you with a quickness that caught you off guard and made you frown. âNah! Not that one. You canât open that yet.â
This box in particular was the engagement ring he was keeping hidden away for another year or two. Whoever was responsible for the setup mustâve accidentally mistaken it for an anniversary gift, nearly ruining the night all together.
You creased your brow and stood on your tippy toes to reach it. âWhy not? Whatâs in it? Let me see!â
âNopeâ he laughed as he moved it further out of your reach and nestled it into a drawer. âYouâll ruin the surprise.â
âWhat surprise?â you questioned him, trying to reach toward the drawer without him realizing, but he was faster than you. He gripped your hand mid air and pulled you into him. You instinctively put your arms around his shoulders and his lips found yours to silence anymore of your protests. You pulled away from him, grinning as you bit your bottom lip. âYouâre trying to distract me from that boxâŠâ
His face nestled into the crook of your neck and he nibbled on the skin above your collarbone. âIs it working?âÂ
Your hum of approval melted into a soft sigh as Trentâs lips continued to brush against the delicate curve of your neck. With each kiss, he trailed down slower to map out coordinates of love. His hands trailed up from your hips to the bare curve of your back under the silky fabric of your dress. He thumbs padded massaging circles on your skin that made it hard to think about anything other than the feeling of him against you.
âMaybeâŠâ you mumbled in a quiet voice.
âGoodâ Trent continued peppering you with kisses. âLet me finish distracting you then.â
Trentâs hands traced over the zipper of your dress, slowly unzipping it until the silky fabric was tossed to the floor. âYouâre so fucking beautifulâ he muffled against your skin, brushing over the laced trim on your panties.
âYouâre talking too muchâ you whined, arching into him to silently beg for more than what he was giving you at the moment.
âYeah?â His fingers hooked under the lace trim, pulling them down to reveal your slick core. âYou want more?â
You nodded, âPlease.â
Trent kissed his way down your stomach, nibbling on your skin with his hungry lips. When he finally reached your pussy, he paused, glancing up at you with a cocky look while licking his lips.Â
âTrentâ you panted, gripping the sheets as his breath fanned over where you really wanted him. âDonât tease me. I need you..â
âAh..so impatientâ he smirked, kissing your inner thigh. He flicked his tongue out, licking a stripe between your pussy that made your back arch off the bed. âLet me hear you baby.â
âShitâ you gasped, gripping his head with your hands as his tongue started working against your clit in a slow, intentional pace that had you squirming and arching underneath him.
âStay stillâ he commanded, gripping your thighs to pin you in place. You tried to comply, but you couldnât stop trying to push your hips against him to chase your high.Â
The flicks of his tongue and pressure from him lightly suctioning your clit made you moan his name loudly and buck into him. Just as you were about to reach the point of no return, Trentâs phone rang loudly on the bedside table, cutting through your bliss immediately.
âFuck meâ you groaned, pulling a pillow against your face in frustration.
âWeâre getting to that partâŠâ he joked, already pulling back from your core to glance at the screen. âItâs Jude.â
âI really donât care who it is,â you snapped, pulling at his arm to bring his attention back to you and the orgasm you desperately needed. âDo. Not. Answer.â
He pondered for a second like he was torn, but then the phone started ringing again and you could see the gears turning in his head. âIâll just tell him Iâm busy real quick.â
âTrent,â you warned in a dangerously low voice. âI swear if you answer that fucking phone right nowâŠâ
âAlright! Iâm not answering itâ He declined the call, tossing the phone aside. âHappy now?â
âAsk me again after you make me câ oh my god, yesssâ your words quickly turned into moans of pleasure as he dove back in, tongue on your clit and fingers curling and thrusting inside of you.
âYou taste so fucking goodâ he whispered, still lapping against your clit with vigor. âCum for me baby.â
You whimpered his name when his tongue danced against your clit faster. You felt the pressure build and snap all at once before you could warn him, but he didnât remove himself from your clit and kept licking until you were squirming from overstimulation.
âMmh, T..I canâtâ you begged, pushing against his shoulders. When he finally rose from your core, he licked his lips and trailed kisses back up to your lips.
âYou good?â he asked, kissing your neck. âTell me what you need.â
âI need you to fuck meâ you replied, pulling at one of his belt loops so that he would get the hint to take his clothes off. His clothing quickly joined your dress on the floor and he stroked his dick a few times before pushing into your slick folds, slow and steady so that you could adjust to the girth before he started moving.
âGoddamnâ he muttered through tight teeth. âYouâre so fucking tight. Relax baby.â
âI canâtâ you moaned back, gasping for air in between thrusts. âF-fuck. Iâm gonna cum again.â
The desperation you had for him made him laugh, stroking his ego as he stroked into you, but it quickly turned into a groan when you rolled your hips to meet him thrust for thrust.
âYeah, yeah. Keep doing that.â he stuttered, gripping your hips to guide you. âFuck, baby. Just like that....good girl.â
The wet, slick sounds of your bodies moving in tandem filled up the room, dramatized by your breathless moans of pleasure. The tightness in your core threatened to snap and Trentâs movements became more frenzied as his fingers gripped deep into your skin.
âI love you. I love the way you fuck meâ you needily moaned, trying to push him over the horizon. âCum in me. Please Trent? Fill me up.â
âShitâ he hissed, faltering his hips for a split second to force himself to slow down. âI canât baby. We saidââ
You rocked up against him so more of his cock filled you. The way his jaw clenched in concentration and the way his body shook let you know he was fighting against the inevitable. âPleaseee. I want it.â
âFuckkkkâ he groaned, holding you in place as he tried to gain control. He moved his hips more slow and shallow. âYouâre squeezing me.â
You whimpered and raked your nails down his back as your pussy began to flutter and milk him. âOh my god, I love youâ you moaned over and over again as you came undone around his dick. He filled you up shortly after, his control shattering like glass with one last groan.
âI love you tooâ he muttered between a kiss attack on your lips. âYouâre my everything..my forever.â
âIs that so?â you cooed, wrapping your arms around him to cherish the moment.
While you were enjoying your alone time with Trent, both of your phones were being bombarded with calls and notifications. The internet was set ablaze once again. A little too literally this time around:
SpillTheBeansUK đš Y/N L/N, girlfriend of Liverpool star Trent Alexander-Arnold, is at the center of chaos tonight after her boutique Les Notes dâAmour burned to the ground in suspected arson. Arrested? None other than her assistant Ember F, and her EX-BOYFRIEND Aaron C â a shady ex-businessman whoâs now dating Ember. đłđ„ Coincidence? Weâre not so sure⊠đ
astrologychica99: omg remember when that tarot reader mentioned the tower card in the comments? THEY WERE RIGHT!!
PerfumeObsessed32: does this mean my bottle of rĂȘveur isnât coming?? iâve been waiting!!!
BaddieFromBrum: not yâall worried about your rĂȘveur order when her shop just literally burned down.. youâre so unserious
ELovesChaos: whoeverâs writing her life needs to chill. give her a break i beg!
EauDeGossip: imagine finding out your ex and your assistant are plotting against you? iâd be in jail!
FragranceFanatic89: does anyone know if sheâs okay? is she safe?
MadMadness: so ember went from assistant to arsonist?? girl.. seek help!!
DidUCatchIt: can we talk about the name ember? the signs were there people!Â
scousergirl4lyfe: if I was Y/N iâd never trust a single soul again..like ever. not even trent
IconicAndTired: not STB becoming the BBC of mess đ i live for this page
WriterPlsChill: WTF?!?!
4AMTHOUGHT: end of an era đđ
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What was supposed to be a peaceful and quiet night before a romantic holiday, was cut short by frantic banging on the door. Trent froze and looked around, not expecting anyone at this hour. âWhat the fuck?â
âWho is that?â you asked, startled by the sudden noise.
âNo fucking clue. Did you order something?â he asked back, taking a quick glance over his shoulder.
âNo...â
Both of you quickly sat up to get dressed in more comfortable clothing but the banging didnât stop. While descending the stairs, muffled voices became clearer â more familiar to the ear. Trent unlocked the door cautiously, only for it to fly open with Camille and Jude barrelling in.
âAre you okay?!â Camilleâs voice cracked as she reached for you, wrapping you into her arms tightly.
âHuh? Iâm fine! Why are you acting so weird?â you asked with a pounding heart.
Judeâs usual playful personality wasnât there and was replaced by a serious expression instead, like he took pity on you. âMate..she needs to sit downâ he whispered to Trent, who was looking increasingly tense.
âFor what? Whatâs going on?â
Before Jude could answer, headlights and blue flashes from a police car flooded through the windows in an ominous pattern.Â
When the uniformed officer arrived at the door, he stood solemnly in the doorway. âIs Y/N L/N here?â
Your mouth went dry. âUm..yeah. Thatâs meâ you said softly, stepping forward despite Trentâs attempt to hold you back.
âSorry to inform you Miss L/N..but your store was destroyed in a fire tonight. Itâs been ruled as suspected arson.â
The words hit you like a bus. You werenât able to process the sentence the officer just delivered. âMy store?â you whispered, repeating as if that would make the truth hurt any less. Your knees wobbled and Trentâs arm shot out to steady you. âNoâŠâ you added, voice trembling. âThatâs not possible. I was literally just there the other day.â
The officer glanced at Trent, hesitating before continuing. âIâm sorry Miss L/N. Thereâs no saving it. The building is completely gone.â
The moment he ended his sentence the air was knocked out from your lungs. You felt nothing. Suddenly your legs couldnât support you anymore. You collapsed into Trentâs chest and a broken cry tore from your throat. You felt your heart shatter into sharp shards that could never be repaired or mended. âNo, no, noâ you repeated, clinging onto Trent to keep you tethered to reality, but his presence didnât do much to stop the slurry of cruel, twisted dark thoughts emitting from your brain.
âBaby breatheâ Trent coached in a low, shaky voice. âI got you.â
You couldnât do that. Every breath suddenly felt like you were inhaling smoke, suffocating under the weight of words that just kept getting worse the more the officer spoke. Les Notes dâAmour â the place you poured your entire heart and soul into â was reduced to nothing more than a pile of smoky, pulverized ash. All thanks to a series of carefully crafted events that was supposed to be your âserendipityâ.
It didnât seem like that anymore after the officer said the names.Â
âAaron Caldwell was arrested at the scene, along with Ember Flanagan. Your other assistant, Tara, was found safe at home.â
Your body immediately went rigid. âAaron?â you croaked, pulling away from Trent.
The officer nodded with a grim expression. âYes maâam. It appears he and Miss Flanagan conspired on this together.â
He wasnât supposed to be able to get to you again, or so you thought. Camille told you she made sure of it. His name carried so much pain that you vowed to never say it again, but this whole situation caught you off guard.
âHe wasnât supposed to..â you whispered in a broken voice. âHe wasnât supposed to be able to get to me again.â You turned to Camille who was now frozen with tears in her own eyes. âCamille you promised me!â
Her face looked guilty, but she had nothing to be guilty for; it honestly wasnât her fault.
âI didnât know about Ember,â she stammered. âI didnât know they were together. Iâm so sorry.â
Her apology didnât register in your ears. Nothing did. Your chest heaved up and down as the panic finally set in fully. Every bad memory, every moment of manipulation and betrayal crushing you all at once. You couldnât see nor could you hear. All you felt were the walls of life encasing you in misery now that your dream had erupted in flames. You heard distorted voices of Jude, Camille, and Trent trying to comfort you, but their voices barely registered over the one screaming at you in your mind.
Camille crouched in front of you with tears streaming down her face. âY/N..youâre not alone, okay? Weâre here.â
Of course her words were meant to be comforting, but it only made things worse as the ache in your chest grew tighter. âI donât care!â you screamed, yanking your hands away from hers. âNone of this matters anymore! He ruined everything! This wouldâve never happened if I neverââ
âBaby stopâ Trentâs voice was breaking now too. He pulled you into him again, whispering against your ear. âHe canât hurt you anymore. Heâs arrested.â
You pulled away, tears streaming down your anguished face as you stared at Trent with a broken, jaded expression. âIâm not talking about Aaronâ you choked out, raw and heavy.
âIâm talking about you.â
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Good thing these turkey burgers are for my mouth only bc they are not fantastic.
#its my first time making them from scratch#i seasoned the bejesus out of them but for some reaon theyre still bland?#turkey doesnt hold flavor like normal burgers#but i cant have red meat#the only thing i can do is sauce it up
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One last whiteboard update for the road
#never stop blowing up#dimension 20#nsbu spoilers#d20 nsbu#this IS indeed my third time completely remaking the chart from scratch. i should make a compilation of all my charts#ive been saving them since episode 3 fjfjdjdn#my one key is that if the blue name is first the persons INSIDE the movie at this point#if its red first then its moreso theyre connected and not that don or noah are inside the movie
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did some good progress on my wizard robe today
#wind howls#it took me a while to look for a pattern. every single result was either costly or hp related and i wanted neither#in the end i threw caution to the wind and just kinda. made it up as i went#im happy to report that it went pretty well !#and i made a really good hood for my robe ! from scratch ! no pattern ! and its lined and hemmed#and im Very proud of it :3#i wont be able to work on it tomorrow... but ill be working on it this weekend. ill add the hems to the sleeves and robe before-#i connect the side seams. itll look clean hopefully.... but i do have to trim the bottom of the robe first. its far too long lol#ill also add a middle panel thats yellow bc thats my secondary color :) then ill make the wizard hat#and if i have time left... ill add constellations and stars all around the robe. ideally sewn. if not ill either not do it or paint them on#but i also have an animation to finish and hand in by monday so i really should work on that first. thats a priority#and after all. halloween is on tuesday and i only have class at 2 pm#so if i wake up early then i can add more details and whatnot. i got this. im happy !!
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!!!!!!!!! MY SISTER CAME OVER :D !!!!!!!
#gamer txt.#its been like a year!! ive missed her so much!!!!!!!!#my sister my big sister:]]#shes so cozy and loving and silly i misssssed her#and my brother in law came too!! ive missed him too!!#i swear they fill out more everytime i see them my brother in law was much skinnier the first time i met him and it just makes me so happy#theyre eating well up there:]#i got to have all these nice little chats and the hugs#my sister just gives the best hugs man... neither of us wanted to let go we kept loosening up and then grabbing eachother again#and she was scratching my head too#i just#i missed her so much im so happy right now like!!!!!!!!!!!!#if youve ever wondered where all my love comes from its her
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Okay I have a story.
So my birthday is this Sunday (May 26th). My mom ordered some presents for me but one of them (an Etsy purchase) was seemingly stuck in transit and might not make it on time. I tell my mom all good, no worries. She gets in contact with the seller. After a long delay in response they get back with "Right we'll fix it!" It ships, tracking label and everything, good to go! ETA May 22nd (yesterday.)
During the work day I check the tracking and it says it's been delivered in/at mailbox! I double check with my mom "hey, is it mailbox size?" because if not, I don't want it sitting at the front door where anyone walking by could snag it.
She says "it's definitely NOT mailbox size." Okay. I text my neighbors in the building "Anyone seen a package delivered? It's a birthday gift from my mom and I wanna make sure it gets inside!" Success! Floor 2 David (not to be confused with Floor 1 David) had brought it inside. Inform my mom. All good!
I stop by home briefly around 4pm, because yesterday was hot-hot and I just installed my window A/C that morning in the living room, and according to my cat cam my stupid cat hasn't spent a single second in the climate controlled living room and is, instead, voluntarily baking herself elsewhere so I'm like "great" and hop on my bike to go home (10 minute ride) to check on her.
I get in the building door. Patches is crying from the top floor because she heard me. I maneuver my bike in the front hall. The ugliest fucking 6-foot-tall cat tree(?)/totem(?)/statue(?) I've seen in my entire life is just. Standing there.
My first thought is "What the fuck is that." My second thought is "Oh fuck that is for me." I look around at the floor in case there's perhaps anything else that might, in fact, be the gift.
No. Me and Cat Pole.
It's taller than me. I turn it around to face me and its face is painted and this is, in fact, uglier than it looked from the back.
Um.
Patches is crying. So I just haul it up to my level. MAYBE it was supposed to come with twine that I wrap around it (and hide its face from the world) for Patches to scratch. Maybe this is a prank. Maybe this is an inside joke, because when my mom moved into her current house the neighborhood gifted her some ugly-as-hell totem that apparently, by tradition, each newest-comer to the neighborhood is required to have and display in their window so maybe this is a very good riff on that.
Patches rubs against it. She's not afraid of this horrid facsimile of her kind.
Great.
Meanwhile SHE'S fine and the condo is a little toasty but totally liveable so I'm like "Good, cool, you're not baking. You're having a good time. Enjoy your new sister, I guess, I'll see you later."
I go back to work because this is a problem for later me.
After work, after my run, after whatever, I get home and it's like 8:00pm and Patches is so happy to see me and the totem pole is still just. There.
I text my friends like "so a bday gift is here from my mom and it's the Biggest Ugliest cat pole I've seen in my life. Is this a bit? Did my mom go 'that's so ugly haha! send!' Maybe she genuinely found it cute. How do I navigate this." My friend Sarah has the good advice to maybe text my mom neutrally like "Got the cat pole!" and feel the waters whether my mom is like "Isn't it ugly? đ" or "Hope Patches likes it! đ„°"
My mom goes to bed early so I don't do any of that yet. Problem for tomorrow me.
This morning, Patches wakes me up for breakfast. I get her situated and I'm staring at the fucking Cat Pole again. I wonder if my Mom's been wondering all night what I thought of it.
I take a picture. I text her.
Okay.
I get on call with my mom. I ask for clarity that the ungodly horrid thing is NOT my birthday gift and is in fact a mix-up from the seller who sent me this instead of my actual gift. She's wheezing between words. She thinks I'm being too charitable for the amount of Absolute Fucking Ugly this is. I have to gently talk her out of using the word "monstrosity" while messaging the seller asking what the hell happened here.
I tell her I need to apologize for harming her dignity with Floor 2 David, who thinks this fucking thing is my mom's idea of a great birthday gift for her to-be-28-year-old daughter.
My heart goes out to the poor soul who did actually order this cat totem and is lacking it on this lovely day.
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#sometimes I genuinely do wonder just how fucked my mental state would be right now if I hadnât started playing dnd.#like genuinely during the school year (especially the end of spring semester) my mindset is#ââsurvive until the weekend so you can play dndââ#and then Friday comes and I play dnd fri-sat-sun and Iâm happy#and then Monday comes around and its ââsurvive until the weekend so you can play dndââ#like especially Rookâs game bc thatâs my longest running one and I am UNHEALTHILY attached to that one.#itâs the highlight of my entire existence and my other two games are pretty high up on the list of ââthings that make life tolerableââ#idk. maybe I would be suicidal if not for dnd. probably not but maybe.#Iâve always had my cats and my books and my friends as reasons to live but living away from home means no cats and no books#and I donât really talk to anyone in my college classes so dnd accounts for over half of my social interaction in a week.#and when you take note of that fact maybe itâs not so hard to see why I cling to it with such desperation.#but itâs more than that. itâs because itâs the only kind of storytelling I seem to be capable of right now.#I havenât written anything nor related to Rookâs game in almost a year and that had been the first time in months.#I need to create and tell stories and share them with people but my brain (adhd and depression ig) will not let me#so dnd is the way I can do that. because itâs not on me to sit down and do it.#itâs a commitment I make to a group.#and itâs not me pulling it all out of my brain from scratch itâs me reacting to a bunch of other stuff#anyways. just crazy to think that this silly little game (and my idiot bastard man) might save/have saved me#morrigan.text#delete later#personal
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Thinking abt the random card au again. Why must it go so crazy hard I miss it sm
#rat rambles#random card au#no matter how far I drift from my bndori and sekai peak days the random card au keeps hitting me like a truck every now and then#it just scratches an itch that I havent been able to satisfy since my cr days years and years ago#I wouldnt say the random card au has super similar worldbuilding to my old cr stuff as that was much more large scale#but it still has a similar appeal to me I think#I think its the building entirely new worldbuilding based off of designs and general vague starting concepts and bringing them all together#that gets me invested as it feels so satisfying slotting it all together and then actually getting to play out the story in this new web#I loveeeee jumbled webs of worldbuilding and characters that all tie together in a way that makes it almost impossible to completely#seperate one cast of characters from another#I love the feeling of a world with a bunch of intertwining plots like that even if it makes it near impossible to format a normal story#like my cr stuff was just so much man I still miss it sometimes even if I hate cr itself#Ive become a much better story creator too now so I know I could make what I had so much better nowadays and I already like my old stuff#it just makes me all the more sad that I went so crazy hard on worldbuilding for a franchise that sucks ass </3#it may have been two of the worst years of my life but Ill also never reach that worldbuilding high again I think#oh also it made me actually start the slow slow process of getting more ambitious with my art and doing more digital stuff#rly thats the biggest reason the random card au pains me so since I wanna post stuff for it but man do I not wanna draw anyone from it#first of all human characters so already eh but also Id have to adapt the cards theyre based on into a design I can actually draw#so as much as I wanna make a billion random card au animatics I cant even bring myself to draw them normally#you see olivia and jackie are easier to draw because I just made shit up for their designs and as such made their designs very simple#but I cant just make shit up for bndori and sekai characters they actually have designs and hair that Id have to adapt to my style it sucks#I just wanna draw doggy arisa is that so much to ask for (yes yes it is I dont wanna figure out her hood)#also rip mygo yall will probably never get in but who knows maybe one day Ill have my second bndori era and then y'all will get in#its rly just the fact that they likely wont have enough cards to properly add them for another few years#especially if that other band also gets in if that happens neither are getting enough cards until the servers shut down lol#like I Could just pick and choose but thats boring#kinda ruins the point of the au y'know?#like tbf Ive cheated in the past by reroling two and limiting my options with several sekai characters#but thats just because at the time most sekai characters had almost no usable cards for this au and the two I rerolled were also unusable#like Im sorry but I couldnt just add normal ass hagumi and masking it wasn't happening
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i remember maybe what inspired me for stories is like. playstation all stars has a little origins section for each character which explains their backstory. Hey i just found out plastation all stars came out when i was 6 WELL anyway that was one of the first things that inspired me to flesh out things i guess. i love knowing why people are here and doing these things. i feel like i wrote some stuff in like a notebook somewhere about chug + lollipop (but maybe that was later?) i dont know where or if it survived. maybe it was about hat instead i also really liked smash bros + ratchet and clank + pokemon. and some other things i dont remember
#memory posts#i dont know if i actually played it when i was 6 i just know that the music from that game is still played by my brother when i sleep#(music as in the intro music where its like Woahhhh. Brace yourselves..)#before youtube put looping on phone i made playlists for the songs i wanted to listen to when i slept (ihome)#well. at FIRST i would just wake up and put it back on again but if i listened to them enough i would make a playlist#one time a 50 minute ad starting playing and i thought it would end so i didnt get up until Quite a time#the playlist naems were named 5 stars after fnauhg. and they consisted of like multiple different lyric videos of the songs#with varying qualities and dead air. I ALSO eventually got a loft so putting the music on consisted of getting down the ladder quickly#+ quietly putting the music again then getting back up the ladder quickly + quietly#there was a drawing of cyndaquil (or typshlosion?) on my wall i taped on with like a health bar under it that was kind of not full#all the way. and a drawing of sonic my brother made me but i scratched out the to and from so it had my name on it (and looked like i did i#my room wasnt ever really clean. at least not because of me. i always got the lowest grade in organization in elemntary school#(they graded what the inside of your desk looked like. mine had so much THINGS in it)#my bureau had stickers from every school i went to so i could remember them (It broke when we moved..)#the wood planks were all fucked up cuz i paced and jumped and ran to music and thinking#there were a couple of . nail indents on the floor#in the ladder of the loft i scratched in THE BIG BAD WOLF DIDNT DESERVE IT (or similar) because there was a play where he was on trial#and determined by how much screaming there was WE COULDVE MADE HIM INNOCENT but everyone else didnt like him i guess#my elemntary school had lines on the floor so i looked at them when i walked and for a time i looked at my feet whenever i walked#we got bella in 2012 and shes a cute awesome animal chihuahua.#these are things about me i guess this is the post. HI :3
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oh twitter bookmarks, facebook saved, instagram saved, tiktok bookmarks, tumblr likes, my beloveds (i will never ever open them again)
#be going 'oop ill save that for later' and then finding it in 3 yrs going 'wtf is this'#i still have bookmarks for belle parker. im not sure anyone here even remembers who that bitch is#she was my beloved my most babygirl oc in i think 2016-2018? ish?#she was the It Girl the Solo Blog the creator of the connected ocs universe#but i think the last time i wrote her was. Before Covid so its been a Hot Minute#but i still have stuff bookmarked in instagram in a little section just for her#if she ever comes back im ready for the edits#god she was the first (only?) time i edited icons to have a different hair color#but never permanently bc as we all know i never saved icons i made them as i went I'd write a reply then make the icon from scratch#awful method dont recommend it thats why i dont use icons really anymore#but i remember spending Hours editing purple hair on that bitch and the shade changed every single time#she was iconic tho. absolute queen. blueprint for every oc that came after her and im so serious#list any trait u have seen in a muse i write and i can probably trace it back 2 belle#if i looked back on her backstory im kinda convinced that she and cassie would have major crossover#belle had a twin brother. I think belle and cassie are the only time ive ever had twin ocs?#oh no wait there was my guy whos superpower was controlling glitter and his twin who could teleport and was evil#and the tweevils not ocs tho#do i have more twin ocs. genuinely no clue i am now only thinking ab 2016 era ocs i had#i think some of u may underestimate how little i remember ab my muses and blogs#if its not one of the it girl muses of the month (kurt jason cassie tate) then i can not tell u if they r on my multi or not. i dont know#obvi liam and cooper r special cases bc they technically have solo blogs rn#but at any given time u could just say i write someone that ive written in the past and I'll believe u
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Could we get some Simon POV on mail order bride reader? Perhaps his thoughts on how timid she is?? Pls and thanks!
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it is something that he knows as soon as you step over the threshold for the very first time. he's observant to a fault; he can't be surprised by anything because he pays too much attention to the small details, to the things no one gives a second glance.
the way your head whips around when a loud noise carries across the room. the way you jump when you weren't expecting him behind you, crowding your space. the soft way you talk, the way you constantly try to make yourself disappear when there are others in your vicinity.
it speaks volumes, this kind of behavior. this intense need to appease others, to not disturb them, tiptoeing to gauge reaction to make sure you haven't done anything wrong, that you haven't upset anyone.
simon knows this kind of timidness all too well. he sees the veil that you wear, the kind that flutters when a hand is raised; he recognizes it, and you are a reflection of a woman that he used to know.
a woman he used to look up to. one that he loved, and one that loved him back.
the more time he spends with you, the more unlike himself he feels, the more aware he is of the other half of himself that is so far away from him, a stranger. never in simon's life has he felt that same burning anger. he's never felt the need to make those around him afraid. he's never relished in being the bigger man, the stronger one--and when the voices get loud enough, he still remembers being the boy who hid under his bed until he was too big to fit underneath it.
so he makes his steps louder. he shuffles his feet on the carpet. he makes them heavier, soft thuds that can be heard in the hardwood of the kitchen.
he makes noise. in whatever room he's in, he makes it known. the clatter of his toothbrush into its holder. the metal scratch of hangers as he gets a jacket. the clatter of a mug in the sink. the thunk of his boots by the door.
you stop flinching. you stop looking over your shoulder. the sounds of his boots coming off, it brings you into the living room to greet him. when you hear his toothbrush in the bathroom, you shuffle inside so you can stand beside him and do the same. when you hear him in the kitchen, you always pad into the room, giving him those big, soft eyes and asking him for the millionth time if he needs help (no, go fuckin' sit down, too pretty to be workin').
there is a woman in simon's life who used to do the same. who used to be too scared of the world to ever live in it. who never got the chance to unlearn all of the ugly that the wrong man had taught her.
simon grabs the canvas bags in the closet, tossing them over his shoulder as he makes his way to the door.
"we're goin' t'be late," simon calls out. "won't 'ave the bread y'like 'f we don't leave now."
"coming! coming!"
you hurry into the living room, shrugging on your cardigan as you go for your purse hanging by the front door. you slip into your shoes, following simon as he walks out the door.
when simon makes his way down the steps, he expects to have to tell you to stop, to let him walk down the steps first so he can give you his hand; but when he turns, you're waiting there at the top of the steps, fiddling with your purse. he holds out his hand, and you take it on instinct, without even looking, letting him guide you until you've made it to the pavement and can walk to the car.
and when you make it to the passenger side, you're standing at an angle, putting your earrings on as you wait for simon to open your door.
as you wait.
after simon pulls the seatbelt around you and clicks it closed, he lingers, staring at you as you try and fix your hair in the rearview mirror. you pause, looking down at him, giggling.
"what is it, simon? i-is there something on my face?"
he sighs deeply, shaking his head. he lifts a hand, cupping your cheek, swiping a thumb under your eye before stepping back to close your door.
"no," simon mutters. "look bloody perfect."
there's no past with you. only present.
#simon ghost riley#simon riley#simon ghost riley x reader#simon riley x reader#simon riley x you#ghost mw2#ghost cod#ghost call of duty#ghost mwii#ghost x reader#cod#call of duty#order up
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So, there's a lot I want to say about the paralypics, but every time I try I just... can't articulate what I want to say without it turning into a monster of a post that puts my writing advice posts to shame lol. This includes in response to the anonymous asks I got on the topic btw. So I'm going to try and summarise my thoughts here.
As someone who was working towards the Rio paralympics - who was basically one of the people they were actively training to be the next paralympians and who got to go if their choice first athletes had to drop out, the Olympics and paralympics are a... touchy subject for me. I loved playing. I loved my sport. I loved the people I played with. I loved the people I played against. But the way the public and people in power treats disabled athletes sucks. It Really really sucks. and it hurts to talk about.
The vast, vast majority of us aren't paid. We are expected to train at the same intensity as the Olympians with none of the breaks and none of the support to do so, resulting in injuries that are disabling in and of themselves, while juggling normal jobs. many of the paralympians are also in school or at university as well. both schools and jobs see these elite athletes as dedicated hobbiests at best.
I had a friend who were fired from their job because they were denied time off to compete at the paralypics and well, if i had to choose between the paralympics or stay at a shit job paying minimum wage, I know which one I'd pick, and so she didnt have a job when she came back. I have friends who are still in the closet because their sponsors would drop them if they came out as gay, who ended years-long relationships to keep the funding that allowed them and their teams to compete - funding that just covered the costs of travel by the way. They never saw a cent of it themselves, but it was the difference between us having to pay $50 each for our plane tickets and accommodation and having to pay $2,000Aud + for every away game. I have friends who were supposed to go to Tokeyo but were kicked off the teams weeks before the games because of a rule change that decided they weren't disabled enough anymore, wasting years of work with absolutely no warning. They weren't even given the decency of an appology from the people who made the call. Several went through terrifying mental health spirals over it. It was their life's work, gone. I saw so many friends just give up because their disabilities were "too hard to classify" into the International Paralympic Commity's boxes and who were made to feel they weren't welcome by the system spouting off about its diversity and inclusion and empowerment of disabled people.
And then with all that, the best we can hope for is for the social media teams to turn us into a joke for ableds to laugh at or into inspiration porn to make them feel good about themselves - because at least theyre not us. Because obviously, there are no other options in how to show us/sarcasm.
My phone doesn't even have "paralympics" as a recognised word. I have a Samsung. The company that is currently at the paralympics using them as a marketing opertunity. We aren't even recognised as a word in the phones made by the company that is currently using the paralympics as a marketing opportunity. The phones they're giving the athletes won't even recognise the name of the event that they got it at. If I've spelt it wrong, it's because it autocorrects it every time I try to spell it right, and im dyslexic and can't see the difference until I stare at it for a minute or so.
I just... this isn't even scratching the surface of my thoughts. But I wanted to say at least some of it. It will be the last I'm going to talk about it, at least until the event is over.
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Getting yourself off again, angel? Second time today, isn't it? Or already the third, fourth, fifth? You're such a greedy, insatiable thing. Now, now, don't stop on my account - no, keep going, you're doing great.
But your touches are a little too intense, don't you think? A little too... on the nose, too obviously intended to make you come. Good little pets don't finish fast - if at all - no, they edge and edge, over and over again, until they finally get permission to let themselves go and succumb to their primitive needs. So... Lighter. Slower. No rubbing, only caressing, no fingering, only teasing your hole with your fingertips.
But first things first, fingers off entirely. Apparently, you need someone to guide you through the entire process, don't you? You're just too impatient and worked up, full of hormones and heat, to be able to regulate yourself, poor baby. Don't worry, I'll do it for you, step by step, nice and slow. Nothing makes it easier for you than having someone to order you around and tell you exactly what you're allowed to do. Now, isn't it extra fun that, even though nothing stops you from going further before I allow you to, we both know that you won't? You'll be good and behave, just for me, less even, just for a few written words, the illusion of a dom hovering over your barely clothed body and whispering sweet commands against the shell of your ear.
Touch your chest first. Even if it does nothing for you, even if you barely have any sensation in it, I want your fingers circling your nipples, your fingernails gently scratching over them, pinching them between two of them, pulling, massaging. Put on a show, as if someone was watching you. If you have some clamps around, get them, and tease yourself with them - not quite putting them on, but rubbing over your areola, using it to pinch and pull as well. Feel that, treasure? That's what you get for being patient and taking your time. That nice pulling feeling in your stomach... Yeah, that's good, isn't it? Good job. Toy with your chest and nipples some more, make them swollen, sore, red, make sure they already ache before you finally put on those clamps. If you don't own any, you go ahead right now, and order some. The most humiliating, the prettiest ones you can find. And I want you reading through this post again when they arrive, so you can properly get off to it.
Now, I'm sure by now your legs have fallen open all by themselves, mh? Revealing a soaked, hot mess in between, throbbing and begging for attention. So tempting to put your hand right in the middle of it and grope yourself, but you'll be good for me and keep your hands to yourself, love. For now, all you're allowed to do is let your fingers brush over your stomach... Drawing little circles around your belly button, long swirls that slowly go further down, ah, there's that nice feeling of your guts tensing up, isn't it? God, you're so predictable, such a simple thing. Oh, it's fine, you're merely a body in need of being fucked right now, no wonder your brain turns into simple mode.
Gently tease yourself with your fingernails along your lower stomach, before you move onto your thighs - oh, my, you're really desperate, spread them out as far as possible, and let me guess, you only just noticed now how far you've opened up, haven't you? A proper slut for the taking, good job, my angel. Touch your thighs, not the inner parts yet, just explore yourself, palms tracing your muscle, reaching up to your hip, moving onto your stomach again, where that nice, tight feeling comes back. Slowly let your fingers glide to the inner part of your thighs, where your ticklish, and it usually only works to get touched there when it's someone else's fingers, but, oh, fuck, darling, today's different, isn't it? Touching yourself so intensely, yet thoughtfully, it's really showing its effect on you, mh? That's perfect, you're doing so well, yeah, touch and tease your thighs some more, move those fingers up until...
Now you're allowed to move them right in between your legs. That feels good, hm? Finally letting your fingertips feel your own heat, swollen and twitching, feeling your own wetness, only caused by a post. Doesn't that truly show how desperately you need guidance and being made to feel utterly submissive? Don't keep those moans in, show everyone that you're such a needy, horny doll, so desperate to touch themselves. Why the modesty? Let it out. Rub yourself - slowly, dear - and feel yourself up, and know that you've done anything to this point because you followed orders, because you obeyed, because you just couldn't do it yourself and needed someone else so fucking badly, you needed someone to tell you what to do, does it feel like I'm there with you, do you like it, mh? Does it turn you on to know that I took the time writing this, for you to follow every step and work yourself up?
If you own a vibrator, you'll use it now. If it's the kind that you shove inside your needy hole, then do it, don't be gentle, don't be slow, shove it inside of you on the highest settings, as deep as it can go, and use your hand to continue rubbing. If it's the kind that you put on yourself, lay it on you, don't press it against you - we wouldn't want you to get too excited now, would we? - and shove your fingers inside of your instead. Fuck yourself. Make it good. Make it hard to not fall off the edge. Make it as rough and fast and overstimulating as you possibly can. Make it feel humiliating how fucking close it gets you that you're doing this in the first place. Feel the weight and tension that your heat brings - lean into it. Open your mouth, let the moans and whines and all those pretty noises out, don't close it to swallow, let your drool run down your chin - pant. It's getting hard to not come, isn't it? Poor baby.
Do you want me to give you permission? You do. I know. It's okay, baby, relax, keep fucking yourself open like that. A little patience.
Getting harder, mh? Feeling it in your guts already? God, you're so...
Think you can manage a bit longer?
Soon, my angel. You sound so good when you're desperate.
Almost there.
Ready, love?
Come for me, right now.
#my own#female sub#male sub#nb sub#trans sub#gender neutral post#degradation.#humiliation.#praise.#joi.#dirty talk.#psychological domming.
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(There is blood pictured at the end of this post) (well, 1 drop) (don't worry it's mine, not some innocent creature's)
I found a dormouse in my kitchen today, just chilling on the ceiling above my head, watching me cook. Maybe even judging my cooking technique like Ratatouille. I only noticed its presence because there's a bunch of dried herbs hanging from the ceiling above the stove and at one point I heard a rustling, then a crunching noise.
It was eating my herbs.
As if they were a little snack I'd placed here for my dormouse friends. None of my other animals can walk on the ceiling, therefore any food that's near the ceiling must be an offering to the dormice. (I admit, that's sound logic.)
A dormouse family has been living in my walls since before I moved hereâI should probably call it a dormouse dynasty, by now. Here's the first post I wrote about them, in 2019 ! The cats eat a lot of them (especially Morille, she loves dormice) but apparently not enough to make the key decision makers in this dormouse community decide that living in my house is more trouble than it's worth.
Every year when they hibernate and go quiet for eight months I have the renewed hope that this time the cats got rid of all of them, but the next spring they wake up and start scratching inside my walls in the middle of the night again. (Not only that's creepy, but it's so loud.)
Anyway, this dormouse, let's call him Alfred. I saw immediately which hole between two stones he'd crawled out of and the first thing I did was to stuff a salt shaker in there to block his escape route. Step 2 was to call for backupâI summoned Morille, and she came down from the living-room 2 seconds later (the cats know it's always good news when I call them to the kitchen while cooking.)
Alfred was panicking.
I grabbed a broom and started threatening him with it like an angry old woman in a cartoon. He tried to flee towards the ladder, but Morille was there. He tried to flee towards the door, but Morille was also there. He tried to hide on top of the fridge, and Morille happily lay siege to it, like my fridge was a Gallic oppidum on top of a hill and Morille was Caesar and his entire army.
Morille was having the time of her life.
But my kitchen door was ajar, and Alfred managed a heroic jump from the top of the fridge to the lintel, like a flying squirrel. He scurried out then grabbed hold of the climbing rose right above the door. When I got out and took this photo, he looked fairly stressed and pessimistic.
I didn't want him to climb the wall all the way to the eaves and go right back into my house, so I went back in to get my broom again, either to make him lose his grip and fall straight into Morille's gaping maw (sorry), or make him run away into the woods (inferior solution; they always find their way back, unless you take them very far away.)
(I used to trap dormice humanely then drive them 3km away to release them near the barn of a neighbour I disliked, but this neighbour has since moved. (Not because of my dormouse warfare, I swear.) There's also an abandoned house in the woods where I used to exile my prisoners, but after a while I started feeling silly driving around the countryside with dormice in the backseat, so I stopped trapping them (it really was a hassle) and just let the cats eat them.)
But Alfred is a combative and resourceful rodent. In the half-minute it took me to go back in and grab my broom, he laid a trap for me.
He ran along the stem of my climbing rose in such a way that his weight made it droop jussst enough to be now hanging at face level rather than above the door. So when I ran outside again with my broom, I was slapped in the face by a thorny rose plant. (For a minute I thought I was crying tears of blood, which seemed worrying, but it was just a scratch above my eye.) (I wish it could leave a tiny scar, so people will ask how I got it, and I will tell them about the mighty dormouse wielding a rose sword.)
I sent these pics to my brother hoping to get some sympathy, and he cropped & desaturated the one with the blood teardrop then sent it back with the comment "you look like an Evanescence song"
By this point I decided Alfred had won this battle. (Not the war, because it's almost autumn aka hibernation time so he probably found another gap between two stones and went right back inside. The war continues.) But this humble dormouse set a Saw trap to poke my eyes out the second I stepped outside my house and I respect that. I admire the way he used his environment to his advantage, and teamed up with my climbing rose to level the playing field (since I had teamed up with my cat first.) He has won the right to spend another winter inside my walls, curled up in my cosy wool insulation, dreaming of dried herbs, thwarted cats, and heroic skydiving from fridgetops.
Well played.
#crawling along#a fairly violent post by this blog's standards. but i am the main victim of this violence so it's okay#alfred just had a stressful day#i wish i could found Dormouse City in my woods and relocate everyone here! but they are very determined to remain in my walls...
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heyyyyyyyy. this is dedicated to @harmshake for inspiring me. love ya twin. ty always <3 ty for getting me out my funk and inspiring me.
and @shes2real. loveeeeeee ur fics. gotta go check em out if you havenât.
warnings: pure smut. no plot. nun. just freakayyyyy. no one under 18.
parings: roman reigns x black!reader
âah!â your fresh manicured white toes popped as your leg laid over your manâs shoulder
âi know, babygirl, i knowâŠâ he sighed into your neck as his hips continued to snap towards your pussy, âbeen a good girl all day for meâŠgotta give my baby her reward.â
roman loved being vocal during sex. he loved making your head spin and your heart swell with his words making you speechless. wellâŠyou were already speechless but yk what i mean.
he grabbed you other leg hiking it up further around his waist allowing you to feel him deeper, âwhy are yâyou fucking me like this?â you strain latching your hand onto his back, digging ur nails into it attempting to relive the pressure in your center
âwhy not? tight ass pussy always ready for me. you hear her crying for me? let me show her daddyâs home.â
squelching noises echoed from around the room. you could feel yourself dripping down romanâs dick right onto the bed sheets creating a wet spot. your pussy swollen and worn out yet still squeezing down on him pulling him back inside for more. he loved you like this for himâa babbling, dizzy, dick drunk mess. you loved it even more.
he pampered you in and out of the bed room; this all starting from coming home to a hot bath waiting with candles and pink rose petals scattered around. you let him wash your body down, an intimate act all too familiar, before his washcloth covered hand got closer towards ur aching pussyâwashing rubbing you there letting the heat from the cloth bring you towards your first orgasm of the night. you both quickly took it to somewhere it wouldnât turn into a slip nâ slideâŠwell?
that familiar feeling for the 4th time tonight pulsed inside your belly again ready to gush out onto your manâs dick.
âshit! You gotta stop scratchinâ me babyâŠâ he hissed before throwing ur legs over his arms, pushing them towards either side of your head
his movements sped him, continuing to dig at your pussy making a mess in the middle of your thighs. bad choice.
you lived for your manâs back. the way his body loomed over yours like a shield felt nearly romantic. and it was beautiful to say the least. you knew if you kept leaving marks, heâd kill you for it in the morning. heâd have to cover up again, which would make him loose out on money. roman knew his fan base, the ladies wanted what they wanted. but fuck those hoesâŠyouâd give them something to stare at for-sure now. youâd carve ur name with your nails if you could.
your nails caved inwards again in his skin dragging all around to relieve both the pain and pleasure your man was creating with the swivel of his hips. the vein in his dick pulsing against ur spot with the new stroke. your hips attempting to buck into the mattress to escape the new rhythm.
âyou feel me baby? right in that pussy? right where i need to be, baby. you wetting it up so good baby. iâm not stopping till you cum on it.â
âf-fu-uckkk! i canât roman, ah!â you sobbed out sinking ur teeth into his shoulder. your pussy clenching and unclenching, his dick desparate to find its hiding place in your pussy.
âwhy not baby? fuckinâ good ass pussy. gimme what i want, babygirl. get that nut.â he roared into your ear
not for the first time, you felt the white flash behind ur eyes as heat radiated from ur toes right towards your pussy. with a loud whine of incoherent words, your cum gushed out around romanâs still thrusting cock now with a new layer of your cum coating it, fucking your through it. you let out a mixture of screams and sobs as he chased his nut, fucking into you faster, the stimulation becoming too much to bare. your nails scratching roman anywhere it could, clawing at him.
âwhere can i cum baby? where you want it at?â
âin my pussy..â you whimper out hoarsely
ânah, speak up. Where you want it at, baby? i can come in this pussy? My pussy?â
âin my pussy! fuck! cum in meeee, roman. cum in me, pleaseeee.â you beg with a pout, he leaned down connecting your lips together. his strokes becoming erratic before you felt the long hot spurts of his cum spraying your walls.
âshit! fuck! i canât stop, baby. ahh!â he moaned in your ear as his thrust slowed down. your breaths both racing to pull it back into your lungs
roman continued to feed you small soft thrust before pulling out. he eased your legs of your shoulders to watch the mixture of your cum oozing out of your pussy and dribble onto the bed sheets. he lowered a thumb to your clit to rub small circles, causing your pussy to convulse and push his cum out in bubbled pools. after, he used his thumb to finger fuck it back into you with a small whimper, he got up to grab a towel to clean you off.
âdamn, baby!â you hear him call out from the dark bathroom
âwhat?â you strain out, still trying to catch your heart rate back to normal
âwe gotta invest in some gloves or something for you, when we fuckinâ baby girl.â he reemerged from the bathroom with a towel in hand. you took the time to notice all the bright red scratches that coated his tanned arms, and the teeth marks in his neck. he did a small spin, to show you his back.
he damn near looked fresh out of a TLC match.
âshouldnât have been fuckinâ me like that than.â
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My first ever comic con! And first cosplay too. Of course it's gonna be my boy :] Ramblings about the process are under the cut(Let me know if?? You would want me to elaborate with process images for any of the steps?)
The costume took me forever to make, as I've never done any machine sewing, sculpting, fabric dying or spray painting before but learning all of these was so fucking fun!! I never realised just how many different skills go into making a cosplay but it was so worth it!!!
Almost all of the clothes(except the hat) were purchased first as bases, but all of the detailing was added by me. All of the fabric used was originally just scraps that I was given for free so I needed to learn how to dye and dye all of the stars, they were originally white.
The sewing machine was its own beast that brought me tons of frustration from the lack of skill and knowledge (it was devastating to find out that 95% of fuck ups were my fault and not the machine's lmao). But as a result, a hat sewn from scratch, all of the fur trims, embroidery on the corset, stars and the collar(which is very hard to see on the pictures unfortunately) was all added manually. The stars and the stripes(on the back of the cape) were attached using heat-and-bond adhesive (I WISH I knew about such thing just when I started working on this. It would save me so much time and nerves.)
Then I found out about polymorph(mouldable plastic) and it has become the next thing I wanted to learn, to sculpt the claws and the fangs(yes, they're handmade jfksjs). The claws I then primed and painted in trillion coats because I wasn't satisfied with the colour of the spray paint. The fangs I moulded to my own teeth and then stained with tea to match the colour of my teeth :)c
As for makeup, I used Mehron Paradise water activated paints. At first I wanted to try to save money and bought myself Snazaroo instead, which unfortunately turned out to be a waste. Snazaroo didn't hold on my face for longer than 2 hours, cracking and peeling awfully. Mehron on the other hand survived 11 hours of me smiling, talking, emoting and such and didn't even crease at the smile lines(I'm actually shocked about that). It obviously works like any other makeup which means your skin texture and wrinkles won't go anywhere but Mehron's elasticity pleasantly surprised me. It did obviously smear from sweat and saliva(if you're eating and licking your lips) but if you don't touch the skin it just dries again, self setting. But if it's dry it's fully smear-proof. Highly recommend!
And last but not least, I've decided against painting my hands as it was very risky that I will stain everything I touch at the smallest hint of sweat. So instead I got myself gloves-tights(? Not sure how they're called but it's made from the same fabric as tights) and painted them with normal acrylic paint(did you know you could dye fabric with acrylic paint? I personally didn't), then heat set with an iron and voilĂ , they're reusable, my hands are not stained after an exhausting day and I don't stain everything I touch. It worked wonderfully which honestly was a surprise as I was really sceptical that acrylic paint will somehow stay in place.
I think this whole thing took me minimum of 6 months with big-big breaks for my school and life in general. But I'm really proud! This project taught me so many new skills and I couldn't have been happier about learning new knowledge, even if it sucked to fail in the meantime.
Everyone at the con was really nice and gave me a large confidence boost even tho it was my first time and I had no idea what I was doing. Taking photos with other people was really awkward/new for me as I hate cameras so I really had no idea how to pose/behave in front of one. But that's okay I think. This whole experience definitely made me want to do this again, so I think that will come with experience. Thank you for reading this far, hope you enjoyed this little summary :)
#my art#cosplay#biting the hand that feeds au#moondrop#fnaf moondrop#fnaf moon#moondrop fnaf#moon fnaf#bhtf moondrop#i had such a good time#little awkward moments of me being autistic and not reading social cues and/or having trouble processing didn't go anywhere#but that's okay#i don't think i was ever complimented as much as i was complimented at the con so that's a W#artist alley was definitely an experience of me just finding out how actually autistic i am#because i really Am Not Interested in anything aside from my special interests#literally got myself a singular Moon sticker and a singular Mothman print#that's it lmfaooo#i also had people come up to me to just give me a tiny plastic newborn toy and run away#10/10 hilarious#bhtf au#i MIGHT just draw Moon in some of those poses because đ#also maybe will make a separate post just showing off all of the details that are not as noticeable on camera? maybe? if yall would want#the cape and the hat ARE SO FUCKING FLUFFY#thank you silvermizuki for the furđ«”
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