#its midnight and ive gotten maybe 3 hours of sleep

[echoxshxrx]

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[hinamie]

How the fuck do you draw so fast?? From chapter that dropped today?? And Yuuji is like. The final boss of characters to draw omg (I love it, I love your style so much ughhhhh)

cries ghjgj thank u :'>> ive gotten this question quite a bit lately so let me clear some things up as 2 how i am become speed pls do not attempt at home:

probably the overarching reason, i am currently between jobs so i have a lot of time on my hands

itafushi hyperfixation has taken over my entire brain it feels like i will rot if i don't draw them every waking hour. with where the manga/canon is ive been So motivated and inspired i that i genuinely dont know what to do with myself and all i can do to combat it is draw More. i wish i was exaggerating when i say it feels like a physical need it is a compulsion it is an incessant ITCH. i cannot stress enough the Need i feel to draw fr this series

also bc of where the manga is i feel like the fandom is very active so all the engagement puts coins into the content machine that is me n fans the flames bc i want to Participate i want to Share!!!!! maybe its a fomo thing maybe im a slave to the numbers probably both 2 a degree but above all im having fun sharing what i make with a community who likes the same thing i do <3

when im in the zone with a piece and hatsune miku is serenading me sweet computer sounds and everything is going Right i forget to take breaks eat stand up etc so i end up starting and finishing a draws in a single 6 hour session before remembering i have a body

sleep schedule is FUCKED fr when leaks dropped last night (around 7:30pm fr me) i saw The Yuuji Panel of all time and started the morning glory piece then and there; took no breaks and did not finish until after midnight. then i still had more in me and wanted a head start on baby yuuji panel redraws so i did sketches/lines/flats real quick and went to bed at 4am slept fr 4 hours woke up ate n back to work DO NOT DO THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

also since april i've been on a creative high that's only seemed to go up which is unprecedented but i Have been drawing nearly every day because of it so whatever the opposite of rusty is I'm that. ive had so much daily practice tht the speed came as a side effect fshjgf

[the-red-avocado]

Some more things to get to know Roma a little better

Maybe its a lot but bear with me

She'd Ofc a doctor, but this girl is not filled with compassion and care, no, she is filled to the brim with hatred and spite

Scared of moths, especially the furry ones

Loves marigolds 👀

Nails are always manicured and relatively long

I dont think ive mentioned it bit shes got lotsssss of freckles! On her face and body

Roma is a pretty private person, always has a wall up and always bares her teeth, she tends to push people away in order to not get hurt

This is mostly because of a rocky relationship with her mother, who tends to be overbearing and verbally abusive

A big part of why she moved to a different family house is to get away from her mother

Her father was absent for a large part of her childhood, and thats a big reason as to why her mother is so spiteful

She definitely bottles up her emotions, all except anger, because she thinks that it always helped her more than any other

And shes pretty honest, wouldnt lie unless its necessary

She's pretty easy to win over through humor, as much as she denies, she loves it when people tell her jokes

Around close friends, shes always smiling

Speaking of friends, she keeps her circle tightknit, anyone else is an acquaintance

Because of this people obviously assume she's rude, but I think shes rather polite, as long as the same respect is given back

She Doesnt always wear color, the usual would be baggy brown/black pants and a fitted shirt or a corset/bodice top, the rebellious teen in her makes her show as much skin as possible, scandalous even

She incorporates color through jewelry and coats

Shes got this little black dress that reaches to the floor with a sweetheart neckline and mesh/lace sleeves (its so cute i swear, i had to mention it)

She isnt all that gloomy, she enjoys color but she thinks black/darker colors look better on her

So that means if she thinks a colorful outfit would look good on her, she'll wear it

Usually she wears her hair down or half pulled back, though sometimes she wears it in a single braid or two separate braids (mostly to bed tho)

It may be unbelievable but she in fact does have a set of morals, of course nobody knows what they are but I can tell you theyre sappy and nObLE (she knows this and its why she Doesnt share them)

Has exactly 1 pair of high heels, everything else is either boots or flats

Allergic to hamsters :(

Has a bit of a drinking problem, vodka and good ol whiskey are her faves tho

When she drinks tho, turns into a completely different person: loud, chaotic, and pretty emotional

HATES smoking

I suppose one flaw of hers is that she can be too mean sometimes, sure shes sarcastic, but sometimes its too much and she ends up hurting people

Another is her anger issues, yikes, kinda explosive and a very specific set of things can make her snap

When shes angry its not a pretty sight, and i feel like she got that from her mother

Anywhoooo

Her way of flirting is just playful banter, she'll argue your ear off thats for sure but you wont regret it ;)

Hand holding is a favorite of hers too, she would literally cling on to your arm

Acts of service is another one of her love languages, sitting in silence together, that kind of stuff

Shes dated a lot of people in the past, so i think Shes pretty experienced in that department

Not a morning person for sure, itll be 10 am and she'd still be knocked out

As a teen, she would sneak out with her sister and go to midnight parties, she'd come back at 3 am and sleep for 12 hours straight

Also as a teen she was loud as fuck, constantly angry and didnt have much control over feelings as she does now

I think Shes gotten calmer, caring less of the opinions of others and going through obstacles with a logical and swift mind, she knows that in the grand scheme of things she'll be okay, and that assurance, that gut feeling soothes any troubles

Shes also got a pistol named Duke Roy Lemonshire

Vanilla is her fav ice cream

(Prefers soda, coke or sprite)

Fav food is lasagna :D

Fav stuffed animal is a bear named snortle

Used to have cockatiels but they died of old age :(

Hates tea, likes her coffee w a lot of sugar

(Because I luv piercings atm) she's got a tongue stud, a bellybutton piercing, a nose piercing on her left nostril, and a looooot of rings and studs on her ears, most of them Shes done herself

Shes also got a tattooed sleeve left arm(mostly protection charms and various images),and several more tattoos across her body:

A dragon on her right outer thigh

A small seahorse on her hip (left)

A coral snake around her left ankle

A quote on her right arm, "aut viam inveniam aut faciam"

And also a little cat tattoo on her shoulder (right)

[divine-noire]

Mononucleosis Awareness Post

So I caught Mono participating in Hot Girl Summer™ (jk jk lmao) but I did get Mono, and this shit is not a fucking joke. If you feel like you might have it, please go to the doctor. Over the past 4 weeks, I have been going through literal medical hell from complications. I’m gonna list the symptoms I’ve had and if you feel like you might have it, go get looked at. I thought Mono was something only horny ass teens got in high school playing spin the bottle, I’m 26 (27 next month) and was NOT expecting this shit at all.

Fatigue

My first symptom that something was wrong was fatigue. This is not normal, everyday fatigue. This is actually waking up and feeling like the world is ending when you take your first step, fatigue. I couldn’t keep my eyes open. While driving, I put my emergency break on at red lights because I was afraid I would fall asleep while at the standstill. At work, if there were no calls, my head was down (luckily, my boss is only here twice a week so I could get away with this). At home, I was in bed by 6PM and when you do sleep, it’s immediate. There is no gradual lulling off to sleep. It’s face-meet-pillow-meet-morning-alarm type of sleep. But I was still tired no matter how much I slept so I started using No Doze to counteract the effects. At first, it was fine, but even then, I still had the underlying fatigue. It got so bad, I drove over a friend’s house in Greenbelt, MD which is about an hour and a half away with rush hour traffic, using every bit of energy I had in my body to get to her, because she said she would take care of me, which she did. But by the time I pulled up to her house, I basically almost fell out of the driver side door when she opened it for me. That is not an exaggeration, that is the level of exhaustion I felt from just driving that far without sleeping. We thought I had the flu or something flu-like, so she gave me fluids and alot of Day & NightQuil. It made the symptoms lessen, but it never made them go away.

Sore Throat

At the beginning, my throat merely felt scratchy. This lasted for about 3 days, before I knew it, my voice was gone and my throat was in so much pain I gave up talking. The pain is not akin to Strep Throat, if you’ve had that before. It is actually worse. My throat was swollen as a symptom of the virus, but it graduated into its own infection of severe Tonsillitis. It was so severe that I actually began having trouble swallowing from the amount of swelling that it caused. I had to receive a steroid injection in my butt to counteract the swelling and start methylprednisone (which wasn’t strong enough and I had to go back for regular prednisone 20mg). I couldn’t eat anything without pain, so I stuck to drinking a lot of fluids and ice water. Ice water became my guardian angel because my throat was in a constant state of burning pain. I also grew exodus on the back of my throat, past my tonsils, as a result of the infection in my throat, and had to gargle salt water like crazy everyday to get them out. The exodus hurts, it is hard and feels like cement on the back of your throat and it makes the Tonsillitis 10x worse than it already is. I didn’t have a voice at all for 12 days, I had to use a dry erase board for all interactions (it’s quicker than typing on my phone.) 

Nausea

Now my case may be different because the doctors keep telling me my nausea shouldn’t have gone on as long as it did and that I need to go see a Gastroenterologist ASAP but that’s a different story for a different post. Nausea was my worst and most persistent symptom to date. The kind of nausea you may feel will be persistent. I woke up nauseous to the point of my mouth salivating as though I were about to vomit everyday for about 2-2.5 weeks. This never settled. There was never a time my mouth was not salivating, I had to begin keeping paper cups at my desk to spit the residual saliva into throughout the day because it never subsided. One day, I had a salad for lunch from Panera even though I wasn’t hungry, I knew I should try to eat something. (By this time, my throat had made some progress and I could swallow some whole things.) I immediately regretted that decision when I lay in bed at midnight holding my stomach like the world was ending. I was so nauseous that I couldn’t get myself together enough to even get out of bed. The thing that makes the nausea symptom so bad (for me) is that it never made be actually vomit, it just created the sensation of needing to. Eventually, I broke down and stuck a straw down my throat just to alleviate the symptom a bit and threw up the salad, and it didn’t even look like it’d been digested properly. That made the nausea go away for the night, and after that I gave up eating anything solid hoping that would prevent any future nausea, spoiler alert: I was wrong. My salivating mouth picked up right where it left off, it was as though all I went through the night before didn’t even matter. My stomach was empty and still nauseated. That night, the nausea was so bad that I just knew something was off and I drove myself to the ER (Note: I drive myself to the ER that is less than 10-minutes away all the time to save money on an ambulance, if you feel you are not safe to drive, dial 911, it is better to just pay the ambulance than cause an accident and make your situation worse than it already is.). When I got there, I was beyond exhausted, nauseous, dizzy, I just felt like I was dying. The doctor brought me back, took my vitals, asked the usual questions. I told him about the nausea, the Mono diagnosis, he said he wanted me to get a temporary room while he ran some tests. I got a room and a nurse came in and gave me a shot of Zofran for the nausea that did absolutely nothing. It was so bad that when he came back in, I asked for Ipecac or a straw to induce vomiting again. Alarmed, he said they wanted to avoid me vomiting and gave me an additional shot of Zofran. That helped that time, but I still just felt overall terrible. The doctor came in later and told me my potassium levels were extremely low, explaining the extreme fatigue and dizziness, that my liver was swollen from the Mono, and that the nausea was alarming and he would be admitting me for treatment. I was shocked that this virus had done such a number on me. My throat had even worsened and was now even more swollen and painful than it was before (I hadn’t gotten the 20mg prednisone script yet.). I spent 2 days with an IV in my arm, eating mushy foods and sleeping in the hospital. I had to take off work because I was in no shape to even drive there, let alone get anything done. After the 2 days went by, I actually felt back to my normal self! I was so fucking happy to exist and not feel like dying after weeks of wanting to that I went home and started cleaning my room. I had let it get atrocious from not feeling well or feeling like doing anything besides sleeping. Shortly after I began, the fatigue kicked in, the only symptom to never leave, and I sat my ass down and watched Rick & Morty with Sebastia and went to sleep instead, which was probably the safer bet. Fast forward 8 nausea-free days, and guess what’s back??? It’s tolerable now, but still an extreme nuisance. I get my Zofran prescription and it does didly fucking squat to alleviate the nausea. I call the Urgent Care that diagnosed me and ask if there’s anything stronger for nausea and they tell me all the stronger shit will have me bedbound and loopy. Bills gotta get paid so we can’t have that. So that night, in a moment of nauseous desperation, I took double the dosage of the Zofran to alleviate the discomfort. Now, I understand I shouldn’t have done this, but I was DESPERATE and afterward, I felt great. It was the first time the medicine had done wtf the doctors said it would do and the way it was supposed to: quick, fast and in a motherfucking sprint. So I stupidly called the Urgent Care to ask them about the nausea medicine again (I have such a good relationship with this UC for some reason, probably because I hate my primary.) and told them what I’d done the night before and that I was now out of nausea meds and needed a refill before it came back, which was all true. Jessica, the nurse I always saw, was alarmed and spoke to the doctor on duty there, and told them about what I did. Then they cut me off and said to go ask my Primary for the refill because I’ve been utilizing them way too much (long story short). But she also said that I shouldn’t need that much Zofran and something else is going on and I need to be seen by a Gastro. That $40 co-pay appointment is still pending. Andddd I’ve been nausea-free for about a week now, but as I type this, my mouth just began salivating so it looks like I’m gonna be dealing with that again soon. Fuck.

Dizziness

My dizziness didn’t come full force until about 4 days ago (Week 4). I was out at a shopping center getting groceries and while I was parking at a nearby Dunkin Donuts, the world legit started slanting. I felt like I’d been drugged all of a sudden. My skin felt cold and clammy, everything felt out of focus and I immediately needed to lie down. Luckily, it came right after I’d put my car in park and had the opportunity to put my seat back and do so. I waited about 10 minutes maybe, and then I felt ok enough to get out and go get some food because I thought I was just hungry because I hadn’t eaten yet. Even standing in line and waiting for the food afterward was difficult. I had to sit down or else I’d fall down. I got back in my car and ate and laid down again, went back to the store to get eggs I forgot to grab before, and on the walk back to my car almost walked into another parked car. Of course, people saw and probably thought I was drunk or something. I was embarrassed but didn’t have the motor skills energy to explain the situation of feeling like I was in 2 bodies at once. This symptom has come and gone as it pleases, but luckily after a good 2-hour nap that day when I got home, I felt alot better. 

Poor Appetite

While battling this virus, I have lost 10 pounds and still counting in the past 4 weeks. While it’s great to fit into clothes I was once too thick to get past my thighs, it is not the way I wanted to lose the weight. In the beginning, I always felt full no matter what, which made me not want to eat, combined with the nausea, it made eating something I just wasn’t in the mood to ever do. This went on for weeks, which caused the weight loss. I learned later that my swollen liver pressing against my stomach is what caused the sensation of fullness, hence, not ever feeling like I should eat. Now, my appetite has returned, and I’ve been eating nothing but starchy, fatty nonsense my diet never would’ve allowed before I got sick. And even with all the newfound calories I’ve been non-stop digesting (seriously guys, pizza 5 days straight, bread bowls, bacon egg and cheese croissants, cheesecake, donuts...) I’m still shedding pounds. My Gold’s Gym Membership is gathering dust because I can’t go workout with my body still always in fatigue-mode and it’s probably just not kosher to do with this kind of virus. My mom said I should celebrate for now until it becomes a cause for concern later, but I think I should probably be concerned now since the earlier you find something out the better health-wise. I lowkey did some research and think I might have Hepatitis-C from the virus, which is curable, but sucks all the same if I’m right. I inherited my mother’s extremely poor immune system, so I really wouldn’t be surprised. I’ll post before and after photos of my weight loss separately, don’t want Tumblr turning me into the Face of Mono™ because of this post. 

Swollen Lymph Nodes

This was one of the lesser symptoms that went away by week 2-2.5. They are definitely sensitive and noticeable. I found that icing them alleviated a lot of the discomfort and made it tolerable, but overall, these were the least of my worries.

If you experience any of these symptoms or think you may have Mono, definitely get yourself checked out. They can do a rapid test at any Urgent Care or ER and let you know during your visit if you have it. This shit is not a joke. I’m still dealing with the symptoms right now and have no inclination of when they will be gone. The literature says anywhere from a few weeks to a year, I’m praying for the initial option but I have no way of knowing for sure. I say all this to say, pay attention to and know your body, guys. You only get one. 

[fiascolla]

answer 21 questions and tag 21 mutuals you’d like to know better! i was tagged by @immortalink to do this. thank you so much for thinking and tagging me i really appreciate it and i love your blog so much <3 oh yeah these answers could, might will probably change by tomorrow so please dont count or put too much value on them.if anyone even reads... PHANKS. 

nicknames: i actually don't think i have a specific one? it varies a lot plus i dont want to say any and expose my real name hahah

zodiac sign: aries (with a cancer asc and cap moon)(i could go on but im gonna stop myself)

height: 170 cm (5'7)??

hogwarts house: OKAY NO FCKING IDEA everytime i do the sorting i get a different result but my FIRST time ever taking the test i got hufflepuff. if someone knows a certain way to figure this shit out please enlighten be because im in ALL 4 HOUSES ATM.

the last thing I googled: i googled if hufflepuff is with two f's or one lmao woops

favorite musicians: OKAY LISTEN i lOVEEEEEE music and questions like these KILL My soulllllll because there are just too many to think of, too many to write down, just...TOO MANY. I ALSO HATE THIS QUESTION CAN YOU TELL. CAN YOUUUU... anyway lets say artists that have influenced and touched me a lot that i can think of immediately off the top of my head are flatsound, night beds and lil peep.

song stuck in your head: ''white wine'' by lil peep anddd ''the less i know the better'' by tame impala (i actually dreamt about this song recently and now it doesnt wanna leave my head)

following: 309

do you get asks: i have gotten like 3 or 4 asks throughout my entire time here so i guess...not really lmao. BUT I LOVED THE ONES I RECIEVED THEY WERE SO SWEET  :(

amount of sleep: its either 12 hours or 3. and for some reason im NEVER satisfied and always tired lmao. 

lucky number: i wish i had a cool answer for that but unfortunately i don't think i have one. when i was a kid i was quite drawn to the number 2 for some reason. and 11. (which combined makes 2 eyyy)

what you’re wearing: a big green hoodie and black leggings. wow this felt kind of weird to write down lmao

dream job: this is tough i dont think i have a dream job but i guess the easiest thing that comes to mind is helping people in someways preferably through my ''art''. or maybe even helping and saving animals and children as well. BUT one thing ive always wanted to be is a musician but i cant play any instruments and when i sing i sound like im preaching to you so :/ sadface.

dream trip: everywhEREEEEEEEE. 

instrument: question how dare you upset me like this. I HAVE ALWAYS wanted to learn how to play an instrument and have never gotten to it. my biggest dream will be to learn to play the piano. and probably my biggest regret if i never learn at least one song i love.

languages: eeehh bulgarian, english and i know some words/sentences or beginner stuff in other languages but i doubt that counts.

favorite songs: A CURRENT!!! favourite song is parking spot by yellow dudes.

random fact: when i look UP my head gets all dizzy and i feel like im gonna throw up even if im sitting down.

aesthetic: i have no idea how to answer butt ummm... hands? an empty gas station at night? or an 24 hour open store at midnight (do these even count lmao). this was a lot of fun anddd tagging @nic7z. @dariaviardo. @feathers-n-silk. @sincappanda @well-who-needs-angels-anyway @luludemauryyy    (feel free to ignore this of course <3)

[queerlynx]

tagged by @elinaline​ lets fucking go 

1. What is the colour of your hairbrush?

my what (have you seen my hair, seriously) 

2. name of a food you never eat?

garlic and i WILL die on that hill 

3. are you typically too warm or too cold?

always too fucking warm. im literally never cold. people ask me 10x/day ‘arent you cold’ even tho ive told them 1000x that no, i am never cold 

4. what were you doing 45 minutes ago?

i think i was still at the shops or maybe getting ready to go to the shops? 

5. what’s your favourite candy bar?

always a slut for a snickers 

6. have you ever been to a professional sports event?

i dont think so? what would i do there anyways ……oh wait no i went along to a professional tennis game w my ex’s brother i think? i can barely remember it was like 6 years ago 

7. what is the last thing you said out loud?

genuinely can’t remember even tho it was probs less than 15mn ago to my flatmate. most likely something about the cat being cute. or maybe it was TO the cat. who knows. 

8. what is your favourite ice cream?

chocolate probably? or banana? banana and chocolate is also good 

9. what is the last thing you had to drink?

lemonade cause thats all i drink 

10. do you like your wallet?

it’s BB-8!!! so yeah of fucking course 

11. what was the last thing you ate?

a bagel w blue cheese laughing cow, ham, and one of them shitty toastie super processed cheese slices 

12. did you buy any new clothes last week?

me and whose money lmaoo i can barely afford food rn 

13. last sporting event you watched?

nope 

14. what’s your favourite flavour of popcorn?

recently ive discovered you can drizzle maple syrup on popcorn and oh boy. other than that probs salted caramel sauce. but like i almost never have popcorn 

15. who was the last person you sent a message to?

im gonna assume this is any message and not just tumblr, in which case it was my fiancé @yearningcurve on whatsapp 

16. ever go camping?

i love camping but last time i went was at least 6 years ago ): 

17. do you take vitamins?

lol no 

18. do you go to church every Sunday?

………moving swiftly on 

19. do you have a tan?

i avoid sunlight like the plague so i’ll let you figure that one out 

20. do you prefer Chinese food or pizza?

probs pizza but i like both 

21. do you drink soda with a straw?                      

i chug it straight from the bottle lol who’s got the time 

22. what colour socks do you wear?

im almost constantly barefoot unless i HAVE to put on shoes and even then i won’t always put socks on if i’m not gonna be outside for long 

23. do you ever drive above the speed limit?

im always p much 5mph above the speed limit (fun fact, the display in cars shows your speed as roughly 2mph higher than it actually is, you can check it against a gps on your phone; AND speed cameras allow for +5mph anyway, so why the fuck wouldnt i be) 

24. what terrifies you?

like in general?? people leaving me, rejecting me, abandoning me, cutting me out, hating me in secret; not being a good person or liked or useful; people thinking i’m annoying or embarrassing or ridiculous or boring; the list goes on 

25. look to your left what do you see?

a very roumd and somft kitty :3 

26. what chore do you hate?

anything administrative or on the phone. i dont think it counts as chores but i genuinely enjoy tidying and cleaning so. 

27. what do you think of when you hear an Australian accent?

i cant tell an australian accent when i hear one 

28. what’s your favourite soda?

lemonade, or fanta 

29. do you go into fast food places or drive thru?

ever since ive gotten a car p much always drive thru cause why would i sit in a crowded fast food restaurant w screeching kids and angry karens when i could enjoy my disgusting feast in my own home??? 

30. who was the last person you talked to?

IRL that’d be my flatmate 

t31. favourite cut of beef?

sirloin 

32. last song you listened to?

Echoes by the Rapture, it played on my shuffle in my car and reminded me of how good Misfits was lmao 

33. last book you read?

it would’ve been over seven or eight years ago. can’t remember. 

34. can you say the alphabet backwards?

z y x w v u t s r q p o n m l k j i h g f e d c b a 

apparently so but it took a while tbh 

35. how do you like your coffee?

i mostly drink flat whites w hazelnut when i drink coffee but tbh despite being a barista w a professional grade home coffee machine i barely ever drink any outside of work lmao 

36. favourite pair of shoes?

grinders boots AND my trans pride converses. can’t pick between them soz 

37. the time you normally go to bed?

really is no normal. anytime between midnight and like up to 5am esp rn during lockdown. i never went to sleep last night actually i’ve been awake for like 28h now 

38. the time you normally wake up?

see above. anytime between 10am and like 6pm depending on when i went to bed. outside of lockdown i would wake up exactly an hour before i have work, so anytime between 5am-11am 

39. what do you prefer sunrise or sunsets?

sunsets but i really love both 

40. how many blankets are on your bed?

one bedsheet and one soft blanket 

41. describe your kitchen plates?

they’re green. nobody is surprised 

42. do you have a favourite alcoholic beverage?

cider. i be drinkin that shit like its juice 

43. do you play cards?

not really altho on lockdown i’ve taught my flatmates a french card/money game called Nain Jaune and they enjoy it so that makes me happy 

44. what colour is your car?

dark red like……burgundy kinda? 

45. can you change a tire?

probably not lol 

46. your favourite province?

province of what lol. either way it’s Brittany. 

47. favourite job you’ve had?

ive only ever had the one lmao so, barista it is 

48. how did you get your biggest scar?

top surgery (’: 

49. what did you do today that made someone happy?

fuck if i know. i guess i made coffee for my flatmates but like i do it everyday so they p much expect it by now i dont think it makes them any happier or like if it does they dont really say it rip 

not a big fan of tagging ppl so just. do it if you wanna lol 

[milese333]

Tag game

Tagged by: @thefandomsurfer Thank you for tagging me! 

Nicknames: Treydog

Height: 6′3′’ or 1,91 cm

Hogwarts house: Ive gotten both Gryffindor and Ravenclaw but Gryffidor was most recent.

Last thing I googled: Number of a local restaurant.

Favourite musicians: Gojira, Tool, Nirvana, Soundgarden, Rage against the machine, System of a down, Meshuggah, Nas, and many more!

Song stuck in your head: Not any right now but when it happens its usually rap.

Following: 269

Followers: 68

Do you get asks?: I have gotten some but not any recently but feel free to send them!

Amount of sleep: Like 5-8 but I wake up like every other hour sadly.

Lucky number: Favorite number is 3 so ill go with that

What you’re wearing: Grey t shirt, Blue jeans, leather boots.

Dream job: Ive always liked the idea of being a librarian

Dream trip: Japan, France, Italy, Greece and many others

Instruments: Played percussion in band for several years so im ok with lots of those.

Languages: Only English sadly. Would love to learn another at some point.

Favourite songs: Oroborus by Gojira, Eulogy by Tool, The day I tried to live by Soundgarden, Know your Enemy by Rage against the machine, Toxicity by System of a down

Random fact: I never crawled as a kid and just went straight to walking lol.

Aesthetic: Tshirts, Polos, Button up shirts, Cardigans, Hoodies, Sweaters, Jeans, Slacks, Boots, Running shoes (I dress nicely but maybe kinda boring haha)

I tag: @midnight-in-town @hinamikasa @nimudashh @dreamerfae @kirishimas-hollandlop

(I keep tagging the same people since I dont interact with many people on here so dont do it if you dont want too!)

[winter-and-little-brunettes]

85 Questions Tag

I was tagged by @vldrocketeer! Thanks, sweetie, sorry Im getting to doing this so late!!!

— What was your last…

1. Drink: Coca-Cola! And, Im about to go grab another can...

2. Phone call: My mom! I sent her some cute bird videos, and called her to hear her reactions to them.

3. Text message: A good friend I made in first year! His name is Colin, and he lived across the hall from me in residence first year. We’re both the same major (English Lit), and we both have similar interests in video games, so we got along great. I won’t post what I said, since we’re catching up and it was a long ass text message, but it was basically me explaining why I haven’t seen him around lately (since I’m usually holed up at work when I’m on campus)

4. Song you listened to: “Turning Page” by Sleeping At Last. It’s a favourite of mine!

5. Time you cried: Oh jeez... Uh, last month? March has been pretty stressful, and April will make me want to rip my hair out...

6. Dated someone twice: I almost did! But no, never actually dated the same guy twice.

7. Kissed someone and regretted it: Its hard enough to get me to kiss someone, let alone do it and regret it.

8. Been cheated on: I have. He was my first and only heartbreak (so far)

9. Lost someone special: Hmm... I think my best answer here is “yes”.

10. Been depressed: I mean, Im usually a pretty happy person, but everyone has their ups and downs. I cant say Ive been clinically depressed, but I have had a very dark part in my life, and I feel like another one is coming.

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: HAHAHA uh... no... I mean, that totally wasn’t me...

— Fave colours

12. purple!!

13. blue, like, a royal blue, yknow?

14. pink

— in the last year have you…

15. Made new friends: I have, fortunately!!

16. Fallen out of love: “I need to be in love for that to happen” god Erin, same

17. Laughed until you cried: Those are some of the best moments. I’m a loud laugher, and it happens like, once a week probably.

18. Found out someone was talking about you: I don’t do anything special enough to be talked about

19. Met someone who changed you: I feel like every person I’ve ever met has influenced me in some way or the other, so yes.

20. Found out who your friends are: Oh man, I certainly have. Fortunately, I have that cliche best friend story where I’ve literally known her since SK, went to the same elementary school, high school, and university together... And she lived around the corner from me when I still lived in my hometown.

21. Kissed someone on your facebook friends list: Well, considering my one ex is my friend there, I have to say yes.

— General

22. How many of your facebook friends do you know irl: Every single one. Although I’m never on facebook so don’t ever add me; itll take a month to hear back from me.

23. Do you have any pets: I have two cats! Well, one lives with me, and the other is at my parent’s place. But Perriwinkle is with me, my precious kitty, and shes all I need!

24. Do you want to change your name: Hmm... I do quite like my birth name, and I adore my last name, but my middle name... Im not super fond of “Marie”.

25. What did you do for your last birthday: hahahaha uh, well, Id been working at my new job for about a week at that time, so I was working on my 19th birthday.

26. What time did you wake up today: 11:35am

27. What were you doing at midnight last night: I was working on The Power of Faiths upcoming update! ;)

28. What is something you can’t wait for: to be done university... As much as it’s a cool experience and all, all the stress it brings is gonna kill me prematurely.

30. What are you listening to right now: “I Get To Love You” by Ruelle

31. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: I work with a guy named Tom. He’s a music major, he plays piano and is overall a super cool dude

32. Something that’s getting on your nerves: when people I call for my job pick up the phone on a Sunday and bitch at me that I’m calling on “the day of rest”. Like?? Bitch, you did not have to pick up the phone. You saw the caller ID, just, let it go to voicemail?????????

33. Most visited website: It’s a toss-up between tumblr and ao3

34. Hair colour: brown, like, chocolate brown I guess

35. Long or short hair: It’s long for some people’s standards (it comes to between my shoulder blades) but still pretty short for me. I’m used to my hair reaching the small of my back.

36. Do you have a crush on someone: Oh hell no, aint nobody got time for that

37. What do you like about yourself: Uh... You guys wouldn’t like my answer.

38. Want any piercings: I seriously thought about a tongue piercing, but idk.

39. Blood type: You’d think, from the amount of blood Ive had taken for allergy tests and the like that I’d know. But nope, I have no idea.

40. Nicknames: Sam, Sammy, Samserban, Pretties, Samuel.

41. Relationship status: Single

42. Sign: Gemini!

43. Pronouns: she/her

44. Fave tv show: Voltron

45. Tattoos: I’m looking into tattoo parlors to get my first tattoo over the summer. I’m gonna get a bunch of flowers on my back, over my heart, for my grandma <3

46. Right or left handed: Right

47: Ever had surgery: Nope! Worst I’ve had are x-rays

48. Piercings: I do have my ears pierced, just once.

49. Sport: Hahahaaaa not anymore, I’m lazy af. But I used to figure skate competitively, row competitively, and ride horses.

50. Vacation: I hardly ever travel. Ive been down to Florida twice, and been to England and Scotland around this time two years ago with my two best friends.

51. Trainers: ...no? Again, I’m lazy af.

— More general

52. Eating: I dont eat as often as I should.

53. Drinking: Coca-Cola. Or coffee. Not sure which I’m gonna get yet.

54. I’m about to watch: I mean, I should be working on papers or something... Or even writing... But I just finished watching Fullmetal Alchemist Brotherhood the other day and I loved it!!!

55. Waiting for: my English prof to give me my marks back for a paper I wrote.

56. Want: a lot of money so I don’t have to work as much as I do to live in my bachelor’s apartment with my cat.

57. Get married: Maybe..... It depends on if I ever find the right person. But if I dont, I am more than happy to be alone.

58. Career: I really reeeaaally want to get into a writing/editing career. I want to one day work for a firm to work one on one with authors to help them edit and publish novels!

— Which is better

59. Hugs or kisses: Hugs!

60. Lips or eyes: Oooh, eyes man!

61. Shorter or taller: Taller...

62. Older or younger: Older

63. Nice arms or stomach: Ooooh... arms...

64. Hookup or relationships: Definitely relationships, but I’m terrible at keeping them,,

65. Troublemaker or hesitant: Oh gosh, I mean, Im definitely more of a trouble maker... But like, a cautious one.

— Have you ever

66. Kissed a stranger: Oh hell no

67. Drank hard liquor: Im Canadian... Yes

68.Turned someone down: Haha, I sure have! I got asked out by two different guys on the same day before.

69. Sex on first date: Oh god no

70: Broken someone’s heart: Probably.....

71. Had your heart broken: I most certainly have!

72. Been arrested: Fortunately, not.

73. Cried when someone died: Yes. But, only once.

74. Fallen for a friend: I have no idea what this means???

— Do you believe in

75. Yourself: hahaha uh... No???????

76. Miracles: Id like to??

77. Love at first sight: I do, but not for myself.

78. Santa Claus: Nope

79. Angels: Oh god no

— Misc

80. Eye colour:  like, a warm brown colour?

81. Best friends name: Kaylee!

82. Favourite movie: I love too many movies... But the ones that come to mind are Spirit: Stallion of the Cimerran, Stardust, The Swan Princess, and Toy Story!!!

83. Favourite actor: There are days I can barely remember my coworkers names, and I see them for like, 15 hours a week. Let alone someone I’ve never met???

84. Favourite cartoon: It’s Voltron ;)

85. Favourite teacher’s name: I dont really consider myself to have “favourite” profs. But I am fond of a few that I’ve had!

I’m gonna tag @forsakenangel88, @mardimari, @dumb-birdd, and any of my followers who want to do this! Just tag me, I’d love to see your answers <3

[angelmyg]

RULES: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 92 truths about you; at the end choose people to be tagged

I was tagged by @rosegoldksj thank u so much bbygrl 

last

1. drink - pepsi max 2. phone call - my friend marit 3. text message - “a lot” 4. song you listened to - the devil’s tears - angus & julia stone 5. time you cried - almost today but last time was probably sometime last week

ever

6. dated someone twice - nah 7. kissed someone and regretted it - yes 8. been cheated on - yes 9. lost someone special - yes 10. been depressed - yes 11. gotten drunk and thrown up - yes

fave colours

12. dark green 13. dark royal blue 14. dark red

in the last year have you…

15. made new friends - yesss 16. fallen out of love - yes 17. laughed until you cried - yes 18. found out someone was talking about you - yep 19. met someone who changed you - yes 20. found out who your friends are - yep 21. kissed someone on your facebook friends list - nah thank god i never use it so i only have old people as friends there

general

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know irl - not many ha ha ha 23. do you have any pets - not anymore, but we used to have horses, a couple hundred rabbits, twenty cats so  24. do you want to change your name - it be nice 25. what did you do for your last birthday - i had like twenty shot at the “pre-party” and spent two hours of dying and then returned partying it was actually so much fun 26. what time did you wake up today - like 7:55 my alarm didnt work 27. what were you doing at midnight last night - sleeping 28. what is something you cant wait for - to finish high school and going out to the real world 30. what are you listening to right now - watching the walking dead s2 31. have you ever talked to a person named tom - yess

32. something that’s getting on your nerves - people making their life complicated when it doesnt have to be

33. most visited website - tumblr and shopping websites

34. hair colour - dark brown but im thinking of coloring it back to blonde 35. long or short hair - my hair used to go down to my butt but i cut it shoulder short 36. do you have a crush on someone - nah 37. what do you like about yourself - my fingers and figure 38. want any piercings? - i would love to but im allergic to anything in my ears so i cant, and i want tongue piercing but my mom would probably kill me 39. blood type - i don’t know i would love to know 40. nicknames - i dont have one ;( 41. relationship status - single as a pringle ready to mingle 42. zodiac - aquarius 43. pronouns - she/her 44. fave tv shows - the walking dead, grey’s anatomy & criminal minds 45. tattoos - i dont have any but i have many planned 46. right or left handed - right 47. ever had surgery - nah 48. piercings - none 49. sport - hell nah 50. vacation - ive been to greece, gran canaria, denmark, netherlands, germany, sweden and finland hahaha 51. trainers - no

more general

52. eating - spring rolls !! 53. drinking - pepsi max 54. i’m about to watch - the walking dead 55. waiting for - the clock to turn to 8 so i can make jelly shots 56. want - everything to be ok 57. get married - after having law-class man i dont know. like if i have 10 million kr and my partner has none + 2 million in loan, he’ll get 7 million while ill get 3 million. i dont think its worth to lose over half of your money when you can easily just be a couple 58. career - im thinking of taking a master in psychology, and then later work as a specialist in kids and teens. and then maybe work in school to prevent bullying or something

which is better

59. hugs or kisses - small attacks of kisses all around your face pls 60. lips or eyes - lips 61. shorter or taller - taller 62. older or younger - older 63. nice arms or stomach - nice arms but really it doesnt matter 64. hookup or relationship - relationships i hate playing games

65. troublemaker or hesitant - troublemaker hehe

have you ever

66. kissed a stranger - yes 67. drank hard liquor - ye 68. lost glasses - yess 69. turned someone down - yes 70. sex on first date - nah 71. broken someone’s heart - no 72. had your heart broken - yep 73. been arrested - nah 74. cried when someone died - no 75. fallen for a friend - yes.....

do you believe in

76. yourself - bob bob 77. miracles - maybe? 78. love at first sight - definitly 79. santa claus - no 80. kiss on a first date - yeah why not 81. angels - kekek idk

other

82. best friend’s name - eila 83. eye colour - a mix of green and blue 84. fave movie - i hate movies in general 85. fave actor - steven yeun i think

Random

86. i turn 18 this sunday

87. my favorite animal is polar bears 

88. i have the worlds prettiest iphone case ngl

89. i love the mbti theory and i swear my life on it

90. everybody thought i was a lazy piece of shit but when i got a job i worked 22 days of one month and everybody was shocked and i showed em !!! look at me now bitches !!

91. i love sad songs not because im sad but because they are so beautifully made and they have so much emotions in them

92. i love trains idkw i just luv them with all my heart

i’ll tag my new mutuals; @honeyyjeon @stigmayoongi @callmeillegrl @rosefriend @forestyoongs @bloomingsuga  <3

[twerkhammett]

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Holy fuck, good thing I have a long train ride😂1. Full nameAngelica DeLillo2. Age213. 3 fearsFailure, getting snatched up one of these nights im on the train alone, losing the people i care about4. 3 things I loveNik, food, and our cat5. 4 turn onsBiting, slapping (ass face and tits), being tied up or held down, and when he gets that mean look on his face and i know hes gonna be really rough with me ugh6. 4 turn offsI have had these experiences with almost every person I've been with except Nik..bad hygiene, being rushed (you cum yet?), bad oral and when i tell them what would feel good they dont listen..and worst of all sex that feels half assed. They just want to cum real quick, theres no passion or effort, they don't care if they please you at all. Fucking horrible..7. My best friendIn cali my best friend here besides Nik is Ashley, and I get to live with them both its awesome! In Florida I cant choose one cuz ive known them all forever and love those dudes..Mels, Denzel, Brauston, and Alicia8. Sexual orientationBisexual9. My best first dateWith Nikolas obviously 😉10. How tall i am5'611. What do I missMy friends and family back home12: What time were I born3:55pm13: Favourite colorGreen14: Do I have a crushOn my boyfriend😂15: Favourite quoteIdk man16: Favourite placeHard to choose one, maybe my bed😂17: Favourite foodI hate favorites..pizza and wings18: Do I use sarcasmNever :)19: What am I listening to right nowSlayer 20: First thing I notice in new personIf they're fuckin rude or not21: Shoe size822: Eye colorBrown23: Hair colorLight brownish? Auburn?24: Favourite style of clothingBlack25: Ever done a prank call?Yup27: Meaning behind my URLKirk twerkin28: Favourite movieKung Fury29: Favourite songCant choose30: Favourite bandStill cant choose my dude31: How I feel right nowMeh32: Someone I loveNik33: My current relationship statusIn love af its disgusting34: My relationship with my parentsPretty good these days35: Favourite holidayHalloween36: Tattoos and piercing i haveNips, lips, and ears37: Tattoos and piercing i wantA lot, whenever i get the money..38: The reason I joined TumblrMels made me join lol39: Do I and my last ex hate each other?I don't think he hates me, but i hate his bitch ass..40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?I used to get them from Nik but we live together so now he can just tell me lol41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted?This morning42: When did I last hold hands?Yesterday43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?15mins, its caffeinating myself that can take time44: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days?Noooope45: Where am I right now?On BART46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me?Nik, been a while since thats happened tho47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?Loud48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad?Nope49: Am I excited for anything?For class to be over so i can relax lol...haven't even got there yet50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?Nik, Denzel, Brauston51: How often do I wear a fake smile?At work lmao52: When was the last time I hugged someone?Does my cat count? An hour ago lol53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?This would never happen, but I would go to jail if it did lol54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not?Not that i know of?55: What is something I disliked about today?Nik had to work early and I've been sexually frustrated af56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?James57: What do I think about most?Nik and food are tied i think58: What’s my strangest talent?Idk59: Do I have any strange phobias?Eh not really60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?Behind61: What was the last lie I told?Not sure, probably at work lol62: Do I perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online?On the phone63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?Aliens yeah64: Do I believe in magic?Nah65: Do I believe in luck?Not really66: What’s the weather like right now?64 and clear skys67: What was the last book I’ve read?Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas68: Do I like the smell of gasoline?Yesss69: Do I have any nicknames?Besides the ones Nik has for me no70: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had?Cut my knee open71: Do I spend money or save it?That shits gone pretty fast dont get to spend it on anything fun tho haha72: Can I touch my nose with a tounge?Nah73: Is there anything pink in 10 feets from me?My backpack has some pink on it74: Favourite animal?My cat😂75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM?Fucking76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is?Trump77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it?Nightcrawler78: How can you win my heart?Be Nikolas or James Hetfield79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone?Nothing80: What is my favorite word?Fuck81: My top 5 blogs on tumblrIdk man i like a lot of yall82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say?Someone please assasinate the orange one83: Do I have any relatives in jail?Not that i know of84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power?Invisibility or time travel85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on?Not sure86: What is my current desktop picture?Some nature pic bc i havent change it87: Had sex?On a daily basis my dude88: Bought condoms?Yes89: Gotten pregnant?No90: Failed a class?Yup91: Kissed a boy?Yup92: Kissed a girl?Yep93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain?Yes, Nik94: Had job?Sadly95: Left the house without my wallet?Fucking yes!!!96: Bullied someone on the internet?No lol97: Had sex in public?A few days ago lmao98: Played on a sports team?Yep99: Smoked weed?This is where my extra money goes..sigh100: Did drugs?Nothing crazy but yeah101: Smoked cigarettes?Yes102: Drank alcohol?Yeah103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan?Noo104: Been overweight?Nope105: Been underweight?Nope106: Been to a wedding?Yep107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight?Yes lol108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight?Yeah109: Been outside my home country?Not yet, but I plan on it110: Gotten my heart broken?Yeah couple years ago111: Been to a professional sports game?Yep112: Broken a bone?My finger lol113: Cut myself?A while ago114: Been to prom?Nope115: Been in airplane?Yes116: Fly by helicopter?No but I want to!!117: What concerts have I been to?Megadeth, Metallica, Exodus, Testament, Carcass, Slayer, Midnight, Kreator, Obituary, Children of Bodom, Rammstein, and a few more but those were the best ones118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex?Quite a few times119: Learned another language?Some German and some ASL120: Wore make up?I wear mascara121: Lost my virginity before I was 18?Yeah122: Had oral sex?Yupppppp123: Dyed my hair?Yes124: Voted in a presidential election?Yep!125: Rode in an ambulance?Nope126: Had a surgery?No127: Met someone famous?Nope128: Stalked someone on a social network?A while ago hahah129: Peed outside?Yep130: Been fishing?Yes131: Helped with charity?I donate to greenpeace monthly132: Been rejected by a crush?Sorta133: Broken a mirror?Im sure I have, I def had a big ass mirror fall on my fuckin head one time tho!134: What do I want for birthday?Some dick😂135: How many kids do I want and what will be their names?2 max, no idea about names, havent thought about it much136: Was I named after anyone?No137: Do I like my handwriting?Its a bit sloppy but yeah138: What was my favourite toy as a child?Barbies lol139: Favourite Tv Show?DBZ😂140: Where do I want to live when older?The forest, somewhere in Colorado maybe141: Play any musical instrument?Not well lol142: One of my scars, how did I get it?Accidentally stabbed myself at work143: Favourite pizza toping?Mushrooms144: Am I afraid of the dark?No, I need it to sleep145: Am I afraid of heights?A bit146: Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad?Yes lmao, many times by my dad usually147: Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end?Did you mean my last relationship😂😂148: What I’m really bad atProcrastination149: What my greatest achievments areGetting the fuck out of fl, some of my artwork, learning to cope with my depression150: The meanest thing somebody has ever said to meProb something my ex said lol151: What I’d do if I won in a lotteryQuit my job, build a house, and open a cave bar (me and Ashley were just talkin about that)152: What do I like about myselfWell i guess i never stop trying even tho i fuck up a lot hahah153: My closest Tumblr friend@stalkhome-sindrone probably😁154: Something I fantasise aboutA stable income...Thanks for that big ass ask my anonymous dude!!😂To the rest of my followers, sorry for the long post and some of the tmi questions😊

[mirioho]

The Last Tag

I was tagged by the wonderful and lovely @gentlejongin 💕 💕thank you bby sorry its incredibly late jsjfhsjfsjk

drink: water phone call: mom text message: “you’re welcome youre not crazy 👍 👍 👍 ” song you listened to: closer from naruto shippuden time you cried: in the morning i think fssfjhsjghksjg

HAVE YOU EVER

dated someone twice: no kissed someone and regretted it: no been cheated on: no lost someone special: yes been depressed: yes gotten drunk and thrown up: no

3 FAVOURITE COLORS

turquoise, lavender, crimson

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU

made new friends: yes fallen out of love: no  laughed until you cried: Im pretty sure i have yeah found out someone was talking about you: like bad stuff? because if thats it then no met someone who changed you: yes found out who your friends are: yep kissed someone on your facebook list: nope

ABOUT

how many facebook friends do you know in real life: a good portion of them do you have any pets: three dogs, one fish do you want to change your name: i wouldn’t know what to change it to what did you do for your last birthday: i actually don’t remember lmaooo what were you doing at midnight last night: changing my desktop theme on tumblr i think name something you can’t wait for: when i sleep tonight when was the last time you saw your mom: a couple of hours ago what are you listening to right now: closer from naruto shippuden dhjhsjfhjf i have it on repeat have you ever talked to a person named tom: i’ve met a tomas, also called tommy?? something that is getting on your nerves: stress most visited website: tumblr and youtube hair color: black brown idk very very dark long or short hair: longer than before but not that long i think do you have a crush on someone: does baekhyun count??? jksjfsjfsjgh what do you like about yourself: i like that i draw, and that ive been drawing ever since i was a child, i admire my own dedication to that lol blood type: i have no idea nickname: Jaz or J relationship status: single zodiac: Virgo pronouns: she/her favourite tv show: friends tattoos: i dont have any but i think id want one or a few small ones right or left handed: right surgery: i had a surgery last year to remove this lump from my arm and then another one when i was younger for my left eye

FAVORITES

sport: volleyball pair of shoes: my black shoes idk what brand they are food: mashed potatoes they are delicious drink: water/hot chocolate or coffee i’m about to: eat another small dark chocolate while i do more tags i never did hshfhsfhsjghj

FUTURE

waiting for: the day im doing what makes me happy want: happiness get married: sure why not career: psychologist/therapist

WHICH IS BETTER

hugs or kisses: hugs but also depends what type of kisses lips or eyes: eyes shorter or taller: taller older or younger: older nice arms or nice stomach: nice tummy hook up or relationship: relationship troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant but maybe a mix idk

HAVE YOU EVER

kissed a stranger: no drank hard liquor: no lost glasses/contact lenses: no turned someone down: yes sex on the first date: no broken someone’s heart: i dont think so? had your heart broken: no been arrested: no fallen for a friend: no cried when someone died: yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

yourself: not really lol miracles: for the most part??? love at first sight: no santa claus:  no kiss on the first date: people can do what they want

I tag @flxwercafe @baek-love @sarcasticjuiceboxes @nut4zyx @chenbox @isotopamine and @beenthroughenthusiast

[xxepicgamerwaffle420xx]

Tag the last

I was tagged by @lovebeingsoexxtrajisoo thank you sweetie!!!!!!!!!

drink: wine {´◕ ◡ ◕｀}

phone call: my guy friend -_-

text message: "apsiramink, tu girtas eik miegot idk” which means "chill, go to sleep you’re drunk idk"

song you listened: SMNM - Million ft. Compulsive

time you cried: I don’t cry  (¬_¬)

HAVE YOU EVER

Dated someone twice: nein

kissed someone and regretted it: yes ;-;

been cheated on: that requires having a s/o so nah man

lost someone special: yep

been depressed: yes

gotten drunk and thrown up: i actually can drink shit loads until I puke, tho it happened like 1 time as I never puke, Im a hardcore drinker like thatヽ(｡･ω･｡)ﾉ

3 FAVOURITE COLORS

Purple, black and red

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU

made new friends: yes

fallen out of love: yes

laughed until you cried: yes

found out someone was talking about you: ppl talk shit abt me all the time and yeh I know

met someone who changed you: uuhm maybe a bit?

found out who your friends are: yes

kissed someone on your facebook list: yes

ABOUT

how many facebook friends do you know in real life: i don’t accept ppl unless I know them (at least have talked to them or saw them in rlf)

do you have any pets: yes, a cat and a doggo (◕‿◕✿)

do you want to change your name: nah, i think its pretty okay for an uncooked noodle like me 乁༼☯‿☯✿༽ㄏ

what did you do for your last birthday: got drunk lmaoooo

what were you doing at midnight last night: yesterday was actually new years so i was looking at the fireworks with my bestie

name something you can’t wait for: the day when I’ll figure out what i want to do with my life

when was the last time you saw your mom: today like an hour ago

what are you listening to right now: joji - i don’t wanna waste my time

have you ever talked to a person named tom: i got 2 classmates with that name

something that is getting on your nerves: people, wet things that shouldn’t be wet.

most visited website: youtube, facebook and spotify

hair color: purple/silver/pinkish tho natural hair color is light blonde

long or short hair: long

do you have a crush on someone: do youtubers or idols count?

what do you like about yourself: I got an okay sense of humor I’m very loyal and brutally honest.

blood type: A

nickname: Monii, Waffle, Jinx

relationship status: single and ready to mingle  (single pringle basically)

zodiac: cancer

pronouns: she/her

favourite tv show: parks and recreations, rick and morty, regular show.

tattoos: none tho I’d like to have sum.

right or left handed: right

surgery: none (i fukken wish)

FAVORITES

sport: volleyball

pair of shoes: converse just a tad bit above the ankle

food: lasagna

drink: tea

i’m about to: play some video games boii

♥‿♥ 

FUTURE

waiting for: that someone who will put up with my shit (´｡✪ω✪｡｀)

want: lots of things, wouldn’t be able to list them all.

get married: yesssssss

career: haven’t decided yet T-T

WHICH IS BETTER

hugs or kisses: HUGS

lips or eyes: eyes

shorter or taller: if between a boy then taller if a girl then idk, i’m usually the tall friend I like girls who are taller than me tho.

older or younger: older

nice arms or nice stomach: I really dont give a ff..flower

hook up or relationship: relationsheep

troublemaker or hesitant: why not both

(ʃƪ¬‿¬)

HAVE YOU EVER

kissed a stranger: nah

drank hard liquor: ofc

lost glasses/contact lenses: dont wear em

turned someone down: yes

sex on the first date: nein

broken someone’s heart: i think so?

had your heart broken: yes

been arrested: nah, I’ve ran from cops a couple of times tho

fallen for a friend: meeeeh, kinda ?

cried when someone died: I don’t rememer, haven’t experienced so much losses worth of crying

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

yourself: naaaah

miracles: nein

love at first sight: yes

santa claus: lol he’s my uncle

kiss on the first date: depends if I like the person.

I tag @exo-bts-fanfics-imagines @xiubaek13 ​ ; @oh-beyond and @jungk0oksthighs just bc I thnk these blogs are amazing (and you don’t have to do this if u dont want to, i’ll still luv yall) ٩(｡•ω•｡)و Fighting!

Also, ive had some problems uploading this post. the questions were answered on jan 1st, though im finally uploading this on jan 3rd. Im sorry ;-;

[citruseungkwan]

92 questions

hi i was tagged by @strawberryboo welcome to the fruityseungkwan fam finally !! im so excited to tag this new url omg! this is kinda long but for those of my followers who only know me from ao3, maybe this will give you some introduction about me? and if you’re not from ao3, then these are just some really interesting and personal questions that might be fun to answer. If you complete the tag, tag me back so I can read yours too! 

rules: answer these 92 statements and tag 10 people! 

THE LAST (1-5):

drink: im actually drinking water, no one make a joke here phone call: stubhub company text: brother song you listened to: if by R5 time you cried: today i teared up a little bc i watched a family reuniting on tv and it was too sweet ; ; 

HAVE YOU (6-11):

dated someone twice: unfortunately !! it was a mess !  kissed someone and regretted it: nah  lost someone special: yes been depressed: no gotten drunk and thrown up: no my stomach is so strong from all the eating

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS (12-14):

black, pink, purple 

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU (15-21):

made new friends: yeah ! so many ! !  fallen out of love: no way laughed until you cried: everyday found out someone was talking about you: yea and i punched them in the shoulder blade, its a good story met someone who changed you: so many new friends! found out who your friends are: actually yea ? goodbye scammers kissed someone on your facebook list: my bf is on my facebook so....  how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: prob like 80%? do you have any pets: my cat is actually my best friend and a basset hound dog do you want to change your name: nah but i wish people could start pronouncing it right  what did you do for your last birthday: i went to eat fried chicken and then karaoke and then we stayed into the park until 4am, it was so fun what time did you wake up: 1pm what were you doing at midnight last night: studying  name something you can’t wait for: wheres my code geass season 3 when was the last time you saw your mom: right now  what’s one thing you wish you could change in your life: i just want to hold my best friends hand for like an hour and not have them live in another country what are you listening to right now: a podcast from supermega have you ever talked to a person named tom: BOO THOMAS SEUNGKWAN most visited website: i would say youtube ?

LOST QUESTIONS (35-64):

moles: I had some moles but i cut them off so goodbye marks: everytime i got to korea i get allergy rash all over my arms and i can still see some :(  childhood dream: dentist because i liked cleaning ?  hair color: yellow brown long hair or short: long but not long enough to reach my ass which was the goal do you have a crush on someone: im in love with my best friend, like he’s my MY I level of soulmate what do you like about yourself: everything, like im trying to say that to convince myself  piercings: ears blood type: B nickname: nico, nini, didi, italian stallion  relationship status: soulmating  zodiac: virgo pronouns: just reffer to me as nicola  favorite tv show: code geass / unsolved mysteries tattoos: none but i want one on the back of my neck (like hidden under hair)  right or left hand: right  surgery: wisdom teeth, jawbone, plastic  hair dyed in a different color: ive done so many like red, black, blonde, grey, purple sport: dance vacation: california makes me more relaxed than any other place pair of trainers: this means shoes? sneakers? like 5? 

MORE GENERAL (57-73):

eating: my dinner was cheeseburger drinking: water  i’m about to: grab my cat and squeeze it  waiting for: attention get married: fine  career: just being happy

WHICH IS BETTER (65-73):

hugs or kisses: cheek kiss please lips or eyes: lips are more important because if u dont got a top lip im scared ! shorter or taller: if its about a date, then i like taller so i can wrap my arms around your neck and hand on like a little koala  older or younger: seungkwan is the only younger boy who i’d be into nice arms or nice stomach: into all of it actually sensitive or loud: must be LOUD because i am LOUD hook up or relationship:  both  troublemaker or hesitant: those arent even opposites like im confused but troublemaker? 

HAVE YOU EVER (74-83):

kissed a stranger: actually yea i love to kiss more than anything in the word, it’s an italian thing drank hard liquor: yes  lost glasses/contact lenses: dont use turned someone down: yes sex in the first date: no broken someone’s heart: yes had your heart broken: no been arrested: no cried when someone died: yes fallen for a friend: yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN (84-89):

yourself: yea sure miracles: yes love at first sight: yes because literally happened to me but before that, no way santa claus: i wish tho kiss on the first date: only if they’re hot angels: sure

OTHER (90-92):

favorite thing to do when you’re bored: listen to music, watch concert dvds, watch youtube, writing  do you wear socks to sleep: I would rather actually die  favorite movies: coyote ugly, lion king, aladdin, scream, saw

tagging : literally this is so long so don’t do it if you don’t want to. i’m gonna tag : @tzuzuya @wooziology @thatssosvt @mvpgyu @booseungkuan @jisoostar @cutestjeongyeon @scoup-d-etat @supersuperroa @spasticstars / / if you end up doing it, please tag me too so i can see your answers too! 

[bluebeetle]

WAS TAGGED BY: @bakusuki​ :0

TAGGING: im not tagging 20 lol but: @transgirlagenttexas​ @topazinc​ @kujohat​ @kidnap​ @skybean​ @paarsetulpen​ @ceili88​ @lizardgays​ @luruar​ @marquise-spinneret​ @s-fellows-art​ 

yall dont have to do it tho if you dont want. 

RULES: ANSWER THESE 85 STATEMENTS AND TAG 20 PEOPLE

THE LAST

1. DRINK: Orange juice cuz we havent gotten groceries in awhile and ive consumed all like 5 bottles of apple juice so its all thats left ghfhghf 2. PHONE CALL: my grandma  3. TEXT MESSAGE: My coworker  4. SONG YOU LISTENED TO: technically that new taylor swift song but that was to mock the music video, for real listening was Starboy by the Weeknd.  5. TIME YOU CRIED: possibly last night i dont remember. recently. 6. DATED SOMEONE TWICE: >implying i date. (no) 7. KISSED SOMEONE AND REGRETTED IT: nope 8. BEEN CHEATED ON: no 9. LOST SOMEONE SPECIAL: lol yeah  10. BEEN DEPRESSED: yes. today. 11. GOTTEN DRUNK AND THROWN UP: no i avoid alcohol bc anxiety of getting addicted lmao

3 FAVOURITE COLOURS

12. pale green 13. pale pink. 14. burgundy 

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU

15. MADE NEW FRIENDS: probably??? yeah i think so! some cool people at work and mutuals on here. not close friends or anything but its a start. 16. FALLEN OUT OF LOVE: nah son 17. LAUGHED UNTIL YOU CRIED: yeah doesnt help i cry easily. 18. FOUND OUT SOMEONE WAS TALKING ABOUT YOU: my friend’s GF trashtalks me at work. shes coworkers with my older brother AND my mother :) 19. MET SOMEONE WHO CHANGED YOU: id like to think so! 20. FOUND OUT WHO YOUR FRIENDS ARE: to an extent yeah.....i guess. 21. KISSED SOMEONE ON YOUR FACEBOOK LIST: nah

GENERAL

22. HOW MANY OF YOUR FACEBOOK FRIENDS DO YOU KNOW IN REAL LIFE: all but one! theyre mostly friends, school friends, family, or friends from conventions except Connor who ive known for 7 years but never met irl yet. i send him a letter when i can tho!! 23. DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS: ive got two cats, maddy and maya, and id die for em 24. DO YOU WANT TO CHANGE YOUR NAME: sometimes. people spell it wrong all the time, even my own dad does tht,  and its associated with a celeberity and a Type of Cliche basically lol. i was almost named Zoe its a cute name. 25. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOUR LAST BIRTHDAY: study for university exams lol. went out for dinner with family prior to that. my friend got me pokemon black and black 2 tho so dont worry.  26. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP: 10 or 11? i couldnt sleep last night. 27. WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT MIDNIGHT LAST NIGHT: trying to sleep, failing, and reading JJBA fanfics. 28. NAME SOMETHING YOU CAN’T WAIT FOR: for my shirts i ordered online to finally come in this week!!!! or for the new pokemon game 29. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR MOM: a half hour ago when she went o bed 31. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW:  coco jambo - mr president, and hold onto your heart - Man Man (kinda going back and forth as each ends ghghf) 32. HAVE YOU EVER TALKED TO A PERSON NAMED TOM: ummmmm probably but i dont remember. 33. SOMETHING THAT IS GETTING ON YOUR NERVES: why ive been so Anxious and shit lately, family needing to be LOUD all the time. 34. MOST VISITED WEBSITE: tumblr, youtube, pokefarm. 35. HAIR COLOUR: medium brown 36. LONG OR SHORT HAIR: long? it goes passed my shoulders but i need to get it cut.  37. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH ON SOMEONE:  maybe?? still trying to figure some shit out. 38. WHAT DO YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF: my eyes a cute girl liked them once, my face in general in good photos lol, my hips, my hair, my moles 39. PIERCINGS: none im awful with pain. 40. BLOOD TYPE: no idea. i do blood tests for a chronic illness i have but never bothered to ask 41. NICKNAME: britt 42. RELATIONSHIP STATUS: single. 43. ZODIAC: ares 44. PRONOUNS: she/her, they/them 45. FAVOURITE TV SHOW: bnha, justice league cartoon, daredevil if that counts 46. TATTOOS: none yet 47. RIGHT OR LEFT HANDED: right. 48. SURGERY: dental surgery but thats it.  50. SPORT: not a sport person. best i can do is sprinting and even then :// 51. VACATION: id love to return to london, paris, and rome or go to japan!!! 52. PAIR OF TRAINERS: i assume something to do with shoes um... idk i have a pair of pink ones but i mostly wear the red ones i hve. i usually get bright colours so people can find me. 

MORE GENERAL

53. EATING: yogurt 54. DRINKING: nothing 55. I’M ABOUT TO: go to bed 56. WAITING FOR: jjba part 5 to be announced, school to start, work hours to start 57. WANT: to be able to sleep at night thanks... to do well in school 58. GET MARRIED: at some point, thatd be nice yeah..... 59. CAREER: something in the science field, with chemistry or biology. 60. HUGS OR KISSES: both r good but im more of a hug person. Its Warm. 61. LIPS OR EYES: hmmmm eyes theyre pretty and cute. fun to draw. 62. SHORTER OR TALLER: i dont rly care tbh 63. OLDER OR YOUNGER: prefer close to my age but probably a lil younger bc ill feel less intimidated lol (but like, not a minor) 64. NICE ARMS OR NICE STOMACH: TUMMIES!!!!!! 65. HOOK UP OR RELATIONSHIP: relationship. 66. TROUBLEMAKER OR HESITANT: hesitant. blame anxiety. sometimes impulsive tho.

HAVE YOU EVER:

67. KISSED A STRANGER: no. 68. DRANK HARD LIQUOR: no.. 69. LOST GLASSES/CONTACT LENSES: oh god yes.  70. TURNED SOMEONE DOWN: kinda..... in a bad way.  71. SEX ON THE FIRST DATE: no. 72. BROKEN SOMEONE’S HEART: maybe? 73. HAD YOUR HEART BROKEN: yeah.

74. BEEN ARRESTED: no. 75. CRIED WHEN SOMEONE DIED: yes, recently. 76. FALLEN FOR A FRIEND: yeah. 

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

77. YOURSELF: jguhghhg maybe. sometimes.  78. MIRACLES: yes 79. LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT: no. infatuation maybe, but real love takes time. 80. SANTA CLAUS: im not 8.

81. KISS ON THE FIRST DATE: eh each to their own. i dont care??? sure i guess.

82. ANGELS: no.

OTHER:

84. EYE COLOUR: green 85. FAVOURITE MOVIE: how to train your dragon, definitely.

[academicsapphic]

92 Question Tag

Tagged by @annikki-studies​ thanks a bunch!

LAST:

Drink: always water

Phone call: the pharmacy

Text message: “everyone i know just leaves after sleeping together unless they’re like dating” - me to a GC

Song you listened to: Crushed Little Stars - Mitski

Time you cried: i don’t even remember which frightens me cause i normally cry every five seconds

HAVE YOU:

6. Dated someone twice: i haven’t even dated someone once 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: i haven’t even kissed someone once 8. Been cheated on: see #6 9. Lost someone special: i don’t feel like i have?  10. Been depressed: it’s my way of life 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: okay so i did drink a punch at my friend’s party and i didn’t get drunk but my body completely rejected it cause i drank half a cup really slowly with water, was completely lucid, and ten minutes later started vomiting. that’s enough liquor for me i shall stick with beer. and im still salty cause i was like i wanna see what its like to be tipsy i wanna let loose and have fun! and my body was like “how about no fun and only puke”. all that to say: yes and no??? DON’T DRINK LIQUOR MIXED WITH JUICE IT’S A DISASTER WAITING TO HAPPEN EITHER DO SHOTS OR DRINK BEER OR DRINK NOTHING

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS: 12-14: purple, certain blues, gray

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU: 15. Made new friends: omg so many. ive made shitty ones then i made my actual ones. all you do in college is make friends. 16. Fallen out of love: havent been in it. ive fallen out of infatuation though 17. Laughed until you cried: of course, all the time, my friends are ridiculous 18. Found out someone was talking about you: yeah that’s always a great feeling 19. Met someone who changed you: i’m sure lots of people i’ve met are responsible for who i am today  20. Found out who your friends are: yes, see #15  21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: see #7 GENERAL: 22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: all of them why would i add strangers 23. Do you have any pets: a dog 24. Do you want to change your name: not really 25. What did you do for your last Birthday: i think we went to dinner 26. What time did you wake up: like 6 something? not being at college means i have a normal sleep schedule and i hate it 27. What were you doing at midnight last night: sleeping i hate summer 28. Name something you can’t wait for: MOVE-IN MOVE-IN MOVE-IN I WANNA GO BACK TO UNI SO BAD 29. When was the last time you saw your mom: about an hour or two ago 30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: so many things i cant even list but also im very grateful for my life so like idk 31. What are you listening to right now: HIMYM 32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: ?? idk 33. Something that is getting on your nerves: summer, registration, sometimes my family 34. Most visited websites: Netflix, YouTube, Tumblr, Amazon, Vandy’s registration site, and MyFitnessPal

LOST QUESTIONS. I JUST PUT IN RANDOM INFO ABOUT ME 35. Mole/s: my arm, my neck, my chin 36. Mark/s: a lot, birthmarks, scars, places ive burned myself 37. Childhood dream: same one i have now, be a professional musician and performer 38. Hair color: dark almost black brown 39. Long or short hair: long, but recently my hair got cut and i actually really like it short too but for the long run, long 40. Do you have a crush on someone: no life is boring and im giving my feelings a break from getting hurt 41. What do you like about yourself: sometimes my music is good and my eyes are a nice color but i hate everything about me lol 42. Piercings: basic ears 43. Blood type: no idea  44. Nickname: Bree 45. Relationship status: single, as i have been for my whole life, as i will be for my whole life 46. Zodiac: Aquarius

47. Pronouns: she/her  48. Favorite TV Show: Fringe/The Office  49. Tattoos: Nope, maybe someday, something small on my wrist or hand, but probably not cause my pain tolerance is -100 50. Right or left hand: left 51. Surgery: nope 52. Hair dyed in different color: ive gotten highlights a couple times 53. Sport: softball from childhood through high school 55. Vacation: going to myrtle beach next week 56. Pair of trainers: what are trainers?  MORE GENERAL: 57. Eating: just made myself dinner (veggie burger with lettuce bun and 100-calorie fries)  58. Drinking: water, obv 59. I’m about to: eat some frozen grapes and do some cardio 61. Waiting for: School to start jesus i wanna go back so bad

62. Want: all my wildest dreams to come true 63. Get married: i like really really wanna spend my life with someone so hopefully that happens someday 64. Career: idk yet. maybe grad school, maybe law school, maybe my music career will take off and ill get to do my passion for a living WHICH IS BETTER 65. Hugs or kisses: i wouldnt know cause no kisses yet 66. Lips or eyes: eyes 67. Shorter or taller: for guys, taller, for girls i dont care cause theyre all so beautiful i shant dare have a preference for their anything 68. Older or younger: older but not by a lot 70. Nice arms or nice stomach: i truly dont care i have neither so how could i judge 71. Sensitive or loud: sensitive i love crying and i wanna have a df who cries too  72. Hook up or relationship: not that i could get either, but relationship 73. Troublemaker or hesitant: troublemaker cause im so hesitant HAVE YOU EVER: 74. Kissed a Stranger: no 75. Drank hard liquor: yes it tastes so bad but i stuck through it to try to get drunk  76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: i literally lost my right contact at the beginning of senior year and spent the rest of highschool wearing just my left one. i’m a mess. i’ve never lost my glasses though *knock on wood* 77. Turned someone down: yes which is amazing 78. Sex on the first date: if im going on a date with someone ive probably already known them for a while since dating strangers terrifies me so sure maybe why not  79. Broken someone’s heart: doubt it 80. Had your heart broken: not truly? like ive never been in love but in an infatuation crush sense? literally all the time. i spent all second semester so heartbroken that i was in physical pain for months at a time over this guy i liked so much who had a girlfriend and was also really annoying so it wasnt even worth it. it took a therapy session to get out of it.

81. Been arrested: no my black ass would probably be killed first 82. Cried when someone died: yes 83. Fallen for a friend: I never fall for friends. that’s so weird to me. when i first meet you i’m either not attracted to you so you’re therefore just my friend, or i’m attracted to you and i can’t just like you as a friend so you’re a crush. but i’ve never been friends with someone i liked, i’ve only liked strangers and people i’ve never talked to cause im pathetic. i could never like one of my friends oh my god. when friends like me, i get so uncomfortable i can hardly look at them. DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 84. Yourself: honestly i have to cause its kind of hard to let down the only person on your team at all times  85. Miracles: kind of, i believe that everything happens for a reason and the universe/gods have a plan so if something miraculous happens it was meant to happen 86. Love at first sight: i believe in first really strong attraction that turns into love 87. Santa Claus: not anymore :’( 88. Kiss on the first date: definitely, even before the first date who cares  OTHER: 90. Current best friend name: don’t really have a single best friend 91. Eye color: brown 92. Favorite movie: Breakfast at Tiffany’s probably

[noxrynne]

im doing my best in school but tbh ive gotten to the point where if i dont meet the grade average the actual school wants me to have in order to accept me ive kind of just accepted that i’ll be kinda fucked and try to push through stuff until i give up

idk a lot of it feels like im being set up for failure pretty often. i have a schedule to check things that meets the req to check x times a week but stuff is being assigned on the inbetween days to be due on the days i check and i jsut dont have the time to do it (or there’s a bunch of new guidelines introduced after the posted assignment by four days and by then i already turned in what i did and i get marked down b/c of the late addendum) i regret taking 4 courses and wish i took 3 or 2 but i couldnt do that since the deal was i take a full course load with this school and make a 2.5 minimum to be accepted to the actual, real school. maybe i shouldnt have cowered out of the arrangement i couldve had where i got to the physical school and have physical classes and live in an apartment. b/c. i think if i did that id be doing a lot better in them. i just freaked out b/c i dont do well alone (i get extremely paranoid/scared and with where my mind was going i didnt want to be alone). online just feels really difficult for me. its hard to keep track of everything. its hard to remember where x, y, or z is ‘cuz they’re all buried under seven different links that are different between the classes. sometimes the textbook fails and crashes and you lose all your progress in terms of it keeping track that you’re reading and doing the dumb 30 question quizzes inside of it. so then it’s like another four hours down the drain.   then it’s like “oh this is an easy assignment” and im struggling witht hose and im like “what the fuck is a hard assignment b/c im gonna fail it” i feel like im either going to barely squeak by with the 2.5 or im gonna fail too many things and not make it and then it’s basically kind of well, either i finish the book i have almost done-ish and i get lucky and get to live my actual childhood dream or i take on multiple minimum wage jobs and just hope for the best or make it as far as i can before i give up i want to say i really hate myself for dropping out so much and barely being able to function so many times but sometimes it feels unfair to my own self since it’s mostly depression/anxiety and not having any resources or help. or i get fucked over on something that’s really important to my own mental health and sense of safety. like UWGB: 0 access to counseling or therapy resources until after the allowed drop-out date. Also there, i got singled out and mocked by a professor and i basically started to cry. Also there, i had a class that ended at midnight and had to walk across an unfamiliar campus at night to try and find my dorm and usually was up walking and looking for it until 2AM while being terrified and paranoid the entire time. Also there, dorms weren’t heated or had A/C so i kept overheating in my room and could barely sleep, and nearly collapsed three or four times. then UCD: request a single room for myself or with 1 other roommate, was uncomfortable with the idea of roommates mostly because of me having transgender feelings and the inability to process them properly. i also just like my space and i get worn down and break down when just dealing with too much all the time. instead i was promised a 2 person max room and got the two person max room but with 4 other people (including me there were 6 of us living in a one bedroom... room). i couldnt sleep b/c roommates wouldn’t sleep (they basically drank and yelled all night, or they’d get high at 3AM and 5AM). one of them touched me a lot and got into my space a lot and it made me feel incredibly uncomfortable. i never felt like i had any space and just felt overwhelmed the entire time and got told to fuck off by the housing people multiple times while eating cold tortillas with cold cheese that was melted over it at one point for their lunches/dinners b/c apparently that’s what the meal plan was. i got pretty sick there a couple times. the coffee place basically never gave me soy milk which i kind of need b/c otherwise i might throw up or have incredibly painful stomach pains. i nearly passed out in a class because it was so bad and i started crying at my desk which was when the professor told me to leave b/c it looked like i had the flu. so i stopped drinking coffee there, which made me feel like shit in the morning and completely unaware of everything (almost got hit by two cars trying to get to my 6AM class that was a mile walk away from the dorm, since it was clear across and off the campus). and then from there i became extremely suicidal and told my counselor that every time i stood in front of the train tracks that early up, i considered stepping in front of the train passing through and almost did it once (someone behind me tugged me back b/c they thought i was in the process of tripping). but i got basically no sleep there, most of my memories are really messy and hazy and i barely register what happened a lot of the time b/c i just legitimately couldn’t process things at the time. i went a week where i didnt eat anything and probably got 4 hours of sleep those entire 7 days. all i really remember is feeling dizzy and lightheaded all the time and really hating sunny days because it hurt my eyes and i’d get bad headaches. well and my counselor giving me six dollars to go to the mcdonalds downstairs b/c she wanted me to eat something then online stuff is just... everything is put in gods knows where, the textbooks crash, the website sometimes won’t work, the assignments are put up randomly without notice, everything is a 3,000 word commitment from just the discussions to the papers and it’s jsut overwhelming and tbh a lot of the time i feel unsure if i can even keep up or do it all. and i know if i pass it all then i can go to UC Boulder and hope i have a better experience than the other two universities, or it’s just as bad and i suffer through it until i have a degree so i can actually have a career that lets me actually live. or i fail it all and die in my mid twenties probably.