#its making me sad :(

[brucequeensteen]

ive always liked rothko but i think ive reached a point tonight where i finally truly understand him and his paintings and its not a good feeling

[metastablephysicist]

i have been very much wishing that i wasn't in grad school and i had a more permanent living situation and i wouldn't be making friends with people just for us to move away from each other in order to find jobs or affordable housing or whatever. it's bullshit i would like to be in my thirties and have a more permanent job and a more permanent home and friends who are going to stick around

[eyes1nthewoods]

i dont like the goose episode ☹

[criminalmindsgonewrong]

coffee at midnight has burnt me out

i wanna pump out another fic but my brain is saying <3 no <3 atm

[batshikns]

this homura playlist be banging yo

[kunikidamybeloved]

OH RIGHT i started to read the bsd manga after like, 2? 3? years of not touching it and every time dazai's shown i just get sad for some reason, also his eyes are sometimes colored in dark and sometimes light and i remember reading something regarding that symbolism on dazai's eyes somewhere, and i took note of it esp bc Asagiri has a particular way of drawing and shading eyes and i dont know how to word it properly i just got home from school

i really really like how blank and lifeless akutagawa's eyes look, theyre just fully shaded and look so dead, idk if im wording it correctly at all but each time he's shown i just look at his eyes and get unnerved

how kyoka's eyes were also just like his in her first appearance but when she started working at the ADA, esp when she and fukuzawa were having a staredown, her eyes were more detailed and bright, its cute and nice to see

my eyes teared up when she was about to sacrifice herself through crashing the carrier she was in into Moby Dick and i needed to pause and blink them away because i was in the middle of class (we had no subjects since it was our school fair and I decided to spend it reading the manga)

but yeah, dazai's eyes being sometimes dark but sometimes light. can someone explain that to me?

[beatheprincess]

Yall I hate this disease :/ like nothing is wrong w me and I should accept my flaws but my brain has a hard time doing that and considers cosmetic changes

[aliens-took-my-iwa-chan]

my dms on tumblr remind me of a graveyard. I dont like it

[peri]

had a dream last night that everything turned out okay and things went back to how they were

[crazyfuckingkitten]

[gentil-minou]

Everytime I see posts like this I get filled with such profound sadness

Cause you know who has the same brainrot as you? The same unhinged feelings as you after you've read the fic? The person who always wants to scream about the fic with you?

THE PERSON WHO WROTE IT

I never used to leave comments but since I got into the habit of commenting on everything i enjoy it's been incredible. Especially when the author gets back to me about it and we get to have a discussion of what other ideas they had. One writer replied to my comment with a 5 paragraph essay detailing the Floorplan of the building the characters lived in and it was incredible

Anyways this is all to say that if you find a fic that just makes you want to scream from the rooftops, leave a comment saying that to the author and maybe they will join you and you can scream incoherently together

[lunni-e]

i only got about 4 hours of sleep so im gonna take a napppp

[mroddmod]

everyone be quiet i'm manifesting

[botanicalbasilly]

I hate being a person who loves bugs, I can't say anything without the person I'm talking to reacting with disgust. Today I had to literally beg a coworker for the life of a spider, and then after I put it in a nook outside she thought it'd be funny to show me a video she took of her killing one. Like idk man. Birds scare the shit out of me but I still get why people love them. They come in pretty colors and they sound nice and they're interesting to observe. I don't understand why people don't feel the same about bugs. The rich amber color of a cockroach, the iridescent glow of a fly, the intricate hydraulics that power their little legs, the chirp of a beetle, the art of the spider's web... It's all so beautiful. Why is it the habit of so many to destroy?

[wojtekaneko]

That's how it went

[lotus-pear]

charm stat at debonair ‼️‼️