#its literally fucking bonkers. just know that. its bonkers

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the way that it has to be is NOT a sol song because its about a robot accepting their imminent obsolescence. and i personally dont think that sol 'changed my subclass to avoid going down' bufo wld ever stop fighting to prevent a sad ending, no matter how obviously pointless. to me. however .

this does things to me.

[justauthoring]

a promise he'll keep.

requested! -> also “who did this to you” with astarion would go absolutely bonkers. food for thought requested by! -> @the-sunflower-room

a/n -> thank you for your request! i saw your other one as well and definitely plan on writing it hopefully soon! also! i literally have been in love with this man since the game came out but im so nervous about writing for him i never gained the courage... tho, meeting neil yesterday made it feel like its only write i finally commit and write to him!

tw -> mention of blood, bruises and cuts/violence

pairing -> astarion x f!reader/tav

blood poured from the rather large cut across the side of your forehead, staining your skin and seeping into the tiny cuts littered across your cheek and jaw. bruises lined your neck, in the shape of a hands, and astarion was sure that the rest of your body mimicked the damage across your face.

armour torn, shaking and hurt, astarion's heart burns with a rage he's not felt in a long time.

long ago had he forgotten about the bloodlust of fighting. long ago had he healed from the trauma of his past. years had passed since astarion had first met you and years had passed since the both of you, along with the rest of your companions, healed yourselves from the parasites in your mind and effectively, saved the world.

your bodies had never quite healed though. the trauma of what you'd both experienced had never faded and most likely never would. you'd both accepted that as a fact of your lives and used each other as a means of healing from it.

it had been years since astarion has seen you bloodied and hurt like this, and it feels ten times worse then it ever had before. never a fighter, the second you'd no longer been forced to fight for survival, astarion knows you'd given up that part of your life.

you were strong. there was no doubting that. you could hold yourself and you'd proved that well enough given what you'd done for the world and most importantly, your companions. more than anything, you'd proved that with how you saved astarion from his tormentor and the horror of his past.

but you look so vulnerable in that moment; broken and hurt and bruised and his chest tightens, nails digging into the palms of his hands as the rage coarses through him, burning his veins and has him desperate to make whoever hurt you pay.

painfully.

"who..." and his words hesitate, the fire his chest making it hard to find his words. he doesn't want you to think any of his anger is directed at you... "who did this to you?"

you twitch at his words, arms coming around to hold yourself as you shiver, hesitating.

astarion's face falls.

taking a step towards you, he reaches out for you, hands moving to cup your cheeks, gently and wary of your wounds. he worries you'll pull away, given how afraid you are, but you know astarion and recognize his touch and some of the rage fades with concern and love for you as you lean into his touch.

his fingers work to brush the blood from your face, get rid of the dirt and grime that clings to your skin and tries to soothe you.

your eyes flutter shut in response.

"i'm sorry," astarion whispers. "i'm sorry, i don't mean to scare you."

you shake your head, humming in disagreement. "you didn't scare me."

astarion hates the way your voice trembles.

"i don't want you getting hurt for me," you explain. "you don't deserve that."

and astarion shakes his head. "it doesn't matter if it's you." he assures and he frowns when he realizes he might've not made that clear enough. he had a lot to make up for if you think that he wouldn't do anything for you. "i can't let them get away with hurting you like this."

"i'm okay," you try to deny.

astarion just tightens his grip on you, not enough to hurt you, of course, but enough to pull your attention on him. "you're not," he argues, desperate for you to understand how much it pains him to see you hurt like this. "you're bleeding, y/n. and fuck... you're hurt, badly. it breaks my heart to see you like this."

your eyes fall on him at that. wide eyes meeting his own as your lips part, as if shocked by his admission. maybe shocked wasn't the word—he likes to think the expression on your face is one of reassurance at how much his heart burns with love for you.

the tears that you'd been holding back fall then, your bravety and strength fading at astarion's warming and soothing words. they build at the corner of your eyes and astarion is quick to brush them away.

"i'll never let them hurt you again," he promises then, meaning every word of what he says. he says them with confidence, desperation and sincerity, eyes softening with a plea as he holds onto you, afraid you might slip from his very fingers. "them or anyone else."

your hand grabs his, squeezing.

"i know," you whisper, "this isn't your fault."

he just shakes his head; "it's whoever did this to you's fault," he assures, although the twinge of guilt that festers in his belly is undeniable. he should've been there with you, keeping you safe; even if you knew you were capable of keeping yourself safe... having him there would've assured him and would've stopped this from ever happening.

"y/n," he calls again, voice soft, measured and even as he stares into your eyes and doesn't let you pull away. "who did this to you?"

and your lips part, breathing shakily but there's an ease that washes across your expression and then the names of the men who hurt you come pouring from your lips.

astarion memorizies them, keeps them trapped in his mind as he nods. "thank you." and he is thankful. thankful that you trust him to do what he'd promised. thankful that you know he won't fail you.

"i'll make it better, okay?" he whispers, his thumb stroking across your cheek as he pulls you into his arms, a hand falling on the back of your neck to press you into his chest. "i promise."

you hum your response, leaning into his touch before letting him guide towards your home so he can dress and clean your wounds.

and most importanly, shower you in the love you deserve.

[prettyflyshyguy]

eucalyptus tissues have once again saved me from the torment nexus (the yearly cold/flu that you inevitably will contract every winter) and despite being in and out of bed all day - i have to complete my civic duty so lets do this.

You know the drill. Live slug reaction under the cut.

EP7 lets give it up for EP7

Firstly -- jesus did they not take anytime to give Gura a new uniform because he's barely patched up, and covered in someone elses brain matter and this thumbnail pic looks like they're on the hopper getting ready to EXIT STAGE LEFT

not the ONE MONTH EARLIER timeskip you cant DO THIS TO ME

Ok but like. Bharadwaj did you have to admit infront of the entire group AT A FANCY RESTURAUNT that you and Pin Lee had a bit of a fumble like "Sorry for the discomfort I caused you" GIRL THE WHOLE ROOM CAN HEAR YOU GNILERSNGILAEGNBLIHB

--- wait I'm an idiot they're doing a group sharing thing arent they. They were literally chanting her name a minute ago. Jesus christ the flu's left me one impatient little shit hasnt it LMAOO

Anyway before I move on -- can we talk about how pretty Bharadwaj is in this scene wtfffff

Tiktok voice: WE LISTEN AND WE DON'T JUDGE

STOP THAT STOPPPPPPP I'M IN THIS PICTURE AND I DON'T LIKE IT AUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGH thank you mr dastmalchian for the performance of my life

Ratthi saying "Who is the next victim!" I'm crying its gonna be gurathin isnt it

THIS BACKGROUND CHARACTER I'M SOBBING

I could write a fucking essay on this scene regarding the class difference, the cultural differences and the undertones. But I have the fucking flu. You're all smart people you can psychically connect with me on this right.

OH. HOMEBOY WAS A SPY. WORKING FOR THE CORPORATION RIM.

GNURIEHGULEAHNURTSGHUIERGHJUIEHGNUERISG

that was a fucking bombshell revelation

Re; him being forced to take substances as a means for coercion and control. Look I'm not sorry this is just making me go bonkers he's just like my best girl O'Byrne for real you guys don't understand the accidental parallels between him and her are sending me into a fucking frenzy. I made her like in 2016 for a story and I swear I've never even heard of murderbot till this show came out I can't believe this holy shit holy fuck

This also adds SO MUCH MORE WEIGHT to how angrily he shut down LLB's suggestion at cracking open a medkit for stimulants (for fun). Initially I got the vibe that it was just a general "thats a stupid fucking idea we need those they're important" but now its like

Ah.

this show's going to make me fucking cry his performance is going to make me fucking cry

This was a very. Very good conversation between these two. I am once again in this picture and I don't like it. Maybe its the sickness, maybe it's because I've been self reflecting, but this hit me in a soft spot.

"My risk assessment module was a piece of crap" yeah yeah alright blame it on the fucking module ya dickhead go on then hahahahahahahahahahahaa idiot

GOD AS really just has an incredibly imposing figure combined with excellent camera work to make this thing look deeply unsettling. Great body acting. Great framing. I love a good freak 10/10

THE WAY EVERYONE INSTINCTIVELY JERKS BACK HOLY SHIT OF;IJEIRGHALIERHJA;EOGHJEOSJGH

YESSSSSSS YEEEEEEEEESSSSSSS HAHAHAHAHAHAHA OH MY GOD THE WRITERS GET IT. THEY REALLY GET IT. THEY REALLY REASLLY GET IT HAHA YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

"I'm asking you to please get in the hopper. Unless you feel like dying.

I-I mean from them. Not from me."

screaming crying throwing up this show is both so so so fucking funny and just hits such a particular itch I have in character dynamics and the monstrous I'm cackling. Every time it awkwardly stutters or fumbles its words when it realises it came across wrong for how it's trying to present itself I feel giddy ("you're not disturbing. Me." when it was trying to hide and now THIS)

"You should be afraid of me. Please don't be afraid of me." real shit I'm slurping this up like the chicken soup I made last night

this is just like when I watched Supernatural for the first time last year and it made me go insane and I doubled down on writing my own story after and now murderbot is fuelling me now you dont understanddddddddd I'm going to explode if I dont publish Virtual Ground in some capacity by the end of this year

I have to. This show makes me want to make my own damn story better and stronger and get this shit out there SO BAD

RATTHI I LOVE YOU BUT I'M STRUGGLING TO WATCH THIS SCENE THE 2ND HAND EMBARRASSMENT WILL KILL ME

"Cooool. Okay good talk."

SOBBING

"Aah thank you so much for the concern."

"I didn't indicate concern, I was stating a fact."

bitch I need them to get locked inside a room for 12 hours. I need them to have to undertake a duos mission forcibly. I need them to have to cooperate on a highly specialised task that they both are required to participate in and cannot do alone completely.

Do you understand it makes me physically ill

"Ungrateful." WELL WELL WELL IF IT ISNT THE ACTIONS OF MY OWN CONSEQUENCES IRHTGALUHGELGAEULRH

Love that this is just one humungous miscommunication error on full display on both human and construct sides. Both cannot quite understand how the other operates and at this fundamental base incompatibility it results in both struggling and tension constantly forming. Impeccable. Waiter can I have another serving please.

ALSO IT'S STUPID LITTLE GRUMPY WALK AWAY HAHAHA

Thank you Mensah voice of reason (and I'm crying at everyone consistently not pronouncing LBB's name right)

"I was one whole confused entity" UGH WHAT A GOOD LINE

once again I love how this show uses subtle chromatic aberration to show when MB's having a moment of mind palace imagination.

"Circle"

"Nope."

"Absolutely not."

NFGBUIERAUHGULIJEHGLIHBERSUTGHUISLRTHGLUSRHG

You guys didn't even *try* and explain to it what you're doing and why, you just assumed it'd understand!! You need to talk to it!! You need to tell it what this whole thing is! Just like Gurathin "I'm not very good at this game" you have to communicate it!!!!!!!!!!!!

oK i've just been absorbing the entire outside-the-hopper conversation and its good food your honor. No one is happy. Everyone's getting snappy. No one has a good plan. Everyones confused and upset. Uguialerhguhga

CRICKEY, WHAT A BEAUTY!!!

BLIMEY!!!!

Ok that took a shocking and unexpected turn

I'm not going to comment on this

YEP.

God.

PIN LEE I'M SOBBING I ALSO DON'T WANT TO LOOK AT THEM

THIS FUCKING FIGHT CHOREOGRAPHY IS SO FUNNY

BHARADWAJ COMING IN WITH THE ROCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And then they confiscated their clubs and my rock...

sorry that's a shockingly specific reference to a Dead Kennedy's track in which the frontman just tells a story. Anyway here's a relative timestamp to the quote.

ANYWAY. That's not the flu talking, I have a habit of just quoting that.

If I had a dollar for every time there was robot vore in this show I'd have two dollars. You know the rest.

once again I am looking respectfully at the robot gore on this show however

"We're going. You can come. If you want."

Loving the emphasis on the reality that MB has a choice. It's shitty and pissy about it and it sure does love to complain but it's chosen, thus far, to protect them. It's chosen multiple steps of the way to be helpful.

It's still not entirely clear to the prexaux crew that thats the case (bar Mensah. She gets it the most.) but I think they're starting to recognise it a little more. The focus, care and attention it gave when the worm showed up was the biggest indication.

But MB itself also deeply struggles to recognise the whys and the hows of how prexaux approach it and feel about it. Cause after all it's just one whole confused entity. Aren't we all.

Anyway. I'm still not satisfied in the Gurathin reveals. I need to know so much more. I'm so fucking hungry. This only furthers my theory that he was augmented against his will. It's thrown a jerry can onto the bonfire actually.

I swear to god it wont happen this season but if we get a season 2 (I know the books go different places hear me out) I NEED MB and Gurathin to go on a shitty little duo mission together where they're forced to hang out and cooperate on something IT'S LIKE LIFE SUPPORT TO ME.

IF THE SHOW WON'T WRITE IT, I WILL.

Anyway I love that, once again, everyone has problems, and half of them arise from communication breakdowns. And it feels like we're getting closer to a breakthrough of mutual understanding. Mensah does your back hurt from how much you're carrying right now.

Now this meme comes with inevitable 'parent' connotations -- put those aside for a sec because it's not about that it's about her being the one fucking thing thats keeping two very chaotic forces together (everyone else in presaux and MB) and stopping them from destroying themselves or each other

Anyway. My whole body aches. I feel so fucking ill. I'm worried I've said something really stupid or nonsensical or a bad take here -- flu brain's got me paranoid.

I love you Gurathin you make me want to write my own story so much more and I swear to god I'm gonna make this a thing. I hope I can make Virtual Ground a mere fraction of how enjoyable this show's been to experience.

[reanimatedshark]

A = Aftercare

he definitely cleans you up real good and makes sure you feel special (bathes you and showers you in kisses- praises you the whole time making his gratefulness known)

B = Body part

he loves your waist and butt (grabs at them any chance he gets before during and after)

C = Cum

he loves shooting ropes all over you. he sees it as marking his territory and such (loves leaving little stains on your underwear)

D = Dirty secret

he isnt always faithful but that doesnt mean he wont blow loads just thinking about you and only you

E = Experience

hes very experienced. knows exactly how to get you screaming his name and cumming over and over.

F = Favorite position

against a wall or shoulder holder (missionary with legs up on shoulders)

G = Goofy

really depends on the scenerio. at home hes usually quite focused and serious. in more public areas he may crack a few jokes relating to the setting.

H = Hair

hes well groomed downstairs but occasionally he'll leave a little bush just keep things from looking "boring"

I = Intimacy

he cares almost entirely about his partner's enjoyment and focuses strictly on them and only them. peppering his partner in kisses and making sure they know how much theyre valued.

J = Jack off

back to letter D, he can't get you off his mind sometimes and will jerk off out of desperation. he'll do it anywhere deemed fit (public bathroom, bedroom, couch, hell even friends bedroom)

K = Kink

loves any form of postponed orgasms whether it being squeezing his tip to keep him from cumming or completely restricting all physical touch that could push him over the edge

L = Location

anywhere. hes willing to get nasty basically anywhere (shower, public, living room, kitchen counter, etc)

M = Motivation

any sort of affection (occasionally even just acknowledgement) compliments drive him crazy

N = No

pain play. atleast not on you. he cant bare the thought of ever inflicting pain on you in any way. he needs you to feel special.

O = Oral

giving (both f and m)- hes sloppy but skillful. makes sure hes getting every spot that drives you wild even if it gets a little messy both literally and figuratively. makes little moans of enthusiasm

recieving- cant help but get vocal no matter what your pace and skill is. he loves feeling your mouth on him. probably one of his favorite things you can do for him

P = Pace

he usually takes his time to make sure youre getting the most out of it. though he'll sometimes get rough and fast if he feels its needed.

Q = Quickies

quickies arent exactly his speciality unless hes recieving (even then he worries too much about your enjoyment). hes always down to have one though.

R = Risk

oh he loves risky sessions. if it means fucking in a public restroom, on set, or in the back of a cab, hes always happy with it. the thrill drives him insane.

S = Stamina

he can go a good couple rounds before running out of juice. that doesnt mean he wont gladly help you through a few more rounds.

T = Toys

hes neutral about toys. he really enjoys doing things all natural but if his partner wants to use toys hes all for it. hes fine with toys used on him or his partner as long as its their choice

U = Unfair

he loves teasing you before the session but rarely really teases during. cares too much about making you feel like a princess.

V = Volume

hes quite vocal. grunting usually but tends to drift into moans as the session goes on. he is not afraid to make his enjoyment known.

W = Wild card

absolutely loves leaving little marks on your hips and ass. he also gets a kick out of hickeys all over him. he wants to marked as yours.

X = X-ray

average length. a bit on the thicker side. not an excessive amount of veins just enough to add a good texture.

Y = Yearning

sex drive can be sky high sometimes. though he can go without sex for as long as needed to. he does jerk off often to keep himself from going bonkers though.

Z = Zzz

lazy fucks can end with immediate pass out but if he has energy to clean you up he'll fall asleep once you do. (if you do that is)

[witchhazelevesque]

Scene from a time loop valdangelo wip I’m probably not going to finish: -

Frank is belligerent. Again. 

"Oh my god, man, I don't wanna date your girlfriend, so can you stop taking everything I say in the worst possible way?" Leo groans. 

Everyone at table turns their eyes on him, wide with shock and near horror or shock and mortification, but god, it's been a literal half a day of this bullshit, and no, at this point Leo can at least tell that he's not saying anything that’s actually inflammatory. 

"I-" Frank tries, his face bright red, like not quite rivaling the pasta sauce on his plate, but a near cousin. 

Leo waves around his cloth napkin then tips it toward Frank, "I think we could be good friends, actually, if you want to give that a whirl."

Frank looks more confused by this, which Leo is gonna try not to take offense to. 

"Or not, if you're not into the idea, it doesn't fucking matter, I think I may adopt nihihilism or-whatever it's called in that meme that's like, super hyper color 80's guy in sunglasses with a thumbs up and caption 'Nothing Matters', y'all know that one? Doesn't matter,  none of this matters, what does matter but doesn't actually- hey, Hazel, want me to sell my soul to Nemesis to rescue your brother? It may just put me out of my own misery."

Hazel's wide dark eyes stare as fixedly as Frank's wide dark eyes. It would be a funny photo, actually. Leo wishes he had an inter-dimensional camera that wouldn't have its memory wiped when this loop is inevitably reset.

"What are you talking about?" Annabeth asks, and Leo feels a rush of affection for her pragmatic course of thoughts. 

"I'm stuck in a time loop, I’ve been sitting with y'all having dinner for like a whole rotation of a clock, and I'mma be honest, I'm really sick of you guys."

Jason looks a little hurt by that, which wasn't Leo's intention. 

"A time loop?" Percy asks, exchanging a wary look with Annabeth. 

"Yeah, yeah, it may well be Kronos's vapor trail pulling some really short strings," Leo agrees with the sentiment behind that onimous look. "Don't know why he's doing it to me, since I never met the guy. Maybe he's trying to activate Annabeth's FOMO or something."

"I- what?" Annabeth demands. 

"You like being the hero," Leo reminds her, and yeah, he's kind of being an asshole at this particular point. "Time Daddy probably thought it’d drive you bonkers to not be his mortal nemesis- heh- or something."

"That's not funny," Percy snaps at him. 

"It ain’t supposed to be," Leo snaps right back. "In fact, I am so fucking over being funny that you can assume from here on out that everything I say is gonna be serious."

"Horseman of the apocalypse," Piper mutters. 

"Yeah, well, Pipes, when making people laugh kept them from beating you up, you kind of get into the habit," Leo says, because nothing matters. 

She sits up straight, eyes widening. 

Leo lightly smacks the table top before reaching into his belt and taking out the fortune cookie, laying it out. 

"What do you say, Hazel, wanna give it a go?"

"No!" she swipes the fortune and when Leo reaches for it, he's not expecting it to be a contest of strength, she's got him beat there, but a matter of trickery. She may also have him beat because she pulls some sleight of hand that vanishes the cookie, which is actually really cool, Leo will admit. 

"Nice," Leo tells her, leaning back with an appreciative nod. "I think it's a little like Percy's pen, though."

He reaches back into his pocket and pulls out the fortune.

[skyclan-funny-name-squad]

do you ever think about that stupid starclan life thing that only gets brought up like twice in the book series where when a leader loses a life some of their soul just gets kinda...shaved off to go join starclan, I have so many questions about this like how and what and why

I'm pretty sure it comes up like once in the first arc when firestar first dies and then jayfeather sees firestars not ghost on a starclan trip once in fading echoes, and I don't know if it's ever been said again, but like look at this quote, it's been driving me bonkers for over a decade on what is going ON with this system. I don't even fully know if it appears outside of those two books and I think like maybe secrets of the clans, maybe

Like I can only assume since it's displayed as very pale and barely more then mist they didn't graft like, nine souls onto firestar, so it has to be his original soul right? Just with bits shaved off? It's eldritch as hell and confuses the fuck out of me on how it works and yet yellowfang is so casual all

Another familiar pelt caught his eye. Frighteningly familiar. Blazing ginger fur, large pricked ears, emerald gaze—the slender tom weaved through the bushes ahead. He seemed paler than the other cats, almost invisible. And yet he was there. “Firestar?” Jayfeather breathed. “Not quite,” Yellowfang mewed gently. “Five of his lives are here, but he won’t be able to hear or speak until his ninth life has joined us.” Jayfeather watched the ghostly cat disappear behind an oak. Could Firestar feel his lives ebbing away? No. He shook off the thought. How could he stay such a strong leader if he did?

like...what??? No one ever talks about this, probably because of how little it ever comes into play, but HUH?? why did they bring it back after the first arc to do nothing with it beyond scare the pelt off of jayfeather???? It's so eldritch! I have questions!

What about evil leaders?? Was there just a misty brokenstar wandering the dark forest or do they get to stay in starclan until the final life because it's just plain irresponsible to let a basically unresponsive and on autopilot cat into hell?

What happens if you kill this like, soul slice??? Does it have an impact on the living cat? Does literally losing bits of your soul have an impact on the living cat? Like if eight of your nine lives are in Starclan that's gotta be like, really weird right??? If they do start out in the dark forest for evil what if they stopped doing evil? Do they remember anything?

Are they aware at all? Will the dead leader gain these starclan memories on death? Why can't they hear, I can kind of understand speak but why can they do everything else but hear? Does the soul splice knowing whats happening back in the clans, because like, the soul splice doesn't react at all to yellowfang or jayfeather so does the soul splice even have memories? Can they fight back? Do they try and find other ways to communicate? its kinda really fucked up!

I know no one talks about it because its both stupid and never relevant but I can't be the only one just like, fixated on this detail right? Like what are you talking about Why does a piece of their soul need to leave with each life, you're just healing the wounds or disease, why can't they just...keep it? Until the final death?

Though incredibly funny au potential for where due to how the lives supposedly work ashfur only possesses 1/9th of bramblestar because he's lame and hasn't died yet before this so there's only a small bit of soul room

I just need to know I'm not alone in thinking that this is like, horrifically eldritch right? potentially even somewhat i have no mouth and i must scream for the version of them in starclan especially if evil leaders do end up in the dark forest from the very start???

[mythalism]

at this point im just ranting bc im on my period have been cooped up at home for 4 days as a result and havent taken my adderall today so theres a lot happening in my noggin

idk for some reason settling on the word "palatable" just now for solas's writing in veilguard but also the game as a whole just really struck me powerfully because i think it also really encapsulates why it pisses me the fuck off so bad on a personal level. because i literally hate shit like that LOL. growing up a girl with audhd i have spent my life being the one of LEAST palatable people in the room at all times and constantly being told i should be more palatable, dont talk so loud, dont talk so much, dont say things like that! people would like you better if you werent so harsh, you're an acquired taste, you're a tough pill to swallow. you're too political. etc etc ETC and i literally have become more palatable with age but also WITH GREAT EFFORT bc it was so clear to me my whole life that i would continue to (unintentionally) upset and make people uncomfortable with my honesty and intensity just by being myself around them. and you maybe wondering wtf this has to do with dragon age and media in general but i think its because as a result, I LOVE UN-PALATABLE THINGS!!!! BECAUSE I AM ALSO UNPALATABLE. and i think anyone who has experienced this will know what im talking about and if you dont well this post isnt for u. but i want stories to be like a punch to the fucking face. i want INTENSITY!!! i even took that quiz that went around recently and got the one that was like "you read books that challenge your worldview" YEAH!!!!! even things that i disagree with or dislike i will always respect if they pack a fucking punch.

like i hate passivity. i hate in both in people and in media. this isnt a personal drag or attack if u are the kind of person i am talking about. but see how i felt the compulsive need to disclaim that? hm. i hate it because it has never been something that came naturally to me and has always been forced upon me. i hate when people wont speak the fuck up. i hate capitulation. i hate indecisiveness. i hate when people shy away from conflict. these are all things that have repeatedly been the source of interpersonal conflict for me throughout my entire life. and like obviously im a grown adult and i have learned a LOT and am able to handle myself with sensitivity and maturity. i can recognize time and place and appropriateness and be passive and unobtrusive when necessary or when in my or someone else's best interest. i can understand and empathize with people who are the opposite of me and are passive, and avoidant, and afraid of conflict, and quiet. and i have plenty of wonderful relationships in my life and practice healthy conflict resolution regularly like fr dont worry about me. however there is always going to be a little girl inside me who resents that i will always have to tone myself down to meet the standard of easy-enough-to-swallow woman because thats what our world values rather than anyone else ever bothering to meet me at the level of intensity i naturally operate on or even just allowing me to be bonkers in peace.

and all of this absolutely manifests in what stories and art resonates with me. i prefer visual art that is bright, colorful, and intense. all of my favorite stories since i was a child and couldnt even recognize these patterns are unapologetic, emotionally powerful, and loudly political. there are a lot great shows movies games books etc. that i am sure are great and well done, but if they do not have a level of rocking my SHIT, i am simply not going to be a super fan. I LOVED DRAGON AGE FOR ROCKING MY SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!! its probably why da2 is my favorite because it is all of these things that people have been telling me to tamp down on since i was a kid. unapologetic, intense, punch to the face, insane emotional rollercoaster. i love that it challenged the player. its probably why i love tragedy too, and the solavellan romance because its literally painful. also definitely why i love cyberpunk so much and why i fell in love with it so fast, because if there is a game that punches you in the face, its cyberpunk 2077. like johnny literally punches you in the face. anyway ive already written abt this in another post so ill move on now but WOW. PLESAE!!!!! DRAGON AGE PLEASE PUNCH ME IN THE FACE!!!! MAKE ME FEEL SOMETHING!!!! MATCH MY FREAK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SAY SOMETHING!!!! SAY SOMETHING SO I DONT FEEL LIKE THE ONLY PERSON OUT THERE WHOS SAYING SOMETHING!!!!!! i love seeing people be as opinionated and unapologetic as i feel even if i dont let it out. EVEN WHEN I DISAGREE!!!!!!!! this is why you dont see me arguing with posts i disagree with of rancid bad takes on this website. BC I RESPECT THAT SOMEONE HAD THE BALLS TO POST THEIR NONSENSE IN THE FIRST PLACE. UR WRONG BUT GO OFF!!!!!!! there is just something so valuable to me in seeing people express themselves and be loud and unashamed. maybe sometimes they should be ashamed but the inner child in me is happy that they are even given the space to be wrong. doesnt mean i wont disagree equally loudly on my own page, but i just HAAAAATE not speaking up. and i especially hate when being quiet and passive is portrayed as the "right" thing to do, more mature, and superior.

AND THATS VEILGUARD. literally take all of this and apply it to video game form. thats veilguard. safe, passive, palatable. we went from blowing up churches to enabling regicide to....... book club? thats a completely unfair and poor example, im aware, but this isnt a real essay its just a rant, and i know you know what i mean. and to be fair, inquisition was already step in this direction, but boy was veilguard a LEAP. olympic long-jump, even. inquisition is toned down compared to the fucking insanity of da2 and origins, but it still has moments enough to keep me feeling like it has a backbone and something to SAY, that it was brave enough to ask me to think, that it wasnt mass produced soylent green slop manufactured for easy digestion.

but veilguard is. the central message is passivity. the central message is DO. NOTHING. dont try to change things. dont speak up for what you believe in. you might mess up the world!!!!! do you understand how this is a video game manifestation of a sentiment that has smothered me my entire life. do you understand why it is so frustrating to see a series that once asked me to think for myself, to choose, to take action, to DO SOMETHING, go from asking for my opinion in judgement on a character's crimes to telling me not to think too hard at all? to go from allowing me to interrogate every character for their opinions and life story and pick their brains, to not even allowing for a real conversation? to put two choices in front of me and say PICK ONE!!!! AND LIVE WITH THE CONSEQUENCES!!!! TO PUNCH ME IN THE FACE WITH A DEVASTATING STORY THAT HAS SOMETHING TO SAY ABOUT THE WORLD?!??!?!!? EVEN IF THE STATEMENT IS SOME CANADIAN NEOLIB BULLSHIT THAT I DISAGREE WITH????? AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ahem. veilguard genuinely honest to fucking god encourages me as the player to do the very fucking thing that my evil elementary school music teacher wanted from me when i talked too much in class or when my mom told me people would like me more if i wasnt so "intense". shut up, do not ask questions, do not have an opinion, do not express that opinion loudly or in a way that others cannot handle, do not get too excited, dont try to change anything, do not take action, do not get angry. and join the fucking book club. or don't actually, because rook cant even do that. someone is probably going to read this and be like "wow its not that deep" and ur right its not that deep. but i am analyzing why i have such a visceral reaction to this dumbass fucking game and i have figured it out so if you dont like it you can leave. and if you love that veilguard is relaxing and chill and "COZY" that is great for you truly cheers. the world needs people that are passive and diplomatic and quiet and dont rock the boat and quiet and i am 100% dead serious. i know its gonna sound like im being a backhanded bitch because as aforementioned i have chronic bitch syndrome but i am dead serious that all of those traits ARE VALUABLE and have a place in this world and we need games that are relaxing and unobtrusive and P A L A T A B L E just like we need people that can be that way but that is not ME and that was NOT DRAGON AGE and to LOSE DRAGON AGE TO THAT PRESSURE HITS TOO CLOSE TO HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU TOOK MY MEAN MESSY UGLY LOUD FUCKED UP BABY AND GAVE IT A FUCKING TIK TOK FILTER AND CHANGED THE TEXT FROM "KILL" TO "UNALIVE"!!!!!!!! GIVE HER BACK!!!!!!!!!!!! GIVE HER BACK THAT MEAN MESSY UGLY LOUD FUCKED UP BABY WAS MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

feel free to respond in the replies if you relate or resonate with this i know this is very personal but i would love to discuss further with people if you understand what im saying . however if u are an asshole prepare to feel the full force of my wrath because as i said above i hold back a lot but i am simply not in the mood today xoxo kisses

[dazii-kons]

Robin!kon and the struggles of living with your dead best friend’s family [wip of chapter 1]

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Kon shifted in his seat-the chairs at Wayne Manor always looked so luxurious and fancy, but after months of sitting on them he just couldn’t get comfortable.

He’s benched from being Robin for a week for “depriving himself of sun for too long,” which Kon thinks is bullshit in its own right, he only spent three weeks without sun, not a month or two.

But now he’s stuck in the dining room of the gigantic mansion of his dead best friend’s adoptive dad, trying and failing to get some much-needed sleep (he was Kryptonian, eight days straight of all-nighters was nothing to him) because of a certain Dick living up to his name.

Specifically Dick Grayson.

And okay, maybe calling him a literal dick for it was a bit too far, but Kon was so tired and he could even take a nap because—

Because Dick keeps worrying about wedding decorations.

Kon wishes he could worry about things like decorations, but instead he’s worrying about black face paint they use for under masks staying on his face like tear stains and about the fact that he cried in front of Batman, which is fucking bonkers and so embarrassing that Kon wants to die more than he normally does, and about criminals he always found disturbing as hell but also most of them seem to worry about him which is even worse than the ones that called him a faker and—

And he needs to take a deep breath. He held it for four seconds, before exhaling for five.

He tuned out the oldest ranting for a bit—a skill he learned after a month in the hellhole of a city that was Gotham, with a lot of help from blue kryptonite and…well Kon wouldn’t call it necessary self-harm, but banging his head on the walls—and tried to focus on eating.

Eating. His latest biggest enemy apparently, since Tim’s death, Dick was around the mansion more often and he didn’t let Kon live off protein bars and shakes (the same brand they gave him at Cadmus. You could say his progress pushed back, not that he would ever admit it), and it was, as it seemed, a huge issue to Kon’s stomach.

He poked the pancake laying on his plate, the chocolate syrup looking disgustingly sweet, and it was warm and the consistency was so bad and—and—

And Kon pushed the plate away from himself.he couldn’t do it, it was too much, too fast.

Dick said something to him, but he couldn’t understand what; the biggest issue of his new skill was that sometimes he couldn’t hear people talking directly to him until they—

“CONNER!”

—did that.

Superboy (could he call himself that anymore? When he left it behind like trash to honor his best friend?) bit his lip at the loud noise, and looked up from where he was staring mindlessly at the plate. “Yes?”

Nightwing’s eyebrows crunched on his forehead, and Kon hated himself a bit more for making him concerned—it was Kon’s fault he was practically destroying himself, and no one else should have to deal with it.

“Are the pancakes too sweet?”

He didn’t know what to answer; he knew Dick was genuinely trying, but even he himself knew that Conner Kent was a failed cause.

“No.” It came out so much quieter than he hoped. “I just…I’m just not hungry I guess.”

Horrible excuse, the other obviously didn’t buy it, but Kon was tired alright? He was tired, and useless, and like a burden.

[lokativa]

People calling Hobie×Miles (punkflower) shippers proshippers as if we didn't ship them for longer than the movie even came out will always be crazy to me.

I've seen lots of people sending threats, or reporting people because they made punkflower, goldenflower (pavxhobie), ghostbyte (gwenxmargo), flowerbyte (margoxmiles), etc, arts or videos. Going to assume that it isn't because most of these ships are POCs ships, there's just literally no point to do that.

First of all, there's no confirmation of hobie's age. If ur basing urself of that one interview, then it was of the CONCEPT of hobie, and even so remember it was only one person who said it. Its heavily implied thats he's a teenager throughout the movie. (Also in the art book, its said that he's slightly older than Miles).

For the thing about him going to the pub and all, minors can and will go in pubs, (not saying that its always legal) are yall living under a rock or just dense on purpose? Teenagers do wtv the fuck they want, even when theyre not allowed to. Youre all going to tell me teenagers respect the rules of not drinking and go to clubs becuz theyre underage? Come off it. Also hobie literally merked his president and u think he'd draw the line at drinking alcohol as a minor? HA.

Aside from that, to be fair to everyone, the directors keeps on changing what they're saying about hobies age, one day they'll say and imply he's a minor and the next second say he's an adult. It's like they all have different idea of this character's age. So, nothing is really comfimed, and his age is really up to interpretation.

Now that we're past THAT point, the other kind of people talking about his age are people saying "oh but he looks old" "that man is most definitely 30yo" "there's no way he's underage" things of the sort, u get it. And I'm just over here like??? Why is it impossible for you to think that this guy could be a teen? Is it the air? The wrinkles? What makes it seem like for you that there's no way he could be around the other teens' age? And 30??? Cmon. People often assume black people are older than they look, which is a universal experience for all of us. Did none of u ever see a blk teen who doesnt have a baby face? Because thats literally what hobie looks like to me. To others we can seem too "mature" for our age, or just look too "old" to be the age we say we are, so is it really impossible for him to be a teenager? Think about it.

(Speaking of him being black, this discourse turned into some kind of racist thing that honestly was not unexpected at all. Yall come over here shitting on people talking and educating u about a character they relate to cuz hes like them, and the representation is making them go bonkers. I don't know why yall can just sit ur arses and listen for a bit, its not that difficult tbh. And dont get me started on the mischaracterisation of his character. Marking him as "an angry black man"? Really? Be. Fucking. Original.)

Same goes with Margo?? Yeah in the comics she's in college, but cmon now u guys know damn well she's a teenager in atsv😭. Gwen is also much older in the comics but i never see anyone talk about it, so what does that mean???The only reasons I can see that you all don't want Miles & margo to be together is because you're all stuck on the milesxgwen ship. News everyone, other ships exist, not everyone is going to like the same ships as you, so either move on or stop being on the Internet.

Also, the thing about pav being 13 is bonkers, where'd u even get that from? I need to know asap. "Oh, but he has a gf!" Yeah? Well he has two hands. (Idk why u all act as if that has ever stopped anyone)

Everything just seem like a race thing to me tbh.

The movies might be inspired from the comics, but not everything is going to be 100% the same. For exemple: gwen is 2 yrs older than Miles in the comics, but in movies she's only 15 months older, Jess Drew is white in the comics and black in the movie, Miguel O'hara is white passing in the comics, compared to his version in atsv where he has brown skin, lyla's disign is also different.

You get it? Things are going to differ as much as things are going to be the same, because (get ready!!) this is the multiverse! Just as earth-616 is just one universe in all the marvel comics, atsv is another universe.

All in all, im not saying u can't view them as adults, or wtv u want, thats ur interpretation, but don't go around being pissy at people around u cuz they have different point of views.

[oinkinpigprince]

Charlie and Pim x pregnanthuman!reader!!?? nf/ ofc

Idk if you mean like, polyamory or separate but I’ll go w/ separate just in case. I think it’s so funny how the internet forms its language. Using x to mean shipping and ! As a form of tagging a specific thing, so silly :33c

Pregnant!Human!reader headcanons

Pim

So excited!! He’s ALWAYS wanted to be a father, he plans everything for the kid. Kinda over plans shit and you have to step in lest you have no say in the baby stuff

Loves all the maternity things like gender reveal, baby shower, ultrasound pics. He’s so ecstatic for everything. Pim will gladly help with anything you need too!

Pim will help you with anything you need, he is on your beck and call. Need a hot bottle? got one in the micro wave, want peanut butter and onions? Disgusting! Right away. He doesn’t questions anything

Pregnancy hormones are a bitch but he’s willing to soothe you about anything. He can’t understand how hard it is, but wants to help you.

When the first kick happens he’s so excited! Asks what it feels like and is, kinda horrified, it actually feels like being punched in the stomach? That’s bananas

Shows everyone in the office the ultrasound photos, he has a picture in his wallet, he has it as his phone screen. He doesn’t care who they are they WILL see his baby.

Will gently rub your tummy when you two cuddle. He just finds it soothing. Knowing his baby is in there, and you’re right here.

Pim is truly delighted to be having a baby and he couldn’t be happier to have it with you, the love of his life. No matter what he’ll try and be a great father.

Charlie

When you first told him you were pregnant he literally said “oh, for how long” “uhh, nine months probably.” “Oh, that’s cool that’s cool.” Reality didn’t hit him yet

BUUUT when it did he freaked the fucked out, in a good way. He couldn’t believe it! You were pregnant! With his kid! That’s bonkers! He picks you up and spins you around

Charlie isn’t as on hands with the baby shit but still eager to help with planning, just tell him to do shit and he will. He also tries to make it to every doctor appointment just to be with you

When they found the first signs of a heart beat he started to tear up, it was so real for him. He never felt more happy than that moment just to be with you and his child

Loves putting his hand on your stomach, kinda a like a way to say “that’s MY baby, and MY partner.” It’s a subconscious thing to him tbh, just does it out of instinct

He likes to talk to your belly, especially during the later stages of pregnancy. He pretends he’s talking to the baby to make you laugh.

He keeps joking that you two should set off a missile for your gender reveal. Maybe go higher than California and destroy the moon. For funsies :33c

He never realized how excited he’d be to be a father and is really happy to be there for you, when ever you need him

[ganondoodle]

was at my sisters house to watch the cats a bit and played some botw again after a long time, spent an hour running around phirone (faron) and checking out all the cool sonau (zonai) stuff and i felt a wave of sadness wash over me, those ruins there feel so ... heavy with story, with sadness of tragedy, with the thrill of the unkown, yet its revealed to be nothing in totk, i honestly dont feel like the sonau of botw and of totk are at all releated tbh, theres like, NO design overlap besides sometimes some dragon-like figures that feel more like they put them into totk just to have some connection at all-

the botw sonau ruins are all full of curves hewn into dark stone with red accents, theres swirls and snakes everywhere, appropriately withered by time and weather- it was already a stupid idea to replace the shiekah tech with literally another ancient highly advanced civilaztion, but then to not even make them look or feel at all connected to the little things that were there?? totk sonau is white stone and gold and green, its all extremely angular and clean cut, together with weird hologram shit that reads, somehow, as both unfittingly techy to everything else while also neither mechnical nor magical

its fucking bonkers, i know they put some totk sonau bullshit into some of the ruins in totk, like the main ones in phirone but like, especially in that case with the direct comparison its so jarring and artificial, and i hate the excuse of "hylians built those different looking buildings as a monument to the sonau", like we needed more shitty excuses for bad writing decisions- the ancient AND current hylian stuff aligns more with totk sonau stuff, why would they adopt a completely different style to built shit around actual sonau stuff that somehow also looks like it was abandoned like, 50 years, 100 years ago, not over TEN THOUSAND years ago, both the botw sonau ruins and the shiekah tech look more ancient than anything totk sonau

and what for??? i imagine more botw sonau style ruins and like, thats entirely possible, why make it sth utterly different and give it a shitty excuse?? its so unnecessary?? like okay make the wheels out of withered stone hanging together like clumps by invisible magic like how the iwaroks (the .. stone enemy) works- i still would like it sicne i dont like the whole building thing in botws world, but at least it would feel like truly magic bs and fit into the design of botw sonau (even though im still not over NOTHING ever hinting that they were one step away from spaceships hologram aliens, the refusal to work with the stuff they themselves have put into their games drives me up a wall, YOU PUT IT THERE! DO SOMETHIGN WITH IT!)

just to put some modern tech into it? was it worth it?? (no)- and there i could even go on about how much i hate the 'tech' design too, its too little mechanical to be called 'tech' but too modern tech like to call it 'magic', (a balance which the shiekah tech did tremendously well imo) i keep being impressed with how conflicting and incoherent design and story can be in this one single overpriced game

(the reason them making it so modern techy looking was so players would immediately know what it was apparently and i just ... doesnt that make it more boring? like instead of the shiekah stone(slate) they just put a flip phone with numbered buttons and all and give it a vaguely stone texture? instead of like, a guardian with its spider legs and strange creepy design, just put a fucking tank there??? (and like, in a way i feel like the fact that they still tried to not make it look too modern by putting that green texture on it and like, a face here and there, makes it WORSE, a bad cover up is worse to me than none at all, like a shitty explanation can make sth worse than no explanation at all *ahem* literally every interview they did >:C )

also i dont know how you could even design a fan so it doesnt look like a fan? you dont need to put in literal car wheels with suspension and all in there to make it clear its a wheel bc how would you even design a wheel so it doesnt read like a wheel???

since when did they get so anxious about players not understanding something?? the whole series was built on puzzles of varying difficulty, whats with the sudden loss in trust in the player?? botw was already pretty easy but in totk the whole game treats you like you cant think or remember sth for more than 30 seconds to the point it gets actively agonizing to play through- the same two sentences of unimportant info repeated and shown to your face over and over, both in story and gameplay- and even with their immediately readable design choices for the sonau 'tech' they made half teh shrines either sloggingly slow tutorials or one puzzle shrines that are dedicated to teach you how the obvious thing works when you really learn it all on the literal tutorial island AND its obvious from the start BECAUSE THEY WANTED IT TO BE OBVIOUS!! its fun to figure things out and try stuff, its no fun to have a step by step guide glued to your forehead at all times especially when its so obvious, yes thanks for teaching me that a literal fire hydrant spits out water!! wow! never thought about that! thanks for telling me it 5 times too!! (even if it annoys me that they can just do that when not connected to the ground .. would have been more fun to make puzzle with if they were,,), its part of why i felt like the game was so condescending or outright laughing at me-

why even try to teach me how a fan works over and over when like, there arent even any creative things you can do with it in a reasonable amount of time and its never needed or incentivised either bc the game just hands you the literal solution or at the very least give you the four parts or what that you need to make what you need, like pulling apart two bricks of baby lego in fornt of a toddler to see if they can put them back together once you hand it to them

and dont come at me with the "its for kids" argument, the old games were too and theres alot of stages of 'kid', they arent stupid either and nintendo should know that they have alot of adult fans too, it doesnt need to be dark souls and its allowed to have easy stuff in there but the fact that it never gets any more challenging is the problem, yes part of the fun in games can be making your own rules and messing around but it really shouldnt be controversial to want a 70 bucks game to offer a fun experience without you having to make it fun all on your own (i for one dont enjoy spending 30 minutes glueing togehter a tank with ear shattering lasers just to inefficiently beat up 3 bokblins i could just swing my sword at for a few seconds instead and are not worth the materials spend anyway)

in the end it would have been less immersion breaking and more fun if they straight up put a honda civic into the game you can summon anywhere at no cost (hmmmm where did they just do it before hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm) and transforms like a batmobile to fly around in rather than the weird sonau nuts and bolts hassle you have to put up with, costs stuff, can waste hours of your time and despawn as soon as you look away from it unless you want to make le funny tiktok videos i guess

its such a waste too bc the mechanic itself IS impressive, but its utterly missplaced in this game, it would have needed its own, truly own, game built around it, placing it in botws world is like dumping a bunch of knock off brand toys into a world that felt believable and meaningful turning it to feel like its really just a game for you to mess around in, never has a game felt more gamey to me and it SUCKS to have that magic pulled away like that, silly me for letting them make me care about it i guess

maybe its petty but as someone how really cares alot about design stuff, both visually and gameplay wise, it makes me furious to think about (as you can tell) .. also hyperfixation go brrrrrrr

(this is obviously my view on it, writing this to get it out, not to argue, i believe i have heard all the arguments already anyway and by this point all that is left is just insulting me directly lol)

[catboymoments]

I literally pray one day you'll know peace because it seems you unintentionally attract fucking crazies just minding your own business and having fun

honestly im really unbothered by a lot of the weirdos ?? I only post them because of how Shocked I am and its more like. "chat look at this bullshit isnt this bonkers"

[noctiva]

quite literally started sobbing upon learning you don’t fw Jeff </3 I just know Jeff fics from you would go crazy

ITS NOT THAT I DONT FUCK WITH JEFF okay let me explain

I understand the appeal. I love emo boys just as much as the rest of you believe me

BUT I LIKE HIS BROTHER MORE LOLLLLL liu gang rise up!!

okay fr, growing up I cannot explain this to you in a way that like, makes proper sense but Jeff scared the FUCK out of me. not like horny fear either - genuine complete TERROR LMAOOOOOOO his canon depiction quite literally gave me nightmares when I was young. I had a VISCERAL reaction every time I saw it. I would be shaking in tears just bc I caught sight of him while browsing quotev LMAO

so, because of that, that fear has been ingrained into my soul lmao. my heart rate no longer goes up 10000 beats when I see the canon Jeff image, but the trauma remains LOL he is like, the one crp I don’t get insanely horny over because I would probably just shit my pants and start sobbing if I ever met him LMAO

that being said! will I never write about Jeff? wrong! I probably will! in fact he hits all of the marks in stuff I like to write about - blood/gore kink, sadistic ass characters, horrible messy fucked up sex - yeah, tbh he’d be a treat to write about so just because I’m not a Jeff girl per se doesn’t mean I’ll never write about him. do not cry LOL

in fact sometimes I see a fanart of Jeff that is a LITTLE too scrumptious it makes the creative part of my brain go bonkers so. it is a possibility

but I still like liu more LOL

[permian-tropos]

Okay I know the bipolar angle is maybe the most obvious one to take at the surface since it's literally labelled as apathetic and manic swings. But as a prime autist:tm: myself you are so fucking right about it also being an incredibly accurate overstimulation meltdown state, and the apathy I'd easily reach to say a shutdown state.

Like when I'm already overwhelmed I too am pushed off the fucking edge if confronted with Sound That Annoys me (the actual laugh I let out when I turned the gramophone on with its awful music then got Daniil close to keep clicking it trying to turn it off only to realise it's also sending him fucking bonkers, me too, me too), and shutting down to the point where even basic communication is impossible because it's just Too Much but it in a different way to a meltdown, it's like a fight vs fawn state that the mind chooses without any of your say how.

Add that on top of well, like, everything else about him, and the fact his his visualised attention mode or whatever it's called can show he can be easily overwhelmed with detail then get stuck on single facet (the people with 'masks' outside the theatre is just the same observation repeated like 5 times).

It's all coming together, I've connected the dots, I've connected them.

Yes I've seen some people discussing whether the label of bipolar is applicable or not (I think it's a tossup, he could have the disorder or not and have these same symptoms either way) BUT I haven't seen anyone with autism saying this portrayal isn't relatable. It's extremely, vividly relatable. And like for instance I know I don't walk around all the time suffering from this degree of instability but when it's a bad time oh man it's a bad time. This is absolutely what the Bad Time feels like.

[lunar-oceansong]

okay slightly longer post with some archon quest reaction highlights

i took the screenshot a moment too late, but Mondstadt looked EERILY red when i was approaching it and i audibly went "oh. i don't like that." only to find out it was just my game switching between rain and sunrise and wasn't even part of the quest halskjslkdfjsldfs

this caught me so off guard i was loosing my SHIT. this is how every Bi person feels about Kaeya

Dahlia is so fucking tiny behind that table look at him you can barely see him in this screenshot but that table is way too tall

the way this courtroom is set up is so bonkers. i didn't take a screenshot of it but the fact the witnesses would just stand RIGHT BESIDE ALBEDO WHO THEY BELIEVED WAS A MURDERER during their testimonies is INSANE what if it WAS a murderer and he lashed out?????? i mean i know later they say that most of them were in on this plan so its possible they don't normally set it up this way but it's plausible that they DO and that feels unsafe lmao

also i was losing it over the Traveler having Net Zero Information during the trial but it eventually getting revealed that it was on purpose made it make soooo much more sense. the Monstadtians are insane planners

i did in fact shriek upon noticing Venti

the way he said this was so insanely funny, the emphasis on it... plus then the later lil conversation where Dahlia is like "i guess i should pray to Barbatos and tell him I still don't understand his drunken ramblings from when we went to the tavern 3 times...." and Venti going "oh, um, maybe don't do that....." is SO FUCKING FUNNY. also them referring to Barbatos in 3rd person even though nobody else is around is also so fucking funny. this is why Venti says things like "thank Barbatos" even the people in the know around him talk about him in the third person...

(also just as an aside the amount of times Venti just got subtly teased this update was incredible and absolutely hilarious. more of this please hoyoverse).

THE BROSSSSSSS i was in disbelief during the whole battle sequence it was done SO GOOD. definitely an improvement from the Natlan battle sequence for sure, it was kinda like Natlan was a test run for this.

also Diluc saying that he could tell this was faked/something was up because Kaeya didn't seem nervous enough during the first trial is so funny. i need to know what Diluc thinks Kaeya's tells are now.

I KNOW HE SAYS HE WAS JUST JOKING ABOUT THIS LATER BUT IT WOULD BE SO FUNNY IF HE WASN'T. like, he was doing that whole damsel in distress act (which was funny as fuck), so it's possible that if some citizens came near him he very much would have had to pretend to run for his life, and the mental image of that is SENDING me

also Dahlia asking if Venti was talking and Venti just panicking was so funny

IS THIS OUR FIRST LOOK AT VARKA??? THE GUY ON THE LEFT. IS THAT MEANT TO BE VARKA??????

i have to admit when Albedo turned the entirety of Mondstadt into a giant magic circle i nearly lost my shit cause i'd been thinking that that was what Mondstadt was since like, FOREVER.

AND DURINNNNN HOLY SHIT. I WAS NOT ACTUALLY EXPECTING THEM TO GO THIS FAR IN THIS QUEST. I DID NOT EXPECT THEM TO ACTUALLY TACKLE THE WHOLE DURIN THING. I WAS SHOCKED WHEN MINI DURIN SHOWED UP AND SAID WHAT THE PLAN WAS HSLDKFJSLKDFJSDFS

also Wanderer just letting Mini Durin go do that like "well get on with it then" is so funny to imagine. Mini Durin is literally living Wanderer's dream, he's getting to be human and have a family. i wonder how Wanderer feels about all that.... they're definitely going to have Durin and Wanderer meet again like this

[qoldenskies]

Begging for Donnie to break into witch town once he’s fully recovered and smack them with “I was literally fucking 14, what the hell, dude. I was 14. you sent a god to murder a child. What the hell. Who the fuck tells a god to murder a child, who FUCKING does that?”

Sure, murdering kitsune was. Wild. But honestly the council of heads might need to know about the entirely of witch town trying to MURDER a child for a mistake. Donnie literally apologized to all of their faces before they went apeshit on him for daring to be a man of science. He fucked up, he knows he fucked up, he apologized. He said he was sorry, he didn’t mean to fuck it up, and he got rid of the freak that was destroying their town when they couldn’t. He made up for his mistakes and they repay him by having him be murdered by his own family.

I feel like, if you do bring up the witches again, pull a logic on them. Twist their idea of justice on them. Clearly, if Donnie fucking up is grounds for his death, then it’s grounds for all of theirs. Clearly, they all want Donnie dead if they called him a TERRORIST. no one;s innocent.

“If it’s alright to kill a child for a mistake, then it must be fine to kill all of YOU for one, yeah? If one mistake means execution, then all of you are at the stake, and I have the burning torch. Choose your next words wisely.”

Like, come ON. I don’t think anyone even died during his episode, he didn’t even KNOW he would mess it up. It was an ACCIDENT. fucks sake, I want to nuke witchtown. Please let me nuke witchtown. Let Donnie get his ninpo and nuke witchtown, I BEG of you. Or at least beat the shit out of the mayor. Let him find the witch who did this and throw his brothers at them. Donnie needs revenge too. I don’t care if it’s him holding the entire town hostage and explaining the entire sequence of events and venting his insecurities to people who want him dead or him becoming what they claim he is, he NEEDS revenge. Give me the purple turtle doing a bonkers, please.

I love your work btw can you tell /silly

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BGGHDJGHHG JOKES ASIDE i do not think,,, donnie has the kind of anger to do that, he's really more likely to turn any of his anger inward now. im sure if it was his old self or regarding anyone else he would be on a warpath, but as he is now i think he wouldnt be able to think much else other than "i deserved it for what i did" especially because in CL the little thoughts he DID have of witch town were mostly guilty and ashamed, outside of him actually having a conversation with april and reconciling with his anger towards mystic powers. i think him completely ignoring or pretending he forgot about the mistakes he made falls in line with this kind of thinking. if he has a choice they wouldnt know about ANY of the things he finds embarrassing, and i think he might even see the curse as FAIR. not in the way that it hurt his brothers, he's upset about that, but i think he would struggle to see it as the disproportionately horrible punishment that it actually is.

hilariously enough i think a lot of the people there who feel the worst about donnie would think the same way. despite vicious distrust of the whole family at this point i think they would be a LOT more understanding if they explained what the curse did to THEM, because donnie in their eyes is nothing but a criminal and a terrorist and it makes it really easy for them to strip him of his personhood. he escaped from jail pretty much the second he was arrested, in their eyes he might as well be on the loose! he caused so many issues for them, its just so easy to fearmonger

i am still not in support of burning the town to the ground because there's WAY too many innocent people there for that to be justifiable (and a lot of people arent close enough to the situation to KNOW all the specifics) but oooouhhhhh the hatred they all have for them is completely justifiable. if they wanna fuck around they WILL find out

leo is a biased party though i do not recommend you take his perspective as gospel. he represents an extreme that's actually pretty hypocritical, considering it falls into the same line of thinking some of them have with donnie. but i cant really blame him either, this is the most important person in the world to him and deep down he is loyal to a fault.