#its like..... midnight i need to sleep

[star-soupery]

if i made quintrells voiceclaim kennith from communications would u be mad at me. pl

[cashmere-caveman]

Joy Harjo, Perhaps the World Ends Here | House of the Dragon 1.02 The Rogue Prince | Hanif Abdurraqib, On Hunger | House of the Dragon 1.03 Second of His Name | Hanif Abdurraqib, Welcome To Heartbreak | Chris Abani, Poet of an Ordinary Heartbreak | House of the Dragon 1.01 The Heirs of the Dragon | House of the Dragon 1.08 The Lord of the Tides | Yaedi Ignatow, We Were Love

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[aroacesetitoff]

wait why was leonard wearing an "s" shaped buckle in the paralyte's poison flashback that was pre-infinights. I know its bc gus wanted to mess with blaine and trick him into thinking he was slique but thats the doylist explanation give me the watsonian one.

[parasolemn]

Creatures of wet slop. Grins

[dansevilpianotea]

ramble ahead about time, tatinof, 2015 and changing one's life

tatinof is very special and im so happy they did this video to acknowledge that its not cringe at all and that theyre proud of their past selves !! there's sth genuinely healing about that !! ive had a hard time in 2015 and even tho i was 12/13 and just discovered that online fan communities of things i was into were a thing and was nowhere close to the phandom (i joined after BIG), this is the fandom internet that i joined back then. thats why its so poetic that they sing 'the internet is here', because to me this is the time it started to be there for me. it wasnt always kind to me and instagram was not a great platform to start on if your bullies and other ppl from school were also on it, but it was also when for the first time ever i realised that there were not only people who liked what i liked but that those ppl also have created their own culture and community online !! i was not totally alone !! there is a life outside of school !! i would never chose to go back to that time ever like it was horrible (that applies to any time in the past tho, i hate the idea of 'going back in time' with a passion) but im glad that the internet was there for me because no one else really was if im being real with you.

more below the cut because im an insufferable yapper (dan is a terrible influence haha tit joke)

this all is maybe why i find it hard to go back to watch dnps older content and also the stuff from the tatinof era. dan's sarcastic self-hating persona and phils innocent nerd persona are both hitting a bit too close to home and i want to both cry for them and for myself. we knew nothing back then. we were lost and yet did sth we were proud of. yet here we are almost 10 years later and how the fuck did we end up here but oh my god im so proud of us. all it took for me was to watch dan's coming out video. all it took for them was to be embraced and loved by their audience (us). dan also needed a break which is something that at the time it happend was really hard for me but then i found my wonderful lovely phannie discord friends here. we really all got here together and if i ever see any single person say that dnp hate us or dan hates it or that dnp are cringe or that we are cringe etc etc i will block you so hard because what are you even doing bringing up drama when in reality dan and phil and the phandom have developed the most remarkable symbiotic relationship between artist adn fans ever. they are our dads and i honestly just want to say how fucking proud i am of them for how far theyve come and what theyve done since 2015. dan really did the whole mental health and gay thing but then he did the mental health again!! and i think ywgttn and wad need to be given more credit here because idk if you remember pre-wad dan but he wasnt anything like post wad dan. every since wad he seems so happy and genuinely authetic and in peace. (im ignoring dystopia daily here because that was filmed before wad and his dd persona also reminds me too much of 2015 depressed dan than whatever high concept he was going for lol, im just not a dd fan). like wad changed his relationship with us and its warming my entire heart when i see dan smile so much now. he deserves to be happy and proud. and if dan deserved it after going through so much and coming out on top (literally), then i deserve it too. and phil? i love how he's just so confident now. fuck. (literally). he is not the innocent nerd anymore like he actually is fully really himself now and feels comfortable in his body (crop top, phlonde, etc) and openly expressing his sexuality ! even compare this phil to phil from the beginning of the hiatus!! he got so much more confident and relaxed since then!! like fully, really, if he can do it, if he can strip himself of the persona that ppl have attributed to him because of his anxiety, then i can do that too. im so proud of phil. he is an inspiration and the more he's being himself publically with no shame, the more an autistic phannie will feel hopeful for their future. im so proud of both of them.

like its crazy you go through your life thinking you're going nowhere and never making any progress and will never reach your goals but then you stop and look back what you were like 6 months ago and realise how many lives you have lived since then. it always goes back to BIG when dan said this:

[...] I thought I was trapped in a situation forever when in reality, the entire world I lived in and my life changed completely. I thought it was hopeless when in reality there was so much to hope for and that's it. Time changes everything. With the lives that we have, we can try anything we've dreamed of. I want anyone that's ever felt like this to realize you are never trapped. There is always hope. You just need to believe in yourself and get to the other side.

this everyone, changed my life. and i will never be able to thank dan enough for it, no matter how much i pay for tour tickets, how often i watch their videos or share my love for them on here. i just want to mention this because its never just 'light entertainment', it means the world to many of us and we have build a wonderful and loving community despite the hardships of the past and pointless discourses of the present. like, we can change shit for ourselves because we see these gay idiots do it who have done soooo fucking much in the last 15 years like they were on radio 1 and on a hollywood billboard and hosted various big big events. and yet, they decided they want to use their time to do things for themselves and their community. they have said many times that they havent made a profit from (parts of) their tours but they do it regardless. they do really love us and i dont think ive ever really felt loved by people who i was in a fandom for like that. its really not as parasocial as it might seem anymore. we got here together and we should be proud of that. i love dnp and i love you phannies so much !! 💕💕💕💕💕

[broke-on-books]

Need to watch my favorite movie again sometime soon

[snakesandstone]

A very normal human person.

[outletcrash]

just got into transformers and honestly the main thing thats made me all giggly nonstop is the idea of disecting starscream in my basement 😭. the knowledge/toolset youd need to have to dissect + study a live technorganic being is exactly the one i have! yes keeping a sentient being in my basement is morally wrong and ethically torture but id basically have a friend to bicker with and a science expiriment all in one. so sad transformers arent real i have SO MANY IDEAS on what to do. hell if robot genetics are similar to human ones i could harvest metal from him using like. computer crispr. or even synthesize it using my knowledge of Nuclear Whatevers!! and upload my conciousness into my own transformer to escape my chronic pain!!! i could do anything!!! YES i just started taking my meds again (i feel happy for the first time in weeks) NO they are NOT mood stabilizers. imagine id literally have a captive audience to whatever i wanna talk on about (while mapping analogs to a nervous/endocrine system that might use different frequencies + code instead of chemicals and dna??? i NEED to do the robot of open air brain surgery on him RIGHT NOW!). i could just be like "heres the only song i know on the guitar senorita 😏" and since his vountary motor controls were disconnected from his cpu and his auditory processor was on my work bench bc he kept calling me robot slurs i could just do it! ofc if id get caught id say sir i was just being too silly. plus hes committed millions of years worth of war crimes i think being disected in my basement and being annoyed to death is not entirely unfounded. gosh even just writing this i came up with 12 new expiriments i could perform. no ethics is not involved.

[nerdnag]

the fact that i become extremely low-energy in the afternoons and can barely keep my focus up on work surely doesn't have to do with the fact that I've been getting like 5 hours of sleep every night. nope no way, couldn't be that

[monstrsball]

suga loves horror movies. and he loves horror of all kinds but he especially loves the campy stuff. like movies that are objectively kind of bad but there's also heart in it. you can tell the creators were passionate about it and loved what they were doing. he feels this way about bad movies in ALL genres but there's something special to him about "bad" low budget horror movies specifically.

and he loves finding these movies and forcing his friends to watch them with him. everyone is on high alert whenever suga recommends a movie for movie night because nine times out of ten it's going to be AWFUL. and he's going to rave about it for an hour after as if it's the best thing ever made.

[notedchampagne]

everytime someone mentions an au concept of some sort i always go "OH YEAH I LOVE WHEN-" and then i have to STOP because i remembered i only spoke about 30,000,000 words of this au with one friend and that the other little people in my phone unfortunately do not intrinsically know the deep lore as i think of it live in my brain

[bitter---wing]

getting post limited feels like being muzzled like a dog for barking too much

[riggedbones]

I think I just need to make lucky doodles my general art tag like I use it wayyy more and the difference between "finished" art and "doodles" is becoming swiftly nonexistent as time goes on

[endlesslytired]

i cannot get over what happened in the latest chapter but i suree can meme about it

[bang-bang-gang]

i wrote a kinkmeme fill that sort of materialised into existence through a haze of hyperfocus, and like, i posted it without proofreading (which is not something i Do) because the subject is too likely to make me chicken out about posting it. it will go up on ao3 sometime this week once i get to proofread it and figure out the insane list of tags it needs, but, yeah. have fun. :)

EDIT: this is now (proofread) on ao3, if you're looking to reblog it please do so with this post!

[deeply-unserious-fellow]

I need to infodump abt my silly little South Park AUs but nONE OF MY FRIENDS ARE ONLINE RIGHT NOOOOOOOOOOOW