#its jsut SOOOOO

[thestamp3d3]

why does the animal crossing new leaf music make me wanna cry

[pup-pee]

kyle killed the part of him that cringes & hes never been the same

can u tell which 1 was my warm up,,,,,COUGH ICCCKKKKK

[p1x1x]

me pushing myself further with my art drawing really cool perspectives and whatever with the Duo and then i turn around and make lame cutesy ship art waaahhah 😭😭😭

dont read the tags on this if you havent watched gbc i just ramble spoilers 😭 just uhh screaming yknow. mostly mmnn but i like the other characters i swear its just these guys are making me insane

[euclydya]

tbis year sucks so bad for real im going to become the joker anout it THE TROUT POPULATION *WILL* BE EFFECTED I AM GOING TO KILLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[milimeters-morales]

Someone calling Miles “Miley” as a joke once but he realizes he likes the ambiguity over whether or not it’s a cutesy/teasing nickname for the more masculine sounding “Miles” or straight up just a new feminine name that he wouldn’t mind being called for the rest of his life

[metallteeff]

like actually

[upsidedowngrass]

reading your and jaspers posts about bryce with silent admiration because im too scared to contribute but i really love bryce so much hes my girlfriend and my husband and i like hearing u guys talk about him because youre Right. especially as someone who struggled from grief and trauma and being abused i think bryce's case interests me more than any of the other characters (even though liam is my favorite, and it says a lot because i find all of them interesting) because there is so much to him. i doubt he has processed a single thing about what happened. i think stellas death was recent too honestly, within the last few years at least, and he copes by... not coping. burying himself in work and drinking in the hopes to forget about it. not even to mention the fact that in episode 7 it showed him driving home drunk personally i feel he was past the point of caring to the point of engaging in risky/dangerous behaviors (this speaks for itself, i dont think i need to say why). i think that the plane impacted him so much that within those 7 months after leaving he got his shit together. i cant speak for if hes totally sober or not but at the very least he doesn't drink as much as he used to and i doubt he's putting himself in danger anymore. to be honest i think bryce is one of the characters who has changed the most because of the plane, which makes him being rejoined all the more interesting to me. im probably just making shit up but i like to read into it a little more than "bryce and liam were getting along but now theyre separated and liam has to fix it oh no". sorry this ask is kind of word vomit im not in the headspace to tidy it up but i hope you get what i mean

i think if one had continued for longer than it did it would have been interesting to explore bryce finally accepting and coming to terms with his past (him not seeing his childhood home in the wr anymore kind of representing this). i love bryce and he deserves to heal

TY!!!!!!! im glad my thoughts warrant admiration to you :D!!!!!!!!!!! (i will say tho that every time uve ever posted YOURE thoughts i am like ohhhhh.... ur SO RIGHT. i think u have some of the BEST interpretations of the one characters ive seen!!!!!)

(talked SOOO so much .so there is a readmore :) )

brcye really IS such an interesting character???? ik ive said it before but i AM biased towards protagonists so i usually focus on liam but like ...... bryce really IS probably one of the more. indepth ? characters in one in terms of like. background and how he Acts. i think ALL of teh characters are written really incredibly but i think, given how much of his bg is clarified (esp in contrast with how little is shown of the other characters lives pre-one) his motives, personality, emotions all end up being SUPER super elaborate and i REALLY love how he was written ??

(that said i think the reason he IS elaborated on sm is bc like. one doesnt elaborate on character backgrounds like MOST of the time. even charlotte is mostly left up to interpretation, bc one is more about the HOW people respond rather than WHAT made them respond that way. but charlotte and bryce are both outliers, and bryce ESPECIALLY so. because both obviously have Things they havent worked through properly, but bryce is directly just. Living in it. its the fact that he WONT acknowledge the actual Things that hapepned enough to heal that warrants the elaboration. while the other characters stop acknowledging ANYTHING about their lives , save for charlotte, who gradually works out her issues themselves, because THATS whats effecting her, bryce is CONSTANTLY just. he Needs to go back, but his problems ARE about what happened, and the fact that his life outside of the plane was what MATTERED to him, but that even then, he just Wouldnt acknowledge that life when he Needed to. idk if that makes sense but ohhh i think about the decision to elaborate on some characters and to not on others bc it feels Important)

hes so. he mirrors all of the contestants in some ways, but he mirrors amelia a LOT in that both of them respond to trauma by Setting It Aside. like That Trauma Cant Affect Me If I Dont Look At It. like. ur right bryce has NOT processed ANY of his trauma. which like it makes SENSE bc. it prob feels so much easier to him to not think about it by drinking instead, because its a Lot to think about. its a Lot to come to terms with. but bc he WONT acknowledge it but its still AFFECTING him he just gets More and More miserable (the detail about him driving home drunk and not even caring is so. :( )

what IS one of the most. compelling? aspects of his character to me is the way he responded to Everything after getting eliminated. bc it just feels So Real. because he IS healing, not completely, and not in the best way, but he clearly like. started putting SO much work into improving his life??? (the detail of him finally getting an end table for his bed instead of just... using a cardboard box ALWAYS gets to me. and that + the fact that the photo of stella is put up makes it seem like. THATS what was in that box. he LITERALLY started Unpacking thigns. its like poetry to me.) because it IS hard, and i think hes still putting things to the side, shoving the trauma from the plane to the side now instead of all his other grief and trauma. and the removal of the cans from his room yknow?? that hes getting up for work on time now?? its like. yeah i agree idk if hes necessarily SOBER yet but he really does seem like hes working really hard

its not perfect, but its BETTER and it feels. correct?? (and tbh? trying to brush off the plane as a dream isnt even teh worst thing he couldve done with that, i think, bc reasonably what WAS he supposed to do w that experience?? i dont think there WAS a good answer) bc the plane was a whole new kind of trauma. and i think surface level, one would THINK hed get WORSE after further trauma but like. i think he DID in some ways but in the ways that actually affected how he acknowledged and responded to his pre-existing trauma DID get better bc, as he puts it, hed Thrown his life away before, and didnt want to do it again. bc this time, he very well couldve died. and while he was on the plane, being home, on earth was SO much better than the plane, and it recontextualized Everything. hell, maybe after that, the earth finally felt Less daunting, like somewhere he Wanted to be, because for once, he WANTED to be back, and rationalizing That and the fact that he got Lucky, that something Worse couldve just full on Killed Him Forever really DID mean he didnt WANT the worse to come, at least not as much as before. but that meant he HAD to start actually Working on improving things, and i think he may not have Intended to acknowledge Worse things, but simply because the things he had to do to improve his life, like drinking less, making his house more Livable, they all Forced him to think about things More. hes still certainly not thinking about them as much as he Should, hes still not Processing things, but hes Heading in the right direction . he really was SO changed by ONE

and then liam showing up forces him, once again, to think about something he tried to push to the side. aaaaaaaandd then he rejoins and its so. it feels thematically fitting and IS so so SO interessting. because for once in his life hes REALLY facing his trauma head on. but then is brought straight back into it. and i need to think about that aspect more bc those thoughts are a bit less Focused than my other thoughts but given how complex his writing is after he gets OUT, its. SO interesting to think about how being BACK affects him

esp bc like. him starting ep 18 Pissed Off- which historically his responses to trauma are to either just Be Shocked, as depicted a LOT in ep 14, or to get Very Vocally pissed, as shown through the first half of s1, esp ep 6, and ep 11, and ep 13, and ep 18. ive seen it written as 'he doesnt have anywhere to direct the sheer amnt of STRESS and fear so he just. ends up yelling at people bc what else CAN he do' and i think thats?? probably fairly accurate. i dont think hes as Constantly Irritable and Irrationally Angry as fanon presents him , bc it tends to be. excessive. but he DOES get reasonably angry in response to stress !!! i always think abt how his body language in the 'credits' scene of ep 6 look like hes yelling at airy. and im. lays on the ground. i dont even know if thats ever as much 'just anger' as it is Fear and it FUCKS ME UP

but the way i see it, that ties to ep 18 a LOT. because he was really Getting better. hell, what he thought was the WORST that could happen HAPPENED (dying) but he. came out OKAY? its like he was being forced to think about and work through his trauma and he survived and was ok. but being sent back is like. 'oh god i did that all for nothing.' but i think it also sort of?? serves as the Last Push for him to really, REALLY acknowledge the plane (which is why it makes sense so thematically for him to be the rejoiner. he WAS the only contestant whod Chosen to ignore it all. but that has nothing to do with the plane, he cant choose if the plane ignores Him.) past talking about its affects, how its affected people. because after everything hed worked toward, hes Back. hes back, and everyone else is STILL HERE. liam had said they were all still There but seeing them there is a whole other thing. hed SEEN the effects of making it out after 7 months. but he never saw what it was like to still BE there after all that time. and bryce CARES about them (fanon sometimes treats him as if he is a bit. coldhearted? but i think people misattribute him being unhappy with liam as him not caring. i think the problem is that he maybe cares too much, and was affected a LOT, but didnt and doesnt know how to handle that. so he WANTS to ignore it, because it was all he could do, and haaving to backtrack on his haphazard healing from the plane is. highly daunting and uncommfortable and terrifying. thats not being cold though, thats VERY different) and now he HAS to acknowledge Everything, has to be a part of it Again. and i think its a combination of 'liam was here for 7 months after we all thought itd only be a few weeks. Anything could happen. who knows how long ill be here for?' and 'liam didnt have anything when he came back. will I have anything when i come back?? will i have worked so, so hard to heal and fix my life for Nothing?' and 'i dont WANT to be here again.' and 'oh my god all of them Really Really Are Here. Theyve been here the whole time.' and i think all that culminates in an appropriate amount of horror, and that prompts him to do what hes STARTED doing, which was All He Can. and hes pissed off cus hes terrified, so he spurs everyone into pulling out the plug. and then. it doesnt work. it doesnt work and thats the LAST of what he had, and i think iirc hes the LAST one to close his eyes afterwards. because hed BEEN off the plane, hes the one of them who had any hope to give them anymore. and it didnt work

(i also think a lot about how it mustve felt seeing the contestants all so. resigned. because bryce was like that before all this, but ever since one began he was stubborn, and didnt WANT to give up. and i think finding out that these people youd seen try so, so hard just to Handle Any Of This be SO resigned would be. so fucked up. he knew amelia when she was so determined to leave, and while charlotte seems a bit saddened by her resignation, bryce was there BEFORE that happened. he wasnt there like liam or charlotte was to see it gradually develop, and to develop that despair alongside them. all hes seen is that amelia was so determined. and that he may not have known her THAT well before, he knows shes different. he knows she Gave Up and like. GOD. and also i think abt how he mustve Felt seeing the plug for the first time because ehs the only one of them who hadnt seen it before (given its likely all the other characters had, since they casually refer to it). and given the short time frame between him getting there, and the contestants trying to pull the plug? it almost seems that that was like. the last straw. and ive never posted it but i once drew stuff abt it bc. the damage to it is noticable. and i think hes already aware liam was fucked up, but this is like. a tangible, permanent record of that on the plane. and he cares about liam, and has been grappling with all the things liams told him, but thats. thats something he can See. And i think it all of it culminates in him deciding that what hes been avoiding is doing Soemthing about all this, because before he couldnt, and then it was. an awful idea to, and then he didnt have many choices BUT to help. but now theres hardly anything to do, but he has to try. he doesnt want to give up. and it makes me soooooooooooooooooo. head in hands.)

anyway that was a LONG tangent the point is. YEAH. i think rejoining would be. very very significant for his character i dont think youre making shit up its DEFINENTLY a topic w a lot of things to discuss about it

but god. yeah it wouldve been SO nice to see him come to terms with everything hed been through before one. i think the show purposefully included what it did and ended when it did because it makes more sense thematically for it to go unresolved, because the point was that NOTHING was able to be resolved nicely because unfortunately, many things are Out Of Their Control. things COULDVE resolved almost perfect but enough things went wrong at just the right (or more fitting, wrong) time for all of that to not work. i think him no longer seeing the suburbs may have signalled more that maybe, just maybe, he could Do something to help the other contestants even if HE was Dead, that now he finally HAS a goal, if that makes sense (though i think even in the timeline of the series it still wouldve taken way longer for him to process everything Fully, they WERE only in the waiting room for probably about a day) but the idea of finally seeing the waiting room as it is bc hed finally worked through everything .... man.............. man

ik ive already said it though but i DO think it is sooooo so possible for him to heal post canon. im a firm believer that no matter what, at LEAST bryce and ameliaa get home (liam and charlotte have more room for error but i DO generally interpret the ending as them both getting home too, theres just less room for things to go wrong w amelia and bryce). and i think after everything? hed be able to heal. it would SUCK but i think hes, shockingly, in a better place Logistically for things to improve, because he has a support system, he has what hed already worked on in those 7 months, he has so much to aim for. it would be rough and take long but i think ultimately? hed be able to heal :) and its what he deserves

[deadgrantaires]

the best part of death n.ote rewatch is finishing rewatch so i can start rewatching it again 🥰

[disastersteps]

sometimes i think about how anita went from a soft bean that I used to call them by that, to a lil shit who is grumpy and tired as hell, but will be soft for you if they love you-

when they were sidestep, anita is more of a cautious person who snorts behind their hand, and roll their eyes when you're being silly. they were the type to call you out on bullshit, and often tend to talk so much with hands moving....

and when they're harbinger, they're still cautious but had gotten a little more reckless, talked less with less gesture, is way more grumpier than their past self, and like. the fact they're actively trying to avoid happiness because of the feeling of not deserving it had made them... feel less and less touched by the world.

it's hard being neets, unless someone made them remembered who they were, and how much she falls for the new anita, and anita doesn't know how to approach that despite they want that. they want it with her-

ALSO AT THE SAME TIME, WILL BE MORE WILLING TO CALL YOU OUT ON BULLSHIT IN A GENINUE FRUSTRATING TONE-

[dancinghannigram]

me, looking at pictures of men who i find attractive: me: theyre pretty .... me, gets sad :(( why , idk...... me, having a revelation: holy shit

turns out i am actually not attracted to men, i was just trans all along

[begaydodrughailsaten]

I hate when i dislike someone for no real reason

Like my step dads son, i have no reason to hate him, i love my step dad he's amazing, my step brother hasn't done anything

But the fact he sits in the living room all day instead of his bedroom just pisses me off and i have no idea why

[kamenriderw]

itssoooooo wieird bneing abnle to pOST and stuff,, iwbanna do sooo muchhhhh!!!! but lukeworks tomorrow!! ew! beforeebed tho i tgkink i wbant a fave cgharatcers pageeee (☆▽☆)

i cn restyatrt!! my tobio shrine!! o(>ω<)o

[skrmbrks]

everytime i see people who share the same interests as me despite those said interests being VERY unrelated i get unexplainably happy. like so so happy. what the hell does house md and naruto have in common... ( nothing other than we both like it : 3 )

[discountdyke]

having depression or anxiety or both can absolutely make your life extremely difficult and they are serious illnesses. that being said. i have to laugh when ppl say things like “i have soooo many mental illnesses, like i have adhd, depression, and anxiety” or “wow this person is obviously faking mental illness, theyre claiming to have ptsd, anxiety, adhd, AND depression? thats ridiculous” bc if i didnt laugh i would have to cry. i would give anything in the world to think that having 3 or 4 mental illnesses is unbelievable or an absurdly high number

[stuffedsand]

Anyways hihi. I answer my own question. For context I was introduced by my sibling and watched some videos out of order before watching the voice trailers and song trailers. Anyways let's go

First character i "latched onto" (got super interested in) was actually mahiru!! Hence why she's still one of my favourites lmao. I Love You was a. A ride. And it's what truly got me interested in milgram. She gets to share the spot with muu tho for after pain and inmf being the first songs I listened to courtesy my sister :)

Oh also I remember that when my sister showed me after pain and asked me if I thought she should be innocent I said no because "she reminds me of a classmate/neg" which. I was right. But also the funniest way to procure an opinion on a character. Iirc the real reason was that I caught Bad Vibes from some of the lyrics' phrasing but idk.

Oh and I remember watching ily and being. Concerned. She'd earned an inno since I got into the project to the end of her trial lmao.

I think I also was interested in MeMe? Though not enough for it to leave a suuper lasting impression. From what I remember the last songs I listened to were Magic and Harrow cuz I didn't have time to listen to the whole playlist constantly + was more interested in the t2 songs overall

My current favourite(s) are obvious to everyone on this blog probably. Shidou n Kazui. Im constantly realizing more reasons why I subconsciously was so interested in their characters but I'll go for individual traits that made them stick out to me

Strange to say but the reason I was interested in shidou was the death penalty thing. And the fact that he was inno t1. I thought that was hilarious from a "fictional media" standpoint that the whole fandom decided to just. Not give him what he wanted. Even if it seemed he deserved it.

I believed the organ harvesting theory for at least 2 months. I think. Which makes it funnier that he's my favorite and makes it obvious that apparently the way to make me interested is to be inherently kinda funny. Cuz listen "organ harvester" is kind of funny ok. And it was funnier that he was innocent.

After the change in theory belief he makes me unreasonably sad but also intrigued in what caused such an extreme reaction and belief. Maybe this makes me strange but hey there's a reason I shouldn't study psychology )it'd make me too powerful)

Kazui was actually cuz of the gay kazui theory pre Cat release cuz I thought that was a funny, strangely substantiated theory that I assumed Cat was gonna disprove so I spent much of pre-Cat-release spinning around the theory till it was disproven. It wasn't it actually got more substantiated imo which makes it verrrrry funny to me.

Also because he makes me unbelievably sad all the time. Like what the fuck if his murder is what I think it is that's. Tragic. Tragic and realistic and aidbsusvdaugh.augh. also if it is what I think it is I get to point at kazui and go he just like me fr. Horrible.

Also Cat has a banger mv like hooooly shit. One of the best mvs so far imo.

Fun things that both have in common is that.

1) I generally disagree with the most common theory surrounding their murder in trial 1 specifically (organ harvesting theory, cheating theory)

This, ironically, makes me more insane Abt them cuz I get alllll the time in the world to think about what I think of them myself instead of using fandom interp. Encourages critical thinking (JOKE). I also get to then see someone's wildly different interpretation and get a whole different perspective!!!!!! Win win it's like peer reviewing. I might not agree with who I read the posts of but honestly I don't care much it gives me stuff to talk, think and jokingly complain to my friends about

2) their mvs have soooo many things and small details to point out that either give you a further insight to their murder or an insight into their character. It's so fun I love going frame by frame to see small details and symbolism. Like. Down to single 1 second frames or the line colours (haruka gets my attention for this too but that's a different post) or how the expressions can be read and. Look I take literature for a subject I'm bound to be attracted to these types of symbolism and to having the ability to pick up the smallest thing and make something out of it. Hell even in half how there are some moments I can't yet fully interpret that's what keeps me invested!!!! Wanting to see what happens!!!! What the next mv will reveal!!

3) on the point of symbolism!!!!!! They have my favourite forms of symbolism actually, flowers and theatre imagery. I once spent 3 hours searching up flower meanings for an art piece for my sibling like I wasn't even invested in the series it was for but she gave me flower ideas nd I ran w it. I'm in drama club. Love for theatre imagery is a given.

4) their songs SLAPPED and no one can tell me otherwise. That's the point that's it.

5) funny point but they continue the trend of me relating to/getting really interested in, in my friends words, "the kinda fruity middle aged to old people" which was the funniest description of my favourite character tropes???

6) oh yeah they're really easy to make fun of. That's what I need in a character.

7) also kind of a. Strange. Point. But I have a fascination with characters who explore the themes of grief and guilt over what isn't technically their fault (ie. Character doomed by the narrative:"this must be the concequences of my actions") and both shidou and kazui fit perfectly into that. Shidou is mourning his family but thanks to that feels guilt over the grief he's caused others. Kazui is mourning his wife whom he believes he's, in some way, caused the death of. They make me insane.

8) continuation of a briefly touched on point but their vagueness is one of the more intriguing things to me. Most of the other characters, while definitely nuanced and vague in their own ways, feel less so compared to these two to me. Cuz like kazui's whole deal is wanting us to find his lie, so we don't truly know what's up yet. Shidous thing is so. Confusing to me in a good way. Partially cuz, like mahiru, he seems to have a bit of a warped view of reality that directly relates to his crime. Maybe it's the liar imagery, the knowledge that they're keeping something hidden, that makes me want to look more closely and interpret the smaller details. Or I'm just insane.

Yeah I'm probably just insane. I have recently made Observations that a certain mutual will be hearing me go insane abt next week. anyways I'm gonna finish my homework goodbye milgramblr.

Send me your blorbo essays and dw if it's strange or long or "cringe" because dude look at mine. I will not and cannot judge because I am insane and j accept going crazy over characters

Ooh actually. People in the milgram tag tell me who the first character you latched onto was. And then tell me how you got attached to your current favourite. +Generally why they're your favourite. No word limit give me your blorbo essays plsplspls

[ganondoodle]

you know, i had a totk thought (uh oh)

soemthign thats really bothering me about the whole "actually, ganondorf didnt like the guy appearing out of nowhere marrying a hylian and just saying yep das our kingdom now and we can mine it barren under your nose and also i got laserbeam pebbles that i totally wont ever use on anyone come join me or die just bc of all of that but mainly bc the guy brought some weird tech with him that he dont like" - thing is that ......... we see almost not a single tech thing in the past (and for that matter see nothing of the oh so perfect and peaceful paradise hyrule was before big evil desert man didnt want to join our paradise- like what is the point about making the whole point of the game be -we need to restore hyrule to this paradise it once was- when you dont even see it or get to care about anything of it)

it might sound like a weird hangup but no really, the most we see is like two servant constructs, thats it, when they 'prepare for war' im pretty sure all you see is some lightly dressed ( ... is it just me or does their whole get up look alot like native american/other indingenous people too ... i still dont know how to feel about that- kinda adjacent to some of the sonau armor, the battery one i think??, also having that look...) hylians with spears, where the heck is all that tech?? is it implied to be all down in the mines hollowing out the underground (for no real reason either bc .... theres only two sonau left and no one else seems to want use nor need the tech otherwise there should have been more traces or soemthing left of it -unless it all just magically appeared out of nowhere in mostly prime condition while all shiekah tech jsut vaporized for bs non reasons just for it to be in tha game but oh dont you see its always been there lmao- so whats the point really????)

or up in the sky as most battle constructs are and they cant get them down in time bc *gestures vaguely*

or is it intentionally kept out of view bc idk seeing an army of robots on raurus side he can send out on a whim might not make him look as oh so good and perfect as they want him to look when he already got laserbeam pebbles (most of which hes been hoarding until ONE falls into hands not under his control) ?? like it just ... feels weird?? so many battle constructs that can even be a threat to link are jsut fully functioning strolling around in the present still, why wouldnt you want to use any of them to battle gan and if they DID why wouldnt you show that (no the 3 second unicorn cutscene doesnt count bc its just .. gan and his monsters isnt it) ?? (also ... why isnt there a big like battle ground , like fine you dont have to animate an army of monsters and robots clashing but... wouldnt it be cool to have you discover a giant flat plain in the underground (that magically got put under ground like gan just decided to stroll down there to get sealed lol) and its the only mostly empty field in the game littered with thousands of monster bones and dead constructs intermingled?? just to give it all a bit of weight?? evidence that it happened?? cool ass discovery????)

(also also i cannot let go of ganondorf apparently being sooooo anti tech but then clamgan uses the shiekah stuff??? shouldnt he also be against that then or is that suddendly fine bc- oh woops sorry, forgot clamgan is actually just something, not connected to gan at all actually, i mean why else would miasma turn into malice only to turn into miasma again haha none of that is connected actually what is a calamity anyway? also im sorry to bring this up again but i just cannot let go of the ppl in the present being so obsessed with using sonau tech in every part of their life now- they just lived through an apocalypse of a barely understood strange tech but CLEARLY this other even less understood strang tech is not dangerous at all lets make CARS OUT OF IT and what theres no danger in miasma and that tech existing at the same time LIKE SOMETHING ELSE BEFORE THAT IDK SEEMS LIKE A BAD COMBO--- oh sorry forgot that ceased to exist in both the world and peoples minds for *gestures vaguely* plot reasons- why why why are monsters mining the sonanium?? they dont even work with the yiga no that is also completely disconnected we dont wanna draw and interesting connections after all- whats the point if it means nothing but to be a loot box for the player-- actually, so much of totk is just a so built around throwing you into a box of toys with no substance to it- listen i know games are kinda like toys but if it doesnt make sense and offers you nothing interesting to think about even slightly whAT IS THE POINT)