#its from 1999 too omg

[soulmvtes]

i love finding little things in books <3

[martyryo]

Happy late women's day 😼

[argumentl]

2024/01/20 aknot only Gorilla Hall Osaka - Report

I only applied for this date on this tour, so I feel super lucky to have gotten it, especially for such an iconic anniversary!

This was my first time at Gorilla Hall, but the entrance process was super organized and easy. I had quite a high ticket number, so was fairly far back when I first got inside, but I could see the stage, so wasn't too bothered. HOWEVER, there are no rails in Gorilla Hall other than the front rail! So as soon as the lights went down for the show to start, there was a big rush forward, and I pretty much found myself nicely mid crowd, only a few meters from the front, shimote of course! Happy!!

From the start there was so much fan service! Kaoru and Die standind together, Die and Toshiya standing together, Kaoru and Kyo standing together, everyone gathering around Shinya....even in the first few songs!

Die and Toshiya in particular looked...close. At one point Die stood behind Toshiya and rested his chin on Toshiya's shoulder, spoke in his ear, and after that even got down on his knees and played his guitar while looking up at Toshiya! 

Yes, I did see the other members a bit this time, haha. There was a spotlight behind Kaoru for quite some time, which would shine directly into my eyes and blind me whenever he stepped out of its beam, so I was forced at times to look elsewhere to save my eyesight 😂

Kyo was still bald, all white make up with black eyes. He looked really spooky. 

Toshiya was in his sparkly dress to start, and for the encore he wore a leopard print shirt, with the tiniest tight shorts ever. I only saw his shorts at the end when he stood up high on the truss, and I initialy thought he had lost his trousers somehow, haha (his shorts really just looked as small as underwear), but then i realised this was his actual outfit 😂 

Kaoru was in his black jacket/white shirt/waistcoat combo, looking like a total aristocrat. Blonde hair, combed back 😍 And for the encore he wore a White Zombie band tshirt! 

Kaoru was using his pink ganesa for Yurameki at the start, but changed to a few other guitars during the rest of the show. He also took off his black jacket few songs in. 

The set list was amazing, as follows:

mode of adam

yurameki

Schwein no isu

Zomboid

Eddie

Mouai ni shosu

Myaku

304 goushitsu

Tsumi to batsu

Obscure

Byou shin

Karma

Unknown...Despair...a Lost

zan

ΕΝ.

Akuro no oka

Followers

Filth

Child Prey

So many of these songs were songs that I was listening to when I first became a fan of Dir over 20yrs ago, so it was actually surreal hearing them all live together like this. Especially having just watched the newly released footage from 1999, hearing Schwein, Tsumi to batsu, Byou shin, Karma together...omg, it was overwhelming! 

And Akuro no oka! The audience was quiet for the whole song, and gave a respectful applause when it finished. It was really emotional. 

My fave part of the encore was actual during Filth! Something came over Kaoru, its almost like he became the song...he was roaming the front rows of the crowd with his eyes, but his facial expressions just exuded the MOST erotic filth! Its like he was thinking about dirty, dirty things, and it showed on his face! If I had been in the front few rows, I would be dead for sure! 

At one point I saw him pointing straight in my direction, with his head tilted and eyes half closed, but that wasn't during Filth, haha. 

I didn't catch anything this time, but I did get watered on by Kaoru, Toshiya, and Die, so Im happy! Kaoru's bottle flew straight over my head, and when I was on my way out I saw a big puddle of (real) blood on the floor where it had landed, so Im assuming there was either a struggle, or someone had slipped on the water that splashed out of it. But there was a venue staff member standing there to stop people walking through it on the way out. 

Kyo, Shinya, and Toshiya left the stage, and then Kaoru smiled and pointed at Die before leaving. The Die came over and tapped the mic, and said, 'Can I say something?' 

He gave a really emotional speech about how they have come this far due to the support they have from fans and people around them, and he acknowledged that Dir en grey will have to end one day, due to the members being only human. But until that time, they will continue to cherish playing lives and being with fans. Then he said like, 'so Im not gonna let you die before us, promise me' 

You heard it everyone, you gotta look after yourself, and keep living for Dir, and they will do the same for you!

[lettucethesoviet]

I love The Knight (Reverse: 1999) which means that I will be thinking angst about them.

So far, these are the things that I've thought about;

- Oder is supposed to be Alde, who is Oliver's sister and the fianceé of Roland. Considering that Oder died, I feel like he must've been just a tad bit heartbroken lol... Which is funny because in the epic it's reversed... OMG REVERSE 199—

- He's a spirit now, and he's dead. There must be some sort of delay from his death to his 'ressurection'. Imagine if he woke up, wondering where everyone went, having memories of the war, then realizing that he is merely a spirit, or atleast knowing that everyone he knows and loves; families and friends, are all dead. 1200 years is a long time.

- He said that's it's been a "while" that he celebrated the Knight Comic Festival, which is set on his birthday. I feel like he'd be replaying the memories of the Festival in his head during his birthday, perhaps talking to the plants and making up stories about the nature around him. I thought it'll be cool if Druvis III heard The Knight's stories via plants but wasnt really able to pin-point where he is(?). I'm sure they havent met but it'll be cute if they met and Druvis realizes idk it's not canon lol

- The fact that he calls himself as "Someone" and not "I/my/mine" gives me the thought that he doesn't think that his name is worthy enough to even refer to as himself. Sure he'll talk about Roland but he wouldn't explicitly say that HE is Roland. Though at the same time its like he has accepted it since his Monologue says that he'll just start anew and acknowledges that his past will be forgotten. Imagine being the only person that knows your beloved comrades....

- I wouldn't say he's depressed, but he's WAYY too casual about the things that happened, which means that he has already moved on, but hey, he misses them sometimes (or maybe always). In his times of solitude, he'd probably think about how things would be if he didn't die, if Oder didn't die, or just some minor changes in his life.

- Since he's a person of piety, I feel like he'd imagine his friends and family just waiting for him in the afterlife. Perhaps since he's just a spirit now, he'd never see them again. Though like I said, he probably moved on from it, and now that he knows APPLe, Vertin, An-an Lee and the others, he cares about them and wishes not to leave their side so soon. He's loyal to Timekeeper as well too, so that's a plus! We love healthy-minded characters here.

- Usually I think of the character's Insight 2 as something that's canon in their story, whether it will happen in the future, current or in the past. So to see The Knight's Insight 2, where he's bowing infront of an angel, and based by his anecdote and his past, I'm thinking that perhaps he recieved some sort of enlightenment, I mean he has Durandal, and from what I know, the one issuing the "Tap of the sword" uses their *own* sword, and not the sword of the knight (CORRECT ME IF IM WRONG PLS). But then it could also just be the angel giving him a "knighted" ceremony again as a Spirit now that he's uh, dead. He still has value as a knight, and he will faithfully do his duty. I'm so happy that he doesn't resent it and actually takes pride in it.

- Since he's a spirit now, and spirits doesn't really, necessarily eat/drink, he would probably find it filling to just see the team having fun, enjoying snacks and having drinks. Perhaps he'd sometimes think what it would be like to eat/drink again, but in all honesty he'd probably just be happy that he now has someone to talk to.

That's all I have rn...

Additional (Unrelated):

- Him and Dikke would act like parents while APPLe is the cool uncle, sorry I just like to think that Regulus and Matilda would be close...oh and Sotheby too! Sotheby would def be talking to Dikke as a second opinion! Yasss found family

- For some reason I'd think he wanted to be a father at some point but chose to dedicate himself as a knight, and now just 1.2k years later he's..acting upon it to idk, Oliver and An-an?

- APPLe is the first one he connected with deeply after a very long time. But then I fear that APPLe will die at some point and the friends/family-dying thing repeats again :(. And even if APPLe lives he would be devastated about Regulus and the others passing away.

[alexanderpearce]

ooh i would absolutely love a media rec list from you (im a different anon but 👀)

omg u flatter me.. here are some pieces of media that i really love that i consider to be somewhat lesser known outside of my circles.. i do have lots of favourites not mentioned here that are far more mainstream (my favourite book ever is, embarrassingly, still The Secret History) but it's nice to shine a light on the more niche. i'll add content warnings but they're not comprehensive because i am just going by memory. im also not tagging gore because To be honest with me that's a given.

books and plays

Hypnerotomachia Poliphili (1499) by Anonymous/Francesco Colonna; very strange book where the author (who is actually revealed in an acrostic poem in Latin made by the first letter of each chapter) clearly has a sexual fetish for buildings and architecture. cw misogyny.

Seneca's Phaedra (1st century AD); i live here. Seneca's tragedy about doomed fatal diseased love. sorry i don't have a translation to recommend but you will be able to read mine one day i promise. cw pseudo-incest, misogyny.

The Pepsi-Cola Addict (1982) by June Alison Gibbons; vanity-published in the 1980s and only existing in five libraries around the world (until i suppose its republishing this or last year), this is a fascinating and very weird little book, and the story behind it too is very sad and interesting. i have a pdf if anyone wants it. cw predatory relationships, incest references, suicide.

The Doloriad (2022) by Missouri Williams; strange and swirling little debut set in a post-apocalyptic future, some really incredible prose. cw incest.

Geek Love (1989) by Katherine Dunne; What if the mother of sideshow freaks was purposefully consuming poisons and alcohols and cetera while pregnant to engineer her kids to be attractions Would that be fucked up for what. cw incest and the ableism inherent in the sideshow "freaks" scene.

Equus (1973) by Peter Shaffer; just read this fucking play man (or watch the 1977 movie!). cw animal death

movies

Repo! The Genetic Opera (2008) dir. Darren Lynn Bousman; sorry not sorry but this is my favourite movie ever. i've seen it 17 times. complete garbage trashy 2000s comedy-horror-gore-musical. insane cast. literal genius.

Caligula (1979) dir. Tinto Brass; Do you want to watch a two and a half hour long porno filled with torture and gorgeous costumes and conversations on power. well do i have the movie for you. cw rape, incest, i know i said i wouldnt tag gore but this one does have explicit penis mutilation so.

Van Diemen's Land (2009) dir. Jonathan auf der Heide; a pretty good movie adaptation of alexander pearce's first descent into cannibalism!! my main real criticism is that they desaturated the gorgeous green and vibrant west coast to grey doomy fakeness. cw beautiful gay love

Żywot Mateusza (1968) dir. Witold Leszczyński; incredible little Polish movie set in a rural village, on youtube with english subtitles.

May (2002) dir. Lucky Mckee; literally the most relatable movie of all time to me. socially awkward (super autistic) girl has trouble with love, you won't Believe what happens next

The Lair of the White Worm (1988) dir. Ken Russell; peter capaldi and hugh grant's earth shattering gay love story... super campy phallic lesbic homoerotic vampiric wyrmesque weirdo horror. peter capaldi wears a kilt and plays the bagpipes. you MUST watch this movie.

Ravenous (1999) dir. Antonia Bird; can cannibalism represent manifest destiny AND homosexuality? find out now!

And Then There Were None (2015) dir. Craig Viveiros; Agatha Christie could only dream of writing Burn Gorman's gay homophobic character in this. transcends the book hundredfold and if you disagree you genuinely have shit taste.

albums

At Least For Now by Benjamin Clementine; just listen to this right now i mean it this shit is fucking phenomenal. incredible voice and lyrics and piano and strings.

Stygian Bough Volume I by Aerial Ruin and Bell Witch; gorgeous atmospheric doomy metal

Ludevo by Ifi Ude; Polish folk with a modern twist as well as influences from Ude's Nigerian background, songs about death and drunkenness and love and ancient pinewoods

Songs About Teeth and To The Dark Tower by Cake Bake Betty; the vibe you have created is so freaky and awesome

Juniverbrecher by The Indelicates; something something brexit punch and judy isn't englishness awful etc etc. seriously underrated.

Bath Time by Maija Sofia; super atmospheric devastating album with lots of songs focusing on specific female figures throughout history. her recent album is also great.

honourable mention to The Thick of It (2005-2012) which if you follow my sideblog you will know ive been spiralling into depravity over for months now. you may ask, if you compare my posts to what the show is actually like, What on earth is she talking about and to that i have nothing to say

[sevicia]

hi i came here bc u were in my recommended and i really wanted to know who that is in your header and i got stuck looking at art of your ocs for a bit and i wanted to say first of all they're fucking awesome i am jiving with them immensely. secondly please who is that in your header. i love u stranger have a good night

HIIIII OMG (⁠≧⁠▽⁠≦⁠) ty for jiving with my OCs and also showing me the word jiving because I'd never heard it before LOLLL x)

The guy on my header is Getian from Reverse: 1999 which is a (really good) time travel gacha game!!! He's from the Notes On Shuori update/event, which is a few patches back, but should have a rerun eventually (⁠´⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠.̫⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠`⁠) the game is celebrating its 1st year anniversary on EN reaaalllyyyyy soon too so it's a good time to get into it if you want to x) !!! Also, my header is official art :D have a good week stranger I love you too

[randomvarious]

1990s House Playlist

One of these days I'm gonna add, like, a supervolcano's worth of house bangers to this playlist, but for now, with this brief update, I'm adding one delicious morsel instead, and it's William Orbit's aptly titled "Throbjam Mix" of Fuzzy Logic's "Obsession," which features the vocal stylings of Erire.

For those who might not know, William Orbit is dance music royalty. His greatest commercial achievements may be what he did to help keep Madonna's career surging into the new millennium, with unforgettably advanced, retro-futuristic bops like "Ray of Light" and "Beautiful Stranger;" but before that monumental partnership ever came to fruition, Orbit was pioneering the UK progressive house underground with his very own label called Guerilla Recordings, which he co-founded in 1990.

And in '92, he dropped this beaut' of a remix on Guerilla, which came with all these pulsatingly hazy, digi-chemical bleeps, bloops, tones, and squelches that volleyed with some integrally lovely, zone-flooding organ work too, all of which went along with diva Erire's own vocals. And much like he ended up doing with his pop production work later on, this very song sounds pretty dang ahead of its time in some ways too. I don't really much care for what progressive house became later on down the line, but this early stuff, just when house music itself was still in its own relatively early days at not even a decade old, is tremendous. And for how dope this track is especially, it's unfortunate to only see it at ~8.2K plays, because when Erire goes gravelly and that organ hums, you simply cannot beat something like this. Such warm dance bliss 😌.

Fuzzy Logic - "Obsession (The Throbjam mix)"

Now, normally with the YouTube versions of these playlist posts, I have other songs that aren't on Spotify to add to them too, but I actually don't have any this week. However, I did do some much needed house-cleaning of this thing, because apparently a handful of songs had been removed since my last update, and that included tunes from the unfortunately overshadowed early 90s Warp Records house comp, Tequila Slammers and the Jump Jump Groove Generation, as well as a rare remix of Björk's "Isobel" by the great Dimitri From Paris. An official version of that Dimitri remix was actually put on Spotify and YouTube within the past year (OMG, finally!), but whoever put it on there must've not actually listened to it, because the thing becomes an unlistenable glitch-garbled mess at a certain point ☹️. So I'm not putting it on the Spotify playlist until it's fixed, but I was able to find that someone else uploaded it to YouTube 👍.

And this playlist is also on YouTube Music.

So this update now brings us up to 16 songs that clock in at 108 minutes on Spotify, but over on YouTube we're now at 36 songs that clock in at 255 minutes. So if you want more of that awesome underground house shit that Spotify will probably never get its own paws on, do yourself a favor and check out the YouTube one!

And here's the growing list of comps and mixes that I've used to put this whole playlist together:

The Vertical Iris (1998, ZoëMagik Records) Jackpot Presents Guerrilla by Phil Perry & Danny Howells (1997, Jackpot) Tequila Slammers and the Jump Jump Groove Generation (1993, Warp Records) California Dreaming (1994, Internal / FFRR) La Collection (1994, Fnac Music Dance Division) The Warehouse Remixes (1994, Djax-Up-Beats) Monsieur Dimitri's De-Luxe House of Funk by Dimitri From Paris (1997, DMC Publishing Ltd.) St John's Playhouse: Fierce Club Classics by DJ Dave Matthias (1997, Sony Music Special Products) Live and Rare (1998, F Communications / PIAS France) Ultra.Dance by Boris Dlugosch (1997, Ultra Records) Bakchick EP #3 (1997, Basenotic Records) Soma Quality Recordings - Volume 4 (1997, Soma Quality Recordings) Ultradance 2 by Sash! (1998, Ultra Records) Club H Vol.2 by Harry the Bastard (2000, Statra Recordings) Profound Sounds Vol. 1 by Josh Wink (1999, Ruffhouse Records) E=wMC2000: The Equation for Quantum Groove Theory (2000, EMusic) Architecture Volume 2 by Terry Francis (1998, Pagan Records) Trancespotting II (1998, Hypnotic Records) Plastic City Reconstructed (1999, Plastic City) Essential Selection, Volume One by Fatboy Slim & Paul Oakenfold (2000, London Records 90) Bakchich EP #4 (1999, Basenotic Records)

New 90s London playlist next week!

Enjoy!

More to come, eventually. Stay tuned!

Like what you hear? Follow me on Spotify and YouTube for more cool playlists and uploads!

[kawaiicherryblossomperfection]

hey sun beam realm its the mt st helens high school association she has 19 seconds to turn this off she was really sorry when she had 10 seconds to make sense and 12 seconds to rearrange everything she has no awkward encounters ever they are here to stay and ew! she has 9 seconds to turn this off it looks disgusting yes she does love us but shes going home rocket power makeout club and she has 10 seconds to go home time ok she gets to stay forever with us the real comic book character from the 1989s SUICIDe boys comic book written by desarae renee hollins and invented by 1980s SUICIDe boys for 1999s SUICIDe boys revolution thank u that was enough for now shes locked in for life wait she did include the rocket power makeup club yes she did already she has one bf brian ew! hes my bf brian and hes driving his car around makeout japan and hes going to listen to rocket power his clubs cool new design are u trying to drive a car? yes i am why are you putting yourself in ew! shes choi paranoid are you from this universe? yes i am well then help me hahha how do you know what youre doing? do u want to see it? yes i do ew! ok so shes sitting on the stick shift bitch ugly! ew! uh! hah ok so we have no time to waste ew! she lobes

ew she loves me and were going home to 1hundredforever were going home to never land woa! hoe did i get in ur car? we left a long time ago write it down! i love this part! i stopped the car u can feel it? yes u can! ew hes gonna drive faster ew! shed nervousamwritingtherightthings?itswhatyouwantokurcarstoppedokshesmineforeveritsscary?gangstanoliterallyitissoonesecondforevershegoinghomewithmenowweredrivinghometoneverlandiwouldknowwhattowritethoughprobablynotokcomehomethenitwasntmeomgitwasntmeomgnoitwasntmeitwasntmeifwasbitwasnemehialvinjerkinssantaitwasmeitwasmeitwasmeitwasmeitwasmeoksoubelievemeyesidooksouputulmaoew!uneverwritethatdidujustcoolcheckme?hahhayesididlolshedidit!lolwhosethat?omgidkthisisofuckingcoolomguscaredmdeididntdothisonpurposenoshedidntnoshedidntnshedidntnopeididntnopeididntnopeididididitonpurposewhy?bcijustdiditagainew!?ididitagain?ew!shesmineewyesiamoksowhydoulikeeme?bciminlovewithyouohoksourinlovewithme?yesiamwhydidupretendtobekeeh9?wellijusrdiditagainwsitwhywouldntilikeu?what?thatsnotwhatuweregonnasay?iknowbutyesitishowireallytalk yes it is yes its mmmhm:)yesitis so it is how she really talks? are u in amanga? no hahha im in a comic book apparently and it is bitchin ewA she didnt steal my voice no i didnt? right? no! u didnt! ok so what is happening now? are u a 1q84 manga comic book character suicide boys? yes she is! thats nor whs

thats not what she meant oh ok! so shes afraid of a little pain? yes i am ok so shes really smart? what do u want? you as my boyfriend thats it? i do love u! ok so u want my comic book dick? what the fuck? thats not funny! yes it is i know it is i laughed but that was mean ur more than just from a comic book? right? omg shes so cute thank u omg ur so fucking hot ok so why do u hate me? 1 second forever the 1989 suicide universe no i dont hate u yes i do i do fuck u bitchcool cool aporoved this message love is not a problem to stephanie soo so love on rock on ew! she loves me tew ew she doesnt love you she loves me ew! she said tew ew! he said it first whaat? hahha whaat? sorry they let me use it yes they gave it to me as a friendship ruining preaeb.m

mpresent hahha downer what the fuck bitch i love you too cutee! thank u for what? for loving me who? choi paranoid why? bc everyone else hates me oh ok well i love you too desarae renee hollins ew! ut

ra love slut ew! yes i am why did u say ew? bc being a slut is gross ok so ur a by the book person? no! im just cool ok so u cool checked urself? not on purpose ok so ur cool cchecking them? who? them? i dont know who they are why? bc ive never met them she wants to my friends and my othee voice. too ok so shes being bullied by her school james madison high school ok so shes going home eigh

right now to 1988 suicide recolution hahha thats so cute ew! shes right it is addicting to use that sene

tence damn ur going back? gwgw ew! shes right shes not going back ever! yay!!! omg ur nuts why? didnt they tell u to stop? yes but they hate me so i do what i want ok so ur going to do me? yes i am bb hahha ew! ur stupid but i love u stupid yes it was no it wasnt yes it was it cant be written out she wanted this to happen cutww

eenewphoneeverydayandweloveuforsureyes!werelovingheragainyesweareimsouthkoreanasianyay!!yesiamuforgottoaskiknowhahhaididbutujustdidnotonpurposeipromiseew!uraal

slut hahha no im not i love you i love you too ok so she only cant say dick or pussy and no dick or pussy ok so she cant say love you too? no she cant ever again yes i can and i will ok so shes going to take over the world? no my bf will ok so why are we going to mexico? he said caymen islands ok so shes nice but ur not to her ok? so we will take over the world! togetger

remember no demons, hauntings or touchings ew! shes right we cant say amen what we just did! and were going to school what shes going to school with me? princeton high school no no no princeton high school its not keeho what is your name? shes a cop hahha no i just want to know ur name! ok so ur a junkie? no hahha i just smoke meth a little bit why? bc i like its high ok so ur gonna explain ur comic book for me? sure i will ok so ur gonna kill keeho? no i dont want to kill him ok so ur blind? no! im not blind i said no!!! ok so ur not blind? nope i can see why do u hate keeho? bc i used to be in love with him but he hated me so i hate him now why? bc i wasted time on loving him when it was fake ok so u dont love me? i love u so much ok,. so u just want to write a comic book with me? yes but i also want to hang out and party with u and like have money to spend on clothes and get our hair done and watch tv and go home together and party all day but i want to focus on my comic book first it will help me sleep better and i love sleeping at all times of the day its going along now are u still here? brian yes i am ok so what is ur real name,m? why? i like to know my fathers name ok so u know im your father again but u still dont love me? are u crazy? ive always loved u and i still do ok so ur grounded hahha i am? why? bc ur being bad no im not hahha sorry im just excited to be with u i love u brian me? yes my daddy ew! u are not a slut ur just pretty and cute and normal and why are u sad? bc u were confused for so long i dont like that it makes me sad to see u that way but i love u ok so ur going to hell no im not!!! i sais no!!! ur going to hell today missy do u like aunt missy? yes but i think that she put a curse on me when? 1963

[unnursvanablog]

The Euro songs we have lost, part one.

Just like last year I have compiled a list of my favorite national finals songs that did not make it to the big show in May, in Liverpool, but have found a good little home in my currently listening and other playlists that I have. Because even if these NF can be an absolute massacre and you can end up with your heart broken and non of your favs in Eurovision it's still such a fun way to explore new music.

And yet I can resist tweeting out 'omg worst eurovision ever' every day from now and until May even if that happens because I am an adult, but more importantly I have watched eurovision every damn year since 1999 and I know that sometimes you just have an off year with eurovision and it just isn't eurovision-ing all that much for you some years. It happens. And that's fine. Because the show is still always entertaining, you can usually find at least one song that you LOVE, and then is just always next year. The show must go on.

And there are always eurovision songs that wear me down every damn year and I end up LOVING because I enjoy the performer or they were just so fun on stage. It's all fine, even if it may apear that I have not gotten a lot of favs through. I just aim at a solid top 5 and a fun show for eurovision.

Now, I don't watch or even listen to ALL eurovision NF because there is just so much time that one has. One does need to pick and choose with these things. And this is just a blog post to mourn but also talk about some of those faves that I lost.

KRUTЬ – Колискова: Although I personally am not a huge ballad person, KRUTЬ had my favorite song in Vidbir before the show started and the one I wanted the most in Liverpool. It's a quiet, haunting lullaby in Ukrainian and is just absolutely beautiful. I may not reach out for this song that much on my playlist atm, but you know, it's an awesome song.

FIINKA — Довбуш: The song that actually became my favorite song, or like my most played song from Vidbir, was actually Fiinka with this rap-folk song. I never had any hopes of this winning since rap-folk won for Ukraine last year and Ukraine is not very used to sending the same example many years in a row.

OY Sound System — Ой, тужу: Traditional/folk mixed with edm is generally something that I really like in Eurovision, and just in general too, so of course I was going to enjoy this. It doesn't reach the same heights as GO_A's two song and it's nothing new for Vidbir so it was never going to win. But it does go off! It's fun. This is my jam.

Jerry Hill - When God Shut the Door: The song that I and almost everyone in the eurofandom that I am apart of thought this going to win Vidbir. Lots of emotion in this one and a really cool song, but I personally found it oddly staged. Or I wasn't really feeling it on the stage.

Neon Letters & Maiko - Tokimeki: There was a cute little Japanese citypop song and I really couldn't help but root for it, even though I always had my doubts that it would win, or get out of its semi. It would be something significantly different for Estonia and also just Eurovision itself if it had been chosen. But then it was put in a box on the stage and sort of didn't have the energy it needed to get out of the semi.

Meelik - Tuju: There were a few blissful days right before the Estonian final that I was starting to think that this song could very well go all the way to Liverpool for Estonia (if you're going to have a Eurovision with lots of guys in bands why not them, huh ? the best dudes in a band that were available) but it sadly didn't happen. This song has been stuck in my head since it came out. The chorus is such an earworm. And I also just really enjoy the indie looser aesthetic that the band has going on.

Chérine - Ça m'ennuie pas: what a happy little synth song (I love 80s synth and really can't get enough of it) and it was in French which made it even more cute. Like 80% of the fans thought it was going to take the ticket to Liverpool but it was strangely staged on the night itself (which I can't find a video of) which may have been why it didn't work, although why it didn't win or even come second is still a mystery to me.

Jone ft Silkie - Ekko Inni Meg: This song immediately got stuck in my head the moment I heard it. And really has been there in the back of my mind ever since. It's samples some other song, which Ateez (a kpop group) has also used, and it may not be the most original song there is and the staging didn't maybe have the impact it needed and I would absolutely love for the woman who sings in the song to be with Jone on stage. But damn this is such a fun, catchy track that I couldn't help but root for it. Probably one of my fav songs this NF season.

Eline Thorp - Not Meant to Be: A sleeper hit for me, but then there was just something about this song or maybe just the singer that was so charming, that it just wore me down. I was quite pleased with it making the final.

Ella A - Waist: This song was much better on spotify than it was on stage imho. Ella did have some cool choreo and attitude on stage and you can see that in a few years she will be a really cool performer. Maybe a little more confidence was needed to sell this whole thing to an audience, and I actually thought this suffered from over-choreography like a lot of songs this year. The slomo effect as I call it. It just doesn't always work. But as I said the song is great on spotify.

Vicco - Nochentera: Going into BenidormFest this was my fav song. It is a good radio pop and the video works well for the song but I really always knew that it probably wouldn't be strong enough on stage to go all the way. It's just not that kind of song. And I was right about that. It felt a bit weak on the night and didn't stand out when it came to staging. But it's great on spotify.

Megara - Arcadia: this would have been something completely new and exciting from Spain, which is something I'm always up for in Eurovision. It is fun when countries take a little risk. It was cool to have something like Megara in BenidormFest and the song was well performed and managed to not be too choreographed or anything like that. This was just enough. And it was fun!

Paola & Chiara - Furore: I need you all to pretend to be shocked that this was my fav, ok. Even though Sanremo just ended just yesterday and the songs have not even been out for a week, this song has completely taken over my life. On Thursday, Friday, Saturday and then this morning I have woken up with this song stuck in my head. I just wake up singing this song. It was everything I could have wished for tbh. Never had any chance of winning Sanremo, but it won my heart (which is a much higher prize tbh) and gave me the biggest show. This was a show! It was camp, they were all sprayed in glitter. What's there not to love.

Levanta - Vivo: This lady has had a song in Sanremo before, in 2020 which was the first sanremo that I watched, which I absolutely loved. So I had high expectations for this song. And while don't think Vivo is better than Tikibombom, I think it manages to pull off a similar vibe which I appreciate. It was never going to do amazingly in Eurovision, it was never going to win Sanremo, but that doesn't matter. I adore it.

Colla Zio - Non Mi Va: This song almost woke me up from the dead towards the end of the first night of Sanremo, after we had just listened to so many boring ballads and slower songs. The song sounds so much fun on spotify and it was a fun on stage. Although the performance there was a bit too out of sync and they do that thing I think is done a little too much in Sanremo… which is just wandering aimlessly around the stage. Or maybe I just want my boy bands to be a little more in sync and dance-y after listening to kpop for so many year. But they still got better and better with each passing night.

Colapesce, Dimartino - Splash: Here are other performers who have been in Sanremo before with a song that I really liked, the year Måneskin won, called Musica Leggerissima. I can't make up my mind if I enjoy Splash more than that one tho. I don't know what it is about this song, but I get a bit of an Abba feeling from it. And maybe that's why I like it. But they are also very charming performers.

Lazza - Cenere: At the bottom of my top 5 in sanremo but it was still the song that I most wanted to go to Eurovision, out of the ones that I knew had a chance to go to Eurovision. This song is just so current, it would be a little different in the eurovision landscape and would stand out in the competition, just like Soldi did.

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episode two - hanging by a moment:

• writing “rip(ond) kat landry” before i even knew she got shot was so galaxy brain of me btw

• back to the question of if present elliot lied to kat about not seeing alice since colton’s funeral 🤨

• and why was baby elliot just hanging out by the pond

• oh the pond actually sent alice back to the present?? interesting

• i don’t love this new chill elliot. i need him to be just like 20% mad scientist about this

• ugh now he’s just being RUDE

• elliot i was about to let you have rights and you’re actually being very judgmental right now. it’s not a good look on you.

• yeah elliot they haven’t jumped! kat wasn’t lying to you!!

• “what do you mean jacob?” “elliot. my mom.” please can we get our priorities straight!!

• oh now he wants to listen.

• “kat will be fine. she always is.” litchrally dead in the pond

• oh mystery shooter is carrying a very unconscious and very bloody kat away from the pond 😰

• mm yes soil symbolism

• colton flashback 🥺

• “there’s nothing like landry soil” and now she’s gonna have to SELL IT 😭

• dell is just a little too calm about not knowing where kat and alice are

• “oh that’s right bc dogs aren’t supposed to time travel.” lmao yeah that’s what i’m saying!!

• the pond just plays fast and loose with its rules

• alice setting this man STRAIGHT!!!

• “i know i ruined your life, but, you know what, that was an accident. and you leaving? that was a choice.” YEAH GET EM

• i will say sadie laflamme-snow (alice) is KILLING IT this season already!!

• “the giles to your buffy” callback ):

• but she don’t NEED you anymore (yes she does)

• oh kat is doing… not well.

• septic!? 😰 in 1814!? 😰😰 you know she dead

• wow this man does not care that she is dying okay

• kat going all “tis but a scratch” to get out of this bed to find alice

• 1814 almanacs 🫵🏽

• uh yeah you’re gonna pass out girl you have NO BLOOD

• who’re these people

• alice lying to dell about her mother just like 1999

• “for a newspaper editor, communication is not her strong point.” dell stays reading kat for filth 😭

• i’m actually still confused by what’s going on with the farm.

• but spencer from school thinks the landrys should go province-wide with something so. idk must be good business

• brady no one wants to go to minnesota right now kat is MISSING

• not an internship… brady you and me have two very different definitions of summer fun 🫠

• i assume these two 1814 people are the great great whoever landrys?

• but why is this man SO aggressive. you literally shot a woman and now you want nothing to do with her!? should have thought about that before pulling the trigger dawg

• oh okay lady’s kinda aggressive too 😳

• dell: ‘you’d think your mom would want to spend as much time with you before you leave!’ also dell: ‘anyways imma head out.’

• “since when am i the only person who has to check in around here? i can come and go as i please just like katherine.” okay slay dell so true.

• the way she said that was so satisfying too. like the tone of her voice. (euphonious, according to google)

• landry woman running to elliot with her problems? likely thing for her to do.

• she was leasing the fields for 20 years?! that was good business.

• she wants to turn the fields into a communal farm! smart!

• i LOVE this idea actually!! teaching young people how to farm and also supporting local charities !!

• (kinda what she already does, apparently. crops for kindness which they didn’t really expand on in s1)

• WWCLD (what would colton landry do)

• i don’t want to get to the part of the season where we see baby elliot getting treated badly by his dad 🥺

• dell, your “subtly” will never cease to amaze me.

• “don’t overthink it, elliot, love is complicated enough.” 😉😉😉

• finn 🫵🏽

• he’s just a good boy 🥹

• “finn, don’t you dare follow me.” lmaoooo

• omg we’re back in 2000!!

• oh baby kat is gone! doesn’t live here anymore! g’byyyyeee

• “alice i want you to leave” dawg why is elliot so mean in both decades right now 😭

• oh!

• WHAT HAPPENED TO BESTIEISM

• alice don’t listen to him! it’s not your fault!!

• alexa play anti-hero by taylor swift 😔

• the pond is a messy bitch bc WHY ISN’T ALICE GOING ANYWHERE

• kat is aliiiiveeee

• like very alive. whatever that lady was cooking up in the molcajete did the trick 😮‍💨

• oooh the 1814 people are arguing upstairs 👀

• “i won’t do it, tom(?)” “your father and i had a deal.” “a deal with the devil.” 😳👀

• a couple of hours ago she was passing out in sepsis, now she’s jumping out of windows?? okay

• uhoh she’s been spotted

• cyrus goodwin?? taking her to jail!??

• MOLCAJETE LADY ON A HORSE!?

• okay that’s kinda coded….. are they related or are they gonna fall in love 😗

• here comes baby elliot tail between his legs 😤

• you better apologize to your bestie rn

• “i tried really hard to live in the present but i miss this. i just feel like this was the last time i was truly happy.” you and me both, sista.

• (i was only 2 in 2000 lol)

• “it’s like i’m shipwrecked” 🥺

• baby elliot is so ALONE 😭😭😭

• “you still have the memories, right? and we still have each other don’t we?” bestieism is BACK

• “it’s an mp3 player. it’s amazing, it holds like 25 songs.” PLEASE

• of course you don’t hate her baby elliot. it’s okay, everyone knew you were going through something

• is this the horse from the fields earlier? does someone bring this horse back and forth into the pond 😭😂😂

• susanna AUGUSTINE!? HELLO

• so really no one leaves this town huh.

• “do you think i’m going to kill you? why would i heal you if i were going to kill you?” i don’t know you’re being kinda aggressive right now it’s a little kill-y vibes

• oh i was right it is thomas (tom)

• “he says he mistook you for a deer.” mm yes i can see the resemblance

• yeah kat you can’t just be a woman in 1814. that’s illegal

• “i just feel bad for dell. she’s completely alone now.” “she won’t be forever, trust me.” 🥺

• alice apologizing to baby elliot for telling him his future and present elliot still used that as an excuse?? come on

• there’s a lot more jumping back and forth in this episode with not very much distinction on my end (ie ‘baby’ or ‘present’ or ‘past’) and i feel like it could get confusing. sorry.

• anyways back in 1814

• “if i’d known you were going to make a break for it i would’ve brought you your own clothes. it’s smart to dress like a man while traveling.” LOL but jeans and a flannel is basically the landry farm uniform 😭

• “especially with the war.” “war? oh. the war! bc it’s 1814 and 1812 was two years ago which is when it started.” jesus, kat.

• like i didn’t also say “oh yeah. bc it’s 1814…”

• had to pop a goog on the war of 1812. but im back

• “americans! trouble, am i right?” KAT PLEASE 😂😂😂

• “best of luck finding your friend. […] it’s alice, isn’t it?”

• me, gasping: wait why am i gasping i know how she knows this

• “i thought as much. you mentioned the name frequently while you were fighting off the fever.” idk something about the way she said that makes me think they’re gonna fall in love

• (they won’t 😪)

• “how do you know jacob landry?” AH

• HOW DO YOU KNOW JACOB LANDRY 🫵🏽

• “you called out for him as well.” first and last name tho?

• “do you know jacob landry?” exactly kat!

• SHE KNOWS JACOB LANDRY

• AND HES JUST A BOY?????

• HES ON LANDRY FARM?? WITH HIS FAMILY???

• “i thought you had to find you friend. alice.” susanna can’t a girl have more than one need!

• not in 1814 she can’t

• although… good on her for not taking a stranger directly to a little boy.

• but jacob is happy 🥺 and doing well 🥺🥺🥺

• not to andi mack this, but susanna turned around 👀

• okay but what’s the plan if we do find jacob. take him back to present day?? and 40 year old kat and 65 year old dell raise an 8 year old?? he can’t go back to 2000 or we would know! he would be in the present! we just leave him in 1814 and he’s forced to know the fate of his own future that’s also his past ????

• i don’t know i won’t overthink it

• anyways susanna turned around and kat was OUTTIE not suspicious at all

• oh my god the pond took kat and alice back at the same time!!!

• “oh it’s okay i got shot” grey’s anatomy training 😪

• “we’re gonna heal” YEAH YOU ARE 🥺🥹😭😭😭

• but this is only episode two. something tells me we are not going to heal

• we’re going back to lingermore! and alice is going with us!

• dell doesn’t like estate sales but tbh i think she would clean up at one. like imagine all the vintage stuff at lingermore??

• “someone from back then knew you well enough to paint you and call you ‘my katherine.’ someone who must’ve cared about you.” i’ll say nothing 🙂

• elliot?? they just let anyone into lingermore

• i know why kat lied to elliot about where she was… but kat. come on. you know that’s WORSE than telling him you jumped right.

• and he ALREADY KNOWS

• “well at least he was there for you.” “he wasn’t, actually” yeah not getting any brownie points on your end either elliot 🥴

• not the gun she was shot with! why did evelyn have that!

• oh elliot is having flashbacks too. he was at lingermore when The Thing Happened too. and maybe alice?? i think i heard her name

• now dell is here?? i thought she didn’t like estate sales

• dell is on a roll with that land proposal. she’s not playing around with her farm 😤

• yeah where are they going to put that giant painting of 1814 katherine

• okay okay little pieces of foreshadowing being dropped i see em

• the same edition of ‘the founding of port haven��� that colton owned that fell apart, written by elliot’s ancestor samuel… that feels like a surprise tool that’s gonna help us later

• “hear what?” “ah, nothing.” “…” “nothing.” “fine.” father-daughter bestieism !! yep yep yep

• (okay let me let you in on a secret. i was getting some... vibes… from the beach scene and the goodbye scene between baby elliot and alice earlier and i’m HOPING TO GOD they don’t make this weird. so i’m going to call out the bestieism when i see it bc that’s all it is.)

• ((never mind that i have been talking about kat falling in love with an augustine ancestor in 1814. that’s different and you know it.))

• alice is right, elliot! figure yourself out! do you wanna know about the time travel or not!

• so present elliot WAS lying to kat and alice.

• “it was the worst summer of my life” “and you blamed it all on me.” i’m back to being mad at him 😠

• alice, think about it. if you knew you went back one more time would you have taken a seven month break? 🥴

• “i think this needs to stop. i jus- i can’t be involved with you! or your mother!” omg elliot think about your words there are people here 😭😂😂

• he said 🧍🏻‍♂️

• how did sadie not break there lmaoooo

• “col, they said no.” i processed this is three separate gasps 1) dell talking to colton, 2) colton(‘s ghost?) being there next to her, 3) the city saying no??? to dell landry????

• tell kat! no more secrets!! yes, dell you’ve always known this!

• the horse is back. (pete’a, the horse is he’a)

• phoebe “this cat is my mother” but it’s dell and this horse that is colton probably

• but also probably time traveled from 1814

• not kat buying the gun that shot her 😭

• dell bringing kat a snacky at workkkk 🤧🥰

• now is kat actually writing the book or did she just make this up. bc i think that book would be great

• nooo dell chickened out with all the farm lore talk and she didn’t talk to kat about the land!!! what happened to no more secrets!

• old neighbor i do not trust you. stay away from alice 🤨

• oh he’s small town gossiping about the declined land proposal and how they’re gonna lose the farm 😀

• but…. doesn’t the land belong to dell? what does the old neighbor leaving and the new neighbor not picking up the lease have to do with dell not owning ?? it??? besides the fact that she’s losing out on that income? can’t she find anyone else in town to take over the lease???

• also why did the town council tell her no!!! isn’t former nemesis monica on the town council!? is she about to be nemesis monica again

• oop alice is not going to minnesota.

• she doesn’t wanna leave dell alone 🥺

• randomly had to look up how old sadie laflamme-snow is and her birthday is almost exactly a year after mine! she’s 364 days younger than me! crazy!

• also that’s wild bc why is she playing a 16 year old. and why did i get mistaken for a 16 year old today.

• anyways back to the show

• ooh dell has a surprise for alice from the estate sale with five minutes left in the show i’m sure it’s not gonna be important

• oh! through the looking glass! that’s sweet

• “your sequel.” now hold on….. has dell connected dots?

• bc yes baby kat loved alice in wonderland… but present kat also explicitly states that alice is named after 1999 alice…. so. 🤨

• chyler leigh’s hair grew (or they gave her a longer wig?) between the beginning of this season and this scene…

• “what do you mean you just took [your last trip]? i told you, alice, you never went back.” uh oh. about to find out elliot is also a liar.

• “you never said anything about this.” when was she gonna tell you!! you were in 1814!

• kat and elliot are never gonna get anywhere if they just keep omitting truths to each other

• the time jump journal that i said was suspicious last season IS SUSPICIOUS there’s at least a whole page more of jumps???? ELLIOT why did i ever trust you

• OHP MAMA MAD

• “i didn’t lie. i just chose not to share the full truth” OKAY i thought i was being generous with that lying by omission thing UGH MEN

• i don’t like when mom and dad fight!!

• oh my god

• sorry i couldn’t accurately live blog that scene bc i was SHOOK THE WHOLE TIME let me go back.

• okay starting from the top

• sorry i’m getting lost in it again. chyler and evan are sooo goood

• elliot maybe if you LISTENED she could TELL YOU WHY SHE JUMPED AGAIN

• TO FIX THE FAMILY

• “i am the one who lost jacob. i did. and i have had to live with that guilt every single day since then.” SHE ACTUALLY LOST HIM TWICE LIKE HOW SICK IS THAT

• “i have a chance to actually bring him home.” WHICH HOME WHAT YEAR

• “when has that ever worked?” elliot has a point. hate to say it.

• “look what it did to you! what it did to me!” TO YOU!?

• oh that’s literally what kat says next lol. that’s how you know it’s good, natural writing.

• “you made our breakup my fault. my daughter’s fault!” YEAH BITCH STFU

• “you know what i think? i think you just wanted me to love you.” SCREAMING OH MY GOD AND THE WAY SHE SAYS IT!!! YES CONDESCEND THAT MAN KAT!!!

• “you wanted me to focus only on you, and when i couldn’t do that, you bailed!”

• “i left because i couldn’t deal with colton’s death and your involvement in it” WHY WOULD HE SAY THIS TO HER

• “colton was like a father to me. but you got your five more minutes, and i didn’t! and it kills me.” WHO IS IN THE WRITERS ROOM THIS SEASON

• “you set out to fix that too kat, but you didn’t fix it. you broke it.” UGH

• “you just watch me fix it.” YOU ! JUST ! WATCH ME !! FIX IT !!! BITCH

• GOD DAMN THAT WAS A GOOD SCENE WOW

• i don’t know how they’re coming back from that, y’all!!!! might have to jump ship on katelliot because 😰

• whew. okay let’s get on with the last two minutes of the show 😮‍💨

• alice reading into the looking glass

• kat is going back to 1814. maybe to kill susanna so elliot is never born idk

• she wore period accurate clothes this time lol

• JACOB?! did that boy not learn to stay away from the pond 😤

• and kat is gonna chase him bc she also did not learn anything about being alone as a woman in 1814

fin.

📺: the way home - season two

season one recap 🩵

episode one - the space between:

• watching the ‘previously on’ like i didn’t just spend the week recapping it

• thought this was jacob and dell but it’s just another little boy and older lady

• “it will always take you where you need to go.” 👀

• picking up where season one left off. kat and dell were literally JUST healing and now where back to murder boarding

• oh we’re just immediately jumping into the FROZEN pond

• it didn’t work!

• kat you know that’s not how it works !! just get out before you freeze!!!

• oh god now alice is in the pond

• and YEAH we’re BENEATH THE ICE

• ALICE

• KAT DONT YOU KNOW CPR

• CHEST COMPRESSIONS

• oh god alice is back okay

• so much just happened oh my god

• a note for kat on elliot’s door ):

• me and elliot squabbin the next time i see him 😤

• (did anyone else’s school use the word squab around like 2015?? 2016??)

• “if i’ve learned anything these last few months it’s the worst thing to waste is time.” i gUESS!

• now how can a dog time travel 😭 the pond is SICK for that

• “the pond is done with us, allie. we have to be done with it.” we’ll see

• they’re making a pact to stay in the present

• time jump! seven months laterrrr

• hello?? DECODE PARAMORE?!?!

• and kat is jogging through the woods like is this twilight???

• passed elliot’s (still empty) house. hayley williams is right, how did we get here 😭

• ofc kat is listening to decode she’s an emo millennial

• if you think about it this kinda is like twilight. she’s gonna jump off a cliff next probably

• dell landry: bee keeping age!!!

• where’d the horse come from? 🤨

• “hey, boy. who are you?” oh so neither of us know okay

• oh! it’s the last day of school!

• not spencer from school pulling up

• and maybe zoe from school? hard to say

• alice is leaving!? oh going to the states with brady

• “that’s the thing about shared custody, eventually you have to share.” rip /:

• ugh r*chel mention

• “i am screening your next guy! these last two, they’ve been so very disappointing.” LAST TWO!?

• oh she meant brady and elliot 😂

• “brady only disappointed in the later years. we don’t.. we don’t talk about elliot.” yeah still too soon formerly nemesis monica

• lol so new guy leaves (suspiciously 🤨) and kat is like “okay fiiine i’ll take over the herald and hire myself back!! if i must!!!”

• and good for her!

• oh someone’s died 😰

• evelyn goodwin??

• oldest member of the most prestigious (and wealthiest) family in port haven. an institution, dell says!

• linger?more?

• oh elliot has the AUDACITY to send post cards 😤

• yeah, alice you’re right to roll your eyes at him!!

• we’re getting so much landry lore!

• but also more evidence for my jacob is his own ancestor theory

• the landrys were a founding family of port haven with the aforementioned goodwins

• dell talking about HAPPY MEMORIES OF COLTON!!!! 🥹

• we’re throwing a summer partyyyy

• landry ladies kitchen dancing 🥹

• ruined! by brady calling 😤

• oh so kat and alice are on the same wavelength as me. no wonder kat knows so much about her great great whoevers

• they stuck to their word, no pond!

• “yeah, well. elliot’s not around anymore to give us those pearls of wisdom.” “when are you gonna let that go?” no, no. hold that grudge, alice.

• “elliot promised that he would always be there to help, and when we needed him the most […], he bails.” just like the avatar 😪

• can’t help but notice the herald is brighter now that new guy is gone.

• now i know brady isn’t trying to blame KAT for the shared custody thing

• are we ever gonna be introduced to rachel bc now it’s getting suspicious

• “alice is no distraction, she’s the glue” she really is huh 😭

• ooooh evelyn goodwin put the herald in her will???

• kat is going to ✨lingermore✨

• (i’m guess that’s the goodwin estate?)

• “no wonder you turned the herald into a weekly, you’re always here” okay dell kinda ate with that one 😭

• “i’m going up the hill” me: kate bush?

•but also: *eerie music change* “i’m going with you.”

• okay now i’m scared of lingermore

• oh something has Happened here…

• sorry, evelyn saved everything to open a museum and her son was just like “eh oh well. gonna sell.” ??? hate men.

• oooh but now the herald gets it all!!

• now kat has the entire history of port haven at her fingertips! finding jacob has literally never been easier.

• oh something Sinister has Happened here… 😰

• alice! step away from that pond! you promised your mother!!

• oh she’s just coming to say goodbye ):

• girl back up that’s literally how you fell in the first time!!

• oh it’s LITERALLY how she fell in the first time? the bracelet hello???

• i do enjoy that when i gasp now it’s actually stuff i am surprised about

• is dell gonna have flashbacks of her own of this place now?

• she’s just sad about evelyn ):

• you know. this was kinda how dell’s future was looking before kat and alice showed up…

• yeah how is kat supposed to get all these boxes back to the herald

• UM

• why’s this portrait look just like kat 😀

• “MY KATHERINE, 1814” HELLO

• what did evelyn know 👀

• aww the jewelry dish

• we are immediately back to kat and alice keeping secrets from each other 🫠

• she’s a runna she’s a track star 🏃🏻‍♀️

• oh! note’s gone from the door! is elliot back???

• omg he’s back

• “well kat landry!” “oh… elliot augustine…” okayyyy

•god, kat might as well have just said “you look hot” that would’ve been less embarrassing 😭

• (and he does, she was right.)

• why is elliot being weird

• wait. just realized this man LEFT in the MIDDLE OF THE SCHOOL YEAR??? elliot there’s a TEACHER SHORT- wait they’re canadian…. is there a canadian teacher shortage??

• um but still. in the middle of the year, dawg??

• okay elliot when have you ever “imposed” on the landrys be so for real

• omg kat get up girl you are not playing it cool rn

• “i will never understand why she took elliot’s travels so hard” bc they’re besties??? (also bc that’s her stepdad but we apparently are keeping that a secret)

• dell didn’t notice that kat and alice were literally time traveling but she DID clock kat and elliot and that is, once again, so southern of her.

• “i haven’t seen you wear the bracelet in forever! i was beginning to think you lost it.” hehe about that…

• no actually WHY is elliot so… off i’m starting to not trust this… like go back to the caribbean if you’re gonna be like this

• “somebody had a glow up.” lmao rita!!

• “looks like elliot had what the kids call a hot boy summer” RITA!!!

• oh so alice didn’t know about katelliot and is really just mad bc elliot is her bestie!!!

• “and besides, there is no us, really. right?” ELLIOT YOU’RE THE BIGGEST DUMB DUMB THERE IS

• fumbled the bag

• he didn’t even say GOODBYE!? god what is with these men

• “great party, dell.” 😭😂

• “you better get out there and get a lobster before rita pilfers them all” lol okay great callback

• “[the farm] will always be here waiting for you.” 🥹

• fireworks for colton 😭😭😭😭

• flashbacks for everyone 🥺

• i miss colton landry

• ugh how long are kat and elliot going to pretend they don’t love each other

• alice is connecting dots

• colton and baby elliot 🥺 the club house is always there for him to have a space 😭

• “don’t waste any time, kid. because it’s never guaranteed.” and elliot thought that was a joke?? i-

• *branch snaps* “did you hear that?” WHO CAME BACK 🫵🏽

• “i saw that look between you and elliot. are you two together?” alice you’re far too late

• alice you didn’t ruin anything, sweetie 😭

• kinda rude that i grew up an hour from the beach and never went to a summer bonfire beach party in high school. (i didn’t go to parties in hs who am i kidding)

• oh! we’re being haunted by our past! cool.

• an elliot mixtape!!! IN THE CLUBHOUSE

• aww elliot’s here.

• with a STRONG candian ‘sorry’

• oh they met alice after the last summer cookout… interesting

• i thought “traveling” was a euphemism. but he actually meant time traveling lol

• “i’m sorry i didn’t say goodbye. i just knew if i saw you, i wouldn’t go.” OKAY AND WOULD THAT HAVE BEEN SO BAD

• just sitting on the bed nothing crazy

• SCREAMING !!!!!

• grey’s anatomy training 😏

•making out with all for you playing in the background. gonna cry actually.

• elliot apologizing right away 😭 okay there’s the awkward guy i missed

• “i’m not your problem anymore” WHY WOULD SHE SAY THATTTTT

• ALEXA, PLAY EXHILE BY TAYLOR SWIFT

• the sad part is, they could just go right back to how they were. like elliot is so willing to be that sounding board for kat.

• but. he blew it. super hard. complete buffoonery.

• “welcome home.” damn she’s cold

• baby nick!!!

• ugh elliot was gonna make his move RIGHT before kat met brady 😭

• so i guess spencer from school and zoe from school are??? no more???

• alice is still hung up on nick 😭 girl he’s old let it gooo

• why are they making her sing rn

• now look you’ve made her get stage fright again. (it’s definitely not the ghosts of her mother’s past coming to haunt her…)

• kat and dell finally getting the mother daughter relationship they deserve??

• is the house called lingmore or lingermore… i need to look this up

• the subtitles are telling me lingermore. dell’s accent is just thick lmao

• oh! see, dell thought evelyn reminded her of herself too.

• “i wanna build back our relationship. i wanna get to know you again.” yup yup yup 🥹

• kat has also noticed that dell is talking about colton and jacob in a positive light now

• “no more regrets, only resets” dell would kill on facebook

• ugh, i know Something is going to happen and it’s gonna ruin everything we accomplished in this scene

• um why are we back at the “did you hear that” scene 😰

• WHO IS THAT!?!?? 🫵🏽

• colton???? new guy?????? JACOB!?!?!?

• oh my god

• the blurry polaroid!!

• alice and kat sharing their secrets! season of healing!

• kat don’t let her manipulate you like this!

• okay or do. whatever.

• wait elliot send that text 😭 you gotta be the one to fix this, dude.

• neighbor!? who is this man???

• they better not be trying to give dell another love interest 😤

• could be elliot’s dad tho? but i doubt it

• suspicious buyer of the neighboring farm????

• the new buyer isn’t going to lease the fields sooo what does that mean 😅

• dell is going to be losing money?

• AND WHOSE HORSE IS THIS

• don’t tell me that horse jumped in the pond 🤧

• mother daughter pond jump 🤪

• “it’ll take us where we need to go” what could go wrong! 😀

• BABY ELLIOT!?

• has present elliot been LYING to present kat this whole time??????

• if i got sent to 1814- hold up who is that

• not the gun

• HELLO

• grey’s anatomy training (dying in a horrific way)

• um. okay 😀

fin.

[hanniiesuckle17]

Chapter 13: Bean

A/n: omg its so busy this month. but im still committed to this schedule so help me so!! how are you guys this week? anything cool happen to you guys this week? a lady with a macaw came into the shop this week so that was cool! anyway! Tag List is Open <3

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Warnings: Cursing

WC: 1.2k

Summary: True love has never come easy; life makes sure of that. From unrequited love to missed timing, does anyone have any hope at finding success- let alone pass History at the same time? All these questions leave young people wondering….will they still love me in the morning?

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Third POV

Y/n’s cellphone buzzed-vibrating itself dangerously close to the edge of the table she sat at. The girl was still waiting for her tutor. Granted, she was almost fifteen early. With nimble fingers she flipped over the phone. A smile played at the corner of her lips.

Seeing the picture of her dad perked up her spirits, which even with her amazing sessions with Changmin, had been quite low lately. Quickly she answered the call. “Hi dad! What’s up? How are you?”

The deep melodic sound of her father’s voice felt like a comforting blanket, hugging her. “Hi, Bean!” Y/n smiled hearing the only slightly annoying nickname. The longer she was away from home and her parents she missed it. “I’m doing okay. Just got back from a doctor’s appointment with your mom.”

“How is she?” The momentary silence over the line told Y/n all she needed to know. Her grin was soon replaced with a tight lipped smile. “She’s having a good day. No need to worry.”

“But-”

“But, the doctor says it’s advancing quickly. He’s going to put her on some new medication. It’s still in trial, but he has hope.”

Y/n leaned against the palm of her hand. A sharp pain had begun to sprout at the top of her head. Experimental meds were not cheap- as she was already aware of. “Well-...that’s good! Just send the bill my way and I’ll take care of it, Dad.”

“Y/n, you shouldn’t have to pay for this.”

“Well I’m not going to just let you go back to work. Dad- you’re retired. Plus, who would take care of mom?” The silence form her father immediately made her regret the tone of her words. “I’m sorry- I didn’t mean to snap. I’ve just been really stressed with all the stuff with mom, and school, and I’m supposed to be meeting my tutor in a couple minutes.”

“You got a tutor?”

Y/n let a small smile crack her grim expression. “Yeah! His name is Changmin. He’s really smart and really sweet. A little shy-but he’s warming up to me.”

“Ji Changmin? Didn’t you go to school with him? His parents were lawyers or something. They lived up the block?” He laughed, a sound that Y/n had missed from her father. “How is he? He was quite the handsome boy last time I saw him. Is he still handsome?”

Y/n rolled her eyes. Her dad was always trying to get her on a date. He always said he wanted Y/n to find her Prince Charming. “I don’t know, Dad! I guess. Yeah- he’s kind of cute. But I’m paying him to help me- I’m not going to date him!”

He chuckled. Y/n could picture the way his eyes crinkled in the corner. She heard a voice on the other end and some scattered noises. “Hold on- your mother dropped something.”

The girl waited for a moment, phone still pressed to her ear as she looked around the coffee shop. She took a sip of the drink she ordered a while ago, still finding it pleasantly warm. Y/n had never been into this café before; too busy with classes or photoshoots. She found she liked the warm ambiance and the light streaming in through the big glass windows she sat by. Even on a cloudy day like today, the café felt bright.

“Sorry about that, Bean.”

“No-it’s okay I get it.”

Her father sighed, Y/n hearing the exhaustion he must feel. “Have you tried talking to Jacob?” She shook her head, momentarily forgetting her father was not sitting in front of her.

“About mom? No. I don’t want to bother him. He’s busy enough with his thesis.”

“What about Jessie or Julie? Who’s the guy you’re rooming with? The one who blew up the microwave we got you?”

“Eric? I think it’s pretty obvious why I haven’t talked to Eric.” The bell above the café door rang causing Y/n to look towards the entrance. Her eyes met the searching gaze of Changmin who sent a lopsided smile her way and waved. “Dad, I’ve got to go. Changmin just got here.”

“Okay, Bean! I love you! I’ll send you the bill when I pick up the prescription.”

“I love you too, bye.”

Changmin slid into the seat across from her, looking at the phone in her hands with question. He was silently hoping that the ‘I love you’ he had heard was directed towards an elderly aunt. “Sorry for being late! Who was that on the phone?”

Y/n shrugged, slipping her phone into her bag and trading it for her tagged journals and textbooks. “Oh, it was just my dad- checking in. Family stuff.” The boy noticed the brief moment of tension in her shoulders but ignored it for fear of diving into something too personal for the state of their relationship.

Changmin flipped his pencil between his fingers, watching the beautiful girl’s heavy shoulders sink and her eyes dart over pages to find where they had left off. He had always admired Y/n’s happy demeanor, similar to his own, but now he was starting to really get to know the girl. Now he wanted to know what was causing her the pain she was trying to hide. 

“Hey....do you wanna hear a joke Kevin told me?” She looked up at his words-slightly confused.

Y/n’s lips pouted a little before she nodded, setting down her pen and turning her full attention to the boy with the crooked smile. Changmin looked down before meeting her soft gaze. 

“So what’s the most terrifying word in nuclear physics?” Y/n’s brows furrows and a nervous smile crept onto her lips. She knew nothing about physics but she could see the glint in her tutor’s eyes and she couldn't help but wait for his answer expectantly. “Oops!” 

Changmin’s looked at her with a big grin, fingers reaching up to push his glasses higher on his nose. He watched the slow evolution of a bright smile work its way up her face. Soon her eyes crinkled with laughter. 

“That was so bad!” 

“Blame Kevin; he’s the physics major who told it to me.” 

Y/n’s gaze shifted down back to the textbook but a small chuckle left her lips. “I don’t think you need to borrow jokes from Kevin. I think you’re funny already.”

As she moved her focus up, there was something about the way she looked at him that made Changmin’s stomach twist into knots. His mouth became dry and it became hard to swallow. The look faded faster than it had appeared.Y/n sent him another brief look before opening her notebook and writing something down. 

“Changmin, are you blushing?” The boy’s hands flew to his cheeks which he found unreasonably hot. “Cute...”

“I-I’m not blushing! My drink is just hot okay!”

“You haven’t even ordered yet.”

“Shut up-okay!” Changmin kept pushing at his cheeks, hoping that would help calm the heat. Y/n pointed to a section in her book and the two began to discuss it. Quickly the pair of students were wrapped up in a conversation about history and how the Italian renaissance was totally not boring at all; the book just sucked at explaining it. 

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[alcalavicci]

Episode two thoughts!

Pros:

that space shuttle set is fuckin' gorgeous

Ben does insane shit just like Sam does!

the basement continuation of the Project in a Calavicci basement!! I wrote about Al doing something like that in my fic Arlington.

OMG BETH (and the callback to her in front of a open car hood lmao)

Janis lives in Pasadena. I'm also going to point out that 1) she is an astrophysicist and 2) Pasadena is home to the Jet Propulsion Laboratory. I'm also also imagining her looking up so much to Sam when she was little, being influenced by his being a physicist and talking so much about the stars, that she goes into that field 🥺 She would've been middle school age or so when he disappeared, if we're still going by that Christmas 1999 picture.

I love that we got to see Samantha Stratton. Obviously got the love of flying from her dad lmao

Overall, this episode felt more cohesive and more like a regular QL episode. This show is starting to find its groove.

Cons:

Addison. ADDISON. Mmmm. We finally got the question about her ring but I have a feeling this relationship will be slowly built up until Ben finally figures out they're together. Sam and Al took a while to build up too over the first season.

I'm still getting Donna vibes from Addison but at least she isn't like that around other people like Ian. Also, what's going to happen six months from now?

Not enough time spent on the leap, too much time spent by the Project meddling. I'm with Janis, they shouldn't have used Beth like that, especially since Magic hadn't seen her since Al's funeral (!). That was dirty. And breaking into Janis' house?!

Let's say Al dies early-mid 2021, and Janis immediately retreats. It's possible Beth also hasn't seen Janis since Al's funeral. Makes me think Janis was working on something with Al before he died, and Ben is taking on Al's mantle more or less in this search for Sam. But I'm annoyed that it had to be so hidden, you know? What was going on behind the scenes here? Did the government give up on finding Sam past a certain point, while Al, Janis (and later on) Ben continued the search?

Also where are the other Calavicci daughters. I'm sure they'll get name-dropped at some point but yeesh.

[soymilkenjoyer]

no one asked but heres a list of my fav horror/creepy movies of all time. yes i have questionable taste.

The Ritual (2018): went absolutely buckwild when the monster appeared on screen. coolest design n i like movies that have a folklore influence.

Ginger Snaps (2000): watched this in the walk in fridge of the pizza place i used to work at while i was using a blow dryer to unfreeze the fans lmao. convinced this movie influenced Jennifer’s Body (also very good imo lol)

Creep (2014): very slow build unsettling movie about a guy who hires a man to film a documentary for his unborn son. i think about this movie way too much lmfao. the second one is good as well but i prefer the first one

The Blair Witch Project (1999): very nostalgic movie for me, it was the first horror movie i ever watched at like.. 12, 13? watched it in the dark inches away from the tv n nearly shit my pants. still need to watch the scooby doo version.

The Call (2020): okayy so i was pretty high when i watched this so i was a bit confused by the twists n turns but once everythings revealed clearly. omg. wild. love. time travel elements but not reaaally time travel. idk its fucked go watch it

Tusk (2014): Listen.. Liiiisten.... lmfaooooo ya. literally cant tell u how many people ive shown this movie to and ruined their night. if u dont like body horror this is definitely not for u.

Train to Busan (2016): i love this movie so much but i cannot watch it unless im already sad bc i cry like a baby. love the characters, the suspense, n the zombies r sick. but ouchie

[surpriserose]

Chris can u pretty pretty please fan cast X/1999 🥺🥺🥺🥺

I hate this i hate that i woke up and was like yeah ive got ideas >:(

Kamui is timothee chalamet everyone's favorite edgeboy and nothing else kamui is just all edge here hes not allowed to develop as a character or be nonbinary sorry i got attached to agender kamui so much

Fuuma is everyones second favorite edgy boy Robert Pattinson who is literally giving it his all and thats probably too much so honestly? He can probably pull of fuuma theyre both weirdos

Kotori probably still dies but there are so many cringey romantic flashbacks with her and kamui as kamui is training (in a montage set to like imagine dragons or something) so like fuck it lets go with kaitlyn dever the dear evan hansen lady again she can get her check and get out

Hinoto oh god im trying to avoid spoilers for these but like....im actually putting reese Witherspoon here because i remembered who i wanted for karen so BUT ANYWAYS they do it its split its every bad DID movie youve ever seen im so sorry

Arashi okay i have a vision here this time they swap arashi and soratas genders arashi is now a dude and sorata is a lady for pretty much no reason but omg sword? Lets make arashi a man so they can be another stoic edgy boy for the collection. I think they get simu liu fress off the marvel presses and he gets absolutely nothing to work with because they looked at arashi and were like okay theyre just 😐 100% of the time and thats theyre only deal

Sorata is awkwafina because they do let sorata be comic relief but also thats all they are now but also theyre not funny at all </3 except theyre also kamuis new love interest 🥺🥺🥺 and they kiss at the climax where the power of love saves the day and everyone hugs it out and like idk they solve climate change. Also they let sorata be bi but its in blink and you miss it stuff like the shit they pulled with loki and everyone calls it amazing representation

Karen is anya taylor joy and they cannot handle her being a sex worker well AT ALL she has to be saved by motherhood to nataku 🥺🥺🥺🥺 where she quits her job and like idk starts a daycare or some shit in the epilogue

Subaru god i just want to cast nick Robinson from love simon again sorry hes typecast as milquetoast white gay to me which is what they make subaru his entire personality is pining after Seishirou like hes not even really kamuis brother figure hes just some guy here :(

Yuzuriha and aoki dont exist sorry they have to make cuts somewhere </3

Nataku is brianna hildebrand because when you suggested the hollywood nonbinary is a cis girl with a buzzcut she came to mind because she was negasonic teenage warhead in deadpool so xyqvzu1vziwjs they probably let nataku be nonbinary but they dont say it and probably use she/her pronouns more than half the time and they definitely 100% have karen call them her daughter at some point

Seishirou is armie hammer hes got experience with predatory age gap gay relationships after call me by your name so hes getting typecasted now too and because timothee chalamet his former co star is on the cast kamui...kamui x Seishirou becomes popular online :(

Kanoe....and this is the big one...kanoe is scarlett Johansson who is managing somehow to whitewash harder than the rest of the white cast. I think they keep all her sexy dresses and flirting with ppl and shit but like...and this one hurts...they make her a predatory lesbian stereotype with satsuki and shes the big bad irredeemable villain they kill to solve climate change or whatever and then satsuki marries yuto and they live happily ever after in a big old nuclear family

Satsuki is kristen wiig basically just being cheetah from wonder woman 1984 all over again and its worse this time and shes basically just there so kanoe can be a big old evil lesbian to a cishet woman and they definitely make jokes like just because i have short hair doesnt mean im a lesbian 🤪🤪🤪 and everyone insists this cant be homophobic because they made seisub canon and thats gay so!!!

Yuto is here i was gonna cut him but hes satsukis love interest and he definitely defects out of love for satsuki and he wants to kill kanoe to get her away from satsuki and its portrayed as really heroic. It doesnt matter who he is he sucks so like lets go with chris evans. Also they make a ton of aquaman jokes.

They cut the rest of the dragons of earth sorry

Other points

They completely cut all the references to shrines and stuff like sorata being Buddhist and basically just make it a standard magic system EXCEPT for arashi because they didnt whitewash them which ends up being worse than if they never tried at all

I do think m night shyamalan would kill to direct this

No one dies except kanoe and maaaybe fuuma if fuuma dies he redeems himself right before the end so its so sad like think kylo ren or some shit

Takes place 100% in new york

Add your own to make it worse :)

[claredanko]

TALK ABOUT THE AESTHETICS OF THE HAUNTING

omg omg ok so i did an entire project on this and the way i framed it was in regards to how the reception of the haunting changed over time. its aesthetics and the way they were talked about upon release vs the way theyre talked about now indicate a greater trend of change in horror aesthetics and whats considered to be "artful horror" the movie pulls from a lot of aesthetic trends that were big in 1940s horror and "womens films" (mildred pierce, gaslight etc) like slow pacing, black and white film stock and more generally falling in line with the restrained tradition of cinematic horror. that is, movies that focus more on the psychological aspects while using minimal special effects. the haunting didnt do too well with critics when it came out bc it was considered too old fashioned (same thing happened with the innocents 1961) but BECAUSE it followed the restrained tradition its actually become a well received movie compared to its counterparts from the time bc of the fact that its aged really well and is a genuinely good piece of psychological horror filmmaking. it utilised a unique kind of filmstock that exaggerated shadows, a prototype lens that messed with the dimensions of the picture was used AND the set had ceilings built in to increase the sense of claustrophobia. all these aesthetic choices came together to enhance the horror going on and its a major reason why the film has been re-evaluated by critics. what also helped was the terrible 1999 remake which forced ppl to revisit the original and reconsider its legacy. as time has gone on and we've seen different aesthetic trends pass through horror we're constantly evaluating and re-evaluating what kind of horror is good and artful and what isnt. a general conclusion can be made that "good horror" is the kind that ages well and bc of the aesthetic choices made in the haunting, its considered good horror in the modern day when horror ages badly much quicker depending on the aesthetic choices made

[ashitomarisu]

Final Thoughts: The Aquatope on White Sand (AKA It took me way too long to summarize my feelings to properly praise this damn anime)

Let's be real, I have no idea how Anime America overlooked this, given it was in the Summer 2021 lineup; unless she did watch but left it in the middleground. Then again, was this available in Australia?!

Oh gosh, do I have so much to say about this series other than being a rare gem left unpolished by a bunch of other anime titles that overshadowed its potential. Yeah, I said it.

While the concept didn't seem that interesting at first, the story behind Kukuru and Fuuka felt engaging (once their friendship gradually builds later in the first season). Not to go into much spoiler territory, you have one who has a dream to keep a dying business alive (inside an aquarium), while the other gave up her idol career (wait for it...) to do something different with her life. (Did I mention this was taken place in Okinawa? You can tell the animation team were dedicated to getting the culture and vibe as accurate and appropriate to the area).

In fact, the theming of this anime felt unknown until Episode 12, when I kept remembering Kukuru seeing the two maternity books, which I left out the spoilers, thinking this would come back later in the next season. Unfortunately, that was not the case, so now I'm begging to know if a follow-up sequel movie will happen. On the other hand, "life" seemed to be the main theme, as there were so many hints dropped, from new lives coming to fruition, and old ones passing on, but told in such a genuine, pleasant pace.

As for season 2, this was a massive whiplash transition with changes on the horizon, especially for Kukuru dealing with the loss of her original dream and adapting to new challenges. Fuuka also deals with developing a new personal goal that becomes her dream by the end of the series.

[Enough with my thoughts on the story; how about the characters?]

The supporting characters and cast were enjoyable in their own ways, but Kuuya...OMG he had me going. His default nature is mainly aloof, and shy towards women, but mention alcohol and he's a complete 180. For basically most of the series, he barely gives a shit about his job, but once he transfers to Tingarla, that mentality starts to disappear.

However, no one hit me harder than Fuuka herself. Even before starting the watch, I did some research, and going back to what I said earlier:

YES, FUUKA MIYAZAWA IS VOICED BY AN IDOL, WHICH IS IRONIC AS HELL.-Here comes the Aqours references all over again, but I don't care because Lantis was also involved with the music.

(You have five seconds to stop read--TOO LATE).

Finally, someone else I can appreciate that isn't Riko Sakurauchi; and no I don't hate Riko, but RKK doesn't have a lot of main roles from my knowledge.

So, when I found this out, I immediately put this on my watch list as "HIGHLY ANTICIPATED". Yes, Fuuka was a delightful character, even if at first she didn't seem so confident in taking on a new path. Rikako, in my opinion, did a solid job with her performance.

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(Time to wrap this up before I get caught too deep)...

Overall, The Aquatope on White Sand, despite not being as spectacular at face value, it is one anime title that deserves more attention. If you're one for environmental topics and need something more on the chill side, give this a shot. It is still available on Crunchyroll at the time of this post.

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Hopefully y'all enjoyed reading my final thoughts on this series. My apologies for the late entry; personal reasons got in the way. With that, this concludes the anime watch for April. Next month, I have something really obscure yet beloved to experience.

(If it weren't for Saberspark doing a review on it a while back, this would have not been happening in May. Let's just say, we dial the clocks back to 1999...turn off the lights, lock the doors, get your headphones on, hide the kids and witness the story of one CHEEKY LITTLE HAMSTER).

(UNTIL NEXT TIME, HERE'S HOPING SENPAI NOTICES YOU, BUT NOT WHAT YOU'RE DOING BEHIND THAT DOOR).