#its been a couple months now dude 😭 let it go

[sttoru]

it is CANON suguru has NO tattoos and he NEVER will

the way we all didnt give a fuck 🙏

[mandalhoerian]

last words on moth to a flame.

oh god i kept sleeping the whole day away on and off this fic really drained me and now i'm literally done with it i feel so empty. (if you dont know what im talking about, final part to ghost to its haunt is out)

like moth to a flame (as a series) is the first project i've completed EVER and i'm feeling so great (even though half of it was shameless porn) but also it's done now and idk what to do with myself hhhhh

no joke i've written a whole novel. the minimum words for a novel is 50K and:

It feels SO WILD.

Thank you so much for seeing this through with me, all the support and being patient with me as I scrambled to finish everything!

More blabbering thoughts below the cut for the final huzzah (i am giving this fic a send off after all. ur getting a huge author's note)

moth to a flame was the first leonxreader fic i'd written and no joke, my first smut too. looking back i was really writing it for ME lmao, practicing and playing around with leon's character and everything.

i am lucky to have it blow up this much (thanks to that one tiktok account who recommended fics you have my heart) because it t came out relatively early like right after re4r release. i received incredible comments on it. like PARAGRAPHS and whole essays picking it apart and appreciating the details and i never got around to answering any of that because i didn't feel deserving of that kind of praise. I've never gotten attention like that before and i felt unworthy of it? I didnt feel it was anything special, leon isnt a new character there are better works out there,

but i get that fics for re4r leon were being put out SLOWLY and mine just happened to be on the better side of the spectrum since i started working on it way before march when the remake came out and had months to revise and edit, so that's why it's much more superior to lamb to the slaughter and ghost to its haunt which are dopamine-fueled, weeks-old projects barely beta-read basically running on concentrated inspiration (and i've been dealing with cholecystitis for months waiting for surgery through it all. so it's really been a roller-coaster ride) 

to this day i have no idea why both ended up to be 25K words each dude 😭 i just wanted there to be a story i guess? like, when people said they wanted more in mtaf's comments i just wanted to deliver a decent plot and have a strong background on how the reader had ended up in a situation like that with leon, and things just branched out from there.

i took so much time on them because I FREAKED OUT over it being slightly popular. you guys know. lmao . its all i talked about on ltts notes BSDSJDS

by the time they came out though, attention and interest had fizzled out majorly, like, anons who were begging for a sequel did not come back after ltts dropped I CLEARLY remember (after getting what they wanted from me) AHAHAH but i did deliberately shoot myself in the leg with that one, i am AWFUL with expectations, so it was between "what the hell, let's go low-ER" and "let's go out with a bang"

i think i did get back on track A BIT with ghost to its haunt, but still, it's its own thing, you know? i did say it'd be a good ending, so it has a good ending... in moth to a flame standards.

this series ended up to be a choose your adventure type of story. it's up to you how it ends. if you like angst, just accept it ends with moth to a flame and reader and leon are done and go their separate ways. if you don't want to settle with that and want the story to continue, you have a dark romance with a doomed ending with lamb to the slaughter; and if you like a kinda hurt/comfort fluffy bittersweet conclusion instead, ghost to its haunt is for you.

So yeah. It's really over.

Thank you so much everyone. It's been a pleasure and a great couple of months. If you want to come talk to me in the asks or whatever about the series, you're more than welcome.

See you next time in potential new projects!

[cigaretterry]

i just... i really hate men.

theres this guy i hooked up with like a fucking year ago now and it went... its so complicated to explain but just it didnt go well and the fall out after was rlly bad and emotional and he treated me rlly shitty.

anyway we ended up talking about it and apologized to each other and agreed to move on (multiple times... bc we, but especially him, seem to be unable to fully let it go smh). we agreed to just forget it and act like it never happened, again multiple times. and the last time we talked about it we said THIS was gonna be the last time we're done putting it to rest we're fully going to be normal w each other and he said he wanted to be friends.

but he just still... cant treat me like a normal person. hes either flirting with me, or avoiding me and acting awkward. im just so tired of it being weird. ive tried rlly hard to forgive him for the past and feel like i finally have now and try rlly hard to be normal and friendly and get along, but i feel like he keeps us in this cycle of weirdness.

one thing that irritates me (but also flatters me ngl) is that he acts jealous anytime he perceives me to be flirting with another man. a couple months ago i, according to him, said "hi" to another guy in a "flirty tone" and it turned into him accusing me of wanting to fuck that guy IN FRONT OF HIM. we started arguing in front of this poor dude 😭 which is is just so ridiculous i cant even wrap my mind around it.

last week im talking to the same guy he accused me of wanting to have sex with, and the guy i hooked up with walks into the bar we're at. hes just glaring at us from one seat over and the guy tried to say hi to him, but he was extremely rude and just kept glaring at us and making nasty faces. the guy asked him to come say hey and he said "no." and just kept glaring and making nasty faces in a super obvious manor. the guy i was talking with said "this is weird... im feeling rlly uncomfortable." then got up and left. then the guy i hooked up w came over to me and hugged me and asked if that guy and i had been talking shit about him (like girl why tf would we be talking about you) and proceeded to hit on me the rest of the night.

yesterday he came into my job and i went to give him a goodbye hug when he was leaving (which we almost always do when we see each other) and he made a screwed up face and said "you and your hugs..." but not in a joking manor he seemed genuinely disgusted and annoyed and then gave me the most reluctant hug in history as if he isnt the one initiating the hugging half, if not most, of the time. like. okay.

[isimpoveryou]

max verstappen x reader

fc: lily rose depp

{𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓}

Is Red Bull Driver Max Verstappen finally moving on from Actress and Model Y/n L/n with his now new beau Kelly Piquet

Is actress and model Y/n L/n and Red Bull Driver Max Verstappen have finally called it quits?! You heard us folks our favourite couple confirmed that they have called it quits for months before this picture was everywhere on the internet.

Not only that now Max Verstappen new beau has been posting pictures of him with caption "I'm glad to have you @maxverstappen1" by the pictures of Max Verstappen and Kelly Piquet a lot of fans has been speculating that Max Verstappen was cheating at Actress and Model Y/n L/n with Kelly Piquet. Here are what both Max Verstappen and Y/n L/n fans had to say.

@cherrycolay/n So you're telling that this dude been cheating on my wife WITH HER?!?!

@max.verstappen NOOO MY FAV COUPLE 😭

@livelaughy/n bro wtfff if i was mf max verstappen i wouldnt fucking cheat on THE Y/n L/n. Like if i was him i would have already have gotten on one knee.

@f1_maxv1rstappen i love max but not cool not cool at all

I mean us enews aren't all suprised at all because a few months back in december Y/n L/n tweeted "maybe i was the fool thinking that you were the one for me" following with tweets "what happened to jolly holiday" with also a tweet that made the rumour spreads "Am i not enough for you?"

With Also Y/n's close friend who had been hinting that the couple was over with close friend Bella Hadid, Kendall Jenner, Iris Law, and Maude Apatow paparazzi pictures bringing chocolates, pizza, flowers, etc to Y/n L/n apartment in NYC and not only that Kendall Jenner posted a picture of both her and Y/n on a her instagram story with caption "My baby deserved the best".

Well I guess no more wholesome pictures of Max Vertsappen and Y/n L/n together. But Congrats to new couple Max Verstappen and Kelly Piquet

yourinstagram ✔︎

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yourinstagram just enjoying my time in paradise and minding my own business

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y/nfan02 its the "break up glow up" for me

yourinstagram for real tho because like those tears really helped my skin and eyelashes.

y/nfan04 so true

y/nfan07 she really said "Let's make the girls and gays scream"

maxfan03 literally marry me maam, i would get on my knees just for you

yourinstagram sound like someone i knew

charlottesiine Y/N M/N L/N 😭🤣

kendalljenner YOU DID NOT

bellahadid I'm just gonna sit and watch

lirisaw get the popcorn everyone

maudeapatow you go girl 😌

yourinstagram stories

maxfinsta replied to your story

Having lots of fun huh

y/n

Still can't get over me huh 😳

max

Look can we please just talk over coffee. I really need to talk you really bad, i need to explain.

y/n

the day i fucking found out you cheated on me already explained everything, verstappen.

max

God you could be a little brat sometimes. How many times should i tell you that it was an accident and that i love you and i don't love Kelly.

y/n

you should tell me that till i'm already 6ft under ground. Oh and also if it was an accident it would have been a one time thing but it wasnt at all.

and verstappen...if you really fucking love me you why did you do it?

max

I don't know...

y/n

Goodbye Max

you've blocked this account

[lunarvir]

hey whores, i srsly dont know how to write smut💀💀💀💀 BUT I WANT SOMETHING LIKE THIS TO BE WRITTEN AND IM TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE TO WRITE IT😭 its like also so fucking short. i really dont know how to write sex scenesss

Step-bro Tetsu

TW:smut, step-siblings relationship (sorry for bad grammar english ain't my first language😭)

It has been already about 5 years since your mother passed away. your dad had been seeing this girl, surprisingly she seemed nice she was also a single mom with a 17-year-old son. You and your dad decided to move in with his girlfriend and her son in Tokyo, living in a house with the one and only Kuroo Tetsurou he had a bad-boy energy but after living in with him for a couple of months already reveals that he's quite a sweet dude, he'd always make you feel intimidated who wouldn't? He was tall compared to you, he had this weird hair that makes him hot for no reason, and of course, he plays volleyball you have things for volleyball players, ok?. It sucked for you to have him as a stepbrother if he wasn't, you probably already made a move.

"Y/n sweetie could you call Tetsurou for dinner?" Your stepmom asked you, "yeah sure!" You went upstairs to his room knocking at his door "Tetsu dinner!" You were annoyed and already hungry but they made a rule 'ALWAYS need to eat dinner together.' It was so stupid you sighed, knocking louder at his door him still not saying anything being so done with him you opened a small crack at his door, his room was dark having a small light source it was his phone he was wearing his headphones having a blanket over his legs to his waistline, you didn't think any more about it, you guessed that he was just watching a movie or something so you rapidly opened the door and threw his volleyball that was laying on the floor at him "hurry up dinners ready-" revealing him with his cock out 'He. Was. Watching. Porn.' You thought, you quickly apologized to him closing the door shut. You were just standing there and thinking about what just happened, he was big you thought, thinking more about it the door of his room opened "oh- uhm dinners ready.." You stuttered "alright" he replied walking past you as if you didn't just catch him jerking his dick off "you aren't coming?" He asked you "oh- i-" he walked back to you grabbing your hands and placing them at his semi-hard cock whispering "felt that? You bothered me so later you'll have to finish that for me, hmm?" Letting you go he gave you a smirk and went downstairs.

After having a totally nice and not him trying to touch your big thighs under the table dinner you both went upstairs and he pulled you into his room "so now, take care of me will you?" "Isn't this wrong Tetsu?" You nervously asked him "so what? It's not like we're blood-related" after that, he placed a rough kiss on your lips making you moan trying to push him away while his kiss was getting deeper until the both of you were sitting on his bed. Breaking the kiss to get some air there was a strand of saliva connecting your mouths "come on wanna taste me? I know that you have been watching me shower last week" you tried to reply to him but he cuts you off with him saying "oh shush, it's fine. it's fair I've been masturbating to you some times, like earlier." Making his way to take off both of your shirts and him kissing you all over.

[v-hope]

i am. in literal. shambles.

just a heads up, many typos comin thru.

n e ways. i LOVE u omg im not kidding. pls marry me.

HOW DID U EVEN COME UP W THE IDEA OF BELONG?!?!? LIKE- sis udek how attached i am to this fic!!

as ive said many times before i relate w yn sO SO MUCH... so reading belong gives me so much hope that one day ill have everyth figured out in my life too.. dk how.. but i will.. just like belong!yn

and this fic is so so wholesome... a guy who hated yn's entire existence ended up falling so so hard that he ends up having a family w her i mean????? i dont have words to express how much i love this

its the first series i got into, the first smau i ever read bc for THE LOVE OF GOD i couldnt find a good smau before this?!?! and as ive said this multiple times, i love how positive yo blog is, i love how u share lil things w us :D and how are aLL yo fics just super great maAM😭💕💕i love reading anyth signed by v-hope😌

but anyways. epilogue. 2.0. i still remember how i had a dream once of belong couple having a baby and i told u and i was like i needit so i mean.. i cred myself for this baby part kudos✌

and CAN I JUST TAKE A MOMENT TO APPRECIATE HOW CUTE HYESEONGIE'S NAME IS??! how do u find such classy korean names bc i cant ever (even lee sungjin is like whew a classy man comin thru) but yea i. loved the name. kim hyeseongie. wow.

okay and from what i get yoon and miyoung are living together and my heart went💖💗💕💞💓💜❤💝🧡 bc 🥺🥺🥺🥺 [i think bc he said "she's actually crying" like he wouldnt know otherwise??]

and eXCUSE ME JEONGGUK WANTS TO MEET HIS ARIEL'S CHILD LIKE HOSEOK PLIS LET HIM GO🥺🥺 ITS HIS CAFE AFTER ALL🥺🥺

but wait in one update yn said that jk is her fav boy but that changed to tae after that and now hyeseongie.. so he's no. 3 now??🥺🥺

and the pics u used just gave me a bigger baby fever like duDE I HAVE A CARRER TO MAKE STOBBIT.. esp the one where hyeseongie is sleeping w a bear... HE LOOKS SO CUDDLY ALEX

and when seokjin said "as his godmother everyone would expect you to" bITCH IM THREWW😂😂

tae teaching hyeseongie art---😃🔫🔫🔫 [dont ask me to not bc HOW CAN I NOT?!?!] and im w namjoon on that. it really is sO DADDY🥵 "come collect yo thot" yea good think is i am your thot kim tae😏

yn. van. gogh. could. never. yn how could u even think the other way round- ion geddit??

but yes. with that. its officially over. not met crying, nope. literal months of screaming and refreshing yo archive around the time u usually post whenever id be up and crying and going like :O after the angsts... ill miss this era :(( but also, its has been an abso pleasure to be on this journey w you so thank you miss alex to take out time and give us this fic from your "somehow sweetheart brain" bc wow ive never felt so attached to a fic. im :D rn.

i promise to stick around and read anyth that u post bc u are fuCKING AMAZING😍😍

woah this became too soft nsbjwjfb okay imma sign off before i kiss u thru the screen mskwbkjf

loads of love and well wishes to you. sorry this got super weird and long🤧 and all the best for yo finals💕💕

ily uwu🥰 (🧚‍♀️)

i think i am the one in shambles bc of this ask oh my god 😭😭😭😭💕

idek how i came up with it, i just remember staying over at my best friend’s one night and then the next morning on my way back home my mind just went !!!!!!!!!!! although the story was quite different at the beginning lol.

aw, i’m glad you can relate to her and i reallyyyyy hope you get to figure your life out as well. no rush tho<3

for real tho, if you told taehyung at the beginning of the story that he’d end up married to y/n he would’ve 🤢🤮 but look at him now. in love as fuck, married and with a babie 😭

i didn’t know this was the first smau series you got involved into and i am so honored wtf 🥺 ahhhh, thank you so much for appreciating my writing, it means so much to me 😭💕

omg yess, i remember your dream! back then i already knew i would give them a baby in the end so i was like 👀 don’t spoil aNYTHING ALEX

you have no idea how happy you appreciating the name hyeseong made me ksñslsñs. i looked through so many names and i wanted one that sounded kinda elegant (?) but with a cute meaning and one of the meanings for hyeseong was ‘blessing’ and i was like yup. this is it. bc that’s what he is to y/n and tae 🥺

miyoung and yoongi have not moved in together yet but they are very serious and stay over at each other’s pretty much all the time so. they kinda live together anyway lmao

don’t worry about gukie, he met baby bear later that same day and was there to support his pretty mermaid like the ride or die he is 😌 and lmao i mean tae and hyeseong are y/n’s entire world like she said so 😬 (but shh, don’t tell jk)

ksñsksñsks sorry about the baby fever, if it makes you feel any better i gave myself some baby fever while looking for pictures to use 😹

tae is so excited over having a lil one to teach art to 😭 and babie already loves watching him paint so that can only make him happier. and wbk joon won’t let him live with all the daddy jokes he’d been saving for this exact moment in life 🥵

van gogh could truly never, no one could ever compare with tae’s family 😔

ahhhh, honestly i don’t even know what to answer to the last part bc i’m just so emo over it 😭😭😭 i’ve said it a million times but thank you SOSOSOSOSO MUCH for sticking around and always sending me this kind of long detailed asks because they make me the happiest istg 😭

so yeah, thank you so much :( honestly :( 💕