#its almost embarrassing to post this

[chapispng]

going back to my roots 😔,,,

[potato-lord-but-not]

Do you ever think about the fact Will might see your other art of him since he commissioned you???

everyday and it scares me

[oceanwithouthermoon]

aiura def has a photo wall with hundreds of pics of her and her friends..

everyone is in a few but its mostly the psychickers and chiyo...

[moralcandy]

first chip jrwi drawing‼️

[iridescentmirrorsgenshin]

do you have an analysis on Alhaitham and Kaveh having no family in sumeru, (haithams grandma, kavehs mother going to fontaine) so they only had eachother? So their falling out must have hit harder-

Hiya! Thank you so much for the ask!! <333

I have some analyses on Alhaitham and Kaveh being each other's home and family! There's quite a few so I'll be brief with the synopses here as I don't want to bombard you hahaha <3 I have discussed the idea of Alhaitham being the ideal companion/family for Kaveh in an analysis of Kaveh's 2023 birthday letter; the motif of 'home' and what it means for Kaveh and how Alhaitham factors into it; as well as in the relationship between Kaveh's mother and father and how this parallels with Alhaitham and Kaveh's relationship.

In terms of Alhaitham and Kaveh's argument, I've discussed Sumeru's concept of the academic family and how Alhaitham and Kaveh's argument served as the dissolution of their found family, as well as an analysis of their argument, specifically from Alhaitham's omitted perspective. I have also speculated life for the two post-fallout, mostly from Alhaitham's perspective as Kaveh (as usual) is more open in his character stories.

You've highlighted a really key aspect of their relationship which haunts me - they met each other after the respective loss of their own families. Kaveh just said goodbye to his mother as Alhaitham enrolled in the Akademiya, just after his own grandmother passed. This passage described in Kaveh's character story 5 describes this, and then him meeting Alhaitham within the same passage.

Kaveh is described to have 'wishful thinking' regarding his and Alhaitham's friendship, in that, where he initially believed that their views aligned, despite the reality they have differing approaches to life, this isn't inherently a negative thing, as it can lead to new philosophies. Kaveh didn't want to believe that their differences were impossible to surmount, and instead that they complimented each other. Perhaps Alhaitham thought so too? They both agreed to work on a joint thesis together, with this conveying the implications of forming an academic family in Sumeru, with Kaveh trusting Alhaitham in picking a topic that highlighted both of their strengths - which ended up being a project revolving around language and architecture; two subjects which Kaveh now believes to exist on opposite sides of the mirror. Initially, this was to demonstrate the good that could come from balancing these seemingly opposing fields.

Although, it would inevitably come to be that problems arose between them when the differences in their philosophies became a point of contention. The two's previous harmony became misaligned when the assertion that their respective viewpoint was 'correct' over the other. When Kaveh tears up the thesis, he effectively ends the relationship he and Alhaitham built together, as well as the prospect of their found family. Alhaitham, in turn, removed his name from the thesis due to Kaveh's ending of their friendship.

After this, Kaveh graduated and threw himself into work, chasing his ideals, effectively distracting himself - both from the loss of Alhaitham, therefore his loneliness, and from the potential truth that Alhaitham revealed to him about his guilt being the cause of his incessant altruism. Contrarily, Alhaitham's life after this point is devoid of detail, only that he became the Scribe and moved out of his grandmother's house into the property that the Akademiya gifted him and Kaveh for the progress of their abandoned project.

Kaveh describes meeting Alhaitham as one of the most pivotal moments in his life in his hangout, and in A Parade of Providence, he describes their meeting as when his life began to go downhill - indicating, rather, to the consequences of their inevitable falling out. Alhaitham considers Kaveh as one of his priorities in maintaining the way of life he seeks to maintain, and although he is more reticent than Kaveh, in that his inner thoughts are concealed from the player, an instance that stands out to me that their argument personally affected Alhaitham comes from A Parade of Providence. This is when Alhaitham comments on the contradiction of Kaveh's motives, in that he expresses he has bad luck but insists on drawing lots, despite the fact that Faruzan offers to split the points between them. After commenting on this, Kaveh displays genuine frustration with him - to which Alhaitham backs down and switches tact. This is especially prevalent within the EN dub, where Alhaitham stutters before changing topics.

To me this underlines that Alhaitham was just as affected at by their argument as Kaveh was. Especially since this exchange can mirror the very exchange that caused the rift between them - in that Alhaitham points out Kaveh's self-destructive habits and it is perceived as a malicious critique. Alhaitham backs down when seeing that Kaveh is genuinely hurt because he doesn't want to repeat the past - he doesn't want to hurt Kaveh and lose him once more.

This is also encapsulated in the fact that Alhaitham sees Kaveh as his mirror, in that they both have a lack of familial connections. When Alhaitham believes that the presence of another genius can 'perfect' his vision, this isn't just a reference to Kaveh's differing perspectives, this also offers Kaveh as a familial figure to Alhaitham - in that, Alhaitham views Kaveh as his family. Similarly, Kaveh seems to hold an idea that he and Alhaitham are bound by fate, or 'the universe', meaning that he identifies Alhaitham as being essential to him in someway, however, as of now, he struggles with this being a benefit, rather than a negative.

I hope this answers your ask!!? You've unzipped me and all the haikaveh found family brainrot is pouring out <3333

[ohbo-ohno]

please…what is the absolute worst thing ghost could say to johnny while nonconning him…i am dying to know

lol

cw for noncon, puppy play, and feminization

when i posted that i was rereading today's kinktober and thinking of "I don’t want to hear your bitching and whining, you’re getting exactly what you deserve. This is what you always needed to be - just a hole for bigger and better men to use. Wastin’ your fuckin’ time as a Sergeant, shouldn’t have you giving orders, should have you bending over for every man on base to use as stress relief. Keep you locked up when you aren’t being used so you can’t steal any orgasms with your filthy little fingers." and "Christ, you might just be too fucking dumb to train properly. Might have to send you off to the pound, let them use you as a breeding bitch instead of a pet."

anyways here are some lines from wips/upcoming kinktobers

“Poor baby, just so overwhelmed from his punishment, huh? Baby puppy can’t handle the consequences of his actions?”

“You’ll what?” He bites the air just in front of Johnny’s sluggishly bleeding lip, the click of his teeth loud and threatening. “You’ll try and kill me? You can’t even get out from under me, pup.”

“Good dogs don’t growl at their owners. You need me to teach you how to be a good dog? Want another punishment once we’re through here?”

Johnny can’t help but whine a little, unable to break eye contact with Simon. “I don’t want to.” “I know,” Ghost hums. “But you will. And you’ll see how good it can be when you behave." He lifts his hand enough to pat Johnny’s cheek, seemingly done with the conversation. “Now, no more arguin’ and whinin’. We’ll see if a good dicking helps with your attitude at all, hm?”

“Let me get to know your pretty pussy, gonna be spendin’ quite a bit of time with her.” Johnny whines at that, high and loud. “Not a- not a her.” “No?” Ghost laughs a little, spreading Johnny’s legs wider and settling himself between them. “She’s pretty like a girl. Pink like a girl. Nice and clean for me like a girl, not furry or messy at all. Let’s see how she tastes.” He laves his tongue, thick and warm and wet, up Johnny’s center from hole to clit. “Yeah, she’s sweet like a girl, too.”

[poewriteslemon]

BSD men getting pegged

Characters: Dazai, Kunikida, Poe (all seperate)

Contents: headcanons, dom!reader, female reader, establish relationship for all of them

NSFW warning!

Dazai:

This man has already had the real thing before so you asking to fuck him isn't a complain at all. It's a little surprising how willing he was to do it honestly

He's a very bratty sub, will tell you to go faster and harder and will tease you a lot- but once you make him feel good he will NOT stop moaning, please use this time to tease him back cuz he won't think of a proper comeback ♡

It's best to fuck him when he's sleepy honestly, he's pretty submissive in those times and will let you do whatever to him

That's if you're like me and love submissive men tho 💀 If you want a dominate bottom then just fuck him whenever, also tie him up he's going to go crazy for it

Has to get pegged at least once a month, or he'll do it himself.

Kunikida:

Was absolutely taken it back when you asked if you could peg him- he's a very idealistic type of person and letting a woman fuck a man? That's absurd!

...until he (extremely hesitantly) let you try it out and oh my god he's a changed man now

Will rather die than admit just how into it he is, the mere idea of you roughly bending him over and fucking him over a desk makes him so hard

You quickly realized he's more into it than he leads on when he starts to allow you to peg him without much complain- and by how quickly he cums

He would still much rather fuck you instead but every two months or so let him take a break and you do all the dirty work ♡

Poe:

The first on the list who actually asks for this instead of you! 👏

Early on the relationship when you two are talking about what you're into and setting boundaries, he confesses that he's always wanted to be fucked by a woman

He's already pretty submissive in general but when you fuck him? He's like a sweet dog (side note but put a leash to all of the characters on this list and I'll go feral) He absolutely loves when you dominate him, especially when there's a risk of getting caught- he's unsure why but the thought of someone seeing him be in such a submissive state drives him insane. He'll still prefer not to go through that embarrassment tho- especially if it's ranpo who catches you two (he still figured it out by how weak Poe's legs have been recently tho)

Embarrassed by how significantly quick he cums compared to when he fucks you where he takes much longer- thankfully you're into this as much as him so you don't take it personally

Peg him every single time you two have sex- or at the very least finger him. He can't stand not having you touch him like that

[calumhoodgoss]

horror story of a teenage 5sos blogger

let me set the scene - its the mid 2010s, I'm 17, in the height of my 5sos fan career, im watching keek compilations all day and scrolling tumblr all night. Life is good.

Fast forward a few months and I start talking to this cute boy at school. we start going on dates, having first kisses - and first everything elses. we're falling madly in love. it's intense (and so cringy to look back at as an adult) but again, life is good! not a worry in the world!!

eventually.. it somehow comes up that my boyfriend and i both have tumblrs (of VERY different nature's mind you). we wanted to show eachother things we'd found online but we were both adamant we didn't want to see eachothers blogs (FOR OBVIOUS REASONS). instead of following each other, we would send each other screenshots of funny textposts, pictures, etc. - blacking out our respective blog names and url's to protect our online anonymity. life is good!

now by day, I'm spending all hours messaging my totally hot boyfriend but by night... by night, I'm reblogging hot gifs of calum hood, smut fanfics, imagines, general gifs of hot couples making out (ifykyk). it's the HEIGHT of tumblr fanfiction and imagine culture and I could not get enough. i was exploring things in real life with my boyfriend while also exploring online through fics. reblogging every single thing along the way. i was having my cake and eating it too and it was a fucking good time to be alive. life is so good!

of course, like any normal person, I was using my tags as a stream of consciousness. a way to get out my feelings about cal, about my boyfriend, about being a teenager, about LITERALLY EVERYTHING. Unfiltered, hormonal, teenage girl writing about the boys she likes. every. damn. night. life! is! good!

until.. all until.. my boyfriend and i were lying together in a park, under a tree, light filtering down on us as we talk and laugh and kiss - a perfect afternoon UNTIL he says there's something he has to tell me. 'what does *name of my blog* mean?'

TURNS OUT, the very first time I sent him a screenshot of something, I didn't black out my url properly and he had been SECRETLY STALKING MY BLOG FOR MONTHHHSSSS.

MONTHS

MONTHS!!!!!!

Literally just months worth of calum hood smut, so.much.smut, smut requests too!!!, soft porn gifs WITH TAGS LITERALLY EXPLICITLY ABOUT MY BOYFRIEND, countless text posts about our dates and whatever the fuck I was thinking or feeling that day, 5sos drama, EVERYTHING. EVERYTHINGGGGG. ABSOLUTELY EV ER Y THIN G

needless to say that blog was immediately scorched from the surface of the earth. and since then, I virtually haven't been on 5sos tumblr - until now. I was so mortified that I wasn't just throwing my thoughts into the void, I was literally scarred.

we're still together though lol I guess he some how liked me enough to look past the 5sos blog HAHA. he's a much stronger person than I because if the roles were reversed and he had some obsessed teenage fan blog, I think i would have gotten the ick straight away. Especially since I literally NEVER talked about 5sos with him because I was soooo embarrassed that I was obsessed with them (this was album one era guys HAHA and my boyfriend was way cooler than me in highschool). now I don't care, I play them in the shower all the time - he can deal with it hahaha

moral of the story is, idk don't tell your teenage boyfriend you have tumblr cause he will find your blog

[cent-scratchnsniff]

More sketchy employee profile images. Mostly made to be able to replace the picrew I had in the template I made since I can draw. I did end up just putting it as back and white though but the color is just nice to have. I'm STILL trying to tweak the template since it is very finicky and there is an example of what it looks down below if you're interested. It is a lot. It will happen. I am just not the quickest

There are typos and inconsistencies I missed but in general it should be fine...

[bedforddanes75]

? next chapter of guess what is horny ? i don't remember writing this

[oceanwithouthermoon]

kubosai enjoyers can we all kiss please im begging :((

[dhmis-autism]

i was looking thru my art and man. i have. a lot of drawings of duck and red either kissing or ALMOST kissing that im just way too embarrassed to post

[smoosnoom]

invent love (invent the river)

Neil is the sort to go looking for his friends, and, by proxy, Todd. Neil is the sort to go looking for Todd.  It’s a strange realization, being looked for. Being wanted around. 

Five different moments spent at the bridge.

Inspired by this scene.

[codecicle]

idk if what i was workin on would be what ur lookin for n i didnt get very far. it was based on a sorta amalgamation of their qsmp characters with that series of lethal company videos charlie n baghera did a long while back. theyd both work for the company n theyd both like gossiping n have a lil bit of camaraderie in this hellscape but also charlie killed her last team to advance and his determined to try and climb her way out n they have very different ways of operating n develop a sorta lovehate thing and end up getting each other killed and are also yuriful cause charlie's a butch tgirl

these are like buzzwords for me... lovehate and charlie being a butch tgirl... their lethal company videos... help. Help oh my god help me my heart might stop its like a dog hearing the word treat

[onenotsubtle]

my edit spreadsheet is SO back

[noisytenant]

i think maybe an implicit assumption of a lot of anti-porn or porn-skeptical sentiments is assuming that sexuality is opposite to rational thought.

there's a sense that you have to shut down your brain to get off. and that's a sexy notion--both in the sense of having widespread appeal and being kinda kinky :P--but it's deeply flawed.

in particular, there is an underlying sense that rational thought is the core defensive mechanism of all things decent and prosocial, and it must stand guard against our base, carnal natures to prevent disaster.

on both fronts, the notion is wrong: rationality and sexuality can coexist, and rationality is not harmless while carnality is harmful--both can be positive sometimes and destructive other times.

yet the so-called rational mind is often treated as the last bastion against predation (both as victim and assailant). porn with "problematic" themes is sometimes treated like a unique tool of regressive brainwashing compared to other forms of storytelling, but this seems to assume that the rational mind vanishes in service of sexual pleasure, leaving the subconscious vulnerable to implantation of backwards ideas. in actuality, i don't think porn is more likely to change someone's mind than any other kind of art, i just think it's often more honest about its hang-ups.

explicitness can seem tactless, but arguably the rawness of expression allows us to feel the whole of our responses to topics that may feel taboo and untouchable in the everyday.

and that's another thing... rather than a unilaterally celebratory attitude, i think pornographic stories can--intentionally and unintentionally--elicit challenging feelings: dread, ambivalence, confusion, disgust, and fascination, among other things. these may not be sexually arousing, but they are a different kind of stimulating.

and even if creators didn't intend for you to treat their work as anything other than, ahem, fap material, i think you can challenge yourself to read it as a story and to analyze it the same way you would other works.

if you fear losing your rationally-based moral compass in a whirlwind of carnality, then try and see if you can hold pleasure and pain together simultaneously. choose to make meaning of the work you have deemed meaningless.

when we approach with some curiosity, i think challenging topics in porn can act as a trick mirror that reflect a side of us that we may not have wanted to see, but still needed.

i would like to transmute the energy used to reject and avoid topics that trigger the discomfort of confronting the evils of our world into energy used to witness and examine our relationship to those evils. sometimes, they are so alien to us that they become objects of exotic fascination. sometimes, they are closer to our hearts than we may think. either way, i hope we can move past the idea that sexuality and thoughtfulness cannot coexist harmoniously.