#its 5 in the morning and i cant sleep this is all i can think of

[alyimoss]

yknow what ive seen a lot of "gaster and chara fucking hated each other" headcanons but ive seen very little of the opposite. which to me is kinda sad bc imo its a better, more fun interpretation.

i like to imagine gaster looked at this hurt, traumatized child and saw a bit of himself in them. and so he offered them advice.

yall know the smile theory? that smiling make monsters stronger in a way? that it can stave off death, even if for a short while, etc? that *thats* the significance of it, the reason why its so tied to gaster? that could very well be the reason chara is known for their smile, too.

i nean- theyre a child who was so badly hurt they were practically obsessed with the concept of finality—a state in which they are too powerful to be hurt by anyone. i can see them not smiling almost at all when they first fell (what is there to smile about?) until they hear from gaster that a smile is protection. when you smile, others cant hurt you as bad. a smile is like armor. he smiles to stay safe because he knows all thats out there, all thats capable of harm.

and from then on chara smiles no matter what. they smile and laugh through the wordt moments. because they know now this is their armor. their protection.

i rhink they would admire gaster. his efforts for monsterkind, his advice to them. i think theyd see him as someone trustworthy (in my own personal headcanon, he knew about their and asriels plan. not fully, i mean, but he knew the lengths chara could go to. and the only reason he knew was because he would do the same. chara told him because they saw a kindred spirit)

i like to think gaster is crushed post charas death. i also like to think that, if chara remembers gaster after their "revival", *then* they would have issues. we know nothing about gaster canonically, sure, but in my own headcanon and theory world, the things he does make less and kess sense to chara, align less with their worldview and their beliefs. and only then do they clash with him. because at first he was someone they genuinely loved, someone they admired.

anyway, i think gaster thought of them almost as family. he cared for them deeply, always ready to give advice or comfort or teach them or. really anything. they would sit and talk for hours about the world and their personal philosophies and findings. i want gaster, like the dreemurrs, to be part of the loving world chara never got to experience on the surface rather than yet another enemy. you know?

[honeyedheartss]

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[authenticaussie]

tagged by @suzukiblu and @cer-rata (wtf y'all, you're taking away from my "people I can tag" pool---)

RULES: make a new post with the names of all the files in your WIP folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. let people send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them, and then post a little snippet or tell them something about it! then tag as many people as you have WIPs.

Y'all of course like. Know me as a person (and probably remember the LAST time I did something like this and ended up with 200-odd fics) so 'cause I was tagged by two DC moots I shall only do DC fics:

tfw you give yourself amnesia because your parents make friends with a mind-reader and you don’t want to give up the secrets of your pseudo-family

Blogging (and other dangerous activities likely to get you adopted by the Batman)

growing up feels like (free-falling)

eight legs hit the wall

Stray!dami

The future starts tomorrow

Jumanji (what the fuck)

our past deed's punishments (our future's reward)

Illogical Fallacy

Acrobot, (but I didn't start that one so it may die a tumblr post death eventually)

It's just a matter of time (before we learn how to fly)

keep yourself in Check (but I'll be real this title WILL change because every time I read it I go oooo TT hockey au? and i CAN'T KEEP DOING THAT TO MYSELF-)

buy a date

To-do-it List

Palatable (but i need a cooler poet title and I am FAILING)

take our ages, take our failures, rescind

put me in your Pocket

Not in love with you (shit!)

Autism and the body-bat-swap

Tim sticks his foot in his mouth and threatens to jump out a window

by any other name

There are many benefits to being a marine biologist

I'm not tagging 22 people. that's just. that's not happening. But also I will tag some artists! In case they also have wip aus they wanna talk about. <3

@midnightluck @touchmycoat @rockingthegraveyard @12freddofrogs @2014federalbudget @lollesss @litnerdhood @justm3h @leviathiane @emygrl99 @trickstermelon @potat-o-piece @xamaxenta @merryfortune @saltfics @minister-of-silly-walks

and I think it was REALLY STRONG of me to tag 15 people and pretend that this isn't out of the blue <3333 don't look at me 😔😔

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[little-red-fool]

Nothing’s stopping me from drawing D getting his skin ripped off. I could just Do That and nobody could stop me.

[phagodyke]

nvm im too tired and overstimulated for this shit

[paiges-1vur]

late night confessions… as always enjoy loves <3

you and paige had been friends since the 7th grade. ever since that one day she scored on you in gym basketball everything became a competition, another chance to win at something. you had been inseparable for the last four years. always hanging out after paiges practices, going to see her play at her games, even going on family vacations together. you did absolutely everything together. as a junior at hopkins paige had started to gain more recognition in the basketball world. and she deserved every ounce of it. she was getting D1 offers, coaches flying to watch her play at aau tournaments, all the works. and you were there through all of it. all of the emotions. the smiles, tears, and celebrations.

it was late, almost 1 in the morning and you couldn’t seem to fall asleep. you were just scrolling your phone. you get a notification, and its from paige. “you awake love?” your a little shocked by the love, but laugh it off. paige is always flirting with people jokingly. “yes paigey, what do you want.” yousay sarcastically. “can i come over?” you stared at the message for a second. you cant help but smile at her request. you quickly text a reply. “cant sleep?” followed up with a “yk what sure come whenever” she replies almost immediately. “make sure to dress comfortably, i plan on having lots of snuggles and snacks.” you laugh to yourself and reply “okay paige ill make sure im dressed appropriately.”

she didnt reply for another two minutes. you spent those two minutes staring at the ceiling, wondering why she couldnt just take some damn melatonin and go to bed. you loved her but sometimes she just couldn’t seem to leave you alone. she texted you again. a sefie of her in her car, with sweats and a hoodie on, showing her outfit while she was sitting down. “okay im coming” she texts. you reply quickly, “bet that” and then “those sweats are so cute can i borrow them sometime.” they actually were really cute sweats and they looked really comfy. all of paiges basketball clothes were comfy honestly. you had ransacked her closet too many times to count. she texted back, “if your lucky i can give you them tonight.” the message caught you off guard. what did she mean by that? while your thinking she texts again, “be there in 5” instead of replying you decide to just turn your phone off. you make a quick stop in the bathroom to make sure you look halfway decent before she arrives. your hair stays in the messy bun it was already thrown in, and your paiges hopkins basketball sweatshirt stays on, along with your plain grey low waisted sweats. you look in the mirror, and put a touch of perfume on before closing the light off and going back to your bed.

she ends up coming 10 minutes later than she said she would be. “im here, open the door” she says, when you don’t immediately reply she texts again, “unless i have to climb through your window to see you” you laugh and run to the door opening it. “someones late” you say giggling. “better late than never, love” she replies smiling down at you.

“its really late, why did you come over?” you ask. she responds, “just wanted to see you” shrugging. she gently grabs your hips, pulling you a tad closer to her. “im gonna get cuddles now, hm?” you smile and start to pull away, walking her to your room. “yes paigey lots of cuddles.”

as we walk into my dimly lit room she grins excitedly, pushing you onto the bed gently. she quickly gets on top of you, straddling you. “all the cuddles you could ever imagine right now love-” you look up at her ontop of you “p this doesnt look like cuddling. what are you-” she laughs, gently pinning your wrists above your head as she leans down to place careful kisses along your jaw. “shh, don’t worry about it, babe.” your instantly met with confusion. your intrigued for sure, but mostly confused. “are you okay? i thought we were cuddling but this doesnt look like cuddles” you say as she pauses placing kisses along your jaw. she lets out a hum, nipping at the crook of your neck before responding. “mmm.. i just wanted to have a bit of fun first, doll.” her breath is hot against your skin and you can feel her hands slowly moving down your sides.

you have to speak up. “paige” you say, as firmly as possible. she immediately looks up at you, stopping her kisses momentarily. her hands lay still where they were roaming. “p-paige i thought we were friends-” she bites down on your neck gently before pulling away, looking you in the eyes, her grip on your wrists now loosened. “oh come on love, we are just friends.. having a little fun-” her fingers are now slowly tracing along your abdomen. “well when you said you were coming over i thought this was just another movie night” you explain innocently “you didnt give me any warning. why are you in such a mood, what were you thinking about before you came over?” she pins your wrists down again, holding them tighter. she leans down to your ear, kissing it gently. “mmm.. nothing for you to worry about love.. just wanna have fun.” she rolls her hips against yours just slowly enough to make you whine.

“nothing for you to worry about..” she says again. she smirks and does it again, using her legs to stop you from getting away. “you like that, doll..?” she gently begins to kiss along your neck again. your feeling more and more aroused by the second, but also just as confused. “paige.. were you thinking about me tonight? is that why you couldnt sleep, why you had to text me and come over?” you ask from under her. she laughs quietly before slowly kissing down along your collarbone now. “you know me so well, love~ of course i was.. always thinking about you.” she slowly bites down on your collarbone. she laughs quietly and rolls her hips against yours again, making sure to do it much faster this time. “mm.. you know what i was thinking about.. i just couldn’t stop and it’s your fault~”

your still confused why your friend was acting this way. especially someone like paige who was so close to you. “why all of a sudden were you thinking about me, how is it my fault” you defend yourself, planning to stop whatever shes starting. “you just.. make me so needy at night..” her one hand leaves your wrists in order to gently hold onto your jaw, she slowly drags her thumb across your bottom lip. she leans down to your ear again, her other hand slowly begins to trail down your waist again. “i.. m-miss.. you-” her fingertips gently slide under the waistband of your sweatpants, moving against your waist slowly.

“p-paige what do you want from me?” you squirm under her as she teases you with her fingers. you close your eyes awaiting her answer. she laughs again, noticing how weak you get just from her touch. “i want you, love.. that’s all i’ve ever wanted..” suddenly you think about the last four years of your friendship. has she always felt this way? and why was she just telling you now? she slowly begins sliding her hand under your sweats, but doesn’t go in any further. “is this about my recent breakup p… did you not like him?” you cant help but stop talking and notice her hand creeping down your sweats. she smirks at you, knowing how she has you wrapped around her finger. “mmm i didn’t like him at all love.. always touching you as if it’s his right..” her fingertips tease you, still under your sweats.

“paige” you say, pausing. “i never liked him either.. i always wanted.. something else.” her eyes immediately widen at what you hinted at. your confession catches her off guard. she swallows hard, her grip on your wrists tightening. her hand once again goes back down to the waist band of your pants, this time not just teasing. this time going further than before….

am i evil for ending it off like that?? (yes) im sorry but i got lazy lmao. let me know what you want to see more, or less of from me! ive been on a writing KICK recently so lets see how long it can last. dont be shy to spam anons with any requests/ideas! (also im always up to hear constructive criticism about my writing from you guys! i want to better my fics for you all) please let me know if you liked this, and i cant stress enough how much i love seeing your anons and messages! <3

[galaxynajma]

How different Isagi ships would react to Isagi’s birthday

For isagi’s birthday I wanna do something silly and write some headcanons on how different some Yoichi ships would do to celebrate his birthday!

This was gonna have more than three ships originally but I didn��t have any ideas for them 😔 and didn’t want them to all feel similar

All of these will be short and hopefully sweet

Bachisagi:

Bachira is overjoyed by the fact that its his favorite person’s birthday today

He has the day planned out already . They’ll go to the park after eating breakfast. Walk around enjoy the scenery and then they enjoy a big picnic with Isagi’s cake ( that Bachira baked himself) for dessert!

there’s only one problem…. How will he wake Isagi up?

Bachira can’t be his normally loud self when waking Isagi up he has to do something special for his birthday!

After 5 minutes of Bachira just standing there staring at Isagi sleeping he finally wakes up on his own

Bachira panics a little and then immediately jumps Isagi . Downing the birthday boy with kisses and hugs

Isagi can’t think of a better way to start his morning than being bombarded by kisses from his happy little bumblebee 

Kaisagi:

Isagi woke up feeling a little refreshed and a little happy with the fact that it’s his birthday

But his mood immediately gets ruined when the first thing he sees when waking up is Kaiser in all his naked glory

" happy birthday Yoichi " Kaiser says in a sinfully tone with a stupid smile on his face

" Oh don’t look so pissed off already you know how much some people would pay to see the Michael Kaiser naked on their birthday? " the only thing Kaiser gets from Isagi as a reply is a side eye . Trying his best to keep his eyes at Kaiser’s face

" whatever. Today is all about you! Which is why I’m gonna take you out to spoil you <3 "Kaiser says with a big smile on his face… god Isagi wants to punch him so bad… with his lips

"Let’s get this over with " Isagi said trying to act more annoyed than he actually is

Isagi would be lying if he said he isn’t a little interested on what Kaiser has planned for them today

" what? Are we not gonna have some fun first " Kaiser teased adding a wink to make it worse

‘God I hate love him so much ‘

Isagi thought as he thrown the nearest pillow at Kaiser’s face

…

True to his word Kaiser does spoil him with going to the mall first thing and immediately going to the luxury brands stores in the mall

Getting shorts that are too short shirts that are too tight

the best part has yet to come

At some point they were in a fancy Japanese restaurant eating dinner when Kaiser suddenly pulled out a small red box from out of nowhere

" here’s your real birthday present Yoichi "

Isagi took the tiny box from Kaiser’s hand and opened it with a skeptical look on his face 

When he opened Isagi let out a little gasp at what the box contains 

Inside was a gold chained necklace with a beautiful blue rose at the end

" now we can match " Kaiser interrupted isagi’s thoughts as he looks at the necklace in awe

" since when were you so cheesy Micha" Isagi said with a smirk as he holds the jewel up to his neck

" oh shut up you clown you’re lucky it’s your birthday "

Isaness:

" are the pancakes up to your liking Yoichi?" Ness asked with his head slightly tilted " it’s the first time I’ve tried this recipe"

" hm what? " Isagi mumbled . He cant focus on anything with the piece of heaven in his mouth that is in the form of sweet warm pancakes 

" I asked if you liked your birthday pancakes " Ness giggled a little after saying that

" oh! They’re great! More than great they’re the best pancakes I’ve ever eaten in my whole life! Thanks Lex " Isagi’s voice still a little mumbled with his mouth full

Ness giggle a little more after hearing that . Happy to hear that his little Yoichi is enjoying his breakfast

" got any ideas of what to do on your birthday Yoichi?"Ness smiled with hearts in his eyes as he watched the love of his life absolutely devour his pancakes with no mercy  

‘ it’s crazy to think that two years ago I wanted to skin him alive ‘ Ness thought as Isagi downed the last of his orange drink

" OH! Well I actually don’t know .. " Isagi replied as he circled his finger around the rim of his cup

Well we can do anything you want today. I’m at your service " Ness said as he grabbed some napkins to wip Isagi’s face with 

" Lex stop " Isagi protested against Ness’s napkin assault on his face while giggling " honestly… you being here is enough already "

" OH" Ness’s eyes widened. He wasn’t expecting that response " re- really? "

" Yeah … Alexis you being with me is all that I could ever need . You don’t have to do something luxurious be in my service for my birthday. You’re all that i could ever ask for "

Ness was speechless. He was expecting for Isagi to say he wanted to go to an aquarium or a fancy dinner… not this … oh god he’s almost as red as the strawberries that were on Isagi’s plate

" actually.. " Isagi suddenly said making Ness’s thoughts pause " We could watch My Neighbor Totoro together. That’s what my parents did for me on my birthday

" of- of course! Anything for you Yoichi " Ness exclaimed

" Thanks Lex .. I love you "

" Love you too happy birthday Yoichi "

[mikalame]

Hey, I love the way you writing for Tom, can you make Tom x gn reader smut alphabet if it's fine? If it's not, you can make fluff ☺️

taglist: @oppopotamus @violentnewmarley @saumspam

in this hc your gonna be dating him

TOM KAULITZ SMUT ALPHABET

After care

If it was close very comfort sex then i think he would run a bath with bubbles and you two would just embrace each other giggling at shit, but if it was hard core he would make sure your comfy then grab a nice lil towel and clean you up tucking you two in with blankets and watching a movie or just going to sleep if your tired enough (you probs are tho)

Body part (fav part on you and him)

On you its got to be your hips he like how he can grab them and pull you back when hes thrusting into you and he likes to to the little red spots from where he was holding

On him ether his hands or his cock (bro cant decide) he likes his hands because thats how he plays gutair and because he can make you cum from them butt likes his cock because well its his cock finds it very satisfying when you get overstimulated from it.

Climax (how quick are they to cum)

Not very quick if you two had been teasing each other for a while or just grinding in general he would cum a bit quicker but nothing out of the ordinary or him, could probs go 5-6 round be fore he starts to shoot blanks.

Dirty sectret

Probs be a threesome with another girl (lets be honest tom isnt going to be having sex if another guy is involved) just he might think you would get jealous but its always been in the back of his mind.

Eye contact

likes eye contact in the moment before you or him are about to cum he thinks there is something so special about seeing all the emotions he is putting you through in just a few second.

Fav postion

Doggy or missionary he likes doggy because he can smack your butt and all that good stuff, he like kissing down your back and shoulder blades and feels really happy when your legs or arms give out on you. Likes missionary because he can see how you feel in the moment, can see all your emotions and cause he can give you hella hickeys

Goofy (how silly is he)

Isn't to silly but isnt dead serious likes to crack a few jokes when coming down from his high or when you come down from yours

Hair (downstairs)

Trimmed i dont think it would be to long, just wouldnt like the feeling of it would do clean shave if you brought it up.

Intimacy (how are they in the moment)

very close and loves holding your hand even when it rough he wants you to know that hes there and hes not that mean, loves when your cumming and your hand tightens then after your finished your hand goes limp

Jacking off

All. The. Time. come on it tom if hes not jacking off hes thinking of it he cant help himself, would pull up photos of you two having sex and jack of to it where ever, when ever he does not care

Kinks

Breeding. Would lovee to see it drip out but he knows it better to wrap it up but sometimes when all both are kinda drunk and have sex he will forget feels super guilty in the morning but in the moment loves it so much

Location

Every where he doesnt care and as long as you dont he doesnt care where you do it, i dont think he would do anthing sexual infront or close to parents like in the same room or anything but would do some over the clothes stuff like under a blanket and stuff

Motivation

You. Just you, everything you do gets him hard and horny like if yall are sleeping and you keep grinding on him would get him hard i dont think he would wake you up for sex but mabey if you were okay with it

No

Rape/ scat play like thats just gross anything of the sorts is on his no list forever

Oral

more of a receiver than giver but will give you head if you ask nicely enough and would go down on you like a starved man but when hes giving head he would most definitely face fuck you, hold you hair in a pony tail and just goes to town

Pace (how fast/long)

Could be anything you want it to be, but i think his default is fast i don think he would be to hard but would be harder if you asked (begged) him to

Quickies

All the time when you two cant get enough time with each other for proper sex hell pull you into a bathroom or whatever and well yk

Risk

Yeah hes pretty risky i mean he got caught jacking it on the train by his mum soooo if your down hes down

Stamina

pretty good like i said before can go 5-6 before blanks but even then hes going strong before he cums

Toys

he wouldnt by any for himself but if you bought him a cock ring or something he would wear it but he would buy you anything and every thing from vibrators to dildos he likes to see how over stimulated you can get

Unfair (tease)

Major tease makes you beg for every thing even just to take his boxers of you have to beg him to allow you to take them off he just likes the frustrated look in your eye when he say beg harder

Volume (how loud is he)

Moans and grunts quietly but when hes close he'll get louder with the moaning i dont think he would ever whimper tho just doesn't seem like the type of person to

Wild card (random hc)

Use your vibrator on his cock once and felt real guilty when he came on it now when he uses it on you he doesnt thrust when using it scared it would make him cum quick like hes got some sort of weakness from it

X-ray( How much they packin)

bro said hes 2nd biggest in the group and packin 24 iches you do the maths bro HUNG

Yearning (how much he wants you while he or you are away)

He want you all the time weather it be for sex or not he wants to just be around you so when hes on tour hes constantly thinking about you

Zz (how quick does he fall asleep)

After you fall asleep cause he likes to just hold you and whisper sweet nothings into your ear and lull you to sleep, really love holding you close after sex tho

Hope you like anonn some of the words in this made me cringe but yeah lol

[rkrkerked]

aou being best nong

a small compilation

i. he helps boom w/ acting and makes their working environment more comfortable

after ep 9 of hidden agenda w/ the jengpok fight aired, boom tweeted this:

twt link

he also helps boom memorize his lines a lot which boom talks about in their FEED interview:

“…he’s an adorable person, really. He didn’t have to help me at all if he thinks I could remember it. He could say “I think you can do it, imma go to sleep.” But instead he helps me up until 2-3 in the morning. He has to wake up at 6 but he would still stay up with me.”

boom mentioned it again in another interview:

twt link

ii. boom gets nervous sometimes during events so…

* he helps him calm down

* checks that boom is following him and is ok (exhibit 0 / 1 / 2 / 3 / 4 / 5 / 6 / 7 / 8…he does this a lot, like every event)

* keeps him company (starlympics, gmmtv outing 1 2, random event)

* keeping eye on boom during race day and checking up on him (there’s a rlly cute clip of him literally pushing boom while they were running but i cant find it found it in this tiktok edit)

iii. other miscellaneous things…

* holds jelly’s things for him (like his phone)

* drives boom around a lot (like to the beach or wherever he wants)

* fixes hair/clothing (there are clips of him adjusting boom’s coat when sitting but i cant find it rn)

* drove 5-6 hours for boom’s solo sched

* stops branches and other things from hitting boom

* helps him try new things

* lets jelly crash at his place

* would eat insects for boom if he was a lizard (its a joke but lmao? the face gawin made)

* acts silly at times and plays along to make jelly laugh (1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8)

* counts beats to make it easier for boom to dance to

* checks his bald spots lol

* made him a song (?)

* helps during interviews

* writes him sweet messages for special occasions (reaching 700k followers, birthday)

* is not afraid to beg

* works hard so jelly can skip along

* tells boom he’s beautiful (#real)

extra vid

there are more moments that i didnt save or couldnt find a clip for but this should do it for now

edit: one thing i forgot was that ive read multiple witness accs of ppl seeing them irl and they always mention how much aou takes care of boom (and vice verse) which is v cute

edit edit: found an example

[sanniesluvs]

The haze of you

Chapter 1 : The garden 

Story Genres  / Warnings :

Yandere themes , Jealousy , gorey scenes (later in story ) Character death ,Triggering content (blood , violence etc ) 

Persephone!reader (“y/n “ used ), Hades!san , Garden , fountain of youth , Adam and Eve inspo (snake) readers body type isn't set / heavily described but i imagine her to be curvier ,  Lmk if i have missed any!

Warnings for this chapter  : neglectful/scary mother , yandere themes , y/n cant stand up to her mom 

Wordcount : 1.5kish 

enjoy~

Lilies : often associated with purity, renewal ,and innocence.

 The sun was gleaming down, rays hitting my bare skin like a hug . As the morning dew dampened the flowers that bloomed around me .

My eyes peeled open as I was greeted with a kiss by a monarch fluttering its wings as a gentle wake up call . 

I rose up from my bed adorned with lilies , dandelions and an assortment of other  flowers.

Stretching my stiff arms, as I shake my hair out with a yawn I take time to admire my surroundings , the glass windows on all sides of me wrapped with vines and flowers, and the sun gleaming above , I reach up to rub my eyes with a groan . 

“Persephanie!” a voice from the entrance called out to me 

“Persephanie! It's time to wake up dear ” the feminine voice continued 

“ I told you , call me y/n when my mother isn't around .” I practically groan out in annoyance . 

“ Sorry dear , Y/n it’s time to wake up , lessons begin soon “ She chuckled out as she corrected herself .

A small smile appeared on my face , I can't be too upset by the slip ups by my caretakers having a soft spot for them  . As they raised me and provided me companionship when I felt lonely in this seemingly endless garden.

I finally remove my hands from my eyes as I softly look up at Iris . One of the caretakers my mom created out of clay to look after me. Her tender brown eyes gazed at me.

I wrap my arms around my knees as I pull them to my chest and bury my face in between them.

“5 more minutes “ i plead softy  

“ Sorry Y/n but this lesson is important! Your mother will be returning soon with news and I must prepare you !” Iris practically beams as she tugs me out of bed 

“ Straight to the bath young lady! Cora is awaiting your arrival , Time is of the essence!” she exclaimed her voice getting farther away as i rushed to the bath.

Oh? Mother is coming ? how unusual… Does she bear bad news? 

I ponder as I swiftly make my way to the bath . This can't be good … can it? 

I hastily make my way through the garden , the fields of flowers in full bloom as i pass , the bees and insects hard at work pollinating the plants I spend all my free time planting .

 What else am I to do here besides read, sleep, attend lessons? Everyday is the same here in the garden . I yearn for something new. I try not to get caught up in pointless wishful thinking. 

Nevertheless I can't help but wish for change on every shooting star that passes by in the sky . 

wishing i could jump on one and ride it far, far away from this tedious place . 

It's not the worst place to be , At least i'm not in tartarus or being forced to work against my will as a slave in the human realm .

I try to be as grateful as possible. A lot of people have it worse. I should be thankful to my mother for keeping me safe here! 

But my heart … it wants more, it wants to experience love to get to feel something other than dull unfulfilled emptiness .ahh …wishful thinking indeed 

The warm water rolled down my body as Cora attempted to rinse the soap off me 

“Cora,i can wash myself, I appreciate the help but it is not necessary “

Frustration evident in my voice as I move to grab the water pail myself. 

“ Yes honey , I understand but your mother made us so that you didn’t have too. I am only doing what I was created to , I apologize if you are upset by it .”

Her monotone voice repeating the same speech she always has. Unlike Iris, Cora takes her role very seriously . 

If it wasn’t for Iris she wouldn't allow me to do anything , not even brush my own teeth !

But she takes a step back and allows me to finish bathing on my own.

“Cora…” My voice quivered as i slowly brought my gaze to hers 

“ Yes my dear ?” she softly replied as she attempted to reach for my hair 

“ Why is mother coming?” i turn to face her , reaching up to do my own hair 

“  I'm unsure … hopefully she brings good news!” her eyes shifted away from mine, shoulders tensing up she rushed the words out I let out a small hum of acknowledgement , even they are afraid of mother .

They might be made from clay but they comprehend emotions just like the rest of us . Their features are as human as possible .I often forget they aren’t real people .

“ Ahh, I see … Yes, hopefully it is good!” this cant be good…

A knock from the door ripped me away from the anxious thoughts festering in my mind 

“Y/n!” iris called out 

“Dear, you must hurry! Your mother will be here any minute ! We must start todays lesson!“ ughhh i mentally groan as I pick up my body from the tub. Today is gonna be a long day.

I hate lessons… the way they drag on seemingly endless . Table etiquette i eat alone! ,Math lessons , History lessons ,  how zeus's father ate him and his siblings , i don't care! the same stories about people i’ve never met and probably never will!  

I can't leave the garden now matter how hard I try so what's the point! These lessons are useless . I'm a smart girl. I may be “ naïve” but only because I have no experience with the world ! if I got the chance I could be on my own! 

Mother would never allow that though . how can someone who is never there, someone i feel like i barely even know be so … overbearing i feel the weight of her around me even when she's not present

“Y/N! , you’ve zoned out again, must I start from the beginning “ Irises voice pierced my thoughts 

oh no i groaned internally this is gonna drag on forever-

“Persephone.” The chilling voice called out, shivers rolling down my body as I straightened my posture  

“Mother, welcome back .” I move to kneel into a curtsy, my gaze going straight to her feet , Afraid to make eye contact . 

“My child , come I have an important matter to discuss with you. “ She is already walking towards the green house I call a bedroom. By the time I look up, she's half way there. I quickly move, catching up to but remaining behind my mother .

The silence is suffocating . Mother's intense gaze analyzing every inch of me, as almost unnoticeable shudders roll down my body. I take slow, breaths to calm my erratic heart beat.

I’m sat at mother's feet in the living area of my room. The small loveseat being taken up by her flowy dress . She begins to gently combs through my hair , coiling my curls with her fingers 

“Mother , it's a pleasure to have you back , to what do I owe this visit?” I tensely voiced with a small gracious smile to break this terrible silence ,Finally looking up to meet her gaze  .

“ My lily “ she began, using the nickname she gave me when i was as small as the seeds i plant everyday 

“Zeus has decided to throw another one of his …extravagant  galas” the mock happy tone would have fooled anyone else but i noticed the slight twitch of her eye  

As i attempt to respond her cold voice cuts in 

“ He has decided that every god and goddess must be in attendance “

 Her already firm grip on my hair tightened causing a small look of discomfort to cross my face , quickly being replaced with a smile .

Why is she telling me this? Did she really come to rub the fact that I can't go in my face? A tight smile gracing my face 

“ Ahh , that’s nice i hope you enjoy it mother “ the words were rushed , trying to end this conversation quickly as possible , then she will leave and i won't have to see her again anytime soon 

“ Persephone.”  she calls my name  in a softer tone than i've ever heard from her 

“Yes?”

“ Zeus.. he has decided you must be in attendance as well”  she tensed , her movements through my hair ceasing .

Oh? 

This is … unexpected 

I’ll be in attendance ? I’ll be leaving the garden ?? 

“Persephanie ..”

What will I wear? 

“Persephanie ..”

How do I act around other people? 

“Persephanine “ Mother's irritated loud voice cuts through the air 

“I understand this is a lot to take in but do not ignore me” her voice booms loud enough to shake the glass windows surrounding me

“Sorry mothe-” 

“Now . you will have a strict set of rules to follow for your BRIEF time outside the garden “

I lay awake staring at the stars above recounting today's odd events 

Mother coming to visit … finding out I get to leave the garden tomorrow !!!  I'm so excited. The dress mother left for me to wear is absolutely stunning. 

I never thought I would get to wear something so extravagant ! The thought had me kicking my feet with a squeal of excitement.

Mother instructed Iris and Cora to have me ready by 6 pm sharp, not a moment later !

I’ll see Olympus , meet other gods!! All i have to do is follow 3 rules and i'm golden 

Even if the rules are… stupid. 

Stay by mothers side at all times

Don’t eat any pomegranate offered to me ? 

Stay away from Hades and Aries 

Simple enough ? 1 and 3 seem reasonable , i wouldn't want to accidentally piss off ares or hades anyway . but the second rule is just … odd why pomegranate specifically ? 

I guess we will see what tomorrow brings . the final thought as my eyes drift shut.

Short 1st chapter but dw chapter 2 will be longer! He will be making his first appearance 👀

feel free to give feedback! only my first story so its not perfect <3

[rollup2theparty]

—₊˚⊹♡ round & round! eunseok

❦ cold and aloof, it drives you nearly insane how difficult this man is to read. your blood boils at the thought of him, yet you seem to encounter his impeccable being in every spot of your mind. by some twist of fate, the two of you find yourselves trapped behind the locked doors after hours with nothing but fragile silence and a lot hanging at the tip of your tongue.

౨ৎ HIGHSCHOOL AU (fem!reader x s.eunseok)

⟡ enemies to lovers / mutual pining / forced proximity

⚠︎ minor angst / sfw

notes!! y/n is slightly embarrassing forgive me but she has it together i promise (NOT PROOFREAD YET)

cold and aloof, it drives you nearly insane how difficult this man is to read. from snoring through class or absent-mindedly staring out the classroom window, as the reigning rank 5 and class president you cant seem to figure out how this privileged jerk seems to not have a single care in the world despite being 4th from the bottom. his desks and lockers overflowed with snacks and flirty post it notes from his many admirers, and he doesn't seem to care. not like you were unpopular yourself, you never let the admiration get to your head but he? he's an inhospitable, cold blooded pain in the ass who conveniently has a face sculpted by the Gods. a face you find yourself thinking about a lot before you go to sleep (angrily, of course). he is a glass half empty person with a muted demeanor and you always thought of yourself as a person with a lot of love to give. really there is no better combination in the face of this earth. your hands are itchy with the urge to poke at him until his face explodes, or do basically anything to see him show emotions for once but your pride reprimands you to sit still.

the 6pm rush hour trip could give anyone a stroke, thats why you avoid it at all costs (its totally not because you know eunseok rides the 730pm bus after his basketball practice). your day starts and ends with his figure, a few seats in front of you on the 0119. how "unlucky" do you have to be to be stuck on the same commute to and from school daily? oh the disdain for his unchanging figure. every single day without fail, he sits next to a window with two wired earphones plugged in each ear, head off into space. a brawl could ensue and he would still be seated there, perfect unmoved. like being pulled in with a magnet, your pupils could never seem to wander elsewhere, even when foxy shy freshmen giggle as they hand out their phones in hopes of a connection. how can you erase this blurring unwanted regard when he haunts your every breath? your blood boils at the thought of him, yet you seem to encounter his impeccable being in every spot of your mind. sometimes you wished the bus would crash into a pole, maybe that'll stop you from thinking.

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friday mornings always caused your heart rate to fluctuate, it flutters with the thought of a weekend of glory ahead of you. but today its beating hard for a different reason. you scan each passenger a multitude of times, yet you can't see the sight of him. he's a no show. your brain scrambles for possible explanations, 'his parents gave him a ride? he got up late? he's home with a fever? gasp he's on his death bed?? no, he moved halfway across the country to be with his secret lover?? god no'. manually, you shut down your brain's intrusive notions and instead you force out a sigh of relief. yeah, maybe this is a blessing in disguise. the school festival was coming up and as a proud student council member, you had a lot to prepare for and everything would be made easier without a constant mind interference.

"attention, all students are expected to be dismissed by 530pm due to the forecast of tonight's upcoming thunderstorm, expect school doors to be locked by 6." the muffled voice over the intercom sends the classroom into a frenzy but everything other than your half done event proposal was mere white noise. your were ambitious by nature and by the work of some deity, today your mind was on focus mode, not even the clutter of joy behind you could get you to lift your head from the word file on your laptop. you were invincible, typing in the speed of light. you were at an intellectual high only to be washed down low with a light tap on your desk. breath halting, you were ready to give the coarse, senseless dimwit a good mouth beating until you lock eyes with his.

"y/n. im late, please hand this to our homeroom teacher." his voice departs from his lips in a monotone as he places his tardy slip on your desk.

"me?" you ask, almost hopeful.

"admin staff said to give it to the class president."

"oh! yes of course, i'll hand it to mr lee during recess, if thats okay with you. do you need anything-"

"thanks." frigidly, eunseok halts your ramble with a flat bread smile and a close up view of his back as he walks away.

no this isn't the first time he talked to you. he apologized once when he accidentally poked you with his umbrella at the bus stop, and another time when water bottle made you trip during recess. he remained reticent even when he bumped into your shoulder in the cafeteria, only offering a slight dip in his head as an apology. granted he doesn't actually speak to anyone beside his friend group, today marks the third.

oh you were in a constant bind, like a swing that tumbled from one side on another with the passing wind. do you like him? do you hate him? you two barely spoke, barely interacted but he called you by name. 'y/n'. oh you're aware you sound borderline delusional and psychotic but the ring of your name will forever be intimate. no one, not even your subject teachers or closest friends ever refer to you by 'y/n'. it had always been 'class president', nothing more nothing less. you've been crowned as the classroom's leader since elementary school, at this point there should be a ceremonial plague with your name engraved on it, thats how often you had the throne. people say the main thing that ties a human to their identity is their birth name, well this position is yours. you hear the title more than anything else, at one point you wonder if that should be what would be written on your headstone. so why does your name sound so natural when it rolls of his tongue?

your mind was balancing on a rather precarious tipping point when a reality check crashes onto you. every second you spend on this superficial distress is a second wasted. you were sitting there mouth agape, fighting a dilemma you didn't physically have, over some guy who barely acknowledged your existence when mid year examinations are soon and the school festival counts on your ability to drive it to success. you are a standalone piece, confident and able. a crush? unrequited love? some things are just so minuscule in this great world of troubles. you drag yourself back to earth by the hair and untangle your bundle of thoughts, you had to focus on what was important.

by lunch time, you were a changed man.

“hey, did mr lee get my slip?” he questioned as you crouch by your decorated locker at the far corner of the room. without missing a beat, you nod soullessly and wander back to your seat. but not before you look into his eyes. there was something more than an empty stare, yet you wasted no time jumping into conclusions. you could no longer drown yourself in an pool of wishful thinking

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not even a split second after the ring of the dismissal bell and you were out of your seat, making a bee line through the chorus and chaos of the narrow hallway. the pop up notice declaring your impending doom gave you adrenaline like no other. '5%', the glaring red battery symbol taunted you to break into a sprint. your campus was the size of a local mall but the only decent place with electrical sockets was the desolate east wing library. does this make any sense? absolutely not. even while bolting, you make time to write up a mental note to file an official complaint to the office.

you shut the unnecessarily heavy door behind you and in the nick of time you manage to breathe life back into your computer. with 30 minutes on the clock, you knew you could finish up the paper in 20, giving you a perfect 10 to pack up and leave before they lock up. your epiphany of plans is interrupted by a trickle of footsteps and the bump of a book to its spot on a bookshelf. you were never one to believe in ghosts but then and there your heart was tied up into a knot. maybe all the tales told by the bonfire last camp season finally got to you. your skittish hello echoed through the airtight room to no avail. would this be a life changing episode about your first ever encounter with a ghostly apparition? while it would make for a good application story, you silently beg with your life for any possible logical explanation.

from shelf to shelf, you tiptoe across with your breath held tight. 3/4 your way into the room, you manage to convince yourself it was nothing but the sound of the rumbling, worn out and abused air conditioner. yet you don't stop checking (for good measure). as the tip of your toes hits the floor of the final shelf, you feel the fear finally catch up to you, it was as if the room is closing in, you feel the motion in your gut as the world around you spins in a blur and like clockwork, the lights turn off. in an instant, the blurry pandemonium crashes into a black purgatory of nothingness.

a rock is now permanently lodged in your throat and you struggle to swallow the saliva that has run dry. you scream as if an invisible knife sliced your heart open and your mouth goes numb. the muscles holding up your limbs are forced to halt and you fall to your knees. you swear if anything else happens, you would melt together with the ground to form nothing but a puked up puddle of a mess. together with the prerequisite drizzle to the forewarned rain, a tap to your shoulder almost sent you running for the heavens.

"y/n?" there it was, again. the same word, the same intonation of voice. the arms that wrapped around your knees as you crouched fell back and you finally muster up the courage to look up.

this was all either a figment of your hallucination or that by some twist of fate, eunseok was standing over you. somehow, through a series of (un)fortunate events, you came to a quick conclusion that the latter was true. hesitantly, you pull yourself together and got up to your feet with the help of his offering hand. it seems that even in a situation like this, your heart can't help but flutter at thought of his touch. your dedication to a love life of abstinence down the drain just like that.

you only manage to mutter a subdued "thank you" before rushing to the door for some air. you've studied there enough times to know the door is a pull not a push, but no matter how hard you tug on the handle, the obnoxiously large gateway just wouldn't budge. your heart pounds against the safeguard of your chest as you feel the hot air of his steady breath on the crown of your head. he approaches your side only to be greeted with the same futile attempt over a shut door. they must have locked up early unbeknownst to the both of you when you lost your mind over a pseudo shadow encounter.

sometimes life throws out a wild card and traps you behind the locked doors of the school library after hours. no amount of knocking, yelling or pulling on the shut knob of the oak door could save you from this ticklish torture. with the gush of the pouring rain interfering with cell service, your sanguine shot at dialing any number on your phone also lets you down. you flounder to the ground with your back against the wall, your energy depleted and your hope ran slim.

"we'll have to wait until the morning staff clocks in in the morning." to your disbelief, he broke the fragile silence.

eunseok took the spot across from you with his back against a collection of encyclopedias. you briefly message your parents in hopes that the signal would come through when the shower starts to fade. out of his black nike heritage backpack, he pulls out two bottles of peach soda and an uneaten sandwich only to tear into halves, mindlessly offering you each a piece. does he not know how staggering each and every one of his moves make you?

"the gs25 egg sandwiches and this sparkling drink are my all time favorites, thank you" you chirp, in effort to kill the stuffy air.

"i know, i got it in the convenient store across from our station" he muttered, unthinking.

his brazen declaration made you choke, your esophagus begs to breathe as a piece of toast hinds its entrance. your brain instantaneously flashes back to the plastic bottle that would sit on the right corner of your desk after recess. you always assumed it was an underclassmen braving declaring their interest but now you've come to realize that you have never expressed your interest in it anywhere else other than during the long waits at your bus stop.

whatever bit of rationale left in you begs you to not get ahead of yourself. you, however, takes it as a green light to make conversation.

"hey, do you know what major you're choosing for college counseling?"

"child psychology." eunseok's answer startles you. you were guessing finance or accounting, something to match his logical disposition.

"but my grades are unsteady so im unsure." he says in passing.

"let me tutor you." you offer with vigor and he nods near automatically, you were almost sure you could see him fight a smile.

"we take the same bus home, we can review a bit on our way back. only if you would like to of course, i can come up with a learning plan."

he beats his reddish flush to speak, "can we start right now? we have time to kill." you softly tap the space next to you twice and he gets up before you even finish the first.

the two of you have never been in such close proximity of each other. you have always been in his orbit, but it was never enough to make contact. if eunseok was the unwavering earth and you were the persevering moon.

you learn that he's been there since free period, tasked to set up the new influx of books as a punishment for being tardy. you also learn that he couldn't make it on time because his white poodle, charlie, required immediate veterinarian attention after hurling all night. in the world filled with phony personalities and kids doomed to mediocrity, your heart fluttered at the thought of someone with genuine, authentic convictions. you revise literature devices and math formulas for hours, nonetheless his eyes never lost focus. your unimpeded voice brought him more clarity than any high paying academy ever could.

the storm reaches an all time high as the clock strikes midnight, you can't help but stretch out your limbs in exhaustion as your body dozes off to sleep. but who were you kidding? despite the physical need to shut your eyes, your brain could only beg to stay still.

a shift.

you could hear a soft shuffle but you wouldn't dare open your eyes. all you could do was sense his body moving closer to yours. his hands reaches out to delicately push your head to rest on his shoulders.

you hitch in breathing.

if only humans could communicate through telepathy, or you were mythically born with a divine skill to read minds. maybe then you would finally see how smitten he was all this time. only then would you know how he kicked his blanket, restless with apology when the point tip of his umbrella pricked your skin, or how he stopped bringing his litre tumbler, afraid you would fall, or how he fought his anxious silence only to miss the chance to express his sorry when his shoulder grazed yours in the dining hall. you were so preoccupied with thoughts of your own, you never noticed his nervous tick of biting the inner corners of cheek as he gives himself a peptalk to finally call out your name.

"thank you, for giving me a chance." his whispers only for himself to hear. despite your desires and inhibition, you reluctantly fall into a slumber, with a inkling feeling this conversation won't be your last.

by the time the sun makes it's daily appearance, his frosty demeanor fades and you awake to his blazer as a blanket for your knees and a newfound tenderness for one another.

[dirtybitfic]

Therapy pt.5 -final part

Matt sturniolo x y/n

contains- fluff, smutt , establishing a relationship, time skip.

Matt pov-

I woke up feeling a warm presence at my side.

I looked over seeing y/n sleeping peacefully on my side. She truly is the most beautiful woman inside and out.

I never thought i'd end up in this situation with a client but i'm don't regret it . She's perfect I mean she gets along with my brothers which is important to me and she submits to me perfectly .

I like her so much more than I ever thought I could and honestly i'm not mad about it .

she starts to wiggle around in her sleep and it makes me smile . How can someone so freaky in the bedroom look so innocent .

her eyes start to flutter open and I cant help but smile as she sleepily looks at me

y/n pov-

I just woke up as I look to my left and see matt already looking at me with a big smile on his face.

good morning gorgeous

good morning I say in a raspy voice.

I honestly forgot how it felt to fall asleep in the same bed with someone. I haven't gotten that good of sleep in a long time.

he smiles as he pulls me onto him and I lay my head on his chest. but I cant help but notice the bulge thats poking my stomach . I scoot up and position myself to straddle him. I still have no underwear so the only thing thats blocking contact is his boxers.

watcha doin he asks with a smirk .

ohh nothing I say with a small sigh but I cant help the smile that spreads across my face.

mhmm okay he says as he watches my every move intensely.

I move my hips a little causing a friction on my bare pussy . He groans and grabs my hips.

take off my boxers and ride me like a good girl he says in a calm but demanding tone . I slowly slide his boxers down until they're off and I throw them behind me some where in the room and position myself back onto his lap .

he slowly lifts my hips as I position myself at his tip and slide down slowly. Im already sore from last night and given his size the stretch is still painful.

I whimper as I get lower and lower.

look at you taking me so well he coos as I reach the base and he's balls deep inside me . I take a second to adjust before beginning to bounce on him.

f-fuck oh-my I gasp as his dick hits my g-spot with every bounce.

thats it bounce on it fuck he groans as he grabs my hips and helps me continue bouncing .

my legs start to shake as I feel my self about to orgasm

f-fuck im gonna cum I cry out as the orgasm is at its brink and is about to crash over me .

let it go cum all over my cock he groans and I pulse around him and my cum drip out of me and down his base.

fuck I whine as I come down from my high but my legs continue shaking .

your legs tired sweetheart he says in a deep tone that makes me clench around him.

mhmm I whine as I grind on him .

he immediately flips us over so he's onto of me now

he starts pounding into me hard and deep causing me to scream out.

FUCK M-MATT I say as my hand goes to him stomach trying to push him away from how deep he is.

he slaps me across the face causing me to moan .

take it like i know you can he growls as he moves my hand away and leans over me so I cant put my hand on him to push him away.

he's so deep and my legs are shaking as I feel a sensation building in my stomach.

f-fuck matt oh god im gonna I get cut off by my juices squirting out of me all over his dick and the sheets beneath me .

fuckk thats it squirt all over me he groans as I come down from my high.

im starting to get overstimulated but it feels so good.

fuck oh - m- my g-god so deep I cry as I look down and see the bulge in my stomach as he thrusts into me.

yeah you see how deep I am in you huh he says as he looks down smirking at the way his dick bulges in me.

mmm fuck FUCK MATT I... I cry as I squirt again this time more than the last creating a puddle under me . His thrusts don't ease up .

the stamina this man has is crazy I think as my head starts to feel fuzzy and pure euphoria takes over my body.

fuck look at you . My fucked out little slut he groans .

all I can do is whine as I quirt again .

fuckkk so fucking hot he groans as he watches me quirt all over him.

all that can be heard is my whines and heavy breathes mixed with his groans and the squelching sounds coming from my pussy as he pounds into me relentlessly.

mmmmm I whine as I rake my nails down his back .

he groans deeply as my nails break the skin.

fuck keep fucking doing that he groans as he presses down on my stomach where his dick bulges with each trust casing me to scream out .

AHH F-F-FUCK . I squirt again creating even more of a puddle underneath myself .

god damn such a good girl he praises as I convulse underneath him and my nails dig deeper in his back.

I can barely even think anymore as my body is shaking under him .

I wraps my legs around his waist as his arms move under me and hold me close to him and he pounds into me harder and I see stars.

fuckk you feels so fucking good squeezing me so fucking tight.

all I can do is whine and moan as my nails continue digging into his back he groans and whimpers into my neck as I dig deeper into his skin .

he moves back over me as he pulls my legs up and holds around both thighs with one arm and chokes me with the other .

give me on more orgasm show me how much of a whore you are for my cock he groans as I start wiggling underneath him.

ahhh OH FUCK ME I scream as my orgasm washes over me and I shake uncontrollably as my hips lift up and he hits an even deeper angle.

fuck im gonna fill this pretty little pussy up he groans as he grabs onto my hips and his thrusts get sloppier.

f-fuck please- g-give it to me I moan .

after a couple more thrusts he fills me up and I collapse back on the bed.

he pulls out and lays beside me pulling me into him as my legs shake and I catch my breathe.

how would you feel if I asked you to be exclusive he asks in a calm sweet tone. my heart flutters and I smile.

I would be totally okay with that . I don't want anyone but you . I say as I look up at him and hes smiling at me.

good cause I don't want you with anyone but me . Your mine understand

yes sir I say in a joking manor causing him to smile .

we lay there for a bit before getting up and changing the sheets again. Then taking a long hot shower.

my muscles have relaxed and we finally changes into clothes after drying off and decide to go up stairs and get a snack and some water.

chris and nick are in the living room. as we walk past they smile and greet us.

wow you guys slept the whole day nick says as you look out of the window realizing its nighttime again.

damn I guess so I say with a smile.

well we were about to watch a movie if you guys wanna join chris says with a smile.

yeah were gonna grab some snacks and well come back in

okay they both say as we go to the kitchen to grab snack and head back in.

we sat and watched Divergent . After we finished we decided to watch the second one.

after we finished they both went to bed and we decided to go back downstairs and watch the third one . We fell asleep again happy as ever.

2 years later-

Me and matt got engaged about 8 months ago and our wedding is in a week.

Im so glad I decided to do therapy 2 years ago or I would have never met the love of my life .

I live with him and his brothers and i'm the happiest I think ive been in a long time. I love his family to death.

his mom is by far my favorite woman ever and his dad is such a genuine sweet father .

I cant believe sex therapy led me to this but I wouldn't regret to for the world .

The end.

💋

[switchbladedreamz]

I Want You, Dumbass.

He owns my entire soul.

Requested?: nah

Rating: R, once again lots of cursing. Bc its fun

Summary: Logan has his eyes pried open, figuratively, a little perspective forced onto him by Charles. It helps him see things for what they really are. For who you really are.

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~~~~Logan's Point of View, 5:08am

Ripping off the sheet and blanket that cover me, my skin pebbles in goosebumps from the new chill in the air. "God damn it." I huff out quietly into the dark. I tossed and turned all night. Can't get decent shut eye. I turn to lay on my side. Staring in the darkness where my closed door would be. For five hours I've tried and failed to sleep. No matter how hard I will with closed eyes it never comes. All I can think about is her. For once I'm not thinking about Jean.. It's her. Y/n. It feels different when I think about her. 'Did I fuck it all up? What have I done..' These are the thoughts that have plagued me while sleep is nowhere to be found. I have class in three hours but I can't ...I can't bring myself to care right now. 'Why did I have to ask her out? Was it on purpose that I overheard their conversation? No, that's stupid.' I don't really believe in fate. Y/n and I had a perfectly good chummy coworker thing and I just had to go and blow it all up. Jesus fucking Christ when will I learn. 'once..just once can I have something..real. Do I even know what I want? I know what I don't want.. No Striker, no old friends' granddaughters, no having a boyfriend when we meet.' I beat myself up for who knows how long when 'bbbbrrrrriiinng bbbrrriiiingg bbrrr-'. My alarm pulls me out of the self-pity parade I had grown comfortable in for the past..well when I realized I couldn't sleep nine hours ago. Another day, another dollar, another student turned into a scholar.

"Alright everybody, I want those papers on my desk by 8 am next class Thursday morning. And no wikipedia! Okay, class dismissed." The students scramble out of their chairs, feet scuffling quickly across the floor. They can't get out fast enough. Heh. 'alone again.' thoughts creep in from the shadowy parts of my consciousness. 'aaah self pity, the oldest pain in my ass.'

Pacing back and forth in the empty classroom. I cant help but rewind the events of the last three days in my head. Over and over like the world's worst rollercoaster. Karma is hanging my ass out to dry. Like a dumbass I asked my coworker out and it backfired only to find out she has feelings for me. That was three days ago. The next day I found the only bar in town worth a fuck burned down. All that is left is a damn charred husk of load bearing beams and an empty parking lot. Oh I can't forget that a new student whose...gift...is acid spit and lunch did not agree with her so guess who got sprayed with acid puke and hotdogs in the middle of a lesson about World War II. It hurt like a bitch. And the fucking cherry on top of this sundae is that Jean and Scott are getting married. They announced their engagement last night. Cheers to the happy couple.

Jesus. Here I am goin on and on lamenting as if I could do anything to fix these problems. Except the first one, I'll admit. Charles enters the room. Hank, who usually is one step behind him is nowhere to be found. "Anything I can do to help Logan?" My head snaps towards. A growl at the bottom of my throat. I can feel my back muscles flexing like hackles raising on a cat. I need to calm down. "Charles I told you to stay outta my head." He looks at me with pity..i hate that fuckin look in his eyes.

"You're practically broadcasting your thoughts all over the school. I didn't need to use my power to know what you're thinking." I sigh heavily and sit down. "In any case", Charles continues, "I'd like to help with your troubles with Ms. L/n. Or at the very least make sure you don't pace a track into the hardwood floor." The quiet whir of his chair is an oddly comforting sound. My elbows brace on my knees as my head falls heavily into my hands. "What do I do?" I hate feeling vulnerable. "Apologize to Y/n, she's a forgiving person..within reason. Let the chips fall where they may afterwards. Oh, and Lilly feels terrible about the incident in class today. She asked me to pass on her apologies, sweet girl. As for Scott and Jean, put on a brave face as always." My head quirks up. "Really? A brave face? That's all the advice the acclaimed Professor Xavier has?" I scoff. What a help. "It's what you always do when it comes to those two and it's all you can do.....She's made her choice." Charles' voice softens at the end. Her choice. Her choice. It's never me. I look at her and it doesn't even feel the same any more and it pisses me off. I feel nothing when she looks at me. And that's what makes me burn. "Logan have you ever considered the difference in the way you're seen by Jean and Y/n?" My head raises, my confusion pours out through my question, "Whaddya mean?"

"I mean, Jean... She sees your exterior. The illusions, the gruff-cigar-smoking-bad-boy-who-listens-to-no-one. But if that were true..you wouldn't be here. Even I have my limits and tolerances. If you truly didn't care about anyone or anything but yourself as Jean may believe then what are you doing here? I'm not questioning your place here but rather putting things into perspective. Now as for how Y/n sees you. She sees a kind man with a big heart who keeps people at arms length and hurts them before they have a chance to hurt you. That's how I see you. We can see the great man you are yet to become. Now who do you think is more deserving of your time? Lastly perhaps consider the fact that Y/n did not reject you because she doesn't want you, but she wants you so much she couldnt use you to hurt herself because of the love she holds for herself. Did that make sense? Anyways what I'm trying to say is that it was an act of self-preservation." I look at Charles. I really look at him, studying the expression on his face as his words process. There's nothing in his voice that indicates blame, deceit, judgement. He's simply trying to help me. I've made my decision. "Thanks, professor. See ya around" I get up from the chair and as I walk past Xavier I pat his shoulder, "You too Logan." he responds.

I'm laying on my bed. Charles' advice ruminates in my mind while I pull in a drag of smoke off the cigar between my fingers. Debating if I should have a drink or not. Then I remembered the bar burned down...... Well ..shit.

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All I've thought about since last night is how i could apologize. One thing I respect about Y/n is she's straight forward, so I figure thats how she would want me to approach this. In a few strides I cross the wide hall, before I have a chance to overthink I'm knocking on Y/n's door. 'We alternate days for history, she's gotta be here somewhere but if they're not in here I don't know where-' my thoughts are interrupted by the door opening and the scent of dahlias invades my senses. "Oh hi, what can I do for you Logan?" I notice her glasses slide up her nose as her head tilts up to make eye contact with me. There's music playing in the background. "Uhm" at a loss for words, I turn my head right and look down the hallway then left at the stairs. "Can we talk?" She nods and opens the door wider for me. After closing the door I watch her walk across the room, pausing the sounds of thrashing guitars and double kick drums from the speaker by the open window.

"Well look what the cat dragged in. You know I didn't take you for the groveling type but you look pretty on your knees." My mind blanks, ..out of all the different ways I'd imagined they'd react. "W-wh..uh" i fumbled to find a response. Her head falls back and she laughs "Oh darlin' I knew you couldn't resist me."

I half laugh half wheeze, not expecting this to be her reaction. "Y/n. I came to apologize. I'm real sorry about the other day--"

"Oh its fine, theres no need to apologize. Really. So you fucked up, and I've heard about the awful past few days you've had. I'd say your reckoning has been wrought." There's a shit eating grin on her face. "Hmm. So now what?" I ask, too damn confused. Y/n replies "How about you take a few days to figure what you want then get back to me." I look at her, "get back to you? That's it?" She huffs out a chuckle. "Yep. Simple as that. Figure out what you really want, when you get back to me we'll see if what it is the either wants and if it lines up together. You know, like adults."

"And what is it that you want?" Mischief and longing sparkle in here eyes, framed by the lenses of her glasses. "I want you, dumbass. I want a real relationship." I walk over to her, standing in front of her. She looks up at me. "Is this few days thing mandatory?" My hand touches her bicep. She glanced at my hand then up to my face. " 'fraid so darlin" I chuckle, "Well I'll see you in a few days then."

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Sorry it's so short!! Please enjoy🖤🖤

[princeandrogyne]

every penny i make and every hour of my day is controlled when my family is in town. i must wake up at 6:30 every day even if I don't go into work until 11, and two days out of the week i have classes that run until 10 pm, so i am getting a non-optimal amount of sleep at least two/5 weekdays. I have been disallowed from taking naps at home for about two years now. They have eyes on my bank account everyday. they "inspect" my room and car everyday. if my car doesn't meet regulation they threaten to take it so i cannot go into work or school. if i do not take my car through a car wash 3/7 days of the week, i get reprimanded. i must have my phone turned off and in the kitchen by 9 latest everyday (i use my laptop in my room afterward but obviously i cant let them catch me) and sometimes it is hidden from me in the morning so that i cannot use it until a list of things is done, often making me late or forcing me to cancel plans. the list is often cleaning up after other people or tasks i couldve gotten done later in the day such as reorganizing the kitchen or trimming all the tall grass around the property that the lawnmower can't reach. i have a curfew 6/7 days of the week. i know its not bad like its entirely liveable but i feel compressed and stressed constantly and i even have this reaction that whenever i hear the garage door opening (meaning my family has come home) i have to make sure the door to my room is open and that im in a different room doing something so they dont think I'm "slacking" or "hiding" even if i was just trying to do homework in my room (sometimes im disallowed from this and sometimes i am not, i can never really tell) and they yell at me like 3 times a day anyway for not spending more time in the living room and hiding from them in my room but they just stress me out so much i want nothing to do with them AUUUUUGH

[drottni]

LBFAD Rewatch Part 11:

1. The way he can't even LOOK at her as he tells her "I knew this was a dream from the beginning " 😭😭😭😭

2. XLH's master reeling in her two boyfriends with bait. Like "come here you poor miserable little fishies. I got some juicy worms for you."

3. idc how epic of an intro you get Lady Arbiter and her little pet dragon, YOU DONT JUST HIT MY BOY DFQC LIKE THAT. NO. *angry glares* Also my poor baby just closing his eyes and bracing for it like "ah shit here we go again". Him thinking he just deserves it 😭🥺 Can he just have a break plz.

4. "So she has been saving me since we first met. And I have been hurting her." 🥺🥺🥺

5. Changheng: The splitting process is very painful. No matter what you must persevere.

DFQC who has been through every torture life could throw at him: -_- Bro. I got this.

6. DFQC as soon as Changheng leaves: *cue music* I am in my plant parent, cottage core, countryside girlie era. I am gonna be so full of love you will have to come back to me.

7. If he doesn't plant you like a seed, carry you around in a pot like a baby, water you with freshly collected dew with gentle drops, take you for morning sunrise walks, talk to you continuously, and watch over you even while sleeping, he ain't it. WHY WAS THIS SO ROMANTIC. SHE IS LITERALLY IN A POT OF DIRT AND I AM GUSHING OVER THE ROMANCE. No one is doing it like them.

8. XLH having to create straight up physical barriers between her and DFQC so that he can't come close enough to see that emotionally she's barely holding on. How his pleading eyes and sweet apologies are two seconds away from making her cry. She can barely even muster anger towards him.

9. The bridge scene: *exists*

Me:

10. I knowwww its stupid and breaks her entire plan of keeping him in the dark and is a totally senseless move on her part BUT I LOVE THAT SHE CANT RESIST AT THE END. THAT LITTLE GESTURE SHE DOES TO MAKE HIM SMILE. THE WAY SHE CANNOT PHYSICALLY STOP HERSELF FROM SAYING "PLEASE SMILE PLEASE BE OKAY I AM DOING THIS FOR YOU I NEED YOU TO BE OKAY"

11. DFQC: For her, I will alter fate.

Me:

12. THAT KISS. SPOKE A BOOKS WORTH OF WORDS. THE WAY IT CONVEYED ALL OF THEIR PENT UP EMOTIONS AND APOLOGIES AND I LOVE YOUS AND GOODBYES! I WILL DIE FROM JUST THE POWER OF THAT KISS ALONE. HOW IN THE HECK!

13. DFQC: There is nothing in this world that can shake me.

Taisui: *grasping at straws, panicking* What if the love of your life forgot about you? What then?

DFQC:

14. The fact that its DFQC who reminds XLH aka "Goddess who says she will only care about the 3 realms now and not personal desires", that she has to kill him to save the three realms. The fact that her love for him is and always will be stronger than anything else. The fact that he knows this is what must be done and is the one to convince her to do it! AHHHHH KILL ME.