#its 4:39 am i have to wake up at 6:00 am

[lovemeanslife]

i can't sleep what the heck

[lizzielikeborden]

(ɔ◔‿◔)ɔ ♥ prompts for requests (>‿◠)✌

These are some prompts to use for requests. They have labels, so when you request be sure to use the label and the number so I know which section you got it from. Happy requesting!

Fluff

1. “Is that my shirt?” “You mean our shirt?”

2. “It’s you, it always has been.”

3. “You’re everything I could’ve wanted and more.”

4. “Kiss me.”

5. “Home stopped being a place when you entered my life.” 

6. “You should probably go home.” “But I’m already home.”

7. “You’re an idiot.” “But you love me.”

8. “I’d do anything for you.” 

9. “You took all the pillows so I’m using you as one.”

10. “Stop moving and let me braid your hair.”

11. “I’m so proud of you.” 

12. “Could you say that again?” “Were you not listening?” “No I was, I just like hearing your voice.”

13. “I didn’t think it was possible to love someone this much.”

14. “You are my family.”

15. “I’m right here.”

16. “Can you just please hold me?” 

17. “I’m pretty sure (you’re/she’s/he’s/they’re) my soulmate”

18. “You come here often?” “Well considering I work here, yes.”

19. “You know, I think my (mother/father/parents) would be proud if I brought (you/her/him/them) home.” 

20. “I just want to see you happy.”

21. “I haven’t seen (her/him/them) smile like that in ages.” 

22. “You made me a better person. Thank you.” 

23. “I’d rather live in the woods with you than in a mansion with some (girl/boy/person) I barely know.”

24. “This reminded me of you.” 

25. “Your hair is really soft.”

26. “You’re really warm.”

27. “Are you blushing?”

28. “Can I stay here tonight?”

29. “Because I love you.”

30. “I’ve been in-love with you since we were kids.”

31. “I’m never going to leave you. I promise.”

32. “Make a wish!”

33. “I love seeing you smile.”

34. “Why are you wearing my sweater?” “Because it smells like you.”

35. “I just want to be there for you.”

36. “I couldn’t get you out of my mind.”

37. “You’re just a softie.”

38. “You owe me.” “Fine, whatever you like.”

39. “You’re safe now, I’m here.”

40. “Why are you scared of loving?”

41. “You are crushing me right now.”

42. “Darling I love you and all, but please step out fo the kitchen.”

43. “I love you.”

44.“You’re an idiot.” “But I am your idiot.”

45. “Take my hand. Just trust me.”

46. “You’re hurt. Please just let heal it.”

47. “At least let me clean it.”

48. “I told you to take care of yourself.”

49. “You’re the only thing that matters.”

50. “Stay.”

Angst

1. “I’m leaving.” “Of course you are, that’s all you know how to do.”

2. “You started drinking again, didn’t you?” 

3. “You promised you’d stop drinking.” “And you promised you wouldn’t hurt me!″

4.“But it’s my fault right?”

5.“I don’t want to feel this. I want to be numb again.”

6.“You’re lying to me again. Why can’t you just tell me the truth for once?”

7.“I love you.” “No you don’t”

8.“I can’t lose you.” “You already did.”

9.“Did it mean anything to you? Did I mean anything to you?”

10.“How was I such an idiot, to believe that you, out of all people, could ever love me?”  

11.“I loved you.” “Then why did you let (her/him/them) get in between us?”

12.“Maybe they were right, you never did change.”

13.“This is all in my head. It’s all happening in my head.”

14.“Don’t you dare walk away from this!”

15.“What gives you the right to just waltz back into my life after all the pain you’ve caused.”

16.“You’ve changed.”

17.“You win, happy?”

18.“Any other lies left to tell me?”

19.“Why did you wait until I moved on?”

20.“Don’t look at me like that.” “Like what?” “Like you still love me.”

21.“Its (her/him/them), isn’t it?”

22.“It’s always been (her/him/them).”

23.“When did you stop loving me?”

24.“Let me go.”

25.“You’re not you.”

26.“I miss the old you.”

27.“What happened to their happily ever after?” “Not all love stories get a happily ever after, sometimes it’s just once upon a time.”

29.“Move out of my way before I make you.”

30.“I risked my life for you.”

31.“I never would’ve thought (she/he/they)’d end up with someone else.”

32.“They were perfect for each other.”

33.“I was happier with you.”

34.“I would’ve done anything for you.”

35. “I loved you. I loved you so so much but you hurt me.”

36.“They warned me about this.” “About what?” “You.” 

37.“Lie to me. I don’t care what you say, just lie to me. Make me feel okay again.”

38.“You broke me.”

39.“You just threw four years of friendship out the window.”

40.“Hasn’t this addiction done enough damage already?”

41.“Sorry doesn’t fix everything.”

42.“You promised.”

43.“I don’t need help! I need an end to this pain.”

44.“What am I in your life? Because as of lately I feel as though I’ve been nothing to you.”

45. “Leave”

46.“I can’t keep playing pretend.”

47.“Give me one reason why I shouldn’t leave.”

48.“I wish we never met.”

49.“I’m sorry I’m not enough for you.”

50. “You scare me now.”

General

1.“I love you.” “Tell me that when you’re sober.” 

2.“It’s pouring rain why are you here?”

3.“I love you.” “You shouldn’t.”

4.“Where are you?”

5.“What happened?”

6.“Have you been taking care of yourself?”

7.“Is that blood?” “Yes but that doesn’t matter right now, what does matter is-” “You are literally bleeding.”

8. “Is that my book?”

9. “Are they dead?”

10. “You want to play pretend? Well two can play at that game.”

11.“Did you know that you talk in your sleep?”

12.“Come back to bed. Please.” 

13.“You’re who they warned me about.” 

14.“Come back.”

15.“You should’ve listened to me.”

16.“I haven’t seen you in days.” 

17.“Are you jealous?”

18.“Cheers, I’ll drink to that.” “You drink everything.” “Cheers!”

19.“Why is there a lion in the room?” 

20.“Is that vodka? At 7 in the morning?”

21. “Can we take this home?”

22. “Hey, look at me. Focus on me alright?”

23. “I haven’t seen (her/him/them) smile in months.”

24. “(She/he/they) don’t belong with (her/him/them)!” “Than who do(es) (she/he/they) belong with?” “…..with me.”

25. Come home.”

26. “I hope you’re happy.”

27. “They don’t need to know.”

28. “I made this for you.”

29. “Why is arson always your first answer?”

30. “Is this really the time for jokes?”

31.“Wake me up when it’s over.” 

32.“You look happy.” 

33.“I’m sorry, do I know you?” 

34.“Why can’t I get you out of my head?”

35.“Do you want that?”

36.“Don’t let go.” 

37.“Just let me stay.”

38.“Can I at least tell my side of the story?” 

39.“Do you trust me?” 

40.“Are you flirting with me?”

41.“Is the weight of your sins too heavy?”

42.“Just let me see (her/him/them) one last time. Please.”

43.“Are you afraid to die?”

44.“Are they really ‘just a friend’?”

45.“I wasn’t lying when I told you that I loved you.”

46.“I won’t hurt you.”

47.“Have you been sleeping?”

48.“I didn’t know where else to go.”

49. “It’s not 8:00 AM, it’s 8:00 AM”

50. “We should just play our music louder, then we won’t hear theirs.”- “That’s so much noise.”

Mental Health

1.“I didn’t know where else to go.”

2."you can talk to me about anything"

3."I don't understand but I believe you"

4."I'll stay with you as long as you need me to"

5."take a deep breath"

6."do you want me to give you advice or do you just want me to listen?"

7."you don't have to go through this alone"

8."I'll check on you again tomorrow"

9."you're not broken"

10."let's take a five minute break

11."I love you no matter what your brain tells you"

12."I'm always here if you need anything"

13."please don't talk that way about yourself"

14."let me know if you ever need a ride to therapy"

15."don't forget to take your medication"

16."it's okay to ask for help"

17."I'll go with you for moral support"

18."I don't know how to help you but I can help you find someone who does"

19."do you want to talk about it or would you like a distraction?"

20."you're safe"

21."there is always hope"

22.“I will do this with you, you’re never alone”

23.“No one is perfect.”

24.“I will sit outside this door for hours if that helps.”

25.“This is not your fault.”

26.“You do not owe anyone an apology.”

Wordless Ways to Say “I Love You”

1.Holding their hands when they are shaking.

2.Tucking the sheets around them when they stir during the night.

3.Traveling long distances just to see them.

4.Making their favorite meal when they are having a hard day.

5.Giving them a kiss before going to work and they are still in bed.

6.Tucking your head into their neck during a hug.

7.Lightly kissing on top of a freshly formed bruise.

8.Buying them something unrequested because it made you think of them.

9.Participating in their hobby even if it doesn’t personally interest you.

10.Sitting in comfortable silence while eating a meal.

11.Telling them a dumb joke just to see their smile.

12.Following their family traditions that they enjoy.

13.Singing and dancing to their favorite song.

14.Calming them down when they have a bad dream.

15..Having a tickle fight until you’re breathless.

16.Folding their clean laundry and putting it away.

17.Sharing a soft smile across a crowded room.

18.Bringing them a plate of their favorite sliced fruit.

19.Washing their back/hair in the shower.

20.Sharing your umbrella with them in the rain.

21.Listening to them while they vent.

22.Taking a picture together to print and hang later.

23.Tracing your names together in the sand.

24.Wearing clothes in their favorite color.

25.Doing a chore for them that you know they aren’t fond of.

26.Leaving a plate of food in the microwave for when they have a late shift.

27.Sharing a drink with them from the same straw.

28.Tucking their hair behind their ear to help them get it out of their face.

29.Helping scratch that itch on their back they can’t reach.

30.Pulling a chair out for them to sit down at the table.

31.Wrapping a blanket around them when they are sitting on the couch and watching a show.

32.Throwing away their piles of tissues when they have a cold.

33.Mending an item of their clothing that was ripped.

34.Running out in the middle of the night to get a food item they’re craving.

35.Helping brush their hair after a shower.

36.Making sure to be quiet while they’re taking a nap.

37.Letting them warm their cold hands under your shirt.

38.Giving them your dessert when you eat out because it’s their favorite.

39.Making a goofy face until they notice and laugh.

40.Giving them space when they express wanting to have some time alone.

41.Holding their hand while walking, even if there isn’t a crowd.

42.Holding shopping bags that are too heavy for them.

43.Standing between them and a busy road.

44.Rubbing the back of their hand with a thumb.

45.Giving them a back massage when they flop on the couch or bed.

46.Staying up half the night to finish a game with them.

47.Getting them a coffee just the way they like it.

48.Giving them a tight hug that makes them lose their breath.

49. Buying them a special treat when you go out shopping.

50. Watching shitty horror movies 

[ennui-gt]

Here it is. A Piece Of Borrower Content Written Entirely In Stream Of Consciousness:

AN: so this is incomplete and very…needs revisions to the timeline to incorporate some things I added later! It’s the original universe that Mira’s from! I edited it like Slightly to just change Ross’s name to Ross (if u see Max anywhere that’s his old one I just felt like changing it so that’s just him but different. Anyway) Everything's under the readmore tab, cheers!

The Library Fairy:

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Basic Plot (Chrono, comic starts from human perspective abt the ‘legend of the library fairy’ ig maybe. Nothing here is permanent cept the characterization)

Part A

1- Mira is borrower currently chillin in a college library

2- She lives off of the cafe on the second floor nd reads lots and lots of stuff about everything when the upper floors close (lower floor open 24/7 but upper floors r vacant p much after 12:00 AM)

3- she starts getting increasingly curious about human stuff cos she’s literate nd books r pry neat

4- it starts one night when she spots an unattended notebook and a half eaten blueberry muffin, nd it’s 12:30 so nobody’s coming back in atm (it’s the 80s so no laptops for the plebians quite yet)

5- so she goes ‘welp’ nd takes part of the muffin, then sees the work on the page and goes ‘hmmmm this is incorrect’ so she helps our and leaves notes here n there to point the kid in the right direction and puts down some book refs for further study bcos at this point she’s been there for 2 years and she knows where most things are

6- she stays behind to see if the human comes back for it, hidden in a hidey hole near the desk

7- human comes in, sees notebook, practically melts w relief nd stuffs it in his bag

8- next day human comes back nd leaves nother notebook and a cookie, along w a hidden camera

9- Mira goes ‘o boy, this a trap, innit’

10- Mira then decides ‘eh whatever I haven’t had contact w anyone in years now so I might as well’

11- she steals the camera film nd leaves a lil scrap of paper saying ‘nice try ;)’ on it

12- student comes back, sees paper, goes ‘dammit’, then leaves note addressed to the ‘library fairy’ and another cookie, as well as more of their work for her to help with

13- bout a decade goes by and now the “Library Fairy” is an urban myth, it’s currently 2003 so she’s also wound up on the school’s unofficial Wikipedia page under ‘local cryptids’

14- most library employees know of her but they don’t go looking out of fear stemming from superstitions bout her, somehow the legend grew from ‘can’t be photographed’ to ‘a student once saw her and died that day’

15- there’s now a small shrine devoted to her where ppl bring offerings hoping to get good grades in return, sometimes they will leave papers for her to proofread nd stuff

16- new prof (named Alexei) finds online article thinks he Knows What’s Up bcos he had a borrower friend as a kid, but they left when borrower’s fam found out about them knowing each other

17- he leaves note wedged in one of her secret entrances behind outlet, asking if she can meet w him at some point

18- Mira, already In it, goes ‘Okay. Alright. This has gone on for long enough. Time to go and never return’ but ofc she’s curious as all hell and like she decides she will at least honor the guy’s request for a convo b4 she goes, but on her terms and w/o speaking face 2 face

19- they Talk in the library after hours, bcos he paid off the janitor to let him stay after hours nd most of the student employees recognize him as a prof nd leave him alone

20- they talk again for every subsequent night

21- she uhhhh finally decides to reveal herself nd prays that her hunch was right nd he won’t try to grab her or anything

22- he doesn’t but she’s nervous so she winds up gettin caught in her own climbing rope like idiot, is now dangling from ceiling in tangled mess

23- he stifles chuckle nd she says smthn sarcastic

24- he moves closer and offers to untangle her

25- she’s like ‘please’

26- so he do, but her grip on the rope slips nd he has to catch her

26- so now she’s in his hand and he just sets her down and now he’s a bumbling embarrassed mess bcos he said he wasn’t going to hold her and he just did and o dear pls forgib him

28- nd she’s like ‘dude u just saved my life it’s fine ur fine chill’

29- internally she’s going HOLY FUCK AAAAAAA but externally, her human’s already worked up enough as it is so she’s gotta b the level headed one

29.5- after a while they both kinda get used to each other more, he gets tenure, they celebrate, some more stuff happens, Aleksei got married (not to Mira, Mira hasn’t actually rly thought about being in a relationship w anyone cos she’s laser focused on gaining as much knowledge as possible)

30- eventually Alexei’s like ‘hey so I’m dean of faculty for the biotech branch now uhhhh would u like actual job teaching students? Cos, uh, you can do it remotely thru online lectures n stuff, no in person interaction, and I uh was just kinda wondering—‘

31- she’s like ‘yes. Yes!!! LET ME HELP PEOPLE OFFICIALLY KINDA’

32- so now she’s a professor, and has revealed her Secret a few times here n there to a number of the faculty, nd she has recorded her own findings in a personal journal

33- ‘humans will treat u like a human if they think ur human first. The kids call it ‘catfishing’’

34- enter Ross, an mall goth who accidentally tripped headfirst into a premed program

35- Mira’s favorite field of study is bio so naturally she’s his prof for a majority of his classes

36- being the good boy that he is, he now knows Mira’s secret. There is an Entire Chapter on him finding out and legit just continuing their conversation as if everything was normal bcos he thought that was how he was supposed to handle the situation

37- then she says ‘u can ask questions, u know’ he’s like OH THANK FUCK CAUSE I HAVE SEVEN HUNDRED OF THOSE

38- and now he kinda knows what to look for in terms of ‘do borrowers live here check yes or no’

39-in his apartment, the answer is yes and he mistakenly kinda stumbles upon the mom one night when he wakes up in the middle of the night for Snack and opts to pretend like its not happening. Unfortunately the thing she was trying 2 borrow (piece of crumb cake for Son Boy’s birthday) is the thing he wants 2 eat so he’s like “uh. ‘Scuse me, ma’am.” and he peels back the saran wrap on the other side of the plate, takes piece, nd then leaves some there for her

40-so now the woman is like ‘welp guess it time 2 Leave’

.1- she and husband Talk

.2-they decide it best 2 go

.3-theyre Packing

.4-lil bab Ellie confused

.5-hawk attacke

.6-cut to Ross

41- Ross also happens to work at a bar and he goes outside for a break

43- he finds smal child—smol smal—on the sidewalk and said child is missing an arm, nd has lost a lot of blood, so he’s uhhhhh Losing It highkey

43.5-parents r nowhere 2 b seen, but the hawk is nearby and circling. Ross gets an idea of what just happened

44- he up and leaves work, thankfully his apartment is above the shop so he jumps up the fire escape w the child and

45- he make tourniquet

46- he calls Mira nd asks her 2 come over to ASAP. he’s A Mess at this point

47- it is Very touch and go, kid needs blood, Mira is the only viable donor so she’s just gotta pray that the blood type is fine and won’t kill him

48- and then eventually they manage 2 stave infection thru antibiotics properly dosed to his size, Mira does Math and Prays basically

49- ‘bout a month in, kid wakes up

50- kid doesn’t rember much since he’s only 3

51- hes v scared of Ross at first but over time he gets used 2 the human

52- kid (elliot) starts 2 call Ross ‘dad’ after a while

53- Ross: *internal screaming but in a good way*

54- the end kinda for now

Part 2

A- New Borrowers In The Building

—three of em. paranoid dad, mom, nd daughter that’s Elliot’s age so he’s pumped

B- Elliot offers them a place 2 stay briefly

C- he knows by now bout like, how borrowers don’t typically interact w humans and Auntie Mira’s a bit of a weird case so he just doesn’t tell em bout his dad being the human

D- the kid finds out first nd doesn’t tell the parents, but they figure it out later kinda and think that it’s a ‘o god he’s being kept as a pet’ sitch so they’re >:| abt it

E- they move out and try to take Elliot w them (by force bcos they think he’s brainwashed) but he escapes and makes it to Ross, who’s like “uhhhhhh”

F- and the mom come out the hole near the counter n starts yelling at Ross, who is…kinda used to it since Mira brings in ppl who need help from time 2 time and they typically don’t react well when they’re lucid enough to understand what’s going on. He’s just not used to being questioned about his own kid

G- so they’re like “WHAT DO YOU THINK YOU’RE DOING WITH HIM”

H- and he’s like “r…raising him???”

I- and Ellie steps up and he’s like “this is my dad. I decided he was my dad when I was three. He’s being a good parent”

J- and Ross is like “yeah what he said. I’m a good parent.”

K- Ross is riding that high til the end of fucking time but like back to the story at hand

L- this is when the husband comes out nd is like “lissen. wifey. ily but that is a very big human and he hasn’t grabbed us yet so let’s count our blessings and gtfo”

M- but she’s like “uh no we stay until I’m sure Elliot is Safe and fucking Sound”

N- so they stay for dinner nd stick around a little longer.

O- Val (the kid) gets closer 2 Elliot and also Ross a bit

P- Mira shows once or twice, first time she shows up they’re like “oh god it’s the crazy doctor lady this all makes sense now” (bcos Mira does check up on as many borrower families as possible in her free time so word has got around by now Of her, and the number by which to contact her in case her services r needed)

Q- After a month or so, then they decide to leave bcos they’re like “look we get that ur son is ur son and he only has one arm and in our profession that is kind of a death sentence but we can’t have our kid getting used to dealing w humans who know about our existence” so they go and leave on a kind of sour note bcos Ellie can do anything he wants to do just as well as any other borrower Thank You Very Much and Ross is ready to fite anyone who thinks otherwise

R- Elliot starts trying 2 b more independent, basically from now on he’s like ‘I can do everything my Damn Self Thanks’

S- but uh he does it to a point where he’s going out of the way to endanger himself

T- so they get into a fite about it and ross Yells and Elliot is like ‘kthxbye’

U- and the boi just. Fuckin bolts. Runs Away. Ross is a Mess, he starts smoking again (he quit cold turkey the day he took Elliot in) to curb the depression, he’s jus. Not doin good, worried that his son is dead and the last time they talked it’d ended badly

V- FREEDOM!!!1! Except Ellie doesn’t kno how to take care of himself so it’s a rough month or so and then he runs into some other borrowers livin in their own town in the wild ig, chillin, being hella independent, and he’s like “uh yes ofc I will join u, I was w my dad for a while but.........” he neither confirms nor denies that his dad’s dead but everyone kinda just assumes.

Part 3

W-anyway a year goes by and then the borrower group gets hit hard w some kind of sickness ig. Elliot gets it too he’s basically incapacitated n drifting in and out of lucidity. So. They contact the weird crazy doctor lady who hangs around humans, a.k.a. Mira, and she’s like “oh. fuck. I know this kid.” bcos she does, u kno, and she jus treats em all for their ailment and shows them how to make antibiotic poultice thing in case smthn like it happens again. Mold. Penicillin is basically what it is

X-she and Elliot hav a Chat (Mira basically yells at him a lot) once he’s fixed up and he decides he’s gonna visit his dad but he makes it very clear that he is a Grown Up (he’s not, he’s literally sixteen), and he is living on his own now

Y- he agrees to stay for a week tho since he misses his home a lot tbh and Ross is just. Over the fucking moon to know he’s ALIVE, he’s not gonna fuck up their relationship by insisting that he stay. Or like, by keeping him ofc he would never

Z- unfortunately the borrower community put two and two together and figured out his dad’s human so they have his stuff packed up when he gets back w mira, who’s ready to go the fuck off on them

End 1:

-Ellie is living at Ross’s place atm and hopeful about the future basically. He eventually will go off on his own but he’ll keep in contact w his dad and stuff

Part C.5

55- few yrs later

56- elliot is Adult now he does adult borrower stuff

57- he moves out

58- finds nice borrower gf (her name’s Tess)

59- doesn’t tell her about his dad being human but talks about his dad a LOT

60- so when she asks to meet said father he’s just like “uh. Maybe we don’t do that actually”

61- and she’s like “y tho”

62- and he’s like “bcos”

63- anyway she decides to look into it cos she knows he goes to see his dad nd keep in touch but his dad is allegedly “a recluse who lives in the big scary human’s walls to avoid other ppl”

64- which is. Not true in the slightest tbqh he’s def not an introvert he’s just a workaholic and he Is the big scary human

65- anywho they run into Val and her wife and she’s like “how’s Ross been?” And Elliot is acting Very Suspish so she, being Smart, calls it immediately and is like “oh shit u haven’t told her yet have u”

66- Tess: “told me what”

67- Val: “El’s dad is a human, bro.”

68- Tess: “I’m sorry?”

69- this results in a Big Fight and they separate for like, a month. Elliot blames Val bcos he’s being irrational and doesn’t wanna admit to the fact that lying to his girlfriend for over a year was Real Bad Actually, but over time he’s like ‘yeah it’s my fault sry for snapping at u’ cos he works thru his emotions n stuff

70- Eventually gf comes back cos she’s like “ok so. I understand why you lied to me about your dad. It was a dick move but I do get it and I still care about you a lot. I would like. To meet him.”

80- this is a lie she does not want to meet him she is doing this bcos she does not want to lose Elliot and that outweighs the fear of his dad

81- so they go to meet him but she’s just kinda. Behind the wall at first like “that’s a crazy big human this is crazy ur crazy it’s time to gO”

82- Val is also there bcos she hasn’t seen Ross in a while

83- they eventually coax her out of hiding

84- and by that I mean Val picks her up and drags her out into the open by force bcos she basically freezes up the second she catches sight of Ross and Val’s like “u didn’t come all this way for nothing, bich”

85- they have a Painfully Awkward First Meeting, Tess is trying her best but oh god he’s just too fucking. Larg. Ellie ur dad too big

86- tbh tho the ice kinda breaks after Ellie and Ross get into a fight over smthn stupid (im thinking Elliot grumbles bout Ross’s hair being unruly and he’s worried that mira’s using it like a personal storage system again and Ross is like “I’ve been keeping better track of that actually” and then like a little line of paper clips and a few hand-bound notebooks tied together w some string fall out of his fucking mane and he’s like “I can explain”

87- “dad you can’t keep letting her use your hair like a fucking NEST”

88- Tess is laughing now cos god damn this was not what she was expecting

89- that’s it the end it ends w Tess laughing at them being idiots good times r had by all

Uhhhh that’s it so far. I have More but it’s kinda jumbled rn and I need to fit stuff in places. Anyway.

[moonelf19]

Episode 115 Widofjord Highlights

I’m late for a livewatch but also consider! I am late for the monday youtube release. Time to get those crumbs though!

20:20 Fjord asks Caleb for some paper, “just a scrap”. Caleb happily hands over “5 or 6 complete pieces of paper, whatever you need.” Jester reminds the disaster casters that Calebs paper is expensive (and rare, and wow someone had to remind Caleb that his paper is precious? Excuse me?) and hands over her sketchbook instead. Fjord is happy to take the sketchbook and insists Caleb keep his paper in case Dagen screws up the map. At about 20:45 Caleb/Liam makes a wincing face and tilts his head kind of sassy, like “well fine my paper isn’t good enough for you”.

23:00 Caleb starts the conversation about Vess being dead and the consequences. At first he seems to be talking to Fjord about “keeping an eye out”, likely because Fjord can cast see invisibility and see scrying eyes. At the 25′ mark Fjord asks what they should do about Vess, right after Veth was talking, but he is turned to and directs the question to Caleb. Caleb posits some short term solutions and Fjord redirects back to ask “she’s in your amber, right?”

Caleb: Yes

Fjord: If someone tried to scry, like we did on Molly, would they just see your necklace?

Caleb: Well-

Cut to them trying to remember how scry works, if a dead person can be scried on.

Fjord: Should I give you your pendant back?

Fjord: As long as no one can track the item inside your necklace, again, like for the crystal clove.

Caleb: That was a whole other thing entirely, I believe.

The group gets distracted by the term “crystal clove” but Travis keeps looking over to Liam- I think he/Fjord is still really bothered that the crystal was tracked in the pendant and, dare I say it, I want him to confront Caleb about it. Because Travis seemed pretty upset and referred to it as “false advertising” during talks machina iirc. Give me the drama, bois. But Liam/Caleb diverts and calls out to Dagen, ending the rp moment.

52:28 Caleb opts to have Frumpkin keep Fjord company on first watch. 

54:09 Fjord notices the scrying orb and calls out to wake Caleb up. They proceed to have a painfully awkward not-conversation conversation while they panic because they didn’t come up with a plan for if Fjord saw anything and neither remember that it’s probably a scrying orb.

Fjord: We’re making good time heading to the most eastern destination. *gestures toward the orb with his head*

Caleb: We could certainly go further. *looks that way and sees nothing* We could probably go farther.

Fjord: Yep, yep. Well that’s it!

Caleb: I don’t think I can go to sleep now, Fjord.

Fjord: Yes, yes...

Fjord proceeds to threaten whoever is scrying, and Matt clarifies whether he is attuned to the necklace. Travis admits that he swapped out the ring of fire resistance for the call-blocking pendant. Liam says that someday, someone will inherit that ring and it will be really meaningful, clearly trying to help Travis save face but Travis seems to kind of embrace his impulse purchases.

58:43

Fjord: *moves back over to Caleb* There was another scrying. Sphere. Eye. Someone is watching.

Caleb, who is making eye contact with Fjord: Great. Take your pick on who wants us dead.

Fjord: The Empire? The Dynasty? Molly?

Caleb: *scoffs, smiles at Fjord* My money is on the Tiefling.

Fjord: Our scent, he said.

Caleb: ... scent. Our blood?

Fjord: *nods and smiles* Our blood. Do you have any idea how to counteract that? Blood magic?

Caleb: If it’s that, I do not. Gods, it’s cold.

Fjord: ... It is...

Liam looked like he was going to say something else, but Travis says he will keep an eye out and we cut to the next watch.

1:04:54 Caleb uses control flame to make the bonfire flare.

Fjord: Awesome! *basks in the warmth*

1:08:06 Dagen made everyone breakfast and is ribbing them about being noobs to the cold.

Fjord: We learned a lesson, yes? Hard lesson learned. All the wiser for it? Seasoned travelers.

Caleb: So much character built last night.

Fjord: So much. Bushels of character.

1:15:32 At the distraction pillar-

Fjord: Caleb you couldn’t read any of these markings, right? That’s not a language, or-

Caleb: I assume I would’ve been able to if it’s by sight.

Jester: You don’t have to cast anything anymore, you can just read things?

Fjord: *has no reason to have this confidence* Yep!

Caleb: Well I mean, I have done a lot of stuff for a long time.

Jester: How many languages do you speak?

Caleb: Four.

Beau: I can read five! I know more languages than you!

Jester: Beau you’re so smart-

Fjord: Okay, it’s not a competition >:(

Sorry, but Fjord, keep it in your pants. Jeez. You’re heart eyes are so loud rn.

Also I want to point out that Travis accurately called that trying to pull the gem out kills you. Smart dude. Still embarrassingly soft for Caleb.

1:20:34

Travis: This is literally the stupidest thing we could be doing. We should just keep going, right?

Liam: This pivoted the entire campaign one, what we are fucking with right now.

Travis: Yeup! We should just go.

Liam: The necromancy thing.

Travis: Let’s keep going.

... Liam: I am going to use telekinesis to pull the gem out.

Travis: And there goes our wizard.

A few minutes and 52 points of damage later.

Travis/Fjord/??: How far is your telekinesis range?

Liam: Exactly 60 feet!

Travis: Yeah yeah just kind of like *puts hand out*

Jester: Heal him!

Travis: Nah he’s fine!

Caleb: No you need to heal me!

Travis: Turn into a T-Rex!

1:27:03, literally a few seconds after the T-Rex comment

Jester: I don’t have cure wounds >_>

Fjord: I will, at 5th level, cast cure wounds on Caleb.

Laura: aww that’s so sweet :)

Fjord: 29 points of healing :)

1:30:17 Caleb gets shit kicked by the pillar again and starts peeling off his coat, looks like death, and Travis is like “its a point of pride!” Caleb rolls up his sleeves. Travis says “LETS GO!” Caleb gets mad at telekinesis and uses Cat’s Ire, still fails. Throws a snowball. Travis says it his the ground and rolls and Liam is like “makes it maybe halfway there”

1:35:23 Jester paints “BIG EMERALD HERE” with an arrow pointing down

Caleb Neutral... Good? Ok?: Oh that’s murder! *big smile* That’s going to bring people right to that!

Jester, Chaotic Neutral: They should be smarter than that :)

Fjord, Lawful Good: Jester, I don’t know, that seems like a bit much...

Cad: If I had seen that I wouldn’t have touched it.

Jester: Right?

Fjord: I would’ve (we know)

Caleb: That’s like a cave that says ‘Free Cupcakes’

Jester: Oh, well, when you say it like that...

Fjord: See? Yeah. *nods at Caleb*

Caleb: *smiles and points at Fjord*

Fjord: It all depends.

Caleb: You just have to attack it from the right angle sometimes.

Fjord: *smiles at Caleb*

As they leave the pillar Caleb tries to cast dispel magic. When it fails, Liam makes a very angry face and flips double middle fingers at Matt/the pillar.

Fjord: It’s ok! It’s ok. We’ll probably come back by this way. We’ll get it another day.

1:39:18 Liam gets a little lost looking at his spells again

Fjord: Cah-leb?

Caleb: Yeah ok.

New Achievement: Pet name for your lover

1:44:21

Jester: Waffle cornbread!

Beau: Does such a thing exist?

Fjord: If the cats can’t make it, I mean, who can?

Fjord is the ultimate hype man.

2:03:00

Travis: Is that a real story or did you write that?

Liam: I wrote it. Today.

Travis: *looks incredibly impressed but trying to hide it* Sure. Sure.

This is now a Travis and Liam friendship blog. Soft. Good. Pure.

2:53:45 Caleb turns Cad into a mammoth and Fjord/Travis is hype. Again. He also wants to see Caleb try to punch a yeti.

3:04:50 Fjord runs up to the yeti in melee with Caleb and does a pushing strike to get the yeti away.

3:32:16 Travis is broken, staring at his table. Laura points it out.

Travis: The necrotic stone? We can’t leave it alone. The yetis? We invite them to fucking dinner.

Excuse me, you say “we” but what you mean is “Caleb” sir.

3:59:20 Travis pops his fidget toy :( not widofjord but let’s all have a moment of silence for what cannot be the first time he’s done that. Can we start sending our recommendations for good fidget toys?

4:03:43 Fjord starts walking into the cave while the others are still debating the plan, and Caleb immediately follows him. When the others ask if Frumpkin will lead, Liam begins to describe using Fjord to steady himself to scout via Frumpkin before Matt cuts him off to close out the episode.

That’s it for this week! Let’s see what talks machina with Liam has for us >:)

[another-rogue-trevelyan]

50 Questions You Have Never Been Asked

I got tagged by @elgar-somniari Thanks for the opportunity to share!

1. What is the color of your hairbrush?

Greenish Blue

2. A food you never eat?

Shellfish - I’m allergic

3. Are you typically too warm or too cold?

My bff from college calls me “Lizard Person” because the only way I can be warm is laying in direct sunlight like a reptile

4. What were you doing 45 minutes ago?

Checking in on my animal crossing island 

5. What is your favorite candy bar?

I love Kit Kats with my whole being

6. Have you ever been to a professional sporting event?

I’m not super into sports, but I go to the ballet a few times per year which is as close as I get

7. What was the last thing you said out loud?

"We should change that” (Just realized we have two of the same picture hanging on the same wall in my apartment, should probably replace one)

8. What is your favorite ice cream?

Mint Cookie Crumble

9. What was the last thing you had to drink?

Water. I live on water and G2

10. Do you like your wallet?

People make fun of me for it because it looks “manly” but I know that wallets don’t have genders and also it has three ID slots so I can keep two forms of ID and a picture visible at all times which is why I liked it in the first place

11. What was the last thing you ate?

Pizza

12. Did you buy any new clothes last weekend?

I ordered a pair of brown lace up boots specifically because they look like RPG heroine boots and I can’t wait until they get here

13. The last sporting event you watched?

Do the Orzammar Provings count?

14. What is your favorite flavor of popcorn?

There’s a store in my town that only sells fancy olive oil so I like to make plain popcorn but then salt it and pour the butter infused olive oil on it

15. Who was the last person you sent a text message to?

The SO

16. Ever go camping?

I have! It’s not my favorite but I’ll go once in a while

17. Do you take vitamins?

I’m a teacher so I take air shield when school is in session

18. Do you go to church every Sunday?

I am not religious 

19. Do you have a tan?

I just burn so I coat myself in obscene amounts of sunscreen and then maybe I’ll somehow end up tan

20. Do you prefer Chinese food or pizza?

Right now I’m gonna say Chinese because I have eaten a lot of pizza lately and I miss Chinese

21. Do you drink your soda with a straw?

I only drink soda once in a while at a restaurant and even then I usually order iced tea. But, when I get soda at a restaurant, they usually give me a straw, so yes

22. What color socks do you usually wear?

Mickey Mouse, bright colors, usually don’t match

23. Ever drive above the speed limit?

Maybe 3 MPH above maximum on a highway and everyone still flies past me

24. What terrifies you?

Straight drops. I like rollercoasters, but anything with a 90 degree drop is a no go from me

25. Look to your left what do you see?

A poster from a musical I was in

26. What core do you hate?

I’m assuming this was supposed to say “chore”, so dishes. On the off-chance it was core as in subject matter, math

27. What do you think of when you hear an Australian accent?

I don’t hear them often, but I just think of Australia and things I associate with it. Like kangaroos and sunshine

28. What is your favorite soda?

Diet Coke (no, I don’t think it’s healthy, regular coke is just too sweet for my taste)

29. Do you go into a fast food place or just hit the drive through?

Drive though usually 

30. Who was the last person you talked to?

My mom 

31. Favorite cut of beef?

Whatever cut somebody else cooked because I’m terrible at it and beggars can’t be choosers

32. Last song you listened to?

I’m Still Standing - Elton John

33. Last book you read?

I’m halfway though Voyager, which is in the Outlander series

34. Favorite day of the week?

Saturday. Stereotypical, but I like sleeping in and knowing I don’t have to wake up early the next day either

35. Can you say the alphabet backwards?

Absolutely not

36. How do you like your coffee?

I’m a tea girl, which I drink as is, occasionally with a little sugar, honey, or lemon, but not always. Coffee I will only drink in frappuccino form if it tastes so much like chocolate that I can barely taste the coffee

37. Favorite pair of shoes?

Boots. I have a couple pairs that I rotate and then get sad in the summer that I can’t wear them

38. At what time do you usually go to bed?

Normally like 9:30-10:00 (I have to get up early for work) but lately it’s been more like midnight

39. At what time do you normally get up?

6:30 if I’m working, ordinarily 8:30 if I wake up on my own, lately its been 9:30-10:00 since I have no schedule

40. What do you prefer - sunrises or sunsets?

I like them both but I’m not a morning person so I rarely see a sunrise

41. How many blankets are on your bed?

Summer - Sheet only

Winter - Sheet, smaller blanket, comforter

Spring/Fall - Sheet, comforter 

42. Describe your kitchen plates?

Round, purple 

43. Do you have a favorite alcoholic beverage?

I don’t drink a lot but if I do it has to be fruity 

44. Do you play cards?

Blackjack is about it. I’d like to learn more though! Not cards, but I just finally taught myself to play chess

45. What color is your car?

Gray

46. Can you change a tire?

No

47. What is your favorite province?

I live in the US, so I’ll go with a state - New York, where I live (not the city)

48. Favorite job you ever had?

I worked in a local small business through college that I loved, but I just got hired for my first teaching job so I’m excited to finally work in my field!

49. How did you get your biggest scar?

The scar in question is not longer there (took YEARS to fade) but I don’t have any others so when I was a kid I walked too close to my dad’s motorcycle and I didn’t know he had just gotten home and the exhaust pipe was still hot and my calf touched it and left a HUGE burn on the side of my leg. That shit HURT

50. What did you do today that made someone happy?

Talked and joked with the SO

I tag @elffyness, @lakecalenhadlookslikeabunny, @its-dragonage-trash @noire-pandora 

Sorry if you were already tagged, and anyone else who wasn’t tagged but wants to, go for it!

[mythiica]

Reader x Kiro {MLQC} - Miss Chips {Day 6}

Title: Miss Chips

Fandom: Mr. Love Queen’s Choice

Character: Kiro

Genre: YAndere

Warnings: its not what you’re expecting, there is mild violence/imagery (nothing super detailed) 

Word Count: 1228 words

Other comments: this is supposed to look like a text message conversation!! 

> To Miss Chips (1:24 pm October 20)

Miss Chips! How are you? I haven’t heard from you since last weekend, so I wanted to check up on you

 > To Miss Chips (1:25 pm October 20)

😋😋

 > To Miss Chips (2:39 pm October 21)

Sorry, were you busy earlier? I know you have work for your company

 > To Miss Chips (2:39 pm October 22)

Are you busy? 

 > To Miss Chips (2:40 pm October 22)

We should go out for lunch tomorrow!  

 > To Miss Chips (2:45 pm October 22)

Let me know so I can make a reservation

 > To Miss Chips (3:02 am October 23)

I had a bad dream, I hope you don’t mind me messagi

 > To Miss Chips (3:02 am October 23)

messaging*

 > To Miss Chips (3:03 am October 23)

It was really awful, I was holding you to my chest and you wouldn’t wake up

 > To Miss Chips (3:05 am October 23)

I remember the blood smelled so real, like it wasn’t a dream. Thankfully it was though! I’d be so upset if it wasn’t. I don’t know what I’d do… 

 > To Miss Chips (3:12 am October 23)

Are we good for lunch tomorrow?

 > To Miss Chips (7:47 am October 23)

Ah! So sorry, I feel asleep

 > To Miss Chips (7:49 am October 23)

I had another bad dream after that, but there was another guy in it this time. I don’t remember much. 

 > To Miss Chips (7:53 am October 23)

And about lunch, I won’t be able to make it 

 > To Miss Chips (7:54 am October 23)

Sorry! 

 > To Miss Chips (7:54 am October 23)

I forgot my agent has something booked for me

 > To Miss Chips (7:56 am October 23)

Another time though?

 > To Miss Chips (7:57 am October 23)

I know we met last weekend, but I wanted to see you again :( 

 > To Miss Chips (11:30 am October 25)

Miss Chips! 

Miss Chips! 

Where art thou, Miss Chips! 

 > To Miss Chips (11:31 am October 25)

My next music video will be Romeo and Juliet themed haha

 > To Miss Chips (11:34 am October 25)

Do you think you would want to play my Juliet? 

 > To Miss Chips (12:40 am October 25)

I just had my agent send you the information! He said he didn’t think you would be able to do it with what happened, but I told him you would be fine! 

 > To Miss Chips (6:52 pm October 25)

I just… had deja vu

 > To Miss Chips (6:52 pm October 25)

It was so weird

 > To Miss Chips (6:54 pm October 25)

I wanted to cut some carrots for a salad, but when I reached for the knife, I saw something like from my dream. Like it was the same scene, but no one was there but me. It only lasted a second, but it was so weird

 > To Miss Chips (6:55 pm October 25)

Do you think I’m being haunted?! 

 > To Miss Chips (6:56 pm October 25)

That would make for a funny video, but I’m scared of those types of things!!

 > To Miss Chips (7:01 pm October 25)

I did some research and they say to sage an area to cleanse bad spirits 

 > To Miss Chips (7:02 pm October 25)

Do you happen to have any sage? 

 > To Miss Chips (10:26 pm October 25)

I think I might need more than sage… 

 > To Miss Chips (10:29 pm October 25)

I woke up and I was standing in the living room holding a gun. It was a prop!! From the last mv I did, but I got so scared. I have never sleep walked.. slept walked? before in my life! My heart is still pounding, I texted you right away. Are you still up? 

 > To Miss Chips (10:46 pm October 25)

I’m getting kind of worried that you’re not responding… did I say something to anger you? 

 > To Miss Chips (6:51 am October 26)

I’m having so many bad dreams, and they all involve you

 > To Miss Chips (6:51 am October 26)

Is this a bad sign?

 > To Miss Chips (6:52 am October 26)

I mentioned it to my agent, and he got me some medicine for sleeping, but I don’t want to take them

 > To Miss Chips (6:54 am October 26)

You see, I did some research on these pills, and they’re used to treat more than just insomnia

 > To Miss Chips (6:56 am October 26)

I just emailed you the link. It’s kind of suspicious :\ 

 > To Miss Chips (7:00 am October 26)

My agent saw me texting you and he tried to take my phone away?! 

 > To Miss Chips (7:02 am October 26)

Don’t worry Miss Chips! I’d never leave you

 > To Miss Chips (7:02 am October 26)

I’ll stay with you forever!

 > To Miss Chips (12:17 am October 27)

I took one of those pills, but now I’m scared

 > To Miss Chips (12:18 am October 27)

I just woke up holding a gun.. but it wasn’t a prop

 > To Miss Chips (12:20 am October 27)

I’m too scared to call my agent… and I think there is blood on it… 

 > To Miss Chips (12:24 am October 27)

Miss Chips! Please respond, I’m so worried. I don’t know what is happening to me, so I need your help

 > To Miss Chips (12:35 am October 27)

While I was trying to find a place to put this, I found a bracelet here. It has a ginko charm on it – did you leave it here last weekend? 

 > To Miss Chips (12:35 am October 27)

…

 > To Miss Chips (12:37 am October 27)

...it has blood on it…

 <Sunshine is calling Miss Chips>

 > To Miss Chips (12:42 am October 27)

Pick up! 

 > To Miss Chips (12:58 am October 27)

I’m going back to sleep, but I’m coming over in the morning.

  > To Miss Chips (4:27 am October 27)

My agent woke me up and we’re leaving the house in a rush, I’m so confused, I don’t know what’s happening

 > To Miss Chips (4:29 am October 27)

He keeps saying that they found you

 > To Miss Chips (4:29 am October 27)

What does he mean?

 > To Miss Chips (4:31 am October 27)

Miss Chips? Do you know what is happening?

 <Sunshine is typing>

> To Miss Chips (4:38 am October 27)

Miss Chips…? 

 > To Miss Chips (9:18 am October 27)

Everyone has been asking me so many questions, and I want to cry 

 > To Miss Chips (9:19 am October 27)

They’re saying you’re gone? 

 > To Miss Chips (9:21 am October 27)

Where did you go????

 > To Miss Chips (9:22 am October 27)

Please come back!... 

 > To Miss Chips (4:48 pm October 31)

I did something… 

 > To Miss Chips (4:49 pm October 31)

What did I do? I can’t remember

 > To Miss Chips (4:50 pm October 31)

They let me keep your bracelet 

 > To Miss Chips (4:56 pm October 31)

You’re not coming back… are you?

 > To Sunshine (4:56 pm October 31)

ERROR 6295: This number has been disconnected. Message failed to send. 

[ellenneedscoffee]

some asks

I saw @whiisker share this and thought I’d give it a go. Originally posted by @lilflowerkiddo

• 1. have you ever been in love?

I have and still am. I’ve been with my boyfriend going on five years now.

• 2. who is your favorite artist?

There are so many! Charlie Bowater, Shirley Barber, Yehuda Devir, the list goes on.

• 3. what is your favorite music genre?

I cant say i have a favourite. I like all kinds of music, except for country but Luke Combs is an exception.

• 4. have you ever had a penpal?

I have two. I've known them for about 8 years I think? One of them is a fantasy author and I’m creating the covers for her new series. 

• 5. are you single or in a relationship?

Yep. I’m taken.

• 6. what color are your eyes?

blue.

• 7. what is your favorite word?

antidisestablishmentarianism.

• 8. do you play any instruments?

No but i’d like to. 

Favorite color?

Purple but I also really like emerald green.

• 10. do you have any nicknames?

Not really. Some people call me Elle but that’s mainy my dad.

• 11. what is your favorite flower?

Orchids.

• 12. what qualities do you find attractive in a person?

Well, My current boyfriend is technically my first so I’d say I love his humor and and his smile. Although sometimes I hate his smile because it means hes about to be a cheeky shit and I should be worried.

• 13. do you have any pets?

I have a land seal- I mean a Blue Healer and 3 cats. 

• 14. have you ever traveled outside of your home country?

No but I am planning on going to Bali at the end of the year. I would also love to visit Japan and the US.

• 15. what language(s) do you speak?

English. I did learn Indonesian when i was in primary school and high school but I only remember the very basics like “Good Morning” and “thank you”.

• 16. who was your first crush?

The crush i can remember was I guy I “dated” when i was 12. Turns out he was best mates with my boyfriend before he decided to hit his girlfriend and threaten to come to my bf’s house with a crow bar. Yeah, we don’t speak to him anymore...

• 17. do you wear glasses?

I have glasses but i don’t need them. I swear they’re just clear lenses because they don’t do anything.

• 18. what is your favorite pastry?

croissant

• 19. do you prefer swimming in a pool or in the ocean?

ocean. 

• 20. bright, dark, or pastel colors?

Half of my wardrobe is black.

• 21. what is your favorite social media app?

Instagram.

• 22. what is your sexuality?

Straight.

• 23. do you have any siblings?

I have two sisters. I’m the middle child.

• 24. what is your favorite scent?

Strawberry and cream body wash. My god so good.

• 25. where do you want to travel to?

Japan and the US.

• 26. what is your favorite film?

West Side Story. 

• 27. who do people say you look like? (celebrity/family member)

I look really similar to my younger sister (well duh). Total strangers recognize me because they know her and vice versa.

• 28. who is your best friend?

I've struggled with friends over the years but I can say that my current friend group are my best friends. We’re like a family, My friend’s son calls me Aunty Ellen.

• 29. what is your dream job?

Full time Illustrator. (*sigh* It would be a dream)

• 30. do you know how to drive?

Yes I do. I've had my licence for 9 months now.

• 31. who is/was your favorite teacher?

My grade 3 teacher, Mrs Roach. She’s so lovely.

• 32. are you a feminist?

Yes.

• 33. what is your zodiac sign?

Cancer

• 34. do you enjoy reading?

I do. I really want to read more. I’m currently reading Gumiho: Wicked Fox.

• 35. do you have any hidden talents?

I can twitch my nostrils like a rabbit.

• 36. have you ever dyed your hair?

Defiantly. I cant even remember the last time I had my natural colour.

• 37. what is your favorite thing in your bedroom?

My laptop

• 38. what is your biggest fear?

Failure. 

• 39. can you whistle?

Yes. (take that Pepper Pig)

• 40. do you make your bed every day?

I try to.

• 41. do you have any tattoos and/or piercings?

No. I might get a tattoo one day but i cant commit.

• 42. have you ever been on a roller coaster?

Yes and it was horrible I hated it. 

• 43. surfing or skateboarding?

Neither.

• 44. are you a dog or a cat person?

Cat.

• 45. what is your favorite animal?

OTTERS!

• 46. do you have a skincare routine?

I guess. I use a green tea face wash and toner and then i like to use an eye serum.

• 47. what time do you typically go to bed at and what time do you wake up at? 

Lately I've been going to bed around 10:30 - 11:00 pm and waking up between 8:30 - 9:00 am. But I depends if i have work that day.

 48. what is your favorite memory?

It only happened this past weekend but dancing with my boyfriend at a friend’s wedding. It was the couple’s dance and I don’t know why but I got really emotional lol.

• 49. how tall are you?

5 ft 4

• 50. what is the best gift you’ve ever received?

My laptop and drawing tablet.

• 51. do you have a garden?

I do but its all weeds.

• 52. do you like bugs?

Not really? Moths freak me out. I hate how big they get and fly in your face.

• 53. what is your natural hair color?

Brown.

• 54. what is your favorite food and drink?

I loooooove seafood. Salmon sashimi, prawns, oysters give me now! and bubble tea.

• 55. do you want kids?

One day. Defiantly not now.

• 56. what is/was your favorite class?

Art and Photography.

• 57. what color shirt are you wearing?

Black. 

• 58. if you could time travel, what year would you go to and why? 

I do miss the 00′s. 

• 59. what is your skin color?

I’m very pale.

• 60. hugs or kisses?

Depends who’s giving them.

• 61. have you ever drank alcohol?

Yes, I get very drunk on Fireball but I love it! It tastes like a cinnamon doughnut. 

• 62. have you ever done drugs?

No but i’ve considered trying marijuana at least once. 

• 63. netflix or youtube?

Youtube.

• 64. ice cream or frozen yogurt?

Frozen yogurt.

• 65. succulents or flowers?

Succulents but all mine are plastic.

Original post by lilflowerkiddo

[wherethewindtakesher]

It's that time again! All the numbers for the ask!

I GOT YOU M A D I!

1. Last kiss back in the 10th grade so YEARS AGO

2. Last phone call my girlfriend to just say hi c:

3. Last text message IT WAS YOU MADI HEHEHEHEH

4. Last song you listened to everything I wanted by billie Eilish. listen to it it’s a fucking B O P.

5. Last time you cried a couple of weeks ago.

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. Dated someone twice just ask my girlfriend 🤭

7. Been cheated on I think so?

8. Kissed someone & regretted it yea because they ended up being a bitch later on.

9. Lost someone special yea /:

10. Been depressed too many times.

11. Been drunk and threw up No! im so lucky I haven't experienced that because I am a smart drinker 🤪

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU:

12. had sex no!

13. How many people have you had sex with this year? 0.

15. Made a new friend @domromanoff @caws5749 and all of you!

17. Laughed until you cried when I told @caws5749 that I was gonna buy green mascara for her.

18. Met someone who changed you I have!

19. Found out who your true friends were omg don't even get me started on that story-

20. Found out someone was talking about you yeah and that correlates to 19′s story.

26. What did you do for your last Birthday I fucking worked but my nephew took me out to eat and got d r U n k.

27. What time did you wake up today 8:00 am.

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for to throw all of my semester shit in the TRASH.

30. Last time you saw your all of your siblings at the same time around a year ago.

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life myself-

32. What are you listening to right now chattering from my classmates.

33. When is the last time you had sex? never because 😎

34. Who’s getting on your nerves right now myself because I NEED TO GET MY SHIT TOGETHER-

35. Most visited webpage po- I mean youtube 👀

36. Favorite colour red!

37. Nicknames clown, bottom, whore, hoe, lore, baby, babe, a pain of my ass-

38. Relationship Status taken 👻

39. Zodiac sign capricorn!

40. Male or female female

41. Primary school graduated 😌💅🏽

42. Secondary School graduated 😌💅🏽

43. High school/college graduated hs 😌💅🏽 and in college 😔

44. Eye color dark brown.

46. Height 5′2.

47. Do you have a crush on someone yes.

48. What do you like about yourself MY LEGS.

49. Piercings 4, both of my ear lobes, conch but it closed, and septum.

50. Tattoos 2, my left finger and left bicep.

51. Righty or lefty righty but Im mixed handed!

FIRSTS:

53. First piercing my ears when I was a baby but through my decision; my septum!

54. First best friend his name was pedro.

55. First hookup do fwb’s count? if so yes.

56. First Bestfriend answered in 54 c;

RIGHT NOW:

59. Eating nothing because im in class 👀

60. Drinking H2OOOO and thats on hydration 💅🏽

61. I’m about to yeet myself out this window.

62. Listening to some guy talking about his military medical service.

63. Waiting for this class to end so that I can go hooome.

YOUR FUTURE:

64. Want kids? possibly just 1 or 2.

65. Get married? hahahahah no.

66. Career something in the criminal/medical area.

WHICH IS BETTER:

67. Lips or eyes lips.

68. Hugs or kisses hugs.

69. Shorter or taller taller since im 5′2 😬

70. Older or Younger older.

71. Romantic or spontaneous a lil bit of both!

72. Nice stomach or nice arms um... I honestly don't care but I have to choose one so arms?

73. Sensitive or loud LOUD.

74. Hook-up or relationship relationship 💅🏽

HAVE YOU EVER:

76. Kissed a stranger no because I am a good girl 😌

77. Drank hard liquor DUH.

78. Lost glasses/contacts contacts yes because I stopped wearing them and ive broken glasses so much in my life-

79. Had sex nope!

80. Broken someone’s heart sadly yep!

82. Been arrested nope!

83. Turned someone down omg too many times not to brag or anything.

84. Cried when someone died well of course.

85. Fallen for a friend thankfully no.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

86. Yourself no but im working my way to do so (:

87. Miracles SHIT I HAVENT GOTTEN A MIRACLE IN EVER SO-

88. Love at first sight I think ‘love’ at first sight does come in different wave lengths.

89. Heaven umm..no.

90. Santa Clause jadhkjdhakjd no-

91. Kiss on the first date depending on how you are feeling about the person. if its all good then go for it if they want it.

92. Angels nooope.

93. How would you label yourself? uhhh... I don't like to categorize myself into a certain thing, im very free with what I wear and how I present myself.

94. Someone You Pray Everyday For I don't pray.

95. Did you sing today not actual loud singing but I did hum under my breath if that counts 🤔

96. Who From All Your Ex’s have You Cared The Most About We’ll call him M. he was what I wanted back then BUT YA KNOW SHIT HAPPENED.

97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go? 8 years to prevent the stupid shit I’ve did.

98. Out Of Everything In The World What Do You Wish For I want to make myself proud of who I am

99. Are you afraid of falling in love? very much. it terrifies me.

100. Do you like the way you look? HELL NO. theres so many things I want to change-

[getstickbugdlol]

fuck you im doing all the cat questions

1. Name? Dmitri Ivanovich Victorovich Aslanov 2. Fur color? Grey! 3. Any family you know (other than you)? His brother Nemo :D 4. Age? 4! 5. Favorite toy? He loves this fucking string but he can’t play it because then he turns into a string monster and he ONLY wants to play string and he’ll wake me up at all hours to play string. other than that, dry spaghetti noodle, little mouse 6. Nicknames? Mr. Meow, Meow Meow Man, Baby, Bubba, Smelly Pooper, Sir Baby, Mr. Baby 7. Cinnamon roll or problematic fave? oh 10,0000% problematic fave he’s evil 8. Length of fluff? not a floof, he’s a Sleek Boi 9. Any funny habits? he just holds his mouse in his mouth and stares out the window at birds??? also he plays fetch 10. How old were they when you met? 8 weeks! 11. What does their food bowl look like? its just a lil blue plastic one with two areas 12. Indoor or outdoor cat? Indoor 13. Recent picture? i cant figure out how to insert that into this post 14. Old picture? see above 15. Cuddly? He snuggles me before I wake up and before I go to bed but he’s not a lap cat. He just bites me instead lmao he can’t handle the love 16. Ever changed their name? No 18. Eye color? Yellow 19. How do they express love for you? Following me around and meowing at me and giving me baths  20. How do you express love for them? so many sweet kisses  21. Any theories on what breed? His dad is a Russian Blue and his mom was feral, we think tabby but not sure, he’s got the Russian Blue genes for sure but he has little stripes on his tail 22. Do they ever wake you up? oh my god my alarm clock has four paws and his name is dmitri 23. How much do they meow? SO MUCH he’s so talkative 24. Any hiding spots? Under my chair and sometimes in the wardrobe 25. Do they enjoy guests? Not really, he’s a little scaredy cat but will come out after an hour or so  26. Lofty objects to sit on? The top of the bookshelf and the fridge 27. Wear a collar? no he nekky (and describe collar?) 28. How much shedding? no shedding 29. Do they enjoy brushing? No he tries to bite the brush 30. Ever drink from the toilet? No 31. How do they get your attention? Meowing or just jumping up onto my computer while I’m on it  32. Embarrassing thing they’ve done? Cats don’t feel shame 33. Weirdest thing they try to eat? MEDICINE child.......... 34. Are they like your siblings, children, or friends? my son  35. What time do they eat breakfast? 7:00 AM 36. Do you cut their nails? yeah i have to this bitch is SHARP 37. Do you think they understand you? definitely a few words....he knows gentle and no and stop and breakfast lmao  38. Ever make fun of them? No i love him  39. Do you take their picture often? Yes!!!!!!!! A photogenic boi 40. Ever hiss at you? hmmm one time when he got REALLY scared but not usually 41. Ever try to scratch or bite you? every single day but its not hard, its love bites 42. If you try to grab their paw, what do they do? Let me hold it  43. Do they ever eat bugs? Yes  44. Canned or dry food? Both, he gets a little dry food in the morning along with canned food and then at evening just canned food 45. Weight? about 16 pounds 46. Ever got lost? No but one time he got up on the roof and I freaked out 47. Do you buy them presents? Yes 48. Do they respond when you call? Yes! 49. Do they ever see other cats? He used to live with my moms cats and his brother stayed sometimes. Im gonna get him a friend 50. Declawed? no this is so evil  51. Funniest expression? his goblin face 52. Favorite place to be pet? butt scratch 53. Worst thing they’ve destroyed? my grandma’s $4,000 hearing aids 54. Give them a head kiss. Done! 55. What time of the year is most exciting for them? march bc the birds come back lmao 56. Are they good at hunting real prey? He is BugKiller extraordinaire. He watches the birds but does not attack 57. Do they ever attack nothing? yes 58. What are they doing right now? sitting at the window watching birds 59. How long have you had them? 4 years (omg!) 60. If you could have them stay as a kitten forever, would you? Hmmmmm idk he had REALLY sharp claws but he was so teeny tiny!!!!!!!!!! I love him now but he was definitely more work as a kitten. I mean he’s still work he’s a kitten on the inside 61. Ever baby-talk to them? Omg yeah I have the worst cat voice 62. Favorite napping position? Curled into a teeny ball like a dragon!!!!!!!!! 63. Have you ever stepped on their paw? Yes :( 64. Ever tripped you on stairs? Omg yeah 65. Any ear hair? YEAH little tuft 66. Favorite view from a window? Birds 67. Describe why they are precious. Because he has the best beans and he wakes me up with snuggles!!!!!!!! He talks big but he always lets me give him sweet head kisses and he licks me after he bites me bc he just cant handle all that love!!!!!!!! 68. Fit the cat stereotype? No hes too evil 69. Chaotic neutral? Chaotic evil 70. Do they enjoy following/ keeping you company? Oh yes what is space 71. Are you their favorite human?  Most definitely. He loves me a little too much 72. Do they like tv? No he will Not Be Fooled 73. Favorite noise to make? this tiny baby meow just to let me know he’s there 74. If they were a Neko Atsume cat, what would their momento be? its been too long since Ive played this game and idr what this means!

[bleusidemv]

85 Question Tag

Thank you @neocultvretechs for tagging me I am always so excited to do stuff like this yeay. Thanks honey!

RULES: answer these 85 statements about yourself and tag 20 people

LAST:

1.drink- strawberry smoothie

2. Phone call- my mom so she can pick me up from the trainstation

3. Text message- friend about the dress for our prom night in 3 weeks

4. Song you listened to- Nirvana-Sam Smith

5. Time you cried- about 2 weeks ago

EVER:

6. Dated someone twice- No

7. Kissed someone and regretted it- YES!!!

8. Been cheated on- I dont really know...I suspect one exboyfriend but I dont care about that anymore and another one kinda did something but not really...just kinda

9. Lost someone special- Nope

10. Been depressed- Haha yeah most of my teenage years but luckyly not anymore

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up- No I have a really high tolerance but I dont drink anyways(only like...maybe...5 times a year for special events)

12. Fave colors- (black white gray) pastel pink/babyblue/mint and dark reds and greens

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. Made new friends- yeees

16. Fallen out of love- idk maybe its hard to put feelings in situations into such a general statement but I think so

17. Laughed until you cried- definitly. I cry sooo easyly while laughing bc of my huge cheeks being pushed agains my eyes so yeah...thats like the only reason I cry for most of the time

18. Found out someone was talking about you -I dont remember but I dont think so since I dont care about that anyways and it mostly does not happen(at least not knowingly)

19. Met someone who changed you- yes

20. Found out who your friends are- BIG FAT YES. Funny story: one of my best friends from primary school and I started talking again after years of not seeing each other and she is the one that helped me get into kpop so much and now we see each other every other week and bc of her I also got back in touch with another friend who I just went on a 3 day trip to berlin with. So yeah soemtimes the real ones are the ones you have not talked to in a while but that does not make it awkward instead shows you how time does not change a real friendship!

21.kissed someone on your facebooks friends list- I dont have fb so no

GENERAL:

22. How many of your fb friends do you know in real life- Still dont have an account

23. Do you have any pets- Yes one Cat

24. Do you want to change your name- No. I am happy my parents gave me 2 names to choose. One "normal/regular" one (Lea(but no one outside the internet calls me that)) and one that is more special(Sharon(also name I wanna be called by everyone since I like being unique))

25. What did you do for your last birthday- Went out to eat chinese with some friends then into a mexican restaurant to get churros

26. What time did you wake up today- 5:00(my sleep schedual is still shit from last week bc if the train we took at 2 in the morning to get to berlin and waking up early bc of excitement on the day the concert was)

27. What were you doing at midnight last night- trying to fall asleep

28. What is something you cant wait for- in general: when I order something online. Right now: going back to berlin for the BTS concert

30. What are you listening to right now- I.L.Y.-The Rose

31. Have you ever talked to a person named tom- yes I have someone in my art class with that name

32. Something that is getting on your nerves- my constant back pain

33. Most visited webside- either h&m since I have to get a prom dress and I dont want to soend much money on it or kpopmart bc like...I am addicted to buying albums and I cant stop myself

34. Hair color- reddish brown

35. Long or short hair- on myself long. On girls I like both but maybe I prefere short a teenytiny bit more and on boys I like a little longer hair

36. Do you have a crush on someone- like famous people yes of course but in real life not that much. I mean I crush on loaaaad of girls but its not something constant like when you slowly fall in love with someone

37. What do you like about yourself- actually a few things. My eyes, my upperbody proportions, most of my personality and my taste in stuff aaaand my tattoos

38. Want any piercings- not right now. Someday maybe a tongue ring or a nose ring but I had my piercings phase already and I dont want to go back to it for now

39. Blood type- I dont know

40. Nicknames- no constant ones that everyonw uses just random ones with some friends that come up from time to time

41. Relationship status- almost single

42. Zodiac- Pisces

43. Pronouns- she/her

44. Fave TV shows- not watching any right now but maybe sense 8,skins,scubs,my name is earl, stranger things, avatar, sailor moon and sherlock

45. Tattoos- a heart on my foot but there are more coming in the next days

46. Right or left handed- right

47. Ever had surgery- No

48. Piercings- Multiple earlobes, 30mm tunnle(not wearing them anymore tho), I used to have a septum but I also dont wear it anymore and a smiley also not wearing it anymore aaaand I tried to make a nostril piercing myself but I only got halfway through so noooo but maybe one day Ill get that one profesionally done

49. Sport- I used to dance but I ruined my legs with it so I cant do it anymore as a sport thing

50. Vacation- I will hopefully go to greece or portugal this year. And if I could go anywhere Id go to thailand,korea,japan or anywhere that is close to the ocean and has nice beaches

52. Eating- not right now

53. Drinking- mostly water

54. Im about to watch- the last parts of the last ikon tv episode and then maybe the new kq fellaz episodes

55. Waiting for- my sisters weeding in a month

56. Want- to go back to the got7 concert and tell them all the things I need them to know. Also more albums and maybe new shoes

57. Get married- one day yes but not in the close future

58. Career- something creative hopefully in the music industry as a manager or producer would be nice but Ill take anything that makes me happy

WHICH IS BETTER:

59. Hugs or kisses- HUGS

60. Lips or eyes- both but...a slight bit more eyes

61. Shorter or taller- I am a short baby so taller...almost everyone is and I kinda feel cute for being short

62. Older or younger- older

63. Nice arms or stomach- weird question I mean what is the definition of nice? But lets say they mean conventional nice so like toned and muscular...then its definitly arms. I like strong arms. But I think that nice can mean a lot and to me a nice belly is a soft belly to cuddle with

64. Hookup or relationship- depends. Right now definirly hookups but if the right one comes my way I wont say no to a relationship

65. Troublemaker or hesitant- lately more hesitant but I used to be more of a trouble maker

HAVE YOU EVER:

66. Kissed a stranger- No

67. Drank hard liquor- Yeeeees

68. Lost glasses- I dont have glasses so I cant lose them

69. Turned someone down- Uhm yes of course

70. Sex on first date- No...I mean practically I had sex at a first meeting but it was not a date so yeah

71. Broken someone heart- Yup

72. Been arrested- Nope

73. Had your heart broken- No not really

74. Cried when someone died- No

75. Fallen for a friend- Nope

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

76. Yourself- Sometimes

77. Miracles- Yes...I guess...not sure

78. Love at first sight- I want to but also not sure since Ive not experienced it myself

79. Santa- Nooooooohooooooohooooo

80. Kiss on a first date- thats something to believe in? I just do whatever I feel like

81. Angels- like the church ones no but I do believe that humans can be like angels and thats what I am trying to be

OTHER:

82. Best friends name- I have multiple ones

83. Eye color- Green? Blue? Grey? Who knows

84. Fave movie- too many

85. Fave actor- also too many but the first one that came to my mind was Tom Hardy but there are other in this list too

Tagging : (new mutuals I wanna know better and my good ol frens)

@1kenzo @4xiumn @bobahancafe @felixspotato @woojinshairwasblue @orgel-mp3 @leeknowyaknow @straygayz @jiwonidaeyo @hercosmoscomplex @queen-ki @changbinknows @princess-nakamoto @122c @curledlife @daehdream @irrelevantkblog @neoculture-tech @yummyyugyeommie @joshhaogyu @kinodarling @apricotlipgloss

[starlight-seeker]

ALL OF THEM ~~~~~~~

1: The last person you kissed screams they love you, you say…It really depends who the person Is lol, I haven’t kissed anyone in a long time and the last person wasn’t so great so I would kindly reject them ://

2: Did you get to sleep in today?

FUCK YES I SLEPT UNTIL 1:30 PM

3: You never know what you got until you lose it?

It throws a lot into perspective. There’s a lot people take for granted and once you loose it you don’t realize until it’s gone and you can’t get it back.

4: Do you have siblings?

An older brother whose 9 years apart from me named Chris.

5: How many kids do you want?

2 probably, both more likely adopted.

6: Who was the last person you held hands with?

Collin Aka Literal-Trashlord.

7: Did you stand on your tippy-toes for your last kiss?

Nah, person was shorter than me lmao.

8: Do you think if you died, the last person you kissed would care?

Who knows. I don’t really care weirdly enough lol.

9: Last person to talk on the phone?

My mother.

10: Did anyone watch you the last time you kissed someone?

No.

11: When’s your birthday?

June 3rd.

12: Remember the first time you kissed the last person you kissed?

Not really, I kind of blocked the memory out lmao.

13: What kind of phone do you have?

Iphone S7

14: Are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants, or pajama pants?

Rn I’m wearing my work pants 😩

15: Are you a different person now than you were 5 years ago?

God I hope so, I wasn’t in a great place mentally then lmao.

16: What were you doing at 4 am?

LMAO THATS LOADED. LATELY MY GAY ASS HAS BEEN FINDING MURDER MYSTERIES AND BUZZFEED VIDEOS WHILE TEXTING FRIENDS AS THEY SLEEP.

17: Would you rather write a paper or give a speech?

Paper definitely.

18: Are you lying to yourself about something?

Probably. 👀🗡

19: Last night you felt…?

Fine mostly, tired and a bit sore.

20: What’s something you cannot wait for?

To be able to go stargazing with someone close to me as well as get my life together hopefully and travel.

21: Ever told your parents you were going somewhere but when somewhere different?

I think so. I haven’t done that to my biological mom at least 😂

22: How many hours of sleep did you get last night?

Uh…7 and a half hrs?? I went to bed at 5:35 and woke up at 1:30 pm.

23: Are you a morning or night person?

Definitely a night owl. Morning person Rarely.

24: What did you get your last bruise from?

I banged into my friends counter like a dumbass. That or I was doing a price check and hit into something.

25: Do you reply to all of your texts?

Mostly though i forget to reply sometimes oof.

26: Your phone is ringing. It’s the person you fell hardest for. What do you do?

Talk to them casually, times passed and we’re still close beyond reason. ❤️

27: Did your last kiss take place in/on a bed?

No. I don’t really care about it 😤

28: Anyone you would like to get things straight with?

Yeah, a few people honestly. Some I was extremely close to.

29: How many months until your birthday?

12

30: Favorite thing to eat with peanut butter?

Celery or Apple slices.

31: Did you like this past summer?

It was good. So yeah I can’t complain.

32: What were you doing before you got on the computer?

Working and hanging out with friends.

33: Your ex is sitting next to you, with their new partner. What do you do?

Big oof. Honestly make the best of it?? Really no reason to get upset at this point.

34: What is the last thing you said out loud?

“Get fucked, Steve.” (We were playin Yahtzee with an Ai)

35: Your mood summed into one word?

O O F.

36: Are you doing anything else besides taking this survey?

playing Yahtzee with friends and an Ai Whose kicking all our asses.

37: What are your initials?

K. C. M.

38: Are you a happy person?

Generally though I do struggle with depression but no big deal.

39: Do you still talk to the person you liked 4 months ago?

Yeah, we’re still close friends.

40: Where do you want to live when your older?

I want to travel around, but I would love somewhere quiet with mountains where I can see stars almost every night.

41: Have you had your birthday this year?

Yes. We went to a trampoline park and got absolutely lit jumping around. 👀🔥

42: What did you do yesterday?

I worked 2:00 to 6:30 as a Cashier otherwise I went home and chilled out 😎

43: What will you be doing tomorrow?

Thankfully I have a day off tomorrow. So I’m probably gonna chill out and continue with ideas for a comic I might post soon.

44: How late did you stay up last night?

Until 5:35 AM.

45: Is there anyone you would do anything for?

Yeah definitely. I would drop everything for a select handful of people. Honestly I’d help anyone if I could.

46: Is it hard to make you laugh?

No omg. I laugh literally at anything unless I’m in a weird funk.

47: Do you believe ex’s can be just friends?

Yes, I’m still alright with one ex. But honestly work it out and hopefully things will be alright. Especially if its a mutual breakup things should be alright even if they’re awkward for a while.

48: Do you think any of your exes will eventually want to be with you again?

Lmao nah. I doubt it.

49: How many people have you had feelings for in the year of 2012?

BRUH YOU ACT LIKE I REMEMBER

50: Do you wish your ex was dead?

Never wish that on somebody.

51: Have you ever dyed your hair?

Yes I had it dyed Teal once.

52: Would ever take back someone that cheated?

I doubt it. I’d have issues trusting them.

53: Was New Year’s Even enjoyable?

This year shockingly was.

54: Bet you’re missing someone right now?

Yeah, I miss my family a lot. I don’t really get to see them. I got to see my mom today and I was really happy. ❤️

55: How would your parents react if you got a tattoo?

My mom probably wouldn’t like it at first but grow to like it knowing her, she wants to get a butterfly tattoo on her wrist.

56: Sleep on your back or stomach?

Stomach and side mostly. I can’t really get comfy on my back :((

57: If you could move away, no questions asked, where would it be ?

Somewhere nice and fun. Probably star lit and mountain filled but still some hustle and bussle.

58: What would you change about your life right now?

Living situation, I love living with my best friend but sometimes I miss living with my mom?? Idk.

59: Has anything upset you in the past week?

Yeah a handful of personal things. But I feel alright now.

60: Are you on the phone?

Yes

61: Today, would you rather go forward a week or back?

Probably back, I’d rather redo a few days than skip and loose out.

62: Would you take $40,000 or a brand new car?

Probably 40,000 so I can give some and help others.

63: Have you ever talked to someone when they were high?

OH YEAH THATS AN EXPERIENCE

64: Ever cried while you were on the phone with someone?

A few times, mostly when I’m stressed out or the situation is really tough.

65: Have you ever copied someone elses homework?

Yes. Especially when I forgot it and my friend came in clutch.

66: Are you the type of person who likes to be out or at home?

I’m a mix. There’s days I love to be out others inside and relaxing.

67: Do you automatically check your phone when you wake up?

It’s my alarm clock so sadly.

68: Have you ever stayed up all night on the phone?

Sadly, yes.

69: Could you use some sleep right now?

Probably like 20 + hrs. One good ass nap.

70: Are you going to have a baby by the time you’re 18?

Looks at age. Uhm 😂😂😂

71: Does it bother you when someone hides things from you?

Yeah. I’d rather the person come to me than hide it and talk shit. Even if it hurts I’d rather know and fix the situation.

72: What’s your favorite color?

I love deep reds but I also like blues and purples.

73: Have you ever slept in the same room with someone you liked?

Yes a few times

74: Have you ever been looking for something and it was already in your hand?

LMAO YES. i was looking for my wallet once and panicked but i was holding it.

75: Do you get annoyed easily?

Depending on the situation but when the questions dumb as hell or argument yes.

76: If someone liked you, would you want them to tell you?

Yeah. I’d rather know so I don’t accidentally break their heart. I’d rather know so I can confront the situation though still I’d be extremely flattered.

77: Do you have a person of the opposite sex that you can tell everything to?

Yes.

78: Does anyone call you babe?

Yeah a handful of people.

79: How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?

A lot ????

80: What do you prefer, relationship or one night stand?

Relationship. Never had a one nighter lol.

81: What color hoodie did you wear last?

Dark purple with writing on it from my college 😂

82: Is there someone who meant alot to you at one point, and isn’t around anymore?

Yeah. Someone I really did trust and love. They did some shitty stuff and I had to break the friendship off but even now I find myself checking in on them now and again even though the answer is always the same or really cold.

[cardboard-moon]

40 Things You Never Wanted To Know About Me

You probably already know me decently well or else you wouldn’t be reading this, so instead of rehashing the basic (boring) “getting to know me” questions I dug a little deeper and asked myself about what’s really important. Here is the result: 40 Things You Never Wanted To Know About Me. Enjoy!

1. What Parks and Rec character am I?

While I could argue for almost everyone on the show I’m probably most like Ben Wyatt: a white, brunette, and sad man who eats soup alone on a park bench (minus his love of math and rollerskate kink)

2: Top 5 books?

To Kill a Mockingbird, The Secret History, A Prayer for Owen Meany, The Help, 11/22/63

3: Top 5 movies?

Chinatown, Star Wars, Rear Window, National Treasure (nick cage can be good in small doses ok) and Nancy Drew (2007)

4: Top 5 shows?

Parks and Rec, B99, That 70′s Show, Mad Men, Arrested Development

5: Top 10 most iconic vines?

1) Chris is that a weed/Mary is that a police

2) Hi My Name is Trey I have A Basketball Game Tomorrow

3) Rebecca It’s Not What You Think

4) The one where the girl is just hitting elmo with a baseball bat

5) Anything Kermit but esp. the one where he falls off the building

6) You Know This Boy Got His Free Taco

7) 2 Bros Chillin in the Hot Tub

8) Waelcom to my Keeetchen we have bananis and avocadis

9) Whoever Threw That Paper Your Mom’s A Hoe

10) i spilled lipstick in your valentino bag (yOU SPILLED WHAHULAUG LIPSTICK IN MY VALENTINE WHITE BAG)

6: Where do I see myself in 21 years?

One of my dreams in life is to marry the heir to a prestigious winery out in wine country. I have a vision of myself at 39, waking up at 10 AM on a tuesday and standing on my private balcony in my state-of-the-art spanish stucco villa. i am drinking a chardonnay despite the early hour whilst i observe my grape empire in my silk negligee. the only event planned for the day is a portrait sitting for my rottweilers (4 of them), for which i have arranged spaces in the family’s private art gallery. i am aging well despite the harsh california sun and my partner and i have a trip to tuscany planned for the fall. it’s a charmed life and i never tire of eating grapes  

7: Top 5 favorite cryptids

1) Nessie (Nessie is a true lady I believe in her)

2) Mothman (not real)/ el chupacabra (possibly real)

3) the kraken (definitely real)

4) Bigfoot (not real but a legend anyways)

5) the yeti (real only in russia)

8: Do I Believe in Ghosts

It’s a complicated topic and of course we will likely never know for sure but the short answer is yes. in my opinion though, what ghosts are is the important question: are they really the dead coming back to haunt the earth? are they just manifestations of energy that the mind interprets into recognizable shapes? hallucinations? or is it wish fulfillment and the reduction of tensions on a heavy conscience? our brains are capable of powerful things, but it begs the question as to whether if a human desperately wants something to be true does the human mind have the power to make it true? c. s. lewis mentioned once that he never understood the ghost debate since, given that ghosts are real, they have no real power over us or anything interesting to say. but i believe that just goes to show how the mystery is far often more important than the solution.

9: Best/Worst Month of the Year

Best: May/November (spring/fall in full swing, holidays, time off school, great atmosphere) Worst: August (too dang hot & start of school)

10: What is one of my embarrassing secrets

I didn’t learn how to tie my shoes until I was nine (velcro ftw)

11: What is my Dream Date

We go cryptid hunting in the woods and have a picnic in the dark; you supply dogs for entertainment and guardianship purposes, i supply drinks and the cryptozoological myths we are chasing. Afterwards we get gelato

12: Top 3 Presidents

(this is based solely on arbitrary opinion not policies) 1) Barry Obama 2) Lincoln  3) Millard Fillmore (his name is funny) 

Honorable mention: jimmy carter (he was the only noncorrupt man in office for like 30 years before barry)

13: Top 3 Vice Presidents

1) John Adams, if nothing else but for the drama this man caused 2) Walter Mondale 3) the big boy JB 

Honorable Mention: Nichard Rixon

14: Top 3 Secretaries of State

1) Madeline Albright 2) Henry Clay 3) Elihu P. Washburn 

(note: secretaries of state have the funniest names, like Hamilton Fish (1869-1877) rest easy Mr. Fish)

15: Worst Activity they make you do in middle school PE

Middle school P.E. is the worst in general but I’m going to say either grading you on your shotput skills (?) or BMI (??) or just the tuesday run in general (luther kids know)

16: Top 4 Worst Scents

1) Washing a knife covered in peanut butter 2) Really cheap perfume that they sell in checkout lines at convenience stores 3) Olives 4) organic deodorant

17: Top 7 Conspiracy Theories

1) The Denver Airport is an underground military fallout shelter designed to protect the 1% from nuclear warfare

2) A Roman pope adjusted the Gregorian calendar so that his reign would fall on 1000 AD so we’re actually living in the year 1783

3) Paul McCartney is dead and was replaced prior to the Seargant Pepper album by a lookalike named Billy Shears

4) The state of Wyoming is a myth

5) Avril Lavigne died and was replaced back in the early 00’s

6) The Titanic sank because too many people went back in time to prevent it from sinking

7) Not to be cliche George Bush and the military-industrial complex orchestrated the 9/11 attacks (jet fuel can’t melt steel beams and all that)

18: Inside jokes with myself

I’m not usually a “gamer” but every year without fail someone introduces me to a game exactly at finals time and I get hooked and it ruins my gpa and study habits. This year it’s Stardew Valley, last year it was Dream Daddy and the year before that it was undertale and I blame Jojo for absolutely all of it bc they are usually the instigator. Anyway, every year I joke with myself about what game will derail my grades this year

19: Top 5 Worst Tactile Sensations

1) Putting tights or leggings on wet, hairy legs post-shower

2) Running fingernails along cardboard

3) Sweating in a turtleneck

4) Having wet, salty hair after swimming that drips down onto your back and makes the top of your shirt damp

5) Reaching into a bag of grapes and only finding really soft, slimy ones

20: Best Cat I’ve ever encountered

One time my friend and I were leaving Romancing the Bean and walking back to her car and the fattest, fluffiest, softest ginger cat I’ve ever seen came trotting up to us and flopped over at our feet. He was such a good boy!!! And so friendly with strangers!! He was very well groomed and just wanted some love, and whenever we stopped petting him he would jump up onto our legs and leave little wet paw prints everywhere, I wanted to kidnap him

21: Best dog I’ve ever encountered

All of them

22: Best squirrel I’ve ever encountered

My dad has befriended a squirrel named Nutty that likes to sneak into his office when the door’s open and steals peanuts. if the door is closed he’ll bang on it and scream until we acknowledge him

23: If I were a furry what would my fursona be

I do not know because I am not a furry. HOWEVER someone who is well-versed in furry matters told me once that I would be one of those long, nervous dogs like a greyhound maybe and tbh I could see it

24: Favorite/Least Favorite Disneyland Rides

My favorite has always been haunted mansion, except for the halloween season when it’s nightmare before christmas and then it’s thunder mountain. I just love the outside atmosphere of the house bc I’m a slut for that southern gothic architecture style. Worst is splash mountain because there’s no seatbelt and LOGICALLY i know I don’t need one but it doesn’t stop me from having a panic attack every time I get on and we go up the big hill as I worry about being flung from the toboggan across the park

25: Least favorite restaurant within 10 mile radius of my house

I live over by Porto’s so I am #blessed to be surrounded by some really dope food. However there is a hipster place a couple of blocks over in Toluca Lake that only serves bizarre food like fried chicken in maple syrup with waffle fries and it’s surprisingly bland, so the lack of taste combines with how expensive it is probably makes it the worst (it’s also forgettable bc I can’t even remember its name)

26: Rank of JBHS history department according to how good of a parent they would be

9.Mr. Bixler - I have never had this man so I can’t say shit. NA/10

8. Ms. Snowden - I’ve never had her either but I’ve heard enough about her between Burroughs and Luther to know that this woman is kind of scary, intimidating and uptight, all things I personally do not desire in a parent. 2/10

7. Mr. Hatch - I love Scott Hatch but he is a tremendous mess of a man. Judging by his wife’s instagram photos his idea of parenting is taking naps while cuddling his children and letting his wife do the rest of the hard work. Plus he seems like the type to be too wrapped up in his own melodrama and too busy hangin out with his best friend Edward Frankenbush playing Xbox to pay much attention to his kids. However, he did skip the first day of school to take his daughter to kindergarten so he gets points for that. 4/10

6. Mr. Lee - Mr. Lee is a very respectable guy who seems like he does a very good job providing for his family. He’s ranked as middle of the road because he’s a naturally private person so I can’t speak to his parenting tactics or personality much, however the few stories he shared about his daughter were very cute and he does the typical teacher/parent things like making her his screensaver on his computer. Overall, a very quality dad and man, 6.5/10

5. Mr. Fitz - Kyle Fitzgerald is similarly a mess of a man, but the difference between him and Scott Hatch is that he seems to make an investment in his kid. He always talks about current events in terms of what idiocy his poor daughter will have to put up with which shows his devotion to her well-being and survival in a confusing world. Also he brought her in to go swimming once while I was working at Verdugo and I got to see them having a great time on the splash pad and it warmed my heart. Great dad 7/10

4. Mr. Piper - Richard Piper is such a good father but in a detached way. He loves talking about his son and wife just as much as he loves talking about planes. The real kicker? When he talks about taking his son ON planes and geeking out over history together. He also asked all of his classes for people looking for tutoring work when his son was struggling in math which is so cute. Good guy Rick gets an 8/10.

2. (tie) Mr. Frankenbush and Ms. Hacker - Ed and Jan are both beautiful people. I know Ms. Hacker is #divisive but I personally am a big fan and would die to have her guidance in my daily life. She’s always interested in what’s going on in people’s lives and sure she’s definitely chaotic but it’s a loving chaos that’s only looking to help other people. I’ve not had the pleasure of having Mr. Frankenbush but he always is hanging out with his son Joey and they love coming to the Burroughs pool and playing water polo together; they spend a lot of time together since his wife works so much and they have such a buddy friendship. Both of these lovely people are super devoted and invested in the youth and would make great parents. 9/10

1. Mr. Clark - A god. We don’t deserve this man and I can’t sing his praises enough. Were were all lucky enough to be Greg’s children I don’t think evil would exist in the world. 11/10

27: Worst book I read for school

Hands down Tale of Two Cities since it’s the only one I’ve never finished. Dickens just doesn’t do it for me I guess plus I get really tired of the one dimensional characters and how much he romanticizes Lucy

28: Favorite little-known tidbit of history

When Richard Nixon went to Soviet Russia as Eisenhower’s VP during the cold war his secret service agents detected higher than usual amounts of radiation coming from Nixon’s hotel room, so they started talking loudly about it bc they knew the Soviets had planted buds and were listening. Within like an hour the radiation had vanished and they never heard anything about it again so man Soviet’s ain’t sly

29: 5 Places in Burbank That Are Definitely Haunted

1. Coral Cafe for obvious reasons, look up the ghost on youtube

2. The View seems like it would have some kind of el chupacabra-esque creature prowling around, maybe a mountain lion hybrid

3. Fry’s Electronics

4. The abandoned train station under the bridge

5. The LA river by the equestrian center

30: Rank of all the AP classes i took in order of entertainment value

9) AP Bio: I liked bio but the class wasn’t very entertaining. There’s not a lot of humor in bacteria and cells, and Mr. Van Loo is much more of a calming than a humorous and chaotic presence, so overall it takes the hit as the least entertaining class.

8) AP Stats: Math is similarly not very entertaining, but Mrs. Hollingshed’s erratic personality gives it the edge over Bio. Definitely more humorous than expected of a math class.

7) AP Econ: I bombed econ and business/money isn’t very entertaining but Jan Hacker made it so thanks to her chaos (love her though).

6) AP Euro: European history is incredibly iconic because, spoiler alert, Europeans are idiots and historically speaking everything that can go wrong, will go wrong. I just wish I remember it since I think idiot sophomore Lily slept through most of the class so needless to say I didn’t soak up much of the entertainment value. If it were up to me I’d take it over again and maybe stay awake this time.

5) AP Lit: Lit was just as much challenging and intimidating as it was entertaining, so it balances out. Mrs. Caluya is notably iconic and the books we read were all pretty interesting so it gets a high vote from me.

3) (tie) Gov/APUSH: History is always entertaining in my eyes since people do stupid things out of pettiness. These two tie for different reasons: Mr. Piper is a great teacher and that mock trial we did for the industrial age was great, but the subject was also extremely entertaining overall. I loved reading about how John Adams made making fun of him illegal. Gov was mostly just entertaining because of Mr. Hatch and how salty his is about the government. His sarcastic comments about how corrupt everything is gave life to an otherwise pretty lifeless subject.

2) AP Lang: aka the class with no curriculum, or the Kuglen Hour. I love Mr. Kuglen so much and he is responsible for 99% of the amusement in the class. I somehow learned how to be a better writer by listening to him complain about Trump and everything else under the sun for an hour every day so it was well worth it. Also who doesn’t like a class where you read Dave Sedaris for homework?

1) AP Psych: Without question, this is the epitome of entertainment. Psychology is just a mishmash of people trying to figure out why humans are as stupid as we are and why we do dumb things. Add in all the iconic psychologists and history and a class led by salty Mr. Hatch and you have a recipe for an entertaining year.

31: Top 5 Iconic JBHS teachers that I NEVER had (no particular order)

Mr. Peebles: A quirky man who I would have loved were I any good at math whatsoever

Mr. Arakelian: Band kids hate him but the stories I hear are so frickin iconic that I wish I could be an honorary band kid for a day and see the horror firsthand. If you have Arakelian stories please send them my way I’d love to hear about your pain

Mr. Frankenbush: A sad boi who everyone should get to experience and I regret never having.

Dr. Madooglu: He was so kind to me after the failed anti-trump lunchtime protest last year and he didn’t even know me. I wish I could’ve experienced him as a teacher.

Mr. Clark: The man, the myth, the legend

32: List of some iconic swim horror stories

Charlie breaking his hand after he lost a race and punched the gutter as hard as he could

Some idiot JV boys smearing poop all over the Burbank High locker room

The entire JV team getting Burroughs swim banned from Islands

Me almost passing out at the Los Amigos meet last year after I didn’t eat or sleep all day

Everyone always feigning illness or injury to get out of swimming the 4x100 relay

Getting in trouble for watching boys volleyball practice instead of doing the weight room sets

Every. Single. 5AM morning practice before school.

When coach martin finally figured out how periods work and suddenly we couldn’t use that as an excuse for not swimming anymore

33: What Office Character Would I Be

A mix between Angela, Oscar, and Kelly (we love our dramatic icons)

34: #1 Thing I’d Bring With Me to a Desert Island

Castaway for instructional purposes

35: What Would I call my memoir

Schadenfreude

36: 7 Best Buzzfeed Unsolved Episodes (no particular order)

This is one of my favorite shows so these are my recommendations:

1. 3 Horrifying Cases of Ghosts and Demons - one of the very first and best episodes; a 45-minute special where the Boys investigate the Winchester house in San Francisco, the Island of the Dolls in Mexico, and the Sallie House in Kansas

2. The Strange Disappearance of D. B. Cooper - A man going by the name of Dan Cooper hijacked a plane, demanded money and passage to Mexico, and then at some point jumped out of the plane and was never seen again. To this day no one knows his identity or his fate despite some of the ransom money turning up in a river somewhere.

3. The Haunted Halls of Waverly Hills Hospital - Ryan and Shane explore an abandoned asylum in Pennsylvania and some creepy stuff ensues. One of the best supernatural episodes

4. The Thrilling Gardner Museum Heist - An almost hilarious story (with reenactments!) about a seriously inept security guard and the loss of some of the world’s most beloved paintings. This was one of the first episodes after they started making money and the production quality is off the charts 

5. The Scandalous Murder of William Desmond Taylor - Another excellent reenactment story about one of Hollywood’s first and biggest scandals, the suspicious murder of a leading film producer.

6. The Enigmatic Death of the Isdal Woman - A woman’s body was found suspiciously burned in the European wilderness and no one knows who she is or how exactly she was killed. Watch if you like espionage!

7. The Strange Killing of Ken Rex McElroy - An entire town seemingly rose up to murder a douchey, violent pedophile. One of the only episodes that’s actually happy?

37: 6 Things I would Have Changed About High School

1. Definitely would have joined yearbook as soon as I could

2. Wouldn’t have forced myself to swim for all 4 years; if the passion’s gone then you shouldn’t force it. It’s just a sign that you need to move on to better things

3. I would’ve taken more AP’s and maybe tried another stem ap class. I’ve always been self-conscious about how bad I am at math, but I’ve gotten a little better over the years and instead of being too afraid to challenge myself I would’ve liked to see how I could do and prove myself.

4. Worrying less about grades!! I killed myself over my grades for like three years and then I just kind of let myself go. I would have let myself have who knows how many more hours of sleep and taken the L on a couple of assignments; I’m still learning that my health is more important than perfection.

5. Meeting the right people! I wouldn’t have restricted myself to a few friends and would have branched out more by joinng stuff like JSA. It sucks meeting the right people your senior year and realizing that I was hanging out with the wrong people this whole time.

6. Spanish instead of French.

38: What Would I Name My Farm Animals if I had A Farm

I’d definitely name them all after female Shakespearian characters. My cows would be Hippolyta and Titania from Midsummer, my horse would be Desdemona from Othello, my chickens would be Gonereil, Regan, and Cordelia from King Lear and my goat would be named Gertrude from Hamlet

39: Most Useless Talent I Have

I have a really strong internal clock so when I don’t think about it too hard and guess intuitively I can usually predict how much time has passed/what time it is without looking at a clock. It’s really only useful for estimating how much time I wasted standing in the shower staring at the wall

40: Top Regret After Writing This:

Writing this instead of studying for my econ test in seven hours.

Thanks for reading!

[edwardio-spaghedwardio]

Tagged by @missingstanleyuris

rules: answer these 85 statements, then tag 20 people.

1. last drink?: water

2: last phone call?: my old neighbor

3. last text message?: Charlie is Waldo confirmed?!?

4. last song you listened to?: Lucy in the sky with diamonds by the Beatles

5. last time you cried?: literally a couple hours before writing this

6. dated someone twice?: no

7. kissed someone and regretted it: once but i don’t really care anymore

8. been cheated on?: no

9. lost someone special?: yes

10. been depressed?: yes

11. gotten drunk and thrown up?: nahhhh

fave colors

12. baby blue

13. pastel purple

14. BABY PINK

in the last year have you…

15. made new friends?: YES they are amazing

16. fallen out of love?: no

17. laughed until you cried?: yes

18. found out someone was talking about you?: yes

19. met someone who changed you?: yes

20. found out who your friends are?: yes

21. kissed someone on your facebook friends list?: nope

general:

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know irl?: a couple like 2-3

23. do you have any pets?: 4 and i love them more than anything else

24. do you want to change your name?: yes but idk what other name i would want

25. what did you do for your last birthday?: i took my brother and all of our childhood freinds that we grew up with sledding and it was awesome

26. what time did you wake up today?: 7:00 am and i was almost late to class

27. what were you doing at midnight last night?: homework

28. what is something that you can’t wait for?: SUMMER BREAK alkdfha

30. what are you listening to right now?: Ugly Truth by Lauren Aquilina

31. have you ever talked to a person named tom?: yes

32. something getting on your nerves?: my brother when its the middle of the night and he taps the wall to know if i’m awake

33. most visited website?: tumblr…

34. hair color?: darkish brown

35. long or short hair: long

36. do you have a crush on someone?: not currently

37. what do you like about yourself?: hair. 

38. want any piercings: yes

39. blood type: i have no clue

40. nicknames: tuesday

41. relationship status: single

42. zodiac:  Sagittarius

43. pronouns: she, her

44. fave tv show: (i hope netflix counts) Stranger Things, Sherlock Holmes, DOCTOR WHO, MIRACULOUS LADYBUG

45. tattoos: not yet 

46. right or left handed: right

47. ever had surgery: nopeee

48 . piercings: yes

49. sport: gymnastics

50. vacation: my favorite vacation spot? Panama

51. trainers: idk what this is asking

more general

52. eating: currently? nothing. last thing I ate was yogurt.

53. drinking: again nothing but last thing I had to drink was water.

54. im about to watch: probably SAO

55. waiting for: lol ten hammocks i ordered 

56. want: THOSE HAMMOCKS THAT I ORDERED

57. get married? probably not.

58. career: idk yet.

59. hugs or kisses: hugs.

60. lips or eyes: eyes

61. shorter or taller: taller

62. older or younger: idk

63. nice arms or stomach: personally i would want a nice stomach

64.  hookup or relationship: relationship.

65. troublemaker or hesitant: a little bit of both

66. kissed a stranger: nope

67. drank hard liquor: hahah yup

68. lost glasses: ALL THE FUCKING TIME

69. turned someone down: yes 

70. sex on the first date: most likely not

71. broken someones heart: i hope not

72. had your heart broken: not seriously

73. been arrested: no but if i have to be honest there have been a few close calls 

74. cried when someone died: does this someone have to be a real person? (yes i have)

75. fallen for a friend. yes 

do you believe in…

76. yourself: almost never lol

77. miracles: yes

78. love at first sight: sure why not

79. santa clause: you tell me

80. kiss on a first date: yes

81. angels: YES

82. best friend’s name: ALEAH

83. eye color: brown. i hate it

84. fave movie: secondhand lions

85. fave actor: IT cast and Stranger Things cast.

THAT TOOK FOREVER i need a nap

I don’t know if anyone I tagged has done this yet, but i hope not.

@my-son-richie-tozier @missingbeverlymarsh @trashmoutozier @tinytozier @trash-the-zombieboy @finnie-the-pooh @fannypaccboii @edwardtheloser @temptedtozier @sunflowerstozier @betty-likes-spaghetti @lesqueebee @eleganteddie @st353days @not-reddie @urisisms @stanuriscurlis @areyoureddieforit @finn-essed @stanleyurisisalive

[alicedoessurveys]

95 Questions

1. What is something that is bothering you right now? my hands hurt, the cold weather has sent my skin crazy

2. Will you be in a relationship one month from now? nope

3. Who was the last person to see you cry? probably mom. I cant remember the last time I cried tbh, since my nan died I seem to have ran out of tears.. ugh that sounds so emo

4. Do you drink bottled water? yes

5. What was the last thing you drank? summer fruits squash with sparkling water

6. Do you hate the last person who called you? no I love Jaz she's fabulous 

7. Where is your best friend right now? they’re probably both in their beds watching telly

8. Do you believe in love? yes

9. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having? snow

10. If you’re being extremely quiet, what does that mean? tired, annoyed, sad, scared

11. Is the last person of the opposite sex you texted single? yes

12. Tell me about the shirt you’re wearing: its a very oversized baggy sweatshirt that I wear on lazy days 

13. How long have you lived in your current home? since 2002, so 16 years 

14. You never know what you have until it’s gone. True or false? sometimes true 

15. Are you sad when someone says they hate you? yes

16. Are you scared of losing the person you like to someone else? so scared

17. Will you be in bed in the next 20 minutes? I hope so

18. Do you laugh at inappropriate times? yes, I giggle when im uncomfortable which is most of the time 

19.  What time did you wake up today? 6.45am

20. Would you rather be single all your life or grow old with someone? grow old with someone 

21. How many bracelets do you have on right now? none

22. How long have you liked the person you like right now? a few months 

23. Is there someone of the opposite sex you can talk to? yes, my 3 best friends are all male 

24. Do you like mac n cheese? yes, but it makes me feel sick after

25. Do you get mad when people don’t text back? I dont really tend to get mad, more anxious that ive done something to make them hate me 

26. What does your phone do when it receives a text? makes a noise

27. How late did you stay up til last night and why? about half 12

28. Are you going out of town soon? ive only just come back to town

29. Think back to Februrary, how was your love life? non existent 

30. Will you regret your next kiss? I hope not 

31. What is in your pocket? I dont have any pockets on me 

32. Did you wake up in the middle of the night last night? no.

33. Are you happier now or 5 months ago? now

34. Are you usually wide awake when you wake up? no, not at all 

35. Can you remember the last person you texted without looking? Addison 

36. Can you sleep without blankets covering you? in the summer yes. right now im sleeping with a thick winter duvet and two blankets because its bloody freezing 

37. Do you listen to music everyday? yes

38. How long have you known your first phone contact? Addison, ive known him since I was about 13 so almost 10 years 

39. Who are all your texts in your inbox from? friends, family, theatre people

40. Do you have a hard time making decisions? yes, I find decisions really hard because anxiety makes me over think everything 

41. Are you gonna be home alone tonight? nope

42. What are you looking forward to? going to bed 

43. Are you a morning or night person? night

44. Are you excited for this weekend? yes, im just hoping the weather doesn't ruin it

45. What are you wearing on your feet? Hufflepuff socks 

46. If there was a large spider in your room, would you stay in the room? nope

47. What is the last thing you touched, other than your computer? the cat

48. When was the last time you talked to your best friend? couple hours ago 

49. Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today? yes

50. Are you a social or anti-social person? depends on the mood and who im with

51. Can you recall the last time you liked someone? right now

52. Where were you last night at 8 PM? right where I am now, on the sofa

53. What color is your cell phone? rose gold

54. What is the last non-alcoholic beverage you drank? squash

55. Your last received text, would you kiss them? nope

56. Have you told anybody you loved them and meant it? yes

57. Are you in a good mood? kinda yes

58. What were you doing an hour ago? sitting where I am now 

59. Is there anyone that could make your day if they showed up at your house? yes

60. Does your middle name begin with an A, M, or S? nope, F

61. How old was the last person you rode in a car with? my dad is 49, my mom is 53 and Amy is 7 months 

62. What color was the last vehicle you were in? silver

63. Do you have plans for next weekend? next saturday is the final day of performances of the show im helping with and Sunday is mothers day

64. What was the last movie you saw in theaters and who did you go with? black panther, with Rhys and Addison

65. How old were you in 1999? 4

67. Are you taller than 5'6"? yes

68. Who were the last three people to call you? my boyfriend, dad and mum.

69. What were you doing last night at 10pm? i had just finished work.

70. If you turn around, what is behind you? a lamp

71. Would you dye your hair hot pink for $50? no

72. Do you have any step or half siblings? my sister is technically a half sibling because we have different dads 

73. What color is your underwear? dark blue

74. Where did you get the shirt you are wearing? primark

75. Who was the last person to hug you? mom

76. Who is on your mind right now? nick, cause he just messaged me

77. In how many years will you be thirty? omg don’t ask.

78. What are your plans after this? sleep

79. Are you currently barefoot? no

80. What’s the dumbest thing you have ever said? oh gosh theres too many to even contemplate 

81. You can never drink tea again or soda. Which do you give up? tea

82. Last time you drank coffee? never

83. Do you listen to screamo? nope

84. In what month were you born? June

85. Do you take vitamins daily? yes

86. Who is your 9th contact in your phone? Jaz

87. How many programs are running on your computer now? 5

88. What’s the first icon on your desktop? I dont have any icons on my desktop, I like to keep it clear

89. What were you doing at 8:00 this morning? leaving the house

90. How old is the cellphone you have right now? about 6 months I think, I cant remember exactly 

91. Do you get pissed off when your computer freezes? yup

92. What’s the last thing you laughed at? probably the foster baby

93. What’s one thing you hate about your best friend? he is brutally honest, and doesn't really have a filter. he doesn't think about the fact that his opinion could hurt someone

94. Where is your dad right now? on the sofa watching telly on his laptop

95. Where is your mom right now? on the sofa next to me watching telly

[brooklyntobangalore]

A Walk in the Park

A short while back, my classmate and I took a trip to see the Tipu Sultan’s summer palace and Cubbon Park, both located roughly in the center of Bangalore. Cubbon Park – known as the ‘lung’ of the city – is an oasis of green replete with winding trails, bamboo thickets, playground space, grassy expanses, and trees tall and dense enough to temporarily muffle the sounds of the surrounding city 1. Unfortunately, getting to the park entailed navigating traffic-congested highways and roads for extended stretches, cutting through a densely-packed commercial district, and being subjected to a constant bombardment of both air and noise pollution 2. Experiencing the tranquility of a quiet stroll through the park was an occasion for me to think about the costs of development, the importance of green space/vegetation for public health, and to draw parallels to my own concrete metropolis of NYC.

One of Bangalore’s nicknames is the “Garden City” due to its reputation for having an abundance of greenery and tree cover. Several Bangaloreans I’ve spoken to, however, have remarked that this term is now a gross misnomer, as hyper-rapid development and land use changes over the past few decades have drastically reduced the amount of vegetation and public green space in the city. Our local neighborhood of Koramangala is fortunate to have relatively bountiful tree cover, but it isn’t too hard to imagine that much of it has been sacrificed to accommodate a ballooning population and growing economy.

Article 39 of the Indian Constitution directs the State to “ensure that...the material resources of the community are so distributed as to best subserve the common good” 3. Surely, parks and public green space ought to be included in the inventory of material resources that subserve this public good. One could argue, however, that economic growth and development are also good for Bangalore. How to strike an appropriate balance?

Eminent domain laws in India allow the State to expropriate private land (much of it formerly agrarian) for ‘public purpose.’ Some scholars 4 complain, however, that loopholes in the law have enabled the State to sell off this land to private commercial interests for the purposes of development. (I imagine that these types of sales have helped catalyze the IT industry/tech boom in Bangalore) 5. The end result: land that was intended to serve as a public resource – a commons for the people – is transformed into a commodity for the profit of private industry. Some may benefit enormously from these land use changes (India’s educated IT professionals, for instance). Others, not so much 6.

To get a sense of what has been lost, I dug up this map from a study conducted by the Indian Institute of Science 7, showing the drastic changes in Bangalore’s land-use over time:

Other public resources that rightly belong to the commons but have been sacrificed in the era of rapid urban development are clean water (which I discussed in a previous post on the so-called ‘water mafia’ and which is quantified in the graph 7 below) and clean air.

As reservoirs have been drained to accommodate developmental build-up, clean water – like green space – has become commodified and sold at markup to those who can afford it. Below is an example of a private tanker truck supplying water to a restaurant near St. Johns, which I suspect is being done without any oversight from a central authority.

But what about clean air? That is every person’s birthright and can’t possibly be expropriated and commodified, right? Well peep this Fortune article from 2016, which I originally thought was an Onion article: Smog in China and India Have Given Birth to a New Industry: Bottled Air.

“In May, a Canadian company that claims to sell “100% Pure Rocky Mountain Air” announced that it would start distributing its product in twin packs of 3 and 8-liter bottles to the Indian market, for around $20 and $40 respectively.”

Writer and cultural critic Matthew Crawford has argued that even our very sense of mental peace and calm – relatively abundant, coincidentally, in places like parks – are things that we increasingly have to pay for. He uses the example of airports: the wealthy pay for the privilege of enjoying the quietude and privacy of the business-class lounge, while the rest of us are forced to contend with the noise and the constant stimulation of the airport proper 8. Another example: in the hospital, if you want the privacy and quiet of your own room, it will come at a steep price – a situation that has many parallels to ‘VIP suites’ in American hospitals.

One of the attendings I met during my first week in Bangalore described the city colorfully as a ‘sensory assault.’ Public parks like Cubbon are great because they are reservoirs of peace and tranquility – respites from the daily sensory onslaught that everyone ought to be able to enjoy (for free!). Whilst walking through Cubbon, I was reminded of how lucky I was to grow up across the street from a park and playground in NYC and how fortunate I’ll be to be steps away from Central Park during my residency. I was so glad to learn, via Wikipedia, that “the roads around [Cubbon Park] are closed for traffic from 5:00 to 8:00 am every day to provide more safety and fresh environment for morning walkers and exercisers” 9. Finally, a victory for Bangalore’s pedestrians (who I feel are generally shafted in favor of drivers/cars...)!

One last note about the environmental consequences of destroying urban green space – it tends to make a city hotter. Check out the below map 10 of NYC, showing a pretty direct correlation between areas of denser vegetation and lower average temperatures. Some life-long Bangaloreans I’ve chatted with have noted wistfully that when they were kids, the temperatures in the city were significantly cooler, to the point where they would need to put on a sweater in the morning to stave off the a.m. chill. Those days, it seems, are long gone.

To place things in perspective, here is a comparison of green space/vegetation in Bangalore vs. NYC:

Speculating on why preservation of public resources/the commons has been under-prioritized as a political issue, Dr. Koshy noted – quite provocatively, I thought – that “Indians… do not understand the nature of societal or social responsibility which is not just taking care of yourself and your family…We have to put the cart before the horse. This means enough water, food, shelter, clothing, education, jobs, power, transport, etc., for everyone, not just for some” 4 11. I thought his assessment of the Indian public was perhaps a bit harsh, and didn’t adequately account for the sometimes difficult tradeoffs between acquiring things like ‘jobs’ and ‘power’ (often attained via economic growth) and securing resources like water (often achieved via responsible environmental stewardship and conservation). His sentiment did, however, seem to be consistent with the overall spirit of Article 39, which defends a sense of collective responsibility and collective destiny in India.

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[1] St. John’s is a similar oasis, as I’ve mentioned previously.��↩︎

[2] This of course exists in NYC too, to a lesser degree. ↩︎

[3] See: https://indiankanoon.org/doc/555882/ ↩︎

[4] From: Wake Up, India! Essays For Our Times by Dr. Koshy A.V. and Dr. Bina Biswas ↩︎ ↩︎

[5] See: https://www.commonfloor.com/guide/no-letting-out-land-to-industries-kiadbs-latest-move-31494.html ↩︎

[6] The loss of vegetation/green space – and the environmental degradation that it signifies – can thus be considered an externality whose costs are borne collectively by Bangalore’s citizens. ↩︎

[7] See: http://wgbis.ces.iisc.ernet.in/energy/water/paper/urbanfloods_bangalore/city_infrastructure.htm ↩︎ ↩︎

[8] See: https://www.nytimes.com/2015/03/08/opinion/sunday/the-cost-of-paying-attention.html ↩︎

[9] See: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cubbon_Park ↩︎

[10] From: https://earthobservatory.nasa.gov/IOTD/view.php?id=6800 ↩︎

[11] I have heard similar accusations levied against China in its own parallel quest for rapid economic development vis-a-vis unfettered capitalist investment/growth. ↩︎

[winterhalcyon]

Taggged by the lovely and amazing @towalkinyourlight who is a most stellar individual. 

rules: answer these 85 questions and tag 20 people

— what was your last…

1. drink: water you, gotta stay hydrated 2. phone call: My sister, she wanted me to pick up snacks yesterday. 3. text message: Also my sister, we were complaining about how long this guy was speaking in church today. 4. song you listened to: Last of the Real Ones by Fall Out Boy 5. time you cried: I honestly can’t remember. Oh shoot wait I do. It was in Black Panther when Bucky showed up. I didn’t cry persay, but tears were [resent in my optical area.

— have you ever…

6. dated someone twice: nope. 7. kissed someone and regretted it: yEP << hard same << Super same 8. been cheated on: No, but the last guy I dated got married a month after we broke up to a girl he met the day after we broke it off. So does that count? 9. lost someone special: Too many. 10. been depressed: Probabaly.  11. gotten drunk and thrown up: Nope, @anglo-saxintrash can attest that I would in fact be the designated driver and would never partake in anyting more than a glass of brandy.

— fave colours

12. Hunters Green 13. Turquoise 14. Amethyst

— in the last year have you…

15. made new friends: Yes, and I love all three of them dearly 16. fallen out of love: The prerequisite to this is actually being in love, which are both hard no’s. 17. laughed until you cried: Oh yes, many times. 18. found out someone was talking about you: Oh gosh, so many times. 19. met someone who changed you: I think everybody you meet changes you in small ways, so I’d say yes. 20. found out who your friends are: Yup. 21. kissed someone on your facebook friends list: Well, I’m not friends with them anymore.

— general

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know irl: most of them. the real question is do i like most of facebook friends? because that answer is no << This. 23. do you have any pets: I used to have a pet fish named Fish, but he passed away some time ago.  24. do you want to change your name: I alwasy think about it, but then I think it would suit one of my characters much more than I. 25. what did you do for your last birthday: I honestly can’t remember. 26. what time did you wake up today: 8:00 27. what were you doing at midnight last night: SLEEPING. LIKE A REASONABLE PERSON WHO GETS ADEQUATE AMOUNTS OF REST MEGAN. 28. what is something you can’t wait for: to find out what my co-workers tumblr is, because I know he has one.  30. what are you listening to right now: Carribean Blue by Enya 31. have you ever talked to a person named tom: I actually don’t think that I have??? 32. something that’s getting on your nerves: Stupid people who don’t listen to grammar and English advice even though that is my job.  33. most visited website: hmmmmmmm, tumblr or netflix << yeah same. 34. hair colour: brown with highly unnatual loking red under streaks in it. 35. long or short hair: Like medium length? 36. do you have a crush on someone: Sure do. 37. what do you like about yourself: That I am probably one of the coolest and awesomest people on the entire planet at this very moment.  38. want any piercings: I mean I think about it, but I used to pierce ears and I have no real intrest in getting more. 39. blood type: A+ if I remember correctly 40. nicknames: Kadi, Kat, Kadi with a D (I hate you Nic) 41. relationship status: Single and apparently flirty. 42. sign: Libra 43. pronouns: she/her 44. fave tv show: Parks and Rec. But recently Brooklyn 99 has been knocking it out of the park and I am loving it. 45. tattoos: None, but again I think about them a lot and they match my aesthetic so well. 46. right or left handed: right 47: ever had surgery: nope 48. piercings: ears 49. sport: I can play most any sport in varying degrees of success. 50. vacation: I want to go to Scottland. Like. I WANT to go to Scottland. 51. trainers: A pokemon trainer.

— more general

52. eating: I love noodles, but also sushi and pizza. 53. drinking: WATER BITCHES 54. i’m about to watch: Nothing, I am going to bed after this. But I’m going to watch Downton Abby tomorrow so I guess that. 55. waiting for: this semester to be over << oh my gosh yes. 56. want: to be done with school. there’s a trend here, in case you’re not picking it up. << this trend seems to be shared 57. get married: One day, but now I just want to bomb around like a boss and chill. 58. career: I want to be an editor for a publishing company while writing my own books, but I’m also looking into being a paralegal.

— which is better

59. hugs or kisses: They are both stupid. 60. lips or eyes: eyes 61. shorter or taller: I’m already tall, so tallness is a must. 62. older or younger: Around the same age, but not younger. 63. nice arms or stomach: You know, since I said neither on that other one I’m going to say both on this one and even out the anwsers. 64. hookup or relationships: Preferably a relationship 65. troublemaker or hesitant: Why are those my only options? What about Reliable or Responsible? Those R words sound nice.

— have you ever

66. kissed a stranger: New Years 2016 was a wild night. 67. drank hard liquor: Only in essence. 68. turned someone down: It happens all the time, and I enjoy it more than I should. 69. sex on first date: Never. 70: broken someone’s heart: Oh I know I have. 71. had your heart broken: Nope, and I’d return the favor by breaking something of theirs. 72. been arrested: I’ve come close. 73. cried when someone died: Absolutly. 74. fallen for a friend: I mean we became friends the same time I had a crush on him so yes?

— do you believe in

75. yourself: Always. 76. miracles: Oh my gosh yes. 77. love at first sight: I mean I can love how you look, but the rest? No.  78. santa claus: Ah yes, capatilism at its finest. Screw you red man. 79. angels: Yes, but a bit differently than the norm.

— misc

80. eye colour: blueis green 81. best friend’s name: I’ve got a couple. 82. favourite movie: A tie between Pride and Prejudice and Remember the Titans.  83. favourite actor: SEBASTIAN STAN  84. favourite cartoon: Voltron: Legendary Defender 85. favourite teacher’s name: Haggarty

Tagging: @anglo-saxintrash @nightbleeder @dragons-are-real-bruh  @daughter-of-mortain @aliens-are-really-real  and anybody else who wants to participate!