#its 3am i dont want to stop creating

[kimiibo]

The Grian withdrawal go crazy </333

[sixflame438]

Chasing Lightning

Synopsis - Your girlfriend’s in a mood and locks herself in your room causing you to sleep apart. It starts thunder storming in the middle of the night but Minjeong is scared of lightning

Pairing - Kim Minjeong X Reader

Tags - Fluff, light angst, mild astraphobia, established relationship, grammatical errors probably, another 3am post

A/N - A short fic i wrote in one go (yay me), will try to get the other drafts out of the basement after my last 2 exams :D

Wordcount - 1726

Minjeong was mad again and you dont have a clue why. All you did know was that you finished your dinner alone and that your apartment was lacking the usual lively energy of your girlfriend. It was like winter had frozen over with how silent and chilling being in the apartment felt, not even the sounds of a drama playing quietly in the background.

You missed your girlfriend despite her simply being a door apart. And of course you tried multiple times to get her out, whether that was sincerely asking her to or attempting to lure her out with snacks they were all to no avail. She just wouldn’t budge.

If it weren’t for the muffled noises coming from behind the door you probably wouldve assumed you were home alone but they were very real and they definitely came from your girlfriend. You deduced the sounds to be crying and sniffling and it hurt you to hear them, even more knowing you had no way to stop them.

You couldnt even begin to figure out why she was in such a mood. It was like this when you came back from work.

No hugs

No kisses

No Minjeong

No nothing

You couldve easily spent the entire night trying to coax her out but you were tired and sweaty from work and all you wanted to do was crash out while snuggling with your favorite person.

If Minjeong wasnt going to let you in, youd just have to give her some time and space. You had no choice anyway.

She had locked you out of your own bedroom and left you to fend for yourself alone. (it was practically both of yours with how often she was in there with you but the audacity of this girl)

And since most of your stuff was in there you had to make do with what was left scattered around the house. It really wasnt that hard though since you were quite the clumsy mess, always forgetting and leaving things in places they shouldnt be.

In your scavenger hunt you had found a spare set of clothes to change into, some makeup wipes to clean your face with and half of the products required in your night routine.

You took a quick shower to freshen up and rearranged the couch so that you would have an easier time trying to sleep. There was a spare blanket bundled in the corner from your movie night 2 days ago which you could use and some cushions and pillows you could stack to provide another layer of comfort.

Laying onto your makeshift bed, you struggled with finding a good position to sleep in. The couch wasnt ideal to sleep on and the cushions kept moving out of place everytime you turned. It wasnt much but it would have to do, youd just have to hope it was enough.

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It wasnt enough. You were certain just lying on that made you feel worse than you did before. The uneven feeling of the cushions didnt help either as different parts of your body were elevated while others were feeling the hard surface of the couch.

The weather didnt help much as a thunderstorm started as soon as you tried sleeping and no matter how hard you wanted to, you couldn’t will yourself into slumber either. The raging downpour of rain mixed with the thunderclaps created a painful symphony of pattering noises, uneven and aching to the ear, perfect to distract someone from falling asleep.

Lightning had also started coloring the dark skies with its striking flashes, loud and unpredictable. Since you couldn’t sleep you decided it would be fine to indulge in the lightning instead, pulling over a chair and opening the blinds so you could see the skies better.

The low dim light glowing from the moon and the dark midnight sky helped illuminate the lightning strikes and bright stars. If you were a photographer you wouldve definitely tried capturing the moment in physical form but keeping the scene in your head was alright too.

Other than the scene being quite stunningly beautiful (like your girlfriend) you found it quite funny as it kind of looked like the sky was trying (and failing) to play connect the dots with the stars. You dont know why but you were just so entertained by the sight.

It was rare but you had always enjoyed seeing the natural phenomenon nonetheless, finding it quite fascinating and inspiring.

Your girlfriend on the other hand?

Strong stoic Minjeong was never a fan of lightning, it was quite an experience the first time you both saw the flashing lights together. The high pitched squeals and screams could never leave your head and you didnt want them to. It was fun seeing that side of her and even more fun teasing her about it.

You remember bringing her close and spending the night in each others embrace, forgetting the world as it faded away. This time though you weren’t there for her, you couldn’t even if you wanted to all because of a stupid locked door.

You were really hoping Minjeong had already fallen into a peaceful slumber and hadnt heard the harsh sounds of the lightning. Considering you hadnt heard any noises from your girlfriend yet you took it as a good sign but the worrying feeling wouldnt leave so you remained unsettled.

That feeling was quickly sidelined though as another bolt of lightning hit. This one had a tint of red to it which you found absolutely amazing. You had learnt in a previous deep dive that lightning strikes could reflect any colour in the spectrum so seeing it in person was mind blowing.

You were so mesmerized by the colours and sounds of the lightning that you didnt hear the slight click of the bedroom lock or the soft padding of feet in your direction. It wasnt until you felt 2 tiny arms around your waist that you snapped out of your haze.

Part of you was still resentful of how quickly Minjeong shut you out (physically and mentally) but as soon as you registered the tears coming from your beloved you crumbled.

Even though Minjeong was stubborn and acting up all you wanted to do was wrap her up and cradle her in your arms. She was always there for you so the least you could do was be there for her as well.

As you turn around to properly to face your girlfriend a perfectly timed lightning strike allowed you to see her entire face in all of its glory. Minjeong mustve been crying for a while by the red eyes and flushed cheeks.

You physically soften at the sight, heart filling with sympathy and concern as you observe your girlfriend for any other signs.

There was nothing you wanted more than to pull her into your arms and spend the rest of the night comforting her. Even your ego tried to resist but you couldn’t stop yourself from reaching out and doing just that.

You pull her onto your lap and with one arm rubbing her back in circles and the other running down her hair in a soft delicate motion you coax Minjeong into finally letting out the remaining tears. The weight of your comfort too heavy to bear.

A croaky im sorry is all you hear as your girlfriend starts sobbing into your shoulder. You’re not sure what shes apologizing for. Maybe for crying? For being vulnerable? For locking you out of your room? Her fear of lightning? Probably all of the above.

Humming in acknowledgment you continue to console Minjeong, whispering soft reassurances in between sobs. As the storm eventually faded out, Minjeongs crying evened out too. Soft whimpers and hiccups could be heard amongst the sprinkling of rain.

You have a feeling that Minjeong would’ve succeeded in staying the entire night alone in your room if it weren’t for the lightning scaring her out.

“Hey lets get some rest now that the rains subsided. Im gonna take you back into the room okay?” You dont wait for a reply as you gently lifted Minjeong off your lap and guided her to stand and lean onto you.

Slowly and steadily you lead her back into the bedroom and notice the soaked pillow doused in her tears. Hell no were you going to let her sleep on that. Luckily you were a person who loved sleeping with multiple pillows so you had some spare hidden away.

(Minjeong found it impractical having pillows to hug when you could just cuddle with her instead and your bed was only so big so you moved them to make room)

You pull out the unused pillows from your storage closet and tuck Minjeong back into bed with little resistance, her already tired state fueled by the lack of energy from all the crying.

Ensuring she was comfortable and safe you place an affectionate kiss on her forehead.

You were hesitant on whether you were allowed to join her or not, as you still didnt know why she was upset and if you had played a part in her suffering. But your questions get answered with a simple

“Stay���

Quiet and low but you heard it. Not allowing yourself to linger any longer, you climb into bed and tuck yourself in too. Gently wrapping your arms around Minjeong as you did before, careful not to set her off again.

It takes a while for Minjeong to calm down fully but with your soothing touches she eventually drifts off. As soon as you registered her breathing falling into a stable state, you allowed yourself to relax for the first time that night. Basking in the closeness of her company, you lay another tender kiss on her forehead and temple.

It didnt matter what had happened, as long as you were still able to kiss her goodnight that’s all that mattered. Youre still skeptical about Minjeongs behavior, being kept in the dark about something as important as this was not something you enjoyed but you had a feeling that it would work out. Tomorrow was new day and you had plenty of time to decode her then.

Now that Minjeong was back in your arms you were never letting her go (unless she tried to lock herself in again that is)

[rahfia]

Chasing Cars 1: The Wishlist by thexwhys

WHAT IT IS ABOUT?

Its about a girl who created a to-do-list of things she wanted to do before k*ll herself until she met a man and the unexpected happened.

THOUGHTS

I dont even know where to start. Sa umpisa keri lang siya for me kahit unusual yung plot. Madilim. Malalim. The thing is I can endure. Im speaking for myself ha, I know this story is not for everyone and its understandable and I like na before you start to read the story may trigger warnings kaya sana seryosohin yon.

Ill start with Brielle. Ang lungkot sa totoo lang,kahit ikaw na nagbabasa malulungkot tapos madaling araw pa. Kaya nagdradrama na naman ako ng 3am. Hahahaha. Pero seryoso ang bigat niya, ang hirap niyang ipaglaban diba? Close-minded tapos planado pa lahat. Then theres Chase. I find him very patience, persistent and living. Total opposite and thats where the balance is.

Im loving every chapter kahit may kirot every now and then. Parang ikaw na reader you're having the same goal as Chase.Kasi totoo naman there's more to life. Pero siyempre lets not invalidate Brie's feeling kasi its not something that happened overnight, yung struggles niya. Kaya I love how respect is shown sa story na ito in different aspect. At totoo rin na ikaw mismo magiging affected. I have to stop reading after 2-3 chaps siguro depende. Wala lang hinga lang. Hehehe. Pero im fine po. 😅

Im loving the progress of the story, reason Kung bakit hindi na siya ganun kabigat. Again that's for me. I got invested. Hahahaha. Parang gusto ko nalang din hilain yung days para makita ko na yung end results. Successful ba? Mission accomplished ba? And then I reached the last chapters. No comment ako. Kasi wala akong masabi talaga. But thank you pa rin kasi I heard the two words we've been dying to hear. Hahaha. Hindi yung three words eh, yung two words na yon talaga. Hahaha.

WHY READ IT?

Because its a good read. Period. I find it amusing na may matapang na magsulat ng gantong plot for everyone to read. As expected no filter and I love it. Direct to the point kaya kay theways ako eh. Barda kung barda. Hahahaha. Its a good cry din tapos tatawa ka after. In short, bagtit ka na. Hehehe peace. Siyempre refreshing din sa utak yon makabasa ng ganto hindi lang basta love story. My kind of read, malalim.

WILL I RECOMMEND IT?

Yes and No. Selective lang kasi ang mga tao na willing magbasa ng ganito. Hindi naman kasi lahat kaya. Kaya if I recommend this depende sa kausap ko siguro or depende sa mood ng tao o sa mood ko. Eto kasing gantong story hindi basta basta inilalapag lang kung kani-kanino. 😊

MY TAKEAWAYS

Lets be kind lang lagi kasi hindi natin alam ang effect natin sa mga tao na nakapaligid sa atin. Yes, we can make impact kahit hindi natin namamalayan kaya lets shower each other kindness but not too much kasi yung iba hindi deserve yon. Hahahaha. And awareness na rin, its a good thing na kahit konti we know how to deal with people who's fighting a battle we cant see.

END NA. HAHAHAHA. TULALA MUNA AKO DITO. CHAR. 😊 THANK YOU SA STORY NA TO TE CAMS.

[dwaeki]

— felix as ur bf (random headcanons)

pairing: felix x gn!reader

genre: fluff

warnings: none other than maybe some slip ups and just poorly written fluff, not proofread, lower case intended!!!

a/n: i'm just bored and need to post so i decided to make this at like 3AM 😩🤝🏻 genuinely dont knownwhat i was writing here but i went with the flow so 😞

ok lets completely disregard the fact that felix is my ult and i am absolutely whipped for him.

he doesn't sleep early at night especially if he had a bad day at practice or made a lot of mistakes while trying to memorize the choreography to one of their new songs,

so he usually stays up for a little while playing video games on his PC while you sleep over at the dorms.

you're most likely there sitting on his lap, sleeping peacefully while your boyfriend tries to restrain himself from raging and absolutely destroying his expensive keyboard </3

(p.s he has a keyboard that lights up. most likely rainbow cuz idk HE GIVES OFF THOSE VIBES.)

the first time you sat on his lap while he was playing games he just fell in love with that idea

the feeling of your arms wrapped around his shoulders as you rest your head in the crook of his neck is just :(( y/n ure making him feel so loved :((

he's just rlly comfortable and feels at peace.

also when he feels a bit too overwhelmed or just frustrated he stops the game for a little while and wraps his arms around you tightly while inhaling your scent :((

he feels better right away <33

but you dont know that bcuz ure ✨asleep✨

but if he's feeling particularly tired he just plays on his phone

while you're both in bed, cuddling <33

PLUSHIES !! you guys collect a bunch of plushies <3

he likes plushies a lot so if u like plushies too you guys are just a perfect duo. you two are always on a look out for stuffed animals,

felix keeps a bunch of cents in his pockets just in case u find something.

if one of u spots a claw machine outside while you're going out or during an arcade date you're going to drop whatever you were doing before and literally run, leap, fly towards its direction.

"Y/N A CLAW MACHINE !!!!" "OH MY GOD GOGOOGOGO RUN FELIX GO DONT LET THE KID GET THERE BEFORE WE DO"

you two are competitive as hell when it comes to winning a stuffed animal & believe me felix doesnt go easy on you

especially if youre a sour loser cuz he teases you a lot.

it starts off with u two being competitive but ends with the both of you basically throwing all of your money away just to get a single plushie.

one time u hogged the claw machine for a little too long and you didnt even notice the line of kids waiting for the two of u to finally leave for good.

yeah... ure banned from using the claw machine at one of the arcades ... 😬✋🏻

he also lays his head on your lap... a lot.

he just loves feeling close to you so if he's sleepy and wants cuddles he usually just lays his head on your thighs (no matter the shape or size cuz we love all kinds of thighs here, love <3) , grabs your hand and plays with ur fingers.

you already get the message so you're quick to get up and move to the bedroom to cuddle

but if you don't get the message then he starts pouting and sighing dramatically, waiting for u to take the hint

but if ure still not budging then he just lifts you up and quite literally throws you onto the bed so you two can cuddle

(one time u bounced off the bed and hurt your arm... felix almost cried...)

he grumbles a bunch of incoherent words while getting under the covers

squeezes the living soul out of you the second he's under the covers. like ure literally left soulless.

HE'S LITERALLY A HUMAN HEATER SO BEWARE WHEN U CUDDLE IN THE SUMMER !!!

felix doesnt rlly have a favorite position to cuddle in, he likes any and every.

he loves being the big spoon, he loves being the small spoon

but he also rlly loves cuddling face-to-face <33 or maybe ur head buried in his chest :((

loves placing kithes all over your face or pecking your lips during cuddle sessions.

yeah... he's a sucker for physical contact 😚😚

he's also SO whipped for you you don't even understand.

everyone around him can tell that he absolutely adores you and everything you do

one time jeongin mentioned how utterly in love he was and how "disgusting & painful" it was to watch you two interact 😔

and felix was low-key like HELL YEAH IM WHIPPED AND IM PROUD !!!

doesnt care if anyone points out how much he loves u & doesn't deny it either bcuz YEAH!! HE DOES INDEED LOVE U VERY MUCH!!! WHAT ABOUT IT!?!?!!

he also gives the best presents !

he just always knows what to buy anyone he's very close with and the list ofc includes you :D bcuz youre his lover mwuah <3

buys you the best birthday presents, anniversary presents, holiday presents.

it's because he's observant !!

especially when it comes to you. if you eye an expensive outfit that you can't really afford at the moment or there's a fancy restaurant you want to go to, he will keep it in the back of his mind and will take it into consideration ;))

there doesn't have to be a special occurance for felix to surprise you with a present !!

even if the present he's getting you is pretty expensive its still for u and he wants to make u feel as appreciated and as loved as he can. so wasting money on you is never a problem as long as you're happy :((

the fact that he is observant also comes in handy a lot, because he can tell when you're uncomfortable by the small changes in the way you act like the furrowing of your eyebrows or you shift even closer to him, etc.

if it's a public space or an event where you have to socialize and interact with others and he notices you feeling uncomfortable he will take you to a less crowded place to give u a bunch of kisses and reassure you that everything will be just fine <3

he also knows what you like and dislike very well, so it's easier to avoid any arguments in your relationship.

virtual dates !!

he takes you on a bunch of dates on minecraft, roblox, animal crossing etc.

the dates usually happen while he's away on a tour and you two really miss each other </3

the first time he went on a tour he just really really really missed you and your voice

so he called you on discord and suggested that you play minecraft together. you created a new world and just started everything from the scratch.

so every time felix goes on tour you guys call on discord, get on minecraft and add new things to your world <33

your world includes but is not limited to: a huge pink mansion with a pretty backyard filled with flowers, a dog named "seungmo" and a cat named "lino" (as felix suggested you named them ✋🏻)

he once told you that one day you two are gonna get married (if you're willing to ofc) and live a perfect life just like in your minecraft world :((

even tho it was over the top to assume that you two would live in a gigantic pink mansion, it was still endearing and it made your heart melt <3

he really wants to spend the rest of his life with you because he knows you're the one :(

[sentiment-is-a-chemical-defect]

Drowning:-

Almost a year has passed. Exactly 288 days since writing this, since I sent her the final message. The amount of hurt and sadness I feel because of her on a daily basis is just insane. I opened up myself to someone, made myself vulnerable.  I promised myself that never again I would love nor make myself feel something for someone else. But when she first walked in my life, I thought nothing of it. But then the way she treated me, my heart felt attached.

The day I told her, I felt like I was going to lose it all. And funnily enough, I did. She was the one person I could talk to and feel happy about opening up. Not be embarrassed or shy, be me. The times we spent together, in the car, on the sofa watching series, especially when we watched squid game, that was one of the happiest times of my life. Every memory I have with her is a happy memory.

I’ve had 6 girls after her, none of them made me feel what she did. No one. Even looking at her face, that big smile, those freckles and those big bright eyes. When having a bad day, all I could think of is her and my day would get better.

Why can’t I forget her? Why must I keep feeling pain everyday, smiling through the sadness to not effect people around me? Why did she do that to me after I gave her everything? What didn’t I have for her? This is why I never want to open up to anyone ever again, why I keep everything to myself. Opening up creates vulnerability which leads to pain and suffering.

I can’t even hate her, whenever I try to feel something again, all I think of is her, and what she did to me. Even in my dreams, everyday I dream of what I had, the perfect summer, with her.

Love is nothing but a complication in your life, once you have it its too addicting, but when you lose it, the amount of pain it makes you feel, the amount of void and sorrow, the everlasting cry for more - its just too much.

I believe I was very good to her, from hanging out, to taking her places, to spending time with her, to everything we did. The best ever memory was when we were watching her pantomimes, then we ordered hermanos, and sat on the sofa watching her friend stream playing Jackbox party pack. Laughing, looking at each other, me knowing how much I love her that I could die for her. That same night, I had the best night probably in my 20s, the time were I felt like a God. Laying on the bed next to her, hand in hand, talking about everything any anything. Then we kissed turning into sex till 3am. Knowing the next day I have work but I dont care because I was making happy memories with the person I truly love.

This went on till October when I visited her in Ireland, we slept together one last time. Then from there onwards, nothing but pain, not being able to hold her, to tickle her arms, to feel her touch, to look directly at her eyes and know how much I love her. 

November 11th 2021 - Big fight. Nothing but hate towards each other. I knew what was going to happen. I tried to cheer her up but apparently cheering up someone you love is wrong so we stopped talking. November 22nd - She gave me an ultimatum, either talk once a week or nothing. I couldn't live with that, so we stopped talking. 

Anyway, thats where I am at at this very moment.

-SH

[zgvlt]

talking about my own chocolate ask, i literally remembered twst's semi(?) valentines celebration where you can buy something and send them a letter and they'd reply to you too

never ako na di natawa by the fact that leona canonically actually uses proper grammar and like ..... "etiquette dictates that i must.." 💀 for some reason i never remembered kalim referring to the receiver as "love" though. also sebek thinking the gift was for malleus tho, i dont know if its funny or sad😭

also take your time with the idia ask its fine i wrote it at like 3am i lose my mind at that time -💅

RIGHT!! leona's reply is genuinely my favorite. i feel like he's just really used to the stock standard replies that it comes to him naturally lol. poor sebek, i feel like you really have to declare a gift whether it's food or what is really for him otherwise he'll just think ah, an offering for my young master? it's an inadequate present according to fae standards, but i'll pass it on nonetheless like sebek PLEASE IT'S FOR YOU I BEG

anyway in terms of your idia ask, since there's spoilers for chapter 6 i'll just put it here under the cut

The Idia Ask in Question:

have fun camping!

I DID! thank you! 💖💖

welcome again to 💅 anon's weird dreams, this time for some reason it was horror mixed with like a weird ooc wedding? anyways i won't be sharing the graphic stuff so just read in with the weird wedding thing. Apparently, while i was running away from a whole mystery k-worder, idia (who was very much ooc) was suddenly my groom. what's the context? why is he ooc? we don't know(yet) . he's literally just there like he was my government assigned boyfriend/fiance.

HELPpSp not the government assigned... what in the teen wattpad dystopia fic

anyways the whole thing was actually kinda wholesome (despite me actually running away from .. yk a kworder) we did all these fun prep stuff despite it being a bit awkward( i did his skincare, picked out his suit, practiced vows etc). plot twist turns out he was specifically affectionate towards me because i'm his creation, similar to ortho, i was a humanoid made by idia. like he made a humanoid lover ...

THE PLOT TWIST what kind of dreams are you having why is it oddly complex like omg a humanoid... which brings the question did he make u to be his lover or did it just happen lol

which reminded me of something from chapter 6 there was this part where he was like.. "but you're not ortho! you're an ai i created"

THE ORTHO REVEAL AND HOW THEY TALKED ABOUT IT LIKE i expected it but i was still so distraught omg

which reminded me he only allowed himself to be affectionate towards ortho was because he never truly saw him as a real person, and idia in chapter6 obviously can make friends if he tried- it's only him stopping himself to make these friends because they're people, and people are unpredictable unlike coding or in game things, there's a safe limit in games (both in contacting other people ingame, and actual ingame things to do) but he really can't bring himself to socialize in real life because it's ... again harder for him because he thinks in a set of rules due to him being a shroud.

every time i think about the shroud curse i sob and wail i am so sad for him like it's just so :< and i just oh my god twst writers really had me gripped by the neck when i learned about the overblot thing like stfu why did u do this to idia has he not suffered enough !!!

him being a shroud, let alone the oldest one, means he is the one who needs to take care of STYX whether he likes it or not. he’s required to put his all for this ob research, he probably internalized it as “i am going to be stuck here . in this stupid research lab . for the rest of my life. what’s the point of having friends if im born to be stuck in this depressing place? ``Maybe that’s why ortho was that important to idia to the point that idia wanted to recreate his brother. they’re both shrouds, they are both chained to the family business; maybe that’s why he only sees (both OG! and robo)ortho as his only friend, because in the end of the day, they will be stuck together in this sad lonely pit full of phantoms and blots. all of them, have no choice. like hades, they had no choice but to be that little bitch guarding the hell hole. the little bitch with no friends and everyone thinks their a wholeass weirdo. all they wanted was their own concept of freedom, yet here we are.

you can argue that “oh lilia and idia are online friends! that means something right?” idia refuses lilia’s offer of in game marriage, “not only the distance he keeps with me…” + “you will talk to me even though i always play solo..” (both said in chapter six) implies that though he is very grateful for the relationship, he still has no desire to make a deep relationship with anyone offline or online, he likes distancing himself from friendships. there’s more in relation to him being an otaku etc but i feel like i would be saying too much lol ... is this the sign to convert to be an idia stan? -💅

anyway yes absolutely 100% you should become an idia stan genuinely he's always been cute to me but chapter 6 really made me an idia stan his supporter

[blappery]

Tagged by: @resident-of-remnant​ thanks for tagging me!

Rules: Answer 30 questions an tag 20 blogs you are contractually obligated to know better.

Name: Alex, or rose but i think im gonna have that as my middle name

Gender: trans girl

Star Sign: scorpio

Height: 6′2″ish

Time: 22:09

Birthday: 3rd November 2002

Favorite bands: rn the longest johns, they do sea shanties, check out their cover of “the wellerman” (the tik tok shanty) but a more long stading favourite would be nothing but theives.

Favorite solo artists: im not sure that i know of many, or quite what they are. Prince maybe? p sure he made his first album alone.

Last movie: Die hard (on christmas eve)

Last show: Hilda, its a cute cartoon with a cool world, and id reccomend it.

When did I create this blog: uhh pretty sure i first made a tumblr in like 2016? when i first got a phone, but then i locked myself out at some point and made this one

What I post: whatever comes across my dash and i like, its an assortment.

Last thing I googled: what a solo artist is, sorry

Other blogs: nope

Do I get asks: not all that many, most of them from lucy which i appreacite but suck at answering, thanks for all of them!

Why I chose my url: my brother and i went through a phase where we would just say blap to each other, so to offer me a glass of orange juice hed say blap why holding out the carton, then id nod and say blap back, basically blappery became my usual username meaning something like a whole lotta nothing

Following: 690 dang i spend too much time on here

Followers: 100, getting nice round numbers today folks

Average hours of sleep: sleep schedule? never heard of her, last night i went to bed at 10pm, that morning i went to sleep at 7am, the day before that at 3am. when im normal i get like 7 1/2 hrs but that hasnt been the case for a while now.

Instruments: i used to play trumpet, which i enjoyed but am glad i stopped, now im learning bass! just got one a bit ago and im enjoying it a lot!

What I'm wearing: a soft maroon shirt, short leather shirt, tights, flats and my aroace rings

Dream job(s): hmm maybe baker. or software engineer maybe, lets hope so bc its likely going to be the one i do

Dream trip: im not much of a traveller but i would want to explore, hill climb and camp n stuff with a couple close friends. just walking through forests and glens all day chatting shit and singing poorly.

Favorite food: its all great but bean enchiladas all the way, its like 3 bean chilli in wraps with yogurts cheese hot sauce and jalepenos on and its glorious.

Nationality: Scottish/Engl*sh (i know its tragic)

Favorite song: uh rn its ever new by beverly glenn-copeland, but i have quite a few faves

Last book: a joe abercrombie series starting with the blade itself, it was alright but theres only one woman in it who isnt a love interest so i would not rate the writer. this is a 5 way narrative btw. ive enjoyed it though.

Top 3 fictional universes: hmm the elder scrolls bc ive played too much of it, RWBY love the way semblances work, its the only show ive made ocs for, and bloodborne bc its hot girl shit.

im tagging:  but dont worry about it too much

@violetdesolation @sstarbee @leacko @arainofravens @artist-that-sucks @thxsilvxrshrxud @happi-iris @myfatuglyslugtits

[dolphingal]

the night we met...

Note: Based on a rp with friends in which Shrig (Lovebug) died in the ro he has a couple of siblings and Malcolm is his father 

Lamar (lamp) can create illusions made clouds, fog and magic, this fic is based on him using this ability to revive one of the nights in which Lovbug and him meet before he died

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The night was calm, the big bright moon was lighting the dark night like a streetlight, under the sky full of stars, in a park, a blue boy was having a walk, but he wasn’t walking at midnight to look at the views the night offered to him, like the neon lights from the stores or the fireflies that were flying around the beautiful flowers of they park, neither it was to contemplate the startling view of the stars in the sky

No, it was because it was another of those nights, the one in which he couldn’t sleep, in which his blankets felt more cold than ever and his house was no longer cozy, in which if he tried to stay in bed tears would start to come from his eyes and the loneliness was hitting more hard in the hole deep dark hole of his broken heart

The reason of this? Shrignold Amour, known as Lovebug, good son, loving brother, faithful friend and the most important and greatest person that Lamar had ever met, a person who didn’t deserve the end he found six months ago due to the madness of his sick dad.

Lamar sighted before sitting in a bench, the same bench in which three years ago he met Lovebug, and in which seven months ago he almost confessed his feelings to the bug boy

The lamp boy stared at the floor for a bit, not having the guts to look at the empthy space of the bench in where Lovebug used to sit

Lamar's eyes shined for some seconds before he looked up next to him, and there it was, a perfect illusion of Shrig, exactly as he looked the night he almost confessed

- A nice night, Dont ya think? - asked lovebug as he looked Lamar with love, he still had the small bags under his eyes and seemed genuine tired, but that didnt stop him from give the lamp boy a bright smile, just like that one night

- Yes it is - Lamar replied as he looked at the sky - its perfect to stargaze

- It is! - said lovebug as he looked at the sky as well - but I have the feeling you didnt call me here for that

- You know me really well.. bug

- Ofc I do, its my job, we are close friends after all!

- Yeah.. friends... - muttered Lamar to himself

- So, what did ya make you bring me here?

- Welp.. I... - Lamar approached his hand to Shrig's one wanting to hold hands, but like that one time, he regretted it and didnt do it - I know.. you’re not at your best and you’re really stressed lately, but I was thinking.. what if we go outside?

-Go,,, outside?

-Yeah! Like I was thinking bout that one restaurant you liked..... y know... spend some time, just two friends chilling

- Lamar,,, even if I would love to go, I need to take care of my siblings and keep an eye on dad....

Lamar’s eyes went down as he felt his heart broken once again

- But, I promise to you we’ll have a nice dinner and then we’ll watch some movies! Just like the old times - Lovbug said with a smile, making Lamar smile as well

- Yeah! We’ll make some popcorn and then stay until 3am watching those silly romance movies!

Both guys laughed a bit as they remembered the good times they had spent together before going into an awkward silence, staring at the floor, a bit unsure of what to say

Lamar took a deep breath, thinking about what he was about to say before finally speak

- Lovebug I... I love you - he didn’t care if he was confessing to an illusion, he needed to take that out of his chest and say it out loud - I’m.. really in love with you... and I’ve been in love with you for a long time..

- Oh Lamar, my sweet dream boy - the illusion answered, making Lamar went wide eye as he didn’t expected a reply - Why didn’t you tell me that when I was alive? - he asked with a bit of sadness in his voice and he lend to kiss the blue boy

Lamar just closed his eyes and lended to kiss Lovebug, but when their lips touched, the illusion faded, leaving a broken hearted lamp boy all by himself

- Lovebug... my love,, you’re gone and I ask to myself.., what I am supposed to do now without you? - the lamp asked as he looked up at the stars, leaving the tears stream down his face

[bowtied-pasta]

I AM BEGGING YOU!!!! Please please please write a scenario of the scar soulmate au where the person meets Jeff and the scars all make sense. Please, I love your writing!

Bruh, this dude is messed up. If you cant find him based on your scars alone, then how blind are you... like....???

The day you wake up scarred beyond recognition, you have a panic attack. Your family busting down the bathroom door to see your form on the floor, grasping your face.

Its definetly a shock, waking up to see yourself changed so drastically without warning. But the hospital you are sped to says that nothing can be done. They arent your scars.

Your family would pull you out of school to make sure you arent bullied, worried that it would only prove to make your psychological situation even worse than it currently was.

Of course, that can only last so long. And you certainly arent the only person out there with such agressive scarring. And that is proven correct, as the housemate you move in with, while nice, has their eyes whited out.

They assure you that they arent blind, that their soulmate is the reason for it, even though they dont supply details and change the subject whenever you ask.

You eventually reached a point of friendship with them that you were trusted enough to learn about the deeply engrained burn mark on their back. Almost like a brand.

One night, after about 6 months into you living at your new place, your roommate/friend tells you that they will be out late and not to stay up. They will be bringing back their soulmate, who is extremely shy around people, and they would appreciate if you could stay as quiet as possible.

You see no issue with doing so, making sure you were in your room and ready for sleep before the agreed time that your friend said they would probably be back.

You wonder briefly how a person could be so shy that they cant be introduced to a stranger they will likely never meet again, but dont ponder on it too much before deciding now would be a good time to sleep, drifting off almost effortlessly.

You wake up and its still very dark outside, glancing at your clock in the corner and seeing it read 3am

You groan a bit before getting up, not knowing what woke you, but knowing you would have a hard time getting back to sleep and feeling rather thirsty.

You pause at the door, hand hovering over the handle, contemplating of your friends soulmate had left yet. You wanted to respect their wishes and make sure their soulmate was confortable. But then you considered the time. It wasnt very likely that they would stick around this late, right? Your friend would have told you, right?

You decide that yes, they would have told you, so you open the door. Silently, as you are positive that your roommate is sleeping and dont want to wake them.

You pad your way softly to the kitchen, going about the motions to get a glass of water and as you turn to head back upstairs, a hand grabs you from behind, clamping over your mouth to keep you silent.

You drop the glass and hear a growl near your ear before the person speaks. “Jeff, what the fuck are you doing here?”

You shake in fear, tears forming in the corner of your eyes as you process what he just said. He takes his hand off of you and moves to stand in front of you.

“... who is Jeff?” Its the only thing you can reply with as you are faced with a dark silhouette, the man being backlit as he looms over you.

Your answer seems to take him aback however, and the kitchen light turns on to show your roommate standing there with their arms crossed.

“Jack, what did I say about going near my roommate?” They look pretty pissed. Seeming to stare him down across the room, glass shards and water creating a rather effective barrier between them.

“But this isnt your roommate... its... Jeff???” He seems almost confused until he gets a closer look at you, and you at him.

Hes terrifying to behold. Grey skin and voids for eyes. You wonder how he can even see.

“How could you have mistaken (y/n) for.... oh.... oh shit. Well, I guess youre right. I’m a moron for missing it for this long.” Your roommate seems to have an epiphany of sorts, pulling out their phone to send a message apparently.

“Are you seriously going to tell him? I was going to have some fun dragging it out, making him earn his soulmate.” Jack says, looking over to you shortly, “no offense to you, I just hate his guts most of the time.”

You are unable to respond, still very much taking it all in.

There is a demon? In your kitchen... who is your roommates soulmate... and they are talking about a Jeff?

“He said, and I quote, ‘fuck you too, I will show up when I show up.” Your roommate rolls their eyes, putting their phone away and grabbing a broom. Sweeping all the glass away to the side of the room.

“Loser doesnt deserve to get this this easy. I suppose I still get to have my fun though.” Jack says as he walks over to your friend, before proceeding to act all lovey right in front of you.

“Jack, stop it. Not in front of-“

And the door is suddenly kicked down, making you jump as it hits the wall, creating a door knob sized hole in the plaster.

In the door, you see a man that looks almost exactly like you.... “Sup bitches, you messaged me about something that needed my attenti....on....” and that was when he locks eyes on you.

[nobeliumoxygenoxygenmisc]

Main 6 studying with MC (HCs)

asra

asra is... decent to study with

if you want to actually study that is

Because one pout, one pair of puppy dog eyes, and he's instantly calling for a break even though it's been five minutes since your last one

sure, he's determined to get serious for a really big exam, but if you try hard enough, he'll crack so so easily it would be sad to witness if you didn't love him so much. He literally can’t say no to that face of yours and you both know it

he's really good at teaching difficult concepts though - asra has a way with words that just makes you understand them well

in the event that he's the one that doesn't want to study, he does try to distract you for a bit with that mischievous asra smile and that intense gaze of his and him leaning just a bit closer than necessary but rest assured that if you put your foot down he'll stop and you two can get work done

just don't study too late or you'll find him sleeping when you look up from doing a particularly hard problem but it's adorable so its forgivable

nadia

nadia here is the best 

she's organised, she's got so many good study techniques, her notes are perfect and she knows exactly when you need a break so that the breaks aren't too frequent but enough so that you don't feel like ripping your hair out in frustration by the time you end a study block

if you do feel like ripping your hair out in frustration she's amazing at support and stress-relieving - would give you a nice, warm hug and tell you just how smart you are even if you don't realise it and how you're working so hard that it's commendable in itself, a massage slowly working it’s way in there

you might catch her staring at you a few times though so hopefully you can work under someone's gaze because that stuff is pressuring as hell and nadia's not flustered at all about being caught 

like asra, she can explain concepts super super well you might just replace your teacher for her honestly

And if you need an online resource that you gotta pay for, she’s got you covered 

julian

So julian tries to explain things to you but he just... fumbles. and, like. "you do it like this." "okayy but why" "why???? because... because that’s the way it works." "i still dont understand" "uh, um, i dont understand it myself y/n im sorry!!" "but. but you can do it????" "yeah but i dont understand how i understand"

his intentions are good though!

studyholic so it's probably you who has to call for breaks else he's staying up till 3am having studied 8 hours straight 

he is very watchful of breaks though; times them and gets back to work immediately when time's up

on one hand that's good! it means the study session isn't a waste of time and you get to work on creating some good study habits! 

on the other hand it's not! it means you might have finally gotten him to relax, lie down a bit with you, get him laughing off a sliver of that stress and then the cursed alarm sounds and he's yeeting himself out of your embrace and back into study mode!

please force him to rest he needs it

portia, muriel, and lucio under the cut!

portia

it all depends on balance

you two can get a lot of work done together whilst also having some good fun 

but you both have to be super careful that one more snack run isn't too many, one more five minute break isn't too much, and one more "want to hear what i heard today y/n??? This is the last time and then we can get back to studying i swear!" isn't going to lead into a full-blown gossip session

pepi is the best stress reliever just bask in her existence for a few minutes and all your worries are gone your skin is cleared your crops watered

portia can make a bunch of cute and funny lil memory clues for a lot of stuff though which is awesome but sometimes she reaches really hard and it doesn't make sense at all or it's just too silly that you would probably giggle during a test so you two just burst out laughing which disrupts the studious mood but it was time for a break anyway right??

Study sessions with her are overall a good mix of fun and actual work but when the test is the next day you two are probably just bouncing back pure panic and screaming

muriel 

a nice, calm, quiet study session. if you're working on your stuff and muriel's working on his and even though he's a bit stiff in the beginning he slowly relaxes throughout and even though he gets a bit flustered if he doesn't know the answer to a question you ask, it's all good. it's nice

but say you're the type to cause some mischief and whenever you do ask a question or he asks a question you brush your arms together, or when muriel's looking over your shoulder you lean back gently against him, or you smile at him too long 

he's super flustered. studying?? how can he when you're being so--so weird? so you??

muriel would grumble about how you're such a distraction and how he's not getting any work done so what's the point but he can't bring himself to kick you out because at the end of the day he doesnt really mind your company so he just flounders around you until you have mercy or it’s time to go home/leave

he acts like he doesn't want to study with you again but he doesn't refuse you when you suggest another study session so there’s that :D

lucio

for some strange, unknown reason you decide to study with lucio

sure, he's your boyfriend but he's still lucio and he is, hands down, the type to try everything to get you away from your studies

he probably thought you wanted to Study with him winkwink not actually study so hes super disappointed when he finds out

from being a major distraction to doing everything but studying to kisses that get longer and rougher every second, he's literally doing all he can to get you away from those textbooks

pouts when you ignore him in favour of work and whines about this being so unfair and how cruel you are and how you probably don't even need to study anyway and at least melchior and mercedes love him 

but there is one advantage of studying with him and it’s when you do have a break, he's great for cuddles and relaxation

...but the disadvantage is that he won't let you go when you decide it's time to get back to work so honestly those cancel each other out whoops

nevertheless, he’ll insist on studying with you more in the future and let’s be honest, you’ll accept even though you know just how unhelpful he is because, at the end of a very frustrating day, you still love him

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thank u for reading! also just a heads up that i may be less active in posting content because school’s starting to overwhelm me (could use a study session with nadia ngl) but i will be online! because no matter how hard i try i always come back

[atiny-piratequeen]

Ahh okie!! Tbh I wanted to interact with you a lot earlier but I was always kinda intimidated by you cause you seemed like the type of person that's v cold and intimidating to strangers but vv sweet and nice to ppl you're close to and I wasn't sure if I'd be accepted

ʕ-᷅ᴥ-᷄ʔ but I guess I was wrong hehe. Andd just out of curiousity (did I spell that right lmao) what's your opinion on minors interacting with 18+ content on tumblr?? I'm asking cause it's smth I've been curious abt (from a content creator's pov) but anyway have a good day! Hehe

I-i come off as cold to strangers? Oh dear 😟

*weak wheeze* whY?

Also. I've expressed my thoughts on this several times but I dont mind discussing. Its a bit long and its 3am and jumbled thoughts but I'll put them under a cut . I also focus on writers, but honestly this is for all content creators, bc nsfw artists have the same issues

The reality is, a lot of us go through a form of sexual awakening/exploration and more often then not, it starts when we're in our teens after puberty. So I don't FAULT minors for seeing out these things, its natural and it'd be hypocritical of me to stand on a soapbox and lecture a minor when I've been watching porn and reading/writing smut since i was before 18 myself.

However.

There's an increasing issue I'm seeing when it comes to people understanding basic boundaries and consent.

While I don't fault a minor for wanting to read 18+ content and the like, there's this culture of underaged peoples lying about their ages to 18+ nsfw content creators in order to interact with them/get into the 18+ spaces they create.

Ive had this happen to me at least 5 times alone since I've made this blog. That's not okay.

There are writers out there that explicitly state that they dont want minors even reading or interacting with their smut works or blogs at all. They, as adults, have every right to do this. They have every right to curate their spaces so that it is only 18+ people interacting with their works/blog as a whole.

There are writers like me who don't try to police who interacts with their works, but ask for the bare minimum that minors do not send them nsfw asks, comments, replies, etc.

These are boundaries that each writer sets and they completely go out of the window when the minors that follow us decide "this sign wont stop me, i can't read" with the boundaries we clearly set.

That is a direct violation of someone's consent. I need people to realize this behavior is predatory.

Just like how it's creepy and wrong and sus for adults to knowingly have inappropriate nsfw conversations with minors, and how we can all agree its predatory in nature, it works in the opposite direction in my opinion, as well.

To carelessly ignore an adult setting these proper boundaries and weasel your way into a space intended for other adults is toxic, predatory, and something that has the potential for legal repercussions against the adults in this situation, even if they didn't know

Its such a problem and I've seen it not only with myself, but fellow writers, and even writing nets having minors lying to slip into spaces not intended for them.

I went on a tangent and honestly I can say so much more about this, but at the end of the day I really feel like there's no inherent harm in being curious and wanting to read nsfw works as a minor, however, if theres an author who's explicitly stated they dont want you reading their works if you're -17, dont want nsfw convos or interactions with people who are -17, etc, the minors on this app really need to learn to respect that.

That, and 18+ writers on here need to stop knowingly and willingly kekeing and having these inappropriate interactions with users on here they know are -17. (The royal) yall should fucking know better and I see some of yall.

There needs to be a long winded conversation about consent and respecting boundaries with this kind-of thing, but yea those are some of my 3am thoughts on it

[littlemisschameleon]

Aight so there’s this fic called Where You Lead, I Will Follow by @lovelylogans​

and I feel bad for sending what would have been 13 anons to her shouting my praises for the final chapter of this fic

so here we are (continued under the cut)

to start, if you aren’t annalise and haven’t read this fic yet, do yourself a damn favor and read it! it’s a gilmore girls au for the sanders sides, and tbh if you like the sanders sides you’re going to love all of her writing. Im not even joking right now, go read the fic! And then read lavender for luck (another one of my favorites from her), and then go give annalise some love for her amazing abilities, and THEN you can come back and read this.

second, this entire post is gonna jump around a bit. Basically i took notes while reading so I didn’t forget anything, and was going to format said notes into asks. I hope this is easier to read (and so your inbox doesn’t get more flooded, like im sure it is) everything from now on is just going to be copy pasted from my notes, pretty much. The breaks in paragraphs are where they would have been for asks. Enjoy the ride

*cracks knuckles* lets do this song and dance once more, its tiiiiime for lovin wyliwf! Lets just get to it, as there’s so much ground to cover (38k, are you trying to kill me?!?!? i love it). Ohhhh patton buddy youre really out of it, arent you? Asking for straight vodka is gonna be the first of many slips during the play, im sure. Logan just immediately giving full attention to the play in anticipation for Roman is so frickin cute!!!!! Id bet that patton would be awwwing about it too if not for the play beginning.

Logaaaaan! Thats your boyfriend!!! Hes so excited to be able to //say that// now. And Roman did so good he deserved every single ounce of applause he got! For real though, im just READING how his performance went, I can only imagine how breathtaking it would be to see it. The way that youve been handling the tonal shift when it comes to our boys relationships has been so good! Youre able to make it natural when you want to, and completely jarring when its right for the story.

I figured that must have been challenging so good job!! Speaking of jarring, I was too caught up in the euphoria of Romans dance to even remember pat was wearing //makeup// and //crying// until Emily shouted about her handkerchief. //thats what im talking about youre so good omg// That entire fight was a long time coming, and I //felt// it when pat was just so sick and tired of everything.

Im kinda similar to pat, because when the apology happened I thought something was gonna be different too, but of course not! Patton must feel like even more shit :( Okay we all knew that Logan was in love with Roman, but now that theyre together its clear just how far //gone// he is. Like hes //in love// its just so sweet its gonna give me a cavity

The whole “they got together” thing just broke my heart, because thats how it should have been in a perfect world, but hey that wouldn’t make for good conflict in a fic now would it? But of course logan and Roman are so devastated, they didn’t even //think// to see this as a possible outcome, it felt impossible to them for this to even happen :(

can I just say that I LOVE petty patton!!!!!! Yes sir put ur foot down! Good!!!! and the father son bonding time!!!!!! Between both richard and pat AND richard and V in a sense!! Such a good change of pace from the fighting that usually happens when pattons parents are around. And BLESS THE FUCK UP, RICHARD! Hes broken through!!!

Hooooly fuck! That WAS embarrassing! Side note, i will always be in awe about how well you write logan and Roman, theyre both such //teenagers// and react perfectly. Exactly how you would expect teenagers to react in said situations.  AND hhhhhh virgil!! So sweet!!! Patton he CARES so MUCH about you!!!! He LOVES YOU PATTTT! Oh man, Logan talking about how he needs to focus on his obligation to school reminds me so much of what Emily wants for patton. Roman’s right of course, whats the point of trying to better your future if its making you upset now?\

Ive got a lot of words for that scene with pattons letter, but mostly I want to say that I can’t wait until they make up bc that scene //hurt to read ow// Oh gosh, Emily dont fuck it up now //please//. Youve got patton crying, you know a lot more than you did before, youre hugging him. PLEASE just be happy for your son? PLEASE HES BEEN THROUGH ENOUGH LET HIM BE HAPPY (this goes for both emily and you annalise, stop cackling behind your computer and making my boys sad)

“I think I just out bitched a shady bitch” YES! YES YOU DID LOGAN! And holy shit the dance was the cutest thing in the whole world, they both deserve to be happy and to have fun!!!!!!!!! Yes!!!!!!!!!!!!! That whole “wanting this overrides any fear that I have” speech was just //beautiful//, and it hit home hard for me. Its just, so perfect, and they both deserve to be happy and //ugh//, /////feelings/////

“This is only the beginning” I AM SOBBING. ITS NOT EVEN 3AM ITS 3PM I DONT HAVE LACK OF SLEEP AS AN EXCUSE HOW DARE YOU (in the best of ways)

(cutting in for a hot second, but from here on out it’s turned from loving wyliwf to just loving annalise and her ability to create. I kinda wrote it as if it was going straight to her inbox (bc that was the intent) so, just warning ya! it gets personal)

i just… Wow. This has been an insane ride, and i want to print this fic and have it on a bookshelf so I can look at it and sigh longingly and lovingly, you know? To get real for a hot second, you started talking about this fic right when i was dealing with a major breakup and stressing over finals and so much more.

This fic has seriously been something ive looked forward to every week, and has been a comforting constant. I was able to relate to so much youve put patton, and Virgil, and roman and logan through in this fic, from the little nuances of working in a restaurant, to the feelings of major heartache patton went through, to having just that moment, //knowing// youve been in love with someone, of course you have! But just finally realizing it with an “oh shit”.

To being dumb teenagers and sneaking out for late night talks, to stressing about finals and having to be perfect, to relationship anxiety and feeling like you cant show your real feelings and just ugh. The way you write these boys allowed me to relate so much, it hit home in so many beautiful ways, and all I can really do is say thank you so much, for giving this to the world. To writing this and putting so much love and effort into it that it positively //shows//

i am so ecstatic to read more from this universe, and im so happy that its not quite over yet. You’re an amazing writer, and i absolutely adore you and your ability! Im not sure how to end this train of wyliwf lovin, so I’ll end it at a simple thank you, once again, for writing this absolute gift of a story. It was beautiful, and heartbreaking, and perfect in its own little way. Thank you

[gottaenjoythelittlethingzz]

sorry part II lastly, on my wip I usually finish writing about 3am; and dont proof it like I should. Just too tired. Often there are punctuation issues misspelling etc. Do you recommend posting it only after I clean it up. and get everything perfect "well nothing with me is ever perfect but close there to

(No worries!! Anything I can do to help!)

I totally relate to this. You might could find a few of my posts with the tag “late night writing” because I’m more active and less distracted at night. By all means continue writing at the time that you body and mind are most willing to write.

Again, stimming from your first ask, it’s all about how you personally want to run your blog.  I’ve yet to share chapters or full/immersive excerpts because I’m stuck in an editing loop of the first two chapters. I’m sure the tenses are still not 100% concrete all the way through.

But if you’re confident in your writing ability and not an obsessive editor than it’s completely up to you when and how to start sharing your content. I will tell you that the more clean and well organized you are the more readers you will earn. Tumblr can be screwy sometimes (or all the time. One of my posts its bugged and I can not edit it or link it on other posts), and the easier you make it for people to find your works the more they will be willing to look into your content. The same can be said for the writing itself. The cleaner it is, the less spelling or grammatical errors present, the more readers you will obtain.

If it’s fanfiction or short stories, people can be rather forgiving. But the longer the work, the more consistent you will want your work to be. I’m holding off one sharing for two reasons: 1. It will be months in between updates and I don’t want people to lose interests and 2. I’m trying really hard to make every scene, every line consistent and as “perfect” as it can possibly be.

Now, it is true that nothing will ever be perfect. The more you work on something the better it becomes, but it can never truly be perfect and the first or second draft is never as bad as we first make it out to be. If you state that what you are posting is the first or rough draft and you post it knowing you have intentions of improving it later your readers will be a little more forgiving. 

The main thing is being confident in your writing and being proud of the work you’ve done. If you can achieve that than you can post anything whether its the first or last draft. And posting your writing process will give you a virtual catalog to look back on and remember where you started and see how far you’ve come. This alone may be worth the effort.

Whatever your decision, make sure you’re happy with it and remember you are posting for you first and foremost!

(Thanks for the asks! I hope you find anything useful in these rambling posts. I wish you the best of luck. Go out there, create, and have fun. And stop by any time if you ever have any more questions or need some encouragement. ~Nevada)

[squishysvt]

Best Friend! Yuta

Word Count: 3.1k

A/N i havent posted in like 5 years and i have no excuse and this wasnt even requested but there is an extreme lack of yuta content and i decided to make it myself smh ANYWAYS i liked writing this a lot and feedback is encouraged!!! lov u lil squishies muah <33 -Admin Madi

ALSO this was inspired by this post from @xuxi-rolls and this post from @youaremychwingum which are both amazingly cute blogs and people so go check them out!

Backstory first! You two met in the 3rd grade when he was deep in his anime phase and you were obsessed with collecting erasers that were shaped like weird things such as lipstick tubes and paintbrushes

Yuta stole the paintbrush one and started using it like a sword like a character from his fav anime and boy when you saw him do that were you were like “im gonna do it. Im gonna kill him”

You literally stomped your lil sketcher clad feet over to his desk and YANKED that shit from his chubby fingers with zero remorse

And he started crying and you felt bad and were like “well fine you can have it i guess”

And he immediately stops his FAKE crying bc hes a snake and sticks his tongue out at you as he snatches the eraser back

And you went into full Attack Mode and you two got into a small fist fight and the teacher had to break it up it was nasty

Anyways after you two went through the next year having some major beef, yuta apologised bc he’s a gentleman and even bought you a new eraser!

It was shaped like a dinosaur and you loved it so much that you instantly forgave him bc you didnt have an eraser in that shape yet!!

And he was beaming after seeing ur face light up like that and proudly pulled a matching dino eraser from his back pocket and was like “we match!! We can be best friends now!”

And you Loved that idea you were like yes okay first order of business: more erasers

Anyways you two just instantly clicked bc ur sense of humor was v v similar and life became so much more enjoyable with having him there to share the experience with you

Throughout ur many years of friendship, Yuta had always wanted nothing more than for your friendship to be comfortable, honest and loving

You’re the one that he rants to, gushes to and confides to so your friendship to him is so precious

And as you grew older and gained more freedom, both of you started to do more things outside of school like go on late night drives, go to the movies, amusements parks and out to eat every other day

And it became natural and routinely that going days without one another felt weird??

And you and yuta have discussed the idea of maybe you two being soul mates, but in a completely platonic way

Like you were two halves meant to come together

And yuta liked to reinforce this idea bc when it comes to being lovers, you shouldn’t be looking for your other half, but rather looking for the person who already makes you feel whole

And so when y’all graduated from high school you immediately got an apartment together!

It’s definitely not very fancy or anything since you both only had part time jobs here and there during the school years and summers, but it’s better than nothing!

And although yuta and you are similar, your styles are where you really begin to differ

While he wants to have pictures of mountains and gardens hanging on the living room walls, you would rather have mirrors shaped like suns and fairy lights behind the couch

And obviously after some friendly banter, you come to an agreement that a painting of pretty outside scenery at night would look great with some fairy lights to compliment it!!

And so your apartment quickly becomes a mesh of your style with his and it’s oddly nice?? Like who would’ve thought that yuta’s knick knacks from japan would look so cute next to your family photos

It’s a two bedroom apartment but you both end up sleeping on the couch in a heap more often than you’d like to admit

You’re both in uni doing ur own things so when its time to come home and relax, you’ll find yourself curled up next to him on the couch with your laptop open and writing a paper while he’s munching on some snacks and watching a game of soccer he missed bc of classes

And you’ll quickly fall asleep bc papers are boring!! And yuta doesnt want to move bc your laying on him and doesnt want to disturb you so he’ll just quietly cheer to himself when his team scores and eventually falls asleep

But sometimes he has no problem lightly shoving you off and going to his own bed bc the couch isnt really that comfortable and hurts his back after awhile, but he brings your duvet out so its more comfortable for you at least

And although you two are pretty much joint at the hip, your bedrooms are private from one another

Like its nice being with yuta, but its also very important that you have time to yourself and so neither of you are intrusive when the other person is in their room with the door shut

If either of you need anything you’ll just shoot each other a text or quietly knock on the door rather than just barging in which is something that both of you really appreciate

And you obviously have other friends besides yuta that you love dearly! And you make sure that you get to see them often and that yuta goes out with his friends too bc its easy to get sick of each other no matter how much you love one another

And this makes for your friendship to be healthy! Which is like, the most important thing bc being your own person is important and having close relationships/friendships is also important! But its easy to get too attached and end up hurting yourself down the road

And yuta is aware of this as well and so it makes things a lot easier bc he knows when you need your space and when to distance himself if he needs it too

But living with yuta is a lot of fun!

He likes to cook sometimes so you’ll always have a full tummy with yuta around!! And if he's not in the mood for slaving over the stove, he’ll just make some instant noodles and call it a day

He really tries to make as many traditional japanese dishes as he can so he can have a slice of his home whenever he’s feeling down, and he just really enjoys sharing that part of his life with you too

Undoubtedly his favorite part is when he gets to hand feed you with a spoon and witness the look on your face as you chew bc it’s really rewarding for him

Sometimes your schedules kind of clash on days so whenever he’s home and you’re in class, he’ll make food for himself and leave you tupperware containers of food in the fridge for you to heat up when you get back bc he knows you’ll just crash and not eat which is really bad

And yuta cares about ur health!!! He’s attentive as heck!!

But you’ll do the same thing for him, and even if you aren't a world renowned chef, you’ll lay cash on the counter for him to call in a pizza or something quick

If you know he’s been craving something then you’ll leave the number for the place next to the money you leave so it makes ordering a bit easier for him!

Also, yuta is very organized! Sometimes he’ll throw his jacket here and there or have some things where they shouldn’t be, but yuta really likes having a clean and tidy apartment!

He hates doing the dishes, but he’ll literally do anything else

He likes to vacuum for some reason you dont know but you’re like okay have at it! One less thing i gotta do! And he’s really happy once he’s done bc BAM you have clean floors

And you’ll just be sarcastic about it but in a loving way and he laps that shit up bc sarcasm!!! His second language <333

You two have a nightly routine that ensues when neither of you are busy the next day so  you’ll watch a movie on netflix you’ve been eyeing together and crash

Sometimes when yuta gets home on these nights you’ll still be in the shower or getting ready for bed, and yuta will come in and sit on the counter and you’ll talk about your day and just chill while shampooing ur hair (which yuta is obsessed with btw..he loves touching and playing with it)

But he’ll just be there,,listening closely and telling you about his own day while drawing squiggly images on the mirror like hearts and stick figures holding hands (its always you and him, but when you ask, he insists its him and winwin)

And you laugh bc boy does ur bff ever have a massive crush on sicheng!!

But yuta is just cute and likes your platonicness with him

Bc he really does love you! People often ask you two if you’re dating and you can see why people would ask that bc you and yuta are super close, but it’s also kind of an odd thought to both of you bc yeah you love each other but,,,not as lovers

And so you’ll laugh it off and talk about it afterwards bc you really cant see each other in that light because you tried dating in high school and it just felt kind of weird

Yuta loves to tease and joke around with you, sometimes be a little (read; lot) sarcastic with his jokes but he really does care about u and thats how he shows his affection!!

He’ll hold ur hand when ur out at the grocery store or shopping together and likes to pat your head and plays with your ears but thats about it for physical affection!

You’re emotionally bonded more so than physically which is not a bad thing uwu

Yuta finds it kind of hard to openly joke around to the same extent with others as he does to you and knowing this makes you feel really special

Like yeah!! Thats right!!! Im his best friend!!

Yuta also LOVES to dance with you

It doesn’t matter if it’s serious or not, he will not hesitate to pull you up onto ur feet and have you dancing with him

ESP to sistars shake it! Y’all have so much fun when that song comes on

At first this was embarrassing but then yuta would just NOT stop shaking his butt so you were like oh well lets both look cutely dumb i guess

And you’ll get noise complaints a lot bc the walls are thin and you’re moving around, creating a lot of noise and you feel especially bad when this is all happening at like,,,3am

Anyways you live kind of a fast pace life so whenever you gotta be somewhere you kinda fly out the door with ur feet shoved into ur shoes with the backs down and yuta will silently come behind you and remind you to slow down and will bend down and personally make sure they’re on properly so you don’t trip and die

It annoys him sometimes bc you should be taking better care of yourself and he’s not always going to be there to look after you and that worries him!!!

To allow him to sleep a little better at night, he bought you slide on shoes that you can easily shove on and fly out the door so he won’t have a heart attack at the thought of you falling down some stairs due to the hastiness of which you put your sneakers on improperly

And he’s also the one who is like “hey its been a couple of months so i bought you a new toothbrush bc dental hygiene is important” and you’re like “okay nice i just bought some new toothpaste on sale the other day, it’s minty so i think you’ll like it”

And this is how you two co-exist in ur shitty lil apartment

Yuta is also into soccer so you always make sure to go and support him at his games! Even if they’re just practices or whatnot, you’ll always be on the bleachers cheering for him!

Which yuta LOVES because he’ll point you out to his teammates and be like “thats my best friend, ugly, right?” and they’ll just laugh bc of his teasing and they can tell you two really get along

And yuta is uwu x100 at this

Anyways yuta likes to show off and do fancy tricks like sliding on the grass to get the ball and he’s all dirty when you get back to ur apartment together and you wont let him touch anything bc that means more cleaning which neither of u have the energy for

So you’ll basically make him take VERY large and wide steps towards the bathroom so he can shower and leave minimal dirt behind as he does so

And then he’ll come out of the shower with wet hair and clean up the tracks he left with a paper towel but he’ll go in circles for a good 30 seconds wiping up dirt and then water from his wet hair

And you’ll observe him and laugh for a bit before you’ll drape a fluffy towel over his head and he’ll pretend to be scared and ask who turned off the lights

To which you nudge him and call him a dork, but when he takes the towel off and get to look at his face, you tell him he did a great job at the game and his eyes will change from playful teasing to filled with genuine love in .5 seconds and he’ll instantly wrap you in his arms

And you’ll find warmth in his embrace and wonder why he smells so good and then you’ll realize he’s using your shampoo

You’re like okay well, sigh, whatever its okay bc hes cute i guess so we can share

And then yuta will pull away, give your head an affectionate pat and go work on a paper or something due for school

Which you both do a lot of late night paper writing sessions and so when he tells you he’s retreating to his room for the night you’ll go and cut up some fruit and gather some snacks he likes and bring them to him before he becomes too absorbed in schoolwork

And he does the same to you except he brings you a lot of water since its “important to stay hydrated~!” and will cover you in his favorite blanket bc he claims it “helps you write better papers”

And you arent allowed to refuse bc one time you tried to and yuta was like “okay well i guess i’ll be moving out then” and you’re like okay i know you’re joking but its hot in here i dont want to have a blanket on me

And yuta starts to dramatically pick things off of shelves until he’s saying things like “i’ll be out by morning since im not appreciated” and you’re rolling your eyes so hard you think they’ll go to the back of your head but its like okay fine thank you for your magic blanket houdini

Yuta just winks at you and does a theatrical bow before putting everything back and leaving you to write your magical paper

ANYWAYS thats what most nights are like, full of playful banter and fun talks

You also both THRIVE off the dollar store which is literally everything bc you two get so excited going in there!

They have everything so its like?? This place is my Second Home and i Love it Dearly

And yuta likes to buy candy there since its so cheap and one time when you were looking for a new broom, he wanders off and comes back with his hands behind his back and is like “guess what i found!!!”

And this is nothing new because yuta gets excited about the cutest things so you’re like “gum?”

And his smile gets all wide and bright like i KNOW you know the one im talking about, it’s literally kept me alive for the past 18 years

And he’ll bring his hands out and WOW ARE THOSE ERASERS THAT ARE SHAPED AS SMALL ORDINARY OBJECTS??

And you just want to CRY bc thats literally the sole being of your friendship in his HANDS!

Yuta is proud as heck and buys two matching ones for you two and they’re of paintbrushes in honor of the one he snatched in the third grade!

Which makes your heart so happy and content

But thats the effect yuta has on you! Someone who always manages to have you smiling and happy with life

But he does end up buying candy bc its basically your duty as a human to buy some expired candy from the local dollar store

And yuta really loves the flavor blue raspberry, esp if its sour and he finds a bag of sour jolly ranchers and goes nuts

And he picks out and religiously eats only the blue ones, a red one makes the cut here and there, but you’re like?? Yuta?? Can i atleast have ONE? And he rarely ever shares but its like okay whatever enjoy your cavities heathen

And you’ll clown the shit out of him bc his tongue is blue, his teeth are blue and the area around his mouth is blue and you cant just let that pass

And he’ll laugh when you try and come up with palpable things to call him, and when you’re both giggling uncontrollably, he’ll try to kiss your cheek bc he’s all sticky and he knows that would drive you mad

And its the same with his fingers bc theyre all blue and sticky too and he’ll hold your hand so hard that your fingers stick together and youre like yuta!!!! But you really secretly enjoy it

And then you’ll go home with bags full of god knows what and struggle to find places for everything but its okay bc the memories that come with the plastic bags and erasers from your childhood remind you why you love yuta as much as you do

Can you tell i love yuta yet or is this au too vague <3333

[jane-wei]

3am bordem

1 Favorite place to be?

A quiet cinema with a massive screen

2 Something I can never live without?

Water

3 Hobbies that I’ll never give up?

baking

4 Three words to describe me?

Proffestional, day dreamer, loyal

5 My biggest fear?

ebaressment

6 What makes me angry?

ignorance towards others

7 My inspiration?

creativity and passion of others

8 Favorite wild animal? Why?

any big cats, because they literally are just big cats

9 Favorite food?

pizza, always

10 First memory of life?

probably playing with lego and having my dad make me spaceships out of lego

11 The best advice I got?

write every day

12 Where do I see myself in 10 years?

hopfully own my own flat or house, maybe running my own production company, maybe acting in some plays

13 Books reading these days?

im not a big reader, but when i read i read loads, i must read DUNE soon

14 The fictional character I want to be?

Luke Skywalker

15 My hidden talents?

quiet farts

16 Favorite type of music?

electronic or classical, if its both at the same time its magic

17 When do I feel happy?

when things are going right for collegues or loved ones

18 Which song would I like to hear to be happy?

duran duran ordinary world

19 My favourite word in English?

surety

20 My favorite word in Spanish?

da nada, that count as two?

21 Top 3 things on my bucket list?

visit hobbiton, sky diving, meet mark hamill

22 The most heard song in 2017?

redbone by childish gambino

23 Last book you’ve read?

probably a comic book or an excerpt from a book on how to direct actors

24 Favorite quote?

All that is gold does not glitter, Not all those who wander are lost; The old that is strong does not wither, Deep roots are not reached by the frost. From the ashes a fire shall be woken, A light from the shadows shall spring; Renewed shall be blade that was broken, The crownless again shall be king. 

J.R.R. Tolkien

25 If I had a superpower what would it be?

Creating objects, although that has a lot of responsibility, but it would end world hunger

26 Favorite sport?

rugby, its the only one id watch begining to end, but to play definatly badmington, brutal game

27 Biggest Dream?

be a jedi

28 Favorite Singer?

the chap who won x factor uk last year, Dalton Harris, that guy can create magic

29 Favourite Cusine?

italian

30 A positive quality about me?

I want to know what you have to say, i might get  nervous at the answer or speaking other people in general but im interested

31 A negative quality about me?

push down my self confidence

32 Best place I’ve visited?

brecon beacons in wales

33 When do I laugh the most?

when something is funny, but also breaking through social conventions in a dark kinda way, nothing insulting just a little dark here and there

34 When do I get creative?

when travelling, trains and buses are great, but only when i can see a wide vista, so trains goign through the countryside are ideal, or in a creative soace with othe rlike minded creatives. enough of creativity for now eh?

35 Favorite lyrics?

nothing overlly specific, but i like Plan B’s stuff, Radiohead always do somethign interesting, A Tribe Called Quest are geniuses with words

36 The most scary thing I’ve done?

confront people, its tough, especially when you know something has to be resolved by words and talking

37 Biggest accomplished achievement?

going to film school, something i thought was impossible for a working class lad like me

38 What am I horrible at?

not keeping healthy

39 Favorite book genres?

sci fi and fantasy for sure

40 Any adventurous thing I want to do?

travel

41 Something I would like to try?

sports, i feel that if i was encouraged at school in sports id be a real jockey

42 Optimistic or pessimistic?

depends on the day, optimistic is the goal, that way your always looking up

43 Favorite TV show host?

Mel and Sue, old school bake off

44 A talent I want to acquire?

playing the violin and anoy other musical instrument i can egt my hands on

45 Something from my childhood that I still have?

1 teddy bear and 1 fluffy teddy style cat, those are going to be family heirlooms

46 If I had a chance to change something what would it be?

death of family members, but you cant dwell on such things, itll drive you mad

47 What would I do to calm myself?

music and cleaning

48 When do you find yourself singing?

while out walking or home alone

49 What do I consider unforgivable?

any attack on others, physical, psycological, verbal, insinuated

50 Have I ever sleepwalked?

as a kid yes but not since, if i did id definatly wear some kind of body camera and find out where id go

51 If I got a chance to go somewhere, where will it be?

everywhere, every continant at least 5 times

52 What is my dream career?

feature film writer/director

53 An impossible wish?

a real lightsaber

54 Who is my greatest role model?

i like elders who are accepting of others and those who take great joy in heling others

55 If I could live in any home on a television series, what would it be?

does the U.S.S ENTERPRISE count?

56 Favorite song currently?

Tiny Dancer by Elton John

57 Advice to people?

try to be understanding of others, dont put yourself or your skills down, make every day count, give yourself some credit for what youve done so far, make sure you get a little tlc every now and again

58 How do you handle jetlag?

sleep

59 Describe your style?

nerd

60 Favorite makeup product?

i dont use any, but i do get asked if i use mascara, all natural

61 What’s a guilty pleasure you have?

early naughties action movies, Van Heling with Hugh Jackman the main culprit

62 Favorite Star Wars Character?

The crew of the Ghost, you could never pick one over the other

63 Any pet peeve?

laughs with high pitches

64 If you could die your hair, what color would it be?

red

65 What’s your schedule these days?

in need of a job so a lot of job hunting, school is 2 days a week(ish) got a few writing jobs so putting pen to paper, need to start learnig lines for a play in the summer

66 Have you ever cut your own hair?

only the fringe and i didnt think it was that bad but when i got into school EVERYONE laughed #embaressmentismykryptonite

67 Who’s your style icon?

my friend zach, simple gorgeous colors

68 Do you consider yourself a good liar?

if the lie is a simple one

69 Favorite movies as a child?

star wars, star trek, lord of the rings, predator which i watched way before i was supposed to, i was also in the spy kids generation

70 Last show you’ve binge watched?

star wars rebels and the eric andre show

71 First toy you’ve had?

probably my teddies, but i do remember having star wars actions figures and lego very early on

72 What can you see from your window?

a main road which many buses travel down, a bus stop, a residential row of houses leading to a park, a betting shop

73 What’s for dinner today?

my other half makes great tempe and gyoza

[fatrainbowmermaidunicorn]

3AM Drive - Thru (JJK x You x The8/Minghao) // Chapter 12

MASTERLIST

“Hey Y/N, want to go grab a bite? I'll buy you your chicken nuggets and fries," he smiles. "Just like the old times..."

She's sad, angry, tired, betrayed, hungry, cold, heart broken... and standing right in front of her is the man who's giving her the oh so familiar bunny smile that sends her a warm feeling.

"Why not Jungkook. Just like the old times,"

Things went smoothly ever since Jungkook and Y/N had mended their friendship. Their relationship almost feels like it was years ago when they were just friends. Jungkook tries hard to control his behavior so that Y/N will feel comfortable with him again. It was the hardest thing for him as all he wants to do is to just grab her and kiss her senseless everytime he sees her smile, her laughing, her breathing. Y/N still refuses to be a part of the production team since Minji is still a part of it. Y/N thinks its best that they dont stir things up as Jungkook had asked Minji for a breakup a few days prior to the dressing room incident.

Despite not being a part of the team, Jungkook makes sure to eat lunch or even breakfast with her whenever he's at the company. Sometimes even Jin, Jimin or Teahyung will join them. He likes how Y/N is able to get his hyung so comfortable with her until to the point where he himself sometimes gets jealous of them.

Jungkook's relationship with Minghao are still fine, eventhough there's still s trace of akwardness left. They still hang out together with the rest of their squad. They never talk about what they discussed to each other again, both understanding each other feelings. Minghao kept true to his word and never commented or do anything whenever Jungkook mentioned Y/N's name.

Until Y/N is sure of her feelings, Minghao won't ever act on it.

"Hey, I got great news!" Minghao turns to Y/N while flipping through the rack of clothes in the shop. Its one of the rare days when he gets a day off and he immediately decide to spend it with Y/N. Minghao receives major backlash from his members who wanted to have a chill member day together, but he just disregard them and skips happily to see Y/N.

He do love spending time with his members. They are, afterall, his brothers. But he feels like he needs a break as they had enough time together due to their tight schedule of non stop practices, recording, making choreograophies and creating music for the comeback and he really misses Y/N.

"Really? What is it? Do you really need me to ask before you will actually tell me? Can't you just straight away tell me after you said 'I have great news'?"

"God, I knew you are savage, but I didnt think you are this savage," Y/N chuckle. "Fine, I will tell you King Hao," still mocking him. "The company is one of the major sponsor for MAMA Awards this year! So I will have to attend the show,"

"That's great! You can finally watch how incredible I am in dancing live," Minghao smirked. Truth is, he's a little excited. The awards is a big deal for most idols and to have someone he loves there at the venue itself cheering him on, its something he used to only wish for.

"Hey, we can go together! Wearing matching stuff and all!" Y/N is all excited. Minghao cleared his throat.

"I would love to... I really do, but I cant do that," Y/N gave him a confuse look. "I'll be going together with the members," Y/N nod in understanding. That's true. Of course he has to attend as Seventeen, how can she forget? "Also, I cant be seen with a girl at the awards,"

"Oh..."

"Hey, you understand right Y/N? I mean, if we are officially together I wouldn't mind telling the world about us. Hell, I want to tell everyone about us. But since we are still figuring things out, its better if we dont show it in public," he peeks at Y/N, trying to gauge her reaction.

If it's up to him, he would proudly go to the awards with Y/N on his arms. He would go anywhere with Y/N on his arms. But they are not official yet and the awards is one of the biggest event in K Music industry. If they came together, fans, media and even his company will start asking questions and he doesnt want to answer to things that he himself is not sure about. As long as Y/N is still figuring things out, its better to keep things under wraps. But Y/N's sad face is breaking his heart.

"Hey, dont be sad," he lifted up her chin to make her look at him. "Tell you what, I'll skip the after party and we can go for ice cream and fries instead? How about that? I dont usually like going to the after party anyway," he suggested and Y/N seems to smile again.

"Okay. You promise?" she held out her pinky. He linked his pinky with hers.

"Promise,"

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The ceremony is beautiful. Everyone who is everyone is there and everyone looks beautiful. But the most beautiful thing that Jungkook and Minghao sees that night is when Y/N glide onto the red carpet.

Everything about her is perfect. Her makeup, her hair, her dress, her smile. They cant take their eyes off her, and it seems so does a few other idols. Both Minghao and Jungkook feels like poking their eyes for looking at what is theirs with such longing and lusts.

Minghao had never been more energetic and giddy on an award night. Y/N was seated right near the stage, with the best view in the venue. He sees her stands up for a standing ovation when BTS finish their performance and how Jungkook keeps making eye contact with her. And is that Taehyung winking at her? She congratulate them when they walked off the stage after their win and he can see Jungkook gave her a hug a little too long than he's liking.

When its time for his group's performance, the only thing he can see is Y/N. She stood up through out the whole performance and sings along which only fired him up even more. She congratulate them and she had never looked more proud when they had won in their category. The whole night pass by in a blur, all he can think about is how the most beautiful girl in the event is waiting and thinking of him. She's mine she's mine she's mine. He just cant wait for the night to end so he can claim what's his, to share his happiness and excitement for the night.

Once the night ended, they were ushered off into the dressing room for for a final touch up and wardrobe change for the after party. Minghao drop a quick text to Y/N before he grab his new outfit and change.

Hey, I just need to give my greetings to some new girl group that manager-nim wants us to meet. Then we can go. Wait for me okay.

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Y/N received the text and figured she has time to freshen up. She told her assistants that she's skipping the after party. It's not a good idea to walk up to a McDonalds in an expensive car and a driver, even more with an uprising idol in tow, so she asks her team and driver to go off first.

She waited in the cold night air while cursing herself for forgotting her jacket in the limo. Seconds turns to minutes and turns to hours but Minghao is a no show. Multiple texts and calls has been sent but no reply was received. Did something happen to him? The after party venue is just a couple of block away and the main venue is already empty except for a few staff members.

After contemplating for a while, Y/N decides to walk the few blocks to the after party and checks on Minghao. Its weird that he didnt even text her to say he's running late.

"Hey, is that you Y/N? God, you are shivering!" Y/N turn to the source of the voice and see Jungkook is already taking off his suit jacket and place it on her shoulders.

"Jungkook!" Y/N exclaimed. "What are you doing outside? Are you taking a break from the after party?"

"Oh ya. I'm just here for the group shots and publicity mingling. I'm about to go for a walk and then find manager-nim so I can go home. Did you just arrived here? Why are you walking?" Jungkook just notice the direction Y/N came from.

"Yeah, I just did. I dont plan on going to the party actually. I'm supposed to meet Minghao back at the main venue, but he needs to drop by at the party for a bit but it has been hours since he left. I was worried something happened to him. Did you see him in there?"

"Minghao?" Jungkook looks nervous, biting his lips and avoiding eye contact. "Minghao says he will meet you back at the venue?" Y/N nodded. Jungkook didnt know how to tell Y/N. Yes, he has seen Minghao at the party alright. And he's definitely didnt seem like he's about to leave the party anytime soon.

"Yes," Y/N raised an eyebrow. Weirded out by Jungkook's nervous reaction. "Is he in there Jungkook?" Y/N is still oblivious to what's really going on. Jungkook can only nod before Y/N makes her way into the party. What she sees in there is definitely isnt what she's expecting.

Minghao is full on drunk, dancing with a girl group member, exchanging shots and kisses, his friends all around him , just as drunk, cheering and laughing. She's guessing that's the girl group that he needs to introduce himself to and it seems they were very well introduced indeed.

Y/N was stunned and she really dont know how to react to this. Should she cry? Be angry? Scream? But most importantly, she forced herself not to cry. After all they are not together, there's no reason for her to feel anything after seeing him in that situation.

"Hey, wait up!" Jungkook chase after her when she quickly spun around and race towards the door.

"Is this what you guys usually do at after parties?"

"Urm pretty much yes. That's why i always leave early after the obligatory greetings and photo session. Not really much into parties," Jungkook jogged a little to catched up with Y/N. "Hey Y/N, are you okay?" Jungkook snatched her wrist and turn her to look at him when she didnt answer. "I might not know what's going on but I know you. You dont look okay,"

Y/N angrily swipe her tears away before they could fall. I would not let another boy, especially another idol make me cry. I wont!  "I'm okay,"

"Its because of Minghao isnt it? What happened back there? Every couple has its problems. You guys can wo-"

"We are not together!" Y/N harshly cut him off. "I'm just upset that he made me wait for so long. He could have just told me that he wants to party. I could have gone and get food on my own. I have an early flight tomorrow, I could have just gone home earlier and sleep," she lied. There's no way in hell she's letting Jungkook see her heart break for the second time. Jungkook can obviously tell that there is so much more than Y/N just being stood up and hungry.  But he can also tell that Y/N doesn't want to talk about it. At least not right now. So he did the only thing he knows that can help her calm down.

"Hey Y/N, want to go grab a bite? I'll buy you your chicken nuggets and fries," he smiles. "Just like the old times..."

Y/N ponders for a moment. She's sad, angry, tired, betrayed, hungry, cold, heart broken... and standing right in front of her is the man who's giving her the oh so familiar bunny smile that gives her a warm feeling. She nodded with a tired smile,

"Why not Jungkook. Just like the old times,"

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Minghao woke up in his dorms in last night's suit and a major hangover. What the hell happenned?

"Woohooo, there's the life of the party!" some of his members whistle at him.

"What?"

"You dont remember? Wow, you must be super drunk then,"

"You partied like crazy last night man! We were being introduced to the new girl group for our collab. The next thing we know, you are drunk as hell and dancing like crazy!" Mingyu explains, trying to help his friend remember.

"You dance skills are amazing! Even though you are shit drunk! I'm proud you are on my team," Hoshi chimed in. DK took out his phone and showed him a video of him dancing in a drunk state and to his horror, he starts making out with one of the girls.

"Ohhhh yaaa, the girls are cray cray over you!" DK laughs. "You even went back with one of them!" He went home with one of them? Shit, shit, shit. Did Y/N see this? Where is she when all of this happening?

His memories starts crumbling back to him. He remembered the look on Y/N's face when they won, when they performed, how he cant wait for the night to end so he can spend time with her, how the manager asks them to meet some girl group, and he send a text-  His phone!

"Where's my phone?" Minghao search everywhere in his room.

"Here it is. You left it in the suit jacket of our first outfit. The stylist noona returned it this morning," S.Coups threw the phone to him. He catch it and immediately plug in the charger. He impatiently shakes his legs, waiting for his phone to come alive. Once it did, he grabbed it and see the flood of messages and missed calls, all from Y/N.

[Y/N ♡] : 12.09am Hey I'm ready. I will wait by the back exit okay.

[Y/N ♡] : 12.13am I already asks my driver and team to go back first

[Y/N ♡] : 12.50am I'm hungry. And cold. I left my jacket in the limo :( when are you coming?

[Y/N ♡] : 12.53am Hey, I saw a bunch of Carats coming out. How jealous would they be if they know I'm waiting for The8 right now? :D

[Y/N ♡] : 01.15am Hey Minghao, its been an hour. Where are you? Are you okay?

[Y/N ♡] : 01.40am I'm getting worried now. I really hope you are okay.

[Y/N ♡] : 02.30am Nevermind. I already know why you are not coming.

What does she means by that?

[Y/N ♡] : 02.40am Did you really let me wait in the cold for you because of this? I didnt want to believe it when I saw you at the party...

She saw at the party! Minghao starts to sweat. The next message she sent was early this morning. Minghao imagine her crying herself to sleep after seeing him doing God knows what at the party.

[Y/N ♡] : 07.30am I thought you said you cant be seen with a girl... You could have just told me you know, I would have understand.  Click image.

Minghao clicked the image and saw that's its a recent news article. How did they publish this so fast? It shows a picture of him and one of the girl group member in front of an apartment entrance, tightly clutching each other and looking trashy as hell with sunglasses covering their faces at 4am in the morning . The headlines reads;

SEVENTEEN'S THE8  SPOTTED WITH A MEMBER OF SOON TO BE DEBUTED GIRL GROUP. A NEW IDOL POWER COUPLE IN THE MAKING?

He quickly closes the article, his praying the Y/N wont believe all these rumors although the photos makes it looks pretty convincing. He click the next, and last message.

[Y/N ♡] : 07.45am And I guess you wont be coming to the airport to send me off then.

Airport?

Now he remembers. Y/N was scheduled to go to an abroad business meeting for a few weeks. She had the morning 9 am flight and he had promised to send her to the airport since they wont be seeing each other for a while. He quickly looks at clock,

1.35pm.

He's too late.

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"Jeon Jungkook?" Y/N exclaimed, she cant help but smile so widely. Jungkook chuckled.

"We are halfway around the world away from home, and of all the faces and all the places, we had to meet each other. If this is not fate, then I dont know what this is," Jungkook walked over to Y/N, grinning with his bunny teeth showing.