#it's very rewarding and i like rewards it's nice to get positive reinforcement that things i do are good and people like them

[dredshirtroberts]

yeah i think crochet is my hubris hobby in that it feeds my hubris to do other things that might be beyond my capabilities but like.

Mid crochet-attack I'm pretty sure i'm capable of crocheting just about anything. At one point I made a whole cardigan that was nearly large enough to be a mini blanket, just because i was like "You know what I bet I can do..." and then i did it and it looked amazing.

I have spent the past like week-ish in a fugue state of crochet, a large portion of which was spent on a bag i did completely from scratch using bits and pieces of techniques from actual patterns, and then me freestyling as i started to feel bored after a number of rows of the same thing

and the bag looks *incredible* - was received very warmly by the birthday person, and frankly i'm more proud of it than i was of the cardigan which up until this point has been my magnum opus (though i lost it in the Great Escape of 2019). I also have just. an absurd amount of the same thread/yarn I used for it so I will by all likelihoods be doing a similar one in the future because it was a fun project to work on.

but now i'm like "Yeah i finished a beautiful bag in a reasonable* amount of time, I'm capable of doing anything at all and definitely will not fail or miss a deadline or give up halfway through because i got bored!" despite all the evidence to the contrary from past experience.

*reasonable meaning in this context "it doesn't feel like it took that long even though the majority of 3 days was spent on it" and thus might not actually be "reasonable"

Like thankfully I am in too much pain to continue on rn because of the aforementioned "have spent the past week crocheting non-stop" so I physically cannot work on anything else right now, but my brain is like "Oh we could definitely keep working on/create a whole new project and still have motivation to work on the christmas presents you wanna do" and like. Nuh-uh no we cannot, I know better.

but the hubris, you see.

[purrrtasticsnake]

Jake

Imagine: Jake as your sub:

Pairing: sub!Jake x femdom!reader

Warning: slight smut, BDSM themes, petplay

(This is a repost, since it got removed from Wattpad. But I changed a few things because my writing style was a little too cringy, even for me).

~•~•~•~

• Puppyplay: The other members definitely already picked up on the fact that your relationship with Jake isn't usual, but he's not that ashamed about it. 

The feeling of being your pet is his biggest joy. Sometimes all he wants to do is go non-verbal and regress to a simple and playful headspace.

When he's not able to wear a collar in public, he'll wear a short neckless (or he'll secretly wear a collar under his clothes) to symbolize his relationship with you. The only time he's not wearing anything around his neck is when he's showering. 

Now, there's one thing that makes a collar even better for him: when there's a leash attached to it. Off course, you'll use it during intimate moments, but it also comes in to play when he has to wait for you. 

Before a session, you'll take a shower and tie his leash to the bathroom door. If he's been a good boy the whole, you open the door a little, so he got a nice view.

One of his biggest treats is when you take him to the forest (with barely any people) and walk him on a leash there. Most of the time he'll stand up, but it's still a really nice feeling for him (especially if you pull him a little bit roughly). And when there's someone in sight, you quickly hide the leash, so it stays a secret between the two of you.

• high protocol: Jake is a little different from most people, he thrives with rules. His day is filled with different types of rituals and habits he has to live by. 

For example; when you're with him, he's not supposed to open doors or load up his plate. You are the one who does that for him, because he's just a poor puppy.

But that doesn't mean he's lazy. You make him a to-do list for every week, and he'll make it a challenge to do everything as good as possible.

Some to-dos are chores, while others are about self-care. 

• Positive reinforcement: Being called a good boy isn't enough for him, he wants you to fully acknowledge it. While he despises punishments, he's obsessed with rewards, treats, words of affirmation, etc.

That's also why he enjoys position training a lot, because he knows you're going to praise him a lot when he does everything correctly. 

He's such a sucker for praise that during the most random moments he'll suddenly try to eat you out. He'll start off by innocently laying his head in your lap and then slowly rubbing his head against your private area. 

From there on, you'll either give into his seduction, or you'll discipline him lightheartedly.

The funny thing is that you also found out that he likes degradation and humiliation once in a while. It's his guilty pleasure, and he'll try to ignore how much it turns him on, but that act doesn't last very long. 

It all started when he was humping your leg, and you jokingly called him a dumb puppy. And all he could do was whimper, 'again...please say it again'. Obviously, you experimented further with this realization.

☆ Choosing Game: ☆

(● = his choice/preference)

1)

● rewards

○ punishments/funishments

2) 

● getting spoiled by Domme

● servicing his Domme

(He needs both)

3)

● petplay

○ ageplay

(It's basically his lifestyle)

4) 

● obedient

○ brat

5)

● praise

○ degradation

6)

● bondage

○ impact play 

7)

● exhibitionist 

○ voyeur

(He loves being naked while you are fully dressed)

8)

○ low protocol 

● high protocol

[merakiui]

mera mera how about F!reader that does some private tutoring for one of the leech twins. Maybe one of them Is falling behind on some subject like broom flying or alchemy or maybe... isn't weird that a leech twin would fall behind in anything though? It certainly doesn't seem like it. Still you take the job and try to help him to the best of your ability. He enjoys your visits and some progress is being made (or not!) and well, let's see how the story unfolds ;)

The idea of tutoring Jade in flight class is such a funny thing because it's one of his few weaknesses. T_T he's not a fan of heights, but then he's also nowhere near as abysmal at flying as Azul is (Azul, I love you, but what is that atrocious posture????). But I think Jade would purposely go back to the basics just so he can have you (assuming you can use magic in this scenario) demonstrate the correct posture over and over (yes, he's looking at the way you arch your back or the way your ass sits so nicely on the broom...). Jade's so sly, so even though he's at a disadvantage with his flying skills, or lack thereof, he still has some semblance of control over the tutoring session. I imagine he purposely holds onto you if you're sharing a broom, wrapping his arms around you and clinging to you because he doesn't want to fall. Slyly feeling you up..... >:( push him off the broom!!!!! Flying may not be his favorite thing in the world, but it becomes tolerable when you're tutoring him (he later falls off the broom just so you'll bring him to the infirmary, and he pulls the curtains shut to hide the both of you from any prying eyes while he kisses you silly hehe).

As for Floyd, he's very smart when he actually puts in the effort. It's fairly easy for him to fall behind in any class because of his tendency to do work based on whether he's in the mood for it or if he's interested in the material. Getting him to sit down and write an essay is like pulling teeth. But if you were to offer a reward or some sort of positive reinforcement for every paragraph he writes... Suddenly he's eerily focused and raring to go. That doesn't stop him from pouting and grumbling when you refrain from indulging him until he's written sentences with actual coherency and not just nonsense to meet the word count. What does it matter? He'll be fine with any grade he gets; he just wants to lay you out on the desk and rail you. orz

[ryuichirou]

Replies

But before that, a little reminder.

We don’t tag ships on twitter or bsky; the only mention them when we’re “hiding” the content of the post (for nsfw pieces), just so people know what they’re clicking on. Some posts don’t have any ships mentioned in the description because the platform itself decides that it’s nsfw and hides them instead of us.

I would love to ask you to kindly ignore things that you don’t like because we can’t keep in mind everyone’s NOTPs. I have a couple of ships that I dislike with passion, and some of my favourite artists post those on a regular basis because unfortunately they usually coexist with some other ship that I really love. Of course, with some artist they post it so often that I simply unfollow them and check their art via RTs of other artists.

Ultimately, it’s your choice to make. Maybe reading us on tumblr only is a better option if you really don’t want seeing one particular ship every once in a while.

Alright, now let’s talk about the Lilia/Silver piece from yesterday!

Anonymous asked:

Loved the new LilliSil piece on twitter, Lillia's little kiss on top of Silver's head, such a supportive and caring dad, always taking care of his adorable son

Hehe thank you~

Lilia always shows Silver when he is proud of him. What a gentle gesture of love...

Anonymous asked:

i can't get over that last piece....the way that lilia is so gently kissing the top of silver's head and braces his shoulders while his good, obedient boy works for hours just to savor his father's praise.... there's very little that silver won't do to please lilia, so i hope he gets a nice reward for his efforts <3

Thank you, Anon!

No worries, I’m sure Silver will get a nice reward, he’s been working hard for quite some time already, and Lilia knows that positive reinforcement is the best tactic! Plus, he loves combining a carrot and a stick <3

Anonymous asked:

The nipple piercings... That's so fun, I wonder if there's a story behind those. I bet Lilia enjoys pulling on them and teasing them a lot <3 and his arms behind his back, are they tied down, or did Lilia just order him to hold them there, knowing that he would obediently follow along without fail?? Such a good piece aghhhh

Anon, thank you! <3

I didn’t think much about the piercings, just really wanted to see him with these, but you know, maybe this was LIlia’s thought process as well. One day he just decided that he really wanted to see Silver with these, and now he has a couple of cute little rings to pull and to tie used condoms on.

I also thought that his hands are tied down, but I like your idea; of course Silver would keep them behind his back because he is a very good boy and an obedient soldier!

Anonymous asked:

that lilisil fanart is CRAZY holy shittt he looks so roughed up, all sweaty and his hair hanging down and the bite marks on his big juicy thighs..... Making his papa happy for sure, and also ME 👀 the lube on the dildo... Or is it cum?? Did Lilia cum inside him and then have Silver keep going on a toy while he got cleaned up and changed omg FUCK I just zoomed and saw Silver drooling too what the hell. They're so hot. Wadda hell. Thank you 😭

Thank you so much, Anon!! <3 I am very happy Silver managed to make you happy as well. His papa is very proud.

You know, I didn’t think about it like that, but Lilia really could cum inside him and have Silver keep going on a toy. No wonder the poor thing is drooling...

Anonymous asked:

the way my friend and i have been screaming over your new lilisil piece!!!!! inquiring minds wish to know, what else does silver's special training regimen consist of? 👀

Thank you so much, Anon and Anon’s friend! <3 I am very happy you liked it!

Oh, you know, nothing that would be too much for a soldier of Silver’s caliber. Sucking dicks, riding dicks, preparing himself for dicks, enduring edging for several hours, cumming on command...

[squidprinceofwinterfell]

The Deep made me so sad this episode :(

The way he finally completely self destructs, and chooses hatred and violence instead of doing ANY kind of self-reflection. (It's all very on-brand for his character - I'm not going to claim bad writing or OOC behavior.) Still, this character choice hurt like hell to watch because of how real it felt. To watch him cling onto Sage's comment about him being a superior being (because it's one of the few pieces of positive reinforcements he has) and use it as proof that she cares about him because it's a much better story to tell himself than that he's being manipulated (just like the dumb guy he is, right? like everybody else thinks). Then he lashes out at Ambrosius, possibly the only being in the world that does care for him and he lets her die because she doesn't fit into this worldview he's been carefully constructing where he's a victim and all his violent behavior is justified.

The Deep is a dumb guy but I believe the reason he's been so easy to manipulate (by Sage, Cassandra, the Church of the Collective, etc) is because he's also a really lonely guy desperately in search of connection and community. Even smart people can be duped into believing dumb shit or indulging their worst impulses because their social needs aren't being met. That being said, I'm not letting the Deep off the hook here - he's a grown man who NEVER reckoned with his own bad choices or chose to grow on his own, despite having many opportunities to do so.

It reminds me of Firecracker's comment earlier in the season about "purpose" and how people go down dark rabbit holes of conspiracy and anger because they're lonely and afraid and it's easier than admitting their own shortcomings.

I thought his assault of Starlight and subsequent arc was written so well because it showed how guys like him aren't born bad - they're made by a combination of their own insecurities and the toxic environment that encourages and enables that behavior. This season is a continuation of that arc in the worst way possible - it confirms Ashley's comment about how easy it is to be a monster at Vought, where that behavior is not only encouraged but rewarded.

Tbh I was kind of lying when I said I was excited for his villain arc this season - it's true that I was looking forward to seeing them explore a darker version of the Deep but I've always secretly held out hope for a redemption arc or any kind of positive character growth from him. It would've been a nice way to show that no matter how many bad things you do, you can always come back. It would've felt like hope to me. (But we are getting that sort of story line with A-Train so I can't complain too much.)

Kevin has always been sooo much more interesting and meaningful to me than just a comic relief character. And I still find him really fascinating and well-rounded even if this isn't the arc I would've chosen for him. I think the reason I'm so gutted by it is because this villain narrative is so in-line with this character - and because it could've been so easily avoided if Kevin was willing to do any inner personal growth.

Well, at least Chace Crawford finally got to do a fight scene...?

[mandana-the-service-pup]

Vet Appointment: Librela #3

Today is a bad health day. I had to skip this weeks Methotrexate injection for various reasons and I’m really feeling it. I’m in pain and so exhausted I went to the vet appointment in pajamas and Mandana did a medical alert as soon as I walked in. Shortly after that a reactive yellow lab slipped his collar in the lobby and accosted Mandana. We’ve been through this many times before and nearly 100% of the time I’m able to manage the situation so that I’m dealing with the dog and not Mandana but that wasn’t in the cards today.

I was so exhausted and already shaking before I even went inside. I had been hanging out in the parking lot for a bit so I saw the lab had excitement/reactivity. As soon as I walked in I put Mandana up on a bench for her safety until we could check in and the tech was literally coming to take us to a private room when the dog slipped it’s collar and charged us.

It happened in a split second. I knew the vet tech was right next to me and the owner was immediately aware of the dog getting loose so I focused on controlling Mandana’s head and pivoting myself between them. It wasn’t enough to keep them physically apart in the initial moment and for a few seconds before we pivoted Mandana had her head and paw on the dogs shoulder. I feel bad for making Mandana feel like she had no control/safety over her own body as I physically controlled her head in that moment and turned us away. It’s not usually how I would handle that kind of situation but I had very little energy to utilize and no idea if that lab would escalate things especially if I tried to intervene directly.

In Mandana’s defense she handled it really well. She didn’t growl, have her hackles up or anything like that. The only way it could have been better is if her body language was looser and she didn’t try to assert herself over the other dog but considering he charged her she had every right to create space & safety for herself. She literally recovered in 2 seconds and was immediately responsive to cues with a happy loose wag while the dog was still pulling and barking towards her. As soon as the lab was back on leash we walked to our exam room and I took this video bc I was impressed with her recovery from such an intense situation. (It’s a tight pant but the interaction JUST happened. She’s got a nice tail wag & body movement off camera and this is her expression for “excited but focused and ready to train/work”)

She immediately started to use her chin rest to volunteer for injections even with a new vet tech and in a room she’s never been in before. The vet tech was great and besides following Fear Free protocols it was clear she was also fluent in positive reinforcement training. We used the rest of the appointment to work on Mandana’s leash pulling from separation anxiety and despite the rough start to the visit we made a lot of progress. I stopped by Taco Bell on the way home and got her a cheese roll as a special reward for her awesome behavior. She’s a lot of dog but her personality makes it work 🫶

[planet-crait]

Wow I am even more off then I realized last episode was 13 I’m on 14? I think? Maybe I should like give the names incase I’m wrong current episode I’m watching is Peace of Pizza. Full disclosed now that we have had a glimpse of Devs life outside of school I’m going to be super impatient to see more.

Ohh Dev is in the title card will we see more of him this episode?

Oh Kindness day. Huh not a bad idea. I mean okay I’ve said this before but doing kind things even for selfish reasons can change peoples mindset and get them to continue to do good things and it works better with younger kids so not a bad idea. I have a feeling though even with the pizza reward getting Dev on board will be a problem.

Oh harsh uh getting everyone to participate or no one gets rewarded. I’ve never been a fan of punishing the entire class for one student or holding back a reward based on one student. It always felt overly harsh.

Hazel knocking the eraser off to pick it up really shouldn’t count lolz.

Okay Hazels impassioned speech while Mr. Guzman just stands their unimpressed is hilarious I can’t lie. And everyone getting all teary eyed. It’s over the top but it’s just so funny I can’t be mad.

Wait wait Dev doesn’t like Pizza??? What is wrong with Dev?? Poor Mr. Guzman that has to be painful like your eye?

Oh Aliens. Huh. Okay I was wondering when Aliens would make an appearance. Oh poor Cosmo and Wanda lolz. Wait how many negotiations have Cosmo and Wanda been to? Also wait pizza in the wrong hands??? I don’t understand? What is dangerous about pizza?

Oh poor Mr. Guzman he was so hopeful and Dev just throwing away an unopened milk he didn’t even drink? Not only mean but environmentally fucked. But like with how bad his dad is I’m not surprised.

Aww Cosmo you’re so cute and them being so in love it so adorable.

I am so invested in the hiding spots Mr. Guzman finds it’s just. So funny seeing where he’s hiding praying for Dev to do something nice. Ice cream pizza that sounds so good oh my gosh.

Uh what’s he going to do? Oh uh so he’s going to be a spoiled brat? I doubt it’ll go well against Dev. Yep just as I expected. Wait what? Uh. Okay? Also Dev is uh really cool with Aliens?

Why is the news there over an elementary school pizza party? I don’t understand? I gotta give props to the news anchor though she uh remained composed despite being hit with a pizza.

Oh my heart hurts a little Dev was so excited he thought his dad came. I doubt his dad was like ever there for Dev when he needed. If they make some sort of joke he wasn’t even there for Devs birth I really wouldn’t be surprised.

Wait why would you offer that switch to Dev?? How many times will that older not Timmy model be used this feels cruel. Ohh poor Pizza guy he’s so sure lolz. But also I feel like the world would be more panicked if all of an item suddenly vanished just. Just a thought lolz.

WAIT WHY DID ALL OF ITALY DISAPPEARED?? Oh Dev is lactose intolerant. Okay I get why he doesn’t like Pizza. Ohhh nice work Hazel. I’m very impressed lolz. And it works!! Look oh Mr. Guzman was so desperate to give him something. And I mean? Positive reinforcement for a good dead even if he caused the issue is a start? Especially with a kid who’s clearly got home life issues he needs all the positivity he can get.

Awww Dev. Thats really so cute. He’s so excited to have it but is still keeping up a mask. I wonder if showing excitement got him into trouble in the past? I also wonder if his dad just. Lied about lactose alternatives not existing? And eating pizza and such in front of him and not bringing lactose alternatives for him? OH! I wondered why Dev would take all the pudding just to give it away. That makes sense. I wonder if we don’t see him eating any pudding in that episode? I may have to go back and check.

I checked I totally forgot he ate the pudding. Either his dad lied about the lactose intolerance thing, this pudding doesn’t have lactose in it or it wasn’t decided til after this episode was done. Not a huge deal in the end lolz I’m guessing that they just hadn’t decided he was lactose intolerant yet when the pudding episode was written and didn’t think about it. Regardless I am curious if Dale just hates lactose free alternatives and lied about their existence so he could have his stuff and not have stuff he didn’t like in the house. Cuz Dev was really upset about being forced to watch his classmates eat and enjoy it, it makes me wonder. Regardless him not knowing lactose free options existed makes me so mad at Dale.

Next episode is A New Dev-elopement and I have heard this has more Dev stuff so I’m kind of excited! Also if I seem to have missed an episode let me know cuz I don’t want to accidentally skip any of em!

[mental-health-advice]

Hello,

I have ADHD and I’m really having trouble with getting things done. Not just school, but also my own personal things, like writing for my blog and drawing/doing art projects. And this is stuff that I really, really want to do, but I just can’t force myself to start even when I really want to. Even if I do manage to open the document or set up the art project, I get distracted or procrastinate, and end up getting very little, sometimes nothing done. It’s really starting to affect me; I haven’t posted on my blog in months and I have asks to fill out, and I can’t get better at drawing because I can never make myself do it even when I really want to.

Do you have any tips on how to get started when you have ADHD?

—🍄

Hi there!

Thank you for getting in touch with us here at MHA! Living with ADHD and the way it affects our daily lives can be really difficult and I really relate to your struggles of finding the motivation to get projects started. Hopefully, I'll be able to give you a little bit of advice!

Firstly I think it's important to break things down into separate tasks and only focus on one thing at once - I mean that in two senses. So, you said a few things you want to get done, writing for your blog, art projects, and improving your drawing. When dealing with ADHD it can be really easy to get overwhelmed by having too many things to do, it gets stressful because you want to do all of those things at once but don't know where to start. So begin by picking one thing and focusing on that, the other things can go on a to-do list for another day! Then only one thing is your main focus for the day. Next is to split up that one task into little ones, and make a step-by-step plan. This way you only have to do one small step at a time, then you can go and do other things and take a break and not be overwhelmed by having to do everything at once. Having that structure and seeing all the bits you need/want to do can really help with motivation to want to start doing little bits to tick off your list. I have found lists to be so helpful, I do them for nearly everything now!

The next thing is when you want to get a task done, approach it when you're feeling good and calm. If you're already feeling not so great and/or stressed, trying to start a project can just make it worse. So before you want to get on with something, take a little time for yourself, make yourself a cup of tea, have a nice long bath, and get nice and relaxed. Once you're relaxed and in a good headspace then motivation can be much easier to find.

In terms of procrastinating and getting distracted, is there somewhere you can go where there won't be any distractions? For example, when I want to study, I go to the library rather than at home because I know it'll be quiet and there won't be so much to distract me. I also find positive reinforcement can be good for battling procrastination. Tell yourself 'Once I've got task x done then I can watch an episode of my favorite show' or something like that - reward yourself for getting something done because you should be proud of yourself!! You could also consider finding a friend or someone to do things with - like you and a friend could do a little art project together. I find having someone else involved really helps me with my motivation.

I think most importantly, don't beat yourself up about it. It can be frustrating and we can feel down and a bit useless if we can't get done all of the things we want to - but be kind to yourself as much as you can. Living and coping with ADHD on a day-to-day basis can be hard, so show yourself some patience and celebrate every bit of progress you make!

I really hope that this has helped a bit and please do let us know if we can help to support you in any other way! Keep smashing it!

Take care,

Rhiann xo

[nikofortuna]

The Legend of the White Snake (2019) Final Review

It is time for my thoughts on the last twelve episodes of the series and my final review. Upfront not much in my opinion has changed, I maintain my position of highly recommending giving this drama a watch. Full spoilers and the disclaimers noted in the first impression of course still apply.

The best way overall to experience the drama in my personal opinion is to set aside a long weekend and binge it in a short amount of days. That is what I felt was best after binging the first twelve episodes in one day, spacing out the middle part and ending up binging the last twelve again.

Delving into the last portion of the story, the plotline with Xu Jiaorong has been resolved rather quickly and with a slight Deus Ex Machina as well. On the one hand it felt a bit shallow due to that, but on the other it didn’t drag things out. It seemed essentially like a last confirmation that Bai Suzhen and Xu Xian have proven themselves more than enough and are fine with each other now. The Mind Demon later taking advantage of Xu Jiaorong I wouldn’t consider a conflict with her but fully with the Mind Demon, especially since she doesn’t remember anything afterwards and clearly hadn’t been in control.

As expected the Prime Minister was not done yet. Though he got his comeuppance rather swiftly too and in the same breath Xu Xian got some closure from his parents, which was very nice to see.

An important mention to me is Li Gongfu, who has proven a wonderful husband and support character throughout the entire series. He could have easily taken the lead during certain disputes between his wife and brother-in-law, but he did not as it was not his place yet he was always there in case he was needed, very respectful just an overall great guy.

One of the best character developments I’d ascribe to Fahai. By the end he has learned that demons can indeed be good too! From little ones helping him in his time of need no less and he repaid them by essentially taking them in, which was so cute. In general there are a couple of good character arcs throughout the series which stick and have noticeably lasting effects. Yet even after their arc is technically completed the character is still clearly around and doesn’t just vanish or gets completely relegated to the background, but instead remain present.

Xiao Qing continues to be very relatable and reading ever so queer to me. If there weren’t so many great characters in this that makes it hard to choose especially for someone as generally indecisive as me, she would be my favourite among them.

The third fourth of the series became mostly Xiao Qing’s story after building it up here and there throughout the previous arcs. Including wrapping up any lose plot threads by the end as well minus those last few big ones in the finale. It was nice to see the main couple become the supporting characters for a while too, something like this can really bring out a new side of someone or reinforce existing aspects of them.

I am quite pleased with Xiao Qing and Zhang Yutang’s romantic storyline not having a happy end as such and not just because I personally see her as someone more befitting of a less traditional style of relationship. It is a good contrast to the main couple and illustrates that even if romance doesn’t work out for you that don’t mean you don’t have love and support in your life regardless. Yeah, a breakup like this will hurt, but it won’t be the end of the world and doesn’t mean you can’t still find happiness. Also it was a good show of a possible alternate ending that easily could have happened to Bai Suzhen and Xu Xian as well.

At the end I was also very happy for Xiao Qing not only making up with her father, but also becoming a dragon!

Applause for Jingsong getting basically the precise kind of reward I was envisioning for him when he first sacrificed himself. It wasn’t enough to get reinstated as a student under Buddha, but he did get a do over and even help Bai Suzhen one more time!

Now for the last and arguably most longstanding antagonists. Jin Ruyi has come to her senses in the end and done as best she could in the moment to fix things as much as possible. I would not say she got redeemed though, there was too much bad she has done at that point that one last ditch effort just cannot make up for. She should get another chance in another life, but that she didn’t continue with this one might have been for the best for everyone including her.

Wao Daoling, while showing some signs of obsession whenever he tried to eliminate Xu Xian, did as I see it truly love Jin Ruyi, which turned out both complimentary as well as opposite to her. And she did realize that he genuinely loved her after all. The dubious consent situation I’ll generously attribute to the Mind Demon and his schemes with Wao Daoling genuinely having believed that Jin Ruyi was okay with it.

As a little treat I would like to showcase how the costuming brought their A game during the finale. Everyone is serving looks!

Xiao Qing with a very pretty darker greenish blue and jewellery that alludes to shimmering scales or straight up is in the form of snakes.

Fahai in the fanciest getup we have seen him in yet. He is ready to eliminate demons and look fantastic while doing so.

You have to give the Mind Demon credit for his sense of fashion in my opinion. That headpiece is great!

And Bai Suzhen having her outfit changed to darker colours towards the edges matching her husband's, but still being pure white in the center, a great outward visualization of her character in this situation.

Generally it is also nice seeing characters previously shown almost exclusively wearing light colours donning some darker ones.

Last but not least the bigger picture and my opinion on the drama as a whole.

There are some instances where just explaining things upfront could have helped resolve a conflict sooner. And with others perhaps just requesting some help from Guanyin again would have done well, after all I believe at worst she would have just left them on read. But overall the story wasn’t driven too much by unnecessary misunderstandings.

The story as a whole was paced very well, building up conflict consistently and resolving them bit by bit in a rewarding manner, but it was never done in a way where it really felt like the story could have ended then and there as there was always another plot thread unresolved and keeping hold of your interest. Each point of suspense and mystery has a reasonable beginning, never overstayed its welcome and had a satisfying conclusion.

Sometimes it did feel like every conflict was a bit isolated and while the focus was on one in particular the others were put on the backburner without really interacting, even though that would have been logical since people and their issues don’t just vanish and reappear when it is convenient. This was particularly noticeable since the conflicts in the beginning were woven into each other quite well.

An exception here would be the prolonged absence of the Prime Minister, which can be somewhat explained by Xu Xian having been believe to be dead for a while and nothing notable to the Prime Minister happening around him until the Mind Demon spurred him on once more. But those are relatively small complaints that didn’t hamper my enjoyment at all.

Most pleasing to me was that everything had a setup and every setup has paid off in some way. If there was an exception to this I did not take note of it. Additionally only few things felt a little plot convenient and even then usually had some understandable reasoning behind them. The rest one might be able to attribute to karma. I’m personally not really one for destiny in such a rigorous way, but I can get behind karma and for example connections forged in a previous life.

An example to highlight when it comes to setup and payoff would be the two demons in the early part of the story, who together with illustrated well that there are good and bad demons and even that there is nuance as well in the case of the mother and the centipede demon which came around big time at the end when both Xiao Qing and Bai Suzhen became aggressive out of desperation and anguish. And the final foe being a demon of human creation was simply excellent.

Needless to say after my initial impression I was not disappointed whatsoever. Highly recommend this series for everyone whether you are a romance or drama enthusiast, interested in legends or what have you! Really just if you are an enjoyer of a good series and even have half an interest in this one.

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Oral exam

Headcanons (hahaha get it??) on how good the btd/tpof characters are with their 👅 Tentatively ranked from best to worst.

No pronouns used, but fem body parts/functions mentioned in most sections. 🔞

The Queen

Knows exactly what she's doing. Will rock your socks right off

She is a bit of a bully though 🙃

Overstimulates you if you've been good, edges you within an inch of your life if you've been bad. Either way, you will end up in tears.

She also just really enjoys it and sometimes gets carried away.

Likes to use her fingers at the same time, so she can feel your reactions.

Canonically good at it, so I don't have grounds to argue otherwise 😅

Very eager to please. Personalizes his technique for you and gets it down to a method.

Measured and precise, like a dancer moving through choreography. Takes it pretty seriously....

... but sometimes he gets really into it and his brain shuts off. Gets sloppy and makes a huge mess (which isn't necessarily bad).

Often absent-mindedly touches himself while he's at it. He'll stop if you tell him to though.

Really likes it when you rock your hips against his face.

Why play piano when he can just play you? ;)

He's merciless. If you're still able to move when he's done, he failed.

Mostly does it when he feels like spoiling you, sometimes does it to knock the brat out of you.

(And sometimes, he just looks at you and gets in his feelings over how happy he is to have you, and can't help himself. He will deny this when confronted.)

Those invisible bonus hands of his are great for keeping you spread wide open for him 👀

Please be loud for him. He loves to hear how good he's making you feel.

He has honed his skill in the same way a swordsmith sharpens a blade.

Which is to say: to lethal effect

It's having you completely at his mercy (and holding you down while you squirm) that does it for him.

More prone to overstimulate than edge, but ultimately he'll do whatever gets the best reaction.

Doesn't usually want to stay down there too long though - he gets impatient for his turn.

Pro tip: pull on his hair. He'll groan nice and deep for you.

Even if he's not super experienced, he's a quick learner and he's devoted to making you feel good.

Tries a lot of things in bed and analyzes your reactions to find out what you like the most, and that experimental nature carries over into this as well.

Likes to give you a challenge (no noise, no squirming, etc) and see how well you do. You'll be rewarded accordingly.

Will edge you until you're begging, but like... lovingly.

Long naga tongue? 👀 He's careful with his teeth though, don't worry 💕

Honestly he finds it kind of relaxing. Get ready to become his go-to method of decompressing after a long day.

He can think of things he'd rather do, but he's still plenty proficient when he deigns to kneel between your legs

"bear in mind, you asked for this," he'll say, and then proceed to overstimulate you into next week.

Likes to make a mess out of you. Between his saliva and your slick, you're going to need a towel for sure.

Related: he will make you squirt or you'll die trying.

Sit on his face, he loves the view. Your expressions, the way you move, the tentacles sliding and coiling around your form.... 😏

Kisses you afterward so you can taste yourself. Might even want you to clean off his face with your tongue.

Anxiety™

Desperately wants to do a good job. Needs to make you feel so good that you fall apart on his tongue.

Requires instruction (gentle instruction, or you'll stress him out more), but makes up for it with diligence.

Somno is your friend here. He feels much more comfortable starting while you're asleep (and by the time you wake up, he'll be too into it to be self-conscious... mostly).

Run your fingers through his hair, pull him closer, tell him how good he is for you. A little positive reinforcement goes a long way with him.

Once his hands start wandering over every inch of you he can reach, you'll know he's finally unwinding.

Messy messy messy. Enthusiastically messy, because he's not doing it for you, he's doing it for him.

Sure, he still wants you to get off (mostly for his own gratification? Probably), but that's not at the forefront of his mind.

You just smell so good and taste so good and he loves getting drunk on you.

Not as careful with his teeth as he probably should be 😬 yank on his hair to remind him to rein them in.

Leaves fingerprint-shaped bruises all over your hips and thighs while he's at it. (He doesn't notice he's squeezing you so hard.)

Vocal. Groans and growls and mutters. Can't seem to stop talking dirty even with his mouth full; sometimes he pulls away just long enough to make sure you hear anything particularly filthy he has to say.

Oh god 😨 you poor thing

Not gentle. He's all teeth and overexcitement. Your pained yelps just add fuel to the fire.

Eventually, your thighs will be covered in bloody/bruising bite marks - and everything in between them will be sore af.

Like Vincent, he does it because he wants to; unlike Vincent, he doesn't give a shit if you come or not.

Luckily, he usually has other things he'd rather do to with you, so you'll probably only be subjected to this treatment in the first place if he's feeling curious, and he may not ever feel the need for a repeat performance.

... unless he discovers that using his mouth on you while you're on your period happens to strongly appeal to him 😱

I'm sorry but.... not only is he not very inclined to service you this way, he's also not very good at it when he does.

You're pretty sure he knows what to do, but he half-asses it because he'd rather switch places with you 🙄

(Don't let him tell you he'll return the favor if you go down on him. He's a liar. Make him reciprocate up front or you'll get nothing.)

Does slightly better in a 69 situation, but only if you pace yourself so that he has incentive to do a good job. If he climaxes before you, it's all over.

Also a bully, but meaner about it than Celia. Likes the whiny, reluctant noises you make. Maybe you don't want him down there after all 😑

Silver lining: he's actually pretty good with his fingers. Ask him to do that instead.

Bonus: Damien

Aims to please, like a gentleman 😌

Prefers to take his time, really slow and sensual, wants you relaxed and blissful.

Squeeze his head with your thighs, he loves it

Bonus: Jack

Another one who's not super into it. Doesn't do much for him.

He's pretty good at it, though, if you can find a way to make it worth his while.

On the uncommon occasion that he does get down to business, he takes pride in how fast he can make you come.

Edit: Newly-made btd/tpof blog is @the-diabolist! Will be opening requests as soon as I finish what I already have.

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Hey 👋 I found a post of yours about diagnosing Azula, and I absolutely LOVED it. It was so well put together. I had one question, though, if you don’t mind my asking. A lot of people talk about whether Azula can be said to be aware of her behavior toward others. Do you feel like Azula was well enough aware of her behavior to have chosen otherwise, much like Zuko? I just thought your insight would be interesting. Have a great day 🙂

Thank you! That post is nearly two years old now and possibly the only good thing I produced during quarantine :'D Glad people still enjoy it!

I think that's a complicated question, but short answer- yes, but I don't think awareness is the obstacle here. For the majority of the series, I think she does have a sense of what she's doing and why she's doing it. I think if you asked her, she'd be the first one to tell you that she's mean and she's knows it. This is hinted at during The Beach- "My own mother thought I was a monster. She was right of course, but it still hurt." It's hinted again during her breakdown- her hallucination explicitly states that "all your life you've used fear to control people," to which she responds "but what choice do I have!"

This indicates to me that she knows that she's not treating her friends well. She knows that she's been controlling and manipulative and that she isn't a nice person. But she doesn't feel like she has a choice to do otherwise. She doesn't really know how else to behave, as this is the only thing that's ever worked for her, and the only social model of behavior that's ever really been demonstrated to her as effective. She knows how her mother and Zuko behave, she's observed it all her life- but as she says "trust is for fools, fear is the only reliable way." To Azula, that's true- kindness and trust never seemed to get her what she wanted. They never got her her mother's attention, and they definitely wouldn't have won her father's approval. This becomes doubly true after Ursa's disappearance. Kindness and trust are now not only ineffective at getting her what she wants- her father's love- they're now actively dangerous and detrimental to her safety.

Kids learn very early what behaviors are rewarded and which are punished. Azula is smart, she picked up on expectations very quickly- and her father rewarded her constantly, and her mother, it seems, did not. Zuko was rewarded for his empathy and kindness by his mother, but Azula never seems to get that- all we see is rejection and sternness towards the very same behaviors her father rewards her for. That's confusing for a kid, but it's natural that she'd gravitate towards the positive reinforcement- research has shown that reinforcement is more effective at shaping behavior than punishment. So dad saying "good job" for the same behaviors that mom says "bad girl" for is going to be more influential. This is the fundamentals of operant conditioning.

There's another factor here too- Azula's own fear. Could she have chosen to behave differently? Possibly, but I think she saw where that led- Zuko extended kindness and empathy to others, and it got him burned and disowned. Azula is very clear about what her worst fear is, she says it out loud- "You can't treat me like this, you can't treat me like Zuko!"

So did she have a choice? Technically, yes. But did that choice make sense given her context, given her need to survive and win the approval of the only parent she has left? No. No it didn't. Her behavior and logic actually do make sense given the environment she's in and the things she's observed and learned over time. Take her out of it, put her in a context where her model of the world no longer works, teach her another way, and I think she'd adapt accordingly- with time and patience. There's a lot of trauma and Fire Nation propaganda to be unlearned.

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OKAY two character requests👀

Geto: Snapdragon, hydrangea, bellflower, tulip

Yuri: cypress

Suguru Geto

Snapdragon - What is the darling’s day-to-day life like? Does it depend on how they’ve been acting, or is it always the same?

This isn’t necessarily a part of the question but I wanted to start this with saying that your living situation isn’t strictly kidnap, but you aren’t free either. Suguru never used force to keep you with him, you had to have approached him of your own free will. He might have used mind games, or trapped you into needing his help, but he doesn’t keep you there by force. You just don’t have anywhere else to go. You’re a wanted curse user for your affiliation with Suguru, your family is dead (Suguru killed his own family, why not yours?), and any ties you have in the “normal” world are severed. Money, resources, outside help... You don’t have the ability to obtain those things. If it’s not Suguru, it’s the family. Your family now. They don’t necessarily trust you, not completely. He says that you’re a convert, that you’ve taken the first steps but conditioning isn’t instantaneously removed, so they accept you, just not entirely. 

So, back to the question: yes, your day-to-day life does depend on how you act. If you have an attitude, everyone will respond in kind. If you’re being a team player, you can join in with everyone else. There’s this sense of micromanagement. Everyone is aware of what you are to Suguru. Something that’s important to him is important to them. In that way, the family are almost more controlling of your day-to-day life than him. 

Bellflower - Is there anything that their darling could do/say that’d make the yandere’s feelings for them waver? Would they be able to bounce back, or would it permanently change the yandere?

There’s the obvious unforgivable sin of being close with a human, or if you chose a human over sorcerers in any capacity. If you weren’t down with his vision of a new world, or actively and obstinately rejected him, that would be the end of it. Suguru, depending on the circumstances, accepts it if you have some doubts. His affection for you makes allowances, and he knows he can convince you that he’s right. But, if he were to realize that he truly can’t, and you will never agree, he’d kill you.

Hydrangea - How would this yandere react if their darling gave them affection? What is their internal thought process like?

Suguru isn't starved for affection or anything like that, so it’s not like it’s a massive deal in that way. It makes him happy, of course it does. He thinks it’s adorable when you show concern or do something for him. Suguru rewards these displays of affection very enthusiastically to positively reinforce that behavior. He also rewards you when you’re affectionate in some way to others in the family. Affection coming in the form of you offering comfort is received with a lot less exaggeration. Suguru is always putting out so much effort and pretending, it’s nice to just slump over and let you pet his hair. Despite how manipulative he can be, Suguru wants you to agree with him that you want him, that you need him. He wants you to love him and be happy, that’s what’s best for you. And when you’re affectionate, that’s when he really feels like you’re getting there. It’s also ammunition, “If you were okay with it then, why not now?” sort of thing. 

Tulip - Does the yandere want their darling’s forgiveness, or does it make no difference to them?

Suguru has done nothing wrong. I say he’s not deluded, but that’s not quite right. He’s not deluded about you specifically. The thing is, he’s constructed a world in which he cannot be wrong about what he believes is right. He can only believe that he’s helping you. Suguru sees your pain, and he recognizes that maybe this arrangement isn’t the best, but it’s ultimately better for you. If he’s going to impress his ideology on the entire world, why not a single person?

Yuri Leclerc

Cypress - How does this yandere comfort their upset darling?

If he knows he crossed a line and that’s why you’re upset, Yuri pulls out all the stops to make it better. Making you food, holding you, saying how much you mean to him and how sorry he is, giving you gifts... Whatever it takes. It’s not pretend either. Yuri really does feel terrible when you’re hurt, even if it’s for the best. He’s also willing to lie a little. If it makes you feel better to believe that he’s not going to be so possessive in the future, there’s no reason to argue it when you’re so distressed. However, if he feels that you’re being irrational, he’ll say so. He’ll talk around all of your arguments until you’re out of points to make and maybe allow a few minor concessions to placate you. It depends on how upset you are and how much he actually thinks its his fault. 

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Brahms Heelshire Nsfw Alphabet

A: Aftercare (What they’re like after sex)

Oh, he’ll let you clean up, usually. But keep in mind that sex always will end in cuddles. No doubt about it. Even if you get up to shower, Brahms willl go and follow you in eventually, demanding as usual.

B: Bodypart (Their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

Brahms loves his chest. His broad shoulders too. Makes him look all mighty and strong, which isn’t a lie.

Brahms also really likes it when you lay on said chest and shoulders.

His partner?... he can’t decide. Whatever he can hold and/or fondle is fair game in his eyes.

…

Though he does like a nice rack. And love handles.

C: Cum (anything to do with cum)

Even if he’s caught up in the heat of the moment, Brahms still somewhat of a gentleman and will warn you when he’s about to bust one so you can avoid it; or direct it away from your face.

Though if given permission, this man will nut in you every chance he gets. He much prefers to fill you.

D: Dirty Secret (Pretty self-explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

Oh. Oh, this man is into watching you do everything. He’ll jerk off into your underwear while watching you shower. He’s a stinky man that can get away with jerking off behind a wall.

E: Experience (How experienced are they? Do they know what they’re doing?)

Not experienced at all, but all that lack of sex in his earlier years makes it seem like he’s real good.

All that awkwardness dissolves once you get him going. If he’s on top, he can take the reigns.

F: Favorite Position (This goes without saying)

If you asked Brahms, (with the knowledge that he’ll freeze up and blush so hard his mask turns all hot), he would say he wouldn’t know. Whatever gets the job done.

But he does enjoy holding his partner’s hands. He’s adamant about that.

G: Goofy (Are they more serious in the moment, or are they humorous, etc)

Brahms takes it pretty seriously. And even if he’s making a silly face during, it’s not going to stop him from drilling into you till you scream bloody murder.

H: Hair (How well-groomed are they, does the carpet match the drapes, etc.)

Have you seen this man. Do you think this man, having an ungroomed head of hair, a thick ass beard, chest hair so thick it makes him sweat, has perfectly hairless junk.

He’s swamped down there.

I: Intimacy (How are they during the moment, romantic aspect…)

Very intimate. Brahms loves proving how much he adores you. How much he wants to make sweet love to you. Now, he isn’t as poetic as that, but he loves to make sure you’re appreciated every second you’re screwing.

This man cannot fuck. He makes love that just happens to also include fucking your brains out.

J: Jack/Jill Off (Masturbation headcanon)

This man has the whole inner walls of the house to himself. He can drop trou and crank one out whenever he wishes, moaning as loud as he wants.

Then again, if you’re in the same room (expanded on letter K), he’ll pipe down and won’t be as vigorous.

K: Kink (One or more of their kinks)

MAJOR VOYEUR. As I’ve said, this man can watch anyone and anything at all times behind the walls. He loves to watch you masturbate, hear you moan, hear you at your most private. Double points if you moan his name. (He actually might barrel out of the wall and spice things up, so don’t say I didn’t warn you.)

As much hype Brahms gives watching others, he doesn’t like to be watched. He likes to be in control, and he just doesn’t want to be spectated. Give this poor man some head.

Brahms’s other kinks include mild choking and clothing fetishism. He does like biting, but you’re going to have to fish that kink out of him. He’ll kill a man but there’s no way he’ll bite his beloved without consent.

L: Location (Favorite places to do the do)

You’re alone in this giant mansion. You’re getting that Brahms cock everywhere.

But his favorite place? His room. He loves it, makes him feel good. Surrounded by his territory. You both are safe here, no one’s getting caught, even if it were possible.

M: Motivation (What turns them on, gets them going)

He’s so easy to turn on. Brahms is so touched starved it’s not even funny at this point. Just tell him he looks ‘kinda hot’ and you’ve earned yourself a clingy, horny Brahms for the rest of the day.

N: NO (Something they wouldn’t do, turn-offs)

Please don’t degrade him, oh my god he’s going to cry. He needs to be praised, he needs to be reinforced, tell what he’s doing is good. It’s more rewarding anyway for both parties.

Don’t light candles/use candle wax either, that should be a given. You can probably get away with incense, but even still.

O: Oral (Preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc)

Brahms enjoys head as much as the next guy, but the moment you show him some new trick or maneuver he’ll enjoy it a whole lot more. He’s a very dramatic receiver and will not stop looking at you. Hope you like eyes being burned into the crown of your head.

Don’t underestimate his giving skills though. He’s not well versed in oral, but the moment he hits your sweet spot he’s going to absolutely pounce on it. He can feign skill pretty well.

P: Pace (Are they fast and rough? Slow and sensual? etc.)

It all depends on how he’s feeling; Brahms doesn’t choose one over the other. His sweet innocent voice makes it seem like the latter, but don’t be surprised when you get the pounding of your life. It’s just how he is, be ready for both (unless you explicitly ask)!

Q: Quickie (Their opinions on quickies rather than proper sex, how often, etc.)

He doesn’t mind a quickie! He’ll bend you over the dining table or pin you to the laundry room wall. Brahms is a big pushover though, and if you want to take it to the bedroom, he’ll carry you right over!

Brahms also enjoys quickies for the sake of how many positions can he get you in! All depends on the room.

R: Risk (Are they game to experiment, do they take risks, etc.)

Not much to risk, unfortunately. Living in a big empty house, far away from the big city. He could fuck you on that tiny balcony as much as he wants, but there’s no risk of you both getting caught (plus it’s England and cold, don’t do it outside hello).

If there was a chance, even, he’s game. He’s been jerking off in the walls for years now without so much as a peep, he knows he can shush.

S: Stamina (How many rounds can they go for, how long do they last…)

He’s always satisfied with a single round, but you better be in for the long haul if you want to wear him out for good. He loves your enthusiasm! But don’t be surprised if on round four you’re exhausted. Your determination is funny to Brahms, but he’s a horny man!

T: Toy (Do they own toys? Do they use them? On a partner or themselves?)

Brahms totally would have a fleshlight, wouldn’t he. He’d be a creep and fix your underwear on it. But I don’t think he’d own one; he prefers to not leave the house and his parents would never buy such a crude item.

I think vibrators would be too overwhelming. He’d be happy to try, though. He’ll always humor you!

U: Unfair (how much they like to tease)

Fuck yes, Brahms loves to tease. He’ll grab your waist, tickle your neck with his beard. He won’t take his mask off, but you can feel his hot breath emanating from inside.

He haaates being teased though. He gets all huffy, he immediately thinks that you want sex now, but when you step away to make lunch is the moment he gets cranky. How can you leave him like this!!! You know how easily worked up he gets!!!

V: Volume (How loud they are, what sounds they make)

Very. Sure, you’d think Brahms prefers to be quiet during his life in the walls, but he’s just a ball of loud moans, ranging in severity. His voice gets all loud and squeaky, begging and whining, you’d wonder if he’s crying at this point.

W: Wild Card (Get a random headcanon for the character of your choice)

Hugs are the only thing that doesn’t rile him up. He recognizes that hold as something sweet, something to treasure, something he’s never felt in so long. Brahms loves to be doted on.

Unless you buck on his hips. Oho, don’t get him started.

X: X-Ray (Let’s see what’s going on in those pants)

Bushy man. Decently thick. Perfectly rounded tip that has a slight curve. Cut. Seven inches when hard. Sports a noticeable thick vein trailing on the side.

Y: Yearning (How high is their sex drive?)

Everything gets him hard. It’s not difficult to turn him on, just looking at his junk can make a night different.

Z: ZZZ (… how quickly they fall asleep afterward)

Most of the time, he’ll park himself on the nearest nappable surface and pass out with you.

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The ultimate backwards way forward….

1. The day had finally come all the hours, days, weeks, months and years even.....That had lead to this one intrepid moment. Tonight He (Mark) stood before Her “Chrissy”....Shaking whilst doing as instructed, he was to put his Big clothes into the black bags in front her. She would decide what if any we’re to be kept. All things related to his Big life went in…

 Next She sat him down in only a cartoon disposable & a onesie ! He sat & listened as she reinforced her Will as the midnight deadline approached !... 

 She spoke very gently, a deep love of genuinely wishing to take him to his “little place”,  Yes his Big had pushed back and fought at times but this was IT her words would be final !  No turning back whatsoever no wriggling out. A new life lay ahead as Chrissy delicately spoke….

2. “Now sweet-pea  all your big things are away and in fifteenth minutes you will be My Bunny, my BabyBoy & I your Mommy I will treat you as a baby always & this you will come to accept through Mommy’s intense retraining of you to become that infant baby again we will take you back mentally & physically to a small child, Mommy’s cute toddler In nappies 24/7 ….

This will not be easy at first but please trust Mommy, she is going to help you mentally to be the baby that hangs on to every one of Mommy’s kind nurturing words….. So Bunny are you ready hmmm, Are you ready my darling baby boy? 

3. Mark took a huge breath but still the words came out at a tremor…..“Yyes am rready Mommy, I realise my fears will at times test you for that I am truly sorry… but I do wish for this deep inside, so any fears I have, I gladly hand them to your care & compassion, to regress and nurture me into who & what we Both wish for…So yes Mommy your “Baby boy” wants this with all his heart.... Mommy hugged him tightly, anticipating the clock in the nursery awaiting for it to strike Midnight !! ...

4. The nursery was a work of art they had both built together a room where Baby Mark was dwarfed by the furniture within the nursery ! .......As the big hand met the little hand of midnight…Mommy began to speak almost in a whisper…“Baby? give Mommy her “Gift” of your submission.”

5. She smiled warmly watching the mirror as her baby began wetting the cartoon disposable, she could see it changing colour through the soft white plastic pants, she stroked his hair soothingly as the nappy began to swell outwards…“Clever Baby All done Sweet-pea?” (he nodded into her soft shoulder welling up slightly in the knowledge that this was his “Gift”, his submission to her, the first act of remaining in nappies 24/7 at Mommy’s will)

The very smell of her soft flesh had always made him feel a Deep want of regression ! But tonight she smelt Devine. Chrissy had taken a shower before this chat, washing her hair with Johnston’s Baby shampoo,  she then oiled  her whole body with baby oil! Knowing the effect it would have on Mark, pushing him over the sensory edge....After all the Hot pulsing between her legs drove her want of complete control over him! …“Clever Boy let’s get you changed & down for the night in your onesie and blue booties, then I'll read you a nice little story”….

6. As he waddled slowly forward, suddenly Mommy barked “And what do you think you are doing Mr? ” ...He was puzzled by this remark & Mommy’s new stern tone? Mommy simply smiled saying “Are you a big toddler yet Crinkle Butt? No, you are not ! All fours baby... Now! As what did Mommy say to you about obedience? (He got down on all fours, as she wished, knowing soon he would have the blue crawling booties on with the nasty studs that made walking near impossible anyway! ) 

That and the ankle cuffs with the tiny locks would make removing them a futile task!)… As he crawled Mommy patted baby’s botty “Much better see you can be a clever Bunny for Mommy! ” Baby jolted forwards as Mommy spanked him full force ! “Pardon Baby? ”...  Yethss mommy ! ...

 “Much better think we just earned our first “redstar” baby Yes?” …. “Wess mommy sworry…” “Clever Baby you can put it on the naughty behaviour chart after Mommy changes that soggy bott bott of your’s ehy? Up on the changing table then Mr, let’s get that wet  nappy off & your special night time dipee on!”

7. As baby got up on the table he could feel the soggy thin cartoon nappy sagging! ... Complete humiliation overcoming him at his new lot in life, a true baby boy status started to hit home. God how he loved this girl so much, knowing he would now no longer be able to touch her in a Big way he felt that new part of the Humiliation was ever looming and yet to come pressing closer. Mommy was very clever, astute and thorough, she would have a lot in store for her new charge.…Mommy tugged the plastic pants down “Someone has a soggy bumbum! look at this wet nappy Mr! (He couldn’t miss it in full view from the mirrored ceiling over the changing station ! This had been Chrissy’s idea as she loved the Humiliation element that it brought! )…“Aaawww don’t fret your going to be doing this all the time now Crinkle Butt!...As Mommy is going to make sure you become such a dribbling dependant little boy”….she chuckled lightly...There seemed to be a glint in her eyes too. 

8. The clean up was very intense & had baby stirring underneath her! She reapplied the thick white cream paying just enough attention to all the right spots then she delicately but quickly slid the night time pluggie in. This was Very large & could be adjusted to vibrate with a very intense level if was required… baby gasped as Mommy pushed it all the way home! As Baby moved she chuckled lightly and playfully spanked the huge night time nappy to a dull thud once she was done! “Mommy's little drum.” she cooed. “ All that padding is going to make sure you will stay safe till morning Sweet-pea… “Now come to Mommy”. He instinctively crawled towards her open lap, she guided him to rest his head in her arms and his back against her leg. 

Mommy stretched across to her right side, reaching for the giant glass night time bottle, full with the formula she had earlier prepared.

10. ���Take hold with your mittens Sweet-pea, Mommy wants to see how you do, if its to heavy then I will hold it too” She now began to playfully stroke and tease his nipples as he held the bottle unsteadily! The gurgling was instant behind the milky teat as baby had developed very sensitive little nipples, just as she had designed! Straining in his bulky nappy wiggling gently on the spot between her, the whimpering and soft moans started up as the bottle continued to empty. When baby finished the last drops of formula she began to rub and stroke his back, gently massaging him encouraging those little burpies out... Baby squealed as he nearly had an accident at the same! “Ok Sweet-Pea off to Beddie Byes.” She gently held and led his shaking hand.  “But first please put the star up on Your chart!” Baby took a red star off the pad & put it onto the first square of naughty chart… (The red stars were for a Sunday evening’s end of week  “punishment time” If he had gold stars that would bring a reward) But red !...............Mommy patted the mattress on the double bed sized Cot. “Ok Bunny Boy hop up into your cot now.” He would sleep with Mommy Bear at ni nights time (but unbeknown to Baby, he'd be napping in the day time as well, part of her new routine she had in store for him)! She patted again “Position Baby !”…or do you want a second Red star “!...She chuckled as He scrambled into the cot positioning himself for Mommy!

11. Mommy lifted up the little blue booties to his new horizon line. She took the first swiftly and deftly to his toesies slipping it on his right foot, click the ankle cuffs latched shut. Next was the left, it too had the same bemusing locking system, designed so the Baby (him) could not free himself from the deceivingly cute little slippers. He'd never seen how the locks worked. Click... She smiled at him gently, knowing that the spiked shoes would limit his ability to now stand unaided and maximise her ability to retrain him to a more appropriate babyish crawl. Yes they would make life much easier outdoors too...  “Clever Boy,  almost done, then we can have that chat and Mommy will read you your bed time story after… ok baby?” ( “Wess Mommy” ) Clever boy Mommy does so love those manners Sweet-Pea well done!”

12. Now a little afraid realising he was properly in Mommy’s world. Things would continue to happen now that he would have no control over.  Next Mommy lifted his brand new dummy, he had not seen this one before! It must have been a recent purchase, this one was an extra large sized red yellow and blue primary coloured affair. She knew it had been designed specifically to help him dribble (just a little) and make his big boy words very difficult !! 

Putting it into his mouth she moved to his ear and whispered softly “Mommy wants you to nurse on this dum dum sweetie, I won't fasten it into place just yet unless you show me that you can't be trusted, OK?” It was a rhetorically phrased question that didn't need an answer, but there was that same look in her eyes.

13. “Now Sweet-pea first we'll have our wee chat then Mommy will read you a nice story before ni-nights. Your going to need lots of sleep Bunny Boy as Mommy has lots of adventures in store for you tomorrow ! … Now listen very closely as I will say this only once….Mommy is going to have you fast for five days ....This is to strengthen baby’s immune system and also induce a bit of a body reset, then on day six we will start your new baby food regime… This will be all fruit and vegetables as Mommy is going to have a very health baby… So then Baby,  you can get adjusted to those adorable nappies nice & easily...Your only going to be drinking fluids for the next five days first though, so Mommy is focusing on those soggy bum bums to begin with, then we will work up to your mushies…Your such a cutie for sucking on your new binkie like a good boy. Well done!

14. “She chuckled lightly lifting the story book to begin…

The alternate “100 Acre Wood”......

 God she was so dam hot there and then, in her best condescending cooing Mommy voice. She began “Once upon a time there lived a boy who was very very lonely inside,  he desperately wanted to have a friend. Out walking one day in the woods he found a small bunny, it hopped right over to him and began hugging the boy tightly.....The rabbit started to gently speak to the boy! “Hello Crinkle Butt ....The boy protested to the Rabbit “Am a not a Crinkle Butt!”....But the Bunny simply chuckled “I know who you really are Silly! The boy looked around but nobody was there? As he turned around the rabbit stood beside him again swatting his bottom Thwack !!... “I suppose this isn't your nappy then Crinkle Butt?”  The boy stayed quiet as he felt embarrassed. But the Bunny Smiled gently and hugged him even tighter. Bunny the Rabbit then took Crinkle Butt’s hand ....“Best we get back inside or Mommy will be angry with us & we will get the hairbrush! The boy took the rabbits hand, as he too hated the hairbrush spankings.....“Ok Bunny we best hurry then as it’s getting dark & Mommy will want us fed & then to Nigh nights”.....They both skipped through the puddles getting Mud all over their legs! ...On the porch Mommy was already waiting standing with her arms folded....Babies look at the colour of you !.... She held out her finger pointing to inside, that’s when both Babies noticed Mommy already had the hairbush!”....oh bother.

15. “Now Sweet-pea I think that’s enough for tonight, Mommy can see you are looking tired I'll read you some more tomorrow if your a good boy. She gently stroked his face “Off to sleepies now.....She began to start the lullaby mobile that hung overhead and the cute little noises and lights softly sprung into action and gently soothed her precious little one into the land of dreams...Mommy lifted the plug remote and set it to the night time precycle with the hypnotic recordings ! These would play all night as the monitor recorded his sleep & dream patterns, it would match the patterns playing the recording & pluggie vibes to their best effects.....Night after night she would subliminally reprogram his brain to be a contented infant Baby Boy... To her will... to her wants... to her Deepest held desire over controlling him, but also letting him be the baby he was destined to become! This would be Absolute !! Her new hypnotherapist friend would help with new insertions of “trigger words” that would become instant in there use over him, no matter where, no matter when or who they were with !.....Fuck every inch of her was tingling with her desire to further his regression......

She looked down at him all safe in that cot with an oversized dummy bouncing in and out. Fuck he was already hungrily sucking on that dummy! Her Chest ached with anticipation....This was just the start, she held all the cards, she had everything ready for the morning & for the day’s events......Time to sleep though, putting her arm over his chest a small whimper came......She smiled to herself...Tomorrow he would go through so many trials and emotions. Day by day his emotional state would become much easier to control due to her fasting retraining, first hunger & loss of energy...then as the energy started to peak later on in the week she would simple take a sense from him so as to have more control mentally over his nappies!....awash with thoughts flashing through her mind she settled down to sleep knowing the “Hypno-Mommy” tapes would be working there magic on him....These she would use as she put him down for his afternoon nap too!

[aerial-jace]

This started as me trying to think of something to write for a KestrelJay fic, but thanks to @mallowstep enabling me it became a full-on Po3 + OotS AU. I present to you: Po3 + OotS but the powers don’t come with a prophecy attached AU. Alternatively: Po3 + OotS but Jayfeather willingly became a medicine cat out of delusions of grandeur.

The only reason I’m deleting the dark forest part of the conflict is so I can use the powers but still have this AU be about an entirely new interpersonal conflict that doesn’t cross over with that whole thing

Jaykit figures out very early on about his dream powers, using it to hop across the dreams of his littermates and others in the nursery. Growing up he hears lots of stories about dreams and prophecies and medicine cats and the rest, so naturally he gets really excited about this special power and gets it into his head that he’s destined to be the next medicine cat.

(He can’t see in dreams on this one. He knows he’s actually dream hopping and not just dreaming of the others in the nursery because he’s very insistent about asking others what they dreamed about. The other kits are impressed but no adult gives him the time of day with it.)

Hollykit, ambitious little furball that she is, also gets it into her head that she’s going to be the next medicine cat. When playing in the nursery, the arguments about it are endless.

Lionkit’s concerned because if both his siblings become medicine cat apprentices, does that mean he’s gonna have to put up with that meanie Berrypaw all on his own? 3:

As they approach apprenticing age, Leafpool notices the two siblings are very much serious about wanting to be her apprentice. It’s at this time that Jaykit starts to brag about his dream hopping ability as if that’s going to guarantee him the position. Hollykit, meanwhile, is trying to help however she can.

Leafpool very much thinks Hollykit would make a better apprentice, she sounds much more helpful to have around and she thinks someone should really check Jaykit’s growing ego.

The day of their apprentice ceremony comes and Jaypaw is fucking pissed, like in canon Lionpaw goes to Ashfur, Hollypaw to Leafpool, and him to Brightheart.

Brightheart and Longtail are really trying to be helpful and encouraging here. Longtail even sort of came out of retirement just so he could assist them outside camp. But Jaypaw’s just being a brat and it makes all three miserable. He won’t listen to instructions, he rushes everything just so he can go pester Leafpool, when out on patrol he will try to sneak away, he is very rude to them, etc.

Lionpaw tries to be a supportive brother, trying to give Jaypaw encouragement and tips, reassuring him that he can grow up to be a great warrior, convincing Ashfur to let them train together, and so much more but he’s just met with the same scorn and aggression that Jaypaw has for Brightheart and Longtail. Doesn’t help matters that Lionpaw is just good at this, reinforcing Jaypaw’s belief that this is not his special destiny.

Hollypaw is trying her best, but like in canon she just struggles a lot with memorizing and identifying herbs and of course being grossed out by actually treating injuries. She also tries to extend an olive branch to Jaypaw, only to be met with scorn and particularly harsh insults. He also tries to butt in whenever he has the chance. Leafpool’s getting really fed up with all this.

This whole thing lasts for like a moon to a moon and a half and the whole of ThunderClan camp just doesn’t have the energy to deal with Jaypaw anymore. The general stress and just in general being so worn out give Jaypaw the perfect in to enter Leafpool’s usually more tightly guarded mind. She originally thinks the little brat has just been so annoying she ended up dreaming of him but when he turns up the next day and recites her whole dream to her, she sighs in defeat.

She’s perfectly aware that she shouldn’t reward him for wearing her down, but this has gone on long enough. She’s seen Hollypaw and she knows it would be better for her to swap mentors now. And if StarClan has given Jaypaw this power, she’s not about to go trying to prevent his destiny. She knows better than to piss them off.

Jaypaw is an immature, smug little shit about this whole thing, and Leafpool knows she has her work cut out for her in regards to nipping that in the bud. At the very least he’s obedient now and very eager to make up for lost time.

Their first night on the apprentice’s den, Hollypaw and Lionpaw begin to bond over complaining about their dickhead brother. It’s extremely cathartic and even though they’re keeping everyone else up they don’t mind either. They needed that release as well.

Hollypaw quickly learns that Lionpaw is very good at this warrior thing, way better than she’d expect with how behind she is. They figure out Lionpaw’s got a power as well, and while Hollypaw’s initially concerned he will turn out a dickhead as well, the experience of Jaypaw keeps Lionpaw humble. At least when not around Berrypaw.

It’s Jaypaw’s first half moon gathering and he can’t help but bounce with excitement. He’s excited to meet everyone and share tongues with StarClan and to be announced officially as Leafpool’s apprentice and all the rest. As they meet the others he finds that the other two apprentices are not being as friendly as he’d expected. Willowpaw is downright angry at him for costing her a friend, while Kestrelpaw is polite but distant. They’ve both been warned of him and seeing them both act so coldly really hurts Jaypaw.

(While all of this is happening, LionBerry is going through a rivals to lovers arc in the background. And of course we all know Hollypaw is massively gay for Willowpaw.)

Jaypaw is really lost on what to do. He wants to make friends with the other medicine cat apprentices, but he’s just not got the social skills for this. He thinks invading their privacy in dreams is a good idea, kind of forgetting everyone and their mother know of his power and that most people find that creepy.

It takes a while, but seeing his desperation to make friends, Kestrelpaw starts to open up and Jaypaw is massively emotional about it. They bond as friends and over time they get Willowpaw to also open up. The three become really close friends and they encourage Jaypaw to fix his relationship with his siblings.

When Hollyleaf and Lionblaze get their full names, Jaypaw starts to reach out to them. They’ve seen Jaypaw becoming more humble and minding his own business over time, so they’re willing to give him the benefit of the doubt. But it still takes time for their relationship to be repaired.

Willowshine and Kestrelflight earn their full names and Jaypaw couldn’t be more proud of his friends. Him and Kestrelflight begin to date (using those handy-dandy dream powers they don’t even have to meet physically!) and he starts to relay messages between Willowshine and Hollyleaf.

It’s around this time that Flamepaw, the token straight of the medicine cat gang, shows up. He’s basically the reverse of that whole “Everyone has a gay cousin and if you don’t it’s you” thing, which becomes really apparent with how his gay cousins dominate the conversation at all the half moon gatherings.

(For the sake of the joke, his siblings are bi. He only learns this after telling them about how gay the half moon meetings are.)

When Jaypaw earns his full name, Leafpool names him Jaystorm because of how much of a handful he was as an apprentice and as a reminder to not fall back on those old behavior patterns.

Jaystorm announcing his full name to his siblings and showing healthy pride in his accomplishment is basically the end of his arc regarding repairing his relationships. They’re now all equals in the eyes of the clan and they get along pretty well. They’re his preferred escorts whenever he has to go out of camp and they’re glad to spend more time with him.

Fast forward to the time of OotS, Jaystorm notices fairly early on the signs that Dovekit also seems to have special powers and begins making plans to ensure she and Ivykit aren’t driven apart by ego and jealousy like he and his littermates were

Dovekit, thankfully, starts showing interest in becoming a medicine cat while Ivykit doesn’t. Come their apprentice ceremony, Jaystorm maneuvers to have himself be named the official mentor of Dovepaw and Hollyleaf the mentor of Ivypaw.

(Leafpool’s still around or something. I deliberately also omitted the fire scene and the parentage reveal drama. But she’s just not a character I’m interested in and sidelining her is for the good of the story.)

Having someone with partial medicine cat training mentoring Ivypaw means Jaystorm can very easily make an excuse to have her as part of his escort when herb gathering. Ivypaw, of course, complains endlessly about it, but she finds it nice to have time to spend with Dovepaw.

Under the guidance of the three, Dovewing and Ivypool grow up to be well adjusted adults who deal with the whole powers thing very maturely. All five of them are very close to each other, to the point the three almost consider those two as honorary little sisters.

(It’s fine, Cinderheart ends up having Fernsong with a completely unrelated tom. Lionblaze is too focused on his husband Berrynose to have eyes for anyone else. It fixes the incest, even.)

[sundaeserenade]

Thoughts on the following reguri tropes:

"Green/Blue was a little shit but went through extreme character development after losing to Red, becoming Gym Leader and eventually finding Red atop Mt. Silver"

"Professor Oak is terrible and he and Green have a strained relationship"

"Red's mom thinks of Green as her son"

"Green hates being a gym leader"

oooo this is fun!!!

I like Green getting character development after losing to Red!!!! but i also like him still being a little shit. I always love when people mix those together, like Green goes to find Red to apologize, but he's still kinda mean? But then he apologizes. Like his words still have this edge to them, but he corrects himself because he knows that his attitude isn't helping and that it likely contributed to Red leaving. I like Green making that effort but he's a teenager and he's not perfect, so it goes rocky.

and I like Red being unsure of how he feels about Green. I know another trope is that Red's like forgiving when Green comes to see him, but I really like when Red's angry and is only tolerating Green because he's too nice. But he's not friendly at all. I really like Mt. Silver being this strained period in their lives.

I don't want it to go perfectly, I want it to be messy so that Red and Green have to try and keep trying to fix things between them. I like that conflict.

but yeah! green becomes gym leader and grows from that, grows from working with other people and seeing different perspectives. he sees all these kids who have the same fire in their eyes as he and red did, but he beats them, and he has to deal with telling them why they lost. like they start crying and green's like "…well what the fuck do i do now"

i like green going into that environment and learning more about himself and the world around him. that's a good place for him to grow.

I definitely think Oak and Green have a very strained relationship. I think they can reach a point where they can come to an understaning, but it'll never be a realtionship that lives up to it's potential. Oak ruined that with his strict parenting style and negligence to reward Green with positive reinforcement and room to display his emotions to help develop his emotional maturity. Green needed attentitiveness and love, and he got expectations and pressure. So… it'll never be what it could be. And y'know that's sad, but it's how so many relationships go.

Like that strained, terrible kind of relationship with a family member where you only ever do quick check-ups and nothing deeper happens. They don't know you at all. They have no idea what your favorite color is or what you like to eat, and yknow, they may have no interest in knowing. Very sad. But it happens to many people.

On to happier things, Red's mom def thinks of Green as her own son. She gave him love when he could and probably knew that he had feelings for Red, and she probably regrets not speaking to Green about it since Oak didn't ever talk to him about that stuff. But she loves Green!! and is always there for him and will do anything for him. she wants red and green to get along bc she knows they're good friends. she invites green over when he's a gym leader and talks with him, checks in on him. she's supportive and makes sure he knows that he can come to her.

also love the trope of green feeling guilty around her bc he thinks he drove red away. good stuff.

Uhm!!! I don't think green would hate being a gym leader. i haven't seen that trope too much, but i disagree. He's a trainer that loves good battles, and since he's the last gym before the league, he'd consistently get good battles, so he'd like that. I do think he'd hate aspects of his gym leader job. like having to adhere to guidelines and restrictions when it comes to his own team and the moves they use, having to do paperwork, having to train multiple teams, having to only use a certain amount of pokemon/items, the restrictions he wouldn't like, but green would love being in charge and bossing people around. being a gym leader gives him that status of importance that's tangible. like he has the champion title, but that's all he's got to show for it aside from…being in the hall of fame, but he's been sidelined in that regard. it's still a great thing, but green would like something that he could show off and dress up, too, and being a gym leader allows him that.

this was funnnn!!!! thank you for sending this in.