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nah because i remember a few months ago, all of my then-friends kept joking about how i was basically a vampire.
just "ooh hahaa you have pale skin you don't like the sunlight or bright colours. lmaooo you have naturally sharp fanglike canine teeth. haha you like bats and have a vampire hyperfixation haha you're just like a vampire. we're only joking though"
and i don't think it's a joke anymore you guys ...đ like at all ... nuh uh ...
#otherkin#OTHERKIN???#apparently so#vampire otherkin#vampirekin#i've actually known this for a while now but i just didn't know how to say it on main. out heređđđ#so ig i'm a vampire now#wahoo#imagine that#it's such an odd realization too#like 'oh yeah did you see that awkward stupid looking kid who ordered that iced coffee a few minutes ago?'#boom. that was a vampire.#i probably wasn't even being subtle tbh...#oh well!!!!!#nonhuman#to be deleted#maybe???#maybe delete later
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i have NOT drawn enough talk sprite redraws. Heres some warm ups!! RAAHH đŚ
#deltarune#susie deltarune#myself#fictive#fictives#warm up is a strong word blah blah blah i KNOW these are too detailed for them. what i MEAN by this is that theyre colored warm ups that#i ended up finishing over time lol#susart#putting this on my blog because i helped aaaaand i want people to remember that i exist lol#im NGL we also drew this because i dont know if people even remember who we are#im SURE people do but we have only had 2 commissions these past 2 months which is a little odd and off schedule#and i realized that because were not drawing what WE want to draw because weve been so busyâŚ#then of course people might not see me! imnot drawing fanart and personal art lol#thats my little theory#PE has been a freak to me#you have no idea man. guys. ugh#anyway enjoy this lol
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"I think this is the most inhuman; and human, that I've ever felt.." MUCH CAN HAPPEN IN A YEAR. IN FIVE YEARS. A DECADE. imagine how much can happen in a century. just ONE (1). How will you grow? what phases do you find? even in 5 years, you will find patterns.
#jrwi fanart#jrwi show#jrwi suckening#jrwi suckening spoilers#jrwi the suckening#arthur bennett#HEY SO THE REALLY FUNNY THING THAT THE CHARACTER DID THAT SEEMED RLY SILLY N GOOFY IN THE MOMENT?#LIKE THE WHIPLASH BETWEEN SERIOUS N SILLY ALMOST PISSED YOU OFF? WHAT IF I FOUND A WAY TO MAKE YOU SAD ABOUT IT#this was meant to be a scribble that would be a bigger part of a bigger page.might leave it on that page.#but still. bc o that i nearly posted it onto my wacky side blog.BUT NAYY I SPENT TOO MUCH TIME N ENERGY N YOU GOTTA SEE IT#ARTHUR BENNETT DRIVES ME CRAZY. I FEEL LIKE ITS ODD FOR HIM TO BE SO TECHNOLOGICALLY OUT OF TOUCH#WHERE HAS HE BEEN. HAS HE BEEN IN WAR? IS THAT WHERE MAGNUS CAME FROM? WHERE WAS HE WHEN HE WAS WITH EDWARDS CREW?#ARTHURRR I HAVE QUESTIONS ARTTHUUURR!! HEY CAN I ALSO ASK; WHAT THE FUCK HAVE YOU BECOME#DO YOU THINK HE HAD ANY IDEA HE WOULD VEER CLOSER AND CLOSER TO THE MONSTER HE DESPISES. ALL BC HE DESERVES IT. OR WATEVER#HE FASCINATES ME SO MUCH. TO LOOK AT THE STONE COLD STOIC FOOL FROM THE START OF THE SHOW#AND TO FIND OUT THAT HE USED TO BE A BAD BOY.. A DELINQUENT... A LIL PRANKSTER.... MY GODDD THATS ADORABLE#I WOULD LOVE TO KNOW MORE.... BUT I DOUBT THE LAST EPISODE IS GONNA ANSWER THOSE QUESTIONS..i love arthur bennett so much....#AS FOR THE ART!! i mostly used the fire alpaca watercolor brush. tbh im not a brush guy. anti aliased default pen tends to be my main game#but LATELY IM SQQQUIRMIN OUT OF AN ARTBLOCK so expirimenting like this is helping#DONT LOOK TOO HARD AT IT!! im still proud tho. colors are fun :3 im also very proud of the backgrounds#I LOVE THE CARTOON THING where the background looks all fancy n painted but the characters are solid colors#what else can i ramble abt. OH YEAH. i looked up the bikes to make sure they were time accurate tehehehe. 1913 to 2012.#almost a century apart!! isnt that neat? ALSO FUUUCK CAN I JUST MAKE A QUICK CONFESSION. DOWN HERE IN MY TAGS.#only the strongest can read my tags anwyay. SO I REALIZED WHY I LOVE ARTHUR SO MUCH. TIME IS A FLAT CIRCLE#while arthur is a Stoic and Cool vampire w a knack for being playful/silly; who alsos been alive fora century thus witnessing HORRORs#THERE HAPPENS TO BE A ROBOT FROM A BAND W A TITANIUM ALLOY SPINAL COLLUMN#WHOS A Stoic and Cool ROBOT w a knack for being playful/silly; who alsos been alive fora century thus witnessing HORRORS#the fuckkkiiinnngggnn The Spine from steam powered giraffe. WHATEVER. i cant escape from my heart. i guess.#i think The Spine and Arthur could be friends. Arthur saw the band perform back when they were the Steam Man Band#EDIT: WOOPS I DIDNT REALIZE THIS WOULD END UP IN THE SPG TAG. HI GUYS DIDNT KNOW U WERE STILL ALIVE SORREE 4 THE CROSS CONTAMINATION
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Is it just me or does the way Hera is portrayed in the PJO/HOO series feel out of touch? By that I mean, while it plays into the idea of Hera's relationship with her husband's children and ideals of family, it seems like Rick just took that and ran with it without actually wanting to dive into those aspects and develop them more (ngl, his writing for his female characters, especially the goddesses, could use some work even if I do enjoy them). The reason Hera is the way she is with her husband's children is because she can't punish him [Zeus] directly due to him being more powerful (and the last time she turned against didn't he literally hang her from the sky)? And even while I'm not justifying her actions, there's a method to them, so why would she go after other random demigods like Percy and Annabeth? Or at least in a way that was written better than her falling into a trope (I enjoy this series with my heart, but the criticism about how the gods are written holds some value that shouldn't just be ignored either). Like, I don't know, it just feels like there was more that could've been done with her character instead of just immediately writing her off as the cruel, cold-hearted, evil stepmother (a trope that's overplayed, especially when not even bothering to give them any depth). I could write ideas, but then we'd be here all day.
#hera#pjo#hoo#pjo hera#greek mythology#greek myth#listen im getting back into greek myths and the classics so if anyone has any book/text recommendations pls share#rr crit#like especially being the goddess of family marriage and fertility her going after random children doesn't make sense (esp so hard like why#is she constantly harassing annabeth with cows?)#it also gets annoying in regard to percabeth bc the fandom tends to wrap them hating hera as their whole character trait and it's overplayed#it would make more sense for hera to probably be concerned or watching over percy bc maybe sally sent out a random prayer for help#hera caught wind (not necessarily realizing that percy is poseidon's son) and provides him & sally an added layer of protection before tlm#heck maybe she could even do the same for annabeth but to a lesser extent? maybe u could still keep them being at odds bc maybe#having grown up with thalia (who is zeus' kids & all that works) she's on edge and doesn't trust hera who'd be like âkay whateverâ#and was it hard to add any scenes of hera getting any understanding like the other gods were able too (dionysus)?#like im not saying that everything she's done has to be erased but is it that hard to add dimensions to it?#percy jackson#annabeth chase
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i love minecraft irep i like doing both designs equally but heâs growing on me more aghh
#fairly oddparents#fop a new wish#fop irep#fairly odd parents a new wish#lack of peri here so sorry#i miss peri too (i have too many keychains order yet i still need more#irep keychain when#anyways#art#fanart#nickelodeon#doodle#yeah off topic but also on topic if youâre still here i realized i was drawing the mustache wrong after like 50 drawings so yay me
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Can you show us how to draw the height differences for each of the Marble hornets characters? Some people draw time absolutely tiny compared to the rest and some people make him taller than jay and not much shorter than Brian, and I think itâs funny
I do draw Tim being tiny đđ¤
This is kind of how I imagine the main four guys!! I like to think of jam as short and brilex as tall just cause I think that's funny lmao
Idk the exact actual height differences between them, but that's how I imagine them â¨â¨
(Sorry this took a little to answer, thank you for asking!!! :D)
#Also sometimes I make Jay taller than this just for the hell of it because i think he qualifies for the tall awkward Virgil-ranboo type#Of character#At the end of the day i think we can all agree that Alex is tall and him n the operator formed the tall squad#And really marble hornets was all about the short kings rebelling against the tall ones#Canon /j#Also idk how people make jay shorter than tim that makes me want to throw up /hj /lh#Definitely not my thing that is odd in my very personal opinion#But you guys do what you want o7 slay đłď¸âđđłď¸âđđłď¸âđ#marble hornets#jay merrick#tim wright#brian thomas#Mh jay#Mh tim#Mh brian#Mh alex#Just now realized i slightly miss-read the ask sorry bout that but i am much too tired to change the drawing đ#My art teehee
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Ghostlights Prompt Event: Blind Date with a Prompt
aaaaah I'm doing it, I'm gonna post some of my work!
BAM!!
My first time ever posting anything and it's ghostlights, typical. Anyway this was tons of fun to do and I managed to pump this out in like two days. I really hope the smaller details are easy to see bc I had a lot of fun doing things like Dukes heart blush and eyes and Dannys electric scars and it would be a shame if Tumbler crunchifed it too much like Insta usually did.
The prompt I got was Duke is Danny's secret admirer and sharing headphones (that's a lie, it was actually sharing headphones and 1930 but I had no clue how I would do that so I just rerolled and got lucky lol). I might end up doing some more idk I've just never been this inspired before :>
#dpxdc#fanart#ghostlights#ghostlights-prompt-event#blind date with a prompt#fun fact#Dukes shirt is merch i made up of the band 'Batmans [expletive]' that he listens too#i thought it was funny lol#this was also the first time i drew Duke in civilian clothes with is why it looks kinda weird#i was just trying to figure him out and part of that is forbidden shrimp color clothes#fav headcannon of Duke btw top tier#i also realized i havent drawn tucker in ages so he also looks a lil odd but its okay bc hes trying to stay hidden#dont question why they're all on a bus or why Dukes even with them it takes to much backstory to explain they just are okay#good#the preview tumbler gives me makes it look so much brighter than it was on my tablet which is sad but whatever#if you couldn't tell tags are my fav thing on tumbler
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WAS CARMENâS CODENAME BLACK SHEEP BECAUSE HER FATHERâS NAME WAS DEXTER WOLFE. LIKE WOLF IN SHEEPâS CLOTHING. LIKE WOLVES ARE PREDATORS TO SHEEP. IS THAT WHY SHE HAD THAT NAME
#em rambles#carmen sandiego#I JUST REALIZED THIS HOLY FUCK#OR AM I READING INTO IT TOO MUCH AND ITâS JUST BC SHE WAS THE ONLY CHILD/ODD ONE OUT/âBLACK SHEEPâ#OR IS IT BOTH
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1 out of 4 accelerated summer courses finished today. Next to go is Chem.
#i have not told my friends who are being supportive of me going to college#but i am very behind on chem#pretty much on top of english and psych#mind you the chem isn't hard it's just very time consuming and i work 50 hrs a week overnight#not even by choice on some level there's just literally nobody to work overnights#and It Is Such A Problem my single other coworker keeping nightshift alive at this 24/7 job and i are ... we have rioting to do#but anyways this is largely because i was having troubles with my adhd meds#and then hit the self destructive dread#which is such an odd problem to have when every other part of you is banging on the walls ready to go and kick ass#but so it goes#but i will catch up because i must and i want to and because i must#and because i didn't realize most of the people in my bio class were also going for the nursing program#i love the people on my bio class i'm super excited now#archivist talk#the archivist regrets starting nursing school#the archivist will get through it they just have to whine about it a little first#i was telling the archival assistants (my cats) but frankly one is too busy getting the zoomies and the other is trying to figure out#the best place to lay on me#and i shall not disturb her#my fair lady of orange#okay i work at 7P goodnight
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We know you got a sketchbook. Show us.
Friend, youâre sounding a little⌠ominous. (Is one of my trusty doodle books going to be held for ransom?)
(*heavenly music plays as I whip out my heavily abused, sticker filled sidekicks)
And I added a few snippets for fun!
#Haha a little sneak peek into my private collection⌠how fun!#My personal stuff tends to be a either a little to risquĂŠ or too unpolished to be on my blog⌠but I have lots of fun#If only I could accurately show just how little of a fraction the art on my blog is vs how much a truly draw.#I almost always have a pencil in my hand⌠producing awful little thing after awful little thing#And I cherish those awful little things because every single one of them helps me grow.#Also I just realized that Lydiaâs hips in the last one look oddâ I assure you- it is just construction!!#Theres a little indication of a nightgown but it never got colored because I worried it would flatten the drawing#EuuugghhhâŚ. I didnât realize it was such a problem⌠ignore it for me!#Ask#my art#sketchbook#sketches#beetlejuice animated#beetlejuice#beetlejuice cartoon#beetlejuice fanart#lydia deetz#toonjuice#claire brewster#clairelyds
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hedgehog lookbook đŚ
#ts4#sims 4#ts4 lookbook#sims 4 lookbook#ts4 cas#OH!! HE'S SO COOL#i didnt realize a lot of his fits are pinks and yellows. then you have the odd red and black đ§đ˝ââď¸idc he's cute#i didnt use srwe so dont look too hard#plc extras#sim: adrien herrera
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2023 Las Vegas Grand Prix - Fernando Alonso
#i realized. its actually so unwell of me how i basically make the same exact interview gifs of him ever single day of a race wknd#like hes basically doing the same thing in all of them#and yet every time i still go absolutely insane iver ever one like OH YM GOD LOOK AT HIM!? ISNT HE ADORABLE?? ISNT HE THE BEST??#so uh yeah hope you too are insane like me and obsess over every little bit of footage we get#that meme 'its like a reward' literally me after every session making these#sometimes i feel the impulse to apoligize but then im like what no this is my blog i can make whatever i want#the important thing is that it makes ME feel incredibly unwell to the point of screaming#also might be because its 5 am and ive had a red bull... maybe that...#^ first gif made me in near tears due to these conditions i think. or maybe im just really that insane abt him. prob that.#'im done with his ass' i say as i make odd animal noises over a simple clip of him#the screenshots from both this and the quali interview....gahhhh im so mentally unwell#fernando alonso#f1#formula 1#2023 las vegas gp#we do a little bit of f1
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Oh my god. Im Dutch and I was trying to figure out what you meant in the tags of that vocal stim post. Its jeetje mina, according to Wikipedia its a version of an old profanity jezusmina (the jesus part clear, no idea what the mina refers to)
YES!!! I KNEW MY MOTHER WAS LYING
imao, she's just. forgetful? odd? and has 1000% told me that 'jeetje mina' is a nonsense phrase she just happens to sigh. and I've picked it up because she said this like, end of any long day multiple times. at this point, because my Dutch is so bad, I'm probably pronouncing it as a nonsensical word anyway
#my mother is a dutch immigrant and a bit odd but I didn't realize this until I told anyone anything about her as an adult#and then like right after I told her I was 100% autistic she was like. 'you know I think I might be too'#yeah. probably. yeeeep.
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rowan's "my ride" episode 1 experience: have you seen this man
(in the style of / insp @sparklyeyedhimbo)
#my ride the series#fluke pongsakorn#rowan gifs#userpetri#@kali i hope u don't mind the direct tag or that i did this. i just felt odd not mentioning u even though idk if youve even seen this#because. i realized as i was editing the 1st one that i was doing what i consider to be A Kali Thing.#and youre better at it (i have no idea how to animate anything)#but the urge to edit shoujo sparkles onto mork was too strong to resist. i couldnt help it#look at him?????#he's so cute it makes me angry#i literally stopped after e1 to edit this bc. oh my god?? so i can continue now that it's done lmao
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you think your life is going okay and then you go and accidentally kill a full-odds shiny pokemon
#it was like three weeks ago and im STILL upset#i glanced up just before the attack landed and realized the oddish was a little too green#IT WAS FULL 8000 ODDS#i had been working that patch of grass for over 6 hours#in the end i got all pissy and just transferred my beefed up haunter and wiped the elite four#i couldnât go on after that defeat lmfao#pokemon#sulley speaks
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*smashes in like the Kool-Aid man*
PENDRAGON SIBLINGS YOU SAY????
I have. So many Feels. About Themstâ˘
The complexity?? The layers?? The angst?? Hello??????
Their relationship is just So Much, because you are right, it's all tangled up in miscommunication and missed opportunities, and so many problems that can be sourced back to Uther "War Crimes" Pendragon, who wouldn't know a healthy relationship if it bit him on the ass.
If Merlin and Arthur are two sides of the same coin, then Arthur and Morgana are edges of the same blade.
Because it's the lonely childhoods, the shared grief, the friendship, the vulnerability, the fondness, the teasing, the envy, the jealousy, the almost romance, the protectiveness, the betrayal, the loss, the hurt, the refusal to let go and the desperate hanging on, and the love, the love, the love.
Indifference is the true opposite of love.
Hate is love that's gone rotten.
âIf Merlin and Arthur are two sides of the same coin, then Arthur and Morgana are edges of the same blade.â oh fuckâŚ.
OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH FUCK
WAIT HOLD ON WAIT LEMME PIGGYBACK ON THAT BESTIE @0hheytherebigbadwolf (tagging you bc it will be a couple days after you sent this ask)
(Also, for anyone wanting background context on what me and bestie are bouncing off on: voilĂ )
OK OK SO
we are all familiar with King Uther being the greatest (worst) dad of all time, correct? places such high expectations on his âonly son and heirâ whilst never officially acknowledging Morgana as his daughter until the very end?
F+ father of the year :)
he is not above sending his children into the dungeon if they disobey him as seen here:
(Jfc he even put Morgana in chains like wtf)
also, he is not above using emotional guilt towards them when he deems it necessary (aka one of the only times he actually acknowledges them as his children)
UTHER (1x02 Valiant) I trust you will make me proud.
UTHER (1x08 The Beginning of the End) Iâve treated you like a daughter. Is this how you repay me?
UTHER (1x12 To Kill the King) You are the daughter I never had.
UTHER (2x08 Sins of the Father) You would believe a sorcererâs lies over the word of your father?
not to mention that when Arthur or Morgana try to reason with him or argue with him since they are the only ones with the status to do so, he pulls rank
UTHER (1x12 To Kill the King) May I remind you that you are speaking to your King [...] Take care, child, or Iâll have you restrained.
UTHER (2x08 Sins of the Father) I am your king and your father. You will show me some respect!
UTHER (2x06 Beauty and the Beast) We live in dangerous times, I cannot allow you to undermine my authority.
UTHER (3x10 Queen of Hearts) You have caused this to happen, Arthur. My decision is final.
ngl i could include more but i have already spent hours searching for shit (YOUTUBE WILL DIE BY MY HAND THAT STINGY BITCâ) but yâall get what i mean: Uther is an abusive fucker and it has messed up the conditions of Arthur and Morgana
now, about the double edged bladeâŚ..
as previously established, Uther is a fucking dick and wants his children to obey him but also adore him. with this behavior, the Pendragon siblings react in two ways: with anger & contempt or submission and remorse
way #1
iâm gonna start with Morgana because anger is the easiest to pick out throughout the show. in the first episode of the first season, our introduction to Morganaâs character is her lecturing Uther about executing the man Merlin witnessed upon entering Camelot (such a warm welcome for Emrys, mh?)
MORGANA I just don't think chopping someone's head off is cause for a celebration. That poor mother. UTHER It was simple justice for what he'd done. MORGANA To whom? He practiced some magic, he didn't hurt anyone. UTHER You were not around twenty years ago, you have no idea what it was like. MORGANA How long are you going to keep punishing people for what happened then?
early on, it is easy to pick up on Morganaâs resentment and anger at Uther, who she believes is blinded by his fear of magic and his need for control (which she isnât wrong about). also, we find that she isnât one to back off when poking the bear (Uther). she does it constantly in seasons 1 & 2
MORGANA (1x03 Mark of Nimueh) Why would she kneel on a cold stone floor morning after morning when she could make these things happen with a snap of her fingers? Like an idle king!
MORGANA (1x08 The Beginning of the End) How can this child be your enemy? He's just a boy. UTHER He is a Druid. MORGANA Is that such a crime?âŚWhat have these people done to you? Why are you so full of hate?
UTHER (2x04 Lancelot and Guinevere) How many men would you have me sacrifice to save a servant? MORGANAÂ As many as it takes!
to be honest, i wouldnât be surprised if screaming, arguing and berating Uther about his morals and ethics is her way of proving that she is not weak or submissive to his actions. i mean, Morgana grew up in a household the complete opposite from her time in Camelot. Gorlois, the man whom Morgana considers to be her father and one and only family member, was said to be âjustâ and âkindâ and someone that Uther even considered a good friend who openly kept him in check. Morgana, until the age of ten, understood parental love and empathy unlike Arthur, who spent his whole life without any good or healthy substance of it.
the culture of Camelot and Utherâs wrath is not something Morgana was ever able to fully acclimate to as Uther himself pointed out in 1x12. She âwas at odds with [him] since the beginningâ and could never picture herself as a Pendragon (point further proven in 4x05: she looked revolted when Queen Annis compared her to Uther) because she didnât share in their idea of magic = evil and a king = absolute control.
ironic in terms of future plot events, isnât it :â)
way #2
compare that to Arthur: manâs respressed af. keeps all his emotions under lock and key if they are anything but haughty and serious. yâall, Arthur even says it himself how he â[can't] disagree with Father [Uther] in public.â whenever Arthur finds himself at odds with Uther, he holds his tongue and waits until he can disobey secretly (2x05 when he leaves to rescue Gwen, 1x08 when he helps Morgana sneak out Mordred in the dark of the night, 2x08 when he sneaks out to meet Morgause for more info about his mom, etc). it is only the rare moments when Arthur feels impassioned enough to speak up without fearing any retribution does Arthur talk back at him (so satisfying đ)
ARTHUR (1x03 Mark of Nimueh) [Morganaâs] right, Father. You hear the word magic, you no longer listen.
ARTHUR (2x08 Sins of the Father) This is what fuels your hatred for those who practice magic. Rather than blame yourself for what you did, you blame themâŚ.You hunted her kind like animals! How many hundreds have you condemned to death to ease your guilt?!âŚ.You speak of honour and nobility! You're nothing but a hypocrite and a liar!
ARTHURÂ (3x10 Queen of Hearts) You can't forbid my feelings any more than I can. I won't deny them any longer, I love her. I love Guinevere.
we can even compare how the two react to Utherâs violence towards them
(ahahahahahaaaaa what a wonderful dad)
on the left, you see Arthurâs face right when Uther crushes the morteus flower needed to heal Merlin (his manservant/friend/????) and on the right, is Morgana after Uther discovers she was harboring a Druid child in her chambers and she refuses to listen to his reason.
notice how both faces are remarkably similar đ
however, Arthurâs look of shock and dismay come from his hope that Uther would do the right thing. that he would help save Merlinâs life from dying of poison. that he wouldnât use this as a method to teach Arthur âwhat it means to disobey and cross the king.â he truly did hope, just like he always does with the people he holds close. Arthur cannot help but hope and trust that those close to him will not betray him and yet so many do. hence the remorse
looking at Morgana, her shock comes from the fact that this might be the first time Uther reacted to her words and actions in a physical manner. my suspicion is that most of the time, all Morgana previously got was Uther reprimanding her and yelling at her to stop questioning his methods (bc, letâs be real, she was the favorite child.) never has he lifted a finder on her like Arthur and i have proof (cue transcript!)
AND! and, Arthur is constantly warning Morgana about not angering Uther any further because of the consequences she might face (consequences this boy is very familiar with) when Uther deems it necessary to âteachâ his children obedience.
UTHER (1x04 The Poisoned Chalice) You have to learn there's a right and a wrong way of doing things. I'll see you're let out in a week. Then you can find yourself another servant.
UTHER (3x10 Queen of Hearts) You have caused this to happen, Arthur. My decision is final [...] This is for your own good. - UTHER She will die. The enchantment will be broken. You'll see I was right.
UTHER (2x08 Sins of the Father) I am protecting you from your own foolishness!
so educational ���� but see, because Uther presents his punishments as lessons, Arthur himself views them as just a fucked up but meaningful way of his fatherâs concern because âyeah, I am the first born son and only heir to the throne. of course I need to learn not to do silly things like disobey, talk back to him, be my own person.â <- Iâm paraphrasing here
Arthur does and has never seen a way out of the life thrust upon him by Uther (see 3x06). succeeding Uther as king, marrying a noblewoman of high standing for heirs and alliance strength was always expected of him. Arthur never saw a way out of this. even when he and Gwen were in their secret relationship phase, Arthur had to remind himself that this would never last. he loved her and knew she loved him, but there was always that reminder (that sounded a lot like Uther) in the back of his head telling him that it would never last so long as he was prince. he had a duty (constructed by Uther) to serve Camelot and going against his father would mean (in his eyes) that he is going against Camelot (as Uther always presented it to be).
so unlike Morgana, he did not kick and scream but stood firm because that was what he believed was stronger. if he stayed in his lane and did his part, then he would be a good king, maybe even a better one than his father, for Camelot. however, the show proves that differentiating himself from Uther actually made him the better king and more respected, but this is not the meta for that. I am getting side tracked.
OK: so weâve established parental issues between the two siblings. now onto their very complex, complicated yet beloved dynamic
sO, as i mentioned in this post (because i am lazy and too tired to copy/paste the evidence from there), these siblings do care for one another. they just go about it in the most hilarious and repressed and in-denial way (hilarious to me đ¤)
when we meet them, itâs established that these two have known each other for some time. enough for them to bicker and have banter, you know, as you do with a Pendragon. also, should add, neither character are ever aware they are blood-related until s3 (because of some weak-ass bitch named Uther), so you have that very, uh, interesting subplot in s1 that everybody forgets about until you rewatch it. (honestly, I have so many questions. number 1: why???? number 2: itâs only in s1âwas it scrapped??? is it like it never existed???? what was its purpose to the plot??? bbc explain yourselfâ)
however, despite how much it is shown that they do care for one another, theyâre relationship in s1 is still undefined and vague as if they also donât know how to accurately define what the other means to them. itâs very similar to the whole âi really love this person so much but is what iâm feeling platonic, familial, or romantic?â becauseâŚ.you know, guy and girl besties who are close are typically expected to grow romantic feelings for each other, so tbh i would not be surprised if both mistook their love as romantically inclined in the beginning bc, reminder, neither of them were aware they were siblings until much later.
[and this is ALL i am saying on this subplot. i do not want to cause any negative discourse, so if anyone has a few choice words about it, either keep it to yourself or feel free to talk about it with people you know. personally? not a fan of the ship and never will be, but i am not here to post about that.]
anyway, have some featured receipts showing Arthur and Morgana slipping up and showing how much they care for each other.
SEE!!!! LOOK AT HOW THE CARE!!!! SEE HOW THEY WORRY FOR THE OTHER AND WISH TO PROTECT THEM FROM HARM!!! (and see how even when theyâre on opposite sides there is still that same love. just more warped and corrupted T^T)
^worried/protective Morgana
^Arthurâs face after Merlin informs him that thereâs an intruder heading to Morganaâs chambers
Morgana is very aware of Arthurâs trusting nature. Arthur is very aware of Morganaâs empathy and righteous nature. they understand each other so well which is why Morgana knew just how to harm Arthur in later seasons and why Morganaâs betrayal hit Arthur so hard. itâs also why he never stopped trying to reach out to her in s4 & s5. as @merlinemrys said in this lovely post, the showâs driving force is love. love of all kinds. whatever conflict it is, love is there at the center of it all and, in Arthur and Morganaâs case, it does not save them (just like how love does not save Merlin or Arthur from what lies ahead, as the op of the post pointed out).
that is what makes their relationship/love be like a double edged sword!! that is why they are edges of the same blade!!! they protect and fight for what they believe in and for the people they love, but the same blades cut deep and twist their wounds into a lasting scar.
it is because of Arthurâs love for Morgana that he cannot help but hope and mourn the woman he once knew. it is because of Morganaâs love for Arthur that her feelings of hatred are so strong and ugly.
like honestly,
look at them T^T compared to before
their relationship is so tragic T^T because we knew them before it all went wrong. we knew they cared and understood each other. we knew that for some time, they only had each other to rely on for a friend, a crutch, a breather for when the royal life was too much. both of them were fighters and strive to honor their values. both of them had once leaned on the other for support, had wanted nothing but happiness for each other.
fuck, they didnât even get the chance to really be siblings because they found out too late, and by then Morgana was on a war path and Arthur only found out at the last minute.
like fuck, man
two sides of the same blade: forged with love, yet used for blood
screencaps brought to you by me, @sourdough-morbread, and farfarawaysite
#i will spare you the gorey details of me trying to fine decent screencaps & screenshots for this fucking post or else iâll get pissed again#(i am considering whether it is worth it to go to war with youtube)#special thanks to my bestie mor for being there for me at the gorey times and helping me find more screenshots#fucking love you bestie đđđđ#also only including s1-2 bc i am tired and they are the ones where we get pendragon siblings not trying to kill each other#forgive me for always bringing up uther and the pendragon sibsâ upbringing with him it will happen again#also after hours of rereading transcripts and rewatching clips of bbc merlin: it is so obvious that uther cared and treated Morgana like hi#own child more than Arthur. like jfc he letâs her get away with so much stuff he is way for gentle with his words towards her#when he realizes that he was too cruel or rude like broâŚ..where tf was that for arthur#it just adds to the complicated sibling dynamic because there is the added jealousy and resentment of knowing a parent loved another more#literally most of Morganaâs time with Uther was her at odds with him and yet he views her as his child more#well no ducking dur that Arthur âi-would-do-anything-to-receive-my-fatherâs-love-attention-and-prideâ Pendragon resents Morgana for#always being the one Uther goes easier on and finds ways to turn a blind eye for like wtf#also during my research i was reminded of how done dirty Gwenâs story was by bbc#loses her father to a king fearful of magic barely gets to mourn him bc she now has to keep up the smithy and her maid job; reunites#with her brother whoâs been AWOL for some years and still they donât get a moment to talk about their dad and mourn TOGETHER#her storyline is pushed aside by s4 bc now sheâs fulfilling the role of Arthurâs love interest and oh yeah they still need to incorporate#the lanceot/guinevere scandal and then banish her for some episodes without even letting her brother be mad about it like ?????#anyway#continued saga of fluffy rereading transcripts -> uther: âitâs been a long time since YgraineâŚsince anyoneâ me: ducking liar >:(#[sir leon begins the slow clap] king you dropped this đIT IS 1AM HELP đ#place your bets on where my laziness for evidence came in! (I honestly donât know lol scavenging evidence is all a blur)#spent 2 days on this post lol#me: ok i think thatâs enough evidence for this argumentâŚâŚâŚâŚok maybe ONE more wonât hurâ#me after day 2: âŚ.am i done???? am i free????#pendragon siblings coming behind me with a steel chair: nah mate!#me: FUCK THEREâS MORE#bbc merlin#merlin meta#pendragon sibs
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