#it's really ironic that this came from the same company that made... bts...

[ujunxverse]

this close to calling myself a sunoo bias ngl

[littlemessyjessi]

“Tae and Jae”: Part 2 from the BTS 8th Member Series “Untamed”: Mae Jae:  The Gucci Twins Have A Day:   Fake Social Media + Imagine

Part Two to Tae and Jae’s day of adventure !

"Where are we going?"

Jae couldn't help but laugh at the bewildered look on Taehyung's face as he drove them further and further out into the middle of nowhere.

"Just keep going." she said. "It's not far from here."

"Where even is here?" he asked.  "It's pretty but I've never been here."

"That's kinda the point." she said.

"Did you bring me out here to kill me?" he asked, widening his eyes at her and pulling on his acting skills.  "Was this your equivalent of fattening up the pig?  Spoil me, feed me and then just bring me out here so you can bury me where no one can find me."

"How dramatic." she laughed at his faux face of terror.

His face melted back into his iconic boxy smile and he continued on before she directed him to pull off just ahead.

"Just sit tight and keep your eyes closed." she said before hopping out of the car.

"Well, this is it, I guess.  She's getting her weapon of choice out of the trunk.  I knew I should've been suspicious when she wouldn't let me help her with that big suspicious lump earlier. Good bye, cruel world."  he said dramatically out the open window.

Jae's laughter could be heard in the background.

Taehyung snickered a little as he could hear her moving around out there.

"Am I actually waiting for you to dig a hole?" he teased.

"Yah! Shut it! I'm working on something!"

He snickered again though he nearly hit on his head on the roof when she tapped him on the shoulder and he jumped.

"Ok, we're ready.  Come on." she grinned.

He cut the engine and climbed out, only to be ordered to shut his eyes again.

Jae took his hand and began to lead him forward a bit before they came to a stop.

"Ok, you can open them now."

It took him a moment to adjust to the brightness but when he did, his jaw opened in shock before his face squished in affection.

"Awwwww!!!! Noona!!!!"

Jae laughed as he clobbered her in a hug.

Tae never called her Noona unless he was particularly emotional.

There before them were two places set up for them to paint.

"I thought we could paint and watch the sunset." she supplied.  "We can go and get food afterwards and I know a place for a treat before we go home."

Tae squeezed her to him again once more before fishing his phone out of his pocket and snapping a picture of the easels and supplies.  

"I love you." he said as he looked down at the picture on his phone.

"I love you too, Tae." she chuckled.  "Now come on, let's make some masterpieces."

He let her yank him towards the set up and the two of them spend the next couple of hours painting the scene around them and chatting comfortably.

The both of them had missed this.  

Even when living in the same home, it was still sometimes hard to get one on one time with loved ones.

People were busy and as you got older, it only got worse.

In the beginning, when they were all crammed into a tiny little place with way too many bunks in one room, there were around each other constantly.

It was true that Taehyung still ended up in Jae's room at least a couple of times a week.

The poor guy needed to hold something to sleep and he would much prefer if it was a person as a pillow.

Jae usually let him because it was him but she also pulled long hours in her studio so sometimes she didn't even get home until the early hours of the morning.

Recently, she'd been working on her own content as well and doing producer work for the company and it wasn't uncommon at all for her to come at nearly four in the morning.

Not to mention, she was planning a trip to go back home to see her parents soon and he knew first hand what a pain travel plans could be.

He felt really touched that she thought about him enough to plan ahead and spend the day with him.

It reminded him of the early days when she'd take them all out one by one for ice cream or noodles.

Her and Jin had always done that kind of thing.

The eternal big siblings.

After they finished their paintings they left them on the easels and laid back on the tarp to watch as the last few rays of sunlight dipped below the horizon.

"This has been really nice, Jae." he said, arms tucked behind his head.

"I'm glad you've had fun, Tae." she said. "We're not done yet though."

"I would've been happy just driving around with you." he shrugged. "You didn't have to do all this."

Jae turned to look at him.

"I know that, Tae." she chuckled. "I know you'd be happy cuddling up and watching a movie.  But I wanted to do it.  I like treating you.  All of you.  And I wasn't always able to do things like this but now I am.  We're all in much better positions in life now, financially, emotionally, a lot of ways.  And I think it's important to spoil your loved ones when you get the chance."

"You spoiled us in the beginning." he laughed. "I remember when you used to take me to the convenient store and let me pick out any candy I wanted.  It felt like I'd been on a shopping spree."

"It was just candy, Tae." she said with an amused look.

"Not to me it wasn't." he said seriously.  "It was a lot more than that."

Her features softened looking over at him.

While Big Hit marketed the two of them as 'the twins' he was still a few years younger than her.

He'd grown into such a good man and she was so proud of him.

Sometimes she forgot that Taehyung was younger than her though and would always look at her like his older sister.

She remembered that scrawny kid with the boxy smile and the effervescent personality.

She remembered how so many people didn't know how to handle Taehyung's personality.

What Taehyung remembered was how even when they didn't get along in the beginning, she'd still come and get him and take him for noodles or make him dumplings in the middle of the night.

"Do you remember when you got up at like three in the morning and made me dumplings because I was missing my family?" he asked suddenly, looking up into the darkening sky.

She laughed, "Yes.  I remember we weren't exactly close then but I could hear you in the other room."

Taehyung laughed, "I remember you walked out and I was fully expecting you to scold me for not being in bed."

"Sounds like me." Jae snorted.

"But you didn't.  You just walked into the kitchen, hair snatched into a bird's nest on your head and started cooking." he said. "I remember I just watched you for the longest time and then you just shoved me a plate and said- 'Here'."

"I wasn't that great at expressing myself back then." she shrugged. "Food was my love language."

"Kinda still is." he teased.

She shrugged, "Food is simple.  You can do a lot for someone by just letting them know that you care enough about them to make sure they're well fed."

The two of them looked at each other softly.

"I didn't always say it.  In fact, I never said it in the beginning.  But I'm really appreciative of you being there and taking care of us.  If it weren't for you and Jin, I don't know that I would've stayed.   Joon made it clear that we could do it and that he'd lead us.  That gave some reassurance.  But without you and Jin, I just don't think I could've handled it." he admitted turning back to the blossoming stars in the sky.

"Yes you could've, Taehyung." she said, eyes focused on his profile. "Because you're far more talented than you give yourself credit for.  I have no doubt that you'd have been fine without anyone else. But I'm really glad that I've gotten to be along for the ride to watch you grow. It's been a priviledge.  One that I hope I can continue to have for the rest of my life."

Taehyung refused to respond and instead just rolled over to cuddle her.

She laughed, rubbing her hand up and down his back.

"Oh you big softy." she said.

They laid like that for the longest time before she pulled him to his feet.

"Come on. Let's get this loaded up and then I'm taking you for japchae." she said, smirking when his face lit up.

He didn't need to be told twice and soon they were speeding off in the direction of a little spot that sold some of the best japchae she'd ever had.

Which was saying something because she'd had a lot of it in her years in this world.

They tucked into a booth and she smiled watching Taehyung happily dig into his meal.

She snapped a picture and uploaded it before she tucked in herself.

Only a few moments and she laughed when she saw that Jungkook had already commented, whining about wanting some.

"We have to pick pizza up before we go home." she said.

Tae's eyebrows lifted, cheeks puffed and mouth full of food.

It was a comical sight.

"Kookie is hungry." she explained and his eyes creased in a smile.

"When is he not?" he asked when he finally swallowed.

"He's a growing bunny!" she defended.

"He's only two years younger than me." Taehyung said.

"He'll always be my baby bunny." she said with determination.  "I don't care if he's sixty.  He's bunny forever."

"You're such a mom." he laughed.

"The same goes for you." she said. "No matter how old you get, you'll always be my rambunctious little tiger cub."

Taehyung's creased in a smile.

One that he was never able to fight off when Jae referred to him as her cub.

"When are you headed back to see your family?" he asked.

"In a couple more weeks. I still have to iron out a few details and finish up a song I'm producing." she said.

"Are you excited?" he asked knowingly.

"I am." she grinned. "It's been so long since I've seen them in the flesh.  And video calls just aren't the same."

He nodded knowingly.

He understood that.

He loved the BTS family that he'd come to have but it was different than actually seeing your relatives.

It was also something that none of them really got the chance to do very often.

Taehyung, himself, barely got to see his siblings and parents, and his grandparents, who had raised him, had been gone for a few years now.

"How long are you staying for?" he asked.

"Three weeks." she said, feeding her noodles into her mouth.

"Oh god." he said.  "Jimin is going to be a monster."

"Not my sweet baby Jiminie." she teased knowing full well how much of an absolute demon Jimin could be sometimes.

His brat energy was off the charts at times and when he was pouty he was a menace.

Taehyung rolled his eyes, "Yeah, sweet baby Jiminie. Suuure."

"Well, you two can cuddle each other while I'm away." she said.  "We both know you'll be sulky too."

"I'm offended that you would even suggest such a thing." he said. "I don't sulk."

"Mmmhmm, sure." she said, impishly looking at him over the rim of her glass as she took a drink.

He pouted at her and she nearly choked to death on the sprite.

He grinned evilly, "Karma."

"Shut it." she said, wiping the soda from her face.

"I'm gonna miss you when you're gone though." he said.

She reached out to pat his hand.

"It'll be ok, Tae." she said. "It won't be long."

"I know. And I do hope you have fun." he said but she could tell he was still fighting another pout.

"I'll call everyone all the time." she offered. "You can even sleep in my bed while I'm gone."

"Well, thank you for the permission but Tannie and I have already made plans to temporarily move in anyway.  And I will be raiding your closet while you're gone."

"I expected nothing less." she said. "Although, you act like you don't just walk in and do that anyway."

He grinned in response before leaning back and patting his stomach.

"My grandma would be proud." he said.

Jae laughed in response.

"Alright, come on, tiger cub.  I got one last treat, then we'll pick up some pizza for the heathens and head home." she said sliding out and pulling him to his feet.

He stretched and reached for his back pocket.

"Touch your wallet and you die tonight, Kim Taehyung." she said. "I already told you.  The next time, you will actually get a spanking right here in public."

Taehyung didn't say anything else.

He just hugged her from behind, chin on her shoulder while she paid the cashier and left a tip for the waiter.

He snatched her hand as soon as they were outside and swung them together like a child.

"You happy, Tae?" she asked.

"Very." he said.

"Alright, come on." she said.

He didn't fight her when she took the keys from him.

She could tell he was getting sleepy by this time.

He watched her while she drove them, weaving through the streets until they came to another stop.

Taehyung had nearly fallen asleep to the hum of the car and the feeling of the cool air conditioning on his skin.

"Come on, cub." she said tapping his nose. "Let's go."

He grinned when he noticed that she'd taken him to a hot chocolate bar.

The spent the next hour indulging in the delicious chocolatey treat, adding cream and marshmallows.

Even a few odd combinations here and there that Jae claimed were an abomination and that they should never speak about.

Tae had posted it to his social media and Jin had lectured Jae about giving him chocolate at this time of night as if Taehyung were four and then proceeded to call her and further assert his point.

"Kim Seokjin, you watch your tone or I'll sneak into your room while you're sleeping and lick your face." she said.

The fast and comical angry response that she recieved had Tae rolling with laughter when she put Jin on speaker phone.

"Jesus Christ." she said when she finally hung up.  "I can only imagine his blood pressure right now."

"That vein in his neck is probably popping out right now." Tae said.

"He's getting a little red in the face." she continued.

"Hair whipping back and forth as he shakes his head." Tae laughed.

"Fastest rapper in the world." she giggled.

"Activated when angry." he said before the two of them dissolved into a fit of giggles.

Eventually, they piled back into the car and after having stopped for pizza for the rest of the members, they sped away towards their home.

Taehyung was sleeping when they got there, all but laid out over the console to throw his arm around Jae while she was driving.

She poked his cheek until he stirred.

"Come on, big guy." she said. "Help me take everything in."

His face was pinched as  he struggled to wake up but he slowly helped her take everything inside anyway.

Jungkook, who had heard her car pull in, met them half way and snatched the pizza boxes out of her arms.

"You're welcome!" she yelled after him with a laugh.

"Thank you!" he called back before he disappeared from view.

When they finally made it in, the whole lot of them had surrounded the table like a pack of wild hyenas.

There was a mumble of greetings and thank yous.

The two of them parted ways to go and shower and change.

Jae was laying on her bed, scrolling through the pictures of the day when her door opened and Tae stood there.

Hair a fluffy mess and white tee shirt and pajama bottoms hanging on his frame.

He grinned before running and jumping on her.

"Oh god, Tae! Some warning would've been nice!" she laughed as he snuggled into her.

He looked the picture of innocence, head nestled in the blankets, eyes sparkling at her like a little boy up to no good.

She snapped another picture of him because it was just too good.

"Can I sleep in here tonight?" he asked.

She tapped her finger to her chin, pretending to be thinking before she smirked at him.

"I guess." she said, laughing when he grinned that boxy smile at her and called out for Tannie.

The pomeranian came bounding in and jumped on the bed, fully preparing to nest for the night.

They half watched something on Netflix for a while, half played on their phones, hands scratching idly at Tannie's fur.

She snickered as she watched him tuck his arm behind his head and take a selfie.

"Ooooh, Kim Taehyung and his selcas!" she teased and he almost shoved her off the bed.

However, a few moments later when she recieved a notification she couldn't help but aww.

'I have had the best day ever. Thank you for spending time with me and spoiling me today, Twinkie.  I love you so much. @BTSJae #VXBFFL'

He hid his face when he could see her reading the caption.

Jae smirked, typing out her own response.

'I'm glad you had a good day, pumpkin.  I always love spending time with you, baby bear.'

Taehyung peeked at his phone at the notification and shoved his face into the pillow with a groan of happiness.

She just chuckled and turned her attention back to the flat screen, just very thankful to be where she was in life.

--------- Part one is HERE if you missed it Bonus Content including a slightly jealous Jimin coming soon! ------

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Hey loves! I hope you enjoy this! I’m trying out something new with writing for a while since I hit a major road block while I’m here in the hospital.  I hope you enjoy these!  If you’re interested in reading Jae’s full profile and the masterlist for this series you can find it HERE

I would love to know your thoughts and if you have any suggestions for other things to happen with Jae and the boys, just let me know!

I love you and I hope you have a good day, my loves.

Love,

Kenny

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[supop]

Daily Thoughts: Daechwita’s muster performance was a complete joke.

I genuinely laughed during the entire ordeal.

If that was BigHit’s intention, then congratulations, they succeeded. They took what was meant to be a profound depiction of Yoongi’s alter egos and turned it into a circus show. Hoseok did an amazing job on Yoongi’s part but it doesn’t change that Namjoon nor Hoseok can really rap the way Yoongi does. Just like Yoongi’s rap style doesn’t fit Daydream or Bicycle. So let’s fairly call a spade, a spade. As for vocal line, despite their beautiful voices, they can’t rap to save their lives (sorry, talking fast ≠ rapping). And this is coming from someone who listens to actual rap music religiously. If the whole point of muster is to celebrate BTS’ music then why drag Agust D into it?? Agust D whom Yoongi has repeatedly stated is how he’s able to express himself and his music outside of the group.

If BigHit wanted a repeat of Ddaeng at Muster 2019, then they should have turned UGH! (an actual bts song) into an OT7 themed performance, not Daechwita. What irks me the most is this was the first ever live performance of the song. At least with both Ddaeng and Ugh! (and the rest of the solo songs the members have ever done), we were able to first see it performed in its original form. Not only was this muster version of Daechwita a joke, it completely overshadowed Yoongi’s artistry. Ironically enough, they had him sitting on that throne for the majority of the performance...like some figurehead king. Which was fitting, seeing as how he was basically a figurehead in his own song.

And yes, people can sit there and argue....”Yoongi approved it”, “it’s his song and he wanted to perform it with the members”, blah blah blah yaddah yaddah yaddah. Unless you were in the muster performance meeting room then your opinion is just that: an opinion. As fans we only see what BigHit shows us, and we can only ever digest the narratives they feed us. Was Yoongi given the choice to perform Daechwita on his own? Who knows. Given the praise and recognition the song received (not only in Korea, but worldwide), then I’m not surprised that out of all the songs they’ve released that’s the one they chose to f*ck up. There’s so many OT7 songs that have yet to get an actual live performance, so why go digging into solo work???

Objectively speaking, there’s a reason BigHit tweeted this image of the set list only a few days prior. They made it obvious Daechwita would be performed. Daechwita in all its full glory. All tactless marketing. Because which fan in their right mind wouldn’t want to see that? Yoongi originally produced Daechwita as an OT7 song, however, when it was rejected by the company, it ended up on his mixtape instead. The production, the lyrics, the music video, everything about the song was his vision come to life. And I guarantee had Daechwita not been the talk of the town, it would’ve been placed on the back-burner (just like the rest of the songs on their mixtapes).

[Cries on the inside].

On that note, sources say to expect an OT7 Chicken Noodle Soup performance for day 2 of Muster’s world tour version. Hopefully it doesn’t get the same parody-esque treatment.

P.S. If Yoongi ever came out and said the performance was indeed his idea, then I’ll gladly retract this entire think piece and apologize for overstepping any boundaries. Because if there’s one thing I respect before my opinions on an artist I admire, it’s the artist themselves.

[joonyverse]

white chrysanthemum - jeon jungkook (bts)

summary: white chrysanthemum represents truth and loyal love. After much heartbreaks and lies, maybe he was just what you need all along

genre: angst, fluff

warning: LOTS OF CURSES, divorce, bad writings, unedited (Sorry), bad english and lots of grammatical mistakes whoopsie

jeon jungkook x f!reader

The digital clock on the computer screen showed Jungkook that it was indeed ten minutes to twelve in the night. He can’t help but let out a loud yawn and scratched his eyes. The dryness of them makes him want to just dunk them in a bucket of water. 

Deciding that it was late, Jungkook saved the document he was working on before he turned off the computer. He packed his back and made his way to the lift.

There was no one in the office, well, at his floor at least. It was late, and it was Friday night. No one want to pull an overtime at Friday night. And Jungkook had to be in the unfortunate end of the spectrum.

He thought the lift would make no stop. He was tired, and he didn’t pay attention that instead of going down, the lift went up instead. So he leaned on the mirror wall, his blazer in his arm, sleeves rolled up, two of the first buttons were opened. So when the lift made a surprising stop, he immediately stood straighter. The floors above him was reserved for the lobbyists, the directors of the company, and the CEO.

You were waiting for the lift with your heads down. Fatigue coming over you. You felt nothing but exhaustion throughout your body. And when the lift dings, you just weakly lift your head, posture held straighter to walk into the lift.

As the lift door opened, Jungkook’s presence greeted you. Your eyes widened for a second before it relaxed again, you were hoping that he didn’t noticed. You nod at him as a greeting, which he reciprocated, before you walked in.

The atmosphere was awkward, but you couldn’t care less. The dull ache in your head from lack of sleep is the only thing that you could think about, or at least what distracted you. But to Jungkook, nothing but uneasiness fill him. He could cut the tension with a knife.

When you both reached the lobby, you gave him a small smile into the reflection in the mirror, as you both made eye contact, before you left without a word.

Jungkook sighed when you were out of sight. So many thoughts filling his head. Would it be like this if only he doesn’t give up four months ago? But you pushed him away.

It all started when...

It was a rainy day. It was raining for the whole day really. You can only sigh as you watch the droplets running through the window of your home.

Not only was it raining, but Taehyung said he would be late. It has been a shitty day really. You wish you could just go into his embrace and cuddle the unsettling feeling in your heart.

It was 10am. You were more than sure Taehyung wouldn’t want to eat if he got home later than it already is. You can relate as your job took a toll on you too.

You sighed heavily. It’s been like this nowadays. You went home earlier than you usually would, expecting and hoping that he would too be home at the time he supposed to, and you both can cuddle and have a movie night.

But to your disappointment, it’s also every nights he has his excuses why he had to be late. But you knew, being the CEO of a company is no easy game, him pulling an overtime should come as no surprises.

But you can’t help but feel a pang in your heart. You both used to be so close. God, he was your best friend, in a world full of betrayals, he’s the only human you could confide in, the only one you trust with your whole being.

And so you did. You married him.

You loved each other more than anything. Taehyung was always there for you, since your university days. Where you both would pull an all-nighter together. Whenever you were stressed over exams and papers, he’d be there for you, always, with open arms, and bunch of snacks to pamper you. And the same goes with him. Whenever he was stressing over his assignments, or how he was stressing over his mistake on the finance exam he had that one day, you were there for him, ready to take him into your arms.

But nowadays, it feels like you both were worlds apart. You drifted away slowly. It was slow, and yet the distance feels so great to you. You barely see him and by God you were both married, he was your husband, and yet it’s frustrating to you that his employees probably see him more than you. 

At first he has thousands of excuses. How his works were very overwhelming and he had to get it done, how his colleagues held him for a dinner, and all that, he even sounds apologetic at first.

But now, all he say as he walk into the warmth of of your home, is just “sorry”, and he doesn’t even sound like he means it.

But still you waited. You want to confront him for once now. You’ve had enough. God you are also working, you see it beforehand how busy a CEO could be, but he works like as if he’s a one-man company. And you’ve had enough of that.

As soon as the door opened, you stood up from the couch you sat on. You came face to face by him. He gave you a look, before he looked away, stepping off his shoes. A certain distinct smell came from him and yet you can’t pinpoint what was it.

“You’re late again” you said, voice curt.

“Well I’m sorry that my job as the highest rank employee in the company took its time” he said, sass dripping from his tone.

You softly grabbed his shoulders, trying to make him look at you. But seems like your hold was a little bit harsher than you intended to, and his shirt got yanked a bit from the force.

And that’s when you saw it. And the distinct smell came from him is now making sense.

He smelled like sex.

And he has a hickey on his neck almost towards his chest.

Your eyes widened. Your throat constricted. Your bile rising. You feel like you’re choking on air.

The soft subtle scent of women’s perfume was now apparent to your now sensitive smelling sense.

“Taehyung...” your voice shaky, as tears burning its way towards your eyes. You can’t help but keep staring at the hickey on him. God knows what he hides under his shirt.

And it seems like Taehyung had caught on too. He suddenly grab a hold of your hands. He shook his head, his eyes widened.

“Y.n... it’s not what you thought-“

“Well than tell me! Give me your thousand excuses!” you shouted, tears now shamelessly fell.

But silence greeted you.

You let out a bitter chuckle. “Of course you can’t, you’ve been cheating on me, Kim Taehyung” you said darkly.

You turned away from him, heads down. You grab a hold of your chest as its being abused by the pain in your heart. You grab it like your life depended on it, like as if you could make yourself feel better.

You sat down on the couch as you feel like your legs might give up on you. Taehyung warily sat down too, far away from you.

“I’ve been waiting everyday Taehyung” you started. “I’m waiting, worrying, whether if you’ve eaten or not, if you’re safe or not, I was worried” you said. “I trusted you with all my being, I trust you with my heart, and that’s why I never questioned you” you added. You can’t even continue your words as sobs making its way.

Taehyung can’t help but feel guilty, he was basically drowning in it. He promised that you can trust him, how he would never broke your heart, god, he was the one that beat your ex for cheating on you. And oh god how the table had turned. He now became the evil he never wanted to be. He broke your heart, you, his wife, and his best friend.

“Y.n...” he reached out weakly.

“No, it’s okay, I understand, I’m not enough for you... And I understand that, what just makes me so... betrayed, is how you seemingly would never tell me unless I find out” you said.

Taehyung reached out to you. His hand trying to grab a hold of yours. But you flinched and moved further. But at least you looked at him now and that was enough for him.

“Don’t say that... you are enough, you are a woman anyone would want y.n” he said, sincerity filled his voice.

You scoffed. Finding how ironic his words were.

“It’s just me... I found a love that I don’t deserve, but I accepted it anyway, I was a fool thinking that I’d finally able to love again after accepting your love” Taehyung said. “Which I did, I was able to love again, but then... she came back y.n... and I‘m weak, I realised I never moved on...” he continued.

Just when you thought you couldn’t have your heart even more broken, you did. It’s the fact that you are indeed the second choice again. The home he ran away to for a momentary escape before he come back and make up.

“Jina...” you muttered.

Taehyung flinched at the name. He felt guilty for breaking you but not for loving her, and that makes him feel sadistic.

You lean back into the couch. Hopes drained from your whole very being. Taehyung could practically see how it feels like you were becoming the shell of a woman who you were.

Jina was always the choice indeed. You should’ve known. Jina was Taehyung’s first love, and still is apparently. She moved to the other half of the world when Taehyung about to confessed. What hurt Taehyung was Jina leaving without saying anything. And so you were there for Taehyung, mend his broken heart, reconstructed him, comfort him, with everything you can. 

And one day, you confessed your feelings to him. With lots of fear of rejection, but most importantly ruined friendship. You would sacrifice yourself for him to be happy, God, you would.

But to your surprises, he reciprocated it, saying that the feeling was mutual.

But clearly, you were just a harbour and he was the ship that docked to you for some time before going away once again.

“I lose again” you said with a bitter smile.

Taehyung finally looked up towards you again. He wants to deny that you are not losing, he was the loser in this cruel game. But there was no way for him to convince you, not when he was the reason.

You were becoming the girl who got cheated on during university because you were the second choice once again. And Taehyung hated how he become the very man he despises for breaking your heart.

“It’s okay Taehyung, I can’t blame your nor your feelings...” you said. Taehyung can predicted what will come out of your mouth next, but before he can stop it, you had said it. “I’m blaming myself for not being enough, and maybe, I’m just... lacking a lot” you said in defeat.

You stood up from your couch. You gave him a last glance. “Goodbye, Taehyung” you said before you walked away from him, heading upstairs, towards your supposedly shared-bedroom.

Taehyung never felt this fear. This much fear. The goodbye, it feels like it’s really the last farewell. You want nothing to do with him anymore. He can’t deny that he indeed deserves that. But you were also his best friend. And how he had lost you.

He stood up from the couch. He knocked on the bedroom door, trying to caught your attention. 

“I’ll bring the document to you, or have it sent to your secretary, I’ll pack my things too tomorrow, I love you” he said. He did. He really did love you. Just maybe in platonic way.

Now this penthouse never felt so empty, you thought as you heard him leave. And the big portrait of the day of your wedding feels like mocking you.

You went to work the next day. Acting like everything is fine. Not like anyone care. No one care about their colleague’s personal affair in this corporation. So you put on the straightest face you have and walk into the tall big tower.

But your change of attitude was noticed by your secretary. Jungkook was your secretary at the time. But also your friend. You would put him second after Taehyung in the list of people you trust.

As soon as he saw you walking through the lift towards your office, passing by his station, he noticed something was wrong. The demeanour, the aura you exudes. Your presence usually called for respect, a femme fatale, a strong aura that would make anyone that goes in your way cowers. That’s why the company trust you to do lobbying he figures. 

But Jungkook was a friend. Well your best friend now that Taehyung went out of the list. He works with you basically 24/7. He’s the only one that brave enough to banter with you and befriending you. He was the only person that makes you feel like a human in this demon’s hell hole of a company.

He immediately followed you to your office. He was about to confront you until he finally able to get a full glance of your face when you sat down on your armchair. He finally knows what was different. You seem defeated. No, he was sure you were defeated. But by what? Or more importantly, by who?

“Do you want me to read your schedule?” He asked carefully.

You looked at him. You said nothing but nodded. “Entertain me, Kook” you said.

Jungkook cleared his throat. “Well thankfully, you only have two meetings, one with the representative from the Cheon Enterprise, and one with Mr. Kim from the ministry who I believe has a deal for the company?” He asked.

You raised an eyebrow. “Mr. Kim?” You asked, can’t help but get sensitive. You can only hope Jungkook didn’t notice.

“Kim Namjoon” Jungkook said.

You immediately sighed in relief. Jungkook chuckled. He thought that maybe you had a stupid argument with your husband, just like usual. “Another chicken fight huh?” He joked.

But his joke was greeted with silence. You feel like tearing up all over again. And Jungkook noticed, now he felt bad for it. Maybe it was a real bad one he thought.

“I-I’m sorry” he apologised before proceeding to walk out from your office.

But before he could, your words next made him stopped in his track. “We are filing for a divorce” you said.

Jungkook turn around. And when he did, your eyes look at him, tears brimming. You were a human with full capabilities to feel after all. As much as you wanted to be those women in movies that seem so heroic, you can’t.

Jungkook hurried back to you, he grabbed a chair that was placed in front of you towards your side before he sat on it.

He grab your hand, trying to say that he’s here, and you can confide in him.

You let the tears fall. “He fell in love again... just not with me” you said.

To say that Jungkook was beyond shocked was an understatement. He froze on his seat. But he immediately went closer to you, want nothing but to gives you the comfort you deserve. He knew just how much Taehyung meant to you. He knew that no matter how hectic work could be, no matter how much you love your job, Taehyung would always come first, and you were a woman who fell in love with her job.

Jungkook immediately pulled you into a hug, giving you the warmth that you might needed, which indeed you did. You cried into his shoulders, letting the emotion that you’ve been holding flows. You convinced yourself to not cry yourself to sleep for a man whose heart belong to another. But now that you are letting it burst, you can’t help but think that Taehyung was more than just an ordinary man.

It took you some time but you finally calm down. Jungkook never once stopping from caressing your back gently. You hugged him even tighter, scared that his warmth will be gone if you pulled away. To your distaste however, he pulled out first. Your eyes immediately search for his.

“Wait here, I’m going to make you some tea” he said as he got up from his seat.

You were left alone with your thoughts and honestly, at this point, your mind was too crowded. You can’t help but feel numb. The long forgotten trust issue coming back to you. You promised yourself that you’d never love again. Your eyes staring into nothing. 

You didn’t know how long, but your train of thoughts finally break when the door to your office was opened, revealing Jungkook with a cup of tea in his hand.

The smell of jasmine tea was filling your smelling sense. A little calmness seeping into you. You thanked him as he put the tea down onto your desk. You took a sip of it, letting the warm tea console your cold body.

“Hey, I need to do my works, but if you need me, I’m just a buzzer away” Jungkook said with a comforting smile.

You give him a small smile back. “Thank you” you said before he left your office.

That was also the start of the downfall.

You start to push people around you far. Diving more into your work. An unhealthy amount of overtime. You knew you made a mistake when even Jungkook left you. That argument one night in your office, of how you complain about his deserve-to-be-called-perfect work, how you said there’s always something wrong about how he done his work, and how you ended up saying things about him personally. And that’s when Jungkook decided that he had enough of you. He immediately asked to the Human Resource Department to move him, and that they did. You knew you messed up when Jungkook finally went away.

But you were so convinced that he would leave you anyway sooner or later. You ignored the signs. And now your friendship is as strained as ever. You continued on with your life, pretending like he means nothing, but just another employee. You pushed him away. The feeling of having a friend, someone to trust to, suddenly feel foreign to your liking.

But it’s not like it’s your fault alone. 

Jungkook also pushed you away. Slowly he started to talk less to you. His professional and personal life got too complicated when his fiancée demanded for a break up. Jungkook was more than heartbroken. They’ve been engaged for years. They even planned for a wedding.

But his love was greeted with a simple text message that just simply end their relationship. Over. A. Message.

“Not ready for marriage, let’s break up”

That’s it. Jungkook tried to make it work, believe it, he did. He called her what feels like thousand times, and no respond. He came back to his supposedly shared apartment only to find her belongings were no longer there. That’s it. She cut all contacts. Nothing. Just a single text message.

Both of you got too deep into each other’s problem and forgot that you both in pain.

You knew it was ten to midnight. And if it wasn’t for the constant buzz on your phone, indicating your mom’s call, you would have stayed here until the sun came probably. Your unhealthy amount of overtime reached into your mother’s ears, and she wasn’t liking it, not one bit.

You finally packed up your bag and made your way towards the lift. The feeling of fatigue finally hitting you. Your body screams for rest. Your mental screams for enough of stress. As the lift bell dings, you finally stood straighter preparing yourself to walk in. And the door opened. Revealing Jeon Jungkook to you.

God, you miss having him to talk to. Your deepest conscience telling you to apologise and fix things. But your ego is way too big for that. You have to admit that somewhere inside, you missed having him as a friend. And yet, you ignored it.

The lift ride was filled with nothing but silence. Both of you has so much things to say, but left unspoken.

Jungkook wanted to ask whether you have healed or no. Why would you want to go home this late. Please take care.

And you want nothing but to apologise.

But you both left them unspoken.

And so you both made your way home.

And then the next time you both encounter each other was at the late of night too. It was almost a month since then. You were just about to go home from now your normal checking out time. And him from overtime.

Jungkook was a little concerned. Your demeanour seem different once again. You look rather pale. Your eyes unfocused. Little droplets of sweat trickled down your forehead. And Jungkook was more than concern if you’re going home driving by yourself.

But somehow, he didn’t say anything. Truth be told, he was scared, but also felt foolish for doing that.

But you made a difference.

“Good night, Kook” you said as you left the lift. Jungkook eyes widened in surprised. He followed along behind you. He was about to reach out to you, want to offer himself to drive for you. But then he saw that you had a chauffeur with you, and so he stayed back.

What you both didn’t notice was,

Two eyes, sadly but also curiously, been observing you from the tower beside yours.

It was 9pm. Jungkook was just home from the bar. Him and his colleagues made a quick stop there. Not to celebrate anything really, just to let some steam off their body and mind. Jungkook wasn’t drunk. To his disappointment. As much as he’d like to drink like there’s no tomorrow, he has family matter to attend tomorrow, and one hell of a workload. 

So he found himself here in his apartment. He took a shower before changing into his grey sweatpants from his formal suit. He did some small workouts, if he can’t get drunk, then he’d sweat some bit. Doing his routine. He made himself some instant ramen, something he snorted at, as he promised himself not to touch the very thing once he graduated university. It’s not like he was too lazy to cook, it was just because he only has that in his cupboard. He hasn’t got the time to do grocery really.

He laid on his bed once he’s done. The comfort of his bed taunting him to go straight for sleep, but he knows better. He has things that need to be done, the thing that very much cockblocked him from getting drunk. He sighed. He pulled out his macbook, plugged in his USB, and got back into work. The only perk from this was he could work in comfortable manner.

But of course. He can’t focus on even one word. His minds keep wandering to the most useless things. He sighed in frustration, hands messing with his own hair. He tried once again to focus, but he really can’t. He wondered if this is what exhaustion and unhealthy amount of workload did to you.

His eyes can’t help but wander to the digital clock on the right upper corner. He sighed. Of course he can’t focus. It’s twenty five minutes past ten in the night. He wants nothing but sleep. So he tried to situated himself like he was in the office.

But his mind unexpectedly wanders back to you. And your unhealthy obsession recently with overtime. He didn’t know if it was his gut feelings, but something unsettling overcome him.

He stood straighter. He didn’t know why, but he felt that something is wrong. He reached out for his phone. He tried to call you, in months, he finally called you, all because he felt like there’s something wrong, and yet he doesn’t even know why. His call was left ranging.  So he tried your office number. And yet no respond.

He felt even more uneasy. Anxiety start to fill him. Were you alright? But you would answer your calls in a heartbeat, no matter who. 

So he got up from his bed. He took his phone into the pocket of his sweatpants, his car key into his hand. It was late, and he found himself driving back to the office, all because he felt like something had happened to you. He almost found himself silly for it.

He ran out of his car as soon as he parked it. Thank god the security recognised him. He was met with the question, “Why are you here, this late?” The security asked.

Jungkook was almost out of breath, but he managed an answer. “Is y.n still here?” He asked.

The security raised an eyebrow. “If it’s not midnight, then yes” he said.

Jungkook immediately run towards the lift. As no one use it, it immediately open as soon as he pressed the button. He immediately went for your floor. He keeps jittering inside the lift. The lift was relatively fast, but to Jungkook, that moment was the longest lift ride in his life.

As soon as he arrived, he ran out of the lift towards your office. He stopped in front of your door. He knocked. ‘Right, this could be ridiculous’ he thought. But nothing came from the other side of the door.

He opened the door, decide to let himself in. And to his horror. You were on the floor. Passing out. Your hand was on your stomach. Jungkook ran towards your form. He shook your body. Frantically. “y.n, wake up, please wake up” he said in panic. He immediately went to hold your body bridal style, lifting you into the lift.

The security was more than shocked when he saw the lift door opened revealing Jungkook lifting you in his arms. 

“What happened?” He asked as he run towards you both.

“I don’t know, I found her on the floor” Jungkook said as he walk fast towards his car. Jungkook placed you gently on the back seat of his car. 

“Thank you for letting me in” Jungkook said to the security.

The security waved him off, “Just get Miss y.l.n to safety, be safe Jungkook” he said before Jungkook’s car went pass him.

For once, Jungkook thanked his gut instinct to lead him there, but also hating to be true. He saw how pale you were, your hair damp from cold sweat, your body warm. He drives you to the hospital.

As soon as he arrived, he immediately went for the emergency unit. Having you in his arms once again. Thankfully a nurse immediately came to his aid, leading him to a bed where you’ll be taken care of.

“I found her passing out in the office, her body was kinda warm-“

“Sir, please calm down, she’ll be okay” The nurse cut when she saw Jungkook frantic.

The doctor check you, your vitals and all. Jungkook can’t even remember what was what. All he remember was panic filling him, as he watched you being taken care of, he can’t find himself leaving you for some reason.

The doctor turned to him once she’s done. “Seems like she got a fever, and gastritis, has she been under any stress lately?” She asked.

“She’s been taking an unhealthy amount of overtime I admit, for months, diving into her work, and nowadays, or well since a month ago, she went home at almost midnight” Jungkook said.

The doctor shook her head. “Well, that needs to stop or it’s going to be more dangerous, I’m guessing that’s where her gastritis came from, it’s probably from the stress, so please take care of her Sir” she said. “It would be ideal if she take some day off for two or three days if possible” she added before she went to the other patients.

Jungkook took a seat beside your bed. Hands reaching for yours. His fingers brushing off the hair that was on your face, when he noticed you slowly opened your eyes. He gave you a smile. “Hello” he greeted.

You looked at him in confusion. “Jungkook?” You asked, voice hoarse. Jungkook hummed in response.

“Where are we?” You asked.

“Hospital” he answered nonchalantly. “You passed out in your office when I found you” he said.

You looked at his attire. He certainly doesn’t look like someone who was in the office. And seems like Jungkook noticed you were staring. And so he snorted. “No y.n, I didn’t work in this attire, I was from home” he said.

“Then w-“

“y.n!” A voice suddenly interrupted. Both you and Jungkook looked towards the intruder.

Chill running down your spine. You want nothing but leave the hospital as soon as you saw it. There you saw him.

Kim Taehyung.

Jungkook looked at the both of you. For some reason, he felt dumb to be here now. So he excused himself, leaving the two of you alone. He didn’t know that all you wanted was for him to stay, to keep you sane, and from tackling down the man that was intruding.

“What do you want?” You said, voice came colder than you mean to. You can’t even help it.

“Are you okay?” Taehyung asked. He stood near the corner of your bed, too scared to sit beside you. “I saw Jungkook held you from the office, and so something must be wrong” he added.

You rolled your eyes at the question. “Or maybe it could be that we’re dating, but whatever Taehyung, just go home and leave me alone” you said.

“I’m sorry…” he suddenly apologised.

You sat up on your bed, setting your feet down, and stood from your bed. “Well, I don’t really know what you’re apologising for, and we’re long done, and I don’t want anything to do with you anymore Kim, have a great night” you said before you left him standing there, searching for Jungkook you went.

You immediately grab his hand when you found him, wanting nothing but going home at this point. “Let’s go home” you said to him, almost begging.

Jungkook looked at you. He laughed at how you look. You were hesitating to look back, afraid Taehyung would be there. “Don’t worry, he isn’t there” he said as you both walk towards the counter to pay.

“What makes you think I’m scared of him? I’m not!” You said.

“You’re not, but it’s clear that you just want to disintegrate when he’s in the same room as you” he joked.

You hit his arm playfully. “Just take me home, Jeon” you said.

You hate hospitals, but you have to admit, you missed joking around with Jungkook, even if it has to happened in a damn hospital.

‧₊˚✩彡.----‧₊˚✩彡.

You immediately went for your room once you arrived. You changed into your pyjamas, making yourself comfortable in your bed. You started to feel drowsy.

“You better keep your eyes open, because I’m going to cook you something y.n” Jungkook said while standing by the door of your bedroom.

You rolled your eyes. “God, is this what sleep paralysis like?” You joked.

Jungkook snorted at your words. “Not my fault, that someone had to work unhealthily, and now have a gastritis, I need to fill that tummy with some food, don’t I?” He teased you before he walked towards your kitchen.

He opened your refrigerator. Much to his luck, all he needed to do was reheat the food that your mother had sent. He reheat the chicken soup that was placed inside a thermos, before placing it into your bowl.

He went back to your room. He found you had fallen asleep. He hated to woke you up, but he had to. He gently shook your body, awaking you. You whined, wanting to sleep. “I’ll feed you, come on” he said. You opened your eyes grumpily, giving him your best death glare, and he chuckled.

“Why are you chuckling? You should be scared!” You whined.

“What makes you think I’m scared of you?” He asked back. His hand feeding you the soup.

And just like that, you fell into playful banter with him as he fed you. It’s almost like nothing had happened. And you both enjoy the moment while it lasts. Yet unspoken things left unspoken.

The next day, you felt kind of better. Thanks to the medication and Jungkook, you thought. Well, in fact, you felt lots better since forever. It’s like a heavy weight had been lifted off of you. For the first time in forever, you prepared your morning in a light mood, you found yourself humming softly to a song. 

However, when you arrived at the office, you found Jungkook nagging at you. “Why are you here?” He said. You gave him a sheepish smile. You knew he told you not to come today, or even take a vacation to Europe or something. 

“I’m doing my duty as an employee, sir” you said in a joking manner. Jungkook shook his head at you.

“I can see that, but I rather want it if you stay at home for a day or two” Jungkook said, playing along with you.

You hit his shoulder playfully. “I’m your boss, you brat!” You said. Jungkook laughed at you.

“Well boss, I’m sorry for this then” he said as he suddenly stop in his track. 

Seeing him stopped make you stop to. Your head tilted in confusion. “For what?” You asked.

“For this” Jungkook said as he grabbed a hold of your shoulder, making you turn around, leading you towards the exit door of the lobby.

“Jeon Jungkook!” You yelled as he still pushed you, all while giggling. You didn’t try to resist him either.

“It’s doctor’s word y.n, not mine” he said in fake disappointment.

You pouted when you found yourself back at your car, with Jungkook sitting on the driver’s seat, and you on the passenger seat. “Jeon Jungkook I swear to god, won’t you let me work?” You said.

“And let you overwork yourself to the point of death? No ma’am” he said, eyes focused on the road.

“Aren’t you supposedly working too?!” You sulked still with a pout.

“Well, if it wasn’t for certain someone, I would” he said in a matter of fact tone. You chuckled. “Beside, I know you would bail me out” he added followed by a wink.

You fake choked at him. “Don’t you dare wink on me” you said. To your horror however, the boy winked even more. “I’m going to kick you out of my Benz, keep doing that Jeon” you fake-threatened him, caused him to laugh.

“Just be quiet, you’re going to like where we’re going” he said.

“Yeah… sure thing Jeon” you said. But truth be told, you were kind of excited. But then again, Jungkook had always been good at making the littlest thing seem exciting to you.

You chuckled when you recognised the street he took. “Really Jeon? You brought me to an amusement park? What are we? Five?” You said.

Jungkook gave you a cheeky smile. “What? Everyone loves amusement park y.n, you are just boring” he said.

You scowled at him, not one to be beaten. “Oh come on, I would rather be at the office and working than wasting my time” you said jokingly.

“Well, let’s see what you think when we arrived” he challenged.

You can’t help but feel giddy when you step off the car. It’s like you are a teenager all over again. Though you tried to hide it, not wanting Jungkook to know. Adrenaline and excitement filling you.

“Y.n, I can practically see how you’re shaking in excitement from here” Jungkook teased when you both queuing for the entrance ticket.

“Shut up Jeon, I haven’t gone to the amusement park since forever, let me live a little” you said. Your eyes wandered. For a moment, you feel like convincing your company to build one out of impulsiveness.

You grab Jungkook’s hand once you walked past the entrance. You immediately went for the shop. “Jungkook, let’s buy those cute bandanas!” You said excitedly. For the first time in forever, you feel like a child again, and honestly, you weren’t complaining.

You can’t see, but Jungkook had a bright smile. It’s been so long since he saw you smile genuinely. Your smile has been very business-like, something that was shown for publicity. Your eyes have been void of emotion. And that day, he saw some colours coming back to you, and truth be told, Jungkook felt more than happy to see that.

It’s the way you excitedly grab him to here and there, and Jungkook wasn’t even complaining. He complied to you. He let you lead him to anywhere. He laughed along as you seemingly can’t stop your giggles. It’s funny really, because he was in his shirt and dress pants, and you were also in formal attire, but the way you both act making people think that you were both some high schoolers.

It’s like you both didn’t even notice you were walking hand in hand.

“I’m sorry I keep grabbing you, it’s your turn to choose then” you said when you realised.

Jungkook turn his head towards you and hummed in response. “No problem, I love the rides, you are great at choosing them, should give it a thought to turn it into your profession” he said in a joking manner.

You shook your head. “Nah, that’d make it lose the fun” you said, playing along.

You both took a seat on a bench, ice cream in hand. You almost laughed at how it seems so cliche, coming straight out of rom-com series. But when you both let go of each other’s hand, you had to admit it feels strange. Strange that you feel somewhat… disappointed.

And just like that, you both stay silent, enjoying each other’s accompaniment. Both fell into a deep thought. Both has too many things to tell and yet too little courage.

“Penny for your thought?” Jungkook asked, breaking the silence.

You gave him a little smile. “It’s just… I never apologised” you said.

“For what?”

“For the things I’ve said or maybe even done, for hurting you, for even making you get away”

Jungkook stayed silent, no words come up in his mind.

You grabbed his hand again with both of yours. Your action caught his attention, as he now looking at you. “I’m sorry for hurting your feelings, for pushing you away, my ego was too big, and I was so selfish, so… I’m sorry” you said. Sincerity filling your eyes. Jungkook can’t help but gulp.

“It’s not all your fault you know” he said.

Your eyebrows raised in confusion. “What do you mean?” You asked,

“My job and my personal problems got too complicated, I broke things off with my… ex fiancée, my mind was in jumbled, so for that, I’m sorry too” he said.

You shook your head, still confused on why he was apologising. “Jungkook I’m sorry to hear that and you don’t need to apologise for-“

“I pushed you too, and I’m sorry for that, we both too focused on our own problems when we need was each other” he elaborated.

You nodded and chuckled. You felt like a heavy weight has been lifted from your shoulders, and you sure Jungkook felt the same. “I feel better now that I’ve said it” you said.

Jungkook chuckled. “Same, all this time, I thought it’d be hard you know? But it was as simple as that” he added in.

You both looked at each other again. Smiling at each other. Fondness filling the both of you. 

You don’t know who leaned in first, but before you know it, your lips were on each other. His enveloping yours. You were too stunned, you were surprised. Your feelings were once conflicted. Too many thoughts went pass your mind. But nevertheless you kissed him back for a moment before you pulled away.

“Not now, kook” you whispered, loud enough for him to hear. Jungkook nodded in understanding.

“Right, I’m sorry for that” he apologised, but you didn’t say anything. Your heart was beating too fast. A bubbling sensation in your stomach. You were afraid.

After that day, neither of you mention it. Things went back to normal. You both went back to how you both originally was. But the kiss, neither of you dare enough to mention it.

You must admit, something had changed. You can feel and see the fondness in Jungkook’s eyes every time you stare into them. You can feel how your heart skips a beat when you were with him. You can feel how it feels more intimate now. But still, neither of you said a thing. Both too scared to do anything. You and him both were scared of past trauma, despite being each other’s strength on overcoming.

‘Too fast’ you both thought.

Holding hands has now become a somewhat normalcy for you both. It’s like almost instinctual for you both to held hands when you were together. And yet, neither of you make a move. It’s how sometimes Jungkook would ruffled your hair, gives you forehead kisses, and your heart would do its thing that it hasn’t done since forever. It’s how you would play with his fingers, let him put his head on your lap when he hang out at your place, and his heart would race in its cage. It’s how you both make each other feels so alive after being so dead for long enough.

It was a rather normal morning. You were walking into your office. Your coffee in one hand and your bag in another. Your secretary greeted you as you walked into your office, you gave her a nod of acknowledgement. You had to admit you missed seeing Jungkook in her seat, but maybe distance would do you good. Especially with the rather intimacy you both have now.

Once you open the door to your office however, a strangely pleasant scent filling your sense. At first you didn’t notice it as, but then as you start walking closer towards your desk, the stronger the scent had become, the clearer the sight of the source.

It was a bouquet of flowers. A bouquet of gardenia, to be exact.

Your eyes widened. You search for any clue on who might be the sender was. But no notes were given. You peeked out from your office door, caught your secretary’s attention.

“Have you seen anyone walking into my office before me?” You asked.

Your secretary shook her head in response. “No, ma’am” she said.

You went back into your office, questions appearing in your head. You admitted you were somewhat hoping it’d be from the person you had in mind.

You talked to Jungkoook about it when he drove you back home. You pouted as you were a curious person, who would be evil enough to keep such secrets, knowing very well you are curious in nature. 

“It’s so evil you know! Do you have any idea on who might this… secret admire might be?” You asked.

Jungkook chuckled in response. “How would I know y.n? I don’t work in the same floor with you anymore” he said.

“Still… I’m hoping that you would know” you said, pouting once again.

I’m hoping it’d be you.

The next week, another bouquet was placed on top of your desk. This time however, it’s a bouquet of pansy.

You smiled at the thought. Once again you told Jungkook about it, and he only laugh in response. He was being too passive about it and that made your suspicion of the sender being him intensified. But you said nothing, playing along with his strange reaction.

The next week, another bouquet appeared before you. You sighed and grabbed it. This time, it was a bouquet of amaryllis. 

Once again, you told Jungkook about it. And again, Jungkook gave you a passive reaction, compared to his reaction about other things. At this point, you just wanted him to come out, he was acting strange about the whole thing, and this make you even more sure that he was the sender. But you said nothing.

The next week, you planned to go earlier to work. That way, maybe you could caught the culprit in action. You were excited, because now you were more than sure you’re going to caught this person.

Oh, how surprised were you when arrived.

Not only there was a bouquet of white chrysanthemum, this time however, the bouquet comes along with the sender.

There was sitting on your office couch, Jeon Jungkook, with a bouquet in his hand.

He stood up when you arrived. He rubbed the back of his neck as he once again felt nervous. He swore he was prepared, but then you came, and there goes his nerve.

You chuckled as you walked closer to him. “You want to explain something, Jeon Jungkook?” You asked.

He chuckled back. “I know you probably know it’s me, but let’s pretend that you don’t” he said. His eyes now staring into yours. You both can’t help but break into a smile, heart soaring. You both giggled as you keep staring into each other.

Jungkook placed the bouquet on your desk before he grab a hold of your hands. His eyes staring onto your hands that were in his. You chose to stare at him in adoration.

“Would you go on a date with me?” He asked.

You break into giggles once again. The happiness in your heart can’t be contained any longer. “I don’t know Jungkook, would I?” You teased.

Jungkook laughed and threw his head back. “Aw damn, you make me real nervous, you know that” he joked before his eyes stare back into yours.

You gave him a bright smile. You swore you never smile this bright after the whole fiasco in your life. “Sure, I’ll clock out at 5” you said.

“Great, I can’t wait” Jungkook said, giddiness filling him. “See you then, y.n” 

You shook your head as he made his way out of your office. You chuckled. It finally really went to this you thought.

You just really can’t focus on your meetings really. Not when all that you thought about was the date you have later with Jungkook. And it doesn’t help that Jungkook is out there, sending you messages, knowing very well you were in a meeting. But you weren’t complaining, the meeting was rather unproductive anyway.

As soon as the clock hit 5, you immediately out of your seat. You were almost embarrassed at how quickly you fly out of your seat. Your secretary flinched the door to your office was opened, revealing you, with your bag in hand. You never went out of work this early in her whole time with you.

“Good thing that I decide to go early today, have a nice evening Lisa!” You said to her before you made your way towards the lift. 

You were honestly nervous. You were never this excited for a date. Who would have thought that you will go on a date with Jeon Jungkook? No one! Not even you!

Well maybe your coworkers would disagree.

You waited for him as you sat on the couch at the lobby. You played with your phone as the time keep passing. You grew more nervous as Jungkook is nowhere to be seen. His hair strand is out of your sight and you were rather… scared.

And so you decided to messaged him.

you, 5:15pm: Hey, we’re still on right? I’m waiting at the lobby :)

you, 5:20pm: do you have a meeting? discussion? Come heeere im lonely :(

And yet your messages went unread. Your chest deflated. Your start to grow more anxious. Did you really just get ditched? You can’t help but feel that disappointment come over you. Your thoughts went everywhere, thinking about the negative possibilities of what was happening.

Kookie, 5:32pm: Sorry, I have an emergency, let’s reschedule it

Well now you really were disappointed. You feel like shame is running down your body. You were excited for nothing. You waited for nothing. You’re going to end this not really fine Friday night with your rose wine back at your too-big-for-one penthouse.

You walked solemnly towards your car. You were a little bit pissed to be honest, but you tried to understand. Jungkook was busy, and you tried to understand, it could be his family matter for all you care.

But the sight at the parking lot however, now that made you feel foolish. Now you ended up with feeling betrayed. Just when you thought your day couldn’t get any worse.

There Jungkook, with his supposedly ex-fiancée. You didn’t know what they were talking about, and honestly you were scared to find out what. They could be talking about getting back together.

You felt a pang in your heart. This feel like a deja vu. You felt like the other person in someone else’s relationship again. You just want to get out of there as soon as possible. It didn’t help really that Jungkook had to be in the vicinity where if you walk towards your car, he’d notice.

And so you did. You brace yourself. Now you really need that wine. You could see Jungkook noticing your presence from your peripheral view as you walked. You really tried to pretend like he wasn’t there.

But of course he made it difficult for you.

“y.n-“

“Just… you don’t have to explain okay? I get it Jungkook” you cut. You really don’t want to hear his explanation. You were scared you would be hurt once again… more than you already were.

And so you did. You went into your car without letting him say a word other than your name.

You really hate how your Friday night turn out. Here you were, heart broken, heart fill with disappointment and hurt all over again. This is so familiar to you, and it left a rather bitter taste in your mouth. You were the third person all over again, the one that get in the way. 

And yet you feel ridiculous. Jungkook wasn’t even your boyfriend, and this make you feel undeserving for feeling this way.

Your house doorbell ringing woke you from your trance. You tightened your night robe a you walk towards the door. You didn’t bother to check your monitor intercom for some reason.

But the person behind the door was someone you didn’t expect to be. In fact, you don’t expect him to ever come here, ever, again.

“What are you doing here Kim Taehyung?” You asked, your voice cold and yet tired.

“I remember I have some documents left- wait, are you okay?” He asked as he noticed that your eyes were a little bit puffy.

You can’t help but roll your eyes. “Get it another day, when I’m not home” you said. You were about to close the door on him when he put his foot in between, not letting you.

“Kim Taehyung, just fucking go” you hissed. 

“Not before you tell me what’s going on because I know damn well you were over our things”

“Not your fucking business! We are over as soon as you said those damn word, don’t you get it? I want nothing to do with you! Or anyone, so please just go!” You bursted. 

But Taehyung didn’t even flinch. “You are hurting, who hurt you?” He asked.

“Taehyung please just go, I’m tired okay?”

“It was Jungkook, wasn’t it?”

You froze. Hearing his name was somehow create reaction out of you. But you quickly recover. “Once again, not your business” you said. You attempted to close the door again, but Taehyung held it again.

“So it was him, what did he do?” Taehyung asked, for some reason you noticed that he sounded a little bit pissed, and you hated yourself for noticing that.

“Fuck off Kim Taehyung, just go, it’s seriously none of your business” you said, voice as cold as ever. Now Taehyung knew that he really need to go. And so he did. He finally back off.

Jungkook was distressed. He went home that night, feeling rather distressed. It wasn’t helping that you deliberately ignoring his messages. You were misunderstanding the situation and he didn’t know how to explain it to you. His phone ringing caused him to break out of his trance.

Kim Taehyung, 9:28pm: What did you do to y.n?

Kim Taehyung, 9:28pm: You know what? I don’t even want to know. She was my bestfriend at one point, and I messed up, so let me help to fix whatever it is happening between you two

Jungkook sighed. Getting a message from your ex husband was clearly something he wasn’t expecting. He expect the night to end with a smile on his face, or maybe get some kisses, but now here he was with lots of explaining to do.

Jungkook, 9:30pm: She saw me with my ex-fiancee, my ex fiancee want to get back together, but I don’t, but I guess she didn’t hear me saying that, I just, I don’t know hot to explain that to her

Kim Taehyung, 9:35pm: huh, I thought it’d be more complicated than that lmao

Kim Taehyung, 9:35pm: She loves flower and a damn good explanation though

It was eight in the morning when Jungkook found himself standing at your doorway, with a bouquet of flowers in his hand. Hand hesitating to ring the doorbell. He keeps reciting on what he’s going to say, and yet that doesn’t calm his nerve. But then he heard footsteps, walking towards the door. Call him a coward but he found himself putting the bouquet before the doorway before running away to hide himself. His hiding position was also perfect for him to see you.

You opened your door, about to go on morning run. Then you feel it that the door had pushed something that was on its way. You look down, finding the bouquet of flowers. You kneel before it, smile making its way, painting your face. Unlike the bouquets from before, it was mixed, from the very first flower you received which was gardenia, to the latest which was white chrysanthemum.

“Cute” you muttered to yourself.

You got up and looked around, secretly wishing that Jungkook would still be here.

“Jungkook?” You called out, hoping that you wouldn’t make a fool out of yourself. You swore you’d be damn embarrassed if he ended up being there.

Jungkook came out from his hiding place when you called his name. He rubbed the back of his neck, a habit that you noticed he did when he’s nervous. He walked closer to you. You only smiled at him.

“Hi?” You greeted. For some reason, seeing him here being all shy made you forgot about what happened yesterday, you can only hope he was here to bring you some good news.

“Hi” he greeted back, eyes finally looking into yours. “I’m sorry for yesterday, I’m sorry that I had to bail on you” he started.

“It’s okay kook, I-“

“No y.n, you misunderstood the situation, my ex was there because she suddenly said that she wanted to get back together, but I want none of that, okay” he said in one breathe. “I only want you now, and what was in the past… it’s all in the past now” he continued.

You chuckled. Truthfully, Taehyung actually messaged you about this last night, but you don’t have the heart to tell him that, beside, it’s nice to see him all flustered and nervous.

Your chuckle apparently got him confuse. Because why were you chuckling? He remembered you look rather disappointed last night. Were you going to reject him now? He was rather nervous hearing you chuckle.

“Jungkook-“

“I understand if you don’t want this anymore but-“

“Jungkook, look at me” you cut before he can rambled off. 

He stopped talking and look at you intently. You smiled once again, his nervousness was so apparent in his face. You want to tease him but clearly he was in misery, and you want to erase that trouble for him. 

So you leaned into him. You put both of your hands onto his cheeks, and pulled him closer to you.

You planted a kiss on his lips. A sweet peck. A smile making its way onto your face as you kissed him. Jungkook was freezing on his place, to say that he was surprised was an understatement. But he was quick to recover, he immediately kissed you back, smiling into the kiss.

“I knew” you whispered as you both pulled away.

“What?” Jungkook asked, a smile still painting his face.

“Taehyung told me about what happened, so I knew, but it was fun to see you all shy and nervous” you said in a teasing manner, making him scowled at you.

“Oh come on, my heart almost dropped to the floor when I heard you were chuckling, I thought you were going to reject me” he said. He sighed in relief at the outcome.

You grabbed his hand before you pulled him into the comfort of your home.

“I don’t know kook, I’m rather lazy to go on my morning run now, do you want to cuddle me instead?” You asked in a fake naive tone.

Jungkook chuckled and shook his head. “You, how was that even allowed to come out of your mouth really?” He said, before he leaned in again, pulling you into another kiss.

Epilogue

You were bored out of your mind. This kind of gala is really not your thing. You’d rather spent your night at your bedroom, cuddling with Jungkook. And that was almost the thing that you’d do if it wasn’t for Jungkook dragging you into the gala, and it’s funny really because the invitation was under your name, and he was your plus one. Or as Jungkook said, “It’s rude to not come, y.n”. You knew he was only convinced to come for the free food and champagne, although he denied this.

“Jungkook, come on, let’s go home, I’d rather cuddle you on my bed than be here” you whined into his ear. 

“Five more minutes y.n, come on” he told you.

“Okay but you better repay me with some ice cream” you huffed.

And that’s exactly what you were getting on your way back to your penthouse. Jungkook deliberately made a stop on your favourite ice cream parlour.

“You’re the best, you know that?” You said as you dived into your ice cream.

Jungkook watched you with a fond smile on his face. His heart was just so full of love. Seeing you adorably euphoric on the taste of the ice cream, it was a sight for the sore eyes really.

“I love you, you know that?” He said out of nowhere. 

You stopped eating your ice cream, giving him a sweet smile. “Uhuh, I love you too boo” you said, your voice was a pitch higher.

He chuckled and shook his head. “I know your birthday is still in a few days but… I think I’m just going to give this to you now” he said.

You raised an eyebrow at him, your ice cream is now abandoned. “You don’t have to get me anything kook” you said.

Jungkook sit closer to you, then he pulled out something from his blazer. It looks like a velvet box, and there’s only one thing that you can conclude. “I feel like I know where this is going” you said with a chuckle.

Jungkook looked back at you, chuckling along with you. “You do?” He asked.

“Yep” you answered, popping the ‘P’.

He took your hand into his. His bigger one enveloping yours, and it feels so warm, you don’t want to let go, ever.

“Then, what’s your answer? Would you marry me?” He asked, eyes staring into yours.

You break into giggles. Your palms reaching for his face, pulling him closer to you. You kissed him and smile into the kiss. Jungkook put his hands on your waist, pulling you closer more than you already were, deepening the kiss in the process.

“Of course I would” you said into the kiss. 

a/n: I’M BACK! Hello friends! I’m very sorry for the long hiatus, school had been extremely hectic :( also this is my first writing in forever, so i apologise if it’s bad ;-; but I’m happy to be back!

[rkyeji]

                  #5011 hwang yeji w/ #5002 - choi minho, #5018 - kang hyunggu,                   #5028 - lee chaeryeong & #5040 shin ryujin                       outfit (w/o cap) / hair style / nct - whiplash ( distribution ) mentioned: @rkmason, @rkkhg, @rkchaeryeong, @ryujinrk, @jinsoulrk, @rkpjy, @rktaeyang, @danielxrk, @rkdoyexn, @rksxna

there were many things that shocked her, the first thing was jinyoung's elimination and in her eyes it was not justified at all. why was she more worthy of staying? why was daniel more worthy? she didn't understand the logic at all-- why bring someone back only to eliminate them the next week. the female didn't approve of it not at all-- she looked over at her cousin and knew that the older male most likely felt horrible. in the end, she hoped that daniel wouldn't blame himself.

one thing she could say that she was excited about-- was her group for this week, they were all dancers and ryujin and her were finally in the same group. yeji felt excited-- she couldn't help but wonder how things would turn out this week, with minho in their group. the golden child of the mgas this season-- either way yeji wanted to put on a better performance this week now that she was with dancers, she couldn't helå but feel a little more relaxed compared to the previous two weeks. it had been fun in hindsight but while the week was going on, yeii had never been more frustrated with anything in her entire life.

when the coaches were announced yeji felt excited-- k.arma members but no kil. then again she liked doyeon and sana as well, jinsoul she remembered from the mgas last year but right now. yeji needed to focus but before that, minho took them out for something to eat which was nice. it was a first usually she would drop by hansol's apartment, things were slowly getting more and more serious. she was in the semis and needed to do well, yeji hoped she would do well.

they were sitting on the floor, contemplating what song they should do and what kind of performance they should present to the live audience and judges. it needed to be a performance that they were proud of and liked if they didn't like it was useless. yeji did find it weird to have 5 dancers in a group-- in a company that wasn't centered around dance. it had puzzled her mind a little but yeji was ready to adjust whatever she needed to adjust.

many songs left their lips, bts's not today, ikon's killing me, monsta x's shoot out and alligator. in the end they settled for whiplash. chaeryeong had expressed her concerns, this would be the third nct song that she performs but they all rallied around her and encouraged her. they would be mixing things up, making their own chores and writing raps-- even if the song was by them it would show a different side of them all.

yeji and hyunggu were responsible for the choreo while the other three worked on their raps-- she found herself intrigued by the creativity the other had. nodding to herself as they shot ideas at each other. having the music on in the background yeji tried out different moves along with hyunggu. minho and ryujin also have their feedback on the dance and came with ideas, ryujin suggested that they have somewhat of a dance battle with the choreo and then they decided to incorporate the fact that chaeryeong had been insecure in the start but now was confident.

during the week, yeji felt ryujin's presence and after last week when she had seen the younger get sick she felt worried about her. yeji didn't want ryujin to go to hard, in case she would get sick again.

"ryujin ah, you should rest," she told the younger and urged her to sit down and take her time. they were on good way and this week, was not half as stressful for either of them, "we can do this ok?" she nodded, smiling at the younger. she reached out her hand and petted the youngers head. yeji and ryujin had gone to the same high school-- yeji was a year older and had graduated before her but in the end and now-- they were finally grouped. yeji was honestly excited but at the same time worried about ryujin's health. so she urged the female to rest multiple times. giving her a water bottle so that she would stay hydrated.

one person yeji was grateful for this week was jinsoul, when the trainee approached yeji she wondered if the older would tell her not to sing but instead, she was encouraged and given advice. jinsoul gave her advice on how to take care of her voice and keep it in good shape, at first yeji was surprised that she would have to take care of it but it made sense. just like a dancer has to take care of their body-- a singer needs to take care of their voice and yeji wanted to be able to sing well, not as well as she danced but she wanted to be able at least carry this group a little vocally.

- day of the performance -

while watching the 1st performance from her seat yeji felt excited, the groups had prepared great stages today and everyone looked like they had gotten extremely used to performing at this point. it lights a fire inside yeji, the competitiveness that she hadn't really felt before today. she wanted to do well-- do better and she wanted her group to do the best. there were plenty of better singers in this competition, better than yeji but she needed to sing with confidence regardless. she had things to give as well and that is what she wanted to show with this performance.

when it was their turn, yeji turned to ryujin. she gave the youngers hand a soft squeeze before walking onto the stage. there they found their spot and ryujin started them off with, "we are your," then they all said in unison, "antidote." it was cheesy and yeji remebered when she had suggested it, she didn't think that they would go with it but in the end... it was like this and she felt a little embarrassed by it.

they got into their positions, gave the sign when they were ready and then when the music started ryujin's voice could be heard before hyunggu's voice rang as he started them off in the chorus. yeji followed up with him before, she sang confidently and comfortably, the chorus wasn't what she was nervous about. they danced smoothly, all while dancing. yeji herself wondered when she had improved as much as she had and she wondered if her improvement had gone completely under the radar for most. maybe-- if she could sing the bridge well later she would be able to show everyone that she had potential.

like that, they danced throughout the song, through rap verses and two more choruses-- then when yeji sang the last line for her chorus she started singing the bridge. it was only her and hyunggu that were moving at this point. yeji remembered how she had asked jinsoul for advice, the original singer had a nice voice and she worried about the last note. would she be able to pull it off? her? jinsoul had given her the advice-- tackle the note head-on. without fear. yeji remembered that whenever she practiced it during the week, she had messed it up a couple of times. not because she couldn't hit it-- she had been able to hit it once, all she needed was the practice to hit it.

the bridge started, back in real time-- she had flashbacks to jinsoul's advice, tackle the note head on. sing with confidence and yeji sang, just like she had done in practice only now it mattered. now she couldn't afford to make a mistake. when the last line started she raised her voice a little, hitting the falsetto and then doing a short run before letting it fade out. confidently-- she had been able to deliver the line without a mistake.

soljikhage malhaejwo (ne mam geudaero) dalkomhan kaendiboda sseun keopi (wonhae) deutgie joeun maldeureun (jamshippun) nal kkaeul jinshimi piryohae nan nega piryohae

yeji was excited but she couldn't show it, instead she continued on with the performance-- the instrumental of the last part of the song played as they had their dance battle. yeji and ryujin vs minho and hyunggu, chaeryeong looking upon them as they danced, it was ironic-- she had been the one that hesitated about their song pick and now chaeryeong was the one to gather them together. it ended with all of them dancing together-- yeji put on a confident smile as the rappers delivered one line each. chaeryeong in the center, they struck the last pose and the music ended shortly after.

yeji could hear the crowd cheering for them as they finished, the feeling rushed through her. this was exhilarating-- she hadn't felt this alive while performing, hearing the crowd cheering for them as they finished. yeji smiled brightly and bowed, waving at the audience as she walked off the stage.

[tarot4bangtan-blog]

Introduction

Why I’m starting this blog and what kind of blog it will be:

Hi all! This introduction will hopefully find everyone interested in reading the predictions I post on the blog because I think the context is a huge motivation behind going public with my private tarot readings for BTS.

Right off the bat I have to give a shout out to @btstarot for inspiring me to make this account and I want to be clear about that, because many of my predictions currently (and will likely continue to) echo her own. I respect her so much as a reader and in no way wish to call her out, but I was one of the private readers who recently approached her with questions hoping to confirm some of my own recent readings on the group and her reaction (which she made clear was not just directed at me but at the fact that I was one of many who did something similar) was too publicly refuse to discuss the predictions of other readers. This genuinely surprised me since I was so excited when I discovered her accounts. It seemed like the perfect place to compare and discuss readings with all the other people who periodically look in on the boys with their cards but she was very defensive about whether or not I even read cards since she couldn’t seem to understand why I would have to ask for confirmations on my own readings from another person (a sentiment she repeated publicly on her twitter). I suppose I understand this logic on some level, and while I support her decision to delete all questions from people claiming to be readers, I think there should be a place where all private readers can discuss and confirm their readings on the boys without having to make blogs themselves. Theres no need for a million accounts all predicting the same things, which was exactly why I never considered making one myself as all of my predictions seemed to line up with hers so I thought it was unnecessary to just repeat everything she said.

But perhaps my blog WOULD have something different to offer. Perhaps my goal can simply be to both support her readings with my own as I know she gets a lot of people who argue with what her cards tell her, while making myself open to all people who want to discuss the info they themselves have gotten on BTS from their own predictive tools. I firmly believe that every intuitive person has a different perspective to offer, and perhaps if I can aggregate not just my own readings but those of people who don’t wish to suffer through the drama of running a controversial prediction account I can shed some light on a more fuller picture. Since not all info is appropriate to post, I welcome questions from readers who have seen the crazy things going on inside BTS and BH right now and yes that brings me to the infamous WOMAN.

So first I have to mention @btstarot again because she has said she has done a reading about a mystery woman currently affecting the group but she has given really no details, only promising to post the two readings she has already completed very soon.

I struggled with the timing of making this blog. Should I wait until she posts the big reveal that we’re all waiting for? Or would it be better to post something now, AFTER she claims to have already done her reading, so that we can help confirm the details we are both getting on her. The truth is, this woman is the very reason I approached her account in the first place. I saw her coming into the picture more heavily around this time about a month ago but the details were so insane I barely believed them. So I thought messaging her privately would allow me to confirm what I’d seen with a reader I trusted just because I myself couldn’t trust my own info it was so strange. Well, she made her feelings known by blocking me and I fully respect that. Obviously I should have gone deeper into her history to see she claims not to like to discuss the boys love lives. That was my mistake.

Well, I can understand that but this is different. This woman isn’t just a love interest, she’s a catalyst for a huge change in the company dynamic. She only has a relationship with one member and the details are strange so I’m still sussing them out but I think talking about this relationship is about more than just shipping gossip. It’s a relationship that going to bring the horrible things the entire group has had to endure for years up to the surface and it’s going to expose the horrors hidden between the lines of their slave contracts. What the member has been through to simply ATTEMPT to be in a relationship with her despite the company trying to maintain it’s iron tight control over him is astounding. And the biggest reason I feel comfortable going public with these predictions is that the member himself has internally decided to begin speaking out as best he can. He’s just very limited with how he can currently express himself.

Now, as I said I really debated whether or not I should post my reading on this woman now since @btstarot has one in the works, but after thinking about it I believe this is the best way to see if the readings she has already completed match the info I’ve been getting for weeks. The things is, I literally do not where to start with this girl other than basic info which I’ve narrowed down to this:

1. I believe she is an American citizen and has lived there her whole life. I can’t possibly know her full genetic background but she LOOKS very very very fair colored which indicates probably mostly white if not 100% caucasian. And I do not believe she speaks any language other than English.

2. She is 25-26 years old, but I believe her connection is to one of the younger members.

3. She is the daughter of a prominent farming family from the south. Possibly an agricultural heiress. I do not know why this specific detail keeps coming up other than a clue as to perhaps how she first came in contact with the member. This also explains why I can’t get a good reading on her career other than future business aspirations.

Beyond these details are many strange pieces of info I would love to discuss with others who read cards or make predictions and perhaps together we can suss out a picture of who this woman really is and how her relationship with this member will bring a positive change to the boys’ current situation. So while I anxiously await the readings from the @btstarot I will open up this blog for any and all questions about this woman and what the cards have told me about the events of this weekend which caused a disturbance just before the show in Seoul. I am not here to contradict anyones predictions or theories mind you, I just want a place where I can connect with others with different opinions and perspectives and together (along with the strides @btstarot has already taken, and hats off to her) I believe we can bring to light a side of the industry that is currently suffocating a grown adult’s right to make his own decisions. If my readings turn out to be confirmed by others then I will publicly aggregate the findings here, and my heart will go out to the members negatively affected by the chaos that possibly occurred on the 20th and was just barely covered up by the company in time before there could be a scandal.

[melonkooky]

bts reaction - a girl tries to get into their s/o’s pants

requested

genre: angst??? fluff??? idk, business!au, mafia!au

warnings: sexual hinting/references

author’s note: i always put ‘s/o’ in the title but in this reaction, it’s their gf that gets hit on by another girl and bts get jealous. also, i hope you don’t mind but there are two au’s in this reaction. and this is probably more sexual than it needed to be... i apologize for everything 😂😂😂

please do not copy my work. but please like and and reblog it. thank you!!!!

masterlist

kim seokjin

kim seokjin was invited to a very important party. he had been promoted to ceo of this company. seokjin was liked throughout the entire company so many wanted to celebrate with him. but of course, seokjin would not attend if his girlfriend wouldn’t be able to, but that would never be a problem. tonight, you wore a lovely gown, one that wrapped your figure perfectly, one that caused many of your unique features to stand out. as this was a big party, seokjin wanted to show you of to everyone. he was very excited about meeting new people and being the center of attention at this party, he stated to you in the car. you laughed at him. when you arrived, seokjin told you to find your friends, you had a few at the company. but they weren’t seen so you got a drink and sat at the bar. you glanced over your shoulder to fine seokjin. he was sitting with a few managers and they seemed to be laughing at a joke seokjin said. you turned around and suddenly, a girl sat down in the seat next to you. you smiled, thinking she just wanted to talk but she was already drunk. “you’re y/n.”

you nodded. “ah, i always wanted to meet you.” then she leaned closer to your ear. “why don’t we ditch this place and go to my car? it had soft, leather seats.” she said seductively.

you pulled away and looked at her. she had a mischievous smile. was she suggesting to do something in the backseat of her car? she laughed at your reaction and placed a hand on your thigh. “you look hot in that dress. i wonder what you would look like with it off.”

and suddenly, seokjin appeared behind you. “oh, cherry, you’re already drunk. that’s not a surprise. i’d appreciate it if you didn’t hit on my girlfriend.” he said with an innocent smile.

she glared at him and fled. seokjin smiled proudly, sitting down. you stared at him, still a bit shocked at the sudden turn of events. “how about a drink, love?”

min yoongi

you and yoongi had stopped by a convenience store on the way home. well, mainly you begged him to drive you there. you wanted some snacks for at home and they were always cheap at convenience stores. plus, you liked dates at the convenience store. they were cute. luckily, it was late so the store was empty. you walked into the store, yoongi following behind you. he was tired but you were hungry - priorities, yoongi. you began to weave between all the aisles, trying to find something that would fit your stomach’s needs. occasionally, yoongi would grab something for himself. eventually you came to the ramen aisle. ramen was always a good late night snack. yoongi patiently waited for you to grab the kind you wanted. “hey, grab to of those, will you?” he asked you quietly, deciding that he was hungry too.

you grinned at him and got two. then you and him got to the cashier. he reached into his pockets but he couldn’t fine anything. “i left my wallet in the car. stay here.” he told you and went out.

you looked at the female cashier in front of you. she was scanning the items but kept glancing at you. it made you think if you have ever met her before, it was like she knew you. but then you noticed the blush in her cheeks when you smiled at her out of politeness. “ramen is my favorite too.” she commented. you simply nodded, feeling awkward by yourself. what was taking yoongi so long? they bell on the door rang, yoongi had walked in again.

“hey, i get off in a few minutes. you want to wait for me and then i can take you to my place?” she bit her lip, looking at your with hopeful eyes.

yoongi shook his head as he wrapped an arm around your shoulder, the wallet in his hand. “she can’t. her boyfriend - me - is taking her home. so if you could take my card and not pay any attention to my girlfriend, that would be splendid.

you just didn’t say a word. yoongi said it so passive-aggressively, he really was jealous.

jung hoseok

(i’m sorry i have a thing for hoseok and clothes shopping). 

you and hoseok decided to dedicate a day to shopping. even if he already had a lot of expensive clothes, many probably designer clothing, he still found enjoyment in shopping, especially if you were with him. you and him would joke around and try on clothes you were never even think on buying, sometimes turning the dressing room into a fashion show. but today, hoseok had his wallet and was planning on buying things for both you and him. when you entered the store, a girl specifically greeted you. “hello, today we’re having a 30% off sale.” you nodded and thanked her before following hoseok. eventually, hoseok had found an assortment of clothes to try on, many airport fashion worthy outfits. the same lady approached you and hoseok. “do you need a dressing room?” hoseok nodded and she led him to a vacant room. you followed and then took a seat on the couch directly in front of hoseok’s room. as he disappeared behind the door, the lady approached you again. she sat down next to you and that kinda annoyed you, like doesn’t she have a job to do. she began to speak, “you know, it’s ironic how i work at a clothes store, but all i could think about was you without any clothes on as soon as you walked in.”

you gulped, feeling very uncomfortable. “um, if you could like, do your job.”

she grinned. “ah, playing hard to get, aren’t we?”

suddenly, hoseok opened the door, revealing the first outfit. he flashed a grin at the lady next to you. “you trying to get into my girlfriend’s pants?”

she froze.

he nodded, “yeah, i bought those pants so technically, only i can get into them. bye now.”

he was rude yet so hot. he smiled at you, feeling shy at what he just did. “i got so mad that she was hitting on you.” he admitted.

kim namjoon

namjoon was a well-known mafia boss leader. he and bts were rumored to be the most scariest mafia groups in all of south korea. their name ‘bts’ was rumored to stand for ‘bulletproof boy scouts’, that alone sounded scary. but being the leader meant meeting others for alliances or money or missions. namjoon always brought you along because you seemed to be lucky, having gotten him many deals. today, it was alliance. this was a relatively new mafia leader who wanted to establish alliances. he asked you and namjoon to dinner, to which namjoon accepted. when you and namjoon arrived at the restaurant, you were showed to a private room. inside, there was what seemed to be the leader, and there was a girl next to him. she smiled at you as you entered. you sat across from her, namjoon sitting next to you. “i’m chongsu. this is my daughter jungah.” he introduced. so then namjoon introduced himself and you and then the talking began, the getting to know each other-joking type of talked right before a deal is made. however, you and jungah weren’t included so she decided to talk to you. you thought you would become friends with her but she seemed to have other intentions. “are you free this coming friday?”

you shook you head. “why?”

“i just renovated my place and my bedroom,” she leaned closer to you and lowered her voice, “had a few secret places where i hide my toys.”

you grimaced and looked at her. “my boyfriend is literally right here.”

namjoon’s heard you and looked at you. “is she hitting on you?”

“she’s trying to get me to have sex with her.”

namjoon suddenly stood up, flashing a glare to both the daughter and the boss. “well, no deal here. sorry, we got to go now.” he kissed your cheek and pulled you out of the restaurant. “no one’s going to be stealing my girl.”

park jimin

jimin had called you early in the morning, much to your disliking. you had planned to sleep in late into the morning, since jimin told you he was going to be hanging out with someone. he called you saying he had a change of plans and actually wanted you to meet this person, not giving any clues as to who this person was. you got up and showered, getting dressed after. now that you were awake, you felt a little excited to meet this person. when you arrived at the dorm, jimin answered and hurried you since. “morning, jagi.”he pecked your lips. then when you walked in, there was a girl sitting on the couch. she stood up and smiled. “jagi, this is my cousin eunbi. she had come from busan to visit me. apparently she hadn’t met you yet.” you had been dating jimin for a many months and you’ve met almost his entire family, guess just not his cousin. she was very nice and pretty. you felt that you and her were going to be great friends since she was similar to you. while you and her were talking, jimin had to use the restroom. while he was gone, she turned to you. “i can’t hide this feeling anymore. i think you’re very hot, and you’re funny, and nice. yes, your jimin’s girlfriend, but what if you took me to your place and we...do some things...on the bed?” she winked.

“um, eunbi...”

she scooted closer and placed her hand on your thigh, stroking it a bit. “you just look so...good. i can only imagine you without clothes on and how good you’d taste.” you froze at all these things that were on her mind. luckily, jimin walked out and saw her hand on you. “eunbi, why are you touching my girlfriend like that?”

“i’m sorry, jimin. i just couldn’t help myself, she just looks so... and i only recently found that i’m bisexual so i have all these new feelings for girls-”

jimin sighed, not wanting to be rude. “i understand but y/n is my girlfriend, please don’t touch or talk about her like that.” jimin felt bad for snapping at her like that. “but i do know some friends who would be interested.”

kim taehyung

taehyung wanted to take a nice walk with you. it was a warm day, a nice, gentle breeze, a perfect day for a walk, he said. and it was. so you and him got dressed, clothes worthy enough for couple goals type pictures. then, hand in hand, you two found a lovely park full of trees and a nice track to follow. you and him took lots of pictures of each other, some posing and others when you or him weren’t looking. mostly it was him taking or asking you to take pictures. “i’m going to post them on twitter later.”

then, when nearing a playground, a little girl approached him. “uh, mister. do you think you can push me on the swing? my-my mom won’t do it.” taehyung’s eyes widened and looked at who this little girl was pointing to. sure enough, the mother was on her phone when she should be watching her child. taehyung felt bad so he flashed you a smile before picking the girl up. she laughed and your heart swarmed with love. such...daddy...material. as you were left behind, you took a seat at the bench provided by the playground. you smiled and watched the little girl smile so wide as taehyung placed her in the swing. you wished that little girl was your child, honestly she was adorable. but then a girl sat down next to you. “are any of them yours?” she asked.

you pointed to taehyung. “that one’s mine.” you joked.

she laughed but then scooted closer to you. “well, how about you and me leave him here and we go do something...more fun...at my place?”

taehyung noticed the girl earlier, she was watching you and now he saw that she was talking to you. he felt a pang of jealousy as this girl obvious was hitting on his girl. so he told the girl he had to go, much to her dismay, and approached you, sitting down behind you and wrapping his arms around you. “she’s off the market.”

the stranger scowled, just wanting to have a little sex... but taehyung grinned proudly.

jeon jungkook

jungkook and you were practically sweating inside your apartment. your heating and cooling machine thing that controlled the temperature of your apartment broke in the morning. thought the day wasn’t particularly hot, with the sun shining though the windows and having no ac was enough to warm up the room. wearing little to no clothes didn’t seem to do the trick. “why don’t we get ice cream?” you suggested to your boyfriend while he sat on the couch.

he looked down at you, you were on the floor desperately trying to cool yourself down. he smiled, “bet the ice cream shop has working air conditioning system.” 

so you and him got dressed and headed down to your favorite ice cream shop. the cute bell above you rang as jungkook opened the door, signalling the workers that someone had entered. jungkook asked you what you wanted and then told you to get a booth. you found one in the corner and sat down, pulling out your phone. not even seconds later, a girl sat down directly in front of you. “hey, cutie.”

you stared at her, “um, miss-”

“jimin. i saw you walk in and i just had to talk to you. can i have your number? i would love to see you again.” man this girl talks fast.

before you could reply, jungkook appeared, two bowls of ice cream in his hands. “you cannot have my girlfriend’s number. can you please leave us alone now?” jungkook glared at the girl, annoyed that she even made a move on you in the first place.

your eyes widened at how straightforward jungkook was, normally he was much more sweeter or at least polite. but no, he must have been really annoyed or...jealous...

[bantan]

JP FC Vol. 2 - My Biography with BTS: SUGA edition

BTS JAPAN OFFICIAL FANCLUB MAGAZINE VOL.2

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My Biography with BTS: SUGA edition

A corner to look back on how the members were raised. Volume 2 features the calm and fatherly presence, SUGA!

Growing from a cheeky child to a boy who loved books

I was born in Daegu, the third city of southern South Korea, and raised there until I moved to the capital. I was a very normal child when I was younger. I liked to fool around, so I don’t think my kindergarten teachers liked me very much. (laughs) I remember they’d scold me to “Be careful!” a lot. I liked sports and I was good at running. I was chosen as a relay athlete from primary school all the way to high school. Study-wise, I was above average.

I liked to play with my friends outside when I was young, but that changed as I grew older. You know how when most kids go out, they just gather in the park and don’t do anything in particular? I didn’t like that, so I stayed in my house on the weekends more often. My mother even told me “You should go outside with your friends once in a while.” (laughs)

I have an obsession for collecting things, and when I was young I used to collect tons of books. I wanted to become one of those refined, educated adults, and I was at that age for that kind of behaviour. I read novels, poems, essays, newspapers… mature genres that didn’t suit my age. Also, for some reason, up until middle school I had the habit of reading things from the last page backwards. Even now I read books on occasion. I can process lumps of text at once, so my reading speed is really fast.

My memory of my first love in primary school… doesn’t exist. I really don’t have one. The further you go from Seoul to the rural regions, the more conservative everything is. The boys and girls didn’t talk to each other in the school I went to. Just being near a girl was super embarrassing, so I really didn’t even talk to them.

Started making songs in middle school after meeting hip-hop

The first time I became interested in music was when I saw a Korean artist named Stony Skunk on TV. It was the era of ballads at that time, and on a music show of 18 groups you’d get maybe 10 ballads, 5 idols, and 3 other genres. They were one of those other 3. It was really cool how they were different from the others. I didn’t have any interest in music until then, but thanks to Stony Skunk I started listening to hip-hop and reggae music. I also received influence from Epik High. It was just around then that the MP3 player came out, but I listened to them on my Panasonic CD player.

At the same time I started listening to music like that, I also started to write lyrics. It wasn’t like anyone told me to, but for some reason I felt like I had to. I started making raps in primary school and started making music in middle school. Back then, there was no one around me that liked hip-hop… Now it’s really popular in South Korea again, but back when I started listening it was like an outdated genre from the past. I was probably the only one in the town that rapped. My friends would complain when I rapped at karaoke. You know how hip-hop has gestures where you move your hands? They teased me for that too.

But I’ve always liked hip-hop and I believe it was in my second year of middle school when I stood on the stage for the first time at the school festival. I performed Dynamic Duo’s “Go Back” with a friend. I didn’t like standing in front of other people, but for some reason I felt like I had to at the time. I wanted to show the rap I practiced too… even though I was really bad. (laughs)

I actually wanted to go to an arts high school, so I composed classic songs when I was in middle school. But the school fees were so expensive, I ended up going to a regular high school. I told my father “I’ve already done enough music, so I’ll study hard in high school,” but I didn’t end up doing that. (laughs)

Properly began rapper activities after joining a local crew

In middle school I only composed for my own benefit, as a hobby. I seriously started creating songs after changing my MIDI program. In my first year of high school, I gave my song to a person who was like a teacher to me to listen to, and they really liked it. That was when they introduced me to a hip-hop crew called D-town, which I joined. That song was like a new age beat, a hip-hop beat song like Nujabes. By the way, that teacher who praised me ended up going to Berklee College of Music and is now a music director for movies.

I started rapping properly once I entered the crew. While I had dabbled with rap from primary school, there was no one around me who rapped too so I thought I was the best. (laughs)

So that’s how I started activities in the Daegu underground. But even then I knew that I couldn’t feed myself by doing music underground. Many of the hyungs who did music with me back then were around 10 years older than me, some of them even in their thirties. The hyungs would do part-time jobs as they did music, and that looked really tiring to me. Even during our lives, it was difficult getting 100 people in the audience, and I hated that… I thought if I succeeded, I could be the bridge between the underground scene. There are so many cool people doing music in the underground, I wanted to become famous and put them in a better environment, I wanted the world to know about my hyungs music.

It was at this time that I found out Big Hit was holding an audition in Daegu. The only thing I knew about it was that it was a company the composer Bang Shihyuk had created, but I tried out anyway. The next day, I was immediately informed that I passed. From what I heard later on, he took one look at me and decided I passed right away. Even though I was really bad at rapping then too. (laughs)

An unexpected trainee life after first arriving at Seoul…?

I came to Seoul in my second year of high school on November 7, 2010. I remember it even now.

I joined the company not because I wanted to rap, but because I wanted to compose. That’s why I didn’t have to dance, could leave rapping to the people good at it, and just focus on becoming a producer myself. Yet it ended up completely different, huh? (laughs) Back then, the company planned to have a full rap group rather than an idol group, but that all changed. The members back then were RM, J-HOPE, and me. And also i11even and IRON. If we had debuted like that, I believe our rap would have been good but the group would have failed. (laughs)

The future SUGA aims for as a rapper and producer

The reason why I was able to pursue the path of music like this is hugely thanks to my brother, who is 4 years older than me. He started liking hip-hop because of my influence, but the only person in my family who didn’t oppose me taking the audition was my brother. They didn’t like the fact I was doing musical activities in the first place, and my relatives would say “You, doing music? Study more instead,” to me. That’s why the only one I let listen to the songs I made was my brother. I also told my brother first when I passed the audition. We really get along so well, like best friends. I normally don’t drink alcohol, but the only time I make the exception is to drink with my brother.

Of course, everyone in my family now supports me. The relatives who told me to study now ask for my signature. (laughs)

I still have a desire to do producing activities from here on out. I don’t have any greed towards the centre position, I just want to do music. I don’t have any interest towards the entertainment industry, so while everyone else wants to act or go on variety shows I don’t want to at all. (laughs) But first, I believe BTS has to become number 1 in both South Korea and Japan. And I want to aim to be the best in both rapping and producing. It may take some time, but we have to do it.

BTS JAPAN OFFICIAL FANCLUB MAGAZINE VOL.2

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[lucy-in-the-house]

☆~Oc info sheet~☆

So I decided to get off my lazy @ss and post this :b

^^^sketch of my oc(tails and ears not included)doing one of her favorite passtimes, free-run parkour in search of a wall to graffiti^^^

☆*Full name*☆

Lucy Jeanette Eileen Giroud

☆*Nicknames*☆

Lu

"The fox"

☆*Sign*☆

Scorpio

☆*Birthday*☆

16/11

☆*Age*☆

17 (physically)

☆*Status*☆

Alive

☆*Race*☆

Half human/half demon

☆*Ethnicity*☆

French-American-British

☆*Gender*☆

Pineapple. Just kidding, Female

☆*Height*☆

1m62

☆*Weight*☆

50kg

☆*Blood type*☆

HH, also known as 'Bombay Blood'

☆*Eye color*☆

Hazel

☆*Hair color*☆

Orange/Red

☆*Occupation*☆

2nd year highschool student, or in France: Terminale student. And the personal bodyguard of the heir to a worldwide criminal organization.

☆*Relatives*☆

-Eliott Giroud (older brother).

-Lisana Teatly (Lily for short, childhood friend).

-Thomas Carlson (childhood friend)

☆*Hobbies*☆

Drawing, 'performing arts' (dancing, singing, theatre,...), playing video games, watching anime and listening to Kpop.

☆*Favorite food*☆

Chocolate and any soft, and not sour, candy.

☆*Favorite drink*☆

Powerade

Bubble tea

Iron bru (for the meme)

☆*For dem shipzzzz*☆

I like to ship her with Laito :3

/(0^0)/

☆*Quotes*☆

"Crazy is such an ugly word. I prefer... mentally unstable."

"I ain't no fox!"

"You vamps are literally oversized mosquitos"

"*Irish accent* you wanna go mate? You wanna fight? I'll bash ye 'ead in! I swear on meh mom I'll destroy ya!"

"Well imma just skiddadle the heck outta here"

"Hon Hon Hon I am very française!"

"GO GET DESTROYED!"

"*T pose* I'm the meme Lord and punmaster. Fear my powerrrrr..."

"If you're feeling suicidal you came to the right place! Cuz I'm gonna f*****g kill myself as well"

"BTS are true Gods. No need for Jesus when I got these sunshines."

☆*Clothes*☆

She will usually wear a red or purple hoodie with black shorts (sometimes jeans) with pink thigh highs and white shoes. She always has three hairclips to hold up the right part of her fringe. She has a pair of red glasses but doesn't wear them often because she forgets. She is very pale (mostly because of her unbalanced health) and is a bit chubby, she's a bit too busty for her age (but seriously doesn't give a damn).

☆*Personality*☆

She's a really laid back and bubbly girl, who has a bad case of swearing, and talking about morbid subjects with problem. She a good person, though she might be psycopathic. However, she's absolutely horrible at socializing, as a child she never had the chance to, so she has difficulty opening up to others, or speaking to people she isn't familiar with. Apart from that, she can get very sassy and sarcastic with a pinch of salt. She gets easily triggered like say sh&t about her fam and she'll diss yo @ss. She's also a 'daredevil', and will never say no to a challenge. She a kind soul with a pinch of spicyness and MEMES.

And although she's a weirdo, she a good and respectful student.

And I almost forgot, she a Kpop fan and an otaku (not a weaboo) so her social life is n o n e x i s t a n t.

☆*History*☆

(Note: her history is long, but if you read it all you'll get a cookie🍰🍩🍰🍪🍪🍪🍪)

Lucy was born in an average family. She grew up in france, though she was born in america. Her life at home was pretty normal, though she didn't get along very well with her father or siblings, but Lucy was pretty close to her mother who was like a best friend to her. At school however, she was constantly bullied, both mentally and physically. The reasons were one because she was the only child with red hair in her school (and they thought she had some contamination), and because she didn't fit in any social groups.

She grew up thinking she was a freak of nature and a disgrace, cursed to be alone, that love was something she'd ever experience and learned that the only way to be left alone was by being creepy and/or violent.

However, she managed to make friends with two people, and she made her mind to protect them no matter what. The bullying went on for 10 years. Her parents tried taking her to therapists, doctors, psycologist, but not one could fix her broken mind. So the only option they had left was to send her away to her Uncle and Cousin, after that day, she never saw her biological family again. (Except for her brother)

Her cousin Caitlin (who is now dead) was like an older sister, and was nice to her. She soon found out that her family came down from generations of monster hunters, her uncle was one, and so was her cousin, her cousin taught her how to fight, and the weakness of practically every monster that she could remember. But her cousin's intentions behind educating her on this topic was to find herself a replacement, to kill a demon she had summoned a few years back. Caitlin had sacrificed her soul to a demon to obtain the weapon needed, which she gave to Lucy.

After her cousin dissapeared, she went back to her hometown and reunited with her friends. She spent the next year hunting the demon her cousin was aiming for, but little did she know that the demon was also looking for her. When they finally encountered, it was a hard battle. Lucy won, but barely alive, having a big scar going across her torso. But before the demon died, it infuses its soul into Lucy's body, giving Lucy it's powers and cursing her with immortality. After that fight, she went back to her friends. They traveled down to the South of France and settled there, trying to live 'normal' lives... Until one day, she received orders from [...] to live with the sakamakis.

☆*Relationships*☆

-Eliott: they almost never interact, although they are family. They only speak when it comes to business or important matters.

-Lily: they are very close, Lily is one of the only two people who know Lucy inside out. Lucy has sworn to protect Lily even if it would cost her life. They love to hangout together and cry over fandoms.

-Thomas: same as Lily, except he's like a mom, always taking care of Lucy, even when she says she doesn't need help, they both share a love for kpop and anime. Lucy's emotional bond with Thomas is stronger than anyone else she's close to, even Lily.

☆*Abilities*☆

As Lucy is half demon, she gained most of the abilities of the demon who infused itself into her, who was a shadow demon:

-increased strength and hearing

-teleportation

-she can sorta float

-the shadow realm: by jumping into a shadow (a person's shadow, object's shadow, any shadow at all) she can enter an dimension called "the shadow realm", a place only shadow demon may access

-a little thing I like to call Katherine: Katherine was the 'name' of the demon Lucy fought with, this ability activities when she deadly mad or under too much stress or pressure that she just snaps and goes psycho. She has strange black tentacles (like a kagune from Tokyo ghoul). She will attack anything around her. Only Thomas and Lily can control her under this form.

Lucy has been fighting since as long as she can remember, so she is very skilled in the domaine.

Although she might not have all the abilities of the demon, she's still more powerful than a demon, as the fact she has emotions (which demons don't) has a great impact on her powers.

Lucy can't die from age ot sickness. But she candie from bloodloss and getting wounded, as she heals only slightly faster than a human.

☆*other info*☆

1-Lucy was the second eldest of her biological family.

2-she enherited half of her father's company (the other half her older brother) and her family's mansion.

3-she an absolute virgin :/ *le sad music*

4-She's left handed, therefore her capacity at cutting meat is non-exigent (true story, left handed people struggle more at cutting meat, and I'm talking out of experience because I am left handed)

5-she speaks fluent English and French (Those were the two languages she spoke throughout her childhood), she also learned German, Japanese and is trying to learn Korean. She's also fluent in Shakespearean and in both English and Australian slang.

6-in the south of France, she goes to a highly reputed international campus.

7-lucy doesn't like physical contact whatsoever, except for Thomas and Lily, and she can just about tolerate Laito but She gets really flushed and embarrassed. She gets uncomfortable when people touch her hair, shoulders, lower back and thighs, if someone does touch her there she'll flinch and try to pry them off.

8-she only wears clothes that fully cover her body because she's a very self aware person and she's covered in scars because of her sh&tty childhood.

[kimmy-trans]

【Japan Official Fanclub Magazine Vol.2】BTS My Biography – Suga’s part

From a mischievous child to a young boy that loves to read

Born in Daegu, South Korea’s 3rd biggest city, which is located in the south. I lived there until I came to Seoul. I was just an ordinary child, I always liked to mess around. So, the teacher in nursery didn’t really like me (laughs). I remember that I always got told off “it’s dangerous!” I liked sports and I was especially good at running. From primary school to high school, I often got chosen to participate in the relay race. And I was above average in studying.

When I was a child, I really liked to go out to play with my friends. But as I grew up, I wasn’t that fond of going out to play. Even when I went out to play, we just met in the park, there were nothing to do though. I didn’t like that, so I usually stayed at home along on the weekends. My mother said: “you should go out to see your friends sometimes.” (laughs)

I liked to collect, so I collected a lot of books when I was a child. Because at the time, I wanted to be cultivated, I wanted to pretend that I’m civilized. So, I read many grown up novels, poetry anthology, literary works and news articles which didn’t suit me… I read all genres of books. I don’t know why but from middle school onwards, I started to have the habit of reading from the back page. Now, I would read books sometimes. My reading speed is quick because I read chunks of writings.

First love in primary school… I honestly don’t have any memories about that. Unlike Seoul, the place I live in is quite conservative. Especially in my school, it’s rare to see boys talking to girls. Even being next to a girl made me shy, I didn’t even say a thing.

Encountered Hip-Hop Started to compose music in middle school

I became interested in music when I was in 5th grade of middle school, I saw the Korean artist Stony Skunk’s performance on TV. At the time, the genre Ballad was in its prime. If 18 teams were on a music show, 10 would be ballad groups, 5 would be idol groups and the remaining 3 would be other genres, Stony Skunk was one of the 3. Stony Skunk was really cool, their style is so different from the other groups. I’ve never been interested in music before that, but under the influence of Stony Skunk, I started to listen to Hip-Hop and Reggae music. I was also influenced by Epik High. MP3 players were getting popular at the time but I bought a Panasonic CD player and listened to music with that.

That’s how I started to listen to music, and at the same time I started to write song as well. No one told me to do it, but I just felt like I should write something. I started to write rap lyrics in primary school and started to compose music in middle school. At the time, no one around me liked Hip-Hop. Although Hip-Hop is getting popular again in Korea but when I encountered Hip-Hop, it was a genre that was popular from a long time ago. You probably couldn’t find anyone who raps on the street, apart from me. My friends complained when I sang rap songs in the karaoke room. You know there’re those special hand gestures in Hip-Hop, I got laughed at because I did those gestures.

Despite all of that, I continued to like Hip-Hop. I got to perform on the stage for the first time in 2nd of middle school. I performed Dynamic Duo’s ‘Go Back’ with my friends. I don’t like standing in front of many people but I just felt like I had to do it. I wanted to show off the rap that I’ve been practicing, although I wasn’t that great (laughs). Actually, I wanted to attend an arts high school, so I even produced classical music. But arts high school is too expensive so I attended an ordinary high school. I said to my father, “I’ve made enough music, I’ll study properly when I’m in high school.” But I never kept my promise (laughs).

Joined an underground crew in hometown, started to work as an underground rapper

I produced music in middle school for self-satisfaction, and I made songs in a hobby level. But after I changed the MIDI equipment, I started to make music properly. When I was in 1st grade of high school, I made a person to listen to my song, he was a teacher to me and he really liked it. Then he introduced me to a Hip-Hop crew called ’D-Town’ and I joined in. That song had a New Age music feeling to it but the Hip-Hop beats were like Nujabes. For your information, the teacher that acknowledged me studied in Berklee College of Music and now he’s a music director for movies. After I joined the crew, I started to learn rap properly. Although I’ve been rapping since primary school but since no one around me raps, so I always thought I was the best (laughs).

This is how I started my underground activities in Daegu. It also made me realize that working in the underground scene is difficult to make a living. The hyungs that I worked with was 10 years older than me, there were even people over 30 years old. They had to work part-time along with making music, it looked so tiring. I really hated the fact that it was difficult to gather 100 audience when we try to hold a live performance. I thought “if I succeed, can I be the bridge between mainstream music and underground music?” There are many people that makes great music in the underground scene, so I thought when I become famous, I’ll give them a better environment to work in and I want to let the world hear my hyungs’ music.

And at the same time, I heard that BigHit Entertainment was holding an audition in Daegu. I only knew that producer Bang Shi Hyuk established the company but I still auditioned. The next day, I got the notice that I passed the audition. Later, someone told me that when he saw me, he immediately gave me a pass. Even though my rapping wasn’t really good at the time (laughs).

Came to Seoul, became a trainee Ran counter to his (original) intention?!

I can still clearly remember the day that I came to Seoul, 7th November 2010, when I was in 2nd grade of high school. When I joined the company, my original intention wasn’t to become a rapper, I wanted to become a producer. So, I thought I didn’t need to dance, and I can leave rapping to those that are good at it. I thought I only need to be a producer. But that wasn’t the case (laughs). At the time, the company wanted to debut a group consists of rappers, rather than an idol group. However, the plan changed at the end. The members at the time were Rap Monster, J-Hope and I. Including Supreme Boi, i11evn hyung who’s currently working in the underground scene, and IRON hyung, who was one of the finalists in 'Show Me The Money 3’. I think if we debuted like that, our rapping would be outstanding but we would probably have failed (laughs).

Rapper & Producer Suga’s future goals

I’m able to walk on the path of music, it’s because of my brother, who’s 4 years older than me. Under my influence, my brother started to like Hip-Hop too. No one supported me in my family when I went to audition, except for my brother. They don’t approve of making music. My relatives even said to me: “what can you achieve from making music, just study properly.” So, I could only share my songs with my brother, he was my only listener. And I told my brother first when I passed the audition. We have a good relationship just like friends. I don’t usually drink but I drink a bit with my brother. Of course, my family support me now. The relatives that advised me to study even came to ask for my autograph (laughs).

I’ve been thinking lately that I want to be active as a producer. I’m not ambitious about being in the center, I just want to make music. I’m not interested in the entertainment industry, others want to either act or be on variety shows, but I don’t (laughs). Above all, I think the most important for BTS right now is to achieve #1 in Korea and Japan. And, I want to become the best rapper, the best producer. I don’t know how long it will take to achieve that but I’m going to give it a go.

BTS Biography - Jimin (Vol.5) BTS Biography - V (Vol.3)

Trans: KIMMYYANG (from Korean mondomizel1)

[kz-i-co]

Babysitter: Part II

» Summary: Your parents have to leave for a buiness trip for the weekend and you invite Taehyung over

» Pairing: Kim Taehyung/ Reader

» Genre: Smut X2

» Word: 3.3k

» COMPLETED SERIES: Part 1 ╫ Part 3 | Part 4 | Part 5 | Part 6 | Part 7 | Part 8

» m.list ╫ bts masterlist

-

As you woke up you noticed you weren’t in your bed. You saw that Taehyung was sleeping right next to you. You blushed just thinking about last night. The time that you spent together was special.

You felt him stretch next to you sending him awake. “Morning.” He yawned but then he snapped to reality.

“I slept here?” He panicked. “Did your parents come home?”

“I don’t know.” You said getting up.

You noticed the cable box said 8 o'clock. You made your way to the kitchen when you noticed your mother starting to cook. “Mom?”

“Hey dear.” Your mother continued cooking. “What time did you get home last night?”

“Around one.” Your mother looked past you as she saw Taehyung sneak up from behind.

“Excuse me ma'am.” He bowed. “I’m so sorry that I fell asleep before you got home.”

“Don’t be son….I wouldn’t want you to drive home so late anyway.” She gently caressed his cheek in respect.

“I guess I’ll be heading home then.” He said.

“Nonsense, stay for breakfast.”

-

After breakfast Taehyung left, he was sweet but didn’t give you much attention, probably because your mother was around. Or at least you hoped. You guys didn’t really get the privacy to talk about last night. You hoped things weren’t going to be awkward now.

-

It’s been one week since you seen Taehyung. Your parents only been out once and you haven’t been out since that night. Your friends had pressured you into going to more parties but you denied, that was an awful experience for you, but at least something came out of it.

You were in your room reading when your mother barged in suddenly.

“Sweetie, something has come up and I need you to watch the kids all weekend.” Your mother said.

“Why?” You asked confused.

“Your father and I have a business trip.” She said it like it was a nuisance.

“Do you mind watching the kids?”

“No I guess not.”

“Please don’t throw any parties or let your friends over….I’m sorry I don’t like them.”

“Okay fine….no fun…got it.” You said sarcastically.

“You can invite Tae over only, if you need help.” Your mother started leaving your room. “We’ll be back Monday morning.”

Funny enough that you can’t throw a party but invite the guy you had sex with while your brother and sister were just sleeping upstairs. Ironic.

It was kind of obvious that your mom approves of Taehyung but you bet she would never expect this.

-

“Okay please don’t burn the house down.” Your father said dead serious.

“I won’t.”

“And remember what I said….nobody over except Tae.” You heart beats when you hear his name.

“Tae can come over?” Dara showed behind you. “Can we have a sleep over?”

“It’s up to your sister….shes in charge.”

Your sister pouted. “No worries Dar….” You winked at her sending her smiling off.

-

“Are you gonna call him?” Your sister has not stopped bugged you about calling Tae for the past hour.

“Yeah it’s already 5, we have to go to bed in like three hours.” Your brother argued.

“Okay calm down.” You grabbed his number from the fridge dialing it in your phone.

Why did you feel so nervous?

“Hello?” He asked on the other side of the line.

“T-Tae? This is (Y/N).” You said nervously.

“Hey.” He said causally.

“My parents are gone for the weekend.” You just realized how that sounds making you stumble over your words. “I- I was wonderi- I mean the kids were wondering if you wanted to sleep over or if you don-”

“I loved to.” You heart fluttered. “I’ll be right over.”

-

You weren’t the best cook so you decided to call for a pizza instead. When you heard the knock on the door, you made sure to grab your wallet and head to the door.

It was earlier then usual from the fact that you only called 15 minutes ago.

When you opened the door you were met with the boy who stole your heart one week ago. You thought you were nervous before, you had no idea what was coming.

“Are you paying for my company?” He smirked as he saw your wallet in your hand. Your stomach exploded with butterflies.

“Wha- oh no I ordered pizza.” You bit your lip.

Taehyung started to brush past you but stopped, leaning into your ear. “Please don’t bite your lip or I won’t be able to control myself.” He whispered and headed towards the living room.

“Fuck.” You whispered to yourself. You were already feeling flustered and he just got here.

-

After you all ate, you were sitting on the couch amused as you watched your little sister tackle Taehyung on the floor. The sight of seeing him around children was sexy.

‘Okay okay clean thoughts.’

“I think it’s getting close to bed time.”

You watched as you saw Dara sit up and groaned. “I don’t want to.”

“It’s 9:30, I already let you stay way past your bed time.”

“Fine.” She got up. “Can Tae read me a bed time story?”

You looked at Tae for permission but your sister was already dragging him towards the stairs.

“Dara you need to ask.”

“It’s fine, I like a lady in charge.” He winked at you.

This boy was going to be the death of you.

You followed upstairs to send your brother to bed, but as soon as you entered his room he was already past out with his video games running. You quietly turned everything off and closed the door.

You passed Dara’s room as you saw Tae acting out some mythical story making her laugh. He was so good around kids.

You went to your room changing into something more comfortable. You figured maybe you and Tae would watch another movie.

“So this is your room?” You jumped from his voice behind you. You saw Tae looking around your room while leaning on the door.

“Your sister falls asleep fast.” He smiled.

He took a few steps walking into your room. “What do we do now?”

You blushed, biting your lip as soon as he looked at you. “I thought I told you not to do that?” At this point he was walking closer to you until he was right in front of you.

“Are you going to punish me?” You asked giving him a slight pout.

“I don’t believe in that.” Your eyes soften. “But…” He smirked.

You gave him your full attention. “I have a better idea.” Before you can even process what he said he smashed his lips with yours. You missed this, one week without his presence was too long.

You responded by wrapping your arms around his neck as soon as he deepened the kiss. He was already pulling your hips towards his as he leaned into you, you couldn’t help but moan, from his tongue exploring every corner of your mouth. He almost seemed desperate, like he missed your touch as well.

The next thing you know Taehyung was slowly moving you towards your bed. When your back hit the sheets he was on top of you moving his lips to your neck, not missing any detail. You could feel the tingles spread throughout your body as he left wet kisses down your neck.

Your breathing became heavier as his hand slid up your shirt, the sensation gave you chills. You could feel the dampness in your shorts as soon as you felt his member poking your thigh through his jeans. You loved how much of an impact you had on him as much as he had on you.

The cold air hit you as he sat up, you groaned from the sudden loss of his warm hands caressing you. You watched as he licked his lips while looking into your eyes. Just then he reached for your shorts waist line, dragging them off until they hit the floor. Your heart was beating rapidly from the sweet tender kisses up your thighs. He didn’t miss a spot as he made his way towards the area you wanted him most. You tilted your head back as his tongue licked up your core.

“Oh fuck-” You moaned from the new feeling. This was your first time that anyone has ever pleasured you like this.

“You gotta be quiet babe.” He whispered.

He continued to move his tongue swiftly through your folds, the pleasure was unbelievable that you just wanted to scream. You scrunched up the sheets under trying to refrain yourself, but Taehyung was making it impossible. You had a feeling his tongue could do incredible things by the way he kissed you but never this.

You were trying not to lift you hips as you could almost feel your climax take hold. “Are you getting close?” He asked.

“Yeah.” You moaned.

You gave him a questioningly look as he suddenly stopped and got up from his position. He laughed at your reaction as he started to strip off his clothes, from his shirt down to his pants. He knew what he was doing by the teasing look he was giving you. “Take off your shirt.” You did as he made his way towards you.

You smiled when he hovered over you, kissing up your chest all the way up to your neck once again. He stopped to look you in the eyes when you wrapped your legs around his waist. He licked his lips again. Damn you hated when he did that but loved it at the same time.

He looked down as he grabbed a hold of his length, slowly sliding into you. You bit your lip trying not to moan from the tight feeling. He started to thrust into you at a steady pace while he kissed you passionately.

You couldn’t contain your moans any longer, you let a few slip out as he rapid the speed hitting your g spot. “I can’t wait to get you alone, then I can really hear you.”

Just his voice was setting you towards your high, you weren’t sure how much longer you can hold back. “Tae….I’m going to cum.”

He took that by kissing you so you wouldn’t make anymore noise. You felt him smile against your lips as you tried to moan when you orgasm came flooding through. He was still moving quickly as you were numb under him. He stopped kissing you but he kept his face aligned with yours gently. He closed his eyes tightly as he let go, filling the tight space with his cum. “You drive me crazy.” He whispered.

You giggled as you watch him lay to the bed next to you. “Your welcome.”

He was leaning over you once more pecking kisses over your cheeks to your nose. Taehyung was something special, he could go from sexy to adorable in the matter of seconds.

“(Y/N)….” He had your attention. “Do you know how beautiful you are?” You blushed from his compliment.

“Do you know how rude you are?”

“What?” He asked confused.

“You can’t be licking your lips all the time or winking at me….its rude.”

“I cant help it.” He smiled.

“You’re a tease.”

“You’re face is a tease.” You laughed at his childish behavior. He slouched to your side once again pulling you into him.

You felt sleepy as his arms were wrapped around you. You cuddled into him more when the sleep took hold.

-

You woke up feeling peaceful when you saw the sunshine peeking through your curtains. You felt Taehyung’s arm wrapped around you. You turned around and noticed he was still sleeping. He’s so cute when he’s sleeping.

You blushed from the idea of waking up to him by your side every morning. It made you feel butterflies in your stomach, but you can’t get carried away nothing was official between you two.

The child in you had you gently poking his face to try to wake him. You giggled watching his face scrunch up. “Tae.” You whispered as you kissed below his ear.

He cutely groaned as he fluttered his eyes open. “What?” He yawned closing his eyes again.

“Wakey wakey.” He opened his eyes again and smiled at your cuteness.

“(Y/N)!!!” You heard Dara yelling as she barged into your room.

“Oh fuck!” You panicked.

You pulled your sheets over your chest as soon as Dara entered, from the fact that you and Tae were still naked underneath.

“Dara! Remember you have to knock before you enter someone else’s room.”

“Sorry I forgot.”

Dara gasped as soon as she noticed Taehyung. “I didn’t know you were having a sleepover together….how come I wasn’t invited?” Your sister pouted.

“Tonight we will make a bed in the living room for all of us okay…now please go wake your brother.” You rushed.

“Okay…” She left.

You jumped out of the bed with the sheet wrapped around you as you closed the door locking it.

“Okay we have 5 minutes.”

Tae smirked when he saw you. “Stop staring and get dressed.” You laughed.

-

The day was full of exhausting activities your siblings put you through. A walk in the park, a trip to the ice cream shop, back to the house watching movies. Your brother wanted to sleep over his best friends house tonight so Dara was the only one to take care of.

It was 7 o'clock and the only movies Dara let you watch was kid movies, so you and Tae were quite bored. Dara was sprawled out on the love seat facing the TV, while you and Tae where on the couch farther back. You slid over to be right next to Tae.

You rested your head on his shoulder as some song the characters were singing was irritating you. You felt Tae place his hand over your knee. Luckily you were wearing leggings unless his touch would affect you. “I thought you were a good boy.” You whispered as he moved his hand further up your leg.

You saw Dara move so you quickly moved Tae’s hand off of you. But she was still hypnotize by the movie as you can see, for all you know she could be sleeping, you couldn’t see her face.

About 10 minutes have passed you wondered how long this dumb movie was. You couldn’t stay focused any longer. Tae’s fingers were tapping against his thigh. You couldn’t help but stare as your eyes wandered to a more inappropriate area. You couldn’t help but noticed the slight bulge in his sweat pants. Was he turned on?

“My eye are up here.” He laughed. You just tapped his chest playfully.

“I was looking at your annoying tapping.”

“Sure.” He smirked. “And to answer your question I’m very turned on right now.” He confessed.

“You’re the rude one, wearing that shirt.” He continued.

“I’m wearing a tank top.” You laughed.

“I can see your bra.” He whispered in your ear. You loved when he did that, it sent chills crawling down your neck.

You looked down and noticed your bra was hanging out. Honestly that wasn’t on purpose. You had this thing forever it’s probably just grown to be too small on you.

“Sorry.” You giggled pulling your shirt up.

Just then your sister got up sleepily, almost like she was sleep walking. “I’m going to bed.” She said and made her way upstairs.

“I’m changing this crap.” You got the remote finding something else on Netflix.

When you sat back down you tried not to pay attention to Taehyung’s tapping once again. Probably something to do with his dirty mind.

You slapped your hand over his to stop his taping. “You bored?”

“No.” He said casually, but you knew he was.

You reached your hand over to where his bulge was still visible. “Your still showing.” You smirked as you starting rubbing the sensitive area. You love seeing him squirm under your touch.

“Do you need help with this?” For some reason Tae has made you more confident, only when its the two of you.

He arched his eyebrows as soon as you got down on your knees in front of him. “Have you ever done this before?” He said nervously. “Because you don’t have to.”

His sweet side showing, he actually cares about your feelings, doesn’t want you to feel pressured in anyway. Not like most guys.

“I owe you from last night.” You started tugging on his pants, only to have his length exposed. You wrapped your hands around his shaft. He was harder then you thought, he was weak when it came to you. Just thinking about it made you blush.

You started to pump his length slowly to tease him. The sexual desire was stirring up inside you. You went in circling your tongue around the tip, while your hands continued pumping.

You watched him lean his head back on the couch moaning quietly. “You sure you haven’t done this.”

You nodded as you took him into your mouth to as low as you can go, while you pumped the rest.

You felt yourself getting wet as you heard him moan. When you brought your head back up you noticed the tip was throbbing. He wasn’t going to last much longer. You wanted the thrill of him releasing in your mouth.

“You like ladies in control?” You teased. He felt his part twitching in your mouth.

“Fuck.” He placed his hand on the back your head to make you move faster. He couldn’t control himself much longer as you felt the salty substances fill your mouth.

You swallowed his liquids as you leaned in to lick him clean. He was still a wreck, breathing heavy as his orgasm was slowly passing.

“You good?” You giggled as you still were licking up the mess.

He looked at you tiredly when you finally pulled his pants back up. “Can I ask you something?”

He got on the ground with you, getting under the covers of the bed you made in the living room.

“Go ahead.” You smiled.

“The sex has been great with you and all, but I was wondering if you wanted to actually go out…like a date?” He looked nervous. How cute.

“Of course.” You tried not to make it seem like you were overly excited.

He smiled and leaned in for a deep kiss. “Ewww. Wash your mouth out.” He pretended to be disgusted but then he laughed.

You hit his shoulder but then pulled his shirt into you making him kiss you again. This time he didn’t pull away. The way he kissed you made you feel like you were in a fairy tale.

-

“Wake up.” You felt a tiny body throw them self between you and Tae waking you up immediately.

“Dara.” You groaned in pain. “Why are you so annoying?”

“Hey sunshine.” Tae smiled at the pain in the ass.

“Mommy and daddy are here.” Dara said looking at you. What? Your mother said that they’d be back Monday morning not Sunday.

You got up to look out the window, you saw your parents grabbing their bags from the trunk of their car. “Why are they early?”

“Maybe something came up.” Tae said hugging you from behind.

“Hey…..I want a hug.” Dara pouted.

“Of course sunshine.” Are you really competing on who gets Taehyung with your sister? Little brat.

You quickly grabbed the blankets from the floor, tossing them in the linen closet before your parents would enter.

Just as your parents entered Dara ran to them, giving each a hug. “Wheres Sungmin?” Your mother asked.

“He asked if he can sleep over Suho’s last night.” Your mothers eyes brightened up when she saw Taehyung greet her.

“Surprised to see you here.” Your mother greeted.

“We had a sleep over.” Dara cheered.

“Really?” You both nodded.

“(Y/N) let Tae sleep in her bed with her.” Dara pouted like she was jealous and your mother and father stared at you both confused.

Oh fuck! We’re busted.

[mns-yngi]

Company

Genre: Angst/ Suggestive

Member: Taehyung (bts version)

Word Count: 1,318

a/n:  Inspired by the song Stay With Me by Taeyang. This fic will have two versions: Bts-> Taehyung and Monsta X-> (member still undecided)

Summary: “You pretend to be strong on purpose to push me out but you’re softer than anyone else, my darling. You have the same sad face as me so won’t you stay with me, come to me? Your lips don’t agree but your eyes tell me you want me. We’re walking on the night streets just like we did before, close enough for anyone to think we’re lovers, and dancing up on each other at a crowded club. Hey did you maybe flirt with me a little bit? You’re drunk with alcohol, I’m drunk with your eyes, nose, lips, and body”

Part 1 / Part 2 / Part 3 

He wasn't sure why but the moment he stopped outside of his front porch and saw her already waiting for him, an excited smile across her lips and eyes eager to meet him, made him want to reach out to her and embrace her, but also it made him want to turn on his heel and run.

He did neither, he simply stood dumbly in his spot, eyebrows raised in surprise as he saw her for the first time in what had been nearly two weeks with no trace of her. She grinned and came to her feet, making her way towards him to stand before him. “Hey there stranger” she joked sweetly, to which he gave the smallest and lacking of reactions. She instantly pouted and punched his chest lightly, “Hi Y/N, it's good to see you, I missed you too” she replied mockingly but all he could manage was a small smirk.

He had thought it over for two weeks. Of course he loved having her around. She was sweet, kind, funny, she completed the void of absence that existed within his apartment, and he was complacent with her being around when he needed it, but something had begun ticking him off.

It wasn't that the fact that she wasn't his girlfriend, or his friend for that matter, he didn't even have a word or label for what she was to him except for that of his company. She was his company in many ways and maybe eventually she'd stay or she'd leave. But what ticked him off was that he for some reason, didn't want the latter.

“Taehyung?” her voice made him jump a little in his spot, as his eyes focused on her again. “What?” he asked, suddenly realizing he hadn’t been hearing what she'd been saying. “You don’t look very happy to see me” she said, an awkward chuckle escaping her lips as she took a small step away from him, unsure.

He knew the sudden flicker of panic across her features when he didn’t reply, he had seen it before whenever her boyfriend would call as the two of them were together. He hated it whenever the fear showed through her eyes. He didn’t want her to be scared, he didn’t want her to feel guilty because even though she wouldn't say it, he knew she sometimes felt it.

He hated the way she sometimes simply didn't want to let him go when it was her time to leave. He hated that she had to leave because this wasn’t her home, in his arms, on his couch, on his bed, against his lips, her head on his shoulder, it wasn’t where she was supposed to be.

He stared at her glossy eyes, lips parted with no intention of speaking, brain working faster than he could imagine, and he smiled. “Why wouldn’t I be happy to see you?” he asked, taking a strand of her hair between his fingers and running his thumb over it.

She wasn’t convinced and he knew it, so he simply let out a sigh and let the strand fall back to its original place as he looked away. She licked her lips nervously, pupils suddenly frantic. He brought his hands into the pockets of his jeans, head hanging low as he stared at the floor. “What’s wrong?” she asked softly, a frown forming as her expression. He looked up and met her gaze, feeling a burden in his chest, unable to find a way to tell her what he had been thinking. Without much second thought, he let out a chuckle and shook his head, shrugging and sighing once more. “It would be ironic if I said nothing was wrong, wouldn’t it? Because us, this is wrong” he stated, a grin on his face as he watched her perplexed as ever.

She knitted her eyebrows in confusion and stared at him, not a word escaping her mouth. He cleared his throat and averted his gaze away from her, no longer smiling because he probably looked out of his mind. “I wish I could admit that what we are doing is wrong, because even if I know it is, that’s not how it feels to me at all. It’s like your relationship doesn’t exist and I want you to be with me all the time but then you practically shake in fear whenever he calls you and it hits me that we’re not supposed to happen” he admitted, rather calmly, he thought.

Even though he felt like a part of him could just go on and on about the things running through his head, another part of him, a stronger much more reasonable part of him, took it with ease and calmly verbalized his thoughts so not only she could understand and hear him out, but so he could also do the same with himself.

She continued to stare at him, nervous fingers fidgeting with each other, a habit he had noticed she did whenever her boyfriend would call or whenever the two of them were together after she had argued with him. “I don’t know how to put it so it makes sense, but I guess what I’m trying to say is this doesn’t feel like a mistake but it is” he added, his voice low and soft as he now watched her for a different reaction. She looked away from him, catching a glimpse of her nervous hands and setting them into fists at her sides. A few seconds slipped by in silence and he felt like his heart was beating rather quickly as the two of them stood before each other quite stiffly.

“Should I leave him for you then?” she asked, making him nearly jolt back in bewilderment. His lips parted, emitting a groggy sound before he began shaking his head, eyebrows knitting, “No, no, no that’s not what I mean at all. Leaving him to be with me doesn’t change the fact that you cheated and I was okay with it” he said, making her throw her arms up in the air in frustration and letting them fall back at her sides. “Taehyung, I don’t know what you want me to do!” she stated, her voice raising and surprising him, “Do you just want us to stop? Why can’t you just say that instead of making me feel bad?” she added, her voice cracking but that didn’t break her expression.

“That’s the thing, Y/N! I don’t want it to stop but I don’t want you to leave him for me!” he then replied, his voice also raising as his hands left his pockets. “Why?” she questioned sternly, and he couldn’t stop himself from saying what he meant to keep to himself. “Because I don’t want that! I don’t want more between us-” he confessed, his heart rate making it difficult for him to breathe normally as her expression finally cracked, shattered and tears welled up her eyes but refused to spill.

A few seconds passed before she scoffed and chuckled, “Well, shit then… I-I’m not really sure what I was expecting from this whole situation” she admitted, placing her hand on her forehead and then running it through her hair in helplessness. She chuckled once again and sighed in defeat, hands on her hips as she looked away, licking her lips while her eyebrows knitted together. He was dumbfounded by his feelings and thoughts and her state of despair. He had been her shoulder to cry on for the last couple of months but in this moment she had no one because suddenly he had turned his back on her, and that alone had him feeling a strong pang of guilt and regret to his chest.

He had thought that seeing her off might have been a better idea than watching her stay by his side, but oh how terribly wrong he had been.

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The Chase Files Daily Newscap 9/14/2019

Good Morning #realdreamchasers. Here is your daily news cap for Saturday, September 14th, 2019. There is a lot to read and digest so take your time. Remember you can read full articles via Barbados Today (BT), or by purchasing a Saturday Sun Nation Newspaper (SS).

RIHANNA, PM IN DAZZLE AT DIAMOND BALL–Models, musicians, actors and many more notables came out in droves Thursday night to celebrate superstar Rihanna’s fifth annual Diamond Ball at Cipriani Wall Street, an event to benefit her Clara Lionel Foundation (CLF). Though Rihanna, in a Givenchy Haute Couture ball gown  stole the spotlight, another of her guests commanded similar attention: Prime Minister Mia Mottley. Mottley — who made history in 2018 as the first woman to be elected Prime Minister of the nation where Rihanna was born and raised — was honored with the 2019 Diamond Ball Award for breaking barriers. Mottley was cited for a 25-year career as an advocate for education, as well as championing causes which empower youth and women. But speaking with the Hollywood Reporter ahead of the charity gala, hosted by Seth Meyers, Mottley downplayed her own achievements against Rihanna’s contributions to their homeland. Barbadian charities receive assistance from CLF — founded by Rihanna in 2012 and named after her grandparents Clara and Lionel Braithwaite — which benefits impoverished communities across the globe, with an emphasis on health, education, arts, culture, emergency response and combatting climate change. Mottley told the Hollywood Reporter: “It’s so special what she’s been able to do. “Barbados is a place where we believe in helping those who cannot help themselves or who are not strong enough to carry themselves. And Rihanna has been able to exhibit that so beautifully in all that she’s done. She carries with her the DNA of the country. “When we became an independent nation [in 1966], our prime minster at the time said that we should be friends of all and satellites of none. “That requires a nobility of spirit, that requires an ability to also recognize that you are as strong as the weakest among you. That’s what Rihanna represents for us.” According to the politician, Rihanna’s impact on her country will be “written about in history books”. Mottley elaborated: “Her legacy is going to be global, but I think it’s also going to very much be coloured by her Barbadian upbringing and the values that she received while she grew up and was nurtured in our country. “And she is still very much a part of it. How she speaks and how she behaves is as Barbadian as you get.” Rihanna also paid tribute to “role model” Prime Minister Mottley. She told the audience: “The Prime Minister of Barbados , the Honourable Mia Mottley; she has been such a role model in my life for many, many, many many years, years before she ran to be Prime Minister, this is a woman that I respected. “I respected her morals, I respected her aspects on different things politically and  just her willingness to go against the grain, to go against what is safe. She is very brave, she is very daring and that comes with what she is passionate about and that is a woman I can respect always because that is kinda what I hold myself to.”(BT)

STALLED –The island’s largest rum producer has over 400,000 bottles of rum stuck in containers in the Bridgetown Port awaiting shipment delayed because of the teething problems at the docks associated with the rollout of the new Asycudo World system. According to Managing Director of Mount Gay Distilleries Ltd Raphael Grisoni the shipments intended for Europe and the United States have been there for two weeks. He believes some of the fallout could have been mitigated with better communication from Port officials. This morning, he told Barbados TODAY, “We are the largest exporter of rum in Barbados and for 13 days we cannot export a single container of rum and we actually have 38 containers at the port waiting to be loaded on the ship. This is a major order for us. I understand that this thing will again open up next Friday, so it will be three weeks of non- export activity for us,” said Grisoni, who noted that his fellow rum producers were equally down-spirited by the same challenge. He explained that while the delays have not so far resulted in the cancellation of orders, they certainly place the company at a disadvantage, as this shipment is the stock which retailers depend on in preparation for November and Christmas sales. “It is a big problem because at this time of year we are shipping for the Christmas season for markets like Europe, so it is really painful. The problem is with the communication about when systems would be ready. It was not until yesterday [Thursday] that we learnt that the system would be up next Friday and while that is fine, there could have been better communication,” he contended. Since switching to the new paperless platform on September 9, Customs has been plagued with several issues. Newly appointed Comptroller of Customs Owen Holder has promised it will take the Customs and Excise Department one more week to iron out any kinks it has encountered in upgrading its system from ASYCUDO ++ to ASYCUDO World. “I am very familiar with implementing these systems and I understand the teething issues that will develop with a new system, but from what we are seeing in Barbados currently I can say this is a normal process of implementing the system. So I wish to assure the public that within probably a week’s time it will definitely settle down.” However, Grisoni argued that while he is happy that things will be back on track and function with even greater efficiency than before, he is concerned that there was apparently no backup in place, which could have kicked in to prevent these counter-productive delays. “You must realize that the country’s exports were paralyzed because of the system and I am surprised that we didn’t have a backup system or used the old one just for a couple of weeks, at least to export bulk and avoid congestion in the port,” he said pointing to the anticipated congestion by the backlog. “Next week is going to be a type of traffic jam-like situation when things open up again and I expect that customs will be overwhelmed, so I don’t know if they have extra resources to clear this backlog. Will we have the resources to clear quickly or will we again miss the ship going out? These are the big questions which still need answering but I don’t have the answers right now. It is a real concern for us,” he stressed Minister of Finance Ryan Straughn maintained that the upgrade to ASYCUDO World was especially critical to Barbados. He said while its installation had been delayed since 2014, Government was pushing ahead in its bid to improve the ease of doing business in Barbados. “I want to stress that as we go through this modernization of Customs that the upgrade to ASYCUDO World is critical to Barbados’ competitiveness. “We do not want people waiting in the Port for any extended period of time, waiting on Customs to process goods unless there is a particular reason based on the risk management protocols that have been established, because whilst we are facilitating business there is a national security component that is critical as part of the Customs’ function…” Straughn pointed out. This morning Minister Small Business, Entrepreneurship and Commerce, Dwight Sutherland, also made an appeal for patience from the business community. “ASYCUDO World is just one of the activities in a whole list of activities that this Government will implement in terms of improving the ease of doing business and cross border trade facilitation, ASYCUDO World provides the foundation for something bigger to come, which we call the Electronic Single Window… As Minister of Small Business I am happy that we are to implement this because it would increase the ease of doing business and reduce cost,” said Sutherland. He added, “We recognised that there were disruptions and customs has promised to put plans in place, so please just bear with us because it is not going to last.” When contacted the Barbados Chamber of Commerce and Industry  BCCI promised to comment but up to time of publication none was forthcoming. (BT)

‘FIRE SALE’ OR FARMING FOR CLICO ESTATES?- The fate of eight plantations, covering close to 2,000 acres of farmland in St John’s farming belt that have been lying idle since their owner went out of business a decade ago, is at the centre of a political firestorm being played out on talk radio and social media. Minister of Agriculture and Food Security Indar Weir and the Democratic Labour Party, which formed the Government when insurance giant CLICO collapsed, have clashed over allegations that the Barbados Labour Party Government plans a “fire sale” of CLICO farmlands as residential property “under cover of darkness”. The CLICO farms consist of approximately 1,790 arable acres: 941 acres at Todds and 850 acres at Wakefield. Todds is an amalgamation of four farms – Henley, Pool, Bowmanston and Todds, while Wakefield incorporates Clifton Hall, Hothersal, Lemon Arbor and Wakefield. Now the Democratic Labour Party (DLP) has called on  Weir to back up the denial he made on a radio call-in. On Wednesday, the DLP’s Agriculture and Environment spokesperson Andre Worrell first claimed that the Todd’s and Wakefield estates are to be sold off. Then, Weir took to Down to Brass Tacks programme on Starcom Network to refute the suggestion. “I don’t know how you could turn agricultural land into a [residential] development without first involving the Ministry of Agriculture. “We have a Chief Agricultural Officer who is highly trained and makes informed decisions on these things before they even reach Town Planning [Office],” Weir said. But in a release published on its Facebook page today, the DLP said a Ministerial statement was needed for clarity, contending that Weir’s words on the radio programme did not hold any weight. “Mr Weir has been a Cabinet member long enough to know that interventions on radio talk shows are not enunciated Government policy. “At no time in his extensive telephone conversation did Weir say that the CLICO lands will be offered to farmers or shareholders for agricultural purposes. “Had the Government been transparent in its initial sale announcement there would be no need to speculate. “The Agriculture Minister is also aware that the final word regarding change of use is not his. Those decisions are made by the Minister in charge of Town Planning: The Prime Minister.” The DLP claimed that the farms “are in the high productivity agro-ecological zone and have traditionally been at the upper end of the agricultural productivity scale”. Under the 2008-2018 DLP administration, a Memorandum of Understanding (MOU) was signed between the Barbados Agricultural Development Management Company (BADMC) and the Barbados Agricultural Management Company (BAMC) to bring those lands back into agriculture. A formal plan entitled Returning CLICO Lands To Full Production was drafted. Then DLP maintained that farmers, either through co-operatives or as sole purchasers, should be offered the opportunity to buy or lease the plantations. The party said: “We have maintained that sub-division of prime agricultural land in these economic circumstances for housing development purposes should never be an option in a country with a food import bill in excess of $600m. “There should be no fire sale of prime agricultural land under cover of darkness. “Barbados must have an official Government position specifically targeting the plans for the CLICO agricultural lands at Todds and Wakefield Plantations.” (BT)

MASSY OISTINS BACK IN BUSINESS –After four months of having to travel out of their community for grocery shopping, Oistins residents have returned this morning to the reopened Massy supermarket at the 40-year-old Southern Plaza shopping complex. After being closed for upgrades since May, Minister of Commerce Dwight Sutherland and area MP Ralph Thorne were on hand for the official re-opening of the store which employs 65 people. Barbados TODAY witnessed large numbers of shoppers in the supermarket, many of them freely expressing their happiness that the store had re-opened as well as their satisfaction with the new look and shopping experience.Massy Stores CEO Randall Banfield said: “It would have been an inconvenience for customers who would have shopped here, and we understand that. “We would have provided some shuttle services to get them into some other stores because we have our network of stores nearby. “It is really nice to have the store opened again and we have heard from customers yesterday and today how pleased they are to have the store in Oistins re-opened and in the fashion that we have done it.” Banfield revealed that the store, which is now smaller in size, has been retrofitted with the latest energy saving devices, a move which was praised by Sutherland. The Minister praised the conglomerate for ensuring that the new supermarket was in keeping with Government’s vision for green energy. Sutherland declared: “We have recognised in an era such as this, the use of technology is critical. “I want to shower praise on Massy Stores for investing in state-of-the-art equipment as it relates to refrigeration. We are seeking to become fossil fuel free by 2030. “So, I want to congratulate Massy for leading the charge. They have not only re-opened the store, but they have done so with the Government’s mission in mind.” He also praised the supermarket for sticking to local producers, and urged others to do likewise. The Minister added: This is just an example of what we as a Government would love to see. “Re-opening the store paved the way for small businesses to ply their trade and to have an outlet for their products. “I want to thank Mr Banfield because he has stuck to local producers and helping us build out industries such as the pork industry because these are critical to our development.” (BT)

FOOD COURT REOPENS – With the exception of three eateries undergoing renovations, the all-clear has been given by the Ministery of Health for the reopening of the food court at Sheraton Mall. And yesterday those opened were doing brisk business.On Tuesday, all 21 of the food establishments at the popular Sargeant’s Village, Christ Church mall were ordered shut, with the ministry explaining that after numerous inspections over six days there were “several conditions” in violation of the health services food hygiene regulations. Owners were instructed to carry out the “necessary remedial action”.The cleaning was led by the mall’s general manager, Kamaal Bennett, along with sales and marketing manager Adrian Clarke of Pilot Management Services.Bennett said they began cleaning on Tuesday night, working through to the wee hours of each morning.“Based on the reopening of the stores, the inspectors themselves commended us on the work done. There are three stores which remained closed - Piggies, Yvonne’s and Arabian Knights - but it has nothing to do with the cleaning; they are closed due to ongoing renovations,” he said.  (SS)

VAPING HARMFUL – The Ministry of Health has warned the public about the dangers of vaping, particularly on the heels of reports of a rash of deaths and severe breathing illnesses linked to the habit in the United States. In a statement issued today, the ministry said that the cause of the illnesses, which have so far resulted in six deaths, was still not entirely clear, but investigations were ongoing by the US Centres for Disease Control and Prevention (CDC) and the Food and Drug Administration (FDA). Acting Chief Medical Officer, Dr. Kenneth George, said the fairly recent fad, mostly among teenagers and young adults, has involved smoking flavoured e-cigarettes with nicotine oils and more recently marijuana oils. The ministry advised that particularly minors, pregnant women and people who have never smoked should avoid vaping since they were at increased risk of adverse reactions, including respiratory illnesses. People who vape were warned against using home-made solutions, and the ministry stressed that it did not recommend e-cigarettes as an aid to quit smoking aid. The Health Services (Smoking Regulations) 2017 defines electronic smoking devices as tobacco products for the purposes of restricting their marketing and sales to minors and forbidding their use in public spaces. In the more than 450 cases so far confirmed in the United States, breathing problems ranged from coughing and difficulty breathing to chest pain. There were also gastrointestinal symptoms, including nausea, vomiting and diarrhoea.The non-specific symptoms being experienced include fever and fatigue. The Ministry of Health said it will be issuing guidelines to healthcare providers summarizing the situation and sharing the local case definition for surveillance purposes. The ministry is also asking hospitals and urgent care providers to ask patients who come in with “significant respiratory distress” whether they had been vaping prior to the illness.(BT)

ABUSER BACK IN COURT – A 32-year-old man who admitted to assaulting the mother of his child and harming her will make his next court appearance on September 18 along with the complainant. Shirmaro Andre Michael Coward, of 2nd Avenue, Richmond Gap, St Michael appeared before Magistrate Kristie Cuffy-Sargeant today and pleaded guilty to committing the act against Shaddriese Marshall on September 2. Prosecutor Victoria Taitt told the court that the two have been in a relationship for the past two years and share a one-year-old child. Taitt said on the day of the incident the accused, who had been verbally and physically abusive to the complainant, went over to her house to drop off their son. When Coward arrived there however, he began using abusive language to Marshall, embarrassing her and causing her to walk off in the direction of her house. Coward grabbed her by the hair and started punching her on the face and head. Marshall began screaming. Her mother come to her assistance and Coward ran away. However, the prosecutor said, the accused subsequently returned and Marshall called the police. While she was doing that Coward punched her in the head again before running off for a second time. After hearing the facts Magistrate Kristie Cuffy-Sargeant ordered that Marshall be summoned to court for September 18. With a warning to stay away from the complainant, she granted Coward, who was represented by attorney-at-law Mohia Ma’at, $2,000 bail which he secured with one surety. (BT)

SHOPLIFER JAILED - When a 42-year-old man took up a $967.99 pair of sunglasses and slipped out of Cave Shepherd last week without paying, he sent security on a futile search for him. A worker recognised Allan Orlando Simmons when he entered the store. Two days later, the thief, who has no fixed place of abode, returned to the scene of the crime and approached the same worker who had seen him and begged for money. Simmons who is known to the courts, was apprehended by security personnel, who then turned him over to police, prosecutor Victoria Taitt revealed as she outlined the facts. “I would like some leniency because my mother and grandmother died and my father put me out. I used to work but got into a little trouble,” Simmons told Magistrate Kristie Cuffy-Sargeant. About the item he stole, he admitted, “I took off the tag but gave it to someone because it was too expensive. “I am a man who normally wears glasses because of the sun.  But I want some leniency in this position . . . I was at the prison before it was burned down. I want some leniency, “ he told the magistrate. However, Cuffy-Sargeant informed him that the last time he was before the court was also for theft of items from the same store. For his crime the District ‘A’ magistrate sentenced Simmons to two months in prison.(BT)

LOBO’S CASE ADJOURNED – An Argentinian man charged with theft of money from two of this island’s financial institutions remains on remand at Her Majesty’s Prison Dodds. Joaquin Alberto Lobo from Caseros, Buenos Aires, Argentina has been on remand at the St Philip institution since his first appearance before Magistrate Kristie Cuffy-Sargeant back in July. The 33-year-old alleged ATM skimmer, who arrived in Barbados on July 3, is accused of stealing $3, 040 cash belonging to the Barbados Public Workers Credit Union Limited between July 6 and 7. He is also charged with stealing $79, 770 cash belonging to CIBC First Caribbean International Bank (Barbados) Limited between July 5 and 8. He has denied the first charge but was not required to enter a plea to the second charge, as it is an indictable offence. When Lobo appeared before the No. 2 District ‘A’ Magistrates’ Court this week the cases against him were adjourned until October 9.(BT)

ARCHER PUTS ENGLAND AHEAD – Jofra Archer took 6-62 to give England the upper hand in the fifth Ashes Test, despite yet more runs from Australia’s Steve Smith on day two at The Oval today. Pace bowler Archer was supported by three wickets from left-armer Sam Curran – including two in two balls – as the tourists were bowled out for 225. Through it all, Smith stood firm, and it was his wicket – lbw to Chris Woakes for 80 – that England and their supporters celebrated the most. It says much about Smith’s stellar summer that this was his lowest score of the series and the inability to reach a century felt like a relative failure. England batted twice in the day. In the morning they went from 271-8 to 294 all out, a total that looked short of par on a flat pitch.(BT)

KING OVERCOMES BRAZILIAN – Top tennis player Darian King battled hot sweltering conditions in Criciuma, Brazil yesterday to set the customary Davis Cup template for the Bajan team by defeating homeboy Joao De Menezes 3-6, 6-4, 6-2 after two hours and 37 bruising minutes. Facing vocal home crowd support as well as meeting 22-year-old De Menezes on the latter’s favourite outdoors clay court, King struggled early to find his rhythm against the recent Pan Am gold medallist in Peru. Even so, the 3-6 score-line did not reflect the closeness of the games in the opening set with both players fighting to establish an advantage.However, King’s ground strokes and greater experience then showed the disparity between the two players with the Bajan ranked at 169 to De Menezes’ 194. Unreeling his passing forehand blazers and deft backhand strokes, King moved from 1-1 in the second set to 4-1. De Menezes then found a Samba wave as well as his favourite clay underfoot to battle back to 4-4 in games winning a double break point at 3-4.King held his nerve and serve to triumph in the second set to set up the decider. With De Menezes committing a double fault in the first game, King did not capitalise fully as he also made the same error. Racking up winning break points on either side of a similar success by De Menezes, King stroked his way within sight of victory 4-1 before the Brazilian fired his sole ace of the match to keep hope alive 2-4.But, as customary as rain on Kadooment Day, King took the match to give Barbados a 1-0 advantage in the contest. However, southpaw Haydn Lewis could not maintain that edge going into today’s doubles as he folded to Thiago Monteiro 2-6, 2-6. (SS)

CALL FOR NEW APPROACH TO TEACHING – A secondary school teacher wants to leave the chalk and talk style of teaching in the dust. Regina Layne thinks that the traditional method is stopping students from reaching their full potential.Layne, who recently received her diploma in education from Erdiston Teachers Training College, was speaking at the St Leonard’s Boys’ Secondary School where the C.O. Williams Group and the Eden Lodge Youth Charitable Trust presented the school with a television and projector system.“It is going to take a while to get it started but. . . I think we do too much writing in the exercise books. I think if we stop the writing we might be able to complete the syllabus in time because we are never able to finish it.  “If we reduce the amount of writing that the students do, and if we prepare and give them more, we could accomplish more,” Layne said at the Richmond Gap, St Michael School.During the presentation, she advocated for more creative student-centred approaches. (SS)

HONOR YOUR PLEDGES – As Barbados prepares to disperse its first traunch of financial assistance to the Bahamas, CARICOM Ambassador David Comissiong is pleading for Barbadians who have pledged money in last Sunday’s telethon to honour their commitments. In fact, Comissiong told Barbados TODAY that Government is currently over $150,000 short of the near $500,000 pledged last Sunday night at the Rise Bahamas mediathon. After a ceremony at the Sea Breeze Beach House in Maxwell Christ Church to announce a $24,000 donation by Ocean Hotels Barbados, Comissiong said he was extremely pleased with the outpouring of support from Barbados’ working class and private sector. He however stressed that citizens needed to follow through on promised donations to make the initiative work. “We are now in the process of getting people to honor those pledges and collecting everything in the account at CIBC First Caribbean. As of Wednesday, we were up to approximately $278,000 so we still have some additional pledges to be honored and paid in,” he said. “We will be doing our follow up work and we know there will be some lag but we want to get the first donation out next week with the understanding that more money will follow as it comes into the bank account.” He added: “The funds will go directly to support on-the-ground relief efforts in the Bahamas. The figure we gave out at the end of the mediathon was 441,000. That represented a combination of cash payments at the CBC studios, credit card payments made on the Sunday, cheques made at the CBC studios and payments at various branches of the CIBC bank and pledges.” Comissiong encouraged Barbadians to be proud of their efforts and encouraged citizens to find strength in the organs of the Caribbean Community (CARICOM) and the Caribbean Disaster Emergency Management Agency (CDEMA), which is the primary coordinator of the Bahamas relief efforts. “The churches that immediately supported the fundraising efforts for the Bahamas, the companies like Cave Shepherd, Ocean Hotels and all the others that have been donating to this cause since last week, it shows that we are on the ball, we are being proactive and we are helping ourselves. We are not waiting for outside actors to come to our rescue. We are helping ourselves,” said the Ambassador.(BT)

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haikyuu characters + kpop

basically, which haikyuu characters would listen to kpop and and what would they enjoy realistically?

as the kpop industry is kinda saturated with idols, obv i couldnt include every group/artist. also its important to note that kpop would be a really niche interest unless they’re a trending group (eg. twice), regularly promoting in japan (ie. bts, apink, ikon, shinee), have established themselves because of hallyu (eg. dbsk, suju, big bang, snsd). if a artist/group met any or more of those conditions, the more i took them into consideration for this. 

I also took into consideration characters who are more likely to enjoy browsing the internet. those who put in a good amount of effort to look for music are very much more likely to come across it!

bokuto koutarou: only aware of kpop songs that go viral. often the very high-energy & catchy songs.

really really loves bts:  DOPE / war of hormone (HELLO HELLO)

he just really loves their intense choreography & how energetic their music is

just imagine him finding dope for the first time.

always attempts to learn the choreography, maybe just parts of it that he thought was the coolest

favourite korean songs thats not bts:

call me baby (he LOVES every single part of this song..)

RHYTHM TA the dance is simple & the song is his style

sugawara koushi: generally an open-minded individual... has the ability to appreciate many kinds of music

likes surfing through various mvs on youtube when he's bored, so he’s prob seen like most of ur favs, and surprisingly keeps tabs on the ones he likes.

likes shinee’s releases because enjoys the harmony of all their voices blending, very smooth and light. 

replay / your number / dont let me go

also likes charting/trending korean songs that aren't necessarily idol/kpop based like this

good vocals and songs with warm tones are a must 

azumane asahi, yamaguchi tadashi, yachi hitoka: the three of them enjoy cute & soft music

yamaguchi & yachi are both huge huge fans of iu. they love you & i, as well as good day!

peach is another strong favourite!

asahi loves how sweet kissing you sounds. he also likes nonono because the lyrics (its there in the vid!) are always super encouraging and comforting.

while they like mainstream songs, its not far-fetched to imagine them surfing the internet, due to their introverted natures, and uncovering sweet sounding korean indie music like rainy day and how do you think. yachi and yamaguchi like to share songs with each other since they trust each other’s taste.

tsukishima kei, akaashi keiji, ennoshita chikara: anything that’s layered and made with artistry. 

akaashi was almost a kpop anti (hates rhythm ta so fucking much lol) but then he found this and thought otherwise

just once you hit that part of youtube, the same type of music fills the entire sidebar. its a whole new world of music which is exactly what tsukki, akaashi, and ennoshita are after.

part of ennoshita's fascination of this music is the cinematography also he likes being unique for the music vids. its undeniable how high quality kpop music videos are... the camera-work, the selection of sets and props & lighting to create certain moods such as across the universe

tsukki is just an avid listener of music and enjoys being informed and up to date on all kinds of music. very attracted to tracks that are very well produced and well crafted such as bawling

akaashi is naturally thorough and doesnt like to settle for music readily available around him, he truly loves the meeting new sounds and styles, especially anything thats a clever/creative hybrid of genres such as neon bunny’s romance in seoul (jazz + electro) 

oikawa tooru: open-minded, but mostly he loves anything feel-good and cute.

enjoys often very catchy and upbeat hits:

cheer up - twice /  very nice - seventeen / party - snsd 

usually a pleasant hummer and has a nice soft voice when singing. knows how to be obnoxious though

he cant help it because the songs are so FUN iwa-chan, 

also songs that make him feel nostalgic and longing, especially if the vocalist is good at conveying emotion

like taeyeon’s rain ... also loves why though. dbsk’s why did i fall in love with you?

though updated with some trends (twice, seventeen), only truly familiar with older generation of idols.

hanamaki & mattsun: always looking for entertainment, yall know how they’re like lmfao.

they know kpop thanks to oikawa who showed them cheer up... found it cute and rly love dancing to the “sha sha sha” and chorus.

both curious, they did their own research and exploring and came out with their own likes and dislikes.

prefer sexier/non-cute groups: mini skirt -aoa

also ring ding dong (started liking it ironically to piss off hajime but now finds genuine enjoyment in it. they know the chorus dance)

it g ma because kohh features (they were shook) but also because of its meme factor. listen to it please oh my god [TW: lots of BRIGHT flashes in that mv..] the squawking and yelling annoys hajime so much wtf which may or may not contribute to why they both like this song so much. oikawa doesnt like it either ("its so ugly!")

generally prefers k-hip hop scene over kpop 

sunshine - verbal jint feat chancelor / jet lag - paloalto

kuroo & yaku: idol fanboys confirmed (see ch 200.)

as confirmed in ch 200. they are both huge fans of perfume, an electropop girl band, even to the point where they are familiar with the names of the members

thus i think its fair to say out of all the hq characters, its these two who are most likely to get to know their idol groups & not just be passive listeners.

upbeat, quirky electronic groups... the nu abo album by f(x) basically embodies this...

kuroo didnt care about kpop until he decided to give super junior’s hero album a listen during the time it was just released and very hot and popular on the charts. unexpectedly really loved the tracks & shared with yaku and kai. kai likes it too but isnt into idol stuff (more into rock) as much as yaku and kuroo. this was gateway into kpop for them. they’re mostly familiar with idols from sm ent.

iwaizumi hajime:

kpop anti

with oikawa being relentless singing the same repetitive hook choruses over & over ("cheer up baby! cheer up baby!" "gee gee gee gee baby baby~") & hanamatsu joining in because they’re hanamatsu

he hates it 

like A Lot

(needs better company)

(would probably like baby baby & winner's rock influenced music tbh)

give him time

[bts-love-sweat-tears]

Philosophy Forum

Pairing: Namjoon x reader

Rating: PG?

Type:  I thought it would be fluffier when I imagined it but I guess it’s angst?

Inspiration: A number of things-the NYC concert, someone being rude to others in ch+ re: physical appearance (they got flagged so fast, don’t you worry); general philosophy stuff; (third-wave) feminism.

Let’s play a game: guess my major in undergrad lol

Also: this is my first fic EVARR (not counting the weird Draco shit I co-wrote with friends in middle school, may it never see the light of day again), so kindly let me know what you think/feedback/ways to improve. Please don’t attack me personally as I will be v. sad. If you think of a snazzier name, let me know. 

You, October 2016

Can you be in love with someone you’ve never met?

This is the question that loops through my head. Logically, I don’t believe you can. You need to know if you have chemistry with that person, see them at their spontaneous best and worse, and to know if you feel that “spark” that everyone talks about endlessly. Emotionally, though, I want to believe otherwise. We are also told from the time we are young, that there is more than meets the eye, and that beauty is in the eye of the beholder. I don’t want to objectify or be objectified. Can you love someone you’ve never met? Can beauty be in the mind of the beholder?

I sigh and flip open my computer, and quickly log into the philosophy forum that has started to take up almost all of my free time. What started out as a way to finish a term paper quickly turned into a place where I felt truly present, even if it didn’t exist physically. The other members of the forum were intelligent, interesting, and helped me to challenge the perspectives that I took for granted.

There was one person in particular I hoped would be online, and sure enough, he was. His handle was @godofdestruction. When we first chatted, I thought that he would be an asshat with an ego problem with a name like that, but it turned out that he was self-deprecating and extremely witty. The name came from the fact that he apparently broke everything in his vicinity, and his six brothers gave it to him as a joke. I wondered what kind of family he came from, with so many siblings, but I knew so little about his personal life. I knew he would be on at random times, and I could never quite pin down what time zone he was in despite my best internet sleuthing (hello, future career in the NSA). All I really know about him is that he speaks English (duh) and has six brothers. I know he’s smart, loves coffee/coffee shops, and is interested in aesthetics. This whole debate of beauty also scares me, because if I’m being honest with myself, I already rely way too much on these conversations with a stranger halfway around the globe, but if we met would he reject me? I am only able to wallow in self-despair and existential angst for a few seconds, before our rapid-fire conversations begin, and my fingers are flying across the keyboard. We somehow get into a discussion of Arendt’s “banality of evil” and I forget my personal problems for societal ones.

Namjoon, January 2017

My smartphone screen flips to black, with the dreaded white swirl that means the battery has died. I roll to my side and chuck the phone across the bed. I guess my conversation with @kantdealwithmarx is over. This is a dangerous move for me, but for once in my life, the phone hits the Ryan plushy and falls unharmed to the carpeted floor. I sigh and run to the kitchen for a glass of water. In the hallway of the dorm, I see myself in the mirror. My lavender hair is sticking everywhere, and my lips are chapped as they always are. It’s ironic that I discuss philosophy and beauty for hours on the internet but look like a cartoon character. Tae and JK are in the living room playing (what else?) Overwatch, and for a second I enviously wish the game held the same appeal for me. It would certainly be easier.

It scares me how reliant I am on my conversations with @kantdealwithmarx. They’re god knows where, and I’m a K-pop star. Though we meet almost every day in the philosophy forum, we might as well be on different planets. It’s completely crazy, but the most rewarding experience that I have made a friend who knows nothing about my life or who I am. I definitely still have friends from my time in school and when I was Runch Randa (lol, I cringe so much looking back on those days, but who doesn’t when they see things from their past?), but it’s hard to meet people who aren’t also in the industry or who have some weird delusions about what our relationship will be or what I can do for them.

@kantdealwithmarx is the first new friend I’ve made in ages. I want to meet them in person, and wander Seoul’s myriad bookstores, then go for coffee, and spend an afternoon in the park, just walking and talking. It’s a nice daydream, but I’m endlessly worried that if I reveal more about myself then it will ruin the comfortable and open dynamic we have. Producing music and leading BTS are my number one priorities, and will be for the foreseeable future, but I’ve been distracted wondering what this friendship would or could be. Maybe if I could see this person in real life, and know that they exist outside of a 6-inch screen, I could better understand this ambiguous relationship.

You, March 2017

I swallow as my ears pop as the L descends further under Brooklyn, rushing away from Queens, where I live. Ridgewood is lovely, but it is FAR from almost everything people associate with New York City. I commute into Manhattan every day for school and my part-time job, which is with a private catering company. Today, my commute will be even longer as I have to cover some event in Newark. A concert of some kind? I hadn’t heard from @godofdestruction recently, and was irked.  But I was still up super late discussing Butler’s theory of gender as performance on the forum. I have no idea how we got on the topic of gender, but it was definitely very involved, as many of the best conversations are. What that meant for today though, was that I was struggling to keep my eyes open. Class flew by in a blur, and before I knew it, I was on my way to Newark with enough food to feed an ARMY. Seriously, how many people were going to be at this event?

I soon found out that it was seven boys (men?) with various shades of pastel hair and bedazzled clothes. I set up the food, and then stood in the corner quietly, while awaiting further instruction. They were all getting their makeup and hair done, so no one was really looking at the food. To be honest, they were all staring at their smartphones, most of which were in cases that cost more than the actual phones. The boy with lavender hair was looking at his phone particularly intently.  

While it wasn’t very professional (do not attempt at home), I snuck a glance at my phone and opened the philosophy forum. Since I hadn’t heard from @godofdestruction in a few days, I had an irrational fear that something had happened or I had said something that hadn’t translated well to the internet and that maybe I inadvertently offended him. As if we were on the same wavelength, my phone dinged and his name popped up on my screen.

@godofdestruction: Hey! Hope you’re well! Sorry I’ve been neglectful- I’ve been super busy with work.

I quickly typed back:

@kantdealwithmarx: Whoa, stranger danger. Glad you’re okay. Where does your work have you these days?

He replied almost instantly.

 @godofdestruction: Us, strangers? Never. I’m in NYC. Wish I had more time for touristy things though… 🤢

I swear the room stopped moving, and I stared at my phone. We were in the same city? Should I ask him to meet? Right as the wave of anxiety and indecision hit me, a brown-haired boy with the broadest shoulders I’d ever seen came up to the table. I quickly flung my phone to the side. If my boss knew, she would be livid. The boy winked though, and I knew my secret was safe.

“Annyeonghaseo. Hello. Can you tell me about the different food options? I’m thinking of filming a mukbang later…you know? EatJin?”

I honestly did not know EatJin, but I explained the different dishes as clearly as I could, and his smile made me feel like he understood what I was saying. We exchanged a bit of limited small talk, with him laughing and acting like my weird uncle. But for some reason (maybe the shoulders?) I found it less annoying and more endearing. He glanced over my shoulder, and said something I couldn’t understand in rapid fire Korean. I slowly turned around, and then froze.

The purple haired boy was staring at my phone, which I had accidentally left unlocked and on the philosophy chat screen. I quickly grabbed my phone out of his hand as politely as I could and shoved it into my back pocket. I could only hope that he didn’t speak English and had just been acting out of curiosity rather than reading through my personal chats.  I apologized profusely, but when I looked up, he was staring at me as though he had seen a ghost. I was frozen to the spot, my face redder than the lasagna on the table. He slowly backed away never taking his eyes off of me, and grabbed his phone. His hands were shaking as he unlocked the phone and slowly turned it around, so that I could see the screen.  There were all of our previous messages, and I knew that from this point on things would never be the same for us. I also knew, without a doubt, than you CAN in fact love someone without seeing their face. But it sure doesn’t hurt.

[ktaebwi]

[TRANS] BTS Japan Official Fanclub Magazine - Suga’s Biography

A mischievous kid growing up into a boy who enjoys reading 

I was born in Daegu in the South, the third biggest city of Korean, and grew up there until I came up to Seoul. When I was young, I was pretty much an ordinary kid. I loved playing around so my kindergarten teacher didn’t seem to like me. (laughs) I remember being scolded “It’s dangerous!” a lot. I also loved sports and was good at running, to the point of being picked as a relay runner from elementary school all the way up to high school. When it comes to studying, I’m slightly above average. 

I used to love playing outside with friends back then, but I changed as I grew up. Even when we went outside, it wasn’t like we did anything, we just gathered at the park. I wasn’t fond of that so many times I just stayed at home on weekends. My mother told me to go outside and meet my friends sometimes. (laughs) 

I had a thing for collecting, so I collected a lot of books when I was young. It was a time when I wanted to be a cultured man, wanted to pretend I know things too. Mature stuffs that didn’t suit my age or novels, poetry books, essays, newspapers,… I read everything regardless of genre. I don’t know why but up till middle school, I had the habit of reading books from the back page. I still read books sometimes now. My reading speed gets faster by reading multiple sentences at a time. 

Memories of first love from elementary school… I really don’t have any. Unlike Seoul, the provinces are conservative, and my school didn’t have that kind of atmosphere in which boys and girls talk to each other. If I was with a girl, I would become really shy and wouldn’t even say a word. 

The encounter with hip hop Started composing in middle school 

I started to be interested in music in 5th year of elementary school, while watching the performance of “Stony Skunk”, Korean artists, on TV. It was the prime of ballad back then so if 18 teams perform on a music program, 10 would sing ballads, 5 would be idols and the other 3 would be other genres. They were one of those 3 teams. It was so cool how they were different from other singers. Up until then, I didn’t have any interest in music, but with Stony Skunk, I started listening to hip hop and reggae music, and was influenced by Epik High as well. MP3 player was starting to come out at that time, but I bought a Panasonic CD player and listened with that. 

Along with listening to music, I also started writing music at the same time. It wasn’t like someone told me to do it, I just had the thought of having to do so. I started writing rap lyrics in elementary school and started composing after I went to middle school. Back then, no one around me liked hiphop… It became extremely popular in Korea now but when I first started listening to it, hip hop was a genre once popular a long time ago. I think there probably wasn’t anyone on the streets who raps, except for me. If I rap at the karaoke room, it would just become some kind of sound to my friends. You know the moving hand gestures that are hip hop’s specialty? I was picked on for that too. 

Despite that, I still kept liking hip hop and in my 2nd year of middle school, I went on the stage for the first time at a festival. I performed Dynamic Duo’s “Go Back” with a friend. I didn’t like standing in front of people, but at that time, I only felt like I have to do it. I showed the rap that I practice too, although it wasn’t anything great. (laughs) 

 Actually in middle school, I wanted to go to an arts high school so I composed classical music. But the tuition was too expensive so I ended up just going to a regular high school. I told my father “I have done enough music now so I’ll study hard in high school” and went to that school, but of course I didn’t. (laughs) 

Full-fledged activities as a rapper after joining a crew in town 

Middle school years was when I composed music to satisfy myself only, on a hobby level. It was after I changed the MIDI software that I started full-fledgedly making music. In 1st year of high school, I showed my song to a person that was like a mentor to me, and he liked it a lot. I was introduced to a hip hop crew called “D-town” and joined. That song had the feeling of new-age music but had hip hop beats similar to Nujabes. For your information, the mentor that acknowledged me studied at Berklee College of Music and is currently working as a movie music director.

I think I started rapping properly after joining the crew. I have been rapping since elementary school, but since there wasn’t anyone who raps around me, I thought I was the best. (laughs) 

After that, I came to the Daegu underground scene, and from then, I also got to know that you can’t make a living out of music in the underground scene. Most of the hyungs who made music with me that time was about 10 years older than me, there were also people over 30. They worked part-time jobs and made music at the same time, but it seemed very hard. Even when performing live, it was already a huge deal to have 100 audiences, and I hated that fact. I thought “If I success, could I be the liaison of the underground scene?”. There are plenty of people who make good music in the underground scene, so I thought when I become famous, I want to create a better environment for them, I want to show their music to the world. 

Just then, I knew Big Hit was holding an audition in Daegu. I came there knowing nothing but that it was a company formed by composer Bang Shihyuk, but I was told that I was accepted the next day. I heard it later that when he saw me, he immediately thought of letting me pass. Even though I wasn’t good at rapping that time. (laughs) 

Coming up to Seoul after becoming a trainee Different from first thought…!? 

I came to Seoul on November 7th, 2010, when I was in 2nd year of high school. I still remember it now. 

I joined to company not to rap, but to become a composer. So I thought I didn’t need to dance, and let people who are good at rapping rap, I just needed to follow the producer path. But it became a totally different thing. (laughs) At that time, rather than idols, the company was planning to create a group consisting of rappers, but that changed. The members were Rap Monster, J-hope and me. There were also Supreme Boy, i11even-hyung who is now active in the underground scene and Iron-hyung who made it to the finals of Show Me The Money 3. I think if we debut like that, despite being good at rapping, we would fail. (laughs) 

Rapper & producer The future Suga thinks of as a goal 

My 4-year-older brother plays a very big role in letting me be able to walk on the music path like this. He started liking hip hop under my influence, but when I came to the audition, everyone in my family opposed it except for my brother. They didn’t view music activities nicely, even my relatives told me “What music for you, go study.” So I only showed my songs to him. He was the first person I informed that I passed the audition too. Our relationship is so good that we’re like friends. I basically don’t drink alcohol, but I drink it with him only. 

My family all support me now, of course. Even the relatives that told me to study ask for my signatures. (laughs) 

These days, I have thoughts about wanting to also be active as a producer. I have no greed of being in the center, I just want to make music. I don’t have interest towards the entertainment world too, everyone says they want to act, or to go on variety shows, but I don’t want to do those. (laughs) But still, the first thing is to make BTS get 1st place in Korea as well as Japan. And myself too, I want to be the best rapper, the best producer. I don’t know if it would take time, but I have to try.

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