#it's on steam btw if anyone's interested~

[eliseliedl]

Paper Lily Chapter 1

[my-writing-street]

hey queen what if you made ein and reader into the trope of "oo you wanna kiss me so bad it makes you look stupid" reader x "SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!!!!" (does in fact want them) ein

HAHSHDHD OK LOL

this is being set in highschool btw

anyone else reading this I haven't watched mystreet in years pls forgive any OOC actions

Ein knew you were bad news. Disregarding the fact that you're in the Shadow Knights, something about you just.. makes him feel wrong. His body sounded the alarms whenever you were around, and even the sight of you would make his face red with embarrassment rage.

He already knew his day was going to be awful when the two of you crossed paths this morning. Your infuriatingly alluring eyes creased with a smirk as you rounded the corner to him. His back stiffened.

"What's wrong, doggy?" with your hands behind your back, you started to circle him. Each tap of your foot meeting the ground made his ears twitch against his own will, which you unfortunately caught.

"Twitchy twitchy.." you hummed, voice low and taunting. His heart beats faster every time you open your mouth and his face twists into a scowl before you can continue.

"Can't you tell when you're unwanted." He snarls, hunched over defensively. "Or are you just that dense?!"

"Woah oh, and the teeth come out! Did you miss your morning walk, Blue?" Seemingly unfazed by his posturing you continue to rile him up. Even going so far as to laugh at him! Sometimes , Ein wonders if he's even intimidating you at all. Maybe you're just stupid or something...

...

You know what, he's better than this. Ein doesn't have to stand there and listen to you belittle him. He can leave! He can totally leave! In fact, that's exactly what he's going to do!

A puff of air escapes his lips as he purposely relaxes his body. A flint of confusion passes over on your face at his new stance but it's quickly patched over with more haughtiness and just a pinch of interest.

"It's.." He bites his lower lip, giving up on his sentence before he readjust his bag straps and turns to leave. "Whatever."

A scoff sounds out behind him, and as he turns the corner he can just make out your annoyed mumbles.

"...Typical dog. Tch, running away with your tail between your legs.."

Ein's bag was on the floor. Biology homework was still floating in the air by the time he slammed your back against the wall.

Hot breath fanned across your nose and sharp claws came dangerously close to piercing your shoulders. Leaning above you was Ein, ears at attention and glowering.

"By Irene..! You just CAN'T keep your mouth shut!" Shaking with rage, you could practically see the steam puffing from his ears. But even as with his teeth bared and little pinpricks of blood welling up from your shoulders, all you did was grin a wickedly satisfied smile.

"Because you love to hear me talk, Blue." You laughed like you found this whole thing so pathetically intriguing. And he slammed your back into the locker doors once more.

"I'LL RIP YOU TO SHREDS."

Across the hallway, near the doors, three other werewolves stood watching. Dottie, Rylan, and Daniel looked at each other, then at you and Ein, then once more at each other.

Finally, after they had migrated a bit farther from the scene, Daniel spoke up.

"Should we, y'know.. Do something..?" He whispered as to not pique your attention. Dottie slung her head in his direction, in disbelief that he would even suggest a thing like that.

"And get between those two!?" Her yell was not so dramatic that it would alert anyone but their little trio, but was still dramatic enough to get her point across. "Are you crazy!?"

"But, Ein is.. taking it kinda far.. And [Name] is-"

Rylan cut in. "Don't worry about it." He placated, patting Daniel's shoulder. "It's best to just report it and not get involved." Rylan made a gesture like he would start walking away before he paused.

"Besides." He waved for the both of them to join as he actually started walking. "Ein's tail is wagging."

"What??"

"No way!"

Thankfully, the wolf trio had made it out of sight and out of hearing range or else Daniel and Dottie's exclamations would have certainly alerted the both of you.

Still, Dottie couldn't believe it! Lagging behind, she backed up a few steps and quickly turned her head to look at you and Ein once more. I mean, there's no way his is actually wagging-

Ah.

It was.

[monsterfuckerconfessions]

There's this vr game on steam that I discovered called FarmD. It's a free early access game that works in vr and desktop for anyone interested btw but anyway! Basically it's an experience where you play as your choice of a male or female anthro wolf, fox, kobold, or big cat and you have a gryphon or drake partner that you can fuck or they can fuck you. You can customize you and your partners looks and anatomy to fit your needs. I've personally had a passing interest in monster fuckery but this game made me question a few things. One, I'm a straight male but seeing myself as a sexy female fox girl turned me on and awoken something in me that I'm not sure what it is yet. Two, being able to fuck this female dragon partner has made me buy a BD fleshlight like a day after I got the game. Sorry if this turned into a bit of a tangent but I just needed to talk about this to someone. Sooooo yea!

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[eljeebee]

Nonsims interests!

Tagged by @sanitysims !!! I'm a boring person now ever since my internship started but anyways...

SCP Foundation

I don't know if you already know, but Priscilla, Tony, Moumou, and Albert are all SCP OCs LMAOOOO I think I got into this during the start of the pandemic, and I spent my whole 12th grade scribbling down in my notebook trying to write something

Magnificent Century

Okay, this one, I've seen some clips and excerpts from YouTube like 2 years ago, and I admit I watched some of them. Fast forward to now, I decided to watch it from the first episode, especially when I'm bored on work hours. (Watch out, each episode lasts an hour LOL)

Transformers

I grew up watching the Bayverse movies, I think this is how I started being a robofucker🙏 I spent my 2023 summer watching Earthspark, and then watched the new Transformers movies. I really really love Starscream and Megatron

Fallout

Last year, Evan gifted me a copy of Fallout 76! I knew the game and the franchise but not by heart. It was a new experience but it was fun! Earlier around January of this year, I watched the Fallout show, and it was so interesting I asked some irls who loves Fallout and they recommended me to play FO3. So cut to now, I finished FO3, and now trying to save up for FNV (and looking for it to go on sale on Steam). Also, I've been reading Charon and Joshua Graham fics.....if you know what I mean

KATSEYE

KATSEYE!!!! NEED I SAY MORE!!!! THEY'RE SO GNARRRRLLLYYYY

It's now your 🫵🏻 turn! Tagging: @changingplumbob @sirianasims @igotsnothing @damseljamsel @pralinesims @toadifylackoffantasy @papermint-airplane @wolkentage @living-undead and of course anyone who wishes to do this, consider yourself tagged!!!

Feel free to pass my friends btw

[varilien]

(character uses they/it) i keep wanting to start posting my ocs over here again and then Just Not Doing It so uhhhh !!! some stuff from february, had a dream about knives that made me think of a plant oc with a constant power output so extreme that it generates a deadly radiation field around them. because of that they've been living alone this whole time, avoiding contact with other living things, and over the years they've learned how to suppress that output for short spans of time or "safely" pour out the excess in order to be safe to be around, though they ultimately prefer their solitude due to a history of bad experiences with humans. they're very blunt, spiteful, and curious

@whatever-you-can-give-me suggested lr would make good friends for them since they are 🤝 about being extremely hard to hurt lol

also! wrote like 2k about they and razlo's first meeting below the cut if anyone's interested in some good ol violence + gore :3

that was a fr content warning btw read at ur own discretion:

Chance encounters with violent strangers out in the open desert are nothing new to LR, even when Livio purposefully had tried to find the quietest possible route to travel.  It’s not even necessarily surprising to run into someone a little to the left of human, someone a bit bigger or stronger or more durable than they really have any right to be.  The Eye aren’t the only ones designing freaks on this planet, that much is obvious, evidenced sufficiently by the odder fights LR have ever gotten in.  

And this one is shaping up to be one of their oddest fights yet.

Livio hadn’t seen the fucker coming, occupied as he was with the slow realization of why this stretch of road doesn’t see much use anymore: a creeping heat across his nerve endings unrelated to the overcast, evening suns, the taste of metal in his mouth, and a deep-rooted nausea twisting up his guts.  Radiation sickness.  He’s dealt with it before, and as unpleasant as it is, it’s hardly enough to slow him down too bad.  

It’s damn distracting, though.  A good enough excuse for not noticing them hiding up along the rockface above his head.  Not a good enough excuse to keep Razlo from tagging in, especially after something’s pierced straight through the back of his neck, nearly taking his head clean off.  

Razlo rolls for cover with a strangled sound, blood gushing from his forced-out throat and foaming at his lips.  Even with his senses jarred and his vision blurred, it'd take more than a near-decapitation for his instincts to be overridden.  He's slinging out a Punisher before he even knows what he's up against.  

There's a blur of motion to his right as soon as his sights are raised.  They're probably surprised Razlo's still standing, but so was everyone else who's gotten a lucky shot at him.

He can track their motion by sound alone.  They're sloppy.  Feet hitting the cracked earth in hard thumps, every one a warning that Razlo can aim a spray of bullets at.  And by now Razlo's healed enough to notice and wonder why the hell his head is still so fucked up.

At least now he can mostly see them when he turns, hanging back a ways, out of Razlo's reach.  Shorter than him by a head and a half, covered toe to tip in layers of sun-bleached rags, save for their face.  That's hidden behind a tall, curved mask, shaped in a way that looks an awful lot like a tomas' crest, with the false eye markings to match.  Even the glass for the lenses is opaque.  The only part of them that’s exposed is their left hand, extended delicately aside to keep Razlo’s blood dripping off it from getting on their clothes.

Razlo physically tries to shake out the buzzing in his skull that only gets worse by the second, only to notice the foul smell of burning meat and risk an instinctive glance down at his arm, where his flesh has started to bubble and steam seemingly on its own.  He looks between his arm and his opponent, the way their body tenses and head begins to tip, shaking hard, simultaneous with his skin boiling that much more fiercely.  

Something clicks in his brain.  There’s no way.

And no time to find out.  This time when they dart in he’s expecting it; he takes a swing at their head, and they dodge right into his follow-through, slamming his Punisher into their skull with a crunch and a wet sound from their throat.  They drop, like he’d expect them to, like anyone would.  And like no one does, they just roll out of the way and onto their back, braced to spring back up again.  Razlo puts his boot through their ribcage before they get the chance to.  That should be the end of it, too, but the fucker just keeps kicking, trying to get away, the only sound they make being the gurgle of their lungs filling with blood, and they keep kicking.

At this point Razlo doesn’t even have a plan anymore.  Needless to say, he doesn’t go up against an awful lot of guys who match him in the department of being a pain in the ass to take down.  Razlo's just starting to come up with a new idea when those long arms swing up, claws digging into and making ribbons of his right leg.

Razlo curses and tries to pull away, which only makes them hold on even tighter.  He's staring that four-eyed glare down when that burning feeling across his whole body raises in pitch again, and it's the sight of his flesh starting to disintegrate around their fingers that finally makes him back off.

Razlo rather gracelessly falls on his ass in trying to take a step back, not expecting his right leg to simply break off halfway down his thigh.  He scrambles back a ways, ready to keep going, missing limb or no, but— they aren't following him.  They're collapsed in the sand, limbs akimbo as they fight to draw a full breath.  Razlo watches with morbid curiosity as his severed leg dissolves into nothing more than an off-colored patch of sand beside them.

All that angry tension has gone out of their body, leaving them limp and motionless except for the stutter of their chest, and Razlo can hear the damp gasps muffled behind their mask.  By all rights, it should look like more of a struggle.  They should be dead, really, but from where Razlo is sitting, it looks a lot more like they’re just taking a rest.  He feels more sure of that when they roll their shoulders back a bit, arms braced in the dirt as they delicately arch their spine.  There’s some sharp popping sounds, and a little exhale from them; setting their ribs, Razlo figures.  He’s had to do the same thing before.  Once they can move their arms more effectively, they start to gather themself up into a seated position, bones and joints still crackling like popcorn here and there as they go, til they’re all the way up, with their hands resting in their lap, looking far too fucking comfortable for the fight they’d just had.

"You're not dead."

Their voice startles Razlo despite being as soft as it is, and his gaze flicks up to that mask, just slightly tilted to the side, orange lenses glinting in the harsh sunlight.  They don't move at all that Razlo can see.  Even their breathing has evened out enough to have become imperceptible under their heavy shroud; if they're in any pain still, Razlo sure can't tell.

"Nope," is all he says, or can manage to say.

He scrubs at his eyes with the back of his hand, blinking hard a couple times to scrunch up his face in the hopes his nerves might start feeling right again soon.

Another wave of nausea hits him, but his stomach was empty before the fight even started, so he leans forward to put his head between his knees and dry heave for a while.

The whole time, he's aware of his little opponent continuing to sit in silence, watching and eerily unmoving, even when Razlo manages to sit up again and wipe his mouth with his wrist.

"The fuck's yer deal, anyways?"  Razlo asks.

"'Deal'...?"  They echo.

"Couldn't exactly kill you, either."

He wasn't expecting them to spill their life story or something, but he was thinking he'd get something more of a response than their head tilting back the opposite way.  There's not a lot to work with here in trying to get a read on them, but Razlo feels it's safe to hazard they're probably just pretty damn confused, the same as him.

"You kinda smell like a Plant.  M'not an expert, but I've met two others."

Now that gets something out of them.  A tiny wiggle of their head that makes the pieces in their mask rattle.

"I wouldn't know.  I've only met me."

“Huh.”  

Whether it’s a confirmation or rebuttal hardly matters at this point.  He’s feeling sure enough that his assumption was correct, now, anyways.

"You, uh…"  Razlo has to pause for breath.  Unlike the thing across from him, he's having a hell of a time getting his back.  "You're the one making this radiation field?"

"Yes."

"Any way you could turn it down?"

They say nothing, though Razlo feels suddenly that he's being studied very intently.  And shortly after, slowly, slowly the fire in his cells begins to go out, and he can spit the worst of the sourness off his tongue.  Eventually he can't feel any radiation left at all, though his body's had a rough enough time from the dose he got, he'll be getting the sickness out of his system for a while yet.

Regardless, Razlo’s fingers twitch against the triggers when he hears that mask rattle again, and his eyes are on it in an instant.

"You didn't answer my first question," Razlo reminds, cautiously.

More silence, for a while.

"You wanted to hurt me."

There's no malice in the statement, at least that Razlo can tell.  Just the simple facts.  Still, he narrows his eyes.

"You started it.  Figured it was mutual."

"That's true."

Razlo grins.

"So, what now?  Regrow my leg, and get back to not killing each other?"

"If you'd like to."

That gets a laugh out of him.

"Nah, I think I’ll pass, if it’s all the same to you.”

“It is.”

That much is obvious.  They stay put, seeming transfixed on watching Razlo’s leg grow back, only a little more slowly than any of his other injuries, now that he doesn’t have the radiation to slow him down.  It leaves him feeling itchy and achy all over, and he’s got a bad hunch that right ankle doesn’t have the best chances of coming back right.  Once there’s enough of it to fuss about, he gets his foot in his hands and starts experimentally rolling it on its hinge, checking that the range of motion is right.

And still, those orange lenses glint at him curiously.  They don’t flinch or look away when Razlo considers them in return; he guesses they don’t know it’s not polite to stare.

“What's yer name?"  Razlo asks.

"My name?"

"Don't tell me you ain't got one."

The silence that follows is pretty self-explanatory.

“I’m Razlo.”

He can just make out the sound of them mumbling his name under their breath, like they’re not sure how it’s going to come out.  Almost warmly, almost shyly, they manage to say: “hello, Razlo.”

[emmyloafer]

hi!!!

well hi, don't know how you stumbled onto this corner of the internet but hello!!

im Emmy or Loafy, and i use she/they pronouns!! (genderfluid btw :D) i am a furry too but i am not weird lmao

im truly just here because i need to let my silliness out somewhere

intrests i have:

minecraft speedrunning (i have been in the community since 2020)

geometry dash (been playing since 2018)

osu! (the rhythm game not the college)

nyc transit (i might be a bit too much of a nerd on this one)

severe weather (pretty much only tornadoes, but I have had an interest in weather for years)

oneshot (my favorite game ever, if you are reading this PLEASE PLAY IT its $10 on steam)

IF YOU SHARE ANY OF THESE INTERESTS WITH ME PLEASE REACH OUT I WOULD LOVE TO FIND MORE NERDS SSHJFJDKSJSKJFKF

hyper-fixations and stuff i can't stop engaging with right now:

glass beach (the band oh my lord i am obsessed)

car seat headrest (another band, its slowly taking me over skdkdjdjf)

rap (im just starting to get into it give me album suggestions lmao)

im open to mutuals for anyone, we could be good friends :3

my tag for all my blog posts will always be #emmyscenterofsilly (previously #mindscenterofsilly)

my socials everywhere all have the same username, its always emmyloafer!

aah and thats all from me right now, have a great day random stranger ^w^

[oorangesoda]

Hey oorange ! Just saw the OC ask game and I'm dying to know more about Cal! 💛💛💛 can you answer either 3, 25 or 33 ?

Love your art btw 💛🤧

Ryliith, my beloved mutual, for you I will answer all three! 💚💚 (I love your art too pookie!!! I gotta re-draw atlas PRONTO!)

[3] What emotion is the hardest for them to deal with?

Callum struggles the most with excitement/passion, not that he doesn’t like being excited or passionate, he absolutely does! It’s the idea of someone seeing how he shows his excitement that weirds him out. To him it’s extremely personal and intimate to see him truly excited about something. It’s one of those things he’s oddly dysphoric about, as in he feels he looks childish/girly. Unfortunately its kept him from really letting himself enjoy or talk about his hobbies around others, even friends.

[25] Do they have fears and phobias, and if they do, do they usually keep it to themselves or talk about it openly?

He is NOT a fan of heights. He’s got a good centre of balance so if he HAD to be somewhere high up realistically he’d be fine, but he’d be out of breath and shaking by the time whatever activity you’re doing is done. He would hold his breath the ENTIRE time. Something about looking down and knowing he could fall just gives him the most crippling anxiety he’s ever felt. Even ladders are pushing it for him, but he’ll do it. If you ask him to go on a roller coaster he’ll just… walk away and do something else. Mans NOT risking his life thank you very much

[33] What are one of their fondest and most treasured memories?

When Cal was around 15, a year before his Pop fell ill, he had mustered the courage to finally come out to him. Callum in preparation, had been passively bringing the topic up in conversation a few months leading up to it, testing the waters on how his Pop felt about gay, trans, and queer people in general. Which to Callum's surprise was quite positive. For his Pops age, he would have assumed he'd be quite adverse to the idea, but in his Pops words: "If it makes a person happy, who am I to tell them they can't?" (Continued under cut bc I got carried away but its the rest of his coming out to Pop :3)

It was all Callum needed to hear. So, on a warm summer day, just after they had both finished the daily farm chores and settled on the porch with fresh made iced tea, Callum - without looking to his Pop - asked if he could tell him something. "Of course chickadee." His Pop nodded, looking to him with a interested smile. "You have to promise you won't hate me..." Callum stated, his voice was warbling with anxiety and shoulders tensed, tears already forming in the corners of his eyes. Of course, his Pop could never hate him, and assured him of that, noticing just how distraught his grandchild seemed over it. Like a kettle ready to blow steam, Callum told him he felt like he was a boy, that he was trans, that he understood if his Pop hated him or wanted to disown him, that he didn't know what was wrong with him, that he felt different ever since he was a little kid - amongst many other things. His Pop was quiet for a moment, letting Callum get all of it out. Eyes puffy and nose runny Callum anticipated the worst, waiting for his Pop to tell him to pack his bags and call his Mom, but that didn't happen. Callum felt his Pop's arms wrap around him, holding him close to his chest as a calloused hand brushed through his unkempt hair, and feeling the comforting thrum of his Pops low and gentle voice. "I always knew... I was just waiting for you to tell me." It was all tears after that. Callum clung to his Pop and cried for what felt like an eternity, and after they both calmed down Pop helped Callum pick out his name, arranged to have his hair cut, and made it a point to tell anyone and everyone in Pelican Town his grandsons new name and pronouns. Pop didn't tolerate anyone misgendering or discriminating against him, not while he had anything to say about it. It was the most loved and cared for Callum had ever felt, with his Pop in his corner he felt like he could do anything.

This is by far Callum's most treasured memory. He thinks about it often, on top of how supportive his Pop had been through/about everything in his life. He misses him dearly, but knows that somewhere, somehow, his Pop still looks over him.

[mikuni14]

This Love Doesn't Have Long Beans - Ep 1-5

I didn't plan on watching this series for one simple reason: both main couples in PitBabe did nothing for me, so I had no reason to watch another show with one of those couples. (The interesting thing about PitBabe was that while the main romantic couples were of zero interest to me, all my attention, steam, energy, and obsession went to the side characters and ghost ships. Not to mention the actual real life and my obsession with Sailub and Nut's friendship, whose chemistry ruined for me their any other relationship with other actors 🤡) That being said, I've seen this cutie on my dash so many times that I finally decided to watch this series just to stare at him:

(you ask: omg mikuni how can you be such a shallow person to watch a series just to stare at some dude?? I answer: that's exactly the kind of shallow person I am, for example I once endured an extremely boring Mads Mikkelsen movie just to stare at Mads Mikkelsen, but you know, what can you do? ¯\_(ツ)_/¯).

Anyway, my experience with TLDHLB is very similar to my experience with PitBabe: zero interest in the main couple (although Sailub is GREAT and kisses like a devil), and all my attention is taken up by the side characters.

I really like JJ and Nubnueng and how they are being good friends to Plawan and Oab. I love them, I love how supportive they are and how they refuse to buy into anyone's bullshit. Btw, I think they should unionize and file for financial compensation for the psychological and mental damage they're suffering lol

It's been a while since I've seen a show with such an, um, unappealing character as Plawan. I'll be honest: I have a hard time believing in a romance where I'm constantly wondering, okay, but what do people who like him actually see in this guy????

Garfield as JJ is the absolute brightest star of this show. It's amazing how different he is from Kenta. I love every scene he has, every word he says, the way he carries himself. His character is so awesome that when I watch him I feel like not a single second is wasted. He elevates every scene he's in. 💯💯

Methas is also a great character. I especially like that it's been 5 episodes and he doesn't change much. Personally, I would have preferred if he stayed a dick until the end and became nice only to JJ (within reason of course, their fights are very entertaining 😉). But I 99% expect a redemption arc and that he'll become "good", find a "family" in JJ and everything will be "kumbaya". I'm rooting for that 1% that Methas will remain a ruthless business 🦈

The pretty boy I started watching this show for is a real eye candy and he's a slippery snake hiding behind an innocent face and glasses, so yay!

Michael is also easy on the eyes 😏

not to mention Garfield: in his work unifrom, when he's pissed at Plawan and/or Methas (or both of them at the same time), when he has that sexy smirk or pout, gosh he is absolutely 🧁🍬🍰

Well, let me tell you, I didn't expect this, but I'm having a lot of fun watching this series lol

EDIT: I forgot to mention that the JJ/Methas couple is one of the best and most REAL "enemies to lovers" romances I've ever seen. Like, they really wanted to kill each other 😍

[wildwinterlunas]

heyhey!! i love your page so much and your analyses of characters.... when you posted cassidy and mysteriousness and how he would only share the most with mina, it could be interesting to expand on that with echo being the closest person and personality to her as a result. it could be a grief amplifier but also it could close up cassidy even more and make him so much more reluctant to share anything real at all,, i've been thinking about this all day!! this is why i love your thoughts!!

Oh trust me I think about this a lot.

The way Declassified described Mina and Cassidy's realationship reminded me so much of something that was mentioned in Deadlock Rebels. That being that Cassidy had walls up, a line that not even Ashe could cross. Those walls being his mask, his persona, something that not a lot of people could see past, let alone break though, but Mina is described as seeing through it instantly, and even breaking through it. She did something that no one else, not even Ashe could do, she saw who Cassidy was without the persona, without the mask. She's the one person we see that Cassidy probably fully opened up to, and the way she died probably altered Cassidy permanently. He was just outside the building when the explosion happened, he raced to where Mina was and was the only person with her in her final moments. That would change anyone, and we see that it changed Cassidy, making him more hostile in the beginning but then he just began building those walls again, stronger this time. Hiding behind the mask even more so he wouldn't be hurt like that again.

One of my biggest HC's is that Cassidy and Echo have a father-daughter relationship, as some of Echo's personality wouldn't have come from Mina, but would have definitely come from Cole. Such as her outwardly sassing people like Ramattra, that and the way she teases people along with how she empathises with people and comforts them. We also know from her short story that the first people Echo could copy were Mina, Cassidy and Jack, Mina and Cassidy being the people she was around the most. That doesn't detract from the fact that Echo is still very similar to Mina, having similar behaviours and mannerisms.

Considering how we see Cassidy interact with Echo, it's very obvious that he isn't as open to her as he was with Mina. To me, Cassidy isn't the type of person to treat Echo as just a copy of Liao, she's her own person. However considering his history with her and Liao, it would be hard for him to not see the similarities. Also I would like to point out that the way that Echo and Cassidy talk about Liao feels like child asking an alive parent what their deceased parent would have thought of them.

Something else I would like to add is that Cassidy was so focused on revenge he wasn't able to attend Mina's funeral. Which probably adds another layer of grief on an already steaming sess pool of shit, because on top of all of that, Gerard gets injured and Reyes shoots a guy out of a window, basically signing Overwatch's death warrant. Then right after that the Zurich explosion happens and Cassidy looses his arm, his family, his home, and what fragile stability he had from being an Overwatch agent. During this time, Echo is also put in quarantine.

He probably feels like he failed Echo, that he failed Mina. It probably being part of the reason why he sounds so hostile about Jack "chasing ghosts", he knows what revenge can do to a person, how it can affect the people around them.

I've said it before and I'll say it again, Cassidy's story is so much more complex and tragic if you stop and really think about it.

(btw, writing this reminded me that shortly after this, he would have had to watch as Genji and Lena were critically injured while fighting Doomfist.)

[juniusgirl]

I've been listening to a medical podcast that's been running since like 2011 or so. A lot of times i'll just let what i'm listening to in my headphones play on the car speaker when we leave work, and i play it out loud in the mornings while i get ready. Recently i reached the 2020 episodes and my husband, who usually doesn't pay attention to whatever i'm listening to, surprised me by saying "another covid episode? I don't know how you can listen to those. It would just infuriate me."

To be clear, he means hearing about antivaxxers and antimaskers continually plugging their ears and humming over science would make him mad. He and i were essential workers and were very diligent, we got our shots as soon as we could, and i still regularly wear a mask because people are apparently a lot more comfortable rubbing up against the 5'4 betitted grocery clerk while she's trying to stock the shit they're pretending to be interested in just to put in the wrong spot 2 feet away than the 6'2 bebearded grocery clerk who they just ask to hand them shit from the top shelf and hand their stuff back to when they decide they don't want it. And yes, this aside is meant to demonstrate that i am chock full of rage and resentment, which is why my husband is confused as to why i'd listen to these episodes.

But the thing is--i am the angriest person i know. I am generally able to let out bits of steam with sarcastic comments and ironic witticisms to avoid blowing up, but anyone who knows me knows i am constantly simmering. And yall, it's exhausting. It is exhausting to constantly have my hackles up. It is exhausting to constantly feel and manage all that rage. And moreover, it's exhausting to be the only person who is this angry. Or at least, who can't seem to control their anger as well as everyone else. It is exhausting to vent a bit of that steam to someone you know and have only the reaction of "yeah it sucks. Anyway--" or worse, the timid "i know. I swear i get it." Which comes with the added bonus of upsetting them with your anger, and still they seem perfectly in control of their own.

So when i get to listen to someone else be frustrated, be fed up, be angry about something i've already worked through, moreover someone i respect as much as i respect this doctor on this podcast, it's largely cathartic. Finally, i don't feel like i'm insane for trying to control a fire no one else seems concerned about. But i also know that the fire will die down, eventually (the fire in this mataphor is the anger not the pandemic btw). That someone else is just as mad, and just as exhausted, as i was. That they were also trying to control the fire.

Idk, it's been healing for me. Of course, i don't play covid-adjacent episodes out loud anymore. What softens the potato hardens the egg, and in this family, we respect our differences. But yeah, i felt like ranting about it, so enjoy scrolling past, my 2 pornbots that follow me.

[becauseimanicequeen]

My Two Cents on White Being Non Pt. 2

I’ve previously written a post about my thoughts on White being Non and I have some additional thoughts to add to that (mainly because I’ve been thinking about Tee’s interaction with Non and White respectively throughout my day and I can’t seem to stop…).

In that post, I wrote that White’s hallucination of the boils/rash on his skin could indicate his fear of something being off-putting about his appearance and how that could be linked back to Non being called “greasy”.

The first time we see Non, walking into a classroom three years earlier, Top (being his usually charming assholish self…) exclaims that there’s no shampoo there and that Non should go home and shower instead (or something like that).

While I was thinking about this earlier today (as I was creating drips on a current abstract wip of mine), Tee and White’s shower scene in the first episode just popped into my head.

(Yes, this is how my mind works when I’m in right-brain-land.)

I feel like there’s something more to their shower scene than just a sensual rendezvous in the steam (yes, their dynamic is definitely more sensual than, for example, Phee and Jin’s, but I’ll get back to this in a sec). And I believe it has something to do with White and his insecurities.

(Btw, considering Tee’s reaction to protect White when they all watch the footage from the security camera is another indication that White is feeling vulnerable in a situation like that, and Tee knows it.)

Considering that Por suggests that Non should take a shower because he’s “greasy”, and the fact that Non’s been called “greasy” by almost everyone in that group (including Tee), I don’t think it’s very far-fetched that White (Non) don’t want to have sex with Tee with the risk of being dirty (greasy) or off-putting hanging over him. And so, they have their rendezvous in a shower.

But I also feel like there’s another aspect of this since (as I’ve read many point out) the boils/rash White sees in his hallucination show up on the area of his neck and shoulder that Tee kisses in that scene in the 1st episode. This could indicate that sex, or even touching and kissing, makes him feel dirty.

And, since I’m writing this from the perspective that White is Non, there’s a perfect explanation for this…

The video of him and Keng.

That video being filmed and uploaded onto the internet was the thing that destroyed everything for Non. It was a public humiliation. He was in a compromising and vulnerable position for the world to see and criticize. Anyone could’ve started associating sex with being dirty in a situation like that (especially after reading people’s comments on the video).

There’s also the fact that he was groomed and coerced into having sex with Keng, which could’ve also made Non feel dirty. But having it on display for the world to see, that’s on a whole other level.

In other words, White’s (Non’s) hallucination of the boils/rash makes sense based on this.

But, let’s get to another point by going back to Tee and White's shower scene.

This scene is really beautiful and you can sense the vulnerability (especially since White is often shown having his arms and hands close to his own chest, which can be an indication of wanting to protect oneself). This scene is also very much in contrast to Phee and Jin’s scene in the same episode. Phee and Jin’s dynamic is more sexual while Tee and White’s dynamic is more sensual.

What’s interesting about the topic of sensuality, though, is that there’s another relationship that has a sensual dynamic. The relationship between Phee and Non. The short montage (in episode 7) showing the start of their relationship and their interactions throughout that episode definitely show a sensual dynamic between the two.

(Sure, Non doesn’t show any sign of feeling insecure or vulnerable in Phee’s company, but Phee doesn’t know Non as “greasy” like Tee does, so this could explain that difference. But if we’re just looking at the sensual vibe, it’s definitely there in both relationships.)

And what’s the common denominator: Non.

(Also, let’s not forget that little moment of Jin being absolutely captivated by Non when they’re editing the movie. There’s definitely something about Non that’s very captivating to all these bitches, which I’m planning on further developing in another post. But, I digress…)

If what I’ve already written isn’t enough, there’s also the fact that both are intelligent.

Non was the one who answered Keng (with a correct answer) when Keng asked them to solve the equation he’d written on the board. Non also had all the correct answers on the test he got back from Keng.

And what does White offer Tee in the backstory they showed us in the 11th episode? He offers to tutor Tee because White’s a smart little bee. He might play two years younger, but his intellect is not (not that it’s a feat being smarter than Tee, but I digress…).

Not to forget that we have, time and time again, seen White find the clues and information at the house. He’s, at the very least, as smart as Non. And, no wonder (since he is Non).

Are all these similarities between Non and White a mere coincidence? It’s possible.

Am I reading too much into this? Most likely.

Am I delulu? Yes. But I choose to be. At least when it comes to certain things (like DFF theories).

[morrigan-sims]

get to know me tag game

I got tagged ages ago by @indigoelfinspirit and promptly forgot to ever do the tag game... Sorry!! (You are right, btw. I do enjoy doing these things. Any excuse to talk about my interests, I guess!)

Favorite Color: Black, Royal Blue, and Crimson Red

Currently Reading: Nothing at the moment, but the last book I read for fun was Strictly No Heroics by B.L. Radley. Before that it was The Wager by David Grann while stuck in the DFW airport. (Morri reading nonfiction? Wild, I know. But 1700s sailing is my weakness, I guess.) Next week for my mythology class I have to read Home Fire by Kamila Shamsie. ("How is that related to mythology?" you ask? Go read Antigone.)

Last Song: Either Troubled Waters by Alex Warren or ship in a bottle by fin.

Last Movie: I have no idea, tbh. I don't watch movies very often.

Last Series: Fullmetal Alchemist Brotherhood with the dnd group last night. They got tired of me not getting their references after 2 years of playing together. We've only been watching for two nights, and we're already 24 episodes in. I'm also very slowly rewatching Black Sails (my favorite show of all time) to keep pace with my dad on his first watch. But my mom is about to pass us...

Sweet, Savory, or Spicy: Sweet or Salty, depends on the moment.

Currently Craving: I don't really know. Mainly the motivation to do some writing or make a render. But I'll settle for playing a video game instead.

Tea or Coffee: Neither. I don't like hot beverages of any kind, and I hate the taste of both of those.

Currently Working On: Well, the goal for today is to keep working on the Black Sails outfits, maybe even take screenshots and start compiling some links. And the other goal for today is to either A) start playing Shadowrun Returns, or B) keep playing Elsinore.

I'm also grappling with the urge to buy a steam deck.

I'm not going to tag anyone, but feel free to do this and say I tagged you if you want!

[scienceoftheidiot]

I'm probably exposing myself to a lot of shit I can't currently deal with if I reblog this post with my thoughts on it directly so I'll just paraphrase it :

Someone is mentionning interest in Steiner Waldorf as something that people immediately link to being conservative and how for them it's not.

STEINER FUCKING WALDORF

STEINER. FUCKING. WALDORF.

ANTHROPOSOPHY

You are saying there's a way to look at this pile of steaming shit and not be a conservative ?

Like I'm not saying this person is, but I'm convinced they either haven't dug enough into it to know or refuse to, because the WHOLE philosophy is rotten to its core.

The very basics of it are New Age racist, ableist, homophobic, anti-scientific bullshit, coming from the élucubrations of Steiner who was a Nazi sympathiser when he was alive, who was just like his fervent followers religious extremists that are against modern medicine, against treating kids for diseases (they are deserved)(also being not white or disabled is a sign you were a bad person in a past life and have to pay for it with this one)(not being straight is one of the things you might have to pay for later because it's bad btw), of course they're against abortion, and the schools ask kids who have been subjected to abuse (recognized as more likely to happen considering the manipulation and extreme psychological stress kids are put under in the Steiner schools) have to forgive their abuser and make peace with them, and continue sharing space with them.

Not even counting their agricultural practices that ask you to bury cow horns full of shit and a mix of various things at a special time of the month/year and dance around it. And refuse all ways to treat contagious diseases of your crops of course. Biodynamie =/= organic agriculture

This thing is the fucking European equivalent to Scientology, and even then, I'm convinced they're actually WORSE.

Anyone who claims to have departed from this base... Well why do you keep the Steiner-Waldorf name then?

So yeah. Unless your interest is in debunking their bullshit and being vocal against them, I am going to think you're sketchy if you have anything good to say about Steiner-Waldorf shit

This big blog I keep seeing on my dash is now blocked, thanks to a post that I actually felt resonated with me at first (about having interests and hobbies that have you easily catalogued as conservative when you aren't. Interest in WWI/II history does that to you.)

While they are not illegal here, they are on the Cult Surveillance committee radar (MIVILUDES).

Be very fucking wary with Steiner Waldorf and anything that is close or less close to them, I beg you.

(French/European peeps, avoid anything about biodynamie, Pierre Rabhi (openly far right), La Nef (banks/insurances), or Weleda products (with a W not a V. I have nothing against whiteboard pens). Crédit Mutuel had ties with them for a while too, but I don't know about now.

[meatsex]

btw i finished totono, here are my thoughts with spoilers ofc even though i doubt anyone here gives any particular fucks but i dont feel like going to backloggd

i actually ended up liking it a lot, i had gotten it back in 2020 on steam, but then i found out it was censored and was highly discouraged from playing it so i just refunded it

i think its probably for the better i played it now anyways, i also played it knowing the ending, or at least one of them it seems, which is what made me want to play it to begin with, but i still found myself impressed and perplexed at its twists and mechanics

aoi and miyuki are both really hateable and really likeable, it was incredibly hard to pick only one at the end of it all, i went with miyuki regardless since as much as i love aoi im the kind of guy that has a moral compass he swears his life on most of the time, but even after picking her i felt regret on not picking aoi, either way its done and im happy with it

however, the ending felt infinite and never-ending, its a mix of me playing it for 4 hours straight for sure, but i had actually put it down for a week or so (miyuki in fact did give me such a reminder) because i really did assume it finished after aoi's route just like that, but it seems not, so i was surprised to see there was more to the game, for better or for worse

if it were for me it could have ended back then, with miyuki killing her and shinichi, and i would have been satisfied, the true route became a chore at one point, even with a guide, and incredibly convoluted, which isnt bad, just tiring when it felt like it just kept dragging on and on, especially with the abundance of sex scenes (because aoi got like 4 in her normal route, they had to thrown in all of miyuki's in here and it shows) and im no pornography expert but my god were they such slop to skip through, the art itself is good (<-gooner) but i couldnt take any of the audio seriously and it just kept going and going and going

im glad i decided to get it uncensored anyways, i think its important to experience totono with these scenes even if they suck, some are actually at least a bit important to the story (unlike saya's...)

the final puzzle sucks ass, i dont care

overall i liked it a lot, the art and music and story and presentation is all quite interesting and eye catching, im sure it was groundbreaking back then in 2013

[drop--pop--candy]

stares at u autistically. I know we're strangers but I'm curious about that dgr au

HIIIIII nws i love when ppl ask me abt my aus :D i was planning on writing it at some point but the prsk hyperfixation has faded juuust enough that i don't think i could do it now shdjdhfjhd anyways all of this to say im gonna explain the whole plot (of ch1. i lost steam so bad) to you now. hits you with my autism beam

(cw violence, death, drug abuse but like it wasn't on purpose?? this one isn't as bad as it sounds i swear)

so! starting with the basic facts this au is a saki protag. i noticed she dies in pretty much every dgr au (usually really early) and i love her so that rly pissed me off and that's what motivated me to make this au LMAOOO anyways the supports are tsukasa and toya because i am just a liiiittle insane abt the tenma siblings

nothing Particularly Interesting happens in the prologue except for the miku design drop. she's got elements from every sekai's Miku, one pigtail is dark pink like l/n's miku and one is her regular green like mmj's miku. her hair is twisted like vbs miku and her voicebank/tuning is in the style of wxs miku. also she's got heterochromia and different height socks like niigo miku. also this wasn't in the prologue (because i did actually write it) but everyone's tablets have a dm feature so they're basically just phones except they don't let ppl out of the sekai. also also wasn't in the prologue but important detail that it's against the rules to go in someone's else's room even if they have the door unlocked/open unless they give you explicit permission OR they're in some way incapacitated (passed out/dead). all the other rules are pretty much the same from previous dgr games

chapter one time!!! this one is Sad. they're all sad actually dgdhdhdjdh anyways so the motive for this chapter is like a million dollars. and everyone agrees that's a stupid motive and none of them would kill for money. nobody's gonna kill anyone we're better that that ‼️‼️‼️ <- moments before disaster. anyways so all the money is in a giant cube in the gym and a few people talk abt how just having it so out there in the open could entice people. and minori is not having that at all so she gets shiho to help her take this massive box from the closet that's on the second floor of the dorms. the box doesn't actually weigh that much so minori lifts it on her own and instead gets shiho to stand just a few steps down on the stairs and guide her down since she can't find a way to fit the box down the stairs when she's facing frontwards. but when she takes the first step down backwards she slips and falls down the stairs, knocking shiho down with her. the fall breaks shiho's neck, killing her pretty much instantly. it also breaks several of minori's bones, so she takes more painkillers than she should and is really really Weird for the entirety of the investigation because of it.

she doesn't make like. a huge effort to hide that she killed shiho because she was planning to confess, but she doesn't end up doing that because at the start of the trial miku is like "oh btw if you're the murderer and you get caught you get executed lol" and minori just. can't make herself do it bc of the Fear. i think if everyone hadn't figured it out she would've ended up confessing to save haruka and all her friends but everyone did figure it out so she didn't have to do that.

in minori's execution she's got wings like icarus (held together by wax) and she's flying over the ocean. she's still hallucinating from the painkillers so she thinks the glow from the sun is a bunch of glowsticks that are in her color so she flies towards it. the wings melt and she falls into the ocean. minori can usually swim but between the broken bones and the current of the sea she can't keep herself afloat and drowns. and that's the end of chapter one :)

negl to u this took me an hour to type up HAGSHSGSHSGSH i can explain more but just. later i need a break lol. so if u want to see more feel free to send me another ask and i'll answer it in a few hours or maybe tmrw or something but Soon i promise

[swanhild]

Btw, if anyone here has a Steam account, you can currently download a demo version of inZoi's character editor (think Sims 4 but with less cartoony/more realistic graphics) for free.

Since there's so much hype around it atm I tried it and made some Silm elves. The results are kinda creepy (the graphics style is a bit uncanny valley for me), but it's pretty fun trying to recreate the blorbwës from your head.

Have some 3 Cs (Curufin, Caranthir, Celgorm):

Not super happy with them because the editing options are a lot more limited than I would have expected (though maybe it's just because it's only a demo version) and I just couldn't get some things right. So this is not quite how I picture them in my head, but it was an interesting exercise.

More silliness behind the cut: