#it's much more complicated than that.

[subconsciousmysteries]

9s

You want to embody Right Action at 3, the center of efficiency and shining like a star. You want to pour out all your energy into a right and just cause.

But you are pulled back by 6 Doubt about what Right Action even is.

9 Laziness stems from the fact that the 9 cannot make a decision, thanks to 9 -> 6 disintegration. Yet, aspiring to 9 -> 3 integration, the 9 still feels compelled to act efficiently, in spite of all their Doubt about what cause to even act on. So you get a person who is desperate to act, yet never sure enough of anything they're acting upon...

The 9 is a conflicted person who must act and do (9 -> 3), yet at the same time cannot decide on how it is best to act and what it is best to do (9 -> 6). So what does she do? How does she cope with this conflict? She seeks other people with stronger convictions than her, who will give her a satisfying job to do. Who will give her a place, an identity, an identity that she is not convicted enough to find herself. This is how 9s fall into a pattern of 9 -> 3 false security. They find themselves acting, acting, acting... never for themselves, though. They convince themselves, unconsciously, that their identity lies in another. It could be a lover, a boss.

But then the 9 resents these people she follows beneath, whilst also trying to fall asleep to this anger and resentment and delude herself that she loves them, so that she can continue using them to quell her Doubts about living for her own cause, her own agenda. She feels angry with these people she merges with, for not being powerful enough to fill the void caused by her own inaction. She recognizes, on an unconscious level, that she cannot find happiness through following the agendas of external people. Her 6 doubt scrutinizes these people she follows as much as it scrutinizes any action she tries to take herself. There is no true escape from the inertia and the miserable inaction.

So, the 9 looks connected to people, and she feels connected in her body, yet on a mental level she always feels detached and separate from those she is "connected" to.

Hence, all the sad songs from 9 women like Lana Del Rey and Mazzy Star, about feeling tragically separate from everyone. 9s are depressed about not feeling connected, because they try so hard to surrender their instincts in the name of connections, and yet it never achieves them the satisfying connection they want. You try so hard to surrender, you try so hard to melt yourself into another, and yet you never can. Your brain picks it all apart (9 -> 6) and doesn't allow you to lose your soul like you so desperately want to.

The 9 can only begin to feel happy when they do the hard work to develop solid, objective worldviews that they can believe in. I believe that 9s find fulfilment the same way all types do... by jumping into their disintegration type fearlessly instead of fearing it and trying to fall asleep to it. All types have a dynamic where they fall into their disintegration type under stress, whilst trying to blind themselves to how they are entrapped by this type.

8s have become such a meme in the community that nobody thinks deeply about their psychology, people only think about how memeworthy they are. 8s try to fall asleep to 5's concerns of helplessness, need for emotionally detaching... all the time. They fall asleep to 5 by acting more extremely. The harder 8s disintegrate to 5, aka the more 5 nags at them, the more that 8s resist this disintegration by acting extremely. When 8s are like "I just wanna feel something" and do crazier and stupider and more excess things just to feel something, they are resisting their 5 disintegration. 8s will continue to seek excess to shut up their inner 5 child, until they consciously break this cycle by diving into the 5 hole.

9s are the most blatantly obvious "falling asleep to stress" type. The harder their 6 nags them with doubts, fears and concerns about everything they are doing, the more the 9s try to come up with excuses to justify continuing to act in the same direction they are going, attempting to shut the inner 6 child up. This dynamic is what causes "Inertia", that little buzzword always attributed to 9. 9s find the answers they are seeking externally through listening to their inner 6 child, instead of trying to fall asleep to it and shut it up.

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Everybody seems so far away from me. Everybody just want to be free.

Have a 9 song for good fortune. 💕💕

[laniidae-passerine]

don’t get how you can watch iwtv and be a sincere diehard lestat hater. like the world’s biggest lestat hater is louis and that man can’t even commit to it for more than five minutes before literally hallucinating lestat wearing a wedding ring and talking pretty to him. this show is about louis and every road leads back to lestat for that man

[bytebun]

found family coworkers (definition multiple) of all time [image description under cut]

Comic 1:

First panel, Ingo and Akari are standing together. Someone off-screen asks “oh, is that your dad?”. Akari has an awkward smile and replies “oh, no no. he’s my...” There’s a long pause as she looks at Ingo. He’s leaving it up to her. She finishes, “He’s my coworker... friend... guy.” In smaller font, she continues “yea. that.” Comic 2: A dramatic panel of Volo, looking pissed off, shouting “who are you to interfere?!!” Ingo tugs the brim of his cap lower. The upper half of his face is in shadow, while his eyes stand out. He looks threatening but has his expression is his characteristic neutral-frown, and he says “...I’m her coworker friend guy.”. In the final panel, Machoke is throwing an incredible amount of punches, a reference to Star Platinum from Jojo. Ingo is pointing with one hand, his battle pose. The background text reads, “What does that even mean??” Volo is experiencing off-screen violence.

Comic 3: The comic is titled “Reunion”. In the first panel, Ingo shows off Akari, with a faint smile on his face. She is labelled “best girl (assigned by god)”. He says, “Emmet, this is Akari, my coworker. She’s the reason I was able to return to this station.” In smaller font, Akari comments to herself, “ooh... so this is the man in white.”

In the second panel, in smaller font Ingo notes “I think I remember now...” He says, “Akari, this is Emmet. He's also my coworker.” Coworker is underlined. Emmet is crying in the background, looking confused, conflicted, distressed, and happy. He says, “Brother...?” In the final panel, we see a framed photograph of all three together. Underneath are the words, Employee of the Month. Akari is dressed as a depot agent, and she and Ingo pose with peace signs. Emmet is red faced from crying, but he’s smiling widely. He looks happy.

[bardace]

miquella they could never make me hate you

[darkeneddawning]

Escaped clone au

You know all those fics where Danny and Damian are twins but everyone first assumes Danny must be a clone? How about an au where Danny is Damian's clone who escaped the League after he was assumed dead. Damian could even have been the one to have "killed" him, back when Danny was a newly created, fully brainwashed clone minion and trying to kill Damian himself.

Danny gets adopted by the Fentons and canon goes on as normal, until Dan. Witnessing what would happen to the world should he turn evil really drove home to Danny how dangerous he is.

Even if he was confident he could be trusted with his absurd amount of power (which he isn't), what if the League of Assassins found out about him? Does he still have programming triggers from his evil assassin clone conditioning?

So, Danny does the responsible thing: he goes to Batman to turn himself in.

Cue Danny showing up on Bruce's doorstep with ghost hunting equipment, intel on the afterlife, and an almost unbelievable backstory. Somehow he still managed to be more well-adjusted than Damian.

More thoughts under the read more

Here's how I'm thinking Danny leaving the League went down:

After surviving his wounds but failing his mission, Danny (then an unnamed potential Damian replacement) knew there was no point in returning to the League. As a failure, he was meant to be disposed of. He even thought of simply allowing himself to perish, since that was what the League would do.

But he couldn't help but feel as though that would be a waste of a resource. Surely he could be of more use to the League alive than dead?

That tiny bit of rebellious logic is what caused Danny to go into hiding, only living on based on the off chance he would find opportunities to further the League's goals. Obviously, that mentality didn't last long after being exposed to the real world and meeting one Jazz Fenton.

Being adopted by the Fentons was the best cover Danny could have asked for, since any odd behavior he couldn't hide while he was learning how to be "normal" was totally overshadowed by the sheer bizarre eccentricity of his new parents. He was still the neighborhood weird kid, but even that was a major upgrade from disposable tool, so Danny considered it a win.

Anyway, if anyone likes this idea, please feel free to have at it! Interpret it as you please :)

[frenchonionsoop]

you know what? fine. *pixelates your bungou stray dog*

[rosesofenvy]

2m43s of Arthur Lester Falling (S4)

Tag you favorite fall! Mine is when he falls through the stairs <3

SEASON 1 FALLING COMPILATION

SEASON 2 FALLING COMPILATION

SEASON 3 FALLING COMPILATION

[mayasaura]

To be clear, I do ship Marcille and Falin!! I just ship them as.... complicated, you know? They have dyke drama. Marcille is deluding herself that Falin hasn't grown up and she's not going to age, and she's not going to die no matter what Marcille does, and Marcille isn't going to have to live most of her life having lost her. Meanwhile poor Falin would like a step by step written explanation of how to convince her very good elf friend that she is an adult, and has some potentially adult feelings about getting wet and naked and crawling into bed together

[moonsart]

Look at his little eyes! He is completely innocent and has never done a single wrong thing in his life!

Ignore the fire in the background

[nexadarling]

Watching tristamp: oh vash has mommy issues

Watching trigun 98: oh vash has MOMMY ISSUES

Reading Trimax: Actually Vash went through an extremely traumatising event at a young age and had to face the realities of humans. Rem was there, as the twins' mother figure, to represent the good. Reconciling humanity's differences is what made him how he is, and he projects that onto Rem. In this essay I will-

[nuclearanomaly]

Happy Cactoween! 🌵

[pirateshelly]

There really is a sort of tragic irony to the fact that Armand's one moral line in the sand that he's managed to maintain despite centuries of adapting and having his identity shaped and reshaped by others (his refusal to turn anyone else into a vampire) is just kind of never taken seriously by those around him. Louis dismisses it as him being contrary and difficult and Daniel reacts with the sort of mocking disbelief you often see in people if they've been told someone doesn't want children or has never had sex; like it's more of a slightly absurd failing than a choice worth respecting.

Because honestly, saying 'I may literally depend on taking other people's lives to survive and I can't change what I am, but the one thing I will never do is make more of us or condemn anyone else to this" is a completely reasonable stance to take! It's a more practical way of attempting to be a vampire in a way that minimizes harm than trying to just not eat people, which is inevitably going to fail. Which is obviously not to say that this makes Armand, like, a good moral person lol (none of these characters are, and they'd be less interesting if they were, but it's still more interesting to me to recognize the ways they struggle with that than to act like the story exists in some sort of amoral void where nothing matters because everyone's a literal monster).

Like. That's his one single personal boundary, the one tiny thread of humanity he'd managed to keep for himself and has control over. And obviously I'm not defending his choice to betray Louis and Claudia and Madeleine. But you can still understand, as a viewer, how (from his understandably very warped and defensive way of interacting with the world) Louis and Claudia choosing to turn Madeleine anyway and essentially making him complicit was the one big thing that pushed him over the line to thinking "this relationship is not something I can trust enough to be worth risking my standing with the coven I've been a part of for centuries for"

[filenameghost]

it's asexual awareness week. be aware of me

[rystiel]

what’s kinda crazy is that, had filbrick been a better father and raised them in a loving home, the twins probably could’ve actually made a lot of money for the family… stan was never accommodated for while growing up so he never got to demonstrate his smarts (and he is very smart, he taught himself advanced math and shit while building a long-lasting business from scratch, man), and instead he was made to feel more and more worthless, like he had nothing to contribute to the world—the only purpose he was able to find was to always be there for his brother. what was he if he didn’t have a brother to be there for anymore? of course he would eventually lash out over losing ford (and accidentally ruin ford’s project in the process). on the other hand, ford had so much pressure on him that he pushed himself too hard to prove just how smart he was. to prove that he was the best. he needed to hear how smart he was, because what was he if he wasn’t a genius? of course bill’s manipulation worked on him. of course he wanted to make something that could change the world despite the potentially dangerous nature of it, something that would put his name in the history books. his only value was to bring success to his family, and this was how he was going to do it. if stan had been encouraged and supported, he could have used his skills to find success. if ford hadn’t been put under so much pressure, he wouldn’t have needed to turn to a literal demon so he could prove himself. he could’ve focused on the other groundbreaking research he already had in gravity falls. stan probably never would have broken that project in the first place and ford would’ve made it to his dream school, just like filbrick wanted.

[buqbite]

happy very late birthday bronya 💙💙💙

[weevmo]

Seeing Nimrod kinda move for the first time is just - I feel like a proud Papa....watching a really dumb baby bite a pant leg -