#it's like. ok this a work of fiction so idc! it's fun! but then i keep reading and inside im like please. please it doesn't work like that

[everiistence]

"i'm not going to read into the fine details of this fic because i'm just here to have fun and burn some free time" response vs. "IT! WOULD! NOT! WORK! LIKE! THAT!" response: fight!

[tsbs-ship-hate-confessions]

Honest to God there is nothing more hypocritical of a bunch of whiny proshippers complaining about hate

yet preach free speech as long as they get to jerk off to kids getting fucked by their parents.

The hypocrisy is appalling.

'oh oh proshipping doesn't mean that stuff anymore, we're Clearly anti censorship oh oh the horrors of being called a creep for making celestialcest smut and giggling about siblings diddling each other. but we totally don't glorify dark topics why would you say such a thing'

like pick a fucking struggle. deal with the consequences of your actions. None of this is okay.

And mind you, this is coming from someone who is a major proponent of dark fiction. people should get to write whatever fucked up shit they want to. coping, venting, idc the reason

but you cannot honest to God be stupid enough to assume you're not a walking red flag. No one owes you trust that you're 'doing it for the right reasons' or 'don't support the morally stripped content' just like how you don't have to owe anyone an explanation. That street goes both ways

It's even stupider, when these fucks are all like 'u should clearly know I don't condone this'. I'm sorry, are we all a hivemind now? Are we above communication? It literally cost nothing to add a note of 'hey btw I think this shit isn't okay in case you can't read the room'. if ppl decide to assume bad faith after that then that's on them. but being a fucking mule about it? really? thought we were supposed to be adults here

speaking of which

"Children shouldn't be reading this anyway, My audience is smarter than that" ok thanks for infatizing and being ablest. nothing says fun like attempting to grow and try new things regardless of learning disabilities. or do you think we all roll over and die before highschool?

Also are we gonna brush past the part where the sun and moon show is literally made with kids in mind? Why again are we so desperate for smut over a show literally built around found family? 'everyone here is so immature' yeah bud, it takes one to know one. we were all kids. all of us were the newbies of the internet at one point. I ain't saying ya gotta hold anyone's hand or babysit but is throwing a hissy fit over finding spiders in a jar labeled spider the hill you really wanna die on? if you don't like it, leave

you literally preach that same shit yet seldomly follow your own advice.

Actually, let's go a step further: you're not welcomed here anymore than the gore anons are

P.S.

The reason why murder and gore is more acceptable than pedophilia smut is because one of these attracts actual predators. Porn is still porn at the end of the day, whether it's video or a picture, or words. and if it's on a screen it will fuck your head up the same way you can't have just one cigaret. it's always 'one more can't hurt' until it's an addiction you cannot escape from. And once someone is in that cycle, it gets worse. because soon the same thing that got rocks off doesn't work anymore. so then you find something stronger to get that high. then you have to find another stronger way to get that same effect

And that is exactly how convicted pedophiles go from using fictional kiddy porn to actual csem. There is actual fucking evidence for this shit with neurobiology and psychology to back it up

TL;DR violent video games don't create serial killers because people can only have a dopamine addiction. video game addiction is like sugar addiction Porn however can most definitely create pedophiles and rapist because of the involvement of dopamine, oxytocin, norepinephrine, vasopressin. porn addiction is like meth or heroin

These 2 are Not remotely comparable to the other 2

ALL, actions have consequences. It does not matter if you are a celebrity, or a fic author with 3 views. You are not an exception, and you feed the machine that gets kids groomed, trafficked, and even killed when you choose to sexualize and normalize pedophilia and incest.

So if you're getting shamed for getting giddy over shipping shit like Killcode and Bloodmoon or Sun and Dazzle. maybe you should think long and hard about why that is.

This is so much bigger than fighting over 'making dolls kiss'.

Get the fuck out of a fandom filled with kids before you get someone hurt

-

[mondaymelon]

RAHHHHHH HIHIHIIIIII MELONNN <33

"i had a good dream that i thought was going to be very silly but then the ending was sad and i woke up and was like WAIT NO IT CANT END LIKE THAT . so i reworked the plot in my head and tried to go back to sleep to continue and fix the dream but wegh it didnt work... SOBS."

STOP WAIT I DO THAT A LOT TOO LIKE its like oh no i dont like this scene BOOM rewind! noooo the story cant end like that TRY AGAIN! ueueueueue thats so sad why didnt it work ueueue sobes with you also. FICTIONAL CHARS APPEARING IN YOUR DREAMS IS SO REAL HELP i rmb once i watched a fan animatic of xiao playing the kazoo n that night i dreamt that he was playing a saxophone which sounded like a kazoo n i was throwing confetti n paper money at him,, i hope he appears in your dreams soon i think it will be a very interesting dream hehe.

ALSO. AKABANE KARMA??? HELLO?????? when is it my turn smh. ...vox... akuma.... his cooking streams were the death of me omfg AND WHAT. HYUNJIN AND BEOMGYU??? WHAT. 😀 that was a very interesting dream CRYING they THREW CEREAL AT YOU ?? i.. i won't ask any further. mhm.

THE HEADBOPPING WITH LIGHTS OFF IS SO REAL HAHAHKJDHFKS but for me it's more like my brother walking in on me aggressively bopping to music and walks straight out :'D fun times!

japanese is a nightmare i tell you. i am quite effectively illiterate in japanese sobs n falls to the ground HAHAHSKLJFHLDSJK why. why does 怪我 and 怪我 mean different things WHY. (one is 'blame me' and one is 'injury') why is 娘 mother and daughter at the same time. why. 日本語話とても難しです。*weary noises* but duolingo is actually p good for building vocab i think !! YIPPEE!!

ok yes questions. im a kaeya [BEEEEEEP] i meant kaeya main. LOL i cant think of other fictional chars atm so i will just say!! fav genshin chars!! kaeya beidou ayato kazuha fischl furina kirara collei childe && uhm uhm i forgot the rest OMG YEAH 呵呵以后不想让任何人知道我们在谈什么就可以用华语🤭 RAHHHH i recently became absolutely obsessed with modern family i think its really funny && animes! uhhhhhh spyxfam! campfire cooking! senko-san! the genius prince! my next life as a villainess! parallel world pharmacy! and i forgot the rest! HAHAHAHA ooh ooh okok adding on!! what are the top 3 items on your bucket list for 2024?

giggles loudly back at you HAHAHKJSKJF i get loads of bye-lingual moments though,, (forgot the word for tissue in all 4 languages but somehow knew it was spelt taschentuch in german) & yeahh i switch a lot w my brothers esp when we wanna say stuff we don't want people understanding (read: parents) && normally it's mandarin with parents + english sometimes!! yippee!!

NAH CAUSE THeRE WERE. TWO KARMAS. SOBBING. DONT ASK ME WHY BUT HE HAD A CLONE AND THEY WERE BOTH ROMANCING (?) ME?? idk. that dream was a blur and i dont remember it anymore UGHSDJK

the vox. the vox one. i remember. so vividly. i was a vtuber and we were playing minecraft and i did something super cool and funny and the next day there were clips about me and i sobbed wtih joy and then i woke up in my hotel and laid there for a solid half hour questioning if that was real and knowing it wasnt but praying it was. sobs.

wAI WAIA RYUU ARE YOU. ARE YOU A KPOP FAN. STARES AT YOU. SHAKES YOUR SHOULDERS VIOLENTLY if you are. fave groups and biases pretty please. i am in love with skz + txt + enhypen. E E E EE. E E JFSDODJkldlkjlajs biases are hyunjin (big surprise) n miho, txt bias is beomgyu (another crazy, wild, surprise!!) and honestly i cant choose with enhypen but im sorta leaning towards ni-ki rn... e e e e

dont be shy ryuu. whats the redacted. :) aaa for me fave characters... wai have i already said this idc uhm uhm xiao + kaveh + gorou + dori + nahida + venti + furina + fischl + oh so many more. ik some people dislike dori but she just wants the mula and honestly girl same LMAO

ooo spy x family is the silliest!! (have you seen buddy daddies).. for me im watching several things at once rn but its the apothecary diaries, the eminence in the shadow, and migi n dali !! these are all still airing rn so im having a silly time

uhhodkoadsfd tbf i dont really have a bucket list... if we're talking abt small goals ig its just to get good grades cause of my asian parents, to improve my art, and to finally bring my smau out of its stalemate cause i havent touched it in months and i feel bad abt it... sjdflkd

help when i talk with my brother about things we dont want our parents to hear we cant speak in mandarin cause they know it so we just replace the first letter of every word with b except for some few select examples

like. "brek babing bot bis bere" is shrek's bathing spot is here and dont even ask me why i wouldnt be able to tell you LMAO

and "b-b-b-b-b-beer" is like how are you or soemthing along those lines. my brain fries every time we attempt to speak in bod (dont ask why we named it that either i cant tell you too my brain is empty) and WOADOJFOS SAME HERE !!! uhalkdf hmm more questions... do you read any manhwa / manhua and if so which. because i NEED MORE MANHWA READERS IN MY FEED PLE. A S E

[unproduciblesmackdown]

furthermore it’s something that quant kid 2 was supposedly written as “guy who sucks who we never see again” (which, underwhelming execution of that lmao even hypothetically just on paper) & then there’s will roland’s interpretation, with will never really mentioning like yeah i decided to try to put a spin on it, or anyone else really providing more specifics rather than they Liked his live & in person je ne sais quoi & acted performance. and idk, just said Je Ne Sais Quoi & the presumed approach of Acting In Earnest rather than that the character being a joke is something that the actor is inviting the audience in on. acting like “this is how it’d be if this was a person.” no character has Real internality the way a real person does but we can interpret it As If They Did anyways, a whole conceit of art imitating life imitating art and narratives / stories / media as an interpretation of life experiences / realities....winston’s autistic. writers doing caricatures of autistic people they’ve unknowingly encountered, with the assumption in life carried over to the assumption as a creator of fictionalized versions of Guys Like That which is that well i guess those weird nerd mathy computer guys are grating losers who annoy us b/c they do that on purpose, like an asshole. and they’re like really good at some specific thing sometimes, but actually that’s Sad even if it’s useful, so it’s also just kind of annoying & wrong of them. done. winston’s autistic, and that also autistic people hardly always know they’re autistic and everything can be a blend of “idk, this isn’t how it is for everyone?” and “i guess things must be my fault on account of being a guy who sucks b/c of whatever’s wrong with me & all” like, for winston to work with taylor he has to say “yeah i suck” before he gets to again mention he’s super good as his shit though, which is apparently also something that sucks of him. ok. it will never be more decipherable, except that it’s indecipherable in the very same way Being Autistic Irl is lmfao. he’s autistic. he’s also autistic b/c a) i think he is, and b) does anyone care otherwise. like who would even truly give a shit about their “winston is some guy i think. idk” interpretion enough to argue for it. or even “yeah winston is some guy who is like a cringe loser to me, idc” like is it important to you. thinking about winston as [autistic character] and secret cassandra (general secret weapon in other ways) for it as well is like, idfk, the alternative is just what most people surely do which is taking the face value “jokes boy who gets dunked on” context and not a step further. okay. i hope to god this is all rhetorical like, if anyone Is out there like “i’ll join this conversation and devil’s advocate about why it’s important for winston to be allistic” it’s like, first of all, already for that b/c the counterarguments to the counterargument are beyond [well ig at the end of the day it’s just all our interpretations =) lol like yeah no shit. anyways] include stuff again like how ppl can be autistic without even their themselves knowing it and the fact of like, irl you don’t need to go “oh it’s okay for people to do [xyz] if they’re autistic =)” like it’s way most likely to be okay whether they’re autistic or not and certainly whether you Know it or not. like, i’m monologuing out here. idc abt any other opinions lmfao like hello?? mine are more than good enough

anyways like the only discussions possible like hmm david levien maybe i have some questions but if you don’t have good answers i’ll just throw it out, idc, i wouldn’t necessarily say i trust this writing or any of you involved in it half as far as i can throw it, just inquiries for fun. i’d discuss it with will roland’s mother, or him himself. like here you can also be given [honorarily autistic] by me if you want at this rate. anyhow send post. i can’t say [winston billions autistic character] enough

[megatraven]

casual reminder that people are allowed to ship what they want and if you don’t like something they ship you don’t have to question them about it like they’re on trial or ask for their reasons without having genuine curiosity for why, that’s just a shitty thing to do and probably makes the person on the receiving end feel insecure

here are some alternatives instead:

- unfollow, even if you’re mutuals. you control your tumblr experience, my dudes. if you’re friends then you can still talk, and chances are your friend wants you to have the best experience you can - blacklist the tag. if the person doesnt tag it, ask them to, if they refuse, unfollow. (tumblr has its own blacklisting function now) - ignore it, scroll right by, it’s obviously not for you and that’s ok - understand that people Do have their reasons for shipping what they do and they don’t them to you - realize it’s not your job to make sure they know you think it’s wrong to ship it

[littleaclove]

give us the aizawa x avid!reader RN i am not kidding 🔫😫/j

Character: Aizawa

Prompt: Him dating avid!reader

OOOH DO I HAVE THE HCS FOR YOU

so when you an aizawa get together he’s like k i n d a familiar with your love of reading (whether it be fanfics, hand held books, etc.) but he doesn’t really invest in seeing the full extent

but he still like gifts you books every now and then

yk like picking from genres he thinks you’d like

BUT ONCE YOU TWO MOVE IN TOGETHER

AND HE SEES HOW MUCH TIME YOU FUCKING INVEST IN THIS-

omg he’s thinking 1. what in the actual f u c k how much have they read in the span of t o d a y (yes i’m talking from experience because i’m either reading a hand held or more commonly read ‘Yesterday Upon The Stair’ by PitViporOfDoom) and 2. are they ok because last time i checked having this much emotional attachment to fictional people isnt h e a l t h y (how are we feeling out there tonight- yeahhh i am not feeling good-)

so if you have more hand held books than you know what to do with like myself then this man will legit make you go through them and still about ¾ of your collection in boxes because he r e f u s e s to get more than one bookshelf to clutter

but he also secretly thinks it’s absolutely adorable how much you read-

ESPECIALLY IF YOURE A LIBRARIAN OR SOMETHING-

like he’ll go to your work on his lunch breaks when he’s ‘sleeping’ so that he can see you throughout the day

He also does not let ✨presentation michael✨ anywhere near your workplace because of how, even without his quirk, naturally loud he is

also ✨mic wazowski✨ w i l l gossip with you while you’re working which both of you have gotten in trouble for a multitude of times

OH AND AIZAWA WILL JUST COME TO THE DESK TO ASK WHERE CERTAIN NOVELS HE KNOWS YOU LIKE (when there’s a different worker there or just around the place) AND HE’LL READ THEM SO THAT YOU TWO CAN TALK ABOUT THEM TOGETHER

this man will leave you lines from books he’s read that makes him think of you on little sticky notes with the book and author on it (also sometimes who said it if he feels like being f a n c y)

on that note he’ll also give you books that he’s read and written little notes and stuff on the margins and throughout the pages of the book

OH AND IN A BLANK SPOT ON THE PAPER TITLE PAGE OF THE BOOK HE’LL WRITE A LITTLE SENTIMENT TO YOU AND ITS SO CUTE

midnight and mic will always make fun of him for doing so

they also think it’s a d o r a b l e if you do the sticky note thing back and put it somewhere for him to find-

he loves it too dw

A/n: OMG NO CUZ I LOVE THIS- also thank you for my very first ask- LIKE I NEVER THOUGHT THE DAY WOULD COME THAT SOMEONE WOULD SEND ME ONE- yes i’m being dramatic but iDc i’m excited (also sorry this was more library/hand held books but that’s what i’ve been having brainrot over so i could redo it if you guys want)

[writingwife-83]

My Sherlolly Self Interview 2021

Hello there! First of all, thank you to @sherlollyappreciationweek for organizing this event! I’ll do a quick intro and then get down to business and answer some questions.

I’m a wife and mom in my late 30s and live in the New England area of the USA. I’ve always loved to write fiction as a hobby, but for most of my life it was original fiction. I’ve been a BBC Sherlock fan since 2014, and that was really what introduced me to the world of fandom and fanfic. I shipped sherlolly since the very first moment they were on screen together and once I discovered the world of fanfic for them, I think it was only a matter of days or weeks until I decided I wanted to try writing for them as well. The rest is history!

I’ll put the questions under the cut since this is going to get loooong lol!

Ok so first up, @mizjoely asked- Sherlolly was your first fandom that you started writing for. How does it compare to the Reylo fandom? What are the best/worst parts of writing for each?

An interesting question lol! This is something I’ve definitely thought a lot about since, like you said, sherlolly was my first fandom and it was all I knew until I stepped over into reylo as well. To compare, I think I’ll just jump into listing the best and worst about each, because that’ll sum it up.

I’ll start with Reylo. The best part is 1- the ship itself, because I absolutely flipping love them to pieces and Idc what anyone has to say about it lol. 2- my little “fandom of three,” as Lexie and darthsydious and I tend to call it. And 3- the fan works for that pair are so incredibly varied and it opens up a heck of a lot of options for creating. I think the less there is in canon, the more opportunities for exploration among the fandom, so that’s pretty fun. As for the worst, 1- The frequent low response to fics. I get that I started creating very late, it’s an enormous fandom where you can get lost in the shuffle, and there’s also a high demand for the kind of fics that I don’t write. But no matter the reasons…it just sucks. 2- there seems to be a bit more squabbling among the shippers about details of the characters and how they’re portrayed in canon. Seems a waste of time to me when we could just be having fun enjoying the same ship. And 3- again, the ship is just so BIG lol. I absolutely prefer the small fandom experience. That said, let’s talk about sherlolly…

The best things are 1- sherlolly of course, because they’re freaking amazing and I love them. 2- the relatively small size of the fandom, particularly when it’s down to the small bunch of us who are somehow still invested nearly 5 yrs later lol. And that allows us to be so incredibly organized too! *cough* sherlollilists *cough* 😉 3- the way I was so warmly welcomed and appreciated right from the start. It didn’t matter that I started writing when we were 3 series into a 4 series show. I got feedback and validation that I never could have imagined. And 4- the way we tend to rally around negativity or someone is being mistreated. I’ve seen this ship turn negativity around in the best sort of way imo, which is by canceling it out with positivity. As for the worst things? Those are harder to come up with so…I don’t think I’ll list anything. 🥰

Next up I have a bunch of questions from @miniherodesktales and I’ll answer them divided up by the two asks- I hope it's okay if I ask several questions. 1.) What's your favourite fic that you've written? 2.) Are you a fan of the canon or is it just Sherlock for you? - I've noticed that you seem to like period fics, so wondering if you blend elements from original canon with BBC Sherlock? Plus, I'm always hoping more Sherllolians will join me in enjoying some of the older Holmes adaptations as there is a lot of fun ones out there I think people would love.

As for my fave fic, I think it might be too tough to choose just one lol. I think my top 3 would have to be I Told You So, Zephyr, and maybe also my newer one For the Best. All for their own reasons, but I’m just generally happy with how those turned out and really enjoyed the writing process.

I’m definitely a big fan of the BBC canon, yes! In fact, for close to my first year in the sherlolly fandom, I wasn’t interested in AUs at all lol. But you’re right, now I do enjoy period AUs a lot. I think it’s just a fun way to enjoy new things for the ship. Sadly, I admit I have very limited exposure to the original ACD canon. I’m not against the original canon, it’s just that for me BBC Sherlock is my Sherlock. That’s basically how I was exposed to the character. I might explore more here and there, but for the most part I enjoy BBC Sherlock and I’m kinda happy to stick to that.

And- A second ask - sorry!  1) Do you feel a need to shape your interpretations of Molly and Sherlock so that they are unique to you and differ from the show and other Sherlolly writers? Same for your Star Wars fics. 2.) Is it something that just happens naturally and not something to worry about? 3.) How do your craft your stories and plots? 4.) How important is writing to you?

This is an excellent question, and for me the answer is no. Imo, good fanfic is about the characters feeling like the characters in canon, in whatever situation they’re in. So I have no desire to create a Molly or Sherlock that is nothing like the ones we see on screen. And the same would definitely apply to my Star Wars writing. My clause to this is that people interpret characters differently. So what feels in character to me might not feel so to someone else.

It has come more naturally over time I feel, but I am still definitely very conscious of my characterization. When I write I try my best to hear the dialogue in my head and decide whether it feels believable for those characters’ canon voices. So in a way, yes it’s something I worry about. Because I’d hate to have someone read my fic and feel like they’re pulled out of the moment due to a wording or tone that doesn’t feel right.

My honest answer to how I craft my stories is that when I either get or am given an idea, I pretty much immediately consult my fandom and real life besties @thisisartbylexie and “darthsydious” and I share with them what I’m thinking and/or ask for their input. It’s rare that I concoct a fic 100% on my own. It usually involves a lot of squealing and plotting with them lol.

Writing is moderately important to me. It’s certainly not in my top list of priorities, but I also consider it a healthy hobby and creative outlet, and I think we all need something like that. When I have free time, I do think it’s a nice thing to use my time for.

@englandsgray asked- Hey hey 👋 Is there a moment or line somewhere in the canon which you think is underrated? Have you already written about it, if so? Or is it something you’re yet to explore? Thanks! Enjoy the self interview ❤️

That’s a really interesting question and I had to give it some thought! I’m going to go with the line in ASiB where Molly says of John going to visit his sister- “Sherlock was complaining- saying.” It’s not like this has never been talked about, but perhaps not quite as much as some other line. I do find it interesting because this is canon evidence that Sherlock is with Molly behind the scenes and without John present. That could be at Bart’s, but it could also be elsewhere. It’s just another little tidbit that reminds us of something that I believe Louise Brealey said after s4, which was that there’s clearly so much “off screen” between those two that we don’t get to see. I guess I haven’t explored that line specifically, so who knows, maybe someday!

And finally, I got this ask from @dlrconlicense- Are there any characters that you don't like writing or feel the most difficulty with when including them in your works? (Could be from any fandom)

Boy, this is a tough one. Tbh I feel pretty comfortable with the main characters I write at this point. But I think some characters take a little more work to write than others. John Watson, for instance. Martin Freeman is such an awesome actor, but his facial expressions are a big part of that. There’s a lot of subtle things he conveys and it’s sometimes hard to translate that perfectly into words. That’s just one example of how it can take a little extra thought to write certain characters.

Thank you so much to the four who asked me questions and I hope it was enjoyable for you guys and others to read. And to anyone who has read this far and gotten through all my ramblings, you get a really big 🍪 lol!

[supercalime]

Axiom’s End Commentary

So, it’s been a while since my last book commentary, so here’s my big ass come back with Lindsay Ellis’ debut novel I didn’t know I would like at all “Axiom’s End”. Hope y’all enjoy some ramblings!

Part One: The Obelus Event

- I’m not even done with the first chapter yet but I got two things to say: Lindsay nailed the early 2000’s era and lm already hooked on the story so far

- It’s not a novel without some sprinkles of daddy issues, is it?

- I wonder if those website links actually work… would be fun if they did

- Dude, I’m so hooked on this story

- Hey, maybe the aliens aren’t bad, maybe they just want to teach Cora the newest dance craze of the universe, the intergalactwhip! (If you got this reference, I love you, let’s be friends!)

- Oh shit! They made her forget her family????

Part Two: Billions of Flesh-Eating Aliens

- Just the sheer idea of being under control is chilling. This book is increasing my anxiety yall

- I’ve been noticing a few repetitions in the writing, nothing too distracting, but still noticeable (not saying I could do any better, I’m not writing any books to be published any time soon)

- Cora please do not touch the may or may be not dead alien corpse

- Oh my god! Shut up about “consume”!

- How the turn tables! The alien is afraid of the humans!

- Cora is queer! And it’s normalized queerness! We love to see it!

- The dynamic between Cora and Ampersand is giving me huge Hiccup and Toothless vibes and I kinda love it too much

- Please don’t remind me bush was president, I was having such a good day

- She said the thing! She said “the whole plate”! I giggled and I don’t even care if that’s cringe!

- Just realized that I also been pronouncing nils’ name wrong

- Was that a weird “better call Sal” reference or just an unfortunate coincidence?

- I kinda love that Cora keeps comparing people to actors

Part Three: The Great Filter

- I sense that mr park is a possible love interest, let’s see if that’s true

- Take a shot every time the word myriad is used. You’ll get alcohol poisoning

- I think Ampersand just did a little Wi-Fi foreshadowing

- This whole pandemic talk is so topical it like, hurts. What a weird coincidence

- Esperas just yeeted Cora like she’s nothing! I’m very invested

- I don’t know why but this whole bush thing weirds me out a bit. I get that sci-fi needs to be a little grounded in reality but it could have been a heightened reality based on our world

- What? They just… arrested Luciana????

- I know this is fiction, but I still find it hard to believe that dr sev just managed to translate the alien language so easily

- Damn, big revelations, also we finally got the meaning for the title of the novel, nice

- Fuck! Ampersand! It was you?! All this time! I feel so bad for Cora

- The genome is honestly terrifying

- Ampersand is back! Yay!

- Luciana! Hooray!!!

- Yikes Cora, that last line was ice cold

Part Four: Beloved

- Completely unrelated to the story but I gotta vent. I’m not a book snob in any way but I’m so annoyed how the spine of this paperback was obliterated during these two weeks I’ve been reading it

- I. Just. Ripped. A. Page. Of. The. Book. On. Accident. I wanna scream

- Okay, grieving over, back to the story

- I’m still confused about the alien world but now it’s too late lol

- The memory thing is cool tho

- Look, i love “girl bonds with monster trope” as much as anyone but I’m starting to get a little weirded out with how Cora has been phrasing her affection for a few pages now

- BELOVED???? What is going onnnnnnn???

- Oh ok. Got it. I’m glad it wasn’t going where my brain first went

- The phrase “it was as though” is used so much this entire book it could be in a bingo card

- What the hell did obelus just inject into her?

- Of course it’s not that easy to kill obelus, what was I thinking

- I hate how obelus can see right through ampersand. I’m scared, for real

- THE KAVEH CAMEO!!! Y’all have no idea how happy finally reading Kaveh’s name made me. For context: I listen to Lindsay Ellis and Kaveh Taherian’s podcast “Musicalsplaining”, so I’m fangirling hard right now

- Call me naive, idc, I was hoping Nils wasn’t just a shitbag

- Oh shit! Cefo was bonded to them too!

- He called her “dear one”! That’s cute. Well, as cute as an alien and girl dynamic can be lol

- HE FUSION BONDED WITH HER WITHOUT HER KNOWLEDGE??? AND SHES OK WITH THAT???

- I can’t believe it ended on that note. I don’t even know what to feel

In conclusion:

[symphonicmetal101]

Wishlist For Someone Special

Ok, so I'm feeling really sappy and just a little lonely. All my friends are boring and my family members are too young for me to take to do some stuff.

This is kind of a wishlist of things I wish I had someone to do with or look forward to doing eventually...not necessarily romantic, but I wouldn't mind if it was. (broskis, I ain't never been on a date, not even, like, a platonic one, so bear with me if it seems ridiculous)

Stargazing- lying on a blanket in an open field or in the bed of a truck, just watching the stars, pointing out constellations, and making up stories

Watching the Northern Lights- bundling up in our warmest winter clothing, grabbing a couple campchairs and hot chocolate as we watch them dance and flicker.

Laser Tag- sneaking around, just trying to one up each other, or being on the same team and still- try to one up each other😂

Paintball- a little more painful than laser tag, but still fun. Checking up on each other afterwards to make sure there aren't any really bad bruises

Graffiti- I've always liked the way it looks. I would love for someone to teach me, or for us to learn together in one of those public graffiti houses

A Willow Tree- I would love to find a weeping willow tree and climb it's branches, only to sit and read there with my loved one enjoying their company.

Just Drive- just take a roadtrip with someone I love, blasting music, laughing, singing, and snacking as we blaze down the roads. It doesn't have to be long.

Visit an Animal Sanctuary/Reserve- I find animals fascinating, but also find that sanctuaries and reserves are more educational and often more humane than zoos.

Volunteer at the Food Bank or SPCA- just general acts of service. They make me happy.

Pillow Fortress- I didn't really get to make blanket forts when I was younger, so I want to try doing something even bigger! I want to convert the couch into a cuddle palace.

Spontaneous Dancing- idk man, it just makes me really happy. My dad used to twirl and dip me when I was little, so that's probably where it started.

Cooking/Baking Together- so what if we make a bit of a mess? So what if we screw up the recipe? It doesn't matter, it was time well spent.

Cleaning Together- Growing up as an only child for ten years and then becoming the oldest means I've done chores alone for a long time. I want someone's company, maybe we'll talk, maybe we'll work in comfortable silence, or maybe we'll blast music. I don't care. I would be happy just to know I wasn't alone.

Learning One of Their Hobbies- I want to learn something they know!! Please, let me understand a little better, I just need them to be patient with me.

Forest Walks- especially in Fall. I want to walk down an old trail, listen to leaves crunch under our feet as more fall from above I want the blustery weather to give us rosy cheeks and noses by the time our walk is over.

Horseback Riding- I've done it before, but I would love to bring someone with me. You have more experience? Great! I love to see that confidence in you. You've done it a couple times? Yay, we're in the same boat! Never done it at all? That's ok! I'll do what I can to help you!

Outdoor Movie Night- we don't have drive- in theaters anywhere nearby, but give me a sheet, campchairs, and a projector? I've got us.

Indoor Movie Night- let's bundle up and cuddle together while we watch a new movie. Or maybe it's a classic. Idc.

Try New Food- let's go somewhere for lunch and pick something completely foreign...(I am not eating guinea pig again though, thanks.)

The Wharf- if one of us happens to live by the ocean, we'll be frequent visitors. Not necessarily the beach, bit on wooden planks where the salty sea air still reaches you. We can watch the boats come and go. (Fisherman's Wharf in B.C Canada is fun. There's a really good Mexican food place😂 There's a blind seal named Sammy that lives there, and you can buy a bucket of fish to feed him. Be careful though, seagulls are vicious, being pecked by one sucks...yes, I needed a bandaid and my finger was sore for a long time. Idk if it's still like that, it's been a while. Sorry, just reminiscing a bit.)

Painting- let's buy a couple canvases and paint and see what we can do! It doesn't have to resemble anything, just do what feels like you.

Splatter Painting- dear god I've wanted to try this for so long. Just full on globs of paint and flicking it towards the canvas. (I was never allowed to do it because it was seen as a waste of paint. I couldn't even do it with an old toothbrush on a small canvas😑)

Video Games!- Please teach me how to play! Video games are banned in my family. I mean, I've done Just Dance, but that's about it. Mobile games have been kept a secret...basically just teach me to play and don't make me feel bad about playing, and I'll love you forever, mkay?

Ice Cream Date- again, idk. The idea just makes me really happy, whether we're sitting in a small shop, eating and talking. Or maybe we're walking, maybe holding hands, trying to point things out to each other, but our hands are full, but there's no way we're letting go. Or maybe we're sharing a cup of ice cream on a park bench, just people watching.

Thrift Store Outfits- I want to go to a thrift store and pick out the most ridiculous outfits for each other. We don't have to go anywhere, but just humour me when we're alone by wearing whatever I found for you, and vice versa.

Writing- writing a poem, a atory, a quote, or learning calligraphy and just writing their name- I want to write something to you

Books- let's go to the library and choose a book for each other, one that neither of us have read so we can talk and ask questions, come up with theories as we continue to read.

Books pt.2- if you write me a note and give me a book telling me why it's one of your favourites, I'll melt. I'll do the same for you, and soon we'll have a few more things to talk about and enjoy together

Music!- you bet your bottom dollar I'm going to send you music that reminds me of you, and I would be overjoyed to recieve the same.

Music! Pt.2- if you happen to play, sing, or dance, let's make something beautiful together! If not, I'll teach you!

Improv/rp- just making stuff up as we go, not caring if other people hear our conversations.

Trampoline Park/Something Similar- I just want to try it. Don't care if I break my leg, I want to try it. I'll care if you break your leg though.

Plant Shopping- again, idk. Just the idea of choosing a succulent or two to take care of together sounds nice.

Dance Classes- maybe you're already an amazing dancer, I'll let you take the lead. Maybe you just know the basics like me, we can learn together. (I know how to do the basics for, like, salsa, cumbia, bachata, swing, and waltz, that's it. Please teach me more🤩)

Sewing/Knitting/Crocheting/Fabric Work- useful skill! And maybe we can make something for each other. (Spoiler alert: you're getting a pillow case, mask, or a scarf, I can't do much yet😂)

Rage House- let's just let loose! Make a mess! Yell! Doesn't matter, all of it's legit. I just want to destroy stuff.

Weird Cuddles- again, just the idea makes me happy. If you're lying down, I may as well just flop on you, right? Or maybe somehow we end up upside down. Cuddling while we read books or listen to music. Ok so maybe just cuddling but it feels weird because I'm touch-starved👌

Late Night Calls- I've never done this with anyone under happy circumstances. Could you help me change that? It would be nice to have the last thing before I go to sleep be reassurance and happiness.

Calendar/Planning- let's make a calendar together with pictures of the places we want to go one day. Let's talk to each other so we know what we both want and make sure we put it down.

Scuba Diving- this is something I've wanted to do since I was little- actually it was the first job I said I wanted. I don't want to do it as a career anymore, but I would love to try it with you.

Finding Random Things- little things that remind me of you. Maybe I was out and found a heart shaped rock. Or I heard a bird sing and managed to record it. Or maybe there was a cute keychain at the store that reminded me of you. And that would be enough to make me smile.

Ride a Double-Decker Bus- I've done it before, but the excitement that comes with the thought of riding one again makes me giddy. Just being able to see the city and people from a mobile throne😂

Bike Riding- let's explore nearby, just riding together. Maybe you have trails you want to show me. You can lead, I'll follow. Or vice versa. If we get lost at least we can laugh about it later.

Camping- lets share a tent and a campfire together, roasting smores as we laugh and tell each other stories. Maybe we'll try and sing a few songs too.

Punch Buggy- just playing the game properly will make me happy tbh. It's been 8 years of bending the rules😂

Board/Card Games- yes. I will get competitive. But that's half the fun. Also, I would like to play these properly as well lol

Museum Date- maybe somewhere local, or maybe we were driving by and decided to stop, or maybe we actually planned to go. Let's learn something new together, take some pictures.

Comfy- I didn't know what else to call it. Basically, take out, sweat pants, (messy buns), snacks, drinks, and a good show. Bonus if it's storming outside.

Rain- watching it rain, listening tonit rain, going outside and dancing or running in the rain, jumping in puddles- I want to do it all with you.

Little Gestures- little things we develop as we get to know each other, faces that we come to understand, hand movements we start to copy. Idk, I find it really cute.

Ok guys, sorry this isn't what, well, any of us were expecting. I guess this is my Valentine's Day post?? Idk. If you read it, I hope you liked it.

Feel free to put who you thought of in tags or comments, real or fiction. Or add to the list if you want. I would love to know😊 I know there's a lot of "I wants" but that's because for the first time, in a long time, I feel comfortable admitting that.

51. Mutual comfort characters

[hanji-is-life]

Ok so to the anon who mentioned mirrors in the bull AU. Like I feel all your interesting questions. (I'm the bull AU question anon from like 5-7days ago). Like I know it's fandom and I know it's an AU and like I shouldn't worry about logic.

The the part of me that used to show livestock in 4H and likes to overanalyze everything just.....so many questions!!!!!

And please I don't mean this in a bad way!!!! I am absolutely NOT saying anything bad or trying to be critical!!!!

I fucking love you're writing and all the content you are giving us!!!!! My brain is just weird and my background in large livestock really asks more questions than anyone could ever answer. But thank you regardless.

Also, may I just say, how funny it is that like collectively most people here are saying they don't want kids but like if it hot 2D anime Dilf/bull/hockey player etc we'd give em have a dozen?

I get it's all imaginary but also, at least for me, just knowing that your partner absolutely loves and adores you and them treating you like you hung the moon and stars just.....does something.

I'd just be so curious to know if it's just like 'yea I could imagine having kids in a fictional universe with a fictional character cause it's all fictional' or 'my parents and other people parents relationships were generally so shitty I never wanna possibly bring a kid into that, but if it was with someone who truly unconditionally loved me I'd pop out a few brats?'

And I mean I'm sure there's a million other reasons and shit, and as stated above I over think shit.

Its not like I use fanfic to work through my personal traumas and feelings. 👀

Please return to your previously scheduled thirsting. Sorry for the Debbie downer break.

It’s totally fine!!!! I don’t mind the questions at all :)) and thank you bby!!!

I’ve always wanted kids more than I wanted a man, but when it comes to 2D men I would NOT mind both!!! might even pack shit up to be a housewife!! the thought of actually being one is icky tho bc being at home constantly and ESPECIALLY with kids would make me have a meltdown lmfao

like I have the comfort of 2D men knowing that they will love me. Idc what any other fan says, whenever they spew bullshit like oh they won’t like black women or women with some chub or sensitive gals like me!! it’s just comforting knowing that these 2D men will love me regardless of my flaws. real men have always just given me so many problems and I’m OVER them lmao

mine is more like the first one!! I imagine it because it’s just comforting and fun and something to distract me. I have pretty good relationships in my life, so it’s not any worry about having real kids. It’s more or less who I’m having them with!!

And it’s okay bby!! your questions are always welcomed :)

[misc-headcanons]

Your top ten list of (fictional) people you wanna go down on and why

Also tag someone else to reblog with their own list

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Nico Robin. She's my number one OP waifu so of course she's on the list. She deserves it, plus she could use her DF at the same time for some mutual action 👀

Fubuki from OPM. I think she'd be a bit of a tsundere in a relationship; I think it'd be cute to make her all flustered after she haughtily tells me that I'd better "earn" anything she does in return, only for her to go from her usual cold superior self to a blushing mewling mess. I'd make Miss Blizzard melt~

Saitama. I feel like we'd have a really casual chill relationship, and I like the idea of just going down on him while he reads manga or plays video games or something. Just a relaxed afternoon succ, you know? 👌🏻

Katakuri. He's a sweetheart, and I want to show him how much love he deserves. With my mouth. And my hands. Many, many times. Plus I already own a stepladder (since the dude is 15 feet tall I'd need one) and we could have donuts afterward. And giving him oral sex would be a whole arm workout too, so I could work on getting my biceps in shape and whatnot while enjoying his...giant cream-filled eclair.

Brook. I don't CARE how impossible it is, I'll find a way. I wanna play with his afro afterwards, and as Enel is my witness I WILL get that skeleton to cum...even though he has no dick Yohohohoho~

Yonji. It'd be an angry hate-filled succ, just because canon!Yonji is a complete asshole just like his brothers. And I'd be smug about getting someone who's oh-so great and powerful to become a trembling little bitch who's begging me for mercy. And I'd probably punch him in the dick after I was done and knew he was at his most vulnerable.

Reiju. Complete opposite of why I'd do it with Yonji. I want her to dom me (hard, soft, idc) and I'd be honored to be Poison Pink's pussy pleaser. I'd get that shit put on a t-shirt. With glitter.

Threesome: Urahara and Yoruichi. I couldn't decide who I'd want more, and I figured that both was the better option anyway. I've got two hands and a creative mind, I'd make it happen! Plus they seem like a fun pair to be involved with, either as partners or just FWB.

Buggy or Law. I have different motivations for liking/thirsting over them both, but I want to tease one of them by messing around with their detached dick when they're in the middle of something else. Obviously with prior consent to do that sort of thing, of course!

Hmm...Shizuo from DRRR. He's the perfect blend of strong yet soft, and even if I think he'd have some reservations about actually going "all the way" out of a fear of hurting his partner on accident, a succ would be a nice way to show him a less risky way of having sex. Also I'd wear sunglasses on my head as I do it and look him in the eye as I swallow with a smug smirk on my face ok byeeeee

Tagging @pounded-heart-demon and I'm no psychic, but I have a feeling Zoro will be your list ;3c and @head-cannoncentral

[blurry-fics]

Between the Lines

Pairing: Tyler Joseph x Reader

Warnings: None

Word Count: 2209

Request: a bookstore fic where they meet reaching for the same book orrrrr they’re both too into their books that they aren’t looking and run into each other. idc as long as they’re in a powell’s living their best lives 😪 -@blackbeanietyler​

Author’s Note: For anyone who doesn’t know what Powell’s is, it’s a bookstore in Portland, Oregon (where I’m from) that has all sorts of used and new books (and I highly recommend going if you ever have the chance). Anyway, I really enjoyed writing Tyler as a book nerd and I hope you enjoy it too :) (picture credit)

Your arm started to ache as you walked down the steps that led to the fiction section. Although your original plan had only been to stop in the bookstore to pick up a new release from your favorite author, you had inevitably ended up finding three additional novels that you wanted to take home. Before you knew it, you had spent the better part of the stormy afternoon wandering through aisles of books before even finding what you had come for.

You managed to find an unoccupied bench nestled between a couple of bookshelves where you could sit down and let your tired arms rest for a bit. Not wanting to be in the way, you tucked your knees up to your chest and leaned against the side of the shelf, keeping your books safe in your lap. You had managed to snag a special edition of your favorite book for a good price and you didn’t want to risk losing or damaging it. People hardly even gave you a second glance as you rested on the bench; it was a common occurrence to find someone who had been nestled in a corner for hours reading a book that they had still yet to purchase.

When the circulation had finally returned to your arm and you felt ready to venture down the aisles once again, you got up, collected your things, and started your slow crawl along the shelves. Sure, you knew the author of the book you were looking for, but what was the fun of being in a bookstore if you didn’t also look at what else they had to offer? You would get to the book you needed eventually.

A couple other people were hovering around the section you needed to get to, so you hung back for a little while until they eventually walked away. You didn’t really feel like pushing through a crowd of people, even if you knew exactly what you needed. Thankfully, they only stuck around for a minute or so before growing bored and moving on to the next shelf. After a final adjustment of the books already in your arms, you made your move and started to reach for what happened to be the last copy of the novel.

Unfortunately for you, someone else had the same idea.

Your hand brushed against the stranger’s before either of you were actually able to reach the book. Embarrassed, you recoiled your hand and tried to make peace with the fact that you had missed out on a fresh copy of a novel that you had been looking forward to reading for months. At least you would be able to order a copy online.

“I’m sorry, I didn’t realize you were going for the same book,” they said.

You turned to face the stranger, not having expected them to actually talk to you. Most of the people you encountered in bookstores were more than willing to keep to themselves, or steal a last copy away from someone else.

“It’s fine,” you shrugged. “You can have it, if you want.”

“You should take it, I insist.”

You took a moment to get a good look at the stranger. He couldn’t have been much older than you, a year or two at most, though the deep bags under his eyes made him look older. The hood on his sweatshirt was pulled up nearly to his ears, casting shadows over his thin face and nearly blending into the mess of dark hair on top of his head. If you didn’t know any better, you would have thought he just rolled out of bed. You also took note of the fact that he was only carrying a couple other smaller books in his arms.

“I really don’t think I need another book,” you said, holding up the stack in your arms for emphasis. “You should take it.”

“The only thing that tells me is that you’re a more avid reader than I am, so by all means you should take it,” he smiled. He had a nice smile.

“I’m really not going to take a book that someone else wants. I can just come back in a few weeks when they get the next shipment in. I live close. Please, just take the book.”

“You’re from around here?”

“Are you not?” you asked.

The stranger shook his head. “I’m in a band. We’re currently on tour, which is why I’m even here. All my friends were saying that I needed to check this place out if I had a chance and I figured it was a good opportunity to pick up some books for the road.”

“So what you’re saying is that you really should be the one to keep the book,” you said, raising an eyebrow.

“No!” he laughed. “That’s not why I brought it up.”

“I know, I know,” you smiled. “But still, it really doesn’t matter if I wait a little longer to get it. Like I said, I have all these books to keep me busy until I can get my hands on a copy.”

“Ok, what if I make you a deal?”

“I’m listening.”

“You can have this copy of the book if you pick out a different book for me.”

“You want me to pick out a book for you?”

“Yeah.”

“What if I have terrible taste in books?” you laughed.

He laughed along with you, “I looked at the books you’re carrying and I can assure you that you don’t have bad taste in books.”

“And I can pick out any book for you?”

“Yep.”

“Deal,” you smiled, holding out a hand.

The stranger shifted his books to one side before reaching out and shaking your hand. Your mind was already running over an endless list of potential books you could give to this stranger.

“I’m Tyler, by the way,” he said as he pulled his hand away.

“Y/N,” you said, trying to ignore the newfound sense of nervousness you felt after shaking his hand. “So, I’m going to go grab the book real quick. Are you going to stick around here?”

“Yeah, I’ll be in this aisle or the next.”

“Perfect.”

“I’ll hold onto this until you get back,” he said, grabbing the last copy of the book. “Just to make sure you hold up your half of the deal.”

You raised an eyebrow, “And how do I know you’ll hold up yours and not just run off with the copy of the book?”

He held the book over his heart, “You have my word, Y/N.”

“Alright,” you said. Before he had a chance to see the dorky grin on your face at his cute remark, you turned and quickly walked out of the aisle.

After some thinking, you had decided to give him a copy of your favorite book in hopes that he hadn’t already read it. Even if he had, maybe he would enjoy rereading it as much as you did. You shook your head, hardly believing the thoughts that were running through your head. How had you gotten yourself into this position, picking out a copy of your favorite book for a complete stranger?

Not a stranger. Tyler.

The mere thought of his name was enough to make your stomach erupt in butterflies. You pressed your lips together, trying to push the thought from your mind. There was no use in getting yourself worked up over what was going to be a brief encounter at best. He had already told you that he was in a band, meaning that he would probably be gone by tomorrow morning. Never to be seen again.

You were quickly distracted by your arrival to the correct aisle. It was one that you had been in so many times that you already knew exactly where the book would be from memory. There were a few copies to choose from, and after some debate you eventually settled on a new one. It was a bit more expensive than the used ones, but it would give Tyler a chance to make it all his own, if that was even something he enjoyed doing. You knew not everyone enjoyed writing in their books the same way you did.

Enough thinking. Time to find Tyler.

You eventually did find him curled up on one of the benches, already flipping through one of his books. He looked up when he heard you approaching and tucked the books back into the crook of his arm.

“Did you find something for me?” he asked, once again standing up to his full height.

“Yep, a copy of my favorite book of all time. Hopefully you haven’t read it,” you said, passing it to him.

He took a moment to look over the cover before flipping to the back and reading the synopsis. You chewed on your lower lip, waiting for his reaction.

“This sounds amazing,” he grinned. “I can’t wait to read it.”

You almost said something about being excited to hear his thoughts, then remembered the situation the two of you were in. Instead, you stayed quiet.

“And here’s your book, as promised.”

You took the book from him and added it to the top of your pile. Between the tiredness of your arms and the darkening of the sky, you figured it was about time you got home to make yourself dinner.

“Well, I should be getting home. It was really nice meeting you, Tyler.”

“Wait,” he said, “do you mind if I walk with you to the registers? Might be nice to wait in line together.”

“Yeah, that would be nice.”

You started to walk towards the front of the store and Tyler quickly fell into step with you. The butterflies had returned to your stomach, but this time you didn’t try so hard to push them away. With this new development in the story, there was still a chance for something to happen before you said goodbye for good.

“So, you said you’re not from around here?” you asked.

“Yeah, I’m actually living in Ohio right now.”

“Ohio,” you repeated. “How is that?”

“It’s alright, but I like having a chance to tour and see the whole country. It leads to some pretty cool experiences.”

You were sure that Tyler had cast a glance at you when he said that, but you were too shy to meet his eyes.

“How is being in a band?”

“The best,” he smiled. “And the other guy in the band, his name is Josh, is my best friend, so that’s really awesome. I mean, I’m essentially traveling and doing what I love with the closest person I have in my life. It doesn’t really get better than that.”

Normally you were relieved when the line at the registers was short, but today was different. You wouldn’t have minded being in line for half an hour if it meant more time to talk to Tyler.

“That sounds amazing. I would love to hear some of your music.”

“It’s on iTunes and Spotify and all that. We’re called Twenty One Pilots.”

“Oh, like the Arthur Miller play?”

“Yes, exactly,” Tyler grinned.

“I’ll keep that in mind.”

“What about you? What’s your life like?”

“That’s a loaded question,” you exhaled. “I guess the short answer is that I’m working and trying to figure out what I want to do in life.”

“I’ve been there,” Tyler nodded. “I’m still kind of there, if I’m being honest.”

“Next!” the cashier called.

A frown passed over Tyler’s face, “I guess this is goodbye.”

You tried to hide the disappointment that he hadn’t asked for your number, or maybe you had read the entire situation wrong. Perhaps his remarks hadn’t been anything other than friendly.

“It was really nice meeting you, Tyler. Maybe we’ll run into each other in another bookstore sometime,” you smiled.

“I hope so.”

He waved before turning and walking up to the open register. You had just started to relive all of your interactions with Tyler when the next register opened up. Setting your books on the counter and digging through your bag for a card became a quick distraction.

“Do you want a bag?” the cashier asked.

“No, I have my own. Thank you.”

She finished ringing you up before handing you the receipt and sliding the books your way. You grabbed them and stepped out of the way so that she could begin to help the next person. Before tucking all the books away, you opened up the one on the top so that you could slide the receipt inside.

“What is that?” you muttered, noticing some pencil marks below the title page. You picked up the book and brought it closer to your face, only to realize it was a note.

Sorry for writing in your book, I know not everyone likes to mark up their books like I do. Also sorry for being too embarrassed to do this in person. -Tyler

Beneath all of it was a hastily scribbled phone number. You couldn’t help but smile as you closed the book cover and tucked all of them safely into your bag so they wouldn’t get soaked by the rain.

Maybe you hadn’t misread things after all.

[tapedeck-archive]

tagged by @t4tdeancas ily tavi <33

rules: answer 30 questions and tag 20* people you’d like to get to know better!

name: emma

gender: uhh nonbinary. very transgender. 

sign: cancer :)

height: 5′6″

time: 3:27 PM

birthday: july 10

favorite bands: death cab for cutie, mumford and sons, hippo campus, of monsters and men, panic! at the disco, silversun pickups, seafret, anarbor

favorite solo artists: mitski, cavetown, conan gray, phoebe bridgers, alex g, billie eilish, flower face, lady lamb, lorde, aurora

song stuck in my head: this tiktok :) https://vm.tiktok.com/ZMJnCDjTH/ 

last movie i watched: Ten Inch Hero ;0

last show i watched: supernatural hhhehh

when did i make this blog: january 2015

what do i post: good question! idk :) mostly art, photography, literature on this blog

last thing i googled: “orange juice mulk drink” yes i made a typo

any sideblogs: ok here’s the deal. i love being organized, to a fault. i use @deangirlinterrupted for fandom stuff (mainly spn rn + hannibal). i also have @lovesickcowboys as like. a dumpster (and i only list this one because i might reblog from mutuals onto this one, but literally don’t follow because it’s so annoying). i have more which i will not list because it’s Embarrassing!

do i get asks: not here :)

why i chose this url: i must admit i love queerbait. it’s painful but it’s fun and so very worth it when it becomes canon

following: 237

followers: 380

average hours of sleep: 9-10 🤠

lucky number: 9, 13, 27

do i play any instruments: i played clarinet for 8 years and bassoon for 6! and i am slowly learning ukulele still

what i am wearing: white button-up and a dark green oversized sweater on top, black high-waisted skinny jeans, warm socks w/ bisexual flag colors :) i’m not bi though lmao my mom bought these socks for me

dream job: editor at a publishing house focused on poc and queer writers :) i would also love to make feature films, writing or directing or camera work idc! i just wanna do it

dream trip: roadtrip through Western US! i’d also love to go to Switzerland & France i think

favorite food: i love Japanese and German cuisine but i’m incredibly biased because that’s my heritage lmfao

nationality: US American

favorite songs: currently Cop Car by Mitski. and also jackles’s cover of simple man rip

last book i read: i think the last book i finished was White is for Witching by Helen Oyeyemi, but i’m reading Her Body & Other Parties by Carmen Maria Machado rn :)

favorite fictional universe: Adventure Time!! or any Miyazaki universe

i’ll tag: @goldlacestars @clovertheleaf because i miss u guys! and anyone else if u want to, new mutuals especially even tho i am too nervous to tag u <3

[izraphaels]

i should probably post about my oblivion adventures last night so i’m going to copypaste what i messaged therin last night while she flew on a plane, posterior commentary on italicized

kono jules da Yesterday at 6:57 PM

GUESS WHO'S PLAYING OBLIVION NOW ME

kono jules da Yesterday at 7:01 PM

WOW I REALLY LIKE THIS INTRO SO FAR

fuck dude... im sad this old fart has to die... hes so cool

i am also playing this in english like a boss {i usually play games in spanish bc that’s how they come in steam}

ah fuck fuck i cant see my character during character creation that's a great start

okay let's try widescreening it my dudes

{it worked}

{tumblr doesn’t let me post the pic straight up so have a screenshot}

he's just so gaunt.

White Motherfucker™

i'm still undecided on his canonical eye color also i love his BIG nose

he's bjorn! {that’s his actual name}

jailer: you'll die in jail! bjorn: [SLAMS against celldoor]

IT WAS AN ACCIDENT, HE SWEARS

he prob'ly just stole someone's shit he's long been a pickpocket methinks

uriel septim: Let me see that face. [grabs Björn by the sides of his face] bjorn: [mild discomfort noise]

bjorn: [should i stay or should i go playing in the background] {i love this weirdo so much}

all bjorn owns rn are some rags and some bones

punched some rats n looted some corpses fun

surprisingly i like bows more in oblivion than in skyrim

bows are fun! you know what's not fun? crossbows. they suck. fuck crossbows. {i don’t like skyrim crossbows. they don’t have that satisfactory feeling of regular bows} {ironically i thought i’d like crossbows more than bows}

uriel: Do you trust the Nines? bjorn: ...i don't like to think about it. {he doesn’t like to think about a lot of things} {his mantling of sheogorath didn’t come from thin air}

OH BOY LET'S THINK OF A SIGN

im gonna choose it 100% for gameplay shit but just kno his REAL zodiac sign is gonna b somethin totes diff  {it ended up not being}

kono jules da Yesterday at 8:02 PM

OK HES A THIEF AND A CAPRICORN

i likehoow {sic} i rode in the back and looked back one more time before leaving the room where i reunited w/uriel& co

just relized im pantsless rn {i’d thrown my pants away due to overencumbrance} whOOPS JCBGJBKGJGJKGH

me googling best clas s in oblivipn lile

i'm keeping Hobo Knight because it's funny and accurate. Bjorn is the Worlds Palest Hobo Bear Gay and we stan

probably a terrible build but idc i'm happy with it

me shoveling points into luck: WEIRDNESS MAGNET WEIRDNESS MAGNET

also i heard luck is way harder to raise than the rest of the stats so

bjorn: kneels before the dead emperor and tentatively stretches a hand out baurus: Don't. bjorn: takes his hand away like it's been burnt and gives baurus the stink-eye

[is lost for idk how long]

oh this this is beautiful

shes a GAMER CHICK

{that’s my cat dolce!!! i love her!!!!!!!}

uck the waalk to Gæouffrey is really fucking long

there he is... Jeff Kaplan

jumped n died rip

therinYesterday at 9:11 PM

{pause while therin tells me how she’s doing}

{LOADING FURTHER UPDATES}

kono jules daYesterday at 9:12 PM

can i just say theres been more moments ive been like whoah... beautiful game w/oblivion than w/skyrim so far LIKE SKYRIM IS OBVIOUSLY SUPERIOR but i like oblivion. i like how it doesnt jitter around... i like the imperials...its gud gaem so far

also the sunset is GORGEOUS xant even capture it properly 

i like seeing my boy just run like the wind 

{pause while therin talks about jet lag}

kono jules daYesterday at 9:34 PM

also FUCKING rip ripping harder than martin septim hahahah topical!

{me and therin talk about North Detroit being santa}

kono jules daYesterday at 9:52 PM

slso wow its him

sans undertale

{therin talks about how she doesn’t really like martin septim she’s valid he’s a fictional character}

{it ends here bc we devolve into chatter about therin’s fic series which is really good read it if you like gay androids and redemption and characters who lowkey hate eachother coming to like each other} {i’m not even into that game and it’s great fun}

{this has been: JULES PLAYS OBLIVION INSTALLMENT 1 OF IDK HOW MANY} {i got to baurus’s horrible terrible no-good sewer scort mission}

[cavaliant]

{Since I saw other people doing it, here’s my current wishlist of threads/interactions! It’s under a readmore but idt those work on mobile so uh...rip. If you wanna do any of these msg me and I’ll love you 5ever}

Edit: this list is outdated, please check newer entries!

Pre-FE5

Literally child/teen Rein with anyone. I don’t have icons for this or even many HCs yet but yeah lol. It doesn’t even have to be a Jugdral chara, I can pull some magic/Heroes/AU shenanigans if needed.

FE5

Kempf. IN AMERICA.

Saias-sama is the BEST tactician ever <3 <3 <3

Uhhhh some more House Friege interactions like Tailtiu, Bloom, Hilda, Ishtore

Julius. Even just fictional arguing makes me uncomfortable (physical fighting is ok tho) so idk how well I’d be able to pull this off but you know I live to make Rein suffer :)

Literally any FE5 muse tbh

Post-FE5

Any of the Jugdral characters after the game stumbling across him in the random little town Rein ended up hauling his depressed ass to and going like “...you look familiar...” or something idk

Heroes

More Summoner interactions. Literally any. Call Rein a piece of shit, make fun of his hands, whatever you want idc.

At some point I also want to deal with Rein’s (post battle at the River Thracia) low self-worth and unhealthy devotion to the first person who told him they needed him (the Summoner) right after the whole Ishtar and Olwen situation but that can come later.

Silly/cracky shenanigans with the Order of Heroes/any heroes.

On that note, literally anyone embarrassing/attempting to embarrass him. Please make this guy break his composure.

Someone training/sparring with him and beating him. Bonus points if it’s Olwen and he ends up crying from a mix of pride/sadness/regret about how she’s surpassed him now.

Accompanying young female characters like Fae, Maria, Elise, etc. and helping them make flower crowns or attending their tea parties or braiding their hair or something because it reminds him of when Olwen was young :’(

Nerding out about the wonders of magic with someone, helping someone out with magic/swordplay

AU

FE/Fate series fusion where the FE characters are summoned as Heroic Spirits in the Grail Wars/Grand Order. Just as in Fateverse, the more popular/well-known a hero is, the more of a power boost they receive. I guess Heroes Summoners would be the Masters? Or it could just be a straight Fate/FE crossover where charas from both series interact. Anyway...interactions between Rein and his Master and also Rein and other Servants.

Shipping

I...I’m really thirsty and want to ship him but he’d need to form a deep emotional connection first so that I guess lol. (Preferably with someone 20+ tho since I currently have his age listed as ~29.)

[dachi-chan25]

So I clearly played myself *sigh* some of this books weren't what I expected and I still need to read a shit ton of sequels to series i fricken loved.

1.-Marked (House of Night #1) by PC Cast /Kirstin White

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So clearly I knew this book was gonna be silly and stuff, like it got me cringing so hard at all those 'not like the other girls' super speshul girl and it has low key a lot of cultural appropiation, so yeah, still was a really quick read and what the heck I'll try the next one to see if it gets better than this. I mean there has to be a reason why someone wants to turn this into a tv series right??

2.-Día de Muertos: Antología del cuento mexicano de V.A

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Realmente siento que es una antología muy inconexa, el título y la portada indican claramente una relación directa entre los relatos y el día de Muertos, sin embargo el espíritu de la festividad solo es capturado en un puñado de historias que es lo que me hizo dar tres estrellas al libro, porque aunque el resto de los cuentos no son malos siento que entraron a la antología con calzador pues no tenían nada que ver con día de muertos .

3.- Practical Magic by Alice Hoffman

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Ok, I did not disliked it, the book manages to be very atmospheric and really create some plausibility among all the whimsy but the characters were never really developed much?? And some were tragically underused (the Aunts) I just think the movie made the story/characters much better.

4.- Society of Wishes (Quartet of Wishes #1) by Elise Kova

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I had totally forgot I owned this book (I bought it cuz I knew the MC was a latina girl and yah) and well it is what it is, just a mess filled with hunky ass time wizards or some shit like that with barely any plot, development or much of anything really, definitely not reading the next ones.

5.-Hemlock Grove by Brian McGreevy

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I am heart broken, I wanted to like this book so badly, but it was all over the place imho, the narrative style was plain out confusing at times (like it threw me back to that time when I was a pretentious ass 15 yo trying to read Ulysses by James Joyce) and don't get me wrong I like writers who spice things up with the flow of their sentences like Chuck Palahniuk but I just couldn't get into it, I feel the series managed to tell this story in a much more organized and in depth fashion.

6.- Vampire Academy (Vampire Academy #1) by Richelle Mead

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I expected nothing of this, and I actually kinda enjoyed it because I think the book it's true to itself, it sets a tone from the beginning and doesn't deviate from it . Is it predictable? As fuck Is it full of every single trope under the sun? YUP, but it never pretends otherwise and it's fine (also I am a thot for vampires so idc) I will continue this series.

7.-Battle Royale by Koshun Takami

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I LOVED it, I had watched the movie, but oh boy it doesn't build the characters the way the book does. It's brutal, dynamic full of optimism even in such a hopless horrific situation. The only thing that kinda had me in stiches was the fact that nearly every damn female character wanted to get it on with Shuuya.

8.- Tale of the Body Thief (Vampire Chronicles #4) by Anne Rice

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This is my frist re-read of this book and damn, Lestat is truly a himbo, he just makes the most idiotic desisions and then is upset because they come to bite him in the ass but he is also kinda charming so what the hell?? David, poor summer child he really thought Lestat would respect his desision 😂😂 this is a real fun book (I mean the whole ass discussion about Faust is as fake deep as u can get) and it really drives home how much of a hot mess is Lestat. (Also Louis u bitch!!! How dare u betray him it's not like u had tried to kill him before multiple times xD honestly Lestat's logic)

9.-The Graveyard Book by Neil Gaiman

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I adored this, the atmosphere Neil created in this book is absolutely beautiful, every detail and character Bod meets in the cementary adds so much to a rather simple story, the world building, the sense of magical realism it's just something I always appreciate in Neil's books, this really has become one of my faves and I will try and re-read this very soon.

10.-Dracul by Dacre Srocker

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I was on the fence about this one, like Dracula is one of my all time favorite books, and when I found out his great grand nephew was writing a precuel of Bram's most famous work I felt it was an easy money-grab scheme but then I heard a lot of positive reviews and people started talking how this book gives a back story to one of Dracula's brides and that it was based on some notes Bram left behind I decided to try it, and I don't regret it. I mean it wasn't what I expected, the book is more historical fiction and Dacre tries perharps a little too hard to emulate Bram's writing style/structure but the plot really managed to trap me and it was quite an intresting story.

11.-Bone Music by Christopher Rice

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This is the frist book I read from him (like even tho I like her books a lot i don't fucks with Anne Rice cuz she is awful to anyone who critisizes her books or tries to write fanfic of em so yeah I wasn't so keen in reading her son's work) but it was a very pleasant surprise, those twist he makes at the very beginning of the book left me gaping like a fish, I was emotionally involved with the characters and I definitely look forward to read more books on the Burning Girl series.

12.- Final Girls - Riley Sager

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Slashers are some of my favorite things in the world, and this book gets a lot of the tropes/atmosphere right and still, manages to be original and deconstruct them, turn the reader on his expectations and deliver a great ending, will definitely continue with the series.

13- Hidden Bodies by Caroline Kepnes

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Joe Goldberg is a punk ass bitch and I hope the ending stays as it was, like how lucky is this bastard, and at one point I was like, no way are all this people around him so dumb likeeeeeee he is such an unreliable narrator that idk if the things he say are really happening or all is part of his self important delusional mind, I really liked this sequel even if Joe barely struggled until the end (he was living the Life u guys) it was a fun read.

14- The Mysterious Affair at Styles by Agatha Christie

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This is Hercule Poirot's frist book, and he is so different from the books I have read, but still brilliant and with his quirks, it really captured me, I always enjoy a good murder mystery and Agatha Christie always delivers.

15.- The Girl who Loved Tom Gordon by Stephen King

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King is back in my good graces, this book is terrifying it really takes u along Trisha's emotional journey, all the desperation, the defeat,the hope, really is such a complex beautiful emotional ride of this amazingly brave little girl, and damn Stephen u can write female character's well y u wrote that mess in Bag of Bones like whyyy dude? ?? I simply loved this one, made me cry so much.

16.-#Murdertrending by Gretchen McNeil

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This was such a fun dynamic read, I finished it in one sitting. The whole concept of Alcatraz 2.0 was pretty darn great, the painiacs, ahhh so good, I wished the rest of the characters apart from Dee were more developed but I know it would have given the plot twist away if they had so it's fine, I am really looking forward to reading Murderfunding.

That was it, my reads were either meh or omgggg I loved it!!! I hope this months my reads are all good.