#it's legit the only thing I've been listening to in the car

[sillimancer]

got caught up on my stinky homework and burned a new cd for my car, yayy

[torialefay]

imma finish some SPICEY TIME listening to yandere stalker ASMr bCOZ I LOV THE IFEA OF SOMEOBE BEING LOWKEY OBSESSRD OVER THIS PUSSAY HAGAGA

gotta get me that hawk tuah energy it's been so long!

who in skz would have that possessive energy and would be borderline obsessed/low key stalker like 'I need to be inside of your pussy and heart' all the time kinda ENERGY???

And LOIKE HOW WOUKD THEY SHOW IT?? *kisses*

OKAY WHAT EVEN IS THAT?!?! pls drop the link bc i am so intrigued.

but for your question, my top 3 possessive/obsessive/stalker skz boyfriends are chris, lee know, and i.n. (also changbin in a way but like in a diff way).

chris: he's legit so lowkey about it you probably won't even know. i've talked ab it before, but he's the type to analyze everything you say & plant little seeds in your head. he's possessive to the point that he's trying to manipulate you into also being obsessed with him. like he will absolutely (veryyyyyy subtly and veryyyyy slowly) try to make you feel like he's the only person you need in your life & that you should depend on him for literally anything you could need. that's not to say he doesn't want you to be independent- he does! but he loves to watch it crumble away for him. pls don't shoot the messenger.

lee know: this man is outright possessive and wants you to know that. he's just blunt about it. like yeah, he wants you all to himself. and what's so wrong with that? you're not gonna do that? kind of vibe. he prob wants to know where you are all the time and it wouldn't surprise me if he demanded you turn your phone location on for him or idk puts a damn tracker on your car or some shit. like he literally has to know or he will go fucking crazy. one thing he WON'T do to you is lis about it. you know he's possessive... but you also know he's got you right where he wabts you :((((

innie: baby bread no more. there's just smth ab i.n. these days that is almost like... cocky in a way? not completely, but he's grown now & he knows that & he knows the power he has now. i feel like he's so the type to want to control you & know where you are, it's not even funny. he's in the middle of chris & lee know on how he expresses it. like he probably won't outright say it, but he's wayyyyy more obvious than chris & wayyyyy less obvious than lee know. i think he'd be pretty vocal though ab things like "i don't really want you to go there" or "why is so-and-so there?". like you know he has a lot of opinions ab what he wants from you, but he tries not to be too mean ab it. he's gonna get upset if you don't follow along with it though 😭😂 and probs will show up wherever you are to check in on you if you dob't respond & he's mad 🙃

*bonus*: baby changbin. he's more posessive in like a protective way. he loves and trusts YOU, just not everyone else 😂 so he's probably gonna have your location & shit so that he can come to you when you need it.

[descendant-of-truth]

Okay I know this is technically an act, but. I do feel like there's something to be said about how Dark Rockman's idea of friendship is to be so completely subservient to what Netto wants that he neglects to inform him of things that would be helpful to the situation

And yeah, the goal is to get himself arrested, so naturally he causes as much property damage as physically possible under the guise of helping Netto, but like... he doesn't need to do that. He doesn't need to act friendly for his "oh no I've suddenly got a major defect" shtick to work.

You could argue that he wanted it to be as convincing as possible to cause Netto maximum emotional damage, and I'm inclined to say that's part of it, but... he says that his and Rockman's views on friendship are opposites. implying that he does have opinions on the matter, and that his earlier behaviors were based on it.

So, I think it's possible that when he was playing innocent by acting like a friend to Netto, he wasn't. necessarily trying to come across as super eerie??

I mean, think about his plan for a minute. this whole thing banks on him playing the role of Friend well enough for Netto to buy into the idea of a mercy kill - because surely he'd listen more if it really felt like the request was coming from Rockman himself, right? If he acted completely crazy, would Netto even consider that this is something he truly wants?

This guy legit thinks that the only suspicious part of his behavior has been the Literal Crimes he's committed, and that "how could I go against what Netto-kun wants to do" is a normal thing for Rockman to say. Y'know, the guy who's constantly scolding Netto for being irresponsible? That Rockman?? He missed the mark so badly it's almost funny

But it makes sense when you consider that he's probably working under the perspective that Rockman's a "good navi" first and foremost. Netnavis are meant to be helpful programs by design, and a program made to serve doesn't usually ask questions or disobey orders. They just take the most efficient route to complete a task, and even though he deliberately took it too far, everything he did was ultimately for the sake of that efficiency.

Netto wants to get to school faster? Make all the lights green, who cares about the other cars. He needs money for food? Well, there's a bank right there, those have money in them. As illegal and dangerous as his tactics were, you can see how it's something a navi might think to do.

The real Rockman is very good at being a navi, of course. He's polite, patient, always has helpful information to give at the drop of a hat. but Dark Rockman makes you realize just how much more unsettling he would be if he leaned into it too much, and stopped treating himself and Netto like equals.

To summarize - a good navi is different from a good friend, and I love how Dark Rockman exposes the delicate balance that Rockman has to keep up in being both

[treevore]

tag game!!

tagged by my darling @pregnancykink

Do you make your bed? i'll at least straighten it out, in large part because my cat loves sleeping on the bed and she prefers when it's made

What's your favorite number? multiples of 5 always make my brain go brrrr but also for some reason i really like the number 37

What is your job? i hang out with animals

If you could go back to school, would you? like college yeah maybe if i could afford it without it being a financial stressor sort of thing lmfao

Can you parallel park? yuuuup, i don't have to do it very often but i can absolutely do it

A job you had that would surprise people? i legit worked at a mine, doing gold mining stuff (preparing/photoing core samples, printing sample bags, weeding the core warehouse)

Do you think aliens are real? oh absolutely. with the size of the universe being what it is, there is no doubt in my mind that there are living beings elsewhere

Can you drive a manual car? yeeeeee, i've got a little '81 toyota sr5

What's your guilty pleasure? as prev said, i do not feel guilty about pleasure

Tattoos? i've got 10 i love getting tattooed

Favorite color? greens, but specifically very yellow-grey leaning greens, i like the swampy dusty colors

Favorite type of music? see, the thing is i kinda listen to everything/i don't really delineate by genre??? and my favorite changes by season because i'm really out here going based on the vibes. recently it's been a lot of the pop-punk i listened to in high school tho so like mid-late '00s pop punk but i listen to a lot of metal and ambient and pop and hip hop, it's more "does it fuck?"

Do you like puzzles? i do, and like p much all of them i love games that are really puzzle based especially

Any phobias? yea for sure but i'm not going to list them here though where somebody can use them against me lol (spike im just keeping ur answer bc same)

Favorite childhood sport? i am deeply uncoordinated and unathletic and well i ended up playing golf in high school and that's about it. i was less a sports kid and more a going outside and being a gross menace kid

Do you talk to yourself? oh absolutely, on the regular

What movies do you adore? the way my brain screams ANNIHILATION every time this movie comes up lmfao, but some others are mandy, dinner in america, the mummy, the second lotr specifically, and jesus christ superstar which i do rewatch at least once every year. i like movies they're fun

Coffee or tea? generally more tea but that's because most roasts of coffee give me hellish stomach cramps and not a lot of places have white coffee which is the only one that consistently doesn't fuck my guts up something fierce

First thing you wanted to be when you grew up? a vet, but i am not mentally/emotionally strong enough for that and i am not nearly good enough at math to do all the sciences required lmfao ive just always really loved animals

for tagging i'll hit @rmilkies @wetusb @kennyyomega @ashes-acedia and @saltbind

[bellarkeandclintashaandsuch]

Laws of Attraction - Ep. 1

My reaction to the opening scene: Oh, look at him go. Using a little drawing to show that her eyesight isn't very good, so maybe her testimony isn't reliable, and even... her glasses... don't help her...? Oh, I see. He's a bad man.

I remembered from the trailer Tin talking about his sister (niece?), so I knew she was going to die. But even so, watching, I was like, she's only a child. And they already lost their parents (or one of them lost parents? It was hard to follow the relationships with the subtitles). They wouldn't be so cruel, right? Wrong.

I'm very intrigued to see if there's actually more to the death of Ton Khaw. I mean, it seems straightforward (and brutal). But why won't the dad let his son talk to Chan? Chan's already doing dubious things to help his son, so what can be worse than killing a child that he doesn't want his son talking about?

That car did not slow down and was directly behind her. So it's not like he wouldn't have seen her. But why deliberately kill a kid? Unless he's like a serial killer. But not a very good one if he wants to keep killing. He didn't do a hit-and-run, which I was surprised about. I just don't know!

Also, the audacity of Chan to keep flirting with Tin outside his home. And then saying he'd like to pay him back for saving him by showing him his business card. Of, course he would think you're there to offer to be his lawyer! "Oh, no, I actually want to give you hush money. 😇"

And then he kept flirting with him when Tin went to confront Chan after his dirty tricks with the deposits to Tin's account.

I don't actually think that Chan will do anything to drunk, unconscious Tin, but it would be interesting to see how Tin would have to grapple with his growing attraction to someone who could do something terrible like that to him. But I don't think it will, which is for the best, because there's already a lot to overcome here with Chan helping Tin's niece's (sister's?) murderer.

Last Thoughts/Questions:

What is Tanthai's dad hiding?

What's going on with Methee? His face was making a lot of expressions that confused me.

I do hope Chan continues to aggressively flirt with Tin

I wonder what happened to make Chan so jaded

What's Chan's relationship and/or past with his business partner?

If the "situation" isn't like what Chan thinks, why doesn't Tanthai tell him what it's really like?

Love a man who loves a bubble bath

Loved Chan going, you're even hotter when you're angry. I'd say, can't read a room to save his life, but I guess it's on purpose as part of his smarmy charm

Chan's smile after the first time he meets Tin, and Tin leaves abruptly, was legit terrifying. I was like, Tin, you will regret not giving that man your number but not for the reason you think

On that note, poor Tin looked happy when Chan showed up. The cute guy he didn't get the number of showed up when he's just been through so much pain. It must've felt like finally something maybe good was going to happen again. And then it was just a slap in the face.

Do all Thai police wear their uniforms so tight? The man giving Tin no answers was rivaling M in Manner of Death. Maybe all police do this, and I've just not noticed.

What was this whole thing? Chan's just dramatically looking out the window listening to the news on TV instead of watching:l

[what-gs-watching]

"One fabulous kiss and we're good. I have a plan."

So far this week I've cleaned out all of the cabinets in my kitchen and our master bathroom, did some sadness shopping, attempted to clean out my car, and packed up my stupid fucking laptop. So. I guess it's time to get back to Good Omens (even though I've been playing Supernatural in the background just to have something...we'll get into that entire situation eventually).

Right, episode 3. Wherein we get more adorable interactions, a yellow Bentley, an absolutely clueless angel, more meddling, and laudanum. I love this one, if only for laudanum!Crowley. And the look on Crowley's face during the awning of a new age...but we're getting ahead of ourselves.

At the shop, Aziraphale is listening to the Buddy Holly record when he gets a knock at the door, opening it to a person appearing to be a police officer, but dressed completely in white. The 'police officer' tells him that because they are a police officer, they can monitor him without raising suspicion and Az is already on the uptake it appears, so when they ask if they can come in because it's loud outside and they can't hear anything, he lets them in. 

The entire scene with this 'police officer' is hilarious, Az offers a cup of tea and says that a human police officer would definitely accept it. Crowley shows up with a box of his plants that he's pulled from the Bentley asking why Aziraphale can't go by train, "you LOVE trains" he says, and then he just exclaims "who's THIS now" but he quickly figures it out as well. The two of them are so sweet about it, even if they're highly amused. Crowley sits on the arm of Aziraphale's chair (again, swoon, it's so natural) and the laugh he emits is so sweet, and they both just make little moon faces at the angel that's shown up before excusing themselves to another room. 

Aziraphale thinks this angel is going to figure out quickly that the lie he told about their extremely powerful miracle is untrue, and Crowley says they just need to get Nina and Maggie to have "one fabulous kiss" and they're done. 

The angel bursts in to interrupt them of course and Crowley asks if they're interested in humans being in love, especially Nina and Maggie over the road. The whole point of this interaction is that Crowley says that you can only tell if they're in love by waiting a few days because humans are weird and that's how it works (ya know, to buy them some time), and then he announces "don't hesitate to ask me if you have any other questions about love" and y'all. Aziraphale's reaction. Like, baby girl, you are thirsty. You legit looked him up and down and stuck out your lip and you did not look away. I see you.

Anyway, Aziraphale takes the Bentley and he heads off to Edinburgh to investigate his Clue, leaving poor Crowley behind. 

We're then flashed-back to an entry in Az's diary from 1827, wherein he and Crowley were in Edinburgh doing this and that. Crowley took Az to a statue he's found of Gabriel in a graveyard. They stumble upon a young girl trying to steal a fresh body from a grave, and Crowley puts on a hilarious Scottish accent, and offers to help her in her endeavor. Aziraphale is shocked by this of course, and he wants to stop her so he trails behind them whining about how wicked her actions are. 

They find out that she's doing it because she's living on the street with another woman, but Az still isn't moved. He says that people have opportunities to prove how good they are by resisting the temptation to do wicked things, and poor people have even more opportunities to do so. Crowley of course knows this is ridiculous, but black-and-white Aziraphale just says it's "ineffable". 

Back in the present, Az is bonding with the Bentley, talking to it about how they've come to an understanding. He's very proud of himself until Crowley comes blaring through the speakers to tell him he can feel when he drives the Bentley under the speed limit. He tells him to speed up, so he tries, but Az says it seems the car doesn't want to, and he grabs himself a little treat from the dash. Crowley is incensed, asking "was that a travel sweet?" This man knows what's going on, he can feel Az has done something to the car. And he has of course, the Bentley is now a beautiful shade of yellow (it's his favorite color because of, possibly, a certain demon's eyes?) but Crowley isn't having it. He says it must be changed back and Az whines "but it's pretty" so Crowley resorts to threatening to sell some books if he doesn't, these two know how to push each other's buttons clearly. 

Meanwhile in 1827, Aziraphale and Crowley follow the grave robber Elsbeth to her destination and clueless little Az is determined to ruin her mission. They're introduced to MISTER (he's a surgeon, not a doctor) Dalrymple and when they're let inside Az does a little miracle to ruin the corpse and he's so proud of himself. Elsbeth runs off because she can't get paid but Az wants to stop both supply and demand so Crowley stops time to convince the surgeon to let them stay and talk about his work. (The surgeon has started calling the angel and the demon 'doctor' which I love, so many Who easter eggs.)

However, it doesn't go to Aziraphale's plan - he learns that Dalrymple is just trying to save lives, he needs corpses to do so, he needs them to teach and to learn. He shows them a tumor he pulled from a 7 year old boy and Az is devastated to learn the boy died, he clutches the specimen to his chest, and things are shades of grey baby boy, not the perfect black and white you cling to. So he changes his mind and decides Elsbeth's actions are holy after all, and offers to help. Because now it's somehow good. 

Coming back to present-day Edinburgh, Az rolls up to the pub with the haunted jukebox and he's wearing a cute little getup, he's so pleased with himself. Boy is cosplaying at being a reporter and he thinks it's a fun little jaunt. He learns from the owner that Gabriel definitely had been there about a year ago, and that he was with someone else. He's giddy. I really feel the need to point out that Aziraphale is still under the impression that he's investigating a cute little mystery and there isn't really anything on the line at all. Which is honestly insanity. 

In the 1800's Crowley and Az go back and gather up Elsbeth's friend Wee Morag and off they go back to the graveyard, but things go wrong. A grave gun gets tripped and Wee Morag is shot, and they try to get the girl to safety in a nearby tomb, but she dies. And Elsbeth decides to just sell her body to get the money she desperately needs, that's what she'd want. 

She goes back and delivers the body, and gets less money than she'd expect, and she's angry. So she sees some laudanum on the counter and she nicks it, and then goes off to buy some wine to toast her friend. Crowley and Az show up back at the tomb to join her, and things start to go off the rails. 

They both see the laudanum of course, and as she's explaining that she's going to drink the wine and then the laudanum so she can join her friend in the afterlife, Crowley grabs it and downs it. She's horrified, says he's going to die and Crowley exclaims "constitution of an ox" (oh really? An ox? Didn't we just see Aziraphale devour an ox......)

I can't decide what my favorite part of laudanum!Crowley is. He starts rambling about no more dying, "No dying! no more dying! it's just....wrong!" He sings the Scottish national anthem(?). He makes goat noises (all the Job references), he unexpectedly shrinks. I love him yelling "I'm small aren't I?" and the faces and the growling and the dance he does to return himself to a normal size, but just kidding, not a normal size, he bursts through the ceiling of the tomb. 

He tells Elsbeth "you've sinned very bigly!" (and I'm totally going to use that) he says "Trying to kill yourself...I mean....it's NOT ON!" He asks the angel how much money he's got - 90 guineas. He tells Elsbeth she can atone by taking the money, buying a farm, and being good, properly good ("gi'er the money, angel!") And so, she promises she will and runs off. 

Afterward Crowley yells "Laudanum, oooh wee! Last time I do that!" and he stumbles around and he's afraid he's lost Aziraphale who snakes an arm around his waist and tells him he did a really good thing. Which he denies, of course. He was off his head on laudanum, not responsible for his actions. But Aziraphale is worried that hell must have noticed, and Crowley says if they had he'd already be....and then he's sucked down, and away. In his diary, Az says he doesn't see Crowley for a long time after that. 

(And if we think about the timeline, we know that in the 1860's Crowley appears again, and he's now asking for holy water. What happened to that poor baby?)

Meanwhile, Aziraphale calls the bookshop after he finds himself staring at Gabriel's Edinburgh statue to catch Crowley up, who answers the phone by saying "Fell's bookshop - we probably don't have what you want, and we wouldn't sell it to you if we did" because he's very good at protecting his angel's interests. More swooning. Az is excited because Gabriel was with someone, but they're not really listening to each other as usual and Crowley hangs up because he sees an opportunity to enact his Nina/Maggie plan. 

Which doesn't work, of course. He gets the rain going, he gets them under the awning, and they are having a heart to heart. Crowley's smile watching the two of them is so pure, he's convinced this is all it's going to take but shit does not work like that, he and Aziraphale are so dense, and instead of vavooming, the awning breaks and the girls get drenched. 

And then Shax shows up. Crowley goes outside to find out what she wants and she insists that Beelzebub knows that Aziraphale is hiding Gabriel in the bookshop. He insists that he isn't, and we learn that Shax can't cross the bookshop's threshold and Crowley tries to keep his cool, but Shax says that hell is going to declare war - not on him, mind, but on Aziraphale. 

Ya boy is once again in panic mode, he flys at Gabriel and starts threatening him over harm coming to Aziraphale but then he deflates just as quickly, saying "It doesn't matter. It's too late for that now, isn't it? It's always too late."

Y'all. Crowley knows they're living in an extremely dangerous situation and Aziraphale is just off dressing up and having fun and enjoying himself. I understand wanting to protect Az however possible, I do, but he's just making it worse. They're both just making it worse...

[hoeforhao]

Rant under the cut, do not open if you are triggered easily

No why do people fuckin think that just because we behave good with them, they've the goddamn right to speak on our actions or how we are doing things! LIKE JUST BECAUSE YOU HELPED ME WHILE I WAS IN THE ICU, AS A TOKEN OF THE COURTESY MY MOM HAS TAUGHT ME, I BEHAVE WELL WITH YOU, when you're of no fucking meaning to me. You are my dad's wife and stay at your fuckin place woman. You've been living in the villages since the very beginning and so you might be fuckin accustomed with the nasty shenanigans of public transport! MY MOM HAS ALWAYS TREATED ME WITH UTMOST CARE AND I'VE ONLY TRAVELLED IN MY OWN CAR TILL NOW, so yeah I might be new to all these dirty men, but THAT FUCKIN DOESN'T MEAN YOU GET TO SAY WHATEVER THE FUCK YOU WANT ON MY WAY OF ACTIONS, OR INTERFERE YOUR UGLY NOSE INTO THE THINGS I SHARE WITH MY DAD OR MY GRANDPARENTS. They're blood related to me, but you effin aren't. So stay in your own goddamn place woman!!!!!

This is why you should treat people likely ad they deserve to be treated. I was already crying internally after being sort of molested in the public transport, there times in a row this week, and she had to fuckin top it off with her witchy words. I'm legit listening to hug and controlling myself from crying!

[fangirling-throughlife]

I don't know if I've ever mentioned anything about this, but here it goes.

2 years and almost 2 months ago, a dear friend from my high school days passed away at 29. He was the pianist in my first ever legit piano trio in the conservatory. He was in uni while the other two of us were still in high school. We were the weirdest ever group. He was older, so he had a car and went to concerts, and he could play a great Beethoven and then a mainstream pop song. I was getting out there after my grandmother passed away and my mum (who's not a musician) encouraged me to listen to pop music kids my age enjoyed, and even arranged for me to go to meet the boyband I got into. I had modern interests like Eurovision with very specific people, one of them being the pianist in our group. The violinist had a very strict teacher, and strict parents, so she was less into mainstream and focused on classical music, but she inevitably got carried away by the two of us. Pair that with a teacher who just enjoyed that we were creative and proactive, and had very good chemistry, and we had a blast for a good year.

In 2018, our pianist called us to play at his aunt's wedding. One of the songs we played was Taylor Swift, because he was a massive fan. By that time, I liked Taylor, I knew all of her most famous songs, and I'd just spent months singing "Look what you made me do" (I had my reasons that aren't relevant here). He picked me up at home, and we spent the full ride talking about how talented she is, and what our favourite songs of hers were.

The only thing I can remember playing at the funeral is "august". And the only reason I remember it, is because someone in his family (cannot remember who) said that he loved Taylor so much (as if I didn't know that before) and that he adored that song, and that it would fit in a service. I also remember because I've been unable to listen to it for 2 years, because I start crying as my mind takes me back there.

Since then, all of the major release dates have been bittersweet for me. I think that, with the re-recordings, I figured he was just missing the new versions, and a couple of songs that matched the vibe. I really struggled the week Midnights was released, though, and I still think how fucking unfair it is that there's a whole album he'll never hear. But for some reason, 1989 hurt just as much. I'm not sure if it was because I was very obsessed with Wildest Dreams when we had that fangirling moment, but the moment it started playing, I lost it. And since I was already losing it, when the From the Vault songs started, there was no going back anymore.

As corny as it sounds, this is one of the cases where I really really hope there's a heaven where they can see and hear us, because it destroys my soul to think that the guy who made a "Love Story" arrangement to play because he knew the song so well that he found every single mistake in any online version, is missing all of this.

[mortuaest]

Large rant, sorry. Please ignore if any of the trigger warnings are going to be an issue. I need to get it off of my chest because if I rant on FB I get hit with a character limit and I should make a personal Tumblr which I think I have but dont remember shit about.

Ive been having severe, and I mean severe as fuck mental and emotional breakdowns because of the fact that its literally been almost a year (Its going to be a year October 29th) since I've had to put down Ice Cube, my ESA of 14.5 years. He had cancer in his cheek and it was placed right to where it would effect his quality of life severely negatively if we tried to surgically take it out, and he would possibly die on the table if we did it because of his age, and he was declining (He wasn't eating, he was drinking, he really wasnt eating as much as I wanted him to, he was spitting back up the pills I was giving him, he was suffering) and my mental and emotional health has been severely suffering each and every day that passes without him.

I have another cat, I got him in April, thinking I was alright. Which I was I guess. Im being reminded via FB memories and just my own fucked up brain wanting me to join him to where I'm legit giving myself until December 31st, 2023 to have someone. Anyone give me a fucking sigh to keep on living. Im going to be going through a program my friend suggested to make a will, making her I forgot the words she used but shes going to make sure that my will is listened to and Albert Whisker, the cat I have now is taken care of.

I cant keep on living, and the fact that this heartbreak is fucking me up so badly to the point where the large baggie of medications (ranging from insomnia medications to Very STRONG painkillers and such, as well as my daily medications the day of me going to attempt) is very tempting to take now. And I mean very tempting. Meaning I almost took it yesterday, after my first mental break and me physically hurting myself by slamming a brush ungodly hard into my head because I legit believe I deserve everything that has happened to me (The physical, emotional and mental abuse that I got for 20 some odd years from my mother, the severe car accident from last year, the rapes, everything. My friends being murdered or dying around me, loosing the only thing that even brought light to my life).

No one in my life cares. No one seems to care. Ive been severely struggling and each time IVe even bothered to reach out for help via friends. Since my father hates me for being trans and my sister doesnt give a fuck to even bother to help me. My mother was the cause of my two rapes/sexual assaults in my life and wants me dead because Im autistic. No one wants to help, or no one seems interested in even keeping me around.

Cosplay isnt helping. Video games aren't either. I havent felt any happiness since last year. I could deal with this if he was still alive. But at the same time Im lying to myself, I havent known what made me happy other than my past cat Ice Cube. I stayed for him since I love him. I had him since he was five weeks old. We bonded. Its not the case with Albert and I feel he loves me but we dont have the connection and never will.

Im never going to feel anything other than severe misery and depression. At least, that's what I 100% believe.

TLDR: Im severely struggling and dont know what to do anymore. I dont trust my new therapist even though she has stated more than once and my friend who also goes to her has stated more than once she wont send me to inpatient or CPAP and she tries to avoid hospitalization if we can. But because of multiple decades of PTSD, abuse, and being denied the proper treatment, help, support from friends and family that I should of gotten Im at the point where Im giving myself until December 31st to find a reason to stay alive and if I dont then Im letting my queue run out.

[orcelito]

Ok so. GREAT fun. I haven't listened to the new grandson album as much as I was meaning to (life has been in the way & iamx has had a chokehold on me recently), BUT I recognized them enough for those songs to still be fun. And!!!! He played plenty of older shit, and I had a Blast

My camera didn't wanna fuckin take good pictures lmfao but these r the best ones I got

I was trying to not spend too much of the concert filming (I've been guilty of that before), so I have only 2 videos. One for Dirty and one for Blood//Water (which was the closing song), bc those r both Great. I had SO much fun belting out We Did It tho, practically Yelling it. More fun there than trying to film lmao.

And then there was the song Heather. I didn't know if he'd play it bc it's such a raw song, but he did. Got down onto the floor (so i couldn't see him bc im short lol but that was ok), had us turn our phone flashlights on. & he just sang. A calmer moment. & see the thing is, I've legit cried to that song before. In the car before I knew I'd have to put Cassy down, this album was playing. And that song just... got to me. So hearing it again, experiencing that moment, I'm ngl I cried at the same damn part. Just some little tears, nothing too serious, but still. Got some Emotions from it man... I didn't take any pics during this part bc I was just living in the moment entirely. And I think that's just fine. Sometimes things are better left that way.

Other highlights include Oh No and Stigmata and Stick Up, all of which were Lots of fun to jump around too. EXCEPT I COULDNT JUMP TOO MUCH bc I had water cans in my pockets hfkshfkdhd which was worth it to not have my hands occupied but it did limit me. Yes i did splash myself a few times. I kept it relatively under control so it was fiiiine.

All in all, Lots of fun. I don't go to concerts very much, since I'm not typically the type that likes crowds, but once in a while for artists I care about... yeah ❤

[indigo-rants]

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

So my papa (grandpa) is doing alright, the hospital staff are hopeful. He's doing great, I sent him a voice-mail since I couldn't seem to reach him before, he apparently heard it today (good) and was happy to hear from me I guess...

My grandmother was the only person I was able to reach today. Tried calling her to reach papa but she wasn't with him. Convo started off fine with her explaining papa's condition, then devolved as she started asking me about how I've been, like if I'm working and/or still living with my mother (I can't live on my own due to my physical and mental health). I explain I don't work nor will I ever be able to (a fact we've all known since I was like 12) and she starts saying "oh things really have changed since we last talked" or something like that.

Apparently!! I'm not "allowed" to be incapable of working as an adult with scoliosis cause... well she didn't really give a reason except that I'd been "better in the past" which... last time we talked? I was in college. I'm a college drop out, that was my one and only year.

She then immediately segwayd into talking about my mom and how she's "caused the divide between all of us" (her, me, my dad/her son, and anyone else in the family she feels like counting). She talked about how my mom has "brainwashed me" into believing they're terrible people and how she's always been a liar and that she only ever wants money from them and how she still remembers the one, count it ONE, time mom asked her for money and how "she knows it was going to be used on her" (mom asked for her credit card/debit card info ONCE cause we needed help getting a hotel set up, she wouldn't have had to pay the hotel just wanted an active card number and name for the hotel room, mom was planning to pay in cash when we got there, also the hotel stay was due to me having surgery 3 days after we'd get there). It's been legit 10 years since the card info issue... TEN YEARS and this woman is throwing it at us like some gotcha.

She also started all the dissing my mom stuff with a "I don't have time for you guys, I have a husband in the hospital I need to take care of" and its like... okay, that's why I've been calling you? To see how he's doing... why bring up petty shit that 1. Doesn't matter and 2. Is just you listening to your shit ass son instead of the people who LIVED THEIR LIVES ALONE DOING ALL THAT. Like she believes her shitty son who shmooses everyone to get money, attention, free shit (houses, cars, jobs he doesn't deserve, got her to help him drop all the child support he owed/over owed).

Like Jesus christ she really does just want to see the worst in us instead of herself or her "precious son" (the man is in his forties).

Shes holding onto the fact mom asked money from her ONCE against us and swears last time we spoke I "called her every bad name in the book" (to note, last time we talked she bad mouthed my mother and I cried and broke down instantly due to the amount of hate for my MOTHER the parent who has cared for me SINCE BIRTH and the fact I was very unwell mentally, I barely would've managed to say "fuck you" or "shut up" much less any actual rude words directed at her person). She's so convinced that my disposition with her is due to my mom when mom is the only reason they've had ANY contact with me, from being able to send me letters, to the fact papa has the ability to "text me" anytime (he has mom's number not mine, but any and every text he sends she shows me).

Also after our little chat (which was maybe 10 minutes mind you) my mom called my birth father. According to her he believes she "coaches me into being disabled" like they apparently believe I'm only this disabled cause she taught me to be??? I was born with scoliosis, have had it my ENTIRE life, I also have a bone degenerative disease (osteoporosis kinda, but mom says she doesn't know if it's that one or a diff one), my bones are literally falling apart slowly. I reached a height of 5'6" and am now 5'3.5" which happened in the span of roughly 10 years (I reached 5'6 after my final back surgery in 2014 and was 5'5 for a while, like til roughly 2021 then I got to the 5'4.5" range til this year being 5'3.5") and yeah that's roughly 3 inches lost.... but it's still slightly concerning. The thing is, they don't know this (assumingly) cause we haven't seen each other since I was 13 or below (13 for father and... well lemme think...I think I was about 12? I can't be too sure, but I know I wasn't a teen)

Also just for the record my birth father in 2013/2014 when I was that age (born 2000) was upset with me for choosing to stay home and go to summer school (he lived across the US from us, we had to drive half way to meet up at this time) and he was so upset with me standing with my decision to spend my first summer away from them (him, step siblings, half sister, and step mom) that he pretended the stress my mom and I were causing him caused him to have a heart attack that put him in the ER (for months he'd talk on the phone with us as if he were weakened from it and was actually in pain). Before you ask, we found out in 2020 that he'd been lying from step mom (well technically ex step mom, they separated in like 2015/2016 so yeah) she was confused when mom mentioned the heart attack and told her "no he didn't have anything going on then" he told his ex wife and 14ish yr old child that WE had caused him to have a heart attack that caused him to be in the hospital's care for a while (currently my memory of that year is rather blank, which is "fun"). And then later on when we were in and out the hospital discussing another scoliosis surgery (the final one) we had called him every appointment, he discussed what was happening with the doctors DIRECTLY, but told his mother when asked "I don't know what she's talking about, I haven't been told about any surgeries".

And they wonder why I haven't talked with or visited either of them in 10 years....

[foxgloveinspace]

pasted from my notes app:

okay i am compiling all my thoughts in a note as i watch lmao

1. love the dog. he’s adorable

2. journey!!!! separate ways- what a good fuckin song

3. now eurythmics?! this movie has a killer soundtrack. i did a jazz routine to sweet dreams once upon a time. it was so fun lol

4. the weird white robot-y ladies are giving me hardcore like, austin powers vibes lmao

5. hahahaaaaa mr orange guy… i like his helmet

6. oooooh there’s multiple orange guys. they both have cool masks/helmets. something about being unable to see the face and yet totally understand the emotion fuuuuuucks me up

7. omg this is going to get long i’m so sorry i’m like a quarter through the movie 😅

8. very good fight scene choreo, that always makes or breaks a show for me. poor choreo is painful to watch, but this is good! i like

9. umm. I’m guessing dad is the bad guy. he’s kinda shady lmao (oooooooh it’s a dad clone. love clones. they always throw wrenches in plans)

10. lmaoooooo dad so disappointed sam only has a dog and no gf 😭

11. haha is that a daft punk cameo? not my cup of tea in terms of music but that’s pretty neat

12. OH MY GOD MICHAEL SHEEN I LOVE HIM. he plays the most insane characters- and also the sweetest (aziraphale in good omens 🥺)

13. okay ngl i keep hearing “rinzler” and thinking of the rizzler and i can’t stop laughing about it 😂

14. LMAO HE JUST BONKED THE DUDE. i love percussive maintenance, that’s how i fix my car

15. oooooh i love a good “i was a good guy before i was evil and i remember” moment. Good shit

that was really good! i honestly didn’t remember any of it from whenever i watched it but that was dope. i can definitely see how you’re so invested in the story! now i’m pumped for your fic whenever it comes out 😂🥰

Answering all of your notes.... under a readmore so this isn't too too long, haha

1). Yes!!! Marv is so cute!!

2). I love that song so much.

3). yes!! the sound track is really good, but you won't find those two songs on it haha.

4).I've never seen that movie, so I'll take your word for it, haha. They are really interesting and I am intrigued by them lore wise, sad we don't get more about them in the movie (idk if theres more in the tv show? I haven't watch it yet cause it got canceled and ended on a clif hanger, but I should).

5/6. yes!! orange guys!! I love all of their designs, except for Jarvis (Clu's assistant), I know they where going for like.... hes weird and kinda cringe, but they could have done his design way better.

7. No worries!!

8. yes! the fights are good, and I think even tho Sam is like, a newbie to it, it still feels realistic? like the guy base jumps, I feel like him knowing how to fight is reasonable.

9. yeah that whole scene is so?? trippy haha. (I now, of course, only watch Rinzler doing his thing in the background when I watch this scene haha)

10. YESSSS ugh, I feel like he's more so disapointed that Sam isn't giving him much to go off of?? to Sam this is still the guy that abanonded him, but to Kevin this is his kid that he hasn't seen in so freaking long (time works differently on the grid, not to get super into it, but one year our time is 50 years grid time. So Kevin has been on the Grid for over 1k years.)

11. DAFT PUNK DOES THE WHOLE SOUNDTRACK hahaha. Sorry, they are my og masked band and I still love them so much <3 (Legit I've only been listening to sleep token and daft punk for the majority this month). So all the music in the movie? was them, and that's why they where in it! really cool to me haha.

12.YES!!! he's such a good actor, shape shiftier I swear. His design is so cool, and I like Zeus as a villain. He's so interesting and I want to know morrrre. But we'll never get it oof.

13. LMAO

14.Yes, Kevin bonking that guy is so freaking funny. I feel bad for the program, but like. i love that scene. It's such a callback to the first movie, when Kevin was a cocky little shit, and I love it so much.

15. Tron in that scene breaks my heart.

I'm so glad you enjoyed it!!!! Like, I just.... legitimately can't express how excited I am that you liked it??

and yes... my fic..... I was working on it when I got your ask.... Rinzler and Sam are interacting... and I am... LIVING. HAHA. So little has happened it feels like, and yet... 18k... whooooo boy. I wouldn't be surprised if this ends up being my longest fic ever oof.

[tinylittlecubby]

I just had the WEIRDEST fucking dream about jj like?????????????????

Okay it was tied into another dream cause thats how dreams work but that part isn't important (I will say that someone was wearing 2 bags of frozen vegetables like they were dresses and yes there were still vegetables in the bags and yes they did get in trouble) but anyway!!! It changes to some brawl in the parking lot of someone's business and everyone needs to get the fuck out (but it was like a bunch of children and some adults I do not know why I was there or any other of the adults. I think the kids were trying to do some legit property damage so the adults were trying to stop them?) So jj (in a tesla for some reason I feel like THAT was unrealistic) drives me and him away from the scene but bro this nigga was SPEEDING!!!! Like got the attention of the police speeding. Like two other cars did aggressive u turns to avoid him speeding!! I literally started hyperventilating cause I HATE when people speed (specifically men, women scare me less when they speed in a car so my reaction is realistic) I tell jj to pull into a busy mall parking lot so we blend in with the rest of the cars and that somehow works. We are now just sitting in the car and I start talking about our relationship (didnt know we were involved but we roll) and I said "I'm scared you're going to hurt me" (yo I FELT SO for real vulnerable saying that in the dream it felt so real im never dating irl I woke up pissed off) and HE GOT POUTY AND UPSET 😡 he said "oh because we are getting more serious you are getting worried about these things" (first of all bitch! I have clinical paranoia issues and anxiety okay I've done been worried about this and 2 I can feel however I want to feel at any point in time and 3 you LITCHERALLY just out ran the police okay I do NOT find that hot its only hot when I do it,its irresponsible when other people do it. Unfortunately I did not say any of this in the dream.) What I said in response was essentially that "im not worried about you hurting me with your hands or words -even though fucking high key his reaction fucking pissed me off which is a type of hurt but I digress- which only leaves one type of you hurting me left and that is physically losing you. Like you dying" and then we started talking about it and he tried to break the tension by making a comment that I wont write here because I feel like its a comment that I shouldn't even be dreaming about (its enough im dreaming about the nigga but im not trying to read his life like that either) and during this i saw my older sister in the parking lot with her friends????? And then she saw me????? And then she came over and was like "haha ******* is with a guy romantically!" And honestly to that I say based,she was valid in that reaction cause outside of this dream thats never going to happen intentionally!! I will make sure of that!! But yeah thats pretty much where the dream ends but it was weird as fuck and whats sticking out to me is how pouty he got when I was vulnerable I felt like saying "fuck you!! I'm out" I was absolutely anticipating him being like "omg honey what have I done for you to think that oh no nono" but instead I had to pivot. I know in real life I would've gotten out the car and been like "yknow what bye boi im walking home have fun speeding in your iPad car" but I felt feelings for him???? Fucking gross. Not gross cause of who he is,he is an extremely attractive man in real life and I would most likely,like 98% break most of my rules for him in real life BUT it was just so antithetical to his public persona his reaction (but then again I dont know the man so it could've been actually spot on) honestly the first red flag that it was evil jj was the speeding away from the police,don't think he would do that irl. Anyway anyway anyway this is what you get when you stay up all night listening to the podcast amongstotherthingsthatilegallycannotdisclose

[sl-walker]

First one's after Doomsday slams his head in a car door. Second one is where he gets his arm sliced off.

-dryly- Lo and behold, DC's most shallow showboat.

Above is from Countdown to Infinite Crisis. The man's literally homeless (no shit!) and drops the sponsorship deal he was gonna try to get in order to come back to Ted.

Only to get blown up and need CPR on Ted's front lawn.

Which doesn't stop him from trying to get up to go with Ted anyway.

Seriously, tho. Is actually homeless, straight up listed as vagrant. Holy shit. I think I've seen two other people even acknowledge that since 2005 when this issue came out.

Perfectly ready to sacrifice himself here, fighting these things. Then has to live with it when Dmitri does instead. (So-- cw suicide there)

He spends the whole first part of 52 self-destructing. Which takes place starting only weeks after his best friend is murdered. Despite all of the above, when it looks like he's succeeded in self-destructing in spectacular fashion, no one who mighta given a shit but Clark comes to his funeral. Out of all his surviving teammates, never mind the rest of the hero community.

Mind, no one knows he didn't actually off himself via detonating nuclear submarine here. Still, the man goes on to save the entire multiverse at the end of 52.

Trying to save Barbara Gordon from being paralyzed because he was told that was the only way to save Ted, only to get tortured repeatedly. Very repeatedly. Because Rip was teaching him a lesson. Then there's the fact he does save Ted, only to lose him again:

Like-- if I actually sat down and catalogued every fucked up thing that happens to him in his second solo, we'd be here all night. It's a lot. And this is while getting treated like crud by everyone in the broader hero community. And he's not exactly getting great treatment at home, either.

Since we don't have all night, we'll just skip up to the era of Generation Lost, where he gets treated like crud (go figure):

I mean, mind, this is again after he's saved the multiverse and sacrificed a hell of a lot repeatedly. Whew. But then again, no one listened to Ted, either. And we know where that led.

So if the emotional devastation's not enough for you, you get Max beating him to death with a chunk of concrete and acting very, very creepy towards him, too. And then Max erases everyone's memory in the ENTIRE WORLD but for like-- four of them, to include Booster.

I mean, if this is how your friends treat you, who needs enemies? (And I dunno where you've been the past like six years, Karen, but Booster hasn't openly had a good belly-laugh since a fair bit before Ted even died.)

The entirety of Generation Lost should have the tagline -- no joke -- How many ways can we re-traumatize Booster in one miniseries? He leads his former teammates, tries desperately to stop a world-wide threat in Max Lord, sees Jaime shot in the head--

I mean, ouch????

But by the end of it, he is absolutely ready and willing to die -- AGAIN -- if it'll end Max's threat.

Legit, freefalling with Max at terminal velocity with no guarantee (or seemingly even a thought) that there's any other answer but dying and making sure Max goes out with him.

--though, like. What a badass. Damn. Unfortunately, he's a little too good a hero, so when Max repowers his suit (and presumably flight ring), he pulls out of that dive with feet to spare. And Max escapes. Which is like-- yeowch.

Anyway, after this is Flashpoint. And there are other things that happen in all those intervening years. And we're not even getting into his backstory, where he was blackmailed by organized crime as a teenager, all in a bid to save his mother because he grew up in deep poverty.

But even just this base compilation is a pretty good start on how DC's alleged gloryhound really is way more tragedy than comedy.

Why do they deserve to win?

Booster Gold

Firestorm (TW abuse)

[praxcrown5]

OOOO! I've been hyperfixating on the Cars Universe for about three months, now. Timma do dis!

1. Fav character from Cars: Hands-down DOC. Given the shit I've gone through with having my own (teaching) career ripped out from under me by people who don't give two shits about education...he's very, very relatable.

2. Fav character from Planes: Dottie! She cares about Dusty so much, and she's a mechanic to boot.

3. Fav character from whole universe: Doc

4. Your least favorite character from Cars: This...is difficult. I like most everyone for different reasons, but if I had to choose, I'd probably go with Holly Shiftwell. I'm just sorta "meh" about her...and she's probably the only character in the franchise whom I feel that way about.

5.Your least favorite character from Planes: Ripslinger. He's just an nonredeemable asshole...like, that's it; that's his whole shtick. He legit tries to murder two people just so he can win a race. Not a fan.

6.Character you hate the most: Ripslinger

7. Character that you kin the most (character, that you see yourself in them/you can relate to them): Doc...but also Cruz on account of the latter being dirt poor and having to work extra hard just to get to a point where they could pursue their dreams. I also really kin Red...because I love plants and can legit zen out in my garden watering and taking care of everything.

8. Characters that you wants as friends: If I could become a car and move to Radiator Springs to be with the OG gang, I'd do it in a heartbeat. I'd also like to be friends with Finn McMissile, Rusty and Dusty...I bet they'd be fun to have a few drinks.

9. Fav character(s)? Too many to list, but if I could narrow it to my top ten it would be: Doc, Lightning, Cruz, Mac, Francesco, Smokey, Sally, Dottie, Chick, and Mater

10. Things that you like the most in you fav character(s): I love Doc's no-nonsense attitude, Lightning's adorkableness, Cruz's drive, Mac's optimism, Francesco's Francesco-ness, Smokey's tough love, Sally's desire to preserve what little bit of route 66 she can, Dottie's love of Dusty and Chug, Chick because he's a smug, beautiful bastard, and Mater because of his loyalty

11. Thing that you find out, why you kin this character (if you have character that you kin) Already answered this one

12. Fav song(s)? Doc Racing (FYC Score) and Track 53 from Cars: Driven to Win

13.Fav moments from Cars: The scene where Doc Races around Willy's Butte and the Thomasville flashback. I also love the scene where all the residents of RS are cruising down Main St. at night, right after Lightning helps them all fix their neon.

14. Fav moments from Planes: Dusty's flight to Piston Peak and Skipper's backstory

15. Fav racer? Francesco

16. Lightning or Dusty? Lightning.

17.The saddest moment in whole franchise? Lightning finding out that Doc was writing Smokey and gushing about how proud he was of him.

18. Favorite Cars on the Road episode? Episode 9 when we finally get to meet Mato.

19. Fav ship? Sheriff/Doc, Lightning/Sally, Fillmore/Sarge, Blade/Nick

20. Fav duo/trio? Guido/Luigi, Chug/Sparky, Smokey and the Legends

21. Cars, Cars 2 or Cars 3? Cars 3

22. Planes or Planes or Fire and Rescue? Fire and Rescue

23. Fav Cars Toons? Mater and the Ghostlight

24. Fav Mater's Tall Tales? Time Travel Mater

25. Song that you listen the most rarely? I have a playlist that I listen to regularly...so anything not on that playlist.

26. Fav video game? Cars the Video Game

27. Fav soundtrack (music without words)? Cars 3 OST

28. Best antagonist in whole franchise? Chick

29. Which machine you would be in Cars Universe? I'd be modeled after a 1982 Pontiac Trans Am.

30. Fav girl? Sally

31.Place from Cars Universe you really want to visit? Radiator Springs

32. Thing from Cars Universe you want to have? I really want a custom bomber jacket inspired by Doc's racing finery

33. Radiator Springs or Propwash Junction? Radiator Springs

34. Do you want to ride a WHOLE road 66 with all atractions? I'm planning on it, once I save up enough ALT.

35. Character that shows you data fanbase MBTI personality Not quite sure what this question is asking, tbh

36.Song (not from Cars), that reminds you your fav character(s) Sleepsong by Secret Garden

37. Best agent? Finn

38. Best lemon? Prof Zundapp

39. You want a "Boats" movie? If they don't' make it about racing, yes.

40. What do you want to see in Cars on the Road season 2? I want to see a "Human Error"-esque episode where they become human for some reason, or switch bodies. A cameo by the spies would be neat too, or anyone from Planes. I'd also love to see them visit Smokey in Thomasville

41.The character you think they would have the same style like you (if they would be a human) Cruz

42.Luigi or Guido? Luigi

43.Character form Radiator Springs that you want have as roommate? Red

44. How much you miss Doc? I was DEVASTATED when they glossed over his death in 2. I miss him dearly and would love to see more about his pre-racing past.

45.Character that you think they would be the most suportive to you Mater

46.The worst Cars/Planes mockbuster? (Lucky you, who doesn't watch it) ???

47.Your favorite fanarts (if you don't have it, you don't have to do this) I'm still getting into the fandom, but I like Thunderskeleton13's animated gifs of Doc and Lightning

48.Fav voice actors from Cars Universe? Owen Wilson. He was the PERFECT choice for Lightning, same with Larry the Cable Guy

49. The moment in whole franchise that made you angry When they glossed over Doc's Death in 2

50. Best trailer? I have never seen a single trailer for any of the Cars/Planes movies, surprisingly

51. Character from Radiator Springs that you would have least good relationship: Probably Sarge and Fillmore seeing as they both get up early and play music

52.Ideas for next movie? Honestly, would like to see something with Storm and Cruz...maybe them becoming friends to the backdrop of Cruz' racing success...

53. Fav easter egg in whole franchise? The Cadillac Range being modeled after Cadillac Ranch in Amarillo

54.Best deleted scene? The scene where Doc leaves Thomasville, or the extended Rod Redline torture scene

55. What would you say to younger version of you, when you see that you are playing with toys from Cars/Planes? BUY THEM ALL NOW.

56.With which movie/game idk and Cars Universe you want to see a crossover? (If you have idea, ofc) MLP or Transformers

57. Thing that you hate in fandom: Surprisingly, the Cars fandom is pretty chill. I'm not a big fan of humanizing the characters...but some people are, and that's ok.

58. Cars or Planes? Cars.

Cars Universe Chalenge!!!!

(cuz why not)

1. Fav character from Cars

2. Fav character from Planes

3. Fav character from whole universe

4. Your least favorite character from Cars

5.Your least favorite character from Planes

6.Character you hate the most

7. Character that you kin the most (character, that you see yourself in them/you can relate to them)

8. Characters that you wants as friends

9. Fav character(s)?

10. Things that you like the most in you fav character(s)

11. Thing that you find out, why you kin this character (if you have character that you kin)

12. Fav song(s)?

13.Fav moments from Cars

14. Fav moments from Planes

15. Fav racer?

16. Lightning or Dusty?

17.The saddest moment in whole franchise?

18. Favorite Cars on the Road episode?

19. Fav ship?

20. Fav duo/trio?

21. Cars, Cars 2 or Cars 3?

22. Planes or Planes or Fire and Rescue?

23. Fav Cars Toons?

24. Fav Mater's Tall Tales?

25. Song that you listen the most rarely?

26. Fav video game?

27. Fav soundtrack (music without words)?

28. Best antagonist in whole franchise?

29. Which machine you would be in Cars Universe?

30. Fav girl?

31.Place from Cars Universe you really want to visit?

32. Thing from Cars Universe you want to have?

33. Radiator Springs or Propwash Junction?

34. Do you want to ride a WHOLE road 66 with all atractions?

35. Character that shows you data fanbase MBTI personality

36.Song (not from Cars), that reminds you your fav character(s)

37. Best agent?

38. Best lemon?

39. You want a "Boats" movie?

40. What do you want to see in Cars on the Road season 2?

41.The character you think they would have the same style like you (if they would be a human)

42.Luigi or Guido?

43.Character form Radiator Springs that you want have as roommate?

44. How much you miss Doc?

45.Character that you think they would be the most suportive to you

46.The worst Cars/Planes mockbuster? (Lucky you, who doesn't watch it)

47.Your favorite fanarts (if you don't have it, you don't have to do this)

48.Fav voice actors from Cars Universe?

49. The moment in whole franchise that made you angry

50. Best trailer?

51. Character from Radiator Springs that you would have least good relationship

52.Ideas for next movie?

53. Fav easter egg in whole franchise?

54.Best deleted scene?

55. What would you say to younger version of you, when you see that you are playing with toys from Cars/Planes?

56.With which movie/game idk and Cars Universe you want to see a crossover? (If you have idea, ofc)

57. Thing that you hate in fandom

58. Cars or Planes?

@penname-artist @leiasky (you two must do it, haha)

[sleepyxdarling]

Yandere bois part one!

Let's meet my boys! I will probably write about them so it's best to get introductions out of them way yeah?

You can ask them questions..or request stuff for them if you even care lol

Yoshi, 19

Is a college student studying psychology

He manipulates his darling by crushing their self-esteem and makes them question everything

"no one is actually your real friend except me..they all hate you..I'm the only one who you can trust"

He likes to keep his darling fragile and weak

Is very blunt and cold

"you look weird today..all the guys are looking at you funny"

Will try to control his darling

"if you don't wear what I pick out for you then you are going to look ever grosser than normal"

"I'm the only one that can walk you home..do you want to get stabbed?"

"don't accept food from no one else.. I'll cook for you. They are calling you fat by giving it to you"

Is always making darling question her choices

"are you sure that was the right thing to do?"

"hmm..that wasn't very smart of you"

"do you want to be laughed at?"

If his plan works then he is very cocky and a tease while often degrading them

"whose a good little freak? You are!"

Very possessive

Adores talking down to his darling

"you are just a cute little whore huh? You're basically begging me to touch you..well what if I say no?"

Sadistic af!

Now if his plan doesn't work..

"you're still not listening to me?! You're just a little whore huh?!"

Will kidnap his darling and give them intense torture

"I am the only one you should listen to!"

"God I can't believe I'm in love with you! Such a filthy girl/boy"

Is far more violent and rough with his methods of affection

Suke, 18

Is a blind boy

His senses are on point though

He can smell that you ate a waffle for breakfast three hours ago

He can feel exactly what your clothes are made of

He can taste.. everything!

He is super quiet and polite

"hey [name]...do you want to go to the coffee shop?"

Comes from a poor family so he works at a cafe to get more money

His confession is very sweet

"[name]..you make my world of darkness full of light..please be mine"

If they say yes..cool! If not...

"why...why are you being cruel..is it cause I can't see?"

Full on rips the bandage around his eyes off and grabs his darling by their shoulders while he's crying

"you...you are all I care about! Please!"

If they say no again..

"I see..then I can not let you leave.."

His method of kidnapping would be to strangle them then bring them home

His parents work two maybe three jobs so they are gone a lot

Will keep his darling in his room

"I love you..I love you so much"

Is constantly touching his Darling and smelling them

Will go to their house and bring back their clothes and other things to make them feel at home

When he's out at work he puts headphones on his darling and forces them to listen to a recording of his voice

He will also gag them and blindfold them along with typing them to his bed

When he has enough money saved up he will take his darling and move into a nice one bedroom house

Will get a better job and be able to take care of them better

Shun,18

Baby boy!

Hyper and all around happy

Is a master at baking

Can legit make anything taste good

Is always happy to his darling and just clingy

"[naaaammmmeee]! I missed you! I super missed you!"

"I've been gone for 2minutes"

his darling will be his taste tester

"[name]! I made bonbons! Eat them for me!"

Is fawned over by other people but he isn't for it

"haha thanks for calling me cute..buuut..I'm totally in love with [name]!"

Legit does not care about being private about his feelings..if his darling rejected him..

Will legit break down crying

"no..nonono...please no..you have to be my prince/princess!"

He will pull his darling into a hug and stab a needle into their back

He came very prepared

When they wake up they will be in an expensive penthouse

They are tied to a chair and shun is cooking for them

Will be super happy to have his darling there that he will ignore all questions they have

If they refuse to eat his food or act out in violence then he will not be happy

"why are you being so mean...I love you so much and you are being totally rude.."

He will be a lot more forceful but he will always say it's all for love

If they try to escape he will track them down and drag them back

He is delusional so he thinks his darling is just being rude cause they need to adjust to this life

Ryo,22

He is a famous reporter

He usually gets interviews with celebrities

He is so fed up with celebrities and their stuck up ways

He is even more fed up with the fans

Will often get request from weird fans

"no..I can not get you jumin's hair..fucking weirdo"

His darling surprised him for sure

He didn't expect to fall in love

He will be more of a distant lover

Likes to take pictures of his darling both in secret and when they know it

"hey..I need to test out this new camera lens so be my model"

He is a Total lazy boy

Would rather lounge around instead of working

His confession will be more of a casual one

"[name]...date me."

If they say no..

"all those cute celebrities get the one they want but I can't..? You are selfish"

Is the most insane out of the others

Will kidnap his darling by hitting them on the head and dragging them into his car

They wake up in a room with pictures of them all over the walls

Ryo is all over them

Touching them

Kissing them

"my sweet star.."

He Will take pictures of them while they are crying

If they behave he will give them more freedom

As punishments he will break their fingers or their legs

The quickest one to want sex

Will take photos while they do it

"you look so good.."

When he goes to work his darling will be tied up and an automatic camera will be placed infront of them

A huge pervert and likes to take panty shots of his darling