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FUCKED UP! °â§đ«§â.àłàż*:
°â§đ«§â.àłàż*: hcâs about thanos x best friend reader whoâs just as energetic as him <3
(no squid game!)
(kind of fwb like in my every other best friend! reader fic đ)
°â§đ«§â.àłàż*: choi su-bong (or thanos as he forces you to call him) have been best friends since diapers, both of your fathers being filthy rich, they were connected to the hip, and so you two are.
°â§đ«§â.àłàż*: one out of many things you two have in common is the pure hatred towards your fathers, you two always found a way to fuck up some family dinners or country club partiesâand no one ever suspected a thing.
°â§đ«§â.àłàż*: no one suspected you, because how could y/n l/n, the oh so precious daughter of f/n l/n ever be so cruel? you were too pretty for that, too smartâno one actually knew you for who you are except thanos.
°â§đ«§â.àłàż*: they suspected thanos, of course they didâbut he didnât really care, only thing that mattered is having fun with youâlike taking hits from the bong right before your father and his father and some prissy guests wait for both of you to come down to some boring dinner.
you sat thereâtrying not to burst out laughing at random things, thanos was beside you, gripping your thigh to stop youâand himself from laughing
â sweetheart, youâve gotta stop looking like your face is about to explode.â thanos mumbled beside youâand that just made you wheeze, he couldnât hold it anymore alsoâso you laughed it out while making an excuse you have to go to a very important business walk!! (you two donât know what the fuck youâre talking about.)
°â§đ«§â.àłàż*: being his best friend means sneaking out at two am for whatever reason, you two were always in your pajamas tooâeven though you two are the same in personalityâthe style was a bit different.
âcâmon princess, jump iâll catch you!â he whisper-yelled, between laughs becauseâwhy tf are you wearing a hello kitty pjs
âi canât, asshole! what if you drop me-â you hissed, sitting at your window, looking down at him.
ânow donât be dumb, i always catch you, angel, you know that.â he said cockily right before you sighed and jumped, he catches you, of course, but he doesnât let you live it down
âsee, dumbass! i told you!â
âfuck off >:(!!!!â
°â§đ«§â.àłàż*: being his best friend means you can come to him for everything and he can come to you, your family were always on some business trips, so you two were often taking care of eachother.
and thatâs how you find yourself in this position, pouring rain, walking from your mansion to his because you got a fever, and your dad was on a business trip with his dadâand he didnât left you any over the counter medicine, yeah, he left you shit ton of money, but pharmacies donât work at 4am.
you knocked on his door as if you were dying, you were shivering, you were soaked, and relief washed over you as you heard a voice call out âwho the fuck in this time of night-â
when he opened the door and saw you there, sniffling and shivering, teary eyedâhe knew you had a fever, fevers were hard on you, so he knew exactly how you looked.
âwoah, woahâeasy there, itâs alright sweetheart câmereâ he mumbled
âbut-but youâll get sick if you touch me-â
âwhat? you think some cold will knock my ass over like it does to you, stop being a brat and câmere.â
°â§đ«§â.àłàż*: being his best friend meant spending late nights in your girly room, laying on your bed as you two look at eachotherâhigh or not, it always ended up like thisâhis hands on your waist, and you being stubborn first five minutes before you let him kiss you
âthereee she is..â
#choi su bong#choi su bong x reader#squid game#squid game fic#thanos x reader#thanos#thanos squid game#squid game thanos#squid game thanos x reader#squid game x reader
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TL;DR Entangled Press (best known for their Red Tower imprint, which publishes the Fourth Wing books) is being sued on the allegation that an agent used a former client's manuscript to help Tracy Wolff write the "Crave" books (or at least the first one).
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In the autumn of 2010, Lynne Freeman, a family-law attorney and an unpublished author, put the final touches on her first novel, âBlue Moon Rising.â The story revolved around a teen-age girl named Anna who falls in love with a werewolf and learns that she has magical powers. It was a fantasy, but it drew on Freemanâs own experiences growing up in Alaska. For years, Freeman had been fiddling with the material, imagining and reimagining characters, revisiting childhood memories. She even dreamed about the idea, and kept notes on it in a shoebox in her bedroom. In 2002, after becoming pregnant with twins, Freeman lost one of the babies and gave birth prematurely. Long nights lay ahead. She spent them caring for her son and working on her book.
A few months after sheâd finished, in December, 2010, Freeman signed with an agent, Emily Sylvan Kim, the founder of Prospect Agency, a small firm based out of Kimâs home, in New Jersey. Kim, a slight woman with a youthful aura and a bright, clenched smile, struck Freeman as a kindred spiritâsheâd launched her own business, just as Freeman had, and sheâd even briefly attended law school. For the next three years, Freeman and Kim worked together to expand and refine the manuscript.
Kim sent pitches of âBlue Moon Risingâ to more than a dozen publishers. The results were discouraging. âI thought the writing, the storytelling, in this manuscript was simply wonderful,â one e-mail read, but âwe are . . . looking for things that fall into a newer territory.â Another editor wrote,âWhile the writing is really great and Anna was a very likable heroine, I worry that there are not enough new and different elements to the story here that would set it apart from the rest of the novels in the competitive paranormal/romance/YA market.â By March, 2014, all but one of the publishers had rejected the book, and Kim and Freeman parted ways. Freeman withdrew her outstanding submission from the final publisher, a press called Entangled.
In 2021, Freeman and her son, now a senior in high school, stopped at a bookstore in Santa Barbara on the way to receive their COVID vaccinations. Freeman, lingering in the young-adult section, picked out a book called âCrave,â by the author Tracy Wolff. She liked the cover: black with a large, bloodstained white flower in the center. It reminded her of âTwilight.â By the time she got home, she was already noticing muscle pain and fever from the vaccine. She began reading the novel, which was published by Entangled, and experienced a panic attack, the first sheâd had in five years.
Freeman immediately spotted similarities to her own unpublished book. The main character was named Grace, not Anna, and her love interest was a vampire, not a werewolf, but in both stories the heroine moves from San Diego to Alaska after members of her family are killed in an accident. She lives with the only two relatives she believes she has left, both of whom are witches. A female rival slips her drugs. Thereâs an intimate moment under the northern lights. In a climactic scene, an evil vampire kidnaps her, and she ends up accidentally freeing a different vampire, whose return is said to herald the end of the world. (In Freemanâs planned sequel and Wolffâs actual ones, this vampire replaces the previous hero as the main characterâs primary love interest.)
In addition to what Freeman felt to be the booksâ obvious similarities, âCrave,â to her mind, contained details that could only have come from her, from her life. The novelâs opening scene describes flying in a puddle jumper above the Alaskan landscape. Freemanâs grandfather had been a bush pilot: she recalls reminiscing to Kim about what it had been like to go up in his tiny plane. A fantastical chessboard figures early on in âCraveâ; a wall-size painting of a fantastical chessboard hangs in Freemanâs office. Wolffâs heroine is revealed to be a gargoyle. Freeman collects gargoylesâthey guarded the path to the front door of her former home.
A Google search revealed that Tracy Wolff was a nom de plume for Tracy Deebs, a star client of Freemanâs former agent, Emily Sylvan Kim. Kim had introduced Freeman and Deebs at a Romance Writers of America conference in 2012. (Wolff and Kim claim to have no recollection of this meeting.) The name Stacy Abrams, which appeared in the acknowledgments section of Wolffâs book, was another pinprick. Abrams was the editor who had fielded Freemanâs book submission at Entangled. Freeman grew convinced that Kim and Liz Pelletier, the publisher and C.E.O. of Entangled, had shared the manuscript of âBlue Moon Risingâ with Wolff and used it as the basis for the âCraveâ series.
On February 7, 2022, Freeman, who had hired a lawyer, sent a letter threatening legal action to Kim, Wolff, Entangled, the companyâs distributor Macmillan, and Universal Studios, which had optioned a film project based on the âCraveâ books. âI really assumed that they would just apologize and fix it,â Freeman said. But, two days later, the Entangled counsel issued an icy response stating that âneither Pelletier nor Wolff ever heard of Freeman, read her ten-year old manuscript nor were aware of any details concerning the Freeman work.â The attorney added, âThe agent, Kim, recalls nothing of this manuscript.â Freemanâs allegations were âspeculative, unfounded, and easily rebutted as fanciful.â A month later, Freeman filed a copyright-infringement lawsuit. The litigation, which is ongoing, has cost Freeman several hundred thousand dollars and the defendants more than a million dollars.
The âCraveâ series belongs to a powerhouse genre known as âromantasyââromance plus fantasy. Stories have mingled love and magic for centuries, but the portmanteau crystallized as a market category during the pandemic. Works such as Sarah J. Maasâs novel âA Court of Thorns and Roses,â about a nineteen-year-old girl who falls in love with a fae high lord, surged in popularity, offering escape to readers stuck at home, often with company that was harder to view as enchanting under the circumstances. âThe genre really caters to this perspective of, âIf your life were going to be different, if you were plucked out of this reality, what would your dream reality be?,â â Emily Forney, an agent who works with young-adult and fantasy authors, told me. Romantasy sells a lightly transgressive form of wish fulfillment that holds out the enthralling promise of sex with vampires, manticores, werewolves, and other types of monsters and shape-shifters. (Thereâs even a âcheese-shifterâ paranormal romance, by the author Ellen Mint, in which characters can turn into different types of cheese.)
In the past several years, the genre has attained a remarkable fandom. Print sales of romance novels more than doubled between 2020 and 2023. Meanwhile, the number of romance-focussed bookstores in the United States, with whimsical names such as the Ripped Bodice and Beauty and the Book, has swelled from two to more than twenty. Romantasy is helping to drive that boom. Publishers Weekly reported in October that five of the ten top-selling adult books of 2024 were written either by Maas or by her fellow romantasy icon Rebecca Yarros: the authors, combined, had sold more than 3.65 million copies of their novels in the first nine months of the year. A National Endowment for the Arts survey found that the number of Americans who reported finishing a single book in a year declined about six per cent between 2012 and 2022, but romantasyâs mostly female readers seem exempt from that downturn. They gather at midnight release parties and ardently break down their favorite titles on BookTok, a literary alcove of TikTok, where the hashtag for Maasâs series, #ACOTAR, has earned more than a billion views.
Many of these readers are millennials who grew up on âHarry Potterâ and âTwilightâ and expected more of the same once adulthood struck. Maas was among the first to acknowledge the sexual maturation of her audience. Although âA Court of Thorns and Roses,â published in 2015, featured mild erotic content by romance standards, it was far steamier than most Y.A. (âWe moved together, unending and wild and burning, and when I went over the edge the next time, he roared and went with me.â) Love scenes in the later books went further, often adding anatomical specificity. In 2020, Maasâs publishers changed up their marketing strategy, causing the series to be rehomed in the adult section. âIt birthed this genre of romantasy,â Cassandra Clare, the author of the best-selling fantasy series âThe Mortal Instruments,â told me, âwhich to me is books that contain a lot of the tropes that make Y.A. popular but also have explicit sex in them.â
In some respects, romantasy has the feel of young peopleâs literature. The themes are Pixar-codedâforgiveness, compassion, overcoming adversity, celebrating differenceâwith a swoosh of black eyeliner. Cat Clyne, an editor at the Harlequin imprint Canary Street Press, described the genre as more welcoming than twentieth-century fantasy, which many readers now see as sexist. Romantasy âis emotion-positiveâitâs about communication and falling in love,â she told me. âThereâs less emphasis on world-buildingâ and more on representing âstrong female characters.â
Despite the genreâs egalitarian spirit, the most prominent romantasy authors are white. A reductive but not entirely spurious industry archetype has emerged, of temperamentally if not politically conservative women, often mothers, who find in their writing a means to success outside a traditional career path. âTwilight,â the precursor to todayâs paranormal-romance novels, transformed Stephenie Meyer, a Mormon stay-at-home mother of three, into a millionaire. Yarros is a mother of six and a military spouse who began writing when her husband was deployed to Afghanistan. Like Freeman, Wolff first attempted commercial fiction after her son was born prematurely. Between 2007 and 2018, she published more than sixty romance, urban-fantasy, and young-adult novels, but it was not until she wrote a vampire-gargoyle love story that she shot to the top of the New York Times best-seller list. In April of 2024, Publishers Weekly reported that the six-volume âCraveâ series had sold more than three and a half million copies worldwide.
All genre fiction (and arguably all fiction) is patterned on tropes, or received bits of narrative. But tropes have assumed a new importance in the creation and marketing of romantasy. On BookTok, users sort and tag titles by trope (#morallygreymen, #reverseharem, #daggertothethroat), allowing authors to tune their creative process to the story elements that are getting the most attention online. Entangled, âCraveâ âs publisher, gives visitors to its Web site the option to browse its selection by tropes such as âenemies-to-loversâ and âmarriage of convenience.â Entangled editors fill out a form for every work they acquire; on the version of the form I viewed, there were fields in which to specify âtropes,â âparanormal elements,â âauthors similar to,â âHeat levelâ (on a five-point scale from âmildâ to âscorcherâ), and the ratio of romance to suspense (from a maximum of 100/0 to a minimum of 20/80).
Romantasyâs reliance on tropes poses a challenge for questions of copyright. Traditionally, the law protects the original expression of ideas, not the ideas themselves. A doctrine named for the French phrase scĂšnes Ă faire, or âscenes that must be done,â holds that the standard elements of a genre (such as a showdown between the hero and the villain) are not legally protectable, although their selection and arrangement might be. The wild proliferation of intensely derivative romantasies has complicated this picture. The worlds of romance and fantasy have been so thoroughly balkanized, the production of content so accelerated, that what one might assume to be tropesâfalling in love with a werewolf or vampire, sayâare actually subgenres. Tropes operate at an even more granular level (bounty-hunter werewolves, space vampires). And the more specific the trope, the harder it is to argue that such a thing as an original detail exists. For example, the âdark paranormal romanceâ subgenre mandates physical injury and a brooding, inhuman male lead. In 2018, the author Addison Cain filed a takedown notice against the author Zoey Ellis, accusing her of ripping off Cainâs lupine society of aggressive Alphas and submissive Omegas. Ellis sued Cain and her then publisher Blushing Books, arguing that she and Cain were both practicing the subgenre of âwolf-kink erotica,â which is based on open-source fan fiction. (Blushing Books settled out of court; a second suit Ellis filed against Cain was dismissed.)
Freemanâs suit rests on hundreds of similarities, compiled by Freeman and her lawyers, between her own manuscripts and notes and the âCraveâ series. Taken one by one, few examples seem to rise to the level of infringement. The Alaskan setting, which Freeman saw as her intellectual property, is surprisingly common: Pelletier estimates that about ninety-five per cent of vampire novels take place in Alaska, New Orleans, or Las Vegas. Gargoyles have joined the menagerie of trendy paranormals, owing to the âDark Elementsâ series, by Jennifer L. Armentrout. Small-plane pilots are standard issue for romance, a genre that loves a man in uniform, and it goes without saying that trysts under the aurora borealis are de rigueur. (One novel memorably features a hunky physicianâs assistant who pleasures the heroine as âa brigade of ghostly rainbows jostled in the northern sky.â)
Other similarities are harder to explain away. In both books, the heroineâs parents bind her powers with tea; the male lead is guilty and grief-stricken over his older brotherâs murder. I scoffed when I saw that Freemanâs side had listed âshining white courtsâ as a similarity, referring to the fact that, in both works, the heroine is brought to a marble building with white columns. But the court scenes have more than architecture in common. In each, the main character is transported to a timeless place presided over by a green-eyed woman. The heroine feels a sense of belonging; she is told that this is the home of her ancestors. In Wolffâs version of the scene, there are âthick white candles burning in gold candelabras.â In Freemanâs, there are âcandles flickering to life in all of the wall sconces.â You canât copyright candles any more than you can copyright marble, or ancestors, or green-eyed women. But the composition of these details, the totality of how the obvious or ordinary beats are strung together in each, is startling.
To show copyright infringement, Freeman will have to demonstrate that âactual copyingâ occurred and that the two texts are âsubstantially similar.â Because plaintiffs can rarely provide direct evidence of copying, the law allows them to prove it circumstantially, by establishing that the defendant had âaccessâ to the allegedly infringed-upon work, either firsthand or through an intermediary. A problem for Freeman is that none of the 41,569 documents that the defendants were compelled to hand over make any mention of âBlue Moon Rising.â And Pelletier and Wolff both assert that they never saw Freemanâs novel or discussed it with anyone. Without direct proof of access, Freeman will have to take the weaker position that Wolff had a âreasonable possibilityâ of viewing the manuscripts, given her relationship with Kim. Another problem for Freeman is âsubstantial similarityâ itself, a notoriously slippery standard located somewhere between works that raise suspicions of copying (probative similarity) and works that are almost identical to other works (striking similarity). The defendants argue that the two books feel extraordinarily different in tone, pacing, voice, and style. And âif they feel different,â Pelletier told me, âthen they are.â
In romance, the heroineâs H.E.A., or happily ever after, often depends on how smoothly she can adapt to a new situation. The same might be said for publishers of romantasy, who have had to adjust to an unruly landscape of self-publishing that is adjacent to, and increasingly competitive with, mainstream publishing. The reigning principles of this indie world are âmoreâ and âfaster.â Because Amazonâs search algorithm appears to favor writers with larger backlists, thereâs an incentive to flood the platform with titlesâand to pad those titles with as many pages as possible, as Kindle Unlimited distributes royalties to the creators with the highest number of pages read. (This has spawned an epidemic of âpage-stuffing,â in which authors load their novels with bonus material; authors have also been accused of using bots to artificially inflate their reader tally.)
Although many of the romantasy agents, writers, and editors I spoke to were not concerned about the fieldâs frenetic pace, a few felt that it could be overwhelming. âI think it puts authors in an impossible position,â the award-winning fantasy novelist Holly Black told me. âNo one wants to cut corners on quality, and so you have to do this kind of heroic thing to get your book to be how you want it in a time frame thatâs pretty much impossible.â The same conditions that promote speed can also foster âa pressure toward clickbait,â she added. Authors identify the most irresistible tropes and reproduce them as efficiently as possible. The book blogger and author Jenny Trout told me that, âin romantasy, copycats are commonplace. Authors are giving the people what they want, but itâs also like youâre reading the same book over and over again.â
To stand out, Entangled combines a careful attention to the physical look and feel of its novelsâits deluxe editions, with adornments such as foil and stencilled edges, pop on Bookstagramâwith a strategic, at times unconventional production process. The house accepts manuscripts from authors with a clear concept of what they want to write, but it also works collaboratively on special projects, in which âwe are invited into the authorâs process from day zero and continue in that spirit throughout editing,â Pelletier told Publishers Weekly. Entangledâs biggest romantasy titles, including Yarrosâs âEmpyreanâ series, now come from its Red Tower imprint, whose model falls somewhere between that of a book packager and that of a traditional publisher. Book packagers assign teams of writers and editors to create content for an outside client, who can request specific elements, such as âthe faeâ or âhockey-themed romance.â Often, the writers receive a flat fee for their work (âwork for hireâ), sign over their I.P. rights, and are not entitled to royalties. Packaged titles are relatively safe bets for publishers, offering agility and responsiveness to subtle changes in market demand. Still, many houses want to avoid the perception of either working with packagers or packaging themselves, so as to attract prestigious authors and dodge accusations of predatory contracts.
Pelletier denies engaging in book packaging, but acknowledged, through her attorney, that, âunlike some other traditional publishers, Entangled tends to work more with its authors at the ideation stage to try to organically bake in a high concept.â âCrave,â according to the defense counsel, was âa collaborative project with Pelletier providing to Wolff in writing the main plot, location, characters, and scenes, and actively participating in the editing and writing process.â On the phone, Pelletier, a former software engineer, insisted that her approach isnât particularly different from those of âpublishers in New York.â (Entangled has no physical office; Pelletier operates out of Austin.) âThey do the same thing,â she told me. âIâve just been very successful at it.â
Opinion on Pelletier in the industry is divided. Publishers Weekly named her its 2024 Person of the Year, citing her âout-of-the-boxâ thinking. The agent Beth Davey called her âa visionary, brilliant marketer.â Trout, the author and blogger, described Pelletier as âshadyâ and characterized Entangled as âa Mickey Mouse operationâ pushing ânice, nonpolitical white ladies who are good at being pretty in photos and building parasocial relationships online.â One of the more than fifteen writers I spoke to for this piece told me that sheâd met with Pelletier to discuss her finished book, but that Pelletier had urged her to develop an entirely different, as yet unwritten, story idea, complaining that âthe problem with traditional publishing is that they just let writers write whatever they want, and they donât even think about what the TikTok hashtag is going to be.â (Through her attorney, Pelletier said she didnât recall any such conversation and that âEntangled doesnât rely heavily on hashtags when marketing books on TikTok.â)
Buried within Pelletierâs deposition testimony is an origin story for âCrave.â Toward the end of the twenty-tens, she decided that the time had come for a vampire renaissance. A decade had passed since the âTwilightâ movies, and sheâd read that fads take about ten years to cycle back around. Sheâd also heard that teen-age readers werenât finding the current wave of paranormal heroines relatable enough: the characters were too sure of themselves, too perfect. Pelletier, whose colleagues describe her as a gifted trendspotter, wanted a âfish out of waterâ story, one that thrust an ordinary girl into a rarefied world.
Early in 2019, an Entangled author was unable to deliver her book as planned, leaving a gap in the schedule. Wolff and Kim both recalled Pelletier needing a writer who could produce good work at a sprint. Wolff is âone of the fastest, but not the fastest writer Iâve ever worked with,â Pelletier said to me. Abrams reached out to Wolff, who responded with five pitches, the second of which featured a sexy, degenerate teen-age monster and a straitlaced scholarship student. With Abrams as an occasional intermediary, Pelletier and Wolff hammered out a basic story shape.
At the time, Wolff was regaining her footing after a difficult period. Her twenty-year marriage had fallen apart a few years earlier, and divorce was not ideal for an author trying to convert fantasies of romantic bliss into rent and groceries. Wolff had written paranormal fiction before, but love stories were her O.T.P., her one true pairing. She was nervous about jumping into the vampire tradition. âI didnât think I had anything new to bring to the table,â she told the podcaster Hank Garner in 2020. But her doubts lifted when the seriesâ heroine, Grace, popped into her head and started talking. âShe was funnier than I expected,â Wolff told Garnerâwitty, spirited, a bit sarcastic. In a Q. & A. with the Nerd Daily, Wolff said, âI actually identify a lot with the heroine, Grace. Thereâs a lot of me in her, including the snarky sense of humorâespecially when things get bad.â
The process of putting out âCraveâ was chaotic. Wolff wrote a rough draft in two months, from May to June of 2019, but Pelletier didnât start editing in earnest until December, several weeks before the book was scheduled to go to press. âMy editor had a couple of other projects that she was working on,â Wolff recalled on Garnerâs podcast, âand then when she came back, she was, like, âThis is good, butâ ââWolffâs voice sped up as if to simulate a torrent of feedbackââ âyou need to change this, you need to change this . . . you need to add that.â â The pair of them revised the manuscript, adding about fifty thousand words in a week and a half. Wolff said, âWe were so exhausted . . . the two of us by the end were blithering idiots.â The novel came out in April, 2020. A sequel, âCrush,â followed in September, 2020, and two more, âCovetâ and âCourt,â appeared in March, 2021, and February, 2022. (During her deposition, Wolff explained that she wanted each title to evoke love, a statement that confused the lawyer, who asked, âWhat does court have to do with love?â)
Entangled was motivated to push the sequels out swiftly because COVID was catalyzing book sales. Correspondence among Kim, Pelletier, Abrams, and Wolff suggests that, in the hectic days and hours before a book deadline, an already collaborative creative process could become an all-out emergency. It was sometimes hard to tell who added what. âLove âour tree of trust is just a twigâ did you write that?â Kim texted Pelletier, about a line in âCrush.â Referring to a different line, Pelletier said, âI wrote that sentence, but I was using Tracyâs voice.â And: âI came up with every header but the first chapter lol.â While closing âCourt,â which was on a particularly tight schedule, author, editor, and agent supplied sentences and ideas, all of which swirled together in the various documents being updated in tandem on each of their laptops. Pelletier asked Kim, âTracy wrote that moonstone description?â Kim texted Abrams, âTracy and I are team speed writing new scenes,â and âIâve stopped copy editing because I helped write all this.â (The defense said that Kimâs contribution âwas extremely limited and was entirely technical.â)
Wolff seems to find value in a more coöperative workflow. She described herself to Garner as âone of those weird . . . very rare extrovert authorsâ who âloves to go on writersâ retreats and loves to meet up at, you know, Barnes & Noble and write with their friends.â Like Wolff, Grace is a team player, the center of a big ensemble cast. There are also nurturing Macy, the âcheerleaderâ of the crew, and tough-as-nails Eden. Wolff told me that she wanted to use her novel to âtalk about feminine strength in all its forms.â Her female characters âbuild the life that they want, not on the shoulders of others, but with others.â
Wolff is an only child. Her father died unexpectedly when she was twenty-two; a few months later, she suffered her first panic attack. Grace, the âCraveâ heroine, is also an only child who has panic attacks stemming from the loss of her parents. âI was absolutely channelling some of my own past,â Wolff told me. Her present was impinging, too. She was falling in love with her current partner while she was writing âCraveâ; she suspects that some of her elation soaked into the story.
In the âCraveâ series, Grace speaks in a knowing, casual, Avengers-inflected tone. Referring to her gargoyle nature, she says, âI sleep like a stoneâpun totally intended.â Facing down an abominable beast: âYep, weâre all going to die.â The series renders the potentially odd and inward aspects of fantasy salableâparanormals are just like contemporary humans, with familiar psychologies, politics, and value systems. They even like the same Top Forty pop songs. World-building details, such as the logistics of being a vampire, are left unexplained. DĂ©nouements can feel duct-taped together, with jarring omissions and convoluted exposition. In the course of the series, characters learn never to underestimate themselves; they grasp the importance of empathy, forgiveness, and friendship; they manifest prolific and appealing forms of feminine power. Most vivid by far are the sex scenes. âTracy is a romance writer at heart,â Pelletier told me.
Freemanâs manuscript is quieter, more internal. Unlike Wolff, she always knew that fantasy was her genre. Sheâd immersed herself in Tolkien growing up, and she used to imagine that the people walking around Anchorage were deer shifters or veela, long-haired maidens who called down storms from the sky. She wanted her novel to be as awash in mysterious possibility as her adolescence had been. Her bookâs posture toward the natural world is one of respectful awe; reading it, you sense a deeply ingrained isolation.
In âBlue Moon Rising,â Anna is reeling from the sudden loss of her father and his parents. This struggle is drawn from Freemanâs life. When she was four and a half, she and her mother returned from a trip out of state to a completely bare apartment. Her father had left, forcing a split between Freeman and the paternal side of her family. âI wanted to write about a heroine who has tremendous courage because she has panic attacks from loss,â Freeman told me. âShe thinks about loss all the time. Itâs a thorn in her heart.â Shadowy father figures loom over the story. In one version of the manuscript, Annaâs father is a wise werewolf. In another, he is a cruel vampire prince.
The female characters are foils and antagonists to the heroine. Anna feels judged by her childhood friends: theyâve been âacting moody and unpredictable,â she narrates in one draft. âI felt constantly on edge with them.â At home, the most dramatic conflicts unfold between Anna and her mother, Marcheline, who can be warm and loving but also âcontrolling,â âobsessive,â âcrazed,â and occasionally violent. âItâs like M is schizophrenic with her,â Freeman wrote in one e-mail to Kim, after they had already been going back and forth about the manuscript for six months. âNice one moment and shredding her ego to bits in the next.â
Part of the reason Freeman was drawn to Kim as an agent, at least initially, was that she seemed to respect the uniqueness of Freemanâs vision. According to Freeman, Kim praised her unusual writing voice, which blended dreamlike imagery with wry humor. (âThe moon is full overhead, pregnant with possibilities and none of them good.â) Kim loved the dramatic setting. They spoke on the phone for hours, Freeman says, with Freeman explaining her inspirations, her family and personal life, and her plans for a larger series based on âBlue Moon Rising.â In Freemanâs recollection, Kim would often say that she didnât have such lengthy or intimate conversations with her other clients. (Kim denies saying this and does not recall any extensive conversations about Freemanâs personal life.)
Freeman was eager to respond to Kimâs suggestions. Kim wanted to see more strength and agency in Anna, the heroine, and Freeman revised the manuscript so that Anna went to greater and greater lengths to rescue her werewolf mate. She produced copious notes, chapter synopses, and character descriptions for Kim; she wrote pitches and taglines and letters for Kim to send to editors. Throughout, she says, Kim insisted that the manuscript was close to being ready. In one e-mail, from June, 2011, Kim wrote, âYouâve been a real pro throughout this revision process so Iâd figure youâd want to really wade in those final slogging steps and be rewarded with true greatness!â
But, as the months dragged on, Freemanâs hopes began to wilt. No matter how many times she renovated the main arc, developed a subplot here, updated the lore there, she couldnât bring the book to where Kim said it needed to be. She believes that she sent her agent at least forty meaningfully different versions of her manuscript. She started to refer to Kimâs edits as âthe hydra,â an allusion to the many-headed monster that sprouted two new heads every time one was chopped off.
In September of 2013, Freeman sent Kim a fresh synopsis of her novel. The agent replied in a tone she hadnât previously used. âMy comments donât always seem to lead your book to the next level,â she wrote. âI really think you owe it to yourself to be really certain you are putting the best book out there.â At the end of the message, she wrote, âI know this email is long and perhaps long overdue. You deserve honesty from me above all else. . . . But the bottom line is you need to move forward and I need to move forward too.â
In Kimâs recollection, Freeman took up less time than some of her other authorsâshe remembers that Freeman was juggling work and other commitmentsâbut Kim did try to make Freeman feel valued. âLooking back, I feel very proud of the work that I did with her,â Kim told me. âSo having that thrown back in my face is very sad,â she said. When we spoke, she stressed that she values âeach and every one of my authors so much that itâs just so painful to think that anyone would think that I would do this to them.â
Wolff and Kim were close. Kimâs daughter, Eden, was one of âCraveâ âs first readers, and Wolff named a character Eden in gratitude. Kimâs contributions to the âCraveâ series sometimes extended beyond the traditional work of even a very hands-on agent. She helped to create the projectâs âbible,â a compilation of names, backstories, and details that Wolff used to keep tabs on Graceâs expansive universe. She proposed plot points: What if two witch characters âare just textingâ? What if the magical portals malfunctioned? When Wolff was on deadline for âCourt,â Kim sat in a Google Doc with her for nineteen hours, allegedly to provide moral support. âI want to help you rage finish the rest of this book,â she texted on October 24, 2021. Then she suggested that they get coffee âand crash it out.â
Kim didnât always evince this level of enthusiasm for Freeman. On October 10, 2013, Kim pitched âBlue Moon Risingâ to Liz Pelletier, addressing the Entangled publisher as âLynne.â The language feels boilerplate and impersonal. âIf you are looking for something unique in young adult paranormal romance,â Kim wrote, âthis is something I think would be a perfect fit for you!â Pelletier forwarded the pitchâwithout reading it, she claimsâto Stacy Abrams, who requested the full manuscript on October 18th. Kim replied on October 23rd. âHi Stacy,â she wrote. âSorry for the delay. Here you go! And arenât you happy about Tracy? I am!â Abrams agreed that she was happy about Tracy, whose new Entangled book was doing well. She also gently noted that Kim had forgotten to attach Freemanâs novel to her e-mail.
An effective romantasy novel conveys the experience of falling in love, but it also touches on themes of talent and purpose, of becoming who you were meant to be. A girl is ordinary and then she is chosen. Her destiny is to wield power beyond imagination. A cold, hard man turns malleable in her hands. Those who dislike her are jealous, those who disagree with her are evil, and those who try to stop her are vanquishedârighteously.
A decade or so ago, Y.A. readers telegraphed their fandom by affiliating with types. They picked a Hogwarts house or a Divergent faction to identify with; they declared for Team Edward (the vampire in âTwilightâ) or Team Jacob (the werewolf). But romantasy novels are more character-driven, and readers approach them more individualistically. They come to the genre concerned about their own place in the world. âA really good writer makes you feel like a book is about you,â Kim told me. She suggested that maybe Wolff had performed her job too well: Freeman looked into the âCraveâ series and encountered her own reflection.
A paradox of romantasy novels is that they express the longing to be unique, but they pour that desire into imitative forms. Many of the genreâs tropes are clichĂ©s about specialness. When the heroine is discovered to be secret royalty or the chosen one, readers feel singular, like they are the main character. Both Wolff and Freeman emphasized to me the deeply intimate experiences that fed into their booksâfalling in love, becoming a mother, struggling to accept the loss of a parent. They lived their tropes. Wolff, a contemporary romance writer who dove gamely into vamps-and-shifter lore, was the normal girl in an alien new world. Freeman was the lost child with an attunement to nature who comes into her power. Maybe these experiences were universal, but they were also personal. If it happened to you, how could it not be yours?
But life isnât a romantasy novel. For every Sarah J. Maas, there are thousands of first-time or self-published writers toiling away in obscurity. The promise of the genre is transformationâreality into fiction, vulnerability into strength, humans into animals, ordinariness into distinctionâbut the labor of producing romantasy rarely changes your life. Some authors get picked, and many more do not. The outcomes can feel especially arbitrary when everyone is telling more or less the same story.
The defendants fear that the suit may embolden bad actors to weaponize copyright law against talented and successful authors. Pelletier cautioned that she could see why I might be drawn to a salacious tale of betrayal, but that the real story of the lawsuit was the threat posed by fencing off the creative commons, discouraging writers from crafting their own narratives of alluring monsters or forbidden love. She spoke about a âwellâ of shared ideas, imagery, and language that irrigates our cultural life and enables our traditions to morph and evolve. âYou canât claim ownership to the well,â she said. âIt will stifle everyoneâs creativity.â Referring to Freeman, Pelletier added, âShe doesnât own heroes in black jeans, as much as she would like to.â
Black told me, âItâs just true that there are enough things being written, when youâre working with tropes and tradition and folklore, that sometimes you hit some of the same things.â But she dismissed Pelletierâs anxieties about repercussions from the coming verdict, saying, âI donât think itâs going to create some kind of new standard.â Trout likewise warned against extrapolating too much from a sui-generis situation. âThe case with âCraveâ and âBlue Moon Risingâ is not simply about tropes,â she said. âThe books are too similar.â
The defense is right that no one could mistake the experience of reading âCraveâ for the experience of reading âBlue Moon Rising.â Wolffâs story is sassy, fun, commercial, and hot. Freemanâs is raw, ruminative, interior, and possibly unsalable, given the murky volatility of the family dynamics and the protagonistâs wariness, bordering on hostility, toward other women. What is strange and spiky in one is palatable and familiar in the other. Freeman strews esoteric asides about Egyptian mythology, Captain Cook, and the passage of Celtic artifacts from New Zealand to Alaska, which have no counterpart in the âCraveâ series. (Instead, there are the singer-songwriter Niall Horan, Restoration Hardware catalogues, âFinal Destination.â) The mysticism that pervades âBlue Moon Risingâ is muted in Wolffâs novels. The sense of phantasmagoria and unreality is gone. Many of the details that overlap are tropes, or close enough. Many more are trivial: the color of a characterâs eyes, the titleâsuch as âBloodletterââby which she is known.
But the preponderance of commonalities and the sum of how they unfold is harder to discount. Wolff said that sheâd been âcompletely blindsidedâ and âdevastatedâ by Freemanâs accusations, and that she âhurt for everybody involved in this case.â âI didnât do what Iâm accused of,â she said. Freeman, who has sold her home in Alaska to pay her legal costs, told me that she was fighting in part because she no longer saw herself as unique. âIf this can happen to me,â she said, âit could happen to somebody else.â âŠ
I admit I always find it funny when people whose entire business is media give on-the-record quotes that sound this much like the villain of a movie about hosting a charity talent show to save the beloved local library.
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lips that lied
pairing: tara carpenter & female reader
summary: tara makes a drunken mistake at the party you didn't want her to attend.
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Tara didn't mean for it to turn into a fight.
She never did. It was like something inside her took overâthis simmering frustration that she couldn't control, no matter how hard she tried.
The moment someone started telling her what to do or how to live her life, it was like a switch flipped.
She'd hear the words, feel the anger rise, and before she even realized it, she was saying something sharp, defensive.
It had started small, little things that shouldn't have mattered so much. Sam reminding her to take her laundry to her room or nagging her to empty the dishwasher.
Tara knew Sam wasn't trying to push her buttons, but it always felt like she was. The tone Sam usedâthe one laced with authority, like she was the boss of everythingâgrated on Tara's nerves.
It didn't matter that Sam was older, that she'd been through more. Tara wasn't a kid anymore. She didn't need someone hovering over her shoulder, pointing out every little thing she did wrong.
But it wasn't just Sam anymore. The fights had started bleeding into other parts of her life, other relationships. With you. And that hurt more than anything.
You were the one person Tara felt like she could truly be herself around, the one who always had her back, no matter what.
But lately, it felt like every conversation between you two ended the same wayâwith raised voices and lingering tension. And no matter how hard she tried to keep her temper in check, she always ended up getting mad.
She didn't mean it. She didn't intend to lash out at you. But when you brought up the parties, the drinking, the staying out late, it was like a spark to dry tinder. It wasn't the words themselvesâit was the way you said them.
The concern in your voice, the way your brows furrowed just slightly, like you were worried but also disappointed. It made her feel like you didn't trust her, like you thought she was reckless and incapable. And that stung more than she'd ever let on.
Deep down, Tara knew where you were coming from. After everything you'd both been throughâeverything with Ghostfaceâit made sense that you'd be scared, that you'd want to protect her. She understood that.
But she couldn't shake the feeling that your concern came with strings, like it was just another way of trying to control her. Another way of making her feel small, like she couldn't make her own choices without you or Sam hovering over her shoulder.
And maybe it wasn't fair to take it out on you. Maybe it wasn't fair to get angry every time you brought it up. But Tara couldn't help it. The anger came fast and burned hot, and by the time she realized it, the damage was already done.
It was always about the same thing, tooâthe parties, the drinking. Always. You'd look at her like she was throwing her life away, and she'd lash out, throwing up her walls before you could even get a word in.
She hated the look on your face when it happened, the way your shoulders would drop just slightly, like you were trying to hide how much it hurt.
But that only made her angrierâat you, at herself, at everything.
Because she didn't know how to stop it. She didn't know how to stop feeling like this, like everyone she cared about was trying to tell her how to live her life. And she didn't know how to tell you that it wasn't you she was angry atâit was everything else.
Tara had been tryingâreally, she had. There were nights she'd sat on her bed, staring at the ceiling, telling herself she didn't need to go out again. That she could say no the next time her friends invited her to a party. College life wasn't supposed to be about drinking until you blacked out or waking up to half-remembered nights.
That's what you and Sam had told her, over and over. And the worst part? You were right. Tara knew you were right. That's probably why it made her so angry.
She hated the way her stomach twisted every time you brought it up, the way your words stuck in her head like some nagging voice she couldn't shake.
She wasn't proud of some of the nights she'd hadâthe tequila shots that blurred into oblivion, the mornings she woke up with her head pounding and no idea how she got back to her room.
But she didn't want to hear it from you. Not when it already weighed on her enough.
And yet, she'd been trying. Tara hadn't gone to as many parties recently, even when her friends begged her to come out. She told herself she didn't need it, that she didn't need to drown herself in the chaos of booze and loud music just to feel something.
College wasn't about that. You and Sam were right about that too.
But tonight... tonight was Halloween.
The one night of the year where partying didn't feel recklessâit felt expected. It wasn't just about drinking; it was about the costumes, the energy, the way everyone on campus seemed to buzz with excitement for weeks leading up to it.
Tara had spent the last two days scrolling through pictures of her friends' costumes, feeling the first pangs of FOMO creeping in as they texted her plans for the night.
If there was ever a night to drink and party, it was Halloween. That's what everyone kept saying, and deep down, Tara agreed. It wasn't like any other night of the year. This wasn't just some random frat partyâit was a celebration, an excuse to dress up, let loose, and not think about all the heavy stuff for a while. For once, it felt justified.
But there was that nagging voice again. The one that sounded a lot like yours.
You wouldn't see it that way. You never did.
It was part of why she hadn't brought it up yet, why she'd stayed quiet all day when the group chat started blowing up with details about pre-games and house locations. She already knew what you'd say, could hear the conversation playing out in her head like a bad rerun.
Isn't it the same as every other one? You said you were going to cut back, Tara.
She sighed, pulling her phone out and scrolling through the endless stream of messages. It wasn't like she hadn't thought about staying in. There was something comforting about the idea of spending the night with you, cozying up on the couch with a movie while everyone else partied. She liked those nights the most. She liked you the most.
But Halloween only came once a year, and she wasn't ready to let it pass her by.
She had made up her mind hours ago.
Though she hadn't told you yet, and maybe that was unfair. But what was the point? You'd already made your feelings clear about the parties and the drinking, and she wasn't in the mood for another lecture. It wasn't like she needed your permission anyway. Tara had spent all afternoon convincing herself of that, repeating it in her head like a mantra while she got ready.
Now, standing in front of her mirror, she leaned in closer, carefully dragging the eyeliner across her lid with a steady hand. Her music played softly from her speaker as she moved with practiced ease, brushing a shimmery gold shadow over her eyes.
The sound of your footsteps approaching the room made her shoulders tense, but she didn't let it show. She focused on her reflection, keeping her face neutral, as if she hadn't heard you come to the doorway.
You leaned against the frame, your arms crossed loosely over your chest. "Where are you going?" Your voice was casual, but the curiosity behind it was unmistakable.
Tara's eyes flicked to yours in the mirror, her expression calm, as if this were no big deal. "Just a Halloween party," she said, her tone light and nonchalant. She reached for her lipstick, uncapping it and twisting it up. "I was thinking maybe you could come along."
It was true. She wanted you to come.
You didn't answer right away. Tara could feel your hesitation, the way your arms tightened slightly against your body. Finally, you spoke, your voice softer this time. "Oh... I thought we could just stay home and watch a movie. Sam's not home, so it'd just be the two of us."
Tara froze for just a second, the lipstick poised in her hand. She felt the weight of your words settle over the room, quiet but heavy. She hadn't thought about thatâabout how it would've been just you and her tonight, no interruptions, no one else around.
Her gaze flicked back to the mirror, and for a moment, she almost said yes. But the lipstick in her hand reminded her of where her night was already headed, of the costume she'd spent hours putting together.
She sighed quietly, muttering under her breath, "Well, you should've said something sooner, then."
The words were out before she could stop them. She didn't even think about how they'd sound until the silence that followed made her realize just how loud they'd been.
Slowly, she glanced at you again in the mirror, her stomach twisting as she saw the way your expression changedâthe faint flicker of hurt in your eyes, the way your posture straightened as if bracing for something.
Tara clenched her jaw, trying to push down the flicker of anger she could already feel stirring in her chest. She hadn't meant to snapâit just came out wrong. But the way you stood there, looking at her like she'd just let you down, made it so much harder to keep her cool.
She capped the lipstick with a sharp click and turned to face you fully, leaning one hand against the desk behind her. "Are you coming or not?" she asked, her voice clipped, already tinged with irritation.
You hesitated again, and Tara could see the conflict written all over your face. "No," you said finally, your voice quiet but firm. "And honestly... I don't think you should go either."
There it wasâthe thing she'd been waiting for, the thing she was dreading. Your concern, your protectiveness, wrapped up in a polite but unmistakable disapproval.
Tara let out a sharp exhale, shaking her head as she pushed off the desk. "Of course you don't," she muttered under her breath, though it wasn't quite quiet enough to go unnoticed.
She started pacing the room, her hands flexing at her sides as she tried to keep herself in check, but the familiar heat of frustration was already creeping up her neck.
This was how it always startedâyour calm but firm words, her biting back without thinking, and then the inevitable explosion. She could feel it building, that anger she never knew how to stop, the same kind that always reared its head when Sam tried to tell her what to do.
"I don't get why this is such a big deal," Tara said, her tone sharper than she intended. She crossed her arms over her chest, leaning back against the desk with a defensive edge. "It's Halloween. It's not like I do this every night."
"You shouldn't be doing it at all," you replied, your voice quiet but firm, though there was a tension in your jaw that gave away your frustration. "Tara, you know it's not safe. Not afterâ"
"Don't." Her voice was clipped as she cut you off, her eyes narrowing as she shook her head. "Don't bring that up." She pushed herself off the desk, turning her back to you.
Her fingers tightened around the fabric as she stared at the floor. Her chest felt tight, her heart pounding against her ribs like it wanted to break free. She didn't need you to say it. She already knew. The parties, the drinkingâit wasn't safe. It wasn't smart. But she was so tired of being reminded of it, so tired of feeling like she couldn't make a single decision without someone stepping in to tell her it was the wrong one.
"Why do we keep having this same conversation?" Tara asked, spinning around to face you, her voice louder now, almost exasperated. She threw her hands up, the movement sharp and agitated. "Why can't you just trust me?"
"It's not about trust," you said, your voice rising slightly to match hers, though you clearly didn't want to fight. "It's about being realistic, Tara. If something happensâ"
"Nothing is going to happen!" Tara snapped, the words tumbling out before she could stop them. She took a step closer to you, her frustration spilling out in the way her fists clenched at her sides. "Why do you always assume the worst? I'm not some reckless idiot who can't take care of herself!"
You flinched slightly, your lips pressing together into a thin line. But then, your eyes met hers, steady and unflinching. "I don't think you're reckless," you said, your voice softer now but still resolute. "I think you're stubborn. And I think you're angry, and you don't even know why half the time."
Tara's breath hitched, the words cutting deeper than she'd expected. Her jaw tightened, and she let out a humorless laugh, shaking her head as she looked away. "Oh, so now I'm the problem?" she muttered bitterly, pacing a few steps to the other side of the room.
"I didn't say that," you said, your voice still calm, but there was an edge to it nowâa frustration that had been building over time. "But you don't listen, Tara. Not to me. Not to Sam. It's like you don't care how much we worry about you."
She stopped pacing, her head snapping up to meet your gaze. "I didn't ask you to worry," she shot back, her tone colder now. "I didn't ask for either of you to act like I'm some fragile little kid who can't handle herself."
The words hung in the air, heavy and cutting.
"Tara..." Your voice wavered slightly, and for a moment, she saw the hurt flicker in your eyes, the way your shoulders sagged just a bit. "I'm not trying to control you. I'm trying to keep you safe. Because I care about you. Because I love you. And it feels like you don't even care about that."
Her chest tightened at your words, but she pushed the feeling down, burying it beneath her anger. "I do care," she snapped, though her voice cracked slightly. "But I can't keep living my life walking on eggshells because you're scared something might happen. That's not fair."
"And it's fair to me?" you shot back, your voice rising now, the frustration finally spilling over. "To stand here and watch you go out, knowing damn well something could happen to you and I'd be powerless to stop it?"
Tara opened her mouth to respond but found herself at a loss. Her hands fell to her sides, her breathing uneven as she stared at you, the weight of your words sinking in. The anger still simmered beneath her skin, but now it was tangled with guilt, confusion, and something she didn't know how to name.
"It's not safe, Tara," you said, your tone softer this time, like you were pleading with her. Your hands rested at your sides, fingers twitching slightly, a subtle sign of the nerves you were trying to hide. "You drink too much. You're out late, and if something happenedâ"
"Like what?" Tara cut you off sharply, crossing her arms tightly over her chest as she took a step back. Her posture screamed defensiveness, her jaw tightening as she stared you down. "Ghostface? You think I can't handle myself?"
"That's not what I'm saying, and you know it," you replied, exhaling in frustration. Your tone was measured, but there was an edge to it now, like you were walking a fine line between trying to stay calm and letting your own anger slip through. "I just don't understand why you need to go out all the time. Why can't we just stay here? Together?"
Tara's mouth opened, then closed, her eyes flickering to the floor for a brief second before she met your gaze again. Staying here felt suffocating, like the walls of the apartment were closing in on her a little more every day. But she didn't say that. Instead, she threw her hands up in exasperation, her voice rising despite herself.
"I'm not some kid who needs a curfew, okay? I'm not going to stop living my life just because you and Sam want to keep me locked up in bubble wrap!"
Your face fell, the flicker of hurt in your eyes like a knife twisting in Tara's chest. She hadn't meant it like thatâat least, not entirely. But the words were out now, sharp and cutting, and there was no way to take them back.
"Tara..." Your voice was quieter now, but the disappointment in it was unmistakable. It made her stomach churn, but the anger boiling inside her wouldn't let her stop.
"You don't get it," she snapped, doubling down even though part of her wanted to stop. Her hands balled into fists at her sides, her body trembling slightly as she glared at you. "You never want to come with me anyway, so why do you care so much? You're just going to sit here and judge me from the couch like you always do!"
"That's not fair," you said, your voice breaking slightly, but you didn't raise it. Instead, you crossed your arms, your shoulders hunching defensively as you looked at her, the sadness in your eyes more apparent now. "I'm not judging you, Tara. I'm scared for you. There's a difference."
"Scared for me?" she scoffed, rolling her eyes as she took another step back, her arms still crossed like she was shielding herself. "I don't need you to be scared for me. I'm fine! I'm not some helpless little girl who needs you holding my hand every second of the day!"
You blinked, your lips parting like you wanted to say something, but the words didn't come. Tara could see the hurt written all over your face, the way your shoulders slumped like her words had physically knocked the wind out of you.
"Why do you always do this?" she continued, her voice louder now, cracking slightly at the edges. She ran a hand through her hair, pacing a few steps before spinning back around to face you. "Why do you always make me feel like I'm the bad guy? Like I'm the problem?"
"I'm not trying to make you feel like anything," you said, your voice shaking now, though you still kept it calm. "I justâI don't want to lose you, Tara. Is that so hard to understand?"
Tara froze for a moment, your words cutting through her anger like a blade. But instead of softening, the guilt twisting in her gut only fueled the fire.
"You're not going to lose me," she said, her tone sharp, almost dismissive. "But you can't keep treating me like I'm going to break every time I step out the door. That's not fair to me, okay? I'm allowed to have a life."
The silence that followed was heavy, the tension in the room thick enough to choke on. Tara's chest heaved as she stared at you, her fists clenched so tightly that her nails bit into her palms.
You took a step closer, your hands falling to your sides as you looked at her with pleading eyes. "I'm not trying to take away your life, Tara. I just want to be a part of it. And I want you to be safe. That's all."
Tara's hands shook at her sides, her nails digging into her palms as she tried to hold herself together. But the tightness in her chest only grew, her pulse pounding in her ears.
She felt caged, suffocated by the weight of your concern, like every decision she made had to be scrutinized and questioned.
It wasn't fairâit wasn't fair that you could make her feel this way, guilty and cornered, when all she wanted was space to breathe.
"Well, maybe I don't want you to be a part of it!" The words were out before she could stop them, and the second they left her mouth, she wanted to take them back.
Your expression shattered, your eyes widening slightly as you stepped back like she'd physically pushed you. The silence that followed was deafening, the weight of her words hanging heavy in the air.
Tara swallowed hard, her throat tightening as she looked away. "I didn't mean that," she muttered, her voice barely above a whisper. But the damage was already done.
You didn't say anything, your lips pressing into a thin line as you looked down, your hands clenching at your sides.
"I'm going," she said finally, her voice colder now as she grabbed her jacket off the chair. "Don't wait up."
You finally opened your mouth at that, your voice trembling as you took a hesitant step forward. "Tara, wait, I'llââ
But you were interrupted by the sharp slam of the door.
Which Tara slammed behind her harder than she meant to, the sharp sound echoing in the hallway. She paused for a moment, her chest heaving as the anger slowly began to ebb, leaving guilt in its place. She rubbed a hand over her face, muttering a quiet curse under her breath.
She did feel bad. She hated the look on your face, the way your shoulders had slumped, like her words had taken something out of you.
But going back now? That would only prove your pointâthat she couldn't handle herself. Tara wasn't going to let that happen.
Her boots clicked against the pavement as she made her way down the street, her jacket pulled tightly around her. The city was alive with Halloween energy, groups of costumed people spilling out of bars and clubs, laughter and music filling the air. It should've made her feel better, reminded her why she was doing this. Instead, it only made her stomach twist.
By the time she reached the house, the bass from the music inside was already vibrating through the sidewalk. The door swung open as someone stumbled out, nearly knocking into her, and Tara slipped past them without a word.
Inside, the party was in full swing. The living room was packed with people, costumes ranging from elaborate to lazy crowding every corner. The air was thick with the smell of alcohol and sweat, the music loud enough to drown out her thoughts. Perfect.
The first thing she did was head for the kitchen, weaving through the crowd with practiced ease. She grabbed a red solo cup from the counter and poured herself a drink, the burn of the cheap vodka barely registering as she tipped it back and swallowed half in one go.
Her shoulders relaxed slightly, the warmth of the alcohol spreading through her chest. Tara grabbed another cupâthis time mixing it with whatever mixer was nearbyâand made her way back to the main room, the tension in her body slowly unwinding.
"Tara!" Anika's voice cut through the noise, and Tara turned to see her standing near the couch, Mindy by her side. Both of them were grinning, their costumes half-wrinkled from the chaos of the party.
"Hey!" Tara forced a smile, lifting her drink in a half-hearted salute as she made her way over.
"Look at you!" Mindy said, smirking as she gave Tara a once-over. "All dressed up and ready to party. Didn't think you were coming."
"Changed my mind," Tara replied casually, taking another sip of her drink as she leaned against the wall.
Anika nudged her playfully, her own drink sloshing slightly in her hand. "Glad you did. It's not a party without you."
Tara chuckled softly, her smile feeling a little more real now. The noise, the crowd, the alcoholâit was a distraction, exactly what she needed.
Anika shook her head, grinning as she sipped her drink. "Where's Y/N? I thought you two were hanging out tonight."
Mindy shot Tara a knowing look, raising her drink to her lips as she waited for the response.
Tara stiffened, her grip tightening slightly on her cup before she masked it with a shrug. "She didn't feel like coming."
"Really?" Anika frowned. "She seemed excited about Halloween the other day."
"She had other plans," Tara said quickly, brushing it off as she took another sip of her drink. "It's not a big deal."
Anika's brows furrowed slightly, but she didn't push. Mindy, however, smirked as she leaned closer. "Trouble in paradise?"
"Shut up," Tara muttered, rolling her eyes as she took a long drink.
Mindy laughed, holding her hands up in mock surrender. "Alright, alright. Just saying."
"Okay, but seriously," Mindy said, her tone conspiratorial as she leaned closer, clearly trying to change the subject. "Who do you think has the worst costume here? My vote's on the guy in the banana suit.â
Tara snorted, the tension in her chest loosening a little more as she let herself fall into the moment, pushing everything else to the back of her mind.
For now, this was enough.
But it wasn't for long.
The drinks went down too easily tonight, one after the other, the burn of the alcohol soon replaced by a numbing buzz that made Tara's limbs feel weightless. She wasn't keeping trackâshe never didâbut by the time she was halfway through her fourth drink, the world around her had already started to blur.
It was worse than usual. She could feel it, the familiar dizziness settling in her head, the way her balance wavered slightly every time she shifted her weight. But she didn't care. She couldn't care.
Every time she closed her eyes, she saw your faceâthe way your voice had cracked when you said, "I just don't want to lose you." The guilt she'd managed to bury earlier was bubbling back to the surface, and the only way to shove it down again was to keep drinking.
By the time she reached for her fifth cup, her hands were unsteady. Somewhere in the back of her mind, a voice told her to stop, that this was too much, too fast. But that voice sounded a lot like you, and Tara didn't want to hear it.
She threw back the drink anyway, wincing as it went down harder this time, the sweetness of the mixer barely masking the sharpness of the alcohol. The room spun slightly when she set the cup down, and she reached out to steady herself on the edge of the counter.
"Hey, you good?" someone asked, but Tara didn't bother turning to look. She waved them off with a muttered "Yeah, fine," before pushing herself away from the counter.
She stumbled back into the main room, the crowd swallowing her whole. Anika and Mindy had been here a minute agoâshe was sure of itâbut now they were nowhere to be seen.
God, she was drunk. Too drunk.
She tried to push through the sea of people, her eyes darting around the room in search of her friends. Her chest tightened when she couldn't spot them, panic starting to creep in around the edges of her alcohol-fueled haze.
Someone bumped into her, spilling a bit of their drink onto her jacket, and she spun around, her frustration spilling out in a slurred, "Watch it!" The person just rolled their eyes and moved on, leaving Tara standing there, unsteady and alone in the middle of the chaos.
Her head was pounding now, the music too loud, the lights too bright. She fumbled for her phone, pulling it out of her pocket to call Anika or Mindy, but her fingers felt clumsy, and she nearly dropped it twice before managing to open her contacts.
No answer.
Tara swallowed hard, her throat burning from the alcohol and something else she didn't want to name. The room felt smaller now, the walls closing in as the reality of the situation began to settle over her. She'd lost her friends. She was drunker than she'd ever been. And she had no idea what to do next.
The air in the crowded living room was stifling, thick with the mingling scents of sweat, spilled drinks, and cheap perfume.
Her head was swimming, the pounding bass vibrating in her chest like a second heartbeat. She pressed a hand to her temple, grimacing as the alcohol buzz threatened to tip her into full-on dizziness.
Her throat burned, dry and aching from the string of drinks she'd knocked back earlier. She needed water. Something cold to clear her head and keep her upright. The thought became a singular focus, cutting through the haze. Just water. If she could get to the kitchen, maybe she could think straight again.
The dimly lit hallway leading to it felt like a challenge course, bodies crowding every step of the way. Tara squeezed past a couple leaning against the wall and miscalculated her footing as her balance wavered. Before she could stop herself, she collided into someone with enough force to send her stumbling back.
"Whoa there," the guy said, his hands coming up instinctively to catch her by the shoulders.
Tara blinked, disoriented, her face heating from the embarrassment and the alcohol swirling in her system. "Sorry," she muttered, trying to straighten herself as her vision cleared enough to see who she'd bumped into.
Frankie. Of course.
He smirked, letting his hands drop but not stepping back. "Tara Carpenter, right?" His tone carried a mix of recognition and amusement, as though the universe had handed him this moment just for fun.
"Yeah," she said, brushing her hair back as she tried to shake off the drunken haze clouding her thoughts. "Sorry, I wasn'tâ"
"Looking where you were going?" he teased, his grin widening.
She rolled her eyes but couldn't help the faint curve of a smile tugging at her lips. "Something like that."
Frankie didn't move away, his presence lingering a little too close for what might have been polite. He tilted his head, giving her a once-over with that same smirk, his dark eyes glinting under the dim light.
"You seem like you've had a good time tonight," he said, his voice light but edged with something Tara couldn't quite place.
She shrugged, brushing imaginary lint off her sleeve as a distraction. "It's a party," she said, aiming for casual. "That's kind of the point, isn't it?"
Frankie chuckled, the sound low and smooth. "True. But you look like you might need a breather. Want some water or...?"
Tara raised an eyebrow, glancing at him from the corner of her eye. She wasn't sure if he was being considerate or just trying to prolong the conversation. Either way, she crossed her arms, leaning her hip against the counter to steady herself.
"I was about to get one," she admitted, her voice more defensive than she intended.
"Smart move," Frankie said, stepping around her to open the fridge. He pulled out a bottle and held it up with a crooked smile. "Ladies first?"
Her gaze flicked between him and the bottle, her lips quirking in a faint smirk of her own. "Thanks," she said, taking it from him and twisting the cap off.
She took a long sip, her throat easing from the burn of the earlier drinks. The water was cold, sharp against her tongue, and for a moment, she let herself focus on thatâon the relief of it.
"So," Frankie said, leaning back against the counter as he watched her. "What brings you to this madhouse tonight? Thought you weren't much for these kinds of things."
Tara bristled slightly at the question, shifting her weight to the other foot. "Why does everyone assume that?" she asked, raising an eyebrow at him. "I can have fun, you know."
He grinned again, but it was softer this time, almost like he was testing the waters. "Didn't mean anything by it," he said. "Just... you seem more low-key. Not the type to down four drinks and stumble into strangers."
Tara rolled her eyes, though she couldn't entirely stop the heat rising to her cheeks. "Guess I'm full of surprises," she said, taking another sip of water.
Her thoughts drifted briefly as the alcohol in her system dulled her usual defenses. It felt nice, talking to someone without the tension simmering beneath the surface. No fights, no accusations, just... this. A moment where she wasn't angry or being scolded. She leaned into the counter, letting herself relax slightly.
Tara let her gaze drift over Frankie for a moment, her vision slightly unfocused from the alcohol but sharp enough to take in the details. His short, dark curls framed his face, and there was something effortlessly casual about himâlike he knew exactly how to play the part of the guy who didn't care too much but somehow still caught everyone's attention.
A smirk tugged at the corners of his mouth, a fixture she doubted ever left, and the faintest trace of a beard shadowed his jawline.
She took another sip of water, using the motion to cover the way her eyes lingered. It wasn't like she was interestedânot really. He had a reputation, and not the good kind. But he was here. He was talking to her. And with her friends somewhere out in the chaos of the party, who else was she supposed to talk to?
Tara knew she was drunk, the buzz coursing through her veins a constant reminder. It made everything feel a little too easy, a little too warm.
Her thoughts were slippery, darting from one thing to another before she could catch them. But still, she could look, couldn't she? That wasn't a crime.
"Your friends ditch you or something?" Frankie's voice cut through the fog in her head, his tone light but curious.
She shrugged, her fingers curling around the neck of the water bottle. "Something like that," she said, leaning a little more heavily against the counter. "They'll turn up eventually."
"Mm," he hummed, his smirk deepening. "Guess that makes me the lucky one, then."
Tara raised an eyebrow at that, her lips twitching into a faint smile despite herself. "Lucky?" she echoed, her tone teasing.
"Yeah," he said, his gaze flickering over her like he was sizing her up. "I get to keep you company."
She rolled her eyes, though the warmth in her chest spread a little further. "You're full of it," she muttered, but there wasn't any bite to her words.
He shrugged, unbothered. "Maybe. But you're still standing here, aren't you?"
She didn't answer right away, instead glancing at the door that led back into the main room. The thump of the music bled through, muffled but still loud enough to make her head ache. She could leave. She could walk back out there, try to find Mindy and Anika and pretend she wasn't standing here with him.
But instead, she stayed.
"You're right," she said finally, her tone dry. "Guess I am."
Her lips curved into a smirk, matching the one Frankie had been wearing since the moment she stumbled into him. Her steps were slow but deliberate as she closed the distance between them, her eyes locked on his.
The noise of the party around them faded into the background, leaving only the faint thrum of the bass vibrating through the walls.
She didn't know why she was moving closer, or what exactly she was hoping to find in the glint of amusement in his eyes, but she didn't stop herself either. Maybe it was the alcohol coursing through her veins, softening the sharp edges of her usual caution. Maybe it was the simmering anger she hadn't been able to shake since she left the apartment.
Either way, the part of her that usually screamed to think twice was silent, and she wasn't about to argue.
Frankie didn't step back as she approached. If anything, his smirk widened, the corners of his lips curling with a confidence that might have been off-putting if she were sober. But she wasn't sober, and the alcohol told her it was a good thing. His posture remained relaxed, leaning slightly against the counter, but his eyes followed her every move.
Tara stopped just close enough for the air between them to feel charged, her gaze flickering down to the beer in his hand before returning to his face.
Her heart thudded in her chest, though she couldn't tell if it was from the alcohol coursing through her veins or the strange electricity in the air between them. Her balance wavered slightly as she shifted onto her tiptoes, her hands briefly brushing the counter for support before she reached up.
The decision wasn't calculatedâit wasn't even really a decision. It just happened. Her lips pressed to his, soft but insistent, the faint bitterness of beer on his mouth mingling with the warmth of his breath.
For the briefest moment, her mind went completely quiet. The noise of the party faded into the background. The tension from earlier, the argument, the mess of emotionsânone of it mattered. Her chest felt lighter, as if she'd found a fleeting relief she hadn't even known she was searching for.
Frankie responded almost instantly, his lips moving against hers with a confidence that matched his earlier demeanor. His hand slid to her waist, steadying her as she leaned further into him. The kiss was firm, and there was no hesitation on his part. It was easy, natural, and for a fleeting second.
But then, just as quickly, he pulled away, breaking the connection with a soft sound that felt too loud in the charged silence between them. Tara blinked up at him, her breath hitching slightly as she tried to process the shift.
Frankie's expression was a mixture of amusement and something darker, his brows furrowed slightly even as a small, lopsided smirk played on his lips. His eyes scanned her face like he was trying to solve a puzzle, his voice low and teasing when he finally spoke. "Don't you have a girlfriend?"
The words hung in the air, sharp and pointed, but they didn't land the way they should have. Tara's mind didn't snap to you, to your laugh or your smile or the way you always made her feel safe. It didn't even flicker with guilt. Instead, the question felt almost absurd, like it wasn't meant for her.
Her expression shifted, her brows knitting together as her lips parted slightly in confusion. She stared at Frankie, her drunken mind slow to process the accusation. "No," she said finally, the word slipping out with a sharp edge, like the idea itself offended her.
She barely gave him time to react. His smirk widened slightly, like he wasn't entirely convinced, but she didn't care. She didn't want to care. She pushed up onto her toes again, her hands gripping the edge of the counter for balance, and kissed him once more.
This time, Frankie didn't hesitate. His hands found her waist again, pulling her closer as he kissed her back with more force. Tara leaned into him, her body moving instinctively as her mind quieted further. The heat of his touch and the pressure of his lips were the only things she could focus on, drowning out the buzz of the party and the alcohol swirling in her system.
The kiss deepened, and the edges of the room blurred as the world around them fell away. Tara didn't think. She didn't analyze. She just let herself go, letting the moment sweep her up completely, letting the alcohol and adrenaline guide her. For now, it was easier not to remember. Easier not to think about anything else.
It didn't feel good.
That was the thought that struck her, sharp and insistent, as the kiss deepened. There was a hollowness in her chest, a feeling she couldn't quite place that refused to be drowned out by the alcohol. But it was supposed to feel good. That's what she told herself. This was what she came here for, wasn't it? To forget. To escape. To lose herself in something that didn't matter.
Frankie's hands gripped her waist, pulling her closer, and Tara kissed him harder, as if forcing the moment to feel like it was enough would make it so. But that sensation in her stomachâthe one that twisted and knotted itself tighter with every secondâdidn't leave.
Her lips moved against his with a kind of desperation, but the spark she expected, the relief she thought she'd find, didn't come. The kiss was warm, his touch steady, but it wasn't enough to chase away the heaviness sitting in her chest. It wasn't enough to erase the lingering anger, the ache she refused to name, or the faint sense of wrongness pressing at the edges of her mind.
Tara told herself it was the alcohol. That the burn in her stomach and the dull ache creeping up her spine was just the vodka catching up to her. But it wasn't. It was something else entirely, something she didn't want to think about.
So she pushed it down, ignored it. She kissed Frankie like it was a solution, like if she just went through the motions hard enough, it would fix the uneasy feeling clawing at her insides. She tilted her head, her fingers gripping the counter for balance, and kissed him like she meant it.
But no matter how hard she tried, that feeling in her stomach didn't leave.
And then.
It hit her all at once, like a punch to the gut.
You.
Her body froze against Frankie's, the haze of alcohol momentarily lifting as her mind snapped into sharp, almost painful focus. She did have a girlfriend. A girlfriend who was waiting at home for her.
A girlfriend who had looked at her earlier with worry etched into her features, asking her to stay, asking her to talk.
A girlfriend who wanted nothing more than to spend the night curled up on the couch with her, watching movies and laughing at whatever cheesy dialogue made its way onto the screen.
She had you.
And she'd told Frankie she didn't. She'd looked him in the eyes, as if the very idea of you didn't exist, and said no. No. She'd kissed him, lied to him, and to herself, and for what?
Her breath caught in her throat as the weight of it all came crashing down.
Tara shoved Frankie away abruptly, panic tightening every muscle in her body. The force sent her stumbling back a step, and Frankie staggered too, looking utterly baffled.
"What the fuck?" he spat, his voice sharp and angry, his brows furrowing in disbelief.
Tara barely heard him. Her chest heaved as she scanned the kitchen, her eyes darting to the edges of the room, searching frantically. Had anyone seen them? Was someone standing there, phone in hand, ready to immortalize her mistake forever?
Her hands trembled as her gaze swept over the crowd, her heartbeat thundering in her ears. She didn't know if it was the alcohol, the fear, or the overwhelming realization of what she'd just done, but the world tilted slightly as her mind raced, desperate to make sense of what had just happenedâand to undo it, even though she knew she couldn't.
Tara's eyes darted wildly across the room, desperate to anchor herself to something, anything that would quiet the storm brewing inside her. One of the doors creaked open as someone stumbled in, but she was already turning toward the noise filtering in from the main room.
Her gaze followed the chaotic scene beyond the doorwayâthe crowd swaying to the beat of the music, cups raised in the air, bodies pressed too close together.
She spotted a couple making out against the wall, their faces blurred together in the dim light, oblivious to the world around them. Nearby, a guy in a cheap pirate costume laughed loudly, spilling his drink over himself as his friends roared in drunken amusement. It was all so normal, so loud, so suffocating.
And then, her breath hitched.
There, just beyond the shifting sea of people, was a figure standing motionless. Someone was looking straight at her, their eyes locked onto hers.
At first, it didn't register. Her vision swam, the blur of tears and alcohol distorting the scene in front of her. But that silhouetteâthat hair, those familiar featuresâsomething about it cut through the haze, stabbing straight into her chest.
Her pulse quickened as the figure stepped forward, just slightly, enough for the light to catch their face.
It was you.
Tara froze.
It was youâyour eyes, your expression. The heartbreak painted so clearly across your face, it made her stomach twist painfully. And then there was your costumeâsomething hastily thrown together, it seemed. A loose shirt that was supposed to pass as part of the look, a small prop in your hand that didn't match the theme of the party. It was clear you hadn't cared what you looked like. You had come here for her.
Tara felt like she was going to be sick.
You had seen it. Tara could tell by the look in your eyes, the way they shimmered with unshed tears, the way your brows furrowed ever so slightly, as if trying to make sense of what you'd witnessed.
You had seen her kiss him. Probably seen her lie, even if you hadn't heard the words. The betrayal was written all over your face, the silent confirmation that Tara's worst fearâthe one she hadn't even allowed herself to fully acknowledgeâwas now her reality.
You didn't say a word, didn't move. You just stood there, your shoulders slightly slumped, the light from the room casting harsh shadows over the raw hurt etched into your features. Your lips parted like you wanted to speak, but no sound came out.
She couldn't breathe.
Her body trembled, her legs feeling like they'd give out at any moment. The guilt crashed over her in waves, suffocating her. Tara's chest tightened as she stared back at you, her lips parting uselessly as though she could explainâcould somehow undo what you must have seen.
Her mind raced, replaying the moment just minutes before when she'd lied, when she'd kissed someone who wasn't you.
The taste of Frankie's beer still lingered on her lips, and it made her stomach churn. How could she? How could she do this to youâthe one person who cared for her, loved her, even when she didn't deserve it?
Her guilt clawed at her, sharp and unrelenting. She could feel the weight of it in her chest, see it reflected in your eyes.
You were here, dressed in something last-minute, probably feeling out of place in the loud, chaotic party. You'd come for her, likely because you'd wanted to talk, to make things better after the argument. She could see the effort, the love in the way you'd shown up for her. And she'd thrown it away.
Tara's breathing turned shallow, her hands shaking at her sides. She couldn't move, couldn't speak. The words she wanted to say died in her throat, swallowed by the lump of regret that had taken over.
Her lips trembled, but no sound came. The only thing she could do was stand there, staring at the one person she swore she'd never hurt, knowing she already had.
Tara felt as though her chest was caving in, the weight of her actions pressing down until it became nearly unbearable. Her stomach churned violently, guilt sinking its claws into her as her mind replayed every small detail of the moment before. The way her lips had moved against his. The lie she'd so easily let slip from her mouth.
And now, you. Standing there, looking at her like she was a strangerâa stranger who had just torn your heart in two.
Her throat tightened painfully, a lump of emotion rising that she couldn't swallow down no matter how hard she tried. Her head buzzed with alcohol, with shame, with the sudden, overwhelming clarity of what she'd just done.
You weren't supposed to be here. You were supposed to be at home, waiting for her like you always did, with that soft patience only you seemed to have for her. But you weren't.
You were here, in front of her, and she had ruined everything.
A tear slipped down your cheek, catching the dim light as it fell, and it was like a knife slicing through her chest.
She watched as you exhaled shakily, your shoulders rising and falling with effort, as if just standing there was almost too much.
And then you nodded. Slowly, your head dipped once, twice, as if acknowledging what she'd done, what she was.
That nearly undid her.
Your lips pressed into a small, trembling smileâforced, broken, and so soft it shattered her. You tried. Even in the moment where she'd failed you in the worst way, you still tried. And that was what gutted her the most.
You didn't say a word.
You turned around, your movements slow and deliberate, like it physically hurt to walk away.
And Tara stood there, rooted in place, her hands trembling so violently at her sides she could feel her nails biting into her palms. Her chest heaved, her breath shallow and uneven. Every fiber of her being screamed at her to move, to follow you, to grab your hand and beg for forgiveness.
She wanted to run after you, to stop you before you disappeared into the night. She wanted to scream your name, to throw herself at your feet and tell you it was all a mistake, that she only loved you. You. Always you.
But she couldn't move. She was frozen, locked in place by her own fear, her own shame.
And you walked out.
The sound of the front door clicking shut in the distance echoed like a death knell in her ears. Tara felt the walls closing in around her, the party suddenly too loud, too bright, too much. And yet, all she could do was stand there, watching the spot where you'd been, her chest hollow and her heart splintering apart.
She had lost you. And it was her fault.
Tara was left staring at the place you just stood, knowing she'd just destroyed the one thing that ever felt like home.
#jenna ortega x reader#tara carpenter#tara carpenter x reader#vada cavell x reader#jenna ortega#jenna ortega x fem!reader#wednesday addams x reader#mabel x reader#melissa barrera x reader#sam carpenter
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what about pitfighter vi who wants nothing to do with virgins because she thinks they get too attached, and then reader is a virgin but vi really wants to fuck her anyway
"Come on, you're telling me you like used goods?"
Vi rolls her eyes and takes a swig of her beer.
"It's not used goods. I like a woman who knows what she likes and doesn't get too attached. Virgins get one taste of you and fall in love. I'm looking to fuck, not get married."
"You're thinking about it too much! It's kinda fun when they get attached. They're like little puppies."
"Nah, I'd rather stay away from that shit. I don't got time for the puppy attachment bullshit. I'm good.
That's how Vi felt until she met you.
Vi walks into the club and scans around for a nice piece of ass. She walks further into the club and sits at the bar. Waving the bartender down, he slides her a drink that she knocks back in a second.
She looks around again and spots you. Immediately, she knows who she wants to fuck tonight.
When she sees you, you're spinning upside down, naked, with your legs split in the air. Your bikini top, G-string, and dollar bills lay thrown across the stage as you dance. You look mesmerizing and delectable.
Vi walks over to the host and requests a lap dance from you.
After you finish your set, the host tells you Vi wants you. She points to the room Vi's waiting for you in and wishes you good luck.
You stalk towards the room and open the door with a smile.
"Hello, Vi?"
She nods and stares at you like a predator checking out its prey.
"Thank you for booking a dance with me. Do you want anything to drink before we get started? I wanna make sure you're comfortable." You say flirtatiously.
She shakes her head no and allows you to begin the dance. It feels like the entire world has disappeared as your bend over and shake your ass in her face.
When you turn back around to grind against her again, your faces come so close that your noses touch. The energy between you two is magnetic. As you two continue to breathe each other in, a knock comes to the door, signaling the end of the dance.
"I guess times up, huh?" Vi whispers.
"Yeah."
Silence passes by before you speak.
"My shift is over in 10 minutes if you wanna take this to my place.
Vi contemplates your offer, before agreeing.
"I'll be at the bar waiting."
A small smile graces your face as you both leave the room.
The host approaches you with a knowing look.
"Did little Ms. Emo Girl enjoy her lap dance?"
"Very much so. We're about to take it to my apartment." You say sweetly.
With a loud laugh, the host says, "Okay, girl, get you some! I want to hear all about it tomorrow."
"Oh, trust me, you will!"
You both wave your goodbyes as you walk to Vi and leave the club with her.
The air is filled with anticipation as you both make your way to your apartment.
Finally, enter your apartment and immediately jump on each other's bones.
Vi kisses and sucks on your neck as moans flow out of your mouth.
She quickly drops to her knees, removes your panties, and immediately starts to devour your pussy.
Loud groans fill the air as she sucks on your clit and sticks her tongue in your pussy. She sticks two fingers into your pussy and fingers you as she continues to eat you out. Vi stands up and leads you to the bedroom. She manhandles you onto the bed and starts to unbuckle her pants.
"Wait...wait." You plead as you put your hands on her belt buckle.
"I've...I've never done this before."
Vi laughs in disbelief and says, "You joking, right?"
You avoid her eyes and shrug your shoulders.
"Oh my God, you're serious. You're a fucking virgin."
"It's not my fault! I've...I don't get out much."
"You're literally a fucking stripper! How are you still a virgin?!" Vi exclaims.
"Me being a dancer has nothing to do with having sex or my virginity! It's a job just like any other and has nothing to do with my personal life." You say defiantly as you lean back on your hands.
"You know what? I don't even fucking care. I just wanna fuck. You take strap or what?" Vi asks with a raised brow.
"I mean, I...I guess. I've always wanted to try it." You whisper out shyly.
With a hum, Vi drops her pants and underwear simultaneously, revealing a thick 8-inch purple dildo attached to the strap.
"Is that gonna fit?" You question nervously.
"We'll find out in a few seconds, won't we? You got lube?" Vi responds
"It's in the first drawer."
Vi leans over, opens the drawer, and grabs the lube. She squirts it on the dildo and lines herself up with your pussy.
"You ready?"
You nod and relax as Vi slides inside you.
"Fuck." You breathe out.
Vi slowly fucks you until she feels you get comfortable.
"Go faster."
Vi smiles and quickens her pace. She lifts your legs, presses them to your chest, and fucking you deep into the mattress.
Moans, groans, and curses fill the air as Vi takes your virginity.
"Damn, your pussy's so tight. You wanted this bad, huh. Fucking whore."
"I'm a whore." You whine out as you clutch Vi's arms.
You feel a sting on both of your asscheeks as Vi delivers a slap to them.
"I love a girl who knows what she is."
Vi begins to rub little circles on your clit as she drives her hips faster into you.
"Fuck! Fuck! Fuck! Fuck! I'm gonna cum!"
"Go ahead and cum. Cum on my dick." Vi grunts out.
One, two, three thrusts, and you unravel. Your body shakes as ecstasy overcomes you.
"Oh my God, I've never come like that in my life." You say with a heavy breath.
Vi chuckles as she removes the strap from you and helps you clean up.
After she helps you clean up, she heads towards the door. You quickly chase after her.
"Wait!"
Vi turns around with a raised eyebrow and an expectant face.
"What's your number? I wanna do this again sometime."
"555-876-0982. Don't expect a relationship, though. I'm strictly here to fuck."
You quickly write the number down and nod your head in agreement.
"Yeah, no, no, no. I want the same strictly fucking. No strings attached."
With a low 'mhmm,' Vi walks out of your apartment and heads home.
"What a fucking woman."
#arcane fanfic#vi arcane#arcane smut#violet arcane#arcane x reader#vi x reader#vi x you#vi x fem reader#arcane vi x reader#asks#pit fighter vi
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can you write a squid game fic or head cannons of other characters finding out the reader is struggling with self harm? If so, thank you and I understand it is a sensitive topics and may be uncomfortable to write.
Squid Game season 2 characters x reader who struggles with sh
Featuring: Thanos / Player 230, Se-mi / Player 380, Cho Hyun-ju / Player 120, Nam-gyu / Player 124, Kang Dae-ho / Player 388, Park Min-su / Player 125, Kim Jun-hee / Player 222
(Trigger) Warnings: Mention/Talk about sh, depression, and things of this nature, this is comfort/angst, not proof read (english isn't my first language)
Summary: Basically what the ask says
A/N: hey! I hope this is what you imagined, sorry if some of these are oocđđ
Thanos / Player 230
àȘâ⎠Before he really knew, he'd constantly make your life a living hell, basically making fun of your shyness. He'd make certain comments to which he knew you wouldn't react to or would try to persuade you to vote in favor of the game containing.
àȘâ⎠You'd constantly tell him off and to leave you alone. It didn't really help, though. Thanos would just sit down next to you and talk your ear off about what he wanted to do with that prize money.
àȘâ⎠When you stood up to leave, rollung your eyes at him, he grabbed you by your wrist.
"Hey, where do you think you're going?" Thanos blurted out, giving you an offended glare. "You know, it's really rude to just leave a conversation like that." When you tried to get out of his grip, your sleeves rode up your arm, revealing scars you weren't proud of or wanted him to see. When you realized it, he did too, immediately letting go of you.
àȘâ⎠Since Thanos knew what it meant to struggle with mental health he did actually leave you alone for now. But, after the next game, he approached you again and sat down next to you. "I'm sorry about yesterday." he said, patting you on the back.
àȘâ⎠He related to you in a way, but didn't want to ask you about what went on in your private life. Now you just appreciated that he seemingly didn't overstep any boundaries anymore and even checked up from you every now and then.
Se-mi / Player 380
àȘâ⎠You and her had been a duo ever since she came up to you and complimented your looks. Even if you denied it or not, she'd repeat it multiple times, winning you over with her charm quickly.
àȘâ⎠You two had the same mindset on a lot of things, originally voting 'O', thinking you were able to survive one more lousy game. That game was a death scare. Nothing about it was funny anymore. You appreciated your life too much these days to die like this.
àȘâ⎠When the second favor didn't go your way, both Se-mi and you now voting 'X', you felt helpless. One night, the two of you were sitting on her bed, just talking about your past and how you got to this point in the first place. While Se-mi was more secluded, only telling you that 'there are so much worse things she had to face when she got out' you trusted her enough to tell her about a sensitive time in your life.
"I'm not really secretive about this anymore," you pushed your sleeves up, revealing faded scars along your forearm, "but yeah. It was all pretty fucked up. The whole debt thing didn't make it any better." Se-mi looked at you with raised eyebrows, her fingers tracing the lines on your wrists. "I knew you were strong. Don't worry, we'll get out of here."
àȘâ⎠She put in double the work to protect you â She just wanted you to start a better life with that money and be happy, free from debt and all of it.
Cho Hyun-ju / Player 120
àȘâ⎠Hyun-ju noticed from the start that you were more secluded, more prone to cry, panicked easily. It was clear to her that you were struggling with this situation, perhaps even more than that. She made it her task to help you as much as she could, comfort you and keep you close to her and her group.
àȘâ⎠You'd often rant to her and tell her what bothered you after she reassured her she'd take care of anything possible. Hyun-ju was the anker you needed in this shithole and you just appreciated her very much. Everything she did seemed to be out of genuine interest and not just to gain your trust and abuse it.
àȘâ⎠Accidentally, Hyun-ju did catch a glimpse of the scars you were so desperate to hide. She didn't mention it, feeling like it wasn't her place to comment on it. Her heart did break for you, though.
àȘâ⎠From then on, she made sure to speak softer to you and distract you from all the horror around you.
Hyun-ju hugged you tightly against her chest, her arms engulfing your figure. "Tonight things could get a bit scary," she mumbled into your hair while she rested her face against your head, "I just want you to know now rather than find out later. I'll keep you safe, you know that." You just nodded, reciprocating the hug after a few moments.
Nam-gyu / Player 124
àȘâ⎠When he found out, as you didn't make the effort to hide them or anything, he did refrain from provoking you in any way. Nam-gyu related, as he considered his drug use not to be the best thing he could do to his body.
àȘâ⎠Both of you hung around in the same group, since Thanos really wanted you on his team, constantly giving you compliments and flirting with you. It annoyed him to a degree, scoffing everytime Thanos tried to talk to him about how pretty you were, how much he wanted you, give you the world. In Nam-gyu's opinion, he didn't get you.. didn't get what you went through, at all.
àȘâ⎠One evening before lights out, the two of you were teasing each other about something and laughed together â something that rarely occured amongst the other players.
"Want me to show you something?" Nam-gyu asked you, leaning a bit closer. Chuckling, you replied with a 'mhm' and watched him pull up the sleeve of his jacket, revealing skin tracks along the inside of his elbow. You raised an eyebrow: "Oh?" You took his arm to get a closer look, tracing his skin with your fingertips. "Well, we all have our stories, huh?" The man nodded at your wrists, making you look at them too, like you didn't already know what he meant.
àȘâ⎠The both of you grew close to each other, much to his amuse. He was a junkie, you were depressed.. it's like a disaster in the making. But, you didn't care. He was sweet and weirdly kind to you â Not in the way Thanos was. You made sure to hug Nam-gyu a few times more after that, in case it could be the last timd you'd get to do that.
Kang Dae-ho / Player 388
àȘâ⎠You were glad to be on Gi-hun's team from the start, since Dae-ho and you got along really well. As a former Marine, which he was super proud of obviously, he declared he'd protect you immediately after you met, making you laugh.
àȘâ⎠He was kind, strong and funny, but maybe a bit oblivious at times.
During the six-legged pentathlon, you two sat next to each other, cheering the current active team on. Yelling and screaming filled the area as they crossed the finish lind just in time, making everyone erupt in cheers. Dae-ho immediately hugged you with joy, excited to see the five live another day, at least. After pulling back witha laugh, you gave him a small high five with your sleeve rolled back. When noticing scars along your wrist and forearm, the former marine gasped pretty loudly. "What?" you asked with genuine concerning, fearing something was wrong with you. "Oh, I'm so sorry," Dae-ho pulled your sleeve back over your arm. "Dude," he looked at you with wide eyes "it's fine." You needed to hold back a laugh.
àȘâ⎠Dae-ho felt so bad to havs accidentally seen something you've been struggling with, that he couldn't help but apologize profusely. You repeated to him that it wasn't a big deal for you and that you were working on this problem, but he didn't stop nonetheless.
àȘâ⎠You thought it was cute how much he seemed to care for you and how often he came up to you just to tell you that he appreciated you. And Dae-ho did, he didn't just say that to make you feel better.
Park Min-su / Player 125
àȘâ⎠Min-su is just shy over all. When he noticed it, he wouldn't say a thing. He'd be dead silent, maybe even a bit scared to talk to you. He was just scared he'd make it awkward, somehow hinting that he knew about your scars. Min-su was just someone who overthought a lot and even you noticed it.
àȘâ⎠After a bit, it annoyed you â The sudden lack of his presence next to you, the fact that he wouldn't properly talk to you anymore, it was all just weird and confusing. So, you decided to ask him directly.
"Did I do something wrong?" your voice wasn't stern, but Min-su could tell that you were kind of upset. "Ah, no-" he quickly replied back, shaking his head, "it's really not you!" He looked at you with his typical innocent face, making it hard for you to keep pressing him about this matter. "Then what is it, seriously?"
àȘâ⎠He explained what he saw and said that he just felt so sorry. Well, at least he didn't speak to you because he didn't want to hurt or upset you, which was really thoughtful.
àȘâ⎠You'd expect that he would now be the one to comfort you or something, but no it was the complete opposite. Min-su seemed to worried about you and kept asking you how you were feeling or if anything bothered you. You had to keep reassuring him that those times were in the past and that he didn't have to be so worried.
àȘâ⎠It was really cute though, so you let it slide.
Kim Jun-hee / Player 222 (implied fem!reader)
àȘâ⎠Since Jun-hee and you were pretty close in age, you two had found each other right away. You kept telling her that she needed more protection, or at least an ally like you, on her side sincs she was pregnant. You weren't really serious about that, just chuckling when bringing it up, but ut definitely made Jun-hee trust you a lot more. It was a critical situation she was in and she was glad to have you by her side.
àȘâ⎠You even banged on the door in the middle of the night to make the guards take her to the bathroom when she was to shy to do it herself.
As ths pink guard brought you to the womens bathroom, Jun-hee held onto you, clearly being in pain. A few minutes later, you were washing your hands and tried to fix yourself up, looking a bit disgusted in the mirror. "What is it?" Jun-hee emerged from one of the stalls, chuckling. "Man, I look like a damn zombie. Look what this place has done to us." Instead of getting a reply, you noticed that she was staring at your arms, at your scars. You had taken your jacket off for convenience and kind of forgot about them. "Oh, I'm sor-" Jun-hee interrupted you, "No! No, I'm sorry, I shouldn't have stared like that!"
àȘâ⎠Obviously everyone had their struggles, but now her own kind of seemed insignificant next to yours. You were doing so much for her and she didn't even know that you were struggling. She should've thought of that.
àȘâ⎠When voicing that thought to you, you felt bad that you made her feel like that. With a hug, it was all sorted out. Jun-hee cared deeply for you and she could tell that you cared for her like that, too. It was nice to know that someone had your back in a place like this.
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There were a few things this time five years ago when I was still working at Walgreens that you couldn't just grab and carry around. IIRC the security shelving was on the expensive ass shaving razor cartridges and baby formula. (We were a really low theft store; literally every other store I went to help out at had cough syrup also behind a lock and key at minimum.) We were just starting to install those security shelves on other shit as I was getting a new job.
And like, the theft we had was never on the stuff they were putting locks on. It was basically always just food. Some kid comes in a steals a candy bar tier stuff, not even like people are shoplifting because they're starving. The other thing that was super high theft? The knee/arm/leg etc. brace products. Oh and makeup which like obviously it's massively overpriced and tiny. Our item counts on the stuff that's all locked up now were basically always accurate or off by maybe like one.
(This turned into a bit of a ramble story so I'm adding a cut.)
That's not to say we didn't have any theft problems though. Notably we had this group of three dudes who seemed to think they were criminal masterminds. They'd come in, start shopping around. One of them would go over to the fridge, then find me or whatever other manager was on duty and ask them to check in the walk in freezer if we had more of something out of stock. The other two would grab up whatever they thought they could pocket that would resell to whoever the fuck was buying their shit. It was not subtle, but they were aware that the rules about customer service would prevent us from doing shit to *prevent* this and also about half of management self included did not really give a fuck. (Personally, I appreciated that there was at least an *attempt* at craft and that they were always pretty polite and if something tripped them up they wouldn't get aggressive or anything. As far as thieves go, pretty alright bunch for the most part.)
Then one night they tried to like, run a Payday mission on our ATM? I was off duty that night so I only heard about this later, but apparently they decided to try for a big score. They did the same play, but instead of pocketing stuff they tried to drill into thr ATM to get the cash box out. This uuuuuuh... did not work. They had no idea what they were doing, and the ATM was literally adjacent to the front register, so upon the cashier returning from whatever thing they were asking them to look for they were immediately caught. And then upper management formally filed for a restraining order so these dudes weren't allowed in ever again.
And to be clear, while I say store management didn't care about this, the actual boss of our store HATED these dudes. Wanted them gone. Had been asking corporate what she could do about this for literal years. I started working at this place in 2016, under this very boss. She had already been trying to do something about this for some time from the moment we met. Overall, this store probably lost thousands in cost (not potential profit, cost) from these guys doing this. Corporate didn't even pretend to care. But the second they try to grab a couple thousand from the other corporation paying them to keep an ATM in the front? As nuclear an option as they have without sending these days to straight up jail.
>go to cvs for toothpaste and cold medicine
>hit button for employee to open the toothpaste case
>grabs it before i can
>"i have to hold this at the front for you until you check out"
>go to cold medicine aisle
>ring bell for employee to open the cough medicine case
>nobody shows up
>ring again
>nobody shows up
>check case
>case is unlocked
>take cold medicine and go to check out
>grab toothpaste from unmanned register
>have to use self checkout
>scan cold medicine
>"age verification needed please wait for employee"
>employee comes over and cards me and then leaves
>finish self checkout
>walk through literal piles of discarded receipts at exit door
another beautiful non hostile day in our great country
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Can't pay the bills
A/N : a blurb that came out of nowhere lol enjoy
word count : 600 words ( she's cute)
Harry was sprawled out on the couch, a book in one hand and a cup of tea resting precariously on the coffee table. His oversized sweater and reading glasses made him look like the coziest man alive, completely at peace in your shared home.
You leaned against the kitchen counter, your phone secretly set up to record. The idea for this prank had come to you last night, and you couldnât resist giving it a go. Harry was so doting, so protectiveâit was bound to be hilarious.
âHarry,â you called out, your voice tinged with just enough worry to catch his attention.
His head snapped up immediately, the book falling shut in his lap. âWhatâs wrong, love?â
You wrung your hands for dramatic effect, sighing as you stepped into the living room. âI need to talk to you. Itâs⊠important.â
Harry straightened, sliding his glasses off and setting them on the coffee table. His green eyes searched your face, a flicker of concern crossing his features. âAlright, what is it?â
Taking a deep breath, you sat beside him, biting your lip. âI canât pay the bills this month.â
There was a beat of silence. Harry blinked at you, visibly confused. âWhat?â
âI⊠overspent. Like, really overspent,â you explained, avoiding his gaze. âAnd now, I donât have enough to cover the bills.â
Harry tilted his head, his brow furrowing. âDarling, you donât pay the bills.â
You paused, thrown off by his matter-of-fact tone. âWhat do you mean?â
âI meanâŠâ He chuckled lightly, though his confusion was apparent. âYouâve never paid the bills. Thatâs my thing. Always has been.â
You tried to salvage the prank, pressing on. âWell, yeah, but I was trying to be responsible this month! Take some of the load off you, you know? And now Iâve failed.â
Harry gave you a look, one eyebrow raised. âYouâre telling me you suddenly decided to take over paying the bills, which Iâve always handled, without telling me⊠and somehow ran out of money?â
You nodded solemnly, trying to keep a straight face.
He leaned back against the couch, crossing his arms. âAlright, let me get this straight. Youâve managed to spend more than whatâs in your account, on top of what Iâve already set aside for everything? Love, what did you buy? A yacht?â
At that, you snorted, quickly covering your mouth. Harryâs lips twitched, and you could tell he was holding back a laugh.
âYouâre not upset?â you asked, feigning innocence.
âIâm baffled, not upset,â he replied, shaking his head. âI mean, Iâd be thrilled if you wanted to be more involved, but you donât have to. You know I love taking care of you, yeah?â
That did it. The guilt of pranking himâand the tenderness in his voiceâmade you burst out laughing.
âOh my God, Harry, itâs a prank!â you admitted, clutching your stomach as you leaned forward.
Harry stared at you for a moment before a slow grin spread across his face. âA prank, huh? You think itâs funny to make me think my wife suddenly decided to ruin my perfectly balanced system?â
You were laughing too hard to reply, especially as Harry reached over to tickle your sides mercilessly.
âThatâs what you get,â he teased, his voice filled with mock indignation. âPrank me, will you?â
âHarry, stop!â you cried, wriggling away as he pulled you into his arms, still grinning.
When you finally caught your breath, you looked up at him, his face close to yours. âYouâre too sweet, you know that?â
âSweet, am I?â he said, his voice softening. âYouâre lucky I adore you, or Iâd make you pay me back by doing the washing up for a week.â
You laughed, resting your forehead against his. âYou wouldnât dare.â
âTry me, love,â he whispered, kissing you gently.
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I Can Help With That ;)
After months of no sex and a now insatiable hunger to get fucked, your best friend Billie offers to help you out.
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you were laying on billieâs couch, legs draped across her as you continued on listening to her crazy ass story of her most recent hookup. You two have a friendship that allows for nothing to be kept secret. Every thought, every memory, every story, and every moment is shared with each other. So, listening to her go on and on about how happy she was to be munching on some random models coochie is just another normal day for you.
The only difference is your mood. It seems as though youâve been going through a dry spell, with no sex for too many months to count. You just got tired of the random hookups and messy situations it always leads to and stopped putting yourself out there. Within the last week, your craving to be pleased by someone other than yourself has become insatiable. Masterbating just isnât doing it, you need to be properly fucked by someone again.
As you listened to your best friend paint the scene of her last sexscapade you felt a pit forming in your stomach. You couldnât help it, you couldnât stop it. You felt so hungry for pleasure. Itâs not her you were horny for necessarily, itâs just the image of fucking a girl again, of being messily wrapped around another body, laid out with sheets tangled between you and the sound of heavy breathing taking up the room.
You were completely zoned out, caught up in your own little erotic daydreaming before Billie snapped you out of it. âY/n, hello? I asked you a question, did you hear me?â she laughed at your startled face, clearly having drawn you out of a deep thought too suddenly. âwhat the hell were you thinking about girlâ âitâs nothing sorry,â you swallowed, âwhat was your question again?â you asked as you pulled all your attention back into the conversation. âI wanna know your last juicy hookup, you always pull bad bitchesâ She nudged your shoulder making you laugh as she said it.
âfuck, dude I am still in that fucking dry spell. I canât even remember the last time I had sex itâs patheticâ you laughed as the sad confession came out. Billie laughed with you, slightly making fun of your situation before you kept going. âAt first it wasnât bad, I really didnât care. I mean at first I was having fun making myself cum and not having to deal with other peopleâs bullshitâ âHAAHAH so fucking fairâ Billie interrupted you but you continued. âBut now though, oh my god. Girl, in the last two weeks I cannot fucking curb this hunger. I am so horny nonstop like, I swear I get myself off and the second I catch my breath Iâm horny again. Itâs fucking ridiculousâ you laughed out. âLike Iâm starting to feel insane. I need to go get fucked cuz this horny fucking monster in my brain is not liking my rose toy or my fingers anymoreâ Billie laughed hard at your words, and you joined in with her.
âGet back on tinder girl, we gotta feed that nasty monster iâve never seen you like this itâs scaryâ you pushed her shoulder and clicked your tongue at her dramatic response, which she of course said with a classic mischievous grin youâve seen too often on her face. Sheâs always so proud of her stupid jokes.
âI just hate tinder dude. Itâs always so awkward and half the time the sex is ass anywaysâ you paused as she nods in agreement before you kept going. âtake me to one of your award shows and introduce me to some of these bad bitches you always end up going home withâ you winked and she smiled again, this time a confident slightly devilish smirk showing the pride she has for all those âbad bitchesâ she does have many good memories with. âI do be pullin huhâ you rolled your eyes and flipped her off âdonât make me jealous you idiotâ
There was a short pause to the conversation, you could see Billieâs gears turning in her head before she turned to look back at you, eyebrows raised and lips turned upwards again. âI could always just fuck yaâ as she said it she shrugged, so matter of fact and nonchalant with her bold statement. âeww billie shut up you weirdo youâre my best friendâ âfirst off, how dare you say ew, bitch. Second off I'm your hot best friend so get that straightâ You smiled at her with your eyebrows raised, amusement coating your face, keeping quiet to let her finish her clearly unfinished sentence. âIt doesnât have to mean anything obviously, Youâre hot, I'm hot, weâre completely comfortable with each other, we love each other, even if itâs just as friends, and youâre in a messy predicament that I can easily get you out of. I mean, I got all these bad bitches moaning and cumming like crazy iâm just sayinâ She grinned and giggled at the end, knowing her fuck boy statement was ridiculous.
You both went silent, laughter filling the void as you think. Billieâs own mind wandered to the thought of making you feel good, and she began to feel her own curious desire building. You couldnât ignore the horny energy coursing through you, it was impossible to not feel. Before your brain could talk yourself out of it you move. You got yourself up and sit back down straddling her lap with a smile and half hooded eyes looking down at Billie. She gasped for a second, somewhat shocked you were actually going along with this, before she planted her hands down and grabbed a handful of your ass.
There was a moment when your eyes met and you both giggled, amused by what was unfolding, knowing youâre both going to laugh about it afterwards as if itâs just another dumb thing you do as best friends. But as that giggle faded itâs replaced with a hunger, a growing desire and increasing erotic tension. The eye contact stayed and the smiles disappeared and suddenly your lips were wrapped between each other.
It was gentle at first, timid almost, as you both let go of the brief awkwardness of making out with your best friend for the first time. But within seconds it became passionate, heated, sloppy. Her hands continued to grab and pull at your ass over your cheeky sweatshorts, before she built confidence and slipped her hands under, now feeling your hot skin against her fingertips.
When her hands pushed you tighter against her your hips grinded and the sudden sensation against your clit made you moan quietly into the kiss. Billie pulled away and looked at you, her bottom lip pulled between her teeth in her sexy smirk as she heard your moan, immediately needing to hear more of them. She grabbed your bottom and stood you both up before turning and laying you down. Now hovering over you, Billieâs hungry eyes found yours and you could see an expression youâd never seen on her before, a dominant aroused one that maked your heart stop and goosebumps erupt all across your skin.
The feeling of her plump wet lips on your neck, placing sloppy kisses on every sliver of your skin, sucking and biting occasionally, made you moan louder. You were slowly melting into her touch, into the way she was working you up more and more. The throbbing at your core became hard to ignore and you knew you were making such a mess of your underwear as she made you more and more wet.
Billieâs eager lips found your sweet spot, sucking on your skin just below your ear, and your sweet loud moan filled her living room. âMmmm you sound so good like that baby, so sexy hearing you moanâ Your hand landed on the back of her neck, pulling her closer to your skin, needing more of her, searching for anything. She sped up her pace, kissing all over your neck and collarbones before pulling you up to take off your shirt and bralette. As you landed back on the sofa your boobs moved up and down with the motion. Billie watched with wide eyes and a big smile, you knew sheâs always wanted to see them, you have found her staring at them far too often.
She wasted no time, immediately pulling your nipple into her mouth and sucking before letting it go with a pop and moving onto your other boob. Her passionate and intense attack on your chest was a clear indication of her own arousal growing. This might have just been two friends helping each other out, but that doesnât mean you both arenât incredibly attracted to each other and currently incredibly horny for one another. The melodies of heavy breathing and sloppy kisses filled the room and made it all quite apparent.
Billieâs lips trailed down your stomach slowly. She stopped often to bite and suck on the skin beneath her, each time pulling sweet squeaks and moans from your lips. She was enamored, fully taken over by a need to satisfy you, to give you everything youâd been missing for too long. She was taking her time, winding you up and building your desire until it was so intense you might explode. She wanted you so sensitive by the time she gave you what you wanted, that it would take only seconds to bring you to the edge.
Just before she got to the waistline of your shorts she moved back up to you, causing you to let out a deep sigh. You werenât aware of all the air you were holding in until she stopped her sloppy, intoxicating descent down your body. As her lips found your face again her hands landed on your waist. Squeezing you tightly, Billie moaned in your ear, low and sultry, and moving straight to your wet core. The sound maked your head feel dizzy, like your body was experiencing too much need and arousal and you might pass out if you didnât get fucked soon. Her lips pulled away from yours after a deep kiss and she whispered into your ear, âLetâs move to my room, I wanna have you laid out across my bed for meâ
With that she tapped the side of your butt twice and stood up. You began to follow after her, feeling eager but slightly exposed, the cold air on your naked chest coating you in goosebumps. Billie turned to look at you and was immediately mesmerized by your freed boobs swaying and jumping as you walked. When you got to her room you jumped on the bed, giggling slightly as you watched her pull off her own top and jump on with you. Her bralette was just slightly too small, leaving her huge boobs spilling out of each side and top. Billie crawled over to you, hovering above and smirking down at you. As she looked at your body laid out under her, her tongue pushed against the inside of her cheek.
âYou are too much y/n. So fucking sexy its ridiculousâ You blushed at her compliment and reached above you, grabbing her face with both of your hands and pulling her down to join with you again. Her lips found yours quickly, and your tongues met not long after. You both let out moans that vibrated into the kiss. Moving your hands to Billieâs back, you searched eagerly for the clasp of her bralette. As you pulled it apart and the back dropped down, Billie moved one arm at a time and finally fully freed her boobs. You gasped at the sight of her pink hard nipples and big ivory boobs lightly grazing against your own, admittedly also having been caught staring at them too many times in your friendship.
Your head lifted up as your hand grabbed her boob, guiding it between your lips. A gasp followed by a deep moan filled the room as you eagerly sucked and bit on her nipples. The sudden pleasure made Billieâs body give out slightly, landing her knee between your legs to catch herself. You moved yourself down a bit more to continue your affection on her boobs and as you did your clit grazed her knee, immediately making you gasp. Billie let out a mischievous giggle before pushing your hips down and pulling her knee up, intensifying the pressure and the pleasure right away.
She pulled her boobs away from you and you groaned, missing them in your mouth immediately. She filled the void with her lips on your neck and her hands pulled at your hips, forcing you to begin grinding against her knee. Your back arched up and as you grinded you felt the crotch of your baggy shorts slip to the side. Now, just your soaked panties laid between you and Billieâs thigh. As you continued your motion Billie felt your wetness slipping against her, causing her own panties to get soaked. The sudden evidence of your wet arousal made something snap in Billies mind, âI need to taste you, fuck youâre so wet for meâ She moved down quickly, getting herself comfortable between your legs before slipping off your shorts and thong at the same time.
âGodddddd so fucking prettyâ Billie moaned after loudly swallowing. Your dripping pussy clenched in front of her as reality hit that you are about to get eaten out, finally after too many long months. The sensation of Billieâs smooth wet tongue slowly slipping between your folds sent a shockwave through your body. The comforter rustled as your hands dug around, trying to grab hold, trying to ground yourself. Her tongue flattened out wide and continued licking from your leaking entrance all the way up to your clit, where she stopped briefly and added pressure. Sheâs too good, it was making you melt and you felt like you were floating, no longer on earth. Your head felt cloudier and cloudier as her pleasure became the only thing you could feel. Her tongue continued sloppily consuming you, slurping you up at each lick before moving up to your clit. She knew exactly what she was doing, her actions pulling you closer and closer to the edge already.
As your moans got louder and louder and the pleasure consumed you, Billie began moving her hands from around your thighs. One traveled up and landed on your boob, pinching and pulling at your nipple, turning your moans to sweet yelps and cries. You could feel her smile against your cunt as her other hand moved down to your center.
Your messy wetness allowed two of her fingers to slip inside you with ease, immediately curling them upwards and pumping in and out slowly and deliberately. She made her tongue flat and hard and pushed it up against your clit. Moving her head side to side, she could feel your swollen bud throbbing under her. The sensation of her fingers filling you perfectly and her tongue playing with your sensitive clit had you gasping. It wasnât just that you havenât felt this in awhile that was making things build so quickly. Billie was incredibly skilled, you were learning that quite quickly. Youâve never been eaten out so well. Youâve never been so close to cumming so quickly. It usually takes you a while and you have to focus to feel the pleasure. Not right now, not with Billie. All you could think about was pleasure, it was surrounding you, inside of you, swirling and filling the room. It was everywhere.
âBillie, right there, fuckâ your words came out as pants, completely drunk off the way she was fucking you. âOh god Billie, yessssâ She hummed into you, showing how much she loved making you moan. Your walls began pulsing and clenching around her fingers and your thighs squeezed her head tighter as you were pushed closer and closer to the edge. âMmmm you close mama, you gunna cum for me?â her sultry tone was laced with pride as she continued devouring you and watching you squirm in front of her. âYes yes yes Billie fuck Iâm gunna cumâ
Just as the words left your lips Billie pulled away, a slight seductive giggle hit your ears. You gasped, completely shocked at her actions, and as you lifted your head to confront her you were met with a shit eating grin spread across her face. âawe, did I ruin your orgasm? im sorryâ she sarcastically mocked you, the obnoxious smile never leaving her face. âI canât even keep myself away for long enough to properly tease you, you taste so good, so fucking sweet babyâ
her lips latched onto your clit, the warmth of her mouth against your now cold cunt sent shivers through you. You didnât expect Billie to be treating you like this, you thought sheâd give you the basic stuff and make you cum quickly to satiate the hunger in you, but now, now sheâs making it grow even stronger.
It only took a few minutes of sloppy sucking and licking for your orgasm to rise again. Her fingers were moving faster and her lips were wrapped tight around ur clit, sucking and licking and sucking and licking. With your hands tangled in her hair and your legs spread as far as they could go, you pushed Billie as tight against your pussy as possible, trying hard to hold in the loud moans that weâre fighting to come out. âIâm gunna cum, I- Iâm gunna cum, right there Billieâ she listened close to your breathing, trying to take in all the noises you were making that were turning her on too much. As she heard your gasps becoming more and more erratic and chaotic she knew you were close again.
Within seconds her mouth was gone, placing light kisses on your inner thighs and laughing again at your groans. Her fingers were still inside of you but they were still, no longer moving in and out. She could feel the way your walls pulsed around her as she edged you out of your almost orgasm.
âFuck, Billie, please let me cum, youâre killing meâ you whined out, getting too heated and too needy now. âoh but edging you and hearing you beg is so much more funâ she paused to place another kiss on your thigh, this time so close to your pussy it made you gasp. she smiled against your skin before speaking again, âAnd itâll feel sooooo much better when I finally let you cum, be patient for a little longer babygirl, itâll be worth it.â Your stomach flipped at the nickname and your head began to feel fuzzy from the rollercoaster of pleasure sheâs been making you feel.
Billie did it all over again, building you up higher and higher with her talented tongue and fingers. The room was filled with the sound of your wetness against her mouth, and your gasps and moans that you tried hard to hold it but couldnât. You felt like you were becoming addicted to the way she was fucking you. It was better than anything youâre used to. You were beginning to realize all those stories of her making her partners cum over and over again, and the way she said sheâd make them scream, none of it was exaggerated, she was just that good. You almost didnât want to cum, didnât want it to end. You knew you couldnât have this again.
As the cues were showing Billie how close you were yet again, she stopped, yet again. This time, she pulled her fingers out of you, causing you to whine at the emptiness and at the feeling of your orgasm disappearing again. Your eyes opened to the sight of Billie right about you. âtaste yourself babygirl, taste how delicious you areâ Her fingers slid into your mouth and after a moment of swirling your tongue around her she pulled them away, replacing them with her lips. You kissed her passionately, showing your eager desire, needing her to know how fucking hungry you were after being edged too many times to count.
Your growing impatience filled your body, you felt overwhelmed by it and allowed it to fully take control. Your hand gripped her hair and you pulled her back down to where you needed her most, hard and only by her strands of black silk. She sucked in a breath and moaned at your needy and slightly dominant action before landing her lips back on your dripping pussy. She was moving faster than before, like she was a ravenous animal thatâd been starved for days. When her fingers, now 3 deep, slipped back into your desperate hole, she moaned out with you, as if she was enjoying this as much as you were. Each of her movements were calculated and deliberate. She was using all her skills, all her tricks on you. You felt like you couldnât breathe, you were being suffocated by the almost unknown pleasure she was bringing you. Her tongue parted with you for just long enough to speak, âDid so good for me love, such a good girl letting me tease you like that. Go on and cum for me, cum all over my fingers and face. Need you to make a mess of me babyâ Those words mixed with the return of her tongue sent you over the edge.
You were spiraling, dizzy and overwhelmed as your body erupted into sparks of pleasure. The sensations were almost too much as you screamed out her name over and over. Billie kept going, kept fucking into you, kept licking your clit, kept your orgasm flowing through your body. You knew more was coming, you could feel it. The one thing Billie didnât know about you was that you could squirt. She was about to learn. It took one last flick of her fingers for the gates to open. You screamed, letting it all out at once as you squirted months of built up tension onto her fingers, her face, her boobs. It was everywhere and you felt like you were no longer on Earth, gasping for air as you began your descent back down.
Your eyes finally opened to see Billieâs bold eyes and big smile, she was still between your legs, still gazing at your fucked out pussy in front of her. âholy shit y/n, that was so fucking hot. I had no idea you could squirtâ She was so turned on, she couldnât stop thinking about how hot you were, how hot it was to watch you cum all over her. Her legs squeezed together unconsciously, but you picked up on it. You knew Billie didnât start this with the intention of you fucking her but now you needed it.
As she came bakc up towards your face she kissed you on the forehead. You were still trying to catch your breath and stop your legs from continuing to shake with the aftershocks. You looked at her with a satisfied smile and a shaky laugh that came out with each of your breaths. Her face matched yours showing off her complete enjoyment from what just played out. After wiping your cum off of her face she finally broke the silence, âso, did we do it? Are you finally satisfied?â You began to nod, the laughter still coming out each time you breathed.
You flipped yourself on top of her catching her completely off guard before speaking, âI will be once I make you cumâ as soon as the words slid off your tongue your lips were backing on hers, moaning at the taste of your own cum coating her mouth.
You both knew this could only be for one night, so you might as well make it a long night.
#billie eilish#billie eilish fanfiction#billie eilish smut#billie eilish x reader#billie eilish x y/n#billie eilish x you#billie x reader#wlw post#wlw smut
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note: this is all i got cus im really busy this week. ill probably write them having sex soon, just not right now. listened to do i wanna know by hozier while writing this
      the warlord, ambessa medarda, has never encountered someone bold enough to stand their ground against her.
til she met you. an empress of a nation, never afraid to stand up for your people. so when you held your chin up high, chest out, gaze never wavering when you spoke to her, it sparked interest within her soul.
âpride like yours is a death sentence, general. i cannot give you what you want as it endangers my people.â not once did your voice falter, you bring your hand to gesture to your guards, âleave us. escort the generalâs as well.â
a wolfish grin takes over her features, âis that your way of saying that you want me all to yourself, your majesty?â her eyes never left yours even when her men are gone, âi must say, i have some thoughts about professional entanglements.â
âarrogance, pride, egotism. thread lightly, general.â you cross your legs on where you sit, the back of your hand supporting your chinâyour throne, looking down at her, âi will simply propose a contract. one that wouldâŠbenefit both our nations.â
you see her raise an eyebrow, the scar above just barely stretching. âand what is that exactly?â
âresources. i know your kind, general. you desire to have power, to control, to take over, and i will not simply let that happen. i will lay down hell on you if you even dare to think of doing that to my land.â eyes devoid of warmth or life, you threaten the warlord standing before you, taking notice of her tensing shoulders, âi know that you are capable of doing that, however, IF we do come to that, iâm afraid the effects of the aftermath will last for more than a lifetime to our nations.â
ambessaâs glare sharpens, your words striking a nerve, âit is not wise to threaten me, your majesty.â
âi am not.â
âwhat do you call that?â
âthe truth.â
      you are bold, confident, daring; it sends shivers up her spine. you are staring daggers at her from where you sit, unmoving, assessing her from head to toe. she should be insulted, but sheâs not.
oh, she will have you.Â
âi am in agreement with what you have proposed, your majesty.â she bows her head, refusing to kneel to you.Â
      you swear on your life that you will have her on her knees for you.Â
you rise to your feet, descending down the stairs to stand in front of her, she never took her eyes off of you. ambessa leans down as you signal for her to do so. gently, you take her face in your hands, turning her head to the side so that you can press your cheek against her.
her towering figure presence easily overshadows your entire frame. but you are not intimatedâmatter of fact, it entices you.Â
your whisper caresses her ear like the wind, âwonderful. consider this a treaty of peace, general.â
      the faintest sensation of her jaw clenching against your cheek reaches you. you are playing a dangerous game; dousing a fire with fuel never ends well.
she slowly wraps an arm around your waist, her fingers lightly grazing against your back.
âcareful now, lamb.â
#arcane#ambessa medarda#ambessa x reader#arcane ambessa#ambessa x you#writing#fanfic#imagines#female reader#wlw#ambessa medarda x you#slow burn#frenemies to lovers
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Somehow the Jubilation dream gets leaked to the public, specifically a still of Ladybug and Chat Noir kissing at their wedding. A Ladynoir stan becomes so wracked by all the emotions that they end up akumatized as Honeymooner.
Before either Ladybug or Chat Noir can do a thing to combat the akuma, theyâre transported to a game show dimension...
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Honeymooner: Welcome Ladybug and Chat Noir! I am your host, Honeymooner! And I canât believe you two went and got married and didnât tell anyone! For shame!
Ladybug: We didnât actuallyâ
Honeymooner: I have the picture of you both dressed in white right here!
Chat Noir: Really, that was a side effect of the akumaâ
Honeymooner: Puh-lease! You two werenât Couple of the Year for nothing! And Iâm going to prove that you two are perfectly perfect for each other by having you play The Newlywed Game! Iâll ask a question and youâll tell us who you think it applies to more. If youâre right, the wedding bells will âding!â If youâre wrong, the wedding bells will âdong!â If youâre both right oh, let's say five times, Iâll let you both get back to your honeymoon *wink*!
Monarch: And Iâll know what Ladybug and Chat Noirâs real names are, muahahaha!
Honeymooner: Oh, and I suppose Monarch's giving me the first question: Do you know your partnerâs real name?
Ladybug: No.
Chat Noir: No.
Wedding bells: *dong! dong!*
Honeymooner: Incorrect! Both of you are incorrect!
Chat Noir: Iâm not lying! *realizes that Ladybug (along with the rest of Paris) has definitely heard the name âAdrien Agresteâ* But maybe Ladybug has heard my name before? Itâs really common!
Ladybug: *remembers Chat calling her âMarinette Dupain Chengâ multiple times* Mine too! So so common!
Honeymooner: I guess that tracks. Moving on, itâs my turn for questions!
Monarch: Hey! I didnât get toâ
Honeymooner: Question 2! When did your partner fall in love with you?
Chat Noir: She didn't fall in love with me.
Ladybug: Exactly! Iâm not in love with him!
Honeymooner: Remember, for this question you are answering for your partner, not yourself!
Ladybug: Uh⊠maybe around our first battle with Glaciator?
Wedding bells: *dong! dong!*
Honeymooner: Both of you are incorrect! Tell us, when did you really fall in love?
Chat Noir: When we first defeated Stoneheart⊠I told myself I didn't care who was behind that mask, I loved that girl...
Honeymooner: Since the beginning! We all swoon! Now Ladybug, tell us! When did your feelings start?
Ladybug: I⊠well⊠maybe I just had some feelings I never noticed� Not that I can get into an actual relationship right now!
Honeymooner: *points at the wedding kiss picture* I think youâre a little late for that! Question 3! Letâs get into your preferences! What is your partnerâs favorite color!
Ladybug: Black.
Chat Noir: Uh⊠reâ *sees Ladybug glaring at him and changes his answer at the last second by imagining what her civilian self would pick, then basing his guess on his 'Everyday Ladybug'*âpink?
Wedding bells: *dong! ding!*
Honeymooner: Chat Noir is correct!
Monarch: What kind of a question was that? I need to know more about whatâs behind their masks!
Honeymooner: It seems our butterflyness has something else he wants to know, so: Question 4! What color is your partnerâs eyes?
Monarch: Thatâs not what I asked!
Chat Noir: Blue!
Ladybug: Green!
Wedding bells: *ding! ding!*
Honeymooner: Correct! Hey, you both got one right! I knew you knew each other so well! Only four more times with both of you getting it right to go!
Ladybug: Just for the record, I might have different color eyes when Iâm not wearing the mask. And Chatâs got the eyes of a cat, so his eyes could be any color in real life!
Chat Noir: R-right! What my lady said!
Honeymooner: But clearly the fact that you knew means you spend a lot of time looking, tee-hee! Oh, I know what I want to ask! Question 5! Who has spent more time looking at pictures of their partner on their phone!
Ladybug: Chat.
Chat Noir: Me.
Wedding bells: *dong! dong!*
Honeymooner: Incorrect! Ooh, Ladybug, youâre such a voyeur and no one has any idea! So scandalous!
Chat Noir: *remembers heâs Adrien Agreste* Oh, I probably skewed those results since my photos are on my computer instead of my phone!
Ladybug: Y-yeah, and Iâm constantly checking the Ladyblog so I keep seeing Chat Noir on the siteâs icons!
Honeymooner: Ohoho! So you are someone who's taken steps to be actively engaged with society, hm....? Well, we thought it was such a travesty when you didnât inform us of your engagement!
Monarch: Ask what echelons of society they run in!
Honeymooner: Question 6! If you were both attending a fancy party with the snobbiest elites in Paris, who would end up making a social faux paus first?
Monarch: NOT! WHAT! I! ASKED!
Ladybug: Chat, definitely. His posture alone would keep this stray from getting through the front doors!
Chat Noir: Meow-ch, I am offended! Iâm a purebred feline, thank you very much! I would never make a breach of etiquette, so be default youâd be the first to make faux paws, my lady.
Wedding bells: *dong! ding!*
Honeymooner: Chat Noir is correct! Ladybug, this man is literally the prince of your dreams, you need to take him to a masquerade ball, he will sweep you off your feet and itâll be so magicalâŠ
Ladybug: This is all just hypothetical! And who knows, I can be a bit clumsy sometimesâ
Chat Noir: Madly clumsy.
Ladybug: Shut up.
Chat Noir: I will once you start getting more questions about me right!
Ladybug: I've gotten some things right!
Chat Noir: You've gotten one thing right. Which you literally knew since the moment we met. Come on, you know me, Bugaboo. And we'll prove it to the Honeymooner just how much.
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They do manage to prove they both know each other. After 913 questions, anyway.
concept: an akuma that forces Ladybug and Chat Noir to play some version of the Newlywed Game. in order to beat the akuma they have to get enough questions about the other correct, but the questions often will be random obscure facts about their civilian lives. akuma magically knows the correct answers to all questions asked but still only asks completely useless questions that does nothing to help the butterfly figure out their identities, just enough to have ladybug baffled by how bad she is at guessing about what chat noir's personal life is like
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A KISS FOR THE CURSED - ,, ৠâ§âË c.yj
ă In a kingdom of stone and gold, there lived a princess with hair as pink as the dawn. Her heart, though draped in royal jewels, was heavy with the weight of expectation, for the king and queen demanded she find a husband worthy of her title. The castleâs walls pressed close, and her spirit yearned for freedom, for something beyond the cold, glittering halls.
One day, when the pressure became too great, she slipped away from the castle and wandered into the woods, seeking solace in its quiet embrace. It was there, among the trees, that she met himâa boy, no older than she, with eyes like the forest and a bow slung over his shoulder. He was a hunter, living in a humble cabin, selling the fruits of his labor to those who passed by. But in the way he moved, so graceful and wild, the princess saw something moreâa soul untainted by the constraints of royalty....
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pairings » archer!yeonjun x princess!reader
đ€đąđ«đŻđą » smut » royal au » forbidden romance »
warnings » smut, loss of virginity, fingering, oral (f) receiving, angst, longing, forbidden romance, yeonjun hunts animals, reader has pink hair, very heavily inspired by the 'once upon a broken heart' series by Stephanie garber, major character death, kai is seventeen in this, also featuring beomgyu briefly, blood, beatings, dungeons, toxic parents, royal hierarchy, a bit of grumpy x sunshine, readers pov is 2nd person "You" yeonjun's pov is 3rd person "He" a lot is in yeonjun's pov though, yeonjun has a noticeable scar on his eyebrow (for the plot), kind of love at first sight, this is not slow burn sorry, there is a disease called "The fever"
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The golden glow of a single candle bathes your chambers, its light dancing across the silk-draped walls. You sit at your vanity, brushing your hair with slow, deliberate strokes. The polished wood of the brush feels cool in your hand, a small comfort against the storm brewing inside you. Behind you, thereâs the soft rustle of skirts, a sound that sets your nerves on edge even before she speaks. âDarling,â your mother begins, her voice sweet, almost sing-song as she opens your door without so much as a knock. âYouâre twenty now. A woman grown. You canât keep hiding behind those books and tapestries forever.â She glides across the room and perches on the edge of your bed, her posture as poised and deliberate as her words.Â
âIâm not hiding, Mother,â you reply without turning to face her. Your reflection catches hers in the mirrorâa study in contrasts. You, unadorned and weary. Her, perfect and poised, a mask of maternal care that youâve come to mistrust. She was not the sweet doting mother she pretends to be, and you felt her icy-ness as soon as she neared you.Â
âOf course not,â she says with a light laugh, the sound brushing away your words as though they were a childâs excuse. âBut itâs time you thought seriously about your future. The kingdom needs alliances and a good match could secure that.âÂ
You place the brush down with deliberate care and turn to face her. âAnd what if I donât love any of these âgood matchesâ? Am I to bind myself to someone who sees me as nothing more than a means to an end?â You had grown tired of this same conversation. One you've had a million times over with her and your father.Â
She sighs, and for a moment, the warmth in her voice almost feels real. Almost. âOh, my sweet girl, love is a luxury we canât always afford. Your father and Iââ She pauses, her hand drifting to her heart as if recalling a fond memory. âWe grew to love each other over time. Youâll see. Love often follows where duty leads.â You narrow your eyes, searching her face for cracks in the mask. âDid it? Did love really follow, or did you simply learn to endure it?â
Her expression waversâjust for a heartbeatâbut itâs enough. The softness in her eyes hardens, and when she stands, itâs with a grace that feels more commanding than comforting. âDonât let childish notions blind youâ she says, her tone sharper now. âThe world isnât a fairy tale. Itâs a harsh, unyielding place, and one day, youâll rule it. You must start preparing for that now.âÂ
Your throat tightens, but you manage to keep your voice steady. âI would rather rule with my heart than sell it to the highest bidder.âÂ
Her lips curl into a smile, and she steps closer, cupping your cheek in her hand. The gesture is tender, but her eyes betray herâcalculating, assessing. âYouâll understand someday, my love,â she murmurs. âAnd when you do, youâll thank me for guiding you.â You pull away, your skin burning where her hand had rested. She lingers for a moment longer, her presence suffocating even in its quietness. Then, with a swish of her skirts, she moves to the door. The click of it closing echoes in the silence she leaves behind. You stare at your reflection, your chest heaving with unshed tears and unsaid words. The candlelight catches the glint of defiance in your eyes, and in that moment, you vow that no oneânot even your motherâwill decide your future for you.
You had never snuck out of the castle before. The thought had scared you enough that you hadnât ever dared to attempt it, but tonight you felt you had to. The suffocating four walls of your chambers had felt so overbearing that the thought of another second in them would cause the end of your life. You had to escape, even if only for a few hours at least. You needed fresh air. To feel the wind in your hair, smell the trees and feel the grass between your fingertips.Â
You rarely get that these days, with all the preparations of finding you a husband and shipping you off to some unknown country with a man that was to be your husband and yet a stranger at the same time. You couldn't handle it anymore. You grabbed your cloak and made quick work on sneaking out.Â
The castle sleeps. Its towering spires stretch into the star-speckled sky, dark against the moonlight. You slip from your chambers, the soft soles of your boots muffling each step on the cold stone floor. The velvet cloak swirls around your ankles, its deep green fabric blending into the shadows as you descend the servant's staircase. Your heart races, but not from fear. It's the exhilaration of escape, of leaving behind the suffocating weight of expectations.
The conversation you and your mother had not even an hour ago swimming in your mind. The words of your father this morning echoing in your head like a cacophony "This lord has lands to the west," they said. "That one commands an army. Itâs time to secure your future.â You grit your teeth at the thought, gripping the edge of your cloak tighter. They donât understand. Marriage isnât what frightens youâitâs the thought of marrying someone who sees you as a pawn, not a person. You couldn't bring yourself to have a marriage like your mother and fathers. A marriage that lacked authenticity, lacked real love. You refused it. Rebuked it.Â
The air is cooler as you reach the garden gate, slipping through the narrow gap you discovered years ago. The guards wonât check here; they never do. Beyond the walls lies freedom, the forest calling to you like an old friend. The scent of damp earth and pine greets you as you step into the woods. The moon guides your path, its light filtering through the canopy. You keep your pace quick but quiet. You had a general idea of the outlands of the castle from all of your lessons. You needed to know how to get out of the castle in case of an attack. You were sure that your teachers didn't know you'd be using the information they taught you to sneak out, but here you were.Â
The forest feels alive tonight. Crickets chirp in the underbrush, and a gentle breeze stirs the leaves above. Each step takes you further from the castle, from the expectations, from the stifling weight of duty. You keep your steps light trying your best to make as little as sound as possible. You couldn't risk being caught. Then you hear it, a faint thwack ahead, the unmistakable sound of an arrow striking wood. You freeze, heart leaping into your throat. Slowly, carefully, you edge closer, stepping around a patch of dry leaves to avoid making a sound. Peeking around a thick oak, you see him. A man unfamiliar to you. He stands in the clearing, tall and strong, his silhouette framed by moonlight. A bow is in his hands, an arrow already knocked. His movements are fluid, deliberate, as if every motion is a part of a dance. The arrow flies, and your breath catches as it strikes dead center on the straw target.
Heâs beautiful. The moon shines just enough through the branches of the trees above him creating a halo like light over his head and face. You should turn back. You know this. You should retrace your steps and leave before he notices you. But you donât. Something about him holds you in place. His focus, the grace in his movements, the quiet strength in the way he adjusts his stance. Heâs close to your age, maybe a year or two older, with dark hair that curls at the nape of his neck. Heâs the most handsome man you have ever laid your eyes on. And by far the most graceful.Â
He reaches for another arrow, the muscles in his arms flexing under the thin fabric of his shirt. You crouch lower behind the tree, your cloak pooling around you. The thrill of sneaking out has faded into something elseâsomething warmer, something unfamiliar. You had never had the privilege of just watching a man so..closely like this. You weren't even allowed to be around a man without a chaperone. You tell yourself youâre just curious. Itâs not often you meet someone out here in the woods. But as you watch him, you realize itâs more than that. Heâs unlike anyone youâve ever seen before.Â
He has no idea youâre here. And for now, youâre content to watch, hidden in the shadows of the trees, as he draws and releases, each arrow flying true. The world feels smaller at this moment. The castle and its demands are miles away, and the only thing that exists is you, the moonlit forest, and the archer practicing under the stars. You watch for only a breath longer before the stillness breaks under your foot. A dry leaf, hidden beneath the forest loam, crumples with a loud crack that seems to echo in the night. The archer freezes. His body tenses as he pivots toward you, bow raised, an arrow drawn in a heartbeat. The sudden movement sends a jolt of panic through you, and you instinctively step back, pressing against the rough bark of the tree.
âWhoâs there?â His voice is sharp, low, and commanding. The moonlight glints off his eyesâhard and narrowed, scanning the shadows where youâre hidden. You hold your breath, heart hammering in your chest. For a moment, you consider fleeing, but before you can move, he spots you. âShow yourself,â he demands, the arrow steady in his grip.Â
Slowly, you step out from behind the tree, your hands raised in a gesture of surrender. The cloakâs hood still shrouds your face, but the moonlight catches the strands of pink hair peeking out. His gaze sharpens, and you see his brow furrow as he lowers the bow slightly. âa girl?â His voice softens but only slightly, his tone still laced with suspicion. He lowers the bow completely but doesnât relax, his eyes studying you intently. âWhat are you doing out here, creeping around like that?âÂ
You swallow, suddenly acutely aware of how small you feel under his piercing gaze. âI wasnât creeping,â you say, your voice soft but steady. âI was⊠walking. I didnât mean to startle you.âÂ
âWalking,â he repeats, his tone flat and disbelieving. He glances at your cloak, the fine embroidery glinting faintly in the moonlight. âIn the middle of the night. Alone. Right.â He snorts, shaking his head as if the very idea is absurd. âWho are you?â His demeanor startled you, not expecting such a graceful man to sound so..rough.Â
You hesitate. Youâre not ready to give your nameâor your title. âNo one important.â If he knew you were the princess there was no guessing what he would do. Turn you in? Kidnap you? Hold you for ransom, it was unknown but you'd rather not find out.Â
He arches an eyebrow, unimpressed. âNo one important who sneaks through the woods and watches people like a ghost.âÂ
Heat rises to your cheeks, both from embarrassment and indignation. âI wasnât watching youâwell, not on purpose. I heard something, and I⊠got curious.â You couldn't explain to him that you didn't get out much, he would ask too many questions. You'd rather have him think you a dumb naive girl then a sheltered princess.Â
His expression softens, but only slightly. He seems to accept your answer, though he doesnât seem thrilled about it. âCuriosity gets people into trouble. Especially out here.â You should feel insulted by his gruffness, but instead, you find yourself intrigued. Thereâs something captivating about the way he carries himself, the guarded way he speaks. Heâs not like the polished, over-rehearsed lords who populate the castle halls. Heâs⊠real. It was as perplexing as it was scary, how little knowledge you had of the common folk, how little you saw them. He was beautiful like a prince, even more than most but something about him felt unpolished and you admired that.Â
âIâll keep that in mind,â you say, trying to sound nonchalant. But you canât help the way your eyes linger on him, tracing the sharp angles of his face, the way the moonlight highlights his dark hair. Heâs beautiful in a way that feels almost unfair, though his scowl adds an edge to it, like heâs carved from stone. He notices your lingering gaze and narrows his eyes. âWhat?â How he wasnât more concerned by a random girl creeping on him in the middle of the night had struck you.Â
âNothing,â you say quickly, pulling your cloak tighter around you. âI just⊠Iâve never seen anyone shoot like that before.â Which was the truth. You had never seen the guards in true action, you had only seen them practicing and even then they were nowhere near as precise as this man was.Â
His scowl deepens, though a faint hint of surprise flickers in his expression. âYou were watching me.âÂ
Your cheeks flush again, and you look away, hoping the shadows hide your embarrassment. âOnly for a moment. Youâre⊠good.âÂ
For the first time, he seems caught off guard. He looks at you as if trying to figure you out, then sighs, running a hand through his hair. âLook, whoever you are, itâs late, and you shouldnât be out here. Go home.â You hated the way he spoke to you, like you were a useless pesky object in his way. Like everyone around you spoke to you.Â
His tone is dismissive, but you donât move. Instead, you tilt your head, studying him. âWhy are you out here, then?âÂ
He hesitates, his jaw tightening. âThatâs none of your business.âÂ
âAnd me being here is none of yours,â you counter, surprising yourself with your boldness. You had never talked back to anyone before. Partly in fear of what your mother and father would do to you as a punishment. For a moment, he just stares at you, his eyes catching the moonlight.Â
âYouâre stubborn,â he mutters, shaking his head.Â
âAnd youâre grumpy,â you reply, the words slipping out before you can stop them.Â
âSuit yourself. Just donât get in my way.â He says with a snark, dismissing you completely. As he turns back to his target, knocking another arrow, you find yourself smiling beneath your hood. For the first time in days, you feel aliveâcaught in the strange, thrilling pull of the forest, the night, and the boy who doesnât know who you are. It was hopelessly refreshing, having someone to banter with. He hadn't known you were the princess. All expectations of respectfully boring conversation were not needed here, you felt normal.Â
You donât leave. Something about him keeps you rooted to the spot. Maybe itâs his impenetrable demeanor, so unlike anyone youâve met before. Or maybe itâs the way he seems utterly unconcerned by you, as though youâre not worth the effort of a proper scolding. Either way, instead of retreating, you take a few cautious steps closer. âWhat are you still doing here?â he asks without looking back, his voice carrying a rough edge. He draws another arrow and lets it fly. Thwack. It lands squarely in the center of the target. You swear you could have drooled at the sight alone. You were just a girl after all.Â
âI told youâI was walking,â you say, folding your arms beneath the cloak.Â
âââIn the middle of the night. In that?â He gestures vaguely toward you without turning. Your cloak shifts as you glance down at yourself. The hem of your pink dress peeks out, delicate and impractical. The sight of it makes you wince. Itâs not exactly what youâd have chosen for sneaking into the woods, but there hadnât been time to change. You had very minimal time before the confines of your bedroom swallowed you whole.Â
âYes, this,â you reply, tilting your chin. âNot all of us plan our wardrobe for forest excursions.âÂ
That earns you a glance over his shoulder. His eyes rake over you, lingering just long enough to make you self-conscious. Then he snorts. âYou look like you wandered out of a ball. Did you lose your way to the dance floor?â Your spine straightens at his words. He didnât know..did he?Â
Your cheeks burn. âFor your information, I didnât plan to be out here tonight.â You try your best to avert the subject, avoiding all talk of balls and princess-like duties.Â
âOh, clearly,â he mutters, turning back to his bow. âBecause you definitely blend right in.âÂ
You roll your eyes, stepping closer again. âAre you always this charming, or am I just lucky?â Your lips purse suppressing your smile. That gets his attention. He pauses mid-draw and glances at you, one eyebrow raised. For a moment, you think youâve caught him off guard, but then his lips twitch in what might be the ghost of a smirk. âLucky,â he says dryly, before loosing the arrow. Another perfect shot.Â
You shake your head, exasperated but oddly entertained. âYouâre impossible.âÂ
âAnd youâre nosy,â he counters, retrieving another arrow.Â
âI don't get out much.â You say with a lift of your shoulders.Â
âClearly.â He deadpanned. âWhatâs your excuse for being out here, anyway? Fancy dresses and all?âÂ
The question catches you off guard. You hesitate, pulling your cloak tighter. âI needed to get away.âÂ
âFrom what?â he asks, his tone skeptical.Â
You glance at the ground, then back up at him. His eyes are on you now, not the target, and you feel a strange urge to tell the truth. Not all of it, but enough. âLook who's being nosey now.â He snorts as you continue âMy parents,â you admit softly. âTheyâre⊠overbearing.âÂ
He snorts. âOverbearing parents? Shocking.âÂ
You narrow your eyes. âIâm serious. Theyâve been pressuring me nonstop, telling me who I should be, what I should want. Itâsââ You trail off, shaking your head. âItâs exhausting.âÂ
For a moment, he just looks at you, the teasing edge in his expression fading. âSo, what? You ran off to the woods to escape their nagging?âÂ
âSomething like that,â you say, lifting your chin. âNot that itâs any of your business.âÂ
He huffed a laugh and leaned against his bow. âFair enough. But sneaking into the woods wearing that dress?â He gestures again at the hem of your gown. âBold choice.âÂ
âDo you ever stop criticizing people?â you shoot back, though thereâs no real venom in your words.Â
âNot when they make it this easy.â His smirk returns, faint but noticeable.Â
You roll your eyes but canât help smiling beneath your hood. âWell, Iâm sorry to disappoint you, but Iâm not leaving.âÂ
âSuit yourself,â he mutters, turning back to his target. âJust donât expect me to babysit you if you trip over your fancy shoes.â Â
You bite back a retort and instead settle against a tree to watch him. He doesnât seem to mindâthough he throws the occasional glance your way, as if checking to make sure you havenât disappeared or done something foolish. The silence stretches, broken only by the soft rustle of leaves and the rhythmic thwack of his arrows. Itâs strangely comforting, this moment shared with a stranger in the middle of the woods. For the first time in weeks, the weight of the crown on your head feels a little lighter.Â
You watch as he moves with practiced ease, drawing and releasing arrow after arrow. The steady rhythm of his practice feels like the heartbeat of the forest, grounding you in a way you hadnât realized you needed. For a moment, you close your eyes, letting the quiet wash over you. The weight of the dayâthe endless parade of suitors, the sharp-edged words of your parents, the suffocating walls of the castleâfeels distant now, almost unreal. Out here, under the stars, youâre not the princess with a duty to marry for the good of the kingdom. Youâre just⊠you.Â
The thought stirs something bittersweet in your chest. You know this moment canât last. Sooner or later, youâll have to return to the castle, to the expectations and the responsibilities. This fleeting sense of freedom, of solace, will be nothing but a memory. You open your eyes again, focusing on him. Heâs still at it, firing arrow after arrow with a precision thatâs almost mesmerizing. Thereâs a quiet determination in the way he moves, as though this practice is more than a simple pastime. It feels like a ritual, a way of carving out his own space in the world. He moved like he was meant to be there, like the act of archery was engraved into his soul.Â
For a brief, foolish moment, you wonder what it would be like to stay. To slip away from the castle every night, to watch him practice and trade sharp words under the moonlight. But you shake the thought away. Itâs impossible. Still, you linger. You donât want to leave just yetânot while the night still feels alive around you, not while you can still breathe without the weight of the crown pressing down.
Silently, you push away from the tree and step back into the shadows. The forest seems quieter now, as though it knows youâre leaving. You glance back once, catching the faint glint of his bow in the moonlight, the outline of his form as he lines up another shot. You slip away before he can notice, retracing your steps through the woods and back toward the castle. The chill of the night air clings to you, and the weight of reality begins to settle back onto your shoulders with each step closer to the towering walls.
By the time you slip through the garden gate, the spell is broken. The castle looms ahead, its windows dark and silent, the very air around it heavy with expectations. But for a few precious hours, you had tasted something differentâsomething real. And as you climb the servantâs staircase back to your chambers, you canât help but wonder if youâll ever see him again.Â
The morning sun filters through the stained-glass windows of the dining hall, casting jeweled patterns onto the long oak table. You sit in your usual seat, the one that feels more like a throne than a chair, the weight of your parentsâ presence pressing down on you like the crown you donât yet wear. Breakfast is a quiet affair, at least for you. The clink of silverware and the murmurs of servants fill the space as your father, The king mutters about political alliances to your mother, The Queen. His deep voice carries a sharp edge, his words precise and biting, even when directed at your mother. You keep your head down, focused on the food sitting in front of you.Â
You barely hear him call your name. Your thoughts are elsewhereâlost in the forest, in the soft rustle of leaves and the quiet thwack of an arrow hitting its mark. You see the archer in your mindâs eye, his focused gaze, the smooth movement of his hands as he loosed each shot. âAre you listening?â your father snaps, his voice cutting through your reverie like a whip.Â
You blink, startled, and glance up at him. His dark eyes are cold and unforgiving, his thick brows drawn into a scowl. âYes, Father,â you lie, though you have no idea what he just said. Trying to gather yourself. Your father was a very angry man, even more so when you were being disobedient.Â
He doesnât believe youâhe never doesâbut he waves it off, taking another bite of bread. âGood. Then you understand how important this ball is.âÂ
The word ball yanks you out of your thoughts entirely. You sit up straighter, your heart sinking. âA ball?â You narrowly avoided most balls claiming to be sick, or having your nursemaid lie and say you had lessons very early in the morning. Not like your parents knew you were lying, they rarely kept track of those things, only that they were being done.Â
âYes,â your mother says, her voice softer but no less resolute. She looks at you with the faintest trace of pity, but it does little to soothe the knot forming in your chest. âItâs time for you to meet suitors. Proper ones. The lords of the neighboring countries will all be in attendance.âÂ
You shake your head, your fingers tightening around the silver spoon in your hand. âI donât want a ball. I donât want suitors.â You regretted the words as soon as they left your lips. Any defiance to your father was a grave mistake, one you were sure youâd regret shortly here.Â
Your father slams his goblet onto the table, making you flinch. âYou donât get to decide what you want,â he growls. âYou have a duty to this kingdom, girl. Do you think your whims matter when alliances are at stake?â His words shake you. You knew how he felt but hearing him say it didn't make the blow any less hurtful. It brought you back to the quiet nights you spent curled into a ball on your bed at eight years old wondering why your daddy didn't love you like the other daddies did, why was yours so mean.Â
You lower your gaze to your plate, your stomach twisting. The archerâs face flickers in your mind again, unbidden. You wonder what he would say if he saw you like this, cowed under your fatherâs fury. The pink hue of your long hair covering your face shielding you from your embarrassment. âYouâll go to your dress fitting after breakfast,â your mother adds, her tone brisk as though sheâs trying to smooth over the tension. âNursemaid Kora will take you. Everything must be perfect.âÂ
Perfect. The word feels like shackles on your wrists.Â
âDo you understand?â your father demands.Â
âYes,â you say quietly, though the word feels like ash on your tongue. The king grunts, satisfied, and turns back to his food. The rest of breakfast passes in strained silence, broken only by the occasional murmur of servants or the scrape of knives on plates. Your thoughts were loud as they rattled around in your head.Â
Oh how did you long for a normal life, with a normal family and parents who loved you. You glance toward the far end of the room, where the kingâs guard stands like statues, their polished armor gleaming faintly in the morning light. Their presence is a constant reminder of the cage you live inâone gilded and grand, but a cage nonetheless.Â
Your mind drifts again, this time to the forest, to the sense of freedom youâd felt beneath the trees. To the archer, with his sharp gaze and quiet strength. You wonder if heâs out there now, practicing his craft in the clearing. Does he think about you at all? Did he even notice the way you lingered last night? You thought of his beautiful face and the way the moonlight caught it just right.Â
Foolishly you thought of a life with him. One filled with love and light, one that you had only conjured in your mind. It was unattainable and you were sure you would never see him again but still the thought loosened your bones and slowled the rapid beating of your heart. You didn't even know his name, and he yours but still you daydreamed the way he would whisper it, into the woods and into wind all the way until it reached you. It would engulf you, swirling around your being and reaching your heart.Â
Your mother calls your name with a softness that only you knew was faux. âCome.â She says rising from her seat. âKora is waiting.â You nod numbly and stand, your pink dress swishing around your legs as you follow her out of the dining hall. But your heart stays behind, tangled somewhere between the memory of the archerâs steady hands and the ache of knowing youâll likely never see him again.Â
The village square bustled with life, though as always, it seemed to pulse around him, not with him. Yeonjun stood near the edge of the market, his wares laid out neatly on a rough-hewn table: freshly skinned rabbit pelts, bundles of dried herbs, and slabs of venison wrapped in cloth. He adjusted the placement of the furs, not because they needed straightening, but because it gave him something to do.
The morning sun warmed his back, but he felt no comfort in it. A pair of women whispered as they passed, their glances darting his way like skittish birds. One muttered a prayer under her breath, her gaze lingering on the scar that cut across his browâa mark left by a long-forgotten accident but whispered about like it was the devilâs curse. They always whispered about him. Yeonjun the orphan. Yeonjun the cursed. He clenched his jaw and focused on his work, brushing his fingers over the pelts. Let them talk.
âStill brooding, I see.â Yeonjun didnât need to look up to recognize the voice. Beomgyu, his only friend, or as close to one as he allowed. The man sauntered over, carrying a sack slung across his broad shoulders, his cheeks red from the morning chill.
âIâm not brooding,â Yeonjun muttered, though he didnât lift his head.Â
âSure youâre not.â Beomgyu dropped the sack beside the table with a dull thud. âYouâve got that same âstay away from meâ look you always do.â Beomgyu sent Yeonjun a crooked teasing grin.Â
Yeonjun gave him a sidelong glance. âIt works, doesnât it?â
Beomgyu laughed, a deep, easy sound that drew a few more glances from the villagers. Unlike Yeonjun , Beomgyu seemed immune to the weight of their stares. His carelessness was off putting to Yeonjun âYou know, you might be less miserable if you actually talked to people once in a while.â
âI talk to you, donât I?â Yeonjun said flatly.
Beomgyu shook his head, still smiling. âIâm not people. Iâm a saint for putting up with you.â A saint was far from what Yeonjun would call Beomgyu. The boy was anything but a saint.Â
Yeonjun huffed a quiet laugh despite himself, but the faint flicker of amusement quickly faded. His mind drifted unbidden to the girl in the woods. Her cloak, the way the moonlight caught the strands of pink hair peeking from beneath it. Who was she? Although he rarely frequented the village, opting to stick to his little cabin in the woods, he was sure that he would spot that bright pink hair anywhere on any given day. Everyone came to the village on selling days, surely he would have seen her walking around, right?Â
Heâd told himself to forget her. To let her vanish into the shadows of memory like everything else. But the image of her standing beneath the trees, her voice soft but bold, wouldnât leave him. âAnyway,â Beomgyu said, breaking Yeonjunâs thoughts, âI came to ask you something.â
Yeonjun raised a thick brow. âWhat?â
Beomgyu grinned, a little too wide. âThereâs work up at the castle.â
Yeonjunâs expression darkened immediately. âNo.âÂ
âDonât be like that,â Beomgyu said, unfazed. âThe princessâs ball is coming up. They need extra hands for the feast. Weâd be in the kitchens, nothing fancy. Just bringing up meat for the royals.â
âI said no,â Yeonjun growled, his voice low.
Beomgyu leaned against the table, crossing his arms. Gone was the playfulness, a look of desperation in its place. âLook, I know you hate the noblesââÂ
âI donât hate them,â Yeonjun snapped. âI just donât care for their games.âÂ
âFine. Call it what you want. But theyâre paying good coin, and we could use the work.â Beomgyuâs voice softened slightly. âYou could use it, Yeonjun. How long are you going to keep doing this?â He gestured to the table, to the furs and meat that earned just enough to keep him alive. Yeonjun glanced down, his hands tightening into fists at his sides. He did need the money.Â
âFine,â he muttered finally, his voice sharp and bitter.Â
Beomgyu clapped him on the shoulder. âGood man.â Yeonjun flinched away from the touch, shrugging it off. He started packing up his things, his movements quick and tense. But even as he worked, his mind drifted again to the girl in the woods.Â
Her voice had been so sure when sheâd said she was curious, her smile hidden beneath her hood. And yet, there had been something else in her eyes, something that mirrored the ache he carried in his own chest. Almost like a mirror of himself. It didnât matter. He couldnât see her again.Â
Everyone he lovedâeveryone he cared forâwas gone. His family, his friends. Death followed him like a shadow, and he would not drag her into it. He wouldnât. He would take the coin from the castle and leave. He wouldnât think about her again. But as he slung his pack over his shoulder and followed Beomgyu out of the square, he knew it was a lie.
The cabin creaked as the night wind curled around its edges, pushing through the gaps in the wooden shutters. Yeonjun sat by the hearth, sharpening his hunting knife with slow, deliberate strokes. The repetitive motion grounded him, giving him a momentary reprieve from his restless thoughts. The fire crackled, casting shadows on the walls, but the warmth did little to soften the cold weight in his chest. The girl from the woods was still there in his mind, her pink hair catching the moonlight, her voice lilting like birdsong. He hated that he kept thinking about her.Â
A sharp knock at the door broke the stillness. Yeonjun froze, his hand tightening on the knife. For a long moment, he didnât move, his eyes fixed on the door. No one came out hereâno one dared, except for Beomgyu. And Beomgyu never knocked, opting to barge whenever he pleased. Another knock, louder this time.
With a sigh, Yeonjun stood and set the knife on the table. He crossed the room, pulling the door open just enough to see who stood on the other side.A boy no older than seventeen stared up at him, his cheeks flushed from the cold and his arms full of rolled newspapers. His oversized coat hung awkwardly on his skinny frame, and his breath came in little white puffs.Â
âMr.Yeonjun!â the boy said brightly, his voice breaking through the quiet night. Yeonjun recognized him as the oldest Huening son, Kai. A paper boy for all of the village. Why he was delivering Papers this late at night was beyond Yeonjun.Â
âWhat are you doing here?â Yeonjun said sharply, glancing past the boy to the empty forest path. âYouâre supposed to leave the paper on the doorstep.âÂ
Kai shifted on his feet, suddenly nervous under Yeonjunâs glare. âIâI know. But I wanted to see you.âÂ
âWhy?â Was all Yeonjun said, not in the mood for a long winded conversation at this hour.Â
Kaiâs face lit up, his nervousness replaced with eager determination. âIâve seen you. In the woods. Shooting your bow. Youâre amazing! No one in the village can shoot like you can.â He took a step closer, his wide eyes shining with admiration. âWill you teach me?â The light from the cabin illuminated the boy's features, catching the stark blonde of his hair and his boyish features. Although Yeonjun was only a few years older than the boy he had felt far more wise beyond his years. Kai was comparable to a..well a child in Yeonjunâs eyes.Â
Yeonjun stared at him, the boyâs words settling like an unwelcome weight in his chest. âNo,â he said bluntly.Â
ââKaiâs face fell, but he pressed on. âPlease, Iâll work for it! I can help with chores, orââÂ
âYou donât understand,â Yeonjun interrupted, his voice low and hard. âI donât have time to waste teaching some kid how to shoot arrows.â
Kai flinched, but he held his ground. âIâI could learn fast,â he stammered. âI swear Iâdââ
âGo home,â Yeonjun snapped, his hand tightening on the door. âItâs late. You shouldnât even be out here.â Kai hesitated, but he finally nodded. Yeonjun shut the door without another word. He leaned against it for a moment, exhaling slowly as Kaiâs footsteps faded down the path.
The room felt colder now, the fireâs warmth unable to reach him. He shook his head and went back to his chair, picking up the knife again. He didnât need anyone else relying on him. He didnât need one more thing to care about. Everyone who had ever mattered to him was gone. Kai didnât understand what he was asking for. Yeonjun couldnât be a mentor, a teacher, a protector. He wouldnât risk letting someone else into his lifeâjust to lose them too. The paper still sat on the doorstep, forgotten in the cold.Â
The grand hall of the castle was an entirely different world from the forest Yeonjun knew so well. The air was thick with the scent of roasted meats, spiced wine, and perfumes far too sweet for his liking. Chandeliers hung from the vaulted ceiling, their flickering candlelight casting golden hues over the polished floors and the opulent tapestries lining the walls.Yeonjun had never set foot in the castle before. Being surrounded by so many nobles who shot him noticeable looks of disdain was something he would never get used to, even as the hours ticked by.Â
Yeonjun moved silently through the crowd, a tray of roasted duck balanced on one hand. His dark tunic and dress pants, provided by the castle staff, were a poor attempt at blending in. He still felt like a wolf among peacocks. The nobility barely noticed him as he passed, save for the occasional stare, their laughter and chatter a dull hum in his ears.âKeep moving,â Beomgyu muttered as he brushed past with a tray of wine-filled glasses. âAnd donât glare at everyone. Youâll scare off the coin.âÂ
Yeonjun grunted but said nothing, his focus on his task. He hated the castle, hated the hollow grandeur of it all. The villagers whispered about the luxury the royals lived in, and now, seeing it up close, Yeonjun understood why they seethed with resentment. âLadies and gentlemen!â a booming voice called, silencing the room. The herald stepped forward, his red and gold uniform gleaming in the light. âMay I present her royal highness, Our very own Princess. Daughter of The King and Queen!â Â
Yeonjun froze.
The crowd turned toward the sweeping staircase, where she appeared, her head held high, her movements graceful and deliberate. She wore a gown of shimmering silver, the fabric catching the light like starlight on water. But it wasnât the dress that made his chest tighten. Stopping in his tracks in the middle of the dance floor.Â
It was her hair.
Pink.Â
His breath caught in his throat as memories of the woods flooded backâthe girl in the cloak, her bold words, her curiosity. He had thought of her endlessly since that night, but heâd never expected this. She descended the staircase slowly, her expression serene, but Yeonjun caught the brief flicker of nerves in her eyes. She scanned the room, her gaze brushing over the sea of faces, until it landed on him. Her steps faltered, just barely, and only for a mere second. It had gone unnoticed by everyone but him. He knew the look in her eye matched his own.Â
Yeonjun saw the recognition in her widened eyes, the way her lips parted as though she might speak. But then she blinked, regaining her composure. Her gaze slid away as though nothing had happened, and she continued her descent. His grip on the tray tightened, his heart pounding in his chest. He had vowed not to see her again, and yet here she was, standing among the very people he resented most. He wasnât sure what the feeling in his chest was. Resentment? Anger? A little bit of pity? Really he shouldn't be surprised that she didn't tell him who she was the night in the woods but still..Yeonjun felt like a fool.Â
The evening wore on, the ball unfolding in a haze of music and laughter. Yeonjun moved through the crowd, refilling glasses and delivering trays of food. But his attention was drawn to her, no matter how hard he tried to focus on his work. She danced with suitors, her gown flowing around her like liquid light. She smiled at them, laughed at their jokes, but Yeonjun saw the tension in her posture, the way her smile never quite reached her eyes. He had only known her a short while and still he knew the true feeling behind her faux smile. How had no one noticed how much she hated this? How did the King and Queen not? Or did they just not care?
Despite the distance between them, she noticed him too. Their eyes met across the room again and againâwhen he passed by with a tray of wine, when she lingered near the edge of the dance floor. Each time, her gaze lingered a moment too long before she looked away. Yeonjun felt fear that someone would notice, someone who would think that there was more there than what led on. He shouldnât be here. He shouldnât want to see her. By the time the night began to wane, Yeonjun was certain of one thing: the princess was just as out of place here as he was.Â
As the night went on the small glances toward each other had become too much for Yeonjun to bear. The need for food and drink was starting to die down as the nobles became more intoxicated, sticking to their silly little dances and belly laughing conversations. He decided excusing himself to go outside for fresh air was the best thing for him. The cool night air was a welcome reprieve from the stifling ballroom. Yeonjun leaned against the stone balustrade of the castle balcony, the distant sound of music and laughter muffled by the heavy doors behind him. Above, the sky stretched endlessly, stars scattered like flecks of silver against the inky black.Â
He let out a slow breath, running a hand through his dark hair. This was a mistakeâcoming here, taking this job. Seeing her. He knew even being near the castle would bring him trouble. He knew he hated royals for a reason. The door creaked open behind him, the soft rustle of fabric giving her away before she even spoke. Yeonjun closed his eyes briefly, exhaling through his nose. He looked around at his surroundings. âShouldnât you be inside, Your Highness?â he said without turning around to look at her.Â
âI could say the same about you,â she replied, her voice carrying that same mix of curiosity and defiance he remembered from the woods. Yeonjun turned, his arms crossed. She stood just a few feet away, the silver gown catching the faint light like moonbeams on water. Her pink hair spilled over her shoulders, and she looked more like a dream than a person. A dangerous dream. âYou shouldnât be out here,â he said flatly. âSomeone might see us.âÂ
âI donât care,â she said, stepping closer, teetering on a thin line close to danger.Â
âWell, I do,â he shot back. âIf anyone gets the wrong ideaââÂ
âLet them,â she interrupted. Her gaze was steady, unwavering. âI wanted to talk to you.âÂ
ââYeonjun sighed, rubbing the back of his neck. âThereâs nothing to talk about.âÂ
âThere is,â she insisted. âIâI wanted to explain.â
âExplain what?â He gestured toward her, his voice dropping. âThat youâre a princess and Iâm just some cursed hunter? That we shouldnât even be in the same room together?â Her eyes knit together at the word cursed, it had given Yeonjun a small sprinkling of foolish hope that she hadnât heard about him, and what people whispered about him and his family.Â
Her cheeks flushed, but she didnât back down. âYouâre angry.â Her cheeks flush from the cold. If it weren't for the circumstances Yeonjun would have thought it to be cute.Â
âIâm not angry,â Yeonjun said sharply. âIâm realistic. You shouldnât be here, and I definitely shouldnât be here with you.âÂ
She stepped closer, her voice softening. âWhy not? Because Iâm a princess?â Her pink hair framing her face in the most delicate way.Â
âYes!â he snapped, his eyes narrowing. âBecause youâre a princess. And if anyone sees us out here, Iâll be the one paying for it, not you.âÂ
She hesitated, but only for a moment. âYouâre right. I am a princess. And all night, Iâve had to smile and pretend that everythingâs fine. That Iâm perfectly happy dancing with men who donât know a thing about me. But I saw you, and for a moment, I feltâŠâ Yeonjunâs breath caught in his throat. They were definitely inching towards a very dangerous game, one he didn't want to play.Â
âDonât finish that sentence,â Yeonjun interrupted, his voice low. He couldn't hear her say it.Â
âWhy?â She asked, crossing her arms. âBecause youâll be tempted to feel something too?âÂ
He scoffed, looking away. âDonât flatter yourself.â Unable to look her in the eye.Â
âOh, I think Iâm right,â she said, a spark of mischief lighting her eyes. She smiled, and for a moment, the tension in his chest tightened.Â
âYou donât understand,â he said finally, his voice quieter now. âThis isnât about you. Itâs about me. I donât wantâŠâ He trailed off, his hands clenching into fists.Â
âDonât want what?â she pressed gently, not that she had to press much. Yeonjun would soon turn to a pile of mush for her if she needed him to. Â
âI donât want my head to end up on a stake,â he said bluntly, turning back to her. âAll because youâre having some sort of quarter-life crisis.âÂ
Her mouth opened in surprise, then closed again as she narrowed her eyes at him. âYouâre infuriating,â she muttered.Â
And youâre reckless,â he shot back.Â
She tilted her head, studying him. âIs that why you keep looking at me? Because you think Iâm reckless?âÂ
âIâm not interested in falling in love,â he said firmly, ignoring her question.Â
The words seemed to land heavier than he intended. For the first time, her confidence faltered, her expression softening. âYouâre lying,â she said quietly. The look on her face hurt Yeonjun more than he would like to admit.Â
âThink whatever you want,â he said, stepping back toward the door. âBut nothing good can come of this. Go inside, Your Highness. Your kingdomâs waiting.â
âWhatâs your name?â She asked with a whisper. âPlease grant me that.â Her voice pleading was soft enough to melt his heart.Â
âChoi Yeonjun, my name is Choi Yeonjun, and I'm sorry.â Before she could respond, he slipped back into the ballroom, leaving her standing alone on the balcony beneath the stars.Â
The days following the ball were restless. You went through the motions of royal lifeâmeals with your parents, lessons on etiquette, the endless parade of suitors vying for your hand. But none of it could hold your attention. You couldnât stop thinking about him.
Yeonjun.Â
His name was an anchor, tethering you to something real in a world that felt increasingly false. Every glance exchanged at the ball, every word spoken in the woods, played on a loop in your mind. By the third night, you couldnât take it anymore. You knew the risks, but the yearning to see him again was stronger than your fear. As the castle sank into sleep, you enlisted the help of your nursemaid, the one person who had ever shown you an ounce of warmth.Â
âSheâll kill me for this,â she muttered, bundling you into a heavy cloak. âBut Iâll not have you looking like a caged bird any longer. Be back before dawn, child.â With her help, you slipped past the guards, past the watchful eyes of the palace, and into the night. The forest was alive with the sounds of crickets and the rustle of leaves in the wind. It guided you, just as it had the night before, to the clearing where you had first seen him. The path there was more grueling than you remembered, probably due to the anticipation of seeing him again.Â
There he was. Yeonjun stood in the moonlight, his bow drawn, the string taut as he aimed at a crude target pinned to a tree. He let the arrow fly, and it struck true, embedding itself with a satisfying thunk. You stepped forward, the forest floor damp beneath your boots. âImpressive as always.âÂ
He spun around, his hand already reaching for another arrow. But this time, he didnât nock it. His shoulders stiffened as he recognized you, and his brow furrowed in frustration. âPrincess,â he said sharply, his voice low but tinged with anger. âWhat are you doing here?âÂ
âI came to see you,â you said, as calmly as you could manage, the rapid beating of your heart against your ribcage a testament to what you actually felt.Â
âYou shouldnât be here,â Yeonjun hissed, stepping closer. His eyes were dark, and the tension in his frame reminded you of a coiled spring. âDo you have any idea what could happen if someone found out?âÂ
âI donât care,â you replied, lifting your chin. âI had to come.â You could admit that you were being incredibly stubborn but you didnât care. This was something you had to do.Â
He shook his head, his jaw tight. âGo home, Your Highness. Now.âÂ
âNo.â The single word hung in the air between you, and the silence stretched until it was broken by the first raindrop splashing onto the ground. The cold finally sets into your bones and sends a shiver up your spine. You wrapped your cloak closer around your body not letting the droplets of rain sway you.Â
Yeonjun looked up at the sky, his expression darkening. âItâs going to pour. You need to leave.âÂ
âAnd leave a lady out in the rain? How very gallant of you,â you said, unable to resist the jab. You werenât above a bit of manipulation.Â
He muttered something under his breath before sighing deeply. âFine. But only until the rain stops.â He turns without another word leading you down a small path. Your footsteps light as you follow closely behind him. The rain picked up in an instant pelting you in only the short walk to the cabin.Â
The cabin looked cozy enough, nothing grand but you loved it. It felt intimate and new. You fought a small smile as you overlooked the dark wood, this is where Yeonjun lived. He opened the door without a word gesturing for you to go inside.Â
The cabin was warm, the fire crackling in the fireplace as you stepped inside. Yeonjun shut the door behind you, his movements tense. He didnât speak as he grabbed a blanket and thrust it toward you. âDry off,â he said curtly.Â
You took it, sitting down in the lone chair by the fire. The silence stretched between you, heavy and unspoken. âYouâre angry,â you said finally.Â
âOf course Iâm angry,â he said, his tone clipped. âDo you have any idea how dangerous this is? If someone finds outââÂ
âIâm careful,â you interrupted. âNo one followed me. Kora made sure of that.âÂ
âThatâs not the point,â he said, pacing now. âYou donât belong here, and I donât belong in your world. Whatever this isââ He gestured between you. âIt needs to stop.âÂ
âWhy?â you asked, standing. âBecause youâre scared?â Throwing the blanket he had given to you onto the chair.Â
âIâm not scared,â he shot back.Â
âYes, you are,â you said, stepping closer. âYouâre scared to feel something, scared to let someone in. But I see it, Yeonjun. Youâre not as closed off as you pretend to be.âÂ
He froze, his eyes narrowing. âYou donât know me.Â
âThen tell me,â you said, your voice softening. âTell me about your life. Let me understand.âÂ
âYou're making this difficult.â He said looking over at you, his eyes tired. His eyes caught the dark specs beautifully. Although only a few years older than you, you could tell he loved a much longer life. Had to endure things you've never even dreamed of, it aged him.Â
âWhy? Because Iâm here?â You were not going to let this go.Â
âBecause you donât belong here,â he snapped, finally meeting your gaze. âYou have no idea what this world is like, what it costs.âÂ
You hesitated before speaking. âThen tell me. Show me what itâs like.â You pleaded again.Â
His laugh was bitter, hollow. âWhatâs the point? Youâll go back to your castle and forget all about it.âÂ
âI wonât,â you said firmly. âI promise.âÂ
Yeonjun hesitated, the fight in him faltering as he sank onto the bench across from you. The firelight danced across his face. For a moment his vulnerability painted him as a young boy, one who suffered great loss. âMy family,â he began, his voice quiet, âused to live in a village not far from here. My parents, my sister, and me. We didnât have much, but we were happy. Then the fever came.â You didnât dare interrupt, your chest tightening as you watched him. âThey died within weeks of each other,â he said, staring into the flames. âOne by one. And I⊠I couldnât save them. Couldnât do anything.âÂ
âYeonjun,â you whispered, your heart aching for him.
âIâve been on my own ever since,â he said, his voice hardening. âItâs better that way. No one else to lose. The fever hit many families but a lot of them survived. Mine did not. They call me cursed andâŠI started to believe I am.âÂ
You leaned forward, your hands gripping the edge of the chair. âBut you had something beautiful once, something most people never getâa family that loved each other. Iâd give anything to have had that.â He frowned, his gaze flickering to you.Â
âMy parents⊠they care about power, appearances,â you said bitterly. âIâve never been more than a pawn to them. I used to dream of having a family like yours, people who loved me for me. Even if I lost them, at least Iâd have had it for a little while.âÂ
Yeonjunâs jaw clenched, but he didnât look away. âYou still have a chance to love,â you said softly. âTo let people in again.âÂ
He shook his head. âYou donât understand. Everyone I love⊠they die. Itâs like Iâm cursed.â You sat across from him, your hands folded tightly in your lap to keep them from trembling. You hadnât anticipated how deeply his words would cut not because they hurt you, but because they made you ache for him.Â
âYou loved them,â you said softly, breaking the silence.Â
He didnât look at you, but his jaw tightened. âOf course I did.âÂ
âAnd they loved you,â you continued. âThatâs why it hurts so much, isnât it?â
His gaze flicked to you then, sharp and guarded. âWhatâs your point?âÂ
âThat love isnât a curse,Yeonjun,â you said, leaning forward. âItâs a gift. Even if itâs fleeting, even if itâs painful when itâs gone, itâs still worth having.âÂ
His laugh was bitter, a low sound that sent a shiver down your spine. âEasy for you to say. Youâve never lost everything.âÂ
You hesitated, your chest tightening. âYouâre right. I havenât. But Iâve never had what you had, either.âÂ
Your voice trembled. âI used to dream about having a family like yours. A mother who held me when I cried, a father who wasnât so⊠cold. Even if it didnât last forever, at least I would have known what it felt like to be truly loved.â You said again. Yeonjunâs expression softened, his eyes searching yours as though he was seeing you for the first time.Â
âThatâs why I came here,â you said. âNot just to get away from them, but because you made me feel something real. For once, I wasnât just a princess. I was⊠me.âÂ
He looked away, his fingers running along the edge of his bow. âYou shouldnât have come back. Youâre playing with fire, and you donât even realize it.âÂ
âMaybe I do,â you said quietly.Â
He shook his head. âThisâwhatever this isâit canât happen. You and I are from different worlds. Thereâs nothing but heartbreak waiting down this road.âÂ
âIâm willing to take that chance,â you said, standing and crossing the room to him. And you were telling the truth. You had never truly felt love, so even if fleeting youâd kill to feel it just once. You didn't know what the future held for the two of you but you knew you were capable of loving Yeonjun, for however long the universe would allow it.Â
He looked up at you, his dark eyes conflicted. âYou shouldnât be.âÂ
âWhy not?â you challenged. âBecause youâre afraid? Or because you think youâre not worth it?âÂ
The question hung in the air, and for a moment, neither of you moved. Then, slowly, you reached out and rested your hand on his. His fingers tensed beneath yours, but he didnât pull away. Your heart thumped loudly in your chest.Â
âYeonjun,â you said, your voice barely above a whisper. âLet someone in. Even if itâs just for a moment.â
He closed his eyes, his breath hitching. When he opened them again, the raw vulnerability in his gaze stole yours.Â
âYou donât know what youâre asking,â he said, his voice hoarse.Â
âI know exactly what Iâm asking,â you said, leaning closer.Â
Your heart pounded as you searched his face, waiting, hoping. And then, slowly, he lifted a hand to your cheek, his fingers brushing against your skin. âI shouldnâtâŠâ he murmured, but the words trailed off as his gaze dropped to your lips.Â
âYou should,â you whispered. And then he kissed you.Â
It was tentative at first, a soft, testing press of his lips against yours. But the hesitation didnât last long. The tension that had crackled between you from the moment you met ignited, and the kiss deepened, pulling you into its heat. His hand slid to the back of your neck, his fingers tangling in your hair as he tilted your head to deepen the connection. His other hand rested on your waist, steadying you as your knees threatened to buckle beneath the intensity of it.Â
You felt everything in that kiss, his pain, his longing, his fear, and you poured your own emotions into it, trying to tell him without words that he wasnât alone, that he didnât have to push you away. When he finally pulled back, his forehead rested against yours, his breaths ragged. Neither of you spoke for a long moment, the sound of the rain outside mingling with the crackle of the fire.Â
âThis is a mistake,â he said finally, his voice barely audible.Â
âThen let it be my mistake,â you said, your voice trembling. âBut donât push me away because youâre scared.âÂ
His eyes met yours, and for the first time, you saw the cracks in his armor, the pieces of himself he had tried so hard to keep hidden. He didnât move away. If anything, Yeonjun seemed frozen, his fingers still tangled in your hair, his breath warm against your skin. You could feel the rapid thrum of his heartbeat beneath your hand where it rested against his chest, matching the wild rhythm of your own.
Then, as if something inside him broke free, he pulled you closer. His lips found yours again, no longer tentative but fierce, like he was trying to pour every unspoken word, every buried feeling, into the kiss. You melted against him, your hands sliding up to rest on his shoulders, anchoring yourself as the world seemed to spin away. His grip on your waist tightened, pulling you flush against him as the kiss deepened, heat building between you like the fire crackling in the fireplace.Â
Every touch, every movement, felt like a revelation. The roughness of his fingers on your skin, the way he tilted his head to take the kiss deeper, the quiet, almost desperate sound he made when your hands slipped up to cradle his faceâit was all overwhelming and intoxicating and completely consuming. When you finally broke apart, both of you were breathless. Yeonjun rested his forehead against yours, his eyes closed as if he was trying to steady himself. His hand remained on your waist, his thumb brushing idly against the fabric of your cloak.
âYou donât know what youâre doing to me,â he murmured, his voice rough and low.Â
âI think I do,â you whispered, your own voice shaky. A sense of unfamiliar excitement pooling in your belly.Â
âYou donât understand what youâre getting into.â He breathed out.Â
âThen explain it to me,â you said, your tone soft but insistent.Â
He hesitated, his eyes flicking down to your lips again as though he couldnât help himself. Instead of answering, he kissed you again.Â
This time, it was slower, softer. It wasnât born of desperation but something deeper, something quieter. His lips moved against yours with a tenderness that made your heart ache, his hands cradling you like you were something fragile. You lost yourself in it, the world outside the cabin falling away. There was only Yeonjun. The taste of him, the warmth of his touch, the quiet strength in the way he held you.Â
When he pulled back again, his lips barely brushing against yours, he rested his forehead against yours once more. âThis canât last,â he said, his voice barely above a whisper.Â
âMaybe it doesnât have to,â you replied, your fingers threading through the hair at the nape of his neck. âMaybe we just let it be what it is, for however long we have.âÂ
His eyes opened, and the vulnerability there was almost too much to bear. âYouâre going to ruin me, princess,â he said softly.
âThen let me ruin you,â you whispered, leaning in to kiss him again. This time, he didnât hesitate. The kiss was more hurried, rushed and sloppy.Â
âI donât know if I can hold myself back.â He spoke with a huff.Â
âDonât.â Was all you said as you toyed with the collar of his shirt. âDonât hold back, I want this.âÂ
âHave you ever done..anything before?â The question left an embarrassing red tint to your cheeks. Of course you hadnât. This had been your first kiss.Â
âNo.â Your voice a whisper as you hide your blush with your hair.Â
âAre you sure you want this?â His voice was firm as he gripped your hips firmly in his hand, almost like he was grounding himself. As if it was taking everything in him to not pounce on you this very moment.Â
âPlease.â You spoke with a newfound desperation. âIâm sure.âÂ
His lips attached to your neck next. It was tender and soft. The delicacy he used only quickened the speed of your already rapidly beating heart. His hands found the sleeve of your dress before slowly bringing it down your shoulder and your arm. The light from the fireplace is a catalyst to your warmth. The light illuminated the two of you like starlight. His lips moved the expanse of your neck and met your collarbone in feather-like kisses.Â
âYou're beautiful.â He whispered, moving your hair back.Â
âCan I take this off?â Your voice was hushed with a lit of intimidation hanging in the words. You gestured to his white shirt pawing at the buttons.Â
âOf course.â His smile was warm, comforting. You made quick work of unbuttoning the buttons yanking his shirt off in one fail swoop. You took your time inspecting the contours of his chest and torso. In awe of his sheer beauty. He was young, toned, and beautiful. Your fingers delicately danced around his body taking mental pictures.Â
âLike what you see?â He smirks at you, a tilt to his lips you found incredibly adorable.Â
âYes.â You said simply with a shrug, like it was the most obvious thing in the world.Â
âCan I take this off?â His hands toy with the dress you wore. It wasn't a big puffy dress like you would wear on a normal day. It was flat and required no corset, no zipper. It simply slipped off. A surge of confidence rushed through you and you figured you'd take hold of it before it washed away.Â
You pushed Yeonjun back against the plush couch. His back connected with the cushion behind him. His face lit up with an adorable surprise. âWhat are you-âÂ
âShhâ You smiled playfully. You rose from your seat now standing directly in front of him. You reached your hands to your sleeves pulling them down slowly.Â
Yeonjun smiled, resting his hands behind his head before sending you a mock bow of approval. âSuit yourself, your highness.âÂ
âShut up.â You giggle shyly pulling the rest of the dress down until the fabric meets the floor in a pile.Â
âAbsolutely beautiful.â He said with an unashamed look in his eye. You stood bare in front of him now, only panties and nothing else. No bra to hold in your breasts. You had never been so exposed. You reached down, riding yourself of the last of your clothing.Â
You had never been naked in front of a man before. Oddly you weren't nervous with Yeonjun, you felt content, you felt reassured.Â
âCome here.â Yeonjunâs voice was rough and almost hoarse, it was incredibly sexy.Â
You sat before him, completely naked but full trusting. âIâm going to prep you first okay Princess?âÂ
You nodded dumbly as he carefully laid you down on the sofa falling to his knees in front of you. âTell me if you want to stop at any point and I will. Am I clear?â You nodded again, finding it hard to muster up words when he was looking at you like that.Â
âUse your words sweetheart.âÂ
âYes.â The one word like a green light to Yeonjun. His mouth falling to be level with your core. You watched with keen fascination as his breath fanned the most intimate part of you. His tongue licked up one strip causing a gasp to leave your lips. Your hips lifting from the couch in surprise. His growl of disapproval sent shivers down your spine as his hands firmly pressed your hips back down onto the couch.Â
His mouth reattached to your slit lapping and licking at the sensitive bud. âOh-â You whined your mouth involuntarily curling into an âOâ shape.Â
His eyes searched for yours wildly, a desire for approval in his gaze. âHowâs that feel?â He asked coming up for a breath.Â
âG-good.â You stuttered out. âMore..âÂ
âGreedy are we Princess?â he quirked a thick brow at you.Â
âMhm..â You moaned unashamed of your clear desperation. His hand lifted ghosting over your entrance, his tongue back to lapping up your juices.Â
âHave you ever touched yourself?âÂ
âW-what?â Your mind was in a daze as his thumb lazily circled your clit, his tongue still ghosting over your entrance.Â
âHas this little princess ever touched herself?â His voice was rougher now, more demanding.Â
âY-yes.â You admitted shyly. âSometimesâÂ
Yeonjun tskâd slowly adding a finger into your awaiting entrance, taking it slower so as to not hurt you.Â
âMy god.â You whispered.Â
âDirty girl..â Yeonjun trailed off, reaching his free hand up to grab onto yours that was clutching the cushion of the couch in your hand.Â
âMore..â You whined, grinding yourself against Yeonjunâs hand, a desperate moan leaving your lips.Â
âI think you're ready.â He pulled his finger out with ease. A hiss of pleasure leaving your lips.Â
âAre you ready sweetheart?â His words were gentle as he quickly removed his pants and boxers. The sheer size of him catching you off guard and rendering you near speechless.Â
âWords, princess.â His tone held authority, something that had your mind abuzz and your skin ablaze.Â
âIâm readyâ You panted. Yeonjun carefully crawled over you taking a second to look down at your body, his eyes traveling the expanse of you. âBeautiful.â He said for what seemed like the millionth time tonight.Â
He lined his cock at your entrance running the angry red tip up and down your slit a few times, catching the pool of heat in its wake. âIâll go slow.âÂ
You nodded desperately waiting for when he would finally be inside of you.Â
He pushed in slowly the stretch of him burning like wildfire in your body, a jolt of pain flying up your spine.Â
Your gasp rang free throughout the cabin. The sound of the fire crackling in the distance serves as a comfort to you. âAre you okay?â Yeonjun asks when he was finally fully seethed inside of you, unmoving.Â
âYes.â You breathed out. âJust hurts a little.âÂ
âI can wait to move.â He suggested but you shook your head at the need for him to move out weighing the pain.Â
âNo. Please move.âÂ
Yeonjun nodded, pulling his hips back from slowly pushing them back in. His breath hitched in his throat a sigh of content following. âTight.â He grunted out.Â
He continued to slowly push in and out of you with tender precision. Soon you found yourself craving more, faster, harder you needed to feel him completely.Â
âFaster.â You whined out. âYou can go faster.âÂ
âYeah?â He hissed out âWhatever your highness wants.âÂ
A small smile graced your lips at his playful words. His hips pushed into you fasted the sound of your skin slapping ringing in the air around you.Â
âFeels so good.â You moaned. Running your hands down your body, your fingers finding your clit, making small slow circles over the nub.Â
âIâm almost there.â Yeonjun panted, his breath fanning over your face.Â
âMe tooâ You whined, feeling your orgasm creeping up on you like a freight train.Â
Yeonjun continued his brutal speed, your body moving in tandem with his, taking everything he gave you. Your heart pounding in your chest as you teetered on the edge.Â
âIâm coming.â You squeaked out as your orgasm hit you. It blinded you, your eyes rolling to the back of your skull. Yeonjun followed suit, his hips rutting into you before stilling.Â
The both of you stood still, saying nothing only looking at each other. A bubble of a laugh creeping up in your throat and finally leaving your lips in an eruption.Â
Yeonjunâs eyes widened as he watched you laugh, him still deep inside of you.Â
âWhat are you laughing at?â He asked with a look of amused bewilderment.Â
âI don't know.â You giggled out. âIâm happy.âÂ
Yeonjun smiled, a small semblance of smile falling from his lips. âMe too.âÂ
The rain had stopped by the time you stood at the door of his cabin, your cloak pulled tight around your shoulders. The world outside was silent, save for the occasional drip of water from the trees. Yeonjun stood in the doorway, his figure outlined by the soft glow of the firelight behind him. âYou shouldnât come back,â he said, his voice low and conflicted. Even after what you had just done he was still thinking of what could happen and not what was currently happening.Â
You turned to face him, your heart heavy but determined. âYou canât tell me what to do.âÂ
His lips twitched, almost forming a smile, but the weight of the night kept it from reaching his eyes. You had done irreversible things. Things that could quite frankly get him killed. âI mean it, princess. Itâs too dangerousâfor both of us.âÂ
âAnd yet you kissed me,â you said softly, stepping closer. âYou fucked me.â You continued.Â
He exhaled sharply, running a hand through his dark hair. âYouâre impossible, you know that?âÂ
âIâve heard it before.â You smiled with mischief.Â
The faintest trace of a smirk crossed his face, but it faded quickly. âIf youâre set on defying all reason, at least let me promise you something.âÂ
Your brows furrowed as you searched his face. âWhat?âÂ
âIâll write to you,â he said, his voice steady. âI donât know how, but Iâll find a way to get the letters to you. Just⊠so you know youâre not alone.âÂ
Your heart clenched at his words, the tenderness in his tone cutting through the sadness that had been building in your chest. âYouâd do that?âÂ
âFor you?â He hesitated, then nodded. âYeah. I would.âÂ
The weight of his promise settled between you, heavy and fragile all at once. You stepped closer, your hand reaching for his. His fingers closed around yours, calloused but warm, grounding you even as the moment felt like it might slip away. The thought of not knowing when you'll see him next wounded you. âIâll wait for them,â you said, your voice barely above a whisper.Â
His gaze softened, and for a moment, you saw past the walls he had built around himself. âYouâd better.âÂ
You smiled, a small, bittersweet thing, before tilting your head up to him. He hesitated for a fraction of a second before leaning down, his lips meeting yours in a kiss that was softer this time, slower, as though he was memorizing the feel of you. You poured everything into that kissâthe unspoken words, the hopes, the promisesâand when it ended, his forehead rested against yours, his breath mingling with yours in the cool night air.
âGo,â he said, his voice thick with emotion. âBefore I change my mind.âÂ
You nodded, stepping back reluctantly, your hand slipping from his. As you turned and started down the path, you glanced over your shoulder to find him still standing in the doorway, his silhouette illuminated by the firelight. And though your heart ached, the promise of his letters gave you a small, stubborn flicker of hope. Youâd see him again, you'd make sure of it.Â
The morning light streamed through the small window of Yeonjunâs cabin, catching motes of dust that swirled lazily in the air. He sat at the rough-hewn table, a piece of parchment spread before him. His fingers tightened around the quill, ink blotching on the page as he wrestled with the words he needed to say. How did he write to a princess? Especially one who he kissed, one he made love to. One that looked at him like he wasn't a broken man, and made impossible promises feel real?Â
Yeonjun groaned, running a hand through his unruly hair. He had spent the better part of the morning trying to figure out how he was supposed to get this letter to her without drawing attention. The thought of a royal guard intercepting it. Of the consequences for both of themâkept him frozen in indecision. A sharp knock at the door startled him, and he quickly folded the letter, tucking it under the edge of a book before standing. His hand instinctively went to the knife on his belt as he opened the door.Â
There stood Kai, the paperboy, clutching his satchel and beaming up at him with wide, eager eyes. âKai,â Yeonjun said, exhaling. âWhat do you want?âÂ
âGood morning to you too,â Kai said, undeterred. âIâve been practicing with the stick bow I made, but itâs not the same as the real thing. Youâre the best archer in the villageâprobably in the kingdom! Teach me.âÂ
âI told you before, I donât have time for this,â Yeonjun said, stepping back and starting to close the door.
âWait!â Kai stuck his foot in the doorway. âWhat if I do something for you? Like chores or hunting orââÂ
Yeonjun stopped, the boyâs words sparking an idea. He narrowed his eyes at Kai. âYou deliver papers to the castle, donât you?â
âYeah,â Kai said, straightening proudly. âEvery morning. They donât let me in, though. Just to the servantsâ entrance.âÂ
Yeonjun hesitated, glancing back toward the folded letter. âIf I give you somethingâsomething importantâcould you deliver it discreetly to the princess? Without anyone else knowing?â
Kai blinked, his face scrunching in confusion. âThe princess? Why wouldââÂ
âCan you do it or not?â Yeonjun interrupted, his tone firm.Â
Kai considered him for a moment, then grinned. âI can do it. But you have to promise to teach me archery.âÂ
âFine,â Yeonjun said, grabbing the folded letter and handing it to Kai. âThis stays in your satchel until you hand it to her.âÂ
Kai tucked the letter into his bag and gave Yeonjun a cheeky salute. âYouâve got yourself a deal.â Yeonjun watched the boy leave, his heart pounding. He hoped he wasnât making a mistake.Â
Kai trudged up the winding path to the castleâs servant entrance, whistling a tune as the satchel bumped against his hip. The gray stone walls loomed above him, casting long shadows in the morning sun. Despite his usual bravado, his stomach twisted with nerves. Delivering a letter to the princess was risky business, even for a street-savvy paperboy. When he reached the small, iron-banded door tucked away behind the stables, he knocked twice, then twice more, just like the man had told him. A moment later, the door creaked open, and a woman in a plain gray dress peered out. Her sharp eyes softened when she saw him.Â
âYou must be Kai,â the nursemaid said, her voice low but kind.
âThatâs me,â he said, flashing her a grin. âIâve got the letter.âÂ
He pulled it from his satchel, holding it up like it was a royal treasureâwhich, in a way, it was. The nursemaid took it carefully, glancing over her shoulder before tucking it into the folds of her apron. âYouâre certain no one saw you?âÂ
âCourse not,â Kai said, puffing out his chest. âIâm good at being sneaky.â
She smiled faintly. âThank you. The princess will be grateful.âÂ
Kai tilted his head, curiosity lighting his face. âWhyâs the princess getting letters from a huntsman, anyway?âÂ
The nursemaidâs expression grew stern. âThatâs not for you to wonder. Just keep this quiet, understand?âÂ
âUnderstood,â Kai said, holding up his hands. The nursemaid nodded, slipping back inside. The door shut with a soft thud, leaving Kai alone with his thoughts. As he walked back toward the village, he couldnât help but grin. Whatever was going on between the princess and the huntsman, it was far more exciting than delivering papers.Â
The grand hall felt stifling, the air heavy with expectation. You sat at the long, polished table, your parents at either end like sentinels of your fate. The man they had brought to meet you sat across from you, his eyes scanning you like a merchant appraising goods. He was handsome in a sharp, cold way, his words polished but hollow. âThis is Lord Kang Taehyun.â your father said, his voice booming with authority. âA man of great standing. Heâs traveled far to meet you.âÂ
You forced a tight smile, your hands twisting in your lap beneath the table. âItâs a pleasure, my lord,â you said, your voice strained.Â
Lord Taehyun inclined his head, his smile more a calculated gesture than genuine warmth. âThe pleasure is mine, Your Highness. Iâve heard much of your beauty and grace, though I see now that words fail to capture the truth.â The flattery felt like acid on your skin. You glanced at your mother, hoping for some reprieve, but her expression was as composed and unreadable as ever.
âYou will have much to discuss,â your father said, his tone dismissive. âTaehyun, perhaps you and the princess might take a walk in the gardens.âÂ
âNo,â you blurted out before you could stop yourself.
Your fatherâs gaze snapped to you, sharp and unyielding. âWhat did you say?â His words felt like tiny little prickles in your skin.Â
You stood abruptly, the chair scraping against the marble floor. âI said no. I donât want to walk. I donât want to⊠to discuss anything.â This new found confidence surprised not only your father but you as well. The tension in the room thickened, your motherâs eyes narrowing, your fatherâs face darkening with anger.
âSit down,â he commanded, his voice low and dangerous. You knew he meant business but something in you wouldn't allow for what was about to take place to happen. You were going to fight like hell.Â
You shook your head, tears stinging your eyes. âYou canât make me do this.â
Your father rose to his feet, his hands slamming onto the table. âYou will do as youâre told. This is not a requestâit is your duty.â
âDuty?â you cried, your voice breaking. âIs that all I am to you? A pawn to be traded away?â The words hung in the air like a slap. Your fatherâs expression turned thunderous, but your mother spoke first, her voice cold and clipped. âThatâs enough.âÂ
You turned on your heel, tears spilling over as you fled the hall, their voices chasing after you. Your feet carried you through the winding corridors of the castle, past servants who quickly looked away, until you reached the sanctuary of your room. Slamming the door shut, you sank to the floor, sobbing into your hands. It felt as though the walls were closing in, every word your parents had said pressing down on your chest.Â
You had only tasted a small ounce of freedom but you would do everything in your power to not lose it. The night you spent with Yeonjun was the best night of your life. For the first time in your life you felt real. You had finally felt like someone, seen you as you and not just a pawn in a nobel game.Â
You picked yourself up from the floor as the tears still cascaded down your face. Throwing yourself onto your bed letting your mind think of Yeonjun and Yeonjun only.Â
The night was silent when the knock came at your window. You rushed to it, your heart leaping when you saw the familiar figure of your nursemaid, Kora She slipped inside, handing you a folded piece of parchment. âItâs from him,â she whispered, a small smile on her lips. He kept his promise. He wrote to you. Your heart soared a prickling of hope bubbling in your chest. With Yeonjun, the world felt just all the more bearable. This tiny piece of paper was a saving grace in the mess that was your life.
Your hands trembled as you took the letter, the sight of his handwriting calming the storm inside you. Once the nursemaid left, you lit a candle and unfolded the parchment, your eyes drinking in the words.Â
âPrincess,
I hope this finds you well, though I know life in the castle is anything but kind to you. I donât know what I can offer with my words, but know that Iâm thinking of you. I canât seem to stop. I spent all day at the woodsâ edge, wondering if youâd appear again, though I know itâs foolish.
Stay safe. Write back if you can. Just knowing youâre out thereâsomewhereâmakes the world feel less empty.Â
Yeonjun.âÂ
You clutched the letter to your chest, his words filling the cracks in your heart left by the dayâs events. Taking a deep breath, you reached for your quill and parchment sitting on your bed eager to write back.Â
âYeonjun,Â
Your letter was exactly what I needed tonight. The world here feels so cold, so confining. But your words... They warmed me. I wish I could tell you how much they mean to me, how much you mean to me. You call yourself foolish for waiting by the woods, but I find myself thinking about you just as often.
There are moments I wish I could escape all of this, if only to spend another night in the rain with you. You make me feel free, even when Iâm trapped within these walls. I donât know how long this will last, or what the future holds, but I promise Iâll keep writing as long as youâll read my words.
Yours Alwaysâ
You folded the letter carefully, sealing it with trembling hands. The nursemaid would come again in the morning to deliver it, but for now, you tucked it under your pillow. As you blew out the candle and lay in the darkness, your thoughts drifted to Yeonjun. His voice, his touch, his promise. It was enough to keep the despair at bay, at least for tonight.
The days that followed were a blur of tension and despair. Your fatherâs booming voice echoed through the halls, issuing orders to increase security, though you didnât know why. Guards were stationed at nearly every corridor, their cold eyes watching your every move. Even the gardens, once your brief sanctuary, felt like a cage. Â
You suspected it was about control. The more you resisted their plans, the tighter they held the reins. Your father rarely spoke to you directly now, preferring to bark commands to your mother or the staff. Your mother, ever the strategist, would sit by your bedside at night, her hands clasped primly in her lap as she spoke of duty and legacy. Her words slid off you like rain on stone. But even in the midst of their suffocating demands, there was Yeonjun.Â
His letters arrived like whispers of freedom, tucked beneath your pillow by your nursemaid each morning. The words were simple, but they carried a warmth that broke through the chill of the castle. You read them over and over, tracing the ink with your fingertips until the parchment softened.Â
âPrincess,
Every day feels longer than the last without you here. I thought I was a man who had learned to live without hope, but youâve made me realize how much Iâve missed it. The woods are quiet now, but I hear your laugh in the wind and feel your presence in every shadow.
I donât know how this will end, but I promise I will keep writing to you, as long as youâll have me. Youâre the first thing in a long time that has felt real.
Yeonjunâ
His words were a balm to your raw emotions, and you clung to them like a lifeline. They were your secret rebellion, a quiet refusal to let your parents steal the one thing that gave you solace. You donât know what you would do moving forward but you knew for certain that the thought of a life without Yeonjun became more and more painful, it was something you wouldn't allow to happen. Even if it killed you. So Each night, by the flickering light of a candle, you wrote back to him.Â
âYeonjun,
Your words are the only thing keeping me sane. I feel trapped hereâmy parents are relentless, the guards omnipresent. Even my own footsteps feel like theyâre being watched. But when I read your letters, itâs like Iâm back in the woods with you, standing in the rain. For a moment, Iâm free again.
I donât know how Iâll get through this, but knowing youâre out there, thinking of me... itâs enough to keep going. I hope youâll write to me as often as you can. Your letters are my escape.
Yours always.â
The exchange continued for days. Each morning brought a new letter, and each night you penned your reply. The routine became your lifeline, a fragile thread tying you to something brighter, something more alive. The grueling dinners with your parents, the endless stream of suitors paraded before youânone of it mattered when you knew a letter was waiting under your pillow. Yeonjunâs words reminded you of what it felt like to be seen, truly seen, and not as a piece on your fatherâs chessboard. You closed your eyes, letting his words settle into your heart. The stars above seemed brighter somehow, as if he were reaching out to you through them.
Your mother always told you that love was not real. That you could never love someone more than you loved yourself but that was a lie. It makes you sad sometimes. When you thought of your mother. Was she once a girl like yourself staying up until the wee hours of the night daydreaming about the possibility of a real love, had she ever felt it? You weren't sure.Â
Your fingers itched to write him back, to tell him how much he meant to you, how his letters were the only thing keeping you from breaking beneath the weight of your parentsâ demands. But tonight, there were no words strong enough. Instead, you held his letter close and let the quiet night envelop you. For now, his letters were enough. And soon, you would find a way to see him again.Â
The morning sun filtered through the trees as Yeonjun stood by the edge of the clearing, watching Kai fumble with the bowstring. The boyâs arms trembled under the tension, his grip clumsy as he tried to draw back the arrow. "Not like that," Yeonjun said, stepping forward. He placed a steadying hand on Kaiâs shoulder and adjusted his stance, forcing the boy to straighten his back. "Youâre holding it like itâs going to bite you. Relax."Â
Kai exhaled sharply, his face scrunched in concentration. "This is harder than it looks." His blonde hair blowing in the wind that bristled through the clearing they occupied.Â
He watched Kai try again. The boy managed to draw the string back this time, though it wobbled precariously before he loosed the arrow. It sailed a pathetic few feet before flying into the dirt. Kai groaned, slumping in frustration. "Iâm never going to get this."Â
"You will," Yeonjun said, his voice firmer now. "But not if you give up. Again." The boy looked at him, his brown eyes uncertain, but he nodded. He retrieved the arrow and tried again. And again. And again.Â
The days that followed were filled with more of the same. Each morning, Kai would show up at Yeonjunâs door with that wide, determined grin, a bow slung over his back and a bundle of arrows that were too big for his quiver. Yeonjun taught him everythingâhow to adjust his grip, how to judge the wind, how to stay calm and focused even when the target seemed impossible. At first, Kai was frustratingly bad. His arrows veered wildly off course, his fingers blistered from the bowstring, and his skinny frame seemed ill-suited for the demands of archery. But the boy never gave up. Each time Yeonjun corrected him, Kai listened intently, his determination outmatching his skill.Â
One morning, as they rested under a tree after hours of practice, Kai finally opened up. Completely unprovoked. There must have been a lot of things weighing on the boy's mind. "My familyâs poor," he said, staring down at the bow in his lap. "My father makes paintings to sell, and my mother does her best, but itâs not enough. My older sister works at the tailorâs, and my little sisterâs too young to help. Iâm supposed to be the big brother of the house now, The one to look to when Father is at work, but..." He trailed off, his voice cracking. Yeonjun didnât respond right away, letting the boy gather his thoughts.
"I donât want to feel useless anymore," Kai continued, his voice quiet but steady. "If I can huntâif I can bring home food or sell fursâmaybe things will get better. Maybe my family wonât have to struggle so much." Yeonjun studied the boy for a long moment. He saw the desperation in Kaiâs eyes, the same desperation that had once driven him to the woods all those years ago. He understood too well the weight of carrying a familyâs survival on your shoulders, the feeling of always falling short.
"Youâre not useless," Yeonjun said finally. His voice was quiet, but there was an edge of warmth in it. "Youâre trying. Thatâs more than most people would do." Kai looked up at him, surprised.Â
"And youâre getting better," Yeonjun added, his lips quirking into a small, rare smile. "You actually hit the target today. Granted, it was the edge, but it counts." Kai laughed, a sound that was bright and unguarded. For a moment, Yeonjun felt something he hadnât in yearsâa faint, flickering sense of hope. He had seen a lot of himself in kai. He too was seventeen trying to make ends meet while also growing and learning. He reminded himself to give the boy some reprieve, he was doing what most people in this village were doing. Trying to make it.Â
It was a week later when Yeonjun made the decision. They had finished another grueling day of practice, and Kai was leaning against a tree, his face flushed with exhaustion but glowing with pride. He had hit the bullseye twice that morning, a feat that had him grinning ear to ear. Yeonjun walked over to his small cabin and retrieved the bow that hung on the wall. It was a masterpiece of craftsmanship, its gold accents catching the light like fire. He had carved it himself years ago, imbuing every stroke with a sense of purpose and pride. It was his favorite bow, his most prized possession.Â
He walked back to Kai, who was packing up his own battered bow. Without a word, Yeonjun held out the golden bow to him. It was a present that he had cherished from his father. He had given it to him early in his life when Yeonjun took interest in archery, and now he was giving it to Kai.Â
Kai stared at it, his eyes wide. "Is that...?"Â
"Itâs yours," Yeonjun said, his tone leaving no room for argument. He knew he was deserving, Kai was going to grow up to be an amazing huntsman, maybe even better then Yeonjun. Yeonjun was sure of it.Â
The boy gaped at him, his hands hovering uncertainly over the bow. "But... this is your favorite. I canâtâ"Â
"You can," Yeonjun interrupted. "And you will. Youâve earned it."Â
Kaiâs hands trembled as he took the bow, his fingers tracing the smooth curves and intricate carvings. "I donât know what to say," he whispered.Â
"Say youâll keep practicing," Yeonjun said, his voice softer now. "Say youâll use it to help your family. Thatâs all I want."Â
Kai nodded, his eyes shimmering with emotion. "I will. I promise."Â
âGood.â Yeonjun smiled a hand on the boy's shoulder. âNow head home it's getting late.âÂ
The castle had become unbearable. Every corridor felt like a gauntlet, every shadow a trap. Guards patrolled relentlessly, their footsteps echoing like a drumbeat of oppression. Your fatherâs anger was a constant storm, and your motherâs calculated words were no less cutting. Everyday a battle for your freedom. Your father would not budge, his demands becoming more cold and less patient. The looming specter of the marriage broke you. The man they had chosenâa stranger from across the seaâwas everything you feared. Another piece in their endless political game. You didnât want to be a pawn, but they werenât giving you a choice. That night, as the moon rose high above the castle, you made your decision to see Yeonjun again, no matter the beefy guards.
You slipped into the gown you had worn earlier, pulling your dark cloak tightly around you. With a deep breath, you tiptoed past the guards stationed outside your chamber. The halls seemed endless, the flicker of torches casting long, wavering shadows. Every creak of the floorboards felt deafening, every glance from a passing servant a threat. But somehow, you made it. Past the gates, past the patrols, and into the forest that had become your sanctuary.Â
The knock on his door was hesitant at first, your courage wavering as you stood in the cool night air. The woods were quiet, save for the faint rustle of leaves in the wind. You wondered if he would even answer, if he was still awake. But then the door creaked open, and there he was.Â
Yeonjun stood in the doorway, his expression shifting from surprise to concern the moment he saw you, calling your name in confusion. You were the last person he expected to see tonight. You opened your mouth to speak, but the words caught in your throat. The weight of the past days pressed down on you, and before you could stop yourself, tears spilled down your cheeks.Â
His brows knit together, and he stepped aside, gesturing for you to come in. "Whatâs wrong?" You stepped inside, the warmth of his cabin wrapping around you like a blanket. It smelled of wood and the faint, earthy scent of leather. He closed the door behind you, his gaze never leaving your face.Â
"Theyâre marrying me off," you finally managed, your voice trembling. "To a man Iâve never met. A man I donât want."Â
Yeonjunâs jaw tightened, his hands curling into fists at his sides. "When?"
"I donât know," you whispered, sinking onto the edge of the small cot in the corner. "Soon. My father is furious. My mother says itâs for the good of the kingdom. But I..." You shook your head, burying your face in your hands. The weight of what your parents were doing finally settled in. A moment later, you felt the bed shift as he sat beside you. His presence was solid, grounding, and when his hand hesitantly rested on your back, it was as if a dam broke inside you.
"I canât do it," you said, your voice muffled. "I canât live like this. I donât want to be a pawn in their games. I just... I just want to be free."Â
Yeonjun was silent for a long moment, his hand tracing soothing circles on your back. Finally, he spoke, his voice low and steady. "Weâll figure it out. I donât know how yet, but we will."Â
You looked up at him, your tear-streaked face meeting his determined gaze. "How can you say that? You donât even know what theyâre capable of."Â
"I donât have to know," he said, his tone firm. "I know you. And I know youâre stronger than you think."Â
His words were like a spark in the darkness, a flicker of hope that refused to be snuffed out. You searched his face, finding no hesitation, no doubt. Just himâsolid, unyielding, and somehow, impossibly, yours. A beautiful man, who had cared for you. Who has seen more of you than anyone before. A man you were falling for, and hard. Before you could think better of it, you leaned forward, your hands gripping the front of his shirt. His eyes widened in surprise, but he didnât pull away.Â
"Tell me you mean it," you said, your voice barely above a whisper. "Tell me this isnât just a dream." You didnât care if you sounded silly and childish. This was the equivalent to whispering pinch me iâm dreaming but it didn't matter, you needed to hear it.Â
His hands came up to cup your face, his thumbs brushing away the tears that clung to your skin. "Itâs real," he murmured. "I promise you, itâs real." And then his lips were on yours.Â
His hands moved to the small of your back, pulling you closer as your fingers tangled in his hair. The world outside faded away, leaving only the warmth of his touch and the steady rhythm of his heartbeat against yours. The kiss was sweet but heated like you were catching up on lost time. You had missed his touch only feeling the ghost of him in his letters.Â
His arms tightened around you, and for a moment, neither of you said anything. The silence was heavy, but not uncomfortable. It was the kind of silence that spoke volumes, a language only the two of you could understand. "You should go back," he said eventually, though his arms didnât loosen their hold.
"I donât want to," you whispered.Â
His lips brushed your temple in the lightest of touches. "Iâll find a way to see you again. I promise."
And somehow, you believed him. There was no way youâd be marrying a man you didn't love, not a single chance.Â
The castle was quiet when you slipped back through the hidden servantâs entrance. Your heart pounded with every step, the weight of the evening still clinging to you like a second skin. The cool stone walls of the passage pressed in, amplifying the sound of your footsteps.When you turned the corner into your room, your nursemaid, Kora, was waiting. Her arms were crossed, and her lips were set in a thin line, but her eyes betrayed her worry more than her anger ever could.Â
"Youâre lucky the patrols didnât catch you," she said, her voice low but sharp. You had seen her angry before and this was not one of those times, she looked more worried than anything and strangely it made you feel warm.Â
You closed the door softly behind you and let out a shaky breath. "I needed to go."
Her expression softened at the sound of your voice, her stern demeanor melting into concern. "Child, what are you doing to yourself?" You didnât answer immediately. Instead, you pulled off your cloak and sank onto the edge of your bed, your fingers clutching the fabric tightly. The weight of her gaze made it impossible to avoid the question, so you finally looked up.Â
"I love him," you admitted, the words trembling as they left your lips.
Your nursemaidâs eyes widened slightly, and she let out a soft sigh as she sat beside you. She reached for your hand, her grip warm and steady. "Youâve always had such a stubborn heart," she said, a faint smile playing at her lips.Â
"I canât help it," you said, your voice breaking. "I donât want this life anymore. I donât want the titles, the suitors, the ballrooms. I just want... I just want to be free. With him." Tears welled in your eyes again, and before you could stop yourself, they spilled over. "I canât do this, not without him. I want to run away, leave it all behind."
Your nursemaid pulled you into her arms, holding you close as your tears soaked into her shoulder. She smelled of lavender and the faint, comforting scent of home. "I understand," she murmured, her voice gentle. "But you must be careful, my love. The world isnât kind to people like us who dream beyond our station." You had never really felt a motherâs love before, not in the way you had longed for. The closest you ever gotten was with Kora. Not only was she your nursemaid but your mother figure. She was nurturing, caring, compassionate like a mother should be. But she was also stern and would tell you exactly what you needed to hear, even if you didn't want to hear it. You had loved her like a mother.Â
You pulled back slightly, your face still damp with tears. "Youâve always been there for me," you said, your voice trembling. "When my own mother didnât careâwhen she looked at me like I was just another duty to fulfillâyou loved me. You raised me. Youâve been the only real mother Iâve ever known."Â
Her own eyes glistened now, and she cupped your face in her hands. "Youâve been my joy since the day you were born. I wanted to shield you from all of this. If I could give you the freedom you want, I would. You deserve to be happy, my dear. Thatâs all Iâve ever wanted for you." The words had felt like another crack in the crippling foundation of your heart. Soon you would overflow then explode with the constant raging emotions inside of you and you were sure when that happened Kora would be right there, helping you every step of the way no matter what decision you decided to make. Admitting to her out loud that you had loved Yeonjun changed something inside of you.Â
"I donât know what Iâd do without you," you said, your voice cracking.Â
She kissed your forehead, her touch light and filled with affection. "Youâll always have me. But promise me youâll be careful. If you love him as much as you say, donât let that love make you reckless. Itâs a dangerous world, and I wonât see you hurt."
You nodded, a fresh wave of tears streaming down your face. "I promise."Â
The two of you sat there for a long while, her arms wrapped around you like a shield against the storm outside. For the first time in days, you felt a glimmer of peace. Moments like this had made you mourn a relationship you never had with your own mother.Â
"I love you," you whispered.Â
"And I love you," she replied, her voice soft and steady. "More than youâll ever know."Â
ââYou fell asleep that night with her words echoing in your mind, the warmth of her embrace still lingering into the morning when you awoke again and she was gone, a blanket thrown over your body like a last single trace of her.Â
The morning sunlight filtered through the trees as Yeonjun stood in the clearing behind his cabin, his bow slung across his back. Kai was already there, eagerly stringing the bow Yeonjun had given him. His tongue poked out in concentration, and the boyâs scrawny arms strained slightly as he drew it back. "Focus on your breath," Yeonjun instructed, leaning against a tree. "Pull smoothly, donât yank it. Let the bow do the work."
Kai nodded, exhaling slowly before releasing the arrow. It sailed through the air, wobbling slightly before it struck the edge of the target. Not dead center, but better than it had been just days ago. "Yes!" Kai exclaimed, pumping his fist.Â
Yeonjun couldnât help but smile. "Not bad. You might not be completely hopeless after all."Â
Kai grinned, his face lighting up with pride. It was very.. Boyish almost. It reminded Yeonjun so much of who he used to be. He reached for another arrow, his excitement infectious. As he prepared to shoot again, he glanced over at Yeonjun. "You know, my parents were really proud of me last night."
Yeonjun raised an eyebrow. "Oh? Whatâd you do to deserve that?"
"I caught my first rabbit," Kai said, his voice swelling with pride. "With this bow. My parents sold it at the market, and we made enough money to buy bread and meat for the week. My sisters were so happy. My mom even cried."Â
Yeonjunâs chest tightened at the boyâs words, a strange mix of pride and longing settling there. "Good work, Kai. You earned that." He had the most perfect prodigy of himself. Someone he knew had the potential to be a great hunter and an even better archer than Yeonjun had ever been.Â
Kai beamed, his cheeks flushing slightly. "Itâs because you taught me. If it werenât for youâ"
"Stop," Yeonjun interrupted, though his tone was gentle. "You put in the effort. I just showed you how."Â
Kai hesitated, then said softly, "I just wanted to say thank you. For the bow, for the lessons... for everything." Looking down at the ground to hide his reddened cheeks, kicking at the dirt beneath his feet almost bashfully.Â
Yeonjun looked away, rubbing the back of his neck. "Donât get all sentimental on me. Youâll ruin my reputation." He said with a laugh. The joke hanging in the air between the two of them.Â
Kai laughed, but his expression quickly turned serious. "Youâre not as mean as everyone says, you know. Youâre actually... really kind."
Yeonjun snorted. "Donât spread that around. Iâve worked hard to keep people away, and Iâd rather not ruin a good thing."
"But why?" Kai asked, tilting his head. "Youâre not scary. Youâre..." He trailed off, searching for the right words.Â
"Cursed?" Yeonjun offered dryly.
Kai shrugged, a small smile playing on his lips. "Maybe." Yeonjun smiled at his Joke, something he found himself doing a lot more lately.Â
His turned serious sighing, he ran a hand through his hair. "You remind me of myself when I was your age. Scrawny, stubborn, trying too hard to prove something to the world."Â
Kai titled his head âThat wasn't too long ago, you're not that much older than me you know?âÂ
âYeah, I know.â Yeonjun sighed out, âYou Still remind me of my younger self. Iâm a lot more grown up than my age suggests. Iâve had to grow up early.âÂ
Kaiâs eyes widened. "Really?" His innocence warmed Yeonjunâs heart.Â
"Yeah," Yeonjun said, a distant look in his eyes. "Only difference is, youâve got a family who loves you. Donât take that for granted, Kai. Not everyoneâs that lucky."
Kai frowned, sensing the weight behind Yeonjunâs words. "What about your family?"
Yeonjun hesitated, then shook his head. "Not something you need to worry about, kid. Letâs just say... it didnât turn out the way I wanted."
âI know they died..â Kai said, surprising Yeonjun. âIâm sorry. I can be your family now.âÂ
âI appreciate that.â Yeonjunâs voice was low, soft. Like he was savoring the moment but not wanting to look vulnerable. âYouâre a good kid, Kai. Donât let anyone tell you otherwise."
Kai nodded slowly, his youthful energy appearing once more. "I wonât let my family down. Iâll keep practicing, and Iâll take care of them."Â
Kai grinned, his spirit returning as he straightened his bow. Yeonjun reached into his coat and pulled out a folded letter. "Here," he said, handing it to Kai. "Same deal as last time. Get this to the nursemaid, and make sure it reaches her. No one else."Â
Kai took the letter with a solemn nod, tucking it carefully into his satchel. "I wonât mess up. You can count on me."
"I know I can," Yeonjun said softly. "Youâre tougher than you look."
Kai flashed a determined smile and slung his bow over his shoulder. As he turned to leave, he paused, glancing back at Yeonjun. "You know," Kai said, his voice tentative, "youâre kind of like the big brother I always wanted."Â
Yeonjun froze, the words catching him off guard. He swallowed hard, his voice rough as he replied, "And youâre like the little brother I never asked for." Kai laughed, waving as he disappeared into the woods. Yeonjun watched him go, a strange warmth settling in his chest.Â
The wind howled outside Yeonjunâs cabin, rattling the wooden shutters as he sat at his small, worn table. The fire crackled in the hearth, casting flickering shadows on the walls. He ran his fingers over the letter heâd received from Kai earlier, the princessâs words already memorized but still giving him solace. He was about to turn in for the night when a sharp knock echoed through the cabin. Yeonjun frowned. Kai was long gone, and he wasnât expecting anyone else.Â
He opened the door cautiously, but no one was there. Instead, an envelope lay on the ground, the seal glinting faintly in the moonlight. Yeonjun bent down to pick it up, his pulse quickening.
He stepped back inside, closing the door behind him as he examined the envelope. The weight of it felt different from her usual letters. The paper was finer, the edges gilded with gold. For a moment, he thought Kai had brought it late, maybe as part of some grand gesture. But when he broke the seal and unfolded the paper, his stomach dropped. it wasnât her handwriting. The words danced mockingly across the page, each one sinking like a stone in his chest.Â
âYou are cordially invited to a masquerade ball at the royal palace to celebrate the forthcoming marriage of The Princess to Lord Kang Taehyun.âÂ
His grip on the paper tightened, the edges crumpling beneath his fingers. He read it again, hoping heâd misunderstood, but the meaning was clear.Â
Her marriage announcement.Â
The room felt suddenly stifling, the walls closing in as his heart pounded against his ribs. He stared at the invitation, anger and confusion warring within him. She hadnât mentioned this in her letters. Not once. He knew they were trying to force her into a marriage but not that they were going through with one.Â
"Why didnât she tell me?" he muttered to himself, his voice harsh in the quiet cabin.Â
Yeonjun paced the room, the invitation clutched tightly in his hand. Every instinct screamed at him to stay away, to keep his head down and let this royal mess unfold without him. But the thought of her standing in that grand ballroom, her eyes filled with sorrow, surrounded by strangers, was unbearable. He sank into his chair, his head in his hands. The memory of her tear-streaked face from the night sheâd come to his door haunted him. The way sheâd clung to him, her voice trembling as she confessed her fears.Â
"I have to see her," he said aloud, the resolve hardening in his chest. His eyes fell back to the invitation. A masquerade. If there was ever a way for him to slip into the palace unnoticed, this was it.Â
But what then? What could he possibly say or do to change the course of her life? With a heavy sigh, Yeonjun placed the crumpled invitation on the table and leaned back in his chair. The fire crackled softly, the warmth doing little to ease the chill that had settled in his chest. Tomorrow, he would decide what to do. But tonight, he let the weight of the truth settle over him, the words on the page a stark reminder of just how precarious their love truly was.Â
The night of the ball had finally arrived. Yeonjun sat in the quiet of his cabin, the fire in the hearth reduced to glowing embers. His packed bundle rested on the table â. Everything felt heavier tonightâthe air, his thoughts, the weight of what he was about to do. Heâd spent the day going over his plan, but now, as the moment drew closer, his mind turned to the boy whoâd become a surprising presence in his life: Kai. Heâd spent the day going over his plan, trying to get his affairs in order. Earlier, heâd gone to look for Kai. The boy was usually eager, always hovering around his cabin or running errands in the village. But today, Yeonjun had called for him several times, even gone to the square to see if he was there, but thereâd been no sign of him.Â
âProbably busy with his family,â Yeonjun muttered to himself, trying to shake off the unease that crept in. He thought of Kaiâs bright grin the last time theyâd spoken, the pride in his voice as he told Yeonjun about finally catching his first game. The memory pulled at his heart. Heâd wanted to talk to the boy, to tell him everything, to hand over the cabin, the bow, and all the tools of his trade. But with no time to waste and no sign of Kai, Yeonjun had to make peace with leaving it all behind without explanation.Â
"Iâll leave it all to him," Yeonjun murmured, his voice barely audible over the crackling fire. "The cabin, the bow, everything." It wasnât much, but it was all he had. And Kai deserved a chanceâa real chanceâto make something of himself. He thought back to the day heâd handed Kai the golden bow, the way the boyâs eyes had widened with reverence. That same boy had caught his first animal just days ago and had been beaming with pride when he told Yeonjun about his familyâs gratitude.Â
âTheyâll need this more than I will,â Yeonjun muttered. âKai will understand.â He sat at the small table, a scrap of paper and a stub of charcoal in hand. The words didnât come easily, each one feeling like a goodbye he wasnât ready to say. But by the time the fire had burned down to its last embers, the note was finished, folded neatly and left on the table. Yeonjun stood, shouldering his pack. His gaze swept the small cabin, taking in the worn wood, the faint scent of smoke, the memories etched into every corner.Â
"This is the right thing," he said softly, though the ache in his chest made him doubt. As he stepped outside, the cold night air bit at his skin, and the quiet of the woods enveloped him. He turned once to look back at the cabin, the soft glow from the window casting a faint light into the night. âKai will be fine,â he whispered, as if convincing himself. âHeâs stronger than he thinks.â And with that, Yeonjun made his way toward the palace. The plan was set, and his resolve was firm. Tonight, he would find her, and together they would leave this world behind.
The masquerade ball was in full swing, a sea of gilded masks, shimmering gowns, and laughter that echoed through the grand halls of the castle. Yeonjun, hidden in plain sight among the servants, carried a tray of fine goblets filled with wine. The facade of calm he wore barely concealed the storm brewing inside him. Heâd caught sight of her several times already, dressed in a gown of deep emerald green that hugged her frame and glimmered under the chandeliers. The mask she wore couldnât hide her identity from him, not when her pink hair peeked through in soft waves. But it wasnât just her beauty that consumed his attentionâit was the man beside her.Â
Kang Taehyun.Â
The one she was supposed to marry.Â
Yeonjun clenched his jaw, his grip tightening around the tray. The man was broad-shouldered, and carried himself with an air of entitlement that grated on Yeonjunâs nerves. He stayed close to her, far too close, speaking in a low voice that made her frown, though she masked it quickly for the sake of appearances. It made Yeonjunâs blood boil.Â
This was why he was here, why heâd come despite the risks. He couldnât stand idly by while they paraded her around as if she were a prize to be won. Moving through the crowd, Yeonjun kept his head low, blending in with the other servants. He waited for the right momentâwhen her parentsâ eyes were elsewhere, when the suitor was distracted by a gaggle of nobles seeking his attention. Pathetic. And he thought he was worthy of her?Â
When it came, Yeonjun didnât hesitate. He set his tray down and approached her from the side, careful not to draw attention. As he passed, his fingers brushed hers ever so lightly, and he slipped a small folded note into her hand. She flinched at the touch but quickly covered her reaction, slipping the note into the folds of her gown without looking. Yeonjun didnât wait for acknowledgment. He melted back into the crowd, his heart pounding.
The note in your hand felt heavier than it should, the words scrawled in familiar handwriting still burning in your mind. "The garden. Now."Â
Your heart thudded against your ribs as you scanned the ballroom. The glittering chandeliers and elegant guests seemed to blur together, a hazy backdrop to the storm of emotions churning inside you. Youâd recognized him instantly, despite the servantâs uniform and the simple black mask concealing part of his face. Why was he here? What was he thinking? You spotted Taehyun across the room, deep in conversation with your father, his smooth laugh carrying over the hum of the crowd. Your mother stood nearby, her sharp eyes scanning the ball for potential allies, rivals, and threats. The guards stationed at the doors kept their watchful gazes moving, their vigilance a constant reminder of your gilded cage.
Slipping the note into the folds of your gown, you waited for the right moment. When your mother turned to speak with a duchess, and your suitor became engrossed in a conversation about trade routes, you slipped quietly toward the side door leading to the garden. The cool night air hit your skin like a balm, the oppressive heat and noise of the ballroom fading with each step. You moved quickly, your gown brushing against the gravel path as you made your way through the moonlit garden. And then you saw him.Â
Yeonjun stood near a stone bench, his figure half-hidden by the shadows of the trees. His head turned at the sound of your approach, and even in the dim light, you saw the tension in his expression melt into something softer. "Youâre here," he said, his voice low and rough.Â
"You told me to come," you replied, your heart racing. "What are you doing here? If anyone sees usâ"Â
"I donât care," he interrupted, stepping toward you, his eyes blazing. "I couldnât stand watching you with him."Â
You froze, his words hitting you like a jolt. "Yeonjun, you canât justâ" You couldn't risk someone seeing you. No matter how badly you just wanted to run into his arms and never let go, this could turn dangerous and fast.Â
"I had to," he cut in, his voice fierce. "Youâre going to marry him, arenât you? Thatâs what this whole masquerade is for. To announce it to the world."Â
His words stung because they were true, but you didnât have a choice. "Itâs not what I want," you said quietly, your voice trembling. "But I donât get to decide."Â
"Thereâs always a choice," he said, his tone sharp, almost desperate. "You donât have to do this. We can leave tonightâjust say the word, and weâll be gone." You stared at him, the weight of his offer pressing down on you. His intensity, his recklessnessâit should have frightened you, but instead, it made you ache. Leaving was all you could ever think about. Leaving the prison you grew up in finally with the man you loved would be everything you had dreamed of.Â
"Leave?" you echoed, your voice barely above a whisper. "And go where? Theyâd find us. They always do."Â
"Let them," he said, his voice softening as he stepped closer. "Let them try. I wonât let them take you from me."Â
His words broke something inside you, the carefully constructed walls youâd built to endure this life. You looked up at him, tears stinging your eyes. "Yeonjun, this is madness." And it was, but word by word he was convincing you.Â
"Maybe it is," he said, his gaze locking with yours. "But I canât lose you. Not to him. Not to anyone."Â
The night seemed to still, the world shrinking until it was just the two of you. Slowly, you reached up and removed your mask, the cool air brushing against your tear-streaked cheeks. "I donât want to lose you either," you whispered, the truth spilling out before you could stop it. He closed the distance between you in a single step, his hands cradling your face as his lips met yours. The kiss was soft at first, tentative, but it quickly deepened, years of longing and frustration pouring into it. His hands slid to your waist, pulling you closer, and you clung to him as if he were the only thing keeping you upright.Â
When you finally broke apart, your forehead rested against his, both of you breathless. His fingers brushed your cheek, his touch achingly gentle. "What do we do now?" you asked, your voice trembling with a mixture of fear and hope.Â
âWe go.â he said, his voice steady and sure. "Together."Â
âNow?â You asked, your voice unsteady and unsure.Â
âWe have to,â he nodded, his tone urgent, almost frantic. His hand was firm around yours as he began to lead you deeper into the garden, away from the prying eyes of the guards and the glittering lights of the ball. âItâs now or never, Princess.â You hesitated at his words, glancing back toward the castle, its grand silhouette looming like a watchful predator. But the pull of his handâand the fierce determination in his eyesâspurred you forward. The garden paths twisted and turned, the soft crunch of gravel beneath your hurried steps the only sound in the quiet night. The cool air bit at your cheeks, and your gown tangled around your legs, but you didnât stop. He didnât stop.Â
âWeâll make it,â Yeonjun muttered, half to himself, half to you. âOnce weâre past the outer gates, they wonât be able to follow us. Not tonight.â Your heart thundered in your chest, not just from the exertion but from the enormity of what you were doing. Running. Escaping. Leaving everything behind. Ahead, the gardenâs stone archway came into view, the dense forest beyond it a promise of freedom. But as you reached it, something sharp and cold slithered down your spineâa sense of foreboding you couldnât shake.Â
âYeonjun, wait,â you whispered, pulling on his hand.Â
âWhat is it?â he asked, glancing back at you, his brow furrowed.Â
Before you could answer, there was a faint rustling behind you. Then, a muffled cryâa sound so brief and so quiet you werenât sure youâd heard it at all.Â
A hand wrapped around your mouth muffled your screams of protest, throwing you backwards and away from the view of Yeonjun. The last thing before going dark was Yeonjunâs slumped body against the wall and the face of your father looming over the balconyâŠgrinning.Â
Yeonjunâs eyes fluttered open, and the world around him spun in dizzying circles. The pounding in his head was the first thing he feltâa sharp, blinding pain that seemed to come from deep within his skull. He was lying on cold stone, his body twisted in uncomfortable angles, the rough texture of the floor scraping against his skin. His wrists were shackled behind him, and he could feel the weight of the iron biting into his flesh, a constant reminder of his captivity. The air was damp, heavy with the smell of mildew, and the faint dripping of water echoed in the darkness.
"Awake at last," a gruff voice sneered from somewhere above him.
Yeonjun tried to lift his head, but the effort sent another wave of pain through his skull, making his vision blur. He blinked, trying to focus, and found himself staring up at two guards, their faces shadowed by the dim light of a single torch mounted on the stone wall. "Where am I?" he rasped, his throat dry and cracked.Â
"The kingâs dungeon," one of the guards answered, stepping forward with an air of superiority. "You should feel honored. Not many get to see it." Yeonjun tried to push himself up, but a sharp kick to his ribs sent him crashing back to the floor. He gasped, struggling to catch his breath as the pain radiated through his body. His fingers curled around the cold stone beneath him, grounding himself as he tried to regain control.Â
âWhy were you sneaking around with the princess?â the second guard asked, his voice low and threatening. âWhat were you planning?âÂ
Yeonjun didnât answer. His lips were sealed, his mind racing. He wasnât going to give them anything. The first guard knelt down, bringing his face close to Yeonjunâs. âDonât play dumb with us,â he said, his voice dripping with contempt. âWe know about the little messages you sent. Through that boy.âÂ
Yeonjunâs heart skipped a beat. His mind raced. Kai. They had taken him. His body ran cold, a shiver shooting up his spine. âWhat did you do to him?â Yeonjun demanded, his voice hoarse but filled with venom.
The first guard chuckled darkly, pulling something from behind his back and tossing it onto the floor in front of Yeonjun. It clattered against the stone with a sickening sound, and Yeonjunâs breath caught in his throat when he saw it.
A bloodstained arrow.Â
The arrow that had once been his, now soaked in the blood of the one person who had truly believed in him. A boy, not much younger than him but so full of life. Only wishing to make his family proud. Dead..because of him.Â
"Recognize this?" the guard taunted, his grin widening. âYour little messenger screamed your name the whole time. Begged us to let him go. Begged for you to save him.âÂ
Yeonjunâs breath caught in his throat, his vision swimming as the truth hit him like a blow to the gut. He couldnât breathe, couldnât think. No. no. no. Kai.Â
âNo,â he whispered, the words barely escaping his lips. Almost like a plea to any god that would hear him. Any god with mercy.Â
âOh, yes,â the second guard said, leaning in with a malicious smile. âAnd the old woman? The nursemaid? She put up quite the fight. But donât worry. She didnât last long either.â The words sliced through Yeonjun like a blade, and for a moment, everything in him went cold.Â
"You bastards!" he shouted, his voice breaking with fury as he surged forward, only to be stopped by the chains holding him in place. He rattled them with all his strength, the metal digging into his wrists, but he couldnât escape. The guards laughed at his struggles, their cruel amusement echoing off the stone walls of the dungeon.Â
âYou brought this on yourself,â one of them said, standing to leave. âAll of thisâon you. On them.â The sound of their boots faded as they retreated down the hallway, their laughter still ringing in his ears. Yeonjun was left in the suffocating silence of the dungeon, his heart heavy with grief and guilt. His body trembled as he slowly sank back onto the cold floor, the bloody arrow still lying in front of himâa symbol of everything he had lost.
Kai. Kai was dead. They had taken him, tortured him, dumped him god knows where. His family, oh god his family. Yeonjun couldn't take it. The curse, he knew it was real and for the first time since the death of his family he had felt it tenfold, piercing him like his very own arrows. They were the archer and himself the prey, left in agony to be eaten by the wolves of the kingdom. How dare they?
Kai was innocent. He was pure. He was good. All things Yeonjun was not. And Kora, Kora had only had nothing but love for the princess. She nurtured her and raised her. She did more than the queen could ever do, gone. Because of him. He closed his eyes, the weight of it all crashing down on him. His chest ached with the unbearable loss, and for the first time in years, tears welled up in his eyes. But there was no one left to comfort him.Â
A sharp kick to Yeonjunâs stomach jolted him awake, the breath ripped from his lungs as pain shot through his body. He doubled over instinctively, coughing and gasping for air, but the guards were relentless. Rough hands grabbed him by the arms, dragging him to his feet. His legs felt weak beneath him, his head pounding from the lingering ache of his earlier beating.âGet moving,â one of the guards barked, shoving him forward.Â
Yeonjun stumbled, the chains on his wrists clinking with every step as they led him out of the dim dungeon. The harsh light of the corridor burned his eyes, but he kept his head down, biting back the groan of pain that threatened to escape. As they marched him up a winding staircase, the familiar sounds of the grand hall grew louderâthe murmurs of people, the echo of heavy boots on marble, the crackling of torches. Yeonjunâs heart sank. He didnât have to guess where they were taking him.When they shoved him into the throne room, the sight that met him was worse than anything he could have imagined.Â
The king sat on his golden throne, his expression smug and triumphant. The queen was beside him, her cold gaze fixed on Yeonjun as if he were nothing more than filth beneath her feet. And there, standing just to the side, was the princess. Her face was pale, her eyes red and swollen as though sheâd been crying for hours. The moment she saw him, her hands flew to her mouth, stifling a gasp.Â
âAh, the infamous hunter,â The king said, his booming voice dripping with mockery. âI must say, I didnât expect such a... lowly creature to have the nerve to court my daughter.â Yeonjun said nothing, his jaw tightening as he stared at the marble floor.Â
The king rose from his throne, descending the steps slowly, savoring every moment of Yeonjunâs humiliation. âWhat? Nothing to say? No impassioned defense of your love? No heroic declaration of your intentions?â Still, Yeonjun remained silent.Â
The king laughed, a cold and hollow sound that echoed through the chamber. âYou see, princess?â he said, turning to his daughter. âThis is the man you chose. A coward who canât even speak for himself.âÂ
âStop this!ïżœïżœ the princess cried, stepping forward. Tears streamed down her face, her voice cracking as she pleaded. âPlease, father, stop this! He hasnât done anything wrong!â
âSilence!â the queen snapped, her tone sharp and unforgiving. âYou will not disgrace this family further by defending him.âÂ
âBut-âÂ
âI said, silence!â The king roared, and the princess flinched, her shoulders trembling as she bit back a sob.Â
The king turned back to Yeonjun, his smirk returning. âYour little messenger is dead, you know,â he said, his tone almost casual. âAnd the nursemaid. Both gone, thanks to you. All because you thought you could play hero.â
Yeonjunâs head snapped up, his eyes blazing with fury. His heart twisting in his chest.Â
The king gestured to one of the guards, who held up the bloodstained arrow as a grim trophy. âThe boy cried for you, you know. Right up until the end.â Yeonjunâs chest heaved, rage and sorrow clawing at his insides, but he refused to give them the satisfaction of a response.
The kingâs smirk deepened. âNo clever retort? No fiery protest? Very well.â He raised his voice, addressing the room. âChoi Yeonjun, the hunter, is hereby sentenced to death for his treasonous actions and his insolence against the crown.âÂ
âNo!â The princessâs scream pierced the air, raw and desperate. She ran forward, throwing herself in front of Yeonjun. âYou canât do this! Please, father, I beg you!â
The queen rose from her throne, her expression cold. âMove aside, child. This is what must be done.âÂ
âNo! I wonât let you!â She turned to Yeonjun, her tear-filled eyes locking onto his. âIâm so sorry,â she whispered, her voice breaking. âThis is all my fault.âÂ
âEnough!â The kingâs voice boomed, and the guards seized the princess, pulling her away from Yeonjun. She struggled against them, her sobs echoing through the hall as they dragged her back toward the throne.
Yeonjun stood tall, his eyes meeting the kingâs without a trace of fear. If this was how it ended, so be it. He wouldnât give them the satisfaction of seeing him break. But as the princessâs cries filled the room, a new thought burned in his mind. The memory of Kai, bright eyed and cheery. And everything he had taken from the both of them. She was apologizing but she was not the one at fault. He was.Â
Yeonjun sat slumped against the cold stone wall of his cell, his wrists raw from the iron chains and his body aching from days of neglect and torment. His head hung low, the heavy silence of the dungeon pressing against him like a weight. Every soundâthe drip of water, the faint scuttle of a ratâseemed magnified in the stillness. Sleep had come and gone in fleeting, restless bouts, and this time was no different. A muffled commotion echoed from somewhere outside the cell. At first, he thought it was another cruel trick of his mind, the dungeonâs oppressive quiet playing games with his senses.Â
But then, there was a distinct clatterâa guardâs voice shouting, followed by a heavy thud. His eyes blinked open, groggy and unfocused. He straightened as best he could, his pulse quickening. Footsteps. He squinted into the darkness, barely registering the soft sound of keys jangling. The door creaked open, and a figure slipped inside, cloaked in the faint torchlight spilling from the corridor.Â
âYeonjun.â a hushed, urgent voice whispered.Â
His breath caught. It was her.Â
âPrincess?â he rasped, his voice hoarse and cracked from disuse.
She was at his side in an instant, her hands trembling as they fumbled with the lock on his chains. Her face, framed by the faint flicker of the torchlight, was a mix of desperation and determination. âWhat are youâhowââ he began, but she silenced him with a sharp look.Â
âNo time for questions,â she said, her voice low but steady. âWe need to get out of here. Now.âÂ
The chains around his wrists fell away with a loud clink, and she moved to the shackles on his ankles. âHow did you even get down here?â he asked, still stunned as he rubbed at his sore wrists.Â
She glanced up at him, a faint smirk tugging at her lips despite the dire circumstances. âMy nursemaid taught me more than just calligraphy and how to curtsy,â she said, her tone almost teasing. âTurns out, lock-picking and sneaking around are also valuable skills for a proper princess.âÂ
Yeonjun blinked at her, equal parts impressed and incredulous. âRemind me to thank herâoh, wait.â
The smirk faltered, her eyes darkening with pain. âShe taught me everything I needed to survive. And now weâre going to survive this. Together.âÂ
The last shackle came loose, and Yeonjun rose to his feet, his legs shaky but functional. She handed him a small dagger sheâd tucked into her belt. âWhere did you even get this?â he asked, gripping it as though it were the most precious thing in the world.Â
âConfiscated it off a guard,â she said matter-of-factly, peering into the hallway. âYouâre not the only one who knows how to fight, you know.âÂ
He couldnât help the faint smile that crossed his lips. âRemind me never to underestimate you again.â
âYouâd better not,â she shot back, her gaze darting around the corridor. âNow, letâs go before anyone notices.â The two of them crept through the winding passages of the dungeon, their movements swift but careful. The princess led the way, her steps light and purposeful, and Yeonjun followed close behind, his heart pounding with a mix of adrenaline and disbelief. Every shadow felt like a potential threat, every distant sound a prelude to discovery. But somehow, they moved unnoticed, slipping past guards and evading detection at every turn.Â
As they ascended a final set of stairs, the faint light of the moon filtered through a nearby window, illuminating their path. Yeonjun paused for a moment, glancing at the princess. âWhy are you doing this?â he asked, his voice soft but filled with curiosity. âYou couldâve stayed safe, let themââÂ
âLet them kill you?â she interrupted, her tone sharp. She turned to face him fully, her eyes blazing with emotion. âDo you think I couldâve lived with myself, knowing I left you here to die? After everythingâafter Kai, after Kora?â He opened his mouth to respond, but she shook her head. âYou donât get to question this. I made my choice. And I choose you.â Her words rendered him momentarily speechless, and all he could do was nod, his throat tight with unspoken emotion.Â
âNow come on,â she said, taking his hand and pulling him forward. âWeâre almost free.â The night air hit them like a cool balm as they slipped out through a side gate. The castle loomed behind them, a monolith of power and oppression, but they didnât look back. They ran, side by side, into the darkness.Â
The forest was eerily quiet as they approached the cabin, their breaths clouding in the cool night air. Yeonjun slowed as the familiar structure came into view, his steps growing heavier with every inch closer. The small home that had once been his sanctuary now felt hollow, haunted by what had been lost. The princess stayed close, her gaze shifting between him and the cabin, sensing the weight he carried.Â
Inside, the room was as he had left itâsimple and sparse, with few possessions to speak of. Yeonjun moved with purpose, pulling the golden bow from where it hung on the wall. He ran his fingers over its polished surface, the faint grooves where his hands had gripped it countless times. It had been his most prized possession, a symbol of his skill and survival. Now, it felt like a monument to the boy heâd lost.
âWeâll bury it here,â he said, his voice steady but tinged with grief. âIt belongs with him.âÂ
The princess nodded, her throat tight with emotion. âIâll help.âÂ
They stepped outside into the moonlit clearing, the ground soft from the recent rains. Yeonjun worked in silence, digging a small grave beneath the large oak tree at the edge of the clearing. The princess stayed by his side, her hands brushing against his to offer support when she could. When the hole was deep enough, Yeonjun carefully laid the bow inside, his movements deliberate and reverent. He placed a folded letter atop itâa message he had written to Kaiâs family, explaining everything. His voice broke as he murmured, âIâm sorry. You deserved so much better.âÂ
The princess touched his arm, her fingers light but grounding. âHe knew you cared for him. You gave him hope.âÂ
Yeonjun swallowed hard, nodding as he covered the bow and letter with soil, patting the earth down until the grave was complete. The princess knelt beside him, placing a small wildflower she had plucked from the forest nearby atop the fresh dirt. Together, they bowed their heads in silence, a quiet tribute to a boy whose life had been far too brief.Â
Inside the cabin, Yeonjun sat at the worn table, scribbling out one final letter. His handwriting was rough, but the words were heartfelt.
âTo the family of HueningKai,
I write this with a heavy heart. Your son was brave, determined, and far too kind for this world. He reminded me of the best parts of myself, and I hope you know he made a difference, even in the short time he was with us.
I leave everything I own to you: my cabin, my tools, and whatever small coin Iâve managed to earn. May it ease your burdens and honor the boy who fought so hard for his family.
Kai deserved better, and I will carry his memory with me for the rest of my days.Â
Yeonjun.âÂ
He sealed the letter, pressing his thumb to it as though it were a seal, and placed it on the table where the family could find it. The princess stood nearby, her eyes glassy as she watched him. âYouâre doing the right thing.âÂ
He glanced at her, his expression unreadable but softening. âI hope so.âÂ
With that, they gathered the few supplies they neededâfood, water, and some tools for their journey. Yeonjun paused in the doorway, casting one last look around the cabin that had been his home for so many years. âThis place was never really mine,â he said, his voice low. âIt was always meant for someone else.âÂ
She slipped her hand into his, squeezing it gently. âThen letâs find something that is ours.âÂ
They stepped out into the night, the forest stretching out before them, vast and unknowable. The princess glanced back once, her heart heavy with the weight of what they left behind, but she didnât falter. They walked hand in hand, leaving the cabinâand their old livesâbehind. Together, they vanished into the horizon, bound by love, loss, and the hope of something better.
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A/N: First fic on this acc!! Enjoy this little angsty fic :) Neglected bat!reader breaks their sobriety after their family makes a grave mistake. Sure Reader should be used to it by now, but offering them a drink? At a Gala they forced you to attend? On your birthday? What a load of bull. You pray that Damian doesn't find out...but sadly they don't get accepted. No beta reader, we die like Jason Todd TW: Substance abuse, alcoholism, brief mention of underage drinking, self harm etc .
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That's what it felt like, not a single though in your mind. It was consumed by the taste on your lips, the bottle in your hand. Limp, you sat in your bathtub, surrounded by broken glass and empty beer cans. The loud city of Gotham seemed to finally be silence, it seemed distant. It was the only thing keeping you from fully drifting away, the faint sound of cars, the only time you thanked this godforsaken city for being loud.
Guilt hadn't reached your mind yet, you only wanted to drink. Focusing on how the burn in your throat made you feel, oh how it made you feel so alive. Each breath felt sharp against your throat, it made you want more. The alcohol coursed through your veins, providing an escape, providing a warmth no person ever gave to you.
Leaning more into the cold porcelain you stared at the shattered glass by your feet. You could feel its sharp edges against your feet, it was a constant reminder of your mistakes.
Unfixable, the glass and your life. But right now that didn't matter, only the bottle existed, the burn and the urge to finish it. You managed the strength to pull your arm up, tilting your head back to feel it. The taste you missed so much, a taste you wanted to forget had no idea why you would neglect. What a day to celebrate your twenty second birthday! Relapsing after two years wasn't your plan today but it sure was better than anything else that happened today.
The night, displayed by your bathroom window, taunted you. It made your mind float through an intoxicated haze. Pieces of the day coming back to you, as well as the -now broken- promises you made. A sigh left your lungs and it was evident that she had drank, so much. All of this, just because of one question. A question that shouldn't have broken your heart as much as it did, really it was pathetic.
"Why aren't you drinking tonight?"
The sound of your 'brothers' voice was distant, and so was the guilt that was soon to consume you. But as the line between fiction and reality blurred more with another sip, there was not a worry in your head. The guilt will come later, but here it was no where to be seen. The only thing you could grasp was the bottle you used to keep on the highest shelf.
A shelf that was now empty, thanks to your so-called family's echoes. Echoes that were forever etched into your brain. Not only had they forgotten about your birthday, forcing you into a social event that you already dreaded, but they had also forgotten about your sobriety. Was not drinking on your twenty-first not an obvious sign? The question had filled you with anger at first. Your fists were clenched to your side when Dick had asked that. Hopefully you would forget this day ever happended.
"Why aren't you drinking tonight?" Dick said with slurred speech, making your family turn their heads to you. At first you took it as a joke, that he was trying to make you less tense. When your chuckle left all of them confused that's why you could feel your heart shattered. It felt like time had stopped, like god was playing a joke on you. You just stared at them, not giving him an answer. "You're kidding." There was no point in hiding the sadness in your voice, there was no way anyone was going to care anyway. After a strangled 'yes' left his lips you decided there was no point in talking them. You took one last glance back at your dad Bruce, he looked like he was going to offer you a drink, that was the last straw, so you decided there was no point in staying. Sadly, you did. Just enough to take a sip of champagne, just enough to set you back. God did you wish Damian was with you, he would've remembered.
Remember. That's the only thing you wanted to do. Today was supposed to be simple, go with Damian to a petting zoo, visit you favourite café with a few friends and be done with your day.
Damian...would he have stopped you from doing this? He was too young to attend whatever you were at this morning and sadly he wanted to meet up with his friend. You weren't going to stop him, he was the only one that listened to you and vise versa.
It made you chuckle, every time you told him about how much you used to drink, and every time he would give a small lecture on how much it impacts your liver and brain. Being a doctor would really suit him.
Just as you close your eyes you see a small light peeking outside the door. Light footsteps followed soon after, and suddenly everything is crashing down. You shake your head, hoping, praying that it isn't Damian. You'd rather it be a murderer coming to finally end you then your little brother. No, he had so much faith in you, please. Sadly, if you speak of the devil, he appears.
The light spilling in from the living room stung your eyes, luckily they were already tearing up.
"Sorry I didn't knock, but can you pick up the phone-"
You saw it, the way his eyes widen an he drops your phone. The way the his green eyes suddenly become more reflective, is hands twitched and he took a step back. Your baby brother, staring at you with such a distaste and confusion and...there was nothing you can do. There was no way you could've gotten up to hug hum, even reassuring him seemed impossible in your state. Glass etched into your foot, a pool of blood by feet as your eyes fluttered.
"Wha...y-you promised!" His voice wobbled with an anger that you understood all too well. The way his eyes switched between shock and sadness and the way he seemed to be frozen on the spot. It was like looking into a mirror ten years ago. He stared at you the same way you stared at your mother, it was driving you crazy with guilt.
"Dami..." you croaked out, feeling nothing but selfish.
"No. Keep your eyes open I-I'll call an ambulance. I...I" watching him stutter didn't do anything good for your heart, you just wanted to hold him and tell him that this was just some sick prank.
"I'm sorry...just don't tell Dad." The way you uttered those words seemed to catch him off goard.
"This...feels like a matter that should be reported to hi-"
"Dami. Just don't...please." To be honest, you were baffled he was even understanding you. It didn't even feel like english you were speaking. "I love you, buddy..."
If those were your last words, you were glad. Soon the coldness of the porcelain was no longer there, and there was only a faint ringing you could here. Maybe you were dying? It was a lot less scary then what you thought it would be, it was just...numb. No taste of alcohol, no warmth, no burn. Only numbness.
Just numb.
Numb.
àčàŁ âLaying there lifeless...àčàŁ â
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do you like it, dr. lee?
pairing â jake, jay, jungwon x (f) professor!reader
genre .. warnings â smut, noncon, gangbanging, student x professor, reader is early 30s, theyâre all twisted but jay is mean asfk, mentions of infidelity, age gap (18+)
summary â jake, jay, and jungwon are some of the brightest, most accomplished students in your class that never fail to make high marks on the exams. but when they approach you one day in your office, your perspective of them changes dramatically.
wc â 5.4k
a/n â originally posted on my blog revehae, i am not plagiarizing myself. part 2/3 of the in my blood series. as always, feedback is appreciated!
donât like it, donât read.
it all happened so fast.
one minute, you were chatting with three of your most wonderful students in your office, and the very next, they had you sprawled out on top of your desk.
your heart was speeding. though you attempted to wrestle your way out of their less than gentle embraces, you couldnât even take one of them, let alone all three. while somebody was keeping your hands still, another was holding you by the legs.
jay, who had his palm flat over your mouth, only watching your moist, fearfully wide eyes, leaned into your ear and whispered, âscream and weâll saw your tongue off.â
when he dropped his palm, you sucked in a breath, face tensing with tears as you willed yourself to be compliant. your head was spinning, dizzy with shock. what was happening to you was unfathomable. these boys were some of your favorite students, the ones who never failed to perform magnificently on the exams, and were sparkling in class.
you felt betrayed, in a way. even your worst-performing student wouldnât stoop this low, and in the midst of your fright, you wondered what you had done to deserve the atrocity that was today. if there was anybody that you could count on to make you feel as if your dedication to this job wasnât completely useless, it was these boys.
jake was standing just shy of you, eyes fixed to that knee-length skirt he loved watching you wear. jay chuckled when he noticed where his friendâs gaze had fallen, because he found himself glancing there too, but usually when you were facing away from your students.
he always thought about getting you naked, seeing your ass without anything to hinder his view. more often than not, jay fisted himself to the thought of stuffing your ass full of his thick cock, wondering if anybody had ever fucked you there.
snapping out of his imagination, jake approached you, shoving your long skirt closer to your hips. instinctively, the first thing you did was try to protect yourself, but jungwon grabbed you and ceased all control. you slumped, whimpering defeatedly, âboys, please stop. you know that i have a husband.â
jake snickered, amused that that was the card you chose to play. âdidnât really look like you cared about your husband when you were fucking my dad,â he retorted.
rather than beat even quicker, it felt as if your heart stilled. âwhat?â
jay laughed boisterously. âwould you look at that. she thinks you donât know.â
âthatâs right, baby,â jake replied menacingly, nothing affectionate about his tone, in spite of the pet name. âyou run your mouth and weâll make sure the whole school knows that you canât stop spreading your legs for my father.â
donning the sweetest tone, jungwon crooned in your ear, âand you wouldnât want that, right, sweetheart? you wouldnât want mr. lee to know that his wife isnât satisfied with just his cock, is she now?â
it felt as if the whole world was crumbling beneath your feet. jake was sunghoonâs son, the offspring of the man you had been hooking up with behind your husbandâs back, and now he and his friends were threatening to expose your affair if you refused to let them have their way with you.
your lips were trembling. this is all your fault, you chided to yourself. if you couldâve just been a faithful wife, a committed woman, none of this would be happening. they would have nothing against you, nothing that would stop you from reporting to the closest figure of authority. but you had too much at stake.
though you were no stranger to jayâs short patience, you had never seen it manifest quite like this before, gripping your hair so roughly you whimpered in a blend of pain and shock. he growled, âhe asked you a question. i shouldnât have to tell you that that called for an answer.â
âno,â you replied shakily.
jayâs grip only tightened and he pressed, âno, what?â
âno, i donât want him to knowâŠ,â you trailed, because it was humiliating to repeat back aloud, but jay was still gazing at you expectantly. âthat iâm not satisfied with just his cock.â
âsee, that wasnât so hard. donât be a little bitch and make things more complicated than they have to be,â jay said, releasing his hold on your hair. you wouldâve fallen back had not jungwon been there to catch you, only to then grab the little buttons on your blouse. âweâre doing you a favor, really. itâs a three for one deal. a little whore like you should be excited.â
but you didnât want them, you didnât even want your husband. you wanted sunghoon. it made you wonder how they knew of the affair, because jake seemed oblivious only a couple of weeks ago. he referred to you as some fucking nurse sunghoon had flirted with, not his molecular biology professor.
for fuckâs sake, you were a solid decade older than them. granted, sunghoon was at least a decade older than you, though there was a discernible difference between the age gap between the two of you and the gap between you and your undergraduate students.Â
your button-up blouse finally came undone and jungwon didnât waste a breath before he snatched off your bra, eager to suck your breasts into his mouth. you gasped out when he did, his tongue darting around your nipples. in the same way, jake yanked your panties off, cupping between your legs without a second thought.
never in your life had you felt more defenseless, powerless. stripped of all autonomy and forced to let other people have their wicked ways with you. you felt nothing short of violated and it made you sick to your stomach, gut tossing and churning with reproach.
through your stinging eyes, blurry with hot tears, you watched jake sink to his knees in front of your desk. you werenât particularly enthusiastic about how exposed you were, your breasts out and your skirt bunched just above your thighs. it felt like the closest thing to walking around the plaza half-naked.
obviously, you felt more watched than you wouldâve had it just been one of them, but you were at the mercy of three guys that were paying a godawful amount of attention to your bare figure. jungwon was fixed to your perky chest and jay was watching jake situate himself between your legs, holding them open for his friend in case you wanted to be defiant.
âjake, i donât want this,â you whined, wiping your face with the back of your hand.Â
âthatâs too bad, baby.â jake wasnât even looking at you, gaze locked on your pussy, like that was what you were reduced to. âdonât worry, itâll feel good.â
you sucked in another gasp when his mouth angled towards your pussy without affording you a notice in advance, your bodyâs natural instinct being to shut your legs, but jay was still holding them in place and he was infinitely stronger than you. with the vigorous training that it took to be a member of the campusâ athletic teams, it came to you as no shock, but you were heavily disappointed.
jakeâs tongue singled out your clit while he lapped at you, ravenous. the second he saw you on the first day of class, he knew that he had to have you. so when he found out that you were sleeping with his father, cheating on your husband with jakeâs dad of all people, he became furious.Â
neither you or sunghoon were as good at keeping secrets as you thought yourselves to be. on more than one occasion, jake saw you leaving their house. every now and then, he would see your name on his fatherâs phone. and it wasnât fair. if anybody could please you, if anybody could bring you to heaven and back, it was the boy with his head buried between your legs.
as if matters couldnât get any worse, jake actually seemed to know what he was doing. though you would never admit it to his face, the way he was sucking at your bundle of nerves had you throbbing, pulsing involuntarily around nothing. you whimpered and whined, but chewed on your bottom lip to stifle the noise.
jungwon chuckled so quietly it was barely audible, but said nothing as of right now, cupping your tits in his palms and squeezing. his patience was much less limited than jayâs, who was currently shifting out of his boxers, freeing his raging hard cock. you saw him in the corner of your misty eyes, noticing how rigid and thick his cock was, but said nothing.
what you didnât expect, though probably should have seen coming, was for him to start jacking himself to the sight of you being mishandled. jake wasnât the only one that couldnât stop thinking about from the moment you locked eyes. matter of fact, that mutual pining was the common denominator of this little team.
all three of them were sick in the head, out of their minds obsessed with you. you would have expected some lethal kind of rivalry to develop out of that, but instead, they were much more menacing about it. they were helping each other get what they wanted.
you were a little overwhelmed from all the attention and jay wasnât even touching you, but just knowing that he was stroking his cock for you was more than a little unnerving. jungwonâs hands were so strangely gentle, setting a pattern as he groped you, all the while jake was eating you out vigorously.
âpretty, pretty. so pretty when you cry,â jungwon sang in a way that couldâve been kind, if you ignored the nature of what was happening to you. then, like he knew your secret and was implying that he wouldnât tell, he whispered for only your ears, âpretty when you lie, too.â
it wasnât fair. you didnât want to like this, just like how you didnât want to be aroused. but when jake pushed a pair of fingers inside of your pussy you gushed and tightened around his digits. you were so unstill, it drove him mad, prompting him to go harder.
your brain was empty but racing all the while, thinking, this is so fucking wrong. you were fucking his father, for crying out loud, and even that was wrong. you didnât care then, so according to their logic, it shouldnât have made a difference now.
jake and jayâs grunts blended into one giant cacophony of sound, jake moaning with a mouthful of pussy because he couldnât get enough of the way you tasted and your pussy was spasming around his digits, whereas jay was grunting because he thought you were most right now when you were deprived of all control.
blood was pumping quicker than ever through your veins, your heart screaming for survival. you werenât even remotely in control of your own body anymore, seized not only by your three reckless students, but the pleasure burning through you like wildfire.
your office, that was typically admirably ventilated, seemed to hot to breathe in. but your breaths became quicker and shorter, as if there was no space in your lungs, and you started to feel the sweat cooling down your back, reminding you of how naked you were.
jake was so hard, stiffening in his pants the longer he watched you start to unravel, and he couldâve probably gotten off just from making you cum. you were grinding your hips against his mouth, and his long, slender fingers that were surely getting you there. you might not have wanted to confess the truth, but your body couldnât lie.
âsheâs so close,â jay commented with a chuckle, addressing you as if you werenât even there. âfuck, i am too.â
a hole of negative emotions opened then and there and swallowed you whole, namely guilt and humiliation. you didnât want jake to make you cum, you didnât want to give them the satisfaction of bringing you pleasure, but that ship had already sailed.Â
nonetheless, you parted your lips and begged in between shaky moans, âjake, stop. please, iâm begging you!â
âheâs not going to stop, sweetheart,â jungwon crooned, brushing a loose strand of your hair behind your ear. âdonât you see? he canât get enough of your pretty pussy. you should feel so good about yourself.â
few things in life had ever made you feel this conflicted. on the one hand, this was degrading on way too many levels and you felt forcibly stripped of all of your dignity. but on the other, deep down inside, the sight of jake with his head between your thighs as he licked and sucked at your cunt was inexplicably arousing.
and that did it for you. you tried to fight it, you really did, but your orgasm completely blindsided you, taking you by the reins and going to town. your lips parted in a cry of jakeâs name, your thighs trembling and heat striking through you like lightning as you gripped onto jungwon for dear life.
jake continued to go down on you after you orgasmed, just until you finished more or less riding his face, going limp against your desk with only jungwon to keep you upright. you couldnât breathe, you couldnât think. all the blood was rushing to your head and your heart was thumping in your ears.
jake finally pulled back, licking your arousal off of his lips and the corners of his mouth in a way that made your core throb emptily, then asked, âdid you like it, dr. lee?â
your ears burned and you said nothing, because there was nothing that needed to be said. your answer was in the way your chest heaved like unstill waters, your fingers still holding onto jungwonâs shirt. like you thought you would collapse if you had nothing to anchor yourself.
jungwon took one glance at you and scoffed, âi think she loved it, man.â
there was something so smug in jakeâs stare, like he just knew that he had you.
when jake moved, jay came between your spread legs, still holding his cock while he stroked himself to climax in front of you. like it would never be satisfied, your pussy continued to throb at the sounds you were indirectly plucking out of him, culminating in one deep, guttural growl when he came, shooting his load on your cunt.
though you were (thank god) on birth control, him orgasming there still made you feel iffy. you could feel it trickling down into your hole and hated how eager it seemed to be filled. for half a second, you were convinced that was the worst that could happen.
imagine your shock when jungwon abandoned your boobs, soft and supple as they were, and shifted between your thighs next. you didnât know what to expect when you noticed him move, they enjoyed keeping you guessing, but it definitely wasnât for jungwon to lick at your release-stained pussy.
you gasped, âjungwon!â
the sound of him sucking and licking at your clit was lewd, and there were long, damp lines being made with his flattened tongue. while you were appalled, the other watched in amusement how jungwon unabashedly more or less ate jayâs cum from your hole in a disturbing licking pattern. because where it was a nightmare for you, it was just one giant game to them.
to say nothing of the fact that you had only just orgasmed, sensitive. your thighs couldnât handle the stimulation and you let out a breath of relief when his mouth separated from you, only for him to stand and force his lips against yours. you resisted, jolting away from him, but your attempts to evade him were in vain.
jungwon didnât even need to grab your face to keep you still, because there was nowhere for you to hide. it was a disgusting, messy kiss, given that you were adamant on pushing him off. only so much of it was your fault though. jungwon liked it messy, liked how repulsed you were. he liked the grimace you were sporting and the blend of jayâs cum and saliva dribbling down your chin. the damp spots of his saliva on your cheek from your attempts to dodge him and where his tongue pressed against you instead.
it was nauseating to you. you could taste jayâs cum on your tongue, even though his cock hadnât been anywhere near your mouth. and the the taste just wouldnât go away.
jungwon, at last, pulled back, though only to laugh at the look on your face. âaw, donât make that face. you liked it, right?â
you parted your lips to say deny him, but jungwon saw it coming and just kissed you again, not one to take no for an answer.
âokay, move your ass,â jake said after a minute of watching you squirm. you never realized how strong jungwon was.
jungwon frowned, but moved out of the way. not because jake told him to, but because he had something equally devious running through his brain.
you were baffled when you noticed jake returning between your thighs, because he shouldâve already had his fill. then, you noticed that he had freed his cock from his boxers in the time jungwon spent sucking on your tongue, and swallowed the lump in your throat.
you let out a cry of shock when they spread you over your desk the long way, carelessly toppling over your belongings, and yanked your skirt off your body completely. you were utterly naked, and there was no bit of you they hadnât seen.
jake positioned himself behind you, lining himself up at your entrance. there was so much terror in your body at the moment, scared not only for what was to come, but of liking it too.
âplease,â you begged, trying to negotiate once more. âyou boys should fool around with someone your own age.â
jake snickered, as if that was funny. he probably thinks it is. âmaybe, but whereâs the fun in that?â
your jaw slacked when his first thrust drew a pitched cry from the back of your throat. he wasnât even half as patient as his father would be to sheathe himself completely. sunghoon would take his time, wallowing in your wetness just before slowly but steadily filling you, inch by fucking inch. jake, on the other hand, went straight for the kill.
but to your horror, you were soaked enough for him to slip right in smoothly, to say nothing of jayâs leftover cum facilitating the process. jake was girthy like sunghoon too, in spite of all of their stark differences, and you hated that it was so familiar how he was stretching you out.
âwait,â you whimpered, fingers clamping aggressively against the edges of your desk. âjake, please. you donât need to do this.â
irritated, jay nudged jungwon, groaning, âwill you shut her up already?â
âgladly,â jungwon chirped, a devilish little smile tugging at his lips.
you lifted your head up when you heard jungwon approaching the side of your desk that you were facing, watching him shuffle out of his pants and boxers, and you quickly started to flail. jake grabbed your neck, lowered his head, and hissed, âbehave, or weâll have to tell the class that their favorite professor is just a slutty little whore.âÂ
you stilled, remembering what was at stake. it wasnât just your career, but sunghoonâs too. the second it got out that the two of you were involved in an affair, you knew you would both have to answer for your sins.
when jungwon finally got his underwear off, lengthy hard cock standing angrily against his stomach, he positioned himself beside your mouth and crooned, âsay âah.ââ
âi donât want to,â you whimpered.
jay crept over, evidently disgruntled, and there was a resounding smack when his palm landed flat against your cheek. âone more thing from you and your husbandâs gonna get a nice surprise in his email,â he warned.
defeated, you silently opened your mouth, letting jungwon push himself to the back of your throat. he let out a pleasant little sigh, eyes fluttering closed, paying no attention to the tears dripping down your cheeks. your mouth was too warm for him to a give damn whether or not you wanted this, to care about what you were feeling.
all the while, jakeâs hands were bruising your hips with the merciless grip he had of them. unlike you, his moans were unrestrained, never shy to reveal the ecstasy making his blood pump and his dick throb. you were so wet, so tight, everything he imagined tenfold. his father didnât deserve you, not in his opinion. everything sunghoon could do, jake was certain that he could do better, even if you didnât want to confess.
even if he was a lot less caring than his dad would present. you didnât know sunghoon, not like you thought. the dark side jake had didnât just come out of nowhere. though you would never realize, there was a clear reason why jake was so sick in the head, especially when it came to you. why he took great delight in forcing you over your desk, stuffing you full of his cock and listening to you cry, struggling to hide that you loved his cock.
âhe doesnât love you, you know,â jake said none too gently, snickering from between your legs. âi hope you realize youâre just another easy whore. not the first, not the last.â
there was so much going on that you were hoping you could somehow detach yourself from the brutal reality. not only was your body overloaded, but your mind and soul, ripping a hole right through all that you thought to be true.
it was all too fucking much. âyour mouth feels so good,â jungwon exhaled, a hand tangled through your hair.
âyou should feel her pussy. sheâs so fucking wet, dude. and she thinks weâre going to buy that sheâs not begging for this,â jake replied, completely degrading.Â
jungwon chuckled breathlessly. you were sucking it out of him, against your will or not. âyeah, i can hear how wet she is.â
jay said nothing, but you were already too overwhelmed to notice his absence in the conversation. he was engrossed in thought, waiting with staggering patience for his own turn. which wasnât typical for him at all. he swore, when he was done with you, you werenât even going to think for weeks.Â
between jakeâs twisted smack of his hips against yours and the way jungwon was unabashedly using your mouth to get off, you couldnât decide which was more brutal. torture was torture, but if it was meant to be so bad, there shouldnât have been moans slipping from your mouth uncontrollably. there shouldnât have been a familar weight sitting in the pit of your stomach, waiting to wreck you.
âi know you love this,â jake said, maybe project just a little, but the body didnât lie and he could feel you tightening. âi know you love this fucking dick. wish i could hear you say it, baby.â
âthat can be arranged,â jungwon quipped, but it took you by surprise when he actually pulled his cock from your mouth. âcâmon, angel. tell jake how much you love his dick.â
your face flushed with humiliation, but you knew what would happen if you failed to comply. âi...,â you started, hesitant. âi love your dick, jake.â
jake smacked your ass, making you stifle a scream. âagain.â
you cried out, âi love your dick!â
âi know,â jake said, sickeningly confident in himself. âi also know that youâre about to cum.â
it was maddening that your husband of ages could hardly even get you off these days but some students in your class were recognizing the signs in record time. you were also ashamed with yourself for being so aroused, for needing to orgasm this badly, but you forfeited control of yourself moments ago.
jungwon had enough and once his dick started to twitch desperately, he shoved his cock back into your mouth, chasing relief for the raging hard-on youâd given him. rather than you sucking him off, it was more of him relentlessly fucking your throat, not stopping when you gagged.
and it wasnât long before the three of you ultimately came, like a chain of dominoes collapsing after each other. this orgasm was just as powerful as the one that came before, the room reeling as your screams were muffled against jungwonâs stiff cock. your whole body was a thousand degrees hotter. jungwonâs warm cum releasing in your mouth while jakeâs seeped deeply into your pussy.
although you tried to swallow jungwonâs cum, per his request, some of it dripped onto the floor. you were terrified of leaving evidence of this encounter, wishing you wouldâve gulped it all back, but then you felt jakeâs cum leaking out of you and your priorities shifted.
âmy turn,â jay said, though that was a given. you were confused when he started to spread jakeâs cum over your asshole, though for the longest you could feel his stare burning through your backside.
baffled, and maybe somewhat startled, you asked, âjay, what are you doing?â
âshut the fuck up,â jay snapped belligerently, smacking his palm harshly against your cunt. you cried out in pain, unexpecting. âiâm tired of hearing your voice. just take it.â
but nothing could have prepared you for what was to come. nothing could have prepared you for the merciless way he penetrated your ass, effectively knocking the wind out of you. you felt like you couldnât breathe, as if all the air in the sky was stolen and hid in this little box somewhere.
you wanted to scream, you wanted to beg for forgiveness for whatever you had done, but no sound would come from your mouth. there was only instant tears, your hands gripped the rim of your desk for purchase. the makeup you were wearing was ruined ages ago, but it had to have looked despicable now, because you were sobbing harder than ever.
âpoor thing.â jungwon frowned, pretending to be compassionate. that was something he was good at, you realized. he had you fooled until you saw how recklessly he fucked your throat, and you came to accept they were all too alike.
âsheâll be, fuck, fine,â jay groaned, careless. he was the roughest of the bunch, the most antagonistic. âthis hole is so fucking tight.â
jay was pressing you against the desk harder than jake had, roughly mishandling you. it was obvious that jay didnât see you as his equal. when it came to you, all he gave a damn about was passing your class and fucking your ass.
never in your life had anyone ever fucked you there before, and the thought hadnât even crossed your mind. you were so repulsed, choking on your own feelings as they killed you slowly. the pain was unbearable, making it impossible to remain still, but that didnât matter when jay had you borderline flattened.
it was almost awe-inducing how he held you down with ease, regardless of how strong you thought you were and how violently you were reacting. it was the closest thing to being split open. pitiful little noises escaped you, but you bit them back, because the last thing you wanted was to get caught. somehow, though, the shock was more agonizing than the pain itself.
your agonized whimpers and jayâs husky grunts made an awkward cacophony. if there was any of them that got off to your helplessness, you knew it was all of them, but jay had to wallow in it more than either of them.
jake and jungwon were stroking their cocks to the sight of you being ravaged to the point of total destruction. there were plenty of times in your life where you felt nothing short of broken, but this was a different variant, a kind from which you knew that you would never recover.
jay couldnât believe his thick cock was even fitting into your tight, flexing asshole, though then again, whatever you thought you couldnât take, jay would make you do. your body was for his own personal amusement. he leveraged himself deeper and deeper, groaning and laughing, using you to his advantage. because what jay wanted, he always got. every time without fail. obviously, you were no exception to this pattern, even if it was to your own dismay.
your lip was bleeding from how frequently you were biting. all you wanted was to protect your reputation. you had things to lose, things you knew jay would steal away from you in a heartbeat, because all he did was take.
âsheâs such a damn whore, fuck. she should be grateful iâm fucking her,â jay hissed, aggressive.
given how much you had heard adjacent statements in the past hour, you were starting to believe them, no matter how disparaging they were. you were accepting the cold truth, that this was your punishment for being unfaithful.
quickening his pace, jay continued, âiâve never wanted to fuck that nasty little pussy of hers. not when everybodyâs been inside of it. but i can tell sheâs never had this ass stretched before.â
his words were hurting more than his cruel movements, and you didnât understand the science behind that. you whined, âjay.â please, have mercy, was what you wanted to say, but you knew there was no point.
jay squeezed your neck, cutting off your ability to inhale, and you felt every nerve in your body start to panic. âfor the umpteenth time, shut the fuck up. no oneâs fucking talking to you, bitch.â
you quieted, face tensing with delirious pain.Â
âpathetic if you ask me,â jake added, breath shaky. âher husbandâs dick isnât good enough for her, so she fucks my dad, and now that we give her three more, she still has the audacity to complain.â
jungwon snorted. âtextbook cockslut.â
you wanted to speak, you were desperate to defend your honor and identity, but you had already said enough and you were lucky that they hadnât already decided to expose you to the whole planet. you had no defenses against them, nothing in your arsenal.Â
âbegging us to stop, but she wonât stop fucking cumming. needy little bitch,â jay chided, though judging from his breathlessness, he was far from disgruntled.
jungwon chortled, his cock still close to your face, and it was making you mildly uncomfortable. âmaybe we should send her back to the husband with some tips.â
âoh, iâve got one,â jake said, beaming with his usual mischief. âhold her down and use her little holes until youâre done.â
âyeah, looks like she loves that,â jungwon retorted.Â
jay quipped, âwe shouldâve recorded. maybe showed him a tutorial.â
jake blew out a contented sigh. âwell, thereâs always next time.â
your heart was taut with fear at the thought of there being a next time, but the three of your students were grinning with excitement, as if they wholly anticipated reliving this moment in the not so distant future.
âfuck, iâm gonna cum,â jay grunted, wanting to go even deeper, but there was nowhere for him to move.Â
jake hummed, reminiscing over how good it felt to cum inside of your throbbing pussy. how you milked the cum out of him, bled him dry. âshame sheâs on birth control. i overheard her and my dad talking,â he replied, nonchalant. âimagine if we got her pregnant.â
âman, donât talk like that,â jay groaned.Â
jake glanced to jungwon, both of them snickering amongst each other. âdude, i was just kidding. donât tell me thatâs actually getting your dick hard.â
âfuck, iâm gonnaâŠâ
the most delicious growl came from the tip of jayâs tongue when he released inside of your asshole, his brows scrunching together with pleasure. his hips finally grinded to a halt when he met his climax, dumping way too much of his load inside. you could feel his fingertips leaving marks that would indefinitely stain your skin, and you dreaded having to explain them to your husband.
when jay finally pulled away from you, having had his fill for now, your body went limp against your desk. you could have moved, but you were too exhausted. sweat cooled down your back, chilling you to shudders, but there wasnât a single thought in your head. all you could do was lie there, used and exploited, hoping that life would return to the way you knew it before they broke you.
because right now, it was bland. the only thing you could feel was the soreness in your legs and the cum dripping from your hole, numbing yourself to everything else.
there was so patronizing about the way jay turned to you, asking with the slyest grin on his face, âdid you like it, dr. lee?â
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Cho Hyun-ju / Player 120 Headcanons
Pairing: Cho Hyun-ju / Player 120 x Reader
Warnings: Mentions of death/dying, killing, guns/gunshots (typical squid game stuff), other than that it's just fluff, not proof read (english isn't my first language)
àȘâ⎠Watching Hyun-ju during the six-legged pentathlon, you couldn't help but be amazed. She was a leader, a fighter, someone who didn't and wouldn't give up, that much was sure. It was amazing to see her lead her group to victory, to safety, being the one to push them and encourage them. Everyone cheered, obviously including you, and it truly was an amazing feeling to see them all get away with their lives. You weren't so sure if you'd make it, too.
àȘâ⎠Thankfully, you did. Your group barely scraped by and you just decided that you needed to be on Hyun-ju's team. Hesitantly, you approached Geum-ja, who immediately noticed your small figure and agreed in a heart beat to let you join their little group.
"You were great back there, you know?" You told Hyun-ju with a shy smile while she was sitting on the stairs, originally just observing Yong-sik getting scolded by his mother again. "Hm? Ah.. that was nothing." she replied back, shaking her head when smiling up at you. "I think everyone in here should be like you," you chuckled, "like, actually. We'd all benefit from it."
àȘâ⎠Hyun-ju's heart melted at all the nice words you would say to her, complimenting her braveness and strength. It made her feel more validated in her actions, which was the motivation she really needed in a place like this. Young-mi was equally excited to have you in their group now, having animated conversations with you about the things you had in common â And if she approved of you, Hyun-ju would, too.
àȘâ⎠Whenever you were scared, were having doubts about yourself or just needed someone to talk, Hyun-ju was there. It was almost like she felt it when you felt that way and she'd always listen to you and comfort you. Her hugs were warm and firm, perfectly calming you down after a particularly bad nightmare. In return, you also encouraged her to talk to you if she ever felt the need to, but everytime you suggested that she'd laugh it off. To Hyun-ju, it was enough to know that she brought you comfort, she didn't need anything in return. She did think it was adorable for you to say that.
àȘâ⎠To distract you from all the stress sometimes, she'd ask you about your plans for the future, about your hobbies and jusy about the things that made you, you. Hyun-ju was genuinely interested in getting to know you and was growing very fond of you over a short period of time.
àȘâ⎠After suffering through the third game together, and also a painful loss (rip Young-mi, my queen), everyone was going through it. Instead of everyone keeping it peaceful, they just decided to slaughter each other after lights out. Ever since losing Young-mi, Hyun-ju was very adamant on keeping you by her side at all times. She wouldn't make that mistake again and leave someone she cared about out of her sight.
The lights flicker like crazy above you, screams and the disgusting sound of people getting killed right next to you were the only things you could focus on right now. You were panicking, you were scared, you felt like you were going to cry and throw up. Hyun-ju had grabbed you by your hand and dragged you to the last corner of the dorm area, hiding you between some mattresses other players had set up. She was firmly holding you by your shoulders and telling you something you couldn't make up. Probably that everything will be okay or something. "Hey! Hey, please listen to me," Hyun-ju leaned in close, hugging you against her, "it's all going to be fine. We'll be okay."
àȘâ⎠In fact, you were. Obviously you were. Hyun-ju wouldn't say something she didn't mean â she wouldn't lie to you. She knew that winning someones trust was hard and the fact that you put so much of it into her filled her with pride.
àȘâ⎠Gi-hun had his mind set on a revolution. Anybody who could handle a firearm was supposed to step forward and take one of of the ones they took off the dead guards. You swallowed, locking eyes with Hyun-ju. She'd step forward, they needed her. You gave her a quick nod and a faint smile and she returned it, quickly stepping forward to help the others.
Geum-ja put a hand on your shoulder, claiming that she'll be fine and that she's far too tough to die out there. "They'll be back to get us out of here, don't worry about it." she said, tugging you by your sleeve, beckoning you to come with her.
When Dae-ho stormed in after a while again, hastily collecting the magazines out of the guards pockets, you were relieved, even if he seemed extremely beside himself. He had some sort of panic attack, so you sat him down on one of the beds, trying to reason with him, until Hyun-ju stormed in, making your facs light up. Oh my god, she's alive. She basically ran to Dae-ho, urging for the ammunition and kept asking him what happened.. so, this wasn't going according to plan at all. You assumption was confirmed by all the masked guards that flooded into the dorm area, holding the remaining players at gunpoint.
"Hyun-ju..?" your voice was shaky. Her eyes fell down on you, taking your hand into hers. "It's all going to be fine."
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‷ gender neutral, ambiguous race, and any size reader. Requests are open, thank you for reading!
a/n: I know I've written about Daryl x reader in a relationship, but I'm rewatching The Walking Dead and UGH I love him...
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Hufflepuff
Chaotic Good
Taurus Sun, Scorpio Moon, Aquarius Rising
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ă»The perfect example of your marriage is that scene from Yellowstone at the bar. Here's the link. Warnings: Violence :)
ă»Yes, so you and Daryl have a very close relationship - it has taken you a long time to get to this point.
ă»But marriage meant you two would be staying together for life. And Daryl knew that. No one was taking you away from him.
ă»You two met at the very beginning; in the camp with Lori, Carl, Carol, Dale, Andrea, Shane, Glenn etc.
ă»You abhorred Merle and gave him as much as you could - cussing him out, calling out his actions etc. You were always right but Merle was Merle.
ă»And you grouped Daryl with his brother; although he didn't say much.
ă»When Merle wasn't around, you actually got the time to see Daryl differently.
ă»He was really growing on you.
ă»You had no idea that he was wrestling with certain feelings as well.
ă»Your relationship was ... a slowburn to say the least. But you always looked out for each other. Made sure one another had enough food and water.
ă»There developed a constant between the two of you. Where one went, the other wasn't far behind. Especially when the group would split up
ă»You always found your way back to each other
ă»And yet, neither of you could see how much the other cared. Even though the whole group - even the new members - could see it.
ă»Though he comes off as rough and gruff to most, Daryl would have a soft spot for you. Youâd be the only one who gets to see his gentler, more vulnerable side.
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ă»Daryl was anxious all day, you even saw his hands shake before he saw it and shoved them in his pockets.
ă»You were worried; he never kept anything from you. Not even when you were just best friends.
ă»So you went to Carol, she shrugged her shoulders and gave you that knowing look. It calmed your own nerves down, because when Daryl is anxious; you are tenfhold.
ă»That night you were getting ready for watch, but a knock came at the door.
ă»It was Michonne.
"Hey, you wanna come in? I'm gonna start my shift soon but I can make us something tea?"
"It's okay, and don't worry about your shift; I have something for you to do."
"Oh okay, sure."
ă»You followed Michonne past the gardens, the crops and up to the doors of Alexandria and out into the nearby forest.
"We ugh, made sure the area was clear. You don't need to worry about a thing."
ă»She gave you one of her knowing smiles and you knew something was up...it made you nervous.
ă»Once Michonne disappeared, you heard the crunching of leaves.
ă»Quickly you whipped out your knife and swiped as you turned, only to be met by a large hand grabbing your arm.
"Thought I taught ya better than tha'" Daryl said, letting go of your arm and giving you a smile
"You did. I knew it was you. Heavy boots were giving me a heads up."
ă»It was then that you noticed his appearance; washed, with a clean black button up shirt, and a fresh pair of jeans.
ă»You quirked an eyebrow.
"What is this Dixon?"
Hesitating, Daryl rubbed the back of his neck with his calloused hand, eyes darting briefly to the ground before meeting yours.
âBeen thinkinâ,â he started, shifting his weight between one leg to the other. ââBout us⊠and all the shit we've gone through...â
You stepped closer to him. Closing the gap. And your heart started pumping a whole lot faster.
"-You know I ainât good with words,â he muttered in a low voice. âSpecially ainât good at all this⊠romantic stuff. But youâyouâre the best thing...that has ever happened to me. Hell, you're the only thing that makes sense in this goddamn world.â
ă»Your cheeks started to redden but you let him talk
From his pocket, Daryl pulled out something small and clenched in his hand, his fingers trembling just slightly.
You let out a soft, "oh." Thinking this day would never come.
When he opened his hand, there it wasâa simple, gold ring.
âI know it ainât much,â he said, his voice barely above a whisper.
"It's perfect," the tears had started to fall now. You didn't even notice you had begun to cry.
Daryl sniffed, not realising he had shed a few tears as well. "...I just want you to know⊠youâre my family now. Always have been.â
He held the ring out to you.
"I don't know how long we have in this world. But I know I wanna spend it with you."
There was a moment of silence. One you let hang in the air, not truly believing this was happening.
"So⊠what dâya say?â
ă»The look on his face was pure and full of love.
"God I love you Daryl Dixon."
ă»Slipping the ring on your finger, you realised how comfortably it fit. You gave Daryl a knowing look and he gave you a sheepish one.
"...measured your finger when you were sleepin'...also had help from Carol..."
You couldn't help but laugh.
"You know I'm getting you one, right? I want everyone to know you're taken. That Daryl Dixon is mine."
"Wouldn't expect anything else."
ă»Then he kissed like it was your very first and last kiss.
The kiss was unlike anything youâd ever feltâraw, deep, and so full of emotion that it left you breathless. His lips claimed yours with an intense passion.
His hands trembled slightly, and cradled your face. Holding you as if you were the most precious thing in the world; well, to him you were.
Pulling apart, he rested his forget against your own and whispered:
âAinât never lettinâ you go.â
In that moment, the world outside could have crumbled, and it wouldnât have mattered. All that existed was you and him.
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ă»Being married to Daryl Dixon meant having someone completely and utterly loyal to you.
ă»He calls you his family; and when he does so, you know it comes from a place of deep sincerity and respect.
ă»Instead of grand romantic displays, Daryl shows his love in quiet ways, like fixing something for you, preparing food, or just staying by your side during tough times.
ă»Daryl would be the ultimate protector, keeping you safe at all costs.
ă»You have your own place together. Not too far from everyone but secluded enough that you feel independent
ă»A common part of your nightly routine is cuddling up together on the couch and eventually falling asleep. (Daryl already having locked all the doors and has weapons around the house - just in case. He's not leaving anything to chance.)
ă»You've both shared everything you know about survival with one another.
ă»One of your ideas was to make a book about it. How to survive in this mess of a world; Daryl has fully encouraged it. He said it would come in handy for the next generations...
ă»Daryl thrives in the quiet moments of your marriageâsitting together by a fire, riding his motorcycle with you behind him, working on something side by side in comfortable silence.
ă»He also has a way of surprising you with such tenderness. E.g., brushing hair from your face or resting his forehead against yours in silent appreciation. Â
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"Look at that stupid dumbass man, ha! Oh shit that's my dumbass-" (Daryl)
Short & bossy x Tall & follows them around
"Think they'll try us?" x "Fuck I hope so."
"Why Are You Babying Me?" (Daryl) x "'Cause I Know You Like It" (You) Â
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Forced Proximity
Strong Feelings (Thinking It's Hate - WRONG It's Love)
Enemies to Lovers Â
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Sex On Fire by Kings of Leon
Into My Arms by Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds
One More Hour by Tame Impala
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And you know damn well that YJ is 100% on board w Tims shit.
They do not want the JL to know what happened during their prime time, and they will do anything to keep it that way.
They have a system and everything! Most of it is taken care of, but they can never avoid getting a call from a past associate.. be it a different planet, an old enemy or anybody else really.
They usually interfere the calls before they can happen, Tim build a system probably, but there will always be flaws. But they have contingency's for that! (what those are is completely up to you, anything would seem canon so we just roll w it)
I just think it would be funny that one day everything goes horribly wrong. Something happens and shit hits the fan, Tims "not really necessary to hide but it would be funny" secrets get aired somehow and everyone completely loses their shit- it was probably Pru who exposed him. Tim did something she really didnt like, this is her revenge.
Donât get me wrong I love the Tim drake tells his family about his trauma with out thinking to hard about it and them freaking out thatâs great I love that hilarious BUT have you considered the hilarity of Tim Deliberately Hiding it from his family and the shenanigans he has to pull to keep them from finding out?
Que Tim drake trying to drink his coffee before Bruce comes to pick him up for lunch when suddenly one of Raâs assassins come from the shadows to try to kidnap him and while Tim is trying to fight him he hears the alert that Bruceâs car pulled up his eyes widen as he shoves the assassin into the closet before Bruce can see and telling him to shut the fuck up for both of their sakes the assassin is so confused he just goes along with it
When Bruce comes in and seeâs Timâs ruffled shirt A broken vase in the hall and someone very clearly in the closet he chooses to ignore it because he REALLY does not want to know about his sons sex lifeïżŒ
Red Robin gets stabbed mid patrol and has to pretend heâs worried about blood loss but actually he is annoyed because it was a rusty pipe so he KNOWS itâs gonna get infected and he does not wanna deal with that but canât say that because then his family will know he doesnât have a spleen
When a new supervillain comes around and starts cloning people Tim is the one who has the most information on how to catch him because of when he tried to clone Kon but only he and dick know this dick was obviously gonna bring this up so Tim could help on the case but it was also like 2:30 and he hadnât slept in days so he decided to take a nap first only to be woken up by a shadow holding a hand over his mouth he nearly broke Timâs jaw because of how bad he scared him and when dick asked him what the hell he was thinking Tim said to keep what happened with Kon to himself or else⊠the case was solved two days afterwards and dick kept his mouth shut but he had a new found fear for his little brother whom he loved (and feared) so much
There are many more fun instances that I am not creative enough to come up with so PLEASE feel free to add on
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