#it's just frustrating

[blanceyblance]

Lance is such an interesting character to me in part because of how the narrative wants to portray him to the point it becomes contradictory.

His "arc" is supposed to be "cocky and immature teenager grows from his need for glory into a reliable team member"

And he does! He becomes Keith's right hand man, taking charge in battle, covering the team's backs and becoming an emotional support for other members when the time was needed.

But he is also a Comedic Relief™

Other characters have comedic relief moments too, like Hunk's love for food, Pidge's excitement about tech, Keith being socially awkward, etc.

And as aggravating as Hunk's fat jokes can be they don't contradict the fact that he is a brilliant engineer and became a brave paladin. Keith's social awkwardness doesn't contradict the fact that he became a capable leader.

But then you have Pidge and Hunk, making fun of Lance being "naturally dumb", and then a space deity calling him "the dumb one"one moment then following Lance's orders in battle and having him give emotional speeches to others the other.

The writers want us to take him seriously and see he is growing only to make fun of him when its needed for a laugh.

I feel the episode The Grudge is a good example of this:

Lance finds a way to find where they left their Lions.

Hunk and Allura seem impressed but Pidge dismisses it.

That would be the end of it until later when Veronica is talking with "Keith" (actually a hacker pretending to be him) and the says "Lance has it figured out", Veronica then in a sarcastic way says "Lance, the navigation genius".

Keith agrees and that's what clues them about something being wrong.

Is it a joke about Keith being openly nice to Lance? A joke about Lance's navigation skills?

Either way, the joke is at his expense, even when early in the episode we see him actually suggesting a way to correctly navigate.

In the end what I'm trying to say is, that the writers want to have their cake and eat it too. Showing Lance growing and being capable but also making fun of him and not really having that much respect for his character.

[twotangledsisters]

Cass WIP

This is 'Gothel, Guardian of the Sundrop' AU, Cass, btw.

The cottage she's in with the Sundrop chilling in the background.

The clothes that combine both Gothel's style and that of a Lady of the Palace.

The pearls that definitely came from Arianna.

And her just casually practicing magic.

Plus, you can't tell but she does have one glove on.

We'll see if I finish this one. I do like the drawing but, like everything I've done recently, it's just kinda boring. There's nothing to catch the eye. I mean.... I'm drawing AUs that two people read so it's not like anybody cares anyway but I'm really trying to improve my composition to make art that's worth stopping scrolling to glance at it for two seconds but... not doing well.

I used to be good at composition but recently I just lost that skill? Misplaced it? It's probably outside but the government says we shouldn't go out unless necessary cause of the high temperatures so I guess it'll have to stay there for now.

[rosescries]

I do know where I'm going with Dust Coated, but sometimes it doesn't feel like I do and it's a very frustrating feeling. :/

Maybe it's more I know what the ending is, but getting there still has some holes I need to figure out how to fill.

[veinsfullofstars]

This probably won't do much, but... if you guys ever see reblogs of my old GOmens art floating around out there, could you please not interact with them? I'm trying to move on from that fandom, and it triggers my anxiety something fierce whenever I see folks still liking or sharing them now. Obviously, I'd prefer if they weren't shared around at all anymore, and I've done all I can on my end to mitigate that (privating the original posts, turning off notifs, etc.), but... well, the site makes it so reblogs are virtually impossible to remove, so odds are slim on that front, y'know? Just, I dunno... ignore them when you see them? I think that's the best I can ask for at this point.

EDIT: I have learned you can set posts to be non-rebloggable, so I've done that for those ones. We'll see if it helps.

[unpopularly-opinionated]

Random personal rant, please ignore:

The job I work for moved to a new location today, and while for the past month I've had some vague semblance of an idea of how things were going to be, I was also told like 20+ completely different stories for "here's how things are going to be" regarding who was sitting where, doing what, working with whom, etc., so after the 3rd or 4th story I decided to just smile and nod at whoever was telling me how it was supposedly going to work because at that point it was clear that no one actually knew how it was going to work and we wouldn't know until move in day, which was today.

But just for added context, two of the "here's how things are going to be" stories I was told was that one of the smaller offices attached to the larger main office was going to have three desks put into it for the "senior employees" which would include myself, my best friend, and one other person. When we were told this by our manager, we loved the idea. This was later nixed by the owner however.

The other story I was told recently was that, due to my off-schedule (I work graveyard shift) I'd actually be sharing a desk in that same smaller office with the other employee who usually comes in after me. Not ideal for my best friend since I'd be separated from him, but I'd technically get my own office so I thought it was neat, but again I tried not to put too much stock in these stories, and as it turns out I was right to because this idea was also nixed by the owner.

I only add that context however to illustrate both how there was an initial thought to sort of "reward" the senior employees with their own office, as well as there being an idea where I could've potentially had my own office. We went from those ideas to instead the bullshit to follow.

So for context: I've been in this job for about 4 years. The only people who've been there longer than me were there from the beginning, but because I've stuck around so long, the owner has told me on numerous occasions that he considers me relatively equal to the two other guys who've been there longer than me. Excluding a few other extraneous employees who work in other departments, I'm the third oldest employee there.

Now I've never put much thought into this fact. I've never said that I'm superior to anyone hired after me, or anything like that. There are people who were hired after me that have technically advanced beyond me, but that's because they have skillsets that apply where I do not, so it makes total sense. Doesn't bother me one bit.

And despite my complaints about either unruly coworkers or questionable management practices, I love this job. It's an easy job. I like everyone I work with, even the unruly ones. I even sometimes like my manager. I get to work with my best friend. I get to work more or less whenever I want. I'm trusted enough to work completely alone for hours. The TL;DR here is that I've worked here for a while, I believe I've earned some level of respect from my bosses, and I do genuinely enjoy my job.

But when we moved to the new office building today... I can't help but feel like I've been kind of disrespected. And the shitty part of it is that there isn't really a way for me to voice this without just straight up sounding selfish, because what I'm upset about is kind of selfish, I won't lie.

With the move, the owner got everyone completely new desks because up until this point we'd been using cheap fold-out plastic tables as desks. Now everyone has a standing desk which is kind of neat. They're quite a bit smaller than the plastic fold-out tables, but that's the trade off I guess. The issue is, they didn't get all the same desks.

So one of the three senior employees already had a pretty nice standing desk which he took from the last office so he kept that in the move. Then the owner bought two L-shaped desks that are pretty big. And the rest are more or less half the size of the L-shaped desks. They're borderline the size of a desk you'd see kids use in schools, I guess.

And being that there was two big desks, I don't know, I kind of assumed having seniority that it'd mean I would get one of them, since it would be a perfect fit for our three "senior employees" to each have a big desk. It's a petty complaint, I know, but I'm sorry it just felt frankly disrespectful for the other two senior employees to get the nice big desks and then some random other guy gets the last big desk. And I know it's nothing like nepotism, or that he's a better employee, or anything special about this other employee. No disrespect to him of course either. He didn't choose which desk to take, the owner came out and flat out told me to move my stuff to one of the smaller desks because the other guy was taking the big desk.

And I hate that this has bothered me so much because I realize it sounds childish and pedantic and whatever, but I'm sorry, I've never pulled the whole "rank" card on anything at work but I feel like it's warranted here. You have three "senior employees" and three big desks, it just makes sense to me at least that each of your senior employees gets a big desk.

It's especially frustrating because my coworker and I were talking about how we might do dual-monitors after the move, but whereas his desk is big enough to support that, my new smaller desk isn't. And of course after we moved, he and the other senior employee were talking about how they were going to do dual-monitors and what not.

And it's just shitty because it's not like I'm going to go in and ask my boss for a big desk because I don't need a big desk, I just want one. Technically-speaking, I can still accomplish my job at this small desk, it's just... I DON'T KNOW it feels disrespectful to me. Like how can you call me a senior employee and treat me worse than some other random employee.

Nearly everyone else in the entire business benefitted from this move except for myself and one other employee who, and again absolutely no disrespect towards them, but they've only been working here for maybe two months so I'm less concerned about them than I am myself.

Anyways, whatever. Guess I'll just get over it. I go along with whatever, everyone knows that. Selfish of me to want just a tiny show of acknowledgement for loyalty or whatever, I don't know.

[shikai-the-storyteller]

Every time I think about locking all my fics, I get a bunch of kudos from anonymous readers on my old fics and I'm just like

[anartificialsatellite]

Being an adult sucks ass, I just got paid this morning and it's already mostly gone.

[heretherebedork]

My upset at OMG Vampire for the 'we're boyfriends so it's not rape' line is seeping out into other places and now I'm just frustrated because there are so many shows doing so well out there and then we get these moments that just remind me of how far we have to go in understanding consent and acting on it in shows. And then I get reminded of another show making a no means no joke about boundaries because the entire plot of that show is about how bad having boundaries is and I get frustrated all over again. And then I find myself thinking about how Ohm got the police called on him for what he did to Taem and how no one even considered it for Ter and there's just this frustration that no matter how good the show is, there always a level of downplay in it when it's two men. Now, I don't think that Ter's actions and Dee's choices in that are equivalent to the others nor do I think that a show about boundaries being bad is as bad as 'having sex with you while sleeping is okay because I'm your BF' which is the worst of this nor do I need shows to teach moral lessons but it's just frustrating how the shows treat these things. If you're gonna do them, at least know what you're doing.

[normal-with-adhd-is-a-joke]

Realized as we were driving home from Thanksgiving last night that it's been a year since the car accident and I still shut my eyes and brace during merges or if the car slows down too quickly. I hate being predisposed to bad trauma responses

[c-130jsuperhercules]

goddddd my teacher for written communication is being frustrating but I think I'm frustrating her as well....but like. I mean come on professor you had all week to grade it and evidently you're able to grade the last assignment in like. ten minutes. so what's the deal. I don't feel like this one was my fault. plus she put in a discussion board assignment as a zero even though that one isn't due til the 11th....

[beware-the-jabberwock]

I'm already tired of the "leafs fans don't want Matthews as captain narrative". Like who are you interviewing? The same boomer men demographic? The twitter bros? They will never be happy no matter what...

[rainbowtiedx]

im gonna be mad for judy garland cause her estate sold usage of her voice in ai

like im against most use of ai including ai voices of real people

[supercoolsuperqueer]

anyone else on here able to write really eloquently and get your thoughts down in an orderly manner but speaking is unreasonably hard???

like I can write to get a point across but if I have to speak with no preparation? IT'S OVER FOR ME!!! I'm always stuttering and fucking up my words and saying things in the wrong order

[stormyweaver]

remembering the time I had C*vid for a week and my boss was like "Well technically we don't have those guidelines in place, you could have come in, we had a new hire and she didn't get trained bc you were out."

like. are you stupid? no i'm sorry you're just ignorant. stupid people can be taught.

not even gonna tell you what profession i was in at the time bc it'd just make it all worse.

[bloodfreakcastiel]

i hate when i go through a tag and just see posts of reposted gifs

they're all different styles and sizes like cmon y'all are not slick, just reblog the gifs you like or learn how to make them yourself