#it's how i feel and y'all keep asking

[spaceorphan18]

Have you read the latest script of K&J's podcast about the Michael episode? I'm very interested in hearing your thoughts. They were talking about Jenna acting out and being forced to take time off. And they mentioned being upset because other people were acting out and getting storylines or being given time off to do other things. The later one is def about D since he went to do the musical but I can't believe he would act out for that, it's like totally OOC.

Same anon as before as I was just finishing to read the script. They did indeed talk about Darren being written off and I'm debating if I should listen this time because the way it's written they seem very jealous of him. I'm getting upset by just reading this. So I'm still very curious about your thoughts about it if and when you have the chance to read/listen to it.

I actually figured you guys were all tired of my opinions, lol.

Yes, I did kind of skim the transcript this morning because I saw people talking about it and was curious. And, I have a lot of complicated feelings about the whole thing.

First of all, though, I say this with love to all the Blaine and Darren fans out there -- Kevin and Jenna are never going to be able to be objective when doing this podcast. I keep thinking about all the other rewatch podcasts I listen to, and how all of them - even when discussing things that were hard to go through and/or things that weren't that great with the show - have a level of decorum that Kevin and Jenna just do not have. I do not know why they began this podcast, but digging into the show on a media analysis level just is not where their talents lie.

(Also, I don't think they love Glee the way those other podcasters genuinely love their show and that just colors how they see things. I'll get more into this in a moment...)

And I get that it's frustrating. Believe me, I do. There are plenty of Kurt things they do not talk about that drive me nuts. But at the same time, I feel like the 'recaps' have boiled down to praising Naya, Amber, and themselves; commentating on whatever BTS stuff comes up, and discussing shit on TikTok. I'm not sure why they're even bothering with the 'recaps', tbh.

But guys - if this podcast is upsetting you, if you're finding yourself this anxious or mad or whatever -- it's time to stop. They're not going to change how they do things, and at this point, I'm not entirely sure what you're waiting for from them? Maybe it's time to stop hate listening <3 <3

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As for the acting out -- I think a lot of the cast probably did. I'm sure Lea was a terror to work with at times. I'm sure Mark probably wasn't easy either. I know Naya spoke up on a lot of things -- though the producers didn't take as much issue with her until the Season 5 drama. Chris was pretty vocal about choices with his character. I can imagine Amber being just as frustrated with Mercedes' lack of anything to do. Didn't Heather say she kept it all inward? And what about Diana who really seems to not ever want to talk about Glee again?

So - who knows what acting out means, tbh.

Keeping all of this in context -- this cast was very tired by the time Season 3 came around. There were too many characters to service, they keep adding ones in, and they were all very young. (And for those of you who are experiencing your early 20s right now? I hate to say this to you -- but you are all still very young.) Added on the fact that the producers clearly did not understand their mental health needs (as evident about how apologetic Ryan Murphy seems to be about all of it) you get a lot of young people expressing their frustration in a lot of different ways over a lot of different things.

I think that Jenna has some very, very complicated feelings about the show -- and in particular about this era because this is where she had a rather big break down. You know what, I do feel for her, because I can see where she's coming from. I can't imagine - feeling like you're tied to a job where everyone around you seems to be getting a better deal than you, and you're trying to be the nice one, and eventually, holding all of that inwardly will make you crack. I'm glad she went to therapy. I kinda hope she's still going to therapy because it seems as though a lot of this is still bothering her.

And I don't really think that Darren, specifically, is ultimately what led to Jenna's breakdown. I think it was a lot of things compounding on each other and Darren on Broadway might have been the last straw that caused her to crack.

I will say (again with all the love to Darren, I adore the guy) there was underground talk that when Darren first got there - he didn't exactly handle his newfound fame in the most eloquent of ways -- in that he was a little on the pompous side. But again, that was age, and by the time Season 4 came around, by all accounts that I came across, he was friends with everyone.

That said - none of this is Darren's fault. It's not Darren's fault that Ryan Murphy handled his young cast and their mental health very badly. It's not Darren's fault that he jumped on opportunities when they arose. It's not Darren's fault that through his natural talents Blaine became a way more popular character than half the original cast. And it's not Darren's fault that Jenna has her own shit to deal with.

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So, yeah...

I guess those are my thoughts.

And I'm still here enjoying Kurt, Blaine, Chris, and Darren -- and believe it or not, a lot of the show in general. And I don't really listen to Kevin and Jenna's podcast anymore because they just don't care about the things I do -- and that's fine.

[trashcanwithsprinkles]

Just noticed that Jean and Barbara have crosses on their outfits and. I’m kinda confused? To my knowledge Barbatos. Doesn’t really have any crosses? Or crucifixion? The only thing I can think of is the narcissenkreuz thing but. That’s mostly just the name. Who spread Christianity to teyvat?? The thought is. Genuinely baffling to me.

idk i'm not an expert on mondstadt lore 😭 not even the nuns nor the cathedral has them so maybe it's a thing of those sisters? like maybe it's not something to do with christianity since y'know crosses exist outside of that obviously- but more of like a little token between them??? idk man (gn)

[loumauve]

I know I'm probably gonna end up on someone's 'kill it with fire' list for this, but I am so tired of each and every ask lately being someone's desperate plea for help.

I have neither the money to help, nor the energy to go through the vetting process of figuring out which request is legit and which isn't, so I can't just post them either, because I refuse to aid in someone's attempt to use other people's goodwill against them. scams are still a thing, and sadly enough people will use any opportunity to benefit from someone else's misery.

so please stop sending me these. I get at least three a day and if this doesn't stop I'm gonna have to turn off asks which sucks because I like talking to people. I just.. I can't anymore. I am exhausted, mentally and more importantly emotionally, and I just don't have the bandwidth to deal with this right now.

[faceeeeee]

WHAT DO YOU MEAN TPOT 14 COMES OUT TODAY HUH????????? THERE'S SM STUFF BEING RELEASED I'M GOING MAD AAAAAAAAAAA💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥

[danielpowell]

Something that has really struck me as a former warehouse employee is the fact that the company is named Pony Express and has an aptly chosen horse mascot.

Freight work can be a real draining and mind numbing experience. The pay can be incredible- and like any corporate job you are very reliant on the benefits they provide- however, it becomes increasingly clear as the months pass that you are expendable and replaceable.

They don't want people. They want workhorses. If you show any signs of weakness or fragility, you will be scrutinized and punished heavily. The work breaks you and no company is willing to keep a horse that is broken. They only want one that is broken in.

These types of environments only benefit compliant able bodied men and anyone who does fit that (the disabled, the injured, the pregnant, the addicted, the inexperienced, the unmotivated, etc.) is going to be chewed up and spit out.

On paper, the Tulpar crew should run just how they want it. They have an accredited captain who can keep a tight ship, they have an experienced mechanic with an understanding of safety, they have a kind nurse with some medical school under her belt, they have an intern with a positive outlook, and they have an aspiring co-pilot who they know will work well with the captain.

They do not care about the well-being of these people. They only care about whether or not they can haul freight while keeping as much profit as possible.

Who cares if the food is subpar and heavily rationed- they can manage that. Who cares if the safety measures have a lack of foresight- they aren't necessary if they do things properly. Who cares if the employees are in distress- they have the basics and that should be enough !

We can neglect the workhorses. We can get new ones. We can get better ones. We can get machines that we don't have to concern about any of their needs and wants.

Stick them in an enclosure and give them a carrot along with a series of ready to deploy sticks.

Ignore the flies and cries of anguish. We don't hear that. We only hear official reports and profit margins.

Put the cart before the horse.

Anything that goes wrong is their responsibility.

[wereh0gz]

I need to be more insane abt platonic relationships actually

[ereborne]

Song of the Day: November 22

“What Kinda Gone” by Chris Cagle

[bumblingbabooshka]

Tuvok & B’Elanna - Poor Coping Mechanisms - Vicious Cycles “You need to find some other way to deal with this” “I don’t know how.”

Heavy Balloon by Fiona Apple // Lady Lazarus by Sylvia Plath // Stubborn love by the Lumineers // New York Movie by Edward Hopper // under the burden of adversity by Theodor Axentowicz // Birthday Present by Sylvia Plath (cut)

[freetobeeyouandme]

I love Dustin’s My Little Pony Hypothesis so much!! He’s literally doing the opposite of gatekeeping nerd spaces with it! It’s so kind! To not go “actually you must prove your niche knowledge of my interests to prove you belong in my circle” and instead say “your interests, although not my interests exactly (even though he must have watched it to know all this lol bro), are similar enough to make us siblings whether you want to or not.” And in turn Erica realizes that that’s a good thing! That’s a connection and love!! That she is a nerd and that’s good. And it’s so emblematic of the show!! Which doesn’t just have nerds being bullied for being nerds but very deliberately makes its nerds Black, disabled, female and queer!! Making it this thing that people regardless of who they are can bond over! It’s a love letter to all this nerd stuff but it also says this stuff is for all! And that means all and not just white cishte dudebros on reddit! And that’s just so!!!! Hello! I love you!!!!!

[msmargaretmurry]

the image of ratsequel quinn being so resigned that he's going to love brady for always and nothing will come of it, such delicious angst, so painful... I haven't found a fic that makes him cry yet and I feel like this would get him close...

so resigned! so resigned that he comes all the way back around to thinking it doesn't matter! because he's accepted it will never happen which is the same as being over it, right???

i do love to make a boy cry in a fanfiction..... i got so spoiled writing tnno because dylan is a real life easy crier and now i have all these other boys and i have to EARN the crying. i am not deep enough into the ratsequel yet to know what the crying content might or might not be but i can promise a lot of feelings!!!

[puppy-wife]

something is telling me the kink is sensory related........... laugh related perhaps even......

listen motherfucker just because I was convinced to have a tickling kink by one of my mutuals (who I have a LIGHT!!! LIGHT CRUSH!!!! on) doesn't mean you are right. these are different faggots okay

[mcalhenwrites]

I'm not going to pretend it doesn't make me angry that I spend months and years trying to peddle my work to make ends meet, that I spend so much time mentioning my books and comms and everything, and people ignore that consisently... But the moment I finally break under the hopelessness - when it's obvious that it's fucking futile, that almost no one deems my work good enough to share with anyone else - suddenly they're concerned and scolding me. I'm working several jobs, bathing, generally keeping things clean, and I do this with several health problems including chronic pain. I found out that one of my cysts is growing and I may need to have it surgically removed. Which means potentially missing work to recover. Which means more money I lose. I spend so much time crawling out of the hole and it goes ignored, but the moment I just give up bc I don't have any strength left, suddenly that's my fault and I'm mentally sick. And that kind of makes me wish my entire situation upon people, and when they whine that it's hard, well fuck you, you thought I could ace it so surely you can, babe! I hate being angry about this, but it's just so exhausting to tell people who accuse me of not trying that I HAVE I HAVE SO FUCKING HARD AND YOU DID NOT PAY ATTENTION THEN Or you know you're attempting to gaslight me by claiming I didn't try despite that I obviously have worked my ass off trying, and that's so much fucking worse

[izzy-b-hands]

I keep forgetting I can't seem to get the current version of xkit to work on my new laptop and going to do stuff that it let me do fjldksafjdlsaj

[undertale-fic-librarby]

I love being called a librarian.

[wigglebox]

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[theflyingfeeling]

Hiii! Just wanted to share that today I’ll be thinking about these moments/pictures 😌✨💕

also you mentioned how they watched LOTR together (and I decided they did) and it reminded me of this:

aaaaaaaaaaaaaa 😭😭😭💕💖💗💞💖💕💞💗

are y'all looking at how Aleksi is holding Olli in the screencaps from Posse?? because I am and I haven't stopped thinking about that moment ever since it happened two (?!) years ago 🥺😭

may we also consider these moments while we're at it:

why are they crushing on each other so hard I'm going insane 😭😭😭😭😭