#it's better than calltin sick day of

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I have a pretty high pain tolerance. Like, I stub my toe, you'll hear me "swear" and complain loudly about it for several minutes, but I'm mostly just ranting. If you hear me complain on an hourly basis, it's not bad, and you learn to just ignore me.

But then there's PAIN. Pain which doesn't go away over time, often gets worse the longer I wait to tell someone about it. The pain that makes you curl up into a ball and cry for days on end, but instead, you put on a smile and go right into work like nothing is wrong. I will push it away for days, weeks, even months before I admit it hurts, just so I don't sound like a cry baby to everyone else.

I literally woke up screaming from pain at 4 am this morning. Tears running down my cheeks, I can't even curl into a ball because it HURTS something FIERCE. I've recovered from surgeries that didn't hurt as much as this. I've had actual holes drilled into my HEAD that didn't hurt HALF as much as my knees do now.

That's when I realized this kind of pain is not normal, and I really need to see a doctor.

So wish me luck. Idk how I'm gonna get there, because I'm in NO condition to drive, but I'll find a way.