#it's a conundrum

[whumperofworlds]

That moment where you see a post that is so whump core but you realize it was reblogged from a non whump blog, and you're left wondering if they would see your reblog and get weirded out or worse.

[sparrow-in-the-field]

Hey boss, I can't work today. I'm having trouble figuring out the chapter breakdown for the next arc in my novel-length fanfiction and can't get my brain to focus on anything else. I'm sure you understand.

Aka I thought this next part in The Cormorant was going to be two chapters long but then I started writing it. And now I'm like...three??

[ithinkwehitametaphor]

me: I wish they would notice me.

also me: Don't look at me!

[hangmanbradshaw]

Me: not usually into romance (with some exceptions), usually watches sci-fi or mystery or action or horror

also me: what if...I write another romance/rom com fic?

[soloragoldsun]

Being an aegoromantic aroace can feel like a contradiction sometimes. Because I want more fictional representation of deep platonic relationships as an aroace person...but my aegoromantic ass can’t help but ship everyone and want to see them kiss!!!

[fratricideknight]

it's amazing how i want to retreat from human contact almost entirely and yet simple interactions with strangers make me feel so warm. a polite, pleasant exchange on a forum, someone laughing about my post in the tags. but i also overthink it, and while it's a pleasant feeling, sometimes even that much can be a bit excessive for me. and it's a double-edged sword: positive interactions warm me inside, but negative ones also stick with me and drag me down. i really don't think i'm ready to be around others even if i want to on some levels and i know i'll be lonely if i draw away even more. but i've been lonely for years already, so what's some more?

[queen-scribbles]

I'm having a Time trying to figure out Arkady's endgame since "completely cut ties with both Empire and Republic" won't be an option, but this conversation is always juicy for character development.

[janeway-lover]

I'm writing a fic rn and I keep alternating between

"This is way too specific, no one's gonna want to read it"

and

"Who doesn't want to read wish fulfillment about someone being nice to you at work?"

[the-irrelevant-trumpeter]

i feel like doing something but i don't want to do anything. do you get what i mean.

[lovevalley45]

season six...

[hopefullyandrogynousartist]

don't mind me just casually grieving the loss of a child I've dreamed about many times and she will never exist and it's kinda killing me inside

[thecraftgremlin]

I love watching video analysis and discussion of stuff I like, but I don’t want to hear the opinions of like 90% of the people on youtube or tiktok, y’know?

[ohitspurple2]

[flannelepicurean]

when u figure out that you're not actually "promiscuous" or like, "pansexual," you just feel the same way about sex that you do about a really good intellectual discussion, but almost nobody else has that take on it. O_O

like...almost nobody else is like, "oh hai. yeah? hm. interesting, neat. well, i dunno, i've never considered that, but i guess i'd be down to give it a whirl and see what happens, i got nothing going on and you seem interesting and fun and you've got REALLY lovely arms, i'd really enjoy drawing those... sure, i'll touch parts with you, what does this one do?"

not that i haven't enjoyed sex, or haven't cared about my partners or bonded with any of them. but my broader experience outside of that has been much more around a kind of intellectual curiosity and general enthusiasm for humans.

which kinda got tangled up in my head, because i LOVE talking about sex, writing about sex, doing art about sex, etc. love it as a topic. i just don't actually experience sexual attraction.

it's...a conundrum.

Aro/ace culture is not noticing the blatantly obvious signs that you are aro/ace all your life and later realising half the shit you thought was your personality is said blatantly obvious signs.

[foolsocracy]

they barge into justice league meetings saying they have something very important to show them. and do stuff like this

[flannelepicurean]

Hey, so...I tried taking my Adderall at night again, because goddamn fucking hell, I need sleep, and taking it first thing in the morning instead of at "work o'clock" has been taking off like a fucking lead balloon. And yeah, I still took a nap after lunch, but you know what? Both last night and that nap felt ALMOST like actual sleep.

Normally my brain just keeps on whirring and clicking and whispering and oftentimes writing, and just clanging and clamoring nonstop. I'll go to sleep with a background hum of thoughts and suppositions, and wake up to pee a couple hours later, jump back midstream into an ongoing churn of same.

Last night, though, it was like, "Consider: Vegeta sleep-humping Goku."

stage dark, curtain down

And that was it. Every time I'd get up to pee, or whatever, I'd get back under my blankies and go, "Hmm, shouldn't I try to think about something? I usually have to steer myself toward--"

finis.

Same thing at naptime. And I slept longer than I originally intended to, for that nap. Because I knew I needed it. Cracked one eye open and looked at the time, went, "...Nope." Kept on snoozin'.

I dunno. Maybe gonna keep trying this for now, and see what happens. Sure would be nice to get some actual fucking rest.