#it's 4:20 am (lol) so i apologise if this actually looks really bad‚ i have no brain left

[soliloquent-stark]

marvel parallels 16/?

sebastian stan in captain america: the first avenger (2011) and captain america: the winter soldier (2014)

[toomuchracket]

my current brain rot ever since atpoaim is a fort date with matty!! however in my head the cute date eventually gets crashed by all the band and ends up with everyone crammed into the tiny fort.

like maybe it's at mattys house, and it's well known George just lets himself in, so he does and immediately sees the large fort in the living room and goes to investigate. he sees you and matty cuddled watching a movie in a sea of blankets and pillows so very unceremoniously flops on top of you both and the myriad of pillows. he works his way into the date somehow and is half watching the movie and half just watching you and matty being sickeningly cute and wondering if that's how him and Charli look.

about 20 mins later, there's a knock on the door, and you and matty are like??? but George just pipes up with "Oh, I invited Adam and Ross to the hangout. I hope that's okay!" and matty starts being like "this actually was a date before you barged in and-" but gets cut off by you saying its totally okay and he should go let them in. Adam feels slightly bad for barging in, but you assure him it's fine, and eventually, the 5 of you are all crammed under this fort cuddled up watching some sappy rom-com you convinced them to watch. it obviously starts with lots of complaints "ugh nooo" "whyyyy," "cmon, do we have to watch this chick flick?"" but eventually divulges into gasps at how bad the guy is and comments like "oh my god she needs to leave him" but also on the other hand they're like "well no because she fucked up too" and finally when the movie ends it is just 4 grown men trying to keep their emotions at bay after watching like enchanted or Notting hill lol

anyway sorry for rambling, domestic matty and the boys kills me off everytime

i can't believe you apologised for this omg i LOVE it!! it kinda feels like slightly older flatmate!matty and his girl to me. like say the boys are on a break from work, and matty's built this fort all cute and romantic for you guys to just chill in all cutely, and you're lazily making out in it when you hear the front door open and close and a gravelly voice go "yoohoo!"; george, bored as shit because charli's off working somewhere, coming round for some entertainment. fully creased at the image of all six foot whatever of him just flopping over you all snuggled into matty - i bet you'd be like "hi darling!" to him, genuinely happy to see him, while matty's all tetchy like "george what the FUCK" (but that's his bestie, so he lets him stay and watch, idk, lady bird (it's my fav film) or whatever with you). and the whole time, george is side-eyeing you and matty in the nicest way, thinking about himself and charli AND how you and matty used to cuddle watching films together even pre-dating but it's so lovely that you're so openly lovey-dovey in the same scenario now. and i think george had probably texted ross and adam to hang out before he came over to yours, and then when they agreed he was like "oh i'm actually at matty's" so they just rock up there; like you said, adam is guilt-stricken and very much like "oh my gosh i am so sorry for intruding i'll be on my way" - matty's like "yes that sounds like a good idea considering my girl and i were having a little DATE before you fuckers showed up" - but you're like "honestly don't worry about it. if you don't mind sitting through my movie choices you can stay". matty sighs, but is appeased when you kiss him quickly and smile sweetly at him, so it becomes the five of you all chilling on pillows in this fort watching the devil wears prada (they would fucking hate andy's boyfriend they really would). and they all complain when you say "oh my god let's watch enchanted" as you go back to the disney+ homescreen, but maybe you all share some alcohol or a joint and then they get really into the movie, gasping at the change from animation to live-action and making little comments throughout the film - i bet ross is SO bitchy about giselle's outfit for the ball lmfao. but yeah, you turn your head to look at them all as the credits roll, and try not to giggle at these huge (and matty) men either sniffling or just beaming happily at the film they just watched. and as much as you've had a nice time, matty kicks the other boys out shortly after this so he can romance you as he had planned to the whole evening (but as you hug them goodbye i think you're like "same time next week? we'll watch 27 dresses and the lizzie mcguire movie") lol <3

[tiny-circus]

1: Let’s start with a tricky one; what is the real reason you are confused right now? I am confused how someone has stolen my identity and has started making accounts in my name :( so shit.

2: Do you ever get “good morning” texts from anyone? No, mornings aren’t good haha

3: If your significant other smoked pot, would you care? Yeah weed just makes people so unproductive. It would annoy me. If it was a social thing I wouldn’t mind buttttt would rather they didn’t. 

4: Do you find it easy to trust others? Yeah once the trust is earned or I’ve got to know someone well. Some people are very open and easy to trust 

5: What were you doing at 11PM last night? Watching the Hobbit

6: You’re drunk and lost walking down the road; who is with you?  Probably Steven lol 

7: What would you do if you found out you had been cheated on? Leave, block, delete and never talk to again. There’s not much you can do when you’ve been cheated on other than pick yourself back up again and have time alone.

8: Are you close with your dad? Not really.

9: I bet you kissed someone last night, right? I did not babes

10: What are you listening to? Just got peep show playing in the background :P

11: You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life - what is it? Tea

12: Do you like hickeys? Hate them. Ew.  

13: What time do you go to bed? Usually 11:30 - 12pm

14: Is there someone who continuously lets you down? No, I don’t tend to stick around when someone continuously does that

15: Can you text as quickly with one hand as you do both? Who cares? XD

16: Do you always answer your texts? Yeah leaving them unread is so annoying

17: Do you hate the person you fell the hardest for? Nah, hate is a strong word and it happened a long time ago. All water under the bridge now.

18: When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends? An hour or so ago

19: Is there someone that makes you happy every time you see them? Yeeeeeah all my friends do 

20: What was your last thought before you went to bed last night? Probably something old like “my back still hurts”

21: Is anyone else in the room with you? Nah bare alonez right now

.22: Do you believe what goes around comes around? Yeah

23: Were you happier four months ago than you are now? I’m about the same

24: Is there someone you wish you could fix things with? Not really

25: In the past week, have you cried? I shed a little tear reading Kingdom of Ash but I couldn’t have a full on cry in the middle of the train XD 26: What colour is the shirt you are wearing? Red

27: Do people ever call you by your last name? No its so rude when people call someone by their last name. I don’t like it

28: Is anyone ignoring you right now? I dunno?

29: Do you have a best friend? No I’m not 5 30: Would it be hard seeing someone else kiss the last person you kissed? Wouldn’t be hard but I wouldn’t want to see it

31: Who was your last call from? EE - sorting out stupid identity theft shit

32: Are you mad at anyone? I’m a little annoyed. I have a friend that barely contacts me at all (which is fine, we’re all busy and have our lives) but when they do contact me its to talk about their problems that they don’t ever sort out over and over again.  I also don’t think it takes much of their time just to say “hey, what’s up, how’re you?” 

33. Have you ever kissed someone older than you? Yeah I think most people have been a little older

34: How old will the last person you kissed be on his/her next birthday? I don’t know, 29? 35: How many more days until your birthday? I am not counting, soz babe

36: Do you have any summer plans yet? Probably book a holiday to Greece, haven’t thought that far ahead 

37: Do you have any good friends of the opposite sex? Yes

38: Are you keeping anything from your best friend(s) now? I guess I’m keeping my feelings about the friend that barely messages me. I think I’ll have the conversation at some point but they get very anxious and upset whenever I voice a concern.

39: Do you have a secret that you’ve never told anyone? Not that I can think of

40: Have you ever regretted kissing someone? Probably, some have been so bad XD

41: Do you think age matters in relationships? If you’re both consenting adults and there isn’t some weird power control then I guess its okay

42: Are you available? Available for? ;) 43: How many people have you had real, strong feelings for since high school ended?   Two people

44: If you had to get a piercing (not ears), what would you get? Lip

45: Do you believe exes can be friends? Yeah I think they can. I think if nothing awful happened and it ends okay, you both need some time apart to get used to having that distance between each other and do your own thing. Once you’re both in the same space mentally it can work.

46: Do you regret anything? Not really

47: Honestly, what’s on your mind right now? Thinking about what is on my mind xD

48: Did you ever lose a best friend? I’ve drifted from people, yeah

49: Was your last kiss a mistake? Not a mistake, I liked him at the time but it didn’t work out. Oh well.

50: Why aren’t you pursuing the person you like? I got over the person I liked cos he didn’t want anything serious. I’ve been single for a while so, I don’t really want to mess around

51: Has the last person you kissed ever seen you cry? No

52: Do you still talk with the person you LAST kissed? Yeah sometimes, mostly just send each other weird memes

53: What was the last thing you ate? Homemade bread

54: Did you get any compliments today? No

55: Where are you going on your next vacation? JAPAN AND SOUTH KOREA :D

56: Do you own anything from other countries? I mean my whole wardrobe is mostly from Japan xD

57: Are most of your friend guys or girls? Half and half, but I’ve always got on better with girls

58: Where have you lived most of your life? Good ol’ Billerz

59: When was the last time you took a long drive? I don’t know

60: Have you ever played Spin the Bottle? No I don’t wanna kiss gross people xD

61: Have you ever TPd someone’s house? I’m not American so Idk what that is

62: Who do you text the most? Faun

63: What was the last movie you saw? The Hobbit

64: What’s preventing your current boyfriend/girlfriend from going back to their ex? The fact that I don’t have a boyfriend/girlfriend right now xD

65: How many boyfriends/girlfriends did you have in 2010? 1

66: Is the last person you kissed younger than you? No

67: Do you curse around your parents? Yeah

68: Are you happy with where you live? S'ight, three stops from London so I ain’t complaining : P

69. Picture of yourself? Just check my profile lol

70. Are you a monogamous person or do you believe in open-ended relationships? I’m 100% monogamous

71. Have you ever been dumped? Yeh

72. What do you most like about making out? It leads to spooning which leads to forking

73. Have you ever casually made out with someone who you weren’t seriously involved with? Ye.

74. When you kiss someone for the first time, is it usually you who initiates it or the other? The other, I’ve noticed I’m really bad at initiating anything physical. I get kind of nervous? I’m not really a touchy person haha

75. What part of a person’s body do you find most attractive? The face and hair

76. Who was the last person you talked to last night before you went to bed? Mum 

77. Had sex with someone you knew less than an hour? >___>

78. Had sex with someone you didn’t know their name? >____>

79. What makes your heart flutter and brings a big cheesy smile to your face? When someone messages me something really sweet, or take the time out of their day just to speak to me. I think a little effort goes a long way

80. Would you get involved with someone if they had a child already? Honestly depends on how strongly I feel about that person. I don’t want to say no because until I’m in the situation I don’t know

81. Has someone who had a crush on you ever confessed to you? Yeah

82. Do you tell a lot of people when you have a crush? Noooooooo I don’t tell anyone until I’m actually with that person. Idk I just have this paranoia that voicing my feelings to other people will ruin it or something will go wrong. So I just keep it to myself until things progress between me and the person I like

83. Do you miss your last sweetie? My what?

84. Last time you slow danced with someone? Never xD

85. Have you ever ‘dated’ someone you’ve never met? No, how does that work?

86. How can I win your heart? Make an effort, sense of humour, be respectful and kind and sociable 

87. What is your astrological sign? Gemini

88. What were you doing last night at 12 AM? Watching peep show and using my massage machine. My back has been in a lot of pain lately. Getting old init xD

89. Do you cook? Yeah gotta to stay alive 8)

90. Have you ever gotten back in touch with an old flame after a time of more than 3 months of no communication? Yeah they got in contact with me. To be honest most guys end up getting back in touch, its either for a booty call, cos they’re feeling shit and lonely or they have a lot of apologising to do.

91. If you’re single right now, do you wish you were in a relationship? I don’t wish for it, but if it happens then okay :B

92. Do you prefer to date various people or do you pretty much fall into monogamous relationships quickly? I’m not really into modern dating to be honest. I did it for a while and its a lot of effort and not much pay off. People stop talking for no reason or they don’t give a reason even though you get along. Then you need to build it back up again with someone else. I prefer to just get to know someone after time

93. What physical traits do you look for in a potential interest? Dark hair, baby face, nice fashion style, tattoos

94. Name four things that you wish you had: A long 3 month holiday My own house A cute guy to cuddle ;) Aaaand a million pounds yeah 

95. Are you a player? lol no, I’m very direct. Cba with wasting time

96. Have you ever kissed 2 people in one day? Yeah

97. Are you a tease? Again, I’m very direct so if I want something I’ll say

98. Ever meet anyone you met on Tumblr? Yeah

99. Have you ever been deeply in love with someone? Yeash

100. Anybody on Tumblr that you’d go on a date with? Nah no one is on here lol

101. Hugs or Kisses? Both :'3

102. Are you too shy to ask someone out? Not really

103. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? Cute face, dark hair dark eyes ;) 104. Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you babe? Everyone should be called babe

105. If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was in relationship, would you go for it? No I wouldn’t even bother speaking to them

106. Do you flirt a lot? Not at all xD 107. Your last kiss? What about it?

108. Have you kissed more than 5 people since the start of 2011? Up until now? Yeah xD

109. Have you kissed anyone in the past month? Yeah 110. If you could kiss anyone who would it be? TOP

111. Do you know who you’ll kiss next? Nope

112. Does someone like you currently? Nah

113. Do you currently have feelings for anyone? Nah

114. Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings? Serious, flings are a waste of time for me 115. Ever made out with just a friend? No thats weird

116. Are you happier single or in a relationship? If the relationship is right, i’ll be happy but Im also happy being single

[chiefmauskateer]

Live blogging Eurovision not live

I ended up staying 12 hours at a board game thing so I missed Eurovision.

1. Eurgh this opening nonsense.

2. Hah, Heathrow drones

3. I would buy Malta's song for my car playlist. Good for her going for first and doing well.

4. These postcard things are so weird

5. Good lord her skin-to-dress transition is as as smooth as a cartoon drawing. O.o

6. I don't think Albania will break the curse of slot 2.

7. I think that is an illusion neckline? I am finding this woman's chest overly fascinating. 🤔 #whysosmooth #sounmoving

8. Will I like it Graham? Will I? Oh no. Maybe I will. I apologise for questioning you. Oh BLESS little Czech Republic singer's I'm-posh-trying-to-sound-cool English accent. This makes good noises for sitting in bars and stuff you know?

9. Yeah.. there is a reason the UK pay to skip the semis though isn't there, Graham?

10. Omg is Germany singing from the position of the UK? I hope so. I quite like their song - not necessarily their voices. I wish I should bob along to music like that and look as cool. 🙁

11. I am trying to remember whether Russia does well with public votes. Oh Graham implied they do. Oh. A ballad? Yay. I hope this build up actually builds. Ok mirrors.

12. 😲 The reflection moved itself! Lol shower door.

13. Visually very good Russia. Well done. The song is nice and edgy too. Great voice.

14. Omg I recognised Gautier from Big in France 🤣

15. "FLYING! WE ALL HOPE TO DO TO FLY!" "Let's fly! Yes!" - the penny dropped at that moment.

16. I got bored of Denmark and went to talk to my husband about Albania's illusion neckline. Now it is a man telling me to say Na na na. It is lovely and camp. Just missing some oomph vocally.

17. I didn't know Macedonia was split somehow? #whyishouldpayattentiontothenews

18. You have got me ready for this song Graham, I had better like it.

19. Good voice. I can tell from the dress - unless she tears the skirt away - that this will be a long number. 😐 Yep. Too repetitive for me. You let me down Graham.

20. Omg yes! He is a disappointing Jeff Goldblum, I just didn't want to say it first.

21. Sweden helped cowrite our song? Is that an indication of whether I will like theirs or evidence of sabotage? 🤣

22. Sabotage.

23. He could serenade me. 😘 He is fucking gorgeous.

24. Oooooo that wink! Take me now.

25. Michael Rice. Oh dear even his name sounds a bit naff. Despite Tim Rice being awesome.

26. Slovenia are wearing white. Love the late-90s/00s pop vibes. I don't think that guitar is making any sound though. Is this song about how she loves the lead guitarist of a band but he is too aloof and she is just a sweet naive fangirl? Just going by the fact this is not a duet and she doesn't take her eyes off him except when she closes them with quiet emotion.

24. Oh no I needed a bigger kiss than that for that song.

25. West Wickham? That is the village next to my home village! Woo tiny shout-out!

26. Standing up costume? Excellent.

27. Oh my. Has she any circulation in her legs? Maybe they work like flight socks.

28. Husband came in to tell me about UK sex workers from what he learned from PhilosophyTube and then she took off the jacket. 😆

28. She has such teeny hips.

29. Ok. So is the Netherlands the one that sparks joy or the one that did not? #mariekondomemespoilers

30. The vocals for the chorus is potentially sparking joy but I need it to build through the verses too.

31. Greece sounds like I do when I have my tooth guard in.

32. Just sing in your own languages. That is what is awesome about variety.

33. Good song though. Just not sure about the squawking and screeching between things?

34. Must be hard for Graham, knowing what each act is like already, praying for something amazingly good or amazingly bad to happen live.

35. Ah Israel is recycling Russia's mirror panels.

36. Bleurgh he does NOT have a good voice Graham. It is all throaty and weird. I don't understand what he is doing with his air. I don't think he is singing at a comfortable pitch either.

37. Oh I see it is because he actually cried? No wonder his voice wasn't working properly.

38. Norway's postcard already makes me fills me with hope. Ooo obscure language? Awesome.

39. Very cool. Love it. About time we had uplifting. Omg the dude with the obscure language job is hilariously brilliant. Oh yes! I love it. The subtitles can't cope hah. I would buy this one too. 💙 Love the origami spirit animals

40. Michael is the most British looking lad tho isn't he? Going for Will Young vocal stylings. The song is ok... Just doesn't have the Welly it needs to do really well. Hah there is the Swedish act's writing influence.

41. Awww what a sweet boy hah.

42. "If you win tonight will you come back?" "Hahahaha.... Ha... *Definite hesitation and inner tears*" "SAY YES" "OH! YES! 😬"

43. ICELAND. "Put granny in the hall and a blanket over the budgy cage" 🤣 omg. What is this? 😂 He is dressed like a dremora from Oblivion. Sing/shouts like one too. 😂

44. My meniere's would not cope if I was in the studio for this song. The strobes are even affecting how they look on screen.

45. "Iceland. They have very long winters. I would be angry too."

46. It is always weird when singers' eyes follow the camera panning sideways.

47. Ooo this chorus has promise. Camp and build it up Estonia. Do it.

48. No not like that.

49. Where does that guitar come from and go too?!

50. "She is just 16 years old. It's good to get some things over with early. Get on with the rest of your life". Yikes.

51. Just wear fitted trousers. More comfy than this boots and give the same visual effect. 🤷

51. I am always really uncomfortable with young teen stars singing about sexytimes like that. 😬

52. Azerbaijan usually pulls out a good one. Ok a good beat. Laser robots! 🤖 awesome a heartbreak song. The sort you can remix for clubs or have in the background of shops and hair salons.

53. Alexander McQueen robots?! Pricey

54. Graham: France has entertained. Diverse dancers is cool. Shame about the song.

55. Oh yes. I agree from a musical stance but visually brilliant and definitely a crowd pleaser despite the lack of bite to the tune and vocals.

56. I mean Graham. Look and listen to the vibe had gone for. That is why he went for the docks.

57. This would be good for Zumba.

58. Serbia's postcard music is fun. Hope it translates into the performance. Oh now I have to look at her dress. Oh. Yes. I see what you mean. Serbia's postcard music did NOT translate into the performance. 😑

59. That small bit of air guitar could have gone somewhere far cooler. 🙄 Instead we got a tiny bit of guitar and back to the way of the song with swirly galaxy effects.

60. Nice Swiss man is nice to look at. Song has a promising vibe too. Woo sex pop song.

61. Another goodun for Zumba.

62. Well done Australia! What a great performance 👏👏

63. "if Australia win it will still be hosted in Europe" - ok but is Tel Aviv in Europe?

64. Spain is fun.

65. Right. I don't know yet who won... Hm. I think Sweden, Spain, Russia and Australia stand a good chance from the audience vote.

I think I would have voted Sweden. And Cyprus, actually. And Australia. And Norway.

Basically spent quite a bit of money. 🤐

[depressed-alone]

Beacuse tumblr is bein mean and doesn't let me publish the story if it's an answer to an ask I'll have to do it like this. Hope you enjoy lol. ANGST. THIS IS SUPER ANGSTY. SUPER SAD. ONLY READ IF YOU WANNA CRY. (I mean i almost cried when writing it) Mention of depression, anxiety, lots of crying. Pairings: None. Maybe platonic Logicality Entry no. 1 Feelings. The bane of my existense. Unnecessary. Useless. Complicated. I haven't been affected by them for the past 28 years. I had some slip ups when I was younger but now I am in perfect control over them. The other three seemed to have them. They always showed some kind of emotion. Patton was mostly the emotions. I need to find out what is so great about emotions. I need to find out more about emotions. Entry no. 10 I have failed many times. I've been trying to study emotions. I looked up everything I could. And yet I can't find anything. I need a plan. Entry no. 16 Something terrible happened. This was a risk I took when I decided I will study emotions. I've been affected by them. I started to have feelings. I need to find names for my feelings. I don't understand them. It's getting out of control. Entry no. 20 I found a name for one of my many confusing feelings. Loneliness. Loneliness: /ˈləʊnlɪnɪs/ noun sadness because one has no friends or company. I never knew this was something I could feel. I have been alone for so many years. And now I have a name for it. Interesting. Frustrating. Confusing. Entry no. 25 Weird. Since I found out I have been feeling lonely I feel down. Feel. Feeling down. This must be a new emotion. Sadness: /'sadnəs/ noun noun: sadness; plural noun: sadnesses the condition or quality of being sad. Sad: /sad/ adjective adjective: sad; comparative adjective: sadder; superlative adjective: saddest feeling or showing sorrow; unhappy. I heard Patton talking about this. When he watched a so called 'sad-movie'. Sadness followed crying. But I've never cried in my life. So I'm not feeling sad. Sadness-Incorrect Entry no. 29 I have been experiencing a new kind of emotion. It is oddly weird. It must be a bad emotion like sadness or loneliness. I don't understand it. Love: /lʌv/ noun noun: love; plural noun: loves 1. a strong feeling of affection. 2. a great interest and pleasure in something. verb verb: love; 3rd person present: loves; past tense: loved; past participle: loved; gerund or present participle: loving 3. feel deep affection or sexual love for (someone). Have I been feeling this for weeks? Months? Years? I always had this weird somewhat would say 'warm' feeling when the others were around. Is this love? I doubt it. I need to test it out. Somehow. Entry no. 31 I haven't left my room for a month now. The others haven't searched for me. Not even Patton after a week. He gave up. Everyone gave up. Disappointment: /dɪsəˈpɔɪntm(ə)nt/ noun: disappointment sadness or displeasure caused by the non-fulfilment of one's hopes or expectations. I thought they would care more. They were emotions didn't they think I have been feeling lonely? I should get out of my room. But they wouldn't want me around anymore. They hate me. I'm afraid to go outside. Fear: /fɪə/ noun: fear; plural noun: fears an unpleasant emotion caused by the threat of danger, pain, or harm. Anxiety: /aŋˈzʌɪəti/ noun: anxiety; plural noun: anxieties a feeling of worry, nervousness, or unease about something with an uncertain outcome. Negative emotions. Again. Will I ever experience positive emotions? Entry no. 35 Sadness: /'sadnəs/ noun: sadness; plural noun: sadnesses the condition or quality of being sad. I cried. I cried today. I didn't know I was capable of crying. Another negative emotion. I don't think I will ever get any of the positive emotions. Sadness-Correct Entry no. 42 I have cried a lot today. Or in the past week. I have been crying all day. I broke down crying on my desk. I don't understand it. I have been feeling. Nothing. I'm back at where I was. Depression: /dɪˈprɛʃ(ə)n/ noun: depression feelings of severe despondency and dejection. I need a rest. I haven't slept for weeks. I need to clear my head. There are too many emotions. Too many things I don't understand. I need a break. Logan closed his diary. He really needed to just take a break from every emotion. He needed relaxation. He looked at his clock. 4 a.m. Perfect. No one will be awake at this hour. Even Virgil went to sleep at 3 a.m. usually. He can go outside without any of them noticing. Maybe he can even watch Tv. He hasn't done that in over a month. He missed the shows about space and science. Maybe he could try to imagine a starry sky in the commons room. Maybe he could just stargaze for a bit. He quietly opened his door and went down the stairs to where the kitchen and the commons room were. A coffee couldn't hurt, right? He made his coffee quickly and went into the commons room. He sat down on the couch and turned on the Tv. He found the channel he usually watched if he was alone. He quietly sipped his coffee and relaxed. When he finished his cup of coffee he sat down in front of the couch where the soft carpit was actually pretty comfortable. He layed down and stared at the celiling. He thought of a clear, starry sky. After a few minutes of thinking the ceiling turned into exactly what he imagined for himself. It was relaxing. He never stargazed without writing notes. But he didn't have his notebook with him and he definitely wasn't going to stand up just to go and get it. He didn't mean to fall asleep. He knew he can't fall asleep beacuse then the others would find him. But he was too comfortable. Too relaxed. Too tired. So he quickly fell asleep on the ground. ~ When Patton woke up the others were usually still asleep. This is why he found it odd that Logan's door was open. And Logan haven't been out of his room for a month. Did he finally came out of there? Is he okay? He opened the door further more just to see an empty but very messy room. Logan, who usually kept everything neatly in place and order had the messiest room out of all four of them now. Which was unusual as Virgil's room was complete chaos. He saw a diary on Logan's desk. The desk was a mess, papers, books everywhere. But nothing was around the black diary. He went closer just to see what was written on it. Study of Emotions Did Logan stay in his room to study emotions? For a whole month?! Why didn't he just asked Patton or Virgil or maybe even Roman? He knew it was a bad thing to do. He knew he shouldn't open it. But he had to. Maybe he can help Logan with the things he found. He opened the little book and saw Logan's neat handwriting. Everything perfectly written. No scribbles. No smudges. Just pure perfection. He read the first entry, then the second and so on. When he got to the end he was crying. He felt horrible. He wasn't there for Logan. He didn't help him. He gave up. And Logan noticed. Logan cried. Logan was depressed. He quickly shut the diary and went into the commons room. He had to sit down, he had to calm down, he didn't want to tell the others just yet. But when he got there he found Logan on the floor sleeping. He looked relaxed. A coffee mug was on the coffee table. The Tv was on, volume turned almost fully down on Logan's favourite channel. He looked so peaceful. He didn't want to wake him. But he had to. He made a coffee first, beacuse he knew the other would appreciate it. He then went back to where Logan was still on the floor, put the mug down on the coffee table and gently shook the other's shoulders. "Leave me aloneee" Logan whined still clearly asleep. Patton would have chuckled, maybe he even would have left the other side to sleep a bit more but they had things to talk about. They had to talk about emotions. "Lo you must be really tired, I don't think you slept much but we need to talk." He said as he shook the other again. Logan slowly opened his eyes to see pair of worried eyes. "Oh-oh apologise. I-I didn't mean to fall asleep here. I'll.. I'll just go back to my room. I have some work to finish." He said as he stood up from the floor. "Nuh-uh you are staying Logan. We need to talk about something." Patton said as he sat down on the couch and patted the space next to him. "Sit down please." "We-we don't have anything to talk about. My work is-is rather important so please Patton if you would just let me go." Logan tried to force himself out of Patton's grip on his wrist but he was too tired, and too weak. "Emotions" Patton said and looked at Logan. The logical trait couldn't look into Patton's eyes. He must have found his diary. He must have read it. But he was Morality. He knew reading other's personal stuff was wrong. So he wouldn't do it. It was just a guess. When Patton still didn't let go of his wrist he sighed in defeat and sat down next to the older trait. "I read it. The whole thing. And I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I gave up. I'm sorry that I disappointed you. I'm sorry. For everything." Patton said. Logan looked up to meet Patton's eyes that were starting to water. "I..I'm sorry too." The logical one said an broke down crying. Patton hugged him and he quickly returned the hug. His loneliness was no longer there. He wasn't lonely anymore. He had Patton to hug him. To hold him. To protect him. "We will fix this I promise" Patton said as he cried into the other's shoulders. They were both crying, their emotions out of control, in a chaos but Logan didn't care. He wasn't lonely anymore. He wasn't afraid that the others would hate him. He didn't feel sad even though he was crying. It was a different kind of crying. He wasn's disappointed anymore. He felt something. The warm feeling he only felt when he was around one of the others. He felt Love. A/n: IM SORRY ALRIGHT THIS GOT SO FUCK DEPRESSING I ALMOST STARTED TO CRY WHILE WRITING THIS I FEEL FUCKING HORRIBLE I LITERALLY JUST JESUS CHRIST KILL ME. So uhm yeah angstttttt. Cool huh? This was an experience to write thats for sure. Also thanks tumblr for bein a total asshole bc now none of the words are how I want it but sure alright its fine like this. If you wanna read it in a somewhat better quality then I suggest my wattpad for you where I have a little sanders sides one shot book that you can read btw. Here's the link for my oneshot book on wattpad: https://my.w.tt/UiNb/IzwcA4nGWG Tagging some people hope its okay i just wanna know what you think? I hope its okayy. @romananalogicality @pirate-patton @mewsicalmiss @emeliethetimelady @notjustaterran

[gilrael]

50 Song Shuffle Meme

(This challenge originally belongs to FiretoIce on DeviantArt)

@carajay1317 tagged me for this, so let’s see what happens if I shuffle my saved songs on Spotify.

I’ll tag @le-amewzing and @rolling-blunder (if you guys feel like it of course)

2. I hate… Red and Purple by the Dodos (it’s not my fave song by them, but I don’t hate it or else I wouldn’t have saved it)

3. I hate you because… Smooth Criminal by Alien Ant Farm (omg)

4. I love… Karl-Marx-Stadt by Kraftklub (Never been there, but I do love the song lmao)

5. I love you because… In Between by Linkin Park (Because you apologise?? Okay, I guess?? lol)

6. She said… Emanuela by Fettes Brot (I get it, I will keep my hands off of Emanuela, she’s bad news)

7. He said… The Story of Tonight from Hamilton

8. We said… Zeit ist Geld by Irie Révoltés (”Time is money” It’s a really great song tbh)

9. I caught a disease from… Electric Daisy Violin by Lindsey Stirling (If the disease is a very strong urge to dance, then yes, I did catch a disease)

10. I would sing … as a love song. Frühlingstanz by Schandmaul (it’s instrumental tho lol)

11. I found … in my room. Kashmir by Led Zeppelin (I think the Kashmir region is a little too big to be found in my room lol)

12. I would kill someone if they… Lok auf 2 Beinen by Peter Fox (If someone was running around like Peter Fox in that song, they actually might drive me insane tho)

13. I would marry someone if they… Eighth Wonder by Lemon Demon (No. Just no xD)

14. I would kill for a… The Reel Jig Bag by Fiddler’s Green (I do like playing Irish reels and jigs, they are fun, but I wouldn’t kill for them xD)

15. Air is really made of... Think Who is Your Friend by Distemper (lol)

16. I think about… Bla Bla Bla by Gigi D’Agostino (Honestly tho, this song is stuck in my head quite often although it’s only nonsense lyrics >_>)

17. I am… Twilight of the Gods by Blind Guardian (that sounds awesome)

18. The secret ingredient is… Addict with a Pen by Twenty One Pilots (I relate to this song too much)

19. I will dance with my love to… Your Woman by White Town (My boyfriend does not like this song lmao)

20. I have a crush on… In kaltem Eisen by Subway to Sally (Eric Fish is not what I would consider boyfriend material lmao, especially not if you look at the lyrics of this song)

21. I got hurt because… Fieber by Peter Fox (Well, if I have a feaver I am kinda hurt I guess?) 22. My last words will be… Liebe by Kraftklub (Oh my god)

23. The song at my funeral will be… Tanz mit mir by Faun and Santiano (I wouldn’t mind people listening to cheerful music at my funeral)

24. I died because… Letter Between a Little Boy and Himself as an Adult by Abney Park (I would die if I turned into what I never wanted to become)

25. The story of your life is… Blackout by Linkin Park (Apparently my life is pretty depressing. Which is true in a way?^^’)

26. I like to eat… Peace or Violence by Stromae (this is ridiculous)

27. I live because… Luftbahn by Deichkind (this song is a good reason to live)

28. I’m immortal because… Disowned Inc. by Serj Tankian

29. My superpower is… Master of Tides by Lindsey Stirling (YES!)

30. Tonight I will… Chasing Pavements by Adele (lol)

31. They insulted my mother by… Der Weg by Die Apokalyptischen Reiter (this is the least insulting song ever tho?? lol)

32. I will dream of… Troy by Die Fantastischen Vier (Oh my god, I still remember the weird music video for this song xD)

33. I licked… Wing$ by Macklemore and Ryan Lewis (I don’t wanna lick shoes >_>)

34. My nickname is… Better Day by Dover

35. My best friend is… We don’t believe what’s on TV by Twenty One Pilots (There’s other bands besides Twenty One Piltos I listen to, I swear)

36. I would remove … from the world. Mein Todestag by Letzte Instanz (Does this mean that i will remove death?)

37. I wanted to be … as a kid. The Sound of Silence by Simon and Garfunkel (...)

38. I wish I could juggle… Bring mich nach Haus by Faun (this doesn’t make sense lol)

39. I would bring … with me to a desert island. Die Streuner by Die Streuner (At least I would have some company and good music)

40. In my underwear you will find… The Election of 1800 from Hamilton (LMAO)

41. Your children are like… Brother from a Mother of a Last Name of Another Color by Hank Green (I haven’t thought about this song in AGES)

42. I would trade my soul for… 4-15-13 by Dropkick Murphys (Trading my soul to reverse a tragedy like that seems like it wouldn’t be the worst of ideas)

43. I think the moon is made of… Major Tom by Peter Schilling (NO! Bad Spotify shuffle!)

44. I will bask in… Radio Ga Ga by Queen (Yes pls)

45. I lost THE GAME because… Remmidemmi (Yippie Yippie Yeah) by Deichkind

46. I would lose a fight because… Apology by Fiddler’s Green (That took a very dark turn suddenly >_<)

47. My deep dark secret is… Bienvenue Chez Moi by Stromae

48. My friends would describe me (as)… Hail to the Freaks by Beatsteaks (^^)

49. My favorite song is… Air Catcher by Twenty One Pilots (Not my fave song by them, but definitely somwhere in the top 5)

50. This meme was… Occupied Tears by Serj Tankian (My taste in music does not lend itself to memes like this it seems lol)

[niamhm13]

20 Things I Learned Before I Turned 20:

This list is comprised of both things I have learned and things I am still learning or wish to learn. I am really only making this for myself to see where I want to grow in my twenties.

I learned that looking after my mind is equally as important as looking after my body. I tend to focus a great deal on my weight and what I eat and don’t give the same attention to my mental health. Our body and our minds are connected. It can be hard to keep your body in check while your mind is needing some attention and vice versa. I am working on finding a better balance.

There is no such thing as permanent happiness and that’s okay. Or at least I don’t think there is. I think you can be happy overall, but you will always have the occasional bad day. This is okay. If you don’t have a bad day you won’t appreciate the good days as much. Last year my good days were few and far between. However this year I am finding the bad days are fewer and fewer. I appreciate every good day I have and don’t live in fear of the bad days anymore (for the most part). Instead I just push through, try and find the silver linings as much as possible and reassure myself that tomorrow is a fresh start. (I also listen to sad Taylor songs in the bathtub with some wine because why the fuck not, I’m depressed).

I want to learn a new skill. I would love to learn some basic Spanish and French. I would also love to learn an instrument. Maybe piano or guitar.

Social media is unbelievably harmful. Although it can be used for good (e.g. Posts about educating yourself on politics and current affairs), I think for the most part, in my experience, it has lowered my self esteem. I’m not just talking about comparing yourself to photos of airbrushed models with flawless skin and unattainable bodies. I’m talking about group chats. Questioning why you are or aren’t in a group chat. Pressure to read every message for fear you’ll miss something but there’s 15 members of the group and there’s over 100 unread messages. Read receipts. I don’t want to know if you’ve read my message but not replied because it makes me doubt myself and your opinion of me. I also don’t like you knowing I’ve read your message in fear that I’ll offend you by not replying immediately. We are all too accessible to each other and taking a social media break from time to time is not only healthy but necessary.

You have some friends for a reason, some for a season, and some for a lifetime. I learned that from Zoe Sugg and I think about it all the time. Since leaving school I have lost most of my friends. I had a lot of friends in school and quickly realised we were friends because we saw each other every day in school. Not because we had a lot in common. I even realised they weren’t very nice people. I am thankful for having them during that season of my life but also grateful that I had the courage to step away. I have remained close with a couple of friends from school but I don’t see them often. That’s okay. Every time we meet, whether it’s been 4 minutes, 4 days or 4 months, it’s as if we never spent time apart. We are friends for a reason and definitely for a lifetime. I made a new group of friends in uni. I’m not sure what category these friends fall into, but I hope they are for life.

I learned that maturity does not come with age, it comes with experience. I am very mature for my age as I am told frequently. I take this as a compliment. I have had a lot thrown at me in life. More than some, but not as much as others. My obstacles have been tough but I wouldn’t be who I am and would not have the same outlook on life without them. #wokebitch

I learned that children are smarter than me and everyone else. I think that children are the purest people in the world. They have done no wrong and are so (sometimes painfully) truthful. They are so curious of the world, aware of everything that’s happening, and are able find the fun and joy in every situation. If we all maintained a bit of childlike wonder, the world might just be a better place.

I want to learn to be more patient. I believe I am fairly patient when I have to be, but could have more patience for those closest to me. We all have bad days.

I learned that confidence and ego are very different. I lack in confidence and used to look up to egotistical people and envy their confidence. More often than not, people with large egos who appear to be self centred are actually suffering from low self-esteem. They show a false ego to hide their insecurities. I now look up to people like Taylor Swift and my Mum. These women are confident in themselves and their actions but are open about their insecurities and don’t let them run their lives. Thank you both for being such great role models.

I want to learn to be as good a Mum as my Mum is. I hope to have children in my mid to late twenties and wish to be the kind of mother that my mother is. I never ever felt like I couldn’t come to my mum with any worries or problems. Although we have the usual mother daughter arguements, I don’t have a doubt in my mind that she loves me unconditionally . I hope she knows how much I love her, and I hope my children never doubt how much I love them.

I hope to learn to manage my time better. I am constantly either procrastinating or overworking. I hope to find a good balance between studying and time off.

I learned that it’s important to surround yourself with people who make you push yourself. My friends and family encourage me to be the best possible version of myself I can be. It’s very difficult to not make excuses for yourself when you mess up, and it’s also difficult to not be too hard on yourself. I try to always take that extra step to be kinder to someone. Or help others. I also try to revise more (something I need to work on haha) so I can be the best nurse I can be. I am trying to make more time for people that I love.

I hope to overthink less than I do. I am such a worrier. If there’s anything I can worry about I will. Past. Present. Future. Things that might happen. Things that probably will never happen. Things that could never happen but I convince myself they will. I waste so much time overthinking everything instead of just carrying on with my life and dealing with things if and when they happen.

I hope to learn to love someone romantically, and I hope to let them love me. I have come close to relationships a couple of times (never had a boyfriend - sad I know) but I have always found a reason to push them away. Perfectly. Nice. Boys. If I can’t find anything wrong with them, I tell myself I don’t deserve them. Instead I find myself hurt that I let them go and convinced I can’t get them back because they probably already found someone better. Have I mentioned I have issues? lol.

I learned that the amount of time you’ve been friends does not determine how good a friend someone is. I have had friends from when I was wee, who I thought really cared about me. I won’t share details but it turns out I was definitely wrong. I also have friends who have only recently come into my life. I don’t have a single doubt that they would do anything for me, and I would do anything for them. Showing someone you care with the smallest of gestures goes such a long way. I promise.

I want to learn more about other cultures. I hope to travel a lot more in my twenties. I want to see more of the world. I think you can read everything about every culture in the world but will not truly understand it unless you’ve experienced it. Understanding that there is no right or wrong way to live, there is just different is so incredibly important. Everyone has a right to live in the way they want. Love who they want. Celebrate what holidays they want. And eat what food they want. Don’t let anybody tell you you’re doing it wrong. You do you.

I hope to become the best possible nurse I can. I have so many nurses in the hospital I work in that I look up to. I just hope I can be as good, if not better than them some day.

I learned to be kind to every single person you cross paths with in life. Whether it be a close friend or relative, or the man at the checkout in Tesco. You never ever know what kind of day they’re having. What news they’ve just been given. Or how they are feeling. The sad fact is a smile and a “good morning” could be the difference between life and death for some people. Be kind.

I learned that someone treating you badly and/or being unkind isn’t always a reflection of you. They could be having a bad day. They could have been given some terrible news. They could be struggling with their mental health. Don’t let their words impact you. Shake it off and don’t allow yourself to stoop to their level. Don’t blame yourself either. It’s not always someone’s fault.

Accepting apologies sincerely is just as important as giving them. Apologising to someone and truly meaning it can be a very difficult thing at times. I know myself I have found it hard in the past to admit I was wrong. Accepting an apology allows both parties to let go of any anger or hurt. Furthermore, actually let it go when you forgive someone. Holding onto grudges burdens you more than anyone, and not forgiving people for their mistakes is just spiteful. Apologise, forgive, learn and move on. (Don’t ever forget though. It is important to learn from fights, fallouts and mistakes).

[ajokeformur-ray]

 @shinigami-ahri

Ok my description was too long to send to the ask box so instead of spaming yoxur box with 20 asks i just figured i would send it all in one here. If something isnt clear just let me know...i hope it all makes sense haha Thank you so much! If you don't mind, could you throw in Naruto and the Hobbit too? I'm trying to get into Naruto but I've got so many others that I've been trying to catch up on and I haven't really seen many blogs that write for the Hobbit. If it's too much though don't worry about it you can just stick with Black Butler and Bleach (; lol I am female and I would like a male matchup please! My interests are really anything fantasy related, I love role playing games and things like that so pretty much anything creative. I'm interested in a lot of things like exploring different cultures and foods, traveling and usually if it has to do with anything nerdy I'm down. (I'm actually trying to get a group of friends together to play Pathfinder or D&D haha) My hobbits (I see what you did there (; ) include writing, drawing, playing video games or reading manga...I try to read like "real" books but it will take me 3 months to finish one book mostly because I can't read one at a time so I'll be reading 4 books at once throughout the month...It's very hard for me to stick with one thing for a long time I find myself jumping between stuff a lot. I like inside activities most. I don't really enjoy being outside a lot and I don't at all consider myself the physical type. I really enjoy tea, I buy a lot of different flavored tea and I bet I could start a small shop with how much I have at the moment. I do enjoy cheesy puns and lame jokes very much and I somewhat consider myself as the "comic relief" in my family since I try to pull out jokes to lighten the mood when things get kinda bad... though it doesn't really work most of the time...I don't like outside activities unless it's a little more on the cool side with a slight breeze...more like fall weather. I get really agitated and grumpy when I get hot and sweaty so I try to hang out where it's nice and cool. I don't like bugs either and cleaning...I really hate cleaning... I look for someone who will be able to take care of me. Someone who is not only physically strong but mentally strong too. Someone who won't mind my creativity and ideas but who will also keep me grounded so that I don't get too lost in them. I tend to be very passionate and strong willed when I have an idea in my head of what I want so I need someone who will be honest with me but won't get angry when I have to find out for myself if I can do it or not. Sort of like an unspoken "go ahead, I warned you what will happen so don't come crying to me when you find out it's not going to work." I need someone who isn't afraid to say they are sorry and someone who will come to me when we've had our fights or disagreements (If it's their fault) because I can sit around all night and be super salty until they tell me they aren't mad anymore or that it's going to be ok. I also tend to overthink things too and I look for someone who would be willing to reach out to me helps me understand that everything truly will be alright. At the same time though I don't want them overly comforting. I have a lot of room to grow myself and I'm rather timid when it comes to speaking my mind so I need someone who will challenge me from time to time and help me develop a thicker skin so to speak. I'm not good at confrontation and I fit into more of a submissive role so I also look for dominate personalities though, I find a personality that is calm, collected, rationality, with an unspoken arrogance more attractive than a brash, spoken arrogance, and irrational. I enjoy someone who is spontaneous and a bit difficult to read or people who are otherwise often misunderstood.

Sebastian

- Oh man, Sebastian has everything you like tucked away in that expansive brain of his. Different cultures, their origins, their developments into what they are today, their recipes handed down through the generations and altered to fit the modern day, or not as the case may be. Their legends and myths... Any culture you can think of, I can bet you that Sebastian has enough knowledge about it to fill an entire bookshelf.

- I can just see Sebastian cleaning out the library again because Ciel is sensitive to even the slightest bit of dust, and you’re sat on the couch reading some manga drinking some of the finest tea you’ve had for a while because of course Sebastian made it, and he’s telling you stories about a culture you’re curious about while you read. When there’s a bug, he quickly disposes of it discreetly, not bringing it up unless you’re the one who spotted it, in which case he makes a show of saving you from the ‘hideous monster’ as he gently teases you for the moment of weakness.

-  Sebastian would definitely take care of you. He would likely discipline you much like he does Ciel. You’d have a wake-up time, a bedtime, he’d help you with anything you ask for help with, but only if you tell him that you want that. He’d hate to impose his will on you without your consent. Your creativity would be one of his favourite things about you and he’d always want for you to push your creativity, to see just how far it can go and where its’ limits are. Then again, you decide the limits of your imagination. 

- If you set your mind on something that Sebastian knows will end badly, he’ll tell you but will otherwise take a backseat and watch the events unfold. He’ll be amused the entire time and will be smug when you find out just how wrong things turned out. You’ll get no sympathy from him at all, so don’t expect any. He’ll pull you back too when your thoughts start getting out of control. He’ll sense it and will get you to tell him everything you’re thinking, and in one or two sentences he’ll completely shut you down with logic and common sense. He’s good like that.

- Sebastian can be comforting but only when he chooses to be. For the most part, he’ll take the proverbial backseat and be there for you only when you expressly ask for him to be.  He’ll definitely test you and challenge you, usually in terms of patience, but he’s, for the most part, everything you ask him to be as he has no real personality of his own.

- He’s not misunderstood as such, but he’s definitely a challenge to all those who know him as no one can truly read or get to know a demon as intimately as one can come to read and get to know a human. So, for sure, if you’re more of a submissive in a relationship, he’ll take the dominant side in his stride and do it fabulously, like he does everything else. He is, after all, simply one hell of a butler.

Byakuya

- While Byakuya isn’t as well-traveled as Sebastian, he’s definitely just as educated. If he lacks the knowledge you're after, he’d likely do some research in the Library and come back to you with an answer that he feels is adequate. As far as creativity goes, he’ll supply you with papers and pens, pencils and charcoals etc. to support you in your creativity.

- His Manor and office are kept immaculate at all times, and any bugs that come through would only be in the warmer climates. He’d likely have someone on call to remove any bugs that cross your path. He’d huff and be outwardly annoyed, but on the inside, he finds it adorable and has to bite his inner cheek to stop himself from teasing you with a cheeky grin. 

-  You’d be more than welcome to keep him company inside while he fills out paperwork, just so long as you’re relatively quiet. He’d show affection during these times by getting up and refilling your teacup temporarily, his hand briefly resting on the crown of your head as he passes you.

- Byakuya is one of the strongest people in the Soul Society and he doesn’t take abuse from anybody. There’s no way he’d ever allow anyone to treat you wrongly, not even yourself. He’d do his best to keep you grounded, always knowing what to say or do to keep you from bubbling over or retreating back into yourself a bit more. Your strong will may annoy him every now and then but he’ll just shrug it off and watch you make a mistake. He won’t give you sympathy or empathy, he’ll just look you over with a quirked eyebrow and a, “I warned you. What did you expect? Next time, you would do well to listen to me.” and he’d walk off, leaving you with nothing but your thoughts for company.

- However, arguments are few and far between. He’ll always walk off during an argument, not wanting to say those few words that would completely destroy the relationship. He has an incredible cruel streak and he tries his hardest to not expose you to it unless he absolutely has to. He’s usually the first to apologise, though, wanting to keep the peace. Life is hard enough without tension between him and his dear one.

- Byakuya is definitely the more dominant one in this relationship and the two of you are together but actually, lead very separate lives. That’s not to say that you get lonely, it’s just that you do the most important thing in any relationship, which is to retain your own identity while being with the other person. It makes the two of you stronger, especially as he’s quite closed off emotionally from people. You help him to break out of his shell a little bit more every day, something he’s grateful for.

Sasuke

- Sasuke is an Uchiha and as such, he received only the finest education before the massacre, plus how much attention he paid in the Academy, Sasuke has quite the knowledge. As a shinobi, travel is a given and I think when the mood strikes him; though it’s rare, he may tell you about some of his missions. Don’t interrupt or ask too many questions though, he’s still going to be impatient with you. he won’t become a fluffy bunny just because you’re his s/o. He may cook for you sometimes, not wanting you to live on ramen like Naruto does. He cooks a lot of tomato based things because he loves tomatoes, but if you’re allergic or dislike them then he’ll adapt his recipes accordingly!

- Bugs don’t bother him at all. He just doesn’t give a flying monkey as to whether there’s a spider crawling on his face or not. You do, though, so he’ll huff and grumble but will otherwise dispose of the creepy crawly or spider for you if only to get you to leave him alone about it. He secretly finds it adorable though he’ll deny it categorically if you ask him.  He’s an Uchiha so again, clean freak. He does what needs to be done when it needs to be done, and if anything he takes on the domestic role of the household pretty quickly. Gender roles mean nothing to him, they’re stupid.  He’s a grumbly-guts in the heat too so you may argue a lot in hotter weather. It’s not personal though, just the two of you having low fuses because of the heat. 

-  Sasuke is pretty chilled tbh, he’s very relaxed in the relationship because he trusts you, I mean why else is he with you? Like duh! He’s fine with letting you do whatever you want to do. If it’s not a good idea, then it’s whatever, he’ll warn you but won’t stop you. Then when it all goes wrong and he watches the mess unfold, he’ll be there for you after he’s done the whole, ‘I told you so’, and ‘you should’ve known better, stupid’ speech which lasts about five minutes before he gets bored.

- You’re both strong willed so you might butt heads often, but you make up quickly as it always comes from a place of concern. Sasuke isn’t a comforting person by nature so I think the most you’d get would be a muttered, “Hn.” with his hands in his pockets, a quick glance and then a soft hug. The tighter you squeeze him, the more he’ll grumble, but it’s only because he doesn’t know what to do with you. He gets the hint and holds you just as tightly eventually, though, usually when you’re pulling away he’ll realise he wants that hug after all. 

- Sasuke will keep you grounded without you realising it. A glance here or there, a shake of the head from the corner of your eye, a mood wherein he needs a little more attention than usual when he notices you slipping... it’s all very subtle ways to keep you out of your own head when he knows it’s not good for you on that day. In return, you do the same to and for him, though it’s more obvious and of course slightly more annoying for him, though he understands your position.

- It’s a very separate relationship and you work as a unit, the way it should be. There aren’t many rules or expectations, just being yourselves is good enough. Reassurance is rare because Sasuke’s with you, so what more reassurance do you need? He tends to take the dominant position only because it’s natural to hm as an Uchiha. Just don’t expect a fluffy Sasuke, he doesn’t work like that. When he’s tired though, it’s a different matter. Talk about an affection monster!

Thorin

- Assuming that you’re a human here, Thorin would have plenty of stories to tell you about his travels before and with the Company, as well as a multitude of dishes you could taste, and he’d be willing to educate you on dwarven customs and the language, too.  Then, in Erebor, there are libraries you’re completely free to explore as you wish to. The two of you would swap stories over the fireplace about your different species, cultures, etc. He’d be fascinated and could listen to you talk for hours with the softest look in his eyes. He’ll pretend it’s a reflection of the fire, but it’s not and you both know it.

- Thorin would know of your dislike of bugs and would flick off any insects or spiders that dare to grace you with their presence. He’d do it discreetly and without your noticing. He’d flick off insects, spiders, get bugs out of your hair before you even know they’re there. He’d pretend he’s just brushing your hair from your face or that you had dust on you. You’d know the truth but would appreciate it nonetheless. Kiss his cheek in thanks and you’ve got a blushing Thorin.  He appreciates your light humour; fitting right in wih the rest of the Company. You’re often the cause of diffused tension and he couldn’t be more grateful to you. He dislikes the heat too, so luckily, Erebor has a rather cold climate.

-  He’s the King so discipline is obvious. You would have certain expectations, as the s/o of a King, and any bending or outright breaking of the rules would result in firm discipline from Thorin; namely a lecture that he later apologises for. He’s also busy so you’re generally expected to do your own thing, and to do it well. You’d likely have your own job in Erebor so you’re rarely together. The nights are yours, though, so use the time wisely ;)

- He’ll definitely keep you grounded, though sometimes he’s the one who needs grounding. Anything that you want to do that he knows is a bad idea will be met with stony silences and side-glares. He’s told you his point of view and you did it anyway, so he expects you to accept full responsiility for whatever went wrong. You’ll get no sympathy or wise words from him, though he would tell you to learn fro your mistakes otherwise it was a wasted experience.  He sees it as you directly disrespecting him too, so it’s likeyl that you’d have an argument or you’d receive the cold shoulder from him until you’ve made up with him to his own standards. 

- Thorin is comforting, to a degree. Sometimes he has the words and actions you nee from him, and other times he’s just holding you and feeling helpless, berating himself for not knowing how to help you.  Sometimes he’s the one who needs comfort though; it’s not easy being King. Either way, it’s pretty balanced and you pull through together with whatever issues are currently at hand. 

- He’s definitely a dominant personality so I think the two of you would slot perfectly together. You look out for each other and support each other, which is what it’s all about. He can be a bit too gruff and so he sometimes hurts your feelings, but he makes it up to you in whichever way he can. 

This took me just over an hour so I hope you like it xD

[die-a-betic]

Thank @eyesforguyswithcurlyfries for tagging me.

1. Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it? Definitely

2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now? I guess?

3. When’s the last time you were aggravated and happy at the same time? When i got back from barcelona. 4. Would you ever smile at a stranger? allllll the time. 5. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are? Who doesn’t want to be in my place? ;) 6. Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today? Yeah, father and son from the GOTG soundtrack. 7. What exactly are you wearing right now? New top with shorts and socks. Its 3am why am i still wearing yesterdays clothes. 8. How often do you listen to music? on the way to and from work and sometimes at work, also when walking. 9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more? jeans 10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2013? 2018? I dont think dramatically. 11. Are you a social or an antisocial person? Very social.  12. Have you ever kissed someone whose name begins with the letter ‘A’? Yeah, I was their first kiss accidentally oops @lxvedlikethis   13. What about ‘R’? Yea boi 14. Can you drive a stick shift? getting there! 15. Do you care if people talk badly about you? Depends who they are. 16. Are you going out of town soon? Out of my town? Im going to Harrogate and York at the end of the month if that counts? 17. When was the last time you cried? Last week i think? 18. Have you ever told someone you loved them? Every day. 19. If you could change your eye color, would you? Nah 20. Is there a boy who you would do absolutely everything for? I dont think so? 21. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having. Felt pretty ill today 22. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead? Not really. 23. Are you dating the last person you talked to? Nope just my shitty pal Callum 24. What are you sitting on right now? Desk chair. 25. Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you? Mairona. 26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have? Yea boiiii 27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night? Mairona or my Mum? 28. Do you get a lot of colds? Not really? 29. Where is the shirt you are wearing from? Mango Barcelona :) 30. Does anyone hate you? Nah 31. Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden somewhere in your room? Probably? 32. Do you like watching scary movies? Yesss 33. Do you want your tongue pierced? Definitely not. 34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be? 2014 35. Did you have a dream last night? Yep  36. When was the last time you told someone you loved them? Few hours ago. 37. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years? Possibly 38. Do you think someone has feelings for you? Yea boiii 39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? Everybody is asleep.

40. Did you have a good day yesterday? Wasnt too bad, really good weather and back to work and time there went quickly 41. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship? Yea boiii 42. In the next 48 hours, will you hang out with a girl? Yes 43. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you? Yeaaaa 44. What’s the best part about school? The people. 45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook? Yeah 46. Do you ever pass notes to your friends in school? I pass sticky notes to my workmates. 47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head? Try not to but sometimes things stick. 48. Were you single over the last summer? Nah :))))))))) 49. Is your life anything like it was two years ago? Absolutely not. My friends, situation and relationships with family have completely changed, my outlook on life has changed and my ambitions and plans have completely changed. All for the better, thanks to M. 50. What are you supposed to be doing right now? Sleeping. (This line sums up my life) 51. Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with? Definitely. 52. Are you nice to everyone? Most people. 53. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to? Yes lol 54. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat? Definitely. 55. Are you good at hiding your feelings? Not on purpose. 56. Do you think you like someone? Indeed. 57. Have you kissed someone whose name starts with a ‘J’? Yeahhhh 58. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys? Basically equal at this point. 59. Has anyone of your friends ever seen you cry? A few 60. Do you hate anyone? One person but im trying desperately not to because i shouldnt. and maybe hitler? 61. How’s your heart? Fantastic and owned. 62. Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about? 3 things. 63. Have you ever cried over a guy? Sort of? 64. Who is probably talking a load of crap about you right now? Finlay Lowes or Callum, in his sleep. 65. Are your toenails painted pink? Noooooo dont like nail paint, anything but nail paint, nail me to a wall before you paint my nails. Im fine with makeup or anything, just not nailpaint. 66. Will your next kiss be a mistake? Nope. 67. Girls love it when boyfriends cry; correct? Is this aimed at girls? My girlfriend likes the intimacy and openness. 68. Have your pants ever fallen down in public? Yes! My button ripped off my jeans once at an acting class and my jeans kept falling down and i full on had to hold them up. 69. Who was the last person you were on the phone with? Mother. 70. How do you look right now? not ma best - Tired and snotty. 71. Do you have someone you can be your complete self around? Yeah, M. 72. Can you commit to one person? Completely. 73. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to? Yes, unless i forget. 74. Have you ever felt replaced? Yeah. Dont leave school unless you’re prepared for this 75. Did you wake up cranky? Not cranky but ill so sort of? 76. Are you a jealous person? Can be. 77. Are relationships ever worth it? The most rewarding thing I have ever had. 78. Anyone you’re giving up on? Not giving up. 79. Currently wanting to see anyone? YES 80. Name something you have to do tomorrow? Probs should do some work. 81. Last person you cried in front of? M 82. Is there someone you will never forget? Dr Bruce, Mairona, Callum, I hope all of my friends but thats not likely. 83. Do you think the person you have feelings for is protective of you? Yeahhh 84. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now? Probably dancing or watching her dance or watching shitty tv or having sex or sleeping. 85. Are you over your past? Yes 86. Have you ever liked one of your best friends of the opposite sex? Yes 87. Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to? yes unless i forget. 88. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept? No need to apologise. 89. So, the last person you kissed just happens to arrive at your door at 3AM; do you let them in? Yes 90. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated? Nah 91. Will you be in a relationship in 2 months? Im sure. 92. Is there anyone you know with the name Michael? Haha yeah  93. Have you ever kissed a Matthew? Mightve? 94. Were you in a relationship in January? How was it going? Yeah, was a rough patch I think 95. Were you happy with the person you liked in March? Yes and I still am 96. Don’t tell me lies, is the last person you texted attractive? The most gorgeous and perfect girl in the world. 97. Who do you have texts from? many people ? Mairona, Mum, Dad and the group chats. 98. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say? :( 99. Have you ever kissed someone older than you? Yep 100. Who’s in your profile picture with you? Nobodyyyy 101. Ever kissed under fireworks? I think so actually @eyesforguyswithcurlyfries when we had them in your garden? 102. Has anybody ever given you butterflies? Yep

[bloody-scans]

I guess it’s my turn to make my input.

It’s Caramel (mostly known as Hydra) over here.

First of all, I apologise the lateness in this post in comparison to my teammates. As you can see by Mika’s post, I was the one who warned the whole team about what happened, however I didn’t have time to write this before because I’ve been taking care of the forum and I was only done by the time I had to leave home to have a driving class.

And yes, I am learning how to drive right now and that means I am bad at driving and yet I’ve been driving in some street somewhere with all these feelings (which i will try describing later on the post) build up all over my chest (can you imagine the disaster that could lead to if something went wrong? Bit thankfully that wasn’t the case)

I also apologise on the size this post is certainly going to have once it’s finished. I have many things crossing my mind to say and my brain is estimating this post to be roughly pretty long even though I am only starting it right now. (And I may forget to say something meanwhile as usual!)

Anyway, I am also going to make TWO posts in a row now so please pay attention to this blog’s posts.

Now, if you have no idea what’s going on yet (some people may have come online now because timezones), PLEASE READ THIS POST.

One thing I’m sure you’ll find astonishing my my post is that you probably imagine me pissed off as hell saying all possible swear words in 20 languages to insult one single person - the person who is the responsible for all of this. Well, big surprise to you all and even to me: Today I’m in a good, kinda-melancholic mood so I’m laughing at everything: our own misery, your own misery (by “you”, I mean “people who have patience enough to read all this bunch of words I’m writing right here”) and, mostly, at the all the effort this person, firefly-lynn, had in the past few days (?) / weeks (?) / months (?), to just make everything end like this - it’s one of those stories that could sound heroic, the save the nation of people who don’t want to buy manga just because of the effort when they could read it for free (lols, it’s so funny to repost stuff people tell no to, right?) but I’m, mostly, laughing at how stupid this person has shown to be.

Whoever they were, I must confess they sure have some brains, they figured out the only thing that could get around a flipbook: taking screencaps and mounting it all. As a person who takes screencaps for the own digital manga I buy, the one who uploaded all the three versions (flipbook, not flipbook and the version to retranslators) we made of each chapter almost every chapter, it’s easy to tell what got reposted was the version on the flipbook.

To do it with screencaps, it means this person had to take around 3 or 4 screencaps for each page, to crop them, put them all together and to crop selectivately, mostly on colour pages, to make it seem like they weren’t taken from there.

All of this is a big pain in the ass, we are surprised somebody decided to do it on 18 chapters and 2 specials. Putting aside that what they did was a huge lack of respect but a big bunch of people and entities, this is something that needs a lot of effort and patience to be done.

But all this effort and patience make it even more stupid. The big question is: “Why now?”

I assume they decided to do it now exactly because we were close to the end of the manga and it has already been one year since we started releasing in private, so they thought we wouldn’t find it out. But, truth is, I did find it right when I woke up, a few minutes after mangafox made the chapters public. And do you know why?

Because I do keep track of when the scanlations I work in are reposted because I’ve got the app mangazone:

So yeah, if that was their worry, that was pretty much pointless and they could’ve just done the whole thing right when we started posting privately, it’d end up on the same - us cancelling the scanlation.

So yeah, to that user over there: thank you very much, you just fucked up.

As Mika said, feel free to send them your appreciation as well.

Oh, as I was writing this part, I noticed something new. These chapters were uploaded on mangafox by two users actually: firefly-lynn and shirley07.

Shirley07 is the person who also reposted our releases on that beautiful christmas day of 2015 in which I went to sleep because it was late, released just over here and then on the next morning everybody was messaging me our releases had been reposted in no time.

I remind you all that this person got a message from Serya confronting them last year AND SHIRLEY07 APOLOGISED. And now they did this. And we know they read this blog.

HELLO SHIRLEY07, WE MEET AGAIN AND YOU FUCKED UP AGAIN. How glad are you for making our team almost cancel releases once and make us actually cancel releases on the second time? You must feel so great right now.

The most interesting thing about this person is: THEY ARE AN ADMIN FROM MANGAFOX. They are one of those people who get money from reposting other people’s works.

Serya talked about this on her post so I won’t get into details but please, if you never did it before, please start considering into visiting just the scanlators’ website. If you visit online manga reading websites, you are giving off money to the people who are ruining everything for you: both official releases and scanlations.

If you just want to know if a certain manga has a scanlation, GO TO BAKAUPDATES. I repeat, GO TO BAKAUPDATES. And then copy that scanlation team’s name on google.

Only the scanlations that have links to websites like adfly or donate buttons may make money from the work they are doing. The other scanlations are doing everything FOR FREE. But even about those that get some money from it, they are basically working, so it’s more acceptable to give money to them than giving it to these people who just repost chapters.

How can we all fight this menace to the manga world? Not visiting it. It’s simple. Please, do your part.

I can tell you there isn’t a word in all 6 languages I can speak that describes what I feel right now. Any “fuck you” to those people isn’t enough, it isn’t even 1% of what I want to say. What am I feeling right now? Is it “Anger”? Or “Sadness”? Maybe it’s “Disappointment”? It’s a mix of all of them and some other more. It’s just a big mix, it’s so huge that I feel pretty apathetic with all of it.

I deep down knew this would happen. My mind always told me “this shirley07 person isn’t trustworthy” and here we are again, one year later lamenting over the same shit.

I had a pretty terrible day today.

But at least these people’s stupidity provided me some good fun. I had fun laughing at them because they really seem to think we wouldn’t stop the scanlation.

Seriously, this word is very far from enough but it’s the most understandable way of saying it, so here goes, directed toward mangafox users firefly-lynn and shirtley07, my most sincere:

FUCK YOU.

You’re welcome.

Now I’m gonna play Elsword, like I’ve done in the past two months. If anybody who plays that game wanna kill monsters with me to drop some steem after everything that happened, please feel free to do so. I’m on the NA server. And so is Mika. Join us, we are big losers.

Now that I’m talking about Elsword, me, a big Elsword (the character) trash, found once a fanart of Rune Slayer (which is one of Elsword’s different paths) wearing Bloody’s hoodie (yes, from Bloody Mary!) and I’ve never felt so blessed in my life. Please take a look if you love both too.

Also please, look forward to the post I’m going to make after this one.

Thank you very much for all your support, we are so sorry for everything. The support you’ve given us will never be forgotten.

Our even biggest apologies to the people who can’t read the official manga. Mostly because I am aware some bookshops in the UK got the information that Bloody Mary’s official release got discontinued after volume 4, and, therefore, they may never have the rest of the manga for sale and who knows what may happen in the rest of the world. (I solved the problem of the person who reported this to me because they can read japanese, so I sent them my own raws, but who knows who else may be under the same situation?)

PS: If you don’t have a mangazone account to see them, here’s a tweet one of our readers made with the comments I wrote on Bloody Mary’s area of the app this morning

PS 2: I’m sure I forgot to say something...

-- Caramel

[sapphire-rosa]

All the even numbers :3

Whooooaaaa that’s a lot haha. Ok buckle up! *cracks knuckles*

2) Are relationships ever worth it? 

Of course they are. The trick is finding out which ones are worth it, and then refusing to stop working at them. 

4) Are you in a relationship?

I most certainly am :)

6) Are you single this year?

Nope.

8) Describe your crush.

My other half (who is, and always will be, my crush) is thoughtful, kind, generous with all he has, a passionate and beautiful person with a perfectly horrible sense of humour and a really bad memory. 

10) Do you believe in love at first sight?

I’m never sure how to answer this. I definitely believe you can recognise a soulmate at first sight/interaction. Love? I don’t know. Maybe. 

12) Do you forgive betrayal?

Eventually, if there is good enough reason to do so. It depends entirely on the circumstances. I can forgive, but I struggle to forget. 

14) Do you have a crush on anyone?

Think I answered this already, but, yep.Fortunately, he has a crush on me as well, so that’s quite convenient.

16) Do you have any tattoos?

Not yet ... 

18)  - There isn’t an 18 or a 19 for some reason! 

20) Do you shower every day?

No. every other day, usually, but I will admit to deferring it sometimes through exhaustion or sheer laziness. 

22) Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?

I hope so ;) 

24) Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?

Impossible to say. 

26) Has anyone told you they don’t ever want to lose you?

Yes. 

28) Have you ever been cheated on?

Not as far as I know. 

30) Have you ever considered plastic surgery? If so, what would you change about your body? 

No way in hell. I’d only undergo surgery if it was necessary to my continued health and life. That’s not to say there aren’t things I would like to change, but surgery, no. 

32) Have you ever experienced unrequited love?

Hoooooo boy. Have I.... Yes. Badly. And also once when I thought it was unrequited for a while, only it turned out not to be :D

34) Have you ever had sex with a woman?

No. 

36) Have you ever liked one of your best friends?

Sort of. 

38) Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?

Haha. Yes.

40) Have you ever written a song or poem for someone?

I’m a writer, ok? And a gothic romantic sap. Yes, I have. 

42) How long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander?

Gee, let me check my watch. I don’t know. It depends. Sometimes it’s nice to just sit and kiss for a while ... sometimes you’re, you know ... impatient. 

44) How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had?

Serious ones ... three. 

46) How many times did you have sex last year? 

LOL. I don’t know. Wasn’t exactly counting. 

48) If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say? 

I’m guessing this is a hypothetical crush and not my actual significant other. 

Probably I’d smile brokenly and mumble something about ‘I hope it goes well for you ... you guys would be good together ...’ and escape asap to cry into my tea. (Not speaking from experience here at all, nope, no way, never done that in my life, ever)

50) If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept? 

Difficult to define ‘first true love’. Do we mean the first person I truly fell in love with? Because that was a hideously unrequited passion and I don’t think it would have worked out anyway, so no. 

If we mean my true love who loves me back then hell yes, though I can’t imagine what he’d need to apologise for! 

52) Is there anyone you’ve given up on? Why? 

Yes, my last relationship. I was doing all the emotional work, and he constantly belittled my feelings and deliberately tried to wind me up into helpless anger. I tried really hard for a long time because I don’t believe you should be too quick to give up ... but in the end I couldn’t handle it anymore and called it quits. 

54) Is there someone you will never forget? 

I rarely forget anyone. 

56) State 8 facts about your body. 

I have very long hair. 

I have small hands. 

I am not particularly tall. 

My eyes change colour frequently to the point where I don’t even know what colour they are anymore.

I have naturally very pale skin. 

I’m curvy

Some of the curves are in the wrong places

I get very cold and very hot very quickly

58) What are five ways to win your heart?

Be genuine. Be kind. Be intelligent. Listen to me. Buy me books (or food. Or both. Both is good). 

60) What is the biggest age difference between you and any of your partners?

18 years. 

62) What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you? 

Oh boy. Kissing my neck. Such  a big turn-on. 

64) What is your definition of cheating?

Giving to someone else the emotional and sexual attention that should have been reserved for your significant other. 

66) What is your favourite roleplay? 

Ehhhmmm .... I do have a thing about vampires and werewolves ... so yeah ... 

68) What is your sexual orientation?

I think I’m straight. Mostly, at least. 

70) What turns you on?

Consideration, passion, neck kisses, and knowing that my partner is enjoying himself. 

72) What words do you like to hear during sex? 

Profane ones *giggle* 

74) What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for? 

I tend to like it when my partner is taller than me, but then that’s not very difficult. Good bone structure is a Thing. 

76) What’s the sweetest thing you’ve ever done for someone?

I haven’t a clue. 

78) What’s your dirtiest secret? 

Probably my floor, which needs sweeping really badly. 

80) When was the last time you told someone that you loved them?

  ...... About an hour ago. 

82) Who is the last person you hugged? 

A friend I hadn’t seen in ages.

84) Why did your last relationship fail?

I already explained most of it earlier, but neglected to mention the area in which I was to blame. While my relationship was going through its death throes (but before I had officially broken up with him) I fell in love with my current S.O. 

Yeah. I really don’t have an excuse beyond the fact that it was kind of over anyway. I may be a horrible person. I leave you to decide on that. 

Whew that was a marathon. Thank you @prideandperdition for asking!!

[but-the-library-of-alexandria]

1. What is Your Name? Elise

2. How old are you? 20

3. Tag 5 other people to take this and then let’s start? Going with my top 5 suggested tags: @imnotweird-imalimitededition​, @magicaltimelady44​, @potatotorch​, and @phantasmadiangelo​

4. Where are you right at this moment? sitting at my desk in my beautiful student house in my beautiful student room

5. Choose 5 adjectives to describe yourself? emotional, introspective, nervous, creative, stubborn

6. Do you smoke? no

7. Do you drink? no

8. Do you swear? yep

9. Do you have low self-esteem? not about my appearance/personality/abilities but about my decisions/choices yes

10. Do you get online a lot? hahahahahahHAHAHAHAHA yes.

11. Do you like taking pictures? I don’t take a lot really

12. Do you like to have your picture taken? yessss but it never happens, I love to have photo records of me and my life and my friends

13. Would you ever date someone 5-10 yrs younger than you? well someone 5-10 years younger than me rn would be a minor so no, but I do tend to go for guys who are younger than me by maybe 2 years ish, so in the future, I probably would.

14. Would you ever date someone 5-10 yrs older than you? probably never, I’m not into ‘the older man’ and I don’t like the idea of the power imbalance being out of my favour

15. Do you think you’re weird or normal? I’m weird but then, everyone is weird in some way - I’m just my own kind of weird, probably above average weird but not crazy super weird

16. What do you like least about your body? that it always gets colds or allergies, and unwanted hair I have to keep getting rid of (especially my monobrow lol, I respect Her but she doesn’t fit my aesthetic so she has to go)

17. What do you like most about your body? atm I’m really into my hips, I like the curve and that I can kinda feel the bone (but not in an underweight/unhealthy way dw) and they have awesome lighting-stripe stretch marks! honourable mention to the boobs though, all boobs are good boobs and who doesn’t like a bit of squish

18. Has there ever been a rumor spread about you? I’m not sure tbh - I think there was briefly a rumour that I liked a certain boy at high school but I actually did like him lol so it was true

19. Do you prefer to hang out with one friend or a group of friends? a group, I find one-on-one to be a bit intense unless we’re super close and I love having the Whole Squad together 

20. Who knows the most about you? my mum probably

21. Who do you trust the most with your secrets? atm I’m not really sharing my secrets with anyone so...? no one? is that sad? It’s not that I don’t trust people to keep them secret it’s just that I don’t want to talk about them

22. Name one person whose arms you feel safe in? I’m not a huge friend hugger but my mum and dad 

Have you ever? 23. Been in love? I don’t think so, not totally sure but I’m going with no

24. Had your heart broken? nope, I was the heartbreaker lol

25. Spun until you were so dizzy you couldn’t walk? many times when I was a kid I LOVED spinning

26. Screamed so much you lost your voice? probably, my throat is so delicate one scream would do it

27. Done something extremely unexpected? yeah all the time tbh

28. Been caught doing you weren’t supposed to be doing? only stuff like talking or texting in class, never a big deal

29. Been called a tease? not to my face. behind my back? probably. I have been known to be one.

What what what?

30. What is your biggest fear? I have crippling emetophobia it’s ruined my life tbh I really need some kinda therapy

31. What was your scariest dream? I often have dreams based on the above which are the wORST, but when I was little I had a recurring dream I can’t explain but it contained lots of fast flashing images and sudden loud noises and confusion

32. What was your best dream? I have a lot of great dreams, my brain always seems to dream in full, complex plots and most of them would make great novels. recently though, I dreamed someone I’d pushed away in the past met me again and I got to apologise and we were together again, that was bittersweet

33. What is your greatest strength? probably words or smarts 

34. Do you have any bad habits? all my habits are bad

35. Do you think life has been good to you so far? has life been good to me? yes. have I been good to life? no. 

36. Do you have any piercings? no

37. What does your underwear look like? grey floral silk with lace trim, cheap from primark lol

Which do you prefer?

38. Jeans or dress? dresses!

39. Pizza or pasta? I don’t like either whoops

40. Rich or happy? happy obviously??? who would choose to be rich and miserable what’s the point of being rich if it doesn’t make you happy too

41. Shower or bath? shower

42. Family or friends? why not both?

43. Kiss or hug? hug 

44. Bright or dark room? bright af, I need daylight and so do my plant friends

45. Chocolate or vanilla? chocolate af

46. Laugh out loud or chuckle quietly? laugh out loud

47. Foreign movies….dubbed or subtitled? depends on the dub quality; usually subbed

Lastly?

48. Last furry thing you touched? my white faux fur rug (with my feet)

49. Song you listened to? All I Ask Of You from Phantom of the Opera

50. Last person you talked to on the phone today? not today, but my mum the other day when the bathwater came through the kitchen ceiling 

51. Watched on TV? on actual tv, Time Team I think (love me some archaeology), but online, Nat and Elise from Carmilla making each other wedding dresses from toilet paper (as you do)

52. Compliment you received? My friend said she liked my hat today? We went to see fantastic beasts so I wore my 20s hat

More random thoughts… 53. What are your first thoughts waking up? usually what the weather is like, I’m so british

54. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? I loved the crayons Cerulean and Spring Green as a kid.

55. What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? Probably hair

56. Are you too shy to ask someone out? too unwilling morelike

57. Most memorable experience with a friend? I’ve had a lot of big experiences but all the ones that I remember clearest are little ones like on the bus and stuff. Maybe our trip to Teignmouth, or school residentials? 

58. Do you believe in soulmates? not sure - I don’t believe in the ‘one perfect person’ rule and I’m not sure how much I believe in true love lol, but I do believe in fate so...?

059. Do you think that it’s possible your heart doesn’t give you a choice with whom it falls in love? I know you can’t choose, but I think it gives you veto rights - you can choose who not to love or who to stop loving, but not who to love. 

60. What is something about you that people would be surprised to know? I have one glaring thing but I’m not really willing to share it yet. 

61. What is one thing you’ve learned about yourself in the last year or so? That I am way more houseproud than I thought

[lilacponds]

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5: 4 turn on’s.

Well okay that’s how it’s gonna start. Um, let’s see.

1, strength, show me someone strong and I swoon, although it depends on ppl because what I prefer is kind strong people because I don’t wanna be afraid for my life ya know?? But show me someone fuckin wrecking the shit out of someone shitty that deserves it and they got me.

2, uhh, turn ons hmm, possessiveness maybe. Like, I know it can be actually bad, but a healthy amount of possessiveness makes me melt. (If we want to go on a more nsfw-ish route, then that’d imply possessive kisses and leaving hickies and okay I’ll stop here)

3, dominance. I’m a really anxious and nervous wreck that doesn’t know what she’s doing, so someone taking the lead is much appreciated, and quite attractive if not shown in an unhealthy way, yknow?

4, full nsfw, light bondage. Does this count as turn on or fetish or what? I don’t even know but tie my hands up and I melt. This is getting more nsfw than I first intended. Ellie I apologise if you get uncomfortable reading this lmfao

10: How tall am I?

I actually don’t know, it’s been a while since I last checked! Last time I was around 163cm but I should really check again soon.

15: Favorite quote?

It’s hard to say that I have a favouite quote simply because I don’t have the memory to remember any, but I at least know that anytime a question about a quote comes up, I can always remember Daniel Howell’s (danisnotonfire’s) “You only live once, so make it a happy one”.

20: First thing I notice in new person?

This one’s a bit tricky to answer, because when I meet a new person I’m more concerned of what they’ll think of me than the other way around. I guess facial features are one thing I notice first, simply because I look at them, but also hair I guess?

25: Ever done a prank call?

You know, I genuinely can’t remember, but I have this strong feeling that it has happened once. I’m trying to recall but nothing concrete comes up, goddammit.

30: Favorite band?

Owl City, deadass. It counts, right?

35: Favorite holiday.

I like Christmas because I like the decorations, the lights, the tree, the food, and especially the gifts, tbh.

40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night” texts?

I’m in a server with Ayla, Dave, and Dirk, so yeah, we say good morning and good night to each other! Also, in the server with Elsa and Alex, we’re not constantly talking but there are good morning/good night texts.

Leo used to send me those texts too but I think he realised I’m never awake when he is and that I don’t check WhatsApp enough to reply to his good night ones in time lol, oops. (He’s not on Tumblr but I love you Leo, sorry I’m an ass)

45: Where am I right now?

In my room, like 95% of my time, lmfao.

50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?

Oh man, I should shoot a text to my best friend soon, I’m such an asshole. But yeah, that’d be Rani! Leo too, but Rani’s been my best friend ever since I was like 13 so he’s really dear to me.

55: What is something I disliked about today?

My day has barely started, soooo... the taste of my meds. Okay, they work well enough with my depression, but they have a horrible taste that makes me want to throw up each morning, man

60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?

Behind - I like taking photos. Like, a lot.

When my cousin Vanessa was over when we were younger and she had a friend over, sometimes they’d ask me to take pics. Plus, when I went over to her place, sometimes she’d show me a selfie she took/was trying to take and ask me for advice to make it look better. And I’m no professional or anything, I didn’t take any classes or courses and I haven’t done research so I’m not gonna pretend I know anything about it, I don’t know jack shit, but she trusted my taste and instinct which is better than nothing at all, and I just. enjoy it

65: Do I believe in luck?

Yes.

Bro. I’m basically Komaeda but a less extreme version, and kind of opposite.

I have absolutely shitty luck more often than not, but sometimes I have incredibly good luck with something and I’m like, this is to make up for all of that. Nice.

70: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had? 

Oh man, I don’t know. I know I went to the hospital once but I can’t remember why, but it was more sickness than injury I believe, so that’s out of the question. I never got a cast or anything either. Hmm. I’ve twisted my ankles more times than I can count? Oh, and I’m not sure if it counts, but there was a winter I was playing like soccer with my bro inside the house, in the hall, and it’s a tiny ass hall and I was in front of the house door okay, and there’s a radiator next to it okay, and the ball was really small, and instead of kicking it I slipped on it and hit my back half on the door half on the radiator corner and I just... stopped breathing. I believe I could breathe out but not breathe in. I was absolutely terrified. I remember thinking, “this is not how I wanna die”. My brother helped me up and we went to my mom scared shitless and she got scared too but thankfully after a few seconds I could breathe again and I was crying man, that was the scariest shit that’s happened to me.

75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM?

Browsing Tumblr tbh, and who is surprised, really

80: What is my favorite word?

Hmmm. Hard to say. I like the word “quintessence” though.

85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on?

“Do you like me?” Which sounds absolutely silly, I know, but afraid? I don’t really have many secrets or anything, but like... that’s a scary question. Because if you don’t know whether the person you like likes you back, that’s an impossible question. You might say yes and make things awkward and shit, or you might say no but you might ruin any chances you had. It’s an impossible question, man. This probably sounds silly, I know, I know. That’s just how it is.

90: Failed a class?

Ohhhh yup. Oh man, my first year of high school, I went to study, uhhh... behavioural sciences? It’s the first time I think I got the right word, holy shit. So it’s like, sociology, anthropology, psychology, etc. And guess which class I failed out of everything I had? Behavioural sciences.

Listen, they wanted me to remember names and dates and the goddamn life of all these psychologists I don’t give a fuck about and I cannot, okay, I can’t.

95: Left the house without my wallet?

Yeah, there’s a shop right under our house pretty much, and when I need to go grab cigarettes for my mom, if I don’t need a wallet then I just go without, since in 5 minutes I’m gone, bought, and back.

100: Did drugs?

Nah man, just meds for my mental illness. Although I was in the same room while someone smoked a joint, but haven’t tried it myself.

105: Been underweight?

When I was a baby, I think. Mom says I was underweight and the nurses were worried and had to put me in an incubator. She can’t remember how much I weighted though, she was asleep at the time, so I need to ask my dad later.

110: Gotten my heart broken?

I mean, yeah. Silly crushes when I was younger, and just, generally breaking up hurts, you know? But not really anything interesting, so no stories here.

115: Been in airplane?

I have like, this distinct memory of being in an airplane, but I don’t know if it was real or a dream, nor where we went or whatever. I think it was the time we went to a theme park but I really can’t recall so I can’t say for sure.

120: Wore make up?

Yeah bruh. I don’t really wear it often, but I do have makeup and stuff. Usually if I go out and meet up with people I wear at least pink lipliner, but not much else (especially with this warmth). But I do like putting mascara on too, and I bought a liquid eyeliner a while ago I need to practice with!

125: Rode in an ambulance?

I don’t actually know. I know I went to the hospital when I was younger but I don’t know if my dad drove us there or if I went in an ambulance. I really don’t know. And thankfully I never rode an ambulance to be with someone else, although my dad did need one once, but I couldn’t go with, and he ended up being alright anyway, thankfully.

130: Been fishing?

Oh God yeah, I remember I went with my uncle, my bro and my cousin once, but I was absolutely disgusted by the worms so I hung out with my aunt and... I don’t really remember much of what I did, really. I was a smol child, man. But I have never actually fished myself.

135: How many kids do I want and what will be their names?

Well, I don’t really know. Growing kids isn’t an easy thing, it’s something to be taken seriously and all, so it’s hard to say. I’d like to have more than one though, so they’d have a sibling to spend time with and not feel lonely. Close in age would be better as well, as too much difference can make them become distant, or even cruel to one another (although there’s no guarantee they wouldn’t be even at the same age).

As for their names, well, I want to adopt if I ever get kids, so their names wouldn’t really be up to me. But if whatever reason I had to choose, I’d like for my kids to have gender neutral names. Because if their gender doesn’t match the one they were assigned with at birth, they wouldn’t be as uncomfortable with their name, and people around them could call them a name that doesn’t necessarily go against the gender they actually are but without them having to out themselves. Although they’d still have all the rights to change name if they wanted to. But yeah.

(I particularly like Max, to be honest. Oh, and Alex!)

140: Where do I want to live when older?

Somewhere cold, dear God. Canada sounds nice, although Dylan offered Finland as well as an idea, so I’ll keep my options open. Although I’d have to learn another language to go to Finland probably - or at least it’d be recommended.

145: Am I afraid of heights?

Actually, yeah! But ferriswheels are an exception. I’m just so in love with them I can’t be afraid.

150: The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me.

Oh boy. Um. I’ve been told a lot of shit, man. My brain just deleted them from our history, to not make my depression and anxiety even worse, man.

Um, I’ve been staring at the screen for a couple of minutes now. Well... I guess one that’s never sat well with me, is something my mom said. Which happened a couple of times or so, really. I mentioned the fact that I wanted to kill myself - not actively, that I was really wishing to do that, in an attempt to make her understand what I was feeling - and she was angry and just shouted “Then do it! Goodbye!”

It happened more than once. And it... well, it hurts.

155: Close your eyes and think of five things that make you smile when you think about them. What are they?

My friends, videogames, Voltron, comments on my fanfics, dnd!

160: Is it possible to love someone if you don’t love yourself?

Absolutely yes. I’ve loved so much and so passionately even when I hated myself more than I’ve ever hated anyone else. Anyone that tells you otherwise is saying bullshit.

You can love others without loving yourself. In fact, it can help loving yourself more, I believe - slowly, but it can make a difference.

165: Do you believe in individuals over generalisations?

Absolutely. I don’t like generalising, at all. It’s unfair to people. Although I understand the people that are like “white people are like this” “men are like this”, those are absolutely understandable. But if I met someone, personally, I’d judge them as what they are themselves, and not the generalisation of whatever group they’re part of.

By that, I mean that’s my own personal thought. I don’t expect everyone to do the same, and everyone has their own reasons to do as they believe.

170: Do you have any special or magical memories you’ll always have with you?

Oh, yeah, absolutely.

I was just telling this yesterday to my friend. And I’m p sure I’ve talked about it before but whatever I like mentioning it.

When I was younger I went to the hospital, okay. I stayed various days, and there was this kids room and this nice lady gave me drawings to colour in my room, and told me “Colour them by yourself!”.

Point is, my grandma had come visit me. And I was esthatic. And when we went back to our room, shared a glance, and coloured it together. And it’s not much, but we kept that our little secret, and I had so much fun. It’s one of the best memories I’ll always keep with me. Always.

175: Is there a reason for existence?

Do you want me to have an existential crisis right here right now?

180: Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed?

Closed. We don’t have a big room and to keep them open would take pretty much half of the room, really.

185: What do you drink with dinner?

I can gobble down food without drinking, man. (Although there have been points where I almost choked that way, oops.) But if I drink, I usually drink water, or iced tea when we have it. If I’m eating outside though I got with a Coke, more often than not.

190: Can you cry on command?

Nah bruh, sometimes I can’t even cry when I feel like crying. My tears have their own will. (Aka they come out when I don’t want them to, goddammit.)

195: What is your usual bedtime?

Oh bruh, that fluctuates a lot. Sometimes I sleep at 3am, sometimes at midnight, sometimes 1 or 2am, but there have been times where I was particularly tired and went to sleep as early as 9 or 10pm. Usually it’s around 2am though.

200: Do you sing in the shower?

Bro, yes. I put on music and sing along to it. I love it man!

205: Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?

Mostly poet and writer!

210: Do you want to get married?

I... don’t particularly want to? It’s not like, on my wishlist. I mean, I get hype at them, because food and gifts and just an all around good time and especially pretty dresses, yknow? But as for the symbolism of the marriage, I don’t particularly care? I guess it has legal benefits, but aside from that, I don’t really understand much about how being in a relatinoship is different than being married. Like, I’m gonna take my relationship seriously even before getting married, so... I dunno. I guess if I felt like enough time had passed and I was ready for what would be a big step for a lot of people, I wouldn’t turn a proposal down, but if I never got married I wouldn’t particularly care?

215: Have you ever tried sushi? (Did you like it?)

I did and nope, unfortunately. I might attempt again in the future but also I might not.

220: Which friend would you go to in an emergency?

Irl, it depends? I have like, two friends, my man. Probably Leo - I love and trust him, and can rely on him, and also he lives close to me and has a driving license and a car. Also, if it’s like, health-wise emergency, he did a first aid course and stuff, so he’d also probably be useful. Also he’s just a relaxing presence, and a funny guy. I would, without any hint of doubt, trust Leo with my life.

Although he also works in another city so I wouldn’t be able to catch him during the day during the week, so rip me.

225: Ever had a detention?

Nay. Detentions aren’t really a thing here in Italy? Or they’ve never been in any schools I’ve been to, anyway. :3c

Thanks for sending me these, you giant nerd, and have fun reading through ♥

[thatwriterchickrachel]

Mysteries at Midnight - 22.

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Archive Warning: No Archive Warnings Apply

Fandom: Miraculous Ladybug

Relationships: Adrien Agreste/Marinette Dupain-Cheng; Alya Césaire/Nino Lahiffe; Chat Noir/Ladybug

Characters:

Chat Noir (Miraculous Ladybug)

Ladybug (Miraculous Ladybug)

Alya Césaire

Adrien Agreste

Marinette Dupain-Cheng

Nino Lahiffe

Plagg (Miraculous Ladybug)

Tikki (Miraculous Ladybug)

Madame Bustier (Miraculous Ladybug)

Chloé Bourgeouis (Miraculous Ladybug)

Nathaniel Kurtzberg (Miraculous Ladybug)

Lila Rossi (Miraculous Ladybug)

Additional Tags:

dance au

Ballroom dance

College

Grown up AU

Royalty AU

Language:English

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Chapter 1                        Chapter 2 Chapter 3                        Chapter 4 Chapter 5                        Chapter 6 Chapter 7                        Chapter 8 Chapter 9                        Chapter 10 Chapter 11                      Chapter 12 Chapter 13                      Chapter 14 Chapter 15                      Chapter 16 Chapter 17                      Chapter 18 Chapter 19                      Chapter 20 Chapter 21

Chapter 22 - Madame Dupain-Cheng

Summary: In which Marinette summons some courage and embarrasses herself and Adrien realises he isn't as good a dancer as he thought.

Marinette arched her back as she heard Tikki chittering away in her cage. She knew her hair was probably a mess, and she could feel dampness on her pillow from her unflattering snoring as she slept on her stomach. With a groan, she rolled over, looking at her alarm clock to see it was the middle of the day and she had three unread messages.

Marinette pulled herself into a sitting position, ignoring the way her bed groaned in protest, almost pleading for her to return to the warm comfort she had moments before. She opened her phone, the first message appearing in response to the one she had sent before passing out.

[ChatNoir:] Maybe next time m’lady would join me? I’m sure that would have been a sight everyone would have enjoyed.

Marinette rolled her eyes as she put her phone down and made her way to the bathroom. Of course he would have a keen flirty response ready. All the talk with Marinette the night before had been just that, talk. Both of them knew it was Ladybug he was interested in, not Marinette and Marinette knew it wasn’t Chat she was interested in either, but Adrien. Marinette sighed as she moved to the mirror, pulling out her toothbrush before meeting her reflection.

The girl looking back was the same as ever, her make-up smudged from where she hadn’t quite removed it all the night before and a pink stain around her lips from the way she had slept; however, there was a glint in her eyes she had seen before she had met Volpina. A glint she saw in Chat’s eyes when he was with Ladybug, the same glint she had after being with Adrien.

Marinette shook her head and splashed her face with cold water before going back into her bedroom and reading the other two messages. One was a voicemail from her mother, saying she would be sending her father with a new collection of food for Marinette over the next few days. The second one was from Alya, apologising for leaving the club so early and asking how the rest of the night with Chat had gone.

The girl typed a reply, saying it had been fun and that she and Chat had shared a taxi back to her place and Alya had responded in all caps about how great it must have been.

Marinette just rolled her eyes before changing into some comfy clothes for the day and heading out into her living room, letting Tikki out of her cage and playing some music before sitting in her chair and pulling out the Agreste Design folder Adrien had given her.

Tikki flapped over and sat on the back of the chair, looking over Marinette’s shoulder at the designs on the pages. The bird chittered beside her and Marinette nodded.

“I know. Adrien’s father is very talented, that’s why he’s a famous designer and I’m not.” The bird clicked her beak in response.

“Don’t give me that,” Marinette frowned. “I’m not that good. There are so many more designers out there who are much better than I am.”

Tikki squawked in her ear before flying off towards her cage, perching on the top and eyeing Marinette. The girl recovered from her flinch and rubbed her ear, glaring at her feathered friend.

“No need to be rude, Tikki,” Marinette scolded before shaking her head with a sigh and looking back at the designs. She had to finish this assignment if she ever wanted to be as good as the senior Agreste.

Marinette flicked through the pages for a little bit, scribbling notes on her pad about the designs; but as she flicked back and forth, Marinette idly began to sketch, her own images similar to the existing designs, but altered, creating images of beautiful dance costumes.

It wasn’t until Marinette’s phone went off that she came out of her trance-like state. Her note pad, which was supposed to be full of notes, was filled with pencil sketches of the altered collection. The girl sighed, letting the notepad fall to the floor as she got up to check her phone.

Her face lit up.

Adrien-: SOS! I’m bored out of my mind.

Adrien was bored and he was messaging her to talk to. Marinette tried not to squeal, instead a giant smile breaking out on her face. He wanted to talk to her! He didn’t think she was boring, otherwise he wouldn’t have messaged her to get his mind of the real boring thing, whatever it was. Marinette felt almost giddy as she typed her response – which she then proceeded to backspace and retype four times before she pressed send.

Lol, why? What could possibly be so bad on a lazy Sunday afternoon?

That was cool, she thought as she read over it, seemingly indifferent and not at all excited about the contact. Just friendly conversation, she nodded to herself as she forced herself to put her phone back down. She stared at the room, noticing the dust floating in the rays of afternoon sunlight. Her phone vibrated again.

Adrien-: Lessons, homework, everything that does not belong on a Sunday. Would much rather be hanging out with you.

Was the room suddenly warmer? Marinette wondered, feeling her cheeks flush. She put the phone down as she moved to the kitchen to get a drink, Adrien’s text swimming in her head. He’d rather hang out with her?

The phone buzzed again and Marinette snatched it off the bench.

Adrien-: You know, playing video games, like we have been meaning to do.

Of course, Marinette felt her heart drop. Of course, he just missed her friendly company. It was Ladybug he liked, she thought, leaning against the bench.

She was Ladybug though, Marinette reasoned with herself as she wandered out of the kitchen and into her room. She was Ladybug and Ladybug was Marinette, they were the same person as both her mother and Chat had explicitly told her. The mask did not define who she was.

Marinette was changed into a plaid skirt and black shirt before she realised just what she was doing. She slid on her shoes and tugged her hair into a messy bun before checking her reflection in the mirror and heading out of her room, her satchel over her shoulder. Tikki chirped at Marinette as she passed.

“You know, Tikki, maybe I am a little too hard on myself. I mean, as Ladybug, I am confident and funny, flirty and just... all-round awesome. It’s time I showed Adrien that side of Marinette,” she nodded to herself as she began stuffing her assignment into her bag. Tikki chirped again behind her.

“I know, I know, taking study stuff really isn’t awesome, but it’s an excuse. He said he was studying and wished he had company, I’m going to help both of those cases,” Marinette boasted her genius before putting her feathered friend back into her cage and picking up her phone and keys and leaving the house.

Okay, so maybe it shouldn’t have been so easy to get to Adrien’s place, especially since she had never actually formally been invited there before, or now, but Marinette reasoned, it was for a good cause. Adrien was a good cause, she confirmed to herself with a nod. She entered the foyer and stepped into the elevator, pressing the button for the top floor next to a label that said ‘A. AGRESTE’.

As her stomach lurched at the movement, Marinette finally realised what she was about to do. Nerves clawed at her throat.

Was she crazy!? Did she want Adrien to think she was crazy? Why did she do this? Who did she think she was? She was just Marinette, she wasn’t Ladybug, not really. She needed the mask, it was the anonymity that allowed her to flirt with Adrien and tolerate Chat Noir. Marinette reached into her satchel and felt her fingers run over the scrap of cloth she had thrown in. It was the red mask Madame Bustier had given her the day she had agreed to dance the private lesson. It was simple, but it was still part of Ladybug… Part of her.

Marinette scrunched her fist in her satchel and forced herself to march up to the door at the end of the hall. She raised her free hand to knock, and closed her eyes as she pulled back her fist.

The door opened before movement, and Marinette felt herself freeze.

“Mari?”

She opened one eye and saw Adrien, his golden hair lit up from behind, causing a golden halo to surround his green eyes and practically blind Marinette.

“A-Adrien,” she stammered. His heavenly powers causing her to lose all track of thought or plan.

“Wh-what are you doing here?” Adrien asked, his voice quieter as he stepped forward pulling the door behind him. The light now minimised from behind him, Marinette managed to collect herself as much as she could.

“Well, you said you were bored, and um, studying and well, I thought I’d be your knight clad in plaid,” Marinette said with a gesture to her skirt before letting out a small whine. Had she really just said that? “I mean, well, I thought we could study together,” Marinette quickly added, glad for the slight darkness in the hall as her cheeks flared tomato red.

“Oh,” Adrien’s face lit up for a moment before it fell. “I, um, well…”

“Adrien? Who’s out there?”

~~~~~~

Adrien felt the door tugged from his grasp behind him to reveal the thin bony man who had been tutoring Adrien for most of the day so far.

“Adrien, who is this?” the man scowled.

“Astor, this is my friend Marinette. Marinette, this is Astor, he is a Chamberlain of the Toussaint family.” Adrien introduced, his head down. How was he going to explain Marinette’s unannounced, and yet appreciated visit?

“It’s an honour to meet you, sir,” Marinette said, her cheeks still pink as she gave a little courtesy. Adrien couldn’t help but give a small smile, even though she was awkward she was definitely charming.

“What are you doing here? No-one is to disturb Master Adrien during his studies,” Astor scowled.

“I, um, well,” Marinette began and Adrien took a deep breath.

“Thank you, Marinette, but Astor-”

“I am here to assist Adrien in his studies,” Marinette blurted quickly and Adrien felt his jaw drop. Astor also looked mildly surprised, it was the most emotion Adrien had seen from the man in the last five hours.

“I am the number one ballroom dancer at the University and I was informed that Adrien would need some assistance. I was sent to help him build his skills in preparation for his princely role.” Marinette was different somehow, Adrien blinked. Her back was straight and she had a look in her eye that almost dared Astor to doubt her.

“I was not informed-”

“I know, and I am terribly sorry for the mistake. I was only informed Friday, you see.”

“And who alerted you?”

“Madame Bustier at the University. She has connections to Mister Agreste, if you wish to check. I personally wouldn’t question his choices, but the choice is yours.”

Adrien couldn’t believe it; Marinette was no doubt lying through her teeth… unless she knew Adrien was Chat Noir. The thought made him balk. Of course, she didn’t. She still acted different around Chat Noir than she did Adrien and whilst she began to seem more comfortable with him, Adrien was sure it wouldn’t be so easy for Marinette to just switch her behaviour.

“Adrien, aren’t you going to invite me in?” she asked, her blue eyes meeting his.

“Y-yes, forgive me, please, come in,” Adrien said, scurrying to hold the door open for her as he had just spent the last hour being taught.

“Thank you,” he whispered to her as he directed to her to the dining room where she could put her bag.

“We still have to pull this off,” she whispered back before taking a deep breath. “Then you can thank me.” She pulled out a music player from her purse and handed it to him, directing him to put it on and select a specific song. Adrien did as he was told, waiting for Marinette to explain what they were going to do.

“Now, Adrien, Madame Bustier informed me that you only learned the dance specific to the masquerade ball. As part of your role in Asluicia, however, you will need to have a vast knowledge of different ballroom techniques and skills.” Marinette began, sounding very professional. Adrien nodded, wondering what Marinette was planning. Of course, Marinette didn’t know he was Chat Noir, so maybe his skills would impress her.

“So we shall be revisiting the Viennese waltz until you have expanded your skills, and then we will move on next week with tutoring you in the Paso Doble as you are learning in class,” Marinette explained, giving a small nod to him which he returned with a smile. She looked away and straightened her back. “Astor, if you would please.” Marinette gestured to the stereo and the man frowned but pressed play. The piano began around them and Marinette raised an eyebrow at him. Adrien realised too late, that he was supposed to bow. Marinette shook her head and gestured for Astor to halt the music.

“Non, Non, Non, Adrien! You are to bow to your partner within the first few beats. You don’t want to disrespect her,” Marinette told him. The light scolding felt familiar to him, it was the same way she had scolded Chat Noir when he had gotten his bell pin stuck to his finger. Adrien tried not to wrinkle his nose at the memory, instead focusing on keeping a straight face as he apologised for his mistake.

“Let’s try this again, ch-er, Adrien,” Marinette stumbled and Adrien blinked at her. What had she been about to say? “If you please, Astor.”

The music began against and Marinette talked him through it.

“You must bow to your partner and allow them enough time to curtsey or bow in response before the waltz begins.” He bowed deeply, resisting the urge to flair it as he did as Chat Noir, before rising, meeting Marinette’s eyes before she curtseyed in response.

“Good, now we step together and begin the waltz. We shall start with a simple box step.”

And so it began. Adrien followed Marinette’s instructions to the letter, but she constantly seemed to find things to fix him on. His posture, whether he was looking at his feet or over her head, rather than meeting her eyes, if he was leading her wrong, or not taking enough time to appreciate the steps. An hour later, Astor called them apart, informing them it was time for him to leave.

Adrien stepped away from Marinette and offered to walk Astor out, but he insisted he talk to the dark haired girl before departing, so Adrien went into the kitchen to prepare drinks.

He had never been a bad dancer and Marinette knew it had been a while since he had actually been involved in ballroom, but something about the way Marinette moved with him and almost seemed to predict his mistakes... it gave him a stroke of familiarity he hadn’t felt with her before.

He set the drinks on coasters – heaven knew his father would barter him for it if he didn’t – and made his way to the door, just in time to see Marinette waving Astor down the hall and shutting the door, leaning against it with a sigh.

“Thank you, Marinette,” Adrien said after a moment, leaning against the wall. The girl looked up confused. “You really made my afternoon more enjoyable,” he told her with a smile.

“O-oh, Adrien, I was just about to apologise. I hope you don’t get in trouble with your father for this. I just thought you could use some company, I didn’t mean-”

Adrien laughed. “No really, even if my father does say something, it was worth it. Plus, you were very professional,” he added and Marinette’s face flushed red.

“I’m sorry, Adrien, I really shouldn’t have just shown up like that, I should… I should go,” she said making her way to the dining room to collect her stuff.

“Marinette, please,” Adrien said, grabbing her wrist. “I would like you to stay.”

She took a moment, still facing away from him and Adrien braced himself for her rejection. When her wrist went slack in his hand, he looked back up at her and saw her smiling at him.

“Okay, but not too late. We have early classes tomorrow.”

Adrien knew his grin was probably as wide as Chat Noir’s, but he couldn’t help it. Marinette wanted to hang out with him. Maybe he had been overthinking her behaviour around him, he thought before he realised he was still holding her wrist. He let go with an awkward laugh and rubbed the back of his neck as he so often did when he was uncomfortable.

“Oh, who is this?” Marinette cooed, and Adrien looked behind him to see that Plagg had emerged from the room area upstairs he had been hiding in since Astor arrived. The girl bent down and held out her hand out to the black creature. Adrien knew Plagg didn’t like people, so it was a shock that he had come out of his hidey hole and nothing could have prepared him for when Plagg meowed and slunk towards Marinette, winding around her legs before letting her scratch behind his ears, a loud purr echoed in the room.

“You are very lucky, Marinette,” Adrien managed to say once he had recovered. Marinette had now picked up the cat, snuggling him like a child and scratching the feline’s stomach.

“What do you mean?” she asked, looking up and meeting his eyes, her cheeks still pink.

“Plagg doesn’t like people. I mean, he doesn’t normally… so friendly,” Adrien stammered. Marinette looked back to the cat in her arms and continued scratching its stomach.

“I guess I am lucky,” Marinette murmured.

“Although, I shouldn’t be surprised,” Adrien continued, oblivious to what she had just said. “I mean; you do have that effect on people. You make friends wherever you go,” he added, thinking back to the club the night before.

“Well, something has to balance out my awkward clumsiness,” Marinette gave a shakily laugh before putting the cat down and brushing the fur from her top. She then turned and opened her bag, putting her sketch book and notes on the table as she searched for something. Adrien couldn’t help himself as familiar shapes caught his eye.

“Did you do these?” he asked as he slid it from the table into his hands, eyeing the shapes in coloured pencil.

“Oh my gosh, Adrien!” Marinette snatched the sketchbook from his hands and hit him on the head with it, before clutching it to her chest, horror on her face.

They stared at each other for a moment before Adrien burst out laughing.

[sabspoetic]

I just love him so fucking much😩😻

marvel parallels 16/?

sebastian stan in captain america: the first avenger (2011) and captain america: the winter soldier (2014)