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I gave in and bought teeny curlers for my hair
More for convenience sake than anything else, it takes too long any other way I'm willing to do
Plus I can put the cutlers in while my hair is somewhat wet unlike b4
#I WILL NOT USE A IRON TO CURL MY HAIR#i love my hair#i will not go back to my shite ways(not taking care of it)#i like curly hair#i like messing with my hair and the curls are fun to play with(yes i know this'll straighten them out but as long as it dont damage them id#i still need to get my favorite product tho(they might've changed the recipe for it but i gope its not too different)#(its an olive oil based lotion and I love it)#(its from 2008 tho 💀)#there's a lot of stuff that ive liked that no longer good so im hoping that the newer stuff isn't different#it'll suck if it does
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I need everyone upset about Liam's promotion to understand that it had nothing to do with him being better/worse than Yuki. Yuki outperformed him. Yuki deserved the chance. BUT Yuki is not a Redbull driver. He is a Honda driver. He has no loyalty to Redbull and that is why he did not get a chance next to Max. It's not that he didn't deserve it. It's pure business.
Redbull are ending their relationship with Honda. They are creating their own engines. It's likely seen as a big liability to Redbull to have Yuki actively involved in any tests or even near anything involving the 2026 engine.
This is not an attack on Yuki or his character or anything like that, so please do not take it that way. But, Yuki's loyalty to a different engine manufacturer is a major risk to any new manufacturer like the Ford/Redbull powertrain. You just never know. I'm not saying he doesn't deserve a good drive, but Yuki's loyalty will forever be to Honda (as it should) and that poses a lot of risks for Redbull.
Once again, I am not commenting on Yuki's character or making assumptions about him when I say this, but there are a lot of big concerns if he gets promoted. He could ditch them for Aston immediately because Honda asks, he could share information about the new engine to Honda, or he could give questionable feedback that negatively impacts the new powertrain. Maybe he wouldn't do these things. But if there's even the most miniscule potential that he could, it would make any team hesitant. F1 is rampant with cheating allegations and questionable tactics to win. The teams will want to protect themselves in any eventuality. And that is what's working against Yuki so greatly.
Yuki has proven to be a very competent driver over the past year, but let's not forget that he nearly lost his seat in 2023 and the rumored reason he stayed is due to Honda. He owes his career to Honda, not Redbull. And at the end of the day, that's his main flaw within this team. It's not his driving. It's not his temper. It's not anything else. It's purely who he is aligned to poltically in the racing world. Is that fair? No. Is that how racing works? Unfortunately, yes.
#i totally understand ths frustration with this#but everyone trying to make it about his race or his temper or whatever I just don't think is true#his temper was an issue last year but he's matured a lot (at least publically) compared to the beginning of the year#i commend his efforts there#i think it'll go a long way to securing him more drives in the future#any other team will not be as vulnerable as redbull when it comes to powertrain connections until Cadillac comes in#every other team is established so there won't be issues there#i genuinely think the honda connection is really the only true thing that goes against him here#even marko admitted to shareholders being involved in this situation with regard to Checo and filling the seat#Ford was probably greatly upset at the prospect of another engine manufacturer's driver giving feedback on their engine#this has turned into a bit of an unintelligible ramble#but my point is that yuki is a good driver who deserves a good drive#and he will get one#but he does not fit in the grand scheme of things for redbull#liam is more or less dispensable to redbull#he wasn't in the running for an F1 seat until he had to be a super sub and didn't suck#the hype got him into F1#and redbull are going to use thag while developing others like Hadjar and Lindblad#f1#formula 1#formula one#rbr#yuki tsunoda#red bull racing
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the beast in otgw couldn't get me I have too much whimsy if a bitch told me to despair I would simply say no
#idk man something something it never touches its victims it never actually DOES ANYTHING#like ough ooh it's big and scary WRONG IT'S JUST THERE#it'll turn you into a tree if you sit and despair that's IT#you can leave! if it sucks hit the bricks!
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Don't worry guys. Poseidon is just mad that he got his ass kicked in the last saga, that's all
#epic the musical#this is about the livestream getting cancelled rip#connection issues and also a literal storm in Ithaca rn apparently#(sidenote I LOVE that they went TO Ithaca for this album release)#Which sucks but at least the album still comes out on streaming later so we can still listen to it!#And then when he does get to do a stream with all the visuals it'll be so hype#still 2.5 hours until it releases here on spotify ;-;#lee speaks
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alright hold on hold on hold on we're doing 3am gender thinking again
so the initial idea of my views on gender that occurred to me at 5am last time in what was probably a manic episode is fuck gender I can't fit the boxes expected of me so I'll dismantle the whole system and do my own thing
so problem is I can't do that, I can't dismantle the whole system and go my own way because I am entirely dependent on the sex and gender systems we have in place and how other people view sex and gender
additionally the idea that gender itself is the outdated stereotypical system is flawed, gender is the way a person feels and we've made categories and boxes to describe incredibly complex feelings
the problem is the more specific a gender gets, the smaller that box gets, the more people are excluded from that box so the solution is another box that fits better or make their own like with neogenders
the solution is a line of gender boxes like hermit crabs...
the fun part about thinking of gender and stuff is that I personally believe that every single person on earth experiences gender and life differently from every other person, even if only slightly
so theoretically if every person on earth were to describe their gender outlook and gender experiences and form a gender identity from that, then there could theoretically be 8 billion god damn genders
the solution is more genders
the solution is running Doom (1993) on my fucking gender
#does any of this make sense? no#do i give a fuck?#also no#go fuck yourself#society in it's entirety is all smoke and mirrors and we're all puppets on strings with masks that we switch out depending on the audience#WE LIVE IN A FUCKING SOCIETY IS THE POINT OF THIS POST I GUESS#FUCK#I JOKERED MYSELF#MY GENDER IS JOKER I FUCKING GUESS#this sucks i just wanna take hrt#oh yeah i didn't talk abt this the actual point of this post was me having the thought that I should lie to my therapist#when i get one and say I'm just trans in order to get hrt and surgery and shit#cause it'll be easier than explaining that I think there's feasibly 8 billion genders#and I'm none of them but I have to be one because we need a way to describe that shit#schrodinger's gender lookin ass
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I'm going to draw Taffy ship art tomorrow solely out of spite.
And perhaps post it in the server.
If I'm feeling extra petty.
#you cannot demean the one being I actually feel comfortable like. being this way with. and just think I'm going to be okay with that.#like him being fictional doesn't take away how much I care about him. you even acknowledged that before. why does it change now?#I actually feel comfortable caring about him BECAUSE I know he can't and WOULDN'T do anything to hurt me#not just can't. I know he WOULDN'T. he wouldn't WANT to hurt me. fuck you for so clearly wanting to.#just because I don't care about you.#I'm going to care about that man so hard it'll make him real and then it'll fucking kill him#just to spite you#you know what?#Nicky isn't the only person I'll say I love anymore#I'll say I love Taffy too fuck you#I love Taffy more than I ever loved you and you can suck it#I'll probably change my mind on that by tomorrow but for now I fucking LOVE Taffy#and y'know what I'm going to draw the most sickeningly sweet ship art of us tomorrow even if it kills me
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#oc#haven#rex#monochrome#contents: a little raunchy for tumblr#doodle#really high effort one but it's about the shapes more than anything else lol#meme redraw#comic#i may color this. the original plan was to color it. however i spent all my energy for coloring on drawing an aftermath coda#im fond of this one. there's a lot happening in it#haven and rex are both dressed "up'' to annoy the other's plus-one minor enemy#<- specific au element#rex is wearing a weezer shirt because haven knows that'll piss off taran. haven is dressed up like rex's best attempt at a mid-00s surfer#because he knows felyx cant fucking stand haven and is also into buff masc dudes dressed in jeans with rhinestones and thinks it'll be funn#to put felyx in the Lustful Colander#(he is right)#haven's house is not actually a cool neat influencer home or whatever there's no like open floorplan white walls light bamboo floor bullshi#going on here. it's all like green and red granite tile and shit. the man has been around for a very long time he knows what kind of decor#he's fond of. those ARE fish tanks in the walls though. and a spiral staircase#the man has been around for a very long time. he does not give a shit if what he likes is 'tacky'#also when the one speechbubble he says gets weird it is because he is using a magic power and forcing rex to put his cigarette out. rex is#naturally kind of annoyed about this. it used to make haven wince when he put his cigs out on his hands so he keeps doing it every time thi#happens but he has not yet cottoned on to the fact that haven has fully stopped wincing and now just thinks it's a normal habit he has#and has no idea that it's specifically aimed in his direction#also haven has no issue with giving head but rex isn't aware of that. they don't communicate well#and what Rex is actually aware of mostly consists of 'asking him to bottom turned into a giant argument and then a physical actual fight#and he broke my jaw in like four places over it and it was awesome but i didnt get what i wanted' and kind of gave up on the subject#he couldve been getting his d!ck sucked this whole time and he didnt know it. so sad#lineart
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friday, august 11 day 5: Benji gets Ethan to watch something geeky/nerdy (@benthan-week-forever)
Ethan and Benji found themselves cuddled up on a soft sofa, enjoying a quiet evening together.
The room was dimly lit, and the only source of illumination came from the glow of the television screen.
They had decided to watch an episode of Star Trek, a show that Benji was particularly fond of.
As the opening credits rolled, Benji couldn't help but share his excitement with the older one. He began explaining the intricate details of the technology featured in the show, his voice filled with passion and enthusiasm. Ethan listened intently, his eyes fixed on his partner’s face. He had a soft look, a mixture of adoration and contentment, as he soaked in every word that the blonde spoke.
In that moment, Ethan realized just how deeply he was in love with Benji.
It wasn't just the physical attraction or the shared adventures they had experienced together. It was the simple joy of being in each other's presence, of feeling the warmth of their bodies pressed against one another on the sofa, and of witnessing the genuine excitement in Benji's eyes as he talked about something he loved.
As the episode progressed, Ethan couldn't help but steal glances at Benji.
He marveled at the way his eyes sparkled with enthusiasm, the way his hands gestured animatedly as he explained the intricacies of warp drives and transporters. It was in these moments that he realized just how much Benji meant to him.
They had been through so much together, facing danger and uncertainty at every turn. But in that quiet moment, cuddled up on the sofa, Ethan knew that he had found something truly special. Benji was not just his partner in missions; he was his lover, his confidant, and his best friend.
As the episode came to an end, Ethan leaned in and pressed a gentle kiss on Benji's forehead. "Thank you for sharing this with me," he whispered, his voice filled with love and gratitude. The younger one smiled, his eyes shining with affection. "Anytime, Ethan."
And so, they sat there, wrapped in each other's arms, basking in the warmth of their love and the glow of the television screen. In that small apartment, Ethan and Benji found solace and happiness in each other, cherishing the simple joys of cuddling on a sofa and watching Star Trek together.
#mission impossible#benthan#benthanweek2023#benji dunn#ethan hunt#my art#*shows up 20 minutes late with starbucks* 🙃#so yeah#i finally reached friday lmao#i promise i will finish this!!!#it'll just take some time#work is hellish atm and since i decided to re-make almost everything i already did#yeah..#does not work in my favour#lmao#but drawing them relaxes me#so it's all good 😌#also: this was supposed to me more nerdy / geeky et cetera et cetera#but it took a turn into coziness lmao#also i still suck at drawing backgrounds lol#bear with me#thank you 💖
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Me starting another bg3 run where I will make virtually all the same decisions in mostly the same order as if there isn't different branching paths
#the horrifying idea of things going differently if i choose something different#my ass sitting here wanting other content for it as if i'm not actively refusing to make the choices to get other content#i've still only romanced astarion bro#i had my og. the EXACT copy of my og but durge this time.#began a karlach run to romance wyll and am still in early act 1 so nothing will happen for a long ass time#and i left that because i missed my paladin. the party feels incomplete without them bro#started a rogue/fighter run of one of my ocs retrofitted into the game.#but also am incapable of staying true to the character cause i'll miss stuff if i do and i need to do EVERYTHING explore EVERYWHERE#nearly couldn't get over the hurdle of having no strength and no speak with animals (so karlach and wyll gotta speak to critters)#then just started a sorcerer to try to really push myself to branch out. but all it did was reaffirm that being a spell caster sucks#no jump cause no strength no health no armour no decent melee. like motherfucker pick a struggle#luckily that oc is into music so sorcerer-bard here we come#but every single one of these bitches is good aligned#(and anything i SHOULD do different i don't cause there's still different varoeties of good but alas)#still haven't romanced another party member (but that's not ENTIRELY my fault!!!!)#my og/og durge was the same person i couldn't just romance someone else. they got with astarion i don't make the rules#karlach WILL romance wyll if i ever get farther in#my rogue/fighter oc is heading the baldur's gate for his boyfriend and they have an open relationship so he COULD fuck other people#alas he would never due to his own issues#BUT THIS WILL CHANGE#my sorcerer/bard (who is the boyfriend of the rogue. just imagining the plot as if he was on the adventure or rogue was in baldur's gate)#and he WOULD fuck other people no strings attached#so my goal is to fuck all potentially non-monogamous party members#so lae'zel shadowheart astarion#wyll is a slow burn so that's emotional depth we wouldn't put in#gale is king or monogamy (plus him and this character together would make the rogur pass the fuck out)#karlach is complicated because of the no touch thing? hard to say how much emotional depth ends up required there#meanwhile shadowheart has mentioned she does no strings attached hook-ups#lae'zel propositions you ten seconds in for a good tumble#and from romancing astarion i know fucking the first time seems like it'll just be casual hook up time and i needn't go further
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i am not sorry for making my personal helper program pull a demi-fiend if i try and leave its folder
i thought it was funny. now if only terminals supported orange text
#digital devil saga#demi-fiend#python#digital devil saga 2#<- if you know you know. if you don't then don't worry about it :)#literally no one else will ever use this program most likely#but i just want seraph to stay within its defined folder#i should probably change it so that it'll run gaea rage if Path.cwd() aka the home folder isn't in the path but#i'm tired and just did a load of bugfixing of cannibalised code#at least using Path.cwd() means i don't have to adjust stuff for moving the folder#also if you don't get the joke: demi-fiend is an optional boss fight in digital devil saga#if you do certain actions like come into the fight with immunities he will spam a move called gaea rage at you until you die#and you will die#the only way to avoid gaea rage is possibly by a lucky miss (good luck keeping that up if he's spamming it forever)#or by having the passive skill null sleep which does not prevent you from being asleep but prevents damage while you're asleep#he'll scripted use it at certain points in the fight but a demon of his will use dormina (puts your party to sleep) beforehand#so you have to hope everyone falls asleep or at least enough people that you can get back in the fight easily#thanks cielo for being weak to ailments. a sentence you would never otherwise say because ailments suck#also i died by gaea rage spam by forgetting to unequip null attack from my back party members so uh. yeah
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I was gonan make a post apologizing for lack of regular art but I feel like jts already clear im sporadic and in and out of it bc chronic pain and circumstances. So for now I'm gonna hibernate, get my health steady again, deal with money issues, and art will happen when it happens.
#i do feel kind of worn down by it. i wish patreon and commissions didn't feel so taxing even with accommodations ive made for myself#maybe it'll feel better in the future when less is going on but rn it#places this barrier of management in front of art that makes it less relieving to do#cause there's always a part of my brain reminding me it needs to serve a purpose and needs to pay off in some way#which isn’t a new feeling for artists obviously. maybe doing it all since hs js also why it's tiring. and patreon changjng the way it does#working part time now too. idk if maybe id like to step back from it#it's abnormal that i worked taht hard and it did help me get out from my parents and stay out. but im also tired ect#idw let people down by not being able to keep up with a self imposed expectation or#be irresponsible and remove sources of income for myself. redbubble inprnt and patreon all suck in ways that bother me hugely#i only really enjoy itch.io at the minute#not to say anything bad abt patrons or commission clients you've all been excessively kind and patient and understanding always#i wish i could make them better i feel like there's no way how it is at the minute is of value compared to my output as an older teen#but yknow. self imposed worry. im just worn out and id like to just make things without the management and the fretting and the#i havent made a comic post for patreon in ages or this or this i havent made a speedpaint or a song or#yadda yadda lmao#sorry for the impromptu ramble#this isnt to say id never do commissions or a store or anything again or i want to not make money off art#god knows i will need to be grinding out comms once im well again but ex#i feel like im getting less and less able to manage it and then putting out less and less#and hoping ill somehow get very healthy and active again one day and make it worth the wait yknow.#it's not a feeling i want my art to carry in me.#part of me and the parent in my brain is saying it'd be selfish to give up income but the rest is like#that's cruel. i want to feel good and healthy
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pearl haters will really go out of their way to defend their god-given right to misconstrue and demonise a woman for... Not wanting to date a guy
#ASTOUNDING how wrong some people will get the plot of the show to hate on her I'm ngl#Like yeah in like 2010s era bochum her writing sucks dog doodoo I agree#but literally the one mean thing she says ever is in pearl twirl lmao#People acting as if she's the devil. from the bible.#edit: watch one (1) bootleg where she delivers 'sure rusty where is he?' flirtatiously it'll change ur life#honestly maybe more stex fans needta watch broadway because her story is so good in that#it just sort of went downhill from there#then again I think they'd still just try and twist it so that she was a worse villain than electra who is awful and does NOT apologise#and greaseball who is WORSE and only says sorry to dinah#and caboose who COMMITS MURDERS#but no pearl is the worst because she um. doesn't want to race with rusty and lets him down gently about it.#and says a mean thing to dinah once#sorry but she does not owe him shit <3
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really quick claire doodle for code veronica day ❤️🔥
#my art#resident evil#claire redfield#code veronica#as janky as it is code veronica does mean a lot to me and i hope we can get a remake of it soon 💔#its an important game to the franchise so it'll be kind of sucks if they skip it in favor of a remake of a different game ....
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Winter is suddenly here, a month late! We had a wicked snowstorm last night, and today it's bitter cold and SO absurdly windy. Our big trashcans keep tipping over despite being full, and the house is just filled with the sound of the gusts blowing snow around. I opened the door and got blasted in the face so hard I couldn't breathe
#pikaposts#i had to go out and pick up the recycling bin bc our empty boxes were being blown across the yard 😮💨#it sucked so bad#i got ansehelm to come help me pull it around the house so hopefully it'll be sheltered a bit from the wind#and the trash will just hit the garage if it does fall out
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on the negative side, I'm never drinking caffinated tea ever again because it apparently makes me manic. That's especially sad because I found that out after drinking delicious tea I'll never be able to drink again and by becoming manic (i.e. the hard way)
on the plus side, I wasn't manic before I drank caffeine! and I probably won't be come tomorrow afternoon thank fuck. It's so unpleasant. So, so uncomfortable. I'm already starting to come down I think. It's hard to tell.
but yeah otherwise getting tea with my friends was nice. It was kind of magical to do a tea tasting, it's just too bad that- well. Can't drink alcohol. Can't drink coffee. Can't even drink tea either. They need to invent some kind of chocolate milk tasting or something for me personally so I don't feel like a sad wet dog about the situation.
#personal#mental illness#*shaking the bars of my emotional cage* let me be depressed or normal again damn you#I want out#it sucks that bipolar is like alcoholism#you have to watch yourself every damn day like sam vimes does there's no 'being done' or 'solving it'#it's not like healing a wound in a cast#it's not even like celiac's#there is always that psychological component#that little evil weevil impulse that says 'pick the bad decision!' in a voice that sounds just like yours#it'll be fiiiiine#<- words said just before relapse#I want to fit in! I want to have fun!#<- about to ruin my whole week like a dumbass#I was stupid. even at the event it was starting to hit me and I just fucking. gave up#'well it's already horrible'#'might as well have more?'#no. no that's dumb. once you get in a hole there's no reason to keep digging lav! that's A BIGGER HOLE#stop! stop! it's already too deep! [simpsons meme]#etc#it's really hard because it wouldn't normally hurt other people so it's really tempting to just pretend the boundary is fake and not real#long enough to step over it#even other bipolar friends don't have as uh. delicate sensibilities as I do around caffeine#so it feels profoundly bad that I can't indulge in it#though one part is the forbidden aspect#I want it and can't have it- so I want it more because I can't have it#I stayed within budget though#I got a fun trinket to remember the special occasion by (tradition tea brewer and cups that I'll drink chamomile out of because fuck it)#I have enough to get ramen tomorrow (yay! something I enjoy that won't hurt me physically or mentally!)#and I'll probably get weaving supplies this month
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Another thing I noticed (while also doing a quick confirmation peek at VLR): some sound effects stick around with Uchikoshi across his games - like the save sound effect - that act almost like his signature. That's hype.
I even noticed while browsing the files for VLR's sound effects
"SE_COM_GAME_ON.wav" is also used in AITSF when getting pages for the Dream Album. That is so sick.
#edit: the embed does not work on either end#tumblr just hates videos apparently#sucks for me being a VIDEO EDITOR and all#i'll manage#original tags:#kotaro uchikoshi#zero escape#999#nine hours nine persons nine doors#virtue's last reward#ai the somnium files#aitsf#posting this as a video link to see if it'll actually embed outside my theme#if it doesn't embed let me know#so cool
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