#it’s truly not that big of a deal but i miss seeing the physical connection:/

[gift-of-prophecy]

i love the new dragon age, my only complaint…wish u could kiss more

[dreamsagain]

I figured it would be a good time to share an update with you. I completed 5 radiation treatment sessions in 10 days. I had a new Pet Scan today but no results yet. I wish I could say I'm confident of what the outcome will be. You see when I had the scan prior to the radiation, three new growths were discovered. The cancer in my body is very active. Honestly I was never supposed to live this long but here I am.

Each day I struggle. I can't walk anymore or use my legs. I have become quite the wheelchair master though. My dear friend Holly once told me to keep all four wheels on the ground. Sorry Holly. You get a little bored in my situation. I have come to accept some things that I never thought I would have to. I can't feel the sand of the beach on my toes anymore or the cool ocean water. I can't dance anymore not that I was every very good at it. No more hiking on our trips to northern New England. These may seem trivial to all of you. You never think of these things until you can't do them any longer.

The bigger issues exist. I know my survival chances are slim. I will never give up though till my last breath. I know I will never fall in love with that special girl or settle down or even have a family. Why would anyone want a cancer ridden cripple? My days are consumed with doctors, physical therapy and trying to keep my head up.

Through all of this I'm grateful. I'm grateful for the people that try every day to lift my spirits, to encourage me and support me and most of all love me.

So to the following people, I say thank you and I love you forever.

Lauren @callmenonames my best friend in the universe. I have no words to describe the love you have shown me and the love I have for you. You sacrifice for me every day even at the cost of your own health. You are truly amazing.

Ellie @everylittlethingshedoesismagic my sweet London friend and her beautiful partner Sarah. Not a day goes by that I don't get a sweet message or picture. Unconditional and unwavering support and love. I have dreamt so many times about coming to London to just give you a hug and tell you thank you. I hope some day I can do that. I love you my friend

Karen @karenpillagain where do I begin. You are sweet and kind. Very silly and quirky and I think a little crazy too. You make me laugh and smile. When you had your accident I cried for days. Your partner Kate is a very lucky girl as are yo to have her. Two beautiful Aussies that deserve life's very best. I love you both and do hope we can make that Disney trip someday.

CJ @crystaljaydeinside1 Another incredible Aussie. You never hold back your care and encouragement. Always a sweet message, encouraging word or song to lift me up. I'm glad we connected the way we have and always love our chats. You have become very special to me and Lauren as well. I do love you my friend.

Breelynn @breelynnxoxoxoxo Where do I begin? You were a big support to my sister till the end. You remained close to Lauren and have always supported us. One of kind with a heart bigger than your body. Caring, loving and beautiful. Thank you for your continued support and love. I love you girl! You are amazing

Holly @hollys-coffee-cafe I fell in love with you so easy. You are beautiful, caring, and very special to me. I know we had our moments but there are no conditions on my feelings. You are an encouragement to me to never give up and I never will. I will always love you.

Last but not least Sadie @bambibrowneyes when I met you thanks to Holly, you were dealing with your own issues. Your beautiful wife Shelby sick with the same awful disease as me. There was an instant connection with the three of us. Shelby has since passed and your life has gone on. New career, new city and new love. I'm happy for you my friend. Love you

Okay that's it from me. I probably missed several people. I'm sorry for the long worded post. If you remember, say a prayer, send me you good vibes or whatever you believe in. I need them all.

[honeybelleee]

We fell in love in October

Summary - Y/n and Jake now step-siblings after their parents remarry, realizes they're soulmates who feel each other's physical and emotional pain. Despite their rivalry, they slowly accept their unique connection.

Genre - Soulmates au, enemies to lovers (sorta), fluff

Warnings - Swearing, mention of divorce, Jake and Y/n being jerks to each other

Belle’s notes - 100 followers special oneshot!! Thank youu guys ilysm🫶🏻 all likes, reblogs, and comments r appreciated <3

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In our world, soulmates are bound in a way that’s both beautiful and terrifying. From the moment we’re born, we’re connected, not just by fate but by feeling. Every physical pain or emotional ache your soulmate experiences, you feel it too. It’s like carrying someone else’s life within you, feeling their bruises, heartbreaks, and even joy. Most people find it comforting, like reassurance that they’re never truly alone. But for me, it’s been nothing but confusing and frustrating.

 

I spent most of my life feeling strange aches and pains that didn’t make sense. One day it was a throbbing headache; the next, a sharp pain in my ankle. I figured it was stress or clumsiness. It wasn’t until I learnt about the soulmate connection that I understood that whenever your soulmate gets hurt, physically or emotionally, you feel it too.

 

But there was one problem. My soulmate, whoever they were, seemed to be just as stubborn and reckless as me.

 

As if that wasn’t bad enough, I had Jake to deal with.

 

Jake and I had always been at each other’s throats. From the moment we started high school, it was war. Whether it was sports, academics, or even getting the last word in class debates, we were constantly competing. He was smart, infuriatingly so, but he never missed an opportunity to make me look bad.

 

Once, during a math competition, Jake pointed out a minor mistake I made in front of the whole class, loudly enough for everyone to laugh. “Check your numbers, Y/N. Looks like someone forgot basic algebra,” he said with that smug smirk of his.

 

I retaliated by correcting his English paper in front of the teacher, nitpicking every small mistake with a smile. “Looks like someone needs to brush up on grammar,” I’d said sweetly, earning a few laughs of my own.

 

It became a regular thing, us getting on each other’s nerves. He’d mess with my projects, like the time he ‘accidentally’ spilt water on my biology notes right before a big test, and I’d get back at him by turning in his homework late to the teacher, claiming it had been ‘misplaced.’

 

So when my dad married Jake’s mom after their respective divorces, it felt like some kind of cosmic joke. Not only did I have to see him at school, but now he was living in my house. I could practically feel the tension vibrating between us every time we passed each other in the halls.

 

Living under the same roof didn’t make things better. We’d exchange snarky remarks over dinner, glances that said more than words, and silent wars over who could ignore the other more effectively. I couldn’t stand him. And the idea of Jake being my soulmate? It was laughable.

 

But the strange thing was, ever since we started living together, those unexplained pains I’d been feeling started making sense.

 

Whenever I felt a sharp pain, I’d see Jake flinching across the room. Like that time I dropped a weight on my foot during gym class and saw him wince in the hallway, even though he wasn’t anywhere near me. Or when I woke up with a sore wrist, only to see Jake favouring the same wrist later that day in class. It was like the universe was trying to connect the dots for us, but I refused to see it. Denial was easier.

 

Then came the day Sunghoon, Jake’s best friend, came over to hang out. They were talking in the living room, but their conversation drifted into the kitchen, where I was. I tried to ignore them, but then I heard Sunghoon say, “You know she’s your soulmate, right? You’re just in denial.”

 

I nearly dropped the plate I was holding.

 

I didn’t hear Jake’s response, but that night, he cornered me at the kitchen table. I was trying to study, and he just stood there, watching me like he was deciding whether or not to say something. It was annoying.

 

“What?” I snapped, not even bothering to look up.

 

“We need to talk,” Jake said, his voice serious.

 

“About what?” I asked, flipping a page in my book, trying to ignore the knot forming in my stomach.

 

“About us. This... thing between us.”

 

I froze, my fingers tightening around the edge of my notebook. “What thing?” I said, even though I knew exactly what he meant.

 

“We’re soulmates,” he said bluntly, like he was ripping off a band-aid.

 

I looked up at him, disbelief clouding my thoughts. “You’ve got to be kidding.”

 

“I’m serious. You feel it too, don’t you? The pain, the emotions, it’s not just random.”

 

The truth was, I had felt it. All those unexplained bruises, the sharp stabs of pain that seemed to come out of nowhere, it wasn’t just me. But how could he be my soulmate? The same guy who spent years making my life difficult? The guy who once spread a rumour that I had a crush on the teacher, just to humiliate me?

 

“I don’t believe in this soulmate bullshit,” I muttered, turning back to my notes, even though my hands were shaking.

 

Jake didn’t push it any further, but after that conversation, everything shifted. We didn’t talk about it again, but the air between us was heavy, filled with things neither of us wanted to say. Avoiding him became harder, and the tension was impossible to ignore.

 

It all came to a head at a house party hosted by one of my friends. The music was loud, and I’d spent most of the night trying to have fun, but things took a turn when some random guy grabbed me in the crowd. He was pulling me toward him, his grip tight and rough. Panic surged through me, and before I could react, I heard Jake’s voice behind me.

 

“Let her go,” he growled, his voice low and dangerous.

 

The guy didn’t back off. In an instant, Jake stepped in front of me and punched the guy square in the jaw. He didn’t even hesitate. The guy stumbled back, letting me go, and Jake grabbed my hand, pulling me outside without a word.

 

We didn’t speak as he drove me home. My heart was still racing, and my thoughts were all over the place. But there was one thing I couldn’t ignore. Jake was there for me. He didn’t hesitate to step in, and for the first time, I saw him as something other than my rival.

 

When we got home, I collapsed onto the couch, still shaken. Jake stood in front of me, looking at me with an expression I’d never seen before, concern.

 

“Thank you,” I whispered, my voice barely audible. “For stepping in.”

 

“You’re my soulmate,” Jake said quietly. “I couldn’t just stand there and do nothing.”

 

The word hung in the air between us, soulmate, and for the first time, I didn’t flinch at the idea. I nodded slowly, accepting what I’d been denying for so long.

 

From that night on, everything changed. It didn’t happen all at once, but the animosity between us began to fade. Jake stopped being a jerk, and I found myself softening toward him. Little by little, we became something else. He started checking on me when I got home, asking how my day was, and I found myself laughing at his jokes, even the stupid ones.

 

Then one night, while we were watching a movie, Jake casually draped his arm over my shoulder. For a second, I tensed, but then I leaned into him, the warmth of his body comforting. It felt natural, like we’d finally stopped fighting the inevitable.

 

Over the next few weeks, things between us got spicy. It started with soft glances and lingering touches but soon turned into messy make-out sesssions when no one else was around. The connection between us grew, deepening in ways I hadn’t expected.

 

Eventually, we told our parents about being soulmates. I was nervous about how they’d react, but to my surprise, they were thrilled. My dad smiled and pulled me into a hug. “You’re lucky, Y/N. Finding your soulmate early is rare.”

 

For the first time, I realised how true that was. Fate had brought us together in the most unexpected way, and even though it had been a rocky road, I couldn’t imagine being with anyone else but Jake.

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[kuromi-hoemie]

how do you personally view sex/sexual attraction? what differentiates it for you, and what was your journey like? also your hair looks so good im jealous 😩❤️

im p stoned n in the middle of ori so i don't wanna rant(too much, but also oops) abt it rn lol, but I don't have sexual attraction 0:

ppl just b looking real pretty and i am looking affectionately. sex itself is just part of a shared experience to me and its a lovely way to be affectionate (❁´◡`❁) ♡⁠

there's a level of passion that ppl only really show when they're having sex with someone and if i could just have that without the sex that'd also be really great. i can and have made out all day, i love being handsy, i love being close in each other's embrace, i love the sounds and faces people make when they're losing themselves, i love Everything about when ppl cum, i also get a kick out of making someone as horny as possible bc it's fun, i love BITING people ☝🏾😤💕 i love the feel of our skin pressed together

idk i think it's all very fun and passionate and sweet! but then on a more casual note i got a huge oral fixation and if i know you like that, eating pussy's as casual as a kiss on the cheek and is more like me just stroking your back 🤧 it's just There ykwim i salivate over it.

the root of why i do things isn't because I'm horny and I Want You like that but more so from a place of wanting to take care of you bc i know you enjoy it 🤝🏾 and seeing/making you like that is enjoyable to me bc i know ur feeling good physically and emotionally.

tldr i move with my heart not my dick 🫡 but that's not gonna stop me from making someone cum as many times as they can handle bc I'm having fun and it's hot. as far as most ppl are concerned u still get to hit so whatever. if i think you're cute I'm trying to put u in a series of situations..

the only hurtful recurring issue I'd have before was ppl assuming I'm trying to have sex w them just bc we're making out like.. I'm just having fun and spending time with u, it doesn't have to be more than this. but then i let ppl escalate it and happily follow along but would always be confused and hurt low-key when they'd stop being as affectionate one day bc we've been having too much sex and like. i didn't know why those things had to be bundled together 🙈 it wasn't a big deal but i didn't get it, and it's hard to know u are missing a whole ass kind of attraction when you've never experienced it before!!

there are a lot of other slight disconnects that'd come up here and there over the years internally as i tried reconciling how i (didn't) feel with what the norm seemed to be and what ppl wanted of me, i only Really truly found out what being ace was in the past year as i tried answering the seemingly simple question of “do i like sex??¿” to which the answer was basically i love everything about it as a shared experience but as just a kind of affection it's also very besides the point To Me. enjoying sensations and connecting with each other are very 🤌🏾✨💕

coming from a more emotional/affectionate place this also makes me very flexible w kinks bc idk why not i would do anything for you.. but there are definitely simple physical things that make my brain go fuzzy, and i like to shut off and enjoy myself 😵‍💫😵‍💫 anything with my mouth is a big one but i like to be touched and grabbed too and being the dom is nice. why not lose myself in sensation 💆🏾‍♀️ i have a very sensitive body and i enjoy it.

but also as far as losing ourselves in sensation goes, that extends to everything (❁´◡`❁) ♡⁠ i cook and bake with decadence, i love to give massages of all sorts, i love being cuddled up and warm, i love putting on something fun for us to watch or do, i want to go on beautiful hikes and picnics in the garden with you, i want to experience Everything w you and enjoy all of life's pleasures. being polyamorous this also extends to friends bc there's nothing I'd do for a lover i wouldn't for a dear friend of mine 💁🏾‍♀️

um. i could talk in all directions and probably go in circles about the topic for a lot longer/more in depth but u get the gist of it 🫡 it's very easy to participate in and enjoy sex as an experience without that layer of sexual Attraction being what guides you To Me. ur still very lovely and seeing you naked is even more beautiful and I'm going to take my time exploring all of u ♡⁠ no matter what we're doing exactly I'm just trying to share a good time w you.

figuring out I'm ace made every disconnect make sense and everything clicked and it make me more sexual bc i firmly know where I'm coming from and what i actually get out of sex in general now👍🏾 there's an indescribable layer of hesitation in how i move and interact w others that's not there anymore, but that starts to bleed into self confidence and polyamory and other off topic stuff so yeah. good stuff. sorry my high rant was a lil long (⁠｡⁠ﾉ⁠ω⁠＼⁠｡⁠) consider this some sleepover talk lol

[silver-tooth-the-panther]

More information on my Half-Demon! Tanjiro AU!

I really want to elaborate more on my AU, specifically about the demons and how they are dealing with the changes. So, here are some headcanons about them!

Here is the original Mastpost!

Rui

When it came to converting into a half demon, he was rather cautious about the idea, mostly because he didn’t want to lose his “family” and strength

Nezuko managed to convince him by promising to stick by his side while he works out the changes

They spent a lot of time together, which brought them closer and formed a genuine bond

This drove Inosuke insane though

Tanjiro was pretty weary about their relationship, but he eventually grew fond of the little guy

It took quite a while for Rui to truly come out of his shell

But when he did, everyone realized just how touch starved the poor baby is

He melts when given any form of physical affection and he is quite clingy

I headcanon that Rui has OCD, mostly because he likes everything in their proper roles, so I think he would make sure everything is clean and orderly

He tends to get flustered when he is dealing with large messes, so either Nezuko or Tanjiro has to calm him down

Despite the Kamado siblings’ affection and stability, Rui still feels like he’s missing something in his life

That is, until Tanjiro introduces him to Akaza (Tanjiro decided to introduce all the demons to each other)

Akaza and Rui immediately get along and become friends

Eventually, Akaza introduces Rui to the other upper moons (plus Enmu since he’s usually around Douma)

Akaza was rather nervous about introducing Rui due to the moon’s chaotic nature and Rui’s OCD

However, Rui sees that they have a deep connection despite the chaos and decides to stick around

Akaza: Sorry if they’re a bit chaotic kid, bu-

Rui: They’re perfect

Akaza: Huh?!

With time, Rui learns more about the upper moons and they grow on him

Akaza and Kokushibo are Rui’s father figures

Daki and Gyutaro are very close to Rui and they often hang out with the Kamado siblings

Finally Douma and Enmu sometimes drag Rui in one of their pranks or adventures

The Kamado siblings notice that Rui is less tense, more open minded and is a lot happier

Half demons mature and grow, so Rui and Daki do mature and actually get older as time passes

Although he still goes to the Kamadoi’s for comfort, he truly feels like he has a family with the upper moons

Akaza

I feel like he would be more open to becoming a half demon (I mean it’s better than dying, right?) so he takes up on Tanjiro’s offer

Akaza regularly has to pull Douma out of trouble, either it be pranks that have gone too far or making him act like a gentleman

Whenever anyone is sick, you can expect Akaza to come over and try to take care of them

He did NOT like Zenitsu when they officially met, but they became mutual once he learned that Zenitsu wasn’t that big of a pervert (mostly because he’s dating Tanjiro)

Akaza deeply respects Tanjiro and they tend to work together on projects involving the demons

Akaza wanted to repair his relationship with Rengoku (which yes, Tanjiro was able to bring him back) and Rengoku has rather nervous to do so

They became great friends, but Giyuu (who Rengoku is dating) doesn’t really trust Akaza

Let’s just say it took a LONG time before Giyuu trusted him

Akaza gives advice to the women (both demons and humans) on how to defend themselves from perverts

Akaza is typically with Rui and Kokushibo, probably doing some father - son activities

Akaza actually gets with Kokushibo after realizing that Koku could be soft

Akaza is a tsundere, hands down.

He’ll never admit that he likes being the little spoon or that he loves sitting in Koku’s lap.

He also finds Koku’s final form hot. (He doesn’t have a monster kink though)

Akaza: is there a Mrs, Kokushibo?

Douma: Are you fucking flirting with Kokushibo’s final form?

Akaza: He’s fucking HAWT!

During his free time, Akaza usually like to either read or take long walks,

Rui is usually by his side on said long walks

Enmu

As you can probably expect, Enmu did not want to become a half demon

But after a long battle with Tanjiro, he eventually gave in

This is mostly due to his bitterness towards Tanjiro after he killed Muzan

Tanjiro quickly learns about his relationship with Muzan and instantly knows that it was a toxic relationship and Enmu doesn’t see that

Everyone tries to tell him that their relationship was toxic, but Enmu just gets pissed off

Tanjiro notices a strange smell that Enmu has and decides to look into it

He found out that Enmu couldn’t differentiate dreams and reality as a human and that he didn’t feel most pain, which made Tanjiro even more curious

It wasn’t until Enmu pointed out a suspicious flower that Muzan used to make him eat did Tanjiro finally realize what was going on

Turns out, Enmu had been given drugs as a kid and Muzan had kept him on those drugs to stay numb

Tanjiro knew he had to convince Enmu that Muzan was making him take drugs

It took a while for Enmu to believe him, but when he did, Enmu fell into a deep depression

Tanjiro had tried many different ways to make feel better (having him take care of people, saying kind things to him, etc)

Eventually, Tanjiro had him meet the upper moors, which introduced him to Douma!

At first, Enmu was quite distant and confused why Douma would take interest in him, but spending time with Douma made him come out of his shell

Douma showered him with affection, which made Enmu feel special and wanted

They would go on a lot of adventures together and they would pull pranks on people

After a while of this, Enmu started feeling strange and he went to Tanjiro to know what that feeling was

Enmu: What the hell is this feeling?! It feels so strange!

Tanjiro: Awww, that’s love, Enmu!

Enmu: What the fuck is that?

Both Tanjiro and Zenitsu would help him with confessing to Douma

They ended up deciding to confess on Valentine’s Day (There’s simply nothing more romantic than that)

Turns out, Douma was also planning to confess, so they just ended up being a flustered mess while Tanjiro and Zenitsu were giggling in the distance

At first, Enmu didn’t understand how Douma could do something nice for him

He thought that he always would have to do something nice for Douma

So when Douma treats him, Enmu.exe stops working

They go on a LOT of dates (usually little adventures)

Douma

He also didn’t want to convert, so Akaza and Kokushibo had to hold him down and force him to take Tanjiro’s blood

Tanjiro had to keep an eye on him for a while to make sure he wasn’t going to eat anybody

Douma eventually gave up eating people and started pulling pranks instead

He’s the number one troublemaker in the upper moon and can make a normal situation into one of chaos and anarchy

When Tanjiro hosted the demon meet and greet, Douma’s attention immediately went to Enmu, mostly because he found Enmu quite fashionable

When Douma started falling in love with Enmu, he was also very confused

Douma: Whay the fuck am I feeling this way towards a man?!

Akaza: You might be bisexual dude

Douma: *confused screaming*

Douma loves it when Enmu lulls him to sleep with his powers

In turn, Douma takes care of Enmu and makes some fantastic meals

Douma will happily listen to Enmu when he’s either talking about the demon ranks and/or trains

However, Douma can be quite reckless on their adventures, which sometimes causes them to get hurt

One time, Enmu ended up getting severely injured because of Douma’s recklessness

Basically, they entered an area of the Humanoid island where dangerous monsters were found

They barely got away, but they were haunted by an evil being named Kingu Akuma

That was one of the few times Douma actually cried

Despite the heartache of this event, something awakened in Douma that would help him deal with a bigger problem later on

Kingu Akuma harassed them and made them paranoid

He also reminded them of their pasts over and over again

Unfortunately, this made Douma remember the traumatic event that made him lose his emotions

(I’m not going to say what that moment was here since I can explain it better when I write the chapters. Let’s just say it is based on an actual theory. People believed this might’ve happened to him because of how the cult dehumanized him)

However, he also felt a painful feeling that he couldn’t quite figure out

He didn’t realize what that awakened emotion was until he reunited with Inosuke

Although Inosuke didn’t remember what happened to his mother, Douma remembered it vividly

Douma couldn’t understand why he felt so horrible when he was around Inosuke until he confronted Tanjiro about it

Tanjiro was horrified by Douma’s confession, but was willing to help him due to Douma’s willingness to change

Douma then proceeded to tell Inosuke what he did and well Inosuke didn’t take it well (he tried to kill him)

Due his guilt, Douma tried to hang out with Inosuke, but Inosuke was having none of it

It stayed like this until Inosuke was forced to fight off against a rabid ram demon (I’ll elaborate on this fight in a different post)

Inosuke came very close to death, but Douma saved him from getting mauled by the demon

Together, they finished off the ram and came to a mutual understanding

Although Inosuke can’t forgive him for killing his mother, he can understand that Douma is trying to make things up and so tries to develop a deeper relationship with his stepfather

Due to the he harassment by Kingu, guilt, and retrieving his memoriess, Douma went insane and he tried to unalive himself

Akaza stopped him from going through with it and told him that the only way to get rid of Kingu is to face your past

That’s when Douma went to Shinobu for therapy

She saw his memories and was horrified

Shinobu had to rescue a child version of him (his humanity) from Kingu inside his mind

After some time, he gathered the courage to face Kingu and fight him

Douma couldn’t defeat him (since Kingu is the god of chaos and suffering)

However it did end with Kingu realizing that Douma has changed and he leaves Douma (kinda like how Death did to Puss)

Both Akaza and Kokushibo care for Douma, but they often get annoyed by him

Gyutaro hates him due to Douma pestering both him and Daki (They have a typical annoyed child and jerk father relationship)

Douma finds this hilarious and continues teasing them

Daki and Gyutaro

Daki was quite open to converting (mostly because she was convinced by Nezuko)

However Gyutaro had to be convinced by Daki in order to convert

Once they were converted, both Tanjiro and Nezuko wanted to shower them with affection (they felt that they deserved a better life than what they had)

At first they were very off putted by this, but they eventually warmed up

The Kamado siblings taught them more about their relationship and how to properly show love

Gyutaro: What the hell are you doing?

Tanjiro: Giving you something you never got, a hug.

Gyutaro: …

Gyutaro: *gross sobbing ensues*

Gyutaro constantly goes to Tanjiro for advice on how to be a better older brother

Gyutaro has also accidentally called Tanjiro “dad” a few times which sent Daki into hysterical laughter

Although Daki and Nezuko had to work out their relationship, they eventually became best friends

Nezuko would occasionally host a girl’s night out and Daki would be there right beside her

Both Daki and Gyutaro prefer to be around the Kamado siblings (mostly because they find comfort in them)

When they are around the other demons, they are usually dragged into their nutty shenanigans

Daki really loves being around Rui

She is like a mother to him and Daki smothers him in affection like Nezuko does

Gyutaro melts when he’s complimented (especially on his appearance)

Nezuko made Gyutaro a blanket with heating pads so Gyutaro doesn’t get cold and he loves it to death

They are very curious and love learning about the world

Lastly, they both just really love each other and they are learning to accept themselves

Hantengu Clones

I feel like Aizetsu would be the most willing to covert, but the others need some convincing

Sekido was definitely the hardest to convince, no doubt about it

Urogi and Karaku are best friends and they always cause chaos

Sometimes they’ll accompany Enmu and Douma on their adventures

Sekido usually has to pull them out of trouble

Urogi is definitely Aizetsu’s emotional support

Sometimes Urogi can go a bit overboard, but he tries his best to comfort Aizetsu

All the clones see themselves as brothers

Aizetsu and Genya do become friends, but it took quite some time for that to happen

They usually just have really interesting conversations. That’s how they usually hang out

Karaku, Nezuko, and Daki will always make sure that someone looks great for a date!

Sekido is the unofficial eldest brother, the other clones hate this

All the clones may tease Aizetsu, but if anyone else messes with him. They will have hell to pay

Aizetsu prefers to be around the Kamado siblings, they’re just so calming

He just gets overwhelmed easily, so he prefers to be in quiet places

Sekido hides his feelings and he’ll never admit to enjoying anything

Whenever Zohakuten needs to be formed, Urogi and Karaku usually try to have Aizetsu initiate it because he’s a lot more gentle than Sekido

Zohakuten is like a little angry gremlin

He will immediately attack anyone who calls him cute

Zohakuten: I’m not cute!

Zohakuten: I’m into hardcore death metal!

Zohakuten: I’ve got a scar!

Zohakuten: I branded myself with a hot iron once!

Zohakuten: I’m into Big Dumb Sweet Men!

Zohakuten: Don’t judge me, I’m not cute!

Despite Zohakuten’s efforts, Mitsuri still loves him

The wooden dragons are like little puppies that annoy Zohakuten

The only person that Zohakuten truly likes is Rui

You just can’t hate Rui

Hantengu actually prefers to be separated

He lives in constant fear so it’s nice to find happiness in the clones

Kokushibo

He was also willing to be converted (mostly because he’ll still be able to stay alive)

At first, Kokushibo would be incredibly jealous of Tanjiro

Because of this, Tanjiro decided to try to spend more time with him

Tanjiro found out about his brother and decided as a peace offering, he would help Kokushibo learn the various techniques of sun breathing

Although he doesn’t really learn it, they become close and they form a strong friendship

When He, Tanjiro, Douma, and Inosuke were fighting the jaguar demon, Tanjiro basically gave a speech about how no matter how powerful or weak the younger brother is, they will always look up to the older one

Kokushibo was deeply moved by this

Kokushibo deeply respects Tanjiro for defying his fate in a much more honest and honorable way than he did

He is Tanjiro’s right hand man and will always help him with plans

Kokushibo is pretty much the leader of the upper moons when Tanjiro isn’t around

He is like the stern father while Akaza is more of a relaxed father towards the moons

Kokushibo is also very peaceful and prefers to paint and draw alone

He gives great advice to the other demons on how to handle their changes

Kokushibo usually has to get the other demons out of trouble

He has a major sweet tooth, but the only ones who know this are Akaza and Mitsuri

Sometimes, he’ll eat some sweets with Mitsuri

Kokushibo: How the hell did you guys turn a picnic into a forest barbecue?!

Akaza: DON’T LOOK AT ME!!

Douma: *holding the match* I didn’t do it

He always helps Tanjiro convert other demons

(Okay time for some Kokuaka headcanons!)

Let’s be honest, Kokushibo would be dense af. He would have no clue that Akaza had feelings for him and Koku would have no idea that he loved Akaza back

He’d just think that he felt a strange feeling when he’s with Akaza

Kokushibo eventually figures it out after seeing Tanjiro’s and Zenitsu’s and Douma’s and Enmu’s relationships grow.

At the start of their relationship, Kokushibo was very closed. He acted very stoic, believing that this was they way to earn anyone’s affection

Eventually, Akaza softens him up. He makes Koku realize that it’s okay to show emotion

Kokushibo adores warmth (he’ll never admit it though). He loved to be close physically to his friends and always carries heating pads on him.

Kokushibo is actually really good with kids, surprisingly.

Poor babe gets a lot of headaches so he carries medication on him and he prefers to be awake at night

Although he has to put up with the craziness of the upper moons, he still loves them and will always help them

Tanjiro is incredibly proud of them and the progress that they have made

Tanjiro being a proud dad is so freaking cute

I love this AU and I’ve had a lot of fun with it! Speaking of fun, here are some incorrect quotes because why not?

Douma: *chugs mayo*

Enmu: Hmm that looks like our bedsheets

Akaza: *chokes on water*

Kokushibo: *gasps and covers Rui’s ears*

Tanjiro: I’m very uncomfortable with the energy we have created in this room

Rui: Every family has a gay cousin

Enmu: Bitch we don’t have a gay cousin

Enmu: Wait

Enmu: I am the gay cousin oH mY gOd

Tanjiro: Why were you calling me those awful things when we fought?

Gyutaro: Those were auful things?

Tanjiro: *starts tearing up out of guilt*

Gyutaro: WAIT, I’M SORRY!!

[iamsherrita]

These past few months I’ve been in a real tussle with my flesh, just trying to lean into what I believed to be my purpose in life, while also living my life how I saw fit. I'm a proud Virgo…and if you know anything about us, you know that we're notorious for planning out every single detail of our lives. Ultimate control over the outcome of anything pertaining to us is the spice of life, and not having control has to be one of our biggest fears. So surrendering control, to anyone, even God is much easier said than done. 

It took a few wild events these past few months to get me to, sit down….I mean literally, SIT DOWN, be still, and disconnect long enough to hear the quietness of God's voice. I can't thank Him enough for divine intervention in areas I needed it most, and also for my loving and caring big Brother who planted the seed of surrender at a time when I was completely blind and unaware of why the storm of confusion was brewing in my life. Being concerned with Purpose and Favor, while living in the slightest outside the will of God, was probably one of the biggest lies I had allowed myself to believe. Thankfully, my Brother's words convicted me in a way that I desperately needed.

Before our conversation, I had already been spending a great deal of my time in solitude, reflecting, praying, and reading a devotional here and there. But since then, I began studying scripture, literally day and night, and with each passing day, I feel more and more of a transformation in my being and a connection to God. One thing I’ve come to understand during this time is that it is impossible to please God and access the personal blessings he has for my life while living outside of His will. Coming to this realization has meant confession, repentance, and submission to His will and His way for my life, not my own. 

I’ve been relentlessly petitioning and seeking Him about HIS purpose for my life and the work he would desire to see me do in the earth. And through His word, His response to me has been to fast and pray and to cleanse myself of anything not of him. Y'all know I'm already plant-based (I never backslide into eating meat, but it doesn't mean I don't fall off the wagon in other ways), and I do a physical detox and cleanse just about every quarter, but the word He gave me aligns not only with a cleanse of my physical being but of my spiritual being as well. 

Learning to truly walk with Him in this society can be more challenging than anything but I know now that it’s a must and I just can’t afford to miss my mark. Too often, I've made decisions for my life on my own, without seeking him first, and while it may have worked out for a while, it eventually proved otherwise. This time, I just want to get it right. 

In obedience to what God has placed on my heart, I’m preparing for a physical & spiritual cleanse this time around. The cleanse will focus on cleansing my mind, body, and spirit of anything that is not of God. That means filling the days with prayer, studying scripture, physical fasting avoiding foods and/or substances that may be harmful to my body or possess the ability to alter my mental state, and being mindful to avoid environments and situations that make me vulnerable to living outside of His will.

I have a profound belief that God has a purpose for all of our lives. I also believe that God has gifted each of us with a unique talent to support one another through our life's journey. I hope that now, more than ever, we will all begin to seek Him for what that is. It is my intention to do this cleanse together with a community of anyone who is in a season of petitioning God for radical change in their lives, just as I am.

I’m planning to start on Sunday, September 15th. But in preparation, I’m praying and seeking God specifically for what he desires me and others to gain from the experience. I’d like you to pray with me, and if it is in your heart to participate, please let me know, DM me, email me (iamsherrita@outlook.com), or drop a comment below, and I’ll send you details in the leading days. 

Take care and have a blessed Sunday

[thetruelifemassagechairs]

Are Massage Chairs Worth It? All Things Considered

We put in a lot of effort to make our lives and the lives of our loved ones better, so it's important to think about the benefits of any money, time, or effort we put into it.

As many individuals investigate buying a back rub seat, they find out if the buy merits the cost. Do I need to buy a massage chair? Are massage chairs truly beneficial? The worth of an answer is comparative with the singular issue it tackles, so we should inspect maybe one or two cases.

Massage For Recovery From Injuries Regardless of whether you're an athlete or a "Regular Joe," physical injuries can reduce both your quality of life and your financial resources. You'll end up using your vacation days to run errands that are anything but relaxing, which will result in missed work and multiple doctor visits.

Even if you have health insurance, it can cost you hundreds or even thousands of dollars to miss work. If you need massage therapy for your injury, you'll also need to set aside a few hours each week to see a therapist who probably only works during your regular business hours.

Massage For Stress Relief Our "Fight or Flight response," or stress responses, are actually a primitive survival mechanism. Our bodies produce a chemical reaction that raises our heart rate and tightens our muscles whenever we sense something that could be harmful. Physically, we are getting ready to deal with a threat to our well-being.

Long-term stress puts a strain on our bodies that can actually be harmful, but short-term stress can help us focus and perform better. Consider tension headaches, aches and pains in the body, skin rashes, hair loss, and insomnia. We experience a lot of stress in our modern lifestyle, but we don't use that stress to run, fight, or exert that energy in any other way. Our bodies siphon the adrenaline through our frameworks, and it shows itself as actual strain.

Keep in mind the effects that these conditions have on one's quality of life, in addition to the inconveniences that result from missing work that we discussed in the previous example. Yes, you are not working. But what's more important is that you're not living. You're missing out on time spent playing with your kids, going on bike rides on the weekends, and getting up each day feeling refueled and energized.

A few stressors can be kept away from, yet others must be overseen after they occur. Massage, meditation, and physical activity can all make a big difference in this area. You can reduce stress by calming your mind, and physical and mental anguish can be avoided by releasing muscle tension through massage and exercise.

Massage For Health Issues We've talked about massage for injuries, but what about health issues that last a long time or can't be fixed in a few months? People who have chronic anxiety or fibromyalgia may need to take medication that has a lot of bad side effects.

Skin conditions caused by stress may necessitate the use of topical medications that increase sun sensitivity, making sunburns even more likely (and riskier) than they already are. Loss of craving connected with wretchedness can mean healthful lacks with long-coming to and gigantically effective results.

Massage can help your body take better care of itself by relaxing your muscles and increasing blood flow. A better bloodstream implies that you can move all the more effectively, with less firmness or torment. Because of this, you won't need as many painkillers, which means you won't suffer from medication-induced brain fog.

The frequency of eczema or acne flare-ups decreases with stress-relieving massage, resulting in less inconvenience and discomfort. Your body will feel better rested as a result of the sleep-inducing effects of massage, be better able to repair itself and be better prepared to deal with the little stresses that can lead to physical ailments. Your appetite increases, allowing your body to receive the nutrients it needs to combat illness and general sluggishness.

Is Investing In a Massage Chair Worth It? When making any kind of purchase, you should always think about whether the item or service is worth the money. However, you should also think about the impact of your investment over the long term.

While purchasing a massage chair has many benefits, there are also some drawbacks that should be taken into consideration.

Why Massage Chairs Worth It? Is it worth the money to buy a massage chair? In the event that you ask anybody who possesses and utilizes a back rub seat consistently, the response is presumably "yes." Having your own massage chair has many advantages.

An Investment In Your Health Purchasing a massage chair is an investment in both your physical and mental well-being. Massages on a regular basis can help relieve stress and tension, which can lower your quality of life.

We drive to work every day because we know it will allow us to create something meaningful, engage in personal development, and provide for our families—something that some people find challenging. Even though words like "investment" can make us feel like we're in a business meeting, investing in our health can also mean staying outside and not in a hospital room. And there is no cost associated with leading a better, longer, and more satisfying life.

More Savvy Than Back Rub Treatment How much is a back rub seat worth, truly? A massage chair's long-term savings, in addition to the investment in your health, make it well worth the money.

Putting aside the inconvenience, a one-hour massage typically costs between $100 and $175, rising to $210 with a 20% tip. Let's be generous and say that you need weekly massages for two months because of an injury. The total cost of your massage therapy during that time is then $1,680. That is more expensive than purchasing a WholeBody® 5.1 massage chair for the rest of your life.

Is It Worth Purchasing A Massage Chair? Yes, when you think about how much it costs to buy a massage.

When you purchase a massage chair, it becomes yours forever and is always available to you. Even if you work until late at night, you can still relax with a massage at home after a long and stressful day.

If you have a massage chair, you won't have to worry about making appointments or fitting your schedule around the therapists.

A Different Experience Each Time Even if you see the same massage therapist each time, the experience will be different each time. The back rub method, how much strain is applied and, surprisingly, the music and general feeling might be different with every arrangement. Additionally, these discrepancies may mean that some massages will be less enjoyable or effective than others.

One benefit of claiming a back rub seat is that the experience will be reliable. You might have various projects to browse, yet every meeting of a similar program ought to give a similar generally speaking experience.

Private, Contactless Massage Some individuals are apprehensive about working with a massage therapist. All things considered, back rubs can be something individual, and it may be not difficult to unwind totally when someone else is in the room.

You can enjoy massage therapy in privacy and without having to touch anyone if you have your own massage chair.

Various Massage Options Massage chairs may offer a number of programs that can assist you in addressing various issues. For instance, you can pick a profound tissue back to rub to reduce pressure in exhausted or harmed muscles. You can use the foot massage feature the following day to alleviate your sore feet.

The settings and programs of massage chairs can be changed according to how you're feeling at the time.

A Few Downsides To Consider While there are many benefits to purchasing a back rub seat, they may not be the ideal decision for everybody.

Higher Initial Cost An investment is a high-quality massage chair. Although you will save money in the long run, the initial cost may be significantly higher than for massage therapy sessions.

Why are kneaded seats so costly? because they provide an authentic full-body massage by utilizing sophisticated mechanical parts and systems. These seats are worked with great materials and designed to give an extravagant encounter at every meeting. They also have Bluetooth speakers and faux leather upholstery that let you relax with an audiobook or listen to calming music while you get a massage.

Even though the chair's features and construction are worth every penny, its high price may prevent some people from purchasing one.

An Alternate Encounter While thinking about the inquiry "Are rub seats worth the effort?" It is essential to keep in mind that the experience will differ from a massage therapy session.

Massage chairs of high quality are made to look like the hands of a masseuse. However, despite its close resemblance, the experience does not completely replicate the sensation of a massage therapist's hands.

Anyway, while posing the inquiry are seats worth the cash?" Think about how important it is to you to have a massage in person.

Effectiveness Of A Massage Chair It is essential to take into account the effectiveness of a massage chair in addition to its advantages and disadvantages. Can massage chairs be used? Are massage chairs beneficial to you? If so, how effective are massage chairs?

Let's look at the research on massage chairs and the overall health benefits of massage to find answers to these questions.

It has been demonstrated that massage chairs aid in:

Lessen The Pain One study found that massage chairs were just as good at reducing pain and improving participants' quality of life as physiotherapy. That investigation likewise discovered that a back rub seat was more practical than physiotherapy. Increase Circulation Regular massages may increase blood flow in specific areas, according to one study. Lessen Pressure And Tension A massage chair can help alleviate stress and anxiety while also increasing alertness, according to research. Members likewise had fewer side effects of sorrow following five weeks. You can also lower your heart rate and enter a state of total relaxation by reducing stress and anxiety. Final Thoughts: A massage chair lets you get massages whenever you want and in the privacy of your own home. When all is said and done, massage chairs are well worth the money. The comfort and medical advantages of customary back rub far offset the forthright expense of buying a seat. Back pain, massage benefits, massage chairs, stress relief, therapy, and exercise recovery are all considered. Visit a showroom or book an appointment with one of our sales reps today and find out why so many customers trust us to help them have unforgettable massage experiences right from the comfort of their own homes or office.

[ineffably-human]

"Well why didn't you do something? You should have gone and done something about it instead of just sitting here."

When the leaks came out two weeks ago, I was seriously in a period of mourning. Like I was truly, deeply upset for three days trying to process what was actually half-translated and poorly communicated. And it's a lot of the stuff other people were thinking when 4x9 first dropped. Were we being told it was wrong to desire growth and progress in these characters? Are we stupid for caring about the humanity in them? Were we supposed to hope Guillermo just escapes this toxic limbo forever?

We see so much of how these violent, sometimes half-crazy, ancient beings are dissatisfied with their lives. How they're capable of love and connection, how they want the same things that humans do... I couldn't believe that stagnation was the entire point. I couldn't believe the answer to 'can you change who you've always been?' was 'nope, sorry, nobody really does even when they're miserable.'

It feels important we care. It feels important that we feel unsettled by Colin reverting back to exactly how he was before, without even the slightest memory of being loved and looked after when as an adult he's so lonely. (That whistling, the way it breaks your heart and gives you a hope spot at the same time!) It's important they made it clear, before he finds that room, that as much as his instincts are calling out to him it's not what young Colin wanted or something he had a choice about. It was important that Laszlo and Nadja felt like they lost major, important pieces of their new lives, experiences they'd never had before even if they ended badly.

And Nandor... I don't think Nandor's as okay as he says. I think Nandor seems as aloof as he was when we first met him. It's withdrawing for recovery after the end of a lot of striving and struggling and pain. Eventually the scab is going to rip off and leave him with grief and depression again. Who's to say he hasn't had this experience before? He did tell Guillermo that he hadn't been really happy in decades. Maybe for a vampire, taking some 'me time' after a rough period is a decades-long affair.

But there's such a clear rift between him and the person he loves most now. Everyone's lost something, and Nandor and Guillermo have lost some of what they were building. I think they were losing it before the Freddie incident even happened. (Now would be the part of the slow-burn, by the way, where they get it back and reaffirm how much they belong together.)

When the leaks dropped, I read Guillermo's decision and I thought 'why?' This was the first season where I could think of plenty of explicit reasons he shouldn't become a vampire. He might never see his biological family again, even though he knows they love him. No matter what, he has to deal with his chosen family's selfishness. He sees how slow vampires change, he sees their ennui, how the big things they want are band-aids over their dissatisfaction. He knows he can stay human and still have physical power, emotional leverage, life experiences he's missed out on up to now because of all the waiting-waiting-waiting. Even having a foot in the supernatural world wouldn't have to change. His devotion and loyalty have waned somewhat, he's built relationships with the other housemates but they're not as strong.

It's not like he's so unexamined about his feelings that he'd ignore all those things to go be a vampire alone, to go hang out with a lonely dude working a counter (just like he was when Nandor met him) when that lonely dude just happens to be a vampire. Was he regressing? What the hell was he doing it for at this point? He hadn't even said goodbye!

It was like a gut punch of relief (seriously, the noise I made) when I found out exactly what the line was, the last thing Guillermo says before taking the money to Derek.

"Nothing in this house ever changes, nothing's ever going to change unless I change it."

He doesn't pack his things. The bag is full of money and only money. He won't need that closet anymore because it's no place to keep a coffin. (The attic, on the other hand, newly renovated and now the biggest room in the house...)

I want so badly to believe Guillermo is becoming a vampire because he is going to march straight back to the house, show off his fangs, and drag them all kicking and screaming into the life he's dreamed of along with him. To rescue them from themselves.

'I can use this power better. I can be the new blood. You need something to react to? React to this.' Because his dream is relentless but so is his capacity to love these people at their worst.

And if that just sounds like Guillermo saving the day again, well...

You guys want a jealousy arc? Imagine Nandor seeing that someone else stepped in and did what he wouldn't. Imagine a Guillermo made newly sexual as a vampire, having a well-deserved slut era as Nandor watches and wonders what's so different about him these days. Nandor being the one to eagerly listen to him, to sit beside him as he bosses people around...

More importantly, imagine Guillermo having a conflict between his slayer blood and vampire blood. Or leaning into the selfishness that comes with being a vampire, so much so that he starts to lose the parts of him the household really needs. Or pretending 'it's fine, it's fine, it's fine' when it's really anything but and this isn't how he's supposed to end up.

I need Guillermo to be the one to fuck up for once. I need him to do something so selfish it hurts others, I need him to do the right thing when it's hard. I need Nandor to save him or remind him of the best, most human parts of him when he's lost.

I can't wait to get that, if that's where we're going.

[likethecastle]

Thinking more about why I don’t really connect to the companions as much in Chibnall’s era, I think I’ve narrowed down at least one thing: The companions don’t tend to be as involved in the resolutions of the episodes. The one driving the conclusion is nearly always the Doctor, with the companions having little to no input.

For example, in series 11, Thirteen is the one who ultimately confronts Tzim-Sha. Thirteen directs everyone’s actions in The Ghost Monument. She is the one warning against interference with Rosa Parks or in Demons of the Punjab. She’s the only one truly dealing with the Solitract in It Takes You Away, and she’s the one who resolves the major issues in the finale. And this continues through series 12—Thirteen deals with the Master in Spyfall, again is directing everyone in Praxeus and Can You Hear Me?, is obviously the one making the major choices in The Haunting of Villa Diodati/Ascension of the Cybermen/The Timeless Children, and then is the one making that final confrontation with the Daleks in Revolution of the Daleks. Even in Flux, Thirteen is really still the one ultimately fixing everything at the end (albeit with three of her now directing everyone to help).

Granted, this isn’t always the case! They do have moments where they’re greater contributors in their own right—Ryan suggesting his rap music in Arachnids in the U.K., Yaz pushing to learn more about her family in Demons of the Punjab, Yaz being the one to go after Thirteen on Gallifrey, Ryan sitting down to talk with Thirteen, Dan exploring that ship with his wok in War of the Sontarans. But generally, they’re more along-for-the-ride, more on the side of taking orders from Thirteen. They often do a lot of the smaller tasks that help the Doctor get up to the final confrontation—but ultimately, it’s nearly always the Doctor making the final stand. 

To be clear, this can and should happen! The Doctor is the one with the wealth of experience, the one who’s 2000+ years old, the one who’s often going to have the final say. It really is true—“Sometimes, this team structure isn’t flat.” There’s an inherent power imbalance. But when that’s always the case, it’s harder to see the companions’ beliefs.

Compare this to previous companions: Rose swinging in on that chain to save Nine, looking into the heart of the TARDIS, figuring out how to get the Doctor out of the drawings in Fear Her. Martha dealing with Ten for literally the entirety of the Family of Blood two-parter and literally walking a hellscape Earth for a year in the finale. Donna challenging Ten in Pompeii, figuring out the dates on the walls in The Doctor’s Daughter, or literally anything in Turn Left. Amy pushing that button at the end of The Beast Below and being the only one who could remember Eleven and bring him back in The Big Bang. Clara being the one to ultimately step up with that leaf on Akhaten, jumping into the Doctor’s timestream, or making those final tragic choices in Face the Raven and Hell Bent. Bill being the one who ultimately reaches out to Heather and stops her in The Pilot and literally shooting Twelve in the monks three-parter. While they were still companions, obviously, and the Doctor frequently did still make the final move—it wasn’t every time. And that really matters for showing us who the companions are as people.

And while this has been getting somewhat better recently—Yaz’s 1904 arc in Flux comes to mind, and Dan acting as more of her companion rather than Thirteen’s—I feel like it’s also too little, too late in a sense. It’s all well and good having companions who help, but there are rarely moments where Chibnall-era companions have been the ones to truly define the course of an episode, whether by stepping in physically, figuring out the key clue that was missed, or by challenging the Doctor’s views.

Maybe some of it’s Chibnall trying to avoid having a female doctor appear weak or not in charge. And also look, I get it: Thirteen’s whole deal is that she’s hurt, she doesn’t want her own issues on display or to hurt the people she’s with, so she bottles up her feelings and keeps them out of what danger she can and puts on a front and just does things alone. I get that. The fact that the companions are pushed away is a major, evident plot point. And honestly, I think it’s a pretty logical one, given all the trauma that the Doctor’s gone through over the years. It’s not supposed to be seen as a good thing—“Stop leaving us all the time!” I understand that.

But I think that the core issue of it all is that the show didn’t then give us an alternative way to showcase the companions’ personalities, moralities, and strengths. If Thirteen’s keeping them out of those final major plot points because of her desire to keep them unharmed and safe, the show should have taken better care and more time to show us their characters in different ways, whether via more-developed subplots or by instead writing some episodes where they are circumstantially dragged into the final conflict alongside Thirteen and help change the course of it as a result. 

For the most part, I’ve been enjoying Chibnall’s era—I think there are a lot of good things in it. But I also think that’s mostly because I enjoy Thirteen as a doctor, and right now, the show is extremely Doctor-centric. If you disagree, that’s fine—this is just my opinion. But it’s just that in most cases, I feel like the show hasn’t taken enough care to allow the companions to do things themselves, and it’s left their characters lacking as a result. 

[leejeongz]

fluffy a-z JAY (enhypen)

requested: yes, by anon

a/n: as if i didn’t have a phat crush on him before </3 jay tunnel vision shall continue until the end of time. thanks for requesting!

A = Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?)

he’s very “selective” about his pda, an arm around your waist or your shoulder is enough for him and when he wants to be cute, a bop on your nose. when in private, he’s pretty much the same. he respects your personal space and doesn’t want to overstep any boundaries. when he’s “asleep” next to you though his arms MAY fall around you and start to hug you superrrr loosely :)). it’s not that he doesn’t like physical affection, he’s all for it, but he’s not sure if you are if you're not the one intitiating it. (taken from my enhypen as boyfriends post)

most of his affection is shown through endearing smiles and words of affirmation. he’s constantly staring at you with loving eyes, thinking of how he never wants the moment to end. he doesn’t say things when he doesn’t mean them, everything that comes out of his mouth is honest and sincere, when he tells you that he loves you, or that he’s proud of you, or that he’s happy to be yours, he really means it.

B = Best friend (What would they be like as a best friend? How would the friendship start?)

jay would literally start a conversation with anyone, he just happened to start a conversation with you one day, and you both realised pretty quickly that this wasn’t just going to be a one off chat. you were laughing and joking the whole time, and it became a regular thing whenever you saw each other since your schedules often lead you both to the same place at the same time.

i think he would be such a supportive best friend :(. one who knows you better than you know yourself, one who takes the time to learn every little thing about you, one who is literally like a brother to you. jay likes to teach you things, he likes to help you when you ask or when he can see you struggling. he is someone that you can rely on and someone that will listen and help you without judging you.

you become part of his friendship group since you get along with them all so well. he likes it that way as he can spend more time with you rather than having to disappoint one to be with another.

C = Comfort (How do they comfort their partner?)

he’s so concerned whenever he sees you upset or anxious :( he just wants to let you know that it’s okay to feel that way and that he’s here to protect you, but he doesn’t want you to feel suffocated by him when you’re clearly not feeling too good.

if he saw you crying, he’d be firstly asking what’s making you upset, asking “why, why, why?” in a cute tone with a little pout on his face. he’d have you in his arms too, holding your head closer to him so that you can cry onto his sounder or onto his shirt. his main aim is just to let you know that he’s there and that he’s all yours in that moment. after you’ve told him what was making you feel so upset, he’d either try to make a joke of the situation if it’s not that serious, or he’d help you come up with a realistic solution to your problem. he’d probably let out a lot of sympathy noises too, little “hmms” and “awws” because he wants you to know that he’s listening and hopefully you feel comforted by that.

if your ever feeling anxious, jay just wants you to know that he understands. he’s willing to help you in any way he possibly can (within reason) and helps you to push yourself whenever you’re feeling confident enough to do so without taking things too far. he always tells you how proud he is of you and how you’re doing so great. he wouldn’t laugh at you or try to make you feel silly for your anxieties and worries, however bizarre and foreign they may be to him, he actively tries to understand and sometimes researches more, not forgetting to tell you that you’re not alone.

D = Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How about kids? Marriage? How are they at cooking and cleaning?)

i mean, we all know he’s good at cooking! he likes to show off his culinary skills for you whenever he can and would rather have a home cooked meal over a takeaway too. he also likes the house to be clean and tidy, but whoever makes the mess should clean it of course, and he’s not afraid to complain when you leave a room with it looking like a pigsty.

settling down is a very very big thing for jay. he won’t think about it lightly. the relationship has to be special, he knows when the right time to settle down is and which person is the right person, he won’t rush into it with just anyone.

i don’t think he’d care for marriage to be honest. as long as he knows that you love him and that you know that he loves you, that’s all the matters, you don’t need a certificate or a ceremony for that. in the future, jay probably wants to have kids, just 1, maybe 2, but it’s not so important that he’d break off the relationship if you didn’t want to have kids.

E = Equal (Are they the dominant one in the relationship, or rather passive?)

he really wants it to be equal. he doesn’t want to feel like either of you have more power than/over the other. you don’t have to act in accordance with anything that he says and his doesn’t have to act in accordance with what you say, you may be in a relationship but you’re still two separate people and should be seen as that. so, for that reason, he doesn’t want a dominant/submissive (passive (?)) relationship with you in everyday life, he just wants you both to feel like you are your own people.

F = Feelings (How did the confession go down?)

he would get SO nervous whenever he thought about confessing to you, his hands would get all sweaty and clammy and he’d go completely silent. but, saying that, he is also rather excited to confess, because that’s one step closer to being yours <3. if it didn’t come out by accident, i.e him just spewing out “because i like you” after you asked him why he teased you, i think he’d do it in a rather meaningful way. just the two of you, alone, (so that you can kiss him if you want to hehe), maybe even buy you a small little gift and hands it to you while telling you how much you mean to him.

G = Giggle (What makes him laugh?)

when you compliment him. oh gosh this boy goes all blush and giggly when you compliment him, especially when you’re in the dating phase.

when you give someone a deserved shouting at. watching you stand up for yourself makes him overwhelmed with pride, but he can’t help but laugh at the person you’re giving the grief to, just because of how tiny and small you’re making them look.

when you wear his clothes for the first time. of course, you look cute, but the mismatch of items really makes him laugh, he just has to let it out while engulfing you in a hug.

H = Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?)

aww jay is definitely a back hugger. coming up behind you, wrapping his arms around you and waddling around aimlessly with your back pressed against his chest. sometimes he says nothing at all, he just appreciates you and your complaints of how he’s distracted you. other times, he just asks about your day, general small talk really, before walking to bed with you to cuddle and chat some more.

less frequently, he’ll give in and hug you normally, resting his chin on your shoulder and smiling, wondering why he doesn’t do it more often. as he pulls away, he places a gentle kiss on your forehead and tells you that he loves you, or that he’s missed you while he’s been working.

I = Instant (Do they believe in love at first sight?)

claims that he doesn’t because he thinks it’s shallow to base your feelings off of just someone’s appearance. he’s a little confused as to how you can fall in love with someone just by seeing their face, not even talking to them ?

actually, he does believe in it, he just needed to experience it to know. the aura and vibes that you give off attracts him to you in that moment. he feels a connection without even having to talk to you, he just knows that there is something there.

J = Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What do they do when they’re jealous?)

he kind of loves it when he sees that people are interested in you. like yeah you’re hot, but you’re also all his, and he’s gonna show them hehe. he’d be all over your like a rash, kissing you delicately so that you don’t get suspicious or feel uncomfortable, or resting his hand on your lower back to let everyone know that they can’t have you.

if he sees you talking to a guy, he’s not gonna get pressed about it. he’s not going to ask you millions of questions about what you were talking about and who he is or whatnot, he actually loves seeing you smile from across the room and he doesn’t care who it is that is making you smile so yeah.

K = Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?)

shoulder ❗️ kisses ❗️ when he’s spooning you while you’re sleeping. when he senses someone is interested in you in public he’ll just stand behind you and kiss your shoulder. god he’s so cute without even realising BYE. (taken from my enhypen as boyfriends post). he also likes to kiss your hand, prince charming, eat your heart out.

he likes to initiate kisses, all of them. he smiles as he leans in, his tongue pushing against the back of his teeth making his smile more radiant. he starts with a few tiny little pecks, reaching for your head whether you’re sitting or standing. the kiss naturally deepens and his body language mimics yours. when you kiss, you truly become one. kisses like this are heated, but don’t happen all that often.

L = Love Confession (How fast do they say the L-word?)

saying the L word is a very big deal to him, he really has to be in love, and he has to have been in love for a while before he can say it.

honestly, before he actually said it, he’d been thinking about it for days. every time he looked at you, he wanted to say it. you were talking to him, but he wasn’t concentrating on what you were saying, even if he really did look like it. you finished your sentence and almost immediately after you did so, jay said it, those three words. he was so content that he’d said it too, a small smile appearing on his face which grew bigger the more he thought about it.

M = Memory (What is their favorite moment in your relationship?)

the time you bought matching rings for you and him! he remembers you dropping off the small gift bag at his door a few days after you’d been shopping with your friends. he opened it up to find a black ring with a moon shape carved of it, and a picture of your hand wearing the matching ring. he’d be lying if he said that he didn’t cry, scurrying back to his room to put it on straight away. he’d constantly be fidgeting with it, spinning it around his finger and thinking about you as he does so. when you two were together, he’d bring up the rings a lot, he would never be able to get over how cute they were, but he’d always be a little bummed out that you were too shy to give it to him in person.

N = No (What's their pet peeve?)

dirtiness. leaving a mess anywhere. just clean it up if you can, stop relying on him to always pick things up when you leave them lying around. he can sometimes tolerate it, but it builds up to the point where he has to complain about it because it’s getting too much.

O = Orange (What colour reminds them of their significant other?)

green. sage green particularly.

everything with you is so natural and fresh. you were such a new character when you came into his life, you were and still are like no one that he’s ever met before. he felt he could trust you and be himself around you instantly. you bring him comfort even though you’re someone that he’s never seen before.

P = Petnams (What pet names do they call their other half?)

baby, babygirl/babyboy, honey, sweetheart, prince/princess all that good stuff.

his favourite name to call you, though, is darling. especially when you two are alone, he thinks “darling” is so much more classy, intimate and loving, which perfectly describes your relationship.

he also calls you beautiful a lot (because that’s what u are hehe). that’s more so for when he’s asking you a question, though, especially when he’s buying something for you. “do you want this, beautiful?” ahh he’s so cute :(

Q = Quizzes (How much would they remember about you? Do they remember every little detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?)

he doesn’t have to remember, he just knows. knowing things about you is like knowing things about himself, he’s always ready and prepared for you to quiz him on anything because there’s no way that he can be wrong about it. even the stuff that you mention just briefly, he knows it. he’s also a very good judge of character, i think, so some things you don’t even have to tell him, he just knows.

oh and he LOVES to tell other people too. you’re his favourite topic of conversation, he could talk about you for hours and never run out of positive things to say.

R = Rainy day (What do they like to do on a rainy day?)

he doesn’t really care about the rain, he would just get on with his day as usual if he could. but not everyone wants to go out when it’s pouring down and he appreciates that so,,, did someone say karaoke??? he’s gonna be belting out high notes and rapping like his life depends on it. even if you’re not the usual type to join in, something about his energy makes you wanna get up and dance.

S = Security (How protective are they? How would they protect you? How would they like to be protected?)

you're his pride and joy, he’s going to do everything in his power to protect you. he believes that you can protect yourself, of course he does, and he doesn’t want to hurt you more than the thing he’s protecting you from, but he’s ready to intervene when he senses that things aren’t going as they should be.

if he can tell that you’re getting uncomfortable by someone’s presence, he’ll confront them and ask them to give you some space. he can get a little loud and aggressive with it when necessary too because no one should be made to feel like that.

it’s quite clear that jay isn’t the controlling type of boyfriend and so you don’t have to be worried about him being possessive. although he’d appreciate it if you told him where you’re going, just for his own peace of mind that should something happen to you, he at least knows where to find you.

T = Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?)

okay so i see jay as the type of guy who cares more for memories than materialistic things, so that would definitely be reflected in the gifts he gives too. would probably book a vacation for the pair of you, or a spa day for you or something along those lines for your birthday or big anniversaries. also for your birthday, he likes to write you handwritten letters every year, detailing how grateful he is to have you by his side and how proud he is of the person you are today. saying all that though, for 100 days together, he did buy you a giant teddy which he noticed you kept propped up on your desk chair. he even named it for you too :((.

dates with jay are really chill and relaxed during the day. they mostly consist of shopping or watching a movie at home and are very much “at your own pace”. he likes that you can both just be yourselves, especially when you are only in that dating phase, as he feels he can get to know you better. he loves to please you too!! he’d rather do something that you enjoy, even if he doesn’t particularly enjoy the activity himself, because he gets to see you smile <33. more intense dates usually come in the form of dinner dates, where you dress up and have a sit down meal somewhere. he puts in a heck of a lot of effort into these, he’ll be planning and arranging things for days before because he really wants to impress you (which of course, he does). he brushes up on his knowledge of the food that is on the menu and on the correct etiquette for the date because that’s really important to him.

U = Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?)

he loves to game. he has games on his phone, on his pc, on the tv, just about everything he owns, he can game on. so sometimes you get ignored if he’s gaming :(. he’d LOVE LOVE LOVE if you joined in, or if you asked questions or what not, but when he’s in the zone, he’s there for a good while and you just cannot seem to get him out of it. (call jungwon to turn his game off if necessary ❗️he’s experienced and willing)

V = Vulnerability (When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?)

he doesn’t want to tell you things too soon. he doesn’t want you to use them against him and hurt him just as he’s starting to fall for you. but he understands that the only way that things can develop is by telling you more and more about himself. i think you’d have to start it off, telling him some of the things that have shaped you into the person you are today, before he starts listing off the hardships that he’s had to endure in order to get to where he is now.

by the time you’re in a relationship, he trusts you completely. you know things about each other that no one else, not even the people closest to you, know.

W = Why (Why do they love their partner?)

you make him feel wanted, like he has a purpose, a role to play. when he feels like giving up, you’re there to help him back onto his feet. you give him a reason to do everything he wants to do and more. you appreciate him in ways that no one else has ever done, made him feel things that no one has ever made him feel, you’re someone he’s never had in his life before, and he loves you for it.

X = Xtra (A random headcanon for them.)

boyfriend jay gives you the best massages, out of the blue. when he sees you sat at his gaming chair, his hands immediately come to massage your shoulders. when you lie with your feet on his lap while sitting on the couch, he starts massaging them gently while you watch tv. just as you got done working out, he’s be there with a nice ice cold bath already run and some spa music playing in the background while he rubs your thighs and calves. he knows he’s good at them and puts his skill to good use whenever he can :D.

Y = Yuck (What are some things they wouldn’t like, but other people love in a relationship?)

engaging in constant pda. just yuck, he wants his own space and he doesn’t understand how you can’t want yours either. he wants to eat and drink without you latched onto his arm, and he wants to be able to stand in line without needing to hug you or vice versa. it’s not that he doesn’t want to show off your relationship, he just doesn’t think that PDA necessary all the time.

Z = Zzz (What is a sleep habit of theirs?)

sleeping with his eyes open lmao. kinda creepy but you know he can’t help it, he doesn’t even know that he’s doing it so 🤷🏻‍♀️.

to conclude, jay, this is an official proposal pls be our bestie/boyf

[happyandticklish]

Disarming Your Demons

Notes: Okay, so I’m only halfway through Jujutsu Kaisen, but I had an idea and I had to write it down. I’m not sure if I’m gonna write anything else for it until I actually finish the show, but I said that before and now this exists, so who knows really. 

Summary: Itadori discovers a new method to deal with misbehaving curses. 

Sharing a body with a thousand-year-old curse could have its downfalls, something Itadori was quickly becoming familiar with. Though he could control it most of the time, it was difficult, and took a strain on his mind and body. He put on a brave face afterwards, insisting that it was no big deal, but the truth was anything but. Sukuna’s ability to switch out with him was growing stronger, and the exhaustion was setting in faster now with each time Itadori wrestled back control over his body. In the heat of battle was one thing, edged on by desperation and the will to keep his friends alive. But it was the other times, when Itadori was tired and vulnerable and fully unprepared to battle his literal inner demons, that he regretted the lifestyle most.

Say, for instance, in his dorm room, half-asleep and dreary from a battle earlier that day.

“Hello again.”

Switching out with Sukuna was strange. He didn’t feel it in a physical sense, no pain or sensation inflicted upon him. One moment he was in his body, and the next he was trapped, a helpless bystander to the other’s will.

“You know, it’s awfully bold of those teachers of yours to leave you all alone like this at night.” Sukuna stood, stretching his arms above his head in satisfaction. “Do they really put so much stock in you to assume you’d be able to fight me, like this?”

“Sukuna.” Itadori’s voice was inaudible to anyone who might be passing by, an aimless thought floating around in his consciousness, but he knew the other could hear him nonetheless. “Give me back my body!”

“Please,” Sukuna dismissed, waving one hand as he strolled around the dorm, examining objects with a vague curiosity. “After you used me earlier? I’m growing rather tired of this dynamic, you know. Only ever summoning me when you need your friend healed, or a new big baddie rears its odious head. Then, afterwards, you hide me away without so much as a thank you.”

“I do appreciate your help,” Itadori started carefully, trying to keep his tone neutral. It was difficult though, when the other could easily read his true thoughts. “But you can’t expect me to simply hand my body over like some kind of puppet. I know what your true intentions are, and I won’t let you harm my friends or anyone else.”

“Oh, of course not, not heroic, selfless Itadori.” He placed a hand on the doorknob, twisting it and pushing the door open with one hand. “I wonder what would happen if I went to pay them a little visit now?”

“No!”

“Oh? Don’t like that, do you. Then why don’t you do something about it? Force me back, take over your body once more.” Sukuna chuckled dryly, pausing in the doorway. “If you can, that is. Don’t think I haven’t noticed the toll this is taking on you. Do you really think you have the strength to best me now, when you’re tired and weak from battle?”

Itadori tried, he really did. He knew he had to do this, but Sukuna was right. In his current state, he could hardly focus enough to remain present enough to speak to the other, let alone reclaim his physical form. With his last remaining willpower, he managed to gather enough strength to take control of one arm before he found himself blocked by the other. 

Sukuna’s eyes widened, and then he laughed, a throaty, derisive thing that made Itadori clench the fist he had. “One arm? Is that it? You truly are in for it now. I must say, I am impressed though. I didn’t think you had even that in you. Still, it’s no matter. I could end your world as you know it with both my hands tied behind my back. This pathetic defense is but a pebble in my path. I must thank you for the amusing display though—I needed a good laugh.”

Itadori watched helplessly as his body moved forward against his will, his mind racing as he tried to think of anything he could do in his position.

I needed a good laugh.

That was it!

Itadori would have smiled if he could use his mouth. An idea was formulating in his mind, crazy and nonsensical, but possibly just the thing he needed. It was a method that Gojo had employed once, to train him to focus on maintaining curse energy and resist distractions. He had no idea if the same thing would work on Sukuna, but seeing as he was in his body and therefore should be just as susceptible as Itadori had been, it just might work.

Sukuna stopped short as a jolt of sensation shot through him, and he snapped his head down to see his own hand squeezing his hip. “What the hell?”

“Ha! I didn’t think it would actually work!” Itadori’s voice rang out triumphant through the other’s mind as he squeezed again and again, quick and sudden so that Sukuna had no time to adjust to them. “Who knew that my own ticklishness would come in handy one day?”

“Tickli—what?” Sukuna started in confusion, but quickly slapped his other hand to his mouth to hold back… was that laughter?

He stumbled back against the wall, torn between shoving the other’s hands away and holding back the embarrassing noises leaking between his fingers. It was in times like these that he missed his four arms. It was hard enough to work with only two arms—one was impossible.

“W-What are you d-dohoing?” Sukuna grunted, trying to sound intimidating despite the silly grin quickly taking hold of his features.

“Tickling you, duh.” It was weird tickling his own body, and weirder still to have the sensation disconnected from him. He could feel the AC in the hallway on his arm, and the warmth of his hip under his hand, but that was all. It was disconcerting, but Itadori was grateful for it in this moment. He wasn’t sure he would’ve been able to continue if he could feel everything the other was feeling. He could only imagine how Sukuna was managing to stop himself from collapsing into an Itadori-sized puddle of laughter on the ground. “Haven’t you ever heard of tickling before?”

“I-Is that some k-kind of hihidden Jujutsu?” Sukuna snapped angrily, annoyed at the chuckle that had slipped into his words halfway through.

Laughter rang through his head, unhelpfully as Sukuna tried to hold back his own. “Dude, what? Of course not! Tickling is… well, it’s a human thing you know? When you lightly touch the human body, like this—” he scribbled his fingers up his sides suddenly—“They laugh! I’m not sure why though… science is still a bit iffy on that.”

Sukuna had stopped listening at this point. He had burst into panicked giggles the second Itadori touched his side, unprepared for the other’s change in strategy. Sukuna’s hand come down, wrapping around his wrist and pulling it up, away from his sides.

He drew in an exhausted breath, grinning in relief as he held the other firmly away from him. “There. Your… tickling, or whatever it is, is ineffectual now. Seems like you didn’t think this plan through, did you now?”

He was right. It was a temporary solution, but the truth was that Itadori was going to get nowhere with just one hand. Which was why…

Sukuna’s eyes widened as he felt a sudden pull at his person once more. His body was rebelling, and he fought back, trying to push back at Itadori’s attempt to switch back. He was getting stronger now, and Itadori was still weak, so it should be nothing to keep control from the brat. What he hadn’t expected was for Itadori to focus all his energy on reclaiming a single part of his body, leaving Sukuna unprepared for the concentrated force. He felt his fingers slipping on his wrist, his left arm losing connection just like the first one had.

“No!” Sukuna growled, but it was too late. Both arms were lost to him now, and he knew if Itadori could, he would be smirking.

“Yes,” Itadori countered. Surprisingly enough, he kept his one arm raised. He lowered the other one, poising his fingers under his arms and wiggling them in the air threateningly. “I remember this always being one of my worst spots. Unfortunately for you, I’m afraid.”

Sukuna narrowed his eyes in confusion, but before he could say anything he was stopped by the sensation of nails gently spidering under his arm. It was a slow, unhurried process, that never missed its mark. Instinct shot through him like a bullet and Sukuna attempted to bring his arm down protectively. He was stopped by the other’s remaining control of the limb, which kept it raised exposed and vulnerable over his head. It didn’t help that Itadori hadn’t worn a shirt to bed the previous night, so Itadori had full access to his bare torso.

Sukuna spluttered over a laugh, a hysterical cackling that only grew in desperation as time went on. Sparks flurried through him, his stomach erupting with what felt like millions of butterflies all taking off at the same time. It was impossible to explain how unbearable the feeling was, and Sukuna wondered how humans lived with such a weakness on their body all this time.

“A-Ahaha, stahahahap, eh, gah, stahahahap i-ihihit!” Sukuna’s head was thrown back, his eyes squeezed shut as a wild grin danced along his features. “Y-Yohohou irritahahating b-brahat!”

“Intense, right?” Itadori asked, not even trying to hide the amusement in his voice. “If only you had chosen a less ticklish vessel. You’re in for it now, though. I got to be honest, it’s kind of funny seeing a bigshot curse like you writhing around like a worm on a hook.”

“Shuhuhut uhuhuhup!” Sukuna demanded, though it came out far more giggly than he would have liked. He couldn’t concentrate like this, couldn’t even begin to start to try to reclaim his arms. He needed him to move his hand, maybe back to his hips, or somewhere else, anywhere else. He wasn’t sure if the rest of this body was less ticklish, only that he needed Itadori to move away from that spot.

“Not a chance,” Itadori scoffed. “This is way too much fun! Of course, you could always stop me. Just switch back and the tickling won’t affect you anymore; it’s that easy.”

“L-Lihihike hehehell Ihihihihi wihihihill!” He was slipping now, his body sliding down the wall in an attempt to get away. Unfortunately, you can’t run away from yourself, and those wiggling fingers followed him all the way down. “Cuhuhut ihihit ohohout wihihihith thahahat sphohohot!”

“Why?” Itadori asked innocently, loving this a bit too much for his own good. But could he really help it when he was given such a perfect oppurtunity for revenge? “Does it tickle too much for the big bad curse?”

Sukuna was going to kill him. Then, once he was sure the pest was well and truly dead, he was going to bring him back to life so he could kill him all over again. Right now, however, his focus was only on those devastating nails, light, barely-there touches that had his mind reeling. When his fingers traveled a bit too high, skittering at the top of his armpits, he finally gave in. “Yehehehes, ohohokay, ihihit tihihihickles, ohohor whahahatever y-yohou cahahalled ihihit! Sohohomewhehere ehehelse!”

“Are you sure you want me to go somewhere else?” Itadori questioned teasingly, circling the area with just one finger. Sukuna ducked his chin into his chest, unable to hold back the flood of giggles that caused. “Really sure?”

“Y-Yohohou, ahaha, yohou lihihittle—”

“Okay, okay.” Itadori moved his hand away, pulling his other arm down. Sukuna exhaled in relief, an exhausted grin still dancing on his features. Unfortunately, Itadori noticed. “Hey, don’t relax just yet. I’m not done with you. After all, you still haven’t given me back my body, have you?”

“What the hell—noHOHO!” Sukuna burst into laughter anew as his arms wrapped around himself, trapping him in a tickly hug as fingers wiggled up and down his sides. “S-SHIHIHIT!”

“Regretting your words yet?”

Sukuna thrashed wildly, howling as he doubled over in a useless attempt to protect himself. The snarky remarks were gone now, so completely was he lost to his own laughter. His skin twitched and goosebumps scattered up his sides, a helpless reaction to the playful tickling.

Because it was playful. Despite everything, he could tell that Itadori was having fun with this. And maybe, just maybe, the other was too. His insides felt warm and fuzzy in a way they hadn’t in a while, his laughter peaking between desperation and silly giggles. It was strangely addicting to give in like this, allowing the tickling to consume his thoughts and blur out any remaining negativity.

It was… nice.

“I-IIHIHITADORI!” His head was thrown back, a hearty flush spreading across his cheeks and warming his skin. “I-IHIHI CAHAHAN’T!”

“You know how to stop this,” Itadori reminded him. “Just switch back and the tickling stops.”

Sukuna fell back on the floor, unable to hold himself up against the relentless tickling. He let out a frankly embarrassing squeak, the sensations breaking through the last of his revolve. And finally, at last, he caved in.

With a start, Itadori felt the other ducking back into himself, releasing his body in the process. He stopped wiggling his fingers, sitting up slowly as he regained control of himself once more. He was sweaty and exhausted, like he’d just ran a marathon, and he could feel that familiar floating sensation in the pit of his stomach that came with being tickled.

“Damn brat,” Sukuna complained from inside him, and Itadori smiled fondly. He would have to remember this method for next time.

“What the hell?”

Itadori startled as a voice shot through his thoughts, and he glanced up to see Megumi standing in the hallway. He was still in pajamas, and his hair was sticking out in several directions. The look on his face implied he’d just woken up. The two made eye contact, Megumi taking in Itadori’s flushed features and his sprawled position on the floor.

Megumi furrowed his brows in confusion. “Itadori? I heard a noise and I thought… are you okay?”

“Yeah, yeah, totally,” Itadori dismissed, sitting up slowly. “I was… sleep-walking. Yeah, that’s it. Just a weird dream, that’s all. Nothing to worry about.”

Megumi continued to stare at him for a moment, clearly debating whether or not to believe the other. Finally, he sighed, rubbing his forehead tiredly. “Alright. If you say so. Just keep it down next time, will you? Some of us are actually trying to sleep.”

Itadori threw the other a hearty thumbs-up, grinning innocently. “Will do!”

Megumi frowned, but eventually disappeared back into his room, slamming the door behind him.

Itadori stood up fully, his legs a little shaky from the previous tickling, and decided to do the same. It was the middle of the night after all—sleep was probably in order. However, as he turned the knob to shut the door behind him, he heard a voice loud and clear in his head.

“Sleep tonight, young sorcerer, and get your rest. Because tomorrow—” a sudden pinch to his side as Sukuna wrestled control of his hand—“it’s your turn.”

Itadori regained control almost instantly, and his hand was his again as though nothing had happened. He smiled nervously, not doubting the other’s words for a minute.

And as he got into bed that night, pulling the covers tight around himself, he found he couldn’t wait.

[hihellogoodbyebruh]

Mother’s Day Drabbles

Pairing: Angel Reyes x Black!Reader, Miguel Galindo x Black!Reader, EZ Reyes x Black!Reader, Obispo Losa x Black!Reader

Summary: Four drabbles with my four favorite men from Mayans MC commemorating Mother’s Day with their loves.

Warning(s): Grief, loss of a child in the last drabble (sorry to my bishop girls) but the other ones are all fluffy goodness

Word count: 1,545

AN: It’s almost Father’s Day so y’know what sounds good? Reading some EXTREMELY late Mother’s Day drabbles!! lol. I haven’t posted anything in so long and these were in the drafts so here we are. Enjoy these random ideas that popped into my head. Trying to force myself to get into shorter form writing like drabbles and headcanons. As always, questions, comments, and concerns are welcomed. Happy reading! xo

Breakfast in bed - Angel (fluff)

“Daddy shhh! You gots ta be quiet.”

“Lo siento princesa.”

You fought to keep your eyes shut and not smile as they tried and failed at surprising you. You wouldn’t ruin their efforts so you just listened as they came into the bedroom and something was set on your nightstand.

It was silent for a moment before a ball of energy landed firmly on top of you, knocking the wind out of you and fully waking you up.

“Good morning mommy. I made you breakfast in bed.” Your beautiful little girl told you once she saw your eyes open.

A throat cleared and your eyes connected with your husband’s.

“Oh, Daddy helped too.” She added, getting comfortable in your lap as you sat up against your headboard and adjusted the bonnet on your head.

“Oh he did? Well thanks for helping Daddy.” You teased, as he took a seat on the bed next to you.

“Anything for you. Happy Mother’s Day.” Angel leaned in and kissed you on the lips once, twice, three times. The last peck lingered a little too long and the princess was not amused.

“Let her eat! The food is gonna get cold.” She grumbled, and you broke down in giggles. That daughter of yours was a sass machine and she stayed on her daddy’s head. He loved every bit of it.

“Okay, okay.” He relented, a grin on his face. Anything for his girls.

Coming home to a spotless clean house - Miguel (fluff)

As your driver pulled into the driveway of your large home, she sighed knowing your day had only just become. After a full day of work, she knew as soon as you stepped foot in the house you would need to pick up after the kids from their time running the nanny ragged. Then, you’d have to get dinner cooked before wrangling the kids to eat, bathe, and then sleep. No clue if you’d see your husband or if he was having a late night.

You loved your life. You loved your family. Sometimes things could just be a little tiring. But you put that smile on your face and you made your way into the house.

The quiet was the first thing to hit and surprise you. Your home was never this quiet at this time of day. You slowly walked further into the house, your nose guiding you to the kitchen where a delicious aroma caught your attention. As you rounded the corner, you were shocked to see your husband standing at the stove.

“Miguel?” You asked, confused at his presence and the state of the house. Everything was clean and put away. He was at home at a decent time and not off somewhere handling business. Something was going on.

“Hello mi amor.” He walked closer to you before grabbing your face and kissing your lips. You’d missed him today so you added a little pressure to the kiss, but it didn’t last long as there was a burning question on your mind.

“What’s going on? Where are the kids?” You asked, head swiveling, as soon as you ended the kiss, to see if you could spot them. You didn’t even notice Miguel maneuvering you onto one of the kitchen stools.

“The kids are in their rooms, dinner is cooking, the house is clean and you are going to enjoy this chardonnay I bought for you.” He handed you a glass and you took it without complaint. A sweet smile spread across your lips as you realized he did all of this for you.

“You do so many wonderful things for this family. I want you to enjoy your night to yourself. I will handle putting the children to bed and you will relax for the night. Your dinner should be done by the time I get back downstairs but in the meantime, I know you’ve been wanting to catch up on the new season of A Black Lady Sketch Show. It’s queued up in the living room.”

A kid wrangling free night? Your favorite tv show and wine? He already bought you everything you could ask for but this? This is so much better than any present he could have come up with. “How did I get so lucky?” You pondered, a dreamy smile on your face.

“I ask myself the same question every day. Happy Mother’s Day.” He replied, kissing you again before going to fulfill his promise.

Spa day for expectant mom - EZ (fluff)

Knowing what comes with being pregnant and actually experiencing the symptoms are two very different things. You don’t wanna say you underestimated things, but you were in the middle of your third trimester and you weren’t handling things very well.

“EZ!! EZEKIEL!” You hollered for him, from where you sat propped up on the couch. Your back was killing you, you couldn’t see your feet but you knew they were a hot mess, and you just generally felt uncomfortable. You knew it would all be worth it in the end, but the end was taking too damn long to get here.

Your boyfriend had been incredibly understanding of your constant mood swings. When you first told him you were pregnant, he went out and bought a bunch of pregnancy books. He was always reading one that first trimester. Angel would tease him and say he could just google everything, but EZ had always preferred having physical copies of text. He wanted to know everything you’d go through so he could help you deal with it.

You call him now and he doesn’t respond. You grow annoyed, but also slightly concerned because he never doesn’t answer you.

It took several tries but you manage to get yourself off the couch and head back towards your bedroom. When you push the door open, a wide smile breaks out on your face. The lights in the room were dimmed and your favorite candles were lit, bathing the room in a soothing scent. Songs from your ‘self care day’ playlist filled the otherwise silent air. On the bed was the biggest, fluffiest robe you’d ever seen in your life. There was also a basket filled with goodies including face masks, different color nail polish, massage oil, and your favorite snacks.

“What is all of this?” You asked your boyfriend who had almost as big a smile on his face as you did.

“You didn’t seriously think I’d just let your first Mother's Day go by with no acknowledgment, did you?”

You blinked somewhat in surprise. “I...I mean yeah I guess. My first Mother’s Day is next year. Baby Reyes isn’t even here yet.”

“So? You’re carrying our child. You gonna let me spoil you or you gonna keep making excuses why I can’t?” He asked, his eyebrow raised and a sly smirk on his face.

“Spoil away then.” You grinned, holding out a hand for him to take before pampering you for the rest of the night.

Cuddles - Bishop (angst, heed the tw up top please)

The ray from the television was the only light source illuminating the living room. You were laying on your side on the couch, eyes on the tv but not truly paying attention to it. The light from the tv reflected off the tear stains left in her cheeks.

Bishop came back from dealing with club stuff and leaned on the doorway just watching you. He knew it was a rough day for you. Everyday was hard, but today was especially hurtful. He’d be feeling the same way just next month.

He placed his kutte onto the armchair and slipped off his shoes before climbing over you. You jumped a little at his presence but he just gently nudged you up so he could squeeze between you and the back of the couch.

One arm slid under your head and the other rested on your waist as he settled in. The hand on your waist reached out and gently ran a thumb over the little face in the picture frame you held tightly in your hands.

“Our sweet boy.” He whispered, a sad smile on his face.

Your breath hitched and your shoulders began to shake as you silently cried. You missed him so much. The whole day you stayed inside hoping to avoid all the mother celebrations, but that didn’t help. The hurt ran deep and no amount of avoidance could stop it. This day was a special slap in the face and every year the last three years have been spent like this.

Bishop curled the arm under your head until his elbow laid on your clavicle. He wrapped his other arm around your waist and pulled you tight against him.

“You’ll always be his mother. That love is forever.” He softly but firmly stated before pecking your shoulder over and over.

You released a breath you didn’t realize you were holding in at the feel of him squeezing you tightly. It was comforting. He was always holding you together. He understood your pain and even though it hurt worse some days than others, you knew you had to continue on.

But for right now, you would cry in your man’s arms and hope next year went better.

[batsandbugs]

A Kiss With a Fist

AN: Hey everyone another fic coming at you! This is for the Maribat Drabble Exchange hosted by @eat0crow I’m so excited to be participating! My fic was for @pixiebuggiewrites​ who wanted a Daminette soulmate fic. Sorry I couldn’t squeeze anybody else in here it was already getting pretty long! I hope you all enjoy! You can also read it here on ao3! (Pictures are NOT mine)

Damian stormed away from the hotel, aggressively zipping his coat. He didn’t care where he was going, only that it was away from here.

He didn’t want to be in Paris. He didn’t want to watch out for incompetent amateurs. He didn’t want to ‘control your anger, Damian’. He wanted to be sent home.

The calm night taunted him, the Parisian streets were too bight and too clean, resembling nothing like his dark city. He missed patrolling, he missed his animals, hell, a part of him (a small, barely negligible part he would never admit to) even missed his siblings. But no, he was stuck here, under his father’s orders until the situation in Paris drew to a conclusion.

Considering it took five years for outside help to be even called in, he had no clue how long the mission would last. He still hadn’t met the so-called-heroes of Paris, but the research he conducted showed they were ill-trained, undisciplined, and relying on so much luck it was a fucking miracle their city wasn’t a smoking ruin by now.

He sighed, sticking his hands deeper into the pockets of his coat. He regretted not grabbing his gloves in his storm out. He’d been so irritated at his father that even though the man was on the other side of a screen, half-way across an ocean, Damian needed to physically leave to calm his anger. It left him little time to grab essentials for a chilly winter night like a hat, or gloves. He considered himself lucky for remembering to grab a coat at all.

He wandered for a solid hour, the cold sinking into his bones chilling the raging inferno that always seemed to bubble inside him. By the time he no longer wanted to scream at anyone, he was sufficiently lost, considering he hadn’t taken his phone with him either.

Coming to rest on a bridge he took a seat on a small bench. He puffed a warm breath of air into his chilly hands rubbing them together. Nighttime in Paris was so… different compared to Gotham. While big cities never truly slept, this was positively peaceful in comparison to what he was used to. He hadn’t even heard a single sound of ruckus or distress, which seemed strange considering the city was currently besieged by a magical butterfly terrorist.

Damian inwardly scoffed. Butterfly terrorist. True, being a Gothamite meant no room to judge, but he found it hard to think of a stranger string of words.

He sighed; Damian didn’t even know what his father wanted him to do here. Sure, he knew French and was a proficient fighter, but what could that even lend to the situation? They needed a detective, and, as much as he hated to admit it, Drake would have been the better option in that department. Unfortunately, he was off-world. Grayson was dealing with a problem in Hong Kong with Cass. Brown was paired with the rest of the Sirens taking care of Gotham along with Batman, and Todd…

Well, even he recognized what an awful choice Todd would be against a villain who literally used strong negative emotions as his weapon of choice. Damian had a temper; Todd was a ticking-time-bomb.

A high-pitched screech cut through the night air, before being noticeably muffled. Damian was on his feet and running before he even mentally acknowledged it. The thud of his boots on the cobblestone bridge sent small shocks through his legs. Another large clatter directed him off to a side street a couple of feet away. Three men had cornered a tiny slip of a woman, who held her purse like a weapon.

Damian saw red. “Hey, why don’t you pick on someone your own size,” he yelled in French. There was one benefit to being in a foreign city, Damian did not have to play the part of a clueless rich kid who couldn’t hold his own in a fight.

The brutes turned to him and grinned mean smiles. One guy stepped forward. “Come on man, we’re just having a little fun. You can join if you-” Damian cut off the disgusting words with a jab to the nose. Then he spun around, sweeping the second guy’s feet from underneath him, hitting him with a punch to the face to knock him out cold. The first guy hadn’t lost consciousness, but he was doubled over which allowed Damian to knee him in the stomach. Another punch to the face and he was out cold too.

He turned to finish off the last guy, only to see the woman roundhouse kicking him to the head. The burly man fell with a thud. The alley turned eerily silent, the only sounds coming from the sharp breaths of both Damian and the girl. His pulse fluttered fast; the heat of the battle warmed his chilled limbs.

A red purse laid on the ground near his feet. Picking it up he walked over to the small woman, no teen she looked about his age, who was still sharply breathing.

“Here, this is-” a blur is all he saw before a sharp pain spread across his nose.

Did she-

Did she just punch him in the face?

The shock of it sent him sprawling onto the ground, and he blinked away the tears forming in his eyes. Damian cradled his throbbing nose, anger bubbled once more under his skin before-

*Zing*  

The connection hit him like a train. A deep well of rightness spreading through him. He looked up through bleary eyes to find the woman staring at him in similar shock.

“You’re my soulmate,” they sputtered at each other.

Damian inwardly groaned. The League made initiates kill their soulmate should they ever find them to prove their loyalty. He grew up never wanting to find his soulmate, knowing they would serve as nothing but a distraction and weakness. Even when he joined his father, the idea seemed an unneeded liability. Sure, his brothers found their soulmates within the superhero community, but what were the chances he would too?

A small whimper escaped the mouth of the guy lying unconscious on the ground, knocked out by the woman the universe thought would be the perfect match for him. Damian tilted his head. She might not be a superhero, but maybe the universe knew him better than he first imagined.

“OhmygoshIamsosorry!” the flood of words spilled from his soulmate’s mouth, her face a deep shade of red. “I was just-”

“Acting on instinct and adrenaline? Appropriate, considering the threat you just faced,” he said without anger. “Your right hook is sufficiently adequate.”

“Um… thanks? Are you alright though?” She extended a hand to help him off the ground. He took it, his larger hand enveloped hers, but she showed a surprising amount of strength as she pulled him up. The contact sent another *zing* through his body, smaller and more subdued though. Damian found himself reluctant to let go.

“Yes, yes, I’m fine.” He suffered worse in training before. With the initial pain dissipated, all that was left was a dull throbbing that would be gone by morning. “Are you okay?”

“Yeah, I’m good,” she said with a bright smile. He took the chance to finally observe his soulmate. She was small, couldn’t be more than 5’2, which meant at 6’1 he towered over her. She was of mixed descent, with dark hair spilling over her shoulders, and bright blue eyes. Her arms and legs were toned with muscle, and she held herself with grace and confidence. She wore a face of tasteful makeup and was clothed in a short red dress and a pair of strappy heels with no jacket in sight. He had no clue how she wasn’t freezing to death.

Her smile dimmed a bit. “Actually, no, I’ve had better days. Today has kinda been a perfect disaster; first I’m late for school, then I forgot my homework, and my class bully decided it was a pick-on-Marinette day. There’s a three-hour Akuma fight, involving mind-control, which is always a total drag. I finally get home to find my parents worried sick about me because I hadn’t answered my phone which got destroyed at the beginning of the fight. I go to my class’s senior Valentine’s day dance hoping to finally confess to the guy I’ve had a crush on for years, only to get humiliated because he already has a girlfriend, and everyone else in my class knew and decided not to tell me. When I get away not to cause a scene, not only do I forget my jacket, but I also get attacked by three bumbling idiots with more mouths than brains.” She chuckled, hollow and verging on manic.

Damian stood there, unsure how to take all of that. He filed away the fact she was being bullied, and that she commonly dealt with Akuma attacks. Both equally important, as far as he was concerned.

“Now, here I am, standing in front of my gorgeous soulmate I punched in the face, after beating up said earlier idiots, rambling my mouth off because I don’t know the meaning of the word chill. Yep! I’ve certainly had better days. Ohmygoshimatotalmesskillmenow.” She muttered the last part into her hands, but Damian understood her all the same.

He would come back to the gorgeous thing later.

“…Do you want my jacket? You look cold.” It wasn’t the smoothest thing he could have said, nor the most appropriate considering the mess of a day she’d had. However, the manners Alfred drilled into his brain came knocking and if he was cold with a turtle-neck long-sleeved shirt and a jacket, she must be freezing in all that… nothingness. He averted his eyes from her exposed skin, looking at her face instead.

His soulmate looked at him for a long moment, before closing her eyes and taking a deep breath.

“You know what, yeah, a jacket would be nice,” she said in a tired voice. Damian shed his coat quickly, not minding the sharp sting of cold that hit him. He helped his soulmate into the sleeves and took an odd little pleasure in seeing how tiny she looked in the folds of his jacket.  

“I’m Marinette, by the way, Marinette Dupain-Cheng.” She wrapped the jacket closer cuddling into the heat. “Sorry for kinda freaking out on you there.”

“The kind of day you’ve had has surely broken lesser mortals. Any coping method is your due. I’m Damian, Damian Wayne. It’s a pleasure to meet you Marinette.” He smiles, although the gesture feels odd, trying to appear non-threatening. While his soulmate (and maybe he was coming around to this faster than he thought possible) was obviously skilled at dealing with a variety of stressors, he didn’t want to add any more and risk her being akumatized.

“You as well Damian.” She shivered despite the added protection of his coat, as a gust of wind swept through the alleyway. “As much fun as this conversation has been, it might be best for us to get out of the cold.”

“Indeed. What will we do with these inconveniences?” he asked, poking one of the guys with the tip of his boot.

She sighed, picking her purse from the ground where he’d dropped it. “We’ll call the police to come pick them up. They’ll be cold, but fine.”

Damian scowled, “It’s better than they deserve.” He sneered at the guy who offered for Damian to join them. Join them in assaulting this tiny, bright girl, who’d been through enough. His soulmate. The bubbling rage began anew, and he wished he’d done more than just knock them unconscious, they deserved far worse for thinking, daring, to touch-

A small hand rested on his arm, dragging him out of his violent thoughts. “I’m fine Damian. Even if you hadn’t arrived, I would have been fine. I can hold my own in a fight. This is Paris after all.”

“Tt,” Damian scoffed. “Fine. We’ll leave them to their fates.” And if their fates happened to involve complete ruination of their online lives, credit scores, and secure information? Well, that was hardly his fault, now was it?

“There’s a good café opened late around the corner. Would you- would you like to go there?” Marinette asked.

Damian smiled at the tentative offer. “I would very much enjoy that, yes. I’ve been out for longer than I should, coffee would be great right about now.” She giggled and he felt his stomach flutter. Funny, giggling always annoyed him, but that bright clear sound... he could grow used to that.

Walking out of the dark alley, listening to Marinette talk to the police on her phone, Damian sighed. The streets no longer felt too clean, or the lights too bright. Yes, he was colder, and yes this was a complication, but for some reason, Damian could not bring himself to care.

Maybe Paris wouldn’t be so bad after all.

[yawchannel]

INTERVIEW: The Falcon And The Winter Soldier for SFX Magazine (Anthony Mackie and Sebastian Stan Part) (Issue 337, February 24th, 2021)

By Tara Bennett

WING MAN

Anthony Mackie is Sam Wilson / Falcon

SFX: You’ve admitted that initially you weren’t sure on the idea of doing an MCU Series. Why?

ANTHONY: To be honest, I’ve had trepidation from the beginning. I was really afraid of the idea. Working on so many Marvel projects, and seeing the end result and the effect that they have on people, I was afraid that the quality of the production would be taken down for television. I was afraid that you can’t do things on television that you can do in theatres.

Seeing people’s reactions to Avengers: Infinity War and Endgame in the theatres, and hearing the connection that the audience members have with these characters... that’s every actor’s dream, to affect an audience and expose them to a different way of looking at culture and the world around us. I was really afraid that I wouldn’t have that opportunity to step out on that ledge like the actors before me had.

But once we talked, and once they brought on Malcolm and Kari, I knew it was going to be something different. Kari is a phenomenal leader, and Malcolm is an amazing writer. And Kevin promised me that it wasn’t going to be different. He’s not going to tarnish the Marvel brand by trying to just blow out as much content as he could. And I trusted him on that. They haven’t let me down yet, so I just went along for the ride on faith of their past work. And I was really pleasantly surprised by how great everything turned out.

SFX: Steve was an integral part of both Sam and Bucky’s lives. How does the show explore his absence?

ANTHONY: With Sam and Bucky, the idea of losing Steve looms heavily in their day-to-day-life. Captain America - not just a moniker, but the person - was a huge influence on both of them. The idea of the moniker is not as important as the person that they lost. Their whole goal, and their whole focus, is to honour Steve, because he left them with such a huge task to pick up where he left off. Just the weight of the shield with no Steve leads us to believe that there might not be another Captain America. There will never be another Steve Rogers, so for the two of them, the idea of the Captain America moniker is more of a burden than a blessing. They really try and allow that to be an influence of the legacy that he left, and how they can keep that legacy alive and support him - while also missing him and being very sad that he’s not around any more.

SFX: Will we see more of Sam’s regular life?

ANTHONY: We get to see more of them in their surroundings, their personal life, with people who influence their life day-to-day: family members, friends, co-workers. You got a little bit of it with Sam when Steve went to the VA when they first met. But now you really get to see his twists and turns and where exactly he fits in his nine-to-five, as opposed to him just sitting around waiting for Cap to call. That was one of the biggest pitches that Nate and Kevin gave to me that really intrigued me and excited me about this story.

SFX: Exploring Sam’s big choice when it comes to taking up Cap’s shield encompasses so many real-life issues, including race. Was Malcom a solid partner in conveying that?

ANTHONY: You know, it wasn’t just Malcolm and I. What was really interesting was Kari [Skogland] and Zoie [Nagelhout] were very local in the idea of who this man was, and what he was going to mean to the society that we were presenting him to. It’s funny, with Kari being a white Canadian woman, and Zoie being a white American woman, they had such strong parts of opinion and such interesting ways of seeing this character that were way more aggressive than anything I could have imagined. Their perspective and bravery, as two women leading the charge, to show the situation that this character was being thrust into in the world that he lived in, was very humbling. I always felt support. It always felt like there were people around me who were paying attention to what we were saying as a show.

BUCKY STAR

Sebastian Stan is Bucky Barnes / The Winter Soldier

SFX: After Endgame, how did you feel overall, about staying in the MCU?

SEBASTIAN: At the end of Endgame it was sort of strange and emotional. At the time, it was the 10-year anniversary, so everything felt like an ending, of sorts, even though we recognised that there was probably going to be more to it. But it was great to be able to have a discussion about the future.

SFX: Who at Marvel Studios initially pitched the idea of this series to you?

SEBASTIAN: I sat with Kevin [Feige] initially. And then with Nate Moore, who I had done Civil War and Winter Soldier with, and had an unbelievable experience. I think I was a little nervous, because part of me felt like “I’m not even sure if I know what’s left to be explored with the character”. But we actually discovered so much more. And I feel like the character now is coming off in such a different, deeper and more complex way than we’ve seen him. I thought I had explored the character, as he was, enough, but we actually had only scratched the surface. What we’re able to do with him in this series is just on such a deeper emotional level, and we didn’t have that opportunity before.

SFX: What was most interesting to you about doing a series?

SEBASTIAN: The idea of exploring this character now, separately, from Steve Rogers and from that storyline, and putting him in the world, and giving him an opportunity to really, truly, have to face who he is - everything about that was exciting. And the idea of working with Anthony was exciting, because I know we have something special and we’ve never gotten a chance to explore it.

SFX: Who are Sam and Bucky to one another in this series?

SEBASTIAN: They both despise each other equally! [Laughs] I mean, there’s some truth to that. But it’s also a discovery for both of them to realise that they actually have much more in common than they thought. They come at it from different backgrounds. But essentially, they’re both two people trying to find their new identity, and that really has nothing to do with Steve Rogers. Steve Rogers is much more the catalyst, like the event that sets off the bomb that causes both of them to go, “Okay, that happened. Now, let me deal with these things”. I think it’s about them figuring out that they need each other much more than they want to accept.

SFX: With no Steve to lean on, what is Bucky focused on?

SEBASTIAN: It’s a bit of re-educating that happens at the same time. He’s learning a lot about Sam, and he’s also learning about the world, because it’s a very different world than when we was last “James Bucky Barnes” in the ‘50s. He’s always got to deal with the shadow that’s following him. Now it’s more of a question of, how does he take what he’s learned and apply it for himself, going forward? How do you go out there in 2021 and function, knowing what he knows and what he’s bee through? And also, how do you do it without somebody who was a brother by his side, who was a staple of strength, or familiarity? You take away even the last comfort zone - what does he have? That’s what the show is about for him.

SFX: Why do you feel that Bucky has been able to retain fan sympathy during his dark arc?

SEBASTIAN: He felt much more reachable and reachable than other characters, perhaps because of the arcs of trying to cope with the past, or getting over some trauma, or PTSD. And his level of finding oneself again, redefining yourself, your morals, your values, who you are, what you believe in, the challenges that you have - in terms of accepting the world a certain way - understanding that maybe how you grew up and what you’ve learned isn’t going to always help you find your path. You’re going to have to maybe go against the things that you’ve been used to. Those are all things about this character that are very interesting.

There are two more interviews with Showrunner Malcolm Spellman and Director Kari Skogland included in the issue!

If you'd like to get a copy, SFX Magazine Issue 337 is available to purchase both physically and digitally worldwide! https://magazinesdirect.com/mobile/az-single-issues/6937139/sfx-magazine-single-issue.thtml

[amateurasstrologer]

THE PLANETS #4 JUPITER (IN THE HOUSES)

Ah, Jupiter. This gentle giant. This moon hauling mama. As always, Miss Red is misread by the mainstream. Let's break it down.

What do we know about Jupiter? Something about luck, philosophy, risk taking, joke making. Alright - kind of, but not really.

Jupiter has nothing to do with stand-up and everything to do with growing up. This mammoth orb is the maturity maker. Wherever Jupiter falls in your chart shows you where you’ve got some growing to do - it’s the area where you need to learn how to manage your energy better, so you can shed that self-centered baby shit you got going on and learn how to cooperate with the big bad world and connect with deeper shit you got inside you.

Miss Red helps you organize and understand your life - Jupiter helps you take your giant, gooey glob of experiences and structure all that shit into a story with a meaning. This is why we associate Jupiter (and Sag) with philosophy - not because Jupiter is some stormy brain in the sky eating grapes and thinking thoughts for fun, but because the meaning you take away from your fantastic farrago of experiences becomes your “life philosophy.” You don’t just wake up all fresh and newly born with a deep, dimensional understanding of life, you develop that shit over time, through having and processing experiences. 

We think of Jupiter as a jovial, risking taking baddie, but the deeper dimension to this risk taking trope is that the more you put yourself out there, the more you solidify your understanding of you are. Yep, you’ve gotta live - however "living” looks like for you - because it’s through getting out there and gathering experiences that you start to figure out who the fuck you really are and what the fuck you’re actually about. Jupiter is the planet of getting your mf shit together - learning, maturing, cooperating, and developing into a fully functioning member of society.

Really, Jupiter is a bridge. It helps you move away from being a self-centered bitch and move towards being part of the bigger picture. But in order to be part of it, you gotta see it to begin with. Let Jupiter show you were you got the most potential to mature.

As always, particulars for the party people:

JUPITER IN THE FIRST (1) You better think about phasing out your insecurity fueled need to push yourself away and stop deep-throating rigid beliefs, so that you can grow into one seriously deep bitch capable of knowing, trusting and relying on herself, her feelings, and her findings above all else.

JUPITER IN THE SECOND (2) You better think about phasing out your ego-trip induced belief that you own and control shit, so that you can grow into one seriously wise bitch capable of managing and expanding all kinds of wealth - physical, mental and emotional.

JUPITER IN THE THIRD (3) You better think about phasing out your inconsiderate, unaccountable, rigid ass way of thinking, so that you can grow into one seriously focused bitch capable of intentionally directing and organizing your mind, relationships and environment.

JUPITER IN THE FOURTH (4) You better think about phasing out your weak ass definitions of “real” and your inability to deal with even a single one of your feelings, so that you can grow into one seriously grounded bitch capable of having the most stable, secure, nourishing relationships to ever grace the Earth.

JUPITER IN THE FIFTH (5) You better think about phasing out your radically incorrect self-perception and emotionally irresponsible behavior, so that you can grow into one seriously charming bitch capable of leading others, creating dope ass shit, and really, truly believing in herself.

JUPITER IN THE SIXTH (6) You better think about phasing out your self-sabotaging “it is what it is there’s nothing I can do besides blindly accept my fate” monologue, so that you can grow into one seriously aware bitch capable of refining her values and making actual moves towards creating a truly fulfilling life.

JUPITER IN THE SEVENTH (7) You better think about phasing out your insanely selfish need to avoid responsibility and emotional maturity in relationships like it’s the fucking plague, so that you can grow into one seriously fearless bitch capable of meeting other people where they’re at, ready to get your fucking change on through relationships.

JUPITER IN THE EIGHTH (8) You better think about phasing out your superiority complex “I’m deeper than you” manipulative emotional hedge fund persona, so that you can grow into one seriously real bitch capable of reaching the deepest depths and bringing all kinds of mfs together through empathy, knowledge and understanding.

JUPITER IN THE NINTH (9) You better think about phasing out your delusional, never seen a fact “I’m right and everybody else is wrong” narrative, so that you can grow into one seriously open bitch capable of long game planning and management and spiritual understanding.

JUPITER IN THE TENTH (10) You better think about phasing out your “nobody understands me” bs that continues to excuse your unhealthy, secretive behavior, so that you can grow into one seriously powerful bitch capable of holding herself to the highest standard and fucking living by it.

JUPITER IN THE ELEVENTH (11) You better think about phasing out your endless list of excuses as to why you can’t rise the fuck up to the occasion and make a single difficult decision, so that you can grow into one seriously visionary bitch capable of standing the fuck up for what’s right and putting your genius plans into action.

JUPITER IN THE TWELFTH (12) You better think about phasing out your unaccountable, tree-in-the-wind filled need to get blown around by everybody’s energy, so that you can grow into one seriously perceptive bitch capable of emotionally holding her own and subtly and effectively managing the group vibe.

Peace, bitches. Happy charting.

XO BULLSHIT FREE ASTROLOGY

[lilmajorshawty]

I hope this isn’t to vulgar to ask but have you experienced men of every rising sign? More so would you be able to speak on the genitalia of all the eighth house signs in men you’ve encountered? I would like to see if there is any merit in the general depictions of the eighth house when it comes to sex organs

Haha you’re fine my love! I don’t mind being of help!

I personally attract virgo, Sagittarius, Gemini, Scorpio rising men the most. I have had sexual encounters with men of all 12 zodiac signs and I’ve managed to get rising signs for a great deal of them! Sadly I can’t speak broadly on many of the rising signs considering the higher volume of the four I just mentioned being the majority of the ones that come my way.

Aries rising men: in my experience? Sweet, they are very much what you see is what you get types considering their entire chart is a reflection of the natural traits of all 12 zodiac signs in their comfortable houses. Sexually I would say their sexual organs look dark, like literally they have a darker tone then the rest of their body. They aren’t rough sexually but they can be very intense, if I could describe them? I’d say it felt like I was swimming in a pool at night with strobe lights at the bottom. They know how to have sex and it feels good, they are very much so emotionally available during and after. Very violent orgasams and can seem very spiritual during.

Taurus rising men: in my experience? Babies. They can be needy and distant at the same time, very weird mix. They want things at a very specific time and can be hard to compromise with especially sexually. the thing that stood out to me is how fast they ejaculate, and I don’t mean this in a bad way, they are just very easily aroused much like a literal bull. They tend to love foreplay but if you’re too good at it they’ll cum fast. They can be very vibrant and bubbly during sex lots of laughter, but if they’re not laughing they’re usually just super into it lmao. They have very big and long sexual organs. I wouldn’t say thick, I would say more like a long sword in typical sag style. They are very out of tune emotionally during sex so that’s the only downside.

Gemini rising men: in my experience? Sad boys. They got issues and they’re not good at hiding them. They can seem moody, aloof and slightly misunderstood. I can’t peg them sometimes, they seem like they have a mixture of mommy and daddy issues but then they can seem arrogant and self assured at a moments notice. Domination kinks and restriction plague them. I would say the sex is often sensual and deeply attentive in its nature. They want to feel all of it and none of it at the same time. Touch and physical intimacy is the thing they adore the most in sex and I think that’s what makes them so special. They’re really sweet and good natured and you get to see that part of them more freely during sex as contrary to the belief of Capricorn in the 8th these natives are tremendously affectionate and loving during sex. I will say that they get sad or more serious after climax and I have no idea wether Saturn does that or if it’s something deeper. They may be a bit on the smaller side when it comes to sexual organs in most cases but they know how to use it for sure. They are very horny like the goat

Cancer rising men: in my experience? I’ve dealt with some who have cap and others who have aqua in the 8th, for some reason the result is still similar in a way. They can be soooo receptive, they know what you need better than you do. They are present but not overbearing. They feel parental but in a way that feeds the parts of you that felt like they were missing something. I’d say sex always comes with a lesson with them. It’s never just casual sex. They tend to nurture during sex and can be very emotionally deep and connective during. They are definitely the type you spend the night with naturally or hang out with the next few days or unexpectedly end up dating. The sexual organs are usually pretty unique! Some curve, some have like those cute beauty marks on em. They also tend to be well hung.

Leo rising men: in my experience? I found them to be distant, perplexing and heavy. They seem a bit disengaged but can have moments of affectionate behavior and romantic burst that come from nowhere. Sexually though they can be passive, they feel real wet and liquidy I dunno how to describe it. Sex with them just feels very moist and like there’s a lot of fluids everywhere but idk it doesn’t feel like a bad thing. They precum a lot and can be very submissive. They are not horny per say? They are more on the “if you wanna” side of things. So Neptune and Jupiter rule Pisces so as you can already imagine these men tend to be packing some heat. They sorta dunno how to use it though? For some reason they have a very clumsy way of having sex as if they’ve never done it before? They don’t really have boundaries either so you’ll need to make sure to ask them if they’re okay cause a lot of the time they might not be.

Virgo rising men: in my experience? I’m gonna try and not be biased. These men are very ethereal. They are very quiet and genuine. They have this very honest and blunt way about doing and saying things. They carry a lot of pain though and you can see it in their eyes which I will say they have very intense eyes. Sexually? They are VERY passionate. They treat sex like a sport but not a fun sport, rather they treat it like a life or death ring match. They definitely pack a punch and will rock your shit. They can be deeply sensitive and intimate all the while being completely in tune with every part of you during sex in such a way that’ll make you feel like you’re freefalling. The genitals in my experience are veiny, very masculine in the way they look. Every time I see a guy with a Virgo rising it never ceases to amaze me how rough and aggressive their penis are. They are also very intense ejaculators and can be very big on equal ejaculation(my pleasure is your pleasure theme) contrary to the Aries myth, they can go and go and go for hours without cumming so as a warning please try and build your stamina

Libra rising men: in my experience? Confused? They can seem like they’re waiting for something to start but also won’t do anything to make something start. They can seem aggressive but are secretly hoping you make the first move. They are very touchy and very adorable in their being but they definitely can be the types to let the other person take the lead. One thing I’ve always liked about libra rising men is their cute butts and their charming way of seducing you without oversexualizing the situation. Sexually they are AMAZING Jesus. Once you get them going they will really run rampant. They are very sensual and they love slow touching and intimacy. They are emotionally present and can have a personality change during sex, they turn into a whole other Individual. A warning I will say is that they get very caught up in the moment and you’ll have to snap them out of it from time to time if they’re to caught up in the pleasure. They’re sexual organs like most fixed signs is pretty thick and heavy. In my experience the length is normal but the girth is what will really kill yah.

Scorpio rising men: in my experience? Fuck these guys are HOT. They don’t have to try very hard either which is annoying, they literally just exude this strong, mysterious and emotionally unavailable energy that makes you want to strip right in front of them. Are they into you? Do they care? Are you more into it then them? Who knows and they probably won’t tell you. They can be very manipulative and tend to gaslight(and I’m not joking about this nor am I jokingly using the term) they tend to have mental detachments from their emotions which can give them sociopath like tendecies. Sexually they are curious, very control oriented. They want to watch you go crazy so most times they leave you in charge. Riding is one of their favorite positions because they get to see you fein for them. They are senstive to your feelings during sex but don’t mistake this for them being emotionally invested in you, the Gemini in their 8th house is playing whatever role gets you to respond in the way they desire. They are very loving nonetheless when they do truly care for you. The sexual organs are usually very thick. I think they’re the ones who invented the word chode. The penis tends to be girthy and also has a pretty good length to it, and they definitely know how to work it.

Sagittarius rising men: in my experience? These guys are some fucking heartthrobs! I hate to say it but man they are so rugged and masculine you can’t help but love their boyish nature. They are definitely obnoxious, loud and ridiculously dense when it comes to reading the room. What makes them so hot though is how reckless they are with all things. They don’t give a shit. Sexually though? Emotions run HIGH they tend to be very drawn to feminine energy. A lot of guys like this adore feminity in all forms be it in men or women. If you have that feminine glow to you, they’ll eat you up. They tend to have a strong desire to impregnate and the idea of being connected and having that sort of emotional receptivity with the person their fucking drives them wild. They are very intense sexually and can be very overwhelming the first few times mainly because adjusting to them is impossible, you never know what emotional spectrum you’ll get. Their sexual organs aren’t that big, sometimes they can be girthy but most times long and or average size tends to be what I see more. Are they good at using it? Yeah, you’ll fall asleep right after trust me.

Capricorn rising men: in my experience? They are very unassuming. They are so fucking calm, so fucking unmoved and so fucking ahead of you every time. They don’t rush things and can really make you feel so comfortable with how respectful and real they are. They have a very boy next door or upstairs neighbor vibe to them. Sleeping with them feels naughty sometimes other times it feels like it was a long build up. Sexually they are exhibitionist. They definitely will fill the hell out of you with their more modest persona at first. They want to enjoy all parts of your body but they also want the show to be about them. They want to hear you want them, how good they make you feel, they want it to feel like a performance where the crowd is watching. And dare I say they are constantly mastering their art, sex gets better and better and better with them. There’s never a dull moment and every time they have sex with you it gets more personal, more intense, more all consuming. They have a high libido and they are practically insatiable. They are selfish but I will say this, if you can’t get them off they definitely will do it themselves. Their sexual organs are often brighter than the other parts of their body. Very pretty too look at and also a bit on the hairy side.

Aquarius rising men: In my experience? They can seem really standoffish and for a good reason. They tend not to like ignorance and the more they see you trying hard to relate to them the less they’ll acknowledge you. They like the idea of someone who is down for them but not the idea of someone who is groveling, don’t and I mean don’t by any means act like a fan. They tend to run hot and cold for ever even if they like you. Sexually they can be meticulously planning the whole thing. The meet up, the positions, the foreplay all of it. They tend to need warnining or to know both parties had time to clean up. They’re not ones for sex on the fly or random sex as it can lead to a lot of unnecessary accidents. They’re attentive and very much the types to make you feel like you’re clay and you’re being sculpted into something magnificent. Their amazing at sex, they are like gallileo, or Mozart when it comes to the act. They move around your body like a serpent, then a leaf in the wind, than rain touching your skin. They are more focused on your pleasure than theirs so orgasms/reaching climax can be tough for them. The sexual organs are pretty small or average in most cases. If mars/Jupiter or Neptune/Uranus is there that augments things.

Pisces rising men: In my experience? They are definitely ass men. Everything revolves around booty. They are definitely soft and very sweet, but they have a sweetness to them that is fake. The real them is far more serious and self aware then they give off. They know what they’re doing and they know what you’re doing, so don’t ever be fooled by the veil they put up. They’re incredible receptive and sensitive and a lot of their internal feelings come out at some point just not at the moment it needs to. Sexually they can very hotel sex types. Like I don’t know how to really explain it and it’s so opposite of what you would expect of libra but they are very impersonal people. Like sex can feel very romantic and as if they are treating you like a significant other but something about it is detached, far away and unavailable. They are good at creating the engagement aspect of sex but can fall short at the emotional part which is semi-strange considering what you’ll get up to that point. They are very experienced but at the same time they may need to be taught to connect a little deeper or to open up more. They have very soft and gentle sexual styles that will still make you feel cared for but sometimes in the back of it all you’ll still feel that “I’m fucking a stranger” vibe. Their sexual organs tend to be very beautiful, nice length and nice width. They’ll definitely be a lot better at the sex part once you guys are committed though.

So obviously this is a general word of mouth and does not take into account planets being in the 8th house nor does it mention decans which can greatly alter much of what I’ve said. And honestly you can apply the decan rule here if you’d like! Simply use the decan lord so if they’re a third decan Virgo rising and have Aries in the third decan in their 8th house which is Aries/Sagittarius: you would mix those interpretations. Anyways hope this helps love.