#it’s the last week of school tomorrow for me so I’ll be busy asf

[ironunderstands]

*cracks knuckles* time to write another Aventio fic

Y’all should get ready for drunk! Ratio because I’m not

He’s gonna be so clingy hehhehehe

[lovelyparkers]

the lifeguard (1)

part one!

summary: you're a summer lifeguard at coney island's beach and peter convinces his friends to go. y'all are 18 in this and just graduated! 2.9k words

warnings: none really, just swearing, fluff and spice woo part two is gonna be spicier oops

peter knew from the moment you told him you were working on coney island's beach this summer that he would be there as much as possible. he had liked you all throughout high school. literally all four years and never did anything about it. but now high school was over and he knew you would slip right past him. plus seeing you on the beach in a tight red bathing suit? how could he say no to that. and of course, red was really his favorite color, and seeing it on you...that would be heaven.

you had discussed summer plans with peter and you told him of your new job. you told him how you would drive there every morning at 8 am and be there till 6 pm. 7 days of the week. but hey it payed well and you loved the beach. lots of kids from school frequented the beach too, so it's be nice to see your friends—and maybe part of you hoped you'd see peter.

peter had mentioned he had a night job in queens and besides that no other plans. you liked the boy. there was something about him that was just so endearing and when you talked or even looked at him you got butterflies. and don't even get me started on how you felt thinking about him.

you were all set the next day to go down to the beach for your first day in the job, feeling ecstatic. you had bought several different styles of red bathing suits, lots of sunscreen and a cute pair of sunglasses. you went through intense training about a month ago and were all ready to go. you'd spent other summers life guarding at your neighborhood pool, but wanted to go down to the beach for something different before heading off to college. and hey maybe you'll get to see a super cute boy aka peter there sometime, you dropped him hints.

the night of the last day of school, peter met up with ned, mj, and betty for celebratory pizza when he brought up the idea.

"so how 'bout we go down to the beach tomorrow? coney island," he asked while chewing.

michelle laughed, "why? because you know y/n is working there?"

"what? no! i didn't know she was working on eighth street."

"no one said she was working on eighth street peter," betty snapped.

"well i—"

michelle smirked, "just admit it, you like y/n."

michelle was one of your close friends and knew you somewhat liked peter so this was fun for her. but she was so happy he liked you back. you constantly complained about needing a boyfriend.

peter threw his hands up in defeat, "okay! okay! i like her!"

"i knew it!" ned screamed causing people in the pizza shop to look over at them awkwardly. "sorry."

peter's face flushed, "so, the beach?" everyone nodded. it was the beach for god sakes. hell yeah. and coney island was what they were all used to.

"i'm guessing we are going to eighth street right?" michelle teased.

"uh huh, and you're driving because you're the only one with a car!"

michelle groaned obnoxiously, "fine! but y'all are giving me gas money."

"we have to leave early so we don't get caught up in traffic," betty added.

"there's always traffic," ned replied.

"still there might be less."

"i don't think so it's summer—"

"guys stop! it's settled. eighth street, we'll leave at 8:30, mj is driving," peter spat.

everyone finally agreed and finished the last of the pizza. michelle got up to leave and said, "everyone meet at ned's i'll be there at exactly 8:30. if you're late we leave with out you, see ya losers."

the next morning at exactly 8:30 am, michelle pulled up outside ned's apartment in her dingy vintage car. ned was dressed to the nines in beach attire, as was betty. meanwhile peter was simply wearing flip flops, swim trunks and a white muscle tee, along with a blue beach towel draped around his shoulders. he had his grey backpack filled with snacks, sunscreen, his wallet, and other random shit. his black sunglasses shielded his eyes, as did his long brown curls that he had been growing out. it was almost 90° as well, so needless to say this was a much needed beach day. the boys packed some beach chairs and an umbrella into michelle's trunk then everyone hopped in the car, betty in the passenger seat, ned and peter in the back.

the drive wasn't too bad, it took 45 minutes with the traffic like said. and luckily they were able to find a parking spot in about five minutes of arriving which was rare. everyone got out and grabbed their things, running to the beach.

"guys! we should set up close to the lifeguard stand, you know in case of emergency," peter yelled over the noisy wind and boardwalk.

"you mean a y/n emergency?" michelle laughed causing peter to turn red. michelle decided to lead the rest of the way onto the beach and down the mat to find an open spot. michelle plopped her chair down like ten feet to the right of your lifeguard stand. the boys and betty were still trudging through the sand.

"hey y/n!" michelle called up to you.

"mj! hey! what are you doing here? i thought you hated the beach!"

"i do! i'm just a chauffeur. but hey i wanted to see you too!"

"oh cool!" you shouted back, taking long looks at the water since your coworker wasn't here yet. "who are you with?"

as you asked that, the staggering three came into your view and they all waved to you. peter was at the back of the group acting relatively shy. "i'll make sure you guys don't drown!" you shouted again, making them laugh. you got back to looking out in the water through your sunglasses, the cool shade of an umbrella over your head allowing you to somewhat relax from the intense heat. meanwhile, peter was taking glances at you every few seconds as the crew set up their beach spot. michelle immediately sat down in her chair, pulling out a book. ned and betty set up the other chairs and laid down a sheet in front of them to put their coolers and bags on, throwing a shoe on each corner. peter set up the umbrella since he was obviously the strongest one to stick in through the sand. he easily pushed it into the sand and pulled the cover up, making a nice circle of shade around the four of them. you couldn't deny that you snuck a look or two at peter's clenching back muscles as he jammed the umbrella into the ground.

"mj, wanna go touch the water with us?" ned asked innocently.

"no."

"okay then..."

peter, ned and betty went down to the water to feel it. it was brisk, but it felt nice under the 90 degree sun. tons of people were already in the water cooling off. you watched peter run a hand through his long locks and let it blow in the wind, making it a mess. but a cute one per say. you stood up on the stand, pushing your sunglasses up on your head to get a better look. he was splashing and kicking the water at his friends, laughing his head off. betty was screaming like the water was going to kill her while ned just joined it. peter's muscle tee left little to the imagination, allowing you to see his brawny muscles that he always hid in school. his pecs were also quite prominent through the front of his shirt as well, it was a bit see through, being white and all. and gosh you just couldn't imagine what he would look like when he-

you stopped your train of thought when peter looked directly up at you on the lifeguard stand. he smiled, mid laugh, teeth showing. you couldn't see his eyes under the sunglasses but they were bright and admirable. you grinned back at him, waving yet again, mouthing a 'hey.' peter waved too, with both hands up in the air, mouthing a 'hey' back. he turned back to his friends and let out a breath he didn't know he was holding. god, you looked so good. your hair was blowing in the wind and you had a red bikini top and bottoms tied around your body. your lifeguard whistle was on a lanyard around your neck, hanging just in between your boobs. (ur hot asf and u cant convince me otherwise) the sight of you almost caused him to combust, how could you look that good. and he could just almost imagine what you would look like without-

"peter?"

"huh?" he asked quickly.

"you zoned out," ned said.

he scoffed, "oh yeah, i just- yeah, i'm good."

"is it y/n," ned winked.

peter shook his head up and down. he didn't even care that anyone knew. he just really, really liked you. and seeing you on the beach in that attire, didn't help his problem.

he rushed back to sit down in his beach chair, resting his slightly sweaty forehead in his hands to try to relax himself. he got way too worked up way too fast.

"you saw y/n i guess?"

peter looked up to see michelle laughing at him.

"why don't you just talk to her you weirdo."

"i don't know i- she's just- y/n is...i can't."

"yeah you can dumbass. just say hi."

"what are we talking about?" betty asked as her and ned sat down with the two. "he won't talk to y/n," michelle answered.

ned perked up, "peter! why don't you just pretend to drown, then she will save you and give you mouth to mouth! she said she would make sure you didn't drown."

"i'm pretty sure that's illegal," michelle said.

"yeah i-i can't do that."

"then just go talk to her," betty said agreeing with mj.

peter hopped out of his chair and started toward the lifeguard stand before stopping on his tracks at the sight of you greeting your apparent coworker. your coworker was a guy, probably around 20 years old and obviously good looking. he had messy blond hair paired with abs. nothing like peter's though. peter suddenly felt a pang of jealousy as you laughed at something he said. he watched the guy put a hand on your back, as he settled down. peter returned to his chair and slumped down, cheeks red from both the sun and jealousy. once peter sat down you scanned your eyes around looking for him and eventually landing on the boy in his chair.

your coworker was busy watching everyone in the water but you hopped down from the stand to keep an eye on some little kids...and maybe peter. just as your feet hit the sand, a gust of wind blew by, pulling peter's beach umbrella out of the ground and almost smacking you down, had you not caught it. peter had jumped up to try to grab and it and he ran after the umbrella only to be met by you holding it out to him. "here you go pete," you said smiling.

"thanks," he whispered, grabbing the umbrella from your hands.

"you gonna swim?" you asked him.

"oh," he looked at the water then back at you, trying not to get distracted by how good your boobs looked in that top, "yeah. we're gonna swim like, soon."

"cool."

"yeah," he said twirling the umbrella stick in between his hands.

"it's great to see you peter, you look great."

he blushed, looking down then back up, "you do too. look good i mean. you look great y/n...red suits you."

"thanks," you giggled. you had to stop yourself from reaching out and feeling his muscles. there was a moment of silence between you two until you realized you had to work. "i'm gonna uh, you know, get back to work. i'll find you on my break, be careful out there."

"i will," peter replied softly, watching you climb up the stand, ass almost in his face. you looked back down at him smiling. he shyly waved and returned to push the umbrella back into the ground.

"what took you so long? i could barely see my book!"

"i was talking to y/n. she said she's gonna find me on her break," he happily stated. peter had a little bounce in his step now, feeling more energised and confident. "c'mon guys! let's go swimming!"

"i'll pass," michelle shouted.

ned and betty obliged and got ready to head into the water. peter put his sunglasses in his back pack, not caring to lose yet another pair in the ocean. then he pulled off his shirt, revealing his once hidden abs to the world. his swim trunks sat on his hips, exposing his v-like slightly. you were lucky to have caught a glimpse of this show, sucking in a sharp breath when peter pulled off his shirt. shit. he was hot. of course he was.

he ran down the sand and straight into the water, diving under a wave when it got deep enough. you watched him intently, back muscles flexing when he dove. as he came up out of the water, he whipped his curls out of his face, facing you. you had no idea if it was on purpose or not but god did it make you shiver. this was gonna be a long day.

you watched him gracefully swim in the water and body surf waves so effortlessly. it made being a lifeguard less boring in all honesty. but gosh were you besotted with him. and when he walked out of the water to go back to his chair, it was like he was walking in slow motion, the way hot people do in movies. and it was gorgeous to watch. water was dripping all the way down his body. droplets would fall from his now even darker, wet curls onto his face and down his neck, then onto his broad chest and toned abs, finally reaching the waist band of his swim trunks. right to his v-line. you almost audibly gasped right there.

as peter walked by the stand he looked up at you, again running a hand through his wet curls to push it out of his face. he grinned at you, knowing you were watching him. and you stared right back. he was showing off wasn't he? two can play this game. you pushed your sunglasses back up on your head and made direct eye contact with him, causing peter to stumble in the sand. you laughed and put your glasses back down. he was so cute and hot at the same time. how?

when your break came around, you decide to head into the water and cool off. your coworker took over, watching you climb down the stand, as did peter. you slowly strutted toward the water, walking in slowly before it got deeper and dunking your head under the cool water. peter eyed you from the beach, hunching over with his elbows on his thighs. his sunglasses blocked the lustful gaze from anyone else's view luckily. when you came up out of the water he watched it drip all over your body and glisten on your face. he couldn't take his eyes off you.

you looked over to peter, since you did promise you'd find him during your break. you saw he was staring at you and just smirked. you pointed at him on the beach. he sat up in shock and poked his finger on his chest as to say, 'wait, me?' you then curled your finger toward your body in a come here motion, obvious to peter. he stood up and went straight to you in the water, swimming out past the waves to you. as he got to your side you noticed how flushed his face was, you couldn't tell if it was from sunburn or something else. it was the latter.

"hey," you started.

"hey y/n."

"so what goes on?"

"nothing really..just...swimming."

"well i'm glad you're here. it made me really happy."

"me too. i'm happy to see you too." the two of you were just floating in the water, up and down waves with each other.

"you know i didn't think you'd actually come."

"what do you mean?"

"well obviously i wanted you to come while i'm working. i was dropping hints in school, if you couldn't tell."

peter chuckled, "no, no. i picked up on them. you're ah, you're really cool."

"so are you." you smiled at each other now, just enjoying the company and the semi peacefulness. until your coworker blew his whistle and pointed at you.

"that's me, i gotta go. see you later peter!" you swam off towards shore, peter watching you all the way to the stand. he smiled to himself, giddy over the fact that you wanted him to come here. and he just wanted to spend every second with you. you were truly the kindest and most beautiful person ever, that he couldn't get enough of.

now all he had to do was ask you on a date.

[pouringitallout-blog1]

May 30, 2017

Okay , I'll be straight up. I fucking miss my girl ayt! I normally talk to her everyday after school but now … I miss her so badly. I can't help but to think about the things that we had and about the things I miss about her ! I'm actually going insane right fucking now ! My mind is filled with sad emotions because I don't have her anymore! I mean look! I snap her , I text her, I message her but I don't get anything back! I understand the finals are coming up but just a “hi” would make my day!

 I keep thinking about how we used to be. The laughs, the talks, the walks, everything! I wanna go and see her tomorrow but I know that if I do it'll only make her mad and make her wanna push me away !

 Love ! Love is all I got for her ! Love is all I can give her rn ! Love is all I've been giving her !

 Love ! To me that's precious ! It's a blessing ! It's a miracle ! It's a privilege !

 Love! Love is something you feel and give towards a person or a thing no matter the rationality or whatever how much it hurts you! That's what love is! To me !

 Maria Katerina Esguerra Arceño allowed me to see that ! And no matter how many miles we are apart from each other , no matter how many people may approve or disapprove our love for each other , no matter how many times she shoots , stabs or hits me in the back , I WILL ALWAYS LOVE HER !

 I remember when we would walk around outside or at downtown, and whenever we'd look bomb asf , we couldn't go into the photo booth because we'd have no money. Then when we would have money, one of us , aka me , wouldn't want to go in because I'd say that I look ugly.

  Not long ago I wrote her a letter begging her to come back saying :

 “Hey !judging by the time you started reading this you're prolly wondering why is this here (and I'm prolly standing in front of you) ... well it's the money for my prom ticket to your prom and the ice cap , well I just wanted to give them to you because you told me you wanted it 😁look, I know i won't make it any easier for you if you go through this but you have to trust me ... lemme take that chance to prove to you that I really really changed ... But you have to trust on this and please let me go to prom with you . I know, for you, things won't be the same as before and you're right ... things won't ever be the same because they'll only be even better than before . Let's you and I stop thinking of the negative things and start thinking of the positive things. We talked about how much we wanted to go to prom TOGETHER . You just have to trust me when I say you won't regret it . You'll also notice that I won't be talking to you much because I know you need time . Cause I know in order to build up what we had , to make it even better than before, i’ll accept the fact that you sometime (mostly) need your space and etc. . But you have to trust me when I tell you that you won't be disappointed when you and I go to prom together . Because I'll make sure to give you great time ! ☺️Look ,I know you're busy preparing for your finals and you concentrating on that because like you said , you prioritize school before anything , I get that but I also know you know that I'm hurting a lot right now and I also feel that you are too but I have to ask ... Did WE really need to go through all this pain ? Couldn't we have found another way ? Couldn't we avoid breaking up ? Do you know how Much I love you ? Do you know how much I miss you ? Are you trying to forget me ? To keep me out of your life ? If it is ... I'm sorry . I can't let you . I won't let you run away from this fight ... because I know we can win it together ... i know that you know that I love you more than the whole world . My heart will always belong to you as long as I live . You're my way to fly and I'm trying so hard just to get you back just so we can fly again because I know we can go much higher than we already have . We can REMOVE all the NEGATIVITY and the ANGER . TOGETHER . I'll ALWAYS be by YOUR side babe ! All I want is you because you bring me UP when I FALL DOWN . Nothing is RIGHT when you're not around . That part of the message that you wrote on the back of your grad pic I MISS how we laugh , how WE roast each other , how you roast me , how we KISS , how we hold each other ! I miss us Maria ... I'm ready to change for you , for myself , for us ... Cause baby I need you , more than ever . Cause as long as I can remember , you're my light in the dark in the world we live in . I know how I annoying I can be . Just like now . But you know how much I love you and how much I miss you Maria . I'm willing to do everything to make us better for both you and me . I'm also willing to wait as long as it takes. I'll be waiting for you, I'll support you even if the whole world turns against us . And no matter how much it hurts I'll keep holding on because that's how much I LOVE YOU and I'll be by your side till the end . Give me one more chance to REDEEM MYSELF . Let me show you that there's more happiness than sadness and negativity in our relationship ... and I promise on my LIFE and my GRAVE that you won't be disappointed. Remember when you asked me "Why do you love me ?" ? Well I'll tell you why . I love you because of the way you look at me , not the way you see physically but the way you can see how I am INSIDE . You  see the best in me , you see the better me. The good and the bad . No matter how many times I break, you're always there to motivate me, to pick myself up again . I love you smile . Your lips . Your smell . Your style . And everything that you are ! I love you because I don't have to hide my true self ! And my love for you won't ever change ! I got nothing but love , loyalty and commitment. Babe , I know i said this a hundred times but I miss you , I love you and I need you . I won't let you go through the same pain i put you through last week and all the times before that , I won't ever let that happen again . I need you back babe . I want you back ! Please , I want us to be a whole again . I took the first step of changing my ways ... will you take the next ? Please come back to me babe . I promise you we won't go through the pain ever again. I won't ever leave your side . I know we could be better because I believe we could achieve heights beyond our imagination because our love is real and our feelings are real. We can be better , much better . We learn from our mistakes to do better in the future .Last night, after we talked, i realized that i was being selfish. All i did was throw problems as you when i should've been supporting you. So do you realize it now ? We can learn from our mistakes and be better next time! Let me be your knight in shining armour and I want you to be my princess . Ever since I first met you , until this very moment I'm here right In front of you,you showed me what love really is. You brought color into my life. You brought the good out of me ! The beautiful sound of happiness and love came to light because you called on upon them ! Every word , every touch , every smile and every breath , it's all for you. You're you within my heart and I can feel you . My love for you has been getting stronger and stronger everyday ! When I look at you in the eyes , I see relief from all the pain and all the struggles . I see a path for you and I . I'm never scared of anything because I got you by my side babe ! And i would want you to feel the same as i feel about you. I want you to feel comfort when I’m with you. I want to be able to relieve you from all your problems and struggles. Right now, your happiness is my priority. So if you give me the chance to do so, i promise you you will never have to shed another tear.Is what you feel real ? Was our love real ? Because as long I can remember, it's been all you. The one shooting star that I've looking for all my life. I've gone after you for sake of wonders , wondered that if ever I found the one who can show what love truly is to me , she is the one ! I refuse to let you throw in the towel ! Because Maria Katerina Esguerra Arceño , I AM EXTREMELY IN LOVE YOU ! ❤️💍 Do you still remember the first time you told me you love me? The sound of your voice were as beautiful... Like a song i can’t get out of my head A song that i’ll sing over and over again A song that keeps us together A song that keeps us strong A song that keeps the bad stuff out Do you still remember the first time you told me you love me ? The sound of your voice were beautiful… Like the lyrics to a song that could never be erase The words that puts a smile on our faces The words that makes us blush The words that melts our hearts The words sets our emotions free Do you still remember the first time you told me you love me? The sound of your voice were as beautiful as those of the eyes i’ve fallen deeply in love for The look in your eyes… With the look of wonder The look of adventure The look of trust Do you still remember the first time you told me you love me ? The sound of your voice was and still is beautiful… I love you   From the moment I laid eyes on you , You’re all I could ever think of . You’re my sunshine in the rain . You're the light in the darkness that reigns upon this world of ours. You’re my shoulder to cry on, when the world turns against us Baby, they’ll be rainy days ahead But all we’ll ever need is eachother Because what's a road to happiness with a couple of setbacks? Like I’ve always told you, you're the first person that has ever made me feel this way. Not a day goes by without me thinking about how much I love you without me regretting from giving you all this pain without me telling myself that I won't ever hurt the way I did before Everyday , I dream of us Everyday , I miss you Everyday , I love you Everyday , I think of you Everyday , I feel for you Everyday , I appreciate you Everyday , I adore you I promise you I will never ever leave your side I will never ever stop loving you I will never ever hate you I will never ever hurt you I love you 😘💍💕 Xoxo”

 I'm not going to hide it anymore … I'm actually really pissed and sad… because most of my childhood best friends are leaving me one by one.