#it’s really cool honestly and I look forward to learning more :DD

[dayz-ina-daze]

EVERYONE LOOK AT MY BABIES RNNNNNNNNNNNNN

SNOWBOUND AND STAR COWSNAP MY BELOVEDDS

OH HEY I did that uwu

[after-nine-at-the-oasis]

Promo time!!!

Oop I can already see drama from the hovering over the video for just a second 😭

Okay let's do this xD

AAAAHHAUGH he should've 😭

But also I mean he does have a right to be mad xd

Hmm it's not really BECAUSE of him though

True though not an apology, especially since he probably came to him with it as an apology xd

AAAHHH NEW PEOPLE!!

SLFKGDLSJS "I'm about to pee myself" "Please do not" girl fr xD mood lol. And please don't, but also she seems sweet :D she's so excited to meet him :)

Heard there would be another autistic doctor looking up to Shawn and this is really cool!!

Hope it goes well :D

Writing wise mostly lol

I mean all med students do lol

Is that xD? I figured it's from a different conversation than that topic but eh maybe not! Either way she seems cool :)

Bro looks annoyed before the how we learn bit btw lol xD the bit before the wave

Oope 😳 o.o contaminateddd

Hmm well yeah bestie that is how it works sometimes

Sorry xD I know you're/she's probably just trying to be clear lol not necessarily in shock but honestly that's also valid

Just not time for that in an OR necessarily lol

Oop "Leave. Now" o.o

Gosh I hope this goes well xD

Anyway!! I'm so excited :DD

That's the last of my last thoughts on the promo, so now it's time for the. . .

REVIEW

I loved this episode!! I thought it was a really good premiere and having it be all about babies was fun :D. Obviously with other stuff going on but given that that was one of the big/biggest events from last season (two of the biggest, if we include Eden), specifically the end of last season, so it makes sense to have the episode kind of centered around that :)). But in a thematic way so it's not just one or two babies :), if that makes sense? Yeah, sure, it does :D. Anyway, I really liked it :)). And I'm SO glad they all survived lol xD 😅.

Now! Onto personal bits :))

They'll be short because I actually did decide to do this tonight lol

Missing Danny <33 glad he's doing well though, and that he and Jordan are still in contact and on okay terms :)). I hope he comes back one day but with just one season left, for character arc reasons I hope he doesn't xd. Unless there's a flash forward, which would be rude because I deserve to see him come back lol. Anyway!

Marcus just screwing off is amazing xD. Yk what, after everything he's done (like worked hard I mean and been through some stuff), he deserves it xD. And I'm happy he and Dalisay are happy and good :DD. Good for them :)). Ik the actor quit to focus on his political career but I do hope he comes back for the end :). Just like Antonia and a ghost vision of Melendez lol xDD.

Lim and Glassman fighting over the President position - but in an opposite way xD? - was great lol xD. I love these two idiots. Plus, like I said, the serious mixed with joking tone was fun lol. Anyway, they slayed 😌

The Asher Jordan bestieism :D. But I really hope we actually get more of that in the future :((. I love Asher and Jerome (I would say as much as the next person but I love them way more than that xD, I absolutely adore them lol) but I feel bad for Jordan :(, and I need me that bestieism time <3. Related and separate concerns lol. Anyway, while I hope he spends more time with Jordan in the future I do get it and I don't really blame him much lol. But yeah, he slays, I'm sure Jerome was slaying too, they slayed <3.

I'm glad Jordan has Kalu back now :)). Honestly I was not thinking that would be his avoidance reason but it's interesting! A good reason writing wise but I am glad they made up a bit :D :) also that takeout bit at the end was so cute 🥰 them <3

Y'all I was stressed about Park and Morgan this episode 😭😭 xd. I didn't think that after all this "work" like put into the storyline they would kill Eden but gosh was I scared xd. I'm so happy he and Jack survived though :'D :')). And I loved the bond they formed as parents <33. Also hallelujah that the parent issues didn't last for another episode, I was scared it would but I'm so glad Morgan took at least a step into accepting Park into that more <33. Bc he was so valid for wanting her to acknowledge his love and effort more, and I'm glad she did :'). I love them both so much :D <333 :) 🥰. Anyway, I'm so glad everyone's okay <33

Once again I just really feel for Jordan 😭. It sucks to feel like others are leaving you behind and I just really hope/want the best for her <33. It's such an isolating feeling so I hope it goes away for her soon, at least mostly. I'm glad she has Kalu now too :').

Shaun and Lea once again just out here doing their best :')). Like I said, I like that their small disagreement didn't last too long. Not that the small ones necessarily always do on the show, I'm just saying this one was small. I just like that Shaun noticed it and talked through it without needing any- prompting, I guess :). Like neither of them had to have a big moment where they knew they had to bring into, they just lived, tried, and adjusted :))). I really loved that :D <33. Also, stop, they're just so cute <333. Anyway, Steve is adorable :D, and I love them all so much :) <3. Also the bit with Glassman at the end is just aaOUGH still going so insane over that dynamic and always will (be). It's just so interesting that even when they're not really speaking, Shaun will still confide when he's at a low point, even almost can't help it, and Glassman will still be there for him and take care of the baby <3. Y'all I love them so much 😭😭❤️. Ill over them <33. Also the ending scene was just so real (literally, was so just. . . idk yeah, real xD. I can't personally relate.to that exactly but it was just really tangible, you could really feel that, and I ADORED that about it, just loved it) and good. AUOGHH!! Loved it <33.

Overall, I really enjoyed this episode!! I thought it was super great and I loved the theme, plus there were just so much good scenes that felt so real and raw. Also let us not ignore the amazing emotions and acting from the pair of parents for Jack and Morgan and Park, wow, knocked it out of the part :'o (yes, my brain- zoned out while I was saying that and don't know what I was meaning, but you get the vibe - it was amazing, lol). Everything felt so charged and so great :D. Just loved it!!

Soo, yeah! I really enjoyed this episode, I thought it was great. It was a really good transition from last season and I like that :)). The next episode looks super interesting!

This has been my review of. . .

The Good Doctor, Season 7, Episode 1: Baby, Baby, Baby

I loved it! I'm really excited for the next episode! I think it's going to be an interesting storyline and I hope it goes in a cool direction :D.

I'll be back next week with my review of. . .

The Good Doctor, Season 7, Episode 2: Skin in the Game

See you then!!

[ellovett]

list of people that made this year pretty neat :)

Hi all

Ok so 2020's almost ending (it just ended i started writing this post like....5 days ago??) and i just wanted to do this thing where i have a message towards everyone who supported me/who i think are just very cool and very epic, i only really got into the twst fandom just at the beginning of the year and im just gonna get straight to the point now messages are under the cut :)

@permanentlyexhaustedowl - AYAAAA ;;;;; bro you're literally one of my first long time friends here in the twst community and i just want to thank you for everything, our convos in either public servers or in pms, your love and support for my content,,or whenever i vent to you,,,,,just- your love and support man i appreciate it so much and i cannot thank you enough, you're just so sweet and caring and supportive and friendly just aghhhhhh ;;;;; even your reblogs make me smile uncontrollably and i explode, also all the brainrots i have about my interests ;;; thanks for listening to all of them,,even tho you really didnt have to ;;;;;; I love how we make our twst ocs interact and the little brainrots we have with them ;;; You've helped me so so so much and in so many ways, I am beyond glad that we're bestfriends, you're one of the nicest most caring people ive ever met and i love you so so so much, beyond belief ;; 💕 pls never stop being you?????? You quacking amazing person??????? 😎🤙💖💕💖💕💖💕💖💕💖💕💖💕💖💕💖💕

@shoujoqueensstuff - AYYYY SHOUJOOOO!!! 😎🤙🤙 hhhh you're also one of the first people ive ever had a long time friendship with here in the twst community, and seriously bitch i love you so much ;;; so so much..i cant go a day without talking to you about literally anything and just vibing, the support and love you've given me over these months is insane i cannot thank you enough for that, all of our rps, convos or just pure brainrot have been so much fun, and i fucking love it that we built our own little world outside of canon,,all the aus we built with our ocs???? I love them. I love them all to death, including your amazing ocs, and even tho we live on literally opposite sides of the world you're always there for me whenever i vent or when im feeling extremely down or insecure ;; ,,im just so so so happy and glad that i met you and that we're bestfriends, i care about you so so so so so much- hhhh i cant put it into words my brain is dying i just- i LOVE YOU BIITCH, I AINT NEVER GONNA STOP LOVING YOU, BITCH.😎💖💕💖🤙🤙💕💕💖💕 TAKE MY LOVE BITCH 💕💕💕💕💕 thank you so much for sticking around ;; i love you and support you in everything you do so much I could never ever thank you enough for the friendship you've given me..

I can literally go forever on how much i love and appreciate the both of you, i can just scream into the void for all eternity,,but i cant put it into words anymore. You both made my year so great and so epic ;;; i love you guys so much

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@thetwstwildcard - hi ma :D you're just so cool and so epic lizz ;;; i cant- all of our conversations and brainrots have been super fun and i enjoy your company very much;;; you are just so nice and friendly,, and your ocs (especially staff ocs) are god tier amazing, i will love the nrc mom squad to death. I am honored to be ur child and i love you and father claude (and my four (?) other dads you married) very much 💕💕💕

@alpyssketch - bringer of father claude,,,,i owe you my life alpy,,,,,,but no seriously you're also a very epic person and you're honestly so nice and sweet!!! You never fail to make me feel welcome in any conversation and you're just so damn friendly!!! We may not talk that often but I very much enjoy your company ;;; ily!!! 💖💖💖

@multi-ankin - another very cool and epic person!!!! you're very fun to talk to and you're also pretty funny in the vc fjfjfj, your ocs are all so amazing too! (djdjjd although my staff oc bias makes me go for kas) we should totally talk and make our ocs interact more in the future tho!!!!!! 💖💖

@just-patchy - pATCHYYY!!!! :D hi!!!! you're also a very cool person!! our interactions have been so much fun and i hope we can have more in the future ;;; the ideas you have for your ocs and how you put them into writing is so good!!! like really good!!! And your art has been greatly improving too!!! Never ever think that i dont see you as a friend because i do!! 😤😤💖💖 i care about you bro!! Never forget that!!

@bakujho - :D hi jho!! you're a lot of fun! And I THINK YOU ARE SO DAMN COOL AND BADASS it's unbelievable,,i look up to you jho i wish i could be almost as cool as you when i grow up ;;; the things you've done for this fandom are also very admirable! like the whole gravedigging (jellyfish) situation! But we're not gonna talk about it now- hhhhh you're just so epic jho ;;; seriously 💗💗

@Kurui - hhhhh you're probably not gonna see this ;;; and i cant find your tumblr (if any of the other chaddams could possibly show this to her thatd be so great ;;;) but nonetheless i still think you're just so fun and cursed ;;; and you give so many amazing ideas!!! Your ocs are all also so cool too! Your art is just so detailed you clearly put a lot of thought into them i just admire that sm ;; (also your edits are extremely cursed and epic i love them dearly-)

@twst-the-royals - JULIE :))) HELLO,,,you were actually the first ever person i spoke/interacted with in the fandom! And you were just so nice and friendly and patient with me ;;; im glad that i got to talk to you,,and we dont really talk that much now but pls pls PLEASE know that i care about you so much and that i support you in everything you do ;;; 💖💖💗💖 ill do my best to make you proud!!

@girl-in-the-tower - hey Az!!! ;;;; you're so epic and cool,,honestly i admire you so much, the lore/writing you have for your ocs/fanschools are just so well thought out and so well written ;;; i hope to become a better writer like you in the future, but for now ill just take notes and learn from you ;; you're super encouraging and supportive too!!! I know we dont talk much but i could never thank you enough for all those little yet meaningful moments ;;; 💖💖

@rikanoctrix and @mirrored-pomefiore - hi!!! i know we arent that close but just know that you two are huge inspirations for me when it comes to art, the both of you draw your styles so incredibly well and i admire that so so so much ;;; 💖

@ocean-water-tea - FATHER TEAAAAA QAQ okay so first of all,,,,how can you draw so well using ibispaint, i ask for tips, specifically on how to draw hair and tits 🤲 but seriously though you are so fun to talk to!!! So cursed!!! So ☊⊑⏃⍜⏁⟟☊!!! You encourage me to my true cryptid self (despite aya's protests 👀) and i thank you kindly,,,you are also very funny 😌 a funny little clown simp, and you're super friendly and cheerful too! I almost never feel nervous when reaching out to you ;;; I hope we can have more wacky adventures in the future 💖💖

@zonamemoryverse - HEYYY ZONAAA!!! you're a fairly new person and you've already come so far ;;; you're a very chaotic person to talk to and i enjoy all of our conversations!!! Also our interactions with our ocs were super fun too, and i love hearing any shred of content i can get from ur epic ocs,,,dont stop being epic!!! 💖💖

@namelessfish - Hi fish!!! :DD you've been a very supportive friend to me over these past few months,,and im happy i have someone i can relate my not-so-great experiences with ;;; please know that i care about you dearly and that ily ;; 💖💖💖💖

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@wondersbeyondcompare - JFFJJF BRO DONT THINK I DONT SEE YOU WHENEVER YOU REBLOG MY CRINGY ASS POSTS 👁👁 I SEE THEM AND I CHERISH THEM ALL I REREAD THEM ON SAD DAYS. All the little tags and comments you put on them always make me smile so hard ;;; im just very happy to know that you like whatever the hell im doing and it pushes me to do more!! You're incredibly sweet, dont worry!!! Ill be sure to make you proud!!!! 😭💖💖💖

@circuscarnage - Anna!!!! We dont talk that often but whenever we do it's always so much fun ;;; you're so sweet and i appreciate you so much ;; all the stuff you drew for my ocs are all so incredibly cute and i really have to give back- jUST YOU WAIT ANNA. IM GONNA MAKE FANART OF YOUR LOVELY OCS AND YOU CANT STOP ME- 💖💖💖💖

@twistedapple - hi crow!! :DD again we dont really talk that much but i support you greatly in everything you do!!! You're another epic and cool writer ;;; your writings for your ocs are just sooooo well written and are just so good!! You're also super good at art too!! And i hope to see more from you in the future!!! ;;; 💖💖💖💖

@not-twst-enough - Ellie!!!! ;;; bro you've been supporting me from the very start, from lillet's old ass bio to now, and i very much appreciate it!!!! You're also super friendly in the twst server too ;;; and all the content you have for your ocs is just so exciting! Good luck with the fandorm and all future stuff ;;; ily!!!! 💖💖💖

@fumikomiyasaki - FUMI. DONT THINK I DIDNT FORGET YOU DKDKDK,,,Another cool and amazing person!!! All our brainrots and conversations have been really fun ;;;; thank u for that,, You are very fun person to interact ocs with tho!!! Especially with ships!! MadScientist² will forever hold a place in my heart.,,,💖💖💖

@oiseaunoir11 - hey Al!! :) you were one of the many people i admired and looked up to when i first joined the fandom, your art is something im deeply inspired by and your shitposts at like...4 am in the morning always give me the big funny,,one thing i really admire about ur art tho is how you'd draw backgrounds :0 you've gotten so good at them!! And your poses look super natural and effortless, i hope to be almost of a better artist like you 🙇‍♀️🙇‍♂️ also i cant wait to see ur animatics 👀 they look dope- hope we can talk or maybe even interact ocs more! 💖💖

@leonasbitties - luuuu :))) hiiii,,,we dont usually talk on servers that often but that doesnt mean that i dont consider you as a friend! You have a lot of super cool ideas for ocs and your art is just getting better and better and better with each piece!!!! i look forward to seeing more from you ;;; 💖💖💖

@peteza-mozzarella - PETEEE :DDD another very cool and friendly person, you're literally the sweetest person ive ever talked to and i love our little chats!!! Hhhh you're just super nice and your ocs are super cute,,please never stop being you you epic bean ;;;; 💖💖💖💖

@the27th - Hi Andhra!!!!! You've been quite the long time mutual,,and your reblogs always make my day ;;; you're just so sweet and kind and i always feel at ease when talking to you, the hunger games sessions you host are always super fun even though im often asleep to even participate 😂 thank you sm for the love and support ;;; ill be sure to give them all back to you 💖💖 starting now 💗💗💗💗💗

@mamushroomoracorn - MAMUSH :DD we've only really started talking recently but you're just so nice and friendly ;;;; all of our talks have been so wholesome and great and im so happy about that, and your art is really really really good!! Ur art style is just so unique and so cool!!! ;;;; and dw mamush,, ill show the froggies like i promised soon 😔💖💖💖

@rookvonhunt - HEYYYY 👉😎👉 hi hello i would die for your ocs. If theyd ask me to perish then i will 200%,,ur so epic and cool and all of your ocs are just god-tier, i cant wait for what else you have to offer!!!! 💖💖

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@lawlessofdusk - lawless ;;;; aaaaa honestly you're just so kind and sweet, i couldnt thank you enough for all the love and support you've given me!!! And i desperately need more content of ur ocs bc they're all so cool and interesting 😤😤😤💖💖💖 i hope to talk to you more soon!!!!

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Fkfjfjfj i think that's all!! Id like to thank you all for sticking around with me with my first year in the fandom ;;; you guys make all the bullshit and drama here worth it 💖💖💖

If i forgot to include you in here then PLEASE DM ME I AM SO SORRY-!!!! I dont want to leave anyone behind!!! So please feel free to confront me about it ;;; happy new year everyone!!!!

[faerociousbeast]

Hey look, the general asks!

For future reference, is there anything in particular you want to be asked about?

Do you have any general goals or resolutions for the upcoming year?

What are some topics you enjoy learning about?

Have any advice on photo editing of any variety? (such as icons or wallpapers or moodboards/collages and the likes)

And lastly, a general "how's it going?" type of question.

Okay that's all. Have fun 💖

thamk again whfbsk :DD

1. hmm i'm not much help when it comes to conversation topics honestly,, so anything goes? i'm better at listening than i am talking about myself so i'd be glad to hear about some other pieces of media you enjoy or something of that nature :}

2. just get through it tbh. if i think too much about it who knows whatll end up happening..... maybe drink more water though that works

3. hmhmhm anything can be interesting if i'm procrastinating enough but i like.. animals yeah. theyre cool

4. i've been at it for a while so in my case it was just messing around and finding out but. deciding on a colour scheme is your friend, don't overuse the blur option GHKDGH, get a transparents folder it is very frustrating looking for those again, save generic patterns so there's always something going on in the background without it being too much. it really is just practice <//3

5. going well !! i'm currently on break, school starts up again soon akfbdjgnsg,, not looking forward to that but otherwise yeah we're vibing B) trying to figure out what i'll do for these last few days though.. binging is fun until youre done the thing <//3

[star-felled]

Cats 2019, but I try fixing the horrible script

Victoria in bag yeah whatever been there done that

Jellicles are and Jellicles do Je

Maybe the Jellicles introduce more of themselves and Misto's like "yeah that's my name lol but I'm also called Quaxo" segwaying into The Naming of Jellicles, OR cut out the song to make room for Pekes and Pollicles. Depends on how much runtime you're willing to have

Have Macavity watching but like not super obvious. He's watching from a distance instead of blatantly talking to Vic this time

Demeter can be worried about trusting Vic but if Munk trusts her then Dem trusts her

Misto's like "oh yeah almost time for the ball" Vic is like "wtf" and Munk explains and leads her to Jenny

NO EATING COCKROACHES

Tugger's still there, Jenny's like "how tf did you get inside my house. stop terrorizing the mice"

Tugger goes and does his song or whatever, Vic's expression is like "wtf is up with him" but Misto just shakes his head and calls him a bore

Tugger go "here Vic lemme show you how to have fun" and Vic lets herself go loose!! (and unfortunately joins Tug's fanclub)

Misto's like "UGH FUCK NO TUGGER NOT ANOTHER KIT (lovingly)" but everything's cancelled by Griz showing up

They do the Griz thing

Maybe Vic tries to touch Griz when Munk gently pulls Vic back, then she asks why Griz isn't cool anymore, but gets interrupted bc NO MORE "WENT WITH MACAVITY" HALF-ASSED EXPLANATION

A local building alarm goes off and Dem's like "MACAVITY" and Vic is like "WHO" and gets dragged off (spoiler alert it wasn't actually Macavity)

When they think they're a safe distance away they start Bustopher Jones but better

Maybe it could be like "ok we get you kits are scared but Jones is a respectful mature man he would take care of you" ((I oh-so desperately want Misto to excitedly agree bc uncle Bustopher hcs are the cutest))

LET MISTO FOLLOW THE MAN AROUND GODDAMMIT

When the rest of the cats are distracted Vic slinks off and meets Jerrie and Teazer. they cause chaos and honestly good on them

I like to think that, instead of the whole Vic getting stuck on bedpost thing, the twins try to bring her through the window but when they land they're caught and get reprimanded by Munk

Misto goes up to Vic like "that was fucking stupid of you now let's go meet ol doot"

Vic is like "uh okay (I've learned not to question things at this point)" and follows them, when she sees Deut she gets that fatherly vibe from him and starts to understand why they trust him

Deut goes "ohoho who do we have here" and when everyone excitedly introduces her he'd like,,, nuzzle her and go "welcome to the clan"

She's mystified and immediately trusts this man with her life cuz who wouldn't

Victoria watches Pekes and Pollicles performance bc it's a bop

Maybe bonding moment between Vic and Deut after the show where he's like "theyre a mess but they try and I love them for it"?

Tugger's like "DAADDDDD CAN WE START YET" and they start dancing,, Vic is all awed and then Deut goes "c'mon you're one of them now" and nudges her forward so she can join

It's a blast but in the middle of it Vic notices Griz in the background, so when everyone else goes to sleep she sneaks off Yet Again, this time Jemima following her cuz curious little kitten

They hear Griz sing and see her try to dance like the others, and they were gonna go invite her but then Deut taps em on the shoulder and says "we gotta wait for the others to accept her" except super vague. the kittens have no clue what he's on about but accepts it anyway cuz it's ol doot

I think keeping the choice be an audition sorta thing is fine, it kinda felt like that in the musical. just no more solos, no more solos ple

They're all just now waking up but Misto and Gus are Extra awake. like y'know when you go downstairs at like 7 am to get cereal, expecting no one else to be there but then There Is. they do that lil talk they do in the movie, dunno what I'd alter there quite just yet? Misto would be less outwardly anxious for sure though, gotta let the boy keep his calm

When it's like "ok who now losers" maybe Misto could start singing for Gus and hand it off to someone else after a line or two? then Gus gets his part and maybe we see some subtle character development coming out from Misto. show don't tell y'know that sorta thing

Gus is like "ok that's cool but I can think of another person to start singing now" and takes a seat when Munk gets the hint to start the next song

SKIMMMBLESHANKSSS THE RAIIILWAAAAY CATTTT THE C

The fake train they build gets fucking destroyed and it's bc MACAVITY

He runs around wreaking havoc, starts fighting with Munk but when Munk puts up a better fight than he expected he kidnaps Deut

Probably would've restrained Deut in some way before running around bc the guy could very easily beat him up

Anyways Macavity retreats and everyone's worried for Munk and Deut

Victoria's like "OH YEAH RIGHT WE HAVE MISTO" and he's like "????? you're asking me to teleport THE HOLY CHRIST HIMSELF??????" and starts mentally panicking

Tugger comes in like "oh but you OUGHT to ask mr mistoffelees the original conjuring cat there can be no dou

Bc he's hyped up Misto brings Deut back first try and gets more confidence in his abilities, we love a character arc

They go back to make the Jellicle Choice but then OH THERES GRIZABELLA and the clan is gonna kick her out but Victoria's like "no let her sing!!" but bc she's new no one cares but then JEMIMA goes "let her sing it's almost time!!! just this one bit plssss" and bc it's Jemima and they love Jemima they let Griz sing

Then she gets picked and cat god takes her away or whatever

Ol doot does the speech but like addressing the clan instead of breaking the 4th wall and then the movie ends and we DON'T have to deal with 10 minutes of end credits

✨ The end ✨

Extra notes / Things I'd change

Add in the bg interaction!!! That's what makes the 1998 version so fun, it allows the chorus cats to have so much personality despite only being bg characters

Pls for the love of all that is holy make the chorus cats more easy to distinguish and recognize, not only do they look different from the costumes of every other production Ever, they also all look the same as one another

If Misto still did that excited thing at the beginning of The Gumbie Cat I'd lose my marbles I think

Let Tugger interact with his dad more!!! Munk got so much interaction with Old Deut in the movie which I LOVED but Tugger got??? Nothing????? I get that Jason Derulo is expensive to keep on set but if you can put that much effort into that audio system you barely even used 4/5 of the functions of, you can spend a little on letting Tugger love his dad

We got so many Misto and Tugger interactions in the 2016 revival, is it too much to ask for that back... . ... .. ..

That's about it I think, I mostly made this for myself bc I've been thinking of making a fic based off this and wanted to give myself an outline :) I really like the idea of giving Victoria a story as to how she joined the jellicles but...... it was butchered so terribly..... .... .........

Anyways!! If you've got anything you wanna say or add on I'd love to hear it :DD (no pressure though ofc ^^)

[factual-fantasy]

These asks have story elements in them! :}

I have seen now. And it adorable!

I’ll tell you what though man, hearing Mabel’s voice again felt.. so strange. I cant describe what it felt like to hear her. I guess deep down I felt that these characters were dead, like their beings no longer existed.

But hearing her again, in present day.. it was surreal. 

Although yes, they are both Decepticons.. Reaper is supposed to be real nasty. Just a total jerk, even to his fellow cons. Blue Truck is supposed to be one of the nicer ones. He’s not as rotten as some of the cons have been known to be.

I mean, he’s no angel, but he has a spark in him somewhere and doesn���t appreciate Reaper being snotty to everyone.

I looked up Panzer, and found a bunch of different tank transformers that all seem to be Autobots from the Bayverse movies..? But they’re all named Brawl? Or something..? And I think they’re guys..?..

I have no idea what you’re talking about. ●﹏●;

I’ve watched countless game plays of Among Us from several different Youtubers, so Among Us is the game I will be referencing. Also yeah, lets just pretend for this that Bash Buggy can see the screen. XD

Suburban is best at crewmate, and he doesn’t like being the imposter. Also he doesn’t ever kill Escort in the game. If there’s ever a game where Escort has lasted a stupid long time without dying, everyone assumes that Suburban is the imposter.

If Miata is the imposter, everyone gets killed on the first round without a single body being reported and without the other imposter killing anyone. She sucks at crewmate though, she never does her tasks and just follows people around making herself look sus.

Escort loves being crewmate but is a great imposter. Unfortunately due to certain.. experiences.. he has learned how to lie rather well and not let the fear shine through in his voice.

Brown Suburban is excellent at both roles surprisingly. You’d think an old geezer like him wouldn’t be good at any kind video game, but no. When he’s crewmate, he be nailing these tasks and keeping an eye on anything that moves. You could kill someone across the map and he’d know its you, he could kill someone IN FRONT OF YOU AND 3 OTHERS and he’d still get you booted off the ship.

U.M.Dragster hates being a crewmate and loves being an Imposter. He’s terrible at both. But at least he genuinely has a good time with it. :}

A.T.Dragster likes being imposter more, but is honestly okay with both. She’s better at crewmate though.

Green Truck is average at both roles, but he is better at crewmate. He doesn’t really like playing as the imposter, he would prefer to try and help his teammates, not kill them.

Vega is alright as crewmate. But he’s better at imposter and likes the role a lot more. He thinks its a lot funner compared to being a crewmate,

Red Van gets all pouty if she’s the imposter. She’ll drop subtle hints that she’s the imposter, look SUPER sus on propose 24/7 and refuses to kill anyone. If a crewmate is going to be voted off she goes “WAIT!! No no- he’s a crewmate! I’M the Imposter! Vote me off!” She rocks at crewmate though. She gets all her tasks done and never dies somehow.

White Truck isn’t very good at Among Us because he’s a bad liar and isn’t good at spotting impostors. He prefers the crewmate role because its less stressful for him. He’s alright at the game other than the two things mentioned for both roles.

Beluga doesn’t like playing imposter at all. She is terrible at it and she hates lying. She would much rather play crewmate instead. She’s decent in the crewmate role.

If Honda is imposter she’ll just walk around aimlessly, She absolutely refuses to kill people. She already struggles to cope with what she did in real life, why would she want to replicate that feeling/make it worse by killing her friends in a game? She’s rocks as a crewmate though, one of the best crewmate players in the base as a matter of fact.

Ranger is fairly good at both, she is above average compared to the rest of the team. She prefers crewmate. She may be a soldier in real life, but all she really wants to do is help her team out. :}

Volvo is a pretty good liar and is great at fabricating situations that sound believable when he’s the imposter. He’s okay as a crewmate, but he tends to accuse people a lot because he’s super paranoid about being killed by the likes of Jeepy or something. He’s better at imposter, just a little above average.

You can tell Jeepy isn’t the impostor if he sulks the whole game and is quiet in calls. He loves being imposter and is decent at it, but he gives it away because he’s just too darn happy to finally have gotten the impostor role.

Bash Buggy doesn’t mind crewmate, he does a decent job as one. But if he’s the Imposter, you’re all fragged. Him and Miata together are death sentence.

When it comes to best and worst imposter..

I would say Miata is just a little bit better than Bash Buggy at that role.

And Red Van is the worst imposter because she often times just shouts. “DON’T KILL HER! NUUUU!! I’M THE IMPOSTER!! KILL MEEEEE!!!”

(Referencing this meme)

#1?, #2? and #3? are the Tow Trucks. :}  They don’t have names yet, and I cant just call them Green Tow Truck, Blue Tow Truck and White Tow Truck obviously. 

So until I have done more research and talked to VD, their names are based on the order that they were owned in and a question mark, to show that they don’t have names yet.

Okay, now I’m worried about you. But for real yeah they’re both a mood. XD

Also I’d say yes. Escort can always use more buddies. :}

I’m so glad you like the relationship that I constructed for them and that it made your day if you ever want to see more of them just ask I know how adorable it is because I was the one who made ithhhhh

Thank yuhhhhghhouuuu ♡♡♡♡♡

Well, not currently. Jeepy’s story is that he was just a regular teen that was thrown into a war that he didn’t want any part in. He became a standard soldier and just.. I don’t know. Did soldier things I guess.

Later on, when he was on Earth, he met Wheeljack, Bulkhead, Brown Suburban and Bash Buggy. What ended up happening is, just like Miko, he was basically just accepted as one of them, a wrecker.

But now that I think about it.. it would be kind’a cool if he was a “real” wrecker. Hmm.. I don’t know. For now he is just a generic soldier that was welcomed into the wrecker family, but his story is very subject to change.  🤔 

Why yes, he does. Its kind of a given when you’re in a romantic relationship.

Yayy! Another story element I get to talk about! :DD

So just real quick, this 👇 is the character I’m going to be talking about.

Now yes, Honda has a lot of emotional baggage and PTSD. And I’ll tell you why, keep in mind this story is subject to change.

So before the war, Honda was a cargo ship pilot. She was a very skilled pilot and could pilot many different kinds of ships of varying sizes. She was actually supposed to be piloting the ship that rescued Escort as a matter of fact.

When the war began, she chose to be an Autobot. Well as the war got going, a lot of pilots were killed. The Autobots needed more pilots for their battle ships, and she was one of the people that got sent out to fly their ships.

..She killed thousands of people. She was always known as the sweetest and most gentle person anyone knew, she would never even hurt a Scraplet.

But she killed them. She killed bots, blew up homes, destroyed beautiful land marks and more. She never wanted to hurt anyone. But she did. She saw some of their faces before she snuffed out their sparks.

Fear was their only expression. The last feeling those bots felt was utter terror. And then she slaughtered them. The weight that she carries on her shoulders for what she did is astronomical. She feels spark crushing guilt for what she did to those poor people.

They had lives, memories, family’s, relationships, thoughts, feelings and dreams. And they all abruptly came to an end by her hand. Millions of people must be mourning the lives of those she has slaughtered.

But still, she lives on, and her victims do not. She carries the weight of their snuffed sparks on her shoulders and trudges forward, ever moving.

Now, something she started doing when she got to Earth was painting. She discovered that she really likes it and paints all the time.

Well.. she has her moments where she starts to draw faces.. screaming.. bloodies faces. She has the faces of her victims burned into her memory.

She’ll paint them sometimes.. In hope that it will lift the pain of what she did.

It never helps.

[gamerwoo]

Seventeen headcanon: Joshua as Nani and David’s son

from this svt as disney characters’ kids hc i did

a/n: i think there’s a second lilo & stitch or something like that but this isn’t based off of any of that since i haven’t seen it. but i think experiment 002 is in the series sooooo i guess it is kinda based off the series too

warnings: josh x female reader, hybrids, a small mention of death in the very beginning, mentions of bullying

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So at first, Nani wanted Josh to be raised not knowing anything about aliens or experiments

It’s her first kid and she wanted him to be,,,,,”normal” for lack of a better word

But of course, that was very difficult, and Joshua ended up knowing about aliens around the time he was 2 or 3

David’s honestly impressed they even got that far tbh

“That’s all still a part of him,” David explained. “The aliens and the weird stuff, that’s just how his family is. We can’t keep him away from it.”

He even got his own experiment as a “pet” when he was about 5 or 6

Mrs. Hasagawa had passed away, and the experiments that she thought were ‘cats’ needed a home

Josh picked out experiment 002 aka Doubledip

He was a cute and essentially harmless (other than the fact that Joshua grew up basically sharing every single food he ate with Doubledip like ice cream and lollipops and stuff)

Josh nicknamed him DD and Double D, and they’ve been together ever since

As a kid, Joshua was super close with Lilo, Stitch, Jumba, and Pleakley

He absolutely adored all of them and always wanted to go hang out with them despite Nani being lowkey upset about it

“It’s fine, they’ll keep him safe,” David would always remind her. “They’re ohana after all.”

However, there reached a point where Joshua got bullied kind of like Lilo did

His norm wasn’t necessarily the norm for everyone else

No one else believed in aliens or experiments

No one else had the same thoughts and ideas that Joshua did

No one else was interested in the same things Joshua was

He knew he had to say DD was his dog, but he didn’t think that he would have to be a completely different person just to fit in

But that’s what he did

Instead of focusing on aliens and experiments, he focused on surfing

Thankfully, he was raised learning how to surf, but now that was his #1 interest

He stopped visiting his aunt and Stitch as often

The only real connection to his ‘weird’ side was DD because how could he just give up his childhood best friend?

Well, other than Seokmin

Seokmin was always the only person who ever knew what Joshua was truly like, and he even tried to stop Josh from changing himself to fit in

“I can literally grow a tail!” Seokmin pointed out. “I talk to a dolphin on a daily basis! I’m the king of weird, and I’m still a prince!”

“Yeah, but that’s normal in your kingdom,” Joshua pouted as he sat out in the ocean on his surfboard, talking with Seokmin. “Here, it’s not. Normal isn’t experiments and aliens and spaceships.”

So despite his best efforts, Joshua just became as average as possible, which he would have to see when they hung out on the beach and went for walks together

But in the ocean, Josh could say and do whatever he wanted without being judged

Like feeding Pudge the fish’s offspring

So since becoming less weird since he was a kid, Joshua got more friends, including the girl who worked at the froyo place he often hung out with Seokmin at

And pretty much everyone calls him Shua

Her name was Mali and she feared the ocean despite living a five minute walk away

He usually spends most of his time there so that’s how they met

He’s basically just a regular

And it’s at that froyo shop that Joshua’s life starts to change

“So y’know Seungcheol?” Seokmin asks

“Not really,” Joshua shrugs. “I just know you talk about him and he’s a prince of some other kingdom.”

“Right, well he’s having a birthday party this weekend, and I can bring a plus one. Since I don’t have a princess or anything to bring, I wanted to bring you.”

“Really? Why not like, one of those girls lined up to date you or whatever? What are they called?”

Joshua obviously isn’t royalty so he doesn’t know much about these things

But it’s fine because Seokmin doesn’t know anything about experiments or surfing either

“I don’t want to bring a date, I want to bring my best friend!”

“I thought your best friend was Kipper.”

“I can’t bring a dolphin on land, barnacle head.”

Cue Josh flinging his damp towel at Seokmin’s head and going, “Not cool, bro.”

And Mali sighing behind the counter about how, “We really need a sign that requires you to wear a shirt in here.”

So skip to Seungcheol’s party

Admittedly, Joshua is pretty nervous

He keeps trying on different clothes but all he really owns are shorts, t-shirts, tank tops, flip flops/sandals, and sneakers

He’s a surfer dude okay, he doesn’t really need to dress up for anything

“DD, does this look okay?”

DD simply ignores him and continues to lick the bowl of candy Josh keeps for him

David and Nani have to help him find something decent to wear

Although David insists he should wear something super fancy since Seungcheol is royalty

“So...is he a lion then, or...?” he keeps asking

And then Joshua has to explain for the hundredth time that he’s kind of a lion-human hybrid thanks to magic stuff and yadda yadda yadda 

Tbh, Josh doesn’t even get it

Seokmin finally picks him up, and they go to Seungcheol’s kingdom for the party

With David still asking questions even after they leave because he doesn’t understand this magic concept

And yet he understands aliens

Sort of

Josh is used to acting normal to fit in, but now he’s trying to act Extra Normal TM

But god he’s so curious because he’s never really been outside of Hawaii so he can’t help but just look around in wonder at all the sights and the people

And then Seokmin asked, “Do you wanna meet Seungcheol?”

“Like...the prince?” Joshua stammered

“You do remember that I’m a prince too, right?”

“Yeah, but-- DD!”

Joshua suddenly spotted his experiment trying to eat the cupcakes

He didn’t even know DD went with him, but he assumes the little experiment hopped into his backpack before he left

“So much for acting normal...” Seokmin mumbled under his breath before running over to help Josh with his little problem

Now, 002 wouldn’t be an issue, but his name is Doubledip

Essentially, all he’s going to do is lick all of the food before putting it back

If you couldn’t tell, that’s disgusting

So DD is loose at the party of a royal, and it would be all Joshua’s fault that the food is ruined

So the urgency to collect DD and get him back into Joshua’s backpack is very, very valid

Well, and the fact that Joshua wants to come across as normal as possible

Thankfully, DD only licked 5 cupcakes and 3 mini hot dogs wrapped in croissants before Joshua managed to stuff him back into his backpack and handed him a bowl of pretzels to keep him occupied

And it was as Joshua was zipping his backpack up that he accidentally bumped into you

You lived in Seungcheol’s kingdom, but you were one of the people who actually quite liked him

Since Seungcheol is Kovu’s son and Kovu was considered bad before, there’s some controversy over him but that’s another story for another time

You wanted a drink and he accidentally backed up into you

You spilled your drink a little but at least it didn’t get on your clothes

You both spun around and began apologizing even though you didn’t really do anything so you weren’t sure why you were apologizing

“I-I can get you a new drink!” he stammered

“It’s really fine,” you assured him with a polite smile.

But you’d never really seen either of them around, and you figured you should mingle a little since you were here, right?

“You guys aren’t from around here, are you?” you asked.

The one behind him stepped forward and smiled brightly, “Nope! I’m Prince Seokmin, the son of King Eric and Queen Ariel.”

“Oh! It’s an honor to meet you!” you bowed to him before looking expectantly at the one who’d bumped into you.

“That’s just Shua,” Seokmin shrugged. “He’s from Hawaii.”

But y’know what, just Shua from Hawaii was kinda cute

And he thought the same

Plus, you just seemed normal and that’s what he wanted

You were just wearing some jeans, a nice shirt, a cardigan, and a beanie

Compared to all the royalty and important people here, you were like a breath of fresh air

“Hey, Seokmin!” a new voice called

And Prince Seungcheol strolled over and grinned at the other prince he called his friend

“Oh, I see you’ve brought a friend -- and you met _____!”

Seokmin introduced the two and then the four of you continued to make some small talk

You were just thankful that Seungcheol didn’t say or do anything to blow your cover

He eventually walked away to greet other guests, leaving the three of you alone again

But you continued to talk

Seokmin kinda took the hint that he was a bit of a third wheel at this point and left to find someone else to talk to

He’s a prince and he knows other princes so it’s fine

He mumbled something about wishing someone named Wonwoo was there but you didn’t pay any attention to it

You talked about where he was from, what he did for fun, what his family was like and stuff

He may have slightly bullshitted and/or left out some things but it’s fine

You also talked about you and what you did and your family

You may have also slightly bullshitted and/or left things out but again, it’s fine

Eventually, Joshua asked if you wanted to dance since you’d been standing at the snack table just talking this whole time

And since Seokmin was a great wingman and took the bag with DD in it, he was safe to do whatever

So you agreed and the two of you danced and talked all night

And you were so worried when the party was over that you wouldn’t see him again

But he asked if there was any way he could see you again and your heart fluttered

And you said you were sure you could make that happen

You had to figure out what surfing was, anyway

But after that was all over and you went home and the butterflies had died down just enough for you to think about something other than your growing crush on Joshua from Hawaii

You remembered that you weren’t exactly who or what he thought you were

And now you had to keep that hidden from him

And you weren’t sure how long you could do that

And when Joshua was on the way home with Seokmin, who was happily talking all about how he got to see Hansol again and he finally got to meet Hyunggu and everything

DD popped out of the backpack with his bowl of now salt-less pretzels

And Joshua remembered that you didn’t know what he was really like

Or his family

And now he’d have to keep that a secret from you, too

So fast forward to the next weekend, and you were planning to visit him

Joshua was doing his absolute best to like, hide everything

Make sure Lilo, Stitch, and any of the others won’t be around

Make sure his cousin won’t be hanging around

Make sure DD is at Lilo’s

Meanwhile, you had to make sure you looked normal before you left

Which was basically just wearing normal bottoms and wearing a hat

So when you arrived in Hawaii, Joshua was there to eagerly greet you

Though he didn’t really seem it on the outside

He’s the stereotypical surfer dude so he’s just very chill overall

He basically had the whole weekend planned out

Most of it consisted of teaching you how to surf

“I actually hate the water,” you admitted as he walked with you down the beach toward the water

He chuckled, “Well, then you’ll hate surfing. It’s in the water”

So instead of surfing, he compromised and made sand castles with you on the beach

He said something about wanting to show you the joys of fresh coconut milk so you offered to climb up and get one

“Nah, it’s cool,” he chuckled. “It’s high up anyway.”

“I’m a great climber!” you reassured him

And then you climbed up a tree and got him a coconut

But then he had to open it himself which was a whole struggle by itself

And then he brought you to his favorite place to go after surfing: the froyo shop

“Make a new friend, Shua?” Mali smirked

“Be nice. This is _____, she’s from Seungcheol’s kingdom. You know him, right?”

“Kovu and Kiara’s kid, right?”

You noticed that Mali joked around with Joshua a lot, but it was very lighthearted

You liked her

He had to work that night but he invited you because he worked as a fire torch performer (dude fuck if i know the correct term) at a restaurant

Which also meant you got to meet his parents, David and Nani

“So you’re the girl he’s been talking about so much,” David grinned as he went to shake your hand

And then Nani gently whacked him in the shoulder and reminded him, “You weren’t supposed to mention that,” in a hushed tone

Which you heard

David only shrugged and gestured to you, “Well she’s blushing, isn’t she?”

Overall, you thought his parents were great

Though, they did seem a little strange

Then again, who were you to judge?

David would start to say something only for Nani to quickly cut him off

You decided to not think much of it

You did have to admit, watching Josh twirl fire around without burning anything or himself was impressive

Why did he have to seem so perfect?

Afterwards, he joined you guys for dinner

Nobody let the alien thing slip, so overall, he thought it went pretty good

He was really sad to see you go but you promised you’d come back again soon

And you did

The two of you actually saw each other a lot

And feelings on both sides only continued to grow

He did finally have to introduce you to Lilo and Stitch and DD, though

He knew he couldn’t keep them hidden forever, and besides, everyone still fell for the dog thing when it came to the two experiments

Well, Doubledip was originally supposed to be a ‘cat’ but whatever

And Josh just made Lilo swear to not talk about aliens or mention anything weird

“I really like this girl,” he explained to her, “so don’t mess it up”

“You know, I’m fantastic with girls!” Pleakley chimed in

Joshua quickly shook his head, “You and Jumba aren’t invited”

So eventually, you had met all of Joshua’s family

Well, he called it ohana and explained what it meant, and you thought it was really cute

He was happy to find that you did buy the dog story, and you really liked DD and you got along with Stitch

Tbh he was most worried about Stitch

DD gets along with pretty much anyone, but Stitch isn’t so easy

Things were going super well, so he was ready to ask you to actually be his girlfriend

He brought you on a nice picnic on the beach where the two of you first hung out

And he had everything laid out and the two of you were starting to eat, and he was going to ask

But then he heard his name being shouted from down the beach

Lilo was out and about with her daughter and Stitch

And Stitch was very excited to see you

He bolted down the beach toward you and jumped on you, knocking you back onto the blanket

And also knocking your hat off your head

Out popped your fuzzy white round ears

Stitch pulled back and looked at you, head cocked to one side

Joshua just froze and stared at you

Because you weren’t technically human

You were from Seungcheol’s kingdom, so you were an animal that used magic to stay human

That magic turned you into a human/animal hybrid, just like Seungcheol

But instead of being a lion, you were a lemur

It was why you wore hats to hide your ears and jeans and skirts to hide your tail

It was why you didn’t like water

It was why you could climb trees so well

You weren’t normal

And now Joshua knew that

“I-I gotta go,” you quickly stuttered out, grabbing your hat and scrambling to get up

“_____--”

You shook your head, jamming your hat back on your head to conceal your ears, “Save it, I already know what it is.”

“B-but you’re-- What are you...?”

“I’m a lemur, alright?” you huffed, tears pricking your eyes because you knew Joshua was not going to want anything to do with you

Even though you were a human and could stay human, you couldn’t get rid what you really were

It was weird, and people didn’t like weird

“You don’t have to say anything about it,” you continued as you tried your best to keep from crying, “because I already know you’re going to say I’m weird and you won’t want anything to do with me. So I’ll go and I won’t bother you again. And...I’m sorry for not telling you.”

And then you ran up the beach, not looking back once

Joshua sighed and dropped his head, closing his eyes as he rubbed over his face with his hands

Stitch just looked up at him and said, “Oops...”

Heartbroken, Joshua walked back home alone

Nani and David knew what he was planning, so they were so excited for him to get home

But seeing him with a frown as he threw the half-empty picnic basket on the counter before going to his bedroom without a word, they knew something was wrong

“I’ll take this one,” David told her before going to Joshua’s room

David knocked softly before entering to find his son face down on his bed

“Do you wanna talk about it?”

“No,” he mumbled into his pillow

“Did...she say no?”

“I didn’t even get to ask, dad,” he sighed, lifting his head to look at David

“Did something come up?”

“Stitch tackled her and knocked her hat off and she...”

How was Joshua supposed to explain this?

He could deal with aliens and experiments, but human animals were something he hadn’t dealt with before

Would his dad even believe him?

“What? She got a weird haircut or something?” David chuckled

“She had fuzzy animal ears,” Joshua finally told him straight-out. “She’s an animal that’s human by magic.”

“Ah, right. That stuff you explained before. Y’know, Nani had to tell me how that worked like, seven times before I really got it.”

Joshua just let out a groan and dropped his head back in his pillow again

David sighed and sat on the edge of the bed, “Who are you to judge? You keep an experiment as a pet -- and worse, it licks everything you eat.”

Joshua pushed himself to sit up and sat beside his dad, “That’s not it, dad. I still like her, it’s just--”

“I thought you wanted a ‘normal’ girl, though?”

He just shrugged, “I like her. But she ran away before I could tell her. Besides, I’m way weirder...”

“Then if you like her for being a little different, why can’t you be okay with yourself being different?”

“A little?”

“Do you think being an animal is only a little different?”

And it’s that talk that caused Joshua to go after you

He packed up the photo of his ohana that he kept on his nightstand

And he packed DD

And he left for Seungcheol’s kingdom

You were obviously just as upset, if not more, back home

The silver lining was that you could wear your usual pants which had a hole cut in them for your tail to comfortably stick out

You wanted to spend the next day just sulking

But you ended up being called to Seungcheol, claiming there was someone who needed to talk to you

Joshua got Seokmin to bring him to Seungcheol’s because he realized he had no idea how he’d find you

And walking into Seungcheol’s throne room, Joshua was the last person you expected to see

“Sh-Shua? But...w-what are you--”

“I like you,” he blurted before you could finish what you were saying. “I like you with your ears and your tail because you’re still you. But before you say anything, just... These are things you should know about me, too.”

He opened his bag, and out popped DD

“Double D isn’t my dog. He’s an alien experiment from outer space, and the only thing he knows how to do is double dip foods, and lick things before putting them back. He’s stupid, and I love him”

Then he pulled out a framed picture and handed it to you

You looked it over and saw it was Joshua, Nani, David, Lilo, Lilo’s two kids, Stitch, DD, and some...things you didn’t recognize

“That’s my whole ohana. It’s not just the people I let you meet.”

He told you all about the aliens included in the photo, and you listened, glancing between the picture and him

And when he was done, you just stared at him because honestly, you didn’t suspect him to be anything but normal

But for some reason, maybe because he could relate to you, you liked him even more

Neither of you were considered ‘normal’ so didn’t that make you an even better match?

“I just...wanted you to know that before you decided to never speak to me again,” Joshua concluded

You weren’t sure what to say even though you knew exactly what you wanted to say

You just didn’t really know how to say it

“This is the part you tell him you still like him, too,” Seungcheol whispered in your ear

While Seokmin was Joshua’s wingman, apparently Seungcheol became yours

“I like you, too,” you told him with a sheepish smile, feeling your cheeks heat up

Joshua’s grin matched the brightness of the sun

“So...you wanna go out sometime?” Joshua asked

To which Seokmin whispered, “You’ve already done that before. Just ask her to be your girlfriend, kelp-for-brains”

So he does

And you accept

The next time you visit, you properly meet his ohana

Jumba and Pleakley definitely take a little getting used to but you do think they’re pretty amusing with the way they bicker

“They’re like an old married couple!”

“Don’t say that in front of Jumba, though”

You visit him all the time

So often that sometimes you just spend weeks there at a time

You eventually work your way up to being able to sit on Joshua’s board while he surfs

He makes sure to only go on baby waves so that way you don’t fall over or get wet

You befriend Mali at the froyo shop, and despite roasting Joshua sometimes, she always says how cute the two of you are

And the two of you live happily ever after

[secretlynestaarcheron]

COLD AS ICE

Figure skating x hockey player

TWO: Cassian and The Bet

Cassian ran a hand through his wet hair as he makes his way back out towards the locker room, he throws his towel over his shoulder as he unlocks his locker. “Hey Cas, are you coming to the party tonight?” I heard a rumor that Tamlin might be there,” Rhysnd says from where he was sitting on the bench slipping on his shoes.

Cassian rolls his head, he was already feeling the tension in his shoulders from the stress semester, “I don’t know man, I’ve got a ton of homework and I don’t really feel like getting involved with Tamlin before the game this weekend.”

“Never thought I’d hear the day that Cassian Monte would say no to brawl, who are you becoming?” Tomas cheers from the other side where he changes despite not doing much throughout practice besides sitting on the bench. He was only on the team because his father donated the new bleachers.

Cassian looks over at Rhysand with a deadpan expression, growing up in foster care made Cassian a fighter but once he joined the hockey team in highschool where he met Rhysand and Azriel he had a new reason to fight. The only reason he was at this school working towards a degree in engineering was because of hockey.

He wouldn’t let his scholarship be taken away because of some fight off the ice or a bad grade in an easy class, Rhysand understood it but unfortunately not a lot of the rich kids on the team did. “I got an eight am tomorrow, why don’t you come have a few drinks and then we can head back to the apartment together?” Azriel chimes in, being the voice of reason as always.

Cassian frowns, rubbing his chin, “Okay, but text me when you’re heading over and if I haven’t gotten a load of my homework done its a no from me,” he retorts, slipping on his jacket and leaving the locker room.

As he makes his way towards the exit, he stops short when he sees Nesta sitting down on the bench in front of the rink, ear muffs and scarf pulled tightly around her neck. She had her knees to her chest as she clutched a book in front of her face.

He stepped forward, grabbing his keys from his pocket, he felt the need to go out there and talk to her. To pick on her, or maybe to offer her a ride home. He shakes his head at the thought, she was probably waiting for Mor or possibly her own personal driver.

He steps out in the cold making his way towards the parking lot where his beat up jeep was, it was a typical cliche but it was cheap and he needed transportation to take his gear all over the place. He jumps into the front seat, quickly sticking his key into the ignition before blasting the heat.

Once his mirrors are set and he can feel his hands, he pulls out of the driveway, looking over the bench in front of the rink where Nesta was gathering her stuff and moving towards the bus. He furrowed his brow, watching as she smiled at the bus driver chatting as she handed him her card. She had a transportation card. He curses himself for assuming that she was waiting on a personal driver.

There was more to her than he thought, he figured the blonde hair and figure skating made her the prime stereotype for rich white girls. There’s a beep and he looks in his rearview to see Rhysand sticking his hands up in confusion.

He waves apologetically before turning towards campus, where he was going to seat himself in the library and knock out the rest of his homework. His phone chimes after a couple hours and he looks up as someone shushes him, smiling apologetically, he grabs his backpack and answers the phone as he exits the library.

“Yeah, I know, I am heading home now,” Cassian retorts before the person even said hello.

“I am glad you just now remembered,” Azriel says on the other side but he was chuckling, “Where are you? I’ll just pick you up from there.”

“He’s probably still in his loungewear from after practice he is not going to a party in his joggers and teeshirt,” Rhysand calls out from the passenger seat, “He’ll come home and change, I don’t care if you’re late.”

Cassian rolls his eyes, “I am at the library,” he says.

“Cool, I’ll see you there,” Azriel retorts earning a groan from Rhysand. He leans against the wall, flipping mindlessly through Instagram while he waits for the slick black car to pull up. He finds himself pulling up Nesta Archerons page, he was trying to know more about her.

There were pictures of her with Mor, dressed up for parties or hanging in the quad, as well as a few of her competing, she looked angelic on the ice. He scrolls far enough down that he stumbles upon a picture of Nesta laying down on a hospital bed her head against an older lady who looks just like her. The lady is talking with a bright smile and Nesta looks over at her with sparkling eyes.

Cassian was familiar with the bright blue cap on the ladies head and all the IV’s, he was there when his own mother had passed away from cancer, he scrolled down her captain only a yellow heart, the comments full of condolences. Her mother had passed away as well. He takes note of the date it was posted, six years ago today.

He felt weird, he honestly kind of felt like that guy Joe from that stalker show. She posted on her instagram for all of her followers to see but he still felt like he was invading her personal space, as if he wasn’t welcomed.

“Stop spacing out and get in the car, it’s already six!” Rhysand yells. Cassian looks up to see him halfway out the window, waving wildly at his friend. Azriel shrugs in the driver seat as Cassian jumps into the back. “What were you so deep in thought about?”

Cassian runs a hand through his hair, “All the organic chem homework I am going to have to do when I get home at eight,” he says.

Rhysand laughs, “Like you're actually going to get home by eight,” he chuckles, reaching forward to turn up the music before Cassian has any objections.

Rhysand grabs his shoulder before moving past him into the house, it was already bumping full of intoxicated college (and probably some highschool) students and bland techno music. “Nesta! Nesta! Nesta!” a group of college kids in the back chanted catching the attention of Cassian as he moved his way through the crowd.

She sat on the kitchen island, taking shot after shot of some unknown liquid that happened to be neon blue. She took the last one, punching her hands into the air as she turns to the crowd letting out a loud cheer. The crowd cheers along with her but quickly makes their way deeper into the party aside from a few college guys who linger around her.

“People don’t know it but you’re such a crackhead,” Mor says as Nesta moves off the island, stumbling into Mor’s shoulder as she regains her balance. She looks up, her bright green eyes catching his, she pushes herself up keeping contact with him. “What? What are you looking at-Oh, Cassian,” Mor says, turning to face him, moving a hand around Nesta’s waist. “This is the last time I DD for her.”

Nesta rest her head against Mor shoulder, he wonders if she’s always been like this at parties or if it had anything to do with her mom. He had seen her at parties before, finding a dark corner and pulling a book from her bag to read. He had never seen her like this but he never really gets out much either.

“Amren!” Mor yells, groaning loudly, “God, why are both of them such bad drunks? Could you watch her while I grab Amren? I really hope I am not this bad when I am drunk.”

She pushes Nesta towards him, as she pushes through the crowd to find Amren, another figure skater on the team. He holds her up, looking around the room deciding what he should do next. His eyes fixate on a girl across the room talking with Rhysand, she had the same dirty blonde hair as Nesta as well as the same facial expressions.

Rhysand looks over at her, gaining the attention of the girl as well, her eyes widen and she bolts away from Rhysand who looks after sadly. “Cassian?” Nesta murmurs, looking up at him, blinking to regain focus in her eyes, she pushes his arm around her. “What are you doing here?”

“Babysitting you, apparently,” he says with a roughness that’s a little too sharp. She blinks up at him, her arms dropping to her side, “Wanna go outside?”

She looks up at him before nodding, she follows behind him towards the back door, Cassian didn’t know whose house this was but they would have a giant mess to clean up tomorrow morning for sure. He lead her over to a porch swing, she fell into it putting a hand against her forehead.

“My 9:30 class tomorrow is going to suck,” she murmurs, her head moving to the side, as she closed her eyes. He pushed off his foot, moving the swing lightly back and forth, “Who’s idea was it to have a party on a thursday?”

“Probably those kids from Autumn Court, their parents paid for their degrees so they don’t need to worry about class,” he hums, leaning back and looking up at the dark sky, “You know, I am still mad about your post.”

She groans, turning to look at him, “Seriously? If your team could have scheduled another practice anytime that day, but you chose to pick the two hours we were in there,” she says, pushing herself into an upright position staring down at him. “I want to see you do what I can do, you couldn’t even if I trained you.”

He raises an eyebrow, “Okay, deal.”

She frowns at him, running a hand through her tangled hair, “What do you mean? Deal? I didn’t make a deal with you?” she says, her speech quickly sobering up. “I don’t want to make a deal with you.”

He rubs his chin, “The game against Spring Court is this Sunday and so is your conpetition, you teach me to figure skate and I’ll teach you how to play hockey, first one to quit loses,” he retorts, “This way we’ll both learn how to appreciate each other's sports.”

She looks down at his extended hand, before grabbing it, “Deal, I hope you like losing. Balancing on one leg while wearing a revealing costume is a lot harder than hitting a puck with a stick.”

He rolls his eyes, turning as the door opens, he frowns standing up quickly, “Tamlin, what are you doing here?” he says, squaring up and blocking Nesta from his view. He looks down at the small frame beside him, the familiar girl that Rhysand was talking to earlier.

“Cassian,” Tamlin says, his lip curling into a smile, “Haven’t seen you in a long while, I am sure you’ll go back into hiding when we beat you this weekend.”

Cassian feels a shove and Nesta is standing in front of him, her eyebrows furrowed, “Feyre Archeron, what the hell are you doing here,” she growls, her eyes on fire as she looks at Tamlin, “Do you realize that she’s seventeen?”

Feyre frowns as Tamlins arm falls from where it was around her shoulder, “Way to kill my vibe, Nes, some sister you are,” she snaps, turning on her heel angrily and running into the house.

“Don’t you run away from me, we are having words, just because dad doesn’t care anymore doesn’t mean you can do something stupid like that!” she yells after her, following her through the open door, disappearing into the crowd of people.

“That’s pretty sick, man,” Cassian says turning back towards Tamlin who shrugged in response, “It’s not like we did anything, besides she’ll be eighteen soon enough. Her sister is pretty firey, maybe I’ll have her entertain me until Freyes birthday,”

Cassian gripped his fist, his nails piercing the hard skin in his palms, “I’ll see you on Sunday,” he says calmly, before pushing past him and back into the house looking around for Rhysand or Azriel. He had wasted enough time here.

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Outlaw Woman Ch2

Rated M - this is a serious rating y’all. There’s derogatory terms and sex and violence. The MC world is not a soft place but I won’t water it down.

Lexi is constantly finding herself in the middle- She belongs with the SOA, family is everything, but finding her role within that family is hard. She has to find a balance and a place before she just teeters over the edge and gets lost in the madness. Love, Lust, Violence, and Hilarity.

Jax x OC x Happy - David Hale x OC

Hey guys! Lets act like we’ve done this before ok? No copying my work- I don’t own SOA etc etc. I LOVE Lexi. I put a lot of myself in her and I would adore your feedback. Check out my Master List Here. 

Happy locked eyes with Lexi as he slid his calloused, masculine, strong right hand under her left knee. Lexi couldn't help the sudden intake of breath, her lips parting ever so slightly. The room suddenly felt way too small. No man had ever made her nervous like Happy did. She had no idea what to do with that. It had been years since their one night. One night of mindless pleasure. No names had been exchanged. No club affiliation ever discussed. That night had gone completely unacknowledged even after they realized. Verbally at least. It was for the better.

Thank God he wasn't around more because as is, these moments are getting far too frequent. As his hand slid slowly but with purpose down her calf lifting her ankle onto his jean clad knee she held her breath. He lifted it just off his knee sliding the ice pack under to cool it from behind where it looked to be the most bruised. "Hand me that gauze." His voice was slightly deeper than normal- less raspy. She nodded dumbly and then, and then the most embarrassing thing ever, she let out a loud hiccup that was so violent it actually caused her to bounce slightly off the bar.

Lexi was mortified; she couldn't look up at him. She hadn't even had warning enough to cover her mouth. Her face immediately began to heat up and she handed him the gauze as quickly as she could before taking a long pull from the bottle of Jack at her side tossing the lid across the room. This day had been exhausting- she had every intention of making it all go away by drinking as much of this bottle as she could. 'At least the hiccup had killed that moment before anyone could walk in on that super sexy eye contact,' she thought.

Her leg was so smooth and warm from the sun. Happy's mind went blank when she bounced- he'd been captivated by the jiggle of her DDs. Really, he had to get ahold of himself. If Tig kept catching him staring like this- it'd be his nuts. Especially now that she had an old man. His eyes wandered over a fresh piece of ink on her calf. She was lucky her boots had protected it. A beautiful reaper curved along her calf. The style very reminiscent of the one painted on the door- this one held more color. It was centered in a golden frame with the shadows of crows dancing behind its head and in its extended palm instead of the traditional anarchy sign it held a glowing sacred heart. He had to rein this shit in. Happy didn't like being out of control of anything- with Lexi he felt he was out of control of EVERYTHING. From the moment he’d arrived in Charming five years ago only to learn that sweet wild delicious piece of ass he’d fucked on the road was actually Tig’s sister, he’d been fighting to get a solid grip on things. She never followed direction, she was always putting herself in bad situations, she was ever chasing adventure and danger. That he was attached to her in the slightest was dangerous. EVERTHING about Lexi was dangerous for him.

"So what was all of that about?" he distracted as he began to gingerly wipe the blood off of her leg, putting slight pressure on the scrapes to stop the bleeding. "Fucking idiot probably should have done this first," he muttered. Lexi laughed, "yeah well you know my brother- more bullets then brain." Hap smirked nodding his head and continuing to work on her- long golden soft warm- leg. "That stick in Tara's ass has been super-sized lately. It's starting to affect the functionality of her brain." Hap glanced up at her, "but why? Why you?" Lexi scoffed taking another pull off her bottle, "I honestly don't know where this started. She's always hated me, but since she came back- she wants me dead." She took another pull, "Jax definitely isn't helping things. This reminds me I have to find a new place to hide my key." "Wasn't your old man mad when he showed up like that?" Lexi almost shot whiskey out her nose- which burns for a very long time if you've never done it. "What old man? What have you been smoking Hap and can I have some?" Hap reached into his pocket with his left hand using his right to apply light pressure. He fished out a joint and handed it over and she giggled in delight.

After a deep inhale, holding the smoke in her lungs, "What're you talking about Hap?" her accent continued to thicken with each vice she partook in. He gently tapped her tattoo and then ran a finger firmly down one side of the frame. "OH!" She was becoming more animated; her hands were now flying as she was speaking to him causing some of the booze to slosh out. "No, I got that just for me. It's not a crow. I got shot six months ago, Clay and Gem and Tig and the boys all said I earned my own reaper. I had to make it a little more girly though. I'm just not the kind of girl to rock anything overly masculine." Happy's brain had stopped on the shot part, "see this is what I'm talking about! How the hell did you get shot?" Lexi's eyebrows furrowed as she leaned forward, "what you're talking about?" He shook his head, "How the hell did you get shot?" She leaned back eyeing him suspiciously but in her buzzed state quickly let it go shrugging and smiling, "drive by." She unbuttoned the top button on her blouse allowing her to shift the collar so he could see the vibrant pink shiny new flesh where she had taken the bullet. And also a good flash of skin and pink lace. Happy shook his head. Focus. He took the bottle from her taking a long pull only to realize she’d already knocked back more than half of it. Well that wasn’t good.

Focus. He hadn't heard of a drive by. "Drive by where?" "Oakland." "What the fuck were you doing in Oakland?" "I had a meeting with a gallery in Oakland. I sold three paintings- Jax took me to a bar after to celebrate." "What the fuck?"

Jax should know better than that.

He had put Lexi in danger.

He had started this thing with Tara too.

Lexi was the artist of the door and the tattoo. Well that made her hotter. Fuck.

Happy filed it away at the look of confusion on Lexi's face. Her blue eyes were sharp, even in her inebriated state. He schooled his features trying to look casual. He'd have to ask around about this when she wasn't around. Something about all of this didn't seem right. What the hell was Jax thinking- or better yet what was Jax thinking with?

Before he could even process all of this new information two things happened: One, Tig, the Prospect and Chibs came laughing and rough housing out of the dorms; two, the front door to the club house was thrown open with a loud BANG. Gemma cut a formidable figure in her bitch heels; large black hobo bag slung over her shoulder. "Little girl, you have a lot of explaining to do!" Lexi was immediately off the bar forgetting her swollen foot and leaving the half smoked joint in an ash tray. The pain immediately reminded her why she’d been smoking it in the first place and she reached out gripping Happy's shoulder for support. He stood and maneuvered her to his stool. The way the two moved with each other was so natural- the all-seeing mother bear quirked an eyebrow, not missing a thing. Happy pulled up a second bar stool and lifter her foot; replacing the ice pack, only when she was situated did he step away. Then again Alexia is family and Happy was notoriously protective of SOA family- especially the women. Though, no one would ever label him a nurturer. Gemma filed this new observation away for a later date.

"You fucking broke the doc's nose! You better have a damn good reason!" Gemma scolded charging toward her beloved pseudo daughter. "Gemma you know me better than that! The bitch started something she didn't have the ass to back up." "Why the fuck would she do that Lex? Jax was at your house last night! That's why!" Happy’s shoulders tensed and he leaned back against the bar staring at the juke box intently. Lex rolled her eyes, "that's an issue you should take up with your son." Gemma threw her purse on the counter, "I would if I could but he's too busy talking Tara down." Lexi threw her hands up, "this is nuts! Why do I have to defend myself when I was just defending myself!" "Lex, you know I’ve always thought you were better for Jax then that little tart, but when you sleep with another woman's old man she has every right to give you hell. You screwed up you should take it!" Lexi, now seeing red, threw that mother fucking bottle of booze against the wall behind Gemma who covered her head and stared at her pseudo daughter in shock. "I didn't do shit!" The entire club was silent in the wake of the bottles shatter.

Tig came up behind Lex quietly, putting an affectionate and comforting hand on her shoulder. Her chest was heaving from screaming and a tear of rage sank down her cheek. Lexi was not an angry girl but she had a temper that she struggled with at times- one that had been passed down to both of his children by Dan Trager. Chibs turned to the Prospect, "go get me medics bag." Half Sack nodded and slipped out of the room silently, relieved to be anywhere but here. "You know what Gem?" came a low soft lilting Texas accent, "If I had slept with Jax, yes, Tara would have every right. I have never slept with Jax. I don't intend to sleep with Jax. I. Don't. Want. Him." She took another long deep breath and the queen opened her mouth as if to say something but quickly shut it. "Jax," Lexi was disgusted, "broke into my house last night. I had no idea he was there until the morning. I am sick,” her voice hitched, “I am sick and tired of your fucking son putting me in the middle." Lexi looked up from where her eyes had been glued to her lap. Making eye contact with Gemma, Gemma felt her spine go cold at a look that was violent and fed up. "Tara jumped me- pulled me off the bike- Jax did nothing- I defended myself. That is the last time I am saying it to you Gemma. Believe who you want."

Gemma sat down in the nearest chair with a dramatic sigh. “Well why didn’t you just say so.”

Lexi closed her eyes and took a deep breathe trying to calm herself. Happy noticed that her hands were clenched and shaking. TIg glanced at the Killer and followed his dark stare. He lovingly, gently pried her fingers apart and rubbed his thumbs over the crescent imprints from her nails. Chibs made his move then, the medic's bag appearing in his hand. Got to give it to the Prospect, he had come and gone with no one noticing. Chibs moved to Lexi's side examining her scrapes. "We need to clean these honey and then we need to take a look at that ankle, see if it's broken." Lexi nodded allowing the Scott to clean and bandage the wound on her thigh in silence but not before she scooped up Happy's abandoned beer on the bar and downing it in one go and taking a long hit off the joint. "When I know what's goin on with your ankle, I'll give you something for the pain and to chill your nerves love." Lexi gave him a thin smile before carefully putting the now significantly shorter joint between the Scotts lips who gave her a roguish smile in return. “I’m good,” she muttered.

From her spot at a table Gemma lit a cigarette massaging her temples as she puffed and puffed. 

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Ur home office setup looks so niceeeeee. Ive just been moving from one vaguely horizontal surface to another, with my spine suffering XD zoom university ftw lollll

Also i didnt realize ur desktop background was shownu!!! I was just like "wow pretty landscape...wait...this looks familiar - ZOOMS IN" ahaha. i miss shownu too but idk if u saw ch+ released his cosmopolitan shoot behind the scenes (fans uploaded scenes on twt)...i LOVED that shoot's concept (like kinda flirty/pouty/playful sexy?? Idk adjectives are hard) & he was in a mesh shirt...ya. just. brain static.

And im looking forward to seeing burger nu!! i love when he gets hyper & chaotic & his costume is just so hilariously/cutely oversized :DD i also derive such schadenfreude from seeing these near 30yr olds having to wear these ridiculous outfits as part of their job ahahaha

Anyhow in the meantime - ur kicking ass! Im gonna take a class on python for the 1st time & its been cool/comforting to hear about ur struggles ahaha. Best of luck with school & coworkers!!!

i decided to upgrade since it's likely that i'll keep working from home but i think i need a new chair because u know what.. my spine is suffering too. trust me, get one of those miniature foldable tables (like the one shownu eats breakfast from) and u can almost set up anywhere. i use it when i wanna work on the couch or my bed (but i really try not to work on my bed because it might mess up my sleep cycle)

yeah hehe i loved that shot from newton mv so much.. ive had the same background for like.. 4 years now? AND OMG im saving that to watch on the weekend.... i'll be prepared for the brain static

i really had to look up what schadenfreude is and is it bad that i laughed.. sorry boys, please know we love you, you're just endlessly entertaining

and oh my goodness honestly if i had a good lecturer and more time to learn (they taught us python in 3 hours lmao) i'd probably enjoy it more.. i'm learning c# at the moment and that's also driving me nuts.. just a tip, maybe try watching tutorials or reading up on it before u start class! pycharm is my favorite IDE for python. i definitely recommend it

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ALTERNATE POV: Is There an IUD That Can Stop the Image of You and Me! (Bellamy!) plz thx it made me so happy

Original fic here!

Before Clarke told him she’d never had sex, Bellamy was going to try to ask her out.

Or, well, that was the plan. But he’ll admit that he didn’t really know how he was going to do that. The lab partners thing wasn’t even a first step, it was a test, to see if his suspicion that he really did like Clarke was accurate. And the more time he spends with her, the more he likes her, and it’s so fucking stupid. The whole thing is just such a mess.

Which is why it seems like such a good idea to ask her if she wants to make out.

She blinks a few times, clearly taken by surprise, but she doesn’t look offended. It’s a great first step to not getting his ass kicked, and ideally getting to hook up with Clarke. And then maybe dating.

“What?” she asks at last.

“We’re done with our lab,” he says, with deliberate casualness. “You’re good on the Latin homework. I’m always good on the Latin homework. I’m pretty sure your paper will keep.” He shrugs, as if all of this leads to a logical conclusion. “So, yeah. Do you want to make out?”

She narrows her eyes. “Why?”

“Because it’s fun?”

“Finn’s the only person I’ve ever made out with,” she admits, and he can’t help making a face. He disliked Finn Collins enough before he knew he was hugely exaggerating his relationship with Clarke. Lying is kind of implied in cheating, but going out of his way to lie about one or probably both of the girls he was cheating on is another level.

But he has better things to think about than that right now.

“Jesus,” he says. “No wonder you don’t think it’s fun.”

“I never said that,” she says. It sounds less like a defense of Finn and more like a defense of making out. Which he’s all for. “I’m just not sure why you’re offering.”

“We’re not doing anything else and I like making out. No big deal either way.”

If she can tell he’s lying through his teeth, she gives no sign of it. Instead she worries her lip, visibly making up her mind, and Bellamy waits, not wanting to pressure her. It really isn’t a big deal if she says no. But he will be pretty excited if she says yes.

“I might not be any good at it,” she finally says, and he feels his face break into a stupid grin.

He crosses the room, sits down next to her on the bed, careful not to spook her, but she doesn’t look upset. “You’ll be fine,” he assures her, and when she smiles, he moves a little closer. “Tell me if you want to stop,” he murmurs, and then he’s kissing her.

Clarke is a little hesitant, her movements unsure, so he goes slowly, getting her used to it. It’s not as if it’s a chore, after all. He gets to take his time, learn what she likes.

And by all appearances, she likes kissing him. When he slides his tongue against her lips, she opens for him, and when he pushes her back, she tugs him on top of her. Her hands slide up his back, under his shirt, and when he tries to shift his rapidly hardening dick away from her, she not only wraps her leg around his to keep him close, she actually tries to pull his shirt off.

He laughs, delight filling his chest and bubbling out of him, inevitable. “Yeah?” he asks.

She frowns, looking kind of adorably put out, and he has to restrain himself from kissing her again. “I’m not sure what I’m agreeing to if I say yes. But I assume there’s a step two to making out.”

He nuzzles he jaw, kisses her neck. If she’s trying to get him shirtless, he assumes he can try some other stuff too. “If you want. Up to you. I know you haven’t done this before.”

“Not for lack of interest.”

“Clearly.” He takes the shirt off, and she definitely checks him out.

It’s a lot to process, so he leans in for another kiss. “Tell me if–actually, just keep checking in. Good or bad.”

She slides her hand into his hair, gives it a light tug, figuring it out. “Good so far.”

“Yeah,” he says, and he’s planning out his next move, sliding his hands up under her shirt, moving closer, testing what she likes, where he should touch her, when her phone rings.

Of course.

He glances at the display, sees Mom and a picture lighting up the iPhone. He didn’t think he’d get laid today, but he thought he’d at least have a little longer to enjoy this.

“Fuck,” says Clarke, with feeling.

Her mother apparently needs her, but when he kisses her goodbye, she doesn’t mind, and when he asks if she’ll be back, she says yes.

All in all, it’s a very successful experiment. He can’t wait to see what happens next.

*

Somehow, he didn’t expect to actually end up having regular sex with Clarke. At best, he thought he’d get to make out with her a little more, maybe get laid, if she was interested in seeing how that was. It didn’t seem impossible, hoping for those things. But he wasn’t really very optimistic.

But Clarke seems to like him. Or at least she likes hooking up with him, and he thinks she likes him beyond that. They chat and joke around, and she smiles at him and teases him and even hangs out with him sometimes at school, outside of class, like they’re friends.

He wants them to be friends. He wants them to be so much more than that.

“Have you considered telling her that?” Miller asks. He’s finally ready to try dating again after he and Bryan broke up over the summer, so he’s dragging Bellamy to some party that he is really not looking forward to.

“I was going to ask her to come tonight, but her mom’s dragging her to a thing,” he says. “Does that count?”

“Not really. You can say you were going to ask her, but that doesn’t mean you would have followed through. I’m thinking if she didn’t have plans, you would have come up with another reason to not invite her.”

“I probably would have just tried to play it off like I was asking her as a friend,” he grants. “But we definitely would have made out, so–that’s progress, right?”

“Clearly,” says Miller. “I guess it is pretty impressive that you actually managed to get her to fuck you.”

“It wasn’t even that hard. Clarke Griffin’s into casual sex, who knew?”

There’s a long pause, and when Bellamy finally looks over, Miller exhales. “Honestly, dude? I can’t believe she is. That really doesn’t seem like her. So if she’s fucking you, it’s probably serious. You should talk to her.”

He swallows hard. “Wait, is this heartfelt advice from a friend? Are you sick?”

“I’m just saying, I’ve never seen you this happy. Think about how great it would be if you actually knew what was happening.”

“That does sound cool,” he admits.

“I’m saying.”

“As teenage boys, isn’t sex supposed to be our top priority?” he teases.

“Hey, fuck you, it’s still mine. You’re the one who grew feelings.”

Bellamy sighs. “Yeah. That’s me.”

*

The party kind of sucks.

It’s not really a surprise; Bellamy’s never been great at parties, because he’s just a little too responsible. He’s too busy worrying about how everyone else is doing to really have that much fun himself, and when he’s looking for a hookup he has to find someone else who’s doing the same thing.

Clarke would definitely be great for that; he has it so bad.

Miller finds some science club guy he’s been pretending he’s not flirting with fairly early on in the evening, which means Bellamy is relieved of his duties as wingman and moral support provider. It’s both convenient and a little annoying, since he doesn’t actually have anything else to do, but if he leaves, he’ll never hear the end of it from the rest of the track team.

So he’s not going to say he’s happy Niylah gets completely shitfaced, because that sucks for her, but at least he has a good reason to leave and someone to look after.

Harper is the one who finds him. “Are you sober? Miller said you were his DD.” She pauses. “Then he, like, made fake boobs on his chest and started cracking up so I’m not convinced he knows what’s going on.”

Bellamy frowns. “He’s that wasted? Is he okay? Where is he?”

She rolls her eyes. “Okay, yeah, you’re sober. I’m going to be good to drive home but I can’t yet, and Niylah needs to leave. Can you take her home?”

“You’ll get Miller?”

“Yes, Mom, I’ll get Miller. I’m not drinking anymore.”

“Okay, cool. Thanks.”

She just smiles. “How does no one realize you’re like this?”

“I work very hard on my image. Where is she?”

Between him and Harper, they get Niylah in the car, and he says goodbye to a semi-coherent but cheerful Miller.

Pretty standard, as parties go.

“What happened?” he asks Niylah, once they’re on the road. The two of them aren’t particularly close, but they’ve had a few classes together over the years. He’s positively inclined to her.

“I got drunk.”

“Clearly. Any particular reason?”

She huffs. “I got dumped.”

“Shit. That sucks.”

“It happens.”

“Did she say why?”

“Not clicking, whatever.” She makes a face. “Do you have a girlfriend? Boyfriend? You’re friends with Miller, but you guys aren’t together, right?”

“No.” He clears his throat, shifts a little, thinking of Clarke. Like he’s not basically always thinking of Clarke. “No boyfriend. Not really a girlfriend.”

“Not really?”

“Not how I want.”

She’s quiet for a second. “Clarke, right?”

He groans. “That obvious?”

“You guys are hanging out more. And she’s hot.” She sighs. “Straight?”

“Into guys,” he says. “Not sure about anything else.”

“No offense, but I hope she’s bi.”

“None taken. I hope she’s bi too.”

“And I hope it works out for you.”

“Yeah. That too.”

*

By Tuesday, it’s not looking good. He’s not sure what happened, but Clarke is clearly mad, possibly at him. Even though they don’t spend a ton of time together at school, it tends to be friendlier than this. She’s short with him, offering monosyllabic responses to his questions, focusing only on schoolwork. It’s disconcerting not only because she’s so curt but because he hadn’t quite realized until then how far they’d come, how much he had to lose. But they’re not even back at square one; they’re at some earlier place, without the barbed teasing they had before, without anything.

It sucks.

He tries to pull her aside on Wednesday and talk to her, but she says she’s got something to do and brushes him off.

“I don’t know what the fuck I even could have done,” he tells Miller, with his face down on the lunch table. “We were cool on Saturday. Now I can’t even get her to talk to me. Fuck.”

Miller pets him. “Maybe she’s just in a shitty mood and it has nothing to do with you.”

“Yeah. That doesn’t help. I want her to talk to me when stuff sucks. I want to be there for her.”

“Yeah, I know. But you guys might not be there yet. Especially if she thinks you’re just fucking.”

“Yeah.” He sighs. “I guess I’ll find out on Saturday, if nothing else. If she shows up.”

“Try not to be too much of an asshole. Benefit of the doubt.”

It’s good advice, but by the time Saturday rolls around, he’s basically a grumpy asshole about everything. Even leaving aside the Clarke stuff, it’s been a long, stressful week, and he’s in no mood to deal with anything.

He’s not even sure Clarke’s going to show up. That sucks a lot too.

When she does, he’ll admit to not being in the best mood with her. He couldn’t bring himself to text her and ask if she was coming, so instead he was just sitting on his couch, feeling sorry for himself and knowing he had no one else to blame. Not even her.

Still, she could have fucking called.

“I didn’t think you were going to come,” he tells her, by way of greeting.

Her jaw is tight, like she’s waiting for him to throw a punch. “We have a lab to do.”

“Yeah, but that might involve you saying more than ten words to me.”

It’s unfair, and he knows it; he still doesn’t even know if she’s pissed at him. So he can’t even feel triumphant when she flinches.

At least she recovers quickly. “Yeah, but not more than twenty. You’re getting a lot better at bio,” she teases, but he’s not in the mood. “I had a shitty week,” she finally says, deflating. “I’m sorry I took it out on you.”

His determination flags. “You could have talked to me.”

“Could I?” The question is harsher than he’d expect, and it clicks all at once. She doesn’t think they’re friends either.

“Jesus,” he says. “Yes, of course. I don’t ask how you’re doing to be polite. You know I’m not polite. What’s wrong?”

She shrugs. “Just stressed.”

“You want to make out? I know we usually do homework first, but–”

He really was just trying to help her, but the stab of disappointment when she says,“No,” is still sharp and hot. “I think we maybe shouldn’t–” She clears her throat. “We shouldn’t do that any more.”

That’s even worse. “No?”

“It’s a bad idea.”

His first impulse is to argue, to tell her–he doesn’t even know what. That it’s fine, that it’s good, that he thinks he’s falling for her. None of them are helpful, and none of them are reasons this isn’t a bad idea. Most of them are reasons it was a bad idea to ever start. “If you’re sure.” He nods, mostly to himself. “Yeah. We could do something else? To de-stress. Watch a movie, or–”

Her smile is a little weak, but it looks real. “It’s fine, Bellamy. Just homework is good.”

“Okay. If there’s anything I can do–”

“I’ll tell you,” she assures him, and he lets it go. She’s got her own issues, her own life, and she doesn’t want him to be involved in that. Maybe someone found out about them, and she got cold feet. Maybe she realized this isn’t normal, or isn’t what she wants from him.

Maybe he’s a self-centered jackass and she doesn’t need a reason to not fuck him.

He drags his feet a little on the lab, but it still doesn’t take long. They’re a great team. Usually, it’s not a bad thing; it just means they have more time to make out. But now, he’s worried she’s just going to leave, and he’ll have an afternoon alone, wondering if he fucked this up and whether or not he could have done something differently.

He’s about to ask what she’s doing when she stands and makes a show of stretching. “I assume you’ve got a party tonight?”

He frowns, confused. He almost never goes to parties these days. “No. I don’t have any plans. Why would I be going to a party?”

“You like parties.”

“Yeah, no. I really don’t. I don’t hate them or anything, but–I’d rather just be at home, most days.”

“I heard you had fun last week,” she says, in a vaguely accusatory tone, and it’s about the most confusing possible outcome to this. Of all the things she could be angry about, his going to that stupid party had never even occurred to him.

Honestly, he didn’t think she cared. He’s still not sure why she would. It’s not like he wasn’t planning to invite her, before he found out she was busy.

“Are you pissed I went to a party last weekend? Did you want to come? You said you had plans, Miller needed a wingman. That’s not–” He’s not even sure why he’s making excuses; he didn’t do anything wrong. But she clearly thinks he did.

“I’m not pissed,” she says. It is a complete and obvious lie. “I just misunderstood.”

“Misunderstood what?”

She looks away from him, biting her lip. She seems tiny and overwhelmed in that moment, and all he wants to do is pull her close.

“It’s nothing,” she says.

“Clarke. You’re pissed at me. You can at least tell me why. I wasn’t even trying,” he teases, but she doesn’t smile.

“I know. I heard Murphy and Mbege talking. About how you finally took a girl home again.” Her eyes dart away from him again, and her cheeks color. “Apparently you were going through a dry spot.”

The only possible explanation occurs to him, and he lets out a bark of involuntary laughter. She’s jealous. She heard he brought another girl home, and she’s been jealous about it all week. It would be a lot funnier if it hadn’t sucked for both of them, but–it’s kind of awesome, still. “You’re pissed that I took someone home?” he asks. “Or that I wasn’t telling Murphy and Mbege I was actually getting laid?”

Her scowl deepens. “I’m not pissed. Just–I thought you got sufficiently laid already. That’s all.”

“That’s all?”

He’s too excited to be properly somber, and he can see the hurt flash in her eyes. “Sorry you disapprove of my emotions. I can leave.”

“No! It’s not–” He huffs, gives her a rueful smile. “I gave Niylah a ride home. That’s it. I didn’t get laid, I wasn’t trying to get laid, I’m not looking for–fuck, I’ve got you,” he says, trying to pour everything into that single word. She’s what he wants. She’s completely and totally all he needs. “Or I did,” he amends. “I was working on it.”

“Niylah,” she says, flat.

“She and Caroline broke up, she got way too drunk, I took her home. It’s not really funny, just–I can’t believe that’s what got back to you. And that you’re upset about it.”

“That would be a lot of sex in a day,” she says, tone light.

He swallows hard, steps in closer but doesn’t let himself reach out yet. “Yeah. I’m not interested in anyone else. Not for a while. Just you.”

She still doesn’t look quiet convinced. “And you decided the best way to deal with that was to ask if I wanted to make out?”

“If you didn’t, I figured I didn’t have much of a shot. And then I could work up to, uh. Dates.” His courage falters. Maybe he was reading the whole situation wrong. “Or whatever. If you’re–”

She grabs the front of his shirt and pulls him down to her, his mouth landing off-center because he wasn’t quite expecting it. But the kiss is firm and sure, hard until he tempers it, tries to make this one different, to show her what he really wants.

And it seems to work, because she melts into it, smiling into it, and it still doesn’t feel totally real, after the week he’s had.

But he’ll probably have time to get used to it.

“Hey, do you want to not have sex with me?” he asks against her lips.

In his defense, it sounded more romantic in his head.

She looks distressed. “Not have sex?”

“Okay, not yet,” he laughs. “But, uh–nothing against sex, I just want to do more with you.”

She nuzzles his jaw, all warm affection. “Boyfriend stuff?”

“If you’re into that.”

“You’re not usually this nervous,” she says, clearly pleased.

“Not usually, no. We could watch a movie.”

“Yeah.” She leans in for another kiss. “And then homework. And sex.”

“Yeah,” he says. “I can live with that.”

They settle onto the couch, which is a new location for them, and Clarke snuggles up against his chest, settling in like she’s not planning to move until someone forces her to.

“Did you actually ask to be my lab partner as part of a long-term plan to seduce me?” she asks, as he navigates Netflix.

“Uh. No?”

She pokes him. “You totally did.”

“I didn’t. I, uh–the seducing you was a late addition.”

“What’s that supposed to mean?”

“I wanted to ask you out. Seducing you just seemed easier.”

“Oh my god. Seriously, Bellamy?”

“What?”

She’s grinning. “You decided it would be easier to ask me to make out than to ask me to go on a date?”

“Less risky,” he admits, and her smile softens.

“I wish you’d just asked me in the first place.”

He considers. “Would you had said yes?”

“Absolutely.” She settles back against him. “But–you got there.”

He kisses her hair. “Yeah. Somehow.”

[nakamuto]

mutuals appreciation! write heart-felt messages to some of your favorite mutuals (or even ones you haven't talked to yet!) and tag them, BUT don't tell them which message is theirs, let them guess! after you're done, send this to 1 mutual you want to get a message from! 💌

this ask has been sitting in my inbox for 2 days bcbwqbbw i’ll try to not make it awkward hahaha,,, TuTTT (omg i got this twice im sorry ive been procrastinating)

@taeiloves @doyoukki @haecha​  @1aeyong @dovounq @softlyqentle @neocity 

under the cut:

a. you’re always so kind and nice,,, like you’re just so nice and patient with everyone? how did i even go from being mutuals > mutuals + anon > your friend honestly ;u; anyways I like you a lot as a friend and i appreciate all your endless effort in creating quality content for the community like idek how you do it everyday,,, i hope you dont stress yourself out too often TnT my long lost neighbour i hope you’ll be able to hear me scream from my window one day

b. you really have golden hands,,, everything you make is incredibly beautiful,, like LITERALLY masterpieces.. it’s also amazing how we’re in the same fandoms (like only 2 but yEAH) ;u;;; i feel very comfortable talking to you and every time you’re online i know that im getting quality content on my dash again :’DD please sleep early i know i say that sleep is an irrelevant concept but wELL,,, YOU’RE A CHILD AND U GOTTA !! you’re working hard, good luck

c. why would I leave you out of this,, even if you’re not super active here for now.. my one true soulmate..one that tolerates my bullshit and rambles well,,, i cherish you a lot because it’s so hard to have someone of the same wavelength as you and our thinking are so similar and we click incredibly well???? ,,, well talk about the countless jinx moments hahaha i think you’re an absolutely amazing person always trying to better yourself and i think i can learn a lot from you,,, i will pray for you everyday and i love you so much x 10000000 (u know i dont like to use ilu too excessively but for you I WILL),,,,

d. there’s something mysterious about you,,in a good way,, i always get that vibe im not sure why but whenever i see you appearing in my notifs im all :’’’’DDDDD

e. we’re literally one and the same,, like how is it even possible ;u;;; im still amazed at the fact that we’re so alike..from our biases and music tastes and even our age and also our thoughts/feelings on some people/issue. Talking to you is like talking to myself :’) im glad we got to talk quite a bit these days,, also have i told you that ive admired you since my svt days,,, ive seen quite a fair bit of your quality™ creations and i hope they’ll make a comeback soon,,, bless up buddy!!!!!

f. you’re a very sincere person,, i haven’t known you for very long but i like your gentle and sweet personality it calms me down somehow. thank you for talking to me first tbh im a bit on the introverted side and im lame so :::))) so now you know that you’ve signed up for more lame convos hahahah,,, everything about you is cute tbh the way you caption your gifs and your icon (its my fav pic of ur bias owbcbwcb) im happy to have known you now i have someone to ramble about your bias with hehe maybe one day i’ll be like yuta too

g.  hi queen!!!!!!!! you’re really sweet and kind,, and you’re good at what you’re doing,, and you’re really smart too TuT like,,,how can someone sc*ence. still cant believe we almost became uni mates (if u still remember) I respect you a lot for your dedication and i think you’re someone who knows how to get along with many different people,,there’s a phrase in chinese to describe this it’s called “很会做人” which is usually used to describe someone as very tactful and i think that’s very fitting for you,,,which is like,,, really cool. please continue to bless us with more quality stuff im always looking forward!!! 

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all of the numbers :p

1. selfie

2. what would you name your future kids?

something longer than my name and harder to pronounce than my name so i can torture them like my mother did me

3. do you miss anyone?

not at the moment…

4. what are you looking forward to?

THE 21 PILOTS CONCERT AHHHHHHHHH also the Tom Petty concert

5. is there anyone who can always make you smile?

my mood depends on no one 

6. is it hard for you to get over someone?

since i haven’t had to in a few years, no idea

7. what was your life like last year?

my dad still lived with us. so… not great

8. have you ever cried because you were so annoyed?

no I’m always annoyed. it tends to just feel like heartburn after a while tbh

9. who did you last see in person?

my mom‘s in the room right now

10. do you hide your feelings?

i’ve heard mixed reactions. i’m really expressive and i try not to hide my feeling- UNLESS i’m fixing to cry. then I find a place that I can be alone.

11. are you listening to music right now?

Yes~ Coldplay~

12. what is something you want right now?

to finish this chapter. rtyu for my plot to move.13. how do you feel right now?

14. when was the last time someone of the opposite sex hugged you?

my last day of class. a guy from my Art club hugged me I THINK

15. personality description

i apparently seem really shy irl intil you get to know me. but i think it’s because of my visual impairment…. and also if I think you’re really cool i’ll impressing you and I’ll miserably fail life

17. opinion on insecurities.

we all have them? not sure what this is asking…

18. do you miss how things were a year ago?

things were pretty much the same haha

19. have you ever been to New York?

YES THAT WAS MY MAKE-A-WISH TRIP

it was super cool!!! :DD but I like Boston waay better

20. what is your favourite song at the moment?

Not Today by 21 Pilots

21. age and birthday?

20, july 17~

22. description of crush.

I don’t really have one but there are A LOT of attractive people at my school.

23. fear(s)

getting cancer again KNOCK ON WOOD FUCK FUCK FUCK

24. height

5″4 on a good day. 

25. role model

OKOKOK so there’s this artist from Texas that I met a couple of years ago and he paints super awesome things and HE’S TOTALLY BLIND HE’S SO COOL

John Bramblitt. He is so cool in person dfghj

26. idol(s)

^^^ and Maggie Smith, Colbie Smoulders, and maybe A LOT MORE SDFGHJ

27. things i hate

sexist men, judgemental people, not having snacks in the house, being finished with Ace Attorney series, NOT BEING ABLE TO FINISH THIS CHAPTER AHJHHH 

28. i’ll love you if…

I already love you wat

29. favourite film(s)

Eternal Sunshine of the Abstract Mind, Harry Potter(s), We’ll See You in Valhallah

30. favourite tv show(s)

Doctor Who, the Ace Attorney Anime, Sailor Moon, the Real O’neals, Seinfeld, a lot more 

31. 3 random facts

   1. i tattooed my initials on my dad when I was 9 and believed him until this year when I got my first tattoo until he told me he lied to me. WHY DO YOU THINK I HAVE TRUST ISSUES DAD

   2.  I have a lot of scars all over my body from medical stuff. One of them is from the Tracheotomy I had to get when I was put into a medical coma when I first went into the hospital. My mom had said I can get it removed when I got stitches but I refuse because, honestly, it’s a cool scar. 

besides, I wear a lot of chokers so.

    3. I had braces in middleschool during my weeaboo stage. I was bullied A LOT

32. are your friends mainly girls or guys?

All the girls hated me in my 2nd high school so I mostly hung around guys. Now that I go to college, I’ve gained A LOT of friends that are girls and I’m really happy about it because they aren’t dramatic or mean to me for stupid reasons! 

33. something you want to learn

HOW TO DRAW HANDS WITH EASE

34. most embarrassing moment

I don’t actually have any tbh. after everyone you know has seen you with no make-up, no hair, no memory, and with tubes hooked up to you, you start to not be embarrassed abt anything.  

35. favourite subject

Art or Lit

36. 3 dreams you want to fulfill?

1. I want to be a Defense Lawyer eventually

2. I want to finish this fic

3. I want my Brother not to have to have to go to Afganistan when he joins the army because that war is stupid and the US is only making it worse. 

37. favourite actor/actress

I have so many I physically can not name them all

38. favourite comedian(s)

CommunityChannel, shes a riot :D

39. favourite sport(s)

watching people reading my name for the first time and seeing if they can pronounce it perfectly.

40. favourite memory

and day, I’m living and laughing i know cliche

41. relationship status

single c’mon ladiessssss laddiesss

42. Favorite book

Anansi Boys by Neil Gaimam

43. favourite song ever

ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

44. age you get mistaken for

I’ve heard mixed things. I went out with this guy once who thought I was 25. 

45. how you found out about your idol

I went to an art thing for kids and I met him after the thing.  

46. what my last text message says

“PAGES I CAN’T EVEN” (ABT my HP/AA fic)

47. turn ons

good personality

nice hair

being into anything i’m into

writer/artist/musician

not stupid nicknames

not shortening my first name

sweet

doesn’t abuse me 

cussing

48. turn offs

ignorance

voting for hillary clinton

voting for donald trump

leaving me ugly comments on my fb posts

laughing at someting i say that is completely serious

laughing at my brother’s stutter

telling me not to cuss so much

forcing christianity onto me

being annoyed when I don’t pray at the dinner table, bow my head, or do the pledge of allegince

telling me racism doesn’t exist

telling me you aren’t a feminist because you believe in equality…????

etc

porn 

entrapment 

49. where i want to be right now

done with this chapter of my fic

50. favourite picture of your idol

no. can’t.

51. starsign

cancer. yeah. super ironic

52. something i’m talented at

tripping down staircases and flat areas…

53. 5 things that make me happy

Ace Attorney

the fact that Hayffie is really canon

54. something thats worrying me at the moment

nope, I’m good. 

55. tumblr friends

@wordshakerofgallifrey , @hot-for-justice

56. favourite food(s)

UH EVERY FOOD

57. favourite animal(s)

dogs, giraffes, zabras, elephants

58. description of my best friend

HA! JOKE’S ON YOU, I DON’T HAVE ONE

59. why i joined tumblr

that was like in 2010. this account was created in 2013,  In 2010, I can’t remember why I joined. in 2013, I could physically see and get onnto a computer again but I had lost my account’s pw so I created a new one.

60. ask me anything you want

---> All time Favorite character

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I DON’T KNOWWWW

I HAVE SO MANYYYYY

lets say....Star from Star Vs, the the Forces of Evil becaue she is a FREAKKKKK 

[andintheendiddoitallagain]

With Smiles On Our Faces

*Despite the gown that skimmed the floor and the towering heels that had been shoved at me by Asher, I still felt slightly underdressed as I wove through the glittering crowd, my heels clicking on the shining floors as I navigated the who’s who of Chicago elite, decked out on their finest.  It was a ridiculous fear of course, but there was still a bit of relief that blossomed in my stomach as I caught sight of the table we had been placed at.  It was just far enough back to be both quiet and out of the way, but still close enough to not be one of “those tables” that every wedding has.  Shifting my small backpack from my shoulder to slip under the table, I let my now empty hand graze over the strap of the camera bag draped across the back of my chair, Pan having been charged with watching it while I changed.* Has the fun started yet? *My voice was soft as I settled down in my seat and reached immediately for the glass of water that glinted in the lights. “Of course it ha-fuck.”  His voice trailed off as he turned around, pulling his eyes from watching Trick across the dance floor, to look at me.*  That is far from encouraging, Pan. Is there something wrong? *I immediately started brushing my hands over the delicate silk of my gown, checking the straps and smoothing the skirt nervously.  “No, no, Beary, there is nothing wrong at all. You look stunning.”  I didn’t blush often, but the fondness in Pete’s voice had my cheeks warming as memories of questions and unknown answers swirled in my head. Taking a sip of the water in my hand to wet my suddenly parched throat, I hoped that the soft lighting would disguise my blush but if the grin on my companion’s face was anything to go by, it absolutely did not.* Thank you, Pan. You know you clean up pretty well yourself. *The words were accompanied by a soft smile before I brushed at a piece of fuzz on the shoulder of Pete’s jacket. “You flatter me, Teddy. You know that will get you everywhere.”  The teasing note in his voice and playful bounce of his brows broke the slight, possibly imagined tension that hung between us and I couldn’t help but laugh, rolling my eyes.*  You are incorrigible, Pan. *The grin I was rewarded with was fucking light and there was that familiar stirring in my stomach again that I fought to push away by flicking my eyes back over the crowd. Pale blue and maroon clad bridesmaids milled about, sylph-like through the crowd and their high laughter seemed to increase in the presence of a certain fedora-wearing singer who was, to everyone but Pan’s knowledge, highly unavailable. Somehow, as I had learned in the last few months, that seemed to be an easily forgettable fact for some people. Pan, being far more observant than almost anyone including me gave him credit for, followed my line of sight with a quiet laugh. “If looks could kill, Beary” His tone was teasing, just slightly though, and I leaned against his shoulder, the fabric of his jacket luxe and soft against my arm.* People never cease to astound me sometimes.  I mean, they really shouldn’t but… *I let the thought trail off and shrugged, settling back against my chair and returning my attention to Pete. “Nah, you’ve got reason to be pissed. Always have.  And it’s not just you.” The last words were quiet, for my eyes only, and I arched a brow in question; although it was more teasing than in surprise. Pan grinned, all bright white teeth and mirth. “It looks good on you. Oh! Speaking of looking good on you…” Dropping his attention, he slipped a hand into the inside pocket of his jacket and pulled out a flat jewelry box, the black velvet looking plush against his dark hands. I couldn’t hide my blink and once again my traitorous throat went dry and my eyes wide. The asshole laughed and flipped up the box lid, pressing a kiss to the side of my head with a quiet laugh. “Breathe, Sweetheart. Mom sent them for you to wear, apparently Asher talks to literally everyone. She said, and I quote, ‘Dora is saving my wedding, and she needs to look it.’. I’m pretty sure Ash has lost her mind, but…” Pete’s shrug was easy as he handed over the box.  The diamonds and sapphires lay on dark velvet sparkled almost too much in the elegant lighting. I shook my head, hair swinging over my shoulders and fighting the tears that stung my eyes, fighting them away with a laugh.* Ridiculous, but beautiful. We will have to go visit before we go home. *Pan just nodded and sat back as I carefully slipped the earrings in, brushing my hair back behind my shoulders.  I could feel the cool metal brush against my neck as I turned back, snapping the box shut and handing it over.*  What do you think? Respectable or just playing dress up in your mom’s jewelry box again? *Pan laughed, loud and long, one finger pushing gently against the swinging stone, his fingertips just barely brushing the skin of my neck.  I liked it far more than I should have. “They suit you, Beary, you know that.” The smile that accompanied the words was warm and sweet and it did not make me shiver. Not at all. “He’s right you know.”  Trick’s voice was low and he was so close that I could feel his warm breath ghost across my head before he placed a gentle, almost fleeting kiss to my temple and settled into the empty seat on my other side. I couldn’t help my smile, and neither could Pan.*  You are both biased and you know it, but thank you. *”Now Teddy, biased doesn’t mean wrong. Besides, Mama Beth knows her jewelry. She would never send anything but the best.” There was a teasing lilt to his words and I opened my mouth to argue, but the timing was all of. The delicate tinkling of china against crystal filled the air and the graceful strings faded as cocktail hour finally came to an end, and the reception formally began. The rustle of luxurious fabrics and click of heels on marble a prelude to the annoyingly familiar DJ crooning from the set-up he had in the far corner of the room by the string quartet and a piano. His voice was almost annoyingly unctuous and I wrinkled my nose, but the initial effect faded quickly as the wedding party, all ten Bridesmaids and Groomsmen entered, along with both Asher and Alex’s parents, each pair with their own themed song.  And then finally, blessedly, the happy couple themselves to the strains of “Happy”, of all the songs in the damn world. Turns out Alex had had a hand in planning after all. The applause and smiles all around as DJ Smooth on the mic over there finally introduced Mr. and Mrs. Alexander Martin.  I might even have teared up a little. I know Pan did. “Be right back.” Trick’s voice was barely a whisper as the applause finally died down and he was gone before either Pan or I could question him,  striding away towards the corner of the dancefloor. I caught Pan’s confused gaze just moments before DJ Smooth piped up again, announcing the first dance and the pieces clicked into place as Trick settled at the piano just as he trailed off. Trick didn’t say anything but I could see his smile as his fingers trailed over the keys.  Asher, for her part, looked just as confused as the rest of us were, but Alex was grinning as he pulled his wife into his arms. And then Trick started singing and the place went up in absolute cheers. ‘Let’s Get It On’ was probably the least appropriate song for a first dance ever, but it worked in some weird way, especially for Alex and Asher. Well, honestly mostly Alex, but it was sweet and unexpected and the moment was, as it should have been, absolutely perfect. Trick received hugs from both the bride and groom once he wrapped up, Asher nearly shrieking in joy.  I loved the girl but she needed to tone it down a little.  The evening wore down just a bit during dinner, a shockingly delicious vegan spread, and the toast that followed, all punctuated with witty, self-effacing stories and in jokes that seemed to flow almost effortlessly into the family dances, after which there wasn’t a dry eye in the house.  It was nice, in a way, to be a guest as opposed to working the event.  The company, however, may have had a little something to do with that, as well as the Veuve Cliquot that the waitstaff distributed freely, although I limited myself to two glasses.  I had opted to serve as DD for the evening, mostly because I didn’t want Trick or Pan driving my car. We were deep in conversation with Asher, while Tegan, the photographer I had contacted behind her snapped away. We were lingering over the last bites of a frankly delicious cake, when DJ Unctuous’s voice echoed out over the notes of one of Trick’s older songs; a fact that had been pointed out to him by at least four people that passed by. Because obviously we didn’t know. Pan, happily buzzed, played dumb the entire time and I couldn’t hide my laugh at Trick’s exasperation. In other words, it was perfect until the interruption. “Ok now it’s time for a little fun, because it’s time for the traditional throwing of the Bouquet.  For those of you who’ve seen the running of the bulls at Pamplona, it’s a little similar. There’s always a little risk for the lasses determined to get the bouquet in their clutches. It’s also the real reason you see so many high heels shoes tonight.”  Jesus Christ, was this dude actually getting paid by the word? “As you know, traditionally the young lady who successfully catches the bouquet in mid-flight is a certainty to make her own way down the aisle. I’d like to request all the single ladies to step forward for the bouquet throw. The married ladies who’ve sneaked on, don’t be greedy. This is for single women only.  Our lovely and charming bride Asher has been practising this throw all summer, so give yourselves some elbow room.” I swear to God, Ash screeched and grabbed my arm, very nearly wrenching it out of my socket as she pulled me to my feet, despite my protests.*  Ash, no. No, I’m not single. *I shot a desperate look over my shoulder at a clearly laughing Trick and Pan, both of whom could walk their traitorous asses home. “No, but there isn’t a ring on your finger. Let’s go, Dora! It’s my wedding.” * I don’t even believe in- *”Theodora, I’m not budging. I swear to god..”. My last argument was cut off by a very determined Asher and there was absolutely zero room for argument in her voice as she dragged me towards the crowd of satin and bejeweled woman already grouped on the dance floor.  My unappreciated escort deposited me in the front of the group with a quiet ‘stay’ before skipping over to the single chair that was set up a bit up from the group of women just clamoring for a handful of flowers. I cast a last glance over at the table I had been nearly carried away from only to see my escorts nearly doubled over with laughter at the spectacle. I hated them with all of my being for just a moment until the all too familiar sounds of “Single Ladies” which was the WORST song ever, echoed through the air. The seething hatred was quickly turned towards the DJ who was now talking in earnest over the obnoxious music. “Ladies take your place behind the bride and be prepared to jump high. Fortune favors the brave! At the count of three, the bride will throw her bouquet. Ladies and gentlemen, let’s all count together. Are you ready Ladies? Would you just look at the concentration. There’s some determined women out there.”  Jesus Christ.  The cheese factor was high.  Ash however, looked positively radiant as Alex helped her up like a gentleman, which he decidedly was not. Once steady on the chair, Asher gestured to the asshole with the mic and he both turned up the music and spoke over it at the same time. “Alright,  The countdown! One, Two, Three!”  There was nothing but Queen Bey for just a moment, as well as some wholly unnecessary pushing, shoving and a goddamn hand in the middle of my back giving me an unappreciated push just before I received a bunch of roses, lilies and ribbon in my goddamn face. Goddamnit. Another high pitched shriek, and I was nearly being bowled over by Ash as she threw her arms around my neck in a flurry of lace, silk and excitement that I couldn’t quite understand as the song faded and that damn voice was back.” And we have a winner ladies and gentleman! I’ll make sure to leave my card at your table on the way out.” I didn’t flip him off as I wandered back to the side of the dance floor with the obviously pissy woman that had just lost out on a pointless tradition, but it was very, very close. Peeking back over my shoulder I caught sight of Pan and Trick, both of their heads bowed in in conversation, the color evident on Trick’s cheeks even from here. I attributed the fluttery feeling in my stomach to the champagne and sugar, because denial is where it was at. I was, for the first time all night, thankful for the voice that carried over the crowd. “Ladies and Gentlemen, here’s where things get serious. It’s time for the Garter toss. I understand some of the guys jumping for the garter have been in training for months. Underneath those tuxedos and suits  we’re talking washboard abs, bulging biceps, nerves of steel. We’ve got Olympic gymnasts, high-jumpers, Morris dancers and even a rockstar. These guys are ripped and ready to rumble! Remember gentlemen this is serious business. The guy who catches the garter is destined for the altar next!” I didn’t hold back my glare at that one and shook my head as the unmarried men were herded up towards the dancefloor like some sort of well dressed cattle call, my companions among them. Alex showily sat Asher down in the chair she had just cleared, a smirk on his face.  “ Now while the groom retrieves the garter, don’t let any of those garter jumpers melt into the crowd.” The unmistakable opening notes of “Pony” echoing through the air to ridiculous cheers as Alex nearly dove under Asher’s skirt.  As always, the little asshole managed to make a spectacle of himself, although it was enjoyable and even I couldn’t help laughing as he finally emerged, lace and silk between his teeth complete with a triumphant grin and red faced wife. Of course. “Alright we have the garter. Get ready gentlemen!” Allie Boy whooped and turned his back, swinging the scrap of dusty blue and cranberry silk and lace over his head before letting it fly into the crowd of laughing men with hands outstretched. There was nothing but Ginuwine over the speakers as all attention turned back towards the group, eager with anticipation. The ridiculous item was clutched in a very, very familiar hand, although there was at least an attempt made to pass it off which Alex halted very quickly, much to not nearly everyone’s joy.  Everyone excluding me, Trick and Pan, of course, who was twisting it between his fingers, a smile on his face that didn’t quite meet his eyes, though nobody else would see that but Trick and I. Charisma and presence was Pan’s stock in trade, literally, and it was only a lifetime of friendship and whatever else it was that we had that allowed us to see past it.  My thoughts headed down a decidedly ill-timed path as Asher, once again, bodily dragged me to the chair, nearly pushing me in it, babbling the entire time, her voice high and excited. I tuned most of it out until I heard Patrick’s name and I snapped back to attention, glancing back at my presumed boyfriend with a soft smile. Trick, for his part, looked happily unaffected, but there was something hiding behind his eyes that I needed to know about. Now, however wasn’t the time as Asher demanded my attention, muttering in my ear. “I mean, you’ve all known each other so long it won’t matter so much, right?” I blinked at Asher, struggling to get focused when the DJ, once again began babbling as he slid the music easily into “Sexy back” which… really?  “What a match! Theodora, if you would take a seat, Pete have at it!”  I was going to kill this dude, seriously. Pan, thank fuck, was a bit more level headed than I was somehow, mutter a low ‘breathe, Beary’ before ducking and sliding the garter up my leg to my knee.  The light drag of his fingers was familiar and far, far too comfortable for such a public spectacle. And there were those goddamn butterflies again. Layers of silk fell back around my ankle as Pan stood back up, his whiskey eyes dark with something I couldn’t quite name, or didn’t want to. “There you have it ladies and gentlemen. Our new lovely pair and if it would not be too much to ask we would like the gentlemen to give the lady a quick kiss?” This dude was a fucking dick, holy shit. My hands were clenched by my sides as Pan brushed a gentle, chaste kiss across my lips, much to the delight of the watching crowd, pulling me into a warm embrace to whisper in my ear. “Almost over, Beary.” I couldn’t help but return the hug, because it was Pan after all, and I relaxed just slightly into him, letting the anger fade away for just a moment and basking in the familiarity and comfort. It was short lived however, when the flash of the flash of the camera went off before Alex and Asher pulled us both away for warm hugs. “Look at that, folks, the next happy couple.  You know I have the name of a fantastic videographer if you need one, just let me know.”  There was a hint of malice behind the words and I blanched, my hands clenching into fists, Pan’s firm hand on my waist the only thing keeping me from veering off to share my opinion of the tasteless joke with the teller himself. From the looks on their faces, neither Asher nor Alex was amused either, and when I finally caught sight of Trick as I arrived back at our table, the anger was nearly rolling off of him in waves. Again, though, he hid it well, and I grasped his hand beneath the table, giving him a watery smile. The one received in return, to Pan and I both, was warm and comforting, fucking light compared to before. “I’m going to have a word before we leave.”  There was an edge of iciness to his voice that sent a chill down my spine that had nothing to do with the artificially cooled air, and I filed it away for later.

The remainder of the evening passed quickly and after a bit more mindless chit chat and a round of warm hugs and thanks from Alex and Ash, and a side conversation at the DJ booth for Trick,  we were all headed home as a storm started brewing overhead, the dark sky in the distance split with blue white streaks of lightning. I left the windows down for the drive despite the storm, or maybe in spite of it, the silence comfortable past the soft strains of the music on the radio and the growing rumble of thunder overhead. Pulling into the garage just as the deluge began, I felt a weight that I hadn’t even realized I had been carrying lift as I gathered bags to head inside, following behind Trick and Pan. I settled my camera bag carefully in it’s place of honor by the door and left the rest of my mess scattered on the kitchen island, flipping on the music as I passed the stereo before flopping down on the couch, dropping my feet in Trick’s lap and resting my head on Pan’s thigh.* Well, that could have gone worse, right? “The laughter that filled the room was rich and immediate, a much needed sound that shattered any and all remaining tension that may have lingered from the few bumpy portions of the evening. Trick rested his hand on my ankle, the laughter still evident in his voice as he tossed his hat easily to the coffee table. “That is an understatement Teddy, but yes. Yes it could have.” Sticking my tongue out, I shook my head and turned back into Pan’s hands as they carded through my hair.* I’m never going to another wedding again. Don’t let me, okay? Even if I say I really want to. Too much bullshit and fake laughter. *Trick hummed in agreement, and Pan grinned, a real smile this time, his eyes dancing with mirth. “You miss real laughter, Beary?” There was a teasing note in his voice and I craned my head back to look up as his hand slipped from my hair and I felt the warmth of fingers just over my ribs.* Peter Ethan King, don’t you dare. *I tried to keep my voice stern but it was an exercise in futility because Pan was a monster. His fingers danced quickly over my highly ticklish ribs, the delicate fabric of my dress doing exactly nothing to help and I squirmed and squealed trying to get away from the playful onslaught.  Patrick, being a traitor, just laughed and copied Pan’s efforts on my feet.*  Stop, you fucking assholes, you aren’t allowed to gang up on me!  *Gasping and laughing, lighter than I had felt in a very long time, I begged for a reprieve, although the giggles may have possibly undercut the attempt at stern I was shooting for. Oops. Pan grinned down at me, just tapping his fingers over my ribs as I caught my breath. “What are the magic words, Beary?”  His voice was light and teasing, Trick’s laughter the same and the words fell from my lips before I could stop them, before I could even think.* I love you. *The words were rushed and shocking, Pan’s hands stilling in the silence that followed as Trick pulled in a deep breath in that silent, heavy moment as the lights flickered off and the music cut out before the room was lit up again, although silent . “Beary, I-” Pan tripped over himself, at a highly unusual loss for words as he pulled his hands away.* No, I just.. I do.  Both of you. *I glanced at Trick, his hand still resting heavy and warm on my ankles, his face unreadable save for a glint in his blue eyes.* I don’t- fuck. *The curse was almost instinctive and I squeezed my eyes shut against the prick of tears as I struggled to make sense of the jumble of words and emotions that had been building not only over the day but throughout the last few weeks, if not months and I kept them closed as I spoke, needing the darkness.* I don’t know how to say it, so I just didn’t. I was fucking scared of things changing, of hurt and what I’d seen but now, I just.. It’s-you, both of you, are home. You are goodness and light and every-fucking-good in my life and I love you. *The outburst was accompanied by a few tears that I couldn’t seem to hold back and my voice, as I squeezed my eyes closed, was very small, even to me, especially as the storm outside seemed to rage on.* I’m in love with you, both of you. * The silence felt almost crushing until Pete’s hands rested gently, almost carefully on my waist as he shifted me upright, pulling me into his lap. “Sweetheart.”  The word was a whisper and I finally opened my eyes, still wet with tears I couldn’t seem to will away, to meet Pan’s gaze before looking at Trick.  Their expressions were both soft, a glimmer of hope sparkling behind their eyes, both baby blue and wide-eyed brown, and there it was again, that flutter I had been ignoring and avoiding.  I’d gotten pretty used to lying to myself, although the truth felt really, really good.* I’m not sure how this all would work, if it would, or can but I want. I want, I want, I want. *It would seem that once I actually let myself talk, I couldn’t fucking stop, a fact which amused Pan to seemingly no end as he laughed softly, brushing a hand over my cheek before leaning in to . “You’re allowed to want, and you aren’t alone in that.” The quiet words were accompanied by a gentle thumb sliding back and forth over my wrist, and the tender touch of warm breath against my heated skin. Trick’s hands, calloused and warm, slid over my mostly bare shoulders, brushing my hair aside before his lips teased my neck and I could feel his smile. “It’s up to you, Teddy, whatever you want.” My throat went dry again, a shockingly familiar occurrence at this point, and I grasped Pan’s arms where my hands rested on them. The silence hung, heavy and thick in the air for an endless moment before I found my voice again.* Upstairs. *The word was a gasp as a crash of thunder rang out overhead and the three of us somehow made our way upstairs, leaning against walls and pausing on stairs before stumbling to the bed.  We never closed the goddamn door.*  #WithSmilesOnOurFaces #TheKidsArentAlright