#it’s not a normal/common partnership but there is still so much happening indicative of love

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HUGS

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I don’t want to sound too freaky here (if you’re familiar with stuff I’ve written this should seem on par) but it’s as if through their hugs they are.. creating life.. life in the form of radiating energy and emotion. Im not saying it but I’m hinting at it in a more interpretive sense.. it is this sacred, intimate act that only they share, where they begin creating something so beautiful they will take onto the ice and share with the world.

There is so much going on. They are breathing, synchronising, but they are also softly holding each other. I don’t even think of it so much as a “hug” but just holding each other (which is to me a lot softer). They don’t necessarily get their arms all the way around like you usually associate with hugs- like cute family/best friend hugs. This is more than that. It’s more strategic, but also more… I know T doesn’t like the word ‘delicate’ (her fave quote: ‘don’t be delicate, be vast and brilliant’) but this is incredibly delicate. They are taking the time to hold each other and feel themselves be held- be made to feel weightless as they press their hearts together so they can be as close as possible. It’s gentle, it’s caring, but there’s also this subtle sensuality to it. Like this pure form of two people communicating, just through their breathing and heart beats.. like that’s really the essence of human life.. that’s what keeps us living- first humans, next artists, then dancers.. so them doing that together, the strength of both their breaths rising and falling, the beautiful movement in them as they lean and pull each other closer, as if subtly rocking each other to place of calmness and safety.

The two gifs here showing each of their POV’s (albeit at very different career stages) but how you can see in both of them what they feel in the hug. T has said that breathing was something she struggled with- regulating it and using it properly throughout performances. It hasn’t been said specifically but that being the case I like the idea of when they first started doing the hug it helped her immensely in really feeling herself breathing slowly to a set rhythm, and having him do that with her- specifically against her so she could feel her breath both inside and outside of her, must have been such a help to her.. (I struggled with my breathing too and I wish I’d had something like this). So you can totally see that as they exhale and she relaxes and slightly sinks into him as he (likely) gently pulls her closer. Like she’s just been made so much lighter and all her fears have left her soul.

The second with the reversed POV.. how he holds her, leans his head against her’s. His eyes are somehow just as beautiful closed as they are open, they are huge and you can feel the emotion in them. I always feel like their hugs are done in the style.. or maybe a better world would be the essence of the program they are about to perform. This is no different. (The top one there is a lightness indicative of Mahler) Here preparing for MR, well there’s a lot I could say about this, but I feel like this is one of those ones that there is an extra level of care and protection brought on as they prepare for the context of MR. That’s what I see behind his eyes- ‘my darling angel, I promise we’ll be ok, you are always safe with me’ before they go out and disappear into these.. terrifying characters that have to torment each other before falling in love and it ending with them losing everything.

These hugs happen just seconds before they step on the ice and while I know they would be feeling nervous, watching their hugs I don’t get any sense of nerves. Through their hugs as they breathe they inhale, hold their nerves, recognise them, then together they let them go. They create such an obvious bubble around them, everyone can see them, but they don’t see anyone or anything else (hence they shut their eyes). The energy they omit seals them in their bubble for the next several minutes. This leading them to say things like ‘(T) I like only connecting with scott, like he is the only other person who exists, that is comforting to me’ and ‘(S) she’s the only person I want to be going through all those emotions with (paraphrased)’, and how sometimes he would tell/motion to her before or after the hug, to focus on my eyes, find my eyes (and I’ll find yours), ‘we come back to each other’s eyes and find strength together’.

Of course the hug never guaranteed them a perfect, even excellent skate, but it ensured them that once they entered their bubble they were in the safest place they could possibly be.

[froshele]

also being that we are talking about age gap ship wars as they relate to thought around the rights of queer people, there is no refuge in the concept of those at all either

theres a popular argument that we should crack down on age gaps in (both real instances and artistic depictions of) any and all relationships because of the reactionary talking point that visible legal gay age gaps are indicative of invisible, illegal, deviant "tastes" on the part of the older partner, which is looking more and more dangerous the more weird shit happens

in general you should seriously consider the provenance of your views about whats a healthy age gap, when a person can actually have an adult mutual relationship, and at what point someone capable of freely consenting becomes a trophy wife or a kept man and ceases to count as an agent in the relationship

also at what point any of this is abuse, and when it's your business

at what point is this person becoming not an agent but a patient and victim? at what point should you help? if mutuality is the standard then are all teenagers, who don't know how to love romantically yet by definition and traumatize each other such that they remember their first rejection on their deathbed, abusing one another?

I don't believe people love in mature and equal ways until they've finished adolescence and lived as adults at all, but there's a difference between condemning the abuse of children by predators and clutching your pearls about how anyone under 30, 25, 21, 18 or over about 60 is incapable of sexual or even romantic agency, even when it's exercised in a normal and compatible conventional way, among agemates

most of most people's relationships are anyhow inadvisable and bad for both parties because most people have a few before they find who to settle down with, and in our day and age that tends to entail moving in together just like they would if they were married a century ago, which, paper or not, is still a huge commitment

there is an enormous gulf between abuse vs tension and incompatibility, between predation vs just being not the same age, and i do not know how to explain it except in personal terms

so here we go: my parents are like 8-10 years apart, i was born when my mother was 31 - /and/ she's the older, /and/ she was divorced more than once before that, /and/ her first marriage was around 16, which legally and culturally was considered adult in the place at the time

that one was an elopement they covered up, so mutually consensual, and ended over a fur coat, so, normal for a young hasidic woman in the 80s-90s - cringe, definitely dysfunctional, but not outside the range of plausibility for her age and maturity level at the time

some people break up over Facebook likes at that age

very obviously, like, very very obviously, she had much less in common with her third or fourth yeshiva twink husband (whichever my father was) than she was told she would, so that went badly for them

she was my father's first wife, and the marriage was his mother's totally well intentioned, naive, provincial idea - who was exploiting whom? this is a rhetorical question obviously, almost nobody on tumblr dot edu is equipped to talk about either specifics or generalities here and you will simply have to take their word via me that no one was exploiting anybody and it just turned out badly for reasons not directly related

the fact remains that they were in fact married and that it was in fact on track to be a functioning if strange marital partnership before The Incident, Which Is Not Relevant and Nobody's Business

I have family on both sides that loves me and I exist both because of and despite these two people's choices, and so it's irksome you know, having people always assume that because I grew up religious that must mean that my father was older and the match was entirely and unilaterally his decision as supported by some powerful system that wants little girls to suffer

he may have been a deadbeat and a drunk but he was also passively filial his whole life long and abused substances to cope with familial and social forces that if he was your blorbo you would agree put him in A Position that is Worthy of Sympathy

that aforementioned suffering is the real and tragic experience of those children who lived it but your sympathy should go to them when they tell you it happens in America in your own communities where you can help, or at least to other Hasidic kids who actually are child marriage victims, and not to me in whose /adult parents'/ case you believe something untoward may have possibly occurred /a quarter century ago/

is that an evidence board with little red strings? are you trying to pin my parents' divorce on a dynamic you made up about them to sell more "your viewpoint comes from a compromised place and i need not consider it"? probably not! i have been known to hallucinate! but if you are doing that you have allowed the point to sail directly over your head, boomerang back the other way and bean you right where your hair whorl starts!

in the tumblr spirit i need everyone now to hold hands and look me in the eyes and say with me what me telling you all this means, are we ready

it means that sometimes real people have real experiences that include whatever it is in the world that bothers you and irks you and confuses you, maybe even recalls your earliest terrors and agonies, and often those experiences and the way people choose to live with them are the opposite of yours, and no one is hurt thereby

if your parents' arranged age gap marriage ruined your life and you hate that it's popular as a trope, you are so welcome to write ventfic about the teenage mutant ninja turtles centering and healing this, and I am so fine with whatever you choose to say about this experience which I do not share, because that is your experience and your processing of it

/i/ am capable of finding large but reasonable gaps in either direction palatable due solely to the vagaries of Fate and Time, and if yours is not mine then that is just fine

but /i/ was psychosexually shaped by the dynamics between multiple merged nuclear families within a set of related clans, and /my/ coolest most formative neighbours were the cowives of some guy who was always out of town, and /I/ am going to write about people who are by necessity very like them, because however I may try I cannot simply unhave my childhood due to the emotional needs of people on the internet and neither can anyone on either side of this pointless argument over whether it's morally okay for what is sometimes trauma to be a topic of public art at all

I am going to tag my garbage such that you will never ever need to see and remember what harmed you but it will exist, for me and for everyone else who might see themself in things written by me about the things bothering you

very similarly: your buyer's regret or hesitancy about a personal medical decision, and desire to protect others from your experience, does not justify withholding the right to choose and access care (or create art) from somebody whose need happens to be the polar opposite of yours. just because you don't need testosterone or surgery doesn't mean local drag king jimmy johnson, who has been a man in the soul all his adulthood long, does or doesn't need testosterone or surgery.

the mentality behind these two discourses really is quite entwined (you - op - are right and should say it) and people being unable to leave well enough alone is at the point irl where it is causing problems in people's actual day to day physical existences, and /that/ is an actual human rights issue, whereas much of the focus of anti-trans pearl clutching exists either in potentia, or totally legally in the open but unaddressed by the parties concerned because they are not in fact as concerned as they claim

as we see skyrocketing amounts of legislation targeting trans youth in particular I’m begging people to stop parroting “your brain matures at 25”. this article by the director of harvard’s neuroscience lab is a good read. like I’m no neuroscientist myself but Brain Complicated. at best “your brain matures at 25” is an incomplete and inadequate summary of a single idea in a relatively new field wherein broad generalizations are almost impossible. *some* aspects of brain development *tend* to *plateau* *somewhere* in your 20s, *we think*; but “brain maturity” is poorly defined, and the data is still highly incomplete. plenty of aspects of the brain demonstrably continue developing well past 30, or for your entire life; on the other hand, plenty of studies have simply failed to include participants over 30, or 25, or even younger. attempting to define maturity, let alone make RULES about it, based on particular neuroscientific metrics, is extremely dicey

and this popsci notion is now actively being used to justify taking away people’s rights so pls stop perpetuating it for the sake of your age gap ship wars or whatever

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When you settle down, take a look at Teen Titans and the new solicit for Tec.

Did you mean a solicit for Dec? Cuz I looked and didn’t see one out yet but don’t know what else you might mean by Tec....

As far as what’s going on in Teen Titans, I’m guessing you mean Damian going after KGBeast to kill him in revenge for shooting Dick. I’m.....not a fan.

Like....I do like that they’re finally having SOMEBODY seem to give a damn about what happened to him, of course, but honestly, a year after the fact, it feels more like just an excuse to give Damian another target.

And I’m super not a fan of them regressing to acting like Damian’s entire personality is just “Will I do the murder today? Y/N.”

This is kinda what I was talking about the other day when I mentioned why I wasn’t really a fan of anything they were doing with the Batfam, because they’ve had Damian on this path for awhile now, and the problem is....

They already did this story.

This was his ORIGIN story.

And then he evolved, his character ALREADY developed PAST this.

I understand the idea of backsliding or having a character regress due to extreme circumstances or new tragedy or trauma, but honestly? This isn’t that, IMO. Its more just indicative of them not being able to think of anything else to do with Damian, because DC, like a lot of fans, seem fixated on the idea that each Robin needs to be their own distinct archetype easily summed up in one word. “Cheerful Robin,” “Angry Robin,” “Intellectual Robin,” “Will Stab You With Both Words and Knives Robin.”

Like....yawn.

Its no wonder they keep running into problems thinking of what to do with these characters when they like, INVENT these boxes to confine these four specific characters in and limit the ways or directions they’re even allowed to be taken, because they’re so afraid of overlapping or whatever.....even though that SHOULD be their narrative strength! They’re brothers! They all bear or bore the same mantle! They don’t NEED to have their own one-word niche to be distinct, they just need to each be well-developed characters in their own right, and who CARES if they overlap in some areas. It absolutely makes sense that they WOULD, that there would be commonalities in traits and experiences that led to each of them ending up a Robin and part of the Wayne family, and like....

Highlander has been off the air for thirty years and most people won’t even get that reference, that’s how low-impact we’re talking, so enough with the “There Can Only Be One” approach to characters. Having common ground is not like.....character Kryptonite.

So I’m just....super unimpressed with them taking Damian in this direction yet again, as though his entire narrative arc is forever destined to be a closed loop, with him just sliding back and forth between “Murder Time? Yes!” and “Murder Time? No!” 

And even though its like, nice in one sense to have someone trying to avenge Dick, and having it be Damian with respect to how close a bond they have.....I’m not actually in favor of sacrificing another character’s stories just to make that happen. Especially when it doesn’t even have to happen at all. But honestly, like I mentioned at the top....given the extreme gap between the start of the Ric Grayson arc and this, I don’t actually believe this really has anything to do with them wanting to build off of or do anything new in regards to Damian’s feelings about his brother, like....it really just feels like an excuse to put another warm body in the way of Damian and his bungee jump back into this latest Dark Dami arc.

Also its just, bottom line....not realistic given their ACTUAL stories to date, IMO? Because Dick is literally the character who got Damian to see the value in life in the first place, and in addition, the first character who got Damian to see that his life didn’t have to follow a pre-charted course, that he could CHOOSE who and what he wanted to be. That, more than anything else, is why Damian loves his brother so fiercely, I feel - because of the fact that Dick was the first person in Damian’s life to look at him and just see a PERSON rather than what they already expected to see before they looked at him. 

And so its not even that I don’t think Damian would ever try and kill KGBeast because he believes Dick wouldn’t want anyone killing in his name, its that Damian more than anyone else would know how much Dick would never want HIM to kill someone and claim he was doing it for his older brother....because of how much it meant to BOTH of them that it was because of their bond, their partnership, their brotherhood, that Damian became a hero instead of staying an assassin at all....that Damian found another path for himself, because before Dick, he didn’t even know to LOOK for one, or imagine that it was even a real possibility. 

Dick introduced Damian to opportunities. To options. To having more directions he could go from any given situation beyond just the one that would end with more dead bodies.

And I can’t imagine Damian ever being so willful as to repay that with the same one choice, one direction, that Dick once helped him find alternatives to in the first place.

Nah, if they actually wanted to do something with Damian’s feelings about what happened to Dick? They should have written a story where Damian goes to Bludhaven to confront these strangers wearing his brother’s costumes and using his name. Damian has always held mantles and legacies in high regard, moreso than just about any other character I would argue.....and its always been portrayed as being hugely impactful on him, the fact that Dick actually made Damian Robin himself.

And added in that Damian likely knows how much Dick values his own mantles himself, how much OF himself he puts into them.....Damian would LOATHE these ‘pretenders’ from the moment he learned of them, IMO.

Like, remember when Damian went around trying to challenge each of his brothers or take something from them to prove he was the ‘worthiest’ Robin?

Imagine how powerful it could’ve been to have a story arc where Damian similarly challenged each of these new Nightwings from the shadows, setting up ‘tests’ that were intended to prove their unworthiness to claim his brother’s mantle, expose them as the frauds he would likely view them as.

Because that would be a direct callback to that previous story where he did something similar.....but it would show how far he’s come, even though he’s still very hot-tempered and prideful and etc.....because the juxtaposition of the two stories would highlight the fact that THIS time, Damian wouldn’t be doing this for himself, but for someone else, someone he values as much as he once valued his own prestige. And more than that, he’d do it according to standards or methods he knows Dick would be okay with, like, nothing lethal like he would have in the past, but stuff that was intended to make Damian’s point but not be anything that would make Dick feel guilty about having done in his name, once his memories return.

And then, just imagine his reaction too when he finally comes face to face with Ric, who seems to be HELPING these pretenders, and like....think about how much that would force him to confront and work through in regards to how he feels about Dick’s current state of existence/non-existence and his fears he’ll never get the man he views as his actual brother back. 

Like, I could see him attacking Ric himself, furious that he thinks he even has the ‘right’ to give tacit permission or endorsement of these amateurs, because Ric ISN’T his brother, he’s no more the real Nightwing than any of these, and thus allowing them the use of his name and mantle isn’t a choice that’s actually Ric’s to make, in Damian’s eyes.

But then as they fight and Ric calls upon the muscle memory that’s ingrained into him still, and they start to fall into familiar rhythms and its more a spar than an actual fight, one that BOTH of them are startled by how....right it feels, like, that more than anything IMO would be what has Damian start realizing there’s more of his brother in this ‘Ric’ identity than he’d previously realized, and that deep down they are still inherently the same person, he still KNOWS this man, he just....needs to get to know him again. 

And then there’d still be the matter of the other Nightwings, but now Damian’s reaction or attitude towards them and Ric would likely be one of confusion, like trying to understand WHY Ric would allow this instead of stopping it....because with the realization Damian has that the brother he knows is still somewhere in this man in front of him would come the baffling contradiction that he’s seemingly fine with something Damian KNOWS he would never normally be okay with.

And maybe it ends with the realization, the awareness in both brothers that things AREN’T normal, there’s nothing normal about this situation so the old rules and the preconceptions have to go out the window. Maybe Ric explains he can’t be who everyone wants him to be when he doesn’t even know for himself who and what he wants to be, what that even looks like...and thus maybe its okay that none of these other Nightwings are like him, like he’d been as Nightwing. 

Maybe that’s even part of the point for Ric, that by watching and interacting with four different versions of the him everyone claims he used to be, Ric can start to at least figure out what he’s NOT, what doesn’t feel or look right, and from there maybe have a better chance of heading in the right direction, the one that will take him some place where he actually feels like he fits in his own skin again, like he can look in a mirror and recognize the person staring back at him as at least BEING him, whether that’s Dick or Ric or some amalgamation in between.

THAT story would feel like something Damian might ACTUALLY do, and be productive and work towards the betterment of both brothers’ characterizations.....

But nah. Let’s have Damian go chop off some heads on a regressive revenge road trip because that’s all he knows how to do, apparently, that’s his default setting and always will be because how else will people recognize that he’s the “Bad Robin,” he’s the “’My Middle Name is Violence and My First Name is Actually Excessive’ Robin.”

That’s much better.

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Trouble in CrissColfer?

This comment posted today is TOO good to pass

on and since she ignores my ASKS- whether I am ANON or not-I am forced to air my thoughts here.  I just have to call out the outrageous hypocrisy..... 

Let’s set the stage.... Darren did an interview with Vulture that was released today. In the piece- Darren Criss on Playing Serial Killer Andrew Cunanan in ACS: Versace and Passing As White- Darren spoke very candidly about his feelings regarding his own sexuality, how he feels being straight has impacted his portrayal of gay characters, and whether he considers himself as Asian-American. 

This Tweet that ANON mentions which was “LIKED” by Chris (although it is no longer on his list of “likes” so IDK man, again the shady weird Tweets that cause chaos in Darren’s and Chris’s fandom and then disappear.....)

My comments are ITALICIZED... for fun.

Anonymous asked:

oh GREAT now here comes the chorus of people (including even some d "fans" i bet) saying c is shading d by liking that tweet. UGH. anyway i hate how tired and generally unwell d looks in the red carpet pics tonight. i feel like this past week might have been the most difficult for him in awhile.

Anon. I just said the same to a friend. D doesn’t look good.  He looks like a shell of himself.  It’s been a few weeks since I’ve seen him look this exhausted.  I think it’s been a long week with OS, the team of babysitters at an interview, and the love Simon premiere.  Add the Steve interview airing which must be painful to deal with.  And ofc travel again.  I get tonight wasn’t optional but this much constant travel takes a toll. I’m including at the end f the post all of the photos from this evening that I could find. That includes the Red Carpet photos they are talking about as well as the photos taken inside the event. 

It cracks me up every time the CCers talk about how tired Darren is because diagnosing something like exhaustion or mental illness from  photographs is simply ridiculous. The fandom skirts the labels, but what they are insinuating with their comments “he doesn’t look good”, “he is a shell of himself” or “his eyes are dead” is depression. You don’t diagnose depression from one or two photographs. They single out one or two photos from the many photos taken then plaster those all over their Tumblr and simply ignore the dozens of Happy, present, engaging, goofy Darren pics- and they hope you do too. Diagnosis mental health by photo is bad enough but it is even more ridiculous in light of  Darren’s photophobia and the fact that the red carpet photos are taken in front of dozens and dozens of camera flashes. Darren has spoken many times about how much it bothers his eyes. FYI- I might just have some credentials after my name that show I have studied assessing and diagnosing.. 

I also crack up when they talk about how exhausting his air travel schedule. What is it that Dr. CC said? Oh right, that “this much constant travel takes a toll”. That’s funny  because my husband flies for a living and  going coast-to-coast and back again  in two days is a regular activity for him. Sometimes he goes BACK agin the next day!  No way!.WAy!!!!!  It never “takes a toll” and he is not as young as Darren. 

On the twitter like.  I feel like people are constantly looking for C to mock D in some way.  I’ve seen it a few times since the engage.   I assume yes it’s tied as the quote is too similar to the goto quote team inhumane adds to every print article.  But it’s clear to me it’s the situation being shaded, not D.  Ok, seriously.?  It continues to blow my mind how there is a complete lack of self- awareness in this fandom. First of all, as I mentioned above, the Tweet isn't on Chris’s “Likes” page so IDK what happened or if it ever was. Maybe someone is just trying to stir up the shit. BUUUUTTTTTT if he did “LIKE”. it then I don’t know how you could take it any other way than for its face value. To say it is NOT shading a straight actor for playing a gay character AFTER Darren just did an interview where he spoke at length about this very topic is just being obtuse. Either Chris is shading Darren or Chris has NO clue that Darren did the interview released today and it is just a coincidence that he “LIKED” the Tweet today. To say that the Tweet is instead shading the “entire situation” is contorting the facts so far I am sure the author sprained her brain coming up with it. Reminds me of a Trump Pundit tonight on CNN who tried to argue that Trump fires his team members frequently because he hires them to meet an agenda and then once that is met, he needs new staff to meet the next goal.  

I wish people would realize. D&C are a couple.  A partnership.  Together for 7+ years.  Ofc they are normal & have disagreements.  If they didn’t I’d be concerned. But C is certainly not using SM to express this.  He has way too much respect for D to use a public forum in this manner.  If he has an issue.  I’d imagine he addresses D in person, through “"real life.” You WISH that people would realize D & C are a couple? It won’t happen because they aren’t a couple.  My proof? because Darren just announced his engagement....because Chris has called Will his boyfriend....because Darren has said over and over and over that he is straight.... because Darren has been photographed living his life with Mia for 8 years ...because Chris has been photographed living his life with Will for 4 or 5 years...because Chris said point blank that he and Darren were not in a relationship, that Glee was not a documentary and the “shipping” bothered him.  ...because the CC fandom lost their shit when Chris and Darren were in the same room together last week indicating how little they have been at the same event in a town as small as Hollywood- it takes a lot of work for them to avoid each other and anyone who is watching knows they are not at the same events.  ...because Chris and Darren lead entirely different lives and to imagine they are together as a couple is simply WISHful thinking.  Darren and Chris have nothing in common, they have none of the same interests and none of the same friends. Your WISH will never come true because Chris and Darren simply aren’t in a relationship.  BUT the most asinine point of your statement is that Chris wouldn’t use Social Media to express himself. YOU claim all the time that Chris is speaking to YOU and the CC fandom via social media. YOU claim all the time that the very PRIVATE Chris Colfer uses public forums to send you-literal strangers-secret messages. You don’t get to claim over and over that he is speaking to you via Twitter and Instagram and then claim he would never express himself that way.  Maybe the last sentence above is in FACT true- YOU IMAGINE.  Exactly... You IMAGINE.  That is all that there is.  Even if Chris and Darren were in fact in a relationship, you would have no details about their individual behavior or their behavior as a couple. You would just IMAGINE.

I personally think C has used SM to show an abundance of support for D during this incredibly difficult time for them both.  I continue to maintain they are standing strong together.  And if SM hints weren’t enough.  The show of solidarity at the EJAF screening should speak volumes to anyone aware of the truth. It is literally ridicules that you are still losing your shit that they sat together at a big fund raiser... then again if that is all you get for 2 years I guess you NEED that moment to MEAN something BIG. Whatever you tell yourself to get through the next two years before they share a meal across a 15  foot table again   The CC Fandom has literally been saying the same crap for 8 years.  

For 8 years we have heard you all rant that “this is going to be over soon” and Chris and Darren would be riding off into the sunset “soon” and yet here we are with both couples seeming to. be closer than ever. To take one’s straight  relationship more and more public right before one breaks up with her and comes out as gay seems like a really weird pla when you are doing this on the world stage.

You claimed they would break up before ACS, that Fox and RM had a deal with Chris and Darren and you got burned when nether happened.  You’ve hesitated to predict a new break up date and stopped talking about the “deal” but yet you still claim there won’t be a wedding. The fact is that neither you nor I has any intel or control over that and either it will happen or it won’t . You learn your lessons slowly don’t cha?  

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He can not also go 6 flippin weeks without any call. 18 months this has actually been taking place for, I have actually just known considering that March this year though although new soimething was up prior, juts unclear what it was. He claimed that the guilt is a minor point inthe system of points contrasted to the torture that he faces every second of the day. Said he never ever would have entered into an affair if he knew the discomfort of what he would have to encounter currently. He never ever assumed he would certainly be this included with an additional individual and wish to be with her. I do think that you can like people differently. Whether it is love or infatuation does not actually matter to the people that are experiencing it ... to them it seems like love.

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But only after my spouse's event had actually ended as well as she was fully devoted to doing whatever she might within reason to make our marriage as healthy as well as pleased we can make it. She did state, nevertheless, that because I just suspected something was up, however didn't actually know, it was easier for her to let the EA play itself out. My husband says that he is still on love with her as well as he needs to battle it every minute of the day not to call her and so on. Says that he intends to operate at his marriage but he has to release his love for her.

From Pittsburgh to Buenos Aires, Delhi to Paris, I have actually been carrying out a flexible study about infidelity. If you do try to recover your partnership, it is necessary to attempt to recognize why you strayed from the relationship. It's not your companion's mistake that you ripped off, yet a psychological event can be a sign that some psychological need is not being fulfilled in your connection.

How common are affairs?

According to the American Association for Marriage and Family Therapy, national surveys indicate that 15 percent of married women and 25 percent of married men have had extramarital affairs. The incidence is about 20 percent higher when emotional and sexual relationships without intercourse are included.

Adultery.

Well if your partnership is hidden from her partner and family members etc then you are with somebody who is living a lie and dishonesty on her other half. If her hubby knows and is alright with it then that's a different scenario completely. Likewise remaining in a marital relationship as a result of family members stress?? Depression can be debilitating-- do not allow your wife's bad selections overwhelm you. Your marriage remains in an awful limbo, so concentrate only on yourself and also your kids. I can not encourage if difficult love will function-- often it does; sometimes it does not.

You do chat in detail regarding the terrible after effects from numerous events. But you've additionally got the digestive tracts to claim that the results of affairs are not all poor, as well as even can result in much better 2nd marriages for the companions sometimes. It holds true that a marriage can become better after cheating-- mine has. But that is since my other half as well as I selected to do the work to restore our marital relationship. Stating an event is beneficial due to the fact that there might be something favorable that follows is like saying Adam Walsh's murder was beneficial due to his dad's advocacy.

He has very little interest in affection as well as we have actually had several, several conversations regarding it. He insists it's all him, not me yet absolutely nothing even adjustments. I seem like we are roomates more than fans. I understand that this blog post is extra for the spouse of someone that has made a decision that they needed a modification for whatever reason.

Other research studies discover infidelity is more probable to occur among people that hold less limiting views about sex, such as that you don't have to restrict yourself to one sex-related companion. We believe an enchanting companion exists to provide us with love, convenience as well as safety. So individuals fast to make judgements and lay blame on wrongdoers of what they view as a significant offense of connection standards and betrayal of trust. Cheating highlights the possible frailty of our closest and also most important of connections. People having affairs with married men or females can be prosecuted for infidelity in some jurisdictions and can be taken legal action against by the jilted spouses in others, or called as 'co-respondent' in divorce process. As of 2009, eight U.S. states allowed such alienation of affections lawsuits.Affairs with approval of their significant others may not be taken into consideration adultery or infidelity.

It can additionally fade if the fans uncover that there wasn't much connecting them past sex.

All types of affairs are really individual for everyone.

As John later told me, "As fantastic as the sex was, we didn't actually have much to claim to every various other. At some point, that ended up being a turn-off."

In particular cases, an emotional affair can be a portal to sex since it's a sensible following action, Schacter describes.

Typically, dishonesty entails people fulfilling face-to-face and after that taking part in physical sex. A psychological event is defined as any cheating that happens via sensation or thought. Certain righteous people as well as society has considered that events are undesirable. The majority of these individuals are protected individuals Get More Info and will most likely to the grave unhappy. Cheers to all those who "live" life as they select. And congratulations to any individual that makes a connection with a person - wed or single and gets some personal strenth/growth from it. Something which may be going on in your house is your children internalizing your marital relationship as a blueprint for their future connections.

This can be the result of a companion's actions or your very own aversion to be susceptible with your companion. These resemble the signs of a "normal" physical event, and should be treated because of this. As soon as you recognize you're having an emotional affair, you require to assess if you wish to stay in your collaboration or end the connection. In either case, you require ahead tidy to your companion. " I believe psychological affairs are worse," Brian Kearney, a solitary guy, informed INSIDER. Despite lots of feeling like a psychological event may not also be cheating, the problems it can have may also be even worse than a physical event.

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World-Building Wednesday #2

So in case anyone is just tuning in, this is part 2 of an answer to the Queen’s Crown ask I received regarding romantic customs in each of our four main countries... Part 1 - which is about Sinado and Kartura - can be found HERE. :)

Izcapor - The Izcapori people are a very repressed bunch. Love and romance are generally considered trivial pursuits among the wealthy/noble classes and marriage there is practically a business partnership (arranged marriages are widely practiced). Being openly affectionate with your spouse or lover in public is considered very crass, meaning all normal forms of PDA are frowned upon.

HOWEVER! People are still people. In Izcapor, there is a special kind of body language that occurs between lovers; an intricate system of gestures, glances, and subtle double-entendres. The language, delicately referred to as the Gul Hayo* - or roughly translated to Sinadi, the “Sweet Nothings” - are only ever privately discussed among close friends and romantic partners. The language itself is partially made up of unspoken Izcapori social cues that can be easily picked up just by being in the presence of other couples, and partly gestures and phrases unique to each couple.

Common aspects of the Gul Hayo include: 

Reaching out to discreetly pluck at the loved one’s clothing (this is a gesture of affection and can be followed with a slow caress of the fabric once you have their attention. The lower you pluck, the less platonic the gesture).

Serving apples as a refreshment (this is meant as an overture indicating interest in another person romantically, therefore, it is reserved for small gatherings only. Ideally, the object of the server’s affections will return their interest by taking a slice of the apple and putting it on their plate. They will do this even if they don’t plan to eat said apple. Usually, this happens AFTER something of an understanding between the couple already exists, but this custom has been known to cause much confusion and heartache over the years, making it one of the more exciting/risque aspects of romantic culture in Izcapor).

Purposely turning one’s teacup 90 degrees in any direction (this gesture should be accompanied by making eye contact with one’s lover and it is an indication that the turner will be leaving the room shortly and finding privacy outside somewhere in the direction of the cup’s handle. It is often used to initiate a private discussion or invite one’s partner for a sexual liaison). 

Since Desmond and - very distantly - Emry both come from Izcapor, I decided to go a bit more in-depth. Plus, I knew the nuances of the Gul Hayo might be difficult to explain without examples, so it ran a bit longer than I intended it to. Sorry guys. Tawar will be next week, I swear! >.< And I’ll do another in-depth one to make up for the wait. They’ve got a lot of customs, so they’re really deserving of their own entry anyway. xD

* Gul Hayo is taken from the Korean words 꿀 혀 or “kkul hyeo” which mean “honey tongue.” ^^

[kdinthecity]

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This is for @zutaraweek​ Day Five: Modern Times

Chapter One | Chapter Two | Chapter Three | Chapter Four

Zuko and I fall into a comfortable pattern of casual conversation in the car, a productive partnership at work, and the occasional night “out” at Mushi’s. He puts on an unconvincing act like his uncle annoys him, but I can tell they are close. Whatever Zuko doesn’t say out loud, I can easily read on his face. Details behind those expressions are lacking, of course.

Certain topics are off limits—like what happened with his father or that night in Iroh’s apartment. I let down my guard in sharing about my mom, but I’m putting it back up until it’s clear what direction we’re headed with all this. It's easy to talk to Zuko, but trusting him is a different matter entirely.

The first warning comes from Yue. She reassigns Hahn to the education position, and I assume it's because she is tired of his constant flirting. But then she starts spending more time in her office, making hushed phone calls behind closed doors. I imagine some intriguing behind-the-scenes action—like they’ve discovered the elusive tiger-seal (a creature from my stories) and finally receive the national attention they deserve for their hard work.

I often use fiction to escape my reality. Why do I feel this sudden urge to write?

I panic when Yue calls me into her office. She’s caught me daydreaming again. Or she’s seen me staring at Zuko’s ass. She’ll reprimand me for being so distracted all the time and probably reassign me, too. I prepare a report about some unusual findings Zuko and I discovered in one of the plankton samples as proof we work well together. I’m ready with my notes and everything.

“Katara, how are things going with Zuko?” she asks.

“F-f-fine, I guess. Er—great.” I didn’t expect that question, exactly.

She eyes the papers in my hands, the ones I'm flipping through nervously. “You… guess?“

“We’re good partners.” Ugh, I hate that I’m blushing right now. “In the lab, I mean. We get a lot done.”

Yue nods slowly in the way that grownups usually do when they have something they don’t want to say. “That’s good. So… you don’t feel… threatened… in any way?”

Blindsided again. What the hell does she mean by that?

I try to pick up my jaw and answer quickly. I don’t want my silence to raise any suspicions. “Threatened by Zuko? No, not at all.”

“Have you received threats from anyone else?”

“I’m sorry, but I don’t understand.”

“I don’t mean to scare you, Katara, but some threats have been made around here recently. If you ever feel unsafe or uncomfortable, will you please let me know as soon as possible?”

“Of course.”

“And… be careful. Zuko’s situation is… complicated.”

When I piece this conversation together with what I overheard between Zuko and Yue that one day, my best guess is that Mr. Kasai gives a lot of money to the Marine Center. And when things don’t go his way, he may use his power to pressure them. If Zuko’s face is any indicator, then I have no doubt his father would make threats… and follow through with them.

But what does this have to do with me?

My second clue arrives through a series of messages from Azula. She says I should stop seeing her brother, that their father disapproves, that if Zuko stays with me, then he will pay…

First of all, we are not together!

Wait. Am I the reason he…

I was with him that night.

Oh shit.

I have to know for sure.

Except Zuko is acting… weird. He’s more relaxed and happier than I’ve ever seen him. There may even be a hint at a sense of humor trying to break through his surly outer shell. Iroh has noticed the change, too, and calls it a “metamorphosis.” Zuko says he resents being compared to a butterfly and tells his uncle to “bug off.”

Did I say sense of humor? More like lame attempts at making jokes.

I laugh anyway. He lights up when I do. Like a... firefly?

Damn, he’s gorgeous.

There is no way in hell I’m bringing up that stuff about his father now.

Iroh invites Gran Gran and me to a July Fourth barbecue on the beach. Normally Dad and Sokka would come home for the holiday, but those storms swept northward and disrupted their travel plans. As consolation, I’ve been promised a HUGE party to celebrate my 16th birthday in August. To be honest, I’d be OK with a small family gathering. And Zuko. Maybe Mushi, too.

Speaking of, that man loves parties.

While Ozai practically owns half of the bayside resort property on Ember Island, his brother opted for a vacation home and a strip of private beach along the Pacific coast instead. This area is much better for surfing, but no one brought any gear today. Gran Gran enjoys chatting with Iroh’s friends, Jeong Jeong, Bumi, and Piandao. There are a few people I recognize from the restaurant—an employee or two, and a repeat customer I often see there. A young girl, maybe four or five years old, flits about the adults vying for attention. Coincidentally, she's wearing a pair of costume butterfly wings.

I survey the perfect waves and lament not having a surfboard.

“You just want an excuse to get me in a wet suit,” Zuko says.

“Was that… another joke?”

“You know me, Katara. I don’t joke.”

His face is passive, but golden eyes flash with bridled laughter. There is only one thing I can do to unleash it.

Tickle him.

“Nephew, why don’t you show Katara the tide pools?”

At first I think Iroh makes the suggestion because he disapproves of our touchy-feely ticklefest which involves tackling each other and rolling around in the sand. But after the short hike to the tide pools, I wonder if he was actually encouraging us. We are now enclosed in a small private cove.

Zuko laughs. “Uncle knows that low tide was hours ago.”

“What does that mean?”

“Well, you can’t really see anything right now. If he intended for me to show you the marine life and all, then…”

We both know it was a setup, but I’m the first to make a move. I lace my fingers with his and wait to release the breath I’m holding. He does that shuddery sigh thing, like he’s relieved. And then he squeezes my hand.

“Could you tell me about it at least?” I lean into his shoulder and decide to breathe again.

“Uhh—“ He swallows. “Organisms that survive here must be able to withstand harsh conditions. The environment is constantly changing with the tides, but a unique biodiverse ecosystem has adapted to thrive.”

He gets a poke in the ribs for that. “Thank you, Wikipedia.”

He grabs my other hand to ward off the attack—or maybe to pull me closer. “I had the education position at the Marine Center, remember?”

I’m facing him now, and a heat rises between us. I’m feeling bold enough to close the gap and trap it. I’m already enslaved by the intensity of his gaze.

“Yes sir, Professor Kasai.”

He freezes.

He only steps a few feet away, but he’s as distant as the offshore waves. He’s watching them, too, but without really seeing them. There is something with him and the water—while I feel connected to it, he’s haunted by it.

“My mom loved the ocean,” he says suddenly.

The space he left behind is now cold—empty. It takes me a while to recover, to respond. “That’s something we have in common."

At this, Zuko smiles. “She would like you.”

Some warmth returns, but I'm still uncertain. “Oh. I meant… my mom loved the ocean, too.”

“Ocean secret, vast and blue

Ebbs and flows, beneath the moon,

Rise and fall, crashing blue spirit

Whispers on waves, can you hear it?”

“That’s… beautiful,” I say.

“She wrote poetry… about a lot of things, but her favorite was the sea.”

My heart is racing again, but for a different reason this time. “That’s something else we have in common.”

“What’s that?”

“My mom was a writer, too. She was an investigative reporter for The Modern Times. She wrote mostly stuff about the environment, so our work at the Marine Center reminds me a lot of her.”

“That’s so cool, Katara. She would be very proud of you.”

“She got her first big break on the oil spill in Alaska. That was before she met Dad. She dug so deep into the corporate scandal that even years later, they had to move because of safety. Of course, that didn't keep her from doing the same thing here."

"What happened to her?"

"We don't really know. She was on assignment in Death Valley. Her editor suspected foul play... but there was never any proof."

Zuko goes pale. Paler than pale. Paler than I thought possible. "D-d-death Valley?"

If Zuko’s ghosts are whispers in the waves, then mine are mirages in the desert. "Yeah. I know. Sorry, I didn’t mean to—"

"It's getting late. We should start heading back."

It's not late, but I've obviously said too much… again. I never talk about this with anyone, and I promised myself I wouldn’t be so vulnerable with Zuko. But he’d opened up about his mom... a little. Maybe something bad happened to her, too.

Zuko avoids me for the rest of the day. He uses the excuse that he needs to help his uncle with the food... and then the cleaning… and setting up for fireworks...

At dusk, they disappear. I watch Gran Gran play a complicated board game called Pai Sho with Piandao. When we settle on the beach for the show, Iroh’s youngest visitor unexpectedly plops down in my lap. I catch a whiff of something familiar, something comforting...

Moon peaches.

"Hi, I'm Kiyi," she announces, leaning against my chest and looking up at me with curious golden eyes.

“Hi, I’m Katara,” I answer slowly. “Where is your—“

“I love the fire in the sky!” she squeals as the first bottle rocket takes flight. “Uncle does the best fireworks ever!”

I’m not sure which adult the girl came with since I haven’t been introduced to everyone at the party. I can guess by her looks that she’s related to the Kasai family somehow, but it’s the way she says Uncle that sounds…

Just like Zuko.

Per the norm, the next time I’m in Zuko’s car, we act like nothing ever happened—the almost-kiss, the cold shoulder followed by moments of deep connection complete with a poetry performance.

Nevermind all that. I have more pressing questions. "Who is Kiyi?"

"I don't know. Uncle adopts practically everyone and calls them family. He already thinks of you as his niece.” Zuko immediately turns bright red and coughs. “Kiyi is sweet, but hella stubborn."

Just like Zuko. "Are you sure you're not related?"

"Maybe? Like distant cousins or something?"

"Does Iroh have any kids?"

"His son died in the war."

I apparently have a talent for finding the most sombre subjects. Either that, or there is no end to Zuko's family drama. "Oh. Sorry."

"What's this all about anyway?"

"She told me about the blue spirit."

Aaaaaaaand cue the switch from deep red to paler than pale as the color drains from Zuko’s face. "That's... well, anyone could say that. It wouldn't be the first time something supernatural was attributed to the sea. Take... Poseidon for example."

"Or Tui and La." I wait for the furrowed brow to follow.

And... check. “Who, what now?” he asks.

“Your mom’s poem reminded me of the moon and ocean spirits, Tui and La. It’s a belief my ancestors in Alaska held, a harmonious push-and-pull relationship to keep the world in balance.”

“Sounds like the tides.”

“Exactly.”

Here comes the part where he sighs dramatically, but I have no idea what he'll say next.

“It’s just another way to explain what we don’t understand. What we cannot control.”

Hmm, interesting. “Isn’t that what spirituality does?" I muse aloud. "Help us make peace with those things? Like death, for example.”

I am NOT speaking from experience because if I’m honest with myself, I am far from making peace with my mother’s death. If he has any insight, I'm all ears.

“I… don’t know.”

I don’t know, either, but I wish I did... for the both of us.

I spend another day at the Marine Center in a complete state of distraction. After this, Yue will undoubtedly reassign me to the dreaded job of cleaning up seal shit. She alternates between giving me looks of warning and pity, so I’m still not sure what to make of our conversation or anything else that's transpired since then.

I'm going to ask Zuko about it. Point blank. He'll probably turn a ghastly shade I haven't seen, yet. But it's better than black and blue, if his father really is making threats.

But when we head back to his uncle's restaurant after work, we don't slip into our usual booth near the back. I follow Zuko past the kitchen to the stairs that lead up to Iroh’s apartment. We haven't been here alone together since that night, and all of those sensations return to me as if that moment is suspended in time. I’m looking at the face of someone who’s been beaten, and all I want to do is kiss the pain away. I won’t reopen those wounds—not now, not ever.

Zuko is not one for dwelling in the past, though. He doesn’t skip a beat as he leads me down the hallway, and I think maybe we're going to his room. My brain and pulse race with curiosity—of the possibilities—but he stops short of the doorway and points at something on the wall.

My breath catches. It’s a framed newspaper article from The Modern Times, dated May 2009, the same year my mom died.

The headline reads, "No matter how things may seem to change, never forget who you are." I skim down to the byline at the bottom. "Professor Kasai teaches English composition at Atlas University."

Zuko's mom taught at AU? And she wrote for The Modern Times, too?

"When I worked for my dad last summer, I found some of Mom’s files," Zuko explains. "I knew she wrote a few articles, but I didn't know Uncle had this until I started staying here recently.”

"Do you think our moms knew each other? It's a big newspaper, but maybe—"

"Was your mom The Painted Lady?"

I stop breathing altogether. "What?"

He runs a hand through his hair like he does when he's nervous. "Was that her...pen name... or whatever?"

It was a reference to war paint and a tribute to our tribal heritage. "Yes. Why?"

"Then I need to show you something."

[lorajackson]

Politics and Prose – Chevy Chase

315

5015 Connecticut Ave NW Washington, DC 20008 (202) 364-1919

Curbside pick-up will resume tomorrow, and orders can be placed either by phone or online. Pick-ups can be done at any of P&P’s three locations. For those desiring curbside pick-up, select that option at checkout on the web site. Once the order is filled, an e-mail notification will indicate that items are ready for pick-up. Phone hours have now been extended to 11-6 (Tuesday-Sunday), and pick-up hours are from 1-5 p.m. on Tuesday-Sunday. Pick-ups at the main (Connecticut Avenue) location will be in the parking lot behind the store – and at their other two locations (The Wharf & Union Market), pick-ups will be in front of the store. More pick-up instructions: Wait for notification that your order is ready for pick-up. Call the phone number of (whichever) store upon your arrival and then your order will be placed on a table. Wear a mask and maintain six feet of distance from others.

I love Politics and Prose. I love books and reading and this bookstore is truly dedicated to that. I also prefer to support independent stores in my community. Politics and Prose has a fantastic selection. The children’s selection is on point, plus they have super cute merchandise. Clearly, the politics/world affairs section is big. They also have a nice cookbook selection. Staff is friendly. I was most recently there for an author talk and signing. I was able to buy the book, “Cool Beans” and have author Joe Yonan sign it. He was in conversation with Pati Jinich, which was great. and Little Sesame (my favorite) had samples for that event. So they do cool things like that. Plus, heading up here gives me a reason to check out restaurants I wouldn’t normally get to, so there’s that bonus as well. Definitely a great D.C. fixture.

A very cool and interesting bookstore. It is very well known. Politics and Prose is the best place to get reading material. Fun activities like social clubs come to meet here. They have books of almost any interest. Bookstores are not as common as they used to be. If you can read something on a pad or phone, why do you need a book? There’s many reasons. If you’re looking for an older book. There’s lots of older books here. It also has lots of newer books. Some people just like actual books, especially if these are classics. There’s also certain benefits to going to bookstores that you can’t get on a screen. At this store they often have visits by famous authors. There always seems to be a book signing. It becomes rarer to find a bookstore. This one always has something interesting to read or see. You can check the calendar to see when a famous author might come to visit.

In the age of online shopping, bookstores are becoming a dying breed (RIP Borders). No need to fret! I’m here to report that Politics and Prose is alive and kicking! This location has the qualities of a quintessential neighborhood bookstore…D.C. homegrown, warm staff, loyal customers, family-friendly, and a cozy coffeehouse to boot. Space is well-organized, roomy, and clean. There’s a plethora of topics to explore and choose from: politics, fiction, nonfiction, history, poetry…the list is endless. Selection in children’s books are second to none. Since whodunits are my jam…I’m usually browsing the mystery section. Found several hard to find Walter Mosley novels (Gone Fishin’, Devil in a Blue Dress, and White Butterfly). Special mention: Looking for a cool and unique gift? You’ll probably find it here. There’s something for all ages…from the quirky magnets and colorful graphic tees to the most adorable baby bibs. Side note: Still living in the Dark Ages and having a hard time finding CD’s? Politics and Prose has you covered! A nice collection of musical genres…jazz, international, classical, folk, and so much more. Pro tips: Stop by The Den in the lower level for a tasty cup of espresso or tea. Also, the Smoked Salmon Toast is out of this world! Interesting tidbit: The delicious smoked salmon comes from the local Ivy City Smokehouse…need I say more? Definitely a fan of this one of a kind bookstore, and that is why I’m giving it five stars!

Classic DC spot. Great for book browsing, especially for political books. Decent cafe downstairs.

Love coming here! Their prices are good, tons of books to choose from, and the downstairs cafe is delightful!

I am a book lover, and this is book heaven! There are a ton of books to choose for every genre. There’s a’ways some great signings and discussions going on here. If you’re looking for book accessories this is also your place to look. Parking is on the street but there’s plenty of it. There’s a cafe called “The Den” below with wine and coffee.

Politics and Prose is an institution – the premier independent bookstore in the DC area. The events they hold almost everyday is proof of their status. Almost every high profile politician on a book tour will come through P&P for an event, in addition to celebrities and popular authors. Below I will mostly focus on the Conn. Ave. store and café, but the P&P brand is strong. The store: It has a fantastic selection, particularly for nonfiction books. When you walk into the store, you are immediately overwhelmed by the floor to ceiling bookshelves. The space is super inviting and it’s set up for perusing. Go to the left first and you’ll find new releases, than work your way around clockwise. I really like the new sale section in the addition. The room is much more open, given that the clearance section used to be in the basement. The new P&P stores by the Wharf and Union Market don’t have sale sections and are major let downs to me, although I can touch more on that in those respective store reviews. Advice to student visitors: sign up for the P&P membership – it’s free! After buying a certain amount of products, you get money off. Overall, I’m always up for a leisurely trip to P&P. The café (The Den): P&P’s The Den, which is located in the basement of the store, is underrated. It has a partnership with Little Red Fox which is a couple storefronts away. The few times I have been here while visiting P&P, I’ve gotten coffee and/or lunch. Both seemed like they were of very high quality. I got an iced latte and a peanut sauce Soba noodle bowl the last time I visited – both were fantastic. It’s difficult to find seating in the Den on the weekends, but usually if you wait around for ten minutes something will show up. Conclusion: P&P is a must visit for someone who wants to get a figurative and literal taste of the city.

I love when a book store (with events) & a cafe are combined! I came here last weekend with my friend who lives a few blocks away and absolutely loved this place and it’s charm. We went to the cafe downstairs and each had the Salvadoran Corn Cake and shared the Ricotta & Fig toast. I had their homemade raspberry iced tea and she had their cold brew. It was just the right amount of food and everything was delicious and fresh. I loved the artwork from locals hung around the shop and the overall vibe of the place. If I lived in the area, this would definitely be somewhere I would frequent!

Great store! It has a good stock of books and is socially conscious as well. A good combo if you ask me! My one issue: I went to the store to buy a copy of “Visions of Jerome” by Jack Kerouac. Jack wrote this book about me when I was a drunken hobo in my youth. I did not find my book, but I found “Visions of Gerard.” Gerard was my understudy in those days as we road the rails. I have no idea why his book is there instead of mine!

Politics & Prose is great! It’s an independent bookstore that offers excellent customer service with a wide selection of books. The bookstore employees are very knowledgeable and helpful. Just a few of the awesome ones are Terry, Nora, Michael, Sly, Jamal, Alecia, Carolyn, Adam, Ellie, and many more. They have member sales with great discounts on books. Downstairs with the children’s section is the cafe, The Den. This place is always busy, but especially on weekends. Most of the baristas are college students (usually American University) who are 18-20. I want to push back against some of the bad reviews directed at customer service. For some of these kids, this is their first job ever. Also, they’re working there because P&P offers a living wage AND benefits that surpass most university health care plans. Yes, they sometimes make mistakes, but if you show them the same courtesy with which you’d like to be treated, they are very kind and accommodating. Honestly, I think the fact that the Den is always a busy and lively place is a testament to the service and awesome atmosphere. A couple things: This is NOT a quiet space. Like almost all coffee shops, the place is full of people on laptops working, on mobile phones, or conversing with friends. It’s still quieter than Tryst, but it’s also much smaller. That’s another thing: even though there are signs saying to give up your seat if you’re not eating or drinking, people will park in their seats for hours. The coffee house turns off the WiFi from 11 am to 2pm on weekdays and has no WiFi on weekends to discourage people from doing this during their busiest times, but it still happens. So just be aware, around lunchtime and on days where there are member sales or well-known authors speaking, there will little to no seating. Lastly, because P&P is an independent business who treats their employees like human beings, there is no forced enthusiasm/forced smiles policy like at Starbucks where you are expected to “genuinely love coffee,” as if forcing your employees to grin like Wal-Mart greeters makes them more efficient baristas. P&P understands that conditions like depression and bipolar disorder can make the “37 pieces of flair” TGI Friday’s approach to customer service difficult. That said, I have never had anyone be unpleasant to me. But I appreciate that P&P lets people have a flat affect without worrying that it might cost them their job. Soon the Den will also have more and better coffee options, plus they have an awesome new coffee manager (Kenia) in charge of quality control for espresso drinks. So be sure to stop in and try some of their blends in the near future!

Any description of this book store by me is eclipsed by the volumes of works found here. When in town, I stop by here just to browse and purchase the newest editions of books that attract my fancy. It attracts an A list of literary personalities and authors. Here you can run into Presidents (the ones who read), poets, authors great and small, and think tank wonks. It is as if the Academy, Académie Française, and Real Academia Español were reduced to English and placed here. This is Washington’s literary Pantheon. Go, revel in it, support it and immerse yourself; you will thank yourself.

Wonderful indie bookstore in an indie bookstore kinda town. We are chasing NYC as the top US indie bookstore destination. Solid State and Kramerbooks are worth supporting, too. There are others. We are lucky also to have a few Barnes and Nobles left in the area. P&P sponsors author talks and has a nice cafe downstairs. They have a membership program w sales and discounts. I ordered a turkey sandwich from the cafe and the fellow preparing it came out to ask me if, since I swore off the pesto mayo, I would like extra avocado to help hold the thing together better. He must have unicorn blood in his veins. This place is America at its best. Pride and meaningfulness.

This is my favorite bookstore in DC! I love the amazing selection of new and classic books, the quirky items, and the events. Many of the books I have purchased here are also signed by the author. The cafe downstairs is lovely – its great to journal, do some work, and read a book.

I am so excited that this bookstore exist! Let it be known that you can still buy books inside of a store… Wait what? Yes that’s right, ladies and gentlemen you can still purchase books inside of a bookstore. While the idea of a bookstore is slowly dying, I for one enjoy being able to pick up a book and skim through it before deciding to purchase it or not. I also really appreciate this bookstore because often authors come in to do Q&A’s along with book signings. The one downside is definitely the location. Parking can be extremely difficult to find. However; once inside the store you will find books on almost every topic you could desire. Cookbooks, religion books, political… Obviously, autobiographies, children’s books, and a bunch of other knickknacks that you never knew you needed but definitely want. This is also a great place to stop if you are in need of a gift. I recommend checking this book store out if you are in the area.

This review is just for their cafe. My friend and I came here to get some work done, but apparently they turn off their WiFi from 12-2 to empty their seats faster. That was unfortunate, since we were there to work on our laptops. As for food, cappuccino was good, but chocolate croissant was amazing!! I’m a sucker for a good flaky pain au chocolat

About a month ago, we went here about 45 minutes before closing for some coffee, a glass of wine, and to have a relaxing conversation. We tried to order an Americano and latte. We were told that the espresso bar “closed at 8:00” so we had to order coffee. The coffee was fine, but we were still perplexed as to how an espresso machine “closes.” The guy behind the counter wasn’t interested in providing much of an explanation or apologizing. We sat down, and about 15 minutes later, the same gentleman yelled “Closing in 30 minutes!” as loud as he possibly could. We were the only people sitting in the store – was not really necessary to yell as though the shop was crowded and needed to be cleared out. Fifteen minutes later, a female employee walked near our table, and about 5-10 feet away from us yelled, “CLOSING IN 15 MINUTES!” It was like something out of a Saturday Night Live sketch. I finished my coffee as fast as I possibly could, spit the grounds back into the cup, then we left. Never returning to this place. Unless that was some sort of candid camera episode or Punk’d, that was truly the worst customer service I have ever experienced.

I enjoy everything about the downstairs cafe except the peanut noodle bowl. YUCK!

This amazing bookstore and coffeehouse is the perfect place to be productive and/or avoid all your problems. With multiple genres of books to choose from and a delicious menu with toast, wine, teas & coffee, etc. Politics & Prose is one of the best bookstores in the D.C. area. I really enjoyed the time that I spent here. The book selection is vast and wonderful. They also have a lot of gadgets, stationary, and gifts that you can purchase for yourself or others. Their coffeehouse- named “The Den” is downstairs; there is plenty of seating, but the seats fill up fast. There is Wi-Fi, but not on the weekends. I think this is a great idea. I ordered two hot chai lattes, traditional grilled cheese sandwich, and a smoked salmon toast. The presentation was just as great as the food I ordered. I definitely recommend this place to others. I will definitely be coming back!

Cute place! Great for studying, they have a good selection of drinks and pastries to eat. Wish there a few more outlets around the cafe.

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[psychotherapyconsultants]

5 Signs of Emotional Abuse in Your Relationship

They are tempting to overlook but toxic over time.

Over the past few months, many readers have contacted me after seeing my posts on the signs of emotional abuse in controlling relationships and how to begin to extract yourself from one. It is startling the number of otherwise “normal” people who are trapped in a long-standing abusive relationship that might make most people’s hair stand on end.

Even more subtle, however, are the toxic behaviors that a lot more of us have come to consider as “normal.”

Your relationship may be far from a classically controlling one, but there could still be indicators that you deserve far, far better.

Everything You Need to Know about Leaving a Toxic Relationship

Of course, in these cases, it doesn’t absolutely mean that you need to end your relationship. Often, a few sessions with a couples therapist can help identify these problematic patterns and establish ways to get rid of them. Your success in overcoming these obstacles depends on you and your partner’s willingness to put effort into addressing the problem: Motivation often will be the difference between a relationship sinking or swimming in the long term.

In the meantime, the first step is to acknowledge the dysfunctional patterns. These are the most common and “innocuous” (though in reality anything but) toxic relationship red flags that I hear about in therapy and in my advice column.

Do you recognize — in you or your partner — any of these frequent but troubling situations?

1. Chronic Unreliability.

You might think of your partner simply as scattered or flaky. But the damage of never being able to know if they will come through and do what they say they will do — whether paying the electric bill or following through with taking off work to be with you during surgery — can cause chronic stress and undermine trust within your relationship. It can create uncertainty where support should be, adding doubt where a relationship should instead provide security.

And even if your partner is not dropping the ball to be manipulative, but is just disorganized, overwhelmed, or suffering from attention problems, the effects on a couple’s connection can be serious. It’s something to look at individually and as a couple.

2. Joking That’s Not Really “Funny” at All.

that’s not really “funny” at all.

Different couples have different thresholds for what is humorous versus hurtful in terms of teasing. And unfortunately, even within the same couple, there may be vastly different sensibilities about what feels good and what stings hard when it comes to joking around.

The keys, of course, are communication and respect. Your partner should be able to resist the urge to tease when they know it crosses the line for you, and you should be able to speak up about it in a way that feels safe.

Often, partners who repeatedly cross the line into hurt justify it by insisting that they are “just joking.” But that is invalidating, as the effects matter just as much as the intent in these cases.

3. Needing to Be Right All the Time.

Recently, a reader chatted with my online community about being married to a person who always had to be right, for both big things and small. He needed to win every disagreement, make his point the final point, and “correct” everything she said that he disagreed with.

This reader happened to blame this on the fact that he was an attorney, but that seems a flimsy excuse — his behavior was so excessive as to border on controlling, and clearly went beyond “lawyering.” Often, such offenders are acting out of insecurity or anxiety and simply don’t realize how they are eroding the relationship over time. An objective, professional third-party can help, if there is motivation to change.

How to Stop Toxic Relationship Habits Before They Even Start

4. Being Dismissive or Intolerant of Feelings.

I’ve heard from other readers who feel like they aren’t “allowed” to express feelings in front of their partner. Of course, sometimes these readers themselves might be expressing these feelings in explosive or threatening ways, and so in these cases, their partner’s discomfort is understandable. But other times, the partner — whether because of a complicated past history with their family of origin or just the nature of their personality — creates an environment where it feels unwelcome and unsupported to express even the most understandable of human reactions.

If your partner is constantly making you feel bad for expressing emotion in a reasonable way or expecting you to always be in a good mood, this can feel like a stranglehold. The real risk is that it might make you bury your feelings to the point where they start eating you up from the inside.

5. Endless Bean-Counting.

It’s great when a couple can settle into a general, reciprocal pattern that helps them feel like work is shared equally (“When she cooks, I clean”). But general is the key here. When it comes to routines, partnerships that can flex and bend when needed are far less likely to break under pressure.

Over the course of a lengthy, committed relationship, there will be times — even lasting weeks or longer — when one person needs to pick up the other person’s slack, for the good not only of the partner, but also for the relationship. Gratitude is no doubt called for in these situations and can help make both partners feel good.

But when one partner expects the other to “make up for it,” or is constantly keeping tally of who “owes” who what, then it’s hard to maintain feelings of true support, trust, and unconditional love.

This guest article originally appeared on YourTango.com: 5 Toxic Behaviors That Seem Normal In Relationships, But Are The Most Damaging Of All.

from World of Psychology https://psychcentral.com/blog/5-signs-of-emotional-abuse-in-your-relationship/

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Thank you for all the positivity and also enjoyment as well as pleasant words for our child girl on the means. We're delighted as well as pumped up, when I'm awake, that is. Growing people certain takes the mojo right from you. Yet hey, that's OK.

So, I desired to share a little my lessons found out up previously, as well as I enjoy to share my errors as well as trip-ups, so possibly you can save yourself some stress and anxiety and time no issue what you're going through in your life.

We had actually been aiming to make a baby, first rather casually and after that a bit much more 'trying' for a while. Three years ago I 'made a decision' it was time. I went off the tablet, had Mike meet me in Paris for the weekend while I got on the means residence from a Moscow event, and also decided we would obtain pregnant. All set to relocate into the household stage of our lives. Easy right? Ha!

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So I did something radical. I developed room. Not in the means I was utilized to, which was developing space so I could accomplish more. This time around I was developing room so I could exist because area and also just be.

Create space to be.

Big inhale.

Long exhale.

And just be.

It scared the black out of me to study this new idea, yet it really felt so required to accomplish just what I actually wanted. Much more holistically, it really felt necessary to achieve the degree of peace I yearned for, past any kind of goal of a household. This brand-new way of developing room to be would become the key that took me to amazing places, beyond anywhere I had been thus far.

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So lots of people asked me for many years concerning when we were going to have children. I recognize I'm not alone in feeling disgusting as well as somewhat attacked by these most personal questions, from people who don't understand you so well, along with the deal of infant recommendations flowing extra openly than coffee in the regional neighborhood stores. These questions went to very first aggravating, after that upsetting, after that I finally took my power back. When somebody who I do not know really well would certainly ask me about my fertility, I would certainly ask something equally invasive that was none of my service. How's the connection with your mother? Finances back in order? It normally functioned. It had not been just dodging concerns that got my power back. I really did not require to conceal anymore. I got on my own right track.

After the slashing, the recovering my power, I was left with this space. Nothing was really taking place, however I had area, as well as it began to really feel great. Keep in mind when you were a youngster and you (hopefully) had this substantial feeling of room, time, and creativity daily? I was beginning to get that back. This new space became my most crucial goal. Space to be. I might shut my eyes as well as see every little thing streaming from below.

So we started attempting again with the app. After that I was obtaining frustrated at the app, as well as my partnership to checking it and checking out all its suggestions way too often, so I erased it. We had actually just enjoyed a Matt Damon movie, The Martian, and I love the line regarding exactly how he found out the best ways to expand potatoes on Mars. He claimed, 'I scientific research 'd the shit out of it!' The modern-day globe has great deals of choices in order to help points along with making a child, and our initial stop was the pharmacy. We got an ovulation test that informs you 'for actual' without the uncertainty of an app when is go time. Gauging around that time came to be gratifying and also really felt aggressive. You obtain a straight-up face that says, yes your body is functioning. You have a surge in all the satisfied hormones now. And if you intend to try to make a baby this month, go time is NOW!

After a few smiley-face months, I was a couple of days late but not curious about taking an examination and obtaining bummed out, so we waited. Each month I would certainly think I had some 'signs,' which is quite amusing because a lot of the signs of pregnancy are likewise signs and symptoms of PMS, each taking place in that very same time home window. I stopped attempting to persuade myself that I was peeing a whole lot, had sore boobs and shortness of breath, and just obtained on with my life as typical. We were preparing yourself to leave for Europe, Asia, as well as Australia for a month of Strala trainings and other events, as well as I figured I need to take a test in instance we should establish a doctor go to for when we're back. It would certainly be eight or 9 weeks by that factor, and also my present OB didn't do all the baby things. I took a test, and immediately it transformed pregnant. I still think that indicates I was 'actually pregnant' as well as not simply a little! We raised and down and also scrambled to find a physician that was taking brand-new people. Not an easy point to find in New York City, by the method. After dozens of calls, we finally had an appointment for when we were back, and I could complete packing as well as head to the airport. Eeek! Preparation went out the window on that one.

So this solid little girl made it through an insane trip to Europe, Asia, as well as Australia, full of 20 trips, numerous trainings, workshops, occasions, retreats, finalizings, as well as a great deal of morning/all-day-long illness.

So that's my tale as well as lessons found out. And this is simply the beginning.

You can produce room to achieve much more, which is wonderful and also great yet not sustainable.

Or you can develop room to be.

I hope you select the second, so you could enjoy your personal creative thinking and see where that takes you. Probably to release some rather fantastic stuff.