#it’s hard to tell what karen really feels about the death of aiko because we only see her alive for ~30-45 minutes if that

[real-raincode-takes]

i feel like most of the hate karen gets is solely because of her name like yeah she killed aiko but you'd be hard pressed to find a fan of a kodaka IP that hates a murderer for just murdering. it was obviously a crime of passion that she regrets. it clearly haunts her, from the way yuma describes her. but what can she do at that point? confess? would you do that?

i don't even like her. i'm a hard neutral on her. i just think it's funny how i've seen people actively hate her when the girl didn't do anything especially cruel

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[tellyouaboutmyself]

a clusterfuck of idk anymore bb

but really neither of us fucking know what we ever want soo eh

This was all heavily inspired by New Balance by Jhene Aiko Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/0PYmO55JPwEWgtyJbkN6mq Apple Music: https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/new-balance/id1287187834?i=1287188682

October 11, 2017 10:33PM edited October 12, 2017 7:25AM 12:10PM 1:03PM 1:44PM & October 13, 2017 12:37AM 8:18AM 5:53PM 7:34PM

There are times at night I wish I was there with you Times I fight for your attention, I would ride with you I would lie with you I would die with you But it’s never enough for you Who knew?

You have the power to fuck up my head You have the power to keep me in bed You have the power to speak but never say what needs to be said Oooo Yes you do

And I get too caught up in your details Every success and every fail Hands in the air as we let go of the rail Hanging on to the seconds as we sail Through hurricanes that hit me so hard But when I need saving you’re always too far If you called me up I’d put miles on my car I fell asleep on your floor that night you felt like a dying star Cuz that’s who we are I stay, you dart You like, I heart And that’s hard It’s the hardest part Oooohhh

You kill me inside when you say nothing at all How can you fill me so full and make me feel small? Effort is lacking but I still give you a call Wasting my breath when I start standing tall And it’s all It’s all for you

I ask myself what I did wrong But I know that’s you who did me wrong I think of you and I can’t believe I look at you and can’t find air to breathe Hope and potential can keep you alive but it’s killing me And all you say is you’re not ready Oooo

Ready for what? Ready for your all to be given in love? Cuz I’m laying in your bed and I still have a drive home But one second with you is better than a day of being alone

I’m not here to make you change I’ve seen you grow but you still act the same I told you I loved you by sticking around in every way

How many girls did you tell that they weren’t the only one? How many girls only rode with you just for fun? And I’m stuck here on a burner for real You started sending snaps, what’s the deal? You feeling thirsty for a snack when I’m a whole meal? No, I get it, you don’t know what you feel You’re just filling your curiosity by using me, I see

When do I say enough is enough? When do I leave because I am not enough? When do I cry because I feel too much? When do I call it quits instead of just bluff? Cuz I’m done So done

But as soon as I say that and I give it some time One of us caves and hits the other’s line We always do that shit but never call each other mine It’s not, but I’ll say that it’s fine We’re swerving everywhere with no sign The end of our friendship would feel like a fatal crime I’m on defense but you’re in the zone every time Ooooo What am I to do?

I tear myself apart trying to figure you out And I don’t even know the taste of your mouth I give you so much mental space And we don’t even date You make it hard not to complicate What the fuck is our fate? You admitted to breaking me down Why would you do that everytime and still stick around?

And today I forgot about you for a few hours The taste was bitter but sweet is the new sour I watched as the water fell and left the drain in the shower He makes me laugh and buys me flowers But when I look in his eyes I sink back to yours for an hour Or two What am I supposed to do? We pass like the phases of the moon Until distractions come around and make us feel new And then they disappear and we talk about it because we always stay too honest with truth

Love, -E xx.

Deleted phrases *** How have I not proved you’re above them all? *** And you’re a slow death killing me *** Despite all of this I still can not leave Please, please answer will you ever grow to love me? I accept it but I struggle because I don’t see Why you’ll never want us to be a we? *** I want to do, nothing with you I want nothing, to do with you But I lied Yes I’ve tried I mind ***

Ready to give more to me than just enough? *** I’d break you in all of your divine *** And that would kill me *** I get lost in you starin’ Moments too few I can’t help but hit replay, blarin’ Yoooouuuu Oooooo *** We both used to fuck around but we never fuck off We just comeback in a few weeks like a bad cough *** All because I see you growing and your potential I feel Is too great and you just try to hide it Leave me alone or fess up and stop denyin’ Why do we remind me of Hank and Karen? We mess up and tell the other cuz we’ll always be there *** It was strange when your dad liked a pic on my birthday Kind of like when your mom was taking our picture and I didn’t know what to say So I just smiled and pretended I was okay But my head was screaming to run away *** I lash when I’m scared and you just walk by *** Snaps in the air at night while we flash south Lights everywhere while we never figure anything out *** I know I’m not a pretty face And you don’t complain

*** Because I feel whole when I think of a future at your side And I don’t see a future where we grow together and hide From a world tearing us down just so we slack off and abide *** You say you don’t play them but I know you like games Cuz I’ve been right here for too long and we stay the same I remember that time you said there were two of us plus your ex __ I used to see you liking pictures, there were so many names Filters and skin with captions cliche I am all of those and empty but you still have nothing to say But speaking has never been your specialty

*** I sent that I miss you And you left again then too *** And his tongue has this power*** Breaking us down but I feel safe in your eyes Omissions in silence is your comfort in lies And I dieI shouldn’t have to live that in life You kill me inside Everytime Why Why You say you’re shy And I say I’m fine Everytime ***

Love, -E xx.

p.s. I’m like, not even mad at you. You just drive me insane a few times a month. :) I doubt you read my sht, but if you do, it’s everything I’m too scared to say to you...You just tend to always be absent in the times I really need you. That’s what hurts the most. You stay absent when I’m really trying, and then when I stop trying you show up. xx.