#it’s cheesy and it’s goofy and it’s catering to the fans but I eat it up every time

[skachacharealsmooth]

Not rlly frontiers spoilers or anything but like. Ik a lot of ppl were starting to talk abt the callbacks and how they started to feel pander-y (to which I simultaneously agree abt but I’m also neutral on???) but. are we ignoring the best, most yummy, most scrumptious, most gratifying ‘pandering’ in the series???? THIS????

[dontlikedarkness]

killer bass five headcanons

there’s no reason for this i just love the idea of them as a friend group

when dj comes out as gay bridge throws him a “coming out party”, he claims not to need one but she’s super proud of him and wants to celebrate it so she fills his apartment with balloons and invites a few of their friends over and they get really, really drunk

coincidentally courtney comes out as bi that night, she doesn’t remember it but dj pulls her aside to talk about it the next day and is super supportive of her and they have a bonding moment where they talk about growing up in the closet (she also admits to having had a crush on gwen at one point and squashing it down because of how she betrayed her - duncan knows this, of course, but she’s never gone into as much detail as she does with deej)

the rest of the five make sure they both know they love and support them and it’s all very sweet but dj has to tell geoff at one point that he’s actually not into surfer dudes and that he doesn’t think he’s brody’s type, either

bridgette and geoff get a cat together (it’s actually geoff’s idea, although bridge gets on board fairly quickly) and duncan, of all people, is at their house like five days a week for the first month they have the cat just to see it. nobody has any issue with it but court teases him to no end

of course they follow suit and get a cat of their own not too long after, he’s an old ragdoll mix because court has a soft spot for older cats and duncan just wants a little fluffy thing to run around the house (he has mild attachment issues and courtney’s busy a lot - so he likes the company)

dj and bridge go to vet school together, bridge takes a job with an animal shelter after they graduate while dj becomes a vet tech

duncan gets a job at an autobody shop and starts dragging everyone along to classic car shows; courtney is the first to go and he makes a date out of it, they eat good italian food and then take a walk down main street to watch the cars go by, court thinks it’s super cute when he sees one he’s impressed by and starts explaining the mechanics of it to her even though she doesn’t understand a word he’s saying (he’s a lot smarter than he pretends to be so seeing him geek out over something is a privilege)

music festivals become a summer tradition after dj takes them to one and they all find they like different aspects of it; bridge likes it for the indie music and the different outfits everyone wears, geoff and duncan mostly enjoy the weed, and court loves how carefree everyone is. she takes the opportunity to dance with everyone, especially deej because he gets all goofy and smiley

bridge teaches all of them to surf, geoff already knows how and dj isn’t great at it but court ends up being a natural; duncan tags along but normally just lounges on the beach. he claims its “for the view” (courtney) but he secretly enjoys the alone time, he uses it to sketch all of them looking peaceful and enjoying themselves out on the waves

they have a gift exchange every halloween because no one will let bridgette buy them christmas gifts, she goes super overboard and puts a bunch of thought into them and they all worry about her spending too much money. so one year she suggests halloween gifts and nobody thinks anything of it but suddenly it’s a yearly excuse for her to shower them all with love and attention and lots of gifts. they let it slide because she’s impossible to say no to and she just gets so happy when they open her presents

geoff kidnaps courtney whenever she’s getting overly stressed and takes her down to this little family-run seafood restaurant on the coast; she finds it hard to talk to him the first time he does it but she relaxes very quickly and ends up looking forward to their little solo trips. he has a way of making all her problems seem small and it’s nice for her to get away sometimes. they’ll go out for ice cream together and walk along the pier and it’s all very date-ish but it’s so special for two of them, seeing as they’re best friends with each other’s respective partners and they don’t get much alone time together. bridge jokes once that duncan might have to be wary of geoff stealing his girl and everyone present immediately sends her enough glares for her to throw up her hands in defeat and snuggle back into geoff

karaoke nights are a bridgette, courtney, dj thing. they go out once a month and book a room and just do whatever for an hour. courtney is a really good singer and so is dj, so they’ll do duets for bridgette and she loves to watch them once they’re a few drinks in and stumbling over the words to fergalicious

duncan volunteers at bridgette’s shelter a lot once he and court adopt their first cat, and they get along really well, so sometimes they’ll go for drinks afterwards and rant about their significant others and their workloads and bridge will end up crashing on their couch, much to courtney’s amusement. they claim it’s payback for the court-geoff “date nights” that are pretty much a weekly thing at this point

they go on group dates once deej is comfortable with introducing his boyfriend to them. duncan and courtney are always the first to leave but nobody ever minds

they have a long-standing tradition dating back to their total drama days of sitting down over a meal and having a quick check-in. obviously the food back then was much worse but now it’s usually a take-out pizza and a few beers

bridge introduces them to the idea of beach bonfires and duncan is always quick to suggest it when they need a chance to unwind and have some fun

the groupchat isn’t used often since they all live so close and spend so much time together but when it is used, it’s either duncan sending sneaky pictures of courtney to piss her off or geoff sending some cheesy inspirational quote he found online

deej is the first to get married out of all of them. bridge organizes most of the wedding and court agrees to sing for him; she even pulls out her violin. nobody says anything when duncan has to step outside because he’s tearing up. geoff gives a very long, inappropriate speech but at least no one can say he wasn’t entertaining

the next wedding is geoff and bridgette’s, a short five months after dj’s. courtney is the maid of honor and deej does all the catering. the boys all get matching tattoos to commemorate the occasion (dj’s is in a very easily hidden place) and the bachelor party is a bit off the rails. dj is the only one who remembers it but he won’t tell them much

when duncan and courtney finally get married the group has drifted apart a bit but they pull back together in time and talk for weeks afterwards about how good it was to hang out again

all of their kids call the rest of the group their aunts and uncles; unsurprisingly, uncle geoff is a fan favorite, especially with dj’s little girl

kids keep them busy but they still make time roughly once a month to see each other, even if the kids have to tag along or be left with family for the night

[cosmosogler]

hello i am here. i took a break from pokemon today except to check up on the pelago for about two minutes while i was waiting at the doctor’s office. and i guess i’ll do the daily stuff in fifteen minutes.

i have been having weeeeird dreams again. i think it’s the birth control... i very rarely have dreams like that when i’m NOT on birth control. it involved me watching a let’s play of sonic adventure 2′s two-player thing and the players couldn’t figure out what to do despite the directions showing up on the screen. i wanted to scream. 

then i was looking at sky scrapers. i recognize them in retrospect - they’re in the Big City. i am not usually up that high to see the top of the buildings. there was a family-owned sub sandwich place with a big sign that read “We Cater!” in yellow cursive. it was on top of a radio tower. i mistook it for a billboard until i leaned over and saw the counter with the meat and bread and stuff. there was absolutely no room for a kitchen or tables and the restaurant, or room, was about 10 by 10 feet with glass walls and the sign over the door. i asked “how did this happen?” out loud and then i woke up.

the early part of the dream was me wandering around in the fog on a dock that was also a college campus. i had to get an ark down from the mountain. because i needed more bible symbolism in my dreams? there was some kind of party going on, because every now and then people would appear from the fog wearing bright colors and carrying balloons and prize bags and kazoos and stuff. i think they spoke simlish, or something i didn’t understand very well. i ended up getting the ark down by doing a weird optical illusion thing. i was standing far away from it, so it looked small, so i just picked up the small ark between my thumb and finger and put it in the river. then when i got close it was big again. i think that’s where they were playing the video games. it was in a wooden room at least.

the thing that makes these dreams weird is that they are even more disorienting and mashed together than usual. generally there’s some kind of theme connecting my dreams, like the colors or mood or some phrase or motivation. or i will deliberately try to leave one dream if i don’t like it, and once i leave i forget what i was doing and have the new dream. there’s nothing particularly sexual or anything in these dreams, as you can see, but :/

i don’t like it at all.

i felt that disorientation all morning. the shower was a haze, and right after i washed my hair i couldn’t remember if i’d washed my hair yet or not. there was still soap in my hair so i figured it out. when i left to drive to the doctor’s i forgot the garage door was broken. then when i was driving i started dissociating really bad. i was trying to watch the road, but i was also like observing myself driving and everything looked really far away and it was hard to focus. usually when i’m driving and something like that happens a million alarms go off in my head, and that happened, but it was also hard to care. i made it to the doctor without incident though. when i checked in i noticed they had monsters inc on in the corner and there was a little kid watching it with her mom and that cheered me up a little bit.

the doctor changed up my birth control prescription, so hopefully i won’t be so sore and sick all the time next month. she also recommended that i start keeping a food journal to see if there are patterns in what makes me sick and less sick. so i will make more of an effort to write down what i ate and how i felt afterward. i totally forgot to take my anti nausea meds twice today but it was ok.

i was ok driving home. i put on some music i like. i decided to hold off on picking up the new meds until tomorrow to see if my other prescriptions are ready by then. i still have some time left before i need to get more wellbutrin and stuff, so hopefully if there’s a problem i can get a refill from my doctor on monday.

for lunch i had my leftovers from manuel’s. a spinach enchilada and some espinaca con queso. it’s a pretty cheesy meal, but i did ok. i felt just as sick as yesterday and i ate roughly the same amount, which was about three quarters of what i had rationed myself. after that i was doing something on the computer... i don’t remember what it was. i think i was looking at some videos i didn’t have time to get to yesterday and when i finished that, my brother and dad had moved all the bookcases out of the hallway and into my sister’s unoccupied room. so dad asked me to clean the floorboards. so i took a rough cloth and wiped off the dirt. dad is going to paint the hallway sometime in the near future. i was going to say he didn’t need to bother, but, thinking about it, it really needs it. there’s still crayon markings from when my brother was a toddler a few years after we moved in.

after that i called the outpatient hospital thing that my therapist recommended! i am going to be “assessed” on monday. it meets for like nine hours a week. i am hoping i get in, and i am hoping it will be helpful, although i am not sure what it entails or how many weeks i will theoretically be attending. i will have to remember to ask those questions on monday. i also looked up some reviews online and there weren’t any comments on being “treated like an animal” or “left in the waiting room for 7 hours” so i am hoping it will be good. they also take my insurance.

after that i bummed around on tumblr until i realized it was too late to also call the school about my tuition. maybe tomorrow...

dad and i went to thai food for dinner. i started feeling really sick about halfway into my soup but i forced myself to continue eating because thai food is my favorite. like, i have liked almost every thai dish i have ordered at any restaurant. this one doesn’t make the very best food, but it is very good, and they also do vegetarian soups which are magnificent and i can’t seem to find any other thai place that makes them. so dad and i go to this one. i decided to try something new and got “spicy noodle.” which was basically black pepper with some noodles and broccoli. it was pretty good!

dad was too tired to go to the game store to play terraform mars so we went home after dinner. i set up onitama and got him a beer and we played a round of that. it took like 25 minutes, while with asher they usually took 10 to 15 minutes. dad ended up pulling a very unexpected win in literally the last turn after i’d put pressure on him since turn 3 or so. it’s like chess except more crowded and fewer options. it’s hard to explain without the board and pieces in front of me.

after that i sat and thought for a while. my sister used to have a very similar problem to the one i am having now. constant stomachaches, feeling nauseous, stuff like that. that started when we were very young, like “eating solid food now” young, and seemed to still be happening when i left for high school. when i see her next, probably on easter for the family gathering, i will ask whether or not that ever stopped or if she just started hiding it better. i think she started feeling better after having a nose surgery... so it might not be the same problem. i have a much wider nose and don’t have a lot of breathing problems except a weird respiration cycle that probably developed because of my heart problem.

after that i was talking to asher and i brought up that game where you find a young teenager with like a sparkledog oc and you draw it and make the kid happy. an artist named coral did that for me once when my secret santa was a no-show one year. i was 14. it blew my mind! i spent so much time after that trying to draw like her. my style is much different from hers now, but i think i am about at the same level technical wise. i have never been a popular artist but i think having someone with practice draw your first oc is kind of magical regardless.

so i spent like two hours combing through the internet looking for goofy ocs made by kids. i noticed that my little pony and five nights at freddy’s is very popular. i don’t know much about those... but i found a few examples of “baby’s first character” so i will try to at least do some sketches tomorrow evening. maybe it will help me start drawing again.

i wanted to go to bed at 11:30, but now it is 12:30, because i am dumb and said “i’m just gonna write something really quick” at 11:30, which is when i ran out of resources to find mostly unironic eye-searing sparkledogs.

also in one of the “young artist” groups on deviantart there was tentacle porn and i don’t know how to feel about that. (it was... pretty vanilla actually.) and some vaguely sensual shirtless photo realistic paintings of star wars fan characters. and there was one folder with pages upon pages of ms paint anime drawings by one person from 2010. 

i don’t miss being a kid.

i’m going to try to sleep and hope my hellacious dream torment ends soon.