#it’s always dai hours <3 thinking about dai 25/8 hours/days a week g o—

[deus-ex-mona]

J U S T D A I

[rosalynbair]

Father Francisco Garupe NSFW Alphabet

A/N: So i’m going to hell, and i’m blaming it all on Anne

Taglist: @aclamclriver @oh-adam ( + @tonguepopperr I don’t know if u want to be tagged in this B, sorry if your don’t <3 )

Warnings: NSFW under the cut, defiling a holy man of the church

A = Aftercare (What they’re like after sex)

Garupe is loving after he cums - although the first thing he does is grab his rosary to return it to it’s place on his neck, sending up a small prayer for forgiveness before he helps you clean up and wipe down so you weren’t shamed by the others in the village if they ever saw something on you that could give your relationship away. He would always give you a gentle kiss on the brow - where the ash would go if it were the middle of the week. Garupe never stays long after though.

B = Body part (Their favourite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

He’s a fan of his shoulders. They’re strong and large enough to show that he is in fact a man under his robes. On you though, he loves your hips and thighs. They’re so soft and womanly, he loves to hold them and watch the skin indent as his fingers dig into your flesh when he’s holding your legs up as he makes love to you on the floor of your home.

C = Cum (Anything to do with cum basically… I’m a disgusting person)

Garupe loves to see his cum on you. He loves to watch it drip from your mouth and cheekbones down you your shoulders and collarbones. He feels no shame in the sin he’s committed while he watches his cum fall onto the small silver crucifix the rests between your collarbones. He feels no shame as you stare up at him, swallowing what cum you had been able to catch with your mouth. This man also fucking loves having your cum on his fingers - the smell to remind him of what he’s done as he holds his hands up to his face during prayer, his pussy soaked hands the only thing he can focus on.

D = Dirty Secret (Pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

You’re his dirty secret. Other than you, he’s the perfect priest. (( He sometimes likes to hear you moan his title as he kisses you in the confines of the church ))

E = Experience (How experienced are they? Do they know what they’re doing?)

PUH-LEASE. Garupe has no experience. No clue what he’s doing. Like someone wandering unknown territory during the darkness of night. He went into the church a virgin, having not even touched himself until he caught your gaze during service.

F = Favourite Position (This goes without saying. Will probably include a visual)

Missionary. It’s comfortable for him, he can hold himself up and watch you unravel and beg for him with the same lips you use to drink the communion wine and swear loyalty to god. He also enjoys holding you up against a wall - It’s quick, he can show off his strength to you, and you can fix yourselves quickly if anyone happens to accidentally come near you while you’re fucking like animals against the wall (( He also just really loves holding your thighs ok? My man Garupe is a thigh man.))

G = Goofy (Are they more serious in the moment, or are they humorous, etc)

He doesn’t know how to be goofy. He once laughed in fear of his sin and the fact that he had betrayed his vows and he was going to hell. But other than that, he’s serious during intimate moments. They’re rare moments, and he wants to make sure you know how serious and rare they have to be.

H = Hair (How well groomed are they, does the carpet match the drapes, etc.)

Not groomed, very dark hair but there’s not a lot of it. Most of his hair is on his head, chin and legs. He doesn’t bother with - or even consider - grooming down there.

I = Intimacy (How are they during the moment, romantic aspect…)

Garupe is very intimate. He doesn’t get a lot of time with you. Just fleeting moments under the cover of night, or minutes between services against a pillar in one of the rooms off the chapel. He tries to be romantic, but he also makes sure not to take it too far, as he knows that this could never be anything more than what it is.

J = Jack Off (Masturbation headcanon)

He doesn’t masturbate until after the first time he sinks himself into you. When he goes on mission trips, he finds himself wandering off from his companion to hastily grab onto himself, pretending that you were there to bend over in front of him so he could sheath himself into you. He’s not very good at jacking off, he’ll use both hands, one at the base to keep pressure and the other to tease right under the tip of his cock until he’s spilling against his stomach.

K = Kink (One or more of their kinks)

This boy has a praise kink. He loves to be praised by you. He loves to hear how good he makes you feel, how he’s the only one you think about and want in you. He also has a minor hair pulling kink. It’s a roughness that he enjoys - when your fingers are tangles in his hair and your tighten your grip as waves of pleasure run through your body, pulling the soft strands and tightening at the roots until he can’t help but release a guttural moan. Garupe also 100% has an edging kink. If you have the time, he’d willing let you edge him for hours. Hours for him to beg and cry for release.

L = Location (Favourite places to do the do)

In your home. It’s safe, private, and quiet. There’s no peering eyes, and you can always say that he was visiting for a private confession if anyone did ask questions. He loves to take you on your bed on top of the soft blankets and furs - very unlike his own bed which was stiff and uncomfortable.

M = Motivation (What turns them on, gets them going)

The way you look at him during service. The way you look up through your lashes during prayer, giving him the secret smile meant only for him. The way your lips wrap around the goblet as he holds it for you to drink - the way the red wine drips down your chin and onto your chest, almost exactly like his cum does. The twitch of your hips when you walk away to return to your seat. The unsettling feeling that runs through his body when the matchmakers of the town try to set you up with young men that could actually be with you - it’s often those days that he sobs into your shoulder as he makes love to you.

N = NO (Something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

Public sex/voyeurism. The fear of getting caught is too high to even consider partaking in public excursions.

O = Oral (Preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc)

Garupe loves eating you out - he’s not very good at it at first, but after a few times, you’ve never received better orgasms. You squirm a lot when he’s sucking on your clit and shoving his tongue into your cunt, and he often holds you down until you’re almost sobbing from the constant pleasurable stimulation. You give him head fairly often, when there’s not enough time to both undress and you still want some physical contact. He’s never felt pleasure like the orgasms he gets from your mouth. The way you suck at the head and tease his shaft with gentle licks of his tongue - it’s enough for a saint to want to sin (heh. Get it?)

P = Pace (Are they fast and rough? Slow and sensual? etc.)

Slow and sensual. Garupe likes to take his time with you, to watch you fall into the pits of pleasure. He likes to make it last with you, because he never knows when it’s going to be the official last time, so he always makes your longer moments together worthwhile.

Q = Quickie (Their opinions on quickies rather than proper sex, how often, etc.)

Quickies almost don’t exist for Garupe, unless you have no time and you know you won’t be able to see each other for a lengthy period of time. Though occasionally, he’ll take you quickly against the wall of his small bedroom before rounds and praying hours are over.

R = Risk (Are they game to experiment, do they take risks, etc.)

Garupe doesn’t risk anything. He worries about everything, especially when it comes to you. The only risks he’ll take is minor experimental moments with positions or oral techniques he picked up from someone’s confession.

S = Stamina (How many rounds can they go for, how long do they last…)

One or two rounds at 25 minutes for the first one, and 15 for the second. There can be roughly a five or ten minute break between the rounds. As more time goes on, he begins to last longer, his longest session with you being almost a full hour.

T = Toy (Do they own toys? Do they use them? On a partner or themselves?)

No toys (does holy water as lube count???)

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

You tease him much more than he teases you. Like stated above, you can edge him for a long while, Garupe doesn’t have the heart to tease you. The moment you beg for his cock, he’ll eagerly give it to you.

V = Volume (How loud they are, what sounds they make)

Quiet. Garupe has spent his life keeping silent, which also translates to the noises he makes when he’s balls deep in you. He whimpers a lot, breathy moans - one loud groan when he cums, but other than that, he’s pretty good at keeping quiet.

W = Wild Card (Get a random headcanon for the character of your choice)

He’s masturbated in the confessional once during a service.

X = X-Ray (Let’s see what’s going on in those pants, picture or words)

8 inches, probably looks like a micro when he’s not hard tbh.

Y = Yearning (How high is their sex drive?)

Non-existent until he meets you. After that, he sees sex everywhere. He craves it all the time - though he’s good at keeping a straight face. He’s almost always needing you. Can have sex every day if he wanted to.

Z = ZZZ (… how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

If your relationship was under better circumstances where he was able to court you and marry you, he’d fall asleep right away while holding you close. But since that’s not the reality he lives in, he never falls asleep afterwards, he always has to make sure he leaves and returns before anyone questions his absence.

[huangfilms]

School Pres!Donghyuck & Secretary!You

summary: you and i work as a team and before our last year of high school we didnt really talk much outside of our meetings and preparation plans but now that we have i think i have a big crush on you

requested by: this lovely anon!! <3

(A/N) here it is bubs ! im sorry i made you wait so long :( BUT THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR REQUESTING ! this trope really pulls at my heart strings cause i really b in my feels LMAOO but i hope you enjoy ! <3 (ps,,, she is unedited)

school pres!donghyuck

thats cute wow i love this already although idk how its going to turn uout because i always: wing it HAHAKDJSF

okay well!!! donghyuck being the school president would be a shocker to most because he doesnt seem like the person to go for a position like that

but hes actually really good at what he does

and thats scheduling all of the student council meetings, planning fundraisers, school dances, all the Great Stuff

but he honestly couldnt do it without his trusty secretary

which is you

youre his secretary

you write down all of his ideas cause he trusts you like that also cause he has no physical stability to do it himself smh

even though you guys are like,,,, attached to the hip in student council, outside of it you guys barely talk LMAO

but people seem to ship you guys

youve been the secretary for 3 years of high school and donghyuck was the pres for 2!

so you guys have a good dynamic

it was kind of awkward at first because you admired him from afar,, so like a crush,,, and you didnt really know how to act around him

 and you were used to the old school pres ,,, it was weird to just have a shift and a big change so quickly

but it was okay cause donghyuck had a great work ethic

before you two became the secretary and president, donghyuck had a lowkey crush on you too

i think thats why he has been just a bit awkward with you at first as well but both of u are oblivious

but then he got used to having you around and used to having 1 on 1 meetings with just the two of you guys

he saw it as an opportunity to get to know you but you??? you didn’t really talk much about your personal life

all he knew was that you hung out with that one sophmore and one junior, jisung and chenle

oh and one person from your grade, jaemin

donghyuck never really bothered with you after your first encounter LOL

like !! youre nice and all but you just talk to him for work purposes! but thats okay! cause its better than not talking at all no?

so you guys have one of those 1 on 1 meetings at the library about an upcoming fundraiser to fund prom (cause its a new year and u need to think quicc abt ideas so people can vote on the theme)

you guys talk for hours on end about preparations and what you guys want to sell

you guys decide on doing a bake sale because who doesnt like baked goods !!

so you and donghyuck set out a date to bake EVERYTHING 

and after the meeting hes just like, ‘its lunch now, do you wanna go somewhere with me to eat?’ and he smiles so sweetly 

this is the first time youre really looking at him too

he looks,,,, really good

and his smile? the sun cant compete n e x t

and youre like wow this boy handsome

but you agree on getting lunch with him because youre pretty hungry and idkmaybeyoucouldgettoknowthisfineman

SO you guys walk to a nearby food joint and on the way you guys are just chatting away and youre finally opening up to him

!! wow hyuck: head over heels his headass prolly in love by now LMAOOO

and then you get into the topic of how you guys came to be the secretary and president

hyuck says ‘i wanted to prove everyone wrong,,, they always say im a trouble maker or whatever so honestly i started out of spite but i love being the school president’

all you said was ‘oh’ but you nodded up at him cause its cool that he likes being it but its badass that he proved everyone wrong and Still Loves What He Does

so you guys get to the food place and you guys just joke around th e majority of the time

it feels like you guys have been actual friends since forever

when you guys go back to the library u guys forget about what u 2 were supposed to b doing

and then you open up your notebook and then-- oh yeah Prom Preparations and Fundraising

so then you and hyuck plan ahead that every other sunday you guys are going to mass bake a lot of sweets so you can try and sell them all on monday

and everyone has tasted your baking before,,, so they usually sell a l o t

so the following sunday, you meet hyuck at his friends cafe,,, cause it has a big kitchen

and then you guys get cracking cause you have a l o t to do 

half of the time you guys are throwing ingredients at each other but you guys Get Shit Done

you get to know hyuck more and you now understand why a lot of people have a crush on him

hes the sun!!! hes charismatic!! hes funny!!! hes got everything omg

his only flaw? he can’t frost a cupcake to save his life

youre just laughing at all his attempts but anywho

its the next day! so the first monday to sell sweets

you and hyuck made a schedule of who would be selling the cupcakes during what lunch period

you assigned jeno, jaemin, and mark for 1st lunch, then you, hyuck, and chenle, for the second lunch, and then for anyone who wanted to buy after school would buy from renjun and jisung

interesting that u guys would be selling together and have poor chonlu third wheeling 

ANYWAY

the whole bake sale was a success,,, you sold every cupcake and chenle was honestly just gagging the whole time when he was with you guys cause you two sat really close to each other and being r e a l l y friendly

chenle swore he could see u guys heart eyeing each other but whatever

‘just friends,,, okay y/n’ ‘shut up chinlin’ ‘hello??? yes, can i get some new friends’

so over the course of id say a few months??? you and hyuck are literally everywhere together

you guys plan together, you guys eat together, you guys do everythin g together

people are starting to think that you guys are dating cause,,, yall sure act like it

and i dont know maybeyoulikehimalotnowthatyouvegottoknowhimmore

maybehelikesyoualottoo

but you guys are just pining over each other and the dreamies are so s i ck of it

so they tell you guys that hey!! emergency council meeting in five lets all meet in the board room!!

you guys are just laughing on the way there about a stupid meme or something and when you walk in the dreamies are quiet and Looking At You Guys

‘what?????’ ‘nothing. absolutely nothing.’

you and hyuck are just like,,, well whats this meeting about???

so the dreamies are just quiet for a second, they all look at each other and nod their heads like they have some secret code

and they all stand up and renjun says, ‘we know u like each other,,, so we’regoingtolockyoutwointhisroomuntilyouconfessyourloveforeachother BYE’ and they all run out

you hear a click,,, you couldnt comprehend what the heck renjun said but now you did and youre both just frozen

so you just clear your throat and then you say, ‘i mean we might as well get some work done’ and you sit down

and hyuck just deflates a bit cause?? do u not like him??

POOR BABY SAY YOU LIKE HIM Y/N YOURE HURTING THE SUN’S FEELINGS

and then he goes, ‘haha right.’

and you could hear the shift in his voice cause hes a bit upset

and then you stop what youre doing and go,

‘listen hyuck, i like you more than a friend,, but i thought it was obvious? we were pretty much acting like a couple already so i didnt realy understand why i have to spell it out for you? i mean i understand if you dont like me like--’

and he kisses you

right on the lips

what a dream amirite kids

you could say that you just got,,,, sunkissed LMAOOOO IM SO LAMEKJGFJHSG

but you kiss him back cause you like him so much this means he likes you too!!!

when you guys pull back hyuck is just shyly grinning up at you and its??? adorable wow

and the dreamies all have their ears up against the door

so they hear everything

and chenle says ‘my parents!! finally!! are!! together!!’ and hes just so l o u d omg

and you and hyuck just burst out laughing and then it dies down after a bit an d hes just like,, ‘will you be mine : )’

‘course i will !! : )’

and so you guys just walk out of the room hand in hand

okay but your 1 on 1 meetings?? not a lot gets done

you know why?? hyuck is always staring at your face and is trying to kiss you 25/8

‘hYuck we need to actually do work thi-- Will You Stop Throwing French Fries At Me.’

and he just l a u g h s

‘oh yeah?? youre laughing now but how about when i say no kisses for a Week.’

and he just stops and sits up straight cause you give him The Look

‘suddenly i love doing work lets talk about our next fundraiser’

and you just chuckle and hold his hand

‘i think im in love with you.’

and hyuck freezes

he squeezes your hand and then he says, ‘im in love with you, too.’ and you guys just break out into big smiles

oof okay wow uwus: officially gone

school pres!donghyuck is a whole ass hard working sweetheart

im going oto end it here before my uwus spill out some more

hyuck! existing! in this trope! sign me up.

Masterlist

[awhilesince]

Wednesday, 18 April 1827

7 40/60

3

my bowels pretty well – finished dressing – at my desk at 9 25/60 – then copied some more verses lent me by Madame G– (Galvani) last Wednesday (squibs against the Jesuits – for Napoleon (– and against the Bourbons), and sat down to breakfast at 9 55/60 – 

went out at 11 10/60 after having been 40 minutes reading the paper – the press law project withdrawn by a special ordonnance of the King dated the 17th instant – several booksellers illuminated last night in consequence – 

ordered at the traiteur’s rue du faubourg St. Honoré, a fricandeaux de veau à l’oseille, and a dish of spinach, and a Charlotte Russe (vide Monday) – went to Michel’s to inquire for Seville oranges – referred to Mobotton and Tavernier, 353 (bis) rue St. Honoré – had none at present – would have next week – about ten sols a piece – but they made marmalade – ordered a pot at 6 /50 – walked forwards to no. number 4 rue du Marché St. Honoré – paid Madame Cor for my hat which came last night – In returning along the rue St. Honoré bought some good oranges at 0/25 – 

came in a little after 12 – dawdling over 1 thing or other – went out again near one, and took George – bought finger glasses Boulevard de la Madeleine, salad (petite chicorée Sauvage) No. 7 rue neuve de Luxembourg – got the marmalade, and then sent George for other things – 

Having for some time past noticed an advertisement in Galignani by a lady No. 1, rue neuve du Luxembourg who wished for boarders, and styled herself capable of teaching French and Italian, and having often thought I would go and see what sort of concern it was, – went – au 3ième – (above an entresol, I think) narrow stair case – dark, small rooms, – dirtyish looking – the lady appeared – dirtyish also – a native of Brussels, but in France (in Paris) since she was a year old – a widow – 2 daughters, – whom she instructed – terms 150 francs a month for 1 person having 1 little bedroom – for a servant nourrice comme une maitresse 100 francs per month – if my friend (not yet arrived in France) uncertain – might come if she could arrange herself well here) should bring a maid, she might a small room for her thro’ her own, and also a little place fitted up as a salon all for 300 francs per month –, and she would give her an hour a day lesson in French or Italian for 50 francs a month – was at liberty from 10 to 1 and from 2 to 5 every day – the lady might choose her hour – She sat down to write all this and give me references – to Dr. Lefevre’s father who is an English clergyman here, and to Madame Barlow rue des Champs Elysées – ‘twas Madame Coure of whom I heard from Mrs B– (Barlow) and who was to have taken us at so much per month (private drawing room and meals in private and man and maid for 800 francs per month) – thought I to myself this would never have done – we are much better, and à meilleur marché, as we are – she is not the sort of woman to have suited us – seemed not to know Mrs B– (Barlow) asked if she had been in her house – no! but she knew her thro’ a relation of hers, a Mademoiselle Gauntlet – asked if Mademoiselle G– (Gauntlet) had been in her house, no! but she knew her somehow or other – wished me to speak to her English pensionnaires now in her house – said this was unnecessary till I knew whether my friend would come or not – would write to her – Took my leave and came away – passed thro’ the salle à manger where 4 or 5 persons (ladies) were at luncheon – meals at 9, 1, 5 1/2, and tea in the evening – no person of much appearance, but scarcely looked aside – 

then along the rue Rivoli, thro’ the palais royal to Galignani’s – bought the last (8th) edition printed this year of his Guide thro’ France – loitered there some time cutting open some of the leaves – thence to Amyot’s rue de la Paix and bought there 2 little 18mo duodecimo volumes, the Satires, Epistles, Lutrin, etc of Boileau to read aloud to Madame G– (Galvani) walked slowly home – 

met Mrs and Miss B– (Barlow) on the boulevard took a little turn for ten minutes with them, and came in at 3 – found Madame G– (Galvani) at my door – She staid with me Till 4 1/2 – speaking of meaning to work a little at French, and wanting someone to talk to in for an hour every morning, she was thinking what sort of person to find me – then said she could give me from 9 3/4 to 10, if I would go and talk to her – to pay nothing Except for the lesson when she came to me – Oh! said I, we will arrange about that – I will think about it for every morning but Tuesday (thinking to leave this for Excursions etc) – Here the matter ended – I thought I could make her presents to the value of her time – and if I had Madame Coure too, surely I should have French enough to get on – gave her some marmalade excellent – 

from 4 1/2 to 5 25/60 settling with George and my accounts and dawdling over 1 thing or other – then did my hair again took off my dress to change my handkerchief, and changed my stockings – not quite ready when Mrs and Miss B– (Barlow) and Miss Gauntlet came at 5 50/60 – had them shewn in to my study, and finished dressing in my bedroom – then introduced Miss G– (Gauntlet) to my aunt – 

dinner at 6 1/2 – (ordered at 6) – soupe roast beef, and fricandeau de veau, and potatoes and stewed spinach – cream cheese, and fromage de Hollande, and salad – 6 plats of dessert on the table (Charlotte Russe, oranges, almonds and raisins, chinois and stewed prunes) and biscuits, and macarons, and raisinet on the sideboard – bottle of beaune and 1 ditto Chablis – Crême de Café, and 1 cup of coffee each about nine (no cream) just before leaving the dinner table – 

left the dining room about 9 1/2 – had Miss G– (Gauntlet) and Jane to look at my great coat, and portmanteau, etc for travelling – tea at 10 – agree to go with Miss G– (Gauntlet) and dine at 5 tomorrow at a 22 sols, or 30 sols restaurant in the rue de Rohan – Miss G– (Gauntlet) and I had the main conversation – Mrs and Miss B– (Barlow) went at 11 1/4, and George returned with a fiacre and Miss G– (Gauntlet) went at 11 1/2 – staid talking to my aunt 20 minutes – she fancied I had given her a rebuff at dinn er about asking Mrs B (Barlow) too much to have fricandeau – all mistake said how sorry I was never dreampt of such a thing  etc etc I must always be very careful – Mrs B (Barlow) out of sorts I knew but would not seem to know what it was the moment she came in said offhand I had agreed to got to Madame G (Galvani) every morning her countenance fell she never recovered it she said Madame G (Galvani) had promised her that hour she never kept to her promises ssaid then I would not think of the thing why not said Mrs B (Barlow) she could get an Italian master for the same price if she liked I would give the thing up altogether than she should do that on my account I saw mylady was out of sorts but would not seem to guess why said afterwards she was not well I was ssure I think I begin to see whether from jealousy or not she wants to keep me all to herself she would prevent my being much with Madame G (Galvani) – and perhaps too she was been pleased to have kept me from the Drozs  π (Mariana) suspected all this perhaps she was right I think she was jealous of Miss Gauntlet ttonight I said she looked ill tonight oh said she I have your spirits your talent am not always delightful like you – I took no notice – Jane chimes in with mamma at dinner she said Madame G (Galvani) did I not allow them to have any taste in argument she always beat her (Jane) down and said she had not raison she Jane could not bear it I thought Jane had doted on Madame G (Galvani) – I see mamma has her temper thought I Ill not to go to Switzerland Ill be off however little you suspect my doing it except from necessity – π (Mariana) I see your worth your amiability – 

came to my room at 11 50/60 – wrote all but the first 3 1/2 lines of today, which took me Till 1 1/4, [O two dots, marking discharge from venereal complaint] – sat up 3/4 hour eating 3 oranges and cutting open the leaves of the 1st little verses of Boileau, and reading the introductionary account  and reading aloud to myself the opening Discours au Roi, excellent –

left margin: Fahrenheit 47 1/2 at 8 a.m. 52° at 11 1/4 – fine morning fine day – coolish –

reference number: SH:7/ML/E/10/0082, SH:7/ML/E/10/0083

[veryfineday]

Monday 8 October 1832

7 35/..

12

..[marking Anne’s period]

V  Vc  Vc  V  V  Ͷ

Damp and rainy and Fahrenheit 57º. at 7 35/.. – out at 7 40/.. – down the old bank to Stony royde at 8 1/4 – breakfast over but brought in again for me – mrs. R-[Rawson] very glad to see me – sat with h[e]r till 10 10/.. – Mrs. Clarke took off with her a fortune of five and twenty thousand pounds  Christopher Rawson was told by her just before the sale of the Walker navigation shares she would not marry  he might count upon it of seven or eight years or else John Rawson would have bought the shares  doctor better informed  Jeremiah Rawson commissioned Mrs. R[awson]  to tell me he should be glat[glad] to steward for me  said we should have got on very well together but he was too late  and laughed and said Miss Walker had provided me so that I had never seemed to be without steward – joked and told her to take care of Frank Rawson against Kennys and Clarkes  as I meant to take the best I could of my sister –

from Stony royde went to the philosophical and natural history museum to asK about paying my subscription – 1st time of my ever going there – only one room fitted up, but nice enough – I must give some sort of thing towards the collection – perhaps this will interest me some time or other – the naturalist not there, only his wife in charge of the room at that early hour –

then called and sat 1/2 hour with mrs. Veitch, and called to inquire after my late steward’s widow and staid 1/4 hour, and was as Kind in my manner as I could – then to Throp’s – above 2 hours there giving him a tolerably large order for william green and shrubs and a few trees etc. to be sent to Shibden by noon tomorrow weeK – passed the old church at 1 10/.. and up the old bank and at Lidgate in 40 minutes – merely went to excuse myself from breakfasting there tomorrow not meaning to stay many minutes but miss w-[Walker] glad to see me – dined with her and she Kept me till 6 20/.. –

on getting up this morn[in]g saw that my cousin was come very gently  but put nothing on and determined to put off breakfasting with my friend for two or three days  agreed on Thursday which will do well enough  she thinks me over head and ears in love with her as indeed my manner indicates she is evidently pleased by my attentions  excited and gives me all possible encouragement short of legitimate hope   but I think she is in for it and if I can only do moderately enough for her her answer may perhaps be  yes after all  however I shall in reality take it composedly  anyway   I now incline to risk trusting myself and doing my best for her the first night I have an opportunity – tis evident she will throw no obstacle in my way 

we had a good deal of talk I said happiness was in well bred minds more mental than in others  if such was or could be her feeling and she could give up the thought of having children perhaps she might be happy with me etc. etc.  talked a little of the odd things abroad  said I had been a good deal humbugged by the little French countess and let her understand I had come in twenty eight and been a year away from my aunt to get out of the way  talked of there being no chance of my marrying  but I saw she did not quite enter into this in spite of all the hints it seemed safe to give 

kissing and pressing her as usual  she put the blind down lucky  James had came in on trivial errands twice  and Mrs. Priestley came at four  I had jumped in time and was sstanding by the fire  but Ann looked red and I pale and Mrs. P[riestley] must see we were not particularly expecting or desiring company  she looked vexed  jealous and annoyed  and asked in bitter satire if I had where I was ever since she left me there  no said I I only ought to have been   my aunt had been quite in a host of miseries  Mrs. P[riestley] said as if turning it all on this  yes she was quite vexed with me  I laughed and said I really did not intend doing so again  ‘yes she replied angrily you will do the same the very next time the temptation occurs’  plain proof thought I of what you think and that you smoke a little  I parried all with good humour  saying that  I really must stay all night  she only staid a few minutes and went of in suppressed rage  probably giving me far more credit than deserved for plotting the visit of yesterday and being there all today and having refused breakfasting with her not to go to Stony Royde but be with Miss W[alker]  Mrs. P[riestley] now probably believes her confidence in secure me insincere and the lord knows what 

Miss W[alker] laughed and said we were well matched  we soon go to kissing again on the sofa  she said I looked ill  I denied then said if I did look so  I knew what would cure me  she would know what  said I really would not could not tell her  at last I got my right hand up her petticoats and after much fumbling got thro the opening of her drawers and touched first time the hair and skin of queer   she never offered the least resistance in any way and certainly shewewed no sign of its being disagreeable  however having not uttered before I now fell upon her neck seemed sickish  just whispered that I could not stand it and stood leaning my head on my hand or her shoulder till apparently composed   then entreated her forgiveness in general terms ssaying she behaved beautifully  no she said she knew she led me on I would deny this tho owning that I was of course sure she cared for me  oh yes ssaid she or should we go on as we do in fact she like my attentions and the first night of my being there will give me all I am able to take when dusk she asked  (I had said I was at no time likely to marry  how far she understood me  I could not quite make out)   ‘if you never had any attachment who taught you to kiss’  I laughed and said how nicely that was ssaid  then answered that nature taught me   I could have replied  and who taught you she told me as she had done yesterday  that she had always a fancy for me  and thought how much she should like to know me better – she seems to relax a little on the subject of my having no hope  says she will think and afterwards ssaid  tho I seemed to take no notice  it would depepend upon whether the Ainsworths would come to Cliffhill

left Lidagte at 6 25/.. and home at 7 in spite of heavyish rain and a strong driving wind full against me – almost blown off the causeway 5 or 6 times, and hardly get in at our own gate – yet the tartan cloaK miss w-[Walker] lent me Kept me tolerably dry – changed my clothes – and dinner at 7 35/.. – for 3 or 4 minutes before dinner and immediately afterwards with my aunt and father – told them the adventures and news of the day and how I had been at Lidgate yesterday and today – and told my aunt how cross Mrs. William Priestley looked and that I really thought Miss W[alker] was veering about a little and might perhaps after all give up Cliffhill

came to my room at 10 20/.. – damp rainy morning till 7 1/2 – afterwards fine day till between 4 and 5 p.m. then rain and thoroughly rainy for the rest of the day and evening, and rainy night – sat up preparing for my cousin and washing out stains done since dinner –

[sadrien]

wanna chat? pt.25

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alright!!! so this chapter is a little special. its a contest!!!!

for literally no reason at all, i decided to have a little fun with this chapter. in this chapter, there are a bunch of pop song references. the majority are from the early 2000s (before 2010, tho there may be one or two from 2011 or 12) and one is from the 90s. whoever can list the most references wins a drabble/short fic of their choice from me!

to enter, submit a list of all the songs that were referenced in this chapter (or the ones you could find!!)

shoot me an ask if you have any questions~!

mental support = nino, ebony = alya, draco = adrien, vampire = alya

i hope you enjoy!

17:20

mental support: a reminder that i hate all of you

ebony dark’ness dementia raven way: u love u s

mental support: i can t believe you just made me listen to all of that what the fuck

draco malfoy: Now You Know

mental support: i wish i didnt

ebony dark’ness dementia raven way: its so good so iconic also the writer is now a fukcing awesome published author and mari and i r gonna read her books together join us we can b the nerds with a book club

mental support: i just spent several hours listening to you three do a dramatic reading of my immortal i think weve gone past nerds with a book club

ebony dark’ness dementia raven way: sounds fake

vampire: You cant say that wasnt a lot of fun though I forgot how wil d that fic got

mental support: i need to process

draco malfoy: Have fun

  5:02

draco malfoy: Reasons to quit modelling: Early morning shoots

draco malfoy changed his name to asleep in makeup

asleep in makeup: I can’t wait to be done today

  9:34

mental support: i am so sorry dude fingers crossed that your dad stops sending you to them

ebony dark’ness dementia raven way: ^^^

mental support: al babe please change your name

ebony dark’ness dementia raven way: f i n e uhhhhhhhh

ebony dark’ness dementia raven way has changed their name to aint no lie

aint no lie: baby bi bi bi

mental support: i dont know what i expected

aint no lie: pls choose a lyric and join me

mental support: youre ridiculous why do i love you

mental support has changed their name to fool for you

aint no lie: lmao sap

fool for you: true

  10:02

vampire: Oh my god we have so man y orders to day Wont be on Im dying Im gonna dronw in frosting

vampire has changed their name to too many cookies

fool for you: uhhh no such thing let me know when youre on your break i wanna stop in and say hi and also steal some baked goods pull you away from baking for a bit

too many cookies: My knight in shining arm or  <3

fool for you: mostly hoping for cookies deemed unworthy to sell but yes i can work with knight

too many cookies: At least youre honest

13:35

asleep in makeup: Get me out og hits hous e

aint no lie: omw get ready to leave boy i was in the area on a walk

asleep in makeup: Thnak s

  13:46

fool for you: let me know if i can do anything ok?? if you need to stay the night or something that super chill my moms wont mind besides they keep trying to invite you all to dinner

too many cookies: Same as what Nino said!!! And also what!! I love your moms Id love to go to dinner??????

fool for you: yeah but theyre gonna tell embarrassing stories

too many cookies: You say that like I wasnt there for most of them

fool for you: yeah but adrie nand alya werent

too many cookies: Ok true true

19:11 in PM between too many cookies and alseep in makeup

asleep in makeup: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6J1-eYBbspA

too many cookies: Why the fuck

asleep in makeup: I’m with Alya We’re listening to 2000 hits from the US

too many cookies: Of course you are Are you having fun And feeling better??

asleep in makeup: Yeah We’re cuddling and making fun of the music videos Mostly the fashion Also her mom brought home some food from the hotel so we don’t have to eat ramen which is both awesome and a disappointment

too many cookies: Mhm How hard are you pining

asleep in makeup: Shut up

too many cookies: You love me

asleep in makeup: Unfortunately Why are our friends just so Great Good Incredible Sos I’m getting emotional about them Mari I really love them what did we do

too many cookies: We have really great taste obviously

asleep in makeup: Man I have shitty luck

too many cookies: Or the best

asleep in makeup: That’s your department

too many cookies: True tru e Are you going to survive??

asleep in makeup: Yeah Cuddling with Alya is unfairly nice

too many cookies: Tell me about it Anyway why this song

asleep in makeup: Because I love you and just wanted to remind you

too many cookies: This is the worst way to tell me that But I love you too I have to go help my mom with dinner but Ill talk to you later <3 Have fun Dont die

asleep in makeup: No promises

20:02 in fucking clock hearts

aint no lie has renamed this conversation to tell your boyfriend if hes got beef

too many cookies: Wha t

aint no lie: THAT IM A VEGETARIAN AND I AINT FUCKING SCARED O F HIM

fool for you: what the fuck

asleep in makeup: We’ve been watching music videos for like 3 hours

aint no lie: im liv in g

asleep in makeup: My dad would die if he saw any of the outfits people are wearing in these

aint no lie: american pop music from the 2000s is wild join us

fool for you: i thik im good

asleep in makeup: Youre not

aint no lie: were not falling in love were just falling apart :/

too many cookies: Im too tired for fake deep al

aint no lie: rip im sorry babe

fool for you: can i break into the bakery and get a cookie i need sugar

too many cookies: Cn I convince you to watch a show with me or something

fool for you: duh

too many cookies: !!!!!!!!! Let me know when you get here Im just at the foot of the stairs braiding my hair Ill let you in  

  20:15

aint no lie: bo y why are all of 3oh3s songs fucking icon ci

too many cookies: 3oh3 is that supposed to like Mean somethin g

aint no lie: idk its just another word i never learned how to pronounce

too many cookies: RIp

fool for you: yo mari im here

too many cookies: !!!

  20:25

aint no lie: a;lsdkfjasdf things i apparently need to do add chloe on snapchat

fool for you: yo why

asleep in makeup: She just sent me a selfie of her wearing designer shades just to hide her face cause she took her makeup off

aint no lie: she is???? weirdly chill snapchattin g marhs whtf

too many cookies: Whtf???

fool for you: what hell the fuck

asleep in makeup: That might have to do with us having been friends since we were like In diapers Chloe isn’t the best person but we still talk for a reason

aint no lie: fair

fool for you: i follow her on twitter for her rants theyre ridic they make my day

asleep in makeup: Oh uh Nino can I come over when you’re done at the bakery?

fool for you: yeah of course dude!!! that offers always there

aint no lie: >:(

too many cookies: I take it you two had this argument alread y

asleep in makeup: Yup I feel bad invading Alya’s space for so long

aint no lie: youve been around all night before!!!!! its not a big deal!!!!!!!!!!! the party dont stop

fool for you: want me to steal some cookies from you

asleep in makeup: Stealing is bad

aint no lie: why are u leaving me!!!!!!!!!!!

too many cookies: Ill let Nino tak ethe cookies then its not stealing Also cant you have this con vo irl??

asleep in makeup: Yeah but this is better

aint no lie: yeah also were comfy on the couch and itd be weird to yell at each other when were sitting like this

PM between asleep in makeup and too many cookies

too many cookies: Rip

asleep in makeup: Please don’t make this worse

too many cookies: Come on Romeo

asleep in makeup: That’s not my name

too many cookies: Fiiine You ok?? I know youre going over Ninos Hes getting ready to leave btw but he just mentioned that in the main chat

asleep in makeup: Yeah I just Its been a really really messed up week

too many cookies: Fair enough Let me know if you need anything ok???

asleep in makeup: Thanks <3 Going from Alya to Nino will be fun

too many cookies: Tonight your e fallign in love

asleep in makeup: Very funny But let me know if you need anything too Ok???

too many cookies: I will <3 <3

in tell your boyfriend if hes got beef

fool for you: ok so how many cookies is too many cookies

aint no lie: there is literally no such thing weve talked about thi s

fool for you: i bet if you eat too many you could die

aint no lie: come on let me shake up ur world and change ur life eat All The Cookies

fool for you: thats too many cookies

aint no lie: eat all the cookies an d die

fool for you: youre just jealous that adrien is coming over

aint no lie: please this isnt even jealousy >:/

fool for you: bruh oh btw im leaving in like 2 minutes gonna steal you away from alya

aint no lie: n e v e r

asleep in makeup: Please save me she’s been playing the same song for like half an hour

aint no lie: listen hot stuff im in loe vwith this son g

fool for you: let the beat rock dude

asleep in makeup: Mari pl e a s e

aint no lie: i cant stop cause im haivng too much fun!!!!!!!

  21:35

aint no lie: i cant believe ive been betrayed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

fool for you: youre so dramatic

aint no lie: this is the worst thing to ever happen o t me

asleep in makeup: Its not enough to say that I miss you, is it

aint no lie: no >:( tell me what i wanna hear and that is that ur coming bcak

asleep in makeup: Sorry Al

fool for you: yeah ive got a blanket fort set up still from last time so i win

aint no lie: shi t

too many cookies: Youre all ridiculou s You need to come back down t o earht Weve got bigger problems than this Liek the fact that I canT FIND MY SCISSOR S

aint no lie: r i p

fool for you: theyre under your chaise

too many cookies: What

fool for you: check

too many cookies: ……. Holy s hi t HO W

fool for you: magic

aint no lie: u might no t believe ur eyes but ninos magic

asleep in makeup: I thought I got away from this

aint no lie: nope <3

[kings-of-freeside]

A L L O R N O T H I N G

@atomsmute @sonofodin56

for this! (thanks, guys! this kept me busy today while i was in render hell for six hours. they’re under the readmore!)

1) a song you can listen to on repeat

Dark Days by PUP! I actually frequently do listen to it on repeat during my commute.

2) a song from one of your favorite albums

Style - Taylor Swift (1989 is such a good album)

3) a song you loved when you were a teenager or kid

I Write Sins Not Tragedies came into my life when I was about nine and it’s never left.

Shit’s Gonna Be OK by I Fight Dragons was one I listened to a lot in high school, I don’t listen to the band as much anymore but I still love them.

4) a song that makes you feel strong

The Bullpen by Dessa. It’s all about being a woman in a male dominated field and I relate.

Looking Up -SafetySuit (”I say they’re looking up, Take on whatever ‘cause I’m feeling tough, You say I’m going down but I’m feeling so fine”)

5) a song that makes you sad

Miscarriage by Said the Whale. Absolutely gutted me when I heard it for the first time, doubly so when Tyler talked about it at the concert in May.

Fiddler’s Green by The Tragically Hip. It was actually played at my cousin’s funeral.

Spanish Sahara by Foals.

6) a song that cheers you up

Looking Up - SafetySuit !!!! please listen to it it is the best happy song I know it’s on this list twice just let me have this one

Demons / Get Better / Reasons Not To Be An Idiot, all by Frank Turner

Graveclothes by Birdtalker

A Little Rain (Song for Pete) - Arkells

7) a song that reminds you of your friend(s)

I Will Follow You Into The Dark has been one of mine and Emma’s songs for a lot of years.

Watermark by The Weakerthans reminds me so much of my core #squad, mainly because of the  “we’re talented and bright, we’re lonely and uptight, we’ve found some lovely ways to disappoint” lyrics

Also the entirety of Fall Out Boy’s American Beauty/American Psycho album is always gonna remind me of going to Calgary Expo with Mickie and Emma (and Shayda) but especially Favourite Record.

8) a song that reminds you of an ex partner or crush

Paris by Magic Man (“now darling, all that shit’s behind us, you never have to wonder, you never have to ask”)

The Way I Tend To Be by Frank Turner (“and then I catch myself catching your scent on someone else, in a crowded space, and it takes me somewhere I cannot quite place” -one of my former crushes/partners had a v distinct smell, not in a gross way or anything, but just a smell that was theirs and sometimes I still catch a whiff of it)

9)   a song that reminds you of yourself

Four Simple Words - Frank Turner (”this is my culture man, this is my home” in reference to concerts!! it’s just a v important song to me and when i saw it live it was so fucking incredible.)

Cardboard Castles - Watsky (”I’m still dreaming after all these years”)

Bonus “I wish this described me”/ ideal aesthetic song: Swooner - The Zolas

10) a song that brings back bad memories

Also kind of Get Better- it’s a bittersweet memory, I saw Frank Turner live with someone who isn’t my life anymore (for a very good reason) but at the time he was one of my best friends and we made eye contact and smiled at each other as Frank sang “the best people I know are looking out for me” and in the moment it was the best but now it makes me sad.

11) a song that brings back good memories

Wish I Knew You by the Revivalists was on in the car when I found a murder hamlet on a late night drive to go stargazing with two very dear friends of mine who I haven’t known for very long so the “wish I knew you when I was young” lyric is pretty perfect and whenever I hear it I think about that night and it makes me happy even though I don’t even like the song that much.

12) a song that grew on you

Take It All Back by Judah & The Lion. Did not like it at all when I first heard it. But then I got really into it. I was going to go to their show last spring but my ID didn’t come in time so I couldn’t, my sister sold her ticket but not mine so I just lost that money. Still kinda sad about that one.

13) a song from a musical

Dead Girl Walking from Heathers. I sing it in the shower aaaaaaall the time.

14) a song with a great music video

Escape Artist- The Zolas (pls just watch it)

Girls Like Girls - Hayley Kiyoko (im gay)

Genghis Khan - Miike Snow

15) a song that’s better as a cover

Hurt - Johnny Cash (sorry not sorry, nine inch nails)

16) a song that’s better acoustic

And Then Some by Arkells. The acoustic version is swoonworthy. (and not that much different from the original but still!!)

17) a song with great lyrics

Tiny Glowing Screens, pt 2- Watsky. Technically a poem but (shrug emoji). Super powerful, and one of my favourite moments of my trip to France a few years back wasn’t in France, it was on the plane there, when everyone else was asleep and this song came up on shuffle and I listened to it while I looked out the window.

18) a song for summer

Anna Sun- Walk The Moon & The Suburbs - Arcade Fire.

Both were on constant rotation during the summers I was 14-16, and they remind me really strongly of a former best friend that I still talk to but am not as close with anymore, and all of the shenanigans we got up to.

19) a song for heartache

Mittens - Frank Turner

20) a song for car rides

One Foot - Walk The Moon. If I go on any friend roadtrips this summer it is for sure gonna be on the playlist

If You Wanna - The Vaccines is also just a really good roadtrip montage type song I think.

Also Ways To Go by Grouplove.

21) a song for the rain

Beautiful Morning - Said the Whale. It literally starts with “it’s raining, it’s pouring”, lol)

The Great Collapse - The Zolas (v good rainy day vibe)

22) a song for dancing

I Got You by Hollerado

Get Dark by the Zolas

Canyon Moon by Andrew McMahon In The Wilderness (the chorus is TOO GOOD)

Confidence by Said the Whale

Kiss The Misfits by Felix Hagan & The Family

23) a song for making out

I Wanna Be Yours/ Stop The World I Wanna Get Off With You/ Knee Socks - Arctic Monkeys (I’ve never made out with anyone but like. C'mon.)

24) a song for a lover

The Light is You - Said the Whale. I’ve wanted it to be the first dance song at my wedding for as long as I can remember.

Norway - The Paper Tigers. It’s just really effing cute.

25) a song from before you were born

After Hours - The Velvet Underground

26) a song from a band that’s no longer together

Watch The Sky - Something Corporate

27) a song you’ve seen live

Hey Jude - The Beatles (when I saw Paul McCartney!)

Raised by The Radio - Mitch Rossell (I’d never heard of him before I saw him open for Garth Brooks but I loved him. i was born and raised on music, it’s always been such a huge part of my life, and this song describes that feeling) (i can’t find a recording of this song on youtube so the link is spotify im sorry)

Lilac And Willow - Said the Whale. I remember listening to the album for the first time and thinking “I’m so excited to see this one live” and it lived up to expectations in every way, Ben’s voice is so good and distinctive and comforting.

28) a song you want to see live

I’d literally kill to see Hey I Want You by Felix Hagan & The Family live. It would be so much fun.

Black and Blue by Miike Snow (I missed them when they were in town D:)

29) a song by a band you don’t usually like

Closer - The Chainsmokers (& Halsey). Most Chainsmokers stuff is just… meh.

30) a song you recommend

Blossom - Milky Chance. It’s been my go to for a couple weeks now

[thumper-darling]

Will you send 65 questions my way?

1. Do you ever doubt the existence of others than you?

Oh my gOD YES. What if there is no life apart from my own and every person I come into contact with is just a highly thought out illusion in my head and nothing is real? 

2. On a scale of 1-5, how afraid of the dark are you?

2. It definitely depends on where I am when it is dark? Like, I’m not going to be scared when it’s dark in my bedroom because I’m comfortable there, but I’m gonna be heckin terrified of the dark if I’m in the woods? You feel me?

3. The person you would never want to meet?

Ronald J. Stump

4. What is your favorite word?

Cluster or Truffle

5. If you were a type of tree, what would you be?

Birch tree binch

6. When you looked in the mirror this morning what was the first thing you thought?

“Wow, I really let myself go” :’) 

But no, I thought about how I have mascara rings under my eyes but haven’t worn mascara in 2 days and I have for sure showered since then so why in the frickin heck do I have mascara marks under my eyes? 

7. What shirt are you wearing?

An old man’s sweater that I thrifted 

8. What do you label yourself as?

Interesting? Adventurous? Quirky? I don’t know, what do you label me as?

9. Bright room or dark room?

Dim room 

10. What were you doing at midnight last night?

Being bullied by @parkersenses

Nah, but I was actually having a deep conversation with my little step-sister about life and school advice. 

11. Favorite age you’ve been so far?

17

12. Who told you they loved you last?

Lulu @doctormelapples

13. Your worst enemy?

McDonald J. Rump

14. What is your current desktop picture?

….

a racecar…

15. Do you like someone?

I really like my doggo

16. The last song you listened to?

Adolescent by Lostboycrow 

17. You can press a button that will make any one person explode. Who would you blow up?

I could never hurt somebody, no way. like, how do you expect me to deal with that radical guilt. my conscience is way too pure for that.

18. Who would you really like to just punch in the face?

I would rather not punch people in the face? Does it count if I answer with who I would like to punch me in the face?

19. If anyone could be your servant for a day, who would it be and what would they have to do?

Um, I would want to have Harrison Osterfield be my “assistant” for a day. I would literally just have them hang out with me because I need friendship to thrive

20. What is your best physical attribute? (showing said attribute is optional)

My eyes? or my freckles, even if they are faint

21. If you were the opposite sex for one day, what would you look like and what would you do?

I don’t heckin know what I would look like. Like me but more testosterone? I would like to just live my everyday life, but observe the differences from male and female treatment that’s incorporated in our society. 

22. Do you have a secret talent? If yes, what is it?

I can juggle really terribly 

23. What is one unique thing you’re afraid of?

I’m not afraid of anything

   the past coming back to haunt me

24. You can only have one kind of sandwich. Every sandwich ingredient known to humankind is at your disposal.

Bagel for bread, jalapeno cream cheese, lettuce, tomato, smoked turkey, and havarti cheese

25. You just found $100! How are you going to spend it?

Either on a tattoo, or put it in my college savings. But probably on a tattoo because I have no financial security. 

26. You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere in the world, but you have to leave immediately. Where are you going to go?

Montreal Canada binch. Okay no, but probably like NYC or LA or something super stereotypical like that.

27. An angel appears out of Heaven and offers you a lifetime supply of the alcoholic beverage of your choice. “Be brand-specific” it says. Man! What are you gonna say about that? Even if you don’t drink booze there’s something you can figure out… so what’s it gonna be?

Mike’s Hard Lemonade for decades. honestly, I love lemonade and those drinks are so heckin tasty. 

28. You discover a beautiful island upon which you may build your own society. You make the rules. What is the first rule you put into place?

You have a right to your own opinion, until it infringes on the basic human rights of others. Then ur fined and thrown in jail for being a rude ass disrespectful person thx. 

29. What is your favorite expletive?

fuck

30. Your house is on fire, holy shit! You have just enough time to run in there and grab ONE inanimate object. Don’t worry, your loved ones and pets have already made it out safely. So what’s the one thing you’re going to save from that blazing inferno?

My book “The Perks of Being A Wallflower” 

31. You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?

The drama that went down with my family last summer and earlier this year

32. You got kicked out of the country for being a time-traveling heathen who sleeps with celebrities and has super-powers. But check out this cool shit… you can move to anywhere else in the world!

Oooh, maybe London or Barcelona? Or Italy. OH ITALY WOULD BE WONDERFUL

33. The Celestial Gates Of Beyond have opened, much to your surprise because you didn’t think such a thing existed. Death appears. As it turns out, Death is actually a pretty cool entity, and happens to be in a fantastic mood. Death offers to return the friend/family-member/person/etc. of your choice to the living world. Who will you bring back?

There was a girl who got into a car accident a few weeks ago, I didn’t know her, but I do know that she was 18 and had just graduated Valedictorian of her class. She had a full ride to college, so I think I would bring her back. 

34. What was your last dream about?

A hotel room 

35. Are you a good….dancer?

THE ANSWER TO THAT IS YES

36. Have you ever been admitted to the hospital?

Ah yes 

37. Have you ever built a snowman?

Not well

38. What is the color of your socks?

White. 

39. What type of music do you like?

All of it idk 

40. Do you prefer sunrises or sunsets?

sunrises 

41. What is your favorite milkshake flavor?

Vanilla 

42. What football team do you support? (I will answer in terms of American football as well as soccer)

I don’t know, Michigan State

43. Do you have any scars?

I have a few from accidents when I was younger. I’m a clumsy oof

44. What do you want to be when you graduate?

After I graduate college I’d like to be involved with writing somehow. I really want to work on films or work with manuscripts.

45. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?

I’d like to be a more energized person

46. Are you reliable?

I like to think so 

47. If you could ask your future self one question, what would it be?

Are you happy with your life?

48. Do you hold grudges?

I really try not to. I don’t like to hold on to hatred or anger. 

49. If you could breed two animals together to defy the laws of nature, what new animal would you create?

A fox and a golden retriever? That’d be a fun mix 

50. What is the most unusual conversation you’ve ever had?

I once had a conversation with someone about who had cooler socks? And kept sending pics to each other of our goofy sock collection. That was a strange one. 

51. Are you a good liar?

God, I hope so

52. How long could you go without talking?

I once went 24 hours without talking, soooo

53. What has been your worst haircut/style?

I LET MY FRIENDS CUT MY HAIR THE SUMMER BEFORE MY SOPHOMORE YEAR AND I ENDED UP WITH A CHERRY RED ASYMMETRICAL BOB AND IT WAS WAY TOO SHORT FOR MY FACE SHAPE AND IT WAS AWFUL

54. Have you ever baked your own cake?

I cheated and did like an eggless cake or something like that?

55. Can you do any accents other than your own?

Hecking, no. Accents are not my strong suit 

56. What do you like on your toast?

Peanut butter or butter with cinnamon sugar

57. What is the last thing you drew a picture of?

a little doodled heart probs

58. What would be you dream car?

Ford fiesta? Idk

59. Do you sing in the shower? Or do anything unusual in the shower? Explain.

I sing in the shower when nobody else is home. That’s about it.

60. Do you believe in aliens?

YES It is literally impossible that we are the only living and thriving society in the entire universe? Like?? The possibilities are endless.

61. Do you often read your horoscope?

Not always, but if it pops up on my dash I’ll look at it

62. What is your favorite letter of the alphabet?

S or T 

63. Which is cooler: dinosaurs or dragons?

Dragons! Was that even a question 

64. What do you think about babies?

I get nervous around babies. They’re such small, delicate humans and I feel too much responsibility being around babies. 

65. Freebie! Ask anything interesting you can think of.

You didn’t ask anything, so I’ll just tell you about my day?? I had a college freshman event today and I met some pretty cool people and it has me less worried about starting college. I also think I’m gonna read and write a bit today, so I’m pretty excited about that. Also, my mom comes back from out of town in an hour or so and I can’t wait to see her. 

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so i haven’t made a personal post since 2015???? maybe 2014????? and my blog has been mostly a queue for several years and any life updates i have posted have been in tags of reblogs so hello again

i’ve been tagged in many tag/ask games over the past forever and i’ve started to feel bad for never doing it and i’ve started to miss doing personal posts again so this will be a very long posts of asks games that i never got around to doing (under a read more) so feel free to keep reading if you haven’t heard anything since i was 20 year old laura and want to hear more about 23 year old laura

(these are all tag/ask games i’ve been able to find in the past year so thanks to everyone who has tagged me in games this year! and apologies if i never got to earlier ones, i hope to do more in the future as i’m tagged in them)

Tagged by @jessiemueller​

RULES: WE’RE SNOOPING ON YOUR PLAYLIST. SET YOUR ENTIRE MUSIC LIBRARY ON SHUFFLE AND REPORT THE FIRST TEN TRACKS THAT POP UP! THEN CHOOSE TEN ADDITIONAL FRIENDS.

 1. Girls/Girls/Boys -Panic! at the Disco  2. Seasons of Love- Rent (the movie version)  3. Take It Back- Ed Sheeran  4. 18- One Direction 5. Vanilla Ice Cream- Laura Benanti (She Loves Me 2016) 6. Migraine (Live from SXSW)- Twenty One Pilots  7. The Sun (Interlude)- Jukebox the Ghost  8. Making the Most of the Night- Carly Rae Jepsen  9. Disloyal Order of the Water Buffaloes- Fall Out Boy 10. Bibia Be Ye Ye- Ed Sheeran

Rules: Complete the survey and say who tagged you in the beginning. When you are finished tag 5 people to do this survey. Have fun and enjoy!!!

Tagged by @jessiemueller​

1: Are you named after someone? my mom had a doll named laura when she was little but otherwise she just always liked the name

2: When is the last time you cried? weirdly i don’t remember???? but it was probably in the past week

3: Do you like your handwriting? yes it’s neat and i get compliments on it but it’s very small

4: What is your favorite lunch meat? ham/turkey/chicken

5: Do you have kids? no and i don’t plan to (but can’t wait to be gay aunt laura)

6: If you were another person, would you be friends with you? probably??? maybe??

7: Do you use sarcasm? always

8: Do you still have your tonsils? yes

9: Would you bungee jump? probably not but it would be a battle between impulsive!laura and anxious afraid of heights!laura

10: What is your favorite kind of cereal? frosted flakes 

11: Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? never

12: Do you think you’re a strong person? -dennis reynolds voice- not physically emotionally??? it depends

13: What is your favorite ice cream flavor? americone dream 

14: What is the first thing you notice about people? how friendly and extroverted they are 

15: Red or pink? red

16: What is the least favorite physical thing you like about yourself? i don’t like being so short but i deal with it 

17: What color pants and shoes are you wearing now? grey jeans and no shoes just socks (but my shoes are grey also)

18: What was the last thing you ate? apple cider doughnut

19: What are you listening to right now? king of anything- sara bareilles

20: If you were a crayon, what color would you be? purple orange or yellow

21: Favorite smell? vanilla or orange

22: Who was the last person you spoke to on the phone? the pharmacy but if it’s a person then my sister

23: Favorite sport to watch? if i had to watch a sport it would be hockey

24: Hair color? brown

25: Eye colour? brown

26: Do you wear contacts? i’ve worn them since 4th grade but i plan to switch to glasses because my prescription is very strong and contacts are starting to bother my eyes

27: Favorite food to eat? pizza or 

28: Scary movies or comedy? comedy

29: Last movie you watched? according to netflix it was short term 12 (last year though i don’t watch many movies) but it was probably carol/waitress/imagine me and you 

30: What color shirt are you wearing? blue and grey

31: Summer or winter? summer i don’t like being cold 

32: Hugs or kisses? hugs

33: What book are you currently reading? none i don’t really read anymore unfortunately

34: Who do you miss right now? my sister

35: What is on your mouse pad? i don’t have a mouse pad

36: What is the last TV program you watched? grey’s anatomy

37: What is the best sound? snow crunching, skates on ice, kinetic sand cutting videos

38: Rolling Stones or The Beatles? neither but i guess the beatles??

39: What is the furthest you have ever traveled? los angeles when i was in high school

40: Do you have a special talent? i remember everyone’s birthdays without trying

41: Where were you born? boston!!!!!

tagged by @thefaultinourscarves

A- Age: 23

B- Biggest fear: as much as i want to leave school i don’t want to actually have to get a job and live independently 

C- Current time: 2:00 am

D- Drink you last had: diet pepsi

E- Everyday starts with: coffee, tumblr

F- Favourite song: there’s at least 10 but my brain keeps playing perfect places by lorde 

G- Ghosts, are they real: definitely

H- Hometown: boston/around boston massachusetts

I- In love with: all of my faves (besides sara bareilles) coming back with albums this year

J- Jealous of: people who supposedly have their life after school (although i know nobody really knows what they’re doing), wlw with girlfriends???

K- Killed someone: no?????

L- Last time you cried: probably in the last week 

M- Middle name: elizabeth

N- Number of siblings: 3

O- One wish: right now it’s to finish my thesis and graduate already 

P- Person you last called/texted: called: my sister texted: also my sister

Q- Questions you’re always asked: “what are you doing”

R- Reasons to smile: cats exist, lots of new music, being gay also to quote ari “the world is beautiful!”

S- Song last sang: i bet you look good on the dancefloor- arctic monkeys

U- Underwear colour: black

V- Vacation destination: usually the cape but if i could go somewhere ireland??? probably

W- Worst habit: changing the subject in the middle of a sentence or otherwise losing focus on something and switching tasks in the middle of doing something

X- X-rays you’ve had: hands feet and my knee because of arthritis

Y- Your favourite food: pizza

Z- Zodiac sign: gemini

tagged by @cassiopeia-chasing-the-moon​

rules: answer the questions and tag 20 blogs you want to get to know better

name: laura

family name: sheepan (close enough and what i use here)

gender: who knows anymore

star sign: gemini

height: 5 feet

age: 23

favorite color: purple

time rn: 2:05 am

hours of sleep: anywhere from 5 to 10 because of summer but could be more or less or average when the school year starts

lucky number: 6

last thing you googled: ed sheeran’s tour setlist and also what jimmy fallon’s ben and jerry flavor was for a previous question but decided it wasn’t one of my favorites (still good though)

favorite fictional character: sarah manning, cosima niehaus, alex danvers, juliet o’hara, rory gilmore, paris geller, lorelai gilmore

blankets you sleep with: 1 in warmer months 2 or more in the winter

favorite artists: sara bareilles, taylor swift, ed sheeran, lorde, haim, the summer set, jukebox the ghost, one direction, all time low

dream trip: ireland??? australia?

dream job: counseling, either grief counseling or in a school 

what you’re wearing right now: jeans and a long sleeved shirt

follower count: 1,958

posts: 102,824 i’ve been here forever and used to hit post limit EVERY DAY 

what do you post about: being a lesbian, cats, tv shows, bands, musicals?? i would get into detail but that would take forever 

most active followers: emofrenchfries, bookaddict7342, wenamedthedogkylo, themovieofmylifeasiliveit

when did your blog reach its peak: 2012-2013

why did you make this blog: charlieissocoollike made a video about tumblr and my friends from high school started making them 

do you get asks on a daily basis: no but occasionally i still do

why did you choose your url: it’s a dumb and outdated taylor swift reference from her unicorn shirt she wore in the 2013 ama’s + ‘after plaid shirt days’ i’ve been wanting to change it for a while but i still have to decide to what

countries you’ve lived in: united states

favorite fandom: orphan black??? sara bareilles fandom??? i guess??? fun and in my experience low fandom drama

languages you speak: english

favorite films: carol

last article you read: probably something about forgiveness for my thesis project

last thing you bought online: super smash bros for 3ds

last person you dreamt of: i don’t know???? i don’t remember a lot of my dreams

a recurring dream: literally adulthood and moving out of my house

phobias/fears: i’ve been developing irrational fears about driving, but also heights, public speaking, the general future

how would your friends describe you: funny, gay, smart??? i guess?? passionate??? loyal??? i haven’t asked recently

if you had $$$ to spend what would you buy first: a car?? clothes???

shuffle your song library and list the first three songs that play: guns for hands- twenty one pilots, undertow- sara bareilles, one night- ed sheeran

TAG GAME

Tagged by @jessiemueller​, @justputyourheartintoit​, @cassiopeia-chasing-the-moon​

rules: answer the questions and tag 20 blogs you’d like to get to know better

nicknames: lau (like law) very occasionally, sometimes laur but only by my roommate

time right now: 2:29 am

last thing i googled: ed sheeran’s tour setlist and also what jimmy fallon’s ben and jerry flavor was for a previous question but decided it wasn’t one of my favorites (still good though)

fave music artist: sara bareilles, taylor swift, ed sheeran, lorde, haim, the summer set, jukebox the ghost, one direction, all time low

song stuck in my head: anything from melodrama by lorde (usually perfect places, green light, hard feelings/loveless)

last movie i watched: probably carol

last tv show i watched: grey’s anatomy

what i’m wearing now: jeans and a long sleeved shirt (blue and grey)

when i created this blog: march 2011

the kind of stuff i post: tv shows, gay stuff, cats, aesthetic posts, musicals, bands

do i have other blogs: i have a journal blog and a 100% 1d blog

do i get asks regularly: very rarely now but sometimes

why did i choose my url: an outdated taylor swift reference (2013 ama’s unicorn shirt + ‘after plaid shirt days’)

gender: who knows anymore 

hogwarts house: hufflepuff

pokemon team: instinct

fave color: purple

average hours of sleep: 8-10 if i don’t have to set an alarm otherwise 5-8

lucky number: 6

favorite characters: sarah manning, cosima niehaus, alex danvers, juliet o’hara, rory gilmore, paris geller, lorelai gilmore

dream job: right now counseling (either grief or in a school)

number of blankets i sleep with: usually 1 but in the winter 2 

tagged by @thefaultinouscarves, @teaspoonemotionalrange​

Name: laura Nicknames: usually none but rarely lau (law) or laur Zodiac sign: gemini 
Height: 5 feet Orientation: super gay Ethnicity: white Favorite fruit: strawberries? Favorite season: spring Favorite book: the fault in our stars or harry potter (4 or 7) ((i know these are boring choices but i don’t read much anymore)) Favorite flower: daisies? 
Favorite scent: vanilla/orange Favorite color: purple Favorite animal: cat/penguin Coffee, tea, or hot cocoa: in order: hot chocolate, coffee, tea Average sleep hours: 8-10 Cat or dog person?: CATS Favorite fictional characters: sarah manning, cosima niehaus, alex danvers, juliet o’hara, rory gilmore, paris geller, lorelai gilmore 
Number of blankets you sleep with: 1 or 2 Dream trip: ireland but if we’re being really ambitious australia  Blog created: march 2011 Number of followers: 1,958  

rules: answer the questions with the first letter of your name, then tag 10 people. if the person who tagged you has the same initial, you must use different answers. you cannot use the same word twice.

tagged by @jessiemueller​

what is your name? laura a four letter word? love a boy’s name? lawrence an occupation? lawyer something you wear? lace a color? lilac a food? lime a place? louisiana something you shout? look out! a movie title? love, actually something you drink? lemonade an animal? llama a type of car? i got run over by a lexuuuuuuuus title of a song? love song- sara bareilles

Tagged by @jessiemueller​

♡ if i were a month: february, june, july, august, october

♡ if i were a day: saturday

♡ if i were a planet: venus

♡ if i were a god or goddess: aphrodite? athena?

♡ if i were a sea creature: do penguins count

♡ if i were a piece of furniture: desk or bookshelf

♡ if i were a gemstone: opal

♡ if i were a flower: daisy

♡ if i were a weather condition: warm and sunny

♡ if i were a color: purple

♡ if i were an emotion: according to quizzes on google: vulnerability or sadness

♡ if i were a fruit: strawberry

♡ if i were an element: water

♡ if i were a place: beach, library, my bed sleeping

♡ if i were a taste: combination salty sweet

♡ if i were a scent: vanilla

♡ if i were a song: i just want you- sara bareilles

♡ if i were a body part: eyes

♡ if i were a pair of shoes: converse 

20 facts about me

The rules: write 20 random facts about yourself so your followers can get to know you better then tag those who you want to know better (no limit) Tagged by: @teaspoonemotionalrange​ who only did 10 so i’m only going to do 10

1. i graduated with a psychology degree in 2016 and i’m currently working on a master’s degree in research psychology (focusing on forgiveness in friendships)

2. for the past 4 summers i’ve worked at a summer school in my town with special needs elementary school kids (preschool to 2nd grade)

3. i believe all time low and 5 seconds of summer are tied for the bands i’ve seen most live (3-4 times each)

4. i only got my license this summer at 23 (7 years after i got my permit the first time then it expired and i got it again last summer)

5. i have two cats (pretty girl and snowball)

6. my lockscreen is a collage of sara bareilles that i made and my homescreen is a different collage that i requested someone on tumblr to make

7. i’m supposed to be a bridesmaid for one of my college roommates who is getting married in 2019

8. i have adhd and you can see what i’m hyperfixating on if you pay attention to my reblogs (right now it’s supergirl but can also be legend of zelda (ocarina of time/majora’s mask), musicals (mostly waitress), and a lot of music you can visit my adhd playlist tag for a sort of comprehensive list)

9. if i’m at a bar (which is rare but happens) my go-to drink is whiskey and coke

10. i realized i was gay on october 24, 2013 (in the most boring way possible just sitting there and “what if i’m gay?” that was literally it)

@hightideswift asked:  Pass the happy along! When you get this, reply with 5 things that make you happy, then send it to the last 10 people in your activity! 

1. my cats

2. driving alone and getting to listen to my music

3. all my faves releasing new music this year

4. i’m theoretically almost done with grad school so eventually i’ll be working and doing my own thing 

5. late at night when i can stay up and watch netflix with snacks or listening to music without interruptions 

@bakedinabeautifulpie asked: 

Once you get this you have to say Five things you like about yourself publicly, then you have to send it to 10 of your favorite mutuals/followers (non-negotiable. Positivity is cool)

1. i’ve liked my clothing choices more now that i’ve had more money to buy my own clothes

2. i like being a lesbian and a part of the lgbt community

3. i like how passionate i can get about whatever i’m fixating on at that moment

4. i like my eyes

5. i like my hair now that it’s short

@jessiemueller​ tagged me in a “characters I relate to” post (it’s hard to separate characters i relate to from favorite characters so include the favorite ones i mentioned earlier 

alex danvers | supergirl

cosima niehaus  | orphan black

amy santiago  | brooklyn nine-nine

jake peralta  | brooklyn nine-nine

rory gilmore  | gilmore girls

paris geller  | gilmore girls

jenna hunterson  | waitress

dawn  | waitress

monica geller  | friends

[hcsdevil]

Tag~

I was tagged by @nc-ty 💕

Rules: You must answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people!

The last: 1. Drink - Fanta exotic 2. Phone call - My friend Naemi 3. Text message - My friend Nicklas 4. Song you listend too - VAV - No doubt 5. Time you cried - When the incident with T.O.P came out 6. Dated someone twice - No 7. Kissed someone and regretted it - Yes :’) 8. Been cheated on - No 9. Lost someone special - Yeah 10. Been depressed - Yup 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up - No

List three favorite colors: 12. Black 13. Every shade of blue 14. Red

In the last year have you: 15. Made new friends - Yup, plenty 16. Fallen out of love - No 17. Laughed until you cried - Yesh, a lot of times lol 18. Found someone who talked about you- Yeah 19. Met someone who changed you - Yup 20. Found out who your friends are - Yes 21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list - No

General: 22. How many of your facebook friends do you know in real life - More than half I think 23. Do you have any pets - No 24. Do you want to change your name - Nah, I like my name. Tho I have this internationall name that I use everywhere 25. What did you do for your last birthday - Had fun with some friends 26. What time did you wake up - Around 11 I think? 27. What were you doing at midnight last night - Talking to Nicklas 28. Name something you cant wait for - My stuff that I ordered online lol 29. When was the last time you saw your mom - A few hours ago 30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life - Sigh, idk :/ 31. What are you listening to right now - G Dragon - Runaway 32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom - Yep, I’m even close to him lmao 33. Something that is getting on your nerves - A person 34. Most visited website - Youtube 35. Elementary - Done 36. Middle school - Still there 37. High school - Kind of?? Theres a different system in Sweden. If I lived in America I would be a freshman 38. Collage - nope 39. Hair color - Maroon-ish 40. Long or short hair - Short 41. Do you have a crush on someone - No 42. What do you like about yourself - Dunno, my eyes or personality I guess xD 43. Piercings - One in each ear (Gonna pierce them all the way up tho) 44. Blood type - O 45. Nickname - Ivana Matata, Eli, Liz, Beth, Lizzie, Bethie, Lizzy, Lizard, Lizzania, Bebis, Bebo, Iva, Ivanica & Banana 46. Relationship status - Single ready to mingle ;) lol 47. Pronouns - She/her 48. Favorite tv show - Grimm & Hannibal 49. Tattoos - Sadly none :’( 50. Right or left hand - Right 51. Surgery - None 52. Sport - Dancing, I also really like volleyball 53. Vacation - I’m going to Serbia this year, like always. I’m gonna fly back after a week or two alone tho :’) 54. Pair of trainers - ? 55. Eating - I eat like two/three times a day? Only when I’m hungry. I love chicken and carbonara 56. Drinking - i.c.e t.e.a 57. Im about to - Fall asleep 58. Waiting for - Nicklas to answer 59. Want - Hugs and cuddles 60. Get married - One day 61. Career - Idk man

Which is better: 62. Hugs or kisses - both 63. Lips or eyes - Eyes 64. Shorter or taller - Taller 65. Older or younger - Older 66. Nice arms or nice stomach - Nice arms 67. Sensitive or loud - Both kinda?? 68. Hook up or relationship - Relationship 69. Troublemaker or hesitant - Both in one if you understand what I mean lol

Have you ever: 70. Kissed a stranger - No 71. Drank hard liquor - Yes 72. Lost glasses/contact lenses - Yeah 73. Turned someone down - Yes 74. Sex on first date - No 75. Broken someones heart - Yes (it was not my intention tho) 76. Had your heart broken - Once 77. Been arrested - No 78. Cried when someone died - Yes, twice 79. Fallen for a friend - No

Do you believe in 80. Yourself - Sometimes 81. Miracles - Yes 82. Love at first sight - Yup 83. Santa Claus - No 84. Kiss on the first date - Yeah 85. Angles - No 86. Fate - Yes 87. Ghosts - Yes 88. Supernatural - Yea

Other: 89. Current best friends name - Corin, Sam, David & Emilia. Oh and ofc Sams rottweiler Dalton :') br> 90. Eye color - Blue 91. Favorite movie - Hmm dunno maybe The Conjuring? I really love horror and fantasy movies 92. People you can trust - Corin, Sam, Nicklas, Emilia & David

I’m going to tag @ultrakpoptrash03 @cheejicakewhiskers @yixings-aiyo @yung-cutiepiee @natakpop @suju15stark @kiinky-kihyun @sunpeachs @amg9 @delightfulkillersnowman @itsahuman @softykihyun @junqtie-pie @fightersandgirlgroups @bigbang-hyung @kpop-wanderer @shinhosok-archive @julielovekpop @laura-retana @mauloveskpop ^^🖤

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also do all of the questions lol

G o d I finally finished answering all these, I have the attention span of zero1 - already answered!2 - Think of the last person who hurt you; do you forgive them?: My mother. Overall, like with everything she's done my whole life, no, I don't. But the most recent thing, I kinda forgive her cause she guilted me into doing a training thing for a class I'll help teach (which, guilting is never okay, by the way) but it turned out to be Okay I guess3 - What do you think of when you hear the word "meow?": cat4 - What's something you really want right now?: For my WiFi to turn back on so I don't have to keep using data5 - Are you afraid of falling in love?: I've already fallen in love, so I mean, no6 - Do you like the beach?: y e s7 - Have you ever slept on a couch with somebody else?: This is oddly specific but no8 - What's the background on your phone?: The galaxy picture that I have set for my tumblr header9 - Name the last 4 beds you sat on: My bed, my mom's bed to talk to her, my bed at my dad's house, and the bed in the brown room at the lake house10 - Do you like your phone: Yes11 - Are things going the way you planned?: I mean, I don't know yet. So far, things are looking up for the next year to come. After that? I dunno12 - Who was the last person whose number you added to your phone contracts?: Fucken uhhhh I think a girl I had a video production class with last year13 - Would you rather have a poodle or a Rottweiler?: Both please and thank you14 - Which hurts the most, physical or emotional pain?: It depends on what type of physical it is and what type of emotional it is15 - Would you rather visit a zoo or an art museum?: Zoo16 - Are you tired?: yeah17 - How long have you known who your first phone contact?: I don't know whom my first contact was18 - Are they a relative?: Again, I don't know19 - Would you ever consider getting back with any of your exes?: No, cause everyone whom I broke up with, I did so cause either they were shitty, or cause the romantic love just wasn't there anymore20 - When did you last talk to the last person you shared a kiss with?: On the lips, it was my friend Leaf a little over a year ago, cause I had just broken up with my ex bf and I was joking like 'shit I can just kiss whomever.' Other types of kisses, Andi!!!!!!!!!!!!21 - If you knew you had to marry the right person, would you marry them today?: I don't know if this is relating to the last question or not, but I'm gonna answer this question with Andi in mind. I'm only 18 and they're only 17, so we're probably too young for marriage I think, but if they wanted to I'd be 100% down22 - Would you kiss the last person you kissed: Leaf; platonically, sure. Andi; Yes!!!!!!!!!!!! So many smooches please and thank you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm love smooching Andi23 - How many bracelets do you have on your wrist right now: Zero, but I have a raptor's claw necklace that I turned into a bracelet/weaponized bracelet. I'm just not wearing it right now24 - Is there a certain quote you live by?: "I'm just here for the laughs at this point," -Me25 - What's on your mind?: Sims 426 - Do you have any tattoos?: Not yet but Soon, I already have my first one planned27 - What is your favorite color?: Orange, purple and black28 - Next time you will kiss someone on the lips?: *shrug*29 - Who are you texting?: No one right now30 - Think to the last person you kissed, did you ever kiss them on a couch: y'all what is with the couch specific asks. Also no but I did give them Smooches sitting on the floor in front of a couch31 - Have you ever had the feeling that something bad was going to happen and you were right: Literally All The Time. I have a mega good intuition, it just sucks cause I also have paranoia/anxiety so I never know if a feeling I have is intuition or just anxiety 32 - Do you have a friend of the opposite sex that you can talk to: No I've Never Been Able To Talk To Someone Of The Opposite Sex (I hate opposite sex questions. Of fucking course I talk to people that have a different sex and/or gender than me)33 - Do you think anyone has feelings for you?: I dunno, @strike-commandxr do ya have feelings for me?34 - Has anyone ever told you that you have pretty eyes?: A Lot actually35 - Say the last person you kissed was kissing someone right in front of you: If it's Leaf (since he's the last one I smooched on the lips that long time ago): hell yeah boy get your smooch on. If it's Andi (since I give Andi so many non lip smooches): Platonic smooches exist and I mean I'd wanna know what the context is but I mean I'm chill yo36 - Were you single on Valentine's Day?: No37 - Are you friends with the last person you kissed?: Leaf is one of my closest friends and I'm dating Andi and Andi is my best friend so yeah38 - What do your friends call you?: Max, various other names after I make a bad joke39 - Has anyone upset you in the past week?: Yeah, me mom40 - Have you ever cried over a text: u m y e a h41 - Where's your last bruise located?: God I have so many bruises on me legs from a pitbull we were puppysitting. She kept jumping up on me legs42 - What is it from?: Sweet lil Pitbull Pupper43 - Last time you wanted to be away from somewhere really bad?: I block a lot of bad memories out so I can't remember44 - Who was the last person you were on the phone with?: My mom45 - Do you have a favorite pair of shoes?: My combat boots46 - Do you wear hats if you're having a bad hair day?: Yeah, I wear my beanie47 - Would you ever go bald if it was the style?: Nah I like my current hair style48 - Do you make supper for your family?: First of all: the person who made this ask meme MUST be from the southern Midwest or from the south in general, cause they called it supper. Secondly: we don't really eat dinner together but if we ever do, it's my mom and I that does the cooking. I used to in middle school cook for the family though. But my sister leaned to cook for herself now49 - Does your bedroom have a door?: ????????????? Yeah???????????50 - Top three web pages?: My blog, Andi's blog, and Nick's blog51 - Do you know anyone who hates shopping?: My sister52 - Does anything on your body hurt?: Most of the time, there's always at least one part of my body that hurts or aches. Right now my shoulders hurt like a bitch cause they're so tense53 - Are goodbyes hard for you?: Like, goodbye as in literally saying goodbye or as in cutting off contact? Either way, no. The latter, I might be sad about it, but it's not really hard54 - What was the last beverage you spilled on yourself?: water55 - How is your hair?: I really like it right now, it's a little greasy cause I need to shower but ya know. I keep forgetting to post selfies56 - What do you usually do first thing in the morning?: Go back to sleep57 - Do you think two people can last forever?: Yeah if they both keep a healthy relationship58 - Think back to January 2007; were you single?: I was. 7. (I wasn't single, technically, cause I had a lil 'boyfriend.' He was my best friend, really my only friend cause I didn't go to public school at the time. But again, I was 7 so it don't count)59 - Green or purple grapes?: Red grapes. Green and purple grapes taste bad to me60 - When's the next time you'll give someone a BIG hug?: As soon as I see one of my friends once school starts. Or whenever I see Andi next61 - Do you wish you were somewhere else right now?: Nah, I just want to lay in bed. I'm a tired boy62 - When will be the next time you text someone?: Bruh I dunno, why does this ask meme keep asking things about the future that I can't really know63 - Where will you be 5 hours from now?: In bed probably or on the computer (also it is 4:20 as I'm typing this specific one out just thought I'd let y'all know)64 - What were you doing at 8 this morning?: Sleepin65 - This last year, can you remember who you liked?: ??? Okay first of all, yes, I like and love Andi, whom is my heart. And platonically, I like and love all my friends. Secondly, whom would forget who they like within a year? I still remember my fourth grade crush66 - Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?: There's lots of people in my life that can do that67 - Did you kiss or hug anyone today?: No68 - What was your last thought before you went to bed last night?: I don't......remember69 - Have you ever tried your hardest and then got disappointed in the end?: If I have, I don't remember it70 - How many windows are open on your computer?: I'm not on my computer right now, I'm on me phone71 - How many fingers do you have?: ?????????????????? Ten. I understand that some folks don't have have their fingers but like, what a weird question to ask72 - What is your ringtone?: The fitness gram pacer test skjshlkdjs I keep forgetting to change it73 - How old will you be in 5 months?: 18 still74 - Where is your mum right now?: At work75 - Why aren't you with the person you were first in love with?: Just didn't work out b76 - Have you held hands with someone in the past three days?: sadly no77 - Are you friends with people you were friends with two years ago?: Most of them, yeah78 - Do you remember who you had a crush on in seventh grade?: I was dating a guy (before he came out as a guy) so does that count as a crush?79 - Is there anyone you know with the name Mike?: No?80 - Have you ever fallen asleep in someone's arms?: Yeah81 - How many people have you liked in the past three months: One™ (I'm just gonna assume that 'like' means romantic love at this point)82 - Has anyone seen you in your underwear in the past three days?: I walk around my house in my underwear occasionally so yeah technically83 - Will you talk to the person you like tonight?: Most likely84 - You're drunk and yelling at hot people from your car window, who're you with?: Trick question. I would NEVER get that drunk cause most alcohol is nasty, and also, I would NEVER cat call people cause I'm not a fucking asshole85 - If your significant other was into drugs would you care?: If it was weed, nah, I wouldn't care at all. It's harmless (but it'd have to be edibles around me cause I have asthma and I can't be around smoke). If it was any other drug, I would care. All those other drugs are harmful yo. That includes cigarettes86 - What was the most eventful thing that happened to you last time you went to the movies?: I cried at Guardians of the Galaxy vol. 287 - Who was your last received call from?: My mom88 - If someone gave you $1,000 to burn a butterfly over a candle, would you do it?: Hm. Yes, I would. I'm a broke kid man, and butterflies are probably really flammable, so it'd die super fast hopefully, without too much suffering89 - What is something you wish you had more of?: Money90 - Have you ever trusted someone too much?: Yeah91 - Do you sleep with your window open?: No92 - Do you get along with girls?: ????????????? What does this even mean?????????93 - Are you keeping a secret from someone that needs to know?: No?????94 - Does sex mean love?: Depends on the type of love, I guess95 - You're locked in a room with the last person you kissed, is that a problem?: Nah. Whether it's Leaf or Andi, it'd be a Chill and Fun time96 - Have you ever kissed someone with a lip ring?: Nah97 - Did you sleep alone this week?: Yeah98 - Everybody has somebody that makes you happy, do you?: Again, A lot of people make me happy. Andi, the McElroy brothers, my friends, my older brother and younger brother. So many99 - Do you believe in love at first sight?: No. I believe in attraction and interest at first sight, but not love100 - Who was the last person that you pinky promise?: I can't remember honestly, it's been so longThanks for the ask, my dude!!!!!!!!

[hopelesscobwebs]

92 Asks Game!

I’m finally doing this. I thought it would be fun and i’m bored af so here we go:

Tagged by: @just-a-crazy-nerd love you <3

LAST

1) Drink: Water (gotta stay hydrated y’all)

2) Phone call: My Dad.

3) Text message: “My legs are dead. All I wanna do is sleep but I have to do music homework” to my friend like a week ago (I don’t text much lmao).

4) Song listened to: Sumertime, By My Chemical Romance

5) Time you cried: Maybe 2 days ago? (I was really sad over MCR), but the last time I really, like really cried was maybe last week.

HAVE YOU EVER

6) Dated somebody twice: ahaha twice? You’re so funny. I haven’t dated someone once...

7) Been cheated on: My cat once slept on my sisters bed instead of mine so that counts.

8) Kissed someone and regretted it: What don’t you get about FOREVER ALONE HERE.

9) Lost someone special: Perhaps, It kinda depends really what you count as “lost”. But yeah, unfortunately.

10) Been depressed: I have been in dark mindsets a lot lately.

11) Gotten drunk and puked: Never been drunk before (I am so cool like that)

THREE FAVOURITE COLOURS

12) Probably Blue, But to narrow it down: Teal

13) Rich purple

14) Probably black

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU

15) Made new friends: Tons (ilysm guys)

16) Fallen out of love: no (kinda yes... but William doesn’t count)

17) Laughed until you cried: Yes, Yesterday (we were bottle flipping and then someone made a seal noise, don’t even get me started)

18) Found out someone was gossiping about you: Hopefully not, there’s not much to gossip about when it comes to me.

19) Met someone who changed your life: If Discovering MCR counts... then yes.

20) Found out who your true friends are: *Ahem*... yes...

21) Kissed someone on your Facebook list: Haha this list of asks is so funny. what don’t you get about NOT BEEN KISSED EVER... *cries*

HOW MANY/MUCH

22) Facebook friends: like almost 400? idek. (I know them all in person btw, i’m not one of those weirdos that just friends anybody). I barely use FB tbh

23) Pets: oh boy.... I have 6 cats guys... thats right, you can call me the crazy cat lady.

24) Want to change your name: My last name yes. Quick, somebody marry me

WHAT

25) Did I get for my birthday: A Spongebob birthday cake, a Vampire Diaries pillow, depression  um what... I got to eat all my fave foods in one day, that was pretty special even though i threw up at the end of it

26) Time I woke up: like 9:30?

27) Were you doing at midnight: Watching Frerard video edits...

28) Can’t you wait for: FOR ME TO ORDER MCR MERCH AS A TRIBUTE ON MARCH 22 *cries and dies*

29) Was the last time you saw your mom: like 4 hours ago.

30) Was something you wish you could change about your life: I sometimes wish I was born 10 years earlier but then I remember... there’d be no quality memes for a long time...

31) Are you listening to right now: MCR, what else honestly...

32) Gets on your nerves: When people make up those shitty things like “ UR NOT A TRUE FAN UNLESS YOU HAVE THIS OR DO THIS BLAH BLAH” like stfu, I am a fan in my own way. Racists, Homophobes, just basically anyone who thinks they have the right to tell you not to be yourself, like seriously, fuck off.

33) Talked to a person named Tom: My cat is called Tom, so that counts.

34) Is your most visited website: Tumblr, no doubt (or YouTube or guitar tabs, or Putlocker lets be honest)

35) Elementary school/primary school: I can’t even remember tbh and I ain’t tellin you

36) High School: The one I’m at now. Ha, got ya

37) College: n o , I am too young, gosh

38) Hair colour: Brown/ Blonde (streaks, naturally from sun lmao)

39) Long/short hair: I just cut it all off this year. Think 1920′s hair and that’s me.

40) Crush: There’s a cute guy in my chem class but that’s about it #foreveralone

41) Do you like about yourself: My final wakeup call of music interests. I used to be so shallow in that department. Um.... I guess I like the fact that I get on better with older people (I skipped a year at school so all my classmates are a year older anyways) idek. There’s not really much to like.

42) Piercings: 1 on each ear (i’m thinking of getting a second set) But I barely wear earrings tbh

43) Blood type: Idk, it would be cool to know tho

44) Nickname: Some of my friends call me Em but barely. Emy / Emz by family (if any of you call me that, it’ll be weird lmao) PLEASE START A TREND...CALL ME EM

45) Relationship status: single as a pringle and not ready to mingle please i have anxiety *daydreams about meeting perfect boy*

46) Zodiac: Scorpio yeah boi

47) Pronouns: she/her

48) Favourite show: Supernatural, Miraculous Ladybug (don’t call me a kid for watching it I swear I’ll end u ahaha), Rick and Morty, The Vampire Diaries... I could go on for days

49) Tattoos: I always think they’re a cool concept but i’d probably chicken out at the last minute, so no

50) Left or right handed: right

FIRST

51) Surgery: I got a tooth removed quite a few years back, I went under genral anaesthetic and everything.

52) Piercings: Ears

53) Best friend: Gabby, We don’t talk anymore sadly but I still love her <3

54) Sport: Ummm well i’ve always loved badminton but i’ve never taken a serious sport class before lmao

55) Vacation: I’m pretty sure it was to Melbourne, Australia, We saw some really cool outdoor art and went to see Wicked at some theater, that’s all I remember.

56) Pair of shoes: Say wat?

RIGHT NOW

57) Eating: I wish I was eating

58) Drinking: the dead souls of my enemies wait what

59) I am about to: Rearrange my sitting position and continue to write this long ass ask thing.

60) Listening to: The End, My Chemical Romance

61) Waiting for: My sis to get home so I can use her credit card to buy MCR merch, no really, this is the truth. I n e e ed it

62) Want to see: MCR get back together in 2019 for at least a reunion song or SOMETHING PLEASE. Also, a Panic! concert because I missed the last one in my country. ALSO a Supernatural Convention

63) Want to get married: Well it would be nice, gotta find a guy first, there’s the hard part

64) Career: I never know... I like to think that my dream is to be in a band but that aint ever gonna happen. I really wanna do something that can help people idek.

WHICH IS BETTER

65) Hugs/kisses: Well i’ve never kissed anyone and I lOvE HuGs, THEY ARE JUST SO NICE, LIKE AHHH GIMME UR LOVE, GIMME HUUUGGSSS. If I ever meet any of you in person, I’ll be really shy, but know deep down that all I wanna do is HUG YOU SNDKJGSND.

66) Lips/eyes: Eyes hold secrets, I love them

67) Taller/shorter: gimme da toll peeps, But I love the smol beans too

68) Younger/older: It depends

69) Romantic/spontaneous: probably spontaneous just to keep me on my toes.

70) Nice arms/nice stomach: um wat? idek i dont pay attention to that

71) Sensitive/loud: Sensitive

72) Hookup/relationship: Relationship definitely 

73) Troublemaker/hesitant: Hesitant alien

HAVE YOU EVER

74) Kissed a stranger: W h A t  D o N t   Y o U   g E t   A b O u T  i T... I AINT KISSED NOBODY BEFORE. gosh, way to rub it in *cries*

75) Drank hard liquor: well. i’ve tried some heavy stuff before but it was a sip and I spat it out coz it literally tasted like p o i s o n. Alcohol is so gross

76) Lost glasses/contact lenses: Don’t need glasses

77) Turned someone down: ??? There hasn’t been anyone to turn down god damnit

78) Canoodling on a first date: They gotta earn that, so no

79) Broken someone’s heart: I sure as hell hope not.

80) Had your own heart broken: mcr breaks my heart E V E R Y GOD DAMN DAY

81) Been arrested: no, I am a good gal

82) Cried when someone died: yes, my grandmother

83) Fallen for a friend: Oh boy, yesyesyes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

84) Yourself: Not really, but I want to.

85) Miracles: I wish for them but I don’t really think they occur

86) Santa Claus: No, I actually never believed in him when I think about it

87) Kisses on a first date: YAS when it’s been all perfect and he walks ya up to your door ABJISLBHDLBHLA

88) Angels: um... Castiel???

89) Love at first sight: Yes but not like first sight, more like first discussion, when you can instantly click with someone in that first moment idk.

OTHER

90) Best friend’s name: Can I just list all my tumblr friends names? Because YOU GUYS ARE ACTUALLY ALL MY FAVES, YOU DON’T EVEN KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU <3

91) Eye color: Grey Blue

92) Favourite movie: idek there are so many but: The Abduction Club, is one of my faves, Singin’ in the Rain, Sing Street, and that’s all that’s coming to mind atm.

I tag: (all my BEAUTIFUL AMAZING tumblr frens I mentioned before) @omg-i-cannot-even @shipsareamazing123 @mychemicalchinchilla @potterlock5ever @immacrazyfangirl @trashholeofshittybandstuff @shadowgirl077 @that-awkward-fangirl @lizbeth-loves-bobear @anyone i forgot and anyone who wants to do it! go ahead! <3

[officialflowergirl]

ok last one

1: Is there a boy/girl in your life? lots 2: Think of the last person who hurt you; do you forgive them? yyes of course 3: What do you think of when you hear the word "meow?" die antword 4: What"s something you really want right now? :C 5: Are you afraid of falling in love? i hope that doesnt happen again it was a Pain 6: Do you like the beach? yes! 7: Have you ever slept on a couch with someone else? yes!! new years!! with sarah (red?) 8: What’s the background on your cell? just pretty 9: Name the last four beds you were sat on? mine, sc’s, some rando at a frat, anddddddd? jennifer probably 10: Do you like your phone? yea mostly 11: Honestly, are things going the way you planned? Hell Nope 12: Who was the last person whose phone number you added to your contacts? taylor [cigarette emoji] [virgo symbol] 13: Would you rather have a poodle or a Rottweiler? POODLE 14: Which hurts the most, physical or emotional pain? physical lmao 15: Would you rather visit a zoo or an art museum? art museum 16: Are you tired? perpetually 17: How long have you known your 1st phone contact? since i got my phone prob 18: Are they a relative? yea my sis 19: Would you ever consider getting back together with any of your exes? All Of Them (1 exception) 20: When did you last talk to the last person you shared a kiss with? currently 21: If you knew you had the right person, would you marry them today? no wtf 22: Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? ok 23: How many bracelets do you have on your wrists right now? none 24: Is there a certain quote you live by? do all things with kindness 25: What’s on your mind? someone i like, also ren, obv 26: Do you have any tattoos? 2!! a sun & a matching cloud w/ren 27: What is your favorite color? PINK 28: Next time you will kiss someone on the lips? :C idk 29: Who are you texting? ren and nike 30: Think to the last person you kissed, have you ever kissed them on a couch? i dont think so? 31: Have you ever had the feeling something bad was going to happen and you were right? idk 32: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to? yea 33: Do you think anyone has feelings for you? yea 34: Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes? someone wrote a poem about them :C i cant read it anymore but it’s saved somehwere 35: Say the last person you kissed was kissing someone right in front of you? finally 36: Were you single on Valentines Day? i sure was 37: Are you friends with the last person you kissed? yes! 38: What do your friends call you? dallas 39: Has anyone upset you in the last week? me 40: Have you ever cried over a text? probably 41: Where’s your last bruise located? knees 42: What is it from? i dont know it was just there one day 43: Last time you wanted to be away from somewhere really bad? the Earth 44: Who was the last person you were on the phone with? ren ofc 45: Do you have a favourite pair of shoes? no theyre all shit :( 46: Do you wear hats if your having a bad hair day? yes i love my caps 47: Would you ever go bald if it was the style? only if it was like WIDELY common and having hair was the “other” 48: Do you make supper for your family? no lmao 49: Does your bedroom have a door? yes wtf 50: Top 3 web-pages? tumbl, fb, okc 51: Do you know anyone who hates shopping? probably 52: Does anything on your body hurt? [dramatic music] my heart 53: Are goodbyes hard for you? no, i have the inteernet and fb and snapchat and texting, its fine 54: What was the last beverage you spilled on yourself? fireball 55: How is your hair? long and black 56: What do you usually do first in the morning? groan 57: Do you think two people can last forever? yes ofc! 58: Think back to January 2007, were you single? l m a o 59: Green or purple grapes? green 60: When’s the next time you will give someone a BIG hug? shrug 61: Do you wish you were somewhere else right now? seattle 62: When will be the next time you text someone? today 63: Where will you be 5 hours from now? probably still this same spot 64: What were you doing at 8 this morning. slep 65: This time last year, can you remember who you liked? i cannot actually 66: Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile? no 67: Did you kiss or hug anyone today? no :/ 68: What was your last thought before you went to bed last night? AU G HHHHHHHHHHHH 69: Have you ever tried your hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end? yes every day oof my Life 70: How many windows are open on your computer? 1, w/3 tabs 72: What is your ringtone? generic 73: How old will you be in 5 months? 22 74: Where is your Mum right now? slep 75: Why aren’t you with the person you were first in love with or almost in love? “what question can we come up with to hurt her just by reading it” 76: Have you held hands with somebody in the past three days? yea 77: Are you friends with the people you were friends with two years ago? yes! 78: Do you remember who you had a crush on in year 7? no one they were all awful 79: Is there anyone you know with the name Mike? nope 80: Have you ever fallen asleep in someones arms? yes :) 81: How many people have you liked in the past three months? i counted 11 lmao 82: Has anyone seen you in your underwear in the last 3 days? yea 83: Will you talk to the person you like tonight? probably not 84: You’re drunk and yelling at hot guys/girls out of your car window, you’re with? i would never BUT its...its ren 85: If your BF/GF was into drugs would you care? yes i would be so happy abt it 86: What was the most eventful thing that happened last time you went to see a movie? decided to cosplay her 87: Who was your last received call from? ren 88: If someone gave you $1,000 to burn a butterfly over a candle, would you? no $1000 is nothing i cant even pay for 1 class i wouldnt take a life for UNDER A SINGLE CLASS r u kidding me 89: What is something you wish you had more of? money (and friends and beautyand death) 90: Have you ever trusted someone too much? [strained emoji] 91: Do you sleep with your window open? no 92: Do you get along with girls? yes! 93: Are you keeping a secret from someone who needs to know the truth? no one needs to know JACK 94: Does sex mean love? no wtf 95: You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, is that a problem? no 96: Have you ever kissed anyone with a lip ring? i dont think so? 97: Did you sleep alone this week? not every day 98: Everybody has somebody that makes them happy, do you? yes! 99: Do you believe in love at first sight? no 100: Who was the last person that you pinky promised? prob sc

[keratonin]

I was tagged by @hesitantlyhuman in 3 different tags :D so I’m gonna put them under the cut! b/c they’re l o n g. thank you!!

i am tagging: @mydazedandconfusedworld @galacticcactus @intergalacticbattleweasel and if you want to do it and haven’t been tagged just do it and say i tagged you :)

1.

Five Things You’ll Find In My Bag:

1. cinnamon gum

2. keys

3. old show tickets (because i always shove them in my bag and forget to take them out again. currently i have the king and i and finding neverland. there may be more. who knows.)

4. those nylon fake sock things that you get at shoe stores

5. a pen

Five Things You’ll Find In My Bedroom:

1. bookshelf #1 (bookshelf for novels and psych books)

2. bookshelf #2 (bookshelf for notebooks/journals and scripts and language/writing books)

3. assorted sweatshirts and shirts from different shows

4. a lot of turtle figurines

5. ceiling mobiles :)

Five Things I Want To Do With My Life:

1. get an a+ in my math class this year out of spite

2. perform and get paid for it

3. publish another novel since i Do Not Like the first one i published

4. live abroad for a while

5. join an a cappella group

Five Things That Make Me Happy:

1. cats

2. sparkly nail polish

3. color coding

4. post-its that actually stick for longer than a couple minutes

5. choirs that blend perfectly

Five Things On My To-Do List:

1. writing ficlets for sharp zero

2. check obsessively to see if the roster for a show choir i auditioned for is up yet

3. rewrite an essay so it’s better

4. watch the voice

5. prepare for musical rehearsal

Five Things People May Not Know About Me:

1. i hate anything and everything produced by heinz

2. i’ve been dancing since i was two and somehow i’m still not that great

3. i really like wrapping gifts

4. i played my choir director once in a school musical

5. sometimes i can’t read my own writing so i just guess

2.

nicknames: emmy (my name is amelia), but people also call me various nicknames such as em, mel, birl, and earhart lol

star sign: pisces

height: 5'6″

sexual orientation: honestly?? just question marks all around. i’m gray-ace & all about that aesthetic attraction but other than that?????? idk

ethnicity: white

current time: 7:49 PM

last thing i googled: durga puja

favorite music artist(s): two steps from hell, i guess? idk i don’t think about that much

song stuck in my head: guns and ships (from hamilton yay)

last movie i watched: idk if this counts but the live broadcast of newsies? it was in a movie theater so i’m gonna say it counts as a movie

last tv show i watched: the voice

what i’m wearing rn: jeans, a pink and gray shirt, school sweatshirt, gray converse, lots of jewelry

blog created: like 2.5 years ago or something like that

follower count: 422 but i have no idea how many of those are porn blogs, sometimes i go through and block them but i haven’t done that in a while

why did i choose my url: bc i wanted to change my url and i didn’t have the faintest idea what it might be

gender: female

hogwarts house: ravenclaw :)))))

average hours of sleep: like 7 or something

lucky number: probably 8

favorite characters: SO MANY OK

dream job: either working as an editor/in a publishing house or performing

number of blankets i sleep with: a sheet, a light blanket, and a comforter

favorite fruit: mandarin oranges

favorite season: winter

favorite book: don’t make me choose

favorite flower: i really like calla lilies & azaleas

favorite scent: vanilla

favorite color: idk i like pastels and also dark colors

favorite animal: crow

coffee, tea, or hot cocoa: tea

cat or dog person: mmmmm cats

dream trip: some city where i can short-term rent an apartment and just not be productive

3.

1: Are you named after someone?

my mother wanted to name me after amelia earhart, my father wanted to name me after a book character whose first name was amelia, they came to an agreement :)

2: When was the last time you cried?

two days ago lol

3: Do you like your handwriting?

i do... except when it’s illegible

4: What is your favorite lunch meat?

nah

5: Do you have kids?

nope

6: If you were another person, would you be friends with you?

i think so? i would at least respect me, which is good

7: Do you use sarcasm?

??? is this a trick question??

8: Do you still have your tonsils?

yes unless something happened to them that i’m unaware of, which i doubt

9: Would you bungee jump?

no thanks

10: What is your favorite kind of cereal?

i am a big fan of cheerios

11: Do you untie your shoes when you take them off?

yes, but after they’re off (so that i won’t have to untie them when i have to put them back on, since i’ve tried and failed to put them on with them tied already)

12: Do you think you’re a strong person?

depends

13: What is your favourite ice cream? Ever, ever?

coffee!!!! from haagen dasz!!!! or dazs? however you spell that

14: What is the first thing you notice about people?

how energetic they are

15: What is the least favorite physical thing you like about yourself?

i feel like there’s not much you can do if you have unattractive ears besides get surgery so i’m glad that my ears are unremarkable? i guess?

16: What color pants and shoes are you wearing now?

blue jeans, gray shoes

17: What are you listening to right now?

.............hamilton

18: If you were a crayon, what color would you be?

i think i’d be either a bright green or light gray idk

19: Favorite smell?

vanilla

20: Who was the last person you spoke to on the phone?

my dad telling him i actually did have rehearsal that day

21: Favorite sport to watch?

...hockey? i don’t really watch sports but the one i’m most likely to watch is hockey without a doubt

22: Hair color?

dark blond, but i’ve got like browner areas and blonder areas

23: Eye color?

grayish blue

24: Do you wear contacts?

yes, but only in my right eye

25: Favorite food to eat?

well made bagels

26: Scary movies or comedy?

comedy omg i can barely handle the wimpiest of jump scares

27: Last movie you watched?

broadcast of the revival of newsies

28: What color of shirt are you wearing?

pink and gray

29: Summer or winter?

winter

30: Hugs or kisses?

hugs

31: What book are you currently reading?

i’m not reading any original fic rn because i am DEVOTING myself to finishing way down we go by nekojita, it’s an aftg fic and it’s 621k and i’ve been reading it for over a week and i’m just over halfway but it’s soooo good

32: Who do you miss right now?

zach, probably, but i still see him from time to time sooo

33: What is on your mouse pad?

nothing. nonexistence.

34: What is the last TV program you watched?

the voice

35: What is the best sound?

a kick drum!!!! and a resonating bass line

36: Rolling stones or The Beatles

beatles

37: What is the furthest you have ever traveled?

shanghai

38: Do you have a special talent?

i can do a decent duck quack and it’s great for surprising people (although it’s less of a duck quack than a HHHCHCHCCKCCKKKK sound but w/e)

39: Where were you born?

california :)

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sorry in advance for the work but all of them :)

Sorry about the delay, couldn’t get on a computer and me phone is stubborn and wouldn’t let me copy the questions o.o 1. You woke up naked next to the last person you texted, what would you say? -That would be awkward as fuck considering last person I text was my mum xD

2. What’s going on between you and the last person you kissed?-Nothing o:

3. If your boyfriend or girlfriend was into drugs, would you care?-If I had a boyfriend or girlfriend that would be a miracle. All jokes aside, I mean as long as they were being careful and not taking some weird really dodgy shiz from Big G with no teeth or something I mean I guess it would be okay, as long as they knew what they were doing and it didn’t affect their everyday lives. If it did, then bitches gon be going to rehab to help them and make sure they don’t do the dying. Plus everything is technically a drug.

4. Is your last name longer than six letters?-M8... it’s like 13 or something xD

5. Was your last kiss drunk or sober?-I don’t remember what I did yesterday, never mind what I was like that long ago xD

6. Have you ever wanted to have someone but you messed it up?-Shit happens for a reason, usually its due to not actually telling the other person my feels and them having no idea x3

7. What does your last received text say?-”Kada busas?”

8. How many times have you kissed the last person you kissed?-Once? I think.

9. Where was your last kiss at?-I don’t even remember yo o.o

10. When is the last time you saw your sister?-Right now, she’s sat here, playing her drums x3

11. What do you drink in the morning?-Coffee. All of the coffee. Maybe some water, then some more coffee.

12. Where did you sleep last night?-In me bed, in a blanket burrito.

13. Do you think relationships are hard?-I don’t think so, as long as the other person is like all up for not having a difficult time.

14. If you could go back and change something in the past 5 months, would you?-Nah c: I’ve actually not done much other than quit noodles and get a permanent place at Lush over the past 5 months x3

15. You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, any problems?-Nah.

16. Would you rather it be sunny or rainy?-Can it be neutral? My eyes are sensitive so they water when it’s too sunny which means that my eyeliner does a smudge Q-Q And rain just makes me sleepy...

17. Do you know anyone with the same middle name as you?-I don’t have a middle name o:

18. Are you wearing jeans,sweatpants,or pajama pants?-Tights and thigh-high socks.

19. Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 years from now?-Probably not.

20. Does anyone like you?-I don’t read minds D: very unlikely tho.

21. Have you ever kissed someone with a name that starts with an S?-Idk?!?! Q-Q

22. Is the last person you kissed gay?-I don’t think so o: I mean you never know could be a surprise, but not as far as I am aware.

23. Is there a person you CANNOT stand?-Eh, Trump.

24. Have you ever considered getting a tattoo?-I gots one, and need many more!!

25. In the past week have you cried?-Oh yes. I had to run into the uni toilets to have a breakdown during lesson... that was fun.

26. What breed was the last dog you saw? -Golden retriever... (it was Goldi, he’s cuddling my feets :’3 )

27. Do you dry off in the shower or out of the shower?-Both, yolo.

28. Have you ever kissed a football player?-Nuh.

29. Do you think you’re old?-Nah. I’m actually a 2 year old badger in a human costume.

30. Do you like text messaging?-Better than speaking on the phone o.o

31. What type of day are you having?-I’m not dead! :D AND I’m covered in glitter!! so all is well.

32. Have you ever thought about getting your nose pierced?-I gots me nose pierced.

33. Do you prefer warm or cold weather?-Cold, cause there’s only so many clothes that you can take off before it becomes indecent exposure. Although I do like summer cause I can wear my skirts and shiz without 500 layers on top.

34. Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?-I have a lot of people like that that mean a lot to me.

35. Would you prefer a relationship or a fling?-Relationship.

36. Are you a simple or complicated person?-I don’t even think I’d class myself a person xD

37. What song are you listening to?-None o: Goldi is snoring, so I guess you could class that as singing?

38. When you say you’re sorry do you mean it?-Always!!39. Is there a girl that knows everything or almost everything about you?-Aye. 40. What made you start liking the person you like now?-Idk o:41. When did you last receive a text message?-An hour or so ago.42. What is wrong with you right now?-What ISN’T wrong with me? XD 43. How well do you know the last female you texted?-I mean I’d say I know her pretty well o: She ma momma. 44. Does anyone disgust you?-Some people. 45. Would you date someone right now if they asked?-Depends o: Let’s get married. yolo.46. Are you in a good mood right now?-I have Raffaello, so yeah x3 47. Who was the last person you talked to in person?-Other than famallama, people at work c: 48. What color shirt are you wearing?-Its a black and white dress cause I cba to change from it after coming from work...49. Has someone recently told you something you didn’t want to hear?-Not as far as I am aware. 50. Anyone you’re giving up on?-Not at the mo o: 51. Do you hate the person you fell hardest for?-I wouldn’t say I hate him, people make mistakes and shit happens.

52. Have you ever thought about giving up on someone but couldn’t?-Yes.53. Do you like rain?-If I’m inside, or if it’s really warm summer and I need a dance in the rain. 54. Do you care if your boyfriend/girlfriend drinks?-As long as it’s not excessive and they don’t start being aggressive and stuff. 55. Have you ever liked somebody and never told them?-Yes. 56. Do you like to cuddle?-Yas Q-Q plz. Cuddles.57. Are you shy?-Yes, but I have a fake confidence that I can activate. 58. Do you get along with girls?-Depends if they get along with me x3 I get along with anyone that wants to get along with me c: 59. Have you dated the person you texted last?-Considering it was my momma... that would’ve been weird XD 60. What do you carry with you at all times?-My bag. 61. If you were paid 1 million dollars to spend the night in a supposed haunted house, would you?-Idk man o: I read some sixpence stories and don’t know if I could get myself in that predicament xD 62. Do you think you can last in a relationship for five months?-Yeah as long as the other person is willing to make it work too c: 63. Think back to October, were you in a relationship?-October of which year? xD 3 years ago, yeah, this October, nah. 64. The person you like kisses you on the forehead, do you find this cute?-Yas Q-Q 65. Did anything “cute” happen in the last week?-Sav bought me a new purse cause my pikachu wallet was falling apart Q-Q

66. How old are the last three people you kissed?-M8... I don’t even know how old they’ll be now D:

67. Would you rather pay to get your nails done or do them yourself?   -If I had nails that would be fab, but even if I did, I can’t have my nails did cause of my uni course Q-Q 68. Which do you like better- Zebra print or leopard print?-I prefer all the prints!! c: all da animal!!   69. Do you have any stickers on your car?    -Yas, it says ‘No problem’, and I gots a bulbasaur in a pokeball that I still need to put on c: 70. Would you rather listen to Luke Bryan or Lil Wayne?   -None o.o 71. Blackberry, Anroid, or iPhone?    -Android.72. When’s the last time you had pizza from Pizza Hut?    -Oml, ages ago Q-Q 73. Do you like diet soda?    -Yeah sure why not.74. What color are the walls in your room?    -Black and ivory c:75. Are you 16 or older?    -I am a 21. 76. Do you watch Pretty Little Liars?    -Nah.77. Do you have a job?    -Yas, I left noodles yesterday (very sad time), but now work at Lush c:  78. What are your initials?    -AD.79. Did you ever have braces?    -Yas, I kinda miss them.80. Are you from the south?-I’m from Lithuania... Thats more idk...??? you tell me where that is? XD   

81. What does your last status on facebook say?    -A post about me leaving noodles and how sad I am, and how imma miss them and thanking the team for my present and card Q-Q it was cute. 82. Do you still talk to the first person you ever kissed?    -Nah.83. Are you closer to your mom or your dad?    -Bit of both? Depends on what topic.84. Have you ever done cheerleading or gymnastics?    -Lol no XD Have you seen me??? XD I couldn’t possibly do those xD85. What’s the last movie you saw in theaters?    -Oh gosh... I don’t even remember o: 86. Do you smoke?    -Yas. Sorry.87. Would you rather wear heels or flip flops?    -Boots or trainers.88. Is your phone touch screen?    -Yas.89. Do you normally wear your hair straight or curly?    -Straight if I can, otherwise curly unless I cba to straighten it, then I hide it.90. Have you ever snuck out of your house?   -Yeah. 91. Would you rather swim in a river, lake, or pool?   -I can’t swim... So like... I’ll just dip my feet in x3  92. Have you ever made out in a car?    -Nah.93. …Had sex in a car?  -Nah.  94. Are you single or in a relationship?  -I am a one human.   95. What were you doing last night at midnight? -Sleeping. Luv sleep.    96. When’s the last time you saw fireworks?    -Whenever they were last did on the holidays or something. 97. Do you like the camera on your phone?    -Well it does a job o:98. Have you ever had a friend with benefits?    -Nah.99. Have you ever passed out from drinking? -Nope.   100. Are you friends with people on facebook that you actually hate?  -I don’t think so?   101. Have you ever had a pregnancy scare? -Every female has a pregnancy scare even if they’ve never had sex xD  102. Name your favorite Kesha song:    -Cannibal, but the nightcore version cause I am trash.103. Do you have any tan lines right now?  -m8 I’m pale as Casper the ghost.   104. Would you ever wear cowboy boots with shorts?  -Sure why not. Yolo.  P.s. sorry it took so long D:

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Monday 21 November 1831

8 1/2

2 35/..

L

Fahrenheit 56 1/2º and fineish soft morning at 9 1/2 - seems to have been great deal of rain in the night read a few pp.[pages] of Beechey - breakfast at 10 1/4 - out at 11 50/.. walKed to the 4 mile stone on the Battle road and bacK - did 2 or 3 shoppings, and came in at 3 25/.. - walKed leisurely yet at the rate of a mile in 18 minutes - muggy windy disagreeable day threatening more rain -

till four and twenty five minutes  very stupid and long about it  wrote 3 pp.[pages] and much under seal of 1/2 sheet to ‘madame madame de Hagemann’ to go Thursday evening with miss H-’s[Hobart’s] letter under cover to our chargé d’affaires at Cpenhagen - Kind letter - said I had nothing new to tell, Vere had anticipated me but would not let her send her letter without my adding some weight to what she had written - besides she (madame de H-[Hagemann]) would be glad to hear I really thought we were going very well - no uncomfortable smyptoms just now - hoped we should have a favourable winter - these cold, ill-biult houses not calculated for severe weather - would say nothing of out of doors, but persuaded, madame de H-[Hagemann] would be warmer in doors at Copenhagen, than we should here, tho’ told we have one of the most comfortable houses Hastings affords - I have nothing to do but enjoy myself - Vere takes all the trouble and does it beautifully - what a pity such a gulph between us or what nice evening we (madame de H-[Hagemann] and we) should have! but no gaieties - live in a degree of quiet comfortable wholesomeness that cannot fail to do good to us both - Expect Lady S-[Stuart] by and by - It is great fun and delight to thinK how to shew off our excellencies of houseKeeping - madame de H-Hagemann ought to write to congratulate us - I myself and to myself deserve a note at least as large as those I used to have in Paris - she will do no good by attempting to forget me - promised me potatoes at Copenhagen and the call for the fulfilment of her promise may come in an hour when she thinKs not - hope she ‘will remember me to monsieur de H-[Hagemann], give my love to the children, and believe me always affectionately yours AL-’

had just written the above at 5 3/4 - then went downstairs and staid till 6 20/.. - dressed - dinner at 7 in an hour - a little music coffee at 8 3/4 - won one and lost one hit at bacKgammon - from 10 40/.. to 11 3/4 read aloud from page 218. to 267.end of chapter 14 and 2 1/2 pp.[pages] Chapter 15 Gibbon volume 2 - came upstairs at 12 - damp, mild, windy, disagreeable day - Fahrenheit 64º in my room with a fire now at 12 3/4 tonight -

calculating butthers[butchers] bill and seeing the weekly averagae [sic] consumption of meat in Paris of n[o] way   for my aunt and myself and MacDonald and George  inclu ding weight of sausages once a week  never so much as fifteen pounds   and here Cameron thinks less cannot do than twenty one pounds a week for only hersel[f] and Norbury and George exclusive of Miss H-[Hobart] and soup - from Saturday 5 to tonight 21 November inclusive we have consumed 105 lbs 11 oz. of meat includ[in]g 27 lb. 1 oz. meat of soup - i.e. 6. lb. 2+15/17 oz., per day - meat at 7d.[pence] altogether would = 61s/9d but the 2 bills only come to 2£.18s.5d or 0£.3s.5 4/17d per day - then out of the 17 days miss H-[Hobart] dined 4 days on 2 fowls and 5 or 6 days on fish, and I eat no meat at all, except what I take to make the soup -