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slowandsteddie · 3 months

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Guess who was finally able to write a smut scene again!!!

It’s been months since I’ve been able to be comfortable enough to do so.

No nausea, no disassociation, no panic attacks!!

#personal #mental health #finally able to write smut again #it’s a little thing but I’m so happy rn #prob will delete later

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malt-rants-and-stuff · 3 months

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“The shivering in his ribs stops, but the warmth reminds him of how much they ache. A hand reaches out from behind him and tangles around strands of bleached hair.”

It’s 3 am for me which means HAPPY BIRTHDAY TASHIRO MY BEST FRIEND TASHIRO!!!! Take this art as an offering to your awesomeness

#I have other things planned but I’m a little behind so be on the look out #take this for rn it took like 30 minutes because im on a horror movie binge for inspiration. totally unrelated to the things I have planned #Anyways #WOOOO HAPPY BIRTHDAY TASHIROOOOOOOO #dont look at this too closely I did it lineless tired and in the dark plus tumblr killed the quality #tashiro gonzaburou #hanzawa to tashiro #sasaki and miyano #sasaki to miyano #hanzawa masato #you cant really see much of him but yeah #malt rants #malt arts #digital art #fanart #Gonna pass out now night night gang

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ambrosiagourmet · 4 months

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One thing about me is that I love foreshadowing so very much and if i don’t set up at least 2-3 things in every chapter to pay off later then I explode

#there’s a mention of a oddity in the treasury books in chapter 3 that secretly set something up for chapter 4. for example #I know it’s not nearly at the level of ms kui but I do try and strive for dunmeshi levels of consistency and payoff in my stuff #there’s things I’ve already set up that won’t payoff until the climax and that makes me so happy it’s fun #it helps me find energy to write its like :3 my little treat that I’ve left for myself :3 #idk how obvious it is to anyone but me I do often struggle not to make stuff Too Obscure but #I like to think that at least subconsciously it helps make things feel like a consistent world #nrbts #< not exclusively but that’s what I’m thinking about rn #I’m posting this to help keep myself from actually wanting to blab secrets see this is why I have trouble DMing #I just want to talk about stuff!! all the time!

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ohitslen · 1 year

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Hm. Uncanny valley Vash. Thoughts.

#have I been drawing for the uni au? yea. did I loose the files in an unfortunate incident I won’t elaborate on? also yea #it made me really sad because it was a funny bit. and I could recreate it but mm I don’t feel like it rn #so it’ll take some time. however ☝️#I do feel like drawing. and I have! but for myself like I always do. sharing some stuff here is a courtesy 🤨#OQNENWK JK well. half kidding. I entirely draw for myself and I’m happy it reaches ppl who like it too! and now #I’m hoping to reach cryptic Vash enjoyers because my god YES.#it’s the best thing ever because honestly. same I also am an uncanny creature (idk what is socially okay sometimes without being too weird #about it. I know you get it. you’re in tumblr)#and actually wouldn’t it be funny if at some point the people who know Vash just brush it off eventually as #“oh is Vash just staring into the void and suddenly went walking away?? haha oh yeah typical Vash’’#like it’s the most normal thing ever. but it still puts people a little off #I love me some weird Vash :)#trigun #vash the stampede #trigun stampede #vash #lenssi rambles

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disappointeddyke · 25 days

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Absolutely no motivation to unpack my apartment after the past week I’ve had and I’m trying not to be so tough on myself but I’m still sleeping on my mattress on my floor and living out of my suitcase and I’m just starting to feel so disorganized and icky which I know won’t go away until I unpack

#I’ve been trying to get a few little things done here and there after work but I’ve been so fucking dead #I slept almost all day Monday when I had work off #then I had an appointment with my psychiatrist after work yesterday #which I had to do in a park on my phone since my wifi isn’t set up in my apartment yet and I have no service in there either #and I have to leave work early for another doctors appointment today #and then therapy tonight #and I really need to pick some prescriptions up that I’m completely out of but haven’t had time to before the pharmacy closes #and I desperately need to do laundry but my new apartment only takes coins for laundry and the bank is always close before I get out of work #all on top of so many other things happening in my life rn #I just feel like a damn mess #I want to lay in bed with someone to keep me company while they play with my hair and we watch happy comfort movies

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reflectionsofgalaxies · 1 month

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coping with things so well today so i’m bragging about it ✨

#had a SMALL emotional reaction to something but then like breathed through it and was very normal #and then something that might’ve made me feel kinda alone and insecure a year or two ago #actually just made me feel happy which is a MUCH preferable reaction #and one that matches the reaction in my head #my emotions are not me #they tell me things but they’re only a piece of the puzzle and I can still decide how I process things beyond the immediate emotions #also did a bunch more organizing of my stuff for packing #and wrote things in my planner for the first few weeks of school #I already have several plans and events!!!!#and instead of pushing someone away I suggested some plans a few months away #bc that gives both of us kinda a sense of security in the friendship?#they’re worried about losing me with me going back to school #and I’m worried about losing them bc they have kinda a major obsession w/ someone else rn #(which is pretty cute when my brain isn’t being an insecure dick)#so this makes us both be like ‘even if things change we still have plans and our friendship will withstand those changes’#anyway gonna get ready to go walk up a big hill for fresh air #today has been a good day overall #OH AND ANOTHER FRIEND DROPPED BY OUT OF THE BLUE #AND GAVE ME A HAND SEWN EMBROIDERED CHARM FOR BACK-TO-SCHOOL!!!!#and a little card about how they’re proud of me and will be there for me on this journey!#god now I’m gonna cry #I have the most amazing friends in the whole freakin world #personal

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collectivecloseness · 10 months

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Ok I’ve been working on some fics/blurbs rn, but Spotify wrapped day is here and I am LIVING for it. So if you send me a number between 1-100 and either a fandom (ST/Spree) or a character I’ll write a blurb about them x reader with whatever number it corresponds to hahaha

#also if u send in a fandom it means that the song might match a stranger things character a lot more and it makes for a better story!#eg ‘stranger things’ and I get master of puppets at that number for eddie or Mrs Robinson for Joyce or smth bwahaha #so sending in Stranger Things/Spree may lead to better songs for the characters! but if u only like a certain character I get that too hahah #little things like this really help my motivation and I love doing them #also a lot of my top 100 are from character playlists so that’s v helpful bwahaha #but I just thought it might be a fun little thing as I’m posting more again soon #I’m working on a Kurt citrussy request rn bwaha and then there’s a good stranger things one I wanna hop on 👀#but if anyone feels like sending one in pls go ahead! I think it could be fun (or have the weirdest disastrous consequences)#stranger things #spree 2020 #cc chats #these are the characters I write for again! and am happy to do polys eg steddie fruity four ronance etc etc #Eddie Munson x reader #Steve Harrington x reader #Robin Buckley x reader #Nancy wheeler x reader #Joyce Byers x reader #Kurt Kunkle x reader

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01tsubomi · 1 month

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8/15/2024!!

japan is being mauled by typhoons right now and it’s rained every single day all week, and then the morning of august 15th was somehow sunny and blisteringly hot. like, out of nowhere, legitimately scorching. it felt dangerous just to be out on the street. very powerful of jin to make that happen

because i was traveling it wasn’t the most kagepro-y 815 i’ve ever spent (it’s actually probably the least i’ve thought about kagepro out of all 11 815s i’ve celebrated). still it’s a special day so i had to do something. most shrines in japan have “traffic safety” blessings as part of the standard lineup alongside good health and good fortune so i bought one from the shrine i visited. which made me giggle. happy 815!!!!!

#i think i’m soooo funny for the traffic safety thing tbh #it’s dumb but i was happy to find a way to think of kagepro within the plans i had that day #as I’m sure is obvious I do still come back to kagepro every now and then. we know it’s not leaving #ily kagepro ily kagepro fandom and ily 815 celebrators!!#happy heat haze day!#815 daze it #personal #it was actually sort of a coincidence that i ended up in morioka #i was gonna meet a friend a little further south but we cancelled bc of the weather #i’d booked a hotel in morioka so the train journey’d be a little shorter the next day and ended up staying 2 nights #somehow putting me in the sunniest weather i’d had all week #ik morioka is having a moment rn because of that nyt article but i have to agree it’s a really nice city

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acebytaemin · 11 months

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my god i just woke up from THE most detailed gentle and heartbreaking dream about jinki im in my bed like 😮 what was THAT

#so it was way too detailed for me to get into everything but it started with him being sad and like not wanting to speak to anyone #and i was sitting on the floor doing some writing & was like hi come here so he sat down like in between my legs and rested against me #i asked if he wanted to talk but he didn’t so i let it be and kept writing but couldn’t really focus #and then minho got there and was like ‘oh good he’s here’ and i was like what happened #and minho explained that like they were planning to do a world tour and album as shinee but jinki didn’t want to participate bc of the way #it was being handled #like there was a promo poster that was super insensitive towards jonghyun too #and a bunch of other things and then it flashed back to jinki filming a teaser for the tour and it was super intricate and too much for me #to type up right now but he looked so happy & smiley #like to make a point that he had wanted to be there until all the shit went down #and then it flashed back to me holding him and i stopped writing (or pretending to anyway) and just held him #there was no minho at that point and it felt like it was hours #and now i’m up and Shaken a little. not to be off the rails you’ll understand as I’m still affected by the dream but like it was so nice to #see him smile im still feeling the feeling like. relief and joy whew whatever he’s doing rn i hope he takes all the time in the world if he #needs/wants to & im grateful to have seen him smile even as a dream

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decembermoonskz · 10 months

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update on flirty idiot that I may have a mini crush on bc I can

#izzy.txt★#he invited me to hang with him for my bday (like on a discord vc) and we chatted a ton about random shit #he said happy bday to me and I just felt so relaxed laughing and joking with him #it was really fun and I also got to talk with one of his frens who I also really like bc she’s so fucking sweet #it was just such a nice chill end to my bday and even tho I said my bday was technically over bc it was past midnight #he was still like ‘well still happy bday’ and idk it’s so mundane but I was like >/////<#and I was like it’s my bday week and he agreed it was hhhh #and he was still his normal playful fun and flirty self and I wanted to kick my feet #he also said ily to me but it wasn’t like a deep one so it’s not a confession it was just like that playful love youuu~ toy of thing #and I said it back and then I hesitated bc I was like WAIT THATS TOO SOON WE JUST MET AND WE ARENT A THING AND I WAS OVERTHINKING #but like he didn’t mention it so I think he thought I was just playing too so I’m glad bc I wasn’t trying to mean anything by it rn HAHAHAHA #I was so nervous lemme tell you like WAIT WAS THAT TOO MUCH TO SAY IT BACK???#anyways I sent him a ty for spending time with me and he sent a little hug gif and just ugh idk im a happy girl #he’s so fucking lame too like he’s just some dude but ugh I’m crushing I can tell #I won’t get ahead of myself tho bc it’s way too soon but like hhhhh it’s nice having a flirty experience like this

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lambentplume · 6 months

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yapping aimlessly tonight

#jaerambles #i just have a lot in my brain!!#anyway i keep getting asked what i would want to do in an ideal situation. if money and time and stuff were no object #i really do think it would be just aimless learning.#like learning new crafts. reading without having to respond to it. sponging up knowledge without the expectation to Say Things #it feels a bit. selfish.#but i don’t really have an endpoint to reach nor do i have something to say. like i just want to acquire experiences and learn things #i get really nervous when people ask me what makes me happy because i don’t know. i know what makes me uncomfortable and scared though #i would also like the ability to just change my situation a lot as much as i want. moving to new places and leaving when i don’t like them #trying new professions without having to stick to them or work up a ladder #drop everything for a weekend to go see friends. things like that.#i say all these things as though i haven’t been too afraid to leave my house for the past 6 months djfjdjfjdjfjjd #i’m trying to be less avoidant lately though. like ideal situations are not my reality!#real life is me being too scared to think of possibilities so in reality i just have to take the tiniest steps back to normalcy #ppl with the jae lore remember when my commute to school was literally 5000 miles #or when i worked two jobs and was so about the grind because i had a reason to want the money #like i used to have So much going on. and now i don’t. and i don’t know what i am in the absence of being Busy #there’s still so much i don’t understand abt bpd1 i’m so scared of making changes too suddenly because i HATE who i was in august #or not who i was. what i was doing.#but now i’ve swung the other direction and i do nothing 😭 i don’t feel like i’m Living rn #i feel like i’ve started all over again. i almost had it i was gonna do two internships and keep doing my cute little barista job #and have a senior year that was gonna be about growing and finishing strong #and then of course my maladjusted ass sees [irreversible change event] and like. yknow #this keeps. happening to me. i want to be so much better than this 😭😭😭

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whumpy-wyrms · 7 months

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hey guys

#man i am such a sleepy fella rn #i sure hope i’m not a clone and the real me doesn’t come into my room and kill me tonight!#/j #genuinely thank u all for ur reactions. like u all are excited to read new chapters and IM excited to read ur reactions #its always my favorite part #makes me so happy to see people enjoying my characters and story it’s literally a dream come true like wow #i’m so happy people like chapter 14 and thanks for all the amazing comments and stuff it makes me sooo happy #i’m too eepy but yeah that’s what i wanted to say :)#wyrms says stuff #i’ve also had anton brainrot specifically him as a Little Guy so i might finally finish that borrower basil au thing when they first meet #cuz it’s super wholesome and i think u all need that LOLLL #also. only like 7 of you will know what i’m talking about but anton as a kid is literally just louie in a different font like wow they are #soooo similar #not present day anton tho. just him as a little guy #literally him and louie would’ve been best friends AUGHH MY HEART #i’m gonna draw them interacting because that would literally heal me that would change my life #none of you understand how important this is to me like. holy shit #anyway reminder that things might be rough for dew right now haha but he gets a happy ending don’t stress abt it!!#the next 4 chapters specially might be a bit darker than usual #but then mystery character!!!!!!!! FUCK YESSS!!!!!!#excited :)

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deityofhearts · 8 months

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anyways not to be dramatique but like I’m starting to feel slightly more grounded lately and like I’m allowed to be hopeful for things and like stuff is finally going to start looking up and it makes me happy enough to cry

#deity dialogue #things aren’t great and all my problems aren’t solved but I feel like I have a semblance of control over my future somewhat #and I’ve never felt that way before #I’m about to have a job I have plans for my future which feel more tangible now #I’m still gonna be super sad at times because that I simply inherent to my being rn but like #things are getting better I’m gonna get my shit together and be so happy and okay lmao #I just can’t wait for like life to feel like it’s worth living more and more #lmao #I’m never hopeful about things so it’s nice and scary to be even a little bit hopeful for the future

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kendallroygf · 1 year

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the thing is. yeah kendall feels like his whole life now is worth nothing. the one thing he was always meant to do, since he was seven years old he now cannot do. he will never get to do it. so he might as well die, right? he might as well end it all but the thing is life is never that kind nor generous. so i think kendall will try and fail. and he’ll try again and again but the world will keep its grip on him and eventually he’ll just stop trying. and yeah maybe he’ll never be a whole person (we’re nothing) maybe he’ll take logan’s advice and collect sports cars or write a book or start a new company but either way he’ll be forced to start anew. kendall logan roy died it’s just kendall now. and this outcome in itself is generous in a way because circumstances out of his control have kind of forced him to hold some accountability for his own life finally instead of counting on broken promises his father made him at 7 years old. he’s actually being forced to Be instead of just living up to someone else’s name. and he actually has people around him who still undoubtedly care. he’s sick and horrible and twisted but he is still ultimately lovable. he is still a human being weeping on the dirty ground even though he has spent so long trying not to be. even though he recanted the very thing that made him Real. the world will simply not relinquish its hold on him! tragic but somewhat hopeful in a way

#like he’s never going to be happy. never ever. but being content or even ambivalent to your life is different than being happy and i truly #think kendall could get there at some point. something about the world forcing you to go on. i like how his last scene was surrounded by #earth and water. things that are Materially Real compared to kendall himself who is Not Real. like i think while some things can’t be #repaired it’s not too late for him to be a little bit involved in his kids lives. maybe a few years down the line. rava still cares about #him and offers him so much kindness even when she shouldn’t. he will have stewy forever like. stewy will love him forever. give roman a few #months. ultimately i think roman will push kendall away at first bc he spent this whole season maintaining his family out of Necessity and #i think kendall and roman have got to a place where it’s a bit sick. and roman will come around but he needs some time and so does kendall.#but ultimately they’ll be okay.#with shiv it’s like. well. god. like kendall will never ever be able to look tom in the eye ever. but i think they will not talk for years #maybe. but they’ll ache for each other a little bit. but also the resent and anger and hurt gets in the way. but i think give it like. 10 #years or idk maybe even less but 10 seems good to me. and they’ll slowly start to let each other in again. i think the three of them will #grow old together like ultimately they’ll always be kids when they’re with each other ykwim.#but idk i think kenshiv will be okay in the end jus rn it’s bleak asf. i think at different times in the next few years they will Try with #each other but the other will be so resistant but there will be a time where they’re just both so Tired and when tom dies shiv will call #kendall first even though they maybe haven’t spoken for god knows how long and he will be with her on the phone. and when connor passes away #they will hold hands again and idk. they’ll be okay. broken but okay.#anyway. i’m so over this <- girl who will never ever be over it #kendall

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an-akward-ace · 1 year

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Me seeing my original post (which usually get 0-3 notes) related to a non fandom passion of mine extremely quickly become my most popular post (both original and not):

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#thank yall #i know it’s cringey and cliche #but i’ve just had so many good things happen to me this week that i’m so freaking happy about the little things rn #AKSBFICJDJICJSJD #i love cooking so seeing one of my few original recipes do well is so heartwarming

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stillcominback · 1 year

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💖💖💖

#i know i’ve been quiet but *sees last post* life’s just been a lot lately! 🤪#BUT i’m feeling a little better a day at a time #being in the office is rough but i’m hoping it’ll get a little easier as i kinda feel my feels and stuff #big thank you to all of you who’ve chatted with me or reached out or literally just been here at all #your support and kindness really means SO much to me #like always but especially right now when i’m probably the most overwhelmed i’ve ever been???#🥺🥺🥺#it’s still really hard but I’m starting to believe there’s a ‘future me’ who’s happier and more settled and onto better things #just THANK YOU to all of you for being amazing support and friends 🥺💖#AND PLS i may not be at my best rn as far as reaching out but #plsssss feel free to hmu on IMs or discord because i’d love to still plot and chat!! i miss it!#I’m also happy to write on discord (or do little things on the ic wires I have!)#ANYWAY!! off to bed I gooooo 🛌💖 LOVE U ALL MWAH #00. // OUT OF AMMO ( OOC POST. )

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