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Through the Dust
Alexia Putellas x DownhillRacer!Reader
It wasn't supposed to happen. The sport, the risks, the focus - none of it was meant for distractions.
But somewhere between the thrill of the race and the quiet moments shared on the mountainside, you couldn't help but wonder..
Did you really fall for her?
This is a multichapter fic, and trust me, youâre in for one wild ride. No warnings so far.
Word count: 973
The air was thick with the scent of pine and damp earth, the morning mist rolling down the mountainsides, lingering over the tracks. The trails were slick from last nightâs rain, and the rocks glistened with a wet sheen. You adjusted your helmet, fingers quick and practiced, securing each strap as you readied yourself at the starting line. Your breath fogged up as you exhaled, and you could already feel the familiar burn of adrenaline beginning to spread through your veins.
Todayâs training session was criticalâa final tune-up before the upcoming World Cup race. The last one of the season, and if everything went right, it could be the one that would define your career. Around you, other riders were focused on their routines, checking tires, adjusting brakes, psyching themselves up with little rituals and half-spoken mantras.
Somewhere in the crowd, you noticed a group of women in navy blue tracksuits watching from the sidelines. A few had phones out, recording snippets of the racers as they tore down the course. It was unusual to see spectators this close to the training grounds, but you quickly shrugged it off, too focused on your run to pay much attention.
What you didnât know was that they were FC Barcelona FemenĂ, the world-renowned womenâs football team, here for some preseason team-building. It wasnât every day that they found themselves in a remote mountain resort, surrounded by some of the best downhill racers in the world. And among them, Alexia Putellas stood with her arms crossed, watching the racers with a skeptical look in her eyes.
âWhatâs the appeal?â she murmured to her teammate, Mapi LeĂłn, who had already developed a keen interest in the sport.
âCome on, Ale,â Mapi nudged her. âItâs not that different from what we do. Well, aside from the whole gravity and wheels thing. But the risk, the intensityâitâs the same thrill, no?â
Alexia shook her head, her brows furrowed. âI get the thrill of sport. I donât get the thrill of actively throwing yourself down a mountain.â
Mapi laughed, her eyes following the riders who zoomed by, leaving trails of dust and sprays of mud in their wake. âMaybe itâs just not for you, then.â
Alexia smirked, rolling her eyes. âTrust me, itâs not. Iâm happy enough with grass and a ball at my feet, thank you.â
But Mapi knew Alexia well enough to catch the slight glint of intrigue in her eye, even if sheâd never admit it. The rider in the distance, the one with the sleek bike and determined eyes, had already caught her attentionâeven if she didnât quite realize it yet.
As you mounted your bike, the nerves finally settled. It was just you and the mountain now. Youâd mapped out every corner, memorized every rock, every patch of gravel. You knew this course like the back of your hand, and even though you were aware of the crowd at the sidelines, their presence was just a faint blur at the edge of your vision.
The horn sounded, and you pushed off, speeding down the first stretch, your bike absorbing the shocks from the rough trail. Every twist and turn of the course felt like second nature, the rush of speed exhilarating, the wind slicing past your face. You could barely hear the cheers, but you felt their pulse in the air around you.
As you approached a tight turn leading into a jump, you caught a glimpse of a familiar faceâthe tall, blonde woman from earlier, her gaze following your every move. You werenât sure why you noticed her specifically, but something about the way she watched you felt different from the rest of the crowd.
The jump was fast approaching, and with a quick, practiced movement, you leaned back, bracing as your tires lifted off the ground, sailing smoothly over the jump. You landed cleanly on the other side but hadnât accounted for a slick patch of mud waiting just past it. The tires lost their grip, and suddenly, everything went sideways.
Your shoulder slammed into the ground, pain radiating through you as you skidded to a stop. You felt the dirt and gravel scrape against your skin, the impact sharp and unforgiving.
As you tried to gather yourself, the first thing you saw through the haze of dust was her. Alexia was right at the front of the crowd, her expression shifting from shock to worry. It was a strange comfort, somehow, to see her there, a face both familiar and unfamiliar all at once.
You pushed yourself up slowly, wincing, but your gaze stayed locked with hers. For a moment, it felt like the two of you were in your own world, a bubble outside of the noise of the crowd and the ache of the fall.
She took a hesitant step forward, as if she was debating whether to come over. But she didnât. Instead, she lingered there, staring at you with an unreadable expression, her brow slightly furrowed, her mouth parted as if she wanted to say something.
You gave her a small nodâan attempt to reassure her, even though you didnât owe her anything. She returned it with a tight smile, and her shoulders relaxed a little, though her eyes remained fixed on you, curiosity and caution mingling.
âAre you alright?â a nearby medic asked, breaking your connection with Alexia as they checked you over. You assured them you were fine, and though your shoulder throbbed, the pain was something you could ignore.
When you glanced back, Alexia was still there, her gaze intense, watching you with an expression that was almost⊠impressed? You werenât sure. But as you picked yourself up and prepared for the next run, you couldnât shake the feeling that this wouldnât be the last time your paths would cross.
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End of Chapter 1.
#woso x reader#woso#woso community#woso fanfics#woso imagine#alexia putellas one shot#alexia putellas fanfic#alexia putellas imagine#alexia putellas x reader#alexia putellas
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Well :/
#i had to listen to a bunch of teenage boys talk about golf and investment banking today#it was so incredibly shit#it was supposed to be about team building and getting to know each other#and the other guys in my group just fucked off and didn't bother talking to me#so i was just hanging out with the other girl in my group who I'd made friends with who was lovely#and the rest of them were just on their phones in the corner together#and then this teacher came and yelled at them and asked one of the guys if he even knew our names#so said boy pointed at my friend next to me and said her name#and then pointed at me and just called me 'the other one'#so that was truly fantastic#all the while these guys are talking about how apparently golf helps you seal business deals#and one of the guys is mansplaining investment banking to this other girl in the room#i did make some friends though who all seemed really nice so that's good#i just need to get everything in order for Monday and then I'll be ready#though I'm so nervous for starting sixth form I'm trying to be optimistic!#darkeyedghost
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Why didn't they talk about this in the BTS??????
did... did y'all PAINT a WHOLE ASS building?????
#okay we know this wasn't the actual building#they were in a hotel#so i'm thinking probably this was stock footage of a random building and they digitally altered it with the gc colors?#which is easier and makes more sense sure but i really wanted the art team to have finally gone insane and painted an entire building lol#i suppose they did go insane in the room design though đ#game changer#dropout#other relevant things from the bts i'm obsessing about:#BRENNN ALMOST PLAYED AS ALLY đ€Łđ€Ł#that would've been amazing the two playing as each other unknowingly lollllll#also the lack of a reveal thing yeah i get sam wanted to toast and hang out with his friends#but they still should've had some sort of reveal at the end#as they're all walking out or something!#most of the fan of having celebrity guests is seeing the cast react to them!#the whole ratfish thing had no emotional payoff like this...#my posts
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"So, and I can't believe I have to be the guy to point this out," Doc starts hesitantly.
"Terrible start! Go on," Cleo says.
"But you seem to be one of the only sane people left right now," Doc continues.
"Even more terrible, although I appreciate your delusion," Cleo says.
"And I have to--you know, if you're going to make fun of me for bringing you a problem maybe I just won't. I can solve it myself. I basically solved the moon thing myself," Doc says. "I am trying to be responsible before this turns into a whole thing."
"Doc, you came to me. Did you want anything that wasn't me making fun of you? Because you know, if so, I really feel bad for you. I already feel bad enough for you that you think you actually managed to do anything at all about the moon thing."
Doc throws his hands up. "I am trying to warn you the ocean is evil! It's important! This is important!"
"The deep sea being evil isn't new," Cleo starts, "I was building Atlantis last season--"
"It sent, sent, salmon people to kill me!"
Cleo stops. They look Doc in the eyes. They search for any signs of deception at all. It's a little hard to tell, on account of Doc only having one eye even capable of expressiveness, and his face being the opposite of human, but...
"What?" Cleo says dumbly.
"It was like, like, Beef and Skizz, they were crazy! They were talking about a giant fish and how I shouldn't defy it. And I was like, what is a Big Salmon? I don't know, man, but they're ocean mobsters. And then I started looking. It's not just them. It's not just them Cleo, it's everyone. The ocean, man, it's evil, it's getting everyone. I've, I've made a list. Grian. Have you looked at Grian lately?"
"I think if we were worried about every time Grian got possessed then we wouldn't have any free time," Cleo says hesitantly.
"Right, right, but it was supposed to be Demise. The killing each other, all of the killing each other. I thought, oh, that'll get it out of their systems. But it's not just him Cleo! It's--have you seen Gem? She's all, oh, I will build a boat. Oh, I'll provoke the creatures of the deep. And then. Do you know what I saw all of Team ZITS doing? Fishing!"
"Doc," Cleo says, increasingly concerned for him. He looks... disheveled.
"And not just fishing, oh no. They were standing in the water fishing! And Pearl! Have I mentioned that Pearl is dressing up as a salmon? I mentioned that, yes? The salmon Pearl?"
"You hadn't, unless that was the big fish thing," Cleo says.
"No, that was something different, I think Pearl is maybe a different salmon."
"Sure, okay, more than one salmon, that makes sense," Cleo says dryly.
"And everyone, they are fishing each other around the ocean, yes? Etho is in the ocean! XB is in the ocean! I think I saw Joe crawl out of the ocean earlier, he was all wet and haunted! Surely that is a sign the ocean is evil."
"No, he's just like that," Cleo says. "Also, I did the fishing rod thing too. I think it's just... normal fun."
"They're getting you too. My assessment that you're the sane one. I've said too much."
"I think you need sleep," Cleo says. "Doc, there isn't an ocean-based conspiracy. It's the start of the season. You know we're just like this."
"That's the thing, I can't sleep," Doc says. "I can't. I sleep and I see it. I see it, lurking beneath the waves. It's calling for me Cleo. It's calling. And when it calls, it seems so--kind. But then. But then! I wake up, and I remember the shape of it, and..."
Doc shudders and stops talking. Cleo looks at him a moment longer and then, like comforting a nervous animal, takes his shoulder.
"You should take a nap. It's the start of the season. You're over-stressing yourself. Too much too fast?" they say, as soothingly as possible.
"It's coming for us," Doc says. "It's coming. I don't want to ignore it this time, yes? What's coming for us. We should--we should--"
"Even if it is, Doc, I don't think we can fight the ocean. Come on. Maybe sleeping in my base will help reset your brain."
Doc shudders, but lets Cleo guide him inside. They watch until at last he falls asleep fitfully before shaking their head and sighing.
"A giant fish that was trying to kill him. Honestly. I don't know where he gets these things from. Always a conspiracy with him..."
They decide to go to Ren. Ren knows how to humor Doc. Surely they can get in their ridiculous games again, and Doc will forget all about this. Doc would enjoy the Ministry of Ministries. Maybe he can be an anarchist or something. That would be good for him.
Doc cries out in his sleep. Cleo turns to him.
Then again, they have this strange sinking feeling in their stomach. Doc's... awfully worked up.
But it's Doc.
Surely it's nothing.
#hermitcraft#docm77#zombiecleo#a bee fic#SO THE CONTINUED OBSESSION EVERYONE HAS WITH THE OCEAN HUH.#hermitfic
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GIANNA'S KINKTOBER '24 SEASON
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€âą ËËË Kinktober day ten.
Jealous Lando (2.2k words)
summary: Something unleashes inside Lando when you run into one of your coworkers, his shameless invitation making him want to remind you who you belong to.
warnings: NSFW, +18, smut, MDNI, blow job, fingering, jealous!lando, possessive!lando.
You found yourselves sitting in a somewhat fancy café in Austin, enjoying the warm weather as he told you about his day.
Lando had been a little bit busy with the duties that carried being a Formula One driver, so any little time you could spend with each other was well appreciated, so sitting really close to him in one of the couches as you sipped your coffee was nice.
However, you took a few days of vacations to go with him to the American races, but that didnât mean you were completely off the hook since you carried your laptop everywhere in case you needed to get something done, which is what happened right now.
You got a notification on your phone from what seemed like an important email, so you pulled your laptop out to take a look at the file your boss had shared with you, promising Lando it wouldnât take more than five minutes.
It had been like fifteen minutes and you were still reviewing it, now with your phone on your ear while you talked with someone about this new project you were supposed to take over once you got back as Lando had your computer on his lap.
He didnât really mind, or at least that was what he always told you. Here is the thing: he understood that your job was important for you, and he appreciated the fact that you took a few days just so you could be with him, but sometimes he just wished you could quit so he could take you everywhere with him without having to worry about you focusing on a screen instead of him.
Was that selfish? Maybe, but who could blame him for wanting his girlfriend to be all his?Â
You would never describe Lando as the possessive type, and maybe it was because he never voiced his concerns out loud. He was jealous sometimes, thatâs for sure, but possessive? Not really.
âSorry, baby. I really had to take this,â you said as you hung up the phone.
âItâs okay, but I donât understand why you still have to do all of this if you are supposed to be on vacation.â
âI know, Iâm sorry. I thought I would be able to go the full month without having to do any of this,â you sighed as you took one last look at the email. âI will try to stay off work for the rest of the time we are together, I promise.â
That really pissed him off. If you were on vacation, shouldnât you be able to enjoy it? Lando was building up the courage to tell you what he had been thinking pretty much your entire relationship, carefully thinking about his words. âMaybe you should quit-â
âOh, hi Y/N,â a random voice interrupted him, making both of you look up. You both saw one of your coworkers standing there, entirely ruining Landoâs plan to covince you to leave your job and become a full-time wag. He could already feel his blood boiling.
âOh- hi,â you replied, trying to remember the guyâs name.Â
âI didnât know you were here. I mean, I knew you were off, but I assumed you were just staying home. Nice to see you are enjoying your free time travelling.â He was completely ignoring Lando, not directing a single word to him, not even a quick glare, and Lando didnât like that. Not one bit.Â
âYeah, I took time off to go to a few races,â you said, motioning your head towards your now upset boyfriend. âWhat about you?â
âIâm here to attend my brotherâs wedding,â he said with a small laugh. âBut I didnât bring anyone with me, so it will be a bit awkward to be the best man without a date.â
Lando already knew where this was going, and he was using all his self-control not to punch the guy in the face and tell him to fuck off. They were in a public place anyway, and he knew his team would not like to see something like this hit the news, but man, the guy really deserved it.
âHey, unless you are free tomorrow. Would you be interested in coming with me? You know, free food and free buzz. Big party.â At that moment, Lando felt his coherent thoughts leave his mind, his hand finding a place on your thigh and squeezing it softly as he killed him with a glare.
âWeâre busy, actually, canât you see?â Lando finally spoke, in a tone you had never heard before, as he pointed to the open laptop that still rested on his lap.
âOh, I didnât mean right now," the guy replied, finally acknowledging Landoâs presence, but he turned to face you again. âThere is a rehearsal tonight, but tomorrow-â
âWe have plans for tomorrow." Lando interrupted, bringing you closer to him with his hand still gripping your thigh. âDonât we?â He said, looking at you.
You looked back at him, slightly blushing at your boyfriendâs actions. âYeah, sorry⊠uhâ
âJoeâ
âRight, Joe,â you repeated, giving him a friendly smile âSorry, Joe.â
âGood luck being alone at the wedding though." Lando wasnât trying to be friendly at all; if anything, he just wanted him to stop hitting on you and leave immediately. âSee you around, mate.â
Joe looked at you, as if he were asking you for confirmation to leave. âIâll see you back at the office,â you said, waving him goodbye.
Joe sighed loudly as he started to walk away, and Lando smiled proudly and kissed your temple.
âWow, I knew you were jealous, but I didnât think you were that jealous," you whispered, placing your hand on top of his.
âIâm not,â he frowned his eyebrows as if he was being falsely accused. âWeâre just really busy.â
He stared at you with eyes full of... anger? You werenât sure, but you knew for a fact that heâd be leaving marks on your thigh if he kept gripping you like that.
âYou know I wouldâve said no, right? You didnât have to scare him off like that.â
âWeâre leaving.â Was all he replied, taking his hand away as he closed your laptop, standing up and walking away from where you were sitting.
You tried to follow him, but he was walking so quick he was already waiting in the car when you got there. You let out a sigh as you opened the door, sitting beside him as you tried to think of something you could say to get his mind off what just happened.
âSo, itâs a sprint weekend. You havenât done one of those in a while.â
But he barely let out a sound at your words, at least acknowledging that you were talking to him but not caring enough to say something back. Thatâs how it was for the rest of the ride back to the hotel, you trying to talk about anything and him just grunting, and by the way he was gripping the stearing wheel, you knew he wouldnât let this go any time soon.
Once he parked the car, he got out and waited for you a few seconds to collect your things and be next to him, grabbing your hand tightly as he guided you to the elevator and back to your room, and as soon as you were inside, he dropped your hand and found a seat on the small couch that was placed next to the hotel bed, staring at you as if he was waiting for you to apologise for something that wasnât even your fault.
âLando, letâs not do this, please. I would have never in a million years accepted to go with him, even if you werenât there-â
âOn your knees.â
âWhat?â You asked in disbelief after a few seconds of silence as he unbuckled his trousers and pushed them down until they were pooling on his ankles.
âYou heard me, go on.âÂ
You slowly made your way there, watching him as he slowly pumped his length. At this point, you werenât even thinking clearly anymore, and doing as he said just came naturally to you, so you dropped to your knees once you were in front of him, swallowing harshly when he motioned his head towards his angry cock.
Not thinking twice, you took him in your mouth and started working on it, knowing teasing him right now was far from a good idea.Â
âWhy donât you take some more, love?â He said as he quickly took a hold of your hair, pushing your head down his shaft.
You could really feel his size because of the stretch your mouth feels, which you always did, but given the situation, it somehow felt more prominent. Your cheeks were hollowing around him, and one of your hands was wrapped around his base as your other one gripped his thigh, nails digging into his tanned skin.
âYou know you are mine, right?â He asked you in a shaky tone. âNo other guys but me should be thinking about talking to you, asking you to be their date- ah- only I get to have you like this, so pretty with your mouth around my cock.â
You let out a moan at his words, secretly loving this side of your boyfriend, and the vibrations made him let out another moan as he used his grip on your hair to guide your movements.
âNo one else will ever see you like this, right, baby?â You tried and failed to nod your head; you didnât even have control anymore, you were just trying to follow what Lando was silently instructing you to do.
His hold was getting tighter as you sucked his crown, which made him let out the deepest moan you have ever heard from him as his fingers tightened even more, unintentionally bucking his hips up once. You gagged around his cock, taking it gracefully as mascara tears rolled down your face.
âShit, I could have you like this at all times. You are doing so good, angel.â His words were breathy and full of bliss as he got closer and closer to his release.
The way his cock twitched inside you and his thighs tensed under your hand made you know he was seconds away, the echoes of his moans bouncing off the walls as he started thrusting his hips up, his cock hitting deep inside your throat. With one last hit, you felt his hot cum filling your mouth, some of it smearing on the sides as you happily swallowed all of it, making you slow your movements down with his hand.
When he started to catch his breath, he pulled your head off his cock, dropping your hair and patting his lap so you would sit there, which you immediately obeyed.
âWhy donât you quit that stupid job so I donât have to worry about assholes like him hitting on you?â Landoâs hands were roaming your thighs, slightly parting them as his hand sneaked into your underwear.Â
Your breath hitched when his fingers explored your folds, finally landing on your clit with an insane pressure. He started rubbing hard circles, his mouth so close to your neck you could feel his hot breath.
âYou are mine.â A moan scaped your lips at this. âSay it.â
âIâm yours, all yours.âÂ
As soon as you said this, one of his fingers entered your desperate hole, quickly finding a pace for you. He was desperate to make you come, and you knew he would get it within minutes if he kept playing with you like this.
Lando found a place on your neck, kissing and sucking your sensitive skin as he dipped a second finger inside you. âYou think anyone else could make you feel this good? Mhm?â
âNo,â you breathed out, fingers gripping his thighs.
âGood.â
You werenât sure if it was his fingers or his words, but your stomach was quickly building up that familiar feeling as your hips started moving against his hand, making him use one more finger as you completely lost yourself in pleasure.
âLando- fuck.â
âThatâs it. Cum for me, love.â
His teeth were niping the skin on your shoulder, and only seconds before your orgasm hit you, you let out a loud moan, making him smile as he somehow fastened his pace.
With a few more pumps, a wave of bliss travelled through your body, your head falling back and into his shoulder as he helped you through your orgasm. At this point, your body had stopped moving, and all you could do was moan and squirm under his touch.
ââs too much,â you managed to say.
âSay it again.â
âSay what again?âÂ
âSay you are mine.â
âIâm- ah- Iâm yours, Lando, only yours. Shitâ You complied as a string of moans scaped your parted lips.
âGood girl,â he said, finally taking his hand away from your sensitive pussy and kissing you, slow and possessive as one of his fingers cleaned the cum that was still on the side of your mouth. âNow, letâs get you changed. Weâre going to dinner.â Lando softly pushed you off his lap, standing up as he pulled his trousers back up. âOh, and make sure to wear that black dress I love so much.â
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Stuck in the Moment
Fandom: Marvel (CEO AU)
Pairing: Bucky Barnes x F!Reader
Summary: It was just supposed to be a regular day at work. But a huge storm hit the city. The power goes out and you're stuck inside the elevator with an incredibly attractive man. So with nothing else to do, you two get to know each other while waiting to be rescued.
A/N: technically, CEO's son AU but whatever
Bucky Barnes Masterlist
You quickly close your umbrella and rush inside. Even with the umbrella and a raincoat, you're still partially drenched.
A storm has hit the city. You hear the occasional roar of thunder and flash of lightning, raindrops pelting against the pavement and windows of your work building.
You flash your badge and walk through security. You shoot a smile to Stan, one of the older security guards, "Keeping warm, Stan?"
"As best as I can, Y/N!" he replies, zipping up his jacket further up towards his neck.
You gather with the group of people in front of the elevators. Two doors open, and people start filing in. Both elevators fill up quick, so you decide to hang back and wait for the next one.
You hear someone approach you and they sigh. A soothing, deep voice follows, "Jeez. Did not mentally prepare myself for this much rain."
You turn your head, your eyes meeting striking blue ones. The owner of the voice is as handsome as he sounds. You chuckle and quickly look away, "I know. Even with my umbrella and raincoat, I still wasn't as prepared for this storm."
"I forgot an umbrella hence," he gestures to his drenched suit jacket.
You snort, "Gotta keep a small, compact one with you at all times around this time of year. Never know when a storm will happen."
"Definitely going to follow your advice," he says with a grin.
The elevator door nearest you opens and he gestures, "After you."
"Thanks," you reply, stepping inside and the handsome man filing in behind you. You press the fifth button while he presses the eleventh.
You can't help but comment, "You must be a high profile person if you're going to the top."
The man shyly shrugs, "I suppose," he nods to the fifth button, "You're in the marketing department?"
"Yup. I'm part of the social media team."
"Ah. You guys get to have all the fun."
You giggle, "It's not all fun, but, yeah, we do like-"
The elevator slows, but not because it's approaching your floor. The light's flicker and the elevator creaks to a halt. Your body sways at the stop. The lights flicker again and then you're engrossed in darkness.
You groan out in annoyance, "Oh come on!"
The man with you takes out his phone and turns the flash on. He faces it to the ceiling, illuminating the elevator, "You okay?"
"Yeah, you?"
"Same," he sighs, "Guess the storm created a power outage. Might be some time until the power comes back or until we're rescued."
"Great."
Your phone starts to buzz and you pull it out of your bag. You answer it, "Kate?"
"Hey! Are you at work already 'cause looks like the entire building is experiencing a power outage."
"Yuuup and I was unfortunate enough to be riding the elevator when the power went out."
"Shit. Okay, what floor are you on?"
"I think we're in-between three and four."
"Oh good, you're not alone!"
"Nope. I'm with-" you pause, and look to the man, "Sorry, I never got your name."
"Bucky."
"Hey, Bucky. I'm Y/N. I'd say 'nice to meet you' but I wouldn't call our current situation 'nice'"
He chuckles, "I get it and likewise."
"Who the hell is Bucky? I've never heard of a Bucky before."
"Not now, Kate. Anyway, I should probably save as much of my phone battery as possible. Keep me updated on the power and such."
"Will do! Stay safe and don't die!"
You snort, "I'll try not to." You end the call and look back at Bucky.
"Since you're probably like an executive or something, do you happen to have contact to any other higher ups about this power outage?"
He nods and gestures to his phone, "Getting several text messages from people. I've let them know we're stuck here and they've already contacted the fire department. But considering the storm and everything, might take them a while to get here."
"So guess we have to get comfortable," you set your bag down and slip off your raincoat. You set it on the floor and sit on it. Bucky looks at you with a cocked brow and you shrug, "What? The floor's wet!"
Bucky chuckles to himself and finds a dry spot in the corner. He slides down the wall to sit on the floor, "So, Y/N from Marketing, tell me your life story." You look at him confused and he shrugs, "Might as well get to know each other since we might be stuck here for a while."
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Within the first hour, learn that Bucky is the eldest sibling and he has a younger sister. His best friends are named Steve and Sam. He's a huge nerd that loves Star Wars and Star Trek. He went to Columbia University to study business, which is why he's now working here.
You told him about your childhood, that you and your best friend, Yelena, moved to the city for school and ended up staying. You express your passion for social media marketing and, ultimately, how you ended up working for Barnes Co., thanks to Yelena's sister, Nat.
"How long have you been working here?" Bucky asks you.
"It's going to be my two year anniversary in a few months."
Bucky slowly nods, "Can't believe you've been here for two years and I've never seen you around."
You give him a shrug, "It's a big building. Lots of people work here. Besides, you work with the higher ups, so I doubt you'd even see me around."
You take this moment to look over him with the minimal lighting you have. He clearly makes a lot of money from what you can tell. His shoes and suit are obviously designer. Hugo Boss or Armani or something. His watch is definitely a Rolex and probably costs more than your entire life.
Bucky shakes his head, "I know, but I do try my best to get to know everyone who works here. The company is what it is because of everyone who works here, not just the CEO, CFOs, and executives."
"That's nice to hear, Bucky. I mean, I knew that this company really values its employees, but to hear someone close to the top say so, is really reassuring."
He shyly chuckles, "Well, uh, yeah, um," he clears his throat, "So, uh, you seeing anyone?" he winces at how unsmooth that came out.
But you chuckle, "Are you asking me out?"
"Me? No, no. Just, ya know, we talked about our childhood, our jobs, only topic we haven't hit is our love lives. Besides, it'll probably a little bit longer until we're rescued. They're working on getting the people on the first two floors out first." Bucky does his best to be as nonchalant as possible and you find it so adorable. You never expected a guy like him to be a little shy.
"Riiiight. Well, I've dated, been in a few relationships, but nobody's really stuck around for long. Kind of getting tired of the whole dating game, so haven't really put much thought into relationships lately. What about you?"
He nervously rubs the back of his neck, "I, uh, hate to say that I dated around a lot when I was younger. Not super proud of myself for that. But as I grew older, started wanting a more stable relationship. Was in one for a long time with a woman. Thought we were going to get married and everything, but then I found out she stuck around because of my growing wealth so-"
"Yikes."
"Yeah. Went back to dating and sleeping around and it got old again quicker than before. I guess I'm kind of like you, focusing on myself and work. Doing my best to just survive in the world."
You slowly nod, "Well, what a pair we make, huh? I mean, look at us," you gesture to yourself and him, "Stuck in an elevator, sharing our life stories, getting to know each other. Honestly, thought a situation like this would be so much worse, but I'm glad it was you that got stuck with me in this situation."
Bucky laughs, "Same here."
"Buck?" you hear a muffled voice from the other side of the elevator doors.
"Dad?!"
"Yeah, you guys okay in there?"
"We're okay!"
"Good! The fire department's here. They're getting you guys out. Just hang tight!"
"Not like we can go anywhere!" Bucky replies and you laugh. He grins at you as you wait for the doors to pry open.
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The entire building was evacuated. Several people stayed back to make sure everyone was safe. Nat and Kate stayed in the lobby waiting for you to be rescued.
When you exited the stairs door, they rushed over to you.
"Holy shit, are you okay?!"
"Yeah. Me and Bucky just hung out that entire time," you gesture to the man who follows behind you.
Nat looks over your shoulder and her eyes widen, "You were stuck in the elevator with James Barnes?"
"James?" you turn to face Bucky as he approaches you, "I thought your name is Bucky."
He nervously clears his throat, "Uh, well, kinda. Technically, my name is James Buchanan Barnes, but those closest to me call me Bucky."
Your realization has your eyes widen and you take a step back, "You're George Barnes' son."
He sheepishly waves, "Hi."
"Well...that's...cool." You didn't know what to say, honestly. You're a little surprised by the reveal. You quickly go through the info that Bucky shared with you in the elevator shaft. He never mentioned his dad or anything that could hint at the position he holds. He deliberately held that info from you.
"I'm sorry I didn't tell you," Bucky says with a guilty expression on his face.
You shake your head, "No, it's-it's fine. I mean, I knew you worked a high position but didn't think...that high."
He snorts, "Yeah, um, I just hope you don't see me differently."
"Not at all. I met you as Bucky, the sci-fi nerd who sucks at flirting, so that's how I see you."
"Sucks at flirting? Yeesh, guess that's what happens when I haven't dated in a while."
You laugh, "Happens to the best of us."
"Son, you ready?" George Barnes approaches Bucky.
"Yeah," he nods to his dad and looks back at you, "See you around, Y/N."
"See ya," you give him a small wave and turn back to Kate and Nat. They look at you like you grew another head, "What?"
"The son of George Barnes, James Barnes, son of the CEO of Barnes Co., was flirting with you?!"
You scoff, "I wouldn't really say he was flirting with me. More like attempting to flirt. It doesn't matter. Not like he'd actually want to date someone like me," you shrug it off and pull on your raincoat, "Ready to go?"
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Everyone was working from home the following day to ensure that the building was safe to occupy when the power came back.
The weather is still poor but not as bad as the day before. Still, you decide to step outside, choosing a cafe to work from rather than your shared apartment with Yelena.
Youâre answering emails while sipping on a warm beverage when you get a new message on Slack from James Barnes:
JB: Youâre looking cozy over there in your corner.
You immediately look around and spot him on the opposite side of the cafe. When your eyes meet his, he gives a wave. He quickly gathers his things and you keep your eyes on him as he moves across the cafe to your table.
âMay I join you?â
âIf youâd like.â
He sits across from you and you lower your laptop screen, âNot gonna lie, kinda creepy that you did that, Barnes.â
He shyly shrugs, âI guess I really do need to brush up on my flirting hm?â
You giggle, âYeah, I suppose you do.â
âMaybe I can practice with you?â
You give him a coy look, âI guess you can.â
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Real Love â Spencer Reid.
Pairing: Spencer Reid x BAU!Reader
Summary: It takes an accident for him to realize just how deep your feelings for him are.
Word Count: 1.1K+
Disclaimer/s â Gunshot mention, slight violence, a little angst (?), OOC Spencer perhaps, and no use of Y/N! I think thatâs it.
A/N: Clearing out the drafts, requests always welcomed⊠hey⊠Also I noticed I made the reader ask a lot of questions and then continue asking after he said he was fine, so⊠:3
Searching the entire bottom floor of the building, you feel the tiny hairs on the back of your neck stand the longer you continue to look. Like theyâre about to just up and vanish off of you. This place was quiet, too quiet, eerily quiet.
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You get the point.
You, Reid, and Morgan were the first to walk in along with a couple SWAT officers, but when you had gotten nothing on the device used to communicate with them, you made your way up the stairs, thatâs where they were. Where they were supposed to be. But, were they?
Hotchâs instructions were clear: âMove in, keep silent, stay vigilant.â His anxiety was palpable to anyone within a five-mile radius. This UnSub operated with extreme precision, to an extraordinary degree. The Ohio PD had almost caught and locked him away previously; had they only been aware of his premeditated escape strategy and his precise timing for executing it.
Being careful as to not make a single sound with each step you take, you raised your gun and walked forward. God, the hallway was long. So long. The amount of horror movie vibes you got was enough to make your skin crawl.
Reaching the corner, youâre just about to round it when a gunshot sounds throughout the building. The echo making your ears ring. Morgan. Reid.
Focused solely on them and them only, you hasten ahead, oblivious to the looming shadow. Suddenly, rough hands shove you against the wall, causing your head to snap back and meet the brick surface. As you gather yourself, you witness the figure sprinting down the corridor, pursued closely by Morgan and the SWAT team.
No Reid, no Reid, no Reid, you repeated in your mind as you shook your head to dispel the dizziness, to no avail of course, yet it didn't prevent you from trying to reach him. As your vision gradually returned, you spotted Reid on the floor, propped uncomfortably close to the wall.
No, no, no.
âSpencer!â You cried out, dropping to your knees next to him. Your eyes scanning over his body for any signs of blood, leaning over him, you continue to search for anything. Nothing. Search harder!
Thatâs when your gaze lands on the bullet lodged into his vest, with a sharp inhale, you carefully unclasp the Kevlar vest and throw it aside. Check his pulse, what are you doing? You needed to calm down, you know you did. But this was Spencer. The man youâdânow, hold on a minute.
Focus.
Placing two fingers to his neck, you just about cheered at the sound of his heartbeat. It was racing, but it was there.
âAgent down, medical assistance possibly required.â You say shakily into the device strapped to the collar of your own vest, breathless.
âReid,â your voice is quiet as you move your other hand to pat his cheek, âSpencer.â
Hearing his groan sounded like a melodic tune to your ears, you leaned forward and rested your head slightly on his stomach before looking up at him, you knew he was fine, but it didnât stop the complete and utter relief you felt at hearing anything but the mans silence.
You rested a hand on his arm, âHey, hey, easy. Are you in pain? Hurting? Talk to me.â
âUnSub is down and apprehended,â Rossiâs voice rings through your ears, and no doubt Spencerâs when you see him flinch, âMedicals almost here.â
âFine,â he croaks out, âIâm fine.â
Nodding your head, not sure if he was trying to convince you or himself, you slowly helped him lean forward. âAre you okay? Where does it hurt?â
âIâm not⊠Iâm not hurt.â
That wasnât really my question, was what you wanted to say, but decided it was⊠best not to mention it. âCan you stand? Do you want to stand?â You ask, looking at him with a gaze so soft he wanted nothing more than to just sit there and stare. âReidâcome on, grab my hand.â
Holding out your hand, he hesitantly grabbed ahold of it and hoisted himself up. Letting out a groan as he leaned against a random desk.
âAre you okay?â The second time youâve asked.
âStop,â he rasped, âIâm okay. I promise.â
Your eyebrows knitted together, your eyes scanning over his figure once more. âYou were shot, Spencer,â you paused, then added, âLetâs get you downstairs, yeah?â
With a nod, he moved toward the door and stumbled. That there was enough to tell you that calling for medical was the right decision. You quickly stood beside him, took his hand, and used it to drape his arm over your shoulder.
After reaching the last stair, Hotch looked up at the two of you, âThe ambulance is out front. What happened? Are you okay?â
âHe was shotâit hit the vest,â you answered.
Just then, Emily and Morgan walked in, their expressions etched with worry as they helped you both the rest of the way. Emilyâs eyes soon widened in alarm when she noticed something, âHey, are you okay? Your headââ Itâs bleeding.
Your head? Oh, your head. Youâd almost forgotten the searing pain from being literally shoved against a brick wall.
The paramedics guide Reid to sit on the back of the ambulance, they start performing all the necessary checks, fearing the bullet might have caused unseen damage despite hitting the vest.
You, on the other hand, couldn't help but trip over your own feet before even attempting to respond to Emilyâs question. This prompted the other paramedic to look at you with concern, âMa'am, are you alright?â
Looking over at him, you stammered, âI, uh, I hit my head.â
That made Spencer snap his gaze toward you, eyes wide with panic and confusion. You had hit your head, probably got a concussion, and yet you were still there, helping him. Why?
Hearing that made her partner rush to your side, directing you to a seat with a sense of urgency as he quickly checked your condition.
He furrowed his brows deeply, casting a glance over at Morgan, who was casually leaning against the ambulance. Morganâs eyes roamed over his features while he tilted his head slightly and said with a gentle yet probing tone, âSpill it, kid.â
âShe has a concussion,â he murmured, âAnd she was helping me.â Again, why?
The man let out a sigh, saying, âYou might be a genius, but sometimes you can be anything but.â With those words lingering in the air, he strolled over to where you were sitting, ruffling your hair and laughing when you swatted at his hands.
You might be a genius, but sometimes you can be anything but.
What did that even mean?
Well, he knew what it meant. The real question was what steps could he take to act on it. Because if there was one thing he was certain ofâŠ
It was that he felt the same way.
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living to lose
âźâ logan x f!mutant!reader (set in worst wolverineâs universe)
âźâ summary: logan wonât wear the suit.
âźâ a/n: this is gonna be kinda short, but i am in <3 w the concept. (i wrote this in less than an hour bro) i havenât seen this before so .. lmk if yall want a longer version . perhaps a series ? if yall do, let me know what power reader should have !! and perhaps a nickname đ«Ą
âźâ warnings: DEADPOOL & WOLVERINE SPOILERS, humans vs mutants, and all the prejudice that comes with that, talk of mutants being killed for being mutants etc, xmen bonding, angst, canon typical violence (kinda? mentioned?), logan being stubborn, lmk if theres more!
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Life in the X-Mansion wasnât what it once was.
If you were honest, life itself had begun to lose that glow that it once had. You supposed that it was hard to retain it when every day you were faced with the reality that humans wanted you all dead. And sure, it wasnât like you hadnât known that before, but each day you saw news stories coming out about mutants killed in the street, the X-Men were called out constantly to assist in human and mutant matters, and were always met with hatred.
You just wished that people could coexist. Would that be so difficult? For the humans to realise that mutants werenât that much different from themselves, not really. Everyone had the fundamental building blocks of human DNA, mutants just so happened to have the X gene thrown in the mix.
Still, there were positives to life. Such as Logan, for you, because you were pretty sure Scott wouldnât categorise him as a positive.
There had been something unspoken between the two of you for almost a decade, stretching across hundreds of battles and memories. Neither of you had actually brought yourselves to talk about it, both too afraid of loss.
But every night when he struggled to sleep, he joined you in your own bed. An incredible progression of your relationship, really, because it wasnât like Logan to actually ask for help. Not that he did much talking on those nights. Every time you needed comfort after a painful mission, he was there, brooding silently at your side. A hand on the small of your back, or around your shoulders, if you were lucky.
He refused to acknowledge his role in your life, or his role on the team, no matter how much everybody begged him to.
The infamous Wolverine was so intimidated by the idea of admitting he cared, so scared that it would turn out like his past relationships, that he couldnât bring himself to accept his place in your lives. He was stubborn, and wouldnât allow anybody to have leverage over him.
It was another afternoon call out, a mutant in distress, and humans harassing whoever it was. It was bound to get violent, which was why everybody was suiting up.
âCâmon, Logan, just wear the suit.â You said, brows furrowed as you held the folded suit out towards him, watching him roll his eyes. âYouâre a part of the team. Wear it.â
âSheâs right, Logan.â Storm agreed, already clad in her own suit, much like yourself. It presented a united front, a symbol for other mutants that there was hope out there for them, no matter how dire the world seemed.
âFuck, no.â Logan responded immediately, voice gruff and dismissive, barely sparing the yellow spandex a glance before he was turning away, grabbing his own jacket from its hanger. âYellow ainât my colour, bub.â He grumbled when he felt your eyes still on him, practically carving a hole in the back of his head.
âLogan.â You said pleadingly, feeling disheartened. âWe all wear it. Youâll look as handsome as you ever do, I swear.â You attempted, although you werenât naive enough to believe that the almighty Wolverine could have his mind changed via flattery.
He might have admitted, in another life, that you made the yellow work extremely well. That he knew the team looked good in it, looked put together, almost untouchable. But that wasnât this life. And he refused to let anybody believe he actually wanted to be a part of this godforsaken self-righteous team that named themselves the X-Men. That wasnât him. It wouldnât be him.
Scott wandered in, clad in his own suit, matching visor and all. âItâs not gonna work, guys. Iâve tried. Loganâs far too stubborn.â He said, and none of you could see his eyes, but his disappointment was palpable. Logan only grunted in response.
âFine,â You said, and he could hear the disappointment despite this not being the first time he had denied the suit. It had been a debate for a long while, by now. âIâll leave it with you. Just in case you change your mind.â
âI wonât.â Logan said, with an air of finality. You said nothing.
The four of you headed out to the distress call not long after, three in cohesive suits, one decidedly not.
It turned into a fight, as most calls do nowadays, which lasted for what felt like ages. You returned, feeling more exhausted than you had in days. The humans only got more violent with time, inventing new and more powerful ways to hurt mutants. Weapons were being developed against mutant-kind with every day that passed, and it wasnât lost on the X-Men. Your job was only getting harder and harder. And it was taking its toll on all of you.
ââM goinâ to the bar. You coming?â Logan asked you, standing in front of where you sat on the couch with Storm, both still in your suits and equally tired. He raised his brows at you, indicating that this was a timed offer. You knew he would be out most of the night, getting as drunk as his healing factor would allow him. It wasnât that kind of night for you.
âNo, thanks. Iâm gonna stay with the others.â You answered quietly, wanting nothing more than to marinate in your frustration with the rest of the team.
Logan looked at you for a second longer, hesitating for only a moment, before he grunted and stepped away. You couldâve sworn that he looked disappointed, as though he was hoping you would join him, or maybe ask him to stay. But you knew better, had become familiar with the sting of his rejection each time you had asked him to stay.
You wanted him to be a permanent feature of the X-Mansion, to stay after long missions, to not disappear for weeks at a time. You wanted the whole unspoken thing to become spoken at last, even if it hurt, but you knew he wasnât ready for it. And despite you feeling similarly, feeling that exact same fear he felt, you knew he wasnât willing to take on the challenge. To try. Hell, he wouldnât even wear the suit.
If he had asked whether you wanted him to stay, you wouldâve said yes without thought. Without hesitation. But Logan wouldnât put himself in that situation, so he never did ask. He only hesitated. And for you, that wasnât enough.
He knew it, too, which might have been the worst part of it all.
You watched him leave, heard the slam of the door behind him not long after, and could only sigh to yourself.
âEverything okay?â Storm asked you from the opposite end of the couch, tilting her head towards you from where she had been idly staring at the ceiling. She looked as though she knew the answer, whether she had already known, or had gotten it from the look on your face, though, you werenât sure.
âDâyou think heâll ever stick around? Wear the suit?â You questioned her in response, fixing your eyes on the fireplace in front of you for a few moments before her silence became too much. You looked at her, confused and slightly concerned.
She looked as downtrodden as you felt, which was saying something. âI⊠donât know. I hope so, but⊠hope is a feeble thing, in this world. Iâm not sure it means much anymore.â
Beast wandered in, with Scott at his side, blue fur still singed from a battle a few days prior. âIâm sure he will come around. Logan is a stubborn man, but a good one.â He commented, pushing his glasses further up his nose, but still squinting through them as he found his place in an armchair.
âWeâll see. Maybe we can make an X-Man of him, yet.â Scott added, sinking into the sofa cushion between you and Storm, wearing his glasses rather than his visor, for once. You thought could almost see the shape of his eyes, through the red lens.
âEither way, Iâm sure heâll linger. If not for us, then for those poor kids. We have all seen how much they idolise him.â Storm said, which was true, but still stung slightly. You wished that Logan would linger for you, too, but you knew it wasnât likely. But for the kids⊠well, he might just look back for them.
âHeâs their hero.â You agreed quietly, before resting your head on Scottâs shoulder. He said nothing, but you felt his quiet appreciation of the touch. The team needed comfort, in times like these, you included. Beast reached over and took Stormâs hand not long after, and you saw her squeeze him in response.
Jean wandered in not too long later, having been busy helping to look after the new mutant in the medbay. You made space for her between you and Scott, and resumed your position on her shoulder. She rested her head on your own, and the five of you breathed quietly, not speaking. There was nothing much to speak about, nothing that could comfort you, anyway. The world continued its descent into chaos and hatred, and despite the X-Menâs best efforts, nothing any of you did would be changing it.
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It was Beast raising the alarm that woke you up, and Jean jolted awake soon after you.
âThe humans, theyâre here!â He shouted, diving into action, with Storm and Scott following soon after while you and Jean shared a single glance, her eyes filled with terror.
âGet the kids!â You yelled to her, as you jumped from the couch, heading to confront the humans with Scott, Beast and Storm. All the while, you were wondering where Logan was.
It was a thought that remained present in the back of your head, a wish that he was safe, unharmed. You couldnât decide whether you wanted him to show up, to be the hero all of the kids knew him to be, or whether you wanted him far away, safe from what you were certain would be a lethal encounter.
The humans wouldnât just come to the X-Mansion lightly. They would be prepared. Armed to the teeth, you were sure. And the moment you caught a glance outside of the window, seeing the crowds outside, glints of machinery and weapons, you knew you were right.
For a moment, you thought you saw him out there, until the two humans stepped apart, shattering the illusion of their shadows. The call of his name died on your lips.
âX-Men, to me.â Scott called out, and his grave expression told you that he had already had the same realisation as you. Most of you, if any at all, wouldnât be getting out of this alive.
âTogether?â Storm questioned, eyes glowing that bright white that only added to her ethereal look. She locked eyes with you, and you nodded firmly.
âTogether.â
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âąpairings - paige bueckers x reader
âąsummary - reader comforts overwhelmed paige (lil paigey mentioned!)
âąa/n - I wrote this late enjoy (everyone be proud i was actually writing.)
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The summer sun poured through the gym's large windows, illuminating the court where Paige was locked in her own world. The rhythmic sound of the basketball bouncing against the polished wooden floor echoed through the empty space, a steady beat that mirrored her determination. It was supposed to be summer breakâa time for relaxation and carefree daysâbut here she was, drenched in sweat, pushing herself harder than ever.
You watched from the bleachers, your heart heavy with a mix of admiration and longing. Even though you had the opportunity to join her on many of her âworld tourâ trips this summer, you had chosen to stay back and take extra classes, hoping to lighten your course load for the next semester. You wanted to dedicate more time to the team, to be there for Paige, but the decision came at a cost. The time you could spend together felt almost nonexistent, and when you did manage to see each other, it was often in the midst of chaos.
So here you were, late at night watching her practice because youâll take any time you can get to spend with her.Â
As Paige dribbled the ball with relentless energy, you could see the weight of the world pressing down on her. Every missed shot seemed to chip away at her vibrant spirit, the frustration building in her posture. It worries you. She was so used to thriving in the spotlight, but now, the pressure of expectations loomed over her like a dark cloud. She knew this was her last year. She wants to prove herself and get a ring, but its starting to take a toll.
This was the same girl who had held your hand through sleepless nights of uncertainty. When you had to let go of your dreams of playing, it was Paige who sat with you on the bleachers, her laughter a soothing balm against the ache of loss. She would bring you snacks during practice, just seeing her smile while walking up to you changed your mood for the day. With every shared secret and late-night conversation, your friendship had blossomed into something deeper, a love that felt like coming home.
The day she had asked you out was etched in your memoryâa perfect mix of nervous laughter and hopeful glances. Under the stars, with the distant sounds of campus life swirling around you, she had leaned in, her eyes sparkling with a mix of mischief and sincerity. âSo, what do you say? Want to be my girlfriend?â It had been a simple question, but the weight of it had felt monumental. From that moment on, you were inseparable.
Yet, in your heart, you knew that love wasnât measured by time spent but by the moments that made you feel alive. And watching her now, it hurt to see the vibrant girl you adored caught in a cycle of pressure and performance, yearning for her to find her way back to the joy that first drew you to her.
âHey, P!â you called out, trying to keep your tone light, hoping to pull her back from the edge. âHow about a quick break love? I brought snacks!â You said pulling up the bag of strawberry tru fru from your bag
She paused, glancing over with a hint of a smile that didnât quite reach her eyes. âMaybe in a bit, Iâm gonna get it eventually!â Her cheerful demeanor felt forced, the strain beneath it cutting deep.
You stood, your heart racing as you approached her, sensing the tipping point was close. âNo, seriously. Youâve been going at it for hours, and you look like you might explode.â
With a slight chuckle, she brushed it off. âIâm good, Just need to get in the zone.â
âGood? You look anything but,â you replied gently, stepping closer. âIâve seen you play baby I know youâre better than this, you arenât gonna get anywhere if you are in your head. Talk to me.â
For a moment, she hesitated, her gaze drifting to the floor, the conflict in her expression visible. You knew that she held a lot inside, and it was time for her to let it out.
âPlease, Paige,â you pressed softly, your eyes meeting hers. âYou donât have to pretend with me.â
she hesitated for a moment, her grip on the ball tightening as she took a deep breathe.
âI'm tired,â Paige admitted, and you could see the walls she had built around herself start to come down. Her shoulders slumped as she set the ball down on the floor, the tension in her body easing just a bit. âTraveling is great, and Iâm so lucky and fortunate for everything I have and am able to do. But Iâm so tired. I feel like I barely even have time to process my thoughts,between practice, being gone, and with all the drama going on online right now with the team. and sometimes it feels like thereâs a weight in my mindâif that even makes sense.â
You felt a pang in your heart at her words. You felt guilty knowing that she was trying to take this on all alone. She sank onto the floor, legs slightly apart, the energy that usually surrounded her dimming. You bent down in front of her, placing your hands gently on her knees. âThen let me hold it.â
âHuh?â she replied, surprise flickering in her eyes.
âSome of this weight on your mind, P. I need you to tell me when things are getting heavy and too much,â you urged softly, your gaze locked onto hers, hoping to convey the sincerity of your words.
She shook her head, a hint of defiance in her voice. âYou donât need that,â she insisted, standing up and dusting herself off. âOn top of school, what you do for the team, and everything you do for me, the last thing you need is my shit on top of that.â
You were baffled by her response. âBaby, what are you talking about? You do so much for me, and you think what you bring to this relationship isnât enough? Iâm here because I want to be, not out of obligation. Let me help you.â
Her eyes softened, but there was still a flicker of hesitation. âItâs justâI feel like Iâm not giving you enough in return. You do so much for me; the least I could do is figure my shit out by myself.â Her voice cracked, her tongue poking at her cheek as she tried to keep her composure, her head falling slightly.
âOh, my loveâŠâ you murmured, pulling her in for a hug.
Nothing was said for a moment as you held her tight, feeling the tension in her body slowly ease as she wrapped her arms around you, sinking into your touch. You pulled away slightly, your hands taking her face in your palms, gently lifting her gaze to meet yours.
âPaige, you donât have to repay me for the things I do for you. I do them because I love you, and I donât expect anything in return. There is nothing more fulfilling than the love you give me. I want all of you, Paigeâthe good and the bad. So let me take some of the burden off your mind, baby. You wonât owe me anything. Loving me the way you do is payment enough.â
Tears glistened in her eyes as she took a shaky breath, her lips trembling into a small smile. âYou really mean that?â
âAlways,â you replied, your thumb brushing gently across her cheek.
A wave of relief washed over her as she melted into you, the warmth of your embrace enveloping her like a cozy blanket. âThank you,â she whispered, her voice barely above a breath. âI donât know what Iâd do without you. Seriously, youâre my rock.â
ââI got you, baby, through everything,â you said gently, leaning in to place a soft kiss on her lips, which she returned gladly.
She pulled away, searching your eyes before a mischievous smile crept across her face. âEverything?â she questioned, and you nodded hesitantly.
âEven my struggling rap career?â She jokedÂ
you pushed away, but she held you tight.
âShut up, P.â
âI would appreciate it if you addressed me as Lil Paigey,â she shot back, her eyes sparkling with playful defiance.
âYeah, not happening. Good try, though.â You placed another kiss on her nose before breaking free from her grasp and grabbing the ball.
âMaybe if you beat me in a game of horseâŠâ you challenged, a playful grin on your face.
She took that as a dare, snatching the ball from your hands. âOkay, but I'll go first!â she declared, walking toward the court with a bright smile.
Your heart eased at the sight of your girl radiating happiness, the stress that had weighed her down fading away. This was the moment youâd been hoping forâher laughter echoing in the gym, bringing a sense of normalcy and joy to both of you.
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I'm not really on the team that swears to Jesus and beyond that Crowley lost his memories after the Fall. Yes, of course, he forgot some stuff because, ya know, he has been alive for more than 6000 years and if I don't remember what I ate for lunch yesterday, Satan knows he won't remember every single second of his life, but he remembers the important things
"Ah, but what about him not remembering fighting alongside FurFur or building the thingy with Saraqael?"
Love, I give you two options:
Those are either some of the stuff he didn't consider important enough to remember OR he is just straight up fucking with them. He does remember, but why reveal it if playing dumb sometimes is good in the long run? Might be useful
Alas, I don't know, but I will die on the hill that he does remember
Which means he most probably remembers meeting Aziraphale. Not because Aziraphale was "important" at the time per se, or because it was love at first sight (because it wasnt, not for him. Bro was so focused on the nebula he didnt even introduce himself when Aziraphale did. He threw him a "Right. Nice to meet ya. Anyway, nebula time!"), but because he was there when Crowley created the nebula and, as he said, he had been waiting for that moment since "well, always". It's an important moment for him, so he remembers. Aziraphale just so happened to be present
I don't know if that was the only interaction they had in Heaven or not (and that's not the point I'm trying to get to so I will ignore that problem for a later post, maybe), but when the now Demon Crawley was sent up to the Garden, he did remember Aziraphale. That's why he approached him
Cmon, Crowley isn't stupid. Of course he wouldn't approach an angel on the wall just willy nilly and make conversation. He didn't know Aziraphale had given away the flaming sword yet. Just approaching an angel from behind and morph into a demon next to him out of nowhere could be a death sentence. Or at least an A Line for a good smitting
Yet, he did it. He had at least 3 other angels to choose from but he approached the angel that he remembered from back in the beginning that was kind enough to help him with the engine of the nebula. Hell! I even bet this was not the first time they saw each other in the Garden!
Bet they've seen and observed each other from afar a few times while they interacted with the humans (yes, cause I believe Crawley, before tempting Eve, tried to gain her trust. It's easier to listen to a friend than a random snake) or just around the Garden really.
That's why Aziraphale didn't get surprised when Crawley showed up at the wall, because he knew the demon snake had been around the Garden for a while. He probably even recognized him as the former Star Maker and hoped he was still a little bit of his old self so he allowed himself to engage in conversation
Anyhow, another clue? This:
He remembers how Heaven works. He remembers he was a high ranking angel. Satan, he remembers the bloody passwords!
Do you know what else he remembers?
Cause they didn't throw that line in there for nothing. No, gents. Cmon. Nothing is random in Good Omens
He knows who he was. He remembers being the Star Maker that hung the stars in the sky
He remembers why he fell, for goodness sake
And the fact that he remembers everything makes all of it so much more tragic, doesn't it? He remembers his life before the Fall, his supposed friends that dragged him into the pit with them, what Her love felt like, the "mistakes" he made that led to his Fall
And it must have hurt. It must have hurt so much when he found himself in a pit of boiling sulfur with his wings completely burned and without Her love because he remembered it all. He must have been so bloody confused for so long
He might have regretted it. All the questions and the company he kept that made him Fall. But he doesn't anymore.
He knows he doesn't need Heaven, he doesn't need Hell. They are toxic. All he needs is his pacific fragile existence on Earth with Aziraphale and yet...well, that's something else he won't forget now, is it?
*clears throat*
I rest my case
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Fight - M.Riddle
Summary: Mattheo Riddle breaks your nose, and he kinda feels bad about it.
~2.3k words
Content: Modern Au, Characters are 18+, No use of Y/N, No determined house, Mattheo doesn't like using his words, descriptions of fighting and blood, maybe ooc everyone? dunno this fandom is weird i love it, mention of drug use(tobacco, weed, alcohol), Mattheo's love language is acts of service and gift giving fight me, rushed ending sorry chat i'm getting back into writing again, not proof read
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Violence isnât something Iâm particularly fond of. Not for any reason, but I suppose you really donât need a reason to hate something so savage. I donât like action movies, the idea of contact sports and martial arts in the muggle world is barbaric to me, and even watching beaters and chasers hurdle towards each other on the Quidditch pitch makes me cringe.
Hogwarts is full of many fights. They're unavoidable, I suppose. Occasionally, the more disorderly underclassmen will break out into a wizardâs duel. Bright flashes of light and the screams of ignorantly casted hexes will draw onlookers nearby, blocking up the already crowded hallways with a ring of students encouraging their peers with reckless abandon. In fact, there were rumors of a secret dueling club that had been organizing these fights for centuries.
However, there are only so many different hexes and jinxes to terrorize and entertain your classmates with before things become⊠stale. This conundrum, along with unstable hormones, had sparked a new infatuation among Hogwarts upperclassmen.
Fist-fights.
The idea was childish. Any problem imaginable could be sorted with words, or even wands, and yet both boys and girls fought nail, tooth, and, claw just for an ounce of respect. Maybe an ounce of attention. If I remember right, even an ounce of weed (This was the day many students had to undergo a veritaserum-induced interrogation.) . It was foolish, and oftentimes fights were shut down by the hands of professors within moments.
That did not seem to be the case today.
As if by some miracle, or in my case a misfortune, professors seemed to be distinctly absent from the hallways in which Mattheo Riddle and Theodore Nott, seventh year Slytherinâs and star quidditch players, beat each other into a pulp.
And by my luck, I was stuck at the barricade of sorts, facing the fight without obstruction as my peers tried to press closer, obscuring my exit from the situation.
The two of them screamed about who-knows-what, and they flashed between the floor and standing upright. The two of them sauntered and stumbled around, each collision of fist to skin sent my stomach reeling with nausea.
Theodoreâs lip was busted and an uncomfortable looking bruise was already forming around his eye. He shrugged-more-so ripped- his robe off and swung wildly at Mattheo, making him back up.
Now, Mattheo Riddle is a tall man. A solid 6 foot if not taller, muscular build after a few years on the Slytherinâs Quidditch team. He was not someone you would want to stand up against, or really be near in general.
The crowd collectively gasped and hollered as he stumbled backwards, right towards me. Against the thick wall of students, I had no where to go. He swung his arm back, fast and powerful.
The sickening crack was all I could hear. Then all I could see were his angry eyes widening in realization that he had hit something other than Theodore. His head swiveled around, and I almost thought he would apologize before a blow landed in his gut, leaving him to curl over and writhe in pain on his knees. At this point, I believe Draco Malfoy and Blaise Zabini had forced themselves into the ring to separate Riddle and Nott.
I donât remember falling backwards, but I was in the strong hands of another classmate while a few people asked if I was okay. I tasted blood on my lips. Tears slipped down my cheeks heavy and hot, and blood dripped profusely from my nose.
It was Pansy Parkinson that escorted be to the hospital wing.
Pansy was a pretty girl, black hair, silver jewelry, and eyes sharper than a new blade. She wasnât the most approachable girl I had ever spoken to, but after an assigned pairing in potions, we had become quite the duo. She rambled on about how sheâll have âMattâ apologize, and how âthe boysâ were going to be in so much shit.
My nose was broken, fixed with a simple, âEpiskey!â, from Madam Promfrey, and I was sent on my merry way with Pansy at my side. She, and I do mean this fondly, droned on about how sorry she was( âPansy, I said it was fine.â âNo, it isnât fine! Those nitwits could have done far worse-â) and how sheâll have Riddle pay me back.
âReally, he is a nice guy!â
âSo Iâve heardâŠâ I mumbled, a migraine settling in, and I had half a mind to turn back around to the hospital wing and demand enough tonic to let me sleep for a week.
âWhy donât I just take you back to my dorm and we can watch a movie, eat a few snacks. I still have a ton a chocolate frogs left from our last sleepover.â
I sighed, and gave a small smile. I didnât really feel like it, but if it would make dear Pansy stop worrying, I folded.
The Slytherin dungeons were oddly warm considering being so far underneath the Black Lake. The stained glass casted rays of green and blue lighting among the common room, and fish swam past the great windows. The common room was nearly empty save for a few students among the chairs reading, a couple playing wizard chess, and a small group of familiar faces occupying the couches in front of the fire place.
The first to turn around was Blaise Zabini, and he greeted Pansy with a smile, then turned to me with a small wince. âHow're you feeling?â
âBetter now. Thank you.â
Zabini nodded, turning his gaze back to the ever incessantly whining Malfoy. Pansy rolled her eyes, and I could feel the âhe turned me into a lesbian,â building in her chest. We retired to her room before her own cat-fight could break out
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It was around 2 am when we emerged from Pansyâs room again, both hungry and unable to sleep even after indulging in far too many sweets. She took my hand, racing me down flights of stairs until we stumbled back into the common room with a small giggle that abruptly stopped at the sight of the same group of boys on the couch. Two new heads had joined the count, and simultaneously each turned to face the two of us.
I locked eyes with Mattheo Riddle, and he looked away.
Fucking dick.
âWhat was it this time?â Pansy broke the silence, dragging me to the couch now. She sat at the end, myself in the middle, and coincidentally, Riddle on my other side.
Theodore Nott, who sat across the center table from Riddle, nursing his swollen eye with an ice bag answered. âHe broke my pipe.â
Mattheo Riddle rolled his eyes, âI said I'm sorry and I'll pay you back." He snapped, and Nott yelled something about that being his favorite glass.
Pansy tskâd them, reaching for the bowl of fruit on the table, plucking herself an apple and offering me an orange. My nails, cut short due to nervous picking and biting, dug at the thick skin. I lifted my head only when I heard my name being spoken, and I met Nottâs gaze.
âHowâs your nose?â
I swore he made a snide glance at Riddle, who visibly tense and turned farther away from me.
âItâs fine. Easily fixed.â I turned my gaze back to the orange, biting my cheek in frustration as my nail continued to slip from the peel. A blush rose to my cheeks in frustration.
âSo it was broken. You need to watch where youâre swinging those damn elbows, Riddle.â
Riddle gave Nott the finger, and the company around us laughed. I laughed along, but sighed as I ultimately gave up trying to peel the orange. Pathetic. At least no one had seemed to notice or care.
âNo one would have gotten hurt had you not been a little bitch.â Snapped Mattheo to Theodore, and his bruised hand grabbed the orange from my own so quickly I almost didnât realize it had happened.
His fingers worked swiftly, removing the skin of the fruit before he put it back in my hands. He stood up, âIâm sick of your shit, going to bed. Donât make too much noise when you come up.â He mumbled, and Theodore rolled his eyes. âYeah, yeah. Donât get your panties in a twist, princess.â
I stared down at the peeled orange in my hand. Slowly, I pulled a carpel from the rest of the fruit.
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Things had seemed to turn around for me, lately.
Maybe it was a lucky streak, but the bench I frequented in my free time to read had been consistently available despite being a popular spot most days. Along with that, My favorite seat in History of Magic, which had been unrightfully stolen by a group of friends, had been returned to me (It was my favorite because it's located on the far back wall, perfect for an unseen nap). I even walked into potions and found a little note of all the questions that were to be asked during the class, and all of their answers.
Pansy laid her head in my lap, whining about a girl she was pining for, while I flipped through pages of an uninteresting book on potion ingredients. She sat up slowly, yawning and stretching her arms above her head. "It's the weekend, what are we doing here? Lets go for a walk." she urged, and I grabbed my bag and followed. We walked through hallways mindlessly, chatting about the most recent rumors.
There was a yell from down the hall as we turned a corner, and before either of us could look, a body came hurdling into mine. I fell to the ground, hard enough that the air was knocked from my lungs. I gasped desperately, tears rushing to my eyes at the sudden pain of hard stone on my back, and a massive body on top of me.
It pushed itself up onto its hands, hovering over me.
I looked Mattheo Riddle square in the eye, and I could see the color drain from his face.
"Well? Get off of her!" I heard Pansy shriek, and once he had moved, Pansy helped me off the ground. I looked up at her, smiling in thanks, before I met Mattheo Riddle's gaze again. He stared at me for a moment longer, opening his mouth to say something. He shut it again, and turned away. Zabini raced around the corner, eyes wide as he took in the scene.
"You beat her up again?"
The look Mattheo gave Blaise sent a chill down my spine.
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The next day, Pansy and I found a box of chocolates outside of my dorm.
"Someone has a secret admirer!" She chimed in a sing-song voice.
I blushed a little bit at the notion. It was nice to think, but I insisted it was left at the wrong door and we should leave it. After much convincing, Pansy folded.
"I'm sure it's meant for you. You're probably hurting someone's feelings," She sighed.
"Then they should have left a note."
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It was frigid outside, the wind nipping at my nose, and I pulled my scarf further over my face. The courtyard was empty, most everyone opting to hide away in the warmth of their common rooms, and I started to feel like a fool for daring to come outside. At least it was quiet. I collected my bag, sliding my books into their place when the crunch of snow behind me sent be jumping in surprise.
I whipped my head around and audibly gasped when I met dark brown eyes.
"Do you not like chocolate?"
The question took me off guard, and I obviously took too long to answer when Mattheo started talking again.
"It's fine if you don't. I didn't really know what you would have liked," Mattheo rubbed his hands together, suddenly looking anywhere but at me. He looked nervous. Was Mattheo Riddle nervous?
"Just⊠It was anâŠ" he stumbled over his words, scratching at his palm. "Y'know⊠Merlin, will you just say something?" he snapped, tugging on his scarf.
I couldn't help but stare at him. He looked so.. small.
"You got me chocolate?"
"Did⊠you not get it? I left it outside of your door."
I bit the inside of my cheek. Mattheo Riddle had gotten me chocolates. Why? "I didn't think they were for me."
"Why wouldn't they have been?"
"I thought someone had just left them at the wrong door."
Mattheo looked appalled at the very notion. He ran his hands through his hair, taking a deep, frustrated breath. "Why would I have left chocolates outside of anyone else's door?"
"You didn't leave a note. I didn't know who they were for, or what they were for, or if they were poisoned!"
Mattheo groaned, mumbling something about Zabini lying when he said girls were clever, "Well they were for you! To⊠apologize! For breaking your nose, and then knocking you over, and what I was doing before just didn't seem like enough!"
My mouth felt dry, and I shook my head. "What you were doing before? You could have just said sorry!"
Mattheo sighed, "The.. the seats in class- I had detention for weeks because I knew you liked napping in history of magic, and you were struggling in potions- and.. Really I deserve a 'thank you'!"
"Well then, Thank you."
A blush crept up to Matheo's cheeks, though I'm sure it was just the cold getting to him.
"I'm sorry."
I smiled, reaching to grab my bag off of the bench. "I forgive you."
Mattheo grabbed the bag before I could, and I looked up at him in confusion as he slung it over his shoulder. 'I'll carry it for you," Is all he mumbled while pulling his scarf tighter around his red face.
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đ€©Track 8 - Gorgeous
*I am alive!! I apologize for taking so long. I had to finish my internship before I could really start to get back into the groove. so here we go, almost 4k words just for you! lemme know if y'all like the redemption arc!*
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Logan was on cloud-9 right now.Â
Sure, the only person who could rival his good mood was probably Charles, who had just won his home race. But with Logan, he had you in his arms and another trophy to take back to Italy.Â
The only issue was that he could feel eyes on him. He had felt it since he shared the podium with the McLaren driver hours before. The sad puppy dog eyes that used to have Logan on beck and call for the boy. The ones that belonged to the person he used to call his best friend.Â
Oscar was a mystery that the American couldnât figure out.Â
How much of their childhood was a lie? How much of their ïżœïżœïżœsupposed friendshipâ was all fake? In his heart, Logan still wished that it was all true. That maybe, he could go back in time and live in his F3 era, where he knew that Oscar would always be there for him.Â
But, if he did that, then you wouldnât be in his arms, in the back of Jimmyz after Charles won the 2024 Monaco grand prix.Â
As if you could tell something was wrong, you tilted your head to look at Logan, who had a sad look in his eyes.Â
âEverything ok Log?â you questioned.Â
The blond gave a slight nod before digging his head into your shoulder. You knew that Logan could be a different type of drunk every time the two of you partied. You guessed that Monaco was a sad-drunk Logan, which also meant a very lovey-dovey Logan.Â
Your hand reached up and scratched his head, making him lean into your palm. You knew that Oscar was watching, he always was. His eyes were on the two of you like glue ever since the club mishap after the opening race back in January.Â
You and Logan wouldnât admit it, but the months in between the argument and Imola were some of the worst months for the both of you. If you thought being in Indy was isolating, you couldnât compare the weeks of silence. Then again, it was mainly silence from you and Logan. But you two had been hurt and it was easier to build up walls again then let people in.Â
Now, it was better. You and Logan made use of the on-team therapists that the team provided. They helped you get through things that you didnât even know were problems until you talked about it.Â
And a few of those discussions were about Oscar. Â
A part of you wanted to push Logan in the Aussieâs arms and make sure that they apologized to each other. You could tell that Oscar wasnât having the best season. His Monaco placing of P3 was the highest he had reached. Imola before that wasnât the best.Â
On the other hand, if they apologized and were friends again, where would that leave you? Deep down, you knew that Logan wouldnât abandon you. But sometimes, the past liked to repeat itself. You had friends that dropped you so quickly and you couldnât afford to lose Logan like you lost your other friends.Â
Your therapist had mentioned that you had attachment and abandonment issues after everything you had been through. You werenât going to argue with her as it made sense. You were scared of being replaced, that was it.Â
When Oscar met your eyes, you flashed him a quick smile. However, that had the Aussie turn his eyes away and to the floor, which made you frown. Maybe if you could be nice to Oscar, Logan and him could make up.Â
A snort from Logan had you looking away from where Oscar sat. A soft smile made its way to your lips as you looked up at Logan.Â
âWhat is it?âÂ
He leaned in to your ear to whisper, âLook at Charles right now.âÂ
You looked around for the Monegasque and completely lost it when you noticed his Monaco flag covering his face, or well, his entire torso. What had you more intrigued was Max, who had Charlesâs hand in his as he dragged the probably black-out-drunk man into a quieter corner.Â
âIs there something going on between them?â you asked.Â
A hum came from Logan. âI donât know. If there is, theyâre not being very discreet.âÂ
You leaned back into his chest. âYou canât talk Mr. Kiss Me On The Podium.âÂ
Logan whined, âIt was one time.âÂ
You took your phone out and your eyes widened at the time. âWe should probably get back to the hotel. Itâs nearly 3 in the morning.âÂ
The blond nodded and grabbed your hand, much like Max did with Charles. The two of you dodged and weaved through multiple people as they also congratulated Logan on his race. Yours wasnât as impressive as you crossed the line in P4.Â
As you led Logan away, you passed by Oscarâs table.Â
âCongrats on P3,â you said, hoping that heâd heard you over the music.Â
Oscar, at first, hadnât thought you were talking to him. But, the words âcongratsâ and âP3â made it clear that you were, indeed, talking to him. His eyes widened as he looked up at you. Logan behind wasnât really paying attention, and Oscar didnât know whether to feel glad or deflated.Â
He cleared his throat. âThanks.âÂ
You didnât respond, but that same lopsided smile was flashed his way before you turned around and dragged Logan to the front, leaving Oscar frozen in his seat.Â
A long sigh left his lips as he put his head down on the table. He didnât know what to do. Logan had been his best friend, there was no lie about that. But with McLaren and all the success, he had pushed the American to the point of no-return. And he was dealing with the consequences. A firm hand landed on his shoulder, making him look up.Â
His eyes, now partially watery, met the blue ones of George Russell.Â
George was expecting Oscar to have fallen asleep, because if there was anyone who could close his eyes and nap at a club, it would be Oscar. However, he wasnât expecting the younger man to be close to tears.Â
The Briton quickly sat down next to the Australian.Â
âWhat the matter Oscar? Not happy with P3?âÂ
That did it.Â
It was only a matter of minutes before the floodgates opened and Oscar began to sob. Georgeâs eyes widened in a panic, not knowing what to do with a sobbing Oscar. He frantically looked around, trying to find someone who could help him.Â
His eyes landed on Charles and Max, but by the way they were both swaying, neither of them would be very much help.Â
He glanced to the other side, eyes connecting with Lewis. He made a weird motion to the heap on the table that was Oscar and wildly beckoned him over.Â
The older Briton picked up what George was putting down and ended his conversation. He walked swiftly over and sat on the other side of Oscar.Â
âWhatâs wrong with him?â Lewis questioned, now hearing the very clear sobs.Â
George ran a hand through his hair. âI donât know. I congratulated him on P3, and he just started crying.âÂ
âHe didnât even look at me,â came a wail from Oscar.Â
Lewis was now confused. âCharles looked at you a bunch mate.âÂ
âNo!â Oscar sat up, fire in his eyes. To George and Lewis, he looked like a very peeved kitten. âLogan!âÂ
George was even more confused. âLogan?âÂ
Oscar sadly nodded, lip pouting. âOur first podium and he didnât even look at me.âÂ
His head thunked back on the table, which made the two Mercedes drivers want to laugh. Lewis took a deep breath before putting his hand on Oscarâs back.Â
âMate, the two of you arenât exactly friends right now.âÂ
That made Oscar quickly sit up, and more tears fell from his eyes. âB-but, heâs my best friend. I didnât mean to push him away.âÂ
George sadly smiled. âDoes Logan know that?âÂ
Oscar looked at the Briton. âHe wonât let me talk to him. He turns away. Even Y/n talks to me sometimes but he wonât. I just want my friend back.âÂ
Another set of wails fell from his lips, making some people look in their direction. George grit his teeth as he tried to comfort Oscar. He hadnât expected the Aussie to be so heartbroken about this.Â
Lewis leaned in so that Oscar could hear him. âWell, then you just have to make him listen. Logan is guarded, so you have to keep pushing.âÂ
A sniff came from Oscar.Â
âBut what if he never forgives me?âÂ
âThen he wonât. But you would be able to apologize and move on.âÂ
That was definitely the wrong choice of words as Oscar started to sob once more. George sent Lewis a stink eye over the sobbing heap of McLaren driver.Â
The younger Briton took a deep breath. âLewis didnât mean it like that. Heâs just saying that you have to give Logan the chance to know that you are sorry and process things. It took him almost three months for him to forgive Lewis, Max, and Charles.âÂ
That at least got Oscar to stop sobbing. George made a mental note that Oscar was a sad-type of drunk. He was only hoping that you and Logan were doing fine, knowing that Logan tended to get sappy when drunk as well.Â
However, it was about the same in the hotel that you were staying at. Logan had unexpectedly started crying in the car, making you panic. By the time you got him to the room, he was almost in hysterics.Â
You had no clue what to do as Logan flopped face down on the bed. His sobs were still audible through the multiple blankets. You sat next to his head and rubbed his back.Â
âLogan, if you donât tell me whatâs wrong, I canât help you.âÂ
You knew he said something, coming from the muffles. You rolled your eyes, even if he couldnât see them.Â
âI canât hear you through the blanket.âÂ
Logan pushed himself up, letting you see his red eyes and tear streaks.Â
âOscar hates me,â he wailed and flopped back face down.Â
You didnât know whether to laugh or cry with him. Obviously, the Aussie didnât hate Logan. In fact, you think that Oscar is very sorry for what happened between them. You pushed all your feelings aside, wanting to help your boyfriend.Â
âBaby, I donât think Oscar hates you.âÂ
The sobbing blond turned his head. âBut I yelled at him.âÂ
âYou yelled at Max, Charles, and Lewis. Do they hate you?âÂ
There was some silence before he spoke up again and huffed. âNo.âÂ
You giggled. âSo why do you think that Oscar hates you?âÂ
Loganâs lip wobbled as he spoke. âBecause he was so distant. I tried talking to him, and he kept pushing me away.âÂ
You thought for a moment. âYou both were rookies with a lot on your plate. And, he had a pretty mean teammate. Maybe think about that?âÂ
Logan nodded. In his drunk mind, his thoughts were all over the place. But deep down, he knew that Oscar may have not meant to be distant. There was a difference between Williams and McLaren. The Aussie might have had more pressure than what he wanted to tell anyone.Â
When he finally looked up at you, you could see the puppy dog eyes. Those bright ocean blue eyes that you loved so much. You always felt like you might sink, drown, and die in them. Logan sighed and closed his eyes, resting his head on your lap. His arms came around your waist to hold you.Â
âWhat if we invite him to paddle in Canada?â he whispered, a bit nervous to your reaction.Â
He knew that you dealt with some abandonment issues and didnât want you thinking that heâd replace you if him and Oscar miraculously saved their friendship. So, by asking to invite him to paddle, it wouldnât just be the two of them.Â
He opened his eyes to see your reaction and was pleased with the soft look in your eyes. âWe can do that baby.âÂ
âYouâre so gorgeous. I love you.âÂ
You snorted, not expecting that. âI love you too, Logan.âÂ
A soft snore was your answer, making you giggle again. You gently rolled Logan onto his side of the bed and undressed him down to his boxers. You knew he tended to overheat, and sleeping in jeans was never fun for anyone.Â
You stripped as well, but took one of Loganâs shirts out of his suitcase to use as pajamas. The bottom of the t-shirt ended a bit above mid-thigh. It was perfect.
When Canada arrived two weeks late, it was wet and cold. The race was a perfect reflection of the weather. You and Logan couldnât be bothered by either of you not getting pole. In fact, you both almost ran over George when he managed to set the fastest time right before Max.Â
The two of you, of course, hugged Max with the same ferocity. With Charles, you both hugged him a bit sweeter. You and Logan had made it to the lower ranks of Q3. Charles almost made it but was knocked out by Lance.Â
Oscar stood by the sides, watching you two do a quick debrief with your small group of friends. Even Lewis, who had normally stayed away after quali-sessions, was excitedly waving his hands around, happy to be in the front of the pack for this race.Â
The Aussie almost looked away, but Logan had decided to look in his direction, locking eyes with him. Oscar was ready for a sour expression, but was confused at the small smile the American threw his way. He quickly flashed one back before Loganâs attention went back to you and Max, who seemed to be in a very serious conversation.Â
It really wasnât as Max was telling you about his cats, but Oscar didnât know.Â
He was brought out of his staring by Lando wrapping an arm around him. He was then led away, but he quickly glanced back. You had caught his eyes this time, giving him the same smile that you had at the club. But this time, Oscar was brave enough to smile back.Â
When his teammate dragged him away, you turned back to the group. âAre we all good for paddle on Monday? I know itâs very quick after the race.âÂ
George nodded. âI can come. Is it just us?âÂ
Logan chewed his lip. âI think I might invite Oscar?âÂ
Four pairs of wide eyes stared at him in disbelief. But they quickly smiled at him.Â
Charles, who had made his way over after qualifying, said, âI think thatâs very nice of you.âÂ
Logan nodded, sighing softly. âYou guys donât have to come.âÂ
Max wrapped an arm around him. âWe wonât leave you to the wolves. Y/n could take care of you if we canât make it. Iâll let you know on Monday morning.âÂ
The Ferrari driver grumbled a bit. âI just want to get through tomorrow.âÂ
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lamborghini_racing tough race, but we'll get them next time. guess the bees don't like the rain đ
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lambo_duo we'll get them next time! still leading both championships!!
papa_tonino corsa superba. coraggio, ci arriverai la prossima volta đ (superb racing. chins up, you'll get there next time)
allofitaly what papa tonino said - Spain is ours !!
formula_delulu lando should have gotten a worse penalty. five seconds is nothing when George was almost 10+ behind
lestappenlove this just shows that lamborghini is more consistent. p2 and p3 should have been ours but whatever. heartbroken for Ferrari, Williams, and Lambo
Logan remembered how Charles grumbled as he had to hoist himself out of his car in the middle of the race. He was grumbling the same way. There were only ten laps left with Max in the lead, you and him trailing behind the Dutchman. However, it seemed like one of the McLaren drivers wanted to go bowling after getting a pitstop with new tyres.Â
Everyone knew the track was cold, reflecting the rainy atmosphere. Going for gaps on cold tyres was not something that should be done. However, Lando wasnât everyone.Â
After coming out of the pits, he had barreled past you and then past him, clipping his tyre, which sent him turning back into you, ultimately resulting in a double DNF. He had made sure that you were fine as he helped you out of your car. You had gotten shunted more than he did, but he was still sore.Â
It was silence in the recovery car as it drove you back to the pits. You two kept your helmets on as you got to your garage. Both of you were trembling as you walked in, expecting looks of hatred for crashing. Because thatâs what happened with Williams and Arrow. A DNF was a death sentence for you and him.Â
However, you two were met with sympathetic looks and very comforting hugs and pats. The team medics quickly looked you and Logan over for any major injuries. You looked over at Logan, who probably wanted to cry from the kindness as much as you did.Â
Getting dressed was hard as your shoulders and fronts hurt, but you got through it. Max had won in the time that it took you both to get back and change.Â
Still wanting to be good friends, you watched the podium celebrations as Max, Lando, and George stood tall. You were thankful that George wasnât right on your tail as Logan hit you, because you would have hit the Briton.Â
You wanted to say something to Logan, but were instantly pissed once again. The crowd of papaya-clad fans around you were chanting Landoâs name during the Dutch national anthem. You hoped that Lando would have the decency to gesture to them to stop chanting as Charles had done in Monza last year. However, the Briton seemed to bask in the praise. Logan sneered as Lando raised his fist, almost jeering them on.Â
You scoffed.Â
You watched as Max and George both side-eyed him.Â
After the podium celebrations, you and Logan made your way back to the Lamborghini garage. You passed by Ferrari, noticing Charles glaring at someone behind you. A quick turn to see who it was also had you glaring.Â
Lando and the McLaren team were celebrating the podium. But a swatch of blue had you calming down as you noticed Max sneaking into the bright red garage.Â
Logan took your hand to lead you into your own yellow and black. The two of you went to Loganâs driver room and sat down. Your head was resting on his shoulder when there was a knock on the door.Â
âWeâre not expecting anyone right?â you asked.Â
Logan looked confused as he got up and walked to the door. When he saw a flash of papaya, he wanted to slam it closed. But the McLaren kit belonged to Oscar and not Lando.Â
The three of you just looked at each other before Oscar cleared his throat. âCan I come in?âÂ
Logan said nothing, but turned to the side to let the Aussie in.Â
You went to say something, but he held out his hand. âCan I say something first?âÂ
Logan huffed. âSure. Unless you want to be like your teammate out there and be disrespectful.âÂ
Oscar, with wide eyes, shook his head. âI can here to apologize.âÂ
You and Logan were interested now.Â
The Aussie took a deep breath. âI know words wonât repair the past year, but I want to slowly start fixing it.âÂ
He looked to Logan first. âIâm sorry Logan. I shouldnât have let Lando be so influential on me last year. Because of that, I lost you as my best friend and I regret it every day. Your friendship meant the world to me, and Iâm paying my own consequences.âÂ
Oscar then turned to you. âY/n, we donât know each other well, but Iâm also sorry to you. I noticed how everyone seemed to distance you at McLaren functions and I should have been the better person instead of following the crowd.âÂ
He was on the verge of tears, but so were you and Logan.Â
âIâm not here because anyone asked me. Iâm here because I want to make things right. And I know that I probably wonât be forgiven immediately, Iâm not asking you to. But I wanted to say sorry first and hope to be on the right path to be friends. And â â Â
Oscar couldnât finish as he was brought into a big hug by Logan. His breath shuddered as he melted into the hug. He sobbed a bit more when he felt your arms wrap around him and the taller blond. He squeezed Logan a bit tighter as more tears fell.Â
Logan released the hug after a few moments and wiped his own tears. You also wiped your tears as you giggled at the moment of three drivers all crying together. Your laughs made Logan start, which made Oscar join in.Â
It felt ridiculous as you three really started laughing.Â
When you came down from the laughing high, Logan finally looked at Oscar in full. His eyes were red, but so where his and yours. He smiled at the Aussie.Â
âOscar, how do you feel about some paddle?âÂ
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loscar4ever OH MY GOSH OH MY GOSH OH MY GOSH đ±
presidentlogan LOSCAR IS BACK????
phoenix95 we totally crushed them đ
venus2 YEAH WE DID
charles_leclerc if only SOMEONE put in the same amount of effort we could have won đĄ
maxverstappen1 I SAID I WAS SORRY
y/ns_world everyone is focused on the first pic but the second one is so cute đ„ș
y/nxlogan I know righttttt
lambo_duo glad to see smiles in the comments, we'll bring it back in Spain!
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phoenix95 you're so gorgeous it actually hurts đ„Ž
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loscarlife I CAME STRAIGHT FROM LOGAN'S POST
cardar8155 carlos and oscar are still superior
lestappenlove ummmmmmm no.
venus2 you're so gorgeous đ
charles_leclerc someone complemented me once đ
maxverstappen1 I'M STILL ALIVE????
charles_leclerc y'all hear that đ€š
lewishamilton just the wind
y/n.nation they're such couple goals
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oscarpiastri never playing doubles with them again đ„Č
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opeightyone looks like we should start a padel line
lando_no_rizz glad that it seemed to be the group plus oscar
sargeantgirlie he's on thin ice, but I guess oscar is now fine
phoenix95 admit it, you're just scared of us đ
oscarpiastri yes. on and off track.
venus2 AS YOU SHOULD BE đ€
oscarpiastri @/maxverstappen1 come get your son pls
maxverstappen1 that's George's son
georgerussell63 oh so he's only my son when he's acting out
loscarland MY FAMILY IS BACK TOGETHER
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I just saw a post wondering what Andrew and Neilâs first proper argument is, and naturally I have to offer this:
Andrew and Neil donât fight. Theyâll ignore each other if theyâre pissed off - but never for more than a few hours, or maybe until one of them has slept it off and decide itâs not worth it (usually Andrew). Theyâll have tiffs but never over anything serious.
Except for in the months coming up to Andrewâs graduation. That is when I believe Andrew and Neil have their first real argument.
Andrew gets officially signed to his pro team around abouts the February of that year. Itâs in a state further away that Neil expected, and since they found out, Neil keeps catching Andrew looking at apartments or researching the state and the team. Heâs happy for him, of course he is, but he canât quite identify what this feeling in his stomach is every time Andrew brings it up. The little fights that last longer than their usually bickering start not long after; Neil getting more pissed off by the little things Andrew does, Andrew having off-days with Neil more and more often, each of them asking for their own space because they know if they stay around each other theyâre going to start a fight. Itâs gradual in a way that they donât realise for a little while that itâs getting worse, until just after the championship finals, and the season is officially over, when three days have passed without them talking for not much of a reason at all. Neil used his finals as an excuse, but Andrew didnât have any good reason. After those three days, theyâre finally alone in their dorm for whatever reason, and maybe Andrew has started packing or heâs just got some sort of welcome package from the team: everything explodes. Andrew tries to kiss Neil, and something feels wrong, and when Neil asks what the fuck is going on, all hell breaks loose.
Andrew doesnât yell, of course he doesnât, but heâs venomous. Heâs asking Neil why heâs acting as if the world is going to end just because heâs graduating, heâs angry at him for becoming so dependent on his presence, heâs angry at himself for feeling like heâs found a future in Neil when this was never the plan. He was supposed to be nothing. A casual fuck, with an end date and no feelings but fuck if he canât live his life without him now. Neil yells, because he does, and heâs angry that Andrew still seems so unsure about what they are, how comfortable they were, but suddenly things are different, and it feels like he doesnât care. Heâs angry at himself for building his life around Andrew, but heâs the only reason why Neil Josten exists. Andrew reminds him of that, and it makes everything worse.
It goes on for far too long, quickly becoming meaningless and just an excuse for either of them to vent out the frustration theyâve been keeping inside for months.
âYou know that I wonât overstep your boundaries,â Neil points a finger at him. âSo in your head itâs okay to treat me like shit and ignore me because you know that I will give you that space.â
He doesnât even really think that, but every little thing, every little excuse is multiplied by a thousand when he feels this red hot rage. He hates the things that come out of his mouth, but Andrew gives it back, and his insistent refusal to back down just further butts their heads together and infuriates them both.
âI wonât chase after you because youâve decided to allow me distance,â Andrew says, calm and ice cold. âYou canât invent boundaries for me and then be upset that they exist.â
Lows blows after low blows, unfair quips and insults from both sides, slamming of drawers and doors and throwing of things; they have never, ever fought like this before. Itâs over everything and nothing at the same time. Andrew knew it was only a matter of time before campus security was called, but when he tried to tell Neil to calm down and lower his voice, it only made things worse.
Theyâve been unkind and awful with each other for about an hour when Neil finds himself starting to get so furiously angry thats heâs upset, that he can feel himself being needlessly nasty with Andrew. For the first time ever he feels the tilt. He feels their foundations getting rocked, a crack in the base of the pyramid of their relationship that gives him the feeling that this might not last forever. He leaves their dorm with a slam of the door, and goes for a run. He hasnât done that in a while, a run from his feelings, running from his problems and responsibilities. Heâs not sure how long itâs been before he finds himself too far away from campus, because he just ran in a straight line.
When he checks his phone he realises heâs over an hour walk away from their dorms. He almost calls Matt, and hesitates over Coachâs phone number, but instead he clicks Andrewâs name. Itâs only ringing for two rings before the ringing ends and thereâs a quiet hiss at the other end of the line. Neil double checks that heâs answered, because Andrew hasnât said anything, and brings the phone back to his ear.
âCan you come pick me up?â His breathing is heavy, all of his anger drained out through his feet with every single step that he took to get further away from their dorm.
âWhere are you?â Andrew is quick to respond, and Neil can hear him already picking up his keys.
Neil tells him the name of some bar that he can see, and Andrew hangs up almost instantly afterwards. Neil starts to put his phone away, used to the abrupt endings of phone calls, but wishing he would say something more. He puts his phone away and wonders why Andrew canât just give him something. Heâs not looking for a Love you! Bye! But maybe just an answer that let him know he was listening. but then it starts to ring again, and itâs Andrew, and Neil doesnât say anything when he answers.
âIâm leaving now,â Andrew says. Thereâs something in his voice. âIâll be there in about twenty minutes.â
âOkay,â Neil responds. âThank you.â
Andrew hums in acknowledgment, but this time he doesnât hang up immediately. He hesitates, but heâs somewhere outside now.
âI will always pick you up.â He says after a while, after heâs shut his car door and the engine has rumbled to life, and maybe it sounds like I love you, I care about you, I need you. Maybe it sounds like I need you to know that i canât lose this.
âI know,â Neil says, and it sounds like I canât do this without you. âThank you.â
Andrew waits a second or two then before hanging up, and Neil waits for him by the curb. Andrew is there quicker than twenty minutes later. Neither of them say anything as Neil slips into the passenger seat, and neither of them say anything as they pull away. Neither of them say anything until Andrew has switched the engine off, and the car is sitting in its parking spot. They look at each other then, and maybe then they understand whatâs happening.
âIâm not above telling you that I donât want to leave here,â leave you. âBut this was always a certainty. Youâve had plenty of time to prepare.â
âI thought that I had,â Neil tells him.
Itâs the truth, in some way. He realises then that all of these little fights, and growing agitation, and this almost primal urge to push Andrew away was how heâd prepared. Heâs been trying his hardest to soften the blow that it would have on him, and if he pushed him away first, then it wouldnât hurt when he inevitably pushed him back or let him go. Only, that was never going to happen, and thatâs what made it worse - nothing could happen to them now that would not bring them back to each other. So when Neil pushed and pushed and pushed and Andrew was constantly hitting a wall instead of a door, all they were doing was filling the room with resentment.
They sit in the car then and talk about the reality: Andrew was moving away in just a few weeks, moving further away than theyâd ever been apart. The truth was that regardless of whether or not Neil decides to spend the summer with him, August would come, and Neil would go back to PSU, and Andrew would stay wherever it was that he was staying. Theyâd been fighting more in a subconscious test with each other, to see if one of them were going to give up, to see it this was the thing that would finally tear them apart. They talk about that, too, as difficult as it is for Andrew to be honest about that kind of thing. Neil asks him if he thinks it would be better for them to break up, to give each other space, to let Andrew flourish on his new team and meet new people and grow into himself as a professional exy player. Itâs the first time either of them have acknowledged the possibility out loud with each other, and it destroys Neil to ask it, and it destroys Andrew to hear it.
Andrew thinks about how Exy was supposed to be the deal with Kevin: how he was supposed to come off his meds, and Kevin would give him purpose, and he would find something to live for in the sport that would not love him back. Instead he gave him Neil. That was his something to live for, and while heâd started to learn how to live for himself, and he would eventually survive without him, he didnât want to. He couldnât. He would sooner give it all up just to keep him, and Neil knew that was the truth.
Neil thinks about how Neil was supposed to be temporary. Now it was the future, it was Andrew, it was a long and successful life. Neil Josten did not have an expiry date anymore. He could have things that were his own, things to keep, things to live for.
They knew it wouldnât be easy, but as the evening went on, and they stay in that car and talk about the future, theyâd truly come to the understanding that neither of them can lose each other. They will always be half of one another, and no amount of distance can change that. Itâs hard conversation after hard conversation, and itâs emotional in the way that Andrew and Neil get emotional. All the fighting ends up being a catalyst for possibly the most personal, deep, intimate discussion theyâve ever had. Thereâs lots of silences and voices that threaten to raise but stay low. Thereâs a lot of questions, and answers, and questions without answers, too. Buts itâs needed. Andrew could not leave PSU without them having this conversation. If he had, I think they wouldâve struggled a whole lot more with the distance, and the conversations they would have afterwards wouldâve been far more difficult.
Ultimately thatâs where they end the conversation sometime past midnight - with a semi newfound understanding of where they stand with each other, what they are, what the future means for them. Itâs a fight that needed to happen, and in their own ways they apologise for the things that they said. Maybe they donât say sorry, they just say everything is going to be okay, and distance will not be the thing that ruins this.
I donât know. I really do think itâs a fight thatâs needs to happen. I think itâs a terrible, angry, nasty argument, and they both feel awful about the things they said and did, but it had to happen. Yeah, could it have been communicated with words? Sure. But Andrew had to understand how afraid Neil was of losing him, he had to understand what Neil was doing to protect himself from it. And Neil had to understand that Andrew was always, always willing to fight for him, but he couldnât do that if Neil wasnât willing to see that he would.
#maybe they donât ever fight#but if they did#if they had one break up worthy argument#I think this would be it#idk!!!!!#again clearing out the drafts#neil josten#andrew minyard#andreil#aftg#all for the game#mine
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Billion Dollar Baby - Grid x Billionare! Reader x Lewis Hamilton (Rom) Part 1
Plot: Girlie loves Formula One, but she also loved Chaos and Drama so she offers the FIA/ the F1 Teams 300 million to do a race ⊠for her under her rules!
As a billionaire with a net worth of over 90 billion pounds to your name and your name alone and having multiple stable corporations and investments in loads of different sectors and having donated overly generous amounts to charity, you couldn't help but start to find more interesting ways to invest your money.
You had 7 homes, all around the world completely paid off with about double the amount of cars, whether they were super cars, vintage cars or personalized cars. A private jet, 3 vacation homes and an island.
You lived a lavish life but you worked extremely hard for it, there wasn't really a moment you weren't working.
But you had your hobbies, the theatre (specifically WestEnd), travelling (when you had time away from work) you'd been really getting into sport.
Particularly F1 was an interest of yours. You'd put forward money into McLaren and given them upgrades from your various companies both tech wise and team wear wise.
But you were so intrigued with the sport and the difference from F2.
In F2, the cars were pretty much all the same and it was fully on driver capability. Whereas in F1 you could be a cracking driver but depending on the team you were in you were in a shit box car.
And that's why you were now currently stood in the paddock at Silverstone.
You'd proposed ... to the FIA a race, where you'd pay for driver - team switches that you could choose and run it as a charity event so any tickets sold went to charities chosen by the drivers.
And everyone loved it. I mean why wouldn't they. It wasn't like the teams were loosing out on money because you were paying them to build another car and for the drivers it was just a bit of fun to experience another car.
So here you were, in front of 20 drivers, 10 team principles, some CEO's of the teams, some FIA representatives and some media personal.
"Hello everyone!" you smile awkwardly. Even though you'd done presentations in front of many many people this felt really daunting to you.
A chorus of mumbles and hello's back to you occurred before you stand there awkwardly. Someone was supposed to introduce you, that's what you were told when you first got here but no-one was attempting to come up on stage to help you so you just laugh.
"So apparently no one is coming up to introduce me... so erm if you don't know who i am I'm Y/N Y/L/N and I've proposed money to each of your teams and the FIA to create a charity race where I switch drivers into different cars... Formula 1 really intrigues me to see how you all are naturally talented drivers and that the car really does matter... and i think it will be really interesting for the fans. It's a great opportunity for the teams and drivers to make special merch and special helmets and I just think as drivers it will be a really great experience for all of you!" you grin and there was mumbles questions thrown at you till you PR manager came up next to you to calm everyone down.
"One at a time please!" he says in his gruff masculine voice.
"Are you choosing which teams we go to?" Lando asks first, and you nodded.
"Are teams making a different car? Or?" he asks and you shake you head.
"Teams will rebuild the exact car that they have now. It will just be other drivers inside the car. Do you guys want to hear where you'll be?" you ask and a chorus of agreement flows through the room.
"Okay, so first up our two Red Bull Drivers. Current Champions of both Constructor and Drivers. Max Verstappen, you will be going to Williams. And Sergio Perez you will be going to Haas!" you start and gasps surround.
"So we aren't staying with our current team mate?" Lewis asks looking over to George.
"Okay, as for the current Ferrari Drivers, Charles you will be going to McLaren and Carlos after your announcement of joining Nico in Sauber for 2025 i thought it would be fun to give you a ... test run so you are going to Sauber!" you cheer and they both nod.
"Okay then for my McLaren boys I got Oscar to Ferrari and Lando to ... Red Bull!" you grin and Lando looks down with a laugh and shake of his head. Being a McLaren sponsor meant you spent a lot of time around the paddock with the pair of them.
"Next our Mercedes men, Lewis will be joining Max in Williams" you smirk making Lewis shake his head, you'd always liked teasing Lewis having had a relationship at one point and ending on good terms due to work stresses and struggles.
"And George will be in Aston Martin!" you smile and he nods.
"As for Aston Martin, Fernando you'll be driving alongside Carlos as a Spanish Duo in Sauber and Lance well your dad offered me money to put you in Red Bull but thought that wasn't the spirt of the charity event so Alpine for you!" you grin and you can tell some of the drivers, including Lance are trying not to laugh.
"Visa Cash App Racing Bulls, fuck me that's a mouthful erm Dani Ric you my friend are going to ... Aston Martin nice one and my favrioute driver ... sorry Lando and Oscar but he's literally my son ... Yuki my love you'll be in Red Bull with Lando!" you smile and he fits the air happily before nodding at you in thanks.
"Nico, Kevin Haas hasn't actually been all that bad for you guys this year. You've had great drivers however ... Kevin to Mercedes and Nico to RB!" you smile.
"Williams duo. You guys will be moving up. Logan i think you'll really really suit Ferrari red and Alex you better like Papaya coz you'll be joining Charles in McLaren!" you smile and Logan's face lights up being in a top team. This was really his opportunity to prove himself and that he was a great driver.
"Alpine ... not been an easy season for you guys unfortunately ... Pierre you'll be joining Mercedes and Esteban you'll drive for Haas"
"And finally our Stake Sauber whatever your team name is called will be moving ... Zhou to Alpine and Valtteri to Racing Bulls!"
"I hope this interests you all and you are all excited for the race in two months!" you say and you stay behind talking to some of the drivers until one is left.
"Hey baby" you smirk at Lewis as he leans against the door frame.
"I don't think I'll ever get over you calling me baby" he smiles softly and you smile back.
"Of course you wont ... baby" you grin.
"I'm excited for this race but I can't believe you .. put me in a Williams!" he exclaims and you just laugh before flattening out the lapels of his blazer before looking up at him.
"Cant make it easy for you, I wanna see you fight. You've lost your spark Lew!" you sigh looking over him.
Yours and Lewis relationship came to and end in 2021, just after he'd lost the championship. Said he needed to be more focused on his career. Baring in mind you'd been dating for 5 years before that.
"I-I know, it's not been the same since ..." he trails off and you nod.
"Since Max won... I know!" he smile at him, rubbing his shoulder, but after hearing you he takes a step back.
"No, since we ended things!" he sighs and you look over him in confusion.
"Lew..." you start and he shakes his head.
"I know it was mutual, but you were it for me. You ... you still are Y/N. I want you back and I know you aren't ready right now but you are the one thing i will and always will continue to fight for, fuck another championship ... fuck even another race win. I want you back though and I promise you i'll prove it!" he says looking over you, tears filling in your eyes as he pulls you into his chest, hugging you while stroking your hair.
"Ohhhh Lewis, what are you doing to me..." you laugh, because if you don't you'll cry.
"I'll see you in two months Lew!" you smile and walk out the door. He looks a little gutted your leaving but you need him to prove that he'll try.
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Jealousy, Jealousy
rockstar!Eddie x actress!reader
summary: you and Eddie have just started dating and decide to keep it on the down low until Eddie reveals that youâre together in an interview because you get jealous only for him to prove afterwards that he belongs to you and only you
cw: MDNI (18+) smut (p in v) fingering, jealousy, hurt/comfort
Not long after your meeting and multiple dates, you and Eddie decided to start a casual relationship, but wanted to keep it private despite your teams wanting you to go public because it would have been good PR. But you didnât. You couldnât. Your relationships were the only things that were yours and you were going to keep it that way.
Even though everything was private, you still decided to go to the premiere of your movie together. As friends, of course. But the two of you seemed much more than friendly as you smiled on the carpet, looking at each other with nothing by loving smiles.
There had been multiple speculations about your relationship on social media so nobody was surprised when you showed up hand in hand, your outfits matching. And nobody cared whether or not is was for PR, they were just happy so see the two of you together.
Though, after a few minutes on the carpet, you and Eddie were pulled aside for an interview with one of the Hollywood gossip coverage channels. You could see the interviewer flirting with Eddie and that made your blood boil but you werenât sure why. You were just hanging out casually. No strings were attached.
But you wanted them to be. You wanted to be able to call Eddie yours. You wanted to be exclusive and not have to worry about who he was hanging out with. You had wanted to be with him for so long and wanted to just take whatever you could get, but you werenât satisfied with that.
âThereâs the couple of the night,â the interviewer greeted and you couldnât help but feel jealous because she was exactly his type, brunette with legs for days. And she looked so good in her black dress. You just couldnât compare and almost wanted to look away from how much she was flirting with him.
âHey,â Eddie greeted her with a smile and you mimicked it, not wanting to be rude. You didnât want to tear her down just because she was flirting with Eddie. That wasnât what you stood for.
âMay I just say, you guys look amazing. I love the purple,â she eyed your outfits and you just nodded, wanting to agree with her. You guys did look fucking amazing.
âOh, thank you,â Eddie nodded. âBut I canât take all the credit. It was all y/nâs idea.â He wrapped an arm around your waist, pulling you as close to him as possible.
âWell, I love it. So, howâs the new album coming along?â Eddie couldnât believe she was asking that. This was your night and here she was, asking him about his tour when the whole reason they were there was because your new movie had just come out.
âGood, good,â he nodded. âBut enough about me. Letâs talk about my girl.â He looked at you like he was so proud of you and that warmed your heart while simultaneously making you go weak in the knees.
âYour girl?â The interviewer was just as surprised as you at the term of endearment. The only time he had called you that was behind closed doors and now he was just bringing out in the open.
âYes, my girl. My girlfriend.â You both looked at Eddie in shock. He wasnât supposed to announce your relationship like that. It wasnât even a relationship. And even if it was, you had wanted it to be a soft launch on your instagram.
âI-I didnât know that you were official.â
âWell, we are,â he gave her a sassy smirk. âIt was nice speaking to you, what was your name?â
âJane.â
âJane. We should get inside.â He turned to you before leading you towards the door to enter the building.
As soon as you were inside, you pulled him into the bathroom before anyone could spot you. You really needed to speak with him and couldnât do it with all of those people watching. This was a private conversation.
You pushed Eddie into the womenâs restroom and pulled him into one of the handicapped stalls so there was more room between the two of you. He looked at you eagerly but his face fell once he realized that you were upset with him.
He reached for you and you let him pull you into his arms, his hands running up and down your back, trying his best to calm you down. He really hadnât meant to upset you. He just wanted to make you feel secure about your relationship since jealousy was obvious in your eyes.
âIâm sorry,â he apologized, resting his head against your chest, pressing a kiss to it. He then pulled back and pressed his forehead against yours. âSo fucking sorry.â
âNo, no.â You took his face and cradled it in your hands, pressing a soft kiss to his lips. âI appreciated what you said.â
âYou did?â His face lit up and he looked so fucking adorable.
âI did. I just pulled you in here so I could tell you that I wanted to do things for real.â His heart stopped in that moment. The hottest woman on the planet actually wanted to be in a relationship with him? What had he done to get so lucky?
âOh thank god.â He let out a sigh of relief and you smiled in response.
âI know.â You pressed another kiss to his lips, this one rougher before pulling away. âThings donât start for another hour so I think we have time for a quickie,â you said, pulling away, twirling one of his face framing curls and Eddie swore he was going to cream his pants right there. You always managed to say exactly what he was thinking to the point where he could have sworn that you were in his head.
âEven if we didnât, Iâd take the chance.â Eddieâs lips were on yours in a flash and he licked in your mouth, letting his hands traveling down your body until he got to the slit in your dress that had been torturing him all night.
His hand moved through the slit and he stuck his hand down in your underwear, his fingers staying where they were, moving back and forth so you got a little sensation but not the full thing.
âEddie, please,â you begged and right when you were about to take matters into your own hands, he shoved his fingers up your cunt, pumping them in and out. âOh-â you moaned and Eddie just smiled against your lips.
âThatâs it, honey, let it out,â he urged and you turned, pressing your back to his chest so he had better access. He continued to thrust his fingers in and out of you and you let out more moans, causing him to cum just at the sound, hoping that it hadnât seeped through the fabric of his pants.
He removed his fingers once he thought you were ready and turned you around to face him, sucking the slick from his fingers to get rid of it and you swore you were even more soaked. God, he was so hot. You needed him now more than ever.
âAlways taste so good, honey,â he smiled. âHow do you do that?â
âI donât know,â you breathed. âNeed your cock, now,â you demanded and Eddie quickly unbuttoned his pants and pulled down both them and his underwear, causing his cock to spring free. Beads of precum were falling from it and you were desperate to have it inside of you.
âLove it when youâre bossy.â He removed the condom he had in his pants and quickly undid the wrapper before rolling it onto his dick.
Once he was situated, he pushed you against the wall and pushed up your dress before slamming his dick into you and you both let out loud moans at the sensation. He pounded into you which contradicted his sweet words that he was whispering in your ear.
Your legs wrapped around his waist, so he could fit all of himself inside, the outside of your pussy almost touching his balls. Your eyes watered at the feeling, but it just felt so good that you let it happen.
âOh my god,â you whined and Eddie kept going, thrusting the hardest and fastest that he could, having no plan of stopping anytime soon. Not when you looked so hot pushed up against the wall, your hair getting messed up from it. Your lipstick was all smeared from his kisses and your eye makeup was looking a little smoky from the sweat.
âFuck, feel so good honey. And you look so fucking hot wrapped around me.â His voice was raspy and so hot.
He slowed down his pace as you reached your climax but you let him stay inside of you as he continued to pump in and out of you until you were both breathless and thought you had been gone long enough.
Eddie pulled out of you and let you pee while he cleaned himself up and tied off the condom while you made sure you were all set. After you exited the bathroom, you touched up your lipstick and tried to fix what had smeared onto Eddieâs face, but he wouldnât let you since he wanted to show everyone that he belonged to you. So, you exited the bathroom hand in hand, ready to officially debut as a couple.
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Summary: âIâm tired of acting like Iâm not in love with you,â â Or, the one where two people are experiencing the worst year of their lives respectively. Falling in love shouldn't be that difficult on top of it all, right?
Pairing: Logan Sargeant x Fem! Reader (team photographer, skater girlâą, has tattoos and is vaguely bilingual)
Word count: 23.3k
Warnings: 18+ Minors DNI â Angst: panic attacks, anxiety, self-deprecation, mention of medication, anxiety disorders and ADHD. Reader has a shitty family as well. Smut: penetrative sex, they're needy as hell, otherwise very vanilla. Fluff: she fell first, he fell harder, a bunch of silent crushing on each other, a very sappy and happy ending. Other: inaccurate timeline and race results.
A/N: I'm back! I planned this before Zandvoort and before Logan got dropped and didn't feel like changing it to fit reality, so Logan gets to finish the season in this fictional universe. He also gets to go to Indycar because I'm sad and maybe delusional. Please tell me what you think âĄ
Oxfordshire, UK
The rain drizzled down as you cruised around the almost empty parking lot on your board, the drops making little sounds as they hit the brim of your rain hat. February in England wasnât that greatâno snow, just rain and cold weather. Awful, but doable for someone who had a skateboard stuck to their feet ninety percent of the year.Â
You were early, which was uncommon for you. But Angie had told you to come early, and you didnât want to screw up on what was technically your first day on the job. Having someone you saw as an older sister as your boss had its pros and cons.Â
âShould you really be skating in the rain?â Angie called out, standing underneath the awning above the main entrance, shielded from the rain. Her Williams-blue raincoat was pulled up to her chin, and you could see her visibly shiver from the cold.Â
You had received a similar jacket, amongst a lot of other team gear, in advance for your first day. It wasnât exactly your style, but you guessed that wasnât the point of having team gear in the first place. Or any kind of work uniform, really. The coat kept you warm and dry, that was all that you could ask for.Â
âCanât you see how slow Iâm going?â you protested, laughing at her cautiousness.Â
You knew what you were doing. It wasnât advised by anyone to skate when it was raining outside, but casually riding in a flat, empty parking lot at a slow speed, just to not get your shoes wet, wasnât dangerous. Not for you, at least. You had been skating for close to two decades.
Angie had asked you to take some pictures of the building, and then take pictures of all the team members as they arrived at the factory.Â
You had held a camera in your hands for almost as long as your feet had stood on a skateboard. The two interests kind of coexisted and fed off each other as you grew older. Only photography was able to make you money, though.Â
Youâd read in an article that the Williams factory was supposed to be modest in comparison to McLarenâs or Red bullâs spaceship-like buildings, but this was still huge to you. And you hadnât even gotten inside the building yet.Â
As cars filled the parking lot, you snapped photos of the people going inside. Mechanics, engineers, people on the communications teamâit seemed like everyone was present for this pre-season meetup. Maybe it was because it was the last one before the team flew off to Bahrain.Â
Some smiled at you as they spotted the big DSLR camera in your hands, others walked right past. Angie seemed to know almost everyone as she greeted them by the entrance. Sure, she was some kind of high-up marketing manager, but recognising so many people seemed excessive. Or maybe just impressive.Â
Sheâd given you a crash course in Formula 1 as she had hired you. You had heard her talk about her job on many occasions, even catching a race or two when it was on television, but you quickly realised that you didnât know half as much as you probably needed to.Â
It was hard for you to even pinpoint who were the Williamsâ drivers as they both came walking across the parking lot. Angieâs immediate perked attention and widened smile told you everything you needed to know. You would need to get good photos of them both.Â
You tried your best to remember who was who, and when you recalled that one raced under the Thai flag and the other for the US, it was quite easy.Â
Alex was tall, and happy. He walked with quick steps to get away from the light rain, greeting Angie with an effortless hug. He had no problem smiling when he saw you with the camera, raising his eyebrows at your stance on the skateboard.Â
Logan wasnât far behind. He looked younger, and less confident in the way he carried himself. His steps were slower as he too made his way under the awning. He reminded you of kids youâd gone to school with, with their boyish charm and cluelessness. He was young, and sweetâmaybe even beautiful.Â
You could see it all as you lifted your camera to spot him from the viewfinder. His smile didnât form as easily as Alexâs had done, but when it did, and he flashed you his stupidly perfect and pearly white American teeth, you couldnât help but feel how the corners of your lips turned upward. This was going to be a difficult year if you already were developing a minor crush on the first cute boy youâd seen.Â
âWhoâs Paddington?â Alex asked Angie after he had greeted her.Â
You could overhear him perfectly fine as you pretended to take some photos of the main building.Â
âWhat? Oh, because the red bucket hat?â she chuckled, shaking her head. âThatâs our new team photographer.âÂ
Logan too gave Angie a quick hug. After all, she was one of the more tolerable people forcing them to do social media content.Â
He laughed at the nickname Alex gave you. Logan wouldâve gone with Tony Hawk over Paddington, but maybe that was because he found the fictional little bear with a red hat and a blue coat to be a very British reference.Â
âShe looks about twelve,â Alex remarked, watching as you adjusted something on the lens, your movements precise and confident despite your youthful appearance.
Angie laughed again, the sound warm and contagious. âSheâs the same age as Logan.âÂ
Logan playfully pouted at his two colleagues joking. He guessed the both of you looked young. Maybe too young to be in such a professional setting.Â
âSheâs my best friendâs little sister. Iâm mostly being kind by offering her a chance to work with us,â Angie continued to explain, raising her voice slightly to get your attention.Â
She didnât really need to, because you had heard every single word of their conversation.Â
âThatâs her way of secretly telling you that Iâm severely underqualified for this job and Iâm using it as an excuse to travel the world,â you said under your breath, your gaze still fixated on the viewfinder as you slowly skated towards them.Â
Same, was what Logan immediately wanted to say, but instead he just laughed, unsure of how well his self-deprecating humour would translate.
You stepped off your board, before popping it up with your foot on the tail end to grab it with your hand. You hadnât expected them to laugh, because it wasnât exactly a joke. You guessed it kind of came across as one, though.
You told Alex and Logan your name, gently reaching out your hand to shake theirs, but Angieâs hand pulling down the brim of your hat over your eyes stopped you in your tracks.Â
âI have a feeling youâre going to be stuck with Paddington around here,â she laughed. Â
âThe Williams hat you gave me canât stand the rain,â you argued, fixing the hat back into place.Â
It was true. The cotton of the team hat she had given you wouldâve been drenched at this point. But you still appreciated her effort because she thought the hat was more your style than the classic baseball cap that most of the other employees sported.
âYouâre such a child, you know that, right?âÂ
That was something youâd heard all your life, because you somehow always turned out to be the youngest one at every family function. You didnât take it as an insult when Angie said it, though. She had valued what you brought to the table for as long as you could remember. Maybe that was the only child within her showing through.Â
âThatâs kind of on you, Angie,â you pointed out. âIf you hadnât been mostly kind, I wouldnât be here to annoy you.âÂ
You saw how Angie wanted to argue back, but was interrupted by the sound of your ringtone. Teenagers by My Chemical Romance. You had intention behind it when you initially picked it (something about rebellion and fuck the system), but now it was mostly a running joke that you couldnât let go of, no matter how many times you swapped phones.
You also loved the embarrassment that flashed over Angieâs face as it interrupted her. Alex and Logan couldnât help but laugh as you excused yourself to answer.Â
Logan watched as you slowly cruised over the parking lot, phone up to your ear as you talked to whoever it was over the phone. He heard you raise your voice, speaking in a language he didnât recognise, or at least didnât understand.
âHer family sort of⊠resents her? So, I did what I thought was right.â
Angie felt the need to explain as the three of them heard you start to argue. She knew it had to be your mother calling, because you had given up on arguing with your father already.
âIs she at least a good photographer?â Alex asked with a sigh.
âSheâs the best.âÂ
. . .
Melbourne, Australia
. . .
The season started with a whirlwind. You definitely hadnât mentally prepared for the challenge it would be to travel nonstop, and even if you had some downtime, the anxiety of always being on the move didnât leave your body. Before you had the chance to experience a new city, you had to be thinking of when you were going to the next one.Â
And you were rusty. You didnât yet have the right mindset to be in the position you were in, constantly forgetting things and not getting the perfect photos. Youâd done sports photography for a long time, but there was a difference in speed between x-games sports and fucking Formula 1.Â
That was why you found yourself back at the hotel in Melbourne, riding the lift to your floor to retrieve some equipment youâd forgotten in your room, your body teeming with nerves and embarrassment over what had just transpired. While Formula 1 was a travelling circus with a lot of important and famous people, you hadnât expected to actually run into anyone that would leave you speechless. You were usually too good at talking.Â
As you exited the lift, you spotted Logan in the hallway, looking like he was about to enter his own hotel room. Your speedy steps interrupted his actions, and even if you two hadnât really had a one-on-one conversation before, you had to tell someone about who you just ran into.Â
âI just made a fool out of myself in front of Keegan Palmer,â you exhaled loudly as your steps came to a stop in front of him.Â
âWho?â Logan questioned, holding the door to his room open, a little bit taken aback by your boldness.Â
âOlympic skateboarder,â you clarified. âHeâs kind of a big deal, and heâs friends with Lando somehow.âÂ
Logan remembered something about a famous skateboarder in the back of his mind as he let out a short laugh. âSo, what did you do? Ask for a selfie?â
âI wish. No, I just ran into them in the lobby and couldnât form a sentence because I was shocked. I literally froze,â you groaned, rubbing your temples as your emotions started to settle.Â
As they did, you took in Loganâs expression. While you hadnât necessarily talked much before, you had taken a lot of photos of him. He always portrayed a certain charm, even when he was focused on racing or unaware of the camera. He didnât do that now. Something seemed off with him from his blank stare at you. He was there, able to laugh at your awkward interaction, but he wasnât present.Â
âShouldnât you be at the paddock?â Logan asked after a moment of silence.Â
âI forgot an SD card in my hotel room,â you explained. âShouldnât you be at the paddock?â
His face twisted in disbelief. âYou havenât heard?âÂ
âHeard what?âÂ
âIâm not driving,â he answered plainly, but the words landed heavily. âAlex is taking my car because they donât have a spare chassis to repair the damage from his crash yesterday.âÂ
You blinked out of confusion as you raised your eyebrows. âIs that even allowed? Itâs your car.âÂ
âI donât know, but itâs probably for the better,â Logan shrugged with a certain nonchalance. âI donât want to make a big deal out of it.âÂ
âYouâre paying for a mistake that he made. It is a big deal,â you argued.Â
Youâd practically ran up to him to talk about your embarrassing moment that you had failed to even acknowledge what kind of mood he was in. That was a bad habit of yoursâbadly reading people and basically running them over with your talking.Â
And here he was, feeling like shit over a decision that no one thought was possible. He probably had no will to talk about some skateboarder with you. Â
You noticed the way his hands trembled slightly, holding a tight grip on the door to the point where his knuckles whitened. The realisation hit you at the same time his expression shifted, his bravado cracking under the weight of something much deeper, his breath coming quicker than normal.Â
âMate, are you okay?â you asked him softly.Â
âIâm fine,â he muttered, but his wavering voice betrayed him.
Logan wasnât angry at the team, or at Alex. He knew that it was the right decision because Alex would have a better chance to score points. He probably wouldâve made the same decision if he were team principal.Â
He knew he wasnât good enough to deserve a chance.
He knew he wasnât good enough to argue his case.Â
He knew he wasnât good enough.Â
It was killing him inside. Logan wanted to flee the scene. He wished he could rewind time five minutes and just walk into his hotel room instead of stopping when he heard your steps. He wouldnât have had to explain this to you. He wouldnât have had to feel this way in front of another person. It had been bad enough when he got the news in a conference room filled with team members.Â
This was different, thoughâyou two alone in a hotel corridor.Â
He felt like he was choking, like the feelings inside of him wanted to come out but he had no idea how to let them out. He couldnât get enough air in his lungs, no matter how heavily he breathed. Heâd never felt like this before.Â
âYouâre having a panic attack, dipshit,â you stated.Â
It sounded like you were joking, but in reality you were fighting concern with humour. You could see exactly what was happening to him, all too familiar yourself with the overwhelming feeling of when anxiety finally catches up with you. Â
Logan looked at you, eyes wide. âN-no, Iâm not. Iâve neverââ he stammered, shaking his head.
âYou havenât had one before? Oh, fuck.â
It hadnât even crossed your mind that people in their twenties couldâve gone their entire lives without experiencing an anxiety attack. You could handle them quite well after years of being a miserable child and teen, but Logan didnât look like he knew what was even going on. The first one wouldnât always be the worst one, but right now, this would be hard on him.Â
You took a step closer, your heart suddenly racing. You didnât know if he wanted you to touch him, so you acted hesitantly at first. But by his shocked expression and shaking hands, you knew that he needed help calming down. He looked lost, like the ground had suddenly shifted beneath his feet and he didnât know how to steady himself.
âGod, hereââ you reached out, grabbing his hand, your fingers firm but gentle. âJust hold my hand.âÂ
You dragged him into his room, to get privacy if someone entered the floor. He collapsed against the door as soon as it shut, sliding down it to sit on the floor. You crouched in front of him, now holding both of his hands to stop their shaking and to centre his focus.Â
âMimic my breathing, look at my chest,â you instructed, guiding him as you took deep and steady breaths, making sure that he could see the tempo in which they rose and fell.Â
Logan couldnât get any words out, but he tried his best to calm down. He was slowly able to sync his breathing with yours, the tightness in his chest and the pounding in his head easing as he got enough oxygen in his system again. The feeling inside was still foreign to him, like it wasnât palpable at all.Â
He realised he was crying when he felt a cold tear slide down his cheek. He wasnât sure when was the last time he had cried in front of someone, but he was past the point of embarrassment.Â
You didnât seem to care about it anyway. You had a kindness in your eyes that was unexplainable to him, and he wondered how you knew how to deal with this so well.Â
âSee?â you whispered after a moment. âYouâre okay. Just keep breathing with me.â
Logan closed his eyes for a second, feeling his wet eyelashes hit his cheeks. Your voice grounded him and he couldnât think of anything else in the moment. He couldnât think of racing. He couldnât think of Alex.Â
He thought of your unwavering grip on both his hands, sending a calm feeling through his body. He thought of the sound of your steady breathing, making it easy for him to follow.Â
He slowly opened his eyes to look down at your intertwined fingers, your thumb rubbing soothing circles on the back of his hand. Logan had seen that you had tattoos before, but now was the first time he was close enough to distinguish them.
Like patchwork, they lined both of your arms, getting cut off by the hem of your Williams t-shirt right before your shoulder. They looked like doodles. There was a disco ball, and flowers, and a stamp from your home country. As his eyes trailed further, he could see a few on your legs as well, revealed because you were wearing shorts. You had a tattooed band-aid on your knee and a ghost on skateboard on your lower thigh. He assumed they had a connection.Â
âI like your tattoos,â Logan heard himself say, voice thick from the tears.
You glanced at him, a smile tugging at the corners of your lips. The tenseness of your body softened, relieved that he seemed to be coming back to himself. âYou do? You donât seem like the type.âÂ
Logan shook his head, wiping his face with the back of his hand. âOh, Iâm notâbut I like them on you.â
He grabbed your hand again afterwards, unsure of why but relieved that you just continued rubbing absentminded circles. You flexed your arm slightly, turning it so that Logan could get a better look of the inked designs.Â
âWhat are the paw prints for?â he asked, genuinely curious now that his mind had space for other thoughts. You had four little black paw prints on the inside of your arm.Â
âMy parents dog,â you said, warmth filling your voice. âA golden retriever named Tater Tot.â
He chuckled, a sound that felt foreign after the weight of his emotions. âThey have tater tots outside of America?â
âBarely,â you replied. âWhich is a shame because I love them. We went to Florida on vacation when I was a kid, and I think I ate about a thousand tater tots from the hotel buffet.â
âFlorida?â Logan dared to look at your face fully now, intrigued. âIâm from Florida.
âI know, Logan.âÂ
You laughed gently. His Americanness didnât go unnoticed by anyone in a place like this, where most of the team members were European. It was also one of the few things that had stuck with you from Angieâs rambling about her jobâthat she had to work with an actual Florida man, like they were mythological creatures.Â
âWe went to Orlando. Disney World and all that, yâknow?â Â
âYeah, the classic American pilgrimage,â he smiled, then hesitated. âHave you been back? To America, I mean.â
You shrugged, your expression shifting to something more neutral, as if you were weighing the pros and cons in your mind. âNo, itâs not really⊠something I want to do? With war criminals as presidents, and guns at grocery storesâoh, and no butter on your sandwiches?â You shook your head dramatically. âThatâs my personal hell.â
Logan laughed again, feeling a slight stinging pain in his chest that he decided to disregard. If he kept on breathing deeper, he knew that it would go away on its own.Â
You watched as he winced, even if he tried to hide it from you. You took a moment to breathe with him again before continuing. âI have a friend who moved to San Francisco, though. She lives with this skateboarding collective and uh, it seems really nice.â
That was maybe the only reason you would go to the US, for more than the American grands prix of course. It was an old university friend who skated competitively. Even if you werenât on the same level, you still felt like a month or two on the west coast could do your head and mental health a favour.Â
âThat might be a bucket list thing for me,â you explained, at which Logan smiled.Â
You observed his face, glossy blue eyes from tears and messy blond hair from the chaos he had just experienced. A certain hopelessness lingering in the air that you tried to not think about too much. It was still too early to tell how the season would end.Â
âI feel a lot calmer now, uh⊠so thank you for all that,â he said, showing gratitude. He didnât know how youâd known exactly what to say, but you had pulled him back from the edge, and that mattered more than anything.
âYeah, distraction tends to work quite well,â you replied, giving him a knowing look. âYou should maybe talk to someone if this becomes a reoccurring thing.âÂ
His smile faded, but he nodded. Logan didnât know now what this could lead to, but maybe he needed to prepare himself for feeling like this. He kind of wanted to talk to you about it, making a mental reminder to ask if panic attacks were common for you.Â
âWe should probably get back to the paddock,â he murmured as realisation hit him.Â
He would have to face a lot of questions, and he was destined to put on a brave face, showing that this wasnât something that had bothered him.Â
âOnly if you feel like it. I donât care if we get in trouble,â you said, reassuring him.Â
He shook his head, dropping the hold he had of your hands as he stood up and smoothed out his shorts.Â
âIâll be alright, I think.âÂ
. . .
Miami, USA
. . .
It became a thing for you to calm Logan down.Â
You'd said it yourself: It was too early to tell how the season would play out. But race after race, you grew more certainâthis Williams car might just be the worst on the grid. And while you knew close to nothing about the engineering and mechanical side of things, you realised that neither did most of the audience. That was why people started to blame the drivers instead.Â
It didnât really get to youâuntil Miami. That was when you felt anger over racing for the first time in your life, but absolutely not the last.Â
The Miami sun had been relentless, casting a hot haze over the track and the bustling energy of the crowd. The faint smell of burnt rubber lingered in the air as you clutched your camera, squinting through the lens, trying to spot the cars as they zoomed by in a blur of colour and speed. The piercing sound of engines roaring filled your ears, but it was a sudden crash that made your heart drop.
You hadnât been too far away from the exact barrier when the crash happened. And when you realised that it was Logan, getting pushed off the track by Magnussen for a measly 18th position, you felt rage inside. He didnât even get to finish his home race because of someone elseâs carelessness.Â
By the time you made your way to the garage, the race had ended. The sound of people cheering for Landoâs first win was still deafening. Logan was checked by the medics but had been released soon after. When you found him, he was sitting in his driverâs room, still in his racing suit with his helmet beside him, his face flushed red and tense. His eyes met yours through the open door and you hesitated going to talk to him at first, but with a slight nod, he showed that it was okay.Â
âSooo⊠Magnussen is a cunt,â you blurted out, leaning in the doorway, the words escaping before you had a chance to filter them.
Logan couldnât help but huff out a laugh in frustration. It was an empty laugh, the kind that didnât quite reach up to sparkle his eyes with any genuine effect of your humorous words. Instead, the only thing adding light to his eyes were the tears threatening to fall. Youâd seen it before.Â
You felt heat rise to your cheeks as you realised what you had said. âIâm sorry, I donât actually know him, that was really harsh.âÂ
âWell, Iâm glad you said it because Iâm not allowed to,â he muttered in response, looking down at his hands, pulling at loose skin from his cuticles.Â
He sighed loudly, leaning to rest his head on the wall behind him. You moved his helmet to sit beside him, knowing now that you werenât pushing any boundaries. You wouldnât exactly call yourselves friendsâyou didnât really know anything about each otherâbut having travelled and worked so closely together for two months now, you were starting to learn how his post-race emotions functioned.Â
âI think I might be the living embodiment of it could be worse,â Logan stated. Â
âYeah, you could be in that series where they race electric scooters,â you joked.Â
The corners of his mouth turned upward for a split second, then he thought about how the people racing scooters probably were having more fun than him this season.Â
A silence settled between you, but it wasnât uncomfortable. You watched him for a moment, noticing the tension still visible in the tight set of his jaw. The weight of the season was bearing down on himâthe constant pressure, the unfair expectations.
âYou donât have to stay,â he said softly, eyes downcast.
âI want to,â you replied without hesitation.Â
He looked up at you, fully taking in your appearance. Miami made everyone hot and bothered, and not in the good way. A sheen of sweat coated your forehead, and your skin had gotten more golden from being under the sun. Just as he spotted a fresh scratch on your elbow that he assumed was from skating, he also acknowledged the shirt you were wearing.Â
It wasnât the Williamâs kit. It had his face on it, with the American flag and a bald eagle behind him. Perfectly oversized in your street-style-skater way. The text on it said wtf is a kilometer.
He snorted out loud, getting your attention. âI like your shirt.âÂ
âItâs cool, right?â you replied, tugging at the hem. âA little girl from the fan zone gave me this friendship bracelet too.âÂ
You reached out your wrist for him to see, baby blue beads rattling together. He carefully moved his fingers to twist it, showing him how white alphabet beads spelled out his surname, right there on your wrist. You were fully decked out to support him today⊠and he hadnât even managed to finish the race.Â
As his hands moved, you saw how they were practically shaking, something his nerves caused him to do. It was an uncontrollable response to the adrenaline and pent-up frustration.Â
âYouâre not alright, are you?â you asked gently.
He didnât answer at first. Instead, he stared ahead, eyes glassy. Then, after a moment, he let out a shaky breath. âCan you say something to distract me? Tell me something about you that I donât know.âÂ
You realised why he asked that. Like with the tattoos in Melbourne, distraction had worked on his anxiety before. You didnât know if he had experienced more panic attacks or if he had tried to talk to someone about what had happened, but if you could help even a little bit by just yapping, you would do it whenever he asked.Â
You thought for a second, thinking of something light-hearted to tell him. An idea popped into your head as you pulled out your phone from your pocket. âOh, I started this instagram diary thing to get some use out of all the photos and videos I take. That should tell you everything about me.âÂ
The screen showed a grid of colourful photos, and Logan immediately scooted closer to get a better look. They were themed and edited to match together with long captions to actually mimic a diary. Your account was relatively small, mostly followed by old friends and members of the Williams team.Â
You didnât really have anything to hide, so you handed him the phone to let him scroll freely. There were weekly posts, one from every country you had visited thus far and also ones from when you were back in England. Heâd learnt by now that you werenât English, but lived with Angie and her fiancĂ© Matthew during this season, only because employees needed to be based in the UK.Â
âYou really get out there and explore every time weâre in a new city?â he asked, slightly amazed after stopping at the post from Australia. It was a photo dump with everything from the beach, to a skatepark, to you enjoying the nightlife.Â
âYeah, but my schedule is not as busy as yours,â you replied, your lips curving into a small smile. âYou should join sometime, maybe not to a skatepark, but for dinner or karaoke.âÂ
âYou got to do karaoke in Japan?â Logan wondered, scrolling back up to see the post you had made from there.Â
Cherry blossoms, sushi, a skate shop with custom decks. Logan had seen that you had gotten a new board with The Great Wave off Kanawaga on it to match your blue Williams clothes, but he didnât know from where. The last picture of the post was from a bar lit in neon lights, something written with Japanese characters. He assumed that was where the karaoke had taken place.Â
âYeah,â you grinned, thinking back to the night. âAngie does a mean Michael Jackson impression.âÂ
Logan had a hard time envisioning Angie singing in front of people. She was in her early thirties, and while she was lovely, she was also kind of stiff. Maybe it helped being on the other side of the world.Â
He shook his head, an amused scoff escaping him, but then his eyes drifted to an older post, further down your feed. It was multiple posts actually, all aligning together in an explosion of colours. It was collages of pictures, that, when zoomed out, depicted a picture in and of itself. They were all of a girl with bright pink hair.Â
âWhatâs all that?â he asked, tilting the phone for you to see better.Â
âItâs a project I did for university, like a mixed media thing where we had to turn photos into an art piece of a different kind,â you explained.Â
You said it simply, but Logan was beyond impressed at how much time and precision it mustâve taken. First to take and develop what seemed like a million photographs of the same person, and then to make a collage out of them, basically using the pictures as building blocks to make a much larger version of said person.Â
âDid you go to art school?âÂ
âOh no,â you laughed softly. âI did political science with a minor in photography. My entire family is made up of lawyers, so that was always my plan A.â Â
He looked at you curiously. âSo why arenât you in law school now?âÂ
âBecause I got rejected by every single one I applied to,â you dead-panned, tinged with a kind of self-deprecating humor. âIâm not that smart, Logan. Angie practically saved my life by letting me join her.âÂ
There was a brief pause, a moment of vulnerability hanging in the air.Â
It was ridiculous really, how it all had happenedâhow you had been shaped your entire life for one future and then achieving nothing of it.Â
You were the youngest of three siblings. Your brother was fifteen and your sister was ten when you were born. It was obvious to everyone except your parents that you were an accidental pregnancy.Â
Being that much younger, you always felt behind because you were never on the same intellectual level as the rest of your family. Then, when you finally caught up in age and was supposed to be seen as an adult, you still couldnât succeed in the things your siblings had succeeded in. You never got into a nice university, and while you just narrowly managed to graduate, it would have never been enough to get into law school no matter how hard you tried.Â
School was never your thing. You found joy in art and sports, but you never had the concentration to sit down with your nose in a book to learn things. It took your parents a long time to realise this, because your siblings had never had any problems. Your brother was the youngest chairman ever at your fatherâs law firm, and your sister worked for the World Court in The Hague.Â
You never stood a chance, but no one saw that.Â
Angie was your sisterâs childhood friend, and when she found out about your failed attempt at law school, she was the one to arrange this job for you. She knew that it was never your dream to do as the rest of your family. Your parents still didnât see that.Â
Everyone said that all they wanted for their children was for them to be happy and healthy, but that wasnât really what they wanted. They wanted them to be like themselves, or even betterâthey wanted them to be better than themselves. And when the first two children actually managed to be better, who wouldnât be a little disappointed in the third one?Â
Loganâs voice brought you out of your spiralling thoughts. You watched as his eyes softened, and he said with pure honesty, âI think what youâre doing now is way cooler.âÂ
âYeah, but my parents, and grandparents, and siblings do not,â you shrugged, the compliment washing over you but not quite sinking in.
âWhat would you have been doing if their opinion didnât matter to you?â he asked, his voice suddenly louder.Â
You contemplated for a moment, startled by his question and change of mood.Â
âI would have skated a lot more, maybe even competitively. Or started with sports photography earlier. Not done political science, thatâs for sure,â you said. âWhat about you?âÂ
âI think Iâm already supposed to be living my dream,â he answered, but his voice lacked conviction. âI shouldnât feel this⊠sad, I should be enjoying what I have right now because Sainz is taking my seat next year.âÂ
âCarlos? Jesus, thatâs the downgrade of the century,â you blurted out without thinking, and Loganâs head snapped towards you, surprise in his eyes. Â
âWhat? Do we think the Williams car will magically compete with Ferrari next season?â you chuckled. âNo, it will be hilarious to hear him complain over the radio.âÂ
You hadnât given him the time to answer, but he wouldâve said something similar to what you did. He was reluctant to laugh, but he knew it was true.Â
As he let the laugh out, he was immediately stuck by how freely he did it. Heâd felt the same kind of weight over his chest like he had in Melbourne earlier. With the medics, and with the engineers, and with James. He didnât feel that now, he could laugh without thinking of it. Without thinking of how his future was still very much undecided. Youâd done it againâdistracted him out of total anxious paralysis.Â
âDo you know what youâre gonna do?â you asked.Â
âIâve got absolutely nothing figured out,â he admitted.
âThen I think we should use Landoâs win as an excuse to get absolutely wasted.âÂ
. . .
Montréal, Canada
. . .
Canada was cold, like actually freezing. And it wouldnât stop raining. You tried to do your job the best you could, but when your shoes were soaked through and raindrops had started to trickle down the inside of your coat, getting good photos was impossible. So, you had to give up with capturing the track and the crowd and opted on finding something content-worthy in the garage instead.Â
Logan found you on the floor of the garage, sat on your skateboard, using it to slide across to capture the car in some sort of panoramic view he assumed. He didnât say much, leaving you to work in peace as he went on to focus on his own things. He could spot you in his periphery every now and then. You still wore your red bucket hat because of the rain, and your worn-out Nikes squeaked against the slick flooring.Â
He heard Alex enter his side of the garage with a ringing laughter, patting his shoulder as a way of greeting him.Â
âMight I ask why Paddy is on the floor?â he asked, voice laced with amusement at the girl in front of them, basically folded in half to get the perfect photograph.Â
You looked up at Alex from your position, the camera still held up like a shield between you. The flash went off as you sneakily took a picture of the two drivers. âAngles, baby. Angles,â you grinned.Â
Alex tilted his head, crossing his arms over his chest. âWhat angle is that exactly? My double chin?âÂ
âDonât worry, you look great,â you reassured, standing up again.Â
Logan could see how your eyes searched for something, and when he spotted your lens cap laying on a nearby table, he reached out to give it to you. You nodded slightly as a silent thank you, surprised at how observant heâd been.
He wouldâve never admitted it at the time, but how easy the word baby left your lips definitely lingered on his mind. It didnât exactly help that it was Alex youâd said it too, even if it was in a jokingly manner.Â
You continued working, changing cameras from digital to film, capturing the team as they prepared for the race to start. You only stopped to go outside to photograph when a hailstorm hit the paddock.Â
Logan saw you enter the hospitality, drenched from head to toe, your blue coat having turned navy from the rain. Your eyes watched the hail in miraculous awe. He spotted you shivering from the weather, your hands having a hard time holding the camera as the cold gnawed at your fingers.Â
You felt him before you saw him, his quiet energy sneaking up on you, standing behind you as hail and raindrops hit the glass panes of the Williams hospitality building.Â
âHere,â he said, holding out a steaming mug.
You blinked, momentarily confused by the gesture. âI donât drink coffee,â you reminded him. âEveryone says Iâm hyper enough without caffeine.âÂ
Loganâs lips curled into a small, knowing smile. âI know that,â he replied. âItâs mine, but you can use the mug to warm your hands.âÂ
âOhâŠâ Your voice trailed off as you reached for the mug, the warmth radiating from the ceramic a stark contrast to the cold that had settled in your bones. Your fingers touched his as you grabbed it, almost igniting a hotter fire than the boiling hot coffee warming you. âThank you.â
Logan watched you in that silent way of his, the hailstorm outside temporarily forgotten as the world seemed to shrink down to just the two of you.
You glanced up at him, your heart doing a ridiculous fluttering thing it had started doing whenever he was close. His gaze was steady, searching yours with a familiar, unspoken understanding that had developed over months of working together. A soft chuckle escaped your lips, the sound surprising even you, thinking back on how he had handed you your lens cap earlier. And now this, too.Â
âWhy do you always seem to know what I need before I do?â
âI could ask you the same thing,â he said, voice low enough for you to just about hear him.Â
It took you a while to understand what he meant. Then it hit you, that your comfortâyour distractionâwas what he needed. And you did it without him asking. Ever since tears had fallen from his blue eyes on that hotel room floor somewhere in Melbourne.Â
. . .
Later, the race began and came to an end.Â
The rain had stopped and the streets had dried up, leaving an eerily quiet race tack left under glimmering city lights. As you skated the paddock, weaving through the lingering crowd, the adrenaline of the race still pulsed through you, but it was dulled by the quiet aftermath.
You hadnât really had any time to talk with anyone, being out by the track all race. While the race was disappointing, the cars had at least been a pleasure to photograph as they sprayed water around them.Â
You spotted a group of team members ahead, their heads low, conversations muted. Among them, Loganâs familiar figure stood out. You pushed off your skateboard with a quiet flick, coasting toward him. His ears perked up at the sound of the wheels against the concrete. As you got closer, you set your foot down, slowing to match his pace.
âSoo⊠uhm,â you started, voice unsure. Â
âYeah, we donât have to talk about it,â he said quickly, his gaze locked on the asphalt in front of him as he continued to walk slowly, you riding beside him.Â
You both knew what it meant. A double DNF, a race weekend that spiralled out of control, and hours of work undone in seconds.
âWe can, if you want to,â you offered.Â
You glanced at him then, really looking at him for the first time since before the race. He looked tired, but more than thatâdefeated. And yet, he was trying to be strong. You offered him a chance to vent, even though you both knew it wouldnât necessarily help. Not when you couldnât pinpoint a defining factor as to why the weekend had gone to shit. It wasnât his fault. It wasnât Alexâs fault. It was just a mess to race in this much rain.Â
Logan let out a deep breath, rubbing the back of his neck. âIâm not sure anyone on the team would want to talk about today,â he admitted.Â
You could only nod, completely understanding that it was probably best to be quiet about the race. You were better off distracting him, like you usually did.Â
âYou wanna have dinner? A little pick-me-up? Maybe Alex and Lily will want to join.âÂ
Logan huffed a dry laugh. âTheyâre having what Alex calls DNF therapy.âÂ
âDo I wanna know what that means?â you questioned, acting intrigued.Â
You didnât need to ask. You understood what it meant. But you asked anyway, to see if Logan would explain it to you.Â
âNo, you donât,â he replied short, shaking his head.Â
âHow about room service and a shitty movie instead?â you suggested.Â
âYouâre starting to know me so well,â he said. He then paused, the realisation settling in as he glanced sideways at you. âI guess youâre my DNF therapy, huh.â
You tried to stop yourself from making the conversation take a turn. You really did. But the joke was there, right in front of your eyes, looking so damn tempting.Â
âIâm not having sex with you, Sargeant,â you said sternly.Â
Logan blinked, his eyes wide for a second before he burst out laughing. He raised his hands in mock surrender. âNoted. Loud and clear.â
For a brief moment, a tension so thick formed between you that you could almost feel it taking up space in the cold, still slightly rainy air. It was quickly replaced by the laughterâthe easy banter you usually had with Logan.Â
But the thought lingered in your mind longer than it should have. In reality, you probably wouldâve done it. If he asked you, that is. Sex with Logan, huh. The heat that rose to your cheeks was almost painful. Your infatuation had been visible, right there on your face, if only Logan had been confident enough to see it.Â
You had to push these thoughts away. You didnât need things to be complicated between the two of you. Even if this stupid crush you had on him was starting to become harder to ignore. Â
Instead, you nudged his arm playfully before pushing with your foot to skate in front of him, glancing back over your shoulder with a grin. âCome on. Letâs go order some overpriced food and find the worst movie possible.â
. . .
Baku, Azerbaijan
. . .
Azerbaijan was hot, like actually blazing. You could feel sweat running down your face and back every time you were out of the air-conditioned garage to photograph. By the time race day came around, you already had blisters on the inside of your thighs from chafing, and your skin was warm to the touch from being burnt. Â
The moment you had now, on the Sunday morning, to sit inside and edit some photos was therefore sacred. It was the first calm and, more importantly, cool moment youâd had in days. The torment the heat had on your body had still left its mark. You couldnât get comfortable. You couldnât get your heart to stop racing. You wouldnât have called it anxiety, but since this morning, you were now sure that heat exhaustion wasnât the only thing you were feeling.Â
Your mind was enough of a twisty place. Now, when it wouldnât shut the fuck up, it was like a constant stream of emotions just overwhelming you.Â
At least, the photos you had taken during practice and qualifying turned out sick. Youâd tried out a new long exposure technique that really captured the speed even in static form. And you had definitely gotten better at candid portrait photography, which was a huge part of your job. Editing was usually the simplest part for you, but when the photos were so close that you could count the subjectâs individual eyelashes, it was easy to get flustered.Â
You finished the editing and decided on asking both Alex and Logan for their favourites before sending the content to the media team. It wasnât something that was required from you, but you also knew that having your photo taken could be difficult.Â
With your laptop in your hand, you walked to their driver rooms, rounding the corner to be met with a wide open door into Loganâs.Â
âLogan, Iââ you started, your breath catching in your throat at the sight in front of you.Â
There he was, in workout shorts but no shirt, lounging in his room before changing into his race gear. He didnât even have time to look up from his phone before you were rambling out an apology, ready to run out of the roomâhell, maybe even the garage.Â
âOh fuck, shit, Iâm sorry,â you hurried to say, feeling your pulse quicken. You hoped he didnât notice how your mouth hung open or the way your eyes darted everywhere but his torso.Â
âWhatâs up?â he said, straightening his back and running a hand through his hair.
His casual confidence made everything about your reaction feel even worse. He didnât mind you seeing him shirtless, so why the fuck did you have to care so much?Â
âI justâŠâ you stammered, losing all sense of vocabulary as your eyes deceived you, glancing at his chest. âForgot how to English.âÂ
Logan let out a gentle laugh, and you mentally told yourself to get your shit together.Â
âI have some photos for you to look at,â you said, holding up your laptop that had been your reason to barge into his room in the first place.
âRight, right,â Logan nodded. âLet me put a shirt on first.â
Your mouth moved before your brain could stop it. The moment the words left your mouth, you wanted to crawl into a hole and disappear.Â
âNo, I get it. Iâd be shirtless too if it was socially acceptable.âÂ
He froze mid-step, his head slowly turning back to you with a raised brow.
Youâd said no. In milliseconds. Like you were opposed to him putting a shirt on. Like that was a totally normal thing. Then, you just had to mention yourself being shirtless. So, you were forced to wonder if he was thinking about you without a shirt on as much as you were thinking about him without one.Â
Well⊠you didnât necessarily have to think. He was already standing in front of you shirtless. That was a known fact.
The moment you thought he might actually flirt back with you, it was like you could see how the tension washed away from his face.Â
âItâs hot, right?â he asked, moving some things out of the way so that you could place your laptop on the table in his room. A part of you thought he wasnât actually talking about the temperature.Â
âWay too fucking hot,â you mumbled as your fingers shakily hovered over the mousepad. Your heart was racing and your body was overheating. You didnât dare look up from the screen, afraid of what you might see in his eyesâor worse, what he might see in yours.
He overviewed the photos, pointing out some of his favourites. Youâd gathered quite quickly that Logan had an amateur interest in photography. He didnât shy away from complimenting your work or from asking questions about certain shots he found special. That didnât make the rushing heat flowing to your face any better.Â
âYou alright?â you heard him ask as you closed the laptop shut, your photo viewing session done for now. You couldnât really focus, a ringing sound hitting your ears.Â
You swallowed hard, nodding. âYeah, just a lot to do. Iâll see you after the race.âÂ
With that, you dashed out of his room, on your way to find Alex instead. You couldnât keep doing this to yourself, but that didnât exactly matter. Either way, you were in too deep, and you knew it.
. . .
The Williams car was decent in Bakuâfast on the straights, as expected. Alex got points and Logan wasnât far from archiving it too. Still, it wasnât enough. It wasnât the most depressing resultâhe would manage this weekend without once collapsing like an anxious mess. That was a win in his book nowadays.Â
Logan walked with Alex from the media pen, adrenaline in his steps, talking freely about whatever came to mind.Â
âDid she show you the photos she took during practice yesterday? She used some kind of long exposure. I donât know what itâs called or how she did it but it looked so coolââÂ
âLogan,â Alex stopped him.Â
âWhat?âÂ
âTake a breath, youâve been talking about Paddy for like five whole minutes,â Alex teased, a grin tugging at the corners of his lips. âI get that you like her photography, but this is borderline obsessive.â
âIâm not obsessed,â Logan defended. âYou were the one who brought her up in the first place anyway.âÂ
âMate, all I did was ask if youâd seen her. She didnât take any photos as we exited the cars,â Alex explained.Â
Logan shrugged. âI havenât seen her since before the race.âÂ
âMe neither, thatâs why I asked.âÂ
Realisation dawned upon Logan that something wasnât alright. Youâd seemed sort of unbalanced earlier in the day, but he assumed that was the heat and a massive workload. It wasnât something he hadnât seen before, and you seemed to quietly get through every hurdle in your way anyway. He would be blind if he didnât see your embarrassment to barging in on him shirtless, but he had explained that reaction away too in his head. He mostly found you cute, but that didnât have to mean anything.Â
He couldnât find an explanation for this, though. Even after shit races, he looked forward to seeing you with your camera held high every time he exited the car, got weighed, or was walking to the media pen. But you hadnât been there todayâŠÂ
His emotional support photographer hadnât been there. Sure, todayâs race wasnât that bad, and he didnât necessarily need you as a distraction for his anxiety. But you didnât know that. That had to mean that something had happened to you.Â
âAngie, whereâs Paddy?â Alex asked as they entered back into the Williams garage, practically running into the obviously stressed-out marketing manager.Â
âUhhâŠâ Angie hesitated, not lifting her eyes from her phone. âStill with the medical team, I think. She passed out during the race. Heatstroke, most likely.âÂ
Logan froze. He didnât understand why he cared so much, but for some reason he did. He cared about you, and he cared so much that he was about to act irrationally.Â
âShe passed out? How are you so calm?â he questioned.Â
Angie shrugged, far too nonchalantly for his liking. âItâs a million degrees outside, heatstrokes are bound to happenââ
Logan didnât wait for another word. He was already moving, cutting through the garage with purpose.
Alex shouted after him, âLogan, where are you going? We have debrief soon!âÂ
âTell them Iâm not coming!â was all that he yelled as a reply.Â
. . .
The air in the small, sterile room seemed to hum with the tension that had followed you since you woke up.
âMiss, how are you feeling?âÂ
You blinked, still trying to find your bearings. It took you a second to even see the medic that was talking to you. The heat clouded your vision like a mirage. Your mouth was dry, your skin sticky from sweat, but at least you were conscious. Theyâd placed you in a secluded room in the makeshift medical area, lying on a stiff and temporary cot.Â
âItâs a lot better now,â you replied hoarsely, managing a weak smile. âStill have a slight headache, but I guess thatâs normal.âÂ
You didnât know if it was the bright fluorescent lighting or the heat still affecting you, but your eyes burned and your head pounded. You felt the instinct to rub your temples, but was hindered when you felt an IV-needle inserted in your arm.Â
You didnât know how long youâd been out. You werenât even sure what had happened really. One second you were in the garage, trying to get a perfect shot of Alex making his pit stop. The next one, you have a vague memory of being moved into the medical area and multiple peopleâs voices buzzing above you.Â
âYes, it is. Do you know what happened?â the medic asked. His voice was kind as he stood by your bedside, an iPad in hand with information.Â
âUh, I⊠passed out? Did I hit my head?â
âNo, no, you didnât. You should be lucky that garage was filled with people to catch a falling lady,â he joked lightly.Â
You smiled, albeit a bit forced. You looked at the medicâs name tag, trying to make out the letters with your clouded vision. Amir. That was a pretty name. At least your brain was working somewhat.
âWe just want to observe you for a little longer to make sure youâre no longer dehydrated, otherwise you should be completely fine. Are you on any medication now?â Amir continued by saying.Â
You thought for a second. âYeah, wait⊠I can never remember the names.âÂ
Looking around you, you were thankful to see your camera bag with your phone inside placed neatly on a table next to the cot. You moved carefully to reach it, opening your notes app to show Amir the prescriptions you had written down.Â
âI take those daily for ADHD, and uh⊠those for anxiety when I feel like I need it,â you explained, pointing at the screen even though it hurt your head to look at it.Â
Amir nodded and tapped something down on his iPad. âDid you take one today?âÂ
âYeah, one of each.âÂ
âGood to know. Iâll go get you something for that headache,â he reassured you before leaving, letting his hand gently squeeze your arm as an act of thoughtfulness.Â
You closed your tired eyes for a moment, a feverish cold sweat catching up to you, making you realise just how uncomfortable your Williams kit was, practically glueing your warm body to the cot.Â
The door clicked shut softly behind the medic as he left, but it wasnât long before you heard it creak open again. You looked up, expecting Amir, but instead, it was⊠Logan.
You blinked, a little confused. His blond hair was slightly damp, still sporting what was obviously helmet-hair. He looked tired, maybe as exhausted as you felt, yet he stood there, hesitant for only a moment before stepping inside.Â
He shouldn't be here. He should be debriefing with the team, or doing interviews, orâ
âWhat the hell did you do?â Logan asked, only half-teasing as real concern bled through in his voice.Â
âApparently I passed out,â you answered, trying to downplay it with a weak smile.
Logan sighed, the tension visibly draining from his body as if seeing you alright, even in this condition, was enough to ease the worry that had been weighing on him. You were sure you looked like a complete messâsweaty, shivering, barely able to keep your eyes open.
He moved inside the room, sitting down on a stool next to your cot. You turned to look at him, feeling his intense eyes on you already. You didnât know what to do, or what to feel. Your system was already cooked, fried up completely from feeling bad all day to passing out in front of a crowded garage. Â
âSo, uhm⊠youâre just as anxious as I am?â he asked nervously, tilting his head.Â
Your stomach twisted. It didnât take you long to realise that he had overheard your conversation with Amirâabout the medication, about your diagnoses. It wasnât a secret in any way, you just hadnât planned to tell him about it unless he asked. Your magical cure to dealing with his anxiety was⊠two decades of dealing with your own.Â
âNot that itâs a competition, but Iâm way worse,â you joked.Â
Not fitting in at school, not fitting in at homeâit would make anyone anxious out of their skin. And younger you were surrounded by people who didnât know how to deal with itâto deal with you. Your family labelled you as a sad child, or god forbid sensitive, and sort of just accepted your anxious responses to every minor thing. Doctors and therapists called you emotionally intelligent, but you never found that to be a compliment, like it was a positive thing to be so aware of your own problems.Â
Logan stared at you plainly. âDo the meds help?âÂ
You scoffed. âYeah, they do. Just not against heat exhaustion.âÂ
You saw how Loganâs expression stayed the same, slightly emotionless, slightly annoyed at how you just couldnât help yourself from joking about the situation. Youâd experienced it beforeâhow people disliked you for it.Â
âYou donât have to be here, Logan. Iâm fine,â you added, shying away from looking at him.Â
That broke his demeanor. He was quick to grab your hand, careful with the IV-port connected to your inner elbow. His grip was firm but tender, grounding you in a way you hadnât expected.
âI want to be here,â he shortly replied. There was no room for debate.Â
You wanted to protest, to tell him that he didnât need to babysit you, that he had more important things to do. But the truth was⊠you werenât fine. Not really.
You were used to keeping to yourself, even in busy places like the paddock. You were used to the chaos and noise of your family, where attention was either forced or withheld, never calmly showed. Silence was your refuge. You were talkative, sure, but you had learnt early on that asking for help meant admitting weaknessâsomething that wasnât welcome in the household you grew up in. As a kid, you would shut down when you felt this overwhelmed. Even now, sat in a medical room after collapsing for heat exhaustion, that old instinct was there, tugging at you to shut down.Â
Logan, however, was still there, unfazed, waiting. Â
Maybe he wanted to tell you how it was slightly reckless to feel this bad and not inform anyone, but he also understood more than anybodyâthat admitting a weakness while doing a job people questioned your talent forâwasnât something easily done, or something that would even help your cause in the end.Â
But he didnât say anything. He just held your hand, breathing steadily. His fingertips traced upward to one of the floral tattoos you had on your forearm. His touch felt⊠gentle. Intimate, even, your clouded mind envisioned. It sent a shiver through youânot from the feverish cold sweat, but from something else entirely.
âHow did the race go?â you asked, swallowing down emotions, more to change the subject than anything.
âNot important.â Logan shook his head. âWhat? I mean it. Iâm focused on you now.âÂ
You tried to roll your eyes, but the effort was too much. You could feel yourself unravelling, the exhaustion too heavy to ignore anymore. He noticed it too.
âMy father called me this morning,â you blurted out after a moment of silence, surprising even yourself. âI think thatâs why I was feeling so off today.âÂ
Logan, again, didnât say anything, just waited, his gaze steady, patient. He wasnât rushing you, wasnât pushing you to say more. He was just⊠there. Heâd learnt from you, you slowly realisedâto let anxious people talk when they wanted to talk and to distract them when talking would only make things worse.Â
âWe havenât talked in months,â you admitted, biting your lip. âSo, I thought⊠I thought he was finally going to be the bigger person and actually show some interest in my life and the job Iâm doing.âÂ
Logan nodded slowly, sensing the conclusion before you even voiced it. âIâm guessing he didnât?âÂ
âHe called to offer me a job at his firm because one of their legal assistants is going on maternity leave.â You let out a bitter laugh, the sound hollow. âIâve been working and travelling the world for half a year, making a name for myself, and he still doesnât believe that I can do it.âÂ
It was funny, how the first man to ever break your heart was your own father. And he hadnât done it with malicious intent, but because he was just too blind to get to know his own daughter.
Your breath hitched, and before you could stop them, the tears spilled over, silent but insistent. You wiped your face with the back of your hand, embarrassed by the vulnerability, the rawness. âIâm sorry, I donât know why Iâm crying.âÂ
âDonât apologise. Youâve seen me cry enough times to know that itâs okay.â
Loganâs grip on your hand tightened just a fraction, a quiet reassurance. You didnât have to suck up the tears and build up a façade to prove that you were unbothered.
âHe doesnât need to believe in you for you to succeed,â Logan said quietly, his words like an anchor to your focus. âYou can do it, actually, you are doing it.âÂ
And the first time in your life, you allowed yourself to believe that maybe, just maybe, he was right.
. . .
Austin, USA
. . .
Austin was⊠disappointing.Â
That was the word of this season. Disappointing. Because no matter how hard it looked like Alex and Logan were pushing themselves and the carsâthey got nothing out of it. Now, Logan knew for certain that he wasnât coming back to Formula One next season. As much as Logan had wanted to go out on a high note, to leave with his head held high, reality didnât allow it.
The only moments that really brought him any sort of joy nowadays were the ones off track. Especially the ones with you. He didnât like to overthink it because it was complicated, and God knows he wasnât in the right state of mind for anything complicated. But calling it platonic? That would be a lie. It wasnât necessarily love either, just a deep understanding of each other.Â
Like now, on the Sunday evening after the disappointing race, when you and him spent time in his hotel room, watching a movie that was so bad and eating room service food that was so tasteless. You were there, for him, as a distraction, as a constant. You laughed at the ridiculousness of the plot, made sarcastic comments about the actors, and occasionally hummed along to the cheesy soundtrack. You showed him attention and affection when he quite literally felt like the worst person in the world.Â
âI should probably go to my own room,â you said, trying to hide a yawn as you spoke. The food finished a long time ago and the end credits rolling on the TV-screen at the end of the bed. Â
Logan looked at you over his shoulder from his position on the bed, the one heâd been sinking into from exhaustion since youâd both entered his room. He was laid on his side, back turned to you. You were sat against the plush headboard, your hair looked a mess as you leant your head. Heâd been quiet for a long time, barely even laughed during the movieâs funnier parts. But now, he slowly shook his head as he looked at you.Â
He didnât want you to leave.Â
You silently agreed to stay for a little longer by just a look from your eyes. He turned his back to you again and you reached for the remote to turn off the TV. A static and quiet sound of air-conditioning the only thing audible in the hotel room. You shuffled behind him carefully, letting yourself lie down with your front facing his back. You didnât dare to move under the covers like he had, only his blond hair and shirtless shoulders peeking out.Â
âThey shouldâve just sacked me off before the summer break,â he finally muttered. You saw how a breath left his lungs, weighing him further down into the mattress. âOr after the crash at Zandvoort. Yâknow? Just done something to get rid of me so that I didnât have to feel this way.âÂ
He hadnât talked like this in a while. Youâd heard it a lot earlier during the season, when there were talks of him getting replaced after every race he didnât score points. The talking never stopped, but Loganâs attitude definitely changed. He was indifferent to it, and that was scary to seeâsomeone so young, kicked to the ground repeatedly, that his dreams lost their importance even to himself.
Heâd been more careful with you since Baku. You thought maybe that had an influence on him too. He didnât want to crowd you with emotions and anxiety when he now knew that you didnât have it easy either. You didnât think that was fair. You had never once felt like he added on to your anxiety. He only made it better.Â
âYouâre not saying much,â he added quietly, as your silence became too much for him.Â
âFor once in my life, I thought Iâd try out what itâs like to be quiet,â you responded, but there was no bite in your voice. It was gentle, sympatheticânot joking like you used to do. âNo, Iâm sorry. I was letting you vent. It sounded like you needed it.âÂ
Logan's body slumped further as he exhaled, realising that you were right.Â
âLogan, listen,â you said. âIt would make no sense to sack you off. No possible replacement would be able to adjust in time for a better chance at points. Williams is doomed this season no matter what if they canât give both cars equal machinery.âÂ
Your words hung in the air, not offering a solution, but trying to relieve him of some of the guilt he had piled on him.Â
Without thinking, your fingers began tracing a pattern on his back, just by his exposed shoulder blade. Small, mindless circlesâsomething to occupy the space between words. You werenât even aware you were doing it until Logan spoke again.
âAre you doing one of those childrenâs rhymes?â Logan asked with a slight amusement as he recognised the pattern your finger was moving in.
âWho says theyâre just for children?â you joked.Â
âX marks the spot, a circle and a dotâŠâ he started, trailing off with a soft laugh. His voice was muffled by the pillow he was lying on, but you could hear the faint hint of a smile in it.Â
âWaitâŠI donât know the right order in English,â you admitted, a little embarrassed as you lifted your finger from his skin.Â
âDo it in your language,â he suggested in a heartbeat.Â
âBut you wonât understand it?â
âI just like listening to you speak,â Logan said softly, sincerely.Â
âReally? Iâve been told that I sound like a muppet before by English speakers,â you questioned, feeling a flush rise in your cheeks despite yourself.
That wasnât a lie. Muppet. Cartoon character. Or just any national stereotype people could think of. Youâd heard it all.Â
Logan chuckled, the sound vibrating through his chest. âIs that why you try to not have an accent?âÂ
âYeah, I guess so,â you shrugged. âIt was either a borderline offensive British accent or sounding like Iâm one of the Kardashians.âÂ
He felt a short breath fall on his naked shoulder, something between a giggle and a huff. He could imagine the look on your faceâsmiling, trying to not be too loud for the roomâs sombre atmosphere.Â
You did as he asked, tracing the rhyme onto his back in the way you remembered your mother doing it to you as a child when you couldnât sleep. His skin was tan and slightly freckled, feeling smooth under your fingertip. You whispered the words quietly in the language you knew best.Â
âI love how you sound when you donât care,â Logan said after a moment. âAnd in your native language.âÂ
You raised an eyebrow in confusion. Not that he would be able to see your expression anyway. You had no idea that heâd even heard you speak in your native tongue before.
âWhen youâre on the phone with your family and so on,â he continued. âYour tone changes, itâs more melodic.âÂ
Youâd always been self-conscious about your accent, always trying to blend in, to sound like everyone else. Again, it was one of those things that had always made you feel just a little bit inadequate. A little bit less than the older people around you. But here he was, appreciating the very thing you tried to hide. Loving it, even.Â
âThank you,â you whispered, voice barely audible as you let your head fall forward, your forehead resting gently against his shoulder blade.Â
You stayed like that for a moment, tracing his back, savouring the quiet, intimacy of the moment without needing to explain or define it. You couldâve told him that you liked him. Your lips were only centimetres away from kissing the bare skin of his shoulder. You sensed that it was not the best time to try messing with his head and digging up your emotions to the surface, so you squashed them down all over again.Â
Logan fell asleep first, but you werenât long after. Right there, behind him. That was never your plan, but a tired mind did whatever the tired mind wanted to, you supposed. Now that it had happened, you couldnât bring yourself to regret it. It didnât end up being an issue until morning came around.Â
It was earlyâearlier than what it needed to beâwhen the sun broke through the curtains and filled the room with light, evidently waking you. The daily alarm you had set on your phone wouldnât be ringing for another hour or two.Â
You had slept fine. Nothing disrupting you. Nothing waking you. You didnât even dream. When you woke up, however, you thought you might be dreaming.Â
During the night, your positions had changed. Somehow, you werenât behind Logan anymore, with a safe distance. No, he was spooning you. An arm lazily draped over your stomach and his warm breath tickled the skin of your neck every time he exhaled.Â
Nope, you definitely werenât dreaming.
You laid as still as you possibly could, tensing your entire body, gathering that he was fast asleep. But, you had to move at some point. Your body would go into rigor mortis if you didnât. And you were scalding hot. Falling asleep in a sweatshirt, Loganâs arm hugging your waist. It was all too much for you.Â
That was when you felt it. You accidentally shifted your legs, moving further back. You felt him, poking the back of your thigh. Hard, frustrated, large. A warmness spread through your body as you realised it, making the climate even more unbearable in that bed. You knew that it was involuntary. It was just how the male body worked sometimes. You knew that this wasnât some indication that he reciprocated the feelings you harboured for him.Â
Somehow, that wasnât even the worst part about it. You could feel his heartbeat racing, as his chest was so close to your back. That was the worst part. Like this was exciting him, or making him nervousâeven in his sleep, even involuntary.Â
You were going to die. This was about to kill you. And youâd let it happen. You wanted it to kill you.Â
You had to get out of here, and that was now.Â
You sure looked comedic, trying to get out of that bed quickly while also not waking him. Like a newborn giraffe, attempting to stand up for the first time as a heavy comforter clung to its body.Â
But you did it, shutting the heavy hotel room door behind you, eyes darting around the hallway of rooms, looking to see if youâd been caught by anyone. Just as you started to walk to your own room, a voice from down the hallway stopped you.Â
âWhy were you in Loganâs room at the ass crack of dawn?âÂ
You spun to meet Angieâs gaze, and she came up to you, just having left her own room, dressed and ready for the day. You were in yesterdayâs clothes and makeup, looking positively frazzled. She read your expression in a second.Â
âOh my god,â Angie gasped, her hands flying to her mouth. âYou slept with him!âÂ
âNo, no, I promise I did not!â you defended quickly, voice laced with panic. âOr, I meanââ you fumbled over your words as you watched Angie try to not burst into laughter. âWe fell asleep next to each other, but we did not have sex.âÂ
âI donât really care what you did or did not do with him, because I trust you to still be good at your job. I justââ she paused, her face softening as she looked at you, the big sister mentality coming into place even though you shared no ties of blood. âI want you to know your worth, and that race car drivers are notorious for beingââÂ
You cut her off, voice steadier than before. âI know my worth,â you said, before adding with a dramatic sigh, âI just happen to be on sale for a certain sad and anxious American.âÂ
âI get it, it happens to the best of us,â Angie nodded, her lips curling into a smirk. âYou think you know what rock bottom feels like and then all of a sudden you want to fuck the blond guy.â
You could only laugh at her unusually crude words. Maybe it hit too close to home for her.Â
âYouâre engaged to a blond guy, Angie,â you pointed out.Â
Matthewâs hair was almost white, thatâs how blond he was. He most certainly had some Scandinavian in him. Logan would be considered brunet in comparison.Â
âLike I said, it just happens,â she shrugged, draping an arm around your shoulder. Back to comfortable camaraderie. âLetâs go get breakfast, lover girl.âÂ
. . .
On the other side of the door, Logan had woken up by the sound of it slamming shut. It took him a moment to piece together what had happened. His increased heart rate. His throbbing morning wood. You, running out of his hotel room before he could wake up. What the fuck did this mean? God, he felt like dying. Or maybe just taking a really long, cold shower.
. . .
Mexico City, Mexico
. . .
âThis is a waste of your time,â you called out from across the park, feeling the warm wind sweep through your hair as you carved the side of the bowl. You pushed your weight into the deck, the skateboard responding to your every shift, gliding along the concrete.
While youâd gotten to skate in some impressive parks around the world this yearâthis one in Mexico might take the price for being the best. It was gorgeous, in an area that you could tell flourished with graffiti and street artists. The concrete was smooth, the bowl was deep and large enough. The local skaters were talented and ranged from kids with their fathers to groups of teenagers.
âItâs not wasted time if itâs with you,â Logan said from his seat by the edge of the bowl, his eyesight focused through the little viewfinder on a vintage polaroid camera.
Youâd both been asked to go to dinner with some team members after the Mexican Grand Prix, but you had answered honestly with how youâd much rather go explore this skatepark that you had heard amazing things about. Logan had answered with less honesty that he was too tired. With one look, you could tell that he silently asked to join you instead.
He was happy to just sit in the evening sun, looking out over the people skating, and stealing a camera from you to take some photos. Youâd given him a polaroid camera that was only for your personal use. The film was getting expensive and your case of developed pictures was getting full, but you knew the memories would be worth it.
Logan wasnât sure that he was very good at photography at first. He was too impatient to wait at the film developing, thinking heâd ruined most of the shots before colour even started showing on the little squares of film.
But he hadnât ruined them. He just had to wait. And after he had waited, he was pretty damn proud of the outcome. There were gorgeous murals, a lot of the setting sun, some of kids skating aroundâbut most of them were of you. The sun kissed your skin, and the sweat from your ride clung to you, but still, there was something about the way Logan saw you through that camera lens. Young, sweetâmaybe even beautiful.
You rolled your eyes at his cliché words, pushing the tail of your board to get a bit more speed as you curved around the deep end of the bowl. Your body had memorized the movements of skating so deeply that you no longer thought about them; you just moved, instinct guiding you. It was moments like this when everything else fell away, and you were simply alive.
Logan snapped another picture, the click of the shutter audible even over the distant chatter of the park. You could tell he was smiling, even though the camera obscured half his face.
âYouâre such a shutterbug!â you teased, your board coming to a stop just below him in the bowl.
âAnd youâre very photogenic,â he shot back without missing a beat, the sound of the shutter following swiftly after.
He could only imagine what the picture would look like without it having fully developed yet. Your high pitched laugh materialising in a wide smile with crooked teeth. You looked like a little train conductor in your striped denim boiler suit, worn-out to the point of tearing, showing off banged-up knees and elbows from never enough wearing protective gear.
After what felt like hours of skating, you finally called it a night, and the two of you began to walk back to the hotel. The buildings around you, old and worn, were painted in soft pastel shades that had faded with age. Mexico City had that effectâbeautifully chaotic, with stories hidden in every crack and corner.
You were still buzzing with the adrenaline from skating, unable to stop yourself from laughing every few minutes. It was a lightness that came from doing something you loved, and being with someone who, in his own way, seemed to love it just as much.
Out of nowhere, you pointed up, a giggle bubbling over. âLook!â
Logan followed your gaze, his eyes landing on a pair of old, beat-up Converse dangling from a power line overhead.
âIâve always wanted to do that,â you said, half to yourself.
âIsnât that used to mark a spot for drug dealers?â Logan asked, brow raised in amusement.
âMaybe. But itâs also used to commemorate things. Graduation, marriages, all sorts of stuff.â You gave him a playful smirk. âYou know, to mark a memory.â
âYou should do it, to commemorate this year.â
âActuallyâŠâ You trailed off, biting your lip. âIâve been thinking about getting a tattoo to commemorate this year.â
His eyebrows shot up, clearly interested. âReally? What of?â
âNot sure yet. Something small, meaningful. Iâll figure it out.â
Logan hummed in approval, then looked pointedly at your shoes. âYou know, you could commemorate this moment by tossing those sneakers up there. God knows theyâve seen better days.â
You glanced down at your well-worn Nikes, the soles starting to peel, the laces frayed. The cobalt swooshes had practically turned a faded navy-brown shade instead. Thinking about it, your suitcase was filled with other sneakers too.
âI mean, youâre not wrong. But how am I supposed to walk back to the hotel?â
Without hesitation, Logan smiled. âIâll carry you.â
You scoffed, shaking your head. âNo, you wonât.â
His response was swift. He knelt in front of you, leaning down to untie your shoes with an easy, confident motion.
âLogan,â you protested softy, when you really had nothing against it.
âCome on, just do it,â he coaxed, glancing up at you.
Who were you to say no to a man on his knees? You decided on listening to him. Stepping out of your shoes, you felt the warm ground beneath you, hurting slightly from tiny rocks and dirt digging into the soles of your sock-clad feet.
You tied the shoes together by the laces and with a pathetic first attempt, you launched them high up into the air, no way near the power line. Logan let out a little laugh in utter disbelief because he found the action so endearing.
âItâs harder than it looks!â you defended.
âThatâs what he said,â he joked under his breath as you tried again⊠and again.
Thankfully you were decent at other things, because throwing was not your forte. You were about to give up as you tossed one single last throw, groaning out of frustration as you tried your best. With eyes closed, you hoped for the best. A slow applause from Logan made you dare to look. And surely, there were your blue Nikes, dangling on the power line above you.
âOh my God, I did it!â you exclaimed, throwing your arms up in triumph. âLogan, take a picture, please!â
He chuckled, snapping a quick shot with the polaroid as you stood under the shoes, grinning like an idiot.
Before you knew it, Logan had swept you off your feet, literally, hoisting you onto his back. You kicked your legs weakly in protest, though your laugher told him you werenât actually mad. Graciously, he even picked your skateboard up, sticking it between his arm and ribs.
âNo, no, put me down. This is not working,â you squealed, feeling like you were about to fall off, your arms instinctively wrapping around his neck for balance.
âIâm not putting you down,â Logan retorted as he started walking with ease down the sidewalk with you on his back. âYouâll hurt your feet.â
He shuffled you higher up on his back, his hands grasping tightly around your legs. You were scared he was going to drop you, or worse, fall over because of the weight.
âPut me down.â You tried your best to sound serious, but it did nothing, he just kept on walking. The hotel was only minutes away and he didnât show any signs of slowing down.
âYouâre enjoying this,â Logan accused. âI know you are.â
You leaned your chin on his shoulder, finally giving in. âYou've carried me this far, you might as well take me home.â
As you approached the luxurious hotel the team stayed at, Logan didnât set you down until you were in the lift, earning looks from both guests and workers. Neither of you cared. He set you down gently, your sock-covered feet making a soft thud against the liftâs marbled flooring.
He gave you your skateboard back, shifting uncomfortably in his spot as the lift started moving upward. âI had fun tonight,â he whispered to you.
You leant against the wall, a loud exhale escaping you. âSo did I.â
As you watched Logan, the laughter that had filled the air moments ago now gave way to something quieter, something more charged.
He took a small step towards you before you could even think, his face soft but his eyes intense, searching yours as if waiting for permission. There were a million things you wanted to tell him, to interrupt him, just to make sureâbut the weight of the unspoken pulled you both together, speechless.
Your heart pounded in your chest as his gaze flickered down to your lips, then back to your eyes. You could feel the heat radiating from his skin, your heart racing in sync with his as your lips hovered inches apart. He was just as nervous as you were.
You both closed your eyes, anticipation tingling through you, waiting for that inevitable sparkâ
âHey!â Alexâs voice cut through the moment like a knife as the lift doors opened with a ding. He blinked at you both, stumbling away from each other, a curious smirk tugging at his lips. âWhere are your shoes, Paddy?â
You stared at him, dumbfounded, and then down at your sock-clad feet. âUhh⊠on a power line?â
Logan laughed, shaking his head. His cheeks were burning from what had almost happened, and from getting caught by Alex. It was so obvious. If only your rooms had been on a higher floor.
. . .
Las Vegas, USA
. . .
You changed after Mexico, and Logan took notice. You worked longer hoursâa lot more than you needed to. You didnât find the time to go exploring. Or if you did, you didnât post it to your instagram diary. You also drifted apart from Logan. Your conversations were shorter, your movie nights extinct, and you being a distraction for him was exchanged with you saying that you had more work to do. You became a ghost in his world, present but not truly there.
It didnât matter how many times Logan tried to talk to you about it. The message was clear. Youâd shut him out. And he couldnât for the life of him understand why.Â
Your evening in Mexico City had been magical; at least that was what he felt. And even though Alex had interrupted at the worst possible moment, Logan still naively thought youâd be able to go back to that magic if you got a chance alone together.Â
But you were busy in Brazil, and the promotional aspect of the Las Vegas Grad Prix was nothing short of crazy. Some might even have called it torturous. He just didnât find the right time, and you didnât even make the time for him to try.Â
The stumbling, awkward times he had triedâLogan couldnât even form a sentence. Heâd interrupt you when you were working, or catch you just as you were about to go to bed. It was never good enough. His emotions had shifted insanely fast, or maybe they had moved at a slow pace for such a long time that they now felt like a tidal wave hitting him straight in the heart.Â
He liked you.Â
Your obsession with tater tots, your inability to sit still, your love for shitty movies, your ability to always match the colour of your sneakers to your work clothes. It was all the little things. Your way of treating him like he wasnât wasted potential or fragile like fine china. That you knew how to deal with him, like this season wasnât the end of the world.Â
And the worst thing was that he was pretty damn sure that you liked him back. Yet, you were running.Â
. . .Â
You werenât there to bother him when he finished the race in Las Vegas. You didnât stand there with your camera, ready to get an unflattering picture of him dripping with sweat. And it wasnât like in Baku, where he had sensed something was wrong immediately. This was calmer, and Angie just told him that you were back at the hotel when he asked.Â
He got a point in Vegas, but you werenât there to capture it. He got to look happy in pictures for other photographers and he got to finally express some happiness in the post-race interviews. And while a part of him was over the moon, he couldnât stop thinking about how it seemed like you hadnât even seen him accomplish it.Â
That was why he now stood outside of your hotel room, freshly showered and changed but still buzzing with adrenaline, a shaking fist knocking lightly on the door.Â
He shifted his weight, unsure if he was meant to be here, but he needed to see you. He needed to talk to you. He needed to actually kiss you, without interruptions. The both of you needed to celebrate, to feel a night of joy after this nightmare of a season.Â
The girl who opened the door looked tired, clad in sweatpants and a hoodie draped over her head. Your makeup-less face showed dark circles under your eyesâsomething that had gotten worse in the last couple of weeks. You looked like you were on the move, already with your shoes on and your suitcase packed, standing right in the doorway.Â
Logan saw it, but in his excited stateâhe didnât immediately connect the dots.Â
âI got pointsâ,â Logan started, his voice brimming with pride before he corrected himself, the enthusiasm in his tone softening slightly. âWell, one point, but still.â
âI know, Logan,â you replied gently. âIâm proud of you.âÂ
Even if you hadnât been at the paddock tonight, you hadnât kept your eyes off the livestream for even a second. You may even have shed a tear as he crossed the finish line.Â
Logan beamed for a second, the glow of the accomplishment still warming his chest. âYou werenât there after the race, so I thought Iâd come see you now,â he continued, a hint of nervousness as he paced uncomfortably in place. âA bunch of us are going out to dinnerââÂ
But then his attention drifted. His brow furrowed, his attention drawn to the luggage again as realisation dawned.
âWhy is your bag packed already?âÂ
You looked at the suitcase, the same realisation flashing across your face as if you'd forgotten it was there, or perhaps hoped he wouldn't notice, and then back up at Logan with a visible uncertainty. You shook your head as you knew you had to explain it to him.Â
âTheyâve agreed on an exemption from my contract,â you said quietly. âIâm not working the last two races.âÂ
âB-but why?â Logan stammered.Â
âBecause I asked for it,â you shrugged with an audible sigh. âI have a flight to catch tonight.âÂ
Logan felt his stomach drop as he took in your words. âWait, youâre going home?âÂ
âNo,â you scoffed. âIâm not sure Iâm welcome there.âÂ
The weight of those words settled heavy between you both. Logan was unsure of what to say. He felt like he knew more about your family than you let on, but he hadnât expected you to be this lost. He thought you were still figuring it out, like him.
He swallowed hard. His mind raced, piecing together the fragments of the conversation, but nothing added up. âThen whereâ?âÂ
âIâm starting out in San Francisco,â you said, cutting him off before he could finish. âAnd then Iâll see from there on.â
San Francisco. Youâd mentioned it numerous times before. You had friends there. Professional skateboarders. It made sense that was where you were running to. It made sense that you had been distant these last weeks. Because this couldnât have been an easy decision for you.Â
âI know weâve talked a lot about your future, but mine is just as uncertain, and I need to do something about it. I canât go home to a place where I donât belong. I need to find my own ground.âÂ
You were almost desperate as you spoke.Â
Logan took a step closer, still having a hard time grasping what was even going on. âWasnât that what this year was all about?âÂ
âIt was always a fixed-term contract, you know that. Angie just bought me some time to figure things out,â you explained.Â
âSo, running away is you figuring things out?â His words came out sharper than intended, and regret instantly washed over him.
âLogan,â you said, almost pleading now, as if asking him not to push any further.
Maybe you werenât running away now. Maybe you had already ran, the start of this season being your first stop.Â
âIâm sorry, I justââ Logan paused, his hands gesturing toward you as if he wanted to hold on to something, anything, to keep you from slipping away. âI have something to say to you.âÂ
âI know you do,â you replied instantly, not letting him speak any further. Your voice creaked as you felt a cry clogging up your throat. âTrust me, I do too. But itâs not the right time for either of us. It will only complicate things.âÂ
Logan opened his mouth to argue, but shut it just as quickly. The words he longed to say hung heavy in his throat, unsaid and unacknowledged. He knew you were right. He knew it. But the words felt hollow in the face of you leaving. The question hung in his throat, unspoken. Would you stay if I asked?
You both knew that the answer to that question would be yes, in a heartbeat. He couldnât ask that from you. He would never be the one to hold you back. You had enough people against you. He needed to be with you, even if that meant oceans apart.
âIs this goodbye, then?â His voice cracked as he asked it.Â
You shook your head slowly, reaching into your carry-on bag. âI have this for you.â From the depths of the small bag, you pulled out a simple, leather-bound photo album, perfectly pristine, and handed it to him.Â
Logan looked down, fingers tracing the edges before opening it. Revealed was a collection of photos you had taken over the past yearâcandid shots, moments of him between races, behind the scenes. His chest tightened as he looked at the first one, an image of him laughing, helmet in hand, caught mid-conversation with his team. You had always seen him differently, and now, looking at these photos, he could see how much it meant to you.
There was a mixture of digital, film, and polaroid pictures, all signed with the corresponding city and date. Youâd started this collection when you were simply work acquaintances. The best photos were the ones that had nothing to do with racing. Sightseeing, views from hotel room balconies, and restaurants with the local cuisine.Â
His ultimate favourite that you had included was the one he had taken of you in Mexico, barefoot with your sneakers hanging over you on a power line.Â
âIâm sorry I didnât tell you sooner,â you said, the guilt clear in your voice. âI didnât know until this morningââÂ
âYou donât owe anyone an explanation,â he cut you off gently, his eyes still focused on the photos.
You bit your lip, still on the verge of tears. Seeing him so captivated by your year together in photos made it much harder.Â
He looked up, gently closing the album, and with a quick motion, he had embraced your body, wrapping his arms around you with a loud sigh. His t-shirt was soft against your skin as you felt it grow wet from your tears that had finally fallen. You could feel his heartbeat, ticking impatiently.Â
âDo you think Iâm making a mistake by leaving?âÂ
Again, if he said yes⊠You would rethink everything.Â
âNo, I think youâre doing what you need to do.âÂ
Logan was determined.
âI really have to go now,â you said softly, but you didnât make any effort to move away from his embrace. You leaned into him instead, your head resting against his chest. You felt his trembling breaths, almost like a stuttering, keeping him from crying out loud.Â
âJust a couple more seconds,â Logan whispered into your hair, his arms tightening around you. âI hope you find what youâre looking for,â he added, a slight tone of hope noticeable.Â
âI know we both will.âÂ
Finally, you pulled back, but you left the goodbye unsaid. You reached to squeeze his hand as a last gesture. Youâd never been good at goodbyes, so you left it to the lights. The soft glow of the Las Vegas skyline was the only thing illuminating the hotel hallway as you flipped the switch and slipped out the door, making a beeline for the lift.Â
It was the end of an era. Logan knew it before the year had even started. He just hadnât imagined it to feel this importantâto feel this uncertain. He hadnât imagined you. And when he started to imagine you, it was already too late. It had always been too late.
He tried to tell himself that he hadnât lost you. But it felt strangely like it.Â
Logan stood still in that hotel corridor for way too long, staring at the spot where you had been. This was the way it had to be, but he wasnât sure that made it any easier.Â
. . .
Fort Lauderdale, USA
. . .
Logan went home after the season ended. He stayed for the prize giving ceremony. He stayed long enough to say goodbye to the people that it mattered to. Then he went home, and he wasnât sure how he would look back at his past experiences. Now it mostly hurt, but stillâhe had made it there in the first place.Â
Home meant Florida this time. England, or Europe in general, had been his home for most of his conscious life, yet he never felt homesick for it. That was until now, when it wasnât his home anymore. Florida was nice, it was always just nice. The weather was warm and the beaches were pretty, but when he was sunburnt to the point of peeling and had sand in his shoes, he missed the bleak English mornings with rain pattering against the windows.Â
He signed for Indycar in the end, and when the season started in March, Logan found it refreshing. He loved racing, and he loved that he got a chance to do it again. He didnât love the pressure put on him, mostly by strangers on the internet. He didnât love the rookie title because he wasnât treated like a rookie. Heâd raced in the pinnacle of motorsport, he should know better. He should be better. Logan tried to not let it get to him, because in the endâhe was the one that had made it to the pinnacle. Not a lot of other drivers could say that, especially other Americans. Â
You liked every single one of his Instagram posts. Commented when he did well in races. That was the closest thing you two had to communication. Logan understood you, thoughâthat you needed to leave when you had the chance to. He couldnât have changed that. He wouldnât have changed that.Â
He thought of messaging you, but he had a hard time figuring out what to say. Writing down something long in his notes app, only to cringe at himself seconds later. Nothing seemed right and nothing seemed fair, like he was guilt-tripping you into reminiscing the last year. He knew what he felt for you, but he could never force you to be closer to him, to give up your chance at exploring and finding yourself. It was better to just let you live, but he knew what you felt for him too, that was why it was so hard for him to stay away.Â
Stuck between a rock and a hard place.Â
Logan liked every single one of your Instagram posts as well. You kept up with the diary, even if the travelling wasnât as rapid as under the racing season.Â
He saw pictures of you all over the American west coast. You were on cable cars and steep streets in San Fransisco. You were skating in Venice Beach, surfing in Santa Cruz, and hiking in Yosemite. You went on road trips up north to go to concerts in Portland and Seattle for bands that Logan had never heard of.Â
You hadnât been kidding when you said you had friends there. The skateboarding collective you lived with in Cole Valley was a never ending stream of eclectic people coming and leaving.Â
Your closest friend was the girl with bright pink hair that he had spotted on your Instagram before from your numerous university art projects. She skated on a competitive level and you would join to take photos of her.Â
Another one of your friends was a boy who looked strangely like TimothĂ©e Chalamet. He was a tattoo artist who would go skating with you at night to spot pretty sunsets. He tried not to be jealous. He should have confessed his feelings for you to even have a reason to be jealous.Â
Your posts became more scarce during the early summer. When you posted a slideshow of pictures of Tater Tot with a long caption about his passing, Logan understood why. He felt tears forming in his eyes as he watched the pictures of you and the golden retriever, the fur around his face having faded and his nose all pink from old age.Â
He felt like reaching out to you even more after that, especially since you were back home with your family and he could only imagine how that felt for you. When you posted a picture of a new family dog not too long after, with a normal boring dog name that he could tell you hadnât chosen, he felt a slight anger inside.
You went skating around Europe after that, the girl with pink hair by your side. You posted a video of Angie trying to skate while in Barcelona, and Logan connected the dots that you had gone to the Spanish Grand Prix. He liked that you were still welcomed by the team, but he was unsure if he wouldâve gotten a similar treatment.Â
On a weekend without racing, Logan was back home in Fort Lauderdale. He spent the evening with his brother and some friends in their backyard. He was there, but he didnât feel present. Something you had taught him stemmed from anxiety. It wasnât as bad as it was during his last F1 season, but he still liked to look at your pictures as a distraction when he felt anxious. The stories they told were still better than what was going on in his actual life.Â
âSince when are you interested in skateboarding?â his brother's voice broke through his focus. Logan barely had time to register him hovering over his shoulder before he took a seat across from him, sinking into a deck chair with a teasing grin.
Logan didnât realise that he had a video of yours on repeat. It was you in a skatepark in Copenhagen, landing a trick youâd never done before.Â
âOh, Iâm notââ he started, his tongue suddenly feeling clumsy in his mouth as he fumbled for an excuse. âItâs the old Williams photographer, sheâs travelling to all these places to skate. Itâs quite cool to see.âÂ
His brother raised an eyebrow, clearly not buying it. Logan flushed under the scrutiny, knowing full well that his brother could read him like an open book. He didnât just think it was quite cool. He was investedâand not just in the skateboarding.
âA girl, you say?â his brother pressed.Â
âItâs not like that, sheâs on the other side of the world,â Logan protested quickly, slipping his phone back in his pocket as if to hide any evidence of his admiration.Â
His brother could only laugh at his poor attempt of conviction. âWould it be like that if she was closer?âÂ
Logan froze, unable to answer. His brother was able to read his expression all too well again, his smile softening as he watched Logan carefully.Â
âI am taking that as a yes.âÂ
. . .
Oxfordshire, UK
. . .
Angela and Matthew Thompson, read the sign outside of the rented out manor house. Somewhere in the English countryside, as the evening sun cast a golden glow over the courtyard. Youâd snapped photos of the garden and the exterior, but the sign stopped you for a moment.Â
You found it odd, firstly seeing Angie be called by her actual first name and then secondly, not by her maiden surname. You guessed that was what it was likeâgetting married. The formal side of it all, at least.Â
Click.Â
You got a quick photo of the sign before you entered back into the manor. The big ballroom was filled with the soft murmur of guests and the rustling of chiffon dresses.Â
The ceremony had been earlier during the day, a small gathering with only immediate family around. Youâd only been there because of your duty to photograph the entire thing. Otherwise you probably wouldnât have. Angieâs cousin was her only bridesmaid and Matthew had his closest childhood friend as his only groomsman. Both their parents were present as well, and Angieâs grandmother had been ring bearer. Adorable, that was the only way to describe it. Quaint and quite literally perfect, in the manorâs rose garden with birds chirping and a violin player.Â
Click.
You stood in the doorway to the ballroom, adjusting your camera, scanning the scene for the perfect shot. You found it in two of the partyâs younger guests, looking at the wedding cake with temptation in their eyes. The was just something about kidâs in formal clothes. A little crooked bowtie and sparkly silver ballerina shoes.Â
The reception was bigger, with friends, distant relatives and work colleagues invited. Your family was included in that, but you had gotten good at keeping a distance and they had gotten better at ignoring you instead of arguing with you. That was some sort of improvement. Having the excuse that you were technically working was also in your favour, even if Angie probably wanted to drink you under the table and get you dancing with one of Matthewâs rich colleagues.Â
There hadnât been a dress code beyond formal, but somehow a lot of the guests seemed to match, making the photography blend together in perfect hues. You couldnât wait to edit and put them together. Sage green, baby pink and light yellow. The men and their suits in tones of beige and blue. You guessed that was the English summer in colours.Â
You were never really one to dress up nicely. You preferred something practical, but even you felt a little whimsical tonight. A periwinkle dress and white heelsâa complete juxtaposition of your usual streetwear and sneakers.Â
Click.
You managed to get a picture of the happy couple from far way. Candid, when they thought no one was watching. Those were usually the ones that turned out the best. No posing, no fixed smiles. Angie showed a wide and almost painfully happy grin as Matthew whispered something in her ear, sneaking in a kiss on her cheek. Only they would know what had been said when they, years down the line, flipped through the photo album from their special day.Â
That was the beauty of photos. The secret stories they held.Â
You smiled to yourself, getting lost in the scene that showed through the viewfinder, shifting to find something new and equally magical in the movements of the ballroom.Â
Suddenly, all you could see was one singular familiar face.Â
You blinked, not believing your eyes before you zoomed in. Tall, blond, blue eyes catching the lightâtalking to a man you recognised as a Williams engineer. It couldnât be⊠but it totally was.Â
In a navy tailored suit, his tie slightly loosened, he raised a champagne coupe to his lips. He smiled at something the engineer said, flashing his teeth. You took a picture, and then one moreâit was achingly familiar, yet so different.
It was like he knew he had a camera pointed towards him with how quick he reacted. He hadnât even seen you when you took the first one, but by the time you were about to take a third one, his face was turned completely towards youâlooking at your lens, looking at you.Â
And of course, he waved. He smiled and he waved.Â
Fuck, fuck, fuck.Â
He quickly excused himself to the engineer and was then set on only you. He crossed the room with easy confidence, threading through the crowd. Since when was he so smooth?
You lowered your camera as your breath got caught in your throat, finally looking at him not through the viewfinder.Â
âLogan,â you whispered, voice softer than expected.Â
He said your name with an easy familiarity, one youâd almost forgotten. It pulled you back six months in time in mere seconds, as if nothing had changed.Â
âUhm, H-how did you get here?â you stammered, cursing yourself for sounding so surprised. You shouldâve known heâd be here. Angieâs wedding had been a big talking point even back when he was driving for Williams.Â
âThereâs these things called airplanes,â he teased, the corners of his mouth quirking up. âEver heard of them?â
You rolled your eyes, but your smile was impossible to suppress. Silence fell over the two of you as you struggled to find ways to continue the conversation. The tension was palpable, stretching thin as if either of you could snap it with the wrong word. Logan looked lost too, like the confidence he thought he had washed away when he finally got close to you.Â
Youâd thought about itâwhat it would be like to talk to him again if you ever got the chance. Being speechless was never in those thoughts.Â
âYouâre hair has gotten long,â you blurted out, desperate to fill the silence and because it was honestly the first thing you noticed to be different about him. His blond hair had grown longer, with a slight wave to it, almost curling at the ends.
âIs that a compliment?â Logan mused.
âYes,â you were too quick to reply. âOr, I think so. Itâs different.âÂ
Logan chuckled softly as you winced at how clumsy you sounded.Â
âSo⊠you work weddings too?â he asked, glancing at the camera still in your hands.Â
Great. He was shit at small talk too.Â
âOnly when itâs Angie,â you answered, trying to sound at ease. âI promised to make her look gorgeous even before she met Matthew.âÂ
You did not remember the first time she asked you. It was a decade ago at this point. But every time you had taken a photo of herâprofessionally and privatelyâshe liked to remind you of how she felt like no one else ever had captured her fairly, or flatteringly. She was always your biggest fan, even when you were just taking grainy pictures of your friends at the local skatepark.Â
âCan I see?â Logan asked and you handed him the camera without a doubt.Â
There was something so familiar in the gesture, like muscle memory kicking in. You used to share everything with him. You were happy to know that even through it all, he at least still cared about your photography. Â
Before you could even react, he raised the camera and snapped a picture of you, completely unprepared. The flash was too bright, and you squealed in surprise.
âDude, what the fuck?â you exclaimed, blinking away the aftershock of the flash.
Logan raised an eyebrow. âDude? Youâve turned American!â Â
You couldnât help the laugh that escaped you. âI have not turned American.â
Logan joined your laughter, but only for a secondâsomething on the camera catching his attention instead. He looked at it intensely, only for you to realise that it was the photo heâd taken of you. Overexposed and blurry. Not perfect in any way, but candidly capturing a moment.Â
âMy god, you look lovely.âÂ
He said it softly, like an afterthought, like he didnât mean for you to hear it.Â
Heat crept up to your cheeks as he handed you the camera back to you. You couldnât look too long at the photo heâd taken of you, so you pressed the button to show the one taken prior. It was him, of courseâsmiling as he had clocked you from across the room.Â
âSo do you,â you said, showing him the picture of himself. âHappiness suits you.â
Loganâs smile faltered for a moment as you surprised even yourself with your honesty. You realised how he could overthink what you had just saidâlike happiness was something new for him to express. And maybe that was true. But it was a sad realisation, and a mortifying thing for someone else to have discovered about oneself.Â
Before an uncomfortable silence fell between the two of you, a familiar voice broke through the moment.
âThere you are!â Alexâs voice was bright, his cheeks tinted pink from champagne and dancing. âIâve been looking for you!â
You turned, grateful for the distraction, as he came up and enveloped you in a hug. You smiled, hugging him back, telling him how youâd missed him.Â
âLogan!â he exclaimed as he turned his attention to him. âItâs so good to see you.âÂ
They did one of those awkward side-hugs that men insisted on giving each other. Logan said something similar in response, his voice warm but his eyes still flicked to you. You gathered from just that little interaction that their departure mustâve been stretched and difficult. They were good friends, for christ sake, but Williams had made everything toxic.Â
Alex beamed. âWell, come on! Itâs my turn to pester Paddy with a camera. Scoot together.â
Before either of you could protest, Alex grabbed your camera, leaving you both standing there, shoulder to shoulder. A fire burning through the fabric where your bare shoulder touched his blazer.Â
Click.Â
. . .
After long speeches, and first dances, and consuming too much wedding cake, you found yourself on a balcony, taking a breather, looking out over the garden. You heard the door open behind you, and it was like you could feel that it was his presence. You let out a small laugh as you kept your eyes focused on the view.Â
âWhat are we looking at?â Loganâs voice came soft and steady beside you, making you turn your head.
âMy sister sharing a cigarette with a Williams mechanic,â you scoffed, nodding towards two figures below the balcony.Â
Your sister, known as an overly ambitious goody two shoes, wasnât only sharing the cigaretteâshe was shotgunning it. Your past self wouldâve wanted to go tattle to your parents, but now you were kind of glad to see a human, imperfect side of your sister, acting promiscuous with a greasy mechanic.
There was a brief silence as the evening air wrapped around you. Logan slipped his hands into his pockets, shifting his weight slightly.
âHowâs it been? With your family and all?â he slowly asked, trying to make it sound casual.Â
âThey still treat me like a toddler, if thatâs what youâre wondering. But we donât argue anymoreâjust pretend each other doesnât exist,â you scoffed.Â
He glanced at you, the hint of a frown on his face, but didnât press further. Instead, he pulled out his phone from his suit pocket as it vibrated, the faint sound breaking the quiet between you.
You let your eyes linger on him for a moment. The small gesture shouldnât have meant anything, but something about the way his fingers moved so delicately over the screen made you pause. Then you saw itâthe photo behind his clear phone case.
âThatâs from Mexico,â you said without thinking.Â
Logan glanced at you, then back at his phone, a faint smile tugging at his lips. âYeah. My favourite from the album you gave me.â
You blinked, remembering the moment instantlyâtossing shoes over a power line, him carrying you home, Alex doing what he did bestâinterrupting.
âI know itâs slightly pathetic, but that was one of the best days of my life,â Logan admitted, shying away from looking at you.Â
It had been one of the few peaceful moments amidst the storm of races, pressure, and long, chaotic nights. It was supposed to be just another moment, but it had become more. You both knew it meant so much more.Â
âItâs not pathetic, Logan. At least, I donât think so,â you reassured him. Your heart clenched at his honesty, but you felt it all the same as him.Â
Logan let out a small breath of laughter, but the smile that accompanied it didnât reach his eyes. He slid his phone back into his pocket, but the photo lingered in your mind. Logan glanced back at the ballroom, then back at you, his gaze lingering as if he was working up the courage to say something else.
But then his eyes dropped, right to where your arm touched against your ribs, a small glint of ink peeking out, darker than any of your other tattoos. Logan froze.Â
âThatâs my numberâŠâ he said, his voice soft with disbelief.Â
You felt your breath hitch as he stared at it. You instinctively rubbed your fingers over the tattoo, tracing the outline of the small F1 car inked delicately with his racing number on the nose. You suddenly felt very exposed, but not in a bad way. You moved your arm to give him a better view.Â
âWhat other number could I possibly have picked?â you wondered, tilting your head. âI did tell you that I was planning to get one.âÂ
His hand nervously reached for yours, his thumb brushing over the tattoo with tenderness, touching you in a way he hadnât before. The new ink sat just centimetres above the tiny paw prints you had in memory of Tater Tot. Logan couldâve cried on the spot.Â
âI really like it,â he whispered.Â
He dared to meet your gaze. You stood there in silence for a moment, the weight of everything between you suddenly heavier than ever. His thumb continued to caress the tattoo.Â
âAre we okay, Logan?â
He exhaled as you asked it, out of relief it seemed.Â
âI thought everything would be different, seeing you again,â Logan explained. âBut I strangely feel like nothing has changed since Vegas.âÂ
You nodded, a smile creeping up on your face, as you could only agree with him. The distance, the time apart, hadnât dulled anything between you. If anything, it had only clarified what had always been there.
In the background, you could still hear the music play loudly from inside the ballroom. Your sister and her mechanic were long gone from the garden. You had nothing to worry about and everything to win.Â
âSo⊠how do you feel about dancing at weddings, Sargeant?âÂ
. . .
The manor had rooms for all the guests to stay overnight. You stumbled into yours in the small hours of the nightâtipsy from champagne, tired from dancing. Logan was right behind you, laughing at you almost falling over from trying to unclasp your heels.
âNeed some help there?â Logan teased.
âIâve got it,â you mumbled, finally getting them off to feel the carpet against your bare feet.
Logan took a stance by the window, hands shoved into the pockets of his navy suit pants, looking out onto the moonlit garden. His jaw was tense, a sign that he was thinkingâno, overthinking.
You watched him for a moment, how his fingers flexed slightly in his pockets, how his shoulders rose and fell with a breath, before you went into the en suite bathroom, desperate to get your makeup off after wearing it all day. It was an oddly familiar feeling, being alone with him in a hotel room.
The rest of the wedding had been so lovely. It hadnât mattered much about what had been left unsaid, but instead what mattered was the way you acted towards each other now. You had been bracing yourself for the moment it all would break loose the entire night, ever since your eyes met his across the reception hall, but you had no idea how to start.
It turned out, you didnât have to.
âYou wanna know something?â Loganâs voice was slow, his back still turned against you, as he spoke. He waited for you to say something, but all you did was mumble a huh from the bathroom, clearly more focused on your makeup than on him.
He took a breath, slowly turning to you. He felt himself melt at the sight of youâin your pretty dress and a squeaky clean bare face. His gaze held yours, and in that quiet second, the world shifted.
âIâm tired of acting like Iâm not in love with you.â
The words slipped from his lips easily, almost like they had always been there, waiting for this moment to escape.
You froze in your movement, putting your skincare back in your makeup bag, not sure that you had heard him correctly. âWhat?â
âI said,â Logan repeated, a touch firmer, âIâm tired of acting like Iâm not in love with you.â
You stepped away from the sink, opting to stand in the doorway instead as you watched himâhow emotions washed over his face like colours melting together in a sunset. You had a hard time hiding the smile that began to form on your face. âYouâre in love with me?â
Logan shifted, looking almost sheepish as he rubbed the back of his neck. âDonât look so smug,â he muttered, though a smirk tugged at the corner of his mouth. âYouâre gonna make me regret saying anything.â
But you didnât feel smugânot in the slightest. Your chest instead filled with warmth, something dangerously close to⊠well, love.
âWell, excuse me for being a little happy about the fact that you love me back,â you said, almost argumentatively, crossing your arms.
âBack? You love me too?â Logan walked closer, almost stumbling as he passed the corner of the bed.
âYeah, dumbass.â You rolled your eyes at his oblivion. âIâve had a crush on you since before you even knew I existed.â
âA crush?â Logan chuckled, a sound full of disbelief and a little wonder. âHow long have youââ
âSince Baku,â you interrupted, your voice quieter now, more serious. âI think Iâve loved you since you stayed with me in Baku.â
That admission hung in the air, heavy with memories of long flights, foreign cities, whispered conversations in crowded spaces, and the closeness that had grown between you. Logan stared at you like he couldnât quite believe what he was hearing.
Maybe the two of you hadnât exactly known what the other wanted to say, that last night in Vegas. Or maybe, neither of you couldâve expected the intensity of emotions that would come to the surface when you finally did get to say what you had wanted to.
âWhy are you still standing so far away?â Logan took a deep breath, his heart pounding against his ribs. âCome take whatâs yours,â he then whispered, his voice a soft command that sent shivers down your spine.
You didnât need to be told twice.
Without another thought, you exited the bathroom and crossed the room in a few quick strides. You felt your pulse thrumming in your ears as you reached him, and without hesitation, you slid your hands up his chest, feeling a steady heartbeat beneath your palms.
Loganâs arms closed around you, his warm hands brushing the skin of your back, exposed by the low hem of your dress. He pulled you closer, until there was no space left between you.
His lips found yours, soft and sure. You melted into the kiss, into him. This time, there was no one to interrupt you. Months of longing and unspoken feelings poured into one single moment.
As soon as Logan felt you smile against his lips, he was sure world peace was achievable. With more confidence, he kissed you with a feverish intent, slipping his tongue in your mouth, falling backwards onto the mattress with you on top of him.
Moving your legs, you straddled his lap, sinking down comfortably on top of him while you put your arms around him. He rested against the bed frame, hair getting messed up as your fingers played at the nape of his neck. You continued to kiss, his hands rushing to touch your bodyâone on your cheek and the other on your waist. Your dress bunched up around your thighs as you pressed closer to him, feeling the heat of his body through layers of fabric.
You pulled apart after a moment, but only far enough to inhale, your noses still touching. The room was dead quiet, save for the panting sound of your breathing.
âYou have no idea the things Iâve wanted to say to you,â Logan murmured, resting his forehead against yours. âThe things Iâve held backâŠâ he added softly, his thumb now gently stroking the side of your face.
âYou could tell them to me now,â you teased, sneaking in a small peck.
A smirk tugged at the corner of Loganâs lips. âMy brain canât really focus when youâre sat on me like this,â he said, his fingers tracing slow circles along the exposed skin of your upper thigh.
You bit your bottom lip, brain filled with lust and sudden bravery. âUnzip me, please?â
âShould weâ I just donât want to rush anything,â Logan mumbled out of nervousness.
âYou donât think a year worth of tension is enough?â you whispered, smiling.
Logan swallowed, his hand daring to move behind you. The sound of your zipper easily sliding open filled the silence between you as his fingers delicately touched your exposed back. His eyes never left your body as the thin straps fell off your shoulders, the top half of your dress pooling around your waist. With a soft tug, you were all exposed. The white lace of your bra doing almost nothing to conceal your chest.
You were privy to his persistent stare at your body. You couldnât pretend you werenât, and your satisfaction was hard to withhold, a devious smile forming on your lips. His hands moved under your skirt, gently lifting it over your head, revealing delicate white lace panties that matched your bra.
âDid you plan this?â Logan had to fight himself to not let his jaw physically drop at the sight of you.
He held a certain emotion in the way he looked at you. Youâd seen desire before in a loverâs eyes. This was softer. This was different. Devotion, maybe. Love, most definitely.
âBetter safe than sorry,â you shrugged.
With a soft exhale, he chuckled in utter disbelief. Dipping his head, he couldnât help but kiss the valley between your breasts, nipping and sucking at the soft skin. His hair tickled against your neck as his mouth explored, surely leaving a mark or two.
With a quick movement, he unclasped your bra, discarding it as he continued to kiss your skin. Your breasts, your collarbones, your neck and jaw. He even moved to kiss a spot on your arm, making sure you took notice at how his lips gently pressed against your tattoo of his racing number.
You both took a moment, letting your eyes linger on each otherâs. It was hard to find things to say, but you guessed the silence, panting breaths and growing humidity were enough to express what you both wanted.
Your fingers diligently started to unbutton his shirt, leaving kisses on his neck and sternum as each inch of his skin was revealed for you. When you reached the last button, your hands dangerously close to his lower stomach, Logan moved swiftly to remove his shirt in one go, tossing it on the floor to land next to your dress.
Immediately, you sunk your fingers back into his blond waves, tugging lightly as you kissed his swollen lips. He matched your ferocity, sliding his hands from your waist down to your ass, squeezing over the soft lace. Both of you groaned at the feeling of your hips grinding down onto the fabric covering his growing hardness, almost a surprised feeling at how quickly it all had evolved.
âIâm starting to think you might like me or something,â you giggled, like an angel.
Logan wanted to argue. He wanted to say something witty. But he had no choice. With your wandering hands, all he could do was bite down on his lip to drown a pathetic moan trying to escape. With your wandering hands, you pulled his zipper open, helping him out of the rest of his clothes.
His cock sat hard in the space between your bodies, and as you tentatively touched him, feeling hot and heavy in your hand, he whined out a sting of curses. His stomach flexed as he ached for real friction, your hand only lazily stroking him. He groaned, head falling back to hit the headboard. The loveliest of pinks suffused his cheeks, a trail of rose-coloured blotches lingering all the way down his chest.
He tried to drag you closer to him with a firm grip on your hips, desperately searching for more. His hand found its way down between your legs, gently touching over a wet patch that had formed on your panties.
You hummed at the sensation, kissing his jawline, feeling him tense at your touch. âCan I ride you?â
âMhm, yeah⊠you want that?â Logan panted, gentle little breaths pushing past his lips.
Nodding enthusiastically, you placed your bottom lip between your teeth as you looked at him, eyes darkened. âI have condoms in the bathroom,â you said getting off of his lap, walking over. At the loss of touch, Logan couldnât help but audibly whine.
You made a point to shake your hips as you walked. You knew you had his eyes on you. After fetching the little foil packet from your makeup bag, you stopped in the doorway to pull your underwear off, dragging the flimsy lace agonisingly slowly down your legs as Logan could only watch.
âYou look heavenly,â he whispered as you towered over him to kiss him, before straddling his lap again, your naked body finally touching his without anything in between.
Logan swallowed his moans as you carefully tore open the condom packet and rolled it over his sensitive length. He helped you lift you up on your knees, enough to align himself with your soaking entrance. A year of tension really was enough foreplay. Fluttering around him, you adjusted to all of him, carefully and slowly moving into a perfect rhythm.
You couldnât be held responsible for the words and sounds leaving your mouth as you rocked against him. His hands gripped your waist and then your ass, kneading the soft flesh, spilling out between his fingers. You heard him suck in a breath as your fingers got entangled in his hair, gently pulling at the ends.
âLogan,â his name left your mouth with a delicate whine.
âHm?â
You needed him to look at you. Loganâs hand found home on your cheeks, keeping his eyes tightly locked with yours as you connected in the most primal way. âTell me Iâm yours,â he whispered gently, feeling himself bottom out inside of you.
âYouâre mine, all mine, baby,â you reassured, finding his lips for a messy kiss.
Slowly, you started bouncing faster, Loganâs hands guided you, helping you with every move, rise and fall. You were both stuttering out moans at the almost overwhelming feelingâthe wetness, the squeezing, the friction.
It didnât take long before you were both panting, flushed messes, the movement slowing down as the desperate feeling of release grew stronger.
âAre your legs getting tired?â Logan asked, voice hoarse. âF-fuck, let me help.â
He tilted you, shifting to a more horizontal position, as he wrapped his arms around your waist, letting you bury your face in the crook of his neck, sucking and kissing wherever you could reach. With forceful thrusts, he up fucked into you, digging his fingers into the fat of your hips to pull you even closer.
He took care of you. Your tits bounced against him as you moved together. The tension inside of you only growing and spiralling. Logan reached between your bodies, moving his limber fingers to circle your puffy clit.
You repeated his name through broken moans, all choked and caught in your throat, as he continued his mission. Through deep breaths, you got lost in the scent of him. Cologne, musky and warm. It was almost distracting, until he reached a soft spot, thrusting inside of you.
âIâve got you,â he reassured. âIâm right here, let it all out.â
Logan brought you over the edge. You bit down on his shoulder as the feeling washed over you, a white fire lighting from inside of you. His writhing against you told you he wasnât long after, filling the condom as he rode out both of your highs. He rested still inside of you for a while as you both caught your breaths.
You needed help to get off him, your legs still shaking. With a tired moan, he slipped out and you collapsed on the bed next to him, feeling the sheets ruffle around you. Logan glimmered under the moonlight seeping in through the windows, as sweat stuck to his flushed skin. His outgrown hair falling over his forehead.
You faced each other on the bed, your voices barely above whispers, not necessarily thanking each other, but more just mumbles about how special this felt. Loganâs hand found your arm, delicately tracing the car tattooed on your bicep. It tickled, so you let out a breathy laugh as you placed your hand on top of his.
Loganâs lips curled into a lazy smile as he felt your reaction. âDid you get any other tattoos?â
âNope,â you replied, shaking your head lightly. âI think youâve seen them all now.â
There was a softness in his expression that made you feel safer than ever before. It was the kind of comfort that came with time, with knowing someone deeply and being known in return.
âWhen did you know that you liked me?â you asked suddenly, thinking back to your own admission about falling for the sight of him through your lens before you had even had a conversation together.
âIn Australia,â he said after a beat, his voice gentle. âYou were talking so fondly about tater tots.â
âTater tots?â you echoed with a grin. âThatâs when you knew?â
You had a feeling it wasnât only about your love for fried potatoes, thinking about what had happened just moments before that conversation. He had started to like you because you cared about him in a moment where he felt his weakest.
âI was quietly observing you before that, but I think that was our first actual conversation,â Logan said, reminiscing. âAnd then,â he continued, his tone growing softer, âI just kept falling for you. Every city, every race, every little thing you did.â
Your heart warmed in your chest as his words washed over you. You felt the pull of the past, the shared experiences, the way your lives had intertwined across the globe.
âSeeing you throw your sneakers over the power line in Mexico made me realise that I love you,â Logan finally whispered.
âI love you too,â you mumbled against his lips, reaching to gently kiss him again⊠and again.
Afterward, you left the bed to take a moment for yourself in the bathroom. Discarding the condom, peeing to prevent a UTI, staring at yourself in the mirror for an undisclosed amount of time. You looked like a mess, but a beautiful messâwith splotchy love bites and scratches.
You turned the shower on, knowing that you wouldnât be able to sleep if you didnât get the clinging feeling of sweat off your body.
âAre you getting in with me?â you asked Logan, peeping out behind the bathroom door to hide your naked body, spotting him still sat on the bed, the sheets covering him.
Logan lifted his gaze from the floor, meeting yours with a slow smile. He didnât move; he only tilted his head in thought. âWhy does that feel more intimate than what we just did?â
âBecause it is,â you hesitantly answered, fidgeting with your fingers as your nails tapped on the door.
It didnât take long for you both to be drenched and humid in the warm water of the shower, not having any hurry of getting out, steam fogging up the bathroom. You were just enjoying the closeness for now. Body against body. Your hands massaged his scalp as you washed shampoo out of it.
âSooâŠâ Logan began, dragging out the word, droplets were falling from his hair over his face. âWhat happens now?â
âRound two?â you teased, buying yourself a moment to think about the actual implication of his question.
Logan chuckled, but waited for a true answer. Round two was inevitable. He was asking something deeper.
âIâve got nothing to do and a newfound love for racing and the US,â you finally said, easy as pie. âYou should take advantage of that.â
âI think I might,â he smiled. âLife is a lot better with you close.â
You reached up to cup his cheeks, the pads of your thumbs gently rubbing over his pink cheekbones. His eyes looked onto yours, pulling you closer as his hands found the curve of your waist, the water still falling on you like an outburst of rain from a stormy sky, electricity unloading.
âWeâll be alright, I think,â you mumbled, gracefully placing a kiss on his wet lips.
Loganâs voice echoed softly in the bathroom, words leaving with an unusual certainty.
âIâm starting to think so too.â
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I'm calling this beast my best attempt at a fix-it fic. This was a nightmare and tumblr's paragraph limit is my mortal enemy. I had to remove like three scenes to even fit all of this which messed up the timeline like crazy. The title is from Worst Case Kid by Tommy Lefroy!
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