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holy shit dbfbbfbg every time u guys get one of these ridiculous high scores my husband and i have to come to terms w the fact that we just suck at our own game ahahahaa
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hi! we are also still thinking about this. thank you for the apology -- you are the third person to give us that. we still haven't gotten anything from anyone actually involved, but we appreciate it nonetheless.
we definitely understand where the offense came from, and we are both admittedly sensitive people who probably took things a little too seriously! and i am sure that contributed to everyone else taking things seriously, so we don't want to act like we are blameless victims in the whole ordeal. that said, we both fully feel that everything was blown out of proportion and we were on the receiving end of some really unwarranted and vicious behavior. to have our tweets priv quoted to hell and back and also be called lesbian haters by random bystanders who lacked any context at all left a really sour taste in our mouths that we are still not over. and for me (thea), that was actively a time in which i was coming to terms with being a lesbian and using that as a label, so it hit a little harder and a little closer to home than it probably would have otherwise.
there are several things we are still frustrated about to this day -- you are correct in that the entire thing started because we were being Asked about headcanons. asked! and yes, they were definitely leading questions that were looking for a confirmation that they were correct more than anything, but it was still a question, and when we answered differently how they wanted, the attitude shifted so quickly. prior to this situation, everyone involved was happy to interact with us on the regular when it came to getting behind the scenes info, teasers, silly q&as, extras, etc., but the minute we stood up for ourselves and simply disagreed with a headcanon, we were dogpiled on and treated like garbage. even the people who weren't partaking in it did not defend us or apologize at all -- every apology we have gotten (of the three! three!!) has been from people apologizing for the behavior of their mutuals or that weren't even involved in the situation at all, and not one of those apologies came at a time that was relevant or in a space that was public.
it's also frustrating that we literally put out an apology -- a general one addressed to everyone, and one addressed to robyn specifically, owning up to our part in it all and trying not to make anyone feel alienated -- and we were promised apologies and resolutions in return (again, by robyn specifically!!) that we never got. quite frankly, we expected that, but it sucked, and still does. your apology is one we are more receptive to because of the fact that you were a bystander, but anyone who actually partook in the Let's Dogpile CampByler event on twitter has had months to come forward and take ownership for their part in it, and they haven't even shown that they wanted to, or ever intended to, so. lol. that ship has sailed, and the concern about alienating that group has also passed, because the kind of people who feel comfortable acting like that with zero remorse are not ones we really care to have interacting with our work anyway.
thank you for taking the time to bring this back around and apologize for it. it's appreciated. i know that you came off anon as well for the last part of your message, but i don't feel comfortable posting your url just in case anyone Does try to be rude to you as a result. the only other thing i will say is this -- the discouragement was not unknowingly thrown at us. it was a deliberate take down. to imply otherwise discredits everything else you've said. i know that you might not have meant it that way, but i felt it needed to be pointed out. that being said, coming forward at all is still very much appreciated, and i also want to make it clear that this situation did not contribute to the delay of 10.2 at all.
this next bit is not directed at you personally -- again, the fact that you've come forward and addressed it at all is seriously so appreciated -- but i will be using this space as a forum to address some things said during twitpocalypse in the way i would have liked to months ago: there is a difference between a fic and a headcanon. i'm sorry that stranger things is the first fandom many of you have ever interacted with, but they are not interchangeable words, implying that they are is not the dig you think it is, and anyone who has been a part of fandom for longer than twenty minutes understands that and is laughing at you. lol. it is not my or suni's responsibility to teach you how to interact with fanwork creators, but you should learn, because your actions and behaviors are going to drive every single fic writer and fan artist out of this fandom, and all you will be left with is complaints about how no one wants to write or draw byler anymore without realizing you are the cause.
most importantly: acswy mike is not your son, is someone you have no ownership or agency of, and is not a chappell roan stan š¤ this applies to acswy will as well. yes, we don't own mike and will either, but as they exist in Our Fanfiction (which is different from a headcanon. Still), we get the final say. nothing you say or do or private quote tweet changes any of the 330k words we have invested into this au, or make your headcanons come true, so like. cry about it? write your own fic? or feel bad like we have been since july. el oh el.
hi! member of privtwt here! i know itās been a few months (god knows how long) after the whole Thing some of my mutuals had with you but i couldnāt stop thinking about it. i am frankly very embarrassed. i wasnāt involved in the Publicly Replying and Chasing You With Pitchforks stuff i just observed but not from afar. even then then, that was really really shitty and iām truly very sorry for causing you any form of distress that you have felt. hope you guys are feeling a lot better thank you did in that time period. have a great day ! :)
shit forgot to put this in - most of us, including the people who werenāt involved, were offended because these were just assumptions that we, well, assumed didnāt interfere with the storyline. wallahi i thought it was just lighthearted banter until my mutuals were expressing their annoyance and the apologies came in (ours was very minimal, which was undeserved, sorry) not saying all this as an excuse btw! because after all this is *your* fictional world that you have intricately built and carefully detailed, and it was shitty of us to be annoyed at you turning down headcanons that like. go against the laws of YOUR world. especially since, if i recall correctly, they were *asking* you about their headcanons and left space for *your* opinions, in which you politely supplied. we treated it as a rhetorical question and expected validation which was very wrong. i hope any form of discouragement we unknowingly threw at your way has been gone. i mean itās been months it probably has but i just thought iād properly apologize because it was really irrational and frankly idiotic. i really love your fics! iāve been closely following them a bit before acswy and i genuinely get so happy when i get an email about a fic update or a snippet etc. once again, i am sincerely sorry for all this bullshit. please keep writing ššaaaand i forgot to add that the dogpiling you faced was deeply shitty and very undeserved i am truly truly sorry i exposed you to all that.
i posted this too early so everyone ignore this for now lol. it is being answered in a reblog.
#asks#ik i said this like 4 times but it is not towards You anon. but hopefully you can understand that we are not fans of your friends
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Youāve gotĀ to forgive yourself for being traumatized and needing to learn how to function again.Ā
Recovery isnāt always nightmares and depression, itās forgetting to eat, being scared of what others might see as completely normal things, itās getting random panic attacks, not knowing how to take care of yourself, not knowing how to live like an adult, even if youāre twenty, thirty, forty, fifty, of feeling like youāre failing to function in a world where everyone seems to have their shit together.Ā
If you need help, ask for it. Go to forums and ask for advice. Take advantage of community resources. Buy pre-sliced veggies and fruits, eat instant meals if you canāt cook for yourself today. Hire someone. Ask a neighbor for a favor. Buy any item you think might make life easier, even if you feel like you arenātĀ ādisabledā enough to have it.Ā
Some of the depression posts (ie open your windows, take a shower, go outside, call a friend) are really helpful but theyāre not always enough. Iāve found advice for spoonies, people with chronic pain or other disabilities have the best tips because they know what itās like to be bedridden, out of energy, stuck in a brain fog.Ā
You may never return back to the energy you had when you were younger and you might always need to use crutches to help you through life. Itās the same with medication.Ā
Trauma is a real thing that happens to you, it physically alters your brain and itās alright to have lasting scars.Ā
Youāre notĀ broken, your life is notĀ over and you can still be happy.Ā
Itās not your fault.
#felix speaks#trauma#recovery#deconversion#ex cult#ex religious#ptsd#cptsd#healing#disabled#actually traumatized#spoonies#things i need to remind myself with too#it sucks to have to come to terms with the fact#but youll be so much better off once you stop denying yourself the help you need#also re: buying items meant for the disabled#do it!#you are not taking resources away#if you need it you need it#and the more in demand these items are the better theyll be made in the future
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no thought only MQF in brain* (*even more than usual yeah.....)
ok lads listen up. i love allllll Mu Qingfang designs ok? all the interpretations are cool and valid and dear ok BUT. whenever I personally try to draw MQF without a 'stache he just looks to me like a first-year med student ok hjdfhkfd
but anyway. when i was scrolling around and being completely normal about MQF i saw a lot of ppl say stuff like 'this is my 'mqf is actually pretty' agenda' and its alwaysss about peeled mqf SO I HAVE A POINT TO PROVE OK. mqf with a moustache can be also a prettyboy ok?? i can prove it šš
so here are my qingfangs where i turned up the babygirl vibes to absolute max as i could hsdfjkhdskfh š
#mu qingfang#svsss#listen.......actually nevermind hfdjkhfk#im having. thoughts#hsjkdhkf#maybe ill also make a text post some time later because i cannot shut up im having lack of fics issues hjdfhfk#so anyway š„° hjkfh silly litol weary doctor amirite-#also some may have noticed that i have finally used the correct peak seniority for MQF aha well#(through gritted teeth) i have finally come to terms with the fact he is 8th its fine its whatever i like 8 anyway#it fits anyway of course the doctor peak is underappreciated smh smh smh smh#also btw if youve ever been influenced by my mqf design i have to let you know each and every time that happens i gain 5 billion years hjfd#<333333333#it makes me soooooooo giddy that ppl like him enough that i change their perception of him lmao jdfhkd#nothing gives me more power points than when the moustache propaganda claims another victim FR HAGHJKFD#so yeah š„°š„°#wait also gotta mention that im not like bashing any other designs i want to make that super clear#i suck at tones i dont want this to get misinterpreted#all mqf good mqf šš
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hard to come up with funny lil coping posts when all i can think about is how bayern has had so many seasons to prep for the impending transitional period where we have to reconstruct following the departures of a lot of our key core players and here we are at the end of thomas's second to last season and we are probably in the worst position we could be in ! great.
#shit ava says#like blah blah blah third place sucks and this being our first trophyless season sucks etc#but idk. i'm more just annoyed that there is no direction in sight.#like i'm okay with charging through difficult times because the transitional period is inevitable#but the fact that we have no idea what the fuck is coming next season actually sucks ahahahaa xxxxxx#i'm just mad because we've had years to prep and we did not just NOTHING but actively made our position worse. what the hell#a far cry from what i know is controversial but like the bayern dna that was at its height during pep/jupp/flick etc#i know a lot of people do not like him and that's fair but#i think that's why i was a lot more lenient on nagelsmann#because i felt okay we have to be patient... this is a long term project etc. and then it wasn't! welp
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"Yeah, bang your head against the table ā see if that's gonna fix anything" well okie dokie !! :)
#i love my family.#i love how they help me in times of emotional distress#even responses like āitll be daijobu . spooky .... bazinga <3ā from my friends#are infinitely more helpful than ādw about it bro . you've survived this once . im sure you'll survive this again :)ā#spooky's soliloquies#im so ungrateful#i have a few people in my life who actually want to help me overcome this shit but i just refuse to accept their help#im such a brat#im the worst daughter in existence ā i can't even come to terms with the fact im a daughter and not a son . of course i suck#://
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horrible nostalgia for my old airport routine and realizing i will never take that train or walk down that long ass hallway or order at that coffee shop ever againā¦
#just realizing that like. I donāt know where to get coffee in this airport#obviously thereās a lot of places but thatās what stresses me out#at my old airport id go to the same one every time and i knew exactly what id get#sorry for being weird and dramatic but itās just one of those things like. damn#life changes so much and you donāt even realize how many last times you had#:(#i think im just really coming to terms with the fact that i am in a new stage of my life#itās not just another year of university or whatever. itās like completely completely new and separate#and i think before i was so stressed about everything and like. the very obvious changes in my life#that i didnāt actually process. everything else#it was like NEW SCHOOL NEW CITY NEW PEOPLE#and I completely missed the fact that Iāll never have those old routines againā¦#sucks#what can you do
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#i was looking through old photos today. they where from wjen i was like 1 and it made me so sad#bc my mum would have been like only a year or 2 older then i am now and she looked so young#and now she has an abdomen full of tumors and blistered hands and feet. theyre prob gonna hsve to remove her bladder#but shes still very pragmatic abt it. but she grew up in a house where no one really cared about her feelings so she made them small#and now her mother calls and doesn't ask how her grandkids are doing and doesn't ask how her daughter is doing. im cursed with terrible#grandparents on both sides but i resent my mothers mother worse. though my dad said i probably wouldnt have survived his upbringing#and hes right. my nana has like zero empathy and cant cook for shit. idk how my parents r so normal but the fact i had a good upbringing is#probably the only reason im still here. and thats the other thing that made me sad abt the old pics. just looking at this little baby with a#fucked up head and thinking: in 25 years that kid is gonna b so broken down their not gonns kno what to do or how to fix it. idk whats wrong#with me. ive always been some stage of miserable but i used to b able to get things done. and now i cant seem to force functionality#and it sucks. bc im home now and i still feel like im cringing around this open wound in my chest. but whatever#as of today ive started taking ab1lify. hopefully it helps in the long term but in the short term it triggers my 0cd. which is not fun#its so frustrating. whatever. i also found out my eyes used to not work together. not enough to have a lazy eye but it was hard for me to#read and apparently my eyes were tracking at like double the speed of a normal person. wtf is wrong with my brain? also also my mum was like#yea i never would have guessed bip0lar but we thought it was something. autism i could see 100% but yea didnt see that coming. ao i guess#i brehave like a bit of an oddball. ans my nana would bother my dad to try to make me participate in church and my dad was like no. she#clearly don't wanna b here lol. ay. they did the best they could which i appreciate#unrelated
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#i have real thoughts rn i am just so overwhelmed with feeling that this is all that can come out#tldr: i wish i could just spend my time traveling and treating women how they Deserve to be treated (well. loved)#thinking about how many people i see who are so deeply sad#thinking about how many ppl ive had a positive impact on even if we ended on terrible terms#thinking about how many more people i could help if i just had the resources ....#thinking about how fucked the psychiatric industry is and how so many therapists suck#thinking about how i actually love being the mommy therapist friend a lot of the time and my limits surrounding that really just come from-#-the fact i Dont have the resources to do this for everyone bc i also have to manage other things in life and work and such#thinking about how if i could i would actually do free emotional labor like. all the time.#thinking about how much it sucks i cant do this#thinking about how much i want to hold every sad girl i see on my dash and let them cry into my arms until they cant anymore#thinking about how much i love my friends#thinking about how much I love...... everyone i meet#not in the like Romantic way but in the āoh hello. you crossed my path. i love you. i love you. i love you. thank you for being aliveā way#thinking about all the people who have harmed me and how i Still feel so much love for all of them#thinking of the strangers who have been both rude and kind to me and how much i think of them. how deeply i hope they're still alive.#it..... hurts to love this much ngl#but pushing it down feels worse and im full of this feeling of tender frustration????? because of it#i love that i have so many people who allow me to love them and love me in return#i want to reach through the screen and kiss every follower and mutual and person i follow on the forehead and tell them I love them#i wish i could express more love for people w/o them falling In love with me or being weirded out thinking im In Love w/ them....#i wish i could express better that its not that im aromantic but that i just have so much love at my baseline that its hard for me to-#-Fall in love unless we constantly are talking and communicating and like. working to that together without sounding like a jerk or like im+#+a saint. im not a saint. im not. i just love you. ):#ANYWAY sorry for all those feelings if i didnt get them out i was gonna explode#that also definitely wasnt really a tldr
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I guess the root of my problem is that I feel really out of place everywhere.
#tho i guess its alright because i have one (1) place where i kinda just nudged myself in there#and because I'm there so much i cant possibly be out of place but. aside from that#pretty much everywhere i feel out of the loop#even on tumblr i feel pretty lonely n im starting to reblog less n less again#discord is a whole nother thing i feel like im going to explode if i try to hold a conversation with multiple people#i just cannot do multiple people. i have to consider muktiple peoples opinions and continue the conversation???#i physically cannot do that#so. i feel pretty isolated#and i mean even at college i dont rlly know anyone there#i didnt even know there was a little event everyone went to???#i had no clue what everyone was talking about?? i didnt see any email about it#even the teachers were talking about it n im just clueless#so yeah .#ive come to terms with the fact that i wont belong everywhere but#it hurts rlly bad yknow#and its so tiring. i can't keep up with ny good words n i can't even follow my own advice#im a mess n a total flop n gosh. life sucks huh#heres to another friendless year ay college???#heres to being myself: a total wallflower loner#expresso the depresso#what#what?#i truly do hate myself huh
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#slowly coming to terms w the fact that maybe the men that i would be attracted to just donāt exist#like sure a lot of men are beautiful gorgeous even#but then im likeā¦ā¦ realistically i just donāt see myself in a relationship w them???? is this my deep rooted insecurity speaking or#is it something else???#like realistically speaking i just donāt see myself walking down the street w them like we just wouldnāt look right together you know???#is that insane of me to even think about?#and then when i find a man that im attracted to and i could perchance see myself in a relationship w i get stuck on thinking thoughts like#what if our world views arenāt compatible what if his personal hygiene sucks etc#i have not had a crush on anyone in literal years at this point i just need to make peace w being destined for solitude#alsoā¦..#never beating those lesbian allegations btw#no jk i am like 80% sure that im actually attracted to men my venus is just in virgo#(so are my sun and mercury btw but those arenāt super relevant to this situation i think)
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I feel like people are equating neonazis trying to co-opt a movement that was started by a group of people who have been driven from their homeland by the acts of a violent colonial state as a way to 1) delegitamize the movement because it benefits and validates white supremacy and white supremacist ideology that says all non-whites are at their core evil violent animals but also 2) appeal to the anti-semetism that is baked into a lot of Western peoples' core beliefs and reality is the same as white supermacist groups endorsing someone like Donald Trump.
You might say, oh well that is the same! And I would say, you have no spine and have zero desire to actually fight for a better future and are instead interested only in crown yourself and your own group as the most moral and best team on the playing field.
We should 100% take steps to protect young folks (and frankly old folks) entering into the activist scene from falling into white supremacy and anti-semetism. A lot of people (in particular Western and white ppl) need to be vigilant as they join the cause for Palestinian liberation and freedom to keep in check the anti-semetism AND islamophobia that has been taught to them practically since birth.
But for me, to say that neonazis and white supremacists would seek to scout in pro-palestinian movements BECAUSE being pro-palestinian makes you anti-semetic is islamophobic and I'll even go so far as to say anti-black because of the strong connection that Black American civil rights activists have to Islam and to Palestine.
#had to go and block someone that i liked on this hellsite because of this bullshit#and that fuckin sucks#i am always willing to look internally and question to what extent my learned antisemetism is extending#and since becoming more aware of what is happening in Palestine#i have had to come to terms with how normalized and deep anti-semetism is rooted in my mind#but I will not be told that I am anti-semetic because I know what violent settler colonialism is#i know what settler colonialism is and the fact that people ignore it#is clear the way that colonialism is so heavily normalized as well in the Western mind
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Books Read in 2023:
Inconspicuous Consumption: The Environmental Impact You Don't Know You Have by Tatiana Schlossberg (2019)
Fully Automated Luxury Communism: A Manifesto by Aaron Bastani (2018)
You Suck, Sir by Paul Bae (2014)
Utopia For Realists: How We Can Build the Ideal World by Rutger Bregman (2014)
Revolutionary Petunias by Alice Walker (1973)
Girl with the Pearl Earring by Tracy Chevalier (1999)
Twelve by Twelve: A One-Room Cabin Off the Grid & Beyond the American Dream by William Powers (2010)
Windfall: The Booming Business of Global Farming by McKenzie Funk (2014)
The Environmentalist's Dilemma: Promise and Peril in an Age of Climate Crisis by Arno Kopecky (2021)
[ID: Covers of aforementioned books. End ID.]
#SUPER loved inconspicuous consumption it was just v informative all around#i have it physical and will b keeping it#fully automated was an interesting thought experience ig? it was a book.#you suck sir was a v quick and lighthearted read of a teacher sharing his stories#utopia was very much like arguing for social democracy and so in terms of that it was v solid#tbh i would rec this book as a good one for like. liberals in ur life#not a difficult read and tbh im gonna get my mom 2 read it#petunias very very good book of poetry#pearl earring is a fictional story of how that painting came to be#i enjoyed it! the prose was very well written!#twelve by twelve was SO bad i literally couldn't finish it and the author is racist and just. dont touch it#windfall was difficult to get through sometimes but VERY worth it i found it informative and also just.#make me so fucking aghast#environmentalist dilemma was....... a book. it started out very strong and i was absolutely hooked and thought i'd love it but then it wen#t downhill. i found it quite informative and interesting in parts for sure#but the author is more centrist than i am and that comes across QUITE a bit and theres a lot about like. his own opinions and stuff#the straight up reporting the facts parts were interesting but not his own opinion i just wanted him 2 be quiet#2023media#gigi.txt
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christine cqnigula is so mecore
#fish.txt#i just woke up like ten minutes ago and i am thinking about her and also rod avenue q because. i love them#sorry i'm thinking about i love play rehearsal again i just love that song so much#i love play rehearsal is like what fantasies come true is to me#they kind of have the same concept too they pull the ol' bait n switch (i don't think i'm using that term right) on ya at the end#no sorry that's not the right song the song i'm thinking of is uhhhhh#guy that id kinda be into#I LIKE BOTH ANYWYAS#christine's solos r mostly my faves from bmc so#it sucks to be me and guy that id kinda be into were the first songs i listened to from each musical fun fact#i heard them actually around the same time ! i think i heard it sucks to be me first though
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#haha i have to come to terms with the fact that my best friend who I've been in love with since we met is moving away for at least 2 years#it's not like the feeling has ever been reciprocated anyways but still it's going to fucking suck#but i mean i moved away for a year and we still remained closer than ever#but chances are he'll find someone and ill be so happy for him#but once again ill be left alone and without anything to cling to#š#i hate change#and i hate feeling how much i feel and how i always get invested in the wrong people#but still it's a fucking rude awakening and im not ready
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whoever requested the wta footballer au for the tennisblr promptfest...................
#i have so many ideas.#heres the problem though im getting too in my head about it because i would want to make it 'realistic'#in terms of like who would end up where and what teams are actually good#but unfortunately a lot of the countries that are good at football dont have very high ranked tennis players...and vice versa#poland did just qualify for the euros which is their first ever major tournament!#but like rus is banned italy is ok but a hot mess czechia is just fine belarus sucks#spain is good but then i'd have to write paula and i do not want to lol#australia? but what wta aussies are there. besides saville??#brazil obviously but idk do we even pair bia with anyone. she and iga are good friends but. hm.#caro garcia fell off the face of the planet which is unhelpful so france is kind of a no go#and germany haven't had a proper good wta player i think the entire time i've been watching tennis#same with the netherlands#china was good but fell off majorly in the 2010s. only coming back more recently so idk.#maybe interesting but i dont like navarro enough to write her and tbh i cant imagine another pairing for qinwen#whos left in footy. ENGLAND? i cant ship katie with anyone she and alex are like the golden couple in my mind#and i dont know enough about emma i think to properly write her#though wait..........CANADA. hm. let me cook here.#obviously wayy glossing over the americans here but thats because the main pairings i would probably do#are blocked by 1) greece being ass and 2) not wanting to write navarro (see above)#also the fact that my brain is screaming the whole time that half of these players are too tall to logically play anything other than gk#obviously this is all so irrelevant. u bet ur ass im gonna be writing this anyway.
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