#it shouldn’t be this hard
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I want a someone to do all the blogs that we’ve had to unfollow for antisemitism and misinfo but with the disclaimer “misinformation and antisemitism free” and for all of us to follow them.
Just to heritage posts and one time I dreamt and all those other blogs that used to be good but without the antisemitism or any reference to politics. Everyone, pick a blog and do it but without the hatred! #instantfollow
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Sometimes writing is a beautiful and liberating balm for your soul. It soothes and relaxes you. All stress is poured out onto the page in a gently flowing catharsis.
Other times writing is like having your teeth pulled out one by one by a 19th century dentist without anesthesia
#guess which one I’m going through right now#renkonnairu#writing#ao3#this is just fan fiction#it shouldn’t be this hard#but it is
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god i’m SO over coming home every day and spending hours applying to a job i’ll never get what is the point of all of this
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I’m not even close to the first person to say this, but technology is getting worse at a frightening rate. It’s gussied up to look better, with fancy graphics and touch screens where user interfaces should go, but I have less and less interactions with technology that don’t end with me frustrated or disgusted.
Most recently, I had to get a new laptop and it camed prepackaged with Windows 11. Just like anyone else with any sense I’ve been putting off upgrading from ten for months and while I have a good copy of 10 to downgrade to, I just wanted to hop on and start getting some shit done.
Motherfuckers blocked me from running ninite. Not just that, the default is to block any software that doesn’t come from the Microsoft store. The corporations who create technology aren’t just trying to sand off rough edges, they’re trying to flatten everything into a single flat plane and leaving nothing but sawdust behind.
I know that I could downgrade, or switch to linux or whatever, but that feels like a temporary solution at this point. This is happening everywhere. With Twitter crumbling and facebook blocking ill defined “sensitive” content without recourse, it feels like online habitats are undergoing deforestation. You have to go farther and farther afield to access functionality that was basic and low hanging ten years ago. How the hell does progress look like walling us all into smaller and smaller walled gardens?
I have no idea how to fix any of this. It feels very much beyond individual action, but I don’t even know how you would organize anything collective to stop it. It just sits on my mind, filling me with despair along with the Canadian smoke darkening the skies, and the resurgent fascism cropping up the world over.
I wish I could have hope that things will get better, but my entire life has been a confluence of ineptitude, malevolence and commercial interests making things worse. Technology sucks, and just like everything else, it makes me sad.
#bitching#whining#problems without solutions#Windows 11#Windows 11 sucks#tech sucks#walled garden#I got ninite working#that's not the point#it shouldn’t be this hard
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I wish I could go back in time and abort me in my moms belly. If I was really wishing I’d wish for Italy in 1930s to occupy just a little longer May have been able to colonize the fucking country been a nice better future for my mom and her family. Buuuut noooooo Mussolini got punked by thee incel and nazis and war and genocide and the carving and raping of ppls and countries by European terrorists ruined everything. Let the commies in and destroy everything and ppl had to flee home nations flee continents marry and have babies with the weakest links of humanity just to move to western nations and repeat the fuckery the familial obligations the societal structure the it doesn’t matter it’s done.
#it shouldn’t be this hard#I think it’s all me sometimes#I know it’s not always#but that’s when you need siblings or friends fam you grew up with that know you#to tell you it’s you or nah it’s not you#but I don’t#but I didn’t#and now I think I need to leave to succeed#but every time I start to she hits me with passive aggressive then very aggressive mom guilt and projection and gas lighting & manipulation#it’s not her fault#I used to think it was mine#but I didn’t ask to be born#I wish she had the discernment and wisdom before giving birth to me#I wish she had did what she had to do to me when I was a fetus#I feel like my almost bros and sis were shown a mercy I was not#I have failed#and there is nothing anyone can do about it#I feel full of numbness#it is stunting me and has me stuck locked in hopelessness#i am so tried of myself#so tired so tired so tired so tired vm g#constant miscommunication#overly sensitive and very aggressive and scary all around me#I’ve been walking on broken glass egg shells since 5#what is sacrifice#can you do it wrong#how long will I last#what a waste#that is my biggest sin
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I’m at the airport and can’t stop crying 😭
Someone make it stop plzzzzz
#Jann rambles#might delete later#just need to vent#before I cry againnnn#any tips plzzzzz#it shouldn’t be this hard#*sobs*
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This is a friendly reminder that you can support Palestine and Jewish people at the same time. I am absolutely by no means an expert, but…
It is absolutely free Palestine, 150%
The two aren’t mutually exclusive, and Judaism is notttt Zionism. They do get unfairly twisted together, but they are not the same.
You can be for Palestine and call out antisemitism, both at once. You can do both and be against the Israeli government.
Israel has been ILLEGALLY occupying and trying to ethnically cleanse Palestine for decades, that is the issue.
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everytime i scroll on netflix for something to watch lala land pops up. and everytime i have to convince myself not to watch it
#it shouldn’t be this hard#to resist watching it#i legit had a mental breakdown when i watched the ending#and was crying and hyperventilating#i don’t do time skips well#and just the whole ending killed me#so like i shouldn’t want to watch it again#but im struggling so hard
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refusing to do my essay right now. I know regulus is Fucking fuming
#regulus black#the marauders#regulus black is a little shit#why can’t I write an essay#it shouldn’t be this hard#but it is to me#academic weapon regulus#james potter#jegulus
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Who wants to bonk me over the head so I can
✨SLEEP✨
#I’m tried#but I can’t sleep#I need a nap#why does my body hate sleeping#it shouldn’t be this hard#sleep deprivation#sleep trouble#insomnia
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📣 *announcement to mostly myself* 📣
You are a dude. Stop fkn saying otherwise.
Now go to bed and say it again tomorrow and again the next day until you get it through your thick skull enough to say it to every other motherfucker with your head held fkn high.
Jesus Christ man.
#shower thoughts#transmasc#gender affirming#gender#transgender#ffs I’m just so tired#it shouldn’t be this hard
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Why is getting my W-2s from a former employer is fucking hard? Why don’t they fucking send paper W-2s anymore? This password reset has taken so long and I keep running in circles and I’m going to rip out my hair arbys you fucking suck I mean technically it’s Workday and Inspirebrands that are causing this but fucking still I want my W-2 so I can do my fucking taaxxxeessssss
#im flying high#literally about to have a mental breakdown over this#it shouldn’t be this hard#their support is fucking so bad
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If you’re able, please help get them registered. Take ragebait news clippings if you have to. Reach out in your community. Explain the importance of the local races which are just as crucial.
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I have 7 chapters left from finishing the first draft but I don't know how to write anymore
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It all starts with one choice: to care
#community and love shouldnt be radical#it shouldn’t be this hard#leftist#community and love#love your fellow humans
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Finding an apartment in my sector is so hard. There’s barely anything for rent
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