#it makes sense now. it made a lot of things click and i think aces & aros put a lot of things into perspective for me

[teenagefeeling]

am i seriously starting to see jokes about asexuals on my dash again??? i chose the wrong time to accept myself.....

[amethystina]

Sorry everything has been hard lately! You're going through a lot. Do you feel comfortable sharing about your wife, like how you met and got married? I didn't know you were married.

Yeah, sure! It's not exactly a secret and, tbh, is a bit of a funny (if long) story. We've been married since July 2017, so closing in on ten years soon!

A good thing to know before we start is that it's not a marriage in the more conventional sense. We're both on the ace spectrum, so we're platonic life partners, not a romantic couple. Which I think is important to have in mind in regards to some of the events, because it adds a slightly different perspective.

But, with that said: buckle up, my friends — it's going to be a long one.

Also, feel free to count the fanfic tropes. It's both hilarious and embarrassing.

So. I met my future wife, Sara, during orientation day at university where we were both enrolled to study Library and Information Science (i.e. aiming to become librarians).

And the first thing I did was threaten to kill her.

As you do.

To make a long story short, we were being herded around, being shown the school etc., and I ended up behind her as we were walking through a doorway. But she slowed down unexpectedly just as she'd stepped outside and I wasn't expecting that, so I accidentally stepped on the back of her shoe. Unsurprisingly, that made her stumble but, fortunately, she didn't fall. But there was a case of some dropped belongings etc. etc. And yes, I know — incredibly meet-cute.

Or at least it would have been if not for the fact that when she — jokingly — accused me of being mean for tripping her up, my immediate and very deadpan response was:

"It could have been worse — I could have pushed you out in front of a car."

(I will forever maintain that the fact that she agreed to marry me even after that lovely first impression says more about her than it does about me)

ANYHOW. First words I said to my future wife.

I am such a romantic.

None of this was helped by the fact that I'm fairly tall (176 cm), have a resting bitchface, and am from the wilderness of the north of Sweden. My classmates were convinced I wrestled bears in my free time. I had also been living on my own for four years already at that point (I moved out at 15 to go to school in a different city) so I was confident, independent, and grounded in a way the majority of my classmates weren't.

I was, according to witnesses, incredibly intimidating.

Despite the dramatic beginnings, Sara and I ended up becoming friends pretty quickly because we had shared interests and ended up in a group of geeky, like-minded students. We liked the same books, video games, music, animes etc. etc.

Sidenote: Years later I found out that Sara, the little shit, lied to me about the music. Or bent the truth, I should say. In that we both listened to a lot of metal and when I named my favourite band (Sonata Arctica) Sara lied and said she loved them too, when she only barely knew who they were. She confessed that she did so because she thought I was so goddamn cool and wanted us to have more things in common. Which meant she had to hurry home that very same day and actually start listening to the band in question to not end up in an even worse pickle than she'd already put herself in. A+ for dedication to the bit.

(She was already embracing the fanfic tropes at that point, clearly)

Anyway, back to the story. We were a pretty big friend group but Sara and I clicked in a way that set us apart from the others. We didn't actually spend the majority of our time together there at the start, but it slowly evolved to that, especially once she moved into the same building as me during our second year, on the floor below mine. It was a dorm-ish situation where there were small apartments with a communal kitchen on each floor. With this new proximity, we ended up running back and forth to each other a lot and just spending a lot of time together.

(So, if you're keeping track, we've now moved from a University AU to a sort-of Roommate AU)

We continued to grow closer and had a couple of adventures, like the time the fire alarm went off early one morning and everyone had to evacuate. I think you can picture what it was like: a bunch of university students huddling on the sidewalk in various states of undress and wakefulness, trying to figure out what the fuck was going on and how long we'd have to wait before we could go back to bed.

Unfortunately for me, this was during a time when I still had pretty frequent panic attacks and being woken up by the fire alarm left me shaky and disoriented. So Sara, who didn't like how out of it I looked, took me back to her place and fed me tea and toast. It's a very fond memory of mine, despite the discomfort of the near-panic attack.

Anyhow. We remained good friends and once our three years at university were nearing their end, we figured we'd keep in touch but end up on different ends of the country. I had decided that I wanted to take a year and study art before I started working, just for the heck of it, and Sara thought that sounded fun but she'd go for writing instead (since she can't draw for shit 😆)

And you can imagine our confusion when I let her know the art school I had been accepted to and her response was:

"What? You too?"

So, without even talking to each other, we had somehow managed to apply and get accepted to the same school that just happened to offer courses on both art and writing, amongst other things. It wasn't even close to where we were living at the time. It just... happened?

And so, apparently, we were going to spend another year at the same school.

(At this point, we could probably call this Star-Crossed Lovers, yeah?)

So we get to this new school and it's in the middle of nowhere on the lush Swedish countryside, sharing grounds with a castle from the 1100's (I know, I know — just roll with it). It was incredibly beautiful and I absolutely loved it.

One downside, however, was that while the school supplied food during the week, we had to feed ourselves during the weekends. Fortunately, Sara had a car so she would usually pack it full with students (for a small fee) and drive to one of the nearby grocery stores so those who needed it could buy food.

Now, it was a fairly small school and the majority of us lived there, so you spent a lot of time with students who weren't in your class. And everyone soon realised that Sara and I knew each other from before because of the way we behaved with each other. But even I thought it was a little weird when other students came to me to ask if there was any room left in Sara's car for the coming grocery run. And, eventually, I asked why they did that and the answer I got was:

"You mean it's not your shared car? We figured you owned it together since you're a couple."

Turns out the entire school had decided that Sara and I were dating and just never told us.

Or, well, I guess they wouldn't tell us that, would they? Since they would assume that Sara and I would already be aware of our being a couple 🤣

Except, of course, we weren't.

(Add a tick for "Everyone Knew They Were Dating Before They Did")

We found this pretty hilarious, anyway, and everyone was hella confused when we explained that we were, in fact, not together. But, in hindsight, I guess they were right — just a little early.

Sidenote: Sara and I went to Venice during our year at the art school and, somehow, we accidentally stumbled in at the tail end of the Carnival. Like, we didn't realise it was happening until we were literally walking the streets and saw all the confetti and posters. We picked the date because it was spring break at school and ended up with a wonderful, unexpected surprise. 10/10, do recommend.

So! Anyway! We spent a lovely year at art school, then we both started working as librarians. We ended up relatively close (about two and a half hours away by bus) and so we kept spending weekends together.

Another couple of years passed.

(If you haven't figured it out yet, this is also a Slow Burn)

Unfortunately, Sara ended up in a city with very limited housing opportunities and after two and a half years without getting her own place, she decided to move back south again. That would leave us too far apart to visit each other more than, perhaps, twice a year.

And me, being the brilliant genius that I am, decided that, hey, this is the perfect time to propose!

I did have my reasons, one of them being that my relatives were bugging me about finding a partner (though, to their credit, they didn't specify a gender) and I just wasn't interested? But I could see myself spending a lot of time with Sara. The second was that, even the few times I had met someone I could consider dating, my first thought was: "But how am I going to make them understand Sara's importance in my life? And the fact that she might often come before them?" And so, more often than not, I just chose not to pursue it because I couldn't be bothered to go through that hassle.

Turns out she'd been doing the same for years 😂

(I'm not even sure what this trope is called but you know the one)

So, a couple of days before she was set to leave, we decided to splurge on a hotel weekend as a sort of send-off. And, on the second morning, just after we had woken up (before breakfast — which Sara has never let me live down) I explained my reasoning to her and asked if we should get married.

It took her about fifteen minutes to a) understand what I was suggesting, b) realise I was serious, and c) try to figure out what she thought of the bombshell I'd just dropped on her.

(Again: Early morning, no breakfast)

But, eventually, she got with the program and accepted. It was only afterwards that I realised my mistake which was that, apparently, it was fucking Valentine's Day. I shit you not.

So, whenever I say that our engagement date is Valentine's Day, everyone thinks I'm such a goddamn romantic. When, in actuality, I was presenting a marriage of convenience with the tone of a business proposal. I even had a mental list of arguments.

(In hindsight, I should maybe have made a PowerPoint too — it might have helped Sara get on board faster. But alas)

(Add "Last-Minute Proposal" to the list)

So we got engaged, Sara moved to the other end of the country, and two and a half years later, we got married. But it took another six months after that before we actually ended up working close enough that we could live together.

Which, in hindsight, wasn't the right choice for us. We're used to living close to each other, but not in the same apartment/house. We're just too different, so that's what we're going to correct now by selling the house and moving into separate apartments. Or going back to our roots, one might say?

And, as mentioned, remain married. Considering everything we've gone through, it would feel like such a waste to get a divorce now 😆

So yeah! That's how we met, got engaged, and eventually married. It took many, many years and a lot of hijinks, but we got there in the end! And we're still figuring out the details. But hey, that's what relationships are like, yeah?

Thank you so much for the well-wishes and I hope you enjoyed the storytime! 😄

[humiliationsheets]

hi :3 my friend made a post about aroace hcs for the bmc kiddos so now i wanna share mine! i’m aroace so this is very important to me and i wanna share it with you guys now :]

jeremy - he is so arospec to me. probably cupioromantic but he gets freaked out about complex labels, so he just thinks of himself as arospec. it’s a good thing he’s chronically online otherwise he’d have no idea what’s “”wrong”” w him (his words, not mine, i love being aro and i love aro ppl! he’s just having a hard time accepting that it’s out of the ordinary). but i also do quite enjoy ace jeremy as a method of projection!

christine - my aroacespec queen. i think christine is a Yearner. i think they love the concept of love and everything to do with it. but they just don’t fall in love easily! i think because she’s neurodivergent, she gets platonic and romantic attraction confused a lot. christine, have you heard of limerance… and they’re just ace. she’s not really interested in sex but still finds the beauty in the intimacy of it all. christine is a Lover but has a hard time Loving in the romantic sense. it’ll all work out eventually :)

michael - he is asexual! i don’t think he’s 100% sex-repulsed, more sex-neutral. he just doesn’t experience sexual attraction very often. i have a little unfinished oneshot abt how he discovers he’s ace after a failed relationship w jake and its my baby. he’s always felt the feelings but yk. it doesn’t really click until he’s a senior.

chloe - she’s so aro lesbian 100%. aro lesbian to ME. my silly aro lesbian. another case of limited romantic attraction but she just wants to be loved :[ !!! makes it so frustrating for her sometimes so she hooks up with / dates a lot of people she doesn’t have feelings for, jake included. i do think this was a mutual thing for them, however.

jenna - another aro lesbian in my collection. i don’t think she experiences romantic attraction, like… hardly at all, but she doesn’t need to be in love to be happy! her priorities lie in friendships and self-care :)

jake - i hc him to be arospec and unlabeled! i think jake doesn’t know this. he’s just used to not wanting to be “tied down” to a relationship (but in reality, it’s because he really just… doesn’t have feelings for anyone. it’s only happened once). he isn’t really looking for something serious for a really long time. he has too much going on and would rather have fun instead of putting another thing on his plate and risking hurting others. this causes a lot of other issues in some of my writing huehuehuehue

and i think brooke and rich are allo! but i have tinkered w the idea of cupioromanticism for the both of them... i like having fun experimenting w/ different concepts that don’t necessarily reflect my hcs! they have evolved sm over time but this is just where i’m at rn :)

sorry this is a long post but i hope u all enjoyed!

[blushstarot]

PICK A CARD: what's your genshin impact life like, and what vision would you have based on it?

DISCLAIMERS & CONTEXT: this is important so don't skip it.

Since genshin has 7 types of visions, it felt unfair to me to just do three options to choose from like I normally do, that being said, I'm doing 9 options, with (hopefully) a short backstory, and then based on that, choose a vision. That means probably some visions would be left out of the post, and/or one or two elements could appear a lot. I could try and control that all the 7 elements appear but it wouldn't be a genuine reading since it'll be some manipulation, and that'll be dishonest and I'm not about that. Also in case anyone want to know what I took into account for selecting the visions, unless stated otherwise, I used this as a guide.

Anything said here about your life/ideals/past events is ONLY related to the hypothetical scenario of you living in genshin, DON'T take the reading as guidance, and DON'T feel that you HAD to experience the things said in real life to be able to relate and have that vision. This is just a fun what if based on your energy right now.

With the explanation and disclaimer out of the way, pick whichever picture you feel more attracted to and skip to that pile.

click on the picture to get a better view if necessary. rant and poll at the end.

Pile 1

the moon, ten of pentacles, ace of pentacles.

So, right of the start, without the interpretation of the meaning of the cards, the moon is in 2/3 of them, and what is the moon associated with? exactly, water. So right when I pulled the second card I knew y'all vision was hydro. I have this feeling that in genshin you would be from a kinda rich family, of course you're not feiyun commerce guild rich, but your family is well off and you don't need to worry about money. Talking about family, it seems that you have a good relationship with them, and they just support you and want you to live a fulfilling life.

So, for how you got your vision. It was at night, you were in your room, laying in bed or looking out the window, and you were thinking about your future. You wanted to continue the family business, how could you not?, your family has always done so much for you, and asked so little in return, this had to be right the way to repay them. At this point someone from your family close to you entered your room, I'm getting father figure vibes, definitely a masculine energy. One thing leads to another and you confide that you want to continue inherit the family business, but something deep within you is toughing at your heart strings, as if to trying to tell you something. This father figure tells you to really think this through and that the feeling you have might be because you are not fully convinced in what you want. Before leaving he reassures you that the family business is not that important, that you don't owe them anything, and that all they've done for you has been out of love. Then when you are all alone again and finally realize that you don't want to stay in the family business, but to do your own thing; a hydro vision appears next to you, and you know you've made the right choice, in wanting to pursue what you are passionate about.

**As in all the PACs, just take what resonates and leave what doesn't, this is for entertainment only, so have fun with it!

Pile 2

three of swords, king of cups, the empress.

This pile is giving me a lot of mixed messages, like in your genshin life y'all are a kind, compassionate person, and also a very wise, but something tells me that is not dendro wisdom, but more like leader wisdom, if that makes sense. With the empress I see that you have children at you care, could be your actual children, but I'm getting more of a head of an orphanage type of vibe.

For how you got your vision, I'm picturing that you are in some kind of meeting with important people, and they are pressuring you sell the orphanage, so they can close it and make something else where it's located. This is a negotiation they've been trying to make for quite some time now, and are trying to convince you with any way possible to sell it, and at this point you were tired of them showing up to the orphanage trying to convince you; probably some of the older kids starting to piece things together and are worried you might abandon them. So you agreed to go to their company headquarters to negotiate, away form the kids so they can't listen. So once you're there they start to bring up the fact that you're the only staff in the orphanage, and don't have anyone to help you finance and care for the children, and after some other valid arguments you start to doubt if you should just sell it and use the money to open a new one some other place. But something doesn't feel right and you stand your ground, telling them that the property is not for sell, that is your home and the home of all the children, you just can give that away like nothing. When you go back to the orphanage the first thing you see is the kids waiting for you, and you figured that everyone was aware of the rumors of you abandoning them, since you could see some of them had been crying. When you tell them the good news, they run to hug you, and only when one kind complains that they hit their head with something that was hanging from your waist, you realize that the gods had looked at you, and granted you a geo vision.

**As in all the PACs, just take what resonates and leave what doesn't, this is for entertainment only, so have fun with it!

Pile 3

wheel of fortune, the high priestess, queen of swords.

Something about this pile gives me anemo, but at the same time it feel too different from it. In your genshin life, you went through many hardships, and there was a point were you ended up in a situation where you couldn't defend yourself, and needed help to overcome it. This brought a big change into your life, an that's how you were able to obtain a vision.

Now, the story of how all that happened, actually started long before you got your vision. When you were on your lowest, a feminine energy help you, someone intelligent, witty, honest, and strong. She saved you from some monsters that were attacking you, and even tho you tried to fight back, they were way more stronger than you, so when she came to your rescue you felt ashamed for relaying on another person that happened to pass by and were kind enough to help you. You ended up asking them to teach you how to fight, so you could become stronger and better defend yourself. At first she refused and point out that your intentions weren't pure and that you just wanted to become stronger for selfish reasons. After some meditation on why you wanted to become stronger, you reached the conclusion that you actually wanted to be someone reliable, that everyone could depend on if they ever needed your help. After you told her that, she agreed to train you. You spend day and night learning from her, not only things combat related, but also how to be a better and more kind person. By the ending of your training, you viewed her as a mother figure, even to she wasn't exactly caring and gentle, despised her cold and serious face, you knew she cared for you. When you finally finished training and she said you were ready for anything you wanted to do, she gave you your first weapon as a gift, along with a box that contained a another gift she prepared. When you opened the box, next to the bracelet she bought for you, there was a pyro vision placed next to it, although no one knew how it got there.

**As in all the PACs, just take what resonates and leave what doesn't, this is for entertainment only, so have fun with it!

Pile 4

ace of pentacles, the emperor, queen of swords (reversed).

I'm getting this strong feeling that you would be some business owner, although I don't get a feeling for anything specific. You also probably come across to others as someone really intelligent on the art of business even if you follow these unorthodox methods that look like they are meant to fail, but for some reason for you it always work out. I feel that some might see you as a stubborn, maybe even ruthless person, like you are definitely a serious type.

For how you got your vision, you were probably in your office, just when you started to see profit from your new business. You went through a lot of challenges to get where you were, but you still weren't satisfied and had a lot of goals in mind, so you never let yourself take a break and were always working. You were drowning in paperwork, quiet literally, you couldn't even see the surface of your desk because of all the papers scattered. At this point you had too much in your mind and were starting to get a headache, so you decided to take a short break to eat something. Before leaving you decided to clean your desk and organize all the papers on it, and while moving them, that's when you realized that there was a dendro vision on your desk.

**As in all the PACs, just take what resonates and leave what doesn't, this is for entertainment only, so have fun with it!

Pile 5

the sun, page of swords (reversed), queen of wands (reversed).

I'm getting really positive and playful vibes, almost childlike, so my guess is that y'all are really young, or that are in touch with your inner child so much that even in a hypothetical scenario about a video game, you still are coming across as someone curious, with and adventurous spirit, and overall really happy and someone comforting to be around, definitely someone who is always playing with kids and helping those in need. With that being said, it may come as a surprise that y'all are involved in a bad organization, and not bad as in "they don't pay extra hours" bad, but more like "we control all the city and we decide what are the rules and the only valid law is ours" bad. The thing is, I don't really have any information about what the organization does, or what is the thing that you're supposed to do in it, so I think you actually don't really know either, and that's why I can't see it, OR there's too much hidden things around you that you want to keep a secret. Like I feel that you want to bring justice to bad people, and that you joined the organization because they basically lied to you and made you believe that they were good guys. I really have a feeling that you found out about what the organization really does but you're unable to leave so you are ashamed of being part of it or are ashamed of what the organization asked you to do, so you don't want anyone to know. Anyway, this is funny because I can't see how you got your pyro vision either, just that it happened near the time you joined the organization.

**As in all the PACs, just take what resonates and leave what doesn't, this is for entertainment only, so have fun with it!

Pile 6

ace of wands, four of swords (reversed), ace of cups.

Something happened to you that made you isolate yourself from the word, in the literal sense. I feel that the was a heartbreak, not necessarily romantic, that made you so sad that you decided you needed to go get yourself lost in nature, to meditate and work on yourself. I don't have a clear answer on who that person was, but I'm getting the mixed signal that was a lover or a really close friend that betray you, and your trust, and then not long after they got out of your life, either by death or by moving really far away.

So, how you got you vision is a little interesting. Remember I said you went out and got lost in nature? Well I'm not sure if it was 100% true, I can feel that for quite some time you actually were living in this sort of cave, with a river nearby and some sources of food, but also I can see that some weeks before getting your vision you were living in a really really really dark cave and I believe is some kind of metaphor on were you where mentally at the time. But then this beautiful moment happens where you decide you've been lamenting and torturing yourself emotionally for a long time now, so you gather courage and decide to go out of the cave. and of course at first the sun is too blinding, and you have to close your eyes and cover them with your hand at the same time. Then you start to thinking about going back to the comfort of the darkness, but really want to feel the warmth of the sun in your skin again so you continue forward even with your eyes closed. After some steps you can feel that you are outside but are too afraid to open your eyes so you just keep walking until to feel your feet touch something metallic, you look down and open your eyes to see what it is. And the first thing you are able to see is an anemo vision, and at that moment you know is yours, and it feels as if you've been born again.

**As in all the PACs, just take what resonates and leave what doesn't, this is for entertainment only, so have fun with it!

Pile 7

the magician (reversed), wheel of fortune, king of swords (reversed).

I don't know how much y'all are gonna like this but listen, someone from this PAC had to be the bad guy, surely from 9 piles not everyone was going to be good people... it's you guys, y'all are the bad ones, and you know it and you aren't ashamed of it (remember this is about your genshin life and that I'm not actually saying that in real life y'all are bad people). So, how do I put this. Y'all actually don't have a vision right now, you will, you will soon, I promise, just not right now.

Okay so, give a chance to explain. Y'all are power hungry, ruthless, tyrant, or at least that's how the others perceive you. They see you like an authority regardless of your ethics and morals not aligning with what everyone considers as "good", and they trust your judgment in a way, since you seem so disciplined and don't allow yourself to doubt on what you believe. That being said, I so feel that there's some major event that is going to shake your foundations, and send you on a spiral of some kind of identity crisis, and realizing that the things you believed in were wrong, or weren't even true at all. When that happens and you try to seek support on someone you trust, they're gonna deceive you again and betray you, which in return will amplify all the negative and complicated emotions you are feeling, and somewhere along your journey of change and acceptance is when you're going to get a cryo vision that's going to make you company for the rest of your life.

**As in all the PACs, just take what resonates and leave what doesn't, this is for entertainment only, so have fun with it!

Pile 8

ace of cups (reversed), four of swords, ace of wands.

So, you guys had a lot going on, that left you in a really bad mental space. With the ace of cups we can assume it was something like a wedding or engagement getting cancelled, but that doesn't have to be necessary it, since I'm also seeing that there was some type of social event where there was something you did and people didn't approve that left you so anxious and/or embarrassed that you had to leave early, so if you're not vibing with the wedding/engagement thing, it could be that. The point is that that event made people single you out and start to be more wary of you and more hostile. This left you feeling overwhelmed since you always thought that you were well liked in the community, like at the end of the day it wasn't that serious to them, but for you it hit really hard and made you see that maybe the world wasn't really like you believed.

At the end you allowed negativity to really set in your life, until at some point you decided that you needed some peace and quiet, make some introspection, relax and really think about how you are going to life your life from now on. Thankfully you found a solution once put your mind into it, and made a plan of moving somewhere else, to start again, so actually in that same day you started looking into it and by the end of the day of the day you had almost everything sorted out. You went to sleep really excited to the though of finally having your life back in control again, and there was definitely this new spark in your eyes and this feeling that almost didn't let you sleep, thankfully you did, and when you wake up you'll start this new life and the first thing you'll see will be this electro vision that accompanied you on your sleep.

**As in all the PACs, just take what resonates and leave what doesn't, this is for entertainment only, so have fun with it!

Pile 9

two of swords, the high priestess, the devil.

So uh, a lot to unpack here. First things first, like pile 7 based on the story that the cards are telling me, I don't see you having a vision right now, but you will have one in the near future. Funnily enough, you guys also share with pile 7 that you will have a cryo vision. So yeah, I just wanted to be straight forward with it in case you don't care about your backstory that much because it doesn't really mention how you got the vision, I just a very general idea of how it happened.

So your story is that you're feeling trapped, and like if things are out of your control, and that you have to make this big decision between two friends. I feel that one of them is trying yo leave, it could be from town, or organization/institution, or isn't happy with the friend group anymore and how it has changed. And they're your best friend so of course you want to support their decision, but you have another really close friend that isn't happy with they wanting to leave, and this ideals they have, so both of them start fighting with each other. And you are such a loving and caring friend, you don't want to see them fight, so you're trying to mediate the constant argument, and trying for them to reconcile, and it's very stressful because none of them wants to give in and compromise. And this is pretty much what the cards say, except for the high priestess, that is encouraging you to trust what you believe, and take action, follow your intuition, etc. So my guess is, you guys realize that the argument is pointless, and let your friends know, and kinda distance from them yourself from them because you realize they're not the friends you've always loved anymore, and that their change is not really the best thing for you right now, and then when you do that and you accept it and really embrace and believe in your decision, you'll be granted your vision.

**As in all the PACs, just take what resonates and leave what doesn't, this is for entertainment only, so have fun with it!

Thanks for reading!

I usually write this notes before doing the readings, so I don't really know how it went, BUT I can already tell this is gonna let me feeling really tired.

So yeah, I'm drained, it's been two days and a lot of hours spend on this so future me can worry about spelling mistakes to fix. If I ever do a PAC this long again, I better get paid or something this felt like working 12 hours straight, I had so many issues with the formatting it's not even funny, and don't get me started with pile 5, or that error I had with the poll, or the fact that the cryo users didn't have a vision yet. Anyway, this will be my only 9 option one in a while, the next ones will be back at 3 options, 4 if I'm feeling generous.

All jokes aside, it was really fun and I really wanted to do this PAC, so it's still worth it. Can't wait to read what you guys think, lot's of love! 💕

You can find more of my PACs on my master list, and if you have any suggestions on future PACs you want to see me do, you can send me and ask.

Bye byee ✨

[spacedoutman]

Ace's space diary 5

I have seriously bad news, I’ve been detained. I don’t mean just detained, but detained, detained DETAINED. I’ve seriously screwed up. Like inside I’m panicking so bad right now, I don’t even know how to say it. Like my hands are so shaky.

It all started when that psycho chick looked at my phone. She didn’t find Tumblr, thank god, or just wans’t interested in it, but she found my fanfiction and fan art! I’m aboslutely fucked,

I decided. Iwill show you one of the pictures but I’m very shy about my artwork so I won’t show you too much of it, which is crazy! It’s ofPaul, by the way.

You know, I think everyone’s a great artist. But me, Ace, who makes the best obscure secret yaoi with a secret unique anime art style? I’m great at it! I can’t type any more about this because the others are getting pissed. I can see Peter tensing up over there with his fists clenched. I think they’re getting ready to yell at me—but they have no control over what I do in my personal time.

If I hadn’t eaten everything we still would’ve gotten our heads about blown off!! It wouldn’t change anything! This isn’t MY fault! If you’re really thinking logically about it, I got us food! But no—”Shut up Ace!” “WHAT Ace?” I’m tired of the way they treat me! I deserve a raise, or at least just for them to cut me some slack. God, I’m hungry.

We’ve been eating beans and fried chicken. They think we’ll like it. I don’t even know if it’s real beans or fried chicken but I’m satisfied.

“Are you done typing over there?” Paul asks me, jabbing his finger in my arm.

Our cell is dark like weird cobblestone and green light emits from the cracks. “I’m on Tumblr, man!” I roar, but oh god, I just spilled my secret. Long story short, Paul took it, looked at everything you guys posted and gave it back. I’m addicted! This isn’t much of an update, but everyone’s been directing their anger at ME for some reason and bullying ME.

I’m probably coming off like a real bitch right now but this is a pretty bad time. Like Marilyn Monroe said [OMITTED]. Whatever, I’ll have good character development or something. My head is sore. I can’t think. I’m not in a good place. I don’t mean to toxic-dump or whatever you all call it on here. Whatever. I don’t know. I’m detained. This is a nightmare.

Will update when I can see you guys on the other side of detainment

I am so self conscious about bodies so I cropped it because I had a panic attack when I went to click post and started crying so I deleted it right away and now I’m reposting it again. This is the best thing I’ve done all month! I love it, I think it’s grate! Thru love and honor thru the power of love bye guys

Let me share a cute and funny fact about it too, just to you know get my mind off things. Rock n roll! So essentially perhaps I was thinking and I was like man Paul’s looking good today gotta draw him and so he was eating baked beans (don’t know where he found them)

And I made that sketch. It look my six and a half hours but it turned out amazing! I was listening to some music during that time and the songs pumped a lot of inspiration into me and pushed me into getting it done! God, how days fly when you only do one thing!!! But I was so inspired or hyperfixated idk I was so thrilled and then THE END PRODUCT VIOALA!!! Loved it hahahahhahaha

(Consept art below:)

(THE FANFICION)

Okay, so Paul and I are lovers across centuries and we’re fated to be, right? Like int hose dramas. We’re fated lovers and we can never love each other because something always getins in the way but when we dp fall in love finally and are able to be together though we’ve always loved each other then the world will become light and evil will be purified. Does it make sense? Sorry, Some guy’s banigng on the bars in the cell beside us so my thoughts may not be cohesive at the moment.

Damn! Okay, so the first part (I’m so shy, I’ll never publish the draft, sorry!) Is where Paul and I, we’re not in kiss, but he’s a god of the stars and I’m a human pheasant girl. This means, I live alone with my parents and go to piano school which isn’t the future I ever wanted. “Paul this, paul that!” So in an act of rebellion I change my name and run away and make MY A SAND WHICHES.

So I am home-less and Paul takes me in as we’re fated lovers destined to meet again all the time. But get this, he’s actually a vampire.

Gene is evil and wants to split us apart, same with Peter. They both want me. Paul, on the other hand, has feleings for Peter. Over me. Thru a lot of trial, we get it done and we get married but are forced paart again because Paul is called back into the stars with the gods, so I must find a way to heaven (without dieing) and I’m so angry and I cuss out the gods.

So the climax is me and Paul marriage. Annd then we [SORRY I GOT SHY!! But I wanted to share the first part with you all!] I learned a new word, Demure and I think I’m going to use that to describe myself in the novel.how do I publish in space???

[sibillascribbles08]

some questions because you offered to answer and I am curious. you don't have to answer whatever you're not cool with. you can pick and choose. I am nosy and do not know what's considered rude.

combining pride asks 9 and 15: when did you realise you weren't cishet? How has your identity changed over time?

also, number 10: what's something that gives you gender euphoria? I know the point of agender is error 404 gender not found/apathy to it all, but I was wondering regardless.

and this isn't a pride ask but genuinely I am curious-- how does someone have no pronouns? and how does that work in 'practice'? I hope that's appropriate to ask.

Yeah I don't mind answering tho I don't have the best memory for these sort of things.

I don't think I considered I wasn't het until probably college?? To give a smidge of backstory I did spend 8 years in a christian school so my perspective on what was even POSSIBLE in terms of attraction and gender was insanely limited. My friends in highschool opened my eyes to different sexualities but I didn't really find out about asexuality until either late highschool or early college. And it explained a lot because despite people saying "oh you'll wanna do the sex thing one day" that just NEVER hit me, so me being ace made a ton of sense. (and also just opened my eyes to oh yeah I can find anyone attractive in some ways huh).

Gender came like... WAY later, there's a lot of things in hindsight that make sense knowing this about me now but it wasn't on the table for years. When you're super apathetic about your gender it's kinda hard to realize you're not... actually a girl. And it's easy to pass a lot of things off as just "being a tomboy" or "being raised with older brothers" or "I picked the boy trainer this time cause his design is better" wheeze.

So I do NOT remember when I found the term agender and its meaning but the minute I did it clicked. It was like OH. Yeah ! Gender is not even a part you're trying to build a bike and using a tomato as a part it will never work.

Since my agender comic blew up I have had a few people try to tell me that "not caring about gender still makes you a girl" who I promptly blocked because I don't give a damn about their opinions, but I wonder if they're also in the same kinda mindset, that not having a gender just means you're cis.

But I'm not here to give them the time of day.

I settled on ace, then realized I'm panromantic, then figured out I'm agender, and I'm pretty solid on that, though I have debated if I'm on the aro spectrum thanks to how I approach romance but???? eh that's a whole can of worms.

As for gender euphoria... yeah getting that IS kind of hard when you have no gender asldkfja Admittedly there are moments where I put some clothing on and it's like oh hey I look kinda ambiguous right now. I think the better moments are just wearing something that feels like "me" but that can also shift with time....... life is ever changing.

AS for no pronouns yeah it's a little hard to wiggle around at times. Ideally people would just use my name (you can substitute names almost always for pronouns) but this can sound hella clunky essp if you're typing it up.

i.e. instead of "I spoke to Scribs yesterday and he said that he would rather use his car to take us." it'd be more like "I spoke to Scribs yesterday and Scribs said that Scribs would rather use Scribs's car to take us."

Like... yeah it's clunky but that's how it SUPPOSED to work.

I'm thankfully in a position where if people do end up slipping in a pronoun or two (or using them if they aren't familiar with me) it doesn't bug me too much, but it's appreciated when people just don't.

My name is what I mainly tie my identity too, and as frustrating as it is that I can't use my actual one in online spaces, my online names are a decent substitute.

I tried neo pronouns, I never really liked they/them or it/its (for ME to clarify they are awesome pronouns), and the best I had for the longest time was he/she cause it bothered me the least, but then it was like oh wait I can just NOT use these?? Ripping off my clothes like a cartoon character and running free into the wilderness.

Anyway this got lengthy enough as is. I have no issues answering questions like this and you approached it respectfully! I know my gender won't make sense to everyone and it's fine... sometimes I struggle to wrap my head around other identities haha ! It's just more important that I be respectful though.

[ryuichirou]

Replies

Today’s replies! Mostly related to some of the previously posted comics and drawings.

But starting with an ask that isn’t related to our stuff!

Anonymous asked:

Ryuichi, did you see Azul's new birthday card, Platinum Jacket?!

Yes! He looks great, especially the Groovy card qwq

To be honest, this year’s birthday set/theme isn’t the most exciting (I just really loved the broomquets), but Azul’s card is very good.

Anonymous asked:

"To the VDC group,

let me welcome you once more into the halls of our dorm. With your combined efforts and talents you will surely make our college shine at the VDC, and here at Ramshackle we're glad to be able to help you in any way we can. I must however bring to your attention some unseemly behaviour that... sorry, I can't keep this up anymore, so let's get to the point: please stop treating the dorm like some cheap themed love hotel.

I understand you all have your reasons, whether it's because you get frustrated thinking about your rival and need an outlet, or because you think sex will help you fix your broken marriage, or simply because you're too  much of a wimp to say no to Ace. I get that, but I can only tell Grim that this racket is the ghosts' fault so many times, and I really am not ready to give him the Talk... So please, have mercy...

The Prefect"

Do you think something like this might have happened?

(this ask and the next one are related to this comic)

LOL ANON this is exactly what would’ve happened, the only difference is that Vil is abstaining from sex until the whole thing is over, and if he can’t have sex, no one can. So Yuu shouldn’t even worry about confronting everyone about this, because Vil is going to do it for them lol Ace and Deuce specifically will get scolded for disrespecting the Prefect’s hospitality and acting so indecently.

Poor Deuce… he really can’t say no to Ace and now he’s getting scolded too 😔 So embarrassing.

Anonymous asked:

epel has to seduce the competition then

Let’s hope he absorbs all the unresolved sexual tension of his bandmates like a sponge and marinates in it until the day he sees Neige… wait, that wouldn’t work, it’ll just make Epel horny lol

Anonymous asked:

Your deuce look like a beautiful butch lesbian in that skirt and i love this so much. You're the only one who can get me to love how he looks fr fr

(this ask is related to this drawing)

Butch lesbian omg…

Aw come on Anon, it’s just Deuce being his adorable self, I can’t take credit for that~ He’s always cute!

Anonymous asked:

Idia in a short little skirt. Lilia probities him into it. Lilia will probably also randomly flip it up much to Idia’s horror.

If Lilia sees a skirt on a cute boy, he flips it. This is the rule. It’s his instinct, his nature, his philosophy.

Stay strong, Idia… His long-ass legs would look so nice if he wore a skirt. He really should. And then instantly get attacked by this pervy grandpa lol

Anonymous asked:

Have you and katsu ever heard of the new show "Hazbin Hotel"?  it's basically without spoiling anything a Musical Black comedy drama show that plays in Hell, and it has its dark moments. I figured you two might like it, so i would definitely recommend it.

We have heard of it! It’s pretty impossible to avoid right now lol, especially with all the jp artists suddenly getting into it and drawing a lot of amazing fanart. It’s very amusing to look at…

Thank you for recommending it to us, Anon! We’re not planning to watch it for now and aren’t really sure that it would click with us (if that makes sense), but we do like black comedy a lot + I’m glad the themes of the show made you think of us!

[imaginespazzi]

Hooray, bestie youve returned 🙌 So whats new, life treating you well?

Catching up on nice, real things and not insane rumors since my last ask - I still cant believe Azzi's tik tok (the caption more than anything). So cute, funny, and them. What a BDay gift for you haha. Happy belated!!

I have to echo a lot of your thoughts on the W season so far. NY and Minny unsurprisingly just stand apart. Especially when you think of having to beat them out in a series. Something does just feel incomplete so far w Vegas, and absolutely Aja cant have to be superhuman every game. I wouldnt count out Liz improving and settling in. ATL (and SEA somewhat) seems solid, and have the sense they can both still play better. I feel bad thinking about how the Storm dont even have near their full complement of players! Imagine. In a way I was happy to see Chi pick up some wins and shake off some early underperformance. Ariel Atkins looking more like herself lately👏. I didnt have high expectations for the Sparks in general, especially for early in the year, but some stretches of their play really have underwhelmed. (Sidenote not sure what the deal actually is w Rickea, but hope shes ok). And on the other end of CA Ive been impressed by some bits of the Valks. Salaun has def caught the eye. Wings sure are in a rough stretch sadly. I dont fully understand rotations sometimes frankly. But I cant ignore that theyre a totally new roster, have a first time HC, are missing Ty and P (get well soon). Plus if a few late game scenarios played out a lil differently, their record looks quite different. See how they manage things in Seattle tonight..

Hey I have a handful of womens hoops centric podcasts to recommend for the masses - A Touch More No Offseason The Womens Hoops Show In Case You Missed It Birds Eye View Shes Got Next

Thats all I got at the moment! Im about to go have some daiquiris on a patio lol. Take care bestie

-☕️

Hi hi hi!

I'm good lovie! I'm done with the school year but working full time over the summer so life is still busy I fear.

Thank you lovie! Was not expecting it at all but they basically want me to be their third so they had to do that for me haha

Yeah Lynx and Liberty looking real solid but I am a little worried about the JJ injury and I hope she's alright.

The Aces are missing both vibes and personnel and it's a lot more than just not having that secondary post player behind Aja imo like something's just not clicking right at all for them in many different ways.

Atlanta has surprised me for sure like they very much look like the 3rd best team in the league right now. And Seattle looks pretty much as I expected though their lack of depth really worries me for them. Shoutout Erica Wheeler tho because I been a hater and she proved me wrong this season for sure!

Now if only Chicago could've gotten those wins over someone else...

LA just feels so lacklustre I fear thought I'm glad to see Azurá Stevens having a really solid (potentially MIP) season.

Yeah Valks have been very impressive and definitely have Salaun on my ROTY list right now. Gonna be inchresting to see who between them and the Mystics make the playoff imo.

Dallas....yeah it's just not gonna happen this season and I've made peace with it...to an extent.

Ooooh lovely recs thank you! I already listen to a couple of them but will definitely check out the others!

[too-much-sunshine]

Finished the most recent chapter, and as an aroacespec person myself, I was so comforted by the slow and natural progression you've given Scar and Grians relationship in this. I'm inclined to physical affection myself, and that's something frequently excluded in pairings that people write as aroace/qpr adjacent. A lot of times they're always considered strictly romantic, but the way you've written this feels so right in the sense of Queerplatonic, as you mentioned you intended originally in the notes. I just wanted to say thank you for that! Reading how they hold each other and comfort one another (wont go into detail, as to not spoil ch26 for anyone reading this) just clicks in a way that's Their Connection, and it doesn't feel like it's trying to or needs to be anything else. It's so content, and it makes me feel so warm to see that in a fic with two characters I resonate with a lot.

Not to mention the plot- omg, I've been fawning over it all week! My favorite moment I think is definitely the kitchen scene with Iskall and Scars little standoff- the visual was so sassy and queer from Scars end, it just made me cackle to no end I absolutely loved the attitude. But really, I try not to theorize too much when reading stories that way every turn feels like a huge shock, and this fic keeps my attention so well I didn't even have the chance to, I was far too busy enjoying every little flair of dialogue and fluid change of scenario. I literally gasped and yelled "OH /SHIT/" aloud multiple times, I'm not embarassed to say it. There are so many details you kept so quaint and innocent at the beginning, I never even questioned them until their importance later on!

This story has been absolutely, insanely, phenomenally fun to read, and I can't wait to see where you take things next. I've been planning my own fic for ages, and reading something like this has really inspired me to pick up my pages and keep going. I hope you have a wonderful day, and that you have a lot of fun working on the rest of the story! I know I'm dying to read the next chapter whenever you feel it's right to show, and others will be too :).

Much love!

- minecraft-cake

OH MY GODS IM GONNA CRYYYY (/pos) TOO LATE I AM CRYINGGGG TTTTTTT AAAaaaa this means so much to me TTTT ASDFGHJK

Ive said it before, and I'll say it again: I started writing WOftL because I wanted to read something like it, but it hadnt been written. Not only in the superhero space (even tho I am a bit a whore for superhero fics UuU) but also just aspec wise. Im arospec/ace, and I just felt it wasnt being represented in a way the resonated with me!! So I wrote it myself <3

Im so glad that it resonates with others as well! I really hope that deciding to change the relationship romantic doesnt takes away from that! I feel like, personally, it doesnt change their background and their connection for each other. I certainly dont plan to have them act much differently then they do now lmaooo

Ommffggg you are so nicceee TTTTTT If Im forced to say one thing I'm proud of for this fic, i'd say the foreshadowing turned out much better then I expected lmaooo This is my first looongg fic, so I really happy with that turned out!! I have so much I can say about specific scenes and how they came to be in my brain!!! But for specifically Iskall and Scar, I loved how their little plot came out! Those two have History UuU

Thank you so much for reading and the kind wordsss!! This seriously made my whole week and its only monday!! Im so happy to have inspired you, and if your willing to share I would love to read your fic when you write it! I hoep you have a phenonial day, week, month, year and life bestie <3<3<3<3

[fictionfixations]

i finally reached it

already forgot what chapters it was but know it was like the last few chapters (SPOILERS)

lets just take a moment and lOOK AT HIM. LIKE HES SO PRETTYYYY and tHAT LITTLE SMILE !!!!

also AWEEE

and look at sad riddle aghh (honestly i don't think i'll ever like hearing full on crying, but the va did a fantastic job. like it wasnt just sniffles it was full on wailing)

like

trey: *saying something*

riddles dialogue box is literally just: *sob*

(anyway the section where we saw riddle's backstory was sad. and i noticed that the boxes where we get his thoughts sometimes cover his mouth so we can't see his expression. maybe it doesnt really mean anything but it felt like something to me)

anyway. you know how i got into twisted wonderland cause i read khr fics where skull was them or something? there was a riddle rosehearts one. and it honestly solidified riddle as one of my favorites before i even knew him

also it makes a lot more sense now (the writer gave him a happy family for one though which awe)

also "...and completely lost track of the time." gave me literal chills

anyway i hate the purple twistunes (sometimes the blue and red ones are trippy when notes are playing at the same time but i got into the habit of 1. listening to the music for guidelines, and 2. noting which color came first so i dont get confused). they're so unreasonably hard sob getting the timing right is hard and the music is a liar because i expect there to be a beat so i hit too early because im listening to the music and its WRONG. so i have to take the music with a grain of salt. listen to it but dont strictly follow it. and really focusing on the white bar but you ever focus so much you stop being able to focus like oh my god i get distracted and i dont know wHY (and thus comes the technique of 'go to the hardest difficulty, beat it, and then go back' or like. at least try it. cause sometimes it makes normal easier???)

if i didnt get all the things for twistunes itd bother me eternally. because rhythm is my jam. but sometimes they're so frustratingly hard cause you have to get like no misses (or no goods and stuff) for easy and normal. and easy is easier but sometimes it just doesnt click with me and aGH.

and im SO thankful that you dont have to get no misses on hard, you just need like ss and stuff which isnt that hard because you can miss a bunch and still get there. but oh my god i remember this time i was so used to it that every mistake i made on hard i just reseted. took a minute to think and realize 'hey wait a second this is hard')

pff.

lOOK AT THE SMILE

anyway i assume riddles mom cant influence him while hes here. does he still live with her? or does he have his own place? but like. if youre so used to following rules set by other people then how do you even live by yourself?

i mean. i guess he kinda took the queen's rules to heart, as familiarity and also something meant to be followed no matter what, because surely if it s a thing that exists, then surely it must be enforced, right? because the queen of hearts was the rightest or something

anyway savanaclaw is next i think. i dont know any of them lmfao

(i just remembered- i think riddle was like genuinely gonna kill ace. he like called on the roses to attack him or something and trey overruled it temporarily by turning it into like cards. oop.)

[galacticnova3]

no idea what ick your askbox has been filled with so how about you tell us abt reloh

the mimics youve explained your thought process behind their creation but idk if youve explained reloh from that angle

Delicious. Finally some good fucking ask.

Reloh doesn’t really have a lot to him, in terms of why I made him originally. For starters he was a Miiverse oc I made during, like, middle school— actually the icon I have his tupper set to on Discord is from there! Here’s that plus the other two surviving original Miiverse Reloh images.

You can kinda(barely) see how his current design differs from the original with that last one, being more simplified and also not just directly copying Nova’s pocket watch design. Anyways, originally he was gonna be an evil Dark Matter who could manipulate time and not the neutral/good just some guy he is now, but that idea didn’t stick because it wasn’t something I was ever really able to do anything with in rp; people would have considered it godmodding. From there I shifted to trying to give him a (very poorly written) tragic backstory that I don’t remember anything about other than that he had two kids and a wife that died?? I don’t think I even made them actual characters, they were literally just unnamed dead family members trope, because again I was in middle school(maybe early highschool by that point) and my writing skills reflected that.

When I joined Tumblr I made a lot of changes to him as a character(for example making him no longer a villain or chronomancer) and he became closer to what he is now. At first it was just a one-off coffee shop au joke back when those were The AU To Make(and because I saw a place called Edge Coffee House and thought that was hilarious), but then it ended up becoming an actual thing for reasons I don’t remember. I’ve forgotten a lot of the details besides the fact that the shop wasn’t even his, it was his SO’s(yeah was unfortunately still trying to force that) who mysteriously disappeared in a fire, and he tried to take over for them and failed. Absolutely wild. Over time I discovered what asexuality and aromanticism are, realized making him ace/aro would suit his character better, and started trying to make him a little less of a generic “ok but what if there was a good guy in the evil group”. It was also around that time that I got fed up trying to draw his mechanical hands and opted to just give him the sort that lots of other folks give to their matters.

The way I would describe his character and how I tend to try and write him now is that he’s not really a “good guy”, in the sense that becoming good was never his goal or even something he’d actively thought about. He didn’t want to be good, he just wanted to control his own life. At first he thought he accomplished that when joining(or more accurately being semi-willingly abducted by and subsequently made a member of) a group of criminals who doubled as mercenaries or hired killers. He didn’t quit and go on the run out of any real sense of guilt(at the time) or moral reason, he realized that he was basically just doing exactly what he’d done under Zero for a different master. He wasn’t living his own life, he was just doing what someone else told him to do, day in and day out, and he’d been doing it because he thought he owed them for taking him in and teaching him stuff. He didn’t even know the full extent to which his boss didn’t see him as a person so much as an obedient attack dog that’d kill and die for them as commanded so long as he recognized them as his master, but he started picking up on the fact that he wasn’t being treated like the others, and then the realization clicked. So he left, stole something he thought looked cool on the way out not knowing what it was(yaaay fucked up watch pendant thing), and went on the run until he felt like he wasn’t gonna be hunted down anymore. He just wanted to leave that part of his life behind entirely, to the point that he never even reached out to authorities or anything. He didn’t care about all that, and why would he? What had anyone else ever done for him that didn’t come at a high price? Why do the right thing if people only ever focus on the times you did the wrong thing?

Nowadays he’s kinda come to regret that; he’s had more exposure to Normal Fucking People who don’t immediately go torches and pitchforks on his ass when they learn what he is, so it’s harder to generalize everyone as “people who would attack me and people who would attack others AND me”. But he’ll probably never choose to actually talk about any of it to anyone if he never has to. Not only because it’d be unpleasant to think about, but also, generally speaking, people don’t usually love learning you have a body count, let alone one that’s possibly in the double digits depending on how you count assists. It’s just not the kind of information that improves things, y’know? Keeping it to yourself is just easier. In other words the guy’s still pretty focused on his own self-interest for the most part, even if he has the capacity to recognize and act in the interest of others. His choices really are mostly just to make his own life easier.

I still need to think of a better explanation for how he met Loa and how/why the two ended up hitting it off in the “>Hey I’m bored and you’re homeless we can kill two birds with one stone” “Oh shit fr?” way, too. It started as a joke but I’ve realized it’d be a good direction for both of them to go in character-wise. Plus it’d be fun to have Lor, Roa, and Loa all approach their pilot situations differently. Lor has Magolor be hers even if just in a mostly nominal sense. Roa has nobody at all and chooses to live alone of her own accord, mostly out of paranoia. Loa has no pilot but also doesn’t want to be alone(even if she totally could live by herself and be totally fine and everything and is definitely not in denial) and figured “hey this guy can help me care for these space lizards I adopted temporarily as a temporary affair seeing as they were temporarily not going to survive on that very temporary landmass in Another Dimension and no the fact that I named them all means nothing I definitely didn’t get attached- why are people tagging this as found family stop it”. Also her and Reloh just have a lot of chemistry and writing them together is fun. Boat who can come off as aggressive and way too willing to use violence to solve problems, just some guy who is really chill and has also killed enough people to staff a full crew on said boat and still have a few passengers left over, and their weird little magical winged lizards from space that get ice everywhere and love to eat fruit.

I think I went on a bit of a tangent but I think I answered your question in there somewhere. Hopefully. I have not been operating at optimal mental capacity for the last few days on account of medical issues and lack of sleep.

Here’s more Relohs

[the-graves-family]

No. 18: Loss of Identity

“I like you better when you just shut up and smile.”

Smile.

It should smile. It should be liked. Simple enough requests. But not enough information. It moves, poorly imitating the act of sitting up. How many vertebrae is it supposed to have again? It’s been a while. Its bones make noise when it moves, clicking against each other.

It turns its head, mouth open in a grotesque smile, with teeth, too many teeth, lips that stretch beyond its face. Aaron. It knows Aaron. Aaron made it. So he must know what he wants.

It knows what it wants.

Aaron is looking at it with an expression on his face. It tries to mimic it, but it’s not a smile, and it’s been told it has to smile. The final result is horrifying enough. Fear and smiling don’t go well together, apparently.

“Who am I?”

Its voice is loud and quiet and deep and high. It gets no response. That’s not great, it needs an answer. It can already feel itself slipping, limbs lengthening and shifting, mouth widening with cracking sounds, making the artificial lights over them flicker violently. That’s not what it was brought here for.

“Who am I?” It asks again, leaning forward on the metal table. It needs to know.

Aaron looks at it, pale, and swallows before answering. “A-Ace. That’s your name.” He pauses, looking wide-eyed at the pool of blood under its body. “You’re my… brother.”

“Ace,” he repeats, voice settling on something similar to his brother’s, feeling his body shift into something… smaller. With the correct number of limbs. He looks at Aaron, and then down at himself. Two arms, two, no, one leg. A torso, hair, a neck. A face and a mouthful of sharp teeth. It takes a bit of arranging for all of that to fit.

Yes, that’s who he is. Aaron’s twin. How could he forget?

“Where are we?” He asks, looking around before his eyes land on Aaron again. He wishes he knew what that face means. It’s not a smile. Not like his.

“The, huh, the slaughterhouse.”

Yes, of course. The slaughterhouse. It’s where he’s just lost his leg. There is still blood everywhere. He’s still bleeding, in fact. Just now. There’s more blood now.

“You’re… still bleeding,” Aaron states, and Ace snaps his head to look at him, making the other man almost flinch.

“Should I stop?”

Silence again. Aaron’s face has changed into something else that Ace still can’t identify.

“No, just—” Aaron takes a step closer, and he doesn’t make noise as he moves. Ace stops making noise as he shifts on the table. Of course. Aaron’s brother wouldn’t make clicking noises just because he’s moving. That wouldn’t make sense. “It’s like it doesn’t fucking hurt you, holy shit,” Aaron mutters under his breath, and Ace tilts his head.

It doesn’t hurt him.

Good to know.

Aaron grabs a piece some fabric from a red box, and the grabs his leg. It’s not his first time being touched. Of course. That would be strange. So Ace doesn’t flinch, don’t make any noise, doesn’t try to bite his brother. If Aaron screams and steps back, that’s just because he’s being a little strange.

He tells Ace that he should stop bleeding after his leg is bandaged. So it stops once it is.

He tells Ace he should get up and Ace tries. It takes a little bit for him to get the hang of standing with one leg. He learns he has to lean on something.

Aaron’s face has changed again. Ace doesn’t think he looks so not-good anymore. It’s still not a smile, though.

His brother pushes him, out of curiosity, he says. Only he’s allowed to do it, he says. Ace falls, hitting his head on the way down. It doesn’t hurt. He doesn’t even feel it until Aaron asks him if he noticed. And then he starts bleeding there as well.

It’s complicated.

Aaron does a lot of things to him. It’s a very educational night. Ace learns what fear is, and that he should feel it when his brother is angry. He doesn’t learn what anger is yet. It’s not an emotion for him. That’s what Aaron says.

He needs Aaron to tell him everything.

Otherwise, how is he supposed to know what he is? Things have become very complicated since the last time he woke up.

He has so much to learn. And all the time in the world to do so. First of all, however, the one thing he can’t seem to forget, the one thing he has to attend to before anything else…

Ace is hungry.

[tumblasha]

why was i like that (tl;dr in tags)

today i clicked on sgc's ig profile and saw that they use they/them pronouns now. and it makes me want to cry.

bc even tho we Literally went to high school together-ish (they were 3yrs after me?) we had such different experiences.

i was a Girl who hung out with guys who didn't respect me, went out with a boyfriend who was nice to me, and was too shy / awkward / busy being that shy nerd stereotype [1] that i had no "deep friendship". you could ask anyone anything about me and they wouldn't know the answer! and i wouldn't know anything about them!! [2] bc we were a small class (169) and everyone in town was a mix of neighbor and cousin, i got my invites to parties and dances, but i overall felt like i was on autopilot. i don't remember my life until i was ~16 [3]!! why!!!

i think a lot about how dr uju anya had a whole husband and child but over time realized she was a lesbian. not to parasocialize too much with this academic weapon, but i feel like i also had this experience (to a much smaller / younger degree). and i feel so sad thinking about how i could've saved so much pain in high school if i had just known i wasn't wired to like guys like that [4].

and i remember lindie [5], someone who's ~30 now and has been with her now-husband since she was ~13. one day we had a good phone call (post-hs-graduation) and she told me that for literally everyone else she could possibly see romantically / sexually, she's a lesbian. but she and her husband have literally Grown Up together. her love for him is something that goes beyond platonic / romantic / sexual attraction. it's a life partnership in every sense of the term.

this phone conversation lit a lightbulb in my summer 2019 brain. i knew that this high school bf of mine could be a life partner. we started dating when i was 11 or 12 and !!! we both saw each other grow up (at least to some degree). but something in the pit of my stomach told me i couldn't live a lie like that. it wouldn't be fair to him for me to have this self-discovery and just .. continue as if it didn't happen?

and so when someone said that dr. uju's pre-lesbian marriage was "sad" bc she didn't know she was a lesbian, i got (in my head) defensive. bc "it's totally possible to be happy and ignore this part of yourself!" (it's not).

for the longest time i told myself that being bisexual was the easiest sexuality to have bc i knew i liked women and i could always just end up with a guy to make my family happy, if i had to, ya know? i got mentally defensive when ppl online said that "invisibility is not a privilege" and "biphobia is real" bc i was subconsciously using this label as a way to hide the fact that the mere thought of a life with a man made me anxious / nauseous / scared.

and boy did that fear kick into overdrive anytime i was around a guy. if he even smiled at me, i'd go a little silly. it didn't even matter if he was straight, bi, ace, gay, or anything, i'd just latch onto the fact that it was a Man talking to me and i couldn't stop thinking about them and any comment they made that made them seem bored / annoyed at me made me spiral about my self-worth. but if there was ever a case that i Thought they even Maybe had an interest in me, i'd get nauseous again. to this day i feel like i still put guys up on a pedestal so i just have ... no guy friends [6].

this novel is a silly way of saying the following things.

the label "lesbian" is a vibe rn

heartstopper is a painful show for me to watch

sorry if ur a guy i met before i turned 20 that i was weird around : ( /nbh

sgc looks so happy. they're out and they look so happy. why couldn't that be me.

why was i like that.

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[1] i had a goofy jock bf tho so was it really so bad?

[2] and to a certain degree this continues today? i don't know how to hold a conversation, i don't know how to ask questions, i don't have good memory of the conversations i Do manage to hold, my #1 fear is playing the newlyweds game with literally anybody. i once described making friends as 'learning a person's scripts / common conversation topics' and the other person in the room just kinda said 'haha yeah...' and i continued to pset :skull:

[3] and 16-17 was my sad era where i cried basically any time my bf and i were alone together. that man was so patient w me lmao

[4] why do i always say no? why can't i just calm down? why is it weird to describe us as 'friends but we also make out'?

[5] one of the coolest ppl i know. (death + suicide mentioned in this footnote) she was the french teacher that replaced my old french teacher after she died, and lindie really suffered for us. bc it was a catholic school, she was forced to cover up her tattoos, and she had to wear longer clothes (admin always told her to cover up even when she was wearing Long Clothes). she went through so much (miscarriage, lost here sense of self, etc.) and was literally suicidal but she still showed up for us. one of my fav teachers and an inspiration to this day.

[6] except for the two dudes (that might be) reading this, y'all are cool and literally the best. afaik i've been Normal around y'all so yay! growth!!

[tinytangerine1003]

how did you know you were aro?

I don't know what I am gonna type out here or even if it will make sense. A lot has happened in the last 3 years since the time I started to question my sexuality. I will try to put it into words and keep it short (I did not in fact keep it short and I am sorry for that but you don't have to read through this messy story).

So first, my exposure to queer media. During lockdown I started reading Percy Jackson books where they mentioned the hunters of Artemis, one of the conditions to join them is that you have to take an oath to turn your back on company of men and any kind of romantic approach from any gender or sexuality. I found that idea interesting and I thought to myself how hard could that be, if that's the condition I would happily join them in an instant? When scrolling through some posts about hunters of Artemis I came across the term aro/ace. At that time I didn't think much of it. I never had a crush on anyone and I always thought it was because I was too young to be interested in romance (I was 14 at the time) and assumed that everyone my age was like that, note that it was lockdown so I wasn't going to school which is why I didn't know about the crushes and romantic interests of kids my age. So, the whole lockdown was the time when I became very interested in the queer community, I saw several posts on pinterest regarding this and made a board and thought of myself as merely an ally.

Then schools opened and there were couples all around. I was like gotta focus on studies, don't have time for this, blah blah blah. Also, that year a lot of other shit happened and the pressure of exams and getting good grades was taking toll on my mental health. I was too busy breaking down every other day because of that pressure to think about anything else.

Anyways that shit passed, I was in 11th grade and then came the real sexuality crisis. Some new students transferred to our school and one of them became really close friend. She got a boyfriend and started spending more time with him (which is bound to happen I know now but past me was experiencing it all for the first time) and I felt left out because now we were spending less time together and even when we were together she mostly talked about him. Tbh I was jealous and I thought this was a crush. I thought I liked her (romantically) and I thought a lot about the whole "turn your back on company of men" and came to the conclusion that I am not interested in men still and not even women but just her. That's when I also learnt about demiromanticism and it did click a lot of things in place for me. Like I always thought that the idea of love at first sight was unrealistic when it was shown in movies and questioned how can you fall in love without knowing a person properly and also believed that you need to be really close to a person to actually know them, so overall that term resonated with me. I knew I was asexual but at this point I started to dive more into the concept of aromanticism and the whole spectrum. I was convinced that I had a crush on her. Again a lot of shit happened and I realised that it wasn't a crush, my feelings weren't romantic, it was purely platonic and I was jealous because I became very close with her and suddenly the focus of our friendship shifted from us to him, I was very emotionally attached to her as well because I haven't had a friendship like that in a long time so when she became entirely focused on her boyfriend, I felt like an outsider. It took me a whole ass year to figure this out. And in between that time I gaslighted myself into thinking that I had a crush on this another guy because she asked me if I did and I thought this is what a crush must feel like so I said yes. But as I talked more to that guy, I just, idk how to describe it but it was not exactly comfortable for me, as long as we were having a normal convo about our interests I was fine and actually talked happily but when he started to flirt and I imagined myself in a romantic relationship with him, it felt weird to me, it was not something I wanted, it was just ugh. Anyways, what I realised from that time with that guy is that what I thought was romantic attraction was just me being excited to interact with a human being who was actually interested in me and gave attention to me (you can blame my childhood for that). I also kind of realised that it was how I felt about my friend. But it was more difficult for me to distinguish between romantic attraction and a wish to have a close friendship in her case because I was already emotionally attached to her. End of the story, a series of very chaotic events and break downs lead to me realising that I only wanted her as a close friend, I couldn't imagine myself in a romantic relationship with her and I was only bothered by her having a boyfriend because it momentarily threatened the close bond that we had formed. Now, everything is fine (more or less), there is more clarity between us and we are still very close. During this mess I also questioned if I was poly but I figured I am not. There's more to this crisis but I have already written a LOT so not going into the chaotic details. Sorry for making it so long.

(Edit: One more thing I realised about myself is that I was always so unaware about the supposedly romantic interactions of allos around me unless it was really obvious, blatant or put right into my face. Like even when my best friend and her boyfriend were in the flirting stage I didn't realise they were actually flirting, I just thought they were close friends and that was pretty normal thing for friends to do, so, yeah this realisation had a great hand in me figuring out I am aro. Thinking of romance in other people's life is fine but when it comes to me I find it hard) So sorry for making the post even lengthier :/

[flockofdoves]

last week when i was thinking about how teshima seems well suited for being a catcher and how teshima and aoyagi's dynamic could map well to them being a battery i then also started thinking about whether that would work or not for other characters with a little more straightforward ace and domestique dynamics. and of course since arakita literally used to play baseball i was thinking about how arakita as a pitcher would make a lot of sense in that context too.

so rereading arakita's backstory a couple days ago it was exciting to realize i'd forgotten that arakita canonically was a pitcher specifically

so now i keep thinking about what arakita's past in baseball mightve been like considering all we know.

and now i'm imagining what would arakita's dynamic have been with any catchers in middle school. i feel like the options i'm drawn to are either:

arakita didn't have any particularly strong battery relationship/didn't work with any particularly strong or considerate catchers, but because of a strong passion for baseball and desire to win arakita individually made a lot of pitch decisions that lead to the elbow injury, which added even more to arakita's feelings of aimlessness after quitting baseball, and the contrast between trying to do that without much guidance with fukutomi's ambitious but considerate cycling advice helpe everything click into place

similar to the previous option but more on arakita's end of just not really listening to signs for pitches regardless of the catcher's talent or consideration out of an individual thirst to when and penchant for self destruction through that. kinda in line with arakita self describing as "greedy" in the past. so there being a change now in arakita being in a sports dynamic where mutual listening is happening and where arakita is more often able to fulfill that thirst for winning without impulsively risking injury due to being in a sport where individual efforts more directly make things easier on other team members physically/more often being in a support role that is at the forefront for most of the race but isn't the person who has to push and make impulsive decisions when things are down to the wire right at the end of a race (and even when those roles are switched theres something interesting there in considering fukutomi's own experience with aspects of that struggle and how they both might understand that and make things easier for each other)

a more direct parallel of arakita's dynamic with fukutomi where arakita really admires some catcher and will do whatever they ask and feels good about improving at baseball and accomplishing things through the motivation of that relationship, and then just absolutely spirals and doesn't know what to do with any of that once playing baseball isn't an option anymore

some sort of combo of the above i think is what i'm most feeling? not sure my favorite balance of these elements but i'm thinking like admiring a catcher but things being more distant, maybe that catcher is older and also working with other pitcher and motivates arakita but arakita also really wants more direct acknowledgement and also is an impulsive brash kid who really wants to win, so that leads to some combo of arakita either pushing too far when that catcher asks for things beyond arakitas capabilities (not sure on that part, but if so, it might mean that arakita's constant complaining is at least somewhat shaped by a reaction to that experience) or arakita trying to show off by going even further than what was asked. so meeting fukutomi gave arakita purpose and direction by making what arakita wanted out of a sport and an interpersonal teammate relationship more in reach and on equal footing

[fraeuleintaka]

AAIC: Basic Game Structure

This is the 25th post in the Ace Attorney Investigations Collection Countdown: 56 days left until release!

Today's topic: the Basic Game Structure!

I've talked a lot about all the new and improved stuff we will be getting for the Investigations Collection with a lot of these informations and pictures coming from the official website. However, that's not the only thing the website delivers on. It also talks a lot about the Investigations games in general including the basic game structure which I want to focus on for today. (I actually didn't even see this page initially because I didn't see the button you could click to get there 😄)

It totally makes sense to me why they included this because with Investigations' status as a spin-off it doesn't automatically follow what the gameplay would look like. Not to mention that I love these kinds of accessoires! Even if I know all of this already, I love reading this kind of stuff and the way it's presented here with these beautiful optics!

They differentiate between three major parts of gameplay: Investigation, Logic and Confrontation (colour-coded for your convenience in white, blue and red). Apart from the fact that you physically walk around (which makes it a lot more fun) the Investigation works similar to the main series (talking to everyone and looking at everything) though they do specifically mention the deduction mechanic where you point out contradictions directly at the crime scene (also a lot of fun). These titles aren't called "Investigations" for nothing and I love how they made the investigation part of the gameplay a lot more hype than the main series ever did!

Even though Logic is separated here, in the game it's part of the investigation phase. Miles keeps track of several pieces of information that are relevant to the case, you connect the pieces in a way that makes sense (and looks totally fancy!) and obtain new information that brings you closer to the solution of all the mysteries. It's Miles' "superpower" or gimmick like the Magamata, Perceive or Mood Matrix. There have been many memes about it but I have to be honest, it's my favourite of the bunch (until Logic Chess was introduced, at least). I love how it doesn't rely on magic mumbo-jumbo or any other mystical trick/special ability, it's just Miles' stellar thinking turned into a gameplay mechanic. It's also a lot of fun and makes me feel especially clever when I can form these conclusions directly without having to rely on other characters to point them out to me (something I dearly miss in the other games in the series where the latter occurence is a frequent annoyance). I also just get an unreasonable amount of joy out of the implication that the Edgeworths (as Gregory shares the ability in Investigations 2) are the only ones in the entire AA universe who can use basic logic. Not to mention the wonderful reactions from other characters when Miles does it or they want him to do it, especially Gumshoe and Kay, it's hilarious!

Strangely enough, Logic Chess (or Mind Chess, as it's officially called now) - Miles' second ability or "superpower" he gets in Investigations 2 - isn't talked about in this section at all. Maybe they consider it "too special" to put under "Basic Game Structure"? They certainly advertised it in the trailer so I'd think they'd put it on the website as well.

The last part is the Confrontation which is essentially cross-examinations just outside of the courtroom. I've heard people criticize that this takes away from the tension because you don't have a judge threatening to hand down a verdict at any moment but I don't really agree. It's very rare that this feels like a genuine threat in the main series and not just obligatory background noise to establish our stakes. It's also not like Investigations doesn't establish similar stakes with Miles' rivals similarly threatening him (or whoever is currently under suspicion) with arrest (or when you corner the culprit the threat is them getting away). The aforementioned are actually two points I prefer about the Investigations style: Firstly, since you don't have an obligatory defendant the story isn't forced to create a murder with a seemingly obvious culprit which gives more variety in possible scenarios (and removes the usually suitably nice and sad defendant character of whom I'm rarely a fan). If someone specific does get accused, it's much easier to switch to a new suspect when the evidence changes enough making the case flow much more naturally, something the main series frequently struggles with (your defendant can still be declared guilty even if by that point you've already proven they couldn't possibly have done it). Secondly, Investigations has you much more directly argue with your rivals, witnesses and suspects without the need to go through any third party. I love how this puts more focus on the individual characters you confront and especially how it frees the rivals of any unnecessary association with incompetent witnesses (whose flimsy claims prosecutors frequently have to defend in the main series which makes them look similarly incompetent). Not that that makes the main series style overall bad, on the contrary, but the Investigations style has some pretty clear strengths.

In combination Investigations' gameplay creates insanely fun and dynamic cases. I love how flexible the structure is and how easily it can switch between Investigation and Confrontation segments whenever it wants. It's certainly not an insignificant reason for why I love the Investigations games so much.