#it makes sense now. it made a lot of things click and i think aces & aros put a lot of things into perspective for me

[teenagefeeling]

am i seriously starting to see jokes about asexuals on my dash again??? i chose the wrong time to accept myself.....

[blushstarot]

PICK A CARD: what's your genshin impact life like, and what vision would you have based on it?

DISCLAIMERS & CONTEXT: this is important so don't skip it.

Since genshin has 7 types of visions, it felt unfair to me to just do three options to choose from like I normally do, that being said, I'm doing 9 options, with (hopefully) a short backstory, and then based on that, choose a vision. That means probably some visions would be left out of the post, and/or one or two elements could appear a lot. I could try and control that all the 7 elements appear but it wouldn't be a genuine reading since it'll be some manipulation, and that'll be dishonest and I'm not about that. Also in case anyone want to know what I took into account for selecting the visions, unless stated otherwise, I used this as a guide.

Anything said here about your life/ideals/past events is ONLY related to the hypothetical scenario of you living in genshin, DON'T take the reading as guidance, and DON'T feel that you HAD to experience the things said in real life to be able to relate and have that vision. This is just a fun what if based on your energy right now.

With the explanation and disclaimer out of the way, pick whichever picture you feel more attracted to and skip to that pile.

click on the picture to get a better view if necessary. rant and poll at the end.

Pile 1

the moon, ten of pentacles, ace of pentacles.

So, right of the start, without the interpretation of the meaning of the cards, the moon is in 2/3 of them, and what is the moon associated with? exactly, water. So right when I pulled the second card I knew y'all vision was hydro. I have this feeling that in genshin you would be from a kinda rich family, of course you're not feiyun commerce guild rich, but your family is well off and you don't need to worry about money. Talking about family, it seems that you have a good relationship with them, and they just support you and want you to live a fulfilling life.

So, for how you got your vision. It was at night, you were in your room, laying in bed or looking out the window, and you were thinking about your future. You wanted to continue the family business, how could you not?, your family has always done so much for you, and asked so little in return, this had to be right the way to repay them. At this point someone from your family close to you entered your room, I'm getting father figure vibes, definitely a masculine energy. One thing leads to another and you confide that you want to continue inherit the family business, but something deep within you is toughing at your heart strings, as if to trying to tell you something. This father figure tells you to really think this through and that the feeling you have might be because you are not fully convinced in what you want. Before leaving he reassures you that the family business is not that important, that you don't owe them anything, and that all they've done for you has been out of love. Then when you are all alone again and finally realize that you don't want to stay in the family business, but to do your own thing; a hydro vision appears next to you, and you know you've made the right choice, in wanting to pursue what you are passionate about.

**As in all the PACs, just take what resonates and leave what doesn't, this is for entertainment only, so have fun with it!

Pile 2

three of swords, king of cups, the empress.

This pile is giving me a lot of mixed messages, like in your genshin life y'all are a kind, compassionate person, and also a very wise, but something tells me that is not dendro wisdom, but more like leader wisdom, if that makes sense. With the empress I see that you have children at you care, could be your actual children, but I'm getting more of a head of an orphanage type of vibe.

For how you got your vision, I'm picturing that you are in some kind of meeting with important people, and they are pressuring you sell the orphanage, so they can close it and make something else where it's located. This is a negotiation they've been trying to make for quite some time now, and are trying to convince you with any way possible to sell it, and at this point you were tired of them showing up to the orphanage trying to convince you; probably some of the older kids starting to piece things together and are worried you might abandon them. So you agreed to go to their company headquarters to negotiate, away form the kids so they can't listen. So once you're there they start to bring up the fact that you're the only staff in the orphanage, and don't have anyone to help you finance and care for the children, and after some other valid arguments you start to doubt if you should just sell it and use the money to open a new one some other place. But something doesn't feel right and you stand your ground, telling them that the property is not for sell, that is your home and the home of all the children, you just can give that away like nothing. When you go back to the orphanage the first thing you see is the kids waiting for you, and you figured that everyone was aware of the rumors of you abandoning them, since you could see some of them had been crying. When you tell them the good news, they run to hug you, and only when one kind complains that they hit their head with something that was hanging from your waist, you realize that the gods had looked at you, and granted you a geo vision.

**As in all the PACs, just take what resonates and leave what doesn't, this is for entertainment only, so have fun with it!

Pile 3

wheel of fortune, the high priestess, queen of swords.

Something about this pile gives me anemo, but at the same time it feel too different from it. In your genshin life, you went through many hardships, and there was a point were you ended up in a situation where you couldn't defend yourself, and needed help to overcome it. This brought a big change into your life, an that's how you were able to obtain a vision.

Now, the story of how all that happened, actually started long before you got your vision. When you were on your lowest, a feminine energy help you, someone intelligent, witty, honest, and strong. She saved you from some monsters that were attacking you, and even tho you tried to fight back, they were way more stronger than you, so when she came to your rescue you felt ashamed for relaying on another person that happened to pass by and were kind enough to help you. You ended up asking them to teach you how to fight, so you could become stronger and better defend yourself. At first she refused and point out that your intentions weren't pure and that you just wanted to become stronger for selfish reasons. After some meditation on why you wanted to become stronger, you reached the conclusion that you actually wanted to be someone reliable, that everyone could depend on if they ever needed your help. After you told her that, she agreed to train you. You spend day and night learning from her, not only things combat related, but also how to be a better and more kind person. By the ending of your training, you viewed her as a mother figure, even to she wasn't exactly caring and gentle, despised her cold and serious face, you knew she cared for you. When you finally finished training and she said you were ready for anything you wanted to do, she gave you your first weapon as a gift, along with a box that contained a another gift she prepared. When you opened the box, next to the bracelet she bought for you, there was a pyro vision placed next to it, although no one knew how it got there.

**As in all the PACs, just take what resonates and leave what doesn't, this is for entertainment only, so have fun with it!

Pile 4

ace of pentacles, the emperor, queen of swords (reversed).

I'm getting this strong feeling that you would be some business owner, although I don't get a feeling for anything specific. You also probably come across to others as someone really intelligent on the art of business even if you follow these unorthodox methods that look like they are meant to fail, but for some reason for you it always work out. I feel that some might see you as a stubborn, maybe even ruthless person, like you are definitely a serious type.

For how you got your vision, you were probably in your office, just when you started to see profit from your new business. You went through a lot of challenges to get where you were, but you still weren't satisfied and had a lot of goals in mind, so you never let yourself take a break and were always working. You were drowning in paperwork, quiet literally, you couldn't even see the surface of your desk because of all the papers scattered. At this point you had too much in your mind and were starting to get a headache, so you decided to take a short break to eat something. Before leaving you decided to clean your desk and organize all the papers on it, and while moving them, that's when you realized that there was a dendro vision on your desk.

**As in all the PACs, just take what resonates and leave what doesn't, this is for entertainment only, so have fun with it!

Pile 5

the sun, page of swords (reversed), queen of wands (reversed).

I'm getting really positive and playful vibes, almost childlike, so my guess is that y'all are really young, or that are in touch with your inner child so much that even in a hypothetical scenario about a video game, you still are coming across as someone curious, with and adventurous spirit, and overall really happy and someone comforting to be around, definitely someone who is always playing with kids and helping those in need. With that being said, it may come as a surprise that y'all are involved in a bad organization, and not bad as in "they don't pay extra hours" bad, but more like "we control all the city and we decide what are the rules and the only valid law is ours" bad. The thing is, I don't really have any information about what the organization does, or what is the thing that you're supposed to do in it, so I think you actually don't really know either, and that's why I can't see it, OR there's too much hidden things around you that you want to keep a secret. Like I feel that you want to bring justice to bad people, and that you joined the organization because they basically lied to you and made you believe that they were good guys. I really have a feeling that you found out about what the organization really does but you're unable to leave so you are ashamed of being part of it or are ashamed of what the organization asked you to do, so you don't want anyone to know. Anyway, this is funny because I can't see how you got your pyro vision either, just that it happened near the time you joined the organization.

**As in all the PACs, just take what resonates and leave what doesn't, this is for entertainment only, so have fun with it!

Pile 6

ace of wands, four of swords (reversed), ace of cups.

Something happened to you that made you isolate yourself from the word, in the literal sense. I feel that the was a heartbreak, not necessarily romantic, that made you so sad that you decided you needed to go get yourself lost in nature, to meditate and work on yourself. I don't have a clear answer on who that person was, but I'm getting the mixed signal that was a lover or a really close friend that betray you, and your trust, and then not long after they got out of your life, either by death or by moving really far away.

So, how you got you vision is a little interesting. Remember I said you went out and got lost in nature? Well I'm not sure if it was 100% true, I can feel that for quite some time you actually were living in this sort of cave, with a river nearby and some sources of food, but also I can see that some weeks before getting your vision you were living in a really really really dark cave and I believe is some kind of metaphor on were you where mentally at the time. But then this beautiful moment happens where you decide you've been lamenting and torturing yourself emotionally for a long time now, so you gather courage and decide to go out of the cave. and of course at first the sun is too blinding, and you have to close your eyes and cover them with your hand at the same time. Then you start to thinking about going back to the comfort of the darkness, but really want to feel the warmth of the sun in your skin again so you continue forward even with your eyes closed. After some steps you can feel that you are outside but are too afraid to open your eyes so you just keep walking until to feel your feet touch something metallic, you look down and open your eyes to see what it is. And the first thing you are able to see is an anemo vision, and at that moment you know is yours, and it feels as if you've been born again.

**As in all the PACs, just take what resonates and leave what doesn't, this is for entertainment only, so have fun with it!

Pile 7

the magician (reversed), wheel of fortune, king of swords (reversed).

I don't know how much y'all are gonna like this but listen, someone from this PAC had to be the bad guy, surely from 9 piles not everyone was going to be good people... it's you guys, y'all are the bad ones, and you know it and you aren't ashamed of it (remember this is about your genshin life and that I'm not actually saying that in real life y'all are bad people). So, how do I put this. Y'all actually don't have a vision right now, you will, you will soon, I promise, just not right now.

Okay so, give a chance to explain. Y'all are power hungry, ruthless, tyrant, or at least that's how the others perceive you. They see you like an authority regardless of your ethics and morals not aligning with what everyone considers as "good", and they trust your judgment in a way, since you seem so disciplined and don't allow yourself to doubt on what you believe. That being said, I so feel that there's some major event that is going to shake your foundations, and send you on a spiral of some kind of identity crisis, and realizing that the things you believed in were wrong, or weren't even true at all. When that happens and you try to seek support on someone you trust, they're gonna deceive you again and betray you, which in return will amplify all the negative and complicated emotions you are feeling, and somewhere along your journey of change and acceptance is when you're going to get a cryo vision that's going to make you company for the rest of your life.

**As in all the PACs, just take what resonates and leave what doesn't, this is for entertainment only, so have fun with it!

Pile 8

ace of cups (reversed), four of swords, ace of wands.

So, you guys had a lot going on, that left you in a really bad mental space. With the ace of cups we can assume it was something like a wedding or engagement getting cancelled, but that doesn't have to be necessary it, since I'm also seeing that there was some type of social event where there was something you did and people didn't approve that left you so anxious and/or embarrassed that you had to leave early, so if you're not vibing with the wedding/engagement thing, it could be that. The point is that that event made people single you out and start to be more wary of you and more hostile. This left you feeling overwhelmed since you always thought that you were well liked in the community, like at the end of the day it wasn't that serious to them, but for you it hit really hard and made you see that maybe the world wasn't really like you believed.

At the end you allowed negativity to really set in your life, until at some point you decided that you needed some peace and quiet, make some introspection, relax and really think about how you are going to life your life from now on. Thankfully you found a solution once put your mind into it, and made a plan of moving somewhere else, to start again, so actually in that same day you started looking into it and by the end of the day of the day you had almost everything sorted out. You went to sleep really excited to the though of finally having your life back in control again, and there was definitely this new spark in your eyes and this feeling that almost didn't let you sleep, thankfully you did, and when you wake up you'll start this new life and the first thing you'll see will be this electro vision that accompanied you on your sleep.

**As in all the PACs, just take what resonates and leave what doesn't, this is for entertainment only, so have fun with it!

Pile 9

two of swords, the high priestess, the devil.

So uh, a lot to unpack here. First things first, like pile 7 based on the story that the cards are telling me, I don't see you having a vision right now, but you will have one in the near future. Funnily enough, you guys also share with pile 7 that you will have a cryo vision. So yeah, I just wanted to be straight forward with it in case you don't care about your backstory that much because it doesn't really mention how you got the vision, I just a very general idea of how it happened.

So your story is that you're feeling trapped, and like if things are out of your control, and that you have to make this big decision between two friends. I feel that one of them is trying yo leave, it could be from town, or organization/institution, or isn't happy with the friend group anymore and how it has changed. And they're your best friend so of course you want to support their decision, but you have another really close friend that isn't happy with they wanting to leave, and this ideals they have, so both of them start fighting with each other. And you are such a loving and caring friend, you don't want to see them fight, so you're trying to mediate the constant argument, and trying for them to reconcile, and it's very stressful because none of them wants to give in and compromise. And this is pretty much what the cards say, except for the high priestess, that is encouraging you to trust what you believe, and take action, follow your intuition, etc. So my guess is, you guys realize that the argument is pointless, and let your friends know, and kinda distance from them yourself from them because you realize they're not the friends you've always loved anymore, and that their change is not really the best thing for you right now, and then when you do that and you accept it and really embrace and believe in your decision, you'll be granted your vision.

**As in all the PACs, just take what resonates and leave what doesn't, this is for entertainment only, so have fun with it!

Thanks for reading!

I usually write this notes before doing the readings, so I don't really know how it went, BUT I can already tell this is gonna let me feeling really tired.

So yeah, I'm drained, it's been two days and a lot of hours spend on this so future me can worry about spelling mistakes to fix. If I ever do a PAC this long again, I better get paid or something this felt like working 12 hours straight, I had so many issues with the formatting it's not even funny, and don't get me started with pile 5, or that error I had with the poll, or the fact that the cryo users didn't have a vision yet. Anyway, this will be my only 9 option one in a while, the next ones will be back at 3 options, 4 if I'm feeling generous.

All jokes aside, it was really fun and I really wanted to do this PAC, so it's still worth it. Can't wait to read what you guys think, lot's of love! 💕

You can find more of my PACs on my master list, and if you have any suggestions on future PACs you want to see me do, you can send me and ask.

Bye byee ✨

[silvers-not-home]

my lame fucking autistic rambling

here's my massive stupid autistic rant about life series characters and my head canons for them

literally everything i'm thinking about is going on here im not even processing it im just typing sorry for any typos there will be many😭

this is also for my two (2) mutuals who i care for very deeply kiss kiss hug hug <3 /p /gen

okay it's the morning so i'm gonna continue this thumbs up emoji

starting off strong with mr grian minecraft himself (oh wow what a surprise /s)

he tried piercing his own nose in highschool. like. he was THE teenage dirtbag. sneaking out, drinking, smoking, shitty garage band that got nowhere (yes the bad boys was a garage band you c ant change my mind), mcr, pierce the veil, paramore, sexuality and gender crisis, "i know a guy", shoplifting, skipping class, you name it be probably did it with jimmy and joel during freshmen-sophomore year

pearl is his sister, jimmy and lizzie are his cousins (older cousins i should specify. him and pearl are twins but she's the older twin) and they went to the same high school. he met joel through lizzie and jimmy and joel and grian all clicked instantly

joel would stay at jimmy and grians place so much to the point it was like a second home to him and they would all hang out in the basement. joel stayed with his grandparents and helped them out a lot but they passed while he was in his bad boys phase and so he just stayed at grians place a whole lot during his depression (don't worry he's fine now just a little fucked up but they all are)

grian and pearls parents were kinda really shitty (yes i'm also counting yhs lore fuck uou) his whole life and so they got taken by cps and they lived with jimmy and lizzie's parents. and they were much better until he went to japan and all that shit happened (iykyk)

sam made him really realize that like. "oh my fucking god i'm gay. and it's for a damn sociopath. fuck." (that's like half canon)

he and taurtis DID hook up every tuesday thumbs up emoji

his wings didn't start growing in until AFTER senior year (so post japan/yhs incident)

the yhs holds a ceremony thingy for all the people that passed during all that shit and he goes every year and still has rowens glasses and ran into taurtis one year and it was awkward as HELLL but like. it wasn't an awful experience neither of them knew what to say. especially taurtks is bc by then grians wings had already fully grown in and his ass DID NOT recognize him💀

oh yeah also the four of the cousins are all winged animals so grians a parrot, pearl is a moth but like she's one of the super fluffy one (i forgot what they're called), jimmy is a canary (for obvious reasons), and lizzie is a flamingo because. fuck it (also half canary too it's from their mom) but she doesn't have as many features as the others

they all grow feathers (except for pearl) when they're stressed or feel a heightened emotion and have the little winged ears. they still do have actual ears but they grew in behind they're human ears and pearl has the little antennae things on top of her head. lizzie's kind of blends into her hair since yk. pink on pink and they're more folded then fanned out(?) if that makes sense?😭

jimmy was an early bloomer while grian was a late bloomer (i'm talking about wing/feather wise)

also some little sexuality/gender headcanons those are always fun :3

grians definitely trans masc and mlm (he/him anything else gives him dysphoria)

jimmy is THE bisexual demiboy icon (he/they)

lizzie is also bisexual (she/they)

pearl is a NONBINARY LESBIANNNN SHOUT OHT YO ALL MY NONBINARY LESBIANS WOOOO (she also uses any pronouns that would be considered feminine/androgynous or basically just. anything other then he/him/anything masculine)

mumbo is ace and omni (they/he)

scar is pan and a demiboy (all pronouns. like seriously he's collecting them like pokémon cards)

tango is bi and TRANSMASC WOOOO SHOUT OUT TO ALL MY TRANSMASC PEOPLE OUT THERE (he/they/flame)

martyn is transmasc and unlabeled. he doesn't want one/or thinks any is fit for him but is on the aspec (he/him)

scott is just. gay. goddamn fa- (he/him)

also just thought abt something grian jimmy and joel all had matching (infected and now faded) stick and poke tattoos that read "bad boys, today, tomorrow and yesterday" but that last part is faded completely since they ran out of pen ink halfway through and jimmys mom came home and they didn't wanna get in trouble (also yes their tattoos are in the same spot as each others it's on the right side of their chest) and let me TELL YOU. lizzie makes fun of joel TO THIS DAY about that tattoo and she likes to trace the words with her finger sometimes when they're cuddling, humming their old songs (he hates it but she still thinks it's absolutely adorable)

grian and mumbo are middle school best friends and he knows everything that happened to grian when he was in japan

grian, scar and mumbo all went to the same high school and mumbo and scar tried making a baking club called (you're never gonna believe this) the buttercups but grian was supposedly "too cool for that fairy shit" but would hang out during lunch with them and go to the meetings and help buy the ingredients and also help bake with them for extra credit and so would jimmy and joel. for extra credit of course

tango, mumbo and impulse were all in the computer club and coding club in highschool. doc was their teacher and cub was the senior teachers assistant trying to get early college credit

jimmy had the FATTEST crush on tango while they were in high school (yes they all went to the same highschool shut up) and tried impressing him by "making" a robot (mumbo made it and gave him the remote and told him to push two single buttons) and he pushed them in the wrong order and it short circuited and it almost exploded. he got suspended for a month and the only reason he didn't get expelled was because tango said it was his and it was a project. he complemented "jimmys" robot and said it had nice coding and a bunch of other nerd /aff terms that didn't make ANY sense to jimmy (that was his way of confessing but jimmys too stupid /aff to understand it at the moment so tango thought he didn't like him back) and when jimmy was talking to grian and joel about it they were yelling at him about how "JIMMY YOU IDIOT HE LIKES YOU BACK" and "WHAT'D YOU SAY? YOU SAID YOU LIKED HIM TOO RIGHT?" to which he (of course) responded with

"NO?? I DONT SPEAK NERD JOEL HOW WAS I SUPPOSED TO KNOW??"

also tango wears a feather jimmy gave to him as an earring and has kept that earring since they started going out which was like sophomore year or smth like that

they also had an exact conversation to joel before lizzie asked him out (and she also proposed too fight me)

i can go on for HOURS about those three but i'm gonna a do stuff about martyn now because. omg. he drives me CRAZY

also just realizing how most of these are just high school head canons. sorry (no i'm not)

everyone in school always thought that the bad boys were the mean bullies bc they wore leather jackets and studs and cuffs and blah blah blah but in reality they were just the dorky, socially anxious losers that were loud in class because they all adhd. not because they were asshole

martyn and scott were the ones you had to worry about (mostly scott actually but martyn would be a passive aggressive bully)

those little twits had an actual burn book. martyn. the almost loser that pierced his own ears, causing them to get infected but refused to take them out because he wanted to match with his fellow mean gill and wore anime shirts to sleep and doc martins (only because they had his name in it dont praise him he was a loser /aff) wrote "annoying dorks" in the burn book page dedicated to the bad boys. he had NO ROOM to talk and i find that hilarious bc him and jimmy were actually really close and he ate the page. yes. he ate the page in front of scott's face after an argument to prove a point and scott has never respected another person more in his life

i also felt like it was important that martyn and scott got voted prom king and queen

martyn LOVES necklaces, rings, bracelets. he has a matching necklace and/or bracelet with all his four (4) friends that consisted of scott and the bad boys. he still has them as an adult and holds onto the charm when he misses them which is all the time (i love martyn angst evil laugh)

ykw fuck it he still wears the necklaces and tucks them under his shirt, he asked everyone else if they still had theirs and it either broke or they lost it

EVERYOEN EXCEPT FOR JIMMY BC THEY WERE CHILDHOOD BEST FRIENDS AND HE WEARS IT UNDER HIS SHIRT TOO FUCK YOU I LOVE THEM

and for anyone curious it was a dog bone that is split in half and it like one of those magnetic necklaces that you have to get uncomfortably close to eachother for it to work

okay that's enough for tonight bc i have things i need to do tomorrow and thumbs hurt and it threw in the morning and i've been typing for over an hour straight good night cleveland *proceeds to stay online for another hour*

[ryuichirou]

Replies

Today’s replies! Mostly related to some of the previously posted comics and drawings.

But starting with an ask that isn’t related to our stuff!

Anonymous asked:

Ryuichi, did you see Azul's new birthday card, Platinum Jacket?!

Yes! He looks great, especially the Groovy card qwq

To be honest, this year’s birthday set/theme isn’t the most exciting (I just really loved the broomquets), but Azul’s card is very good.

Anonymous asked:

"To the VDC group,

let me welcome you once more into the halls of our dorm. With your combined efforts and talents you will surely make our college shine at the VDC, and here at Ramshackle we're glad to be able to help you in any way we can. I must however bring to your attention some unseemly behaviour that... sorry, I can't keep this up anymore, so let's get to the point: please stop treating the dorm like some cheap themed love hotel.

I understand you all have your reasons, whether it's because you get frustrated thinking about your rival and need an outlet, or because you think sex will help you fix your broken marriage, or simply because you're too  much of a wimp to say no to Ace. I get that, but I can only tell Grim that this racket is the ghosts' fault so many times, and I really am not ready to give him the Talk... So please, have mercy...

The Prefect"

Do you think something like this might have happened?

(this ask and the next one are related to this comic)

LOL ANON this is exactly what would’ve happened, the only difference is that Vil is abstaining from sex until the whole thing is over, and if he can’t have sex, no one can. So Yuu shouldn’t even worry about confronting everyone about this, because Vil is going to do it for them lol Ace and Deuce specifically will get scolded for disrespecting the Prefect’s hospitality and acting so indecently.

Poor Deuce… he really can’t say no to Ace and now he’s getting scolded too 😔 So embarrassing.

Anonymous asked:

epel has to seduce the competition then

Let’s hope he absorbs all the unresolved sexual tension of his bandmates like a sponge and marinates in it until the day he sees Neige… wait, that wouldn’t work, it’ll just make Epel horny lol

Anonymous asked:

Your deuce look like a beautiful butch lesbian in that skirt and i love this so much. You're the only one who can get me to love how he looks fr fr

(this ask is related to this drawing)

Butch lesbian omg…

Aw come on Anon, it’s just Deuce being his adorable self, I can’t take credit for that~ He’s always cute!

Anonymous asked:

Idia in a short little skirt. Lilia probities him into it. Lilia will probably also randomly flip it up much to Idia’s horror.

If Lilia sees a skirt on a cute boy, he flips it. This is the rule. It’s his instinct, his nature, his philosophy.

Stay strong, Idia… His long-ass legs would look so nice if he wore a skirt. He really should. And then instantly get attacked by this pervy grandpa lol

Anonymous asked:

Have you and katsu ever heard of the new show "Hazbin Hotel"?  it's basically without spoiling anything a Musical Black comedy drama show that plays in Hell, and it has its dark moments. I figured you two might like it, so i would definitely recommend it.

We have heard of it! It’s pretty impossible to avoid right now lol, especially with all the jp artists suddenly getting into it and drawing a lot of amazing fanart. It’s very amusing to look at…

Thank you for recommending it to us, Anon! We’re not planning to watch it for now and aren’t really sure that it would click with us (if that makes sense), but we do like black comedy a lot + I’m glad the themes of the show made you think of us!

[too-much-sunshine]

Finished the most recent chapter, and as an aroacespec person myself, I was so comforted by the slow and natural progression you've given Scar and Grians relationship in this. I'm inclined to physical affection myself, and that's something frequently excluded in pairings that people write as aroace/qpr adjacent. A lot of times they're always considered strictly romantic, but the way you've written this feels so right in the sense of Queerplatonic, as you mentioned you intended originally in the notes. I just wanted to say thank you for that! Reading how they hold each other and comfort one another (wont go into detail, as to not spoil ch26 for anyone reading this) just clicks in a way that's Their Connection, and it doesn't feel like it's trying to or needs to be anything else. It's so content, and it makes me feel so warm to see that in a fic with two characters I resonate with a lot.

Not to mention the plot- omg, I've been fawning over it all week! My favorite moment I think is definitely the kitchen scene with Iskall and Scars little standoff- the visual was so sassy and queer from Scars end, it just made me cackle to no end I absolutely loved the attitude. But really, I try not to theorize too much when reading stories that way every turn feels like a huge shock, and this fic keeps my attention so well I didn't even have the chance to, I was far too busy enjoying every little flair of dialogue and fluid change of scenario. I literally gasped and yelled "OH /SHIT/" aloud multiple times, I'm not embarassed to say it. There are so many details you kept so quaint and innocent at the beginning, I never even questioned them until their importance later on!

This story has been absolutely, insanely, phenomenally fun to read, and I can't wait to see where you take things next. I've been planning my own fic for ages, and reading something like this has really inspired me to pick up my pages and keep going. I hope you have a wonderful day, and that you have a lot of fun working on the rest of the story! I know I'm dying to read the next chapter whenever you feel it's right to show, and others will be too :).

Much love!

- minecraft-cake

OH MY GODS IM GONNA CRYYYY (/pos) TOO LATE I AM CRYINGGGG TTTTTTT AAAaaaa this means so much to me TTTT ASDFGHJK

Ive said it before, and I'll say it again: I started writing WOftL because I wanted to read something like it, but it hadnt been written. Not only in the superhero space (even tho I am a bit a whore for superhero fics UuU) but also just aspec wise. Im arospec/ace, and I just felt it wasnt being represented in a way the resonated with me!! So I wrote it myself <3

Im so glad that it resonates with others as well! I really hope that deciding to change the relationship romantic doesnt takes away from that! I feel like, personally, it doesnt change their background and their connection for each other. I certainly dont plan to have them act much differently then they do now lmaooo

Ommffggg you are so nicceee TTTTTT If Im forced to say one thing I'm proud of for this fic, i'd say the foreshadowing turned out much better then I expected lmaooo This is my first looongg fic, so I really happy with that turned out!! I have so much I can say about specific scenes and how they came to be in my brain!!! But for specifically Iskall and Scar, I loved how their little plot came out! Those two have History UuU

Thank you so much for reading and the kind wordsss!! This seriously made my whole week and its only monday!! Im so happy to have inspired you, and if your willing to share I would love to read your fic when you write it! I hoep you have a phenonial day, week, month, year and life bestie <3<3<3<3

[fictionfixations]

i finally reached it

already forgot what chapters it was but know it was like the last few chapters (SPOILERS)

lets just take a moment and lOOK AT HIM. LIKE HES SO PRETTYYYY and tHAT LITTLE SMILE !!!!

also AWEEE

and look at sad riddle aghh (honestly i don't think i'll ever like hearing full on crying, but the va did a fantastic job. like it wasnt just sniffles it was full on wailing)

like

trey: *saying something*

riddles dialogue box is literally just: *sob*

(anyway the section where we saw riddle's backstory was sad. and i noticed that the boxes where we get his thoughts sometimes cover his mouth so we can't see his expression. maybe it doesnt really mean anything but it felt like something to me)

anyway. you know how i got into twisted wonderland cause i read khr fics where skull was them or something? there was a riddle rosehearts one. and it honestly solidified riddle as one of my favorites before i even knew him

also it makes a lot more sense now (the writer gave him a happy family for one though which awe)

also "...and completely lost track of the time." gave me literal chills

anyway i hate the purple twistunes (sometimes the blue and red ones are trippy when notes are playing at the same time but i got into the habit of 1. listening to the music for guidelines, and 2. noting which color came first so i dont get confused). they're so unreasonably hard sob getting the timing right is hard and the music is a liar because i expect there to be a beat so i hit too early because im listening to the music and its WRONG. so i have to take the music with a grain of salt. listen to it but dont strictly follow it. and really focusing on the white bar but you ever focus so much you stop being able to focus like oh my god i get distracted and i dont know wHY (and thus comes the technique of 'go to the hardest difficulty, beat it, and then go back' or like. at least try it. cause sometimes it makes normal easier???)

if i didnt get all the things for twistunes itd bother me eternally. because rhythm is my jam. but sometimes they're so frustratingly hard cause you have to get like no misses (or no goods and stuff) for easy and normal. and easy is easier but sometimes it just doesnt click with me and aGH.

and im SO thankful that you dont have to get no misses on hard, you just need like ss and stuff which isnt that hard because you can miss a bunch and still get there. but oh my god i remember this time i was so used to it that every mistake i made on hard i just reseted. took a minute to think and realize 'hey wait a second this is hard')

pff.

lOOK AT THE SMILE

anyway i assume riddles mom cant influence him while hes here. does he still live with her? or does he have his own place? but like. if youre so used to following rules set by other people then how do you even live by yourself?

i mean. i guess he kinda took the queen's rules to heart, as familiarity and also something meant to be followed no matter what, because surely if it s a thing that exists, then surely it must be enforced, right? because the queen of hearts was the rightest or something

anyway savanaclaw is next i think. i dont know any of them lmfao

(i just remembered- i think riddle was like genuinely gonna kill ace. he like called on the roses to attack him or something and trey overruled it temporarily by turning it into like cards. oop.)

[the-graves-family]

No. 18: Loss of Identity

“I like you better when you just shut up and smile.”

Smile.

It should smile. It should be liked. Simple enough requests. But not enough information. It moves, poorly imitating the act of sitting up. How many vertebrae is it supposed to have again? It’s been a while. Its bones make noise when it moves, clicking against each other.

It turns its head, mouth open in a grotesque smile, with teeth, too many teeth, lips that stretch beyond its face. Aaron. It knows Aaron. Aaron made it. So he must know what he wants.

It knows what it wants.

Aaron is looking at it with an expression on his face. It tries to mimic it, but it’s not a smile, and it’s been told it has to smile. The final result is horrifying enough. Fear and smiling don’t go well together, apparently.

“Who am I?”

Its voice is loud and quiet and deep and high. It gets no response. That’s not great, it needs an answer. It can already feel itself slipping, limbs lengthening and shifting, mouth widening with cracking sounds, making the artificial lights over them flicker violently. That’s not what it was brought here for.

“Who am I?” It asks again, leaning forward on the metal table. It needs to know.

Aaron looks at it, pale, and swallows before answering. “A-Ace. That’s your name.” He pauses, looking wide-eyed at the pool of blood under its body. “You’re my… brother.”

“Ace,” he repeats, voice settling on something similar to his brother’s, feeling his body shift into something… smaller. With the correct number of limbs. He looks at Aaron, and then down at himself. Two arms, two, no, one leg. A torso, hair, a neck. A face and a mouthful of sharp teeth. It takes a bit of arranging for all of that to fit.

Yes, that’s who he is. Aaron’s twin. How could he forget?

“Where are we?” He asks, looking around before his eyes land on Aaron again. He wishes he knew what that face means. It’s not a smile. Not like his.

“The, huh, the slaughterhouse.”

Yes, of course. The slaughterhouse. It’s where he’s just lost his leg. There is still blood everywhere. He’s still bleeding, in fact. Just now. There’s more blood now.

“You’re… still bleeding,” Aaron states, and Ace snaps his head to look at him, making the other man almost flinch.

“Should I stop?”

Silence again. Aaron’s face has changed into something else that Ace still can’t identify.

“No, just��” Aaron takes a step closer, and he doesn’t make noise as he moves. Ace stops making noise as he shifts on the table. Of course. Aaron’s brother wouldn’t make clicking noises just because he’s moving. That wouldn’t make sense. “It’s like it doesn’t fucking hurt you, holy shit,” Aaron mutters under his breath, and Ace tilts his head.

It doesn’t hurt him.

Good to know.

Aaron grabs a piece some fabric from a red box, and the grabs his leg. It’s not his first time being touched. Of course. That would be strange. So Ace doesn’t flinch, don’t make any noise, doesn’t try to bite his brother. If Aaron screams and steps back, that’s just because he’s being a little strange.

He tells Ace that he should stop bleeding after his leg is bandaged. So it stops once it is.

He tells Ace he should get up and Ace tries. It takes a little bit for him to get the hang of standing with one leg. He learns he has to lean on something.

Aaron’s face has changed again. Ace doesn’t think he looks so not-good anymore. It’s still not a smile, though.

His brother pushes him, out of curiosity, he says. Only he’s allowed to do it, he says. Ace falls, hitting his head on the way down. It doesn’t hurt. He doesn’t even feel it until Aaron asks him if he noticed. And then he starts bleeding there as well.

It’s complicated.

Aaron does a lot of things to him. It’s a very educational night. Ace learns what fear is, and that he should feel it when his brother is angry. He doesn’t learn what anger is yet. It’s not an emotion for him. That’s what Aaron says.

He needs Aaron to tell him everything.

Otherwise, how is he supposed to know what he is? Things have become very complicated since the last time he woke up.

He has so much to learn. And all the time in the world to do so. First of all, however, the one thing he can’t seem to forget, the one thing he has to attend to before anything else…

Ace is hungry.

[another-danganronpa-fan]

Adding on to my DRDT Heathers AU????

Admittedly I've had this AU in my drafts for a really long time and finally decided to post it one day to clean out my drafts. But seeing someone make art for it has made me plunge into obsession once again.

OKKK SO!!! Since @ccrisntok made art of the Heathers AU recently (I seriously can't thank them enough, they're super talented so please check their page out!!) and added some things which I thought made so much sense, I've decided to expand on the Heathers AU a little bit as well with things I realized after I clicked post!! Consider this like a part 2 LOL -Everything that @/ccrisntok said in their post is canon to this AU now LOL (and they made some really good points too), including but not limited to Eden liking Arei, Xander outing Eden by accident, Arturo's red bowtie being the red scrunchie, Ace and Levi lying about Xander beating them up, and Levi being more of a "bodyguard" -Xander is someone who wants to hold on to the past as said in his bonus episode, so this fits well with Veronica, who wishes things would go back to they way they were when everyone was young. -During Fight for Me, I can kinda imagine Teruko and Ace absolutely going for each other's throats while Levi's kinda just there to make sure Ace doesn't die. This one's more of a joke and is optional to the AU LOL

-Teruko genuinely cared for Xander. So if in this AU the events in the killing game like Xander betraying Teruko never happened, and all the stuff with Chariton never happened, I think Teruko would still like Xander more than everyone else.

-Teruko was already distrusting of others even before the killing game. In Prologue EP 4, we see her asking Xander something like "What reason do we have to trust one another?" Considering that Westerburg High isn't exactly welcoming or kind, seeing all the bullying around her might drive her to act more like her Chapter 2 self. Instead of thinking "Even my best friend in the killing game betrayed me. I can't get close to anyone because of my luck and people will always end up betraying me", her thought process might end up like "Look at all this bullying and betrayal in this stupid school. No one here has been trustworthy or been kind towards me except Xander." -Adding on to that, Xander says to Teruko that he chooses to trust everyone there. Just like how Veronica sees the good in everyone. -Teruko's luck. Her luck would probably be a factor in this AU. Like @/ccrisntok said, it would explain why her life was so messed up and she was constantly moving school to school before meeting Xander. At the end, by blowing herself up, she could say to Xander something like: "After I make sure I die, I hope all this chaos in the school will finally stop." Or something like that. She might believe her luck influenced all the deaths and chaos, when in reality, her mindset, which she had BECAUSE of her luck and the people around her, was the true reason.

-I think the reason Teruko's a loner like JD would be 1: The same reason as JD, who didn't want to get attached to anyone, and 2: because she's canonically in a lot of debt and had to constantly move. -Even though Teruko can't die for some reason, I think being directly blown up by a bomb would probably end her. She might also say something like: "I committed all these murders, and I'm facing the consequences.", since while she says that murders should have consequences in Chapter 2, she's also pulled a knife on Charles and held said knife to J's throat. In this AU, Arturo, Ace, and Levi would've hurt the only person that's shown her kindness. She'd probably go for their heads. -Arei's development (credit to artist tagged above)!! Since she has it pretty rough in this AU, she'd think of Arturo and David as her first friends, even if they're not close like her and Eden here. She might still consider them friends who've protected her from being bullied just because they're popular. So like the development she got in the killing game, she would start to soften up after making friends, while she'd still be a bully because her friends aren't kind either. That changes after meeting Eden, which makes Arei realize that to be truly happy with her friends, she needs to act kind and be with good people. Since her sisters were still around, she didn't feel like she was in control yet, so she wasn't like how she was in canon DRDT.

-Xander's prone to getting into fights. Not physical fights, but his hot-blooded and emotional nature makes him get into a lot of arguments. He also stands up for people, which makes sense for that pool scene where Veronica says she doesn't want to be with the Heathers anymore. ("What's your damage, Arturo?" ykyk) -What drives Teruko to completely blow up the school would be Xander's fake death. She was already gonna do it, but seeing Xander "dead" would destroy her. He was the only one she could trust, after all. I think JD knew Veronica was faking her suicide, but in this AU either Xander was so convincing she didn't realize he faked his death or Teruko didn't notice in a moment of panic. She'd say something like "You were all I could trust..." or "Of course my luck made this happen."

-Since Xander has kind of a "saving the day" attitude, it'd match Veronica deciding to kill both herself and JD during Dead Girl Walking (Reprise) to save the rest of the school.

[tumblasha]

why was i like that (tl;dr in tags)

today i clicked on sgc's ig profile and saw that they use they/them pronouns now. and it makes me want to cry.

bc even tho we Literally went to high school together-ish (they were 3yrs after me?) we had such different experiences.

i was a Girl who hung out with guys who didn't respect me, went out with a boyfriend who was nice to me, and was too shy / awkward / busy being that shy nerd stereotype [1] that i had no "deep friendship". you could ask anyone anything about me and they wouldn't know the answer! and i wouldn't know anything about them!! [2] bc we were a small class (169) and everyone in town was a mix of neighbor and cousin, i got my invites to parties and dances, but i overall felt like i was on autopilot. i don't remember my life until i was ~16 [3]!! why!!!

i think a lot about how dr uju anya had a whole husband and child but over time realized she was a lesbian. not to parasocialize too much with this academic weapon, but i feel like i also had this experience (to a much smaller / younger degree). and i feel so sad thinking about how i could've saved so much pain in high school if i had just known i wasn't wired to like guys like that [4].

and i remember lindie [5], someone who's ~30 now and has been with her now-husband since she was ~13. one day we had a good phone call (post-hs-graduation) and she told me that for literally everyone else she could possibly see romantically / sexually, she's a lesbian. but she and her husband have literally Grown Up together. her love for him is something that goes beyond platonic / romantic / sexual attraction. it's a life partnership in every sense of the term.

this phone conversation lit a lightbulb in my summer 2019 brain. i knew that this high school bf of mine could be a life partner. we started dating when i was 11 or 12 and !!! we both saw each other grow up (at least to some degree). but something in the pit of my stomach told me i couldn't live a lie like that. it wouldn't be fair to him for me to have this self-discovery and just .. continue as if it didn't happen?

and so when someone said that dr. uju's pre-lesbian marriage was "sad" bc she didn't know she was a lesbian, i got (in my head) defensive. bc "it's totally possible to be happy and ignore this part of yourself!" (it's not).

for the longest time i told myself that being bisexual was the easiest sexuality to have bc i knew i liked women and i could always just end up with a guy to make my family happy, if i had to, ya know? i got mentally defensive when ppl online said that "invisibility is not a privilege" and "biphobia is real" bc i was subconsciously using this label as a way to hide the fact that the mere thought of a life with a man made me anxious / nauseous / scared.

and boy did that fear kick into overdrive anytime i was around a guy. if he even smiled at me, i'd go a little silly. it didn't even matter if he was straight, bi, ace, gay, or anything, i'd just latch onto the fact that it was a Man talking to me and i couldn't stop thinking about them and any comment they made that made them seem bored / annoyed at me made me spiral about my self-worth. but if there was ever a case that i Thought they even Maybe had an interest in me, i'd get nauseous again. to this day i feel like i still put guys up on a pedestal so i just have ... no guy friends [6].

this novel is a silly way of saying the following things.

the label "lesbian" is a vibe rn

heartstopper is a painful show for me to watch

sorry if ur a guy i met before i turned 20 that i was weird around : ( /nbh

sgc looks so happy. they're out and they look so happy. why couldn't that be me.

why was i like that.

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[1] i had a goofy jock bf tho so was it really so bad?

[2] and to a certain degree this continues today? i don't know how to hold a conversation, i don't know how to ask questions, i don't have good memory of the conversations i Do manage to hold, my #1 fear is playing the newlyweds game with literally anybody. i once described making friends as 'learning a person's scripts / common conversation topics' and the other person in the room just kinda said 'haha yeah...' and i continued to pset :skull:

[3] and 16-17 was my sad era where i cried basically any time my bf and i were alone together. that man was so patient w me lmao

[4] why do i always say no? why can't i just calm down? why is it weird to describe us as 'friends but we also make out'?

[5] one of the coolest ppl i know. (death + suicide mentioned in this footnote) she was the french teacher that replaced my old french teacher after she died, and lindie really suffered for us. bc it was a catholic school, she was forced to cover up her tattoos, and she had to wear longer clothes (admin always told her to cover up even when she was wearing Long Clothes). she went through so much (miscarriage, lost here sense of self, etc.) and was literally suicidal but she still showed up for us. one of my fav teachers and an inspiration to this day.

[6] except for the two dudes (that might be) reading this, y'all are cool and literally the best. afaik i've been Normal around y'all so yay! growth!!

[thearcher1003]

how did you know you were aro?

I don't know what I am gonna type out here or even if it will make sense. A lot has happened in the last 3 years since the time I started to question my sexuality. I will try to put it into words and keep it short (I did not in fact keep it short and I am sorry for that but you don't have to read through this messy story).

So first, my exposure to queer media. During lockdown I started reading Percy Jackson books where they mentioned the hunters of Artemis, one of the conditions to join them is that you have to take an oath to turn your back on company of men and any kind of romantic approach from any gender or sexuality. I found that idea interesting and I thought to myself how hard could that be, if that's the condition I would happily join them in an instant? When scrolling through some posts about hunters of Artemis I came across the term aro/ace. At that time I didn't think much of it. I never had a crush on anyone and I always thought it was because I was too young to be interested in romance (I was 14 at the time) and assumed that everyone my age was like that, note that it was lockdown so I wasn't going to school which is why I didn't know about the crushes and romantic interests of kids my age. So, the whole lockdown was the time when I became very interested in the queer community, I saw several posts on pinterest regarding this and made a board and thought of myself as merely an ally.

Then schools opened and there were couples all around. I was like gotta focus on studies, don't have time for this, blah blah blah. Also, that year a lot of other shit happened and the pressure of exams and getting good grades was taking toll on my mental health. I was too busy breaking down every other day because of that pressure to think about anything else.

Anyways that shit passed, I was in 11th grade and then came the real sexuality crisis. Some new students transferred to our school and one of them became really close friend. She got a boyfriend and started spending more time with him (which is bound to happen I know now but past me was experiencing it all for the first time) and I felt left out because now we were spending less time together and even when we were together she mostly talked about him. Tbh I was jealous and I thought this was a crush. I thought I liked her (romantically) and I thought a lot about the whole "turn your back on company of men" and came to the conclusion that I am not interested in men still and not even women but just her. That's when I also learnt about demiromanticism and it did click a lot of things in place for me. Like I always thought that the idea of love at first sight was unrealistic when it was shown in movies and questioned how can you fall in love without knowing a person properly and also believed that you need to be really close to a person to actually know them, so overall that term resonated with me. I knew I was asexual but at this point I started to dive more into the concept of aromanticism and the whole spectrum. I was convinced that I had a crush on her. Again a lot of shit happened and I realised that it wasn't a crush, my feelings weren't romantic, it was purely platonic and I was jealous because I became very close with her and suddenly the focus of our friendship shifted from us to him, I was very emotionally attached to her as well because I haven't had a friendship like that in a long time so when she became entirely focused on her boyfriend, I felt like an outsider. It took me a whole ass year to figure this out. And in between that time I gaslighted myself into thinking that I had a crush on this another guy because she asked me if I did and I thought this is what a crush must feel like so I said yes. But as I talked more to that guy, I just, idk how to describe it but it was not exactly comfortable for me, as long as we were having a normal convo about our interests I was fine and actually talked happily but when he started to flirt and I imagined myself in a romantic relationship with him, it felt weird to me, it was not something I wanted, it was just ugh. Anyways, what I realised from that time with that guy is that what I thought was romantic attraction was just me being excited to interact with a human being who was actually interested in me and gave attention to me (you can blame my childhood for that). I also kind of realised that it was how I felt about my friend. But it was more difficult for me to distinguish between romantic attraction and a wish to have a close friendship in her case because I was already emotionally attached to her. End of the story, a series of very chaotic events and break downs lead to me realising that I only wanted her as a close friend, I couldn't imagine myself in a romantic relationship with her and I was only bothered by her having a boyfriend because it momentarily threatened the close bond that we had formed. Now, everything is fine (more or less), there is more clarity between us and we are still very close. During this mess I also questioned if I was poly but I figured I am not. There's more to this crisis but I have already written a LOT so not going into the chaotic details. Sorry for making it so long.

(Edit: One more thing I realised about myself is that I was always so unaware about the supposedly romantic interactions of allos around me unless it was really obvious, blatant or put right into my face. Like even when my best friend and her boyfriend were in the flirting stage I didn't realise they were actually flirting, I just thought they were close friends and that was pretty normal thing for friends to do, so, yeah this realisation had a great hand in me figuring out I am aro. Thinking of romance in other people's life is fine but when it comes to me I find it hard) So sorry for making the post even lengthier :/

[torterragarden]

For character ask, forgive me if you've done this one already- uhhh how about Leon?

Surprisingly I don't think I have done this for him yet lol so thank you!

First impression: That is. a really ugly outfit. He's a bit obnoxious but hopefully he grows on me

Impression now: Well fuck he sure grew on me and now he's my favorite Champion lol. I just think what Leon represents in the story is really cool and he's definitely one of the better things about swsh as a whole. Having him be your rival/bestie's older brother adds a really interesting layer both to your relationship with Leon and your relationship with Hop, the way he parallels the player and is basically a different version of us, like the protag we never got to play as, the way he's almost the hero of the story but isn't actually, because his story is ending as yours is beginning. It's just really neat! I like how much build up he gets throughout the game so when you finally get to battle him it actually feels really cool, and whoever decided his battle theme should be a remix of the hall of fame theme has the biggest brain at Gamefreak it really elevates the whole event even more. And okay, his outfit isn't actually that bad, I actually like the shirt and I had my protag wear it a lot in the game, I've come to realize that the problem with Leon's outfit is really just the cape. I get that it's supposed to look tacky but god it's really ugly and clashes with everything else. When he takes the cape off the outfit is Fine. Not amazing but like it's Fine

Favorite moment: There's a lot of subtle moments with Leon that I like but my favorite is. a bit hard to explain. It's when you're supposed to fight him the first time, right before we get interrupted by Rose starting the apocalypse or whatever, and Leon says this to you: "The tense, still air on the pitch... And the exact opposite from the audience, cheering and yelling... They're both fantastic, wouldn't you say? But remember, the audience is also a bit cruel... They want nothing more than to see one of us lose, after all! It can fill you with fear knowing that, but I absolutely love pushing past the fear. I love giving it everything I've got as a Trainer and seeing my team give everything they've got to seize another victory! It's the greatest feeling in the world, and I can't get enough of it!" I really can't explain why even to myself, but it was reading these lines that really made Leon click into place for me and when I realized. Oh I do like him a lot actually. But yeah I couldn't tell you why

Idea for a story: One day I'm gonna write about his and Sonia's Gym Challenge. One day

Unpopular opinion: Leon's ace being Charizard does make sense. I didn't like it at first either but that's cause I didn't get it. Leon is meant to be us, and a lot of us started with gen 1 and Charizard was the most popular starter, so Leon has a Charizard. Yeah it's still pandering, but at least it's pandering with thematic purpose so I've come around on it. Let the man have his Charizard

Favorite relationship: Him and Hop are very sweet of course though a bit sad at the start of the game, also his relationship with Sonia is really interesting and leaves so much room for interpretation and headcanons, I really wish it had been explored more in the actual game but that's swsh for you I guess lol. Also applies to his relationships with Raihan and Nessa. At least we have Masters for all that

Favorite headcanon: Leon's Charizard knows Ancient Power, which is a move Charmander can only learn through breeding, so I like to think his Charmander was a gift from Sonia when they were kids, she bred it to know Ancient Power and Leon never replaced that move

[fraeuleintaka]

AAIC: Basic Game Structure

This is the 25th post in the Ace Attorney Investigations Collection Countdown: 56 days left until release!

Today's topic: the Basic Game Structure!

I've talked a lot about all the new and improved stuff we will be getting for the Investigations Collection with a lot of these informations and pictures coming from the official website. However, that's not the only thing the website delivers on. It also talks a lot about the Investigations games in general including the basic game structure which I want to focus on for today. (I actually didn't even see this page initially because I didn't see the button you could click to get there 😄)

It totally makes sense to me why they included this because with Investigations' status as a spin-off it doesn't automatically follow what the gameplay would look like. Not to mention that I love these kinds of accessoires! Even if I know all of this already, I love reading this kind of stuff and the way it's presented here with these beautiful optics!

They differentiate between three major parts of gameplay: Investigation, Logic and Confrontation (colour-coded for your convenience in white, blue and red). Apart from the fact that you physically walk around (which makes it a lot more fun) the Investigation works similar to the main series (talking to everyone and looking at everything) though they do specifically mention the deduction mechanic where you point out contradictions directly at the crime scene (also a lot of fun). These titles aren't called "Investigations" for nothing and I love how they made the investigation part of the gameplay a lot more hype than the main series ever did!

Even though Logic is separated here, in the game it's part of the investigation phase. Miles keeps track of several pieces of information that are relevant to the case, you connect the pieces in a way that makes sense (and looks totally fancy!) and obtain new information that brings you closer to the solution of all the mysteries. It's Miles' "superpower" or gimmick like the Magamata, Perceive or Mood Matrix. There have been many memes about it but I have to be honest, it's my favourite of the bunch (until Logic Chess was introduced, at least). I love how it doesn't rely on magic mumbo-jumbo or any other mystical trick/special ability, it's just Miles' stellar thinking turned into a gameplay mechanic. It's also a lot of fun and makes me feel especially clever when I can form these conclusions directly without having to rely on other characters to point them out to me (something I dearly miss in the other games in the series where the latter occurence is a frequent annoyance). I also just get an unreasonable amount of joy out of the implication that the Edgeworths (as Gregory shares the ability in Investigations 2) are the only ones in the entire AA universe who can use basic logic. Not to mention the wonderful reactions from other characters when Miles does it or they want him to do it, especially Gumshoe and Kay, it's hilarious!

Strangely enough, Logic Chess (or Mind Chess, as it's officially called now) - Miles' second ability or "superpower" he gets in Investigations 2 - isn't talked about in this section at all. Maybe they consider it "too special" to put under "Basic Game Structure"? They certainly advertised it in the trailer so I'd think they'd put it on the website as well.

The last part is the Confrontation which is essentially cross-examinations just outside of the courtroom. I've heard people criticize that this takes away from the tension because you don't have a judge threatening to hand down a verdict at any moment but I don't really agree. It's very rare that this feels like a genuine threat in the main series and not just obligatory background noise to establish our stakes. It's also not like Investigations doesn't establish similar stakes with Miles' rivals similarly threatening him (or whoever is currently under suspicion) with arrest (or when you corner the culprit the threat is them getting away). The aforementioned are actually two points I prefer about the Investigations style: Firstly, since you don't have an obligatory defendant the story isn't forced to create a murder with a seemingly obvious culprit which gives more variety in possible scenarios (and removes the usually suitably nice and sad defendant character of whom I'm rarely a fan). If someone specific does get accused, it's much easier to switch to a new suspect when the evidence changes enough making the case flow much more naturally, something the main series frequently struggles with (your defendant can still be declared guilty even if by that point you've already proven they couldn't possibly have done it). Secondly, Investigations has you much more directly argue with your rivals, witnesses and suspects without the need to go through any third party. I love how this puts more focus on the individual characters you confront and especially how it frees the rivals of any unnecessary association with incompetent witnesses (whose flimsy claims prosecutors frequently have to defend in the main series which makes them look similarly incompetent). Not that that makes the main series style overall bad, on the contrary, but the Investigations style has some pretty clear strengths.

In combination Investigations' gameplay creates insanely fun and dynamic cases. I love how flexible the structure is and how easily it can switch between Investigation and Confrontation segments whenever it wants. It's certainly not an insignificant reason for why I love the Investigations games so much.

[kamorth]

This all happened around the time I was in my mid-30s and just figuring out my own asexuality. I had identified as bi since 16 (no attraction to anyone is still equal attraction to everyone so with the limited language I had in the 90s it was the only thing that made any sense to me) and finding the Aspec labels had me feeling like a teenager again. Not always in a good way. My now QPP had explained that he was ace and researching to try to understand him better had me doing the whole "but that's normal, isn't it? NO ONE gets the cartoon hubba hubba effects, it's a logical choice based on merit and compatibility, right? Right?" thing but eventually I got it through my head and had my OH moment. Then I did it again with aromanticism.

Now I'm SUPER happy and making leaps and bounds in mental health recovery. I stopped hating myself after 3 decades of deep self loathing. I finally make sense to myself.

That almost never happened because of this shit. I had so much internalized garbage I had to work through (a lot of it is still on this blog because sometimes I like to go back and remind myself how far I've come) and the whole "queer is a slur" thing ALMOST caught me (newsflash from 2014 for anyone who missed it: EVERYTHING WE CALL OURSELVES IS A SLUR BECAUSE THE BIGOTS TAKE OUR WORDS AND USE THEM AS INSULTS. IF YOU BAN A WORD FOR BEING A SLUR THEN SUDDENLY WE CAN'T TALK ABOUT OUR EXPERIENCES AT ALL AND THEY FUCKING WIN THAT IS THE WHOLE POINT OF THAT CAMPAIGN STOP DOING THEIR WORK FOR THEM ALREADY FFS PEOPLE!) but enough people who were much more experienced with this kind of bigotry kept yelling and some of it made its way to my dash and omfg the LANDSLIDE of deprogramming that started in my head was unreal.

I started really looking, like REALLY looking hard, for the logic behind these "reasonable" sounding arguments like protect the children and some people might get triggered if you use that word and it's just straight white girls wanting to feel special and OMG THEY'RE INVADERS AND RESOURCE THIEVES and the harder I dug, the less those things held up. How is "some people never want to have sex and that's okay" any more dangerous for children than "sometimes two adults have sex to make a baby"? If I had been told that as a kid I probably never would have had sex at all. I was just trying to prove I wasn't broken, so if I had never felt broken to begin with... As far as triggers go, I absolutely cannot handle certain kinds of kittens at a specific age. There is a very good reason but if I try to talk about it (even in conversations about what causes triggers) I get accused of trauma dumping so just trust me. Anything can be a trigger. We need to be able to communicate anyway so do what I do when people post dumps of kittens. Fucking suck it up and accept that it's not a personal attack and take it in context and get the fuck over it. Every. Single. Argument. They had just completely collapsed under any kind of scrutiny. Think about it for longer than it takes to scroll down the post to click reblog and it just utterly disintegrates.

But they never stopped. It didn't end. Once the arguments had all been rebutted to the point where they didn't have a single post that wasn't shot down in the notes, they just shifted targets and started again. They jumped to "pansexuality is biphobic" and then drove that all the way back to 1996 with "bi girls are just straight girls who want to invade gay bars and bi boys are just gay cowards" so that they could demonize bi people too. Then when that got old (quickly, they recycled stuff too soon and were using it on a burned audience) they jumped back on the TERF bandwagon that had been running and picking up steam the entire time.

It's the same garbage arguments from the same garbage people every single time, but that means they get a lot of practice with them. There's always a new audience somewhere.

Thank you to all the people, like those in the thread above me, who keep shouting about this crap. You are the reason I know better now. I was never a TERF but they almost got me a couple of times and people like you are the reason they didn't. Your posts and your ranting and raging and righteous wrath does work.

I don't think younger/newer users fully grasp the shit show that ace discourse was around 2014-17

It was so hostile that, to this day, discussions that begin to derail just enough can make me physically nauseous, some specific mockery trigger crying sessions years later. We lost most accounts with any sort of ace positivity. There was no information, no support, and all this damage was done predominantly by other queer people.

All this to say that you, however you identify yourself, should be engaging with aphobic comments the same way you do any hate. We don't sugarcoat or try to be comprehensive with people who are blatantly racist, homophobic or terfs, so why give it a pass just because it's coming from a queer person? I see how this tolerance goes and it's done enough damage as it is.

[thisbravegirl]

A couple weeks ago, I was evicted from my apartment. I had been having issues with the landlords and (especially) the property manager there. God had been warning me about them for a while, but I continuously prayed for them to be convicted about what they were doing and repent and turn. I waited for a really long time for God to move and to move them to confession and repentance.

Unfortunately, they never repented for being dishonest with me and my money or for harassing me about money I did not owe.

When it was getting closer and closer to them finally evicting me, I started feeling this darkness in the house that just would not lift. I prayer walked that house day and night. Prayed as I would cross the threshold. Prayed over every entrance and exit of the house. Blasted worship music as loud as I could stand it. Sang over the house. Anointed the house with oil.

The darkness just never lifted.

That whole time I was dealing with that situation, I thought God was either going to allow me to buy the condo out from under the landlords or that He would give me new landlords. I waited for that for months. The eviction was a total ugly surprise as I thought the possibility of that had come and gone and that I would be staying there for a while longer.

Now, I've had a couple weeks to think and process, and I am wondering if the property manager and/or landlords put some sort of curse or hex or spell on the apartment and that's why things felt so dark.

I had also suspected that they were coming in the house while I wasn't there and messing with things so they wouldn't work right.

I don't have proof of any of it really, but I know things were breaking and changing and I would come in and it would just feel like someone had been in there.

I'd had an issue with the AC last summer that seemed to have gotten fixed sometime in January, and then when things started getting really bad, the problem returned. Of course, there could be other reasons for why that happened, but since I was getting ugly messages and texts and couldn't trust these people, it just made me wonder if they were messing with the house and trying to mess with me.

While I am dealing with a lot of disappointment and confusion and heartbreak and anger, I do feel like God allowed the eviction to happen to deliver me from evil. He gave those people a very long time to admit to their dishonest and unprofessional actions and to repent and turn, and they didn't. A close friend was telling me it could be like a Sodom and Gamorrha situation and that God was going to let that place be destroyed and He got me out just in time so that I would be spared.

With that in mind, I have been wondering if there were dark practices occurring there and God was rescuing me by allowing me to be evicted. It doesn't all totally make sense, and I really am dealing with a lot of heaviness and sadness and anger that God would let it come to that. It's hard to see the whole picture or fully understand why it all happened. I'm not at all 100% okay, but I know there is a purpose to all of it.

And I am getting ready to go on a mission trip to a place where there are people living in spiritual darkness or possession or messing with witchcraft, and I am trying to break down a lot of things about the "powers and principalities" in our dark world, and I was just thinking that maybe that house was covered in darkness by the time I left and that's why the darkness wasn't lifting.

I've been wanting to talk about it for a while because I really do need prayers over my spiritual health after living there, and I need miracles and breakthrough in my finances and favor in looking for a place to live when I get back from my mission trip in August.

I just haven't known exactly how to talk about this, and I was just reading out spiritual warfare and that just clicked and I just needed to get it out of my head.

[persimmono]

🌷pick a card: your next relationship🌷

Hey guys! Choose a Pandora Hearts character from the image above using a method that works for you to find out who you are dating next. Pile one is Xerxes Break (my one and only), pile two is Liam Lunettes, and pile three is the beloved Sharon Rainsworth. Once you’ve picked, click/tap keep reading and find your pile to read the interpretation. Hope you enjoy :D

Pile 1: Xerxes Break

Wheel of Fortune, Ace of Cups, Knight of Pentacles, 7 of Wands, Ace of Wands, 8 of Swords on bottom

Right now, you may be in a place of mental anguish- you might feel stuck or trapped and needing to rest. But your luck will change, perhaps during a Saturn return, and you will fall in love with someone patient, hardworking, cautious, and meticulous. They could be a Virgo or have significant Virgo placements. They are a bit stubborn and persistent- boundaries will be important for you guys. They are creative and passionate as well. They may also have Jupiter placements in their chart.

Chemistry, Reunion, Reconnection on bottom

The two of you will work well with each other, and they are likely someone you already know. They could be someone that you’ve known in the past. 

4 of Wands, 6 of Cups, King of Swords, 2 of Cups on bottom

There will be stability and emotional understanding in this connection. Someone in the relationship, likely your person, will be very logical and pragmatic as well. Their love language could be acts of service. They will like authenticity and being honest with you. They may have Aquarius placements in their chart. Again, you two might have a history...childhood friends or previous lovers is possible. 

Magnolia, Primrose on bottom

Your person seems very refined. They have good self-esteem and they carry themselves with self-respect. They feel very committed and stable. They aren’t someone that likes to flake out...a more serious energy. Despite this, they are romantic and will feel a lot of love for you. Spring might be important for you guys for some reason. 

The Rider, The Moth, The Heart, The Key, The Fish on bottom

You may ask them out or have a conversation, a question for them, something like that...and they will want to tell you that they are finally open to love as a response. 

Song:  Who by Lauv ft. BTS

Thanks for stopping by! 🌻

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Pile 2: Liam Lunettes

The Tower, 10 of Swords, 10 of Wands, Ace of Cups, 10 of Cups, 6 of Wands on bottom

You guys will fall in love with your next person after a massive event in your life. Something will be shaken up abruptly and lead to a major ending. It will be something that made you feel heavily burdened and maybe even abandoned. After this happens, you will meet someone new that will pour all of their love and care into you. They will make you feel like you belong and like they are the ultimate wish fulfillment. There’s an abundance of love and support in this relationship- it will definitely be a victory for you. I wouldn’t be surprised if they are the type to hype you up as well. You or your person may have Pluto placements. 

Gladiola, Bellflower on bottom

Your person will admire your strength for persevering through this sudden ending, and they will be grateful to have you in their life. You two will also share little moments of joy together and really appreciate the small things. I’ll share the quotes written on the cards as well: 

“Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet. Only through experiences of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, vision cleared, ambition inspired, and success achieved.” - Helen Keller

“Gratitude makes sense of our past, brings peace for today, and creates a vision for tomorrow.” -Melody Beattie

4 of Cups, 10 of Pentacles, Queen of Pentacles, Knight of Cups on bottom

You may sink into an apathy of sorts because of this ending, but your person will nurture you in a practical yet romantic way. They may be very financially stable as well. They could have Capricorn and Pisces placements. 

Boundaries, Divine Intervention on bottom 

Make sure to be mindful of your boundaries and their boundaries in the relationship. Know that whatever ended for you could have been the universe redirecting you to something better and more suited for you. 

The Bouquet, The Ship, The Bear, The Heart on bottom

Your person will be a gift that only wants to protect you. They may look after you from afar. They will have a lot of love for you. 

Song: Clouds by Before You Exit

Thanks for stopping by! 🌸

Pile 3: Sharon Rainsworth

9 of Swords, Ace of Swords, The Emperor, Page of Wands, The Hanged Man, Two of Swords on bottom

You’ll be in a place of anxiety and worry before you date your next person. Something will be on your mind, maybe you’ll just have a lot on your plate. This is when your person will send you a message or an offer. They’ll try to strike up a conversation with you. It’ll be something quick, passionate, and potentially flirty. They’ll just want to talk with you, but you will sit on it and contemplate this person before doing anything. You’ll feel a bit conflicted and stagnate on their advances/offers. Your energy will be hesitant while theirs will be confident, passionate, and enthusiastic. They could have Aries and Pisces placements. 

King of Cups, Knight of Wands, 8 of Cups, Queen of Swords on bottom 

They are someone that is emotionally mature, yet energetic and optimistic at the same time. They likely have water and fire heavy placements in their chart. Despite their efforts, you will want to run and abandon the whole thing altogether. You’ll be more cold and keen on listening to your logical mind while they tune into their emotional side. Scorpio, Sagittarius, and Libra energy. 

Honeysuckle, Hibiscus, Violet on bottom 

They’ll think that you are beautiful and pretty. The relationship, despite some uncertainty at the beginning, will be full of love and commitment. You two will be supportive of each other and the energy is almost doting- very sweet. You may be a bit on the shy and quiet side, accepting their affection with modesty and humility. 

One-Sided Love, Retreat, Soul-to-Soul Connection on bottom 

You may have dealt with a one-sided situation in the past, so when your next person approaches you, you will back away out of fear. You just don’t want to be hurt again. This explains the hesitancy on your part at the beginning of the relationship. However, there’s no reason to worry. You’ll connect with this person on a deeper level. 

The Sun, The Fox, The Bouquet, The House on bottom 

Either you’re going to try to sneak away from happiness and all this person has to offer, or they are going to try to clarify something by offering a clever/sneaky gift. 

Song: Magic Shop by BTS

Thanks for stopping by! 🌿

[batmanisagatewaydrug]

Hey sex witch, I'm ace and this has made it really hard to lose my virginity. Bc I have an entirely different mental and emotional perception of sex than most. I honestly don't even know where to start with flirting. Additionally, I don't enjoy kissing and find trying new things to be v stressful. But this is something that I really want to try and see if a few times down the line i might really like it. After all I do have a high libido and a fascination with porn. I just don't see PEOPLE as attractive and not many people want to sleep with someone not attracted to them unless its a quick easy fuck. But with no experience I cannot be either of those things. I'm also just afraid to be bad at it. Any advise?

hi anon,

you've given me sooooo much to parse through here and I'm going to have to say a lot of words to address it all, and I just want to say right off the bat that if at any point I sound mean that is not my intent and everything I say comes from a place of care and concern.

now, having said that:

right off the bat I'm gonna say that based on what you're telling me, I think you should probably just... maybe not worry too much about having sex right now. it sounds like several points are causing significant stress and anxiety for you, and that's really not a great headspace in which to be exploring that. "I want to make myself power through it so I can learn to like it eventually" is great for like... eating veggies, or taking yoga classes, or reading Judith Butler. you know, things that won't have any real negative lasting impact? but I cannot in good conscience recommend that anybody takes up a new sexual activity in the hopes that they'll learn to like it eventually, especially not when that's your very first experience with having sex ever. that's a really great way to build up really negative sexual baggage really fast.

generally speaking, I advocate for holding out on sex until you're a good nervous - butterflies in tummy excitement nervous, not stressed out afraid don't think I'll like it nervous.

"but Makenzie," you're saying, "I have a high libido!" hey, that's awesome. you know what's also awesome? jacking off. jacking off is great and comes with none of the anxiety or potential pitfalls of partnered sex that you're not yet emotionally prepared for.

"but I'm fascinated by porn," you say, and that's also fine. you know what I like? stories about people having absolutely fucking harrowing life-threatening adventures. that absolutely does not mean that I'd do well in one of those situations or want to seek one out. dear god, I love living vicariously and watching other people do things that I'm not equipped to do. knife fights are sooooo sexy but I am NOT the right person to be having one. I'm a little baby who's afraid of getting stabbed. the same can absolutely be true of sex. hell, it is for tons of people - lots of people like porn and erotica depicting situations they'd never want to find themselves in for real, ranging from tentacle shit to getting ravaged by a pirate who definitely kidnapped you to whatever is going on over in the omegaverse.

now, having said all of that, I think it's also crucial to talk about a vital aspect to having partnered sex: a partner. that's kind of vital, and I want to talk about how you're conceptualizing potential sexual partners, because my beloved anon - I think it sort of sucks.

you mentioned that you're not attracted to other people, to which I say - what, not at all? there aren't people that you feel drawn to, that you enjoy spending time with, who you want to be around and get to know better? sexual attraction is one thing, and it's fine and dandy if that's not a thing you experience! but there must be something you like about some people that makes them seem like someone who could potentially make for a good sexual partner - someone who has a particularly great sense of humor, or who's really open-minded and patient, somebody who you really click with in other ways whose own sexual proclivities make you wonder if they might not be interested in exploring something with you.

if you've never encountered someone like that - genuinely awesome! if you've never met anyone that you think might be a good sexual partner then I'm ecstatic that you've never had sex! and if you have and the opportunity didn't arise - hey, no worries. your genitals aren't going anywhere, which is another reason why I really strongly recommend waiting until a time when the whole prospect seems a little less daunting.

you mention that no one wants to sleep with someone not attracted to them, but I have a follow up question - what are you bringing to a potential partner? again, sexual attraction is optional, but being, like, a bearable person to hang out with isn't. maybe you're not experiencing sexual attraction, but are you an interesting person to talk to? are you funny? do you make an effort to get to know people and their likes and interests? how much of an effort are you making to foster relationships in which sexual compatibility could even be on the table? you're coming at this from an angle of "no one wants to have sex with me because I'm ace," but I'm gonna be real with you - there are a lot of ace people who fuck severely. whether or not anyone is interested in you as a sexual partner has much, much less to do with your sexual orientation infinitely more to do with what you, as a person, are bringing to how you engage with others.

more than anything it involves being willing to speak about your interest and intent, being up front about what's a hard no for you (kissing, for instance) and where your interests lie instead, as well as comparing notes with potential partners to see where your sensibilities overlap. that is, incidentally, how you avoid being "bad at it." I don't really believe anyone is "bad" at sex, because there's not really a single definition of what it means to be "good" at sex - one person's yuck is another person's yum, after all. but you definitely can decided whether or not you want to be a conscientious and attentive partner, and that makes a hell of a lot of difference. if that sounds utterly undoable, that's very useful information - it's a great indicator that you aren't in a place where you should be having partnered sex! again, masturbation is rad, and requires much less communication.

tl;dr: it sounds like sex is a thing that would be much more stressful than fun for you right now, even if the opportunity arose. maybe just focus your attention elsewhere and revisit it if/when it feels less daunting.