#it just really got me in the drawing mood and i love the gals

[schwarzgeier]

Bad bitches Bad bitches

@hummingjay s drawing of the girls got me brainroting so I drew them both as well

Plus a bonus short thingy below cut

[riteliso]

This is a Catra doodle I did a bit ago to make sure my drawing skills didn't COMPLETELY atrophy.

I think since this space is so alien to me I'm fine being up front with my experiences with this show, actually--

I watched the show because I was genuinely fervently rabid with need for lesbians fighting each-other. Rivalries are my favourite kind of romance, and when it's fictional, I'm a "the meaner the better" kinda gal.

I certainly felt an immediate emotional draw to Catra. My first watch through I was so tunnel-visioned on her and Adora's relationship that-- I wasn't checked OUT persay, but whenever Catra wasn't on screen, I was deep in the "where's poochie?" mud.

I am-- a very critical girl. Absolutely to a fault. So, really, I was watching it to fulfill that girlfight sim meter I had that was DANGEROUSLY low. I usually make it a point not to watch things that "get better later," because in my experience, people often LIE when they say that. I, as a published author, (yes I'm being a dickhead and pulling that card even though it means NOTHING,) am under the belief that the start of your story and the end of your story have to hit the hardest.

In this respect, I find myself very happy I was in such a manic and needy mood when I decided to watch spop. I wouldn't have stuck it through if it weren't for that-- the first season isn't BAD by any means, but it's much closer to AVERAGE compared to the rest of the series.

Princess Prom as an episode irreversibly affected my brain. It was so good and got me so hype that I truly, truly, fell in love with a show all at once that, before that point, I had found "overwhelmingly charming." I have plenty of praises for what the series does pre-princess prom, sure-- but that's mostly the extremely thick use of phrases such as "this is what you left me for," "she's just confused," et cetera.

From that point I was glued to the screen, leaning over my desk, watching intently, with a cloying desperation to see how everything would work out in the end. For those who don't know me-- ever since I sort of discovered my gender identity, my "kayfabe" or "persona" for lack of better wording has been very firmly "cartoonishly angry woman who has a taste for evil." I'm sure that already spells out where I'm going with this--

I related to Catra on a level I have truly never related to-- ANYTHING before. While watching I went from a joking "damn, she just like me fr" to a very serious "why is she so-- uncannily similar to me?" The answer I eventually landed on was just- a beautiful kinda accident. There's certainly some level of nature involved-- I do read Catra as extremely bi-polar, but that's heavily supported by my bias as a bi-polar woman who identifies so deeply with her. But the other thing is, we kinda share a lot of DNA when it comes to our, like- dark backstories.

I'm not gonna BORE you with every gory little DETAIL, but both me and Catra's traumatic histories can be simplified into "at the most vulnerable time in our lives, an older woman who we desperately sought praise, attention, and PROTECTION from tired to take away our personhood and domesticate us in the most literal way possible, not respecting us as an individual, but only as a tool, and at best, a pet."

The trauma and the scars that leaves on your soul are-- uniquely identifiable. I think if you take the core idea of "weird angry girl" and put them through that trauma, as long as you're good at character-directed writing, you will end up with something that looks like Catra and I.

And I'm sure you've all come to the conclusion long before I have that yes, I do kin Catra. I didn't know near enough about kinning after watching the show the first time-- or the SECOND time, where I watched it with my wonderful girlfriend-- but after seeing what felt like "prophetic" fan-art one too many times, I had a dream. As in, literally, I had a dream.

In this dream, I was watching the stream of a friend of mine who does not actually exist. However, this theoretical friend was a huge pngtuber who happened to also be a Snufkin Kinnie who was huge in the kinning community. At one point, in this dream, they mention me, not knowing I'm watching their stream. They say something along the lines of--

"Yeah, I have this friend-- and you know, I never push anyone to identify any way, I never diagnose other people, it's rude and unhelpful-- but she is VERY stuck on Catra. Yeah, from She-ra. And, like, again-- it's not my place, I'm not gonna say anything-- but it's so obvious that it's EMBARRASSING."

Waking up from that dream was frustrating for a number of reasons-- the chief of which being that if I didn't know enough about kinning to make a decision, how the FUCK did my brain know enough to make a LITERAL BRUTAL CALLOUT on TWITCH DOT FUCKING TV? But that's neither here nor there--

I had already kinda admitted to myself I saw her as an inspiration-- she was not only very-- ME, but where my frustration came from was that she was acting more ME than I was, because SHE wasn't afraid of people thinking she was a WEIRD FREAK.

And so-- I talked to some friends who knew more about kinning. One friend in particular said not only could she really see it, but that it had come up in her head before, and then when I told her I was considering it partially from the frustration of Catra acting more like me than I was, said--

"Only a Catra kinnie would find out they kin Catra out of spite."

Which is accurate, but jesus, sister, pump the fuckin breaks, let me get ACCLIMATED FIRST

And in classic Catra fashion the second I accepted what I had to and moved forward I was instantly slapped by every stair on the god damn way down-- Not in a cruel way, but I'll admit I woulda put up more resistance to the idea of kinning Catra if I knew the day I told my girlfriend about it we'd run into the information of her middle and last names being "Applesauce Meowmeow." Semi-canon is canon enough for my girl to make fun of me, and that's what matters.

Anyway-- I know that was all REALLY rambly and nothing-- but I felt like typing it all out. It's been a weird year. There was a piece of fanart in particular that I think sparked the dream I had-- where Catra goes to kiss Adora but then fakes her out and licks her nose. I had done that to my girlfriend just days prior to me seeing that for the first time, while we were WATCHING spop. And I'm sure that plenty of antagonistic bratty lesbians do the same, (or I'm entirely off base and it really is just me and Catra but let me cope here alright,) but it really did feel like something turning to me and going: "This is as you as it gets, girlie. People see Catra and they imagine her acting exactly as you do."

I'll end this post on this pearl of cute info about me and my girl:

I bite her and call her chew-toy

She tolerates that and calls me cat-nip

And we love each-other very much.

[okiankeno]

2 Truths 1 Lie Reveal:

TDLR: option 3 was my lie! The first love letter I did lose and never opened until 3 years later (funnily enough, this was from the academic rival's best friend btw) but my second letter, from a girl I knew, I opened right away after finding it. Hence, I lied.

If you would like to learn more about me and the stories behind the options I picked for myself, they're under keep reading!

Most of Smoshblr voted for option two, which everyone dubbed Wattpad fanfic adjacent. It happened lol. I have a long explanation in response to @unknownteapot that I will reiterate here with some edits:

The academic rival was a guy I had a 'crush' on in grade 6 (my last year of elementary school in Canada). I say 'crush' in quotations bc I didn't understand the concept of sexual attraction or romance until the year after. Before understanding sexuality and attraction, I thought that picking the smartest person in the class would make me fall in love or something (spoiler alert: not really). We were compared a lot to each other as overachievers because of the extracurriculars like music and sports that we did, but I never thought we were rivals outside of school.

He and I were pretty good friends too, we ended up going to different junior highs (grades 7-9) but we texted and emailed each other every so often to keep in contact. The summer before high school started, he sent me a flurry of texts pretty much saying "Please go to x school with me, if you do we can date each other" (as if that was like a cool reward for going to the same school as him like??)

He is a nice guy but it was weird to me. He knew that I had a 'crush' on him years ago because I either told him or my best friend told him I can't remember tbh. I have no idea if he liked me tbh it just came out of the blue but what do I know, I miss flirtatious cues a lot so 😔😭😣 oh, and if you are wondering, I did not take up his offer because I thought it was really weird, plus I didn't have feelings for him.

Option one, stopping foreplay because of a joke that I never told my girlfriend? This too, is true.

My girlfriend and I took edibles before nightfall and when I'm high is that I get very bubbly and it's super easy for me to laugh. Additionally, it's very easy for me to get locked in on intimacy — so that's how I found myself in my girlfriend's bed, you know, bodies pressed together (there's a slew of other effects, but these are most integral to this story). But as I was touching her I could not stop thinking about how funny yet unsexy it would be if I cracked a joke. And this thought just kept repeating over and over in my head making me giggle and then into full-blown laughter. So naturally, sexytime had to come to a halt. She asked me what was going on and I told her, "I kept thinking about how funny but unsexy it would be if I made a joke right now," to which she asked, "What was the joke?"

There was no joke, just me laughing in anticipation of potentially making one during sex. Really lame, I know. I ended up getting frustrated at myself for a few minutes (my girlfriend comforted me with, "We don't have to do this right now if you're not in the mood") while we paused but then I locked in and got to home base.

Option 3, unopened love letters! This is my lie! These stories have a lot of sadness carried with them, so if you don't like hearing about heartbreak, prepare yourself!

The first letter, Valentine's Day, I'm the only gal that gets one from this guy. I misplaced it in my bedroom in one of my books and didn't find it again until I deep-cleaned my room three years later. I open it, it's a card that tells me about how cool I am and is filled with Naruto drawings (I doodled a lot of anime characters in class) and a $20 bill. $20 is a lot for an elementary school kid! So, yeah, I missed that signal. My best friend at the time even said to me on the bus home, "Oh I think [guy's name] likes you," and I went hm yeah interesting, not interested (I didn't care for or understand romance at the time - this was grade 6).

Second letter: An anonymously signed love letter was found in my locker in May, a month before I graduated high school. I opened it immediately because I wasn't gonna have a repeat of missing a confession from someone. It's typed in Times New Roman, and signed with an uppercase 'L'. It's from someone I knew because of the details included in the letter. They wanted to confess to me before we graduated but didn't have the courage to do so in person.

I spent a week trying to figure out who this could be, and unfortunately for me, I pegged down the wrong person, someone I had an ongoing crush on for 5 years since junior high, and wrote a letter to him. He reads it. He says it's not from him and he doesn't like me. I'm heartbroken and baffled.

Almost immediately after conversing with my crush, I knew who it was from: the girl who sat beside me in my physics class for the past year. Her last name started with an L, but I never thought it was her, because her words, to me, in the context of my delusional crush on a guy, sounded like him. So in my heartbreak, I write her an emotional reply letter overnight, bringing the one I wrote for my crush as well, and approach her at lunch break.

It's a sunny day, two weeks have passed since getting the letter in my locker, and I bring her to the end of a busy open hallway. She's sitting on the concrete floor, I'm standing above her, letters in hand; everything is bright, but I know the next thirty minutes will be anything but naught. I opened the conversation by telling her I received her letter and by mistake, thought it was from someone else. I let her read the letters. She starts crying, and I do too — she's a very sweet girl and my friend. A teacher walks by and asks if we are OK, and we both are sobbing, saying, "Yeah." We do not look ok.

I felt soo shitty, having heartbroken her heart from my heartbreak, and she tells me she has to write a math exam after this. I still cringe thinking about this story to this day because it fucked me up emotionally and I couldn't sleep right for the rest of the summer. Anyway, I think about the experience and think I could make a Webtoon about it and it probably would pop off because a high school love triangle that's unrequited on all ends? Pain.

Anyways thanks for coming to my story time 🫠✌️

[arukou-arukou]

fic trope rate game: kink edition

tagged by @fohatic

Rate: How much do these tropes affect your decision to click on a fic?

-10 -> very dissuaded

0 - don’t care either way

+10 -> very enticed

nope -> if it’s a hard no and you’d never click on a fic with that tag or or you even have the tag blocked or you’d insta click out of the fic if it wasn’t tagged. Bonus points for explaining the rating and whether it’s conditional.

This is almost entirely going to apply only to Steve/Tony, since that is 95% of what I read (I am a one-ship-for-fifteen-years kind of a gal), so ymmv. Also putting this behind the cut because my midwestern blush is showing.

Onto the game ➡️

Roleplay: +2

I'm neither here nor there on roleplay, though occasionally it's done so damn well. There's something I really enjoy about Tony and Steve (because that's almost entirely what I read right now) just being themselves with each other, even if it's a heightened version of themselves.

BDSM: +9

Are people being tied up? If so, I'm probably going to read it. BDSM is such a huge list of categories though, that within this, I have a lot of "nopes." Pain play can work for me, humiliation definitely works for me, but the second I see "water sports" I'm out.

Armor Kink: +4

This one's kind of situational. It depends a little on the wider context. I'm a bigger fan of Tony and Steve being together with the armor than either of them soloing.

Sex Pollen: +1

I feel like I've read too many sex pollen kinks at this point, and they kind of bore me. I need all the angst surrounding the sex pollen for it to draw me in, and a lot of the time, that part is missing.

Noncon: +4

I have to be in the mood for it, and it has to be written in the way I want it to be (I suppose that's true of all of these though). It's hard for me to explain, but sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn't

Somnophilia: +10

I will read it. Instantly. Without question. I prefer negotiated, but I'll read non-con as well.

Drunk sex: -2

Now that I'm thinking about it, this kind of goes hand-in-hand with my thoughts on sex pollen. Although in the Ults universe, there's a good chance Tony's going to be drunk no matter what. It's hard for me to imagine it as hot, though, when it's drunk sex.

Tentacles: +10

This is another one that's pretty instant for me. Something was awoken in me long ago with @copperbadge and @lightshadowverisimilitude and their tentacle fics and it's never gone back to sleep. There's something so sensual about tentacles and the fact that it's pretty much full body. Yeah. That's it.

Sexting: 0

I'll read it, but it's usually not the main draw for me. Unless it's something along the lines of only fans or camboy fic or similar.

Daddy Kink: +7

I have complicated feelings about daddy kink, but that's probably why I'm drawn to it. Gosh I do love when Steve's the sub in a daddy kink situation, though. It really, really works for me.

Vampires and/or Werewolves: +2

This is another one I feel like I maybe read too much of or got a bit tired of. Now I'm really only drawn to the kinds of fics that depict vamp and werewolf culture as definitively other (thinking of @festiveferret's vampire fics and Annette Curtis Klause's Blood and Chocolate [the book, not the film])

Underage: +3

This one is contextual for me. My first major ship was a thirteen-year age difference and then my next major ship was either a thirteen-year or seventy-two-year age difference depending on how you count it. And Kurama and Hiei are hundreds if not thousands of years old, so who even knows that their age difference is. Also, see daddy kink above. So sometimes I click, especially if it's an author I already know I like.

Sexual Dysfunction: 0

I like how a lot of writers have written Tony with these issues, but it's less the issues than the vulnerability that comes with them that I enjoy.

Crossdressing Kink: +4

Having given roleplay only a +2, this is one of those ones that will push the roleplay rating up, especially if it's Steve doing the crossdressing. I have feelings about Steve letting go and being dominated, and maybe softening himself for his partners.

Non-Sexual Submission: +2

I'm intrigued by the ways in which sensuality sans sex can be depicted, especially because that's something I'd like to one day experiment with if I ever have free time again (hah) and can find someone I'd trust with that (hah hah). So yeah, I can be curious about thi sone.

Cheating/Infidelity: -2

I'm really not a fan. Mostly because I have a hard time ever imagining doing that to someone myself. I've read it, but really only when someone I trust is writing it. (Thinking @areiton, for example.) In general I will avoid.

[slashingdisneypasta]

I couldn't decide whether to send a flirt for Kingston, or send thirst asks for him... So I decided both just like you did with Moony XD

- What does Kingston look like? I know he's a kangaroo toon, but how do his features balance out? Is he more like Tax Avery's wolf with a human body and animal head, or does he possess more kangaroo features? And where is he on the height scale, too? Like a really tall toon like Jessica or one of the shorter toons like Roger and the weasels?

- How does he flirt and what kind of game does he have? I know he's a married man, but- I need to know XD

- Following that pipeline, how does he like his kisses? Tongue or no tongue?

- In general, what is he like in a relationship? I know him and Rena are pretty toxic, but if he wasn't with her, could he maintain a normal relationship (as normal as a Vegas Mob Boss can get XD)? Would he still be pretty mean to his S/O even if they were a more loving person?

- You mentioned that Kingston is an insecure, badass psychopath... How does that play into his relationships? Like- if he saw a guy talking up to his girl at a bar or something, would he make a show of who she belonged to? Would he get passive-aggressive about it? Would he just deck the guy? Possessive sex when they get home like Feral!Moony?

Ok that got a bit more than just thirsty at the end, i apologize XD don't feel obligated to answer any of these if you don't want to, of course ^^

GAHHHHHHHH YES! KINGSTON! HERE WE GO!-

Kingston's Looks: i had to dig out an old drawing of him i did a long time ago here XDD

As a toon kangaroo: The Kangroo gang are as kangaroo as the Toon Patrol are weasels. So, about the same size (A bit taller). Kingston is a few inches taller then Wheezy and he's mostly a dark dark brown colour (Shown below) except for his throat, chest and underbelly which are a lighter peanutbutter sort of colour (Also shown below). He wears a light blue fedora with a navy blue ribbon and has an eyepatch (Being a crazy person, he did a crazy thing, and thats how he lost his eye XD Perhaps more on this later). His eye is brown.

As a human: While in human form he is about 6'3. His short, rough (Meaning uncared for, split-end riddled) hair is that dark sort of ashy brown colour his shoulders and back are in kangaroo form and his eye is a dark dark green in human form. He generally wears a black suit (Like, all black. Blazer, button up shirt, pants, etc. All black) with his blue fedora but he doesn't look particularly fancy 😅 The jacket is old and thin, he doesn't wear a tie, and the shirt is often undone at the top.

Ryan can sometimes get Kingston to dress up, but even then its just a nicer button up (Like a teal colour or sometimes red).

Kingstons flirt game: Let me be clear, Kingston can flirt, yes XD Just not with Rena, funny enough, so you would never know unless he want interested in you. You would think he's awkward and incapable of acting charming- ever. But you would be wrong, its just his wife he's awkward and non-charming with. 🤷‍♀️ (She has the same problem with him)

He's not a playboy-type or anything and he's not the smoothest person ever, or particularly sleazy, but he he knows what he wants and can make it clear 😏 .

He makes the person he's into feel special, cuz he's pretty mean mostly- but not to them. To them he's almost f u n. Teasing them but also making them feel safe. Or, at least it would make you feel safe, if he himself wasn't so scary 😅 He gives some conflicting vibes when he's into you. He's scary, but he's not acting scary. Vibe can be described as electric.

Like you're safe cuz you're with the danger, and the danger thinks you're neat, so 💪😆

Kingston kisses:

This one depends on his mood. He likes both! A good no-tongue kiss with the gal that makes him feel peace and comfort when he's pissed can be great, but a fat tongue kiss when he's feeling more psychotic/feral- can be awesome too XD

And, 😏 having been married to his highschool sweetheart since he was 18- he knows how to kiss 😏

He can turn your brain off if he wants to. And sometimes, just for kicks, he does 😏

Kingston in a relationship (Not with Rena):

Ohhhhhhhh it would be SO much more healthy!!! Yes, he's a psycho. Yes, he's insecure. Yes, he's an asshole- but as shown with how he is with Ryan (loving, appreciative, caring), he is capable of warmth and a loving relationship.

He would not be mean to them ^^ (That is reserved for Rena *cough*) He would treat them better than anyone (while still, you know, being his sometimes-insane most-of-the-time-dickhead self)! He wants his S/O to be in all his 'meetings' so they know what's going on (and to gouge their reaction- he values their instincts), he doesn't keep it from them when he's done something terrible (just admits it. They should know what they're getting into, he supposes.), he treasures his time just alone with them (date nights are non negotiable- he just loves hanging with them ^^ They keep him calm), etc. He puts in the effort to make the relationship work in his fucked up world!

Possessive/Jealous Kingston:

I think Kingston c a n become secure in a relationship (Its more his intelligence that he's overly insecure about XD Like with Jewel, if she poked fun at him for being all-brute force he'd so quickly get riled up. This man will be arguing loudly with an 11 year old because of this XDD ) BUT, if this is a relatively new relationship he w i l l get possessive. Like, these other assholes don't know you're his! He needs to let them k n o w. (And by 'other assholes'- he means pretty much everyone else in the world. He doesn't like that many people.)

So he'll be beside you m o s t of the time that he's with you. Holding your hand mostly but if someone really starts to bother him he'll wrap his arm around you, whisper shit in your ear (Not even necessarily dirty stuff, just anything that can be between the two of you in order to show your intimacy. But yeah. making you go red is also a strategy for him (: He can play you like a fiddle and he d o e s use it when he feels he's gotta (: XD ), give you cheek kisses (Lingering ones), glare heavily at the person, start playing with whatever weapon he's got with him (Switching and unswitching a switchblade with an unsettling look in his eyes, sawing against a table gently with a machete while making dark eyecontact with the person, 'casually' giving his gun a good look over as if he's checking it for faults that don't exist because it is clearly ready to go-) while having his arm still around you-- this man will even take you off to a dark corner and start making out with you slowly, gently, to everyone is aware of his claim. Yes, he'll flash whoever-it-is threatening him a dark shiny look while kissing before returning his attention to you.

With Rena he gets crazier- more violent and angry, because he's very well aware she w i l l cheat on him. With you, he's more secure.

AGHHHHH! THESE WERE SO MUCH FUN TO EXPLORE! ^^ XD I hope you like them !!!! ^^

[purplerose244]

Watched the sixth episode of LEGO DreamZzz: LOVED IT!

So... LEGO released some drawing tutorials with Mateo and I just... they're so pure I wanna hug him 😭😭😭 They're super adorable, I love especially Z-Blob's since he spends the entire time talking about how great his slime buddy is and MOOD MAT MOOD 💚💚💚

We're beyond halfway, I'm kinda sad but I'll wait until the end, maybe we got luck for a season 2?

Here we go!

THE ANOMALY

NOTHING BETTER HAPPEN TO Z-BLOB DO NOT HARM THE BLOB 😡

Pff, what was the chicken story? 🤣

Zoey is still a bit distant, I can't tell if she wants to join in or she likes these people enough to just hang around. I mean, she wasn't there last episode...

Did Logan drop the "Mattie" nick? It felt very derogatory so him switching to Teo feels like a step forward

IS THIS A COOPER EPISODE?? OH YES PLEASE GIVE ME THE DEPTH! ❤️

I knew it, he is stressed! Poor boy got stuff to do and can't even have breakfast, Coop please take care of yourself and have some proteins first thing in the morning 😢

You'll have all the time you want to have breakdowns once you reach high school

It seems like Cooper is the reliable one, Mateo and Logan are constantly over him asking for stuff. I wonder if they also affected his stress as well...

Okay Logan is still mean 😅 He's better, but still mean, and he changed teams permanently? I don't know if this is a "we're not an actual team, only in the Dream World" or a "we'll always be a dream, even if we're not in the real world"... mm

Finally we see the Night Bureau! We saw it only once before... while Teo was almost turning into a night terror... ah such good untraumatic memories 🙂

Ah, so Z is an anomaly? Come to think of it, did he come across because of Lunia's hourglass? Was there another reason?

These objects are histerical 😂😂

CHICKEN MATEO NOOO 🤣🤣🤣🤣

Okay, I'm liking this consistent trend of having Zoey being the most useful character despite being on her own, she just waltzed in solving that riddle lol

Agent... Strick? Oh-oh

DO NOT EVEN TRY TO TAKE AWAY MY SLIME BABY Z-BLOB 😡😡😡

Oooohhhh, so this is confirmed to be Brooklyn? Cool, I didn't know it was an actual place! Again I'm too used to imaginary places like Ninjago or Chima 😂

This gal is intense, dude you locked Oz in a room, isn't that a bit much? Should we call the policr?

Zoey is just there for the drama, girl are you with us or not? 😂😂

Did... did that detect thing turn red when it was on Mateo? Was it only because Z-Blob was behind? Huh... huh

SHE FLIPPING TURNED INTO A BABY/WOMAN WHAT IS HAPPENING

Z-Blob floating has to be the cutest thing even, like, look at that little guy go! To infinity and beyond 💚

NO WAIT NOT BEYOND THE WINDOW

I see how it's going 😅😅

I'm so sorry I understimated Cooper, look at him! He's just a kid and he really wants to be up to expectations, and now we got a brother that sets the example? Dude I'm eating this, I'm a sucker for angst, LOOK AT THIS BOY HE NEEDS A BREAK 😭😭😭

Z-BLOB SHENANIGANS Z-BLOB SHENANIGANS Z-BLOB SHENANIGANS Z-BLOB SHENANIGANS 💚💚💚

You did not make a hotdog out of slime

YOU DID NOT MAKE A Z-BLOB BALOON WHAT IS THIS SLIME DOING???

Is he afraid of being captured? I've never seen him going this awol before, he's always besides Mateo no matter what! Is he only scared or is there a reason?

Dude Cooper was so stressed he forgot breakfast!!! EAT BABY EAT!!!

Okay baby Strick is kinda hilarious... and Oz is on the ceiling... and there is still junk everywhere... and where is Albert? WHAT IS HAPPENING PEOPLE?!

Cooper you left for half a day, and now everything is on fire 😅

LOOK AT HIM IGNORING HIS BROTHER TO CHECK ON HIS FRIEND 🥹🥹🥹

I👏LOVE👏TEO👏AS👏A👏NICK👏

Cooper skyrocketed on my appreciation list in this episode, his backstory got so much potential for analysis! He's such a good friend, he's just very stressed out but he's super capable!!! ❤️

MATEO IDEA TIME 💚💚💚

Was that the superman line? 🤣

Aaaand, we're back! Are we fixing everything now that Coop is here?

Oh wow we actually are! I adore mechanics, I was all over them in Ninjago (Jay and Nya and Zane and Pixal and Ronin and Cyrus... there are so many in Ninjago 🥰), so this is so cool to see!

Agent Strick approves Cooper! YAS!

Oohh, so Zoey was maybe interested in joining, but never could before? Is this why she was a bit snarky in this episode, maybe she wanted to join but could never physically? That's kinda adorable 😂😂

PARTY TIME EVERYONE💃💃💃

COOPER GOT A SMALL HAIRCUT CHANGE I'M SO PROUD OF YOU! ❤️

Alright this was another really REALLY good episode, but... now I'm stuck with the crazy theory that Mateo is the anomaly 🤣

I'm sure I'm wrong and I'm just blowing this out of proportion, but what if Strict examined that plant and found traces of Z AND Mateo? What if Lunia's hourglass was found by him for a reason?

She said that the anomaly appeared "the other night" so it was clearly Z Blob... but technically the other night was when the show started for me, so I might see this as Mateo appearing in this world for the first time. Could it be he fit in in one night, everyone's memories were changed to accept that, and no one questions this?

... I know this just me headcanoning left and right and it's clearly not gonna happen

... I'M STILL GONNA WRITE FICS ABOUT THIS OKAY 🤩🤩🤩 THIS EPISODE WAS SO GOOD I'M SO INSPIRED!!!!

[sillyandquiteawkward]

Haiii I wrote a big essay on the Bayley family a while ago but I'm still insane about them so I'm assigning them pigeons I think they'd be based purely on vibes

Artemus – Strasser pigeon

The very reason I wanted to start this was because I was reading up on the smartest pigeons in the world, and lo and behold, it fits VERY WELL with our good (?) Doctor Bayley. Strasser pigeons are one of the most intelligent birds out there, being able to easily observe patterns and formulate extensive escape plans even under stress, with one of the websites I was reading about them in saying "From the moment they hatch, these [birds] are likely thinking about how to escape from their nest", which is just the Artemus mood ever. I like to think this bird is a side project for Dr. Bayley to relax from the Other, Bigger projects, but then he ends up attached much like every other project he does <3

Octavia – King pigeon

For Octavia I wanted to go with a primarily 'utilitarian' bird, given her workaholic tendencies and need to show off how good at working she is, and Kings perfectly fit that description because they are the show offs of the pigeon world. They can be used for racing, messaging AND for therapy, which I think would be right up Octavia's alley in terms of . Everything. She could use a fluffy feathery friend in my head and these guys are great for anything you need them to be, and also very clever if you're willing to spend some time teaching them stuff. Octavia is the kinda gal who would probably go to beauty competitions with her bird in my head (because 1 her bird is the prettiest one and 2 she would like to win thank you very much) <3

Ignatius – Lahore pigeon

I chose Lahore for Ignatius because I remember seeing you talk about once how he's the most 'successful' one out of the Bayleys despite not being as practical so to speak, and that immediately made me think about this breed of pigeons. Not only is their contrast really nice and fitting for a sleek personality like Ignatius, but they are also one of the most popular pigeon species in the world, praised for their beauty, sociability, and high adaptability rates compared to other such birds– much like Iggy is 2 me <3

Sorry for no pics im. Shy but you can look em up and tell me if I got it teehoo

omg hiiiiiii ilu. speaking of the bayleys and pigeons. they are pigeons in my wing au. ouhg this art feels so old (four years ago)

my thoughts about this is i wanted art to be a common pigeon, bc hes got that little bit of iridescence that is akin to him thinking hes hot shit. i cant remember what breed oct was, but she was just a light brown pigeon type, maybe shes not as flashy but gets stuff done. and i wanted iggy to be very very plain, but pretty in his own right as a white dove (peace love etc)

but i really like the species you picked out too!! i really like the idea that the bayleys keep pigeons, i think that pairs well with their trading company background.

i think art could get really into breeding pigeons and he would tend to the smarter breeds i think, although hes not terribly fond of cleaning up after animals. the delight of genetics could just outweigh the animal care. hed have fun drawing them too. old man sits on his clinic rooftop next to his birds when the insomnia hits but his brain wont let him Work on his science. also would pair well with the thought hed breed animal test subjects :(

i think oct would like the utility of the king pigeons, but she wouldnt bother to raise the birds herself at all. thats not in her wheelhouse to care about, but shed still call all the company birds HER birds, even if she didnt raise and care for them. she knows all their names (as a good leader should) and probably has a strong affection for just one in particular. definitely a fan of the prettiest/most useful bird of the bunch.

ooo and i really like the lahore for iggy, they kind of also just Look like him with its long feet feathers and different shape. [ignatius voice] i just think their neat (hiding how much he relates to them)! iggy would be the one to be arms deep in the flock at all times (oh to escape paperwork and management by hiding in the barn with the animals (not to mention sending off the carrier pigeons and watching them leave with a bit of yearning)

[fishedeyelenz]

Oh fishy! That Billy and Camille mood board was…..*sighs dreamily* everything. Agh!! You just have no idea!! All of y’all!! All the billy writers and artists, the billy mutuals, I know I lurk, anonymously…not unlike how billy does, but in my mind y’all are the attic gang. My attic gang, all of us loving and bullying the attic boy, and also the wall boy….I just…aaah…perfection. Anyways, your stories are keeping me alive woof, I’ll be catching up on the latest chapters of rats in the shadows (gee I hope I got the name right lol) later when I can (life you know) and I’m losing my marbles thinking about BEAN. BILLY BEAN BILLY’S BEAN!!! And how sweetly devoted he is to his Camille and Bean!! It’s just….*sighs happily* so so sweet….all these mood boards have been cracking me up they’re so SILLY!! I keep wishing to stick a sticker of canned beans on Beans’ forehead…these dark urges smh…

Okay but yes, right right, I need to get to the actual reason for my silly little ask, okay so, how would billy be with an s/o who’s very musical? We know he loves Camille in all her drawing and painting glory, (does she paint too? I know she draws, I guess I just assumed she might’ve dabbled in paints as well, apologies if not) but what about a musical gal? My family is extremely musically inclined, we all sing and everyone plays instruments (I draw too but again, we have our answers with precious Camille! And Thank goodness, for I’d love to draw with him, or draw a mustache on him while he sleeps if nothing else) and so I always wonder if he’d like music like I do…..I very much rely on music, it helps me, and I wonder if it’d help him too! The beat of the music grounds me, I can copy and mimic almost all the specific voice of all the singers I listen to, it’s patterns that I can rely on….it’s just all very soothing and helps me be happy while also calming! It’s like….a sturdy rock. Always consistent and nice!

And so I always imagine singing with Billy, (I know he’s a terrible singer but it’d be so wonderful and fun still!) dancing with him, teaching how to tap dance, singing and humming to him while holding him and running my fingers through his hair, playing my concertina for him, playing the piano with him, making up sound games, like, me play a tune and he has to mimic it, or him make up a tune and I’ll try to play it for him, it just seems so fun! All of it! Always singing and dancing with each other!! Loud and fast when we are okay! Or softly and slow, very quiet songs when either of us need soothing or comforting….it just all seems terrible sweet to me, I’m just a sucker and have been having so much fun practicing my concertina, so I’ve just been really having this on the brain eheh (btw I feel like a little sailor with my concertina, I freaking love it aaah)

Hello!! Glad to hear from you again dear anon, I was wondering about a couple of days ago actually!! You always leave such sweet messages <333 The part about the attic gang made me giggle heheheh <333 well, if it means anything, if you ever wanna go off anon I at least will be very accepting, and I'm sure others will do. But I respect your decision to stay anonymous if that's more comfortable to you!! I hope you have a fun time reading the last few chapters, I'm quite proud of them!!

Little Beanie baby honestly deserves a little treat in the form of a sticker on her forehead. Little guy <333 Also yeah, Camille is a painter!! Shes a painting mayor actually. Hats why shes in the college, or I guess the academy she goes to. And Camille would draw a mustache on him ough <3 As for the part about a musical s/o you're pretty spot on!! Certain types of music would definitely be very grounding to him, and could help a lot with calming him down. He in general likes simple little songs I think (think Daisy Bell like in the commentary) and I do think he sings to himself to calm down!! Though he is pretty tuneless... and his singing voice is not pleasant even if he tries... though he usually sings the sing badly on purpose to entertain himself lmao. Hes like a very loud, annoying parrot in human form.

That's why he would love to have a s/o who is actually musical lol. At first it would be to annoy them honestly, ruin their flow with singing badly, mock them when they can't reach a high not and things like that. Being a little shit in general. But as time moves on he would grow to appreciate their talents more. Sometimes he would quiet down when they start playing their instrument and listen carefully, maybe even clap for them in the end if he gets exited. Sometimes his lovers would would sing him to sleep after a hard day. And he would genuinely start joining in on them when they are singing, not to make fun of them but for them to share a moment together. In fact, he would use any chance he can to sing with his s/o, sometimes asking them to join in on singing a silly little song.

One thing though, is to watch over your instrument when around him. It's very fun that you play a concertina but there's always a chance he could break it. Whether on accident from being clumsy, or in a moment when he loses control of himself and breaks everything around him, or maybe out of pettiness after an argument. Either way after the fact he would feel immensely guilty, which will send him spiraling and so on and so forth. Not a pleasant experience for either of you.

This reminds me that Bean will be a musician in the future. She will play bass and melodica and will play in a band. I wonder what else I could do with this concept in relation to Billy...

Thanks once again for sending me this ask, I always am happy to hear from you!!

[bunnydoobles]

i have several but my main ones are Dames and Andy

march 5th!! >_<

3 years!! looking to top that :3

i really like The Little Prince by Antoine de Saint-Exupéry

my nose and art abilities :(

Crispin Glover, Christopher Lloyd (both young and old, he's so silly), Rob Paulsen, Ewan McGegor, Brandon Rogers 

Sasha Calle, Lea Thompson, Kat Dennings, Winona Ryder, Laufey Lín Bing Jónsdóttir

i'm aiming for a career in theatre but my fallback is something in visual arts

having the courage and energy to post my art again!! and making new friends! 

hmm... i'm not sure actually? i'm not all that remarkable i don't have too many interesting facts haha! ^_^"

my highs; being able to sort through something really personal and hard for me with my beloved boyfriend, making time to hang out with my good friends, and being more confident about myself and my body and personality!! 

my lows; unfortunately being a little slow and airheaded and misunderstanding situations between me and my friends and my boyfriend, being horribly lonely and sick because i was stuck in the house bedrotting-, and that's about it!!

where my mother grew up in Japan! or visiting my family in the Philippines <33

MUSIC HAS SAVED MY LIFE!! (and occasionally forcing myself to draw something, at least a doodle or so) 

most likely Spotify + TikTok haha :3

Oh, god- Um- Uh- WAIT AM I GOING ALREADY? 

my eyes :D

drawing! and singing (i like to think) 

dancing- i can't dance to save my life, i'm wayyy too stiff (but i've been trying to take classes/get into it!!)

"I thought *you* drank the soda." (I, in fact, drank my mother's soda) 

um... did you know Wakko Warner from Animaniacs was inspired by Ringo Starr from The Beatles? :3

my lover, Mikey- and my best friend, Lili 

either my beloved record player or the necklace Mikey got me

5 or 6 years?? before i royally screwed it up-

making my first purchase without my parents allll by myself! >_<

i wanted to get into baseball but alas, i'm not cut out for it

pretty good! just got home from my gal pal's house hehe

both! i am perpetually tired 

hmm.. no, not necessarily! but i fell for my bf "love at first art piece"! 

you've got a 9 to 5, so i'll take the night shift / and i'll never see you again if i can help it

eating sweets and listening to my favorite music, drawing my ocs, and/or ranting about my useless interests 

Mitski, Jhariah, Billy Joel 

literally everything! i overthink a lot

when people call things "cringe" or bully others if they're having harmless fun instead of just... i dunno? walking/scrolling away?

again, literally everything! i'm very emotional- i cry at anything 

depends on the environment and my mood but most all the time i'm just a fuckin weirdo- the people i click with usually say i'm funny and pleasant to be around so! there's that! 

what flavor of toothpaste do you use? (did i do that right???)

sorry if i did that wrong, i wrote this all on my notes app LMAO! x3

Question Game

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5 Male celebrity crushes

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What is something you're really good at?

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A time that you told a lie.

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Who knows you the best?

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When did you first feel like an adult?

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Describe yourself with 3 singers.

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Free Pass! (Ask any question you want that's not on the list)

[vencyrus]

just gonna rapid fire some awful thoughts that would make my brother hit me over the head with a metal bat // just kidding i accidentally started ranting about my bpd

as an aromantic that is desperately clawing at the chance to feel love, i fear i would become a "he know where home at" kinda gal but i think the concept, while horrifying irl, would make such a beautiful literary device

i have been drawing myself for goretober but not posting any of it bc i think it might be a form of self harm and i dont want to face this problem with my therapist yet

me posting art is actually exposure therapy as suggested by my therapist for my bpd because i crave attention in such a bad way that it actively affects my mood and motovation for weeks at a time when i spend so much time on something only to recieve no recognition for it

this honestly would be a non issue if my friends would actually talk to me bc i used to be okay with sharing things with just the two of them but theyre both so busy all the time and they dont really make the effort to talk to me so it is so disheartening that i dont even try to talk to them that much anymore

i want to make new friends bc i got some rly cool mutuals and ive met some rly nice ppl in the mistria server but i fear i am not in the proper headspace to be making new friends and my therapist agrees but it has been so lonely lately

i also have not had an FP in like years which is really good progress but thats also such a long time to be lonely. im a very codependant person. ive spent so much of my younger days attached to people that i really dont know who i am without that but id like to find out.

i think the combination of aromantic and boderline personality disorder is going to end me bc i want to be able to give my entire being to one person so much that it hurts to be away from them and i want them to feel the same way but i cant love them in a way that truly matters and thats just not fair for them. and im not being fair to myself either because im just essentially looking for someone to leech onto, someone to tell me how i should feel, someone to emulate, someone to admire. ive spent so much of my life being other people i dont think ive ever known how to be myself

i cannot feel the calm i feel when im drawing. its becoming such a vicious cycle of drawing to decompress then spending the next few hours stressing when something doesnt do well then drawimg again. lather rinse repeat

anyway! i hate being vulnerable but man does it feel good to throw this all out into the void. its like letting loose a message in a bottle out to sea. so just to balance all that, let me just say some out of pocket stuff since no one is gonna read this far into it.

im a coulro/dacry/hemo-phi11iac.

one time, in the middle of a Hook^ my partner noticed my glasses faintly glew in the dark so she wanted to turn off the lights so i could pretend to be the invisible man from hotel translyvania

this dude was tryna be flirty by speaking french but my native language is super ugly tbh and im not fluent in chamorro or carolinian bc im so disconnected with the other side of my herritage so i just whispered omae wa moe shindeiru in return

[ibelieveinghost]

5/10/24

back to Tokyo!

had a real nice trip w/ my parents this past week. not a lot happened beside driving along the ocean, watching sunset at car window, and both of them getting pretty sick at one point but insisted to go on lol

i love them so much❤ they're the coolest

hmmmm not really in the mood for writing but i''m gonna try... called in sick this morning, feeling kinda on the verge of getting a cold, but couldn't stay in bed either. got up early-ish(before 6...), made coffee, and spent a full hour online-shopping for inks. found some real pretty ones! for the new pens I just got! should i stop collecting them? no way!

mighta draw a bath later this morning, maybe after finishing this entry and having a proper dance workout. and then i'll cook! and after that, i'll just let the day take me wherever i need to be.

oh! and i had a new roommate now. french gal with a pretty name. cute+a little bubbly w/ a ton of hobbies&majored in theater. i feel like we gonna like each other a lot. grabbing a drink together sometime soon is definitely on the list. me and her and Naomi happened to run into each other and had tea yesterday afternoon. they seemed pretty excited about my upcoming art show, and said they'd go...!!! and that made me happpyyy!!

May turned out to be much busier than i thought. but at the same time, nothing feels overwhelming. i have this peculiar feeling, that something i thought had been long lost is coming back to me. it's a visceral one. it makes me feel solid, centered, and almost strangely calm. and that's pretty freaking amazing.

i heard back from Mo the other day too. another one of his long ass messages(which i adore) that are def not fit for the SMS format

having an irl friend who moved to another country and become a pen pal is a lovely thing. seeing that he seems to do pretty well in Berlin warms my heart. i hope he'd come back to Tokyo, even just for a short trip, and we can explore the city together a bit more.

what else what else... not much! lots of shifts and changes, to sum it up, and nothing worthy mourning for. lost contacts, relationship slowly drifting apart, things you gave up mending for whatever reason. whatever reason it is, it is a good one. just...moving along, heading forward, walking quietly and hopefully into a new dawn new day. adding things to my list. crossing things off my list. forever cherishing having the will and capacity to act and not act, to pounder, to feel, to give and receive, and to make whatever choices that scream:"YES this is me!! " back at me.

i can go on and on! but i'll stop, just to have time for the dancing part of the day.

throwing in a some photos before i forget:

(the latest addition to my wind chime collection!!!)

(went to the movie yesterday+ the sky at dusk is kinda magical)

(from the roadtrip. we legit thought it was some sort of weird military thingy but turned out it's just an airplane-sized ballon for climate research)

(more pretty sky photos yo. i have 200 of those on my phone tho lol)

(had to share this view from my parent's apartment... it was late and the night smelled of rain. the village can be heard from a distance. another one of those magical moments that words don't capture)

so much for today!

[mizz-nymph]

🦈Welcome!🌝

☆*:.｡.Introduction.｡.:*☆

Haiii I’m Pani and I like bitting things screaming to assert dominance and being the thing that gives you night terrors 🌝🤌🏼

Names that I don’t mind getting called other then Pani: Panini,Nini,Nani,Lani,Luna!

(I’ve got a bunch nicknames which is why I love em)

What do I do?

I goof around!

Art

Writing (depends on my mood)

Edits

Silly stuff!

Depends on my mood I’m very random and sneaky 🤷🏻‍♀️

☆*:.｡🐚Fandoms🐚｡.:*☆

Cyberpunk edgerunners

Cyberpunk 2077 (the game too)

Call of duty

The promised never land

Inside job

Resident evil

Disenchantment

Apex legends

Shumatsu no Valkyrie/record of ragnarok

Line rangers (only reason why I even played was to get the mini ror Poseidon 💀)

Cookie run

My future diary

Monster

Alice in wonderland (from the books to the live action movies!)

Kurogane no vallhalian

Chainsaw man

I’m into other Mangas and animes like:

attack on titan, toilet bound hanako kun,kny, Jojo,devil man cry baby,Kabaneri of the iron ,death note,kcc, Sailor moon and many more!

Idk if these count as fandoms but I’m really into mythologies, Greek,Japanese,Norse,Egyptian,Mesopotamic etc

History fandom (a history buff since the age of 7 thank you horrible histories and epic rap battles of history 🙈)

And many more! (These just the ones I can think of off the top of my head)

Request info and rules!

♠️Yah ♦️

Oc X canon

Fanart

Ocs

Sfw

Gore

Heavy gore

♥���Nah♣️

Furries

Nsfw (I don’t mind drawing nudity or implied stuff tho!)

Hate art

Incest

Proship

Vomit (literal vomit like the stuff that comes out of you when sick yeah that I can’t stand vomit so ha yeah)

🃏rules 🃏

I f your gonna use my ocs in your writing or just for fanart ASK ME first if you aren’t a close friend! Close friend as in I speak to them daily and they know me personally! :)

Don’t use my stuff without permission

Don’t trace/copy/etc etc I don’t fuck with that

Don’t remove source

☆*:.｡. More info.｡.:*☆

- Im a loony middle eastern gal living in stinky ol cold side of Europe whos majoring in media and the performing arts! 😈

- I like holding hands with the sea god from ror he’s very silly! Iwilleathusbandsskinwhenthedarkharvestisuponus

- always happy to make new friends im horrifically really social and extroverted

- I’m not obligated to make sense to anyone chaos is a must 🦈✨

- I adore and love and nurture sharks like skejssnsn🦈🦈🦈🦈

If ya want to know more then ask ig💀🤷🏻‍♀️

[ryuichirou]

Hello Ryu!!

Do you have any smut headcanons about the girls? (like, their favorite position or kinks or something like that)

I really love how you draw the girls btw!!

Hi Anon!! Thank you very much for enjoying my girls <3 I love drawing them a lot, and all the stuff that we post with them is very special to me. I also draw smut with them from time to time, but we never post it.

Here are some headcanons… 👀

Historia is far less innocent than she seems. Ymir was very cautious about her desires and held back a lot at first, but once they started having sex, it’s like a whole new side of Historia opened up to her. Of course, Historia is still shy and not experienced at all, but she adores Ymir and it really shows. They have long make-out sessions and cuddle a lot, and these moments are often sweet, but when it comes to sex itself, they can get very dirty and loud. Historia is very honest with her reactions and Ymir loves it.

Ymir lets Historia bite her shoulder or hand a lot of times, because it’s very difficult for her to stay quiet otherwise. Of course, Ymir loves it too. She also teases Historia about the bite marks a lot.

Not a surprise to anyone, but Pieck likes to either be on all fours or to lie on her stomach. She’s also fully aware of how provoking this position might look; so if she’s presenting her butt to Hange, Yelena or any gal she tries to flirt with, it’s pretty much intentional. Only with gals though.

Pieck is also a pillow princess who likes to be taken care of by women significantly taller than her. But of course you can boss her around too if she’s in the right mood, i.e. if you manage to make her too horny. If you’re Yelena, she might even let you grab her hair for a couple of seconds.

When it comes to Pikuhan, Pieck kind of created a monster when she gave Hange a chance. At first she thought that Hange didn’t really know what to do and gave her a couple of hints, but Hange instantly went “you mean like this?” and decided that this means that Pieck just gave her full freedom to do whatever she wants with her. Pieck got shook by Hange’s intenseness, but ultimately enjoyed it a lot.

Annie hides her face when she has sex. With Hitch – because Hitch teases her too much and always smiles at her slyly; with Mikasa – because Mikasa stares at her without blinking and it’s either too creepy or too hot depending on Annie’s mood.

Hitch knows Annie’s body very well, she discovered her most soft and tender spots very quickly. She thinks that it’s cute that Annie, while seeming all distant and stuff, could be soft and red and embarrassed and surprisingly easy to please if you know how to handle her.

Annie is usually very quiet and heavy breathing is the most you can get from her, but Hitch is working on it.

Annie enjoys a certain amount of roughness, so she’s drawn to Mikasa who could be very raw and animalistic if provoked properly. But it’s usually too much work to provoke Mikasa…

Ymir, Hange and Hitch are the biggest boob grabbers out of everyone. Well, Annie might count too, but she grabs Hitch when she’s too overwhelmed, so it’s not entirely out of desire to squeeze something soft. She does think Hitch’s breasts are nice to touch though. Not like she’s going to tell her this or anything…

Ymir and Hange are similar in a sense that they ask their girlfriends to send them photos sometimes. In a different manner though: Ymir is more teasy and demanding, Hange is more of a 🙏🙏🙏🙏🥺type of person. Ymir always gets what she wants from Historia, but Pieck doesn’t like taking photos of herself so… :(

[clingymickey]

Here's some angst for ya! Got to be honest tho I'm more a fluff gal when it comes to writing but got into the mood of writing some angst. So enjoy <33 (It's my first time writing angst btw.). Also please read the tags before you read this.

ALWAYS BESIDE YOU

Panic. That's all he's feeling at the moment. Panic. Panic. Panic. He feels like he can't breathe. Harsh breaths. He jolted up awake. Eyes wide open, face and palms sweaty, shoulder's stiff, rushed breathing; right there beside him is his husband, his partner, lover, family, with a concerned and wary look on his face. His hands running up and down his back comforting him, making him feel safe.

"Hey, Mickey, Mick, what's wrong?" Ian asks worriedly.

Eyes look towards him, his breath still harsh. He's trying to think of words to say but nothing comes out.

"Hey, breathe, Mick, just breathe" he says softly. "Just follow me, alright."

His chest rising, and as it deflates, warm air brushing Mickey's cheek. He tries to follow the same; soon his breaths slowly becoming steady again.

"Thank you," Mickey finally lets out, voice a little hitched. "I really needed that."

Ian says nothing except for an accepting nod and his hands holding his head tight.

"You wanna talk about it?" Ian asks calmly once the tension died down. It's fine if Mickey doesn't want to talk about it, he knows whatever it was bothering him, it would be hard for him to talk about.

Mickey doesn't reply, and Ian doesn't push it any further.

After a long time, he finally whispers, "I think I had a bad dream."

Well, more like a bad childhood memory than a dream.

"It was Terry" he said with a tone of spite. "He sent me and Iggy for a run, and when I came back, he was standing there with 4 bottles of empty beer next to him, throwing all of my drawings into the flame."

Mickey paused for some time. Chewing his bottom lip with his canine hard enough until it started to bleed slightly – thinking of how to put his words next. Ian's arms still wrapped around his back and head, calming his fear away.

"Drawing is for pussies is what he said," voice breaking a little. "Ain't no son of mine a pussy" Mickey repeats, then wincing, remembering exactly what his father did after he said that.

"He slowly walked towards me and as he came closer his fist met my face sending me towards this glass table we had, my body crashing into that, it became all bloody and bruised up, broken glass pieces everywhere." he says, smiling a little, although his smile not meeting his eyes.

It quickly became silent again, just the sound of their breathing filling up the room, Ian just waiting for him to continue. All he wanted to do at this moment was to hug him and protect him from all the hurtful memories he had, and make him feel safe, but he didn't, instead he gave Mickey his space, wanting to hear from him what happened next. It's not like Ian doesn't know, he very well knows what Terry was capable of doing and what he had done, yet he wants Mickey to tell him, so that he knows he can feel comfortable telling his pain.

"He hit me harder the next time, at least 7 or 8 times, but this time with his gun."

His eyes were glassy with tears forming in the corner of his eyes, his nose becoming red. He's trying to hold it in, not to break, but he fails. Tears running down the side of his cheeks, eyes becoming puffy, letting out a quiet choked cry. Ian's hands steering Mickey's head towards the crook of his neck and just hugging him there, silently promising himself to never let go.

"As he's kicking me, while I'm on the floor, I see Mandy just peeking out from behind the wall," he continues. "She was scared, just looking at what was happening to me, crying, and holding her favorite stuffed animal tight…I could never forget that sight."

"I think that's also when we both realized that I would no longer be able to protect her from Terry."

Ian wanted to say that it wasn't true, that Mickey was always able to protect her no matter what, and that it was fine now because Terry was no longer here to torture them, but he stopped himself and just let Mickey continue.

"You wanna know something funny?" he asks, head tilting up to look at Ian.

"What?" Ian says back, voice sounding a little choked up.

"I never actually felt any pain, after I hit the table rest everything became numb," he chuckled wearily, cool air hitting Ian's chest. "I couldn't feel anything when Terry pistol-whipped me, nothing, except for this feeling like I couldn't breathe, and pain from when Mandy saw me like that."

Mickey let out a sigh.

"After he was done, he came up close to my face, breath smelling like beer and smoke, he told me that if he ever saw me drawing or saw any art of mine, he would do more than what he did to me that day – he'd teach me a lesson he said."

Neither of them said anything afterwards, they'd just laid there holding one another. It was one of those moments where nothing had to be said or spoken, just the presence of each other was enough.

A beat later, Mickey exhaled sharply, shifting his position a little, but making no effort to move out of Ian's arms.

"Thank you," he says again. "Thanks for just you know listening to me and just being there, even if it didn't affect you."

"You don't have to thank me, Mick, I'll always be there for you okay. No matter what, I'll always be beside you. And it does affect me, whatever happened or happens to you, affects me in every way 'cos I love you." Ian says, gently tightening his grip around Mickey.

"I love you too, Ian" he replies softly, finally smiling, this time it reached his eyes.

Later that night, not once did he get a bad dream, worrying himself about Terry.

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A few days later.

"Hey, Mick, guess what I got you" Ian sings, with a grin so wide it could probably slice his face in half.

"What?" Mickey grumbles, voice hoarse, as he's slowly getting himself out from his slumber.

His eyes immediately go towards the small box that's in front of him on his lap, wrapped up all pretty and nice with a bow resting on top of it.

Was it his birthday? Anniversary? No, he's pretty sure he would remember that. A special occasion?

"What's in this, Gallagher" he mumbles, eyeing his husband suspiciously.

"Why don't you check it, Gallagher." He retorts, with a sly smirk.

Mickey hazardously tears down the wrapping paper, leaving a mess all over the bed and floor, opens the box, and can't believe what he's seeing.

"So do you like it?" Ian questions, unable to read his husband's face right away.

Of course, he likes it, how could he not.

"Fuck yeah, I love it." He says cheerfully, pulling out the drawing book and color pencils.

"Open the book." Ian says making a gesture with his hands towards the book.

Mickey slowly opens the book to its first page, never losing eye contact with Ian as he opens it. Then, he looks down and notices the flyer for drawing classes.

"Now that Terry's gone, you don't have to be afraid, so I thought I could get you this." He mumbles.

Mickey doesn't say anything, just staring between the flyer and Ian, unable to put his happiness into words.

"Soo, is it okay? D-do you like it" Ian stuttered.

"Yeah, yeah, it's okay, it's more than okay in fact." Mickey nods, eyes filling up with tears. "Thank you"

"You deserve it." Ian says back softly.

"You sap." Mickey snickers. "You know what, I think you deserve a treat for this." He says, trying to steer the conversation into playfulness.

"Oh yeah" Ian said, taking the hint.

Mickey leans up to place a peck on his lips. What was supposed to be a small peck turned into a deep and meaningful kiss, with Ian not wanting Mickey to pull back.

"I love you." Mickey pants into Ian's lips after pulling them apart to get some air.

"I know, I love you too" Ian whispered, reminding him of the time when Mickey said those exact words when they were in prison.

[hooterhorror]

Hi. You already know what it is, momma Wic back at it again.

Oc matchups but only cuz you’ll me to and I’m a whore.

So Trisha Oaks. Personality wise, she’s very bubbly most of the time but a nervous talker, meaning she’d probably talk your ear off about anything to distract her from her anxiety. She cries a lot, not when she gets hurt but her feelings do get hurt a lot. She is triggered easily to, and mood can switch from sweet and bubbly to anything negative really, that ends up in her having a complete panic attack and fighting off whoever’s trying to calm her down. She’ll be really distraught about it afterwards and usually gets embarrassed, starts apologizing like crazy. Her best quality her her positivity, to afraid getting upset. Or making anyone else upset. She’s kinda ditzy, an airhead. She forgets everything and anything. She’d forget her own head if it wasn’t attached to her head. She doesn’t remember much. so don’t count on her. She’s a real country gal, and don’t got a problem getting dirty or working hard. Her voice is pretty soft and gentle most of the time, thicc with a heavy southern accent, the angered she get the deeper her voice gets, and the thicker the accent. She’s pretty shy around anyone so she won’t be looking you in the eye at all. he likes to play around, though and gets a lot,y mischievous and sneaky sneaking off and snooping in places she hits no business in. She clumsy and gets injured aloT. She can hurt herself on anything while doing nothing. But she’s ok and definitely won’t let you help her. Always got a bandaid or something holding her together

Appearance. She has Curly red coppery hair that is normally ticked into braids. It pretty long and wild , don’t her waist. She has a prominent tooth gap that she’s pretty insecure about, she’s always trying to hide her teeth. She’s covered in freckles from head to toe, he papa called them angel kisses, but her step mom calls it dirt. She has Big eye that always look kinda freaked out and on edge lie a dear in headlights. They’re a dark mossy green. She’s 5’10, and weighs about 195lbs. She’s pretty strong, and curvy, a sturdy build with thick thighs. Don’t come for me I, drawing curvy women pinups so that’s what she’s based on because I like soft things. She wears denim overalls and a black high neck, mid-sleeve shirt, and work boots (timberlands).

Her hobbies are woodworking, and soldering. She like building things, and fixing things. Makes her feel useful.

Her love language is touch, as in she touches you…don’t touch her though she can’t handle it and it makes her nervous. As for showering her appreciation it acts of kindness. No ones ever done anything nice for her so,she will cry and try to do something nice back in return, or make you something. She does feel guilty that you’d even gone outta your way for her though. Her ideal date is swimming at the lake or, playing a game like tag or hide and seek. She will giggle the whole time so it won’t be hard to catch her.

Her ideal partner is someone patient, because you’d need a lotta patience dealing with her, always somehow hurting herself, or loosing something, or forgetting something, or crying over something, or just being upset.

She’s bisexual. Closeted, [cuz her stepmom, and she wasn’t really taught about it] she/ her pronouns.

This was so painful to write

I LOVE U MOMMA WIC ty for dropping this in!!! 💞💞

Omg Trish has always been a huge fav of mine eeee!!

Thomas Hewitt.

Trish and he contrast, but in a way where they harmonize. He's quiet, she's a chatterbox. She's ways what he can't, and he's there to reel her back in. Somehow and someway this large and usually intimidating man can do easily tame that fiery red head. She remembers to take a deep breath and steel/ground herself. Sometimes his hand clasping hers is what it takes to settle her fired off nerves.

Where he falls short, she excells, and vice versa. Thomas is so used to upsetting and disappointing people like Hoyt that it's kind of numbed him. He flinches when he's yelled at and called names, sure, but he doesn't chew on his bottom lip or shrink down like she might when faced with some form of rejection.

This man is built like an ox, and seeing her sturdy figure is somewhat assuring. He feels much more comfortable hugging her or holding her hand. He's a bit clumsy the first few times, but he loves to braid her hair for her!!! it means so much to him to see that she kept the bows in that he braided in at the ends. It's an eyesore, but Thomas isn't a man with a fashion sense if you couldn't tell-

He jumps the first time she tries to show affection towards him. Eventually he'll grow to accept it but returning that affection takes some leaps rather than steps. It starts very slow, because Thomas is a bit like an easily startled animal. It's easier on his poor soft boy heart when she brushes his hand with hers before grabbing it. Eventually, during down time, they'll have a very soft quiet moment together where they'll relax and he'll gently play with her hair, but he's still shy! poor baby! But he understands and is very careful with her boundaries above all else, he waits until she's comfortable to return the affection if he happens to be ready first.

Thomas's love language is quality time. He'll spend every moment with her he can. While he might not take a dip with her in a nearby lake, he wouldn't mind a small game of tag! the farm lands are dangerous though, but just imagine him wrapping his big strong arms around her when he catches her and spinning her around before setting her down! It's so cute <3

Thomas is very patient. I doubt he'd ever even snap at anyone. Unless Hoyt is edging him into it, but Luda Mae is always there to reel him back in and shout at Hoyt. I imagine Trish does the same for him too! She doesn't let those things get to him, and in turn he's so patient with her. Her more hyper nature doesn't bother him, if anything it livens the Hewitt home up! He does find it hard to keep up with her, but that's not something that'll tick him off or bother him. He knows she's there for him and he's always there for her too, both of them taking it one step at a time with one another.

"Tommy look at this thing!"

"Tommy Tommy, ya busy?"

"Hey hun, you ever wonder about [such and such thing]".

He might not be able to untangle her hyped up brain, but he doesn't mind that! He loves her and how her mind works, even if there aren't a lot of coherent thoughts going on at all times ❤️

[numbaoneflaya]

You can count on me to pull up with a thousand of questions sbdhdh. A3, A22, C5, D3, F3 for Jilly ; A18, A23, B9, C1, H2 for Nirn ; A5,B9, C8, D1, I5, for Thurwen ; A9, A13, C1, E8, and G6 for Valkya? 😏

A3, A22, C5, D3, F3 for Jilly ;

A3.Do they have any emotional or psychological conditions? Are they aware of it? Do they try to treat it?

Shawty got that stockholm syndrome in a way. She is…. Sometimes aware of it, though she wouldn't call it that any more. Maybe at first in the basement she was more aware, but now that she can come and go she thinks its a thing of the past. tries not to dwell on it. Kind of in a “well its literally not that bad its kind of fun its kind of romantic were just quirky <3” way, will get mad if someone insists she has stockholm or that the relationship is fucked. Will get enraged and upset on Vincent's behalf, probably cry and yell at you.

A22. Is your OC intended to be found generally attractive? Unattractive? Average? Is there a reason why?

I intended her to be fairly average, maybe kind of cute. It's generally the way she dresses/acts in public that draws attention, not her looks. I tend to make most of my ocs on the average scale besides a select few.

C5. Do your OC’s morals and rules of common decency go out the window when it comes to those they don’t like, or when it’s inconvenient? Aka, are their morals situational?

Good question…. Jillys morals are pretty simple- always be kind and nice, murder and hurting other people is bad, and you shouldnt lie. She sticks to those pretty strictly herself despite the situations she gets put in, often to her own detriment. But she doesn't always put a stop to those behaviors from the people she surrounds herself with, so she's sort of accomplice to bad acts of violence just by not snitching. So somewhat situational? She tries not to think about it.

D3. How comfortable are they with the idea of death?

Not comfortable! She hadn't seen a lot of it before her early twenties and was always sort of sheltered. dead fish are flushed down the toilet bcs they go to the ocean to live again, right? Thought cows and such all died of old age peacefully before they were made into burgers until she was like… twelve. 💀Won't kill mice and other critters despite her prey drive bcs she would feel too bad. And this is just for animal death, she's much more uncomfortable with human death. Also a thing she tries to ignore.

F3. Could they ever live in a “tiny home”?

God no. She hates small spaces unless she's hiding in them and tiny homes have no room for all the shit she stashes! No room for zoomies, or climbing on the furniture, or wrestling around on the floor. It would be filled with junk within a week.

A18, A23, B9, C1, H2 for Nirn ;

A18. Do they get jealous easily? Do they feel bad if they do?

He's never had much to be jealous of, as he's never really been over involved in romantic relationships. They were usually mutually beneficial and somewhat clinical in nature. Hes also pretty sure of himself and his value as an asset and lover. If he finds someone who peaks his interest and they become an item though, he might get jealous if he catches them flirting with other people. Hell be peeved at first but know flirtation in business has its value, so to make himself feel better might flirt with someone else while they are nearby. Make a game of it, see who wins.

A23. Does your OC place much importance on their appearance? Do they feel confident in it?

Appearances are crucial to him and spends a lot of time and money making sure he looks his best. He needs to appear above the rabble and impenetrable, dressing well and having immaculate posture and an air of both grace and otherworldliness.

B9. What kind of humor does your OC like the most? Slapstick, ironic, funny sounds, scare pranks, xD sO rAnDoM…

Definitely not one to find fart jokes funny. Very rarely laughs genuinely or full heartedly, he keeps all his expressions of emotion close to his chest. Sharp sardonic wit is appealing to him in the right circumstances, even a jab directed at himself can make him chuckle if it's well formed enough. Irony almost always gets him, even if its dark irony or gallows humor. Bit of a hard nut to crack. Would laugh enough that hed have to cover his mouth with his hand if he were to see Felix fall face first into mud, though. More often than not you can tell he finds something amusing by a gleam in his eyes and a slight squint.

C1. Does your OC have a moral code? If not, how do they base their actions? If so, where does it come from, and how seriously do they take it?

Well he used to have a real moral code :/. Now I mean…. The ends justify the means. By any means necessary. He considers his family's needs first, then the good of the world, then any individual in the world. Has ordered executions of entire families, had babies stolen and sent away, sent armies to certain death knowing full well they would all die, commanded individuals be tortured for information, sacrificed many in what he considers to be a game of chess where he is the player and others are the pawns. He finds senseless violence and savagery to be unforgivable, but if violence has a sense and purpose to employ it, then he will do so.

H2. Is your OC a thoughtful partner, in whatever aspect of that you want to cover?

Nirn tends to be a very thoughtful and attentive person in general, just for the wrong reasons lmaoooo. But with a lover? He's going to be utilizing that to show them how much he cares and using his powers for good. Mention you like a certain fabric while shopping one time and then complain your favorite tunic has a wine stain in it several months later, he's going to be taking your measurements for a new one in your preferred material without a moment's notice. Very keen on picking up moods, expressions and tone. Also has a very good memory. He doesn't really think about it but gifts are how he shows his love. Also a great attentive listener.

A5,B9, C8, D1, I5, for Thurwen ;

A5. Are they good at handling change in their life?

I would say so, yeah. Shes been used to things constantly changing since she was little and has had little to no control on outside influences. Shes also not one to over think about the past and lament, shes more of a one foot in front of the other, the only time is the present kind of gal. Of course large changes like becoming a warden were a bit more severe, but shes mostly able to think in the present as long as she has immediate problems to deal with.

B9.What kind of humor does your OC like the most? Slapstick, ironic, funny sounds, scare pranks, xD sO rAnDoM…

Slapstick is always gonna make her laugh as long as nobody gets seriously hurt, even if its her own ass tripping into a tree. Not a fan of scare pranks, 0/10 recommend trying to scare Thurwen. You will end up with a broken nose at best and an angry elf. Likes puns, but she's the one to groan at them and try and hide the grin spreading across her face. Gallows humor but only if its her in the gallows, otherwise doesn't find it funny at all. If a little kid calls someone a fartcicle she will be tears in the eyes giggling, which is hard when your warden commander and everyone looks toward you to be serious and mature gyshsdhdfsghsd.

C8. Is your OC more practical or ideal morally? I.e., do they hold people to high expectations of behavior even if it’s not realistic for the situation, or do they have a more realistic approach and adapt their morality to be more practical?

She definitely holds herself to moral ideals and is very hard on herself, but has realistic moral expectations for others. She can understand self serving and people only wanting to survive and she will only give people a little bit of shit for it, no one's perfect. But then she expects herself to be perfect and berates herself constantly for not living up to the hero of ferelden warden commander ideals.

D1. How religious is your OC? What do they practice, if anything? If they don’t associate with any religion, what do they think of religion in general?

Atheist ever since her mom died when she was a kid, but now Shes in a weird mixed state ever since the urn of sacred ashes where shes like. fuck the maker, but Andraste is cool I guess. So respects/believes in the power of Andraste while thinking the maker is a piece of shit and the chantry sucks ass. Even she doesnt know what she really believes, but she did see the ghosts of Andrastes disciples and Shartan, used her ashes as healing salve, killed an old god, etc. So shes been in a weird place recently, crisis of faith/non faith pretty continual.

I5. Are they a good cook?

I mean…. She can cook basics. Shes been feeding herself and the alienage kids since she was old enough to walk so she knows how to get protein and make things edible. Does it taste good? Probably not. She didnt see her first spice till she was 17 years old, but she can skin a rabbit in seven seconds.

LA9, A13, C1, E8, and G6 for Valkya? 😏

A9. Does your OC make a lot of excuses? For themselves? Others?

She tries to excuse bad behavior of herself or others a lot, yeah fgdgdsfhdhs. Mostly she doesnt have to make excuses for herself because she can wholeheartedly be like “yeah i fucked up but whatever im sexy and large and awesome and everyone loves me 🙄whatever baby” and when other people fuck up shes pretty sympathetic even though they are not as large nor as sexy. Shes very used to forgiving and excusing herself its totally alien to her when she really fucks up and is suddenly like wait… valkya…. Did bad?? What is this feeling. Shame?? Guilt?? IMPOSSIBLE.

A13. Does your OC have any phobias? If so, where did they come from?

She hates those giant bugs in morrowind and valenwood a whole fucking lot but I wouldnt exactly place it as a phobia. Those huge mosquitoes and haorvers got no respect but she really hates the morrowind bugs ever since they knocked her over and jumped her while she was pants down peeing drunk as hell in the sand :/ never forgave. Never forgot.

C1. Does your OC have a moral code? If not, how do they base their actions? If so, where does it come from, and how seriously do they take it?

She was raised in a healthy household that tought the basics, prety much “harming others needlessly, stealing, torture, rape, dessecrating the dead, being selfish and not doing right by others, etc etc all basic bad things” are her morals. Her morality is basically treat others how you want to be treated. And if they treat you badly, then have fun beating the shit out of them to show everyone else not to fuck with you. Its a pretty nordic morality in that way. Her morality is also since she was ‘blessed’ with being so large and strong, that she has to also look out for the little guy who cant protect themselves. So If someone treats them how valkya wouldn't want to be treated, then beat the shit out of the person harming them to show them the little guys got backup. Her parents raised her to be a hero and thats p much how she sees herself, which has its benefits and its fuckin problems.

E8. What’s one of your OC’s biggest regrets?

Fucking up Dem and Dariens relationship for sure dude :/ valkya always gonna be sulking over that one. She doesnt regret becoming a vestige, even though it would have made her so much happier not to be because it ended up saving so many people and the world. She regrets not spending more time with Naryu, regrets always having other life saving business she had to run off to, regrets not cherishing the time they had together. Regrets not telling Lyris how she feels, either. Regrets not being able to save as many people as she should have, regrets she wasnt stronger in coldharbor and didnt break out herself. But she tries not to think about it <3

G6. Do they have any favorite childhood memories?

When she was seven she once spent two months training to hold her breath underwater, because her cousin always held it longer and won the gold bet. She trained for hours almost drowning in the river until she could comfortably hold it for up to three minutes. During the next holiday when they all got together again the competitions were on and they both went under- her cousin won, holding their breath for four more minutes before they decided to come up. This was the first lesson she learned that shocked her world view- you always need to know your opponents capabilities. (after she lost 26 gold in the bets, her mother later had to inform her that her cousin was an argonian.)