#it just keep echoing in my head

[babygirl-but-a-boy]

An Oresteia, Robert Icke // Tales of the Teen Titans annual #3 (1984) // wikipedia page on Tara Markov // George Perez interview 2003 // The Judgement, Franz Kafka // NTT Annual #2 (1983) // The Woman Dies, Aoko Matsuda // The Material Girl: Terra in the 1980s, LC Douglass // Team Titans #1 (Sept. 1992)

Tara Markov as a tragic character

[shirozora-draws]

mustard on the beat, ho- MUSTAAAAAAAAAAAAARD Someone make it stop, make it fucking stop. I spent all week hyping myself up to gather up all my work sketches like a scrapbook and clean it all up to post here, and then Kendrick had to surprise drop on a Friday morning and ruin my work day and my headspace all weekend long.

Anyway, here's a dangerous dreams sketch dump.

It's been a long quiet, but RL had taken such a fucking toll that I had a real hard time finding the fucks to get creative. Who knows how much this past US presidential election will fuck up the entire rest of my life, but I'll take solace in finding community and in the little things and in Andor Season 2 and in the telling of The Stars.

Now that I got this out of the way, guess it's time to go fucking write some fucking words.

[fascinationstreetmp3]

ahhghh....... armand knowing daniel can't live with him and can't live without him... away from armand daniel will always eventually end up lost and wandering and aimless, and by his side he's frustrated and hurt and angry. in the throes of addiction and being driven towards madness and a rapidly approaching death no matter what he does or where he is, because the damage has already been done. and book armand only has two options at the end: leave him alone, don't come for him again, and watch him die; or finally turn him like he's been begging for years, and risk losing him anyway. but show armand has a third option... because he knows daniel will be able to survive if armand is not part of his life, but only if he never remembers knowing or loving armand in the first place

[akai-anna]

@livmadart voice: he's like a bug

1 | 2 | 3 | 4

[hero-of-the-wolf]

listen hear me out—

what if eow takes place after the original loz?

[kurokid1412]

“Merlin… thanks to you and your vermin, my heart is thundering with wicked glee!”

“Just listen to that howling wind, a storm is brewing. This is my favorite kind of weather!”

“In a few days, what yarns will the sea breeze spin to Rustport?”

“That Hodgkin, the dread pirate, bested the fabled Merlin, or that you smashed my lifeless bones?”

aka, the moment I began my descent into madness. Rambles are under cut.

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Truth be told, while drawing the first panel, my brain also figured it was only a matter of time before I basically Went for it and just made this duo be an actual thing from… lord knows how many centuries ago. This dang pirate is just that tempting, you guys.

But hey after a while of drawing them I was like oh this may as well just work except of course now she’s forgotten about him and they’re enemies- I’ll clarify or try my best to since I’m still maintaining canon so I’m waiting for more from the game, trust. There is so much I want to say but unsure how to, so a buuunch of art is the way to subtly do it while also being careful I feel like…

Plus, I kept reading the dialogue of Hodgkin talking directly to Merlin while drawing that (I think I’ll also draw a comic of the first part) and I noticed how his choice of words seemed… to have more flavor than normal? Do correct me if I’m wrong and he also talks the similar way to anyone else, but I’d reckon Merlin has to be pretty damn special for him to speak to them that way. Perhaps that’s his way of showing his acknowledgement to how powerful we are… and power is what he constantly chases after, and it’s an “Our battle will be legendary!” moment.

Either way, self-indulgence has bested me and told me “Hodgkin has known Merlin before and it was on Quite A Level, more than just having heard about the legend’s name.” so… there will be more drawings of these two.

… I’m going to be very vulnerable and open with you all, aren’t I.

[shadystranger]

man searching for redemption and trying to rightfully atone for his sins gets forgiveness by the man he puts over god and shocker he stops feeling remorse and starts transgressing more and more.

the same way dean was sam's reality sam anchored himself gradually as dean's inner-conscience and through sam evaluating dean's actions in place of everyone surrounding and god/logic dean went on relying that sam'll forgive him and stay bc that's what he is sure of later szns (and sam emphasizing his unwillingness to walk out on dean) so this sense of security and convenience coined with the constant enabling at arm's length. that feedback loop ensures dean and sam to never change and always going in circles it's immaculate

[beegswaz]

ON DA FUCKINT GRIND 💪💪💪💪💪💪🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

[doctahchang]

would like to know the lore of my own oc that i have had for like ten years

edit: found an old sketch of her... i basically drew her for the first time eons ago and haven't changed her design ever since (sad that i won't be able to find those drawing again)

[dandyshucks]

coming on here just to teehee over an encounter today bc im too embarrassed to on my main account DBFJDKL but ... I'll call this guy Jay, he's a very chill nice guy and he goes to the centre that i go to (mental health activity centre lol) and i think he's in his late 30s? last week he had a pair of pants that he bought but didn't fit him and he couldn't return them bc it was from a store out of town that the centre had gone to on a day trip, so he offered to give them to me maybe bc they might fit me. and i took them and they're SUCH nice pants, i unfortunately dont have any money to give him and feel a little bad abt that but he didnt ask for any so fhdksl nice new pants for me i guess

anyways so today I was walking to the centre from the hospital and saw him walking too, so i joined him and we chatted a little as we walked, and i was wearing the pants today and he asked if they fit well and i was like yeah! and he asked if i needed to use a belt or anything on them, and i was like oh haha yeah im wearing one, and he goes "yeah cuz you're so small, huh?" and i said "yeahhh i have to use a belt on most pants i own haha" bc i didnt want him like. thinking the pants didnt fit or smth. and then he goes "aw thats really cute" before moving onto another topic AND I'M... FLUSTERED AT THAT POINT. idk if that was flirting or if I'm just insane but SBDHFJDKSL.... 🧍

[spocks-kaathyra]

when the weed starts tasting like the realization that I'm still deeply lonely and I'll never be loved how I need and it's selfish of me to even want it

[convexcave]

gonna inflict my mommy issues on my classmates next monday lol

[6qubed]

like some'a y'all are no less racist, sexist, nor hidebound than the average conservative, you just have different targets

swear to god y'all should hear how you talk

the whole guilt-tripping language in posts about important topics paired with how I'm still getting bitches in my notes talking about why it's actually good to tell "bad" people to kill themselves continues to prove to me that a lot of people have absolutely no concept of social justice or activism outside of assuming the worst of and then viciously attacking strangers on the internet

[foldingfittedsheets]

Something that literally changed my life was working with a friend on a coding thing. He was helping me create an auto rig script and was trying to explain something to me but his words were just turning into static in my brain. I was tired and confused and there was so many new concepts happening.

I could feel myself working toward a crying meltdown and was getting preemptively ashamed of what was about to happen when he said, “Hey, are you someone who benefits from breaks?”

It broke me.

Did I benefit from breaks? I didn’t know. I’d never taken them.

When a problem frustrated or upset me I just gritted my teeth and plowed through the emotional distress because eventually if you batter and flail at something long enough you figure it out. So what if you get bruised on the way.

I viscerally remembered in that moment being forced to sit at the table late into the night with my dad screaming at me, trying to understand math. I remembered taking that with me into adulthood and having breakdowns every week trying to understand coding. I could have taken a break? Would it help? I didn’t know! I’d never taken one!

“Yes,” I told him. We paused our call. I ate lunch. I focused on other stuff for half an hour. I came back in a significantly better state of mind, and the thing he’d been trying to explain had been gently cooking in the back of my head and seemed easier to understand.

Now when I find myself gritting my teeth at problems I can hear his gentle voice asking if I benefit from breaks. Yes, dear god, yes why did I never get taught breaks? Why was the only way I knew to keep suffering until something worked?

I was relating to this same friend recently my roadtrip to the redwoods with my wife. “We stopped every hour or so to get out and stretch our legs and switch drivers. It was really nice. When I was a kid we’d just drive twelve hours straight and not stop for anything, just gas. We’d eat in the car and power through.”

He gave a wry smile, immediately connecting the mindset of my parents on a road trip to what they’d instilled in me about brute forcing through discomfort. “Do you benefit from breaks?” he echoed, drawing my attention to it, making me smile with the same sad acknowledgement.

Take breaks. You’re allowed. You don’t have to slam into problems over and over and over, let yourself rest. It will get easier. Take. Breaks.

[galaxitesys]

in my own head

[fishing-for-blood]

I've started getting an influx of asks for Palestinian gofundmes. I will be confirming all of the verifications before I post them, meaning everything I'll post is legit. I'll be tagging the '#verified gofundme'