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[secret-tester]

hey Tester! could u draw webs n Huey (n some of the other kids if u want) playing DnD?

if u don’t want to; could I have Webby carrying a sword, ready for an adventure?

Your ask is my command...

I hope you like it!

Thank you for the ask Anon!!

[anarchopuppy]

What sort of themes and motifs persist throughout the Zelda Franchise and how well do you think they are portrayed (basically an invite to talk openly about the themes and motifs).

Also, do you have any reccs for someone interested in yhe series but doesn't know where to try?

ah, i remember when zelda games had themes instead of just plots. from links awakening thru to wind waker they got rly good at that, but they seemed to get confused when rewriting twilight princess from wind waker 2 into something more "mature" to please the fans who didnt like ww, and they still havent gotten back the touch they used to have imo

i wouldnt say there are any main themes present across the whole series other than basic ones like "heroism" or "helping ppl" which mostly just come from the shared gameplay. the themes for individual games are a lot more varied. ocarina is about growing up, majora is about death and grief and compassion, wind waker is about not letting obsession w the past keep u from looking to the future, etc

what u should start w depends on ur tastes. if ur into open-world games, start with botw and totk. if u prefer linear games, start w oot and continue in release order. majora and wind waker are both excellent but both benefit from the context of playing ocarina first

[jackienautism]

i rant about resident evil and their writing / inclusion of the girls.

i jsut want 2 girls to go on their fucked up little adventures together is that too much to ask

i finally got to the halfway point of code veronica X and GODDDD i fucking knew they were gonna do this goddamn shit w/ steve and claire. i knew from the goddamn beginning even if i didnt want to admoit it...... residetn evil just cant be normal w/ a girl being paired w/ a guy. they just fucking cant

i understand that this is seen more among the older games (ashley + leon from re4 as well) and i cant speak for the og re3 nemesis but the way they wrote carlos and jill? its just.... why make these male characters say such bizarre and degrading and just ? nasty comments towards the female protag? do you really expecvt us to root for them? i just dont fcuking undeerstand, and this occurs in a remake too! they didnt bother to maybe just maaaybe take that bulllshit out. because jill's uncomfortable. IM uncomfortable. its just. godddd who the fuck caaaares STOP THIS TROPE

you see this same thing w/ steve and claire.... not oonly is steve incredibly fucking annoying the first second we meet him, he also continually acts as a nuisance towards her for a good quarter of the game. yeah sure theyre just building up to the Ground Breaking Emo backstory drop later, but. you already made me fucking hate this loser so goddamn much meaning im not gonna give a single shit about his development later. I JUST DONT CARE FOR HIM !!!!!! THEM MAKING HIM SO ANNOYINH RUINED ANY CHANCE OF ME CHANGING MY MIDN LATER.......

and GOD havent even mentioned this yet but. when i saw the little preview thing w/ the 3 characters w/ claire + chris i saw [steve] and went.... [eyeballs] hello whos this? long story short i thoiught he was a butch lesbian and i got SO excite d b c residtn ebil has yet to pair a girl up w/ anothner girl around the same age but noooooo instead i got this pathetic loser of a man (derogatory). the closest we have to 2 girls being fucked up together is mia and zoe in re7. but thats like. mainly a side thing. and mia isnt even the protag so

which leads me to the next thng i wanted to talk about. i think mnmen are super cool ofc and i hate to be that Bitch and pull that Card but good freaking god why must there be a man FOR EVERY SINGLE FEMALE CHARACTER IN THIS GOD FORSAKEN SERIES...... andit woudlnt be huge deal if they were noraml w/ these pairings but theyre NOT..... THEY MAKE IT WEIRD EVERY SINGLE TIME..... STEVE LITERALLY ALMOST KISSES CLAIRE WHILE SHE'S ASLEEP........ CARLOS CONSISTENTLY MAKES UNNECESSARILY WEIRD COMMENTS TOWARD JILL......... ASHLEY RANDOMLY AWSKS FOR SEX AT THE END OF RE4............ WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT AOBUT? good for ashley for shooting her shot i guess though but considering yhe game's previous comments towards ashleu and her figure.... it was blatantly put in to sexualize her furtyher

maybe its thr lesbian in me popping out maybe its the aromantic in me popping out WHO KNOWS all i know is that. resident evil makes me very upset sometimes dflkgnjg i love the games i love the characters (esp the girls big surprise i know) but jesus christ. somethings i just can't ignore. and this is cerrtainly one of them. a girl just can't exist out of a guy according to capcom. and that sort of idea is suuuper evident in how they portray and include their women. you could have a girl protag (re3, recv etc) but theres always a 99% chance theres gonna be a man tagging along + continually saving their asses and theres almost alwaysa an even HIGHER chance that theyre meant to be seen as a romantic interest! and its exhausting@!!!!!

long story short . i get im not resident evil's target audience . but im still gonna be pissed and annoyed . the girls deserve better .

im def gonna have to go more in depth abt resident evil and their writing of relationships (or lack thereof) some other time but just for now. the best written ones are claire + sherry and mia + ethan goodbye

[solardick]

Been portent active lately. Everyday again. Summer time is coming. Notliving agaidnt the grain, as is winter. Today, want to know? A crow or a raven flies by. … no wait,,… a bluejay flies by fallowed by a crow or a raven. Omenous after affect. But a dove circles round and flies down the street from wence i came. Fallowed by a sub-species if crow. The ones with the blue tint on their necks. Those small ones. It plays out the same with the people.

Getting awfully tired of playing the better man. But arranged it with stolen liberty. Like thats not a consistent against me. And worked around for a solution to work by myself and not have to endure too much bs.

The other day the fluff portent has been vonfirmed to represent to lovely feminine body. As a touch of grace. Floating with the wind. The bird portents are a repeat of yesterday. One perdon switching out for another.

Its odd to know what will generally happen before the fact based on bird sightings. Interacting with me. The bliejay seems to means cooperation. With the group. And the dove is always pleasant. The large black bird of stupid ignorant bs. By stupid ignoranr people. Gets reduced in effect. Its to be expected by people whom gsin plasure from one upping children. As is ussually found in vedio games.

And just like that the crow turns into a harmless blue tint. Never mind the BS above it has passed. Wonder what to call that. Prophetic portents of nature. The crow gave a hand and didnt caw at me.

And a nice friendly good bye at the end. Uh. God told me all of this within 2to 3 seconds. About an hour before ny shift. Should keep working in my cards.

As for the cards i wish to keep to the “classical” images of the tarot. Because they work. The minor arcana may be neglected entirely. Waite based his minir arcana with a knowledge base included from Mac gregor mathews. The book “The kabalah unveiled is a necessary read. If one can understand a single word of it. And at least play with the idea base from it. Though it deviates greatly from the Christian texts. Removing the holy ghost with a divine mother. Though the creator of the Cyrillic alphabet, Saint Cyril, preached highly of the holy mary, mother of god. Though also states that the state of being of jesus is formed of the word. The word of the gospel. To become the divine masculine. But, im off track. For all four suits of thr minor arcana fallow that script, except for yhe suit of swords with fallows a reverse order. From right to left. If one where to add in the missing cards of the greater arcana to be in sync with the alphabet. The removal of one face card from each suit would still equal 78 cards. Not including the fool card for that belongs to the greater arcana anyway.

The idea at current state, would be adding in oracle type cards taking from my own experiences with nature. Though it falls short of 52. And it wouln’t be universally valid for all continents and for all people for the faunic portents are exclusive to particular geographic locations. Becaus rthe minor arcana as they are, and in which most decks fallow to the “letter” are all purely individualistic to Mr. waite’s imagination. This doesnt bother me much for i do not divinate with the cards anyway. Theres so much more the the greater arcana then that sole purpose. And by adding in other “greater arcana’s” will complicate the minor arcana as descriptor cards. All the aces being descriptive of the fool card. All the deuces of the “magician” and so on and so forth. For i don’t intent to fallow the kabalah in this sense. For i do not understand it and i fallow my own beat.

For example of the clasical greater arcana olatign a script would be the connection the hanged man has to the tower and to death. It being a reflection of it by letter. The hanged man equals p the death card equals q. p and q are mirrored images. As it the wheel and the moon. W and M. The hanged man is connected to the tower card not by letter or by position but by image. Hanging from the letter T.

Of all the tarot books ive read. And ive read a few. They all start to fall apart a fee cards in. And it gets very sketchy trying to fallow a story from one card to the next. But i agree with most of them when it comes to the first few cards. But then the authors just seem to BS their way through it. 78 degress of wisdom made me want to vomit. All that talk about eros this and eros that. She should rename her book 78 degress of eros. And other books whcih i jsut laughed at instead of reading. Are like queering the tarot. And on and on. Make sme feel bad for alll the people that dont question this shit. But what to expect froma femenist movement born out of drug abuse, hippies and television.

But, hell maybe the americans will votr donald trumo back as president. And he can start a new WW with russia… they lost 27 million people in WW russia did. And never have i heard any sympathy or acknowledgment of it. Just over hyped BS about american veterans this and that. 27 million to the 30 to 40 thousand americans.

I mention this, anti-antagonize, to detach from years of conditioning to dis-illusion myself in order to combat the resistance against learning the language and culture. It has nothing to do with taking sides or heresy. For after russia became a democrazy popular media keeps on the old world view by not acknowledging this fact and continuing to call them communists and red flagged soviets.

[ace-mob-boss]

So I have these kind of like. Delusions idk, like, I see monsters both of my own making and fictional game shit and whenever I'm alone for the most part, but occasionally even if someone's in the room asleep with me I can see this shit so vividly but at the same time not at all

Like. I also know it's fake. I'm a very logical person at heart and I KNOW it's fake but it's so hard to just know it because it's not even regular zombie kinda shit. It's like recently its been banbans play house or wtv the fuck it is but I've mainly been seeing the white one peek up places, the bird basically behind my eyelids, the red one jump scares(using jump scares vaguely because its kimda just like, lying in wait for me without doing something but yheres an underlying dangerous intent) the intent to kill and the blue one crawls on the ceiling and tries to eat me, basically just like in game.

It's just been getting worse and worse, but my own monsters are semi worse even though when I have the banban shit I don't see them as often. And there's one that's conditional that only shows up when I'm at my aunts house that's like. This homeless man and I really can't with this shit. It makes my hair stand on end and I wanna shake my hands and scream and everytime I run to my room after turning all the lights off in the house, especially if my door was open, I have to scan all the corners of my room and bed to see if SOMETHING is there.

I really just don't know how to deal with it. Like, especially because some of them are just really tall and lanky and murky black masses with maybe just eyes or just teeth but some just hover behind me waiting and others crawl on the ceilings waiting. They show up most often when I'm washing the dishes alone and everyone else in the house is asleep. I just. It's so hard cus there's so many things that are just different about me nd I can't bro. I also feel like such a pick me whenever I try to bring it up cus It makes me feel like i made it all up but I DIDNT. And I really just don't know what to do.

If I think about it it's always been like this. When I was smaller I use to see them but they were more rule based and I ONLY saw them when I was trying to go to bed. I remember all of yjem and they sound silly to people but they truly scared me.

I have vivid nightmares surprisingly as well, they're not od the monsters I actually SEE though. They're still made up but they often involve people who are close to me in REAL LIFE and I always die. Since I was at least 6. I use to play plants VS zombies and I had to stop because I'd have such vivid dreams of them breaking into my house, killing my family and id either get caught alive and be eaten alive after being bum rushed or I'd starve to death under my bed. And there are some other ones from my dreams and they sound so STUPID.

IVe only had such bad dreams on scales like that like two or three times since the beginning of 2022 now but they're so vivid and undeniably scary. I ponder if it's schizophrenia but I just don't know and I don't want to sound crazy or be treated like a liar or a pick me. I just wanna be able to be in my house alone and relax yhe whole time without trying to keep my self occupied for as long as possible before the monsters show up or I start thinking that they're there. Can it even count as schizophrenia if I know the delusions are fake?

[metfell]

Do not reblog cause I know people r gonna wanna add on and I just wanna dump my thoughts abt this

Like I don’t remember how many days ago this was but I was asked to explain why I hate gen6 onward and I literally ended up in quinton review length territory explaining how gen 7 and gen 8 in particular just show so badly what a capitalist nightmare the Pokémon franchise has become and I get like so goddamn heated thinking about those poor coders and animators and game designers having to rush these games out in a year so the rest of the goddamn machine can keep turning like the animations end up looking shoddy and the plot wishes it was gen 5 so bad they keep trying to make a fucking anime like just make the goddamn anime instead because the player has NO control in the story anymore they just tell it TO you they don’t let you even do anything memorable anymore like sword and shield they just had the adults take care of it and DIDNT EVEN SHOW ANY OF THE COOL PARTS THEY JUST SHOWED GODDAMN PICTURES.

And ok I’ll give them one thing. The music is always good. BUT IM GONNA COMPLAIN MORE ABOJT THAT TOO ESPECIALLY WITH SWORD AND SHIELD BECAUSE SO MANY OF YHE TOWN THEMES FEEL OUT OF PLACE AND- goddammit my phone is fucking glitching nevermind

Ok last tiny thing I have a vicious hatred for gen 7 like a violent hatred for it like more than gen 8 surprisingly

[the-dimensionmaker]

Oh boy.... where... WHERE... do i begin with this... i had to think about this for a LONG time... cause i know if i talk about this and try and give Aidan more attention... then my friend and great artist, Raisha gs will be upset with me... and.... will probably block me.... leaving me here to grieve again for the mistakes i did...... so if Raisha some how knows that i have a twitter acc... first off... hi dude... second off dont block me... yhe worst you can do is block someone for trying to get something out of they're situation so they can feel better... im not saying that your a bad person... im not saying that that your trying to control my life... all im saying is that.. please... understand that i need to do this... if people are doing this against people like Lui or Mini Ladd or even Shane Dawson... then i should do the same for a guy who has did this... dont worry... i blocked him on twitter.... so dont worry about him trying to find out about what im talking about... ok...? I hope you understand...

so for starters if you dont know who i am, i am the Dimensionmaker. Someone who wants to make animations for yt, who wants to make his own games, want do lets plays, and even talk to you viewers... i have a rough life... filled with nothing but people lying to me, people cheating on me without a reason (the numbers of people who did that is now 61 in total...), people lying ABOUT me, nothing but fear, and many more... Jaiden or Kitty Courtnie And Linka, is... the first gf i ever had. She was... the worst as well. She never listened, didnt care, and then cheated... then we have... Aidan2003, who is the main topic of this...

We start from what caused all of this to happen... when i was in middle school still i was on roblox... i had great friends... one of them named herself Jaidenanimations (not the real one...) also known as Courtnie... she was the nicest.. at the time she had a bf named Dud.. (btw Dud is Older then both me AND courtnie.. he acted like a complete creep around her..) but fsr.. Dud broke up with her.... someone named Ethan dated her too... but then broke up with her... and who knows if he is older then courtnie at the time... she was now sad... so i decided to become her bf... and when i did... we were... THE BEST... we loved each other more then anything... she would without me asking, want to do a drp with me... she wanted to come to my house... she wanted to meet me irl... she was better then anyone...things got a bit worst... Jaiden was now enemies with everyone... (Ethan, Dud, Jonathan, etc...) she doesnt want them to follow her... so i decied to be a bit strict.. and tell her to NOT go to any of the roblox games till she blocks them... and she lies to me... saying that... "She wasnt able to block them as a crack was CONVENIENTLY on the block and unfriend button..." and when ever we have a plan or another idea on what can actually work... she lied her way saying thaings like oh.. "My Phone Is Dead" and such.. so much in fake that it was... PREDICTABLE... she then started to hang out with them... i became a bit more stricter... then my mental health became bad... she didnt listen... it made me feel like nobody listens to me... leading me into a depression... i felt like nobody liked me... nobody listens to me... nobody even cared about me... i wanted to die... a... bunch of times... most of the time... she never cared... then... on yt......... she cheated on me... with 2 people who were OLDER THEN ME AND HER COMBINED (being both Jonathan and Dud... keep that in mind...)... i noticed this.... i was FURIOUS..... i yelled at the thing i thought was a girl i Loved... a girl i could trust... a Girl that i thought was LOYAL..... then her parents got involved calling me rude words like European Boy (i think it was something else) "just because my skin was black".. keep that in mind as well... "her parents deleted her discord acc For Good..." (keep thaf in mind...)... then... i sobbed... again... and again... i tried to go and find people who cares about me or loved me... but then they cheated... one by one... my mental health became WORST.... i tried many methods... me having more then one girlfriend... having them make promises due to what has happen to me... being nice... being strict..... nothing worked.......... my life was miserable...... i didnt finally be able to talk to courtnie and get her to break up with Jonathan... she was happy that she did... but then she didnt come back to roblox... but then betrayed me yet again........

I asked one of my friends on if they are able to talk to Courtnie...they couldn't... all except for one person one of them know... Aidan... i talked to Aidan and he actually was nice... but then... he started to act like im a pedo... wanna know why...? Get this... JAIDEN LIED ABOUT HER AGE THE WHOLE TIME. when i was 13 she was 10 ALL ALONG. She lied to me for YEARS... saying she was my age.... i blocked Aidan and never talked to him ever again... and jaiden finally talks to me and we were in good terms... but then... Aidan came in.... saying jaiden has caused alot of crap to him... i believed him and became his friend only to be forced into a group where this friends (ETHAN AND IVAN BEING ONE OF THEM) could harass me... then... we go to his videos... his videos are false... they barely show proof... he says points that are completely incorrect.... hell here is some (not all cause i dont want to be texting all night) he said in them...

- "I Know Where You Live And I Know Everything About You"

He says this yet he assumed i was a 25 year old man. Even tho im now 15. At the time i was 14 now im 15. Plus he doxxedy house. And stole my IP ADDRESS... that right there makes him seem more like a creep. Courtnie without me asking told me where she lived. This guy STOLE MY IP ADDRESS AND FUCKING DOXXED MY HOUSE. That right there will show that he is a bad person who is just lying to ruin my life... speaking of lying

- "Schroederluvr Is A Minor"

This proves that he didnt even talk to her... she isnt a minor... hell looking at her compared to me... she is OLDER THEN ME.. SHE IS 20 SOMETHING YEARS OLD. I Didnt Harass Her Anyways so why is he saying that i did.

- "Lillie is innocent"

Lillie on Instagram literally said in her own words that she is bullying me because of me being depressed. Thats jot justified AT ALL.

"Klara's post is about me"

No its not. Its about lillie and her friends. Who BTW IS DMING ME SENDING A PICTURE OF SOME STUPID PICTURE OF A INCINEROAR. sure yes it doesnt seem to bad but its EXTREMELY ANNOYING.

- "Telling the police that Aidan doxxed my house and Stole my IP Address wont do anything"

It will, Aidan. It literally says that no matter how you got it or why you got it, you will be send to jail.

- "TALKING to minors is bad"

Wrong. If thats the case then someone like WILDCAT, VANOSS, H2ODELIRIOUS, MARKIPLIER, CORYXKENSHIN, AND MANY MANY MORE would be swatted and in jail. Its not Illegal to talk to them.

- "that Katie is innocent"

Katie has done a MOUNTAIN of stuff to me. So much so that even the nicest people of all time wont be nice to her. She isnt in the right. AT. ALL.

- "that telling people to leave me alone is harassing them"

Its not harassment. Seriously. A NORMAL HUMAN BEING WOULD KNOW THAT IST NOR HARASSMENT TO TELL SOMEONE TO GO AWAY OR LEAVE THEM ALONE

- "That im a predator yet youw ont go after Jonathan and Dud"

He literally spares them but not me. Jonathan was 17 i think. And Dud was i think 19. Now he's probably 20 OR 21 YEARS OLD. And you STILL come at me for just DATING someone who LIED ABOUT HER AGE.

- "that i was... Harassing? xxlitle_dummyxx"

Even tho she literally wants to be rude while im trying to help... wow... just fucking WOW

- "that not telling people your name, nor putting your name on your acc is a bad thing"

No.. no its not... hell we look at a bunch of youtubers doing that. Hell there are a bunch of people i KNOW that doesnt say they're real name. It's THEY'RE CHOICE. Not yours Aidan.

Anyways.... then to make things worst he called me the N word a bunch of times then say that he "didnt" because i didnt have proof... wanna know why? BECAUSE HE BLOCKED ME AFTER THAT SO I WASNT ABLE TO TAKE A VIDEO OF THIS. Then he made a fake conversation between me and jaiden. I can tell its fake by just looking at the pfps and names...

I decided to delete all the posts about him on Instagram... not because he beated me... but because i wanted Raisha gs to be happy... to not hate me...... to not block me... thats something that Effects me when it comes to someone like Raisha or Brsstar... i worry that if i make one mistake for what ever reason... ill be blocked... so im hoping that Raisha understands that i cant hold all of this in anymore... if Aidan are exposing me for shit i didn't do... if PEOPLE are coming out to finally say the truth about someone... then i should as well.... i hope you understand if you made it this far...

So... here's what i have to say for the conclusion of this... if you all see the name... "Aidan2003"... block him... REPORT HIM... do what ever you like to him.... he wants to hurt me for shit i didnt do... so why should i say to not do the same to him... he is not a good person... he never was....

This is The Creator Of Multiverses... and i will soon make other posts, dont worry ^^.

Till then my fell Universers..

[tumblunni]

Wow i had such a weird dream?? The story itself wasnt too unusual, just an emotional moment of an anime that doesnt exist, but the way the dream delivered it was really confusing!

The plot of this apparant anime was that there was some sort of ragtag group of monster people wandering the earth looking for a place they could belong without being hated. And i got the feeling here that they'd just found a place where things were going good, but the show's recurring villains appeared and revealed their secret to the town and now they had to flee again as everyone they thought was a friend took up pitchforks against them.

And the main focus character was really interesting? I dont think he was actually the protagonist but he got the focal role in this episode. Cos the monsters had to disguise themselves as humans to live in this town, and this was the youngest monster who didnt know how to do that yet. He had a really emotional struggle of pushing himself so hard to try and master this skill, because he was actually unique amoung the group for being a monster that was actually once human. So it was a combination of frustration at being a burden to his new friends, with desperation to finally see his own face in the mirror again.

And I feel like maybe before he became a monster he was bigoted against them and scared of them? Within the dream i recalled watching that other episode some other day, and apparantly it was super emotional. It started off just seeming like another 'we find the town of the day along our journey and meet some friends and/or solve a conflict' type thing. And this kid was mostly antagonistic through the episode, a dumb naive kid who believed everything negative about monsters and now struggled with the situation of being the only one who knew the truth that these guys are monsters but also now theyre doubting whether they should reveal it because these people seem so..normal?? And scared?? Starts to doubt whether all the other monsters executed by the corrupt church in their town were fully sentient too, and every time the 'nice' priest was teaching them how to spot liars he was really teaching them how to kill innocent monster people who were just as scared as the humans are of them. But the roots of gaslighting and abuse from this priest ran deep, so the kid struggled with the choice and ultimately made the wrong decision. Also i think maybe theres a reveal that the priest was actually their biological dad too, just for even more levels of why theyd make that wrong decision. And more reasons why its horrifying that the priest dad just treats his kid like shit once they outlived their usefulness. Im thinking something like the kid tries to make up for their mistake and save the protagonists but they get captured by their dad and like.. Ok holy fuck this dude is outright willing to murder his son and he's eminantly aware that these monster people are 100% sentiebt because he's using the threat of killing his son as a way to get them to lay down their weapons and agree to be recaptured. And then i think there was something super messed up when it was revealed all the monster attacks that happened to the town to get them so scared and paranoid were actually orchestrated by the priest as a form of control over his citizens. He had some sort of Ominous Doom Science to both turn people into monsters and control them to do his bidding. And like the predictable asshole he is, even after the protagonists gave up in order to save the kid he still killed him anyway. And after snapping his neck he threw him down into the prison cell with the protagonists and was like 'lets torment them by making them fight the kid they wanted to save'. Because it turned out he'd been doping the kid with a special dose of the monster formula ever since birth, and he was his 'secret weapon' all along without knowing it. Ultra super mega concentrated doom form of the artifical monsters he uses in his army, activated upon the moment of the kid's death. But then it turns out the ultimate experiment was too much for him to control and the kid was able to keep their mind in their new form, and turn against him to save their new friends. But when they realized what had happened to them, they broke down in fear. And everything was super depressing cos the protagonists knew this poor kid was now doomed to share their fate as monsters, and theyd have to take them away fron everythung theyd ever known in order to keep them safe. But also heartwarming at the same time because the kid had never known a truly loving family before, and as they passed out in the arms of main protagonist mom friend werewolf they felt like maybe this is what having a real family is like...

So anyway that led to a bit of an angsty team dynamic with this new recruit? The kid was obviously all new to monsterness and terrified of everything. But also even now they were struggling with that 'what if my abusive dad is right' instinct drilled into them from all those years. They still struggled with really believing that monsters arent evil, and like 'no i must have only disobeyed him because i was infected and i didnt know it, monsters are evil and i became one because i'm evil too'. Unwilling to believe that their dad did that to them and trying to find excuses where it would be their own fault. Maybe the kid was even tricked by another villain at some point who lied about having a cure? Like even whenthey became more able to trust their new monster friends they were still like 'theyd be happier if they became normal right?' Lots of angst and messing up and this poor kid feeling not only weak and useless to the team but also outright toxic to them.

So all of this led to this situation where disguising yourself as a human is a skill all the other team members already mastered and this kid is struggling real hard to accomplish it in order to save the day. Ans its extra depressing cos they havent seen their original human face in months, and theyre trying to cling onto the memories but scared they migjt forget what it was like to be human. And then i cant really recall all the details but i feel like the writing and cinematography were just super amazing emotional on this scene of the kid struggling to Do The Thing in time to save their friends, and like.. Atone for all their mistakes.

Also i think like the kid had this big super kaiju ultimate chimera form which was what their dad designed them to be, but also most of the time they were poofed into a tiny mascot sized version of that. And theycd never actually managed to control their powers enough to turn into their battle form willingly until now. Just this super depressing and also uplifting scene of this fuckin tiny monster kid being pinned to the ground underneath the villain's heel, trying desperately to turn human again to save their friends. And i think it was an awesome moment where they did manage to regain their old face for just a few seconds, but instead of actually learning to master the human transformation they learned to master their battle form instead. Like, accepting that that old face isnt who they are anymore, and it wont help like they thought it would. What they really need now is their REAL face! Some sort of dramatic badass speech about this that cuts the villain's philosophy right in half, and then a badass scene of tiny kid finally being able to control (and not be scared of!) their beast form, and fight the whole damn army singlehandedly to save their friends!

Also i think there was an extra emotional moment somewhere along the way where one of yhe villain generals was like 'no, stop, i want to see if they can do this', and actually started motivating the kid. Like i think they were a brainwashed soldier of the old priest bastatd who was sent to kill these monsters supposedly to avenge the priest's dead kid but they were actually starting to have doubts when this terrifying monster that 'killed them' seemed to act so much like a child. So this was the big moment of them finall believing the kid, and getting to see proof it really was them and the priest really was a manipulative evil bastard all along. So i think they switched sides and joined super powered up kiddo in fighting their fellow knights, giving them the keys to go free their friends. And possibly this knight person also joined the team after this and was the first proper human ally theyd ever had? And probably had loads of emotional plots of atoning

ANYWAY that was the cool really engaging story of my dream that i wish i could watch a real anime about!

But the weird part was that this was all delivered really fragmented cos of how little sleep ive had lately. I was seeing it in the form of (for some reason) laying down on the stairs at my abusive father's old house, listening to it playing on the tiny tv he had in his room. And you may have noticed i kept mixing up the kid's pronouns, thats because everyone in the dream was represented visually by a character from some other franchise and it was REALLY confusing! The kid was like an amalgamation of all the dudes from Wolf's Rain which i guess is where the concept of wandering monsters in human illusion came from. (Tho they werent all reverse werewolves like in that show) It was weird cos i knew this character was meant to be a child but they looked like five ripped teenagers smooshed together? Cos i havent seen that show in ages and couldnt even remember the protagonist's name. (Was someone called Hide or is that a guy from tokyo ghoul? I think they had the outfit of the tokyo ghoul guy.) And then predictably the evil priest dad was cornello from full metal alchemist mixed with my old doctor who had the same name. But less predictably the redeemed villain holy paladin knight guy was replica riku from kingdom hearts?? Ans specifically his medal from the app game, like he came with a floating medal attatched to his waist like a mermaid who was also a coffee table.

Also it just ended with a floating box of hair dye that turned to face the camera and it was actually coffee in a hair dye package. Like an exact replica of the blonding bleach i usually use, right down to every detail, but all the text was replaced with coffee info. I..i dont know what that has to do with anything else that just happened...

Oh also i think maybe one of the other teammates was a big cuddly 50-something circus ringleader type guy? He was the friendly comic relief but actually deep downn the most tormented of all of them. He'd been imprisoned as a circus attraction for most of his entire life and dressing up like a ringleader now he was free was kinda a way of coping? But yeh i think he bonded well with the kid cos they both didnt have much experience with being free and everything seemed new and scary. This guy also didnt have much experience of monster society either cos he'd been enslaved since he was a child. Man this anime sounds so fuckin intense and dark and emotional but also full of powerful friendship!! Why cant i watch any more episodes!! give me a sequel dream!!

[ltakefrom4chan]

For Bambi

Bambi arrived at his friends house for there weekly hangout sessions. This was the first one they've had in few weeks ever since Max charged. Bambi didn't mind the change but it just shocked him when he learned his friend grew a big pair of tits but what shocked him more was when he saw Max's big dick and heavy balls.

It was a mistake when it happened he walked into there house with the key he was given by beth to drop off the food he brough so they can eat while they hang out. When he didnt see them around the kitchen he walked into the living room and thats when he saw it max was in milking gear while beth watch. Bambi was only expecting the standard stuff just two milk pumps but there was one more he never expected a cock pump milking away and his cock. Bambi sneaked out of the sure he wasn't seen and made sure to take the food with him but he wasn't sure what to think of his best friend at that point.

Its been a 2 weeks at that point but he couldn't get that dick out of his head he remembers watcing it twitch a pulse in the milking gear. He tried to shake the thought but it stayed in his mind. He was happy he could see his friends again looking foward to it not matter what they looked like.

when he unlocked the door he walked to the living room carring pizza and junkfood. The milking was nowhere to be seen and max and beth were alreay playing video games. Bambi came to join them grabbing a spair controler and sitting down to play, But he wasn't focused on the game. His eyes kept wandering looking over max at his curves and obious nipple bulges but theres one bulge he couldn't see there was no dick bulge. could he have imagined it? if there was one there should be a bulge he thought.

"uhhhhh Bambi hello??" Max callef out breaking bambi's investigation

"what sorry" Bambi called out blushing unaware how long hes been staring

"its your turn pick a character man" Beth called out

"oh sure thing" Bambi said still thinking about max's body. maybe it was all in my head that has to be it he thought.

The day continued on for them as it started to get dark outside. Bambi had a few more staring incidents but nothing as bad as the first. The junk food started to get to Bambi as he feels the start of heartburn from the geasy pizza. he asked beth if theu had anything to help and thank goodness they did. he headed off to the bathroom to get the medicine telling Max and Beth to continue without him.

Bambi got to the restroom and looked for the meditation that beth described when he found it. he oped up the bottle with the black liquid inside and poured himseld out a cap full. He brought the cap to his lips and drank it down. he felt his body grow warm everywhere the medicine touched. must be working he thought. he started to put all the medicine he pulled out away. when he finished he looked in the mirror one more time and saw something off.

He saw breasts? Not just a any breasts he saw his own starting to fill his shirt. He started to panic quietly not wanting to alert the other two to his situations. The fabric of his shirt started to streach and tear as his tits stared to from small B cups to massively DD cups. thats not all that changed his hips started to grow wider and his thighs thicker ripping his shorts and boxers in the process. his face grew feminine and his waist grew thin. "at least i still have a dick" he thought reaching down to feel himself but only manages to stick two fingers up his wet cunt. He panics sitting down on the toilet not sure what to do next. The transformation takes it toll on bambi as a wave of sleepiness hits him and he passes out.

"Bambi...... Bambi are you okay?" bambi wakes up to max shaking him awake. Bambi looks at max "man you wouldn't belive the dream i had i thought i turned into a girl like you". Max looked down at Bambi's body it was still that of a woman with a set of G cupped breast full of milk. bambi looked down to see what max was staring at and saw it wasint a dream, but he saw something else a masive bulge in forming in Maxs pants. Bambi had to see it again her pussy growing wet lookinh at the bulge. Bambi moved her food to max's waist line and hooks her toe on max's pants yanking the pants down letting her monster cock sprint up.

Max was suprised at Bambi's action he tried to walk back but his legs couldn't move since his pants were caught around his knees. he started to fall backward from his attempt to pull back. bambi reach forward pulling max to him to prevent him from falling but dhe pulled max to hard causing him to fall foward onto her. Bambi looked down past there bodies to see Max's cock jammed into her soaking pussy. once she let everything process the sensation hit her as she had her firsy female orgasm. she grew red and started mubling.

"oh god im sorry" max said as he started to pull back but he felt something on his back he turned around and saw beth.

"that was some spectacle" she said she was there to see the whole incident in motion from Bambi pulling off his pants to the accidental penitration. she moved close to Max's ear and wispered "lets have some more fun" as she pushed on Max's ass forcing his cock further inside Bambi.

bambi let out a moan her pussy being filled with Max's massive cock. beth stayed behind Max guiding his dick in in and out of bambi setting up a rhythm "keep going babe ill be back" she said befor leaving the bathroom". Max continued to pump his cock in and out the head of his dick hitting bambi's womb like a jack hammer. Bambi keeped mumbling and moaning incoherent nonsence as she keeped on cumming lossing to the pleasure. Max's thrusts goy slower untill she shoved his whole body foward his cock pressed againt his womb as he shot his cum filling bambi's womb up with his thick load. Max's tits started to leak milk into his shirt while Bambi's were shooting out milk. Max finaly stopped cumming pullinh out his dick as beth reentered the bathroom "awwww you guys finished without me" she said in a disappointed attitude. she walked up and gave bambi's tit a squeeze seeing all the milk shoot out. "damn babe i think she produces even more milk then you, lets get her hooked up to the milk machine i just set it up" beth said with an excited look on her face.

Bambi woke up in the living room and saw beth "man beth you would not believe the dream i had i dreamed i was a girl and max dicked me down with a huge cock and you were there helping him and he came inside of me. that was a crazy dream". beth looked at bambi with an amused look as she pressed a button on the milk machine and turned it on. bambi felt the suction on her breasts as milk shot out of her breast and into the collection tank of the machine. bambi threw her head back from the pleasure as beth pressed another button shooting a dildo up into bambis pussy causing her to cum shooting more milk out. "ill leave you like this for a while" beth said but her works fell on silent on bambi's ears. bambi was lost of the pleausers of being a girl as he keeped cumming from the dildo and having her breast millked.

beth moved to max presenting her wet pussy to max "god this is getting me so excited dont keep me waiting". Max saw this and moved in pressing his tip againts her pussy then pulling back teasing her befor shoving it in. beth was used to max's monster of a cock but it still feels good when he teases her. Max gave beth the same treatment he gave bambi just a biy rougher the way he knows beth likes it. He hits all the right spots causing beth to cum over and over again her pussy quivering on his dick acting like a vibrator. The thightness on his cock caused him to cum but he wasn't done yet he keeped plowing Beth even after cumming.

when all was said and done he pulled his cock out with an audible plop sound from all the cum leaking out of beth. they get up checking on bambi seeing here breast leaking out just small bead and the floor beneath her wet with her juices. they take bambi off of the machine and they all head to the showers. beth and max washed themselves off and helped bambi wash herself she was still conscious but tired from the last few hours. they take bambi to the bed with them and they all sleep

in the moring bambi wakes up first supried when he sees max and beth using him like a body pillow. he slowly prys there arms off of him and heads to yhe bathroom seeing that hes back to his old self. hes glad but now he knows a new way he can hang out with his best friends

[itsl]

Long time no see. I've been wanting to write this for a while, but I've been... scared? It's about my relationship. It's not ab*sive (at least in the physcial sense), but I've had about as much as I can take.

I'll start this by saying I've only been in three relationships in my life, none of which were healthy for me. I've been gaslight, shamed and more. And again, it's never been physical. But as I've come to learn, it doesn't have to be physical to seriously affect you.

So my boyfriend (x) and I have been together for nearly 3. I've been with him through a lot. And when I say a lot, I mean through me finding womens nudes on his phone to porn in his youtube history to going behind my back and talking shit about me to someone who put me in a very emotionally dangerous situation. And while the whole time, I've convinced myself that he cares about me, I've come to the conclusion that he doesn't. He's so selfish. He only cares about himself.

X has recent applied for apartment viewings in the capital. I wasn't part of this decision. We've been living together with my mum for maybe 2 years (?). I thought it was just me being petty when he told me he was going to move out. I was upset because I'm not ready, I'm dealing with a lot in the sense of mental health right now, and I thought it was kind of a dick move for him to be thinking about yhe next stage of 'our' life without me. I mustered up the courage to tell him I'm not coming when he moves out, and I even went as far as to explain myself. I said that I wasn't part of the decision, I'm not comfortable making a big move while in therapy and I cant afford to move out (as I haven't had a job for just over a year - thanks covid). He said okay and I assumed that that meant he wasn't going to move out. I was wrong. He told me again a couple of days ago that he was still moving out because he wanted to. I went about telling him how he was leaving me behind (litrrally) and that he was self sabotaging a relationship he had previously told me he didn't want to loose. So now I'm stuck thinking "hey, you work 5/6 days a week and you're going to be living in the capital, an hour of so away. Im gonna see you twice a week, if I'm lucky."

Recently I have been standing up for myself against him too. Whenever he's been interrupting me I've told him I'm not done talking and if he was rudely interrupting me, I'd tell him to shut up. In fact, I just did now, and he snapped his head round and growled at me saying "you shut up". I would be lying if I said I wasn't a little scared of him. He's so aggressive. He's so rude. It has to be his way all the time, and I'm sick of it. Now that I've started to stand up for myself, we've been growing apart. I can't remember the last time he hugged me or kissed me. And thats not me being dramatic, he genuinely does not show me any form of physcial affection unless I ask for it. And obviously I haven't been asking for it recently because I shouldn't have to. It's sad and I feel like a bit of a place holder (?) in his life. He talks about how he's ready to be a dad, but I don't think he gives two shits if its with me or not. He makes it apparent that he isn't sharing his life -if that makes sense. He's shown me very clearly that it doesn't matter which woman is on his arm, he'll do what he wants.

I got my covid shot a few days ago, and if you've had it or know someone that has, you may know that it can cause you to get a little sick for a few days. I have a weak immune system and a few health issues (which is why I got my shot early) and the vaccine made me so weak and achy. I didnt eat the day after my vaccine and just slept mostly, but I asked X to make me some noodles (the instant ramen) to which he replied "I dont know how to make noodles". This fucking incompetent asshole seriously said he can't boil water and put noodles in it. So, struggling to walk, achy and with the chills (the painful kind that shakes your bones), I went and spent maybe 30 minutes making a 10 (if that) minute meal. To say I was angry would be an understatement. Even my mum thought that was ridiculous. It got me thinking as well. If I WAS to move out with him, and I got sick or I was really ill, who would take care of me? If I couldn't move for some reason or I broke a bone or was bed ridden for a bit, who would take care of me? That asshole wouldn't, I'll tell you that. Not only would he not take care of me, he wouldn't even TRY to. True love my fucking ass. Even tiny little things like asking him to close the bedroom door and turn of the light in the hallway (because he was the last to come in) to which he replies "you do it" while loading up a game on his PS4.

Oh my... not to mention I haven't been given anything for our first valentines day. Yes. Our first. He usually goes away with his family, but this year he was with me. What did I get? Nothing. I got excuses "(he) ordered it, its on its way", "(he) doesn't know why its taking so long". I showed how petty I was by even reminding him when it had been a month after valentines day.

Urggg...

There's so much I want to talk about, I might have to write this in two entries. I get a little sad writing this all. I pretend I don't care, but emotional neglect does actually take a huge toll on a person believe it or not. So I'm sad.

*Part 1 of 2*

♡ L

Saturday March 20