#it instead of just trying it for like 5 mins or smthn

[fraternum-momentum]

warm ups that took way longer than intended

[abimee]

Do you have a Ko-Fi or anything that people could donate to?

i do have one that hasnt been in use for a while, but i HIGHLY RECCOMEND if anybody donates anything to at least give me a prompt to draw in the emssage, a character or a ship or smthn to hastily doodle out because i DO NOT like taking donations without giving stuff back especially as this isnt like a dire emergency compared to the various gofundmes ive been reblogging, just me trying to get my rent situation paid back while i wait for my job hours to be fixed, which is why im trying to offer things like adoptable ocs and such instead of just asking directly for donations

youll probably get back like a quick 5-10 min doodle like this

[bwoahtastic]

Benjy feeling like a freak no 🥺 Lando explaining there’s nothing wrong with being an Omega but lil Benjy just feels like he can’t keep up with his siblings bc they want to do scary things!

Michael spending alot of time with Benjy because he’s the same calmer soul and they go to zoos and science museums and places Benjy thinks are really cool but his sisters find boring

But ofc if anyone ever said anything mean to Benjy his sisters would get them !!

pllss they would have to work hard to make Benjy feel more comfortable about himself! Max and Lando (and little Noah) trying to make Benjy more comfortable with being an Omega, making nests with him and just snuggling and vibing!

And then Michael takes the pup out on quiet little outings to the zoo or to museums were Ariana and Olivia would have declared to be bored within 5 min ksksf (Lando takes them to a zipline park or smthn instead).

But for sure Ariana and Olivia are supper protective of Benjy and will fight anyone trying to make fun of their little baby brother!!

[ellestudies]

school year 2020-2021 goals

get good grades (for full scholarships to schools in europe!)

have confidence (to pull off that aesthetic)

stand/sit straight

participate in class (even if you get something wrong, you’re showing initiative)

volunteer (get that good stuff for college applications)

stop getting anxious (worrying and stress don’t accomplish anything. staying calm will give you the same results but better)

read more (so you can be smart and well read for the dark academia aesthetic)

stay optimistic (negative thoughts won’t get you anywhere)

take care of yourself (do face masks, take baths, light a candle. self care is important for your mental health)

keep a good sleep schedule (no going to bed past midnight, MINIMUM 6 hours sleep)

don’t do things just because they’re “trendy” (you’re cooler if you do what you love)

stop caring about being awkward or cringy (these people will be gone and forgotten in a couple years anyway so why care about their opinion?)

talk to/email your teachers (for good college recommendations and help boosting a grade)

DO NOT PROCRASTINATE (just don’t)

spend less time on phone/tv, it’s a waste (read a book or draw something or learn a new language. let your free time be used wisely)

eat healthy (junk food is ok once and a while, but studies show that eating well is good for your mind and confidence as well as the obvious health benefits)

exercise

talk more (don’t be afraid of saying something because you’ll be ridiculed for it/no one will care. let yourself be heard and people will listen)

study to learn, not to get an A (of course you want that good grade, but if your mindset is just toward that, you’re wasting these years)

romanticize learning (something is boring or difficult? pretend you are in a beautiful library attempting to figure it out or smthn)

no excuses (no “i��m too tired” or “it’s too hard” just fucking do it)

stop blaming others (idgaf if your teacher is bad, your bad grade is on you)

pay attention in class (no doodling or daydreaming, just sit straight, take notes, and keep your attention on the teacher)

try new things (a sport looks daunting? do it anyway)

don’t gossip (yes it’s difficult, yes we struggle with it. but it’s pointless and stupid and we hate it when people gossip about us)

look nice for school (just putting your hair back or wearing that necklace will just make you feel better, trust me)

seek validation from within yourself (honestly, no one cares about you but yourself, so you need to dress up and be awesome for YOU and no one else)

stay environmentally concious (take colder/shorter showers, print double sided, reuse things, don’t buy clothes/books new. this is the world we live in so we should do our part to take care of it, even if it’s small)

keep up with the news (download a news app or subscribe to get emails, it’s important to be politically aware. take 5 min out of your day to read a quick summary on what’s happening)

find a new hobby or develop your current one

drink LOTS OF WATER (and tea)

enjoy life (don’t live every day in hope of a better future, live every day as if you’re already in an amazing present)

don’t dwell on the past (that shit is over, what are you going to do about it?)

boys? girls? relationships? forget them (it will come eventually, but seeking it out is just dumb. let stuff unfold naturally instead of being a stupid boy/girl crazy teenager)

delete apps that you compare yourself to people on (yes, i mean tiktok, snapchat, and instagram. how do you want to be an aesthetic queen if you’re busy staring at others living your dream life, you won’t have time to live in your own)

yolo (yes, it’s sounds dumb, but it’s true. this is your life and your time)

be nice to your parents (i know they’re annoying but the fact that they do so much for you is reason enough to do something simple like the dishes or laundry so they don’t have to)

appreciate what you have

say affirmations (yes, they work and no, they’re not stupid. do it when you’re getting ready in the morning or when you’re taking a shower)

there’s always time (if something is important, you will find time to do it)

be kind (even sarcastic jokes can hurt, if it’s not nice, don’t say it)

recognize the beauty that surrounds you (that forest you drive through on the way to school, the deer in the backyard, the beautiful sunrise/set)

be confident, not cocky (being sure in yourself does not mean being full of yourself, learn to find a balance)

^^^BALANCE (don’t prioritize school over mental health or the other way around, find a way to make both work)

time management (to do lists, planners, calendars. keep track of everything)

share with others (you’re feeling shitty? talk to someone. ft/text a friend instead of keeping it bottled up)

no comparing yourself to people (the girls in school are pretty? that doesn’t deplete your own beauty. someone got a better grade? that’s great for them, but that has nothing to do with you)

live the life you’ve always dreamed of

have 3 achievable goals a day (a whole laundry list can be too daunting)

write down a few positive things every day (ex. someone smiled at you, you got a good grade)

[abroad-france-blog]

1 month check-in

i’ve been away from home for a month already! it felt like so long in the moment, but honestly, time has passed so quickly, it’s hard to believe i only have 4 more months left.

homesickness/parents

there were a couple of times i missed being able to fully express myself and going out w friends after school/on weekends, but it hasn’t been too bad. when i was sick, i missed my bed too; i’ve also started to miss food from home (esp boba and poke) and being able to drive. 

i skype w my parents about every week for 15 mins or so, and i also text them occasionally. they keep up to date w the daily things via a google doc that functions as our “family journal”

i’m in contact w my friends a lot more, tho it works out bc while i’m at school (8-4 ish), they’re sleeping, so i’m not tempted to be on my phone all the time. it’s mostly snapchat and texting, tho i’ve called them a couple of times too.

host family

i’m still not completely comfortable w them, but honestly, i don’t think it’ll ever be completely like home/that’s part of my personality as well. 

i chat a lot w them before dinner/while we’re all just sitting around, so it’s super important not to just go up to your room when it seems like they’re not actually doing anything. 

it’s my host mom’s bday this weekend and i’m hk freaking out bc i was gonna bake her a cake secretly (i’m usually the only one home on friday afternoons), but she’s sick so she’s gonna stay home :/

language

while my grammar and accent are still p shit, i know so many more words now, and i can follow conversation a lot better as well. i used to avoid asking what words were bc i didn’t want to be a nuisance, but it’s so much easier to learn the language when you ask for help.

i have 2 weeks of vacances coming up so i’m gonna try and work on my grammar and accent so i can really start having better/actual conversations w people

school

in general, french high schoolers seem to have less hw than americans - tho they have a lot of pressure w le bac and how it determines whether they can go to college at all. it’s just less busy work i guess

sometimes i have a bit of hw, but it’s not more than 30 mins, and this was after a week or so. i’ve participated a few times in class/when i’m called on, but a lot of my participation is when teachers ask if smthn is like that in america/if that’s correct english (bc i’m in like 5 english classes)

the long days were absolute hell when i started, but it evens out w the 1.5 hr lunches, and 2 half days i have.

socially

i’m really starting to hit my stride and talk to more people/initiate conversations instead of always just answering (-: i was lucky and i haven’t been completely alone, but there have been times where everyone’s been having a convo and i’ve just been sitting there w no in whatsoever. still hoping to get invited to a party smtm tho