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if we could stay connected, just like this
#ok last orbit niigo post im emubrained again and also i miss leoneed#project sekai#pjsk#prsk#mizuki5 spoilers#proseka#mizuki akiyama#mizu5#nightcord at 25:00#hurray !#meltdown released an amazing translation of the event so i read it and had my final cathartic transgender cry about it#and now i have ~4 assignments due on friday so i have to stop drawing mizuki. sad.#i recommend everyone watch meltdown's translation#please. its very good and better than the mtls floating around#i Get why people wanted to see it translated asap like i Get it i didnt understand half of the wordplay or kanji but like . wah#its so crazy how this event breached containment n how many people are rooting for mizuki even tho they dont play the game so i just#think its a shame that the translation everyones reading isnt really accurate/lacks the nuances.. Ok sorrynits a good event.#ive just been thinking abiut that for a few days and i love talking in tags. Adios#real Orbit heads will know this is an Heartorbit reference (that tarot card sketch i did almost 2 years ago and said i would finish)#(i havent finished shit)
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you always land on all fours
#umineko#umineko spoilers#ikuko hachijo#ikukos turn for a more serious piece... the old man has reigned for too long#now. INCREDIBLY LONG INCOHERENT TAGS RANT INCOMING FAIR WARNING HAS BEEN GIVEN:#it makes me so so sad how little discussion there is about specifically ikuko because imho she fits so neatly into a lot of the more#overarching Big Themes of the game in a way that i have not ever really seen people take notice of or point out in a meaningful way#like even just off of the top of my head. the significance of names and what it means to go by a name that's Not Yours (she has like 4+)#what it Means to be a witch how it represents a person's deepest insecurities and flaws & how its at its core a coping mechanism#the fact that it takes two to create a universe and trying to do it on your own anyways has the capacity to bring you intense misery#^ (how she's shown to be extremely dismissive of her own work and skill until a collaborator comes into her life and helps/encourages her)#and even the family/patriarchy/misogyny stuff that is so prevalent in the rest of the game comes back around to her. even her Only Friend#(young&stupid atp to be fair) remarks that shes Weird for being unmarried + the little she does say about her past invites the question of#to what extent her self-image stems from her family deeming her a freak outcast & effectively disowning her while celebrating her brothers#and i have lot in my mind about the witch thing specifically because i think her particular situation is very reflective of what umineko's#entire magic system and fantasy facet as a whole is meant to represent for an individual. from what little we see of (what is presumably)#her Real personality she is shown to be deeply self conscious in a way that is JARRINGLY diametrically opposed to both 1.) what we see in#featherine and 2.) what we see when she is acting as a Public Figure. because both of the above are very much purposeful acts that she is#putting on in order to obfuscate her true self. and i have always been very resolute & adamant about not totally equating her to featherine#not only because im very firmly in the camp of “featherine is the avatar of the Pen Name & tohya is part of her too” but also very much b/c#i feel very strongly that the stark differences between the two are very centrally relevant to her character & her psyche. as is the case#with most other witches featherine's personality traits serve to reveal/magnify a lot of ikukos inner workings by playing on her#insecurities/reversing them e.g. ikuko being very quick to downplay her skill/achievements becomes featherine being the COMPLETE opposite#to the point where she barely registers even other witches as living beings rather than just fun touys. BUT even though i do champion the#ikuko/featherine separation so hard i ALSO think it is purposefully relevant that at first glance the line between them seems so blurry#her introduction implying a more nebulous separation between her reality/fantasy counterpart is i think is an intentional move on her part#like it is part of the front she is putting up when acting as the Author. as opposed to Ikuko the person who we (in a way ironically very#similar to the way that the Real Battler is presumably only shown during the boatscene) only very briefly get to see take up screentime#which even on a meta level lines up very well with her apparent underlying nature as a like. extremely private largely reserved/shy person#hit tag limit but if by some miracle anyone is still reading this thank you... please see ikuko with the love she deserves... ok ily byeee
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🎈🌟 wedding
#ouhhhh ruitsuka wedding i cannot get enough of u#exam next monday but idgaf I’m gonna draw more rutsu wedding#I was really sad and doing very badly but then I thought about and drew married ruikasa and I feel better#I’m not even joking 😭😭#need more wedding#I love them. gn#i wanna make a hc sheet for my fav charas bc i have my vision in my head of how i view them but it’s never noticeable in how i draw them#i need to make like a ref sheet#project sekai#ruikasa#tsukasa tenma#rui kamishiro#wonderlands x showtime#my art
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The thing about TMA is that if I think about Sasha James too much I will cry and if I think about Michael Shelley too much I will cry and if I think about Agnes Montegue too much I will cry and if I think about Jonathan Sims too much I will cry and if I think about Naomi Herne too much I will cry and if I think about Gerry Keay too much I will cry and if I think about Tim Stoker too much I will cry and if I think about Jane Prentiss too much I will cry and if I think about Martin Blackwood too much I will cry and—
#tma is a horror podcast and i absolutely love it on those merits#but i think where it really excels is as a tragedy#SO many characters - major and minor - have these unique and insanely fascinating individual tragic arcs#i could sit and think about any one of them for hours#it’s just such good and sad and interesting writing#it’s what makes me so completely unable to get this podcast out of my head even years after it’s ended#tma#the magnus archives#jonathan sims#sasha james#tim stoker#martin blackwood#naomi herne#jane prentiss#gerard keay#michael shelley#agnes montague
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tentatively working on a loose scribble animatic and i think. i planned too many frames. WHOOPSIESSS <33 here's some of the stuff that had to be cut for clarity!!
#isat#isat fanart#isat siffrin#isat loop#isat mirabelle#constellations#I DO NOT KNOW IF I WILL EVER FINISH THIS THING. PLANNED TOO MANY FRAMES! SAD#this is a really short song and i picked it!! because it's short!! but then for some weird reason my head nudged me and went hey. hey#don't you wanna make at least sixty frames? and i went SHITTT. I KINDA DO.#most of them are getting put out in the scrapyard because they're making the pacing REALLY weird. BUT I REMEMBER THEM. MY FALLEN COMRADES..#i don't make animatics i dunno why i keep grabbing projects VASTLY out of my skill range
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Yeonjun about the strain he felt while preparing for his debut solo project ✙ "GGUM" MAKING FILM
#yeonjun#choi yeonjun#tomorrow x together#txt#ggum: making film#gifs#creations#userzaynab#useryeonbins#skyehi#rosieblr#megtag#hibiebear#heyiri#ultkpopnetwork#kpopccc#kpopco#this are like the rawest emotions we've seen from him... I feel... it's really sad to watch him like this#i mean I know they're under lots of pressure and stress#It's only natural when you work with so many people who you could potentially disappoint#and I know it was his choice to make this solo project happen now but i feel like the company could manage his schedule better#because why he films till 3 am and then right next day has a flight to another country for a concert...#and now we know from soobin they're super busy again#I'm worried his body will just say 'enough' one day and something bad will happen :(#and you have him work so hard and stress and then all this losers online whose biggest achievement is getting 100 likes on a post#writing the worst things about him for no reason... its not that hard to be kind and you dont need to have an opinion about everything :D#at the end of the day that celebrity you hate so much is still pretty and successful#and you're just a friendless jobless empty-headed rotten fool with likes on a post that mean nothing once you close the ap#I'm just glad all this is still fun for him and that he has such a great support system: his members family staff who care about him and us#all we can really do is support them and send them lots of love fr ;; you've done well my jjunie ily ♥
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haunting the narrative -> haunted by the narrative -> haunting the narrative -> haunted by
#adventure time#fionna and cake#simon petrikov#betty grof#petrigrof#fan art#fanart#art#digital art#my art#just a lil something something i did for fun#adventure time has always been the show that makes me want to draw (i have SO many AT drawings from 2015 it's ridiculous)#but now I'm coming back to that ye olde passion with new digital art skills and many more evil tragic thoughts (thank you fionna and cake🙏)#i couldn't get the thought about them haunting and be haunted by the narrative out of my head so I had to make some art for it#the caption for this was almost: so who wears the haunted by the narrative in the relationship?#they take turns of course because damn these guys really do be having that tragic romance huh. hot potato cursed existence#never quite on the same wavelength. always out of reach. their love the very thing that dooms them to be apart. a love defined by absences#like two ships in the night passing each other by. except they keep trying to seek the other out. and so end up going in circles#the tragic dance of madness and sadness. lead on and i shall follow. ....so anyway...these two amiright?#/might/ have to write something at some point...maybe...#because like... ghosts are my thing. and these two...well. even when they aren't haunting the narrative they are still ghosts#never let themselves live in the present and okay I'm going to stop now. enjoy the art byeeeee#...AND they'll never be at peace because they'll always be reaching for a version of each other that no longer exists and—#(i am dragged kicking and screaming from the room before i can devolve into a full blown meta)
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when your teachers pull out this pose at school picture day
forcing myself to remember how to draw by doing a redraw of one of my favorite pictures

#mha#bnha#my hero academia#boko no hero academia#aizawa shouta#aizawa shota#aizawa shōta#yamada hizashi#hizashi yamada#shouta aizawa#my art#erasermic#eraserhead#present mic#eraser head#does his hero name have a space idfk#fanart#god i started this sketch the first week of january and have just been like lazy coloring it ever other week for 5 mins b4 i forgot abt it#ive forgotten how to draw and color its quite sad. you can really tell where i just gave up on certain parts of this#whatever! gotta practice and get back in the swing of it all
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what would I do without you. indeed illario.
lucanis trust me! indeed illario. the ea-nasir vibes on this shitty little rat of a man (somehow still slightly affectionate despite myself)
I am obsessed with WHERE this letter is found and what we're meant to read into those context clues. I don't have a handy save for this mission right now to double check the details, but from memory: It's the room across from what seems implied to be Caterina's room (Lucanis says these are the family quarters, so Illario has kept her locked in her own room all this time probably?? Oh oh house arrest, house arrest for grandmother for ten thousand years style)? We find the scraps of a letter from Zara to Illario, torn to pieces with one fragment still in the empty fireplace so presumably we're meant to assume he burned it, and this old letter from Illario to Lucanis lying neatly on a table. Whose room is this? Because here's a theory one could put together that has some real crazymaking potential for me specifically at least:
Considering that we're helpfully down to only three Dellamortes to account for, it's likely either Lucanis' or Illario's room. If I'm remembering right/let's for a moment assume that Caterina is being confined to her own rooms -- the fact that Lucanis is her favourite and also heir apparent I'd say tips the scales for me that it's likely she'd keep him closest, whenever he's home. Thus opening for the possibility that all this time Illario has been staying in the room of the cousin he murdered but as it turns out not hard enough that he didn't come back again like a haunting, reading his own old letters to him that Lucanis apparently kept all this time (!!! ow !!!), and sparing them from the spiteful fate he gave Zara's 'aww chin up you'll get 'em next time babe' one, right across the hall from where the grandmother he apparently can't bring himself to kill or seriously hurt even with everything else he's done is imprisoned and i n c r e d i b l y pissed off, if she gets out of there while he's sleeping or something he's fucked. Has he been sleeping in Lucanis' bed since kidnapping Caterina????? (did they ever share a bed, when they were children? for comfort if not ever out of real necessity?) is this some kind of incredibly fucked up way to try to be close to them both somehow even when he is the one who messed it all up to begin with? no matter what I have so many questions here what is WRONG with this family???????? (well I don't think we have time to get into all that right now that's a novel not a text post probably fhsdkj)
#between this letter and lucanis' comment in hossberg about the disaster boat trip he went on with illario#something said click in my head and I went 'oh. they really are like my uncles then. say no more. I understand perfectly.'#like on a soul level I get it. putting it into words is a bit different but giving it my first shot here fjdsk#obviously 'yeah he killed his brother but he IS probably kind of sad about it' is like. not really redeeming in any real way here lol#but y'know it's something at least!#I think it's left intentionally ambiguous what illario is really feeling beneath all his theatrics and (bad. pathetic.) power ploys#he's certainly willing to use anything to his own ends for all that it's worth once he gets his grubby little claws on it!#but...#if only for lucanis' sake I want there to be *something* that could at least be mistaken for redeemable in a weird slanted light#in this little shit. the leftover fondness I do have for him from the wigmaker job blinds me perhaps. love does that sometimes. clearly#'my *only* friend. before you'. sigh here we go again my heart shattering into a million billion pieces once more#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age: the veilguard spoilers#dragon age spoilers#illario dellamorte#lucanis dellamorte
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im the most normal person at the party
^ my reference picture to prove im not crazy. or to prove im extra crazy.
#everyone can have cute outfits. except pep who will not contact his moms for help buying clothes. i understand#adventure time#digital art#wizard city#adventure time fanart#distant lands#adventure time wizard city#im missing like. okay. i know exactly which wizards im missing and im actually sad about it#i almost forgot the beetle and shes my favorite. i forgot pot head even though shes ON my reference picture#and theres a bat girl on my reference pic too that didnt get in. cuz i forgor and then i had no room really. :(#and im sorry mustache and big chunk guy. i didnt include you then i felt bad actually. and crab head. and some others.#THESEA RE ALL TEH.BACKGROUND WIAZZRDS . FROM DISTANT LANDS. SORY. I WENT INSANE.#AND ILL GO INSANE AGAIN!
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wanted to try my hand at a fake screenshot thing with a scene from one of the bttf fics of all time, Time Is a Flat Circle by @fourth-dimensional-thinker! i set in to draw only the "little canary" line but. as you can tell. my hand slipped and fell down a 6 story building
if you haven't read it already please check it out PLEASEEE it's very good. i read the whole thing in basically one sitting. the vibes are perfect for the spooky season too!
versions without the filter/subtitles under the cut:
#bttf#back to the future#bttf fanart#marty mcfly#doc brown#emmett brown#dear fic author i hope this is not too terribly off from what you pictured in your head#and that you like it :D#listen guys when i say my hand slipped it slipped BIG TIME. like this was not even supposed to be shaded that just happened#as well as the 6 other frames but i digress#i fought tooth and nail for these colors it was crazy out there. still not exactly the ones i pictured in my head unfortunately but it stil#looks baller so i'm pretty happy :D#the Ys on his hand in the fic is on his palms but since they were facing away from the “camera” i put them on the back of his hands also#bc i just really wanted to draw them hahaha#the hardest bit to draw out of all of these was surprisingly doc's nose LMAO. i guarantee you it is not even the right shape. oh well!#second hardest was moving marty's arm in the second frame ever so slightly. layer hell i tell you#this isn't even the only drawing idea i had for this fic i have like two more#but best to get to some other fic scene ideas before coming back to this one!#the fake screenshot thing is really fun i'm going to do it again#super time consuming. but really fun#kit does an art#kit read a fic and is making it your problem#tumblr took the quality and shot it out back i'm so sad
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Sorry if this is a bad hour but I have a question. Is there any part of StP you think is genuinely bad?
No worries! I usually respond to asks when I have time/when I'm in the mood to talk anyways, so it's never a bad time to send an ask!
In general, I don't think I really feel comfortable with saying any parts of StP are genuinely bad, per se, because the game is just so expertly crafted and means so much to me personally that I'd be lying if I said I'm not biased to it. And also I'm no media expert, I'm not even that great at media analysis either, so I generally tend to be quite reserved with judgements; there is no way I could, in good conscience, say that any parts of StP are objectively bad or anything like that.
What I can share, though, are my personal dislikes about the game and its writing. There aren't a lot of them, and of course, the positives far, far outweigh the negatives (I wouldn't be here if they didn't), but I still have a couple of issues with the game, and I want to talk about one:
Happily Ever After lets the Long Quiet, or rather, you, the player, get away with too much.
Now for full context, Happily Ever After is one of my favorite chapters in the whole game. It is deeply personal to me, and I resonate with it on a very strong level; it emotionally devastated me, in the best way possible, when I played it for the first time (Paranoid variant), and this chapter holds a very special place in my heart.
...that being said, I dislike the fact that the game never acknowledges that it's your fault that everyone is miserable and stuck in the cabin. You made the decision to stay in the cabin, but the game never calls you out on that, never forcing you to acknowledge that you did this. It weakens the ending of the chapter for me, especially with the princess asking "Do you... still care about me?"... I know the game gives you a lot of options in that moment, a lot of which are written well, but the option to say "Of course I do" just feels so off and so hollow to me, and I can't seem to verbalize it quite well, but it really annoys me.
In general, the ending is very sweet, but in my opinion, it doesn't feel that earned, precisely because the game never acknowledges your fault and never lets you to truly apologize for it, to feel remorseful for it, to earn that moment of dancing under the stars. Though, I do very much like that scene from the princess's perspective, as I've rambled about in tags of this post, as this symbolic moment of her finally getting her wish fulfilled after being denied and denied and denied for so long.
I'm sure I'm not expressing my thoughts very clearly, and I apologize for that, I just feel quite passionate about HEA because it really did impact me so much, and so these personal dislikes about the chapter irk me because it feels like a missed potential to me, on an already such a great chapter. If it affected me this much and this deeply when, in my opinion, it has a pretty major flaw in its story... I can't help but imagine how much more powerful it would've been without said flaws.
Though like I said in the other post, even with those problems, I adore this chapter a lot. And this kind of extends to the whole game too, whatever issues I might have with the game, those all pale in comparison to just how many things the game did right, and just how much this game has impacted me, and just how much I love and adore this game, and just how much this game has changed my life. Thank you, Slay the Princess, thank you, Black Tabby Games, and thank you, Slay the Princess community, all for being so wonderful <3
#ask#slay the princess#eg chatting#stp happily ever after#god - even when talking about stuff i dislike - i can't help but love this game#though i will say - dishonorable mention to my least favorite things about StP is the removed Prisoner dialogue for Skeptic#i was going to talk about it in the original post - but it just didn't fit with how most of the post went - so it gets a mention in the tag#but oh my god - i am so sad over the fact that those lines are removed#there was no reason to make Skeptic dumber!!! you don't have to remove those lines to get people to see Cage!!!#make Hero the one who panics and wants to leave without Prisoner's head!!! and then have Skeptic spiral into doubt at the start of Cage!!!#it would've made sense like that!!! AHHHHH-#i can see why those lines were removed - but personally - i just really dislike that - and it feels like such a shame for his character#yes I'm biased because Skeptic is one of my favorites#i never said i'm not - this is why i'm talking about my personal opinions and dislikes - that's all this entire post is really#none of these are even close to objective truths or anything like that#anyways - those two things are probably the stuff that irks me the most about StP - but like i said - i love this game too much#and i can (and certainly do) overlook a lot of those issues - just because the game is so good and personal and means so much to me#but i digress
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Horsegirl Horseboy
#marianne von edmund#hilda valentine goneril#ferdinand von aegir#fe3h#its not really a ship post bc in my head this will lead nowhere dfjkghdfkgh#comphet marianne idk man#i am so sad i have to start over again bc I learned I can only get support up with ferdinand post timeskip so I gotta learn heavy armor#for the horse boy#i gifted you so many riding boots asshole!
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Every day of the week I've gone the yard to do stable jobs (rip me and my body lol) annnd every horse in the corridor just fuckin LOVES me. I can't walk more than a few steps without getting affectionately nudged, head bumped, nibbled, or having a heavy ass horse head just thump onto my shoulder so I can give em scritchies and kissies at the same time lmao
One of them gets jelly af of two others, one is super polite and gets bullied away by another bc he always tries to use the other neighs stable door for quicker attention from me, another LIVES to try and eat my hair (William NO) and another is scared of bags but loves me enough to be a Brave Brave Boy and let me give him pets and show him the bag isn't scary see! No no, sweetie, it's not gonna hurt you! Oh no, you can't eat it tho, it's bad for you, here, have some scritchies and nibble my fingers instead because you're so polite and just wanna be babied!
Just- horses, y'all
Horses
#Horse tumblr#Horses#Animals#Kat talks#I live for these babies that could murder me by accident bc they're tanks but are too cute to be angry at#If William could not keep tryna eat my hair tho#I'd appreciate it baby xD#There's another neigh neigh further down the block who nips at everyone#Bc she's very defensive and stressed#And gets stable frustration no matter what her owners try#And she is so visibly CONFUSED when I baby talk and am calm and tell her 'no no that's not nice' and do horse body language#And neigh at her and snortle and head nod etc#And she lets me stroke her and stuff just fine now but goes to fake nip when I try to leave#So like... Mucking out takes 10 times longer bc of the journey to and from the stable lmao#Bc I have like... 8 pitstops to make each time haha#She's a darling tho the nippy lady#I call her Nibbles#And I have to fend her off from my travel mug bc I drink mint green t3a#And she LIKES IT#And like NO SWEETIE YOU CAN'T HAVE MY MUG I NEED THAT NO NO NO NIBBLING IT PLS#Yes I have to disinfect it every day lmao#But she delights in being able to snuffle it at least lmao#Ngl I've been so stressed and unhappy that seeing these neigh neighs has been really important for my mental health#Like... Other than Bean herself I seldom smile or feel anything other than sad and tired except around animals#So like. William can eat my hair all day long#The block of neighs can make mucking out 10 times longer#Nibbles can be a nibbler#And I shall forever thank em for it#Horseblr
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I would also like to see some miphlink, if that's okay!

I was really struggling with what to draw, and then I remembered your ask from ages ago (dang ADHD brain...) anyway, sorry its such a late answer, but Miphlink inspired by Dicksee's La Belle Dame
#thank you so so much for the ask stars!! I had completely forgotten about it (I'm so so sorry!!) and it saved me from an artist-not-arting#you know the sort of pent up unpleasant feeling you get when you need to do something creative but its not happening and then its sad?#yeah I didn't get that because your ask suddenly popped into my head! so very happy about that :) thank you!#link is a horse girl and we need more of it in life#also to try and get the flowy fabric look that Dicksee's La Belle Dame has without putting Link in a dress I decided to modify Mipha's fins#and then added some of that gorgeous salmon colour from the original piece#also the reason the reason the champions tunic etc have that grey tinge to it is because the knight was wearing armour in the original piec#with a beautiful duckegg blue grey colour and I thought including that might be fun too!#anyway#the couple that is perfect for one another and should always be together for all time: Mipha and Link#mipha#link#botw#creativesplat draws#breath of the wild#miphlink#lipha#I really need to catch up on the miphlink tag... its so exciting to have so much wonderful art and writing to look through but I am a rathe#busy/ adhd forgetful bean so whenever I get round to reading or looking at art... there will be a long reblog/ queue of miphlink stuff!#eventually#at some point#because fashionably late (coughjustlatecough) is my middle name!#enough rambling sorry#I love drawing miphlink its like a comfort drawing thing#like her head is so squidgy and so easy to doodle so if ever my brain is bored or I want to draw and need happy hormones but can't find the#mipha is the answer because the squishy head is just sooooo good#the designers of mipha were amazing and I love them#epona#tloz#zelda
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🌸
#girls i know my period is coming when i start assuming nobody likes my writing anymore#or me/my personality lmao#please god grant me the ability to not care and not always compare myself to others.#do you ever feel like you work very hard and it doesn't really get seen#which like isn't even true in my case because I have such nice readers#but also it's sad to see some of them go away over time#and i wonder is it something i did or that i've gotten worse in some way#then i feel like i should just stop because it shouldn't feel so hard and so sad#not all the time just sometimes when I'm hormonal#my body is mean to me#and so is my brain#i'm scared about getting more in my head about it now that I have increasingly less time to work on my story#I had endless free time before but now I'm becoming a manager at work and it means I simply won't anymore#and i fear fading into obscurity and nobody noticing or missing me or my story/characters#time to talk to real people so i don't feel like shit lmaoooooooo i've had a whole weekend working on a cake topper for a client#that i don't want to make#and i'm tired
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